arcade I had him (and still do) he is rlly chill and is prob one of the best english teachers i’ve ever had. He is rlly engaging with the class. He is just a cool dude lol. I wont give away too much just for his own respective privacy reasons but yea (im a junior in the school he teaches at)
this album sounds like utter hopelessness. like the bad ending in a story, like you've lost everything. you've screwed up, irreparable damage has been done, and now an inescapable evil is presented to you and you have no way out. no way to stop it. you can do nothing but watch as it consumes everything and anything, and wait until its your turn to be eaten up into the manifestation of everything wrong in this world (and everything wrong with you). and you're sad, of course you're sad, but you are at peace with the cards you've been dealt. you embrace it and fade away.
Suzumiya Haruhi Well i was simply quoting the top box office movie of 2012, whereas you however have an anime name and profile pic which i think speaks for itself :/
I managed to get out of the trap of depression, and for a while I avoided this album because it was something I listened to a lot back then, I was worried that it would drag me back into that old outlook on life, when I was somebody who either didn't have much will to do much, or held a dangerous amount of self hatred and guilt that I would think about killing myself several times per day. But now I smile when I put this on. I think about all I've gotten myself through, I think about the love of life I have gained through days and days of working on myself and failing and staying alive. I remember last summer when I was in the worst of it. I was in a job that really stomped my soul out. I had a bottle of anti depressants and I just decided on a whim to fucking end it by swallowing them all. I just started laughing, I finally did it, I thought, it's over, no going back now. I walked to my father who was outside and said I was going for a walk, he later tells me that I had a look of peace in my eyes. I walked to a spot out of the way because I didn't want my brothers to find my body in the car (where I took the pills), and found a nice tree to lay under and watch the clouds go by. After a while the thought just shook me, I need to go to the hospital, I headed back and told my folks, who made me vomit and then I spent that day in the hospital. I remember after I did it, right after I sent a text to the people in my life, even friends I didn't talk to anymore. I was fine, the pills were chosen because they weren't that dangerous even if overdosed. They had suicidal people in mind I guess, funny thing. But that day made me realize that I had some good people in my life. I listened to Earthmover not long after that, and something about the honesty of it all, the overarching theme of the finality of death hit me, and as the last half of the song made me weep like I never had before, as if it was the one thing that could convey to me the gravity of what I tried to do. I haven't told this to anybody, most of those people I texted had no idea what happened, and likely never will. Remember this, as long as you are still alive, still breathing , you still have potential. You still can start again. Don't hate yourself for not doing it soon enough like I did, but focus on the fact that this is a little by little thing. Please, don't wallow, don't think that depression is good for you or that it is you, because that is part of the fucked up disease that is eating your mind. You can do it, it is not impossible, human beings are incredible creatures. It will be hard, because it was one of the hardest thing I ever did. I remember thinking, "That wasn't a real attempt, I should have washed those pills down with fucking bleach, that's what I deserve." So now I listen to this music and I smile, because I now know it was worth it to keep going. I know bad times are coming, and I know I will not be destroyed by them. This music has taken on a new meaning for me. I hope one day it does that for you, person who is reading this. You can. Fuck the thoughts that say you can't, because you can. I believe in you because I believe in the human spirit. Have a nice life :) and goodluck to all of you. Update 2023: I am making a video about my struggles with mental health and how I deal and some of the lessons I've learned since this comment was made, in the hopes that my experiences and insights on my mental illness help someone out there, like my story here seems to have. I have a script and I'll be telling it by a camp fire in the bush, just need to get footage. Dunno when this will get done but I want it to be conveyed accurately and be of decent quality its a long story and I'll likely make it multiple parts. To try to make a long story short I've gone through some hellish things since this comment. I didn't beat depression forever, I relapsed into a pit of despair in some months after this comment a few times and had a few psychotic breaks due to substances, over the years. After a long pyschward visit when I had gone missing from my job for 3 days I was properly diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 2. I was luckily put on effective medication which allows me to manage the extreme emotions much easier and I have since been putting my life back together. It hasn't been always easy and I've had some bumps and failures along the way. I'm sorry if this revelation spoils my words from 2020, but it's the truth. You don't overcome a mental illness in most cases, but you manage it and try to get the help necessary to help yourself live life your way. Progress in growth isn't linear. I was a bit naive to act like I beat depression I admit, But reading these words now reminded me of that old mindset that I had and have regained only recently after a long hard year, (2023 was fucked up for me man). And after some rises and falls I am on the rise again and preparing myself with a plan of action for my inevitable fall this time round. Life can throw some curveballs at you, it's all about what you do when it does, i learned this the hard way, like most things to be honest. Hope you guys are doing well. This will always be one of my favorite albums, I've created a mix of Earthmover and a Quick one for piano. I'll be posting that soon too. Stay alive and have a nice life. DR
Thank you for your words. I’m speechless and glad that you now can smile to these songs. I wish you the best and have a nice life too. You have a good soul
There's music that is sad and depressing... But this is on an entirely different level. This music epitomizes the feeling. I feel like this is the soundtrack to the process of dying, or something.
It literally Is as you are dying when you listen to it. You are dying because you are alive. Nice soundtrack to listen to while driving to the void again
First time I've heard the song i was driving down the highway, for the first time I've felt alive, then after the drop, everything went quiet for me. I was changed forever, I didn't die inside, I just felt like I've witnessed the end of life.
@@n0lain well i did NOT expect you to answer. that's great to hear though. i love this album a lot, so i can't go for long without hearing it again. well then random internet stranger, "have a nice life"
Luke Berrie i didn’t really enjoy a lot of this album the first time i listened to it (not sad enough then i guess haha) but over time it grew on me and i began noticing and appreciating the intricacies and details in the music after many listens, so i think it can go both ways
Reposting the track list for myself so I don't have to search through the comments for it. Thanks for spending the time to make this, David Sajdak. 00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" 07:52 "Bloodhail" 13:31 "The Big Gloom" 21:36 "Hunter" 31:25 "Telefony" 36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?" 41:24 "There Is No Food" 45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail" 51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000" 58:08 "The Future" 1:01:58 "Deep, Deep" 1:07:23 "I Don't Love" 1:13:40 "Earthmover"
@@ChrisD__ good point, but for me sewerslvt was what I used to play when I had to get up while I was having a big sad. This album is what I play when I can’t even get up
this album physically hurts to listen to. used to cry so hard while playing this in the late hours of the day. im doing better now, but its so weird to think a year ago today i was in one of the worst places of my life. happy to be here
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" 07:52 "Bloodhail" 13:31 "The Big Gloom" 21:36 "Hunter" 31:25 "Telefony" 36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?" 41:24 "There Is No Food" 45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail" 51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000" 58:08 "The Future" 61:58 "Deep, Deep" 67:23 "I Don't Love" 73:40 "Earthmover"
This album is a modern classic. It's one of those albums to play to our children when they ask what the 2000s were like. Too bad the CDs are unfindable.
40 bucks in Switzerland, I wanted the CD version but I ended up getting the vinyl instead. Getting the CD as soon as I can find it, it's one of those albums I could buy twice!
royercrafter Paid 67 dollars for the record + shipping to Belgium (which has become insanely expensive as you can see)... it was worth every penny though.
Jazz DB I didn't receive my vinyl in the end, they told me it was over and they gave me back my money. I think I'll have to import it from the US too...
I'm just now finding out about this, and it's beautiful. After everything I've been through, after watching my life and my family's lives fall apart, after burying my friends, my brother, and my girlfriend, after homelessness, after heroin...after the most bleak 6 years of existance, this resonates to me so goddamn profoundly. Maybe sonically. Maybe it's the ambiance; atmosphere. Maybe it's everything. But I'm laying here with my kitten and I just teared up. Hearing this made me...well, not happy, nor sad. I feel less empty. I feel relieved. Music tends to move me, and so does art. I feel hope listening to this. I've listened all the way through, and I'm replaying it to go to sleep. If this is Giles Corey, I would like to thank him. If not, I'll thank whoever this may be. Thankful and appreciative. And to the uploader and all of you in the comments, I appreciate you, too.
Bro jesus. Thought my life was rough. No one should have to go through all of that, sorry. Hang in there. If it means anything, the fact that you're still trucking after all of that is quite inspiring to me.
Hey guys. Thank you. Thank you so, so much. I appreciate you guys. I was gonna reply earlier but couldn't. I'm doing okay right now. I'm waiting for my job to reopen at the beach. Y'know, the covid thing. I know I'm a douche for not replying earlier but things are okay. I'm taking care of my mom right now. And if this all lifts up, I'll try to help my dad out, and then I'm set to reopen my little studio and make music of my own. I am healthy and lively, despite all this. And I just wanted to tell you guys that you're wonderful people. Even if you didn't comment, it's nice seeing nice people. Even if you partially care. I'm a little drunk. But you guys are super nice. So thank you.
I hitchhiked across my country for 3 months. Lost and depressed. This album (especially the first song) are going to stay forever in my mind because that was what i was listening to back then. Life is a huge void.
Lotan Except the gnawing feeling that said truth is a lie. I was such a devout believer. Well raised. Well taught. Until I kept thinking and thinking.. what if it's not real ..
@@hiddenknight7017 what if it is? You're just gonna give up potential salvation for doubt? Nothing bad can come of faith. Yea people might call you naive but who cares?
this remind me the golden age of Last Fm sooo much! me and my girlfriend moved for the first time in an other house to live together and Deathconsciousness was playing endlessly in our room 13 years later, quarantined with our 2 children, this album is playing with incredible freshness: in its dark heart, a warm candle fire is beating gently
I'm not depressed, I just really like the sound of this album. It's really soothing in some ways, like it reminds me of the bad times that I've gotten through myself. We've all been there at some point, but reflecting on it and even taking joy in it through music is something really powerful to me. Keep your head up if this isn't the case for you. Vibe with yourself, listen to great music, and try to weed out any toxic influences on your outlook, and then come here to reflect when it gets better...because in the long run, you'll make it out.
Man I’m commenting here in hopes of seeing this again and seeing myself get through those tough times I’m going through now. Hope you’re doing good as well, I’m always here if you need to reach out.
When you're really stoned and it feels like the first track is never going to end and then the second one just starts out of nowhere and the guitar rips through your skull
Everyone talks about how saddening this album is but its always been a relaxing one for me. Especially the first track. It reminds me of floating on a shoreline in the summer. I dunno. Maybe I'm weird
music will either ruin me, hype me, or chill me. listening to matt elliot and this album seem very melancholic and painful but i, too, just feel so comfortable with this music.
That's what makes this album so incredible. I can listen to this in my darkest moments and it really resonates, I can also listen when I'm content. It's such an emotional masterpiece and that's why it's so fantastic.
Track list with times in videos because I don't see it: A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut - 0:00 Bloodhail - 7:53 The Big Gloom - 13:33 Hunter - 21:39 Telefony - 31:24 Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun - 36:02 There is No Food - 41:21 Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail - 45:21 Holy Fucking Shit: 40000 - 51:38 The Future - 58:07 Deep, Deep - 1:01:57 I Don't Love - 1:07:23 Earthmover - 1:13:36
Disc One: "The Plow That Broke the Plains" 1. "A Quick One Before The Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" - 0:00 2. "Bloodhail" - 7:52 3. "The Big Gloom" - 13:33 4. "Hunter" - 21:38 5. "Telefony" - 31:27 6. "Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun?" - 36:08 7. "There Is No Food" - 41:26 Disc Two: "The Future" 1. "Waiting For Black Metal Records To Come In The Mail" - 45:23 2. "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000" - 51:42 3. "The Future" - 58:09 4. "Deep, Deep" - 1:02:00 5. "I Don't Love" - 1:07:25 6. "Earthmover" - 1:13:42
when i listen to this album i think of the architecture of colleges and museums. it feels like i'm walking through greco roman architecture in an empty world, with modern devices and contents strewn about everywhere, a world contrasting itself, a world with and without time, civilizations and worlds careening and molding into each other
I find this so interesting because I get a similar feeling and one would think this feeling would be achieved through a very high budget recording process but it was quite the opposite, it was cheaply produced in fact. Just a testament of their vision tho
if anyone is wondering the background picture is a painting named: ''The death of Marat" by Jacques-Louis David. created at 1793 (during French revolution)
Best doom metal, post punk, shoegaze, instrumental, drone, drone metal, Lo-fi indie, garage rock, gothic rock, ambient, industrial, post-industrial, Lo-fi / slacker rock album ever
I can't but hear Joy Division, Godspeed Black Emperor, and Swans influence in all of this. This album is a compilation of brilliance summing up what modern dark-wave truly should be.
+iamcarpetpython For Sure!! BTW I love Godspeed, just saw them in Philly the other night.. Behemoth was/is the shit and omfg i love that damn epic ass song
The reason for life is different for every person. It may require a lifetime of searching to find yours. Sometimes it is simply hiding in plain sight. Peace.
Because of the sheer stubborness not to die, cling to life and try to recognise the surrealness of a cat walking through your neighbourhood or birds flying around, they carry life, and life is strange, surreal, scary and an outlandish phenomenon
@@thefakewizard5830 I lost my interest in reading your comment the moment I realized it was a theist argument, sorry mate. Believe in what you want but don't claim it to contain any trace of logic or rational thought. The poetry of your words did capture me momentarily though, your writing is quite beautiful.
Check out Giles Corey self titled LP. Since you listen to this, I'm pretty sure you already know Giles Corey (which is the solo project of one of the members of this band) but in case you don't, well you're in for a treat.
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holy shit this is the most incredible album I think I've heard in some time. Jaw dropping start to finish. I can't believe these guys aren't more well known, the world's really missing a trick here
There are se artists I listen to that only get 4 digit plays and I usually wonder how there is 7 billion people and not even more than million people are atleast aware that that kind of music exists
@@gero3015 most people wouldn't know good if itfell from the sky landed in their lap and wiggled that said: music is very subjective, what one person loves another will loath just like life, its all bullshit anyway but its prolly best to stay off your own dick in either case
I found this album randomly by a Spotify recommendation of Bloodhail. I liked it, listened to the whole album day after. Listened to it again the day after that. Yes, I like this album quite a bit
Just clicked on this randomly. No idea what I'm in for! Edit 1: I'm about half way through the album. It feels very dreary and bleak. Full of depressed energy. Not that it's a bad thing. Life can be this way for many of us and music helps us to feel less alone. I'm gonna take a break from it for a few hours. Edit 2: I just finished the album. The second half had more variety, musically. This is definitely something I will return to at some point! Gotta love youtube's algorithm! 8/10
This album has such an incredibly dark energy that looms over it. That sound of impending doom, and then the way the instrumental in some parts attempts to lift you away from yourself. It sounds like the first time you discover that you're the soul stuff and not the body, the harrowing feeling that much of your life was hollow as a house of cards is devastating...but what's left of you is ultimate. Is eternal. Both terrifying and beautiful. Maybe I am delusional, though.
@@odirodi7683 waves are smaller but I'm still just not a good swimmer. In retrospect I wouldn't say "will never feel better" anymore. Thanks for asking, have a nice life!
honestly the comments in this video are supremely edgy, and seem so indicative of the level of cynicism and depression the people who are fans of HANL are. i obviously love this album too but when someone makes a nice, warm comment about this album bringing them meaning don't spoil it by calling them edgy or whatever. it hurts everyone, i know because i'm inclined to do that sort of stuff myself.
so, you point out not to call fans warm comments edgy but you start out calling the comment section edgy?? what in contradictions are you fucking on about
This album is helping me to write a letter for a friend who's been in jail for several months, and still has to stay for few more. I dunno why I'm sharing this but. Thanks 🖤
>people mocking other peoples interests cause they’re insecure about there’s the comment section Seriously why can’t we all just enjoy the music and share are thoughts about it why’s it gotta be like this
depression and this kind of musics are just satisfying.. dreampop, shoegaze, indie folk, post punk shit. always find an excuse to be depress ,make a real mess out of life n keep coming back to this. but why is it feels so good.
Tracklist for Deathconsciousness: Disc One: The Plow That Broke the Plains 1. A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticutt 2. Bloodhail 3. The Big Gloom 4. Hunter 5.Telephony 6. Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun 7. There Is No Food Disc Two: The Future 1. Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail 2. Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000 3. Deep, Deep 4. The Future 5. I Don't Love 6. Earthmover
Every day, I wake up and realize... I drive the same roads as these people. I get the privilege of seeing this music's home. I look to the left off State Route 9, seeing the sun rising from behind the Arrigoni Bridge, and I think to myself... Maybe the eternal worm can wait a while. I don't think Connecticut needs to go yet.
@@zack49 I don't fear embarassment for speaking my own truths. I love where I live, and am honored that local musicians have made something as incredible as they have.
i have never listened to an album that so accurately depicts the feeling of a depressive episode. everytime i listen to this i’m left speechless with how beautifully put together it is. i didn’t think it was possible to represent something so abstruse in the form of music.
Man when the end of black metal comes around and the sweet sounding holy shit comes around it makes me wanna fucking cry harder than I have ever cried in my life, then BOM BOM BOM BOM BOM BOM *hard bassline comes in* *sobs intensify*
Listened to this for the first time a couple weeks ago, and I had a really fucking weird dream afterwards. in the dream, i was with a girl who was supposed to be my soulmate, and we were hanging out at my old school for some reason and she went to go get something in the parking lot, but she was hit by a car and badly injured, right in front of my eyes. i went home feeling alone and confused, and the last thing i remember before waking up was getting the news of her death. the weirdest part was, the grief i felt was really intense, and i spent half an hour just sitting in my bed crying before i realized it wasn't real. so, hopefully this fukin album doesn't have like future prophesizing powers or something lol
Just listened to this Album for the first time , in all honestly I’m in pure awwe . Yes it’s a Dark and depressing album but when I listen to this it reminds me of how far I’ve come mentally. This album perfectly captures the rabbit hole I dug myself when I was in the worst state of mind. I wanted to die but then that would make me selfish knowing there’s people out there who don’t have a choice. I have the outmost respect to all artist who can captivate the feeling of dread and hopelessness. It’s definitely a slow burn and some parts are utterly boring but the atmosphere of the album keeps you intrigued (almost like you’ve heard it before) . Tracks like “The big gloom”, “I don’t love” and “Earthmover” are definitely my favorites.
Wow. What do I even say about this album? It's a hauntingly beautiful journey through the depths of human emotion. Every track resonates with a rawness and authenticity that's hard to come by these days. From the intense buildups to the melancholic lows, the album just grips you and doesn't let go. It's an experience that's transcendent and deeply personal at the same time. I've listened to countless albums in my lifetime, but few have left such a profound impact on me as this one. I once was at one of the lowest points of my life whenever first discovering this album, having little to no self-esteem. I had been dealing with relationship issues, feeling isolated, and had the constant feeling of being utterly ignored and overlooked. The weight of loneliness, past regrets, and self-doubt bore heavily on my shoulders, making each sunrise feel like a curse rather than a blessing. Every whisper of criticism, whether from others or my own mind, was a deafening roar, threatening to drown out any remnants of hope. But then I had heard about this album through a family member. Every note, every lyric, seemed to reverberate within the hollow chambers of my heart, filling the void with a resonating understanding. It wasn't just music; it was an emotional pilgrimage. While most songs I'd previously encountered were merely distractions from the pain, this album was different. It didn't shy away from the anguish; it embraced it, mirrored it, and in a cathartic way, helped me confront it. It was as if the artist wasn't just performing for an audience, but speaking directly to me, assuring me that I wasn't navigating the turbulent waters of despair alone. Months turned into years, and with the support of this album and some introspection, I gradually rebuilt myself. I found strength in vulnerability, learned the power of self-acceptance, and began to mend the broken fragments of my soul. Today, I stand stronger and wiser, still carrying the lessons and echoes of that difficult phase. Every time I replay this album, I'm reminded of where I've been, the journey I've undertaken, and the resilience of the human spirit. It's more than just music for me; it's a testament to the transformative power of art and the unbreakable bond between pain, growth, and hope. May this album serve as a beacon for others, just as it did for me. To anyone reading this, know that darkness is not eternal, and with time, hope, and perhaps a little music, you too can find your way back to the light.
[0:00 A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut] [7:52 Bloodhail] [13:36 The Big Gloom] [21:39 Hunter] [31:26 Telephony] [36:11 Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun] [41:26 There Is No Food] [45:24 Waiting For Black Metal REcords To Come In The Mail] [51:43 Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000] [58:09 The Future] [1:02:00 Deep Deep] [1:07:35 I Don't Love] [1:13:42 Earthmover]
LoL, I was waiting for a black metal album to come in the mail and I got it today at last! Now I am hooked on another album that has a song title that describes an activity I was doing... Synchronicity maaaaaan!
From a person who takes time out of there life to go deep into the internet and look for strange and mind alternating music that tools with brash emotion and raw feeling this is some of the best music I've ever heard this is truly great I love how yell this utilizes the property's of dissolution and distorted tones and distortion over all.the beat over powering the vocals is a great touch as well in all honesty this is a very touchy set of music coming from a hip hop/rock listener this is stunning so far I'm not even done yet I will update in the comments.
Even though this album is good its great it's typicality annoying sounds are stunning and mesmorising in a way with it's creative signature.i utterly enjoy the overused topic about depression but with a huge experimental/rock tones overall I give this album a 8/10.
This whole album is amazing and incredibly therapeutic but Earthmover is by far my favorite song. What a beautiful closer. Everytime I hear it all the efforts to repress my emotions melt away and for a blissful period I am in tune with myself.
+strangebrew420 I'll get back to you on that, first hand accounts read that the smack is not all NIN - Hurt/Downward Spiral vibes.. only the withdrawal is..
about a one and a half year ago when this album was on my mind for a very long time, I have hit a low with generally everything in life. deathconsciousness by have a nice life helped me to comfort and deal with my troubled self. I sometimes look back at that version in 2019 till now and while not everything is perfect, it doesn't need to be. I managed to get out with a lot of outside help, active changing of friends and family interaction and stand here proudly with an apprentice ship that starts next month. I come back here to remind myself that no feeling is ever final and that I can still reliably drown out to the sheer hopelessness in this album. It's a strange comfort even after my life has stabilized. thank you, and indeed - have a nice life.
[0:00 A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut] [7:52 Bloodhail] [13:36 The Big Gloom] [21:39 Hunter] [31:26 Telephony] [36:11 Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun] [41:26 There Is No Food] [45:24 Waiting For Black Metal REcords To Come In The Mail] [51:43 Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000] [58:09 Deep, Deep] [1:02:00 The Future] [1:07:35 I Don't Love] [1:13:42 Earthmover]
First time finally getting through this beast of a album, had this album bounce in and out of my life on recommendations for like 8 years and listened a dozen times but never finished, always stoped 25% because I just love the opening tracks, but now that I finished I felt like I discovered a new love for this album
Lost an entire group of people today, that I really loved and cared about. I've not been handling the night well. Spent a few hours playing Skyrim with a friend. now that I'm alone and everyone is offline I'm shoving my face full of pizza pockets, drinking hard cider, trying to numb the pain lest i break down, and listening to this album in full. it's one of those nights and i wish it wasn't. i really really wish it wasn't. i cared about them but they never fucking cared about me. it's snow-raining out right now. it's cold. 35F. i don't want to feel this way. i wish i could fully turn off my emotions. i mean i can but not when i need them to be off. i need to just fucking yell into the void in an old ass 11 year old comment section where nobody will see this or recognize me or my struggles more like putting it to the pages of a journal. i wish i was a person but I'm not, I'm just some machine and I'm happy that way and i hate this and i want to get drunk so the pain goes away but that's a slippery slope and i wont let a group of assholes who were arrogant enough to call themselves friends to me turn me into an alcoholic. but i know it takes much more than that. but I'm weak and I've gone through this too much and i wish it was over but when you've lived 14 years (I'm 19 now) like this, numb fucking horrible existence with nobody ever genuinely caring about you, you just. dont believeit ever gets better. and I'm tired of wishing on shooting stars. god fucking dammit. and i deserve every second of it.
I had the weirdest dream listening this before falling asleep. I was in a hearse that was driven by my late grandfather. Felt like there was a demon inside me, controlling my movements. It was horrible! I couldn't fall asleep afterwards.
Taken from The Books Of Terror And Longing, the Poetic Translations, Book 2, Part III, translated by William Shelley, All Stars Aground Books And at the very top, where he was alone, but not alone he pulled back his string and he tightened his bow and said nothing at all just breathed and held it, a moment, and then let everything go. no troubles no fears no people no forests no animals no earth no space no souls no nothing no anything and there were arrowheads arrowheads arrowheads everywhere.
this album is important to me in a level no other person could even understand. I've listened to this through the toughest times, where I'd had panic attacks, horrible weeks at my house, or weeks I didn't even got up from bed. all of that emotional gunk building up to a depressing life where I didn't even imagine it would go for more than 20 years, and yet, here I am, almost 20 years old, happier, almost married, just got my first job, rebuild everything that I thought it never could be anything. I don't wanna get into detail on what happend, just know that every song has a very strong meaning for me, and I related to the message on it very strongly during my entire teen years, and understand how I felt through this album made me work all of it and go to a better place. the album didn't save my life, no, but it sure as hell made me hang on there and work things for the better also less be real here, emotional trauma overcoming aside, c'mon, the songs fucking rock.
Glad I finally gave this album the time of day. It really resonates with the aching, inescapable, ceaseless void that churns inside me day and night. So it's great.
Does anybody know where I can buy this thing? I've been trawling the internet and I can't find it anywhere. I'm trying to give them money for God's sake, why do they not want my money?
Wow, you are not kidding. Their label, "Enemies List Home Recordings", raises more questions than answers. Neither Amazon.com nor amazon.co.uk have them (mp3, vinyl, CD, ...). Sucks ass...there is one moneygrabber on Ebay putting the thing out on vinyl (with some other stuff thrown in) for 150 clams: www.ebay.com/itm/Have-a-Nice-Life-Deathconsciousness-2xLP-w-book-Enemies-List-Mint-/151206322500?pt=Music_on_Vinyl&hash=item2334996144
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" 07:52 "Bloodhail" 13:31 "The Big Gloom" 21:36 "Hunter" 31:25 "Telefony" 36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?" 41:24 "There Is No Food" 45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail" 51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000" 58:08 "The Future" 61:58 "Deep, Deep" 67:23 "I Don't Love" 73:40 "Earthmover" +David Sajdak I post this again, it was at the very bottom
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" 07:52 "Bloodhail" 13:31 "The Big Gloom" 21:36 "Hunter" 31:25 "Telefony" 36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?" 41:24 "There Is No Food" 45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail" 51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000" 58:08 "The Future" 1:01:58 "Deep, Deep" 1:07:23 "I Don't Love" 1:13:40 "Earthmover"
I tried hanging myself to this album last may Take it from me, keep living. I barely managed to survive and I regret it with every ounce of my being to this day.
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Understandable have a nice life
Blessed comment
Life machine broke
thanks
Lemme get uhhh...
@@Lucas-dy5mt fuckinnnnnnnn...........
One of the guys in the band was my history teacher freshman year. no joke
Wow that's so cool. Which one?
That would explain the Jaun Paul Marat picture on the cover too
probably tim
woah fr? can you tell what he was like? was he a good teacher?
arcade I had him (and still do) he is rlly chill and is prob one of the best english teachers i’ve ever had. He is rlly engaging with the class. He is just a cool dude lol. I wont give away too much just for his own respective privacy reasons but yea (im a junior in the school he teaches at)
The album that unites fans of indie, shoegaze, folk, industrial, experimental, post punk, goth, ambient and drone.
and makes black metal fans hate it.
@@negateseverything nah im pretty sure a lot of black metal fans love this album especially on rym and 4chan and fantano fans
nope. they are all still waiting for shit in their fucking mail
And nu metal for real
@@skullsouljah2836 #AntiFantano
“Art should disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed”
Cesar A. Cruz
underrated.
That's brilliant
Not necessarily? Haha
Still a fun quote
"90% of all art quotes are pseudo deep bullshit that ponders to idiots" - some fat guy on the Internet
hey, if you're still listening to this album after Bloodhail
we've all been there, feel better man
gang weed rise up
thanks, I hope we all can
way she goes
I hope you have a nice life :)
she left me buddy
this album sounds like utter hopelessness. like the bad ending in a story, like you've lost everything. you've screwed up, irreparable damage has been done, and now an inescapable evil is presented to you and you have no way out. no way to stop it. you can do nothing but watch as it consumes everything and anything, and wait until its your turn to be eaten up into the manifestation of everything wrong in this world (and everything wrong with you). and you're sad, of course you're sad, but you are at peace with the cards you've been dealt. you embrace it and fade away.
mostly speaking about the vibe for the first track but the rest of the album carries the same tone
ru ok?
@@redempire5703 no
@@thereisnofood2008 What do you mean?
@@redempire5703 whats not clicking
Undeniably the best pop album of 1945.
I don't get it so it must be 4chan
+hello darkness my old friend or perhaps he's wondering why someone would shoot a man...before throwing him out of a plane
is it just me or are you people (you know where you're from) getting edgier by the second?
+Suzumiya Haruhi It's just a new meta
Suzumiya Haruhi
Well i was simply quoting the top box office movie of 2012, whereas you however have an anime name and profile pic which i think speaks for itself :/
when you're depressed the album actually is quite cheerful, when you're happy its depressing though.
Oh bo
This dude is depressed and not depressed at the same time
@Flicky lmao fr
Sometimes I
I just
I managed to get out of the trap of depression, and for a while I avoided this album because it was something I listened to a lot back then, I was worried that it would drag me back into that old outlook on life, when I was somebody who either didn't have much will to do much, or held a dangerous amount of self hatred and guilt that I would think about killing myself several times per day.
But now I smile when I put this on. I think about all I've gotten myself through, I think about the love of life I have gained through days and days of working on myself and failing and staying alive.
I remember last summer when I was in the worst of it. I was in a job that really stomped my soul out. I had a bottle of anti depressants and I just decided on a whim to fucking end it by swallowing them all. I just started laughing, I finally did it, I thought, it's over, no going back now. I walked to my father who was outside and said I was going for a walk, he later tells me that I had a look of peace in my eyes. I walked to a spot out of the way because I didn't want my brothers to find my body in the car (where I took the pills), and found a nice tree to lay under and watch the clouds go by. After a while the thought just shook me, I need to go to the hospital, I headed back and told my folks, who made me vomit and then I spent that day in the hospital. I remember after I did it, right after I sent a text to the people in my life, even friends I didn't talk to anymore.
I was fine, the pills were chosen because they weren't that dangerous even if overdosed. They had suicidal people in mind I guess, funny thing. But that day made me realize that I had some good people in my life.
I listened to Earthmover not long after that, and something about the honesty of it all, the overarching theme of the finality of death hit me, and as the last half of the song made me weep like I never had before, as if it was the one thing that could convey to me the gravity of what I tried to do.
I haven't told this to anybody, most of those people I texted had no idea what happened, and likely never will.
Remember this, as long as you are still alive, still breathing , you still have potential. You still can start again. Don't hate yourself for not doing it soon enough like I did, but focus on the fact that this is a little by little thing. Please, don't wallow, don't think that depression is good for you or that it is you, because that is part of the fucked up disease that is eating your mind. You can do it, it is not impossible, human beings are incredible creatures. It will be hard, because it was one of the hardest thing I ever did. I remember thinking, "That wasn't a real attempt, I should have washed those pills down with fucking bleach, that's what I deserve."
So now I listen to this music and I smile, because I now know it was worth it to keep going. I know bad times are coming, and I know I will not be destroyed by them. This music has taken on a new meaning for me. I hope one day it does that for you, person who is reading this.
You can. Fuck the thoughts that say you can't, because you can. I believe in you because I believe in the human spirit.
Have a nice life :) and goodluck to all of you.
Update 2023: I am making a video about my struggles with mental health and how I deal and some of the lessons I've learned since this comment was made, in the hopes that my experiences and insights on my mental illness help someone out there, like my story here seems to have.
I have a script and I'll be telling it by a camp fire in the bush, just need to get footage. Dunno when this will get done but I want it to be conveyed accurately and be of decent quality its a long story and I'll likely make it multiple parts.
To try to make a long story short I've gone through some hellish things since this comment. I didn't beat depression forever, I relapsed into a pit of despair in some months after this comment a few times and had a few psychotic breaks due to substances, over the years. After a long pyschward visit when I had gone missing from my job for 3 days I was properly diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 2. I was luckily put on effective medication which allows me to manage the extreme emotions much easier and I have since been putting my life back together. It hasn't been always easy and I've had some bumps and failures along the way.
I'm sorry if this revelation spoils my words from 2020, but it's the truth. You don't overcome a mental illness in most cases, but you manage it and try to get the help necessary to help yourself live life your way.
Progress in growth isn't linear. I was a bit naive to act like I beat depression I admit, But reading these words now reminded me of that old mindset that I had and have regained only recently after a long hard year, (2023 was fucked up for me man). And after some rises and falls I am on the rise again and preparing myself with a plan of action for my inevitable fall this time round.
Life can throw some curveballs at you, it's all about what you do when it does, i learned this the hard way, like most things to be honest.
Hope you guys are doing well. This will always be one of my favorite albums, I've created a mix of Earthmover and a Quick one for piano. I'll be posting that soon too.
Stay alive and have a nice life.
DR
i’m so happy you look back at this album and smile :) have a nice life
Gracias por compartir, una buena reflexión tenga usted una buena vida :)
Thank you for your words. I’m speechless and glad that you now can smile to these songs. I wish you the best and have a nice life too. You have a good soul
Thank you man, have a nice life :)
Thank you for this comment, have a nice life
There's music that is sad and depressing... But this is on an entirely different level. This music epitomizes the feeling. I feel like this is the soundtrack to the process of dying, or something.
EuriLochus it definitely is. I see it as a suicidal episode put into audiowaves
it’s so beautiful it makes me wanna cry
It literally Is as you are dying when you listen to it. You are dying because you are alive. Nice soundtrack to listen to while driving to the void again
especially earthmover
It's just music dawg, it's dope but that's it
"Have a nice life" Just what my ex said to me after we broke up. Now I'm listening to them. The irony
hhaha i got told this a month ago too.
My ex said the same thing. I wonder if it's a saying between alt girls after she said I got faded and played this album
Well. Seems to fit pretty well, not goona lie.
Agony
thats what I told my ex
I think we can all agree on one thing. The first time you heard the drop in Earthmover, it absolutely destroyed you
Yeah it was insane
It still does
First time I've heard the song i was driving down the highway, for the first time I've felt alive, then after the drop, everything went quiet for me. I was changed forever, I didn't die inside, I just felt like I've witnessed the end of life.
nah not really lol
@@nervous-breakthroughBro no way your that emotionless
My art history teacher has a print of _The Death of Marat_ on his wall, and every time I see it I can't help but think of this album, lol
i wonder how you're doing in life now
@@mahisxd5828 Meh, decent enough I suppose. Probably better mentally than when I was listening to this album more often, if I recall correctly.
@@n0lain well i did NOT expect you to answer. that's great to hear though. i love this album a lot, so i can't go for long without hearing it again. well then random internet stranger, "have a nice life"
@@mahisxd5828 Same to you :)
@@mahisxd5828 how are you doing in life right now
I’m sad that I’ll never get to experience listening to Earthmover for the first time again.
favourite track by far and such a good song to end on
That song could go on for another ten minutes without getting old
I get lost in Hunter every time
heheh i just did and shit this is good.
Luke Berrie i didn’t really enjoy a lot of this album the first time i listened to it (not sad enough then i guess haha) but over time it grew on me and i began noticing and appreciating the intricacies and details in the music after many listens, so i think it can go both ways
Im diving deep into a rabbithole of music and artists so different i truly can't keep up
That's exactly what I'm doing right now...
finding a way to keep up with and appreciate all of it, is for me the whole point of it all :D
I’m dyslexic I thought you wrote armpits and I was very confused
Same same
@@ergotoxicosis lmaooo
Reposting the track list for myself so I don't have to search through the comments for it. Thanks for spending the time to make this, David Sajdak.
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut"
07:52 "Bloodhail"
13:31 "The Big Gloom"
21:36 "Hunter"
31:25 "Telefony"
36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?"
41:24 "There Is No Food"
45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail"
51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000"
58:08 "The Future"
1:01:58 "Deep, Deep"
1:07:23 "I Don't Love"
1:13:40 "Earthmover"
thanks!
Thank you so much. The person who upload the video is the one that must write this down on the description
Bumping thread
bumping
Thanks man
This album feels like someone taking a cinder block that's been sitting on my chest and dropping it in the exact same spot but from 20 feet up.
No, that's a Sewerslvt album, or maybe one of those nu-metal albums. Those are rather intense and on nose.
@@ChrisD__ good point, but for me sewerslvt was what I used to play when I had to get up while I was having a big sad. This album is what I play when I can’t even get up
this album physically hurts to listen to. used to cry so hard while playing this in the late hours of the day. im doing better now, but its so weird to think a year ago today i was in one of the worst places of my life. happy to be here
glad you’re here with us. have a nice life
Glad you're here still
Thanks to this album i was able to made my mind in one of my lowest moments of my life, it truly hurts listenning to it
listen to trist, it's a band from Czech republic
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut"
07:52 "Bloodhail"
13:31 "The Big Gloom"
21:36 "Hunter"
31:25 "Telefony"
36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?"
41:24 "There Is No Food"
45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail"
51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000"
58:08 "The Future"
61:58 "Deep, Deep"
67:23 "I Don't Love"
73:40 "Earthmover"
+David Sajdak Doing Gods work son
+Jake Peterson
+IHateGooglePlus
+David Sajdak Thanks man! Guys, keep replying to this so it stays up in the comments section! :D
We all love you
+David Sajdak, thanks!
This album is a modern classic. It's one of those albums to play to our children when they ask what the 2000s were like. Too bad the CDs are unfindable.
this album is worth its price in vinyl... it got re-pressed again and its only 30 bucks with free shipping for the usa
40 bucks in Switzerland, I wanted the CD version but I ended up getting the vinyl instead. Getting the CD as soon as I can find it, it's one of those albums I could buy twice!
royercrafter Paid 67 dollars for the record + shipping to Belgium (which has become insanely expensive as you can see)... it was worth every penny though.
Jazz DB I didn't receive my vinyl in the end, they told me it was over and they gave me back my money. I think I'll have to import it from the US too...
bought the vinyl did not regret it!!! love the book it came with too
I'm just now finding out about this, and it's beautiful. After everything I've been through, after watching my life and my family's lives fall apart, after burying my friends, my brother, and my girlfriend, after homelessness, after heroin...after the most bleak 6 years of existance, this resonates to me so goddamn profoundly. Maybe sonically. Maybe it's the ambiance; atmosphere. Maybe it's everything. But I'm laying here with my kitten and I just teared up. Hearing this made me...well, not happy, nor sad. I feel less empty. I feel relieved. Music tends to move me, and so does art. I feel hope listening to this. I've listened all the way through, and I'm replaying it to go to sleep. If this is Giles Corey, I would like to thank him. If not, I'll thank whoever this may be.
Thankful and appreciative. And to the uploader and all of you in the comments, I appreciate you, too.
Bro jesus. Thought my life was rough. No one should have to go through all of that, sorry. Hang in there. If it means anything, the fact that you're still trucking after all of that is quite inspiring to me.
Hey how are u doing now?
i hope youre still doing okay my friend
Hey guys. Thank you. Thank you so, so much. I appreciate you guys. I was gonna reply earlier but couldn't. I'm doing okay right now. I'm waiting for my job to reopen at the beach. Y'know, the covid thing. I know I'm a douche for not replying earlier but things are okay. I'm taking care of my mom right now. And if this all lifts up, I'll try to help my dad out, and then I'm set to reopen my little studio and make music of my own. I am healthy and lively, despite all this. And I just wanted to tell you guys that you're wonderful people. Even if you didn't comment, it's nice seeing nice people. Even if you partially care. I'm a little drunk. But you guys are super nice. So thank you.
@@kolbykauffman4180 im very glad to hear it man!! good on you, love from jacksonville💚💚
I hitchhiked across my country for 3 months. Lost and depressed. This album (especially the first song) are going to stay forever in my mind because that was what i was listening to back then.
Life is a huge void.
It definitely feels like a void. I hope you're still keeping up the good fight.
Its also a huge fill.
Find God, the eternal truth, the salvation. With truth, nothing can be void.
Lotan Except the gnawing feeling that said truth is a lie. I was such a devout believer. Well raised. Well taught. Until I kept thinking and thinking.. what if it's not real ..
@@hiddenknight7017 what if it is? You're just gonna give up potential salvation for doubt? Nothing bad can come of faith. Yea people might call you naive but who cares?
JESUS CHRIST, WHY IS LOVE SO LONELY?
TELL ME WHAT AM I GON DO WITH ALL THIS MONEY
^ i just got a payout so this resonates even more
This line is just so iconic
this remind me the golden age of Last Fm sooo much!
me and my girlfriend moved for the first time in an other house to live together and Deathconsciousness was playing endlessly in our room
13 years later, quarantined with our 2 children, this album is playing with incredible freshness: in its dark heart, a warm candle fire is beating gently
thats so cute
That's beautiful, man
absolutely gorgeous,
Dude this is a happy ending!
Me and who
I'm not depressed, I just really like the sound of this album. It's really soothing in some ways, like it reminds me of the bad times that I've gotten through myself. We've all been there at some point, but reflecting on it and even taking joy in it through music is something really powerful to me. Keep your head up if this isn't the case for you. Vibe with yourself, listen to great music, and try to weed out any toxic influences on your outlook, and then come here to reflect when it gets better...because in the long run, you'll make it out.
thank you for this comment
"i'm not depressed" is a sentence only spoken by the depressed. i hope you're doing well fam.
if ur depressed ur not alone either and it'll get better
Man I’m commenting here in hopes of seeing this again and seeing myself get through those tough times I’m going through now. Hope you’re doing good as well, I’m always here if you need to reach out.
John Taylor Gatto has a hopeful message...
When you're really stoned and it feels like the first track is never going to end and then the second one just starts out of nowhere and the guitar rips through your skull
when you're stoned, and you forget everything that's ever happened in your life, and even who you are, when you are lost in musical sound energy.
Thats 25i, wrong drug my friend.
when you're really stoned and you need to go on youtube to tell everyone.
Good times
then you don't know this album, those voice samples means the song it's getting closer to an end
man i ain't even depressed or anything i just think this album goes hard
it does
Was lifting weights to this record, it was unreal
Same, it do go hard
@@shapirodeadking5012 listening to miserable music in the gym is a different kind of feeling
@@ibrahimshamsi4845 yup yup brother, god bless you
I can't play this at a party.
says who?
I was being facetious, please leave me alone
You could, if it were a heroin party!
Can confirm.
Imagining a heroin party.. Ahaha
The climax of Earthmover is unbelievable. The first time I heard it I just sank through the floor.
Klf spotted
Everyone talks about how saddening this album is but its always been a relaxing one for me. Especially the first track. It reminds me of floating on a shoreline in the summer. I dunno. Maybe I'm weird
i feel like music amplifies my emotion, i feel like this music is both at different points in time.
music will either ruin me, hype me, or chill me. listening to matt elliot and this album seem very melancholic and painful but i, too, just feel so comfortable with this music.
Means you got filtered
That's what makes this album so incredible. I can listen to this in my darkest moments and it really resonates, I can also listen when I'm content. It's such an emotional masterpiece and that's why it's so fantastic.
Music has a different effect on everyone
Track list with times in videos because I don't see it:
A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut - 0:00
Bloodhail - 7:53
The Big Gloom - 13:33
Hunter - 21:39
Telefony - 31:24
Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun - 36:02
There is No Food - 41:21
Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail - 45:21
Holy Fucking Shit: 40000 - 51:38
The Future - 58:07
Deep, Deep - 1:01:57
I Don't Love - 1:07:23
Earthmover - 1:13:36
Hugh Jass thank you for being that dude
Hugh Jass where are these guys from I've only just found this 2night I already want it in my collection
Daniel Fish they are from Connecticut
please change bloodhail to 7:52 for the sake of making everything completely perfect
thankk u god bless
Disc One: "The Plow That Broke the Plains"
1. "A Quick One Before The Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" - 0:00
2. "Bloodhail" - 7:52
3. "The Big Gloom" - 13:33
4. "Hunter" - 21:38
5. "Telefony" - 31:27
6. "Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun?" - 36:08
7. "There Is No Food" - 41:26
Disc Two: "The Future"
1. "Waiting For Black Metal Records To Come In The Mail" - 45:23
2. "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000" - 51:42
3. "The Future" - 58:09
4. "Deep, Deep" - 1:02:00
5. "I Don't Love" - 1:07:25
6. "Earthmover" - 1:13:42
Thx
when i listen to this album i think of the architecture of colleges and museums. it feels like i'm walking through greco roman architecture in an empty world, with modern devices and contents strewn about everywhere, a world contrasting itself, a world with and without time, civilizations and worlds careening and molding into each other
I find this so interesting because I get a similar feeling and one would think this feeling would be achieved through a very high budget recording process but it was quite the opposite, it was cheaply produced in fact. Just a testament of their vision tho
Sounds like Joy Division played at a tenth of the speed, should have checked this out earlier, this is fucking awesome.
Lord Tylenol Hmm. I'm actually digging this album a lot more sped up. Thanks for the observation, bro.
@@conanwalder8856 Pfp checks out
what's neat is that they apparently had a little problem before this was released and lost the WAVs of the album, the masters are mp3s
My masters are a really nice couple of white folks
Nothing like the final touch of digital compression
Explains the jumpy volume
Its a shame. I just watched discogs and the prices are so fucked up
Worked in their favor
Bloodhail never gets old. It may be overrated, but I can't stop listening. The rest of album is good too.
I also love holy fucking shit 40000
Overrated?
No such thing as an overrated HANL song fam
No HANL song is overrated, each piece has its essence and makes them magnificent.
Overrated? Nah, that song deserve his popularity
This is so good. I wanna fall in love with someone who I can sit with, drink with, listen to music like this.
Same
Love doesn’t exist.
I have fallen in love with such a person.
Still though, Jon Jon's right.
thats such a virgin thing to say bro
if anyone is wondering the background picture is a painting named: ''The death of Marat" by Jacques-Louis David.
created at 1793 (during French revolution)
the dude in the bathtub had a chronic skin condition. he was assasinated
Best doom metal, post punk, shoegaze, instrumental, drone, drone metal, Lo-fi indie, garage rock, gothic rock, ambient, industrial, post-industrial, Lo-fi / slacker rock album ever
reverby post punk
Post industrial doomgaze
loveless better imo
I can't but hear Joy Division, Godspeed Black Emperor, and Swans influence in all of this. This album is a compilation of brilliance summing up what modern dark-wave truly should be.
iamcarpetpython i love jd and godspeed, def hear swans influence
Jennifer Pierro Eh I would say it sounds more like Giras solo carrer or Angels of Light
+iamcarpetpython For Sure!! BTW I love Godspeed, just saw them in Philly the other night.. Behemoth was/is the shit and omfg i love that damn epic ass song
iamcarpetpython BOI STAHP
Also The Cure and Twilight Sad
"He who has a why to live, can bare almost any how" - Nietzsche. Where is the why?
The reason for life is different for every person. It may require a lifetime of searching to find yours. Sometimes it is simply hiding in plain sight. Peace.
Because of the sheer stubborness not to die, cling to life and try to recognise the surrealness of a cat walking through your neighbourhood or birds flying around, they carry life, and life is strange, surreal, scary and an outlandish phenomenon
we create meaning mainly by being vulnerable and caring about others. Meaning is just a feeling.. not that I do any of these things but yeah
@@thefakewizard5830 I lost my interest in reading your comment the moment I realized it was a theist argument, sorry mate. Believe in what you want but don't claim it to contain any trace of logic or rational thought.
The poetry of your words did capture me momentarily though, your writing is quite beautiful.
@@asukalangleysoryu6695 Why is anything? Theism really provides the only answer.
I don't think anyone will ever create another album that encapsulates depression as accurately as Deathconsciousness does.
It was based of a B.C. Antiochus historical type shit 😂😂😂😂
Check out Giles Corey self titled LP. Since you listen to this, I'm pretty sure you already know Giles Corey (which is the solo project of one of the members of this band) but in case you don't, well you're in for a treat.
@@karlbenedictperez8655 actually a huge fan of Giles Corey
xiu xiu's a promise hits harder than dc imo. soundwise, the album is cacophonous but those lyrics are fucked all the way up.
@@felins2294 i love a promise aswell, really great album
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holy shit this is the most incredible album I think I've heard in some time. Jaw dropping start to finish. I can't believe these guys aren't more well known, the world's really missing a trick here
There are se artists I listen to that only get 4 digit plays and I usually wonder how there is 7 billion people and not even more than million people are atleast aware that that kind of music exists
@@gero3015 most people wouldn't know good if itfell from the sky landed in their lap and wiggled
that said: music is very subjective, what one person loves another will loath
just like life, its all bullshit anyway
but its prolly best to stay off your own dick in either case
The disconnect of your body trying to end the pain but your mind isn’t ready is one of the scariest things
I found this album randomly by a Spotify recommendation of Bloodhail. I liked it, listened to the whole album day after. Listened to it again the day after that. Yes, I like this album quite a bit
same-ish i got recommended the entire album by spotify.
for me it was "holy fucking shit 40000", loved the song and the entire album, a fucking masterpiece
I have clinical depression and this album is helping me keep my thoughts under control.
Just clicked on this randomly. No idea what I'm in for!
Edit 1: I'm about half way through the album. It feels very dreary and bleak. Full of depressed energy. Not that it's a bad thing. Life can be this way for many of us and music helps us to feel less alone. I'm gonna take a break from it for a few hours.
Edit 2: I just finished the album. The second half had more variety, musically. This is definitely something I will return to at some point! Gotta love youtube's algorithm!
8/10
Nice Yelp review pussy
i got this randomly through a spotify reconmendation.
deathconsciousness
Deathconciousness
😂😂😂😂
deathconsciousness
unconsciousness
gen z will end up here in their adolescence. waiting on them
post mortem edit: you guys are great.
i was born in 2002, i finally came
@@iameternalsunshine and so it starts
@@ItalianPolaroid and so it does
@@iameternalsunshine me too
born in 2005, here i am
holy fucking shit: 40.000 crushes me everytime i listen to it. It marks the point in the album where theres no going back if you know what i mean
Yeah man, there’s not many songs like hfs40k. That acoustic at the end is beyond a religious experience
There is no other music ever made that make me feel alive, dead, awake, and asleep all at the same time. 10/10
L pfp
@@abcnews388 L for “Look who’s talking.”
@@enbygaming5996 what in the actual freak are you on about? I think getting dicked down by so many toys has giving you sever brain worms 😴 🛌 💤
@@enbygaming5996 that would be LWT
@@rotunda_ 'L' for "look around and find who the fuck asked you"
This album has such an incredibly dark energy that looms over it. That sound of impending doom, and then the way the instrumental in some parts attempts to lift you away from yourself. It sounds like the first time you discover that you're the soul stuff and not the body, the harrowing feeling that much of your life was hollow as a house of cards is devastating...but what's left of you is ultimate. Is eternal. Both terrifying and beautiful. Maybe I am delusional, though.
I will never feel better and I will keep coming back to this on days like this.
Here we are after 7 years how has your life been?
@@odirodi7683 waves are smaller but I'm still just not a good swimmer. In retrospect I wouldn't say "will never feel better" anymore. Thanks for asking, have a nice life!
@@anarchohippie3000I see watcha did there
honestly the comments in this video are supremely edgy, and seem so indicative of the level of cynicism and depression the people who are fans of HANL are. i obviously love this album too but when someone makes a nice, warm comment about this album bringing them meaning don't spoil it by calling them edgy or whatever. it hurts everyone, i know because i'm inclined to do that sort of stuff myself.
Jep Hep This should be the top comment.
Every single top comment here are people complaining about these supposed "edgy" comments. Get over yourselves.
hmmm today i kill le self
can someone unpack "edgy" i have no idea what people are talking about thnks!
so, you point out not to call fans warm comments edgy but you start out calling the comment section edgy?? what in contradictions are you fucking on about
This album is helping me to write a letter for a friend who's been in jail for several months, and still has to stay for few more.
I dunno why I'm sharing this but.
Thanks 🖤
I always come back to this album when I want to relive the glory days of dubstep. Thank you skrillex for creating this dark masterpiece
Lmaoo 💀
Earthmover is likely the most fitting ending song i've ever listened to in my whole life
this album is a absolute piece of art
>people mocking other peoples interests cause they’re insecure about there’s the comment section
Seriously why can’t we all just enjoy the music and share are thoughts about it why’s it gotta be like this
depression and this kind of musics are just satisfying.. dreampop, shoegaze, indie folk, post punk shit. always find an excuse to be depress ,make a real mess out of life n keep coming back to this. but why is it feels so good.
this, grouper, and xiu xiu were essentials when i was suicidal
@@jackpivarnik1278 nice to see someone that appreciates grouper as well:)
Tracklist for Deathconsciousness:
Disc One: The Plow That Broke the Plains
1. A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticutt
2. Bloodhail
3. The Big Gloom
4. Hunter
5.Telephony
6. Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun
7. There Is No Food
Disc Two: The Future
1. Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail
2. Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000
3. Deep, Deep
4. The Future
5. I Don't Love
6. Earthmover
Every day, I wake up and realize... I drive the same roads as these people. I get the privilege of seeing this music's home.
I look to the left off State Route 9, seeing the sun rising from behind the Arrigoni Bridge, and I think to myself...
Maybe the eternal worm can wait a while. I don't think Connecticut needs to go yet.
What an embarrassing thing to say.
@@zack49 I don't fear embarassment for speaking my own truths. I love where I live, and am honored that local musicians have made something as incredible as they have.
@@TokuMGTTYou want to declare how honored you would be to lick their shoes next?
It's kind of a shame the historical essay that comes with the album is all made up, it's a fascinating read
Tom Servo yeah agreed. i've asked dan and enemies list where it all came from before, haven't gotten much of a response yet.
+Tom Servo Know where I can find it?
try soulseek, i know there's a pdf on there
yooooooo for real? this dude never existed?
well it's kinda real now
These guys really know how to end a song damn.
if anyone is curious about the image used in the video, it's called "The Death of Marat" and it was painted by Jacques-Louis David in 1793
i've been listening to this for about 3 weeks straight and hearing the opening of bloodhail still gives me chills
it's unbelievable
I see more people complaining about armchair philosophers than actual armchair philosophers
i cant find any at all
Also what’s wrong with a little airm chair philosophy every now and then, among friends?
Is there such a thing as a non-armchair philosopher?
maybe we were the armchair philosophers all along
@@disjointedhoudini maybe it was the friends we made along the way
i have never listened to an album that so accurately depicts the feeling of a depressive episode. everytime i listen to this i’m left speechless with how beautifully put together it is. i didn’t think it was possible to represent something so abstruse in the form of music.
People just typing out their thoughts > people criticizing them for thinking deeply for once in their fucking lives
The people typing their thoughts are pseuds lmfao
@@jm0489 typing out ur thoughts doesnt make u a pseud
Makes me want to sleep in the woods in a foggy cold night.
Please, please, please release me.
more like please release this album worldwide on all physical formats including 8track and a box of 10 microcassettes
Makes me want to sleep underground, in a casket, forever.
Done this two days ago, and i was stoned. An advice: Don't. Unless you're in a good mental state with people you trust.
Meh, if I do that in my country I would probably get kidnapped
Man when the end of black metal comes around and the sweet sounding holy shit comes around it makes me wanna fucking cry harder than I have ever cried in my life, then BOM BOM BOM BOM BOM BOM *hard bassline comes in* *sobs intensify*
If you enjoy these sounds, I love you.
Logan Mohler than love me right now😂
i've enjoyed these sounds for about 4 years now are we getting married soon?
love you too, logan
Love ya too buddy.
love ya hahaha
Listened to this for the first time a couple weeks ago, and I had a really fucking weird dream afterwards. in the dream, i was with a girl who was supposed to be my soulmate, and we were hanging out at my old school for some reason and she went to go get something in the parking lot, but she was hit by a car and badly injured, right in front of my eyes. i went home feeling alone and confused, and the last thing i remember before waking up was getting the news of her death. the weirdest part was, the grief i felt was really intense, and i spent half an hour just sitting in my bed crying before i realized it wasn't real. so, hopefully this fukin album doesn't have like future prophesizing powers or something lol
damn
Bro did it happen yet?
@@Ixe2077 not yet, but i will always be paranoid
As someone who deals with chronic health issues on a daily basis, this album means everything to me
Just listened to this Album for the first time , in all honestly I’m in pure awwe . Yes it’s a Dark and depressing album but when I listen to this it reminds me of how far I’ve come mentally. This album perfectly captures the rabbit hole I dug myself when I was in the worst state of mind. I wanted to die but then that would make me selfish knowing there’s people out there who don’t have a choice. I have the outmost respect to all artist who can captivate the feeling of dread and hopelessness. It’s definitely a slow burn and some parts are utterly boring but the atmosphere of the album keeps you intrigued (almost like you’ve heard it before) . Tracks like “The big gloom”, “I don’t love” and “Earthmover” are definitely my favorites.
Wow. What do I even say about this album?
It's a hauntingly beautiful journey through the depths of human emotion. Every track resonates with a rawness and authenticity that's hard to come by these days. From the intense buildups to the melancholic lows, the album just grips you and doesn't let go. It's an experience that's transcendent and deeply personal at the same time. I've listened to countless albums in my lifetime, but few have left such a profound impact on me as this one.
I once was at one of the lowest points of my life whenever first discovering this album, having little to no self-esteem. I had been dealing with relationship issues, feeling isolated, and had the constant feeling of being utterly ignored and overlooked. The weight of loneliness, past regrets, and self-doubt bore heavily on my shoulders, making each sunrise feel like a curse rather than a blessing. Every whisper of criticism, whether from others or my own mind, was a deafening roar, threatening to drown out any remnants of hope.
But then I had heard about this album through a family member. Every note, every lyric, seemed to reverberate within the hollow chambers of my heart, filling the void with a resonating understanding. It wasn't just music; it was an emotional pilgrimage. While most songs I'd previously encountered were merely distractions from the pain, this album was different. It didn't shy away from the anguish; it embraced it, mirrored it, and in a cathartic way, helped me confront it. It was as if the artist wasn't just performing for an audience, but speaking directly to me, assuring me that I wasn't navigating the turbulent waters of despair alone.
Months turned into years, and with the support of this album and some introspection, I gradually rebuilt myself. I found strength in vulnerability, learned the power of self-acceptance, and began to mend the broken fragments of my soul. Today, I stand stronger and wiser, still carrying the lessons and echoes of that difficult phase. Every time I replay this album, I'm reminded of where I've been, the journey I've undertaken, and the resilience of the human spirit. It's more than just music for me; it's a testament to the transformative power of art and the unbreakable bond between pain, growth, and hope.
May this album serve as a beacon for others, just as it did for me. To anyone reading this, know that darkness is not eternal, and with time, hope, and perhaps a little music, you too can find your way back to the light.
People who play the saddest of songs when someone hands over the AUX cable at a party to them, will listen to this album and love it.
[0:00 A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut] [7:52 Bloodhail] [13:36 The Big Gloom] [21:39 Hunter] [31:26 Telephony] [36:11 Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun] [41:26 There Is No Food] [45:24 Waiting For Black Metal REcords To Come In The Mail] [51:43 Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000] [58:09 The Future] [1:02:00 Deep Deep] [1:07:35 I Don't Love] [1:13:42 Earthmover]
You got Deep, Deep and The Future mixed up.
Mafujalate329 no he didn't
Johnathan Fair I fixed it. I actually just copy and pasted this playlist from a post buried at the bottom of the comment section.
LoL, I was waiting for a black metal album to come in the mail and I got it today at last! Now I am hooked on another album that has a song title that describes an activity I was doing... Synchronicity maaaaaan!
I keep coming back to this album. It's so intense and heavy.
From a person who takes time out of there life to go deep into the internet and look for strange and mind alternating music that tools with brash emotion and raw feeling this is some of the best music I've ever heard this is truly great I love how yell this utilizes the property's of dissolution and distorted tones and distortion over all.the beat over powering the vocals is a great touch as well in all honesty this is a very touchy set of music coming from a hip hop/rock listener this is stunning so far I'm not even done yet I will update in the comments.
Even though this album is good its great it's typicality annoying sounds are stunning and mesmorising in a way with it's creative signature.i utterly enjoy the overused topic about depression but with a huge experimental/rock tones overall I give this album a 8/10.
@@livevlonedievlone1244 you have a nft pfp your opinion is irrelevant
This whole album is amazing and incredibly therapeutic but Earthmover is by far my favorite song. What a beautiful closer. Everytime I hear it all the efforts to repress my emotions melt away and for a blissful period I am in tune with myself.
Heroin: The Album
+strangebrew420 I'll get back to you on that, first hand accounts read that the smack is not all NIN - Hurt/Downward Spiral vibes.. only the withdrawal is..
+strangebrew420 lollllll on point
no
this doesnt even make sense wtf
infjard trust me it does if you've tried it
about a one and a half year ago when this album was on my mind for a very long time, I have hit a low with generally everything in life. deathconsciousness by have a nice life helped me to comfort and deal with my troubled self. I sometimes look back at that version in 2019 till now and while not everything is perfect, it doesn't need to be. I managed to get out with a lot of outside help, active changing of friends and family interaction and stand here proudly with an apprentice ship that starts next month. I come back here to remind myself that no feeling is ever final and that I can still reliably drown out to the sheer hopelessness in this album. It's a strange comfort even after my life has stabilized.
thank you, and indeed - have a nice life.
[0:00 A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut] [7:52 Bloodhail] [13:36 The Big Gloom] [21:39 Hunter] [31:26 Telephony] [36:11 Who Would Leave Their Son Out in the Sun] [41:26 There Is No Food] [45:24 Waiting For Black Metal REcords To Come In The Mail] [51:43 Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000] [58:09 Deep, Deep] [1:02:00 The Future] [1:07:35 I Don't Love] [1:13:42 Earthmover]
Shinji always had this playing on repeat.
hes just like me fr 🔥🔥🔥
First time finally getting through this beast of a album, had this album bounce in and out of my life on recommendations for like 8 years and listened a dozen times but never finished, always stoped 25% because I just love the opening tracks, but now that I finished I felt like I discovered a new love for this album
Lost an entire group of people today, that I really loved and cared about. I've not been handling the night well. Spent a few hours playing Skyrim with a friend. now that I'm alone and everyone is offline I'm shoving my face full of pizza pockets, drinking hard cider, trying to numb the pain lest i break down, and listening to this album in full. it's one of those nights and i wish it wasn't. i really really wish it wasn't. i cared about them but they never fucking cared about me. it's snow-raining out right now. it's cold. 35F. i don't want to feel this way. i wish i could fully turn off my emotions. i mean i can but not when i need them to be off. i need to just fucking yell into the void in an old ass 11 year old comment section where nobody will see this or recognize me or my struggles more like putting it to the pages of a journal. i wish i was a person but I'm not, I'm just some machine and I'm happy that way and i hate this and i want to get drunk so the pain goes away but that's a slippery slope and i wont let a group of assholes who were arrogant enough to call themselves friends to me turn me into an alcoholic. but i know it takes much more than that. but I'm weak and I've gone through this too much and i wish it was over but when you've lived 14 years (I'm 19 now) like this, numb fucking horrible existence with nobody ever genuinely caring about you, you just. dont believeit ever gets better. and I'm tired of wishing on shooting stars. god fucking dammit. and i deserve every second of it.
Love you buddy. We’ll get thru with music like this as the soundtrack for both our pain and beauty in life
If you need to talk let me know. Sounds like shit sucks, and my door is always open to someone who needs a nameless faceless vent.
I had the weirdest dream listening this before falling asleep. I was in a hearse that was driven by my late grandfather. Felt like there was a demon inside me, controlling my movements. It was horrible! I couldn't fall asleep afterwards.
i'm sorry
My goal in life is to fall in love with someone that will listen to music like this with me.
aim higher. You deserve someone who appreciates music like this.
you'll never guess what happened
Lifetime what a trash goal, that requires 0 effort
1 in a Million chance my guy
it's overrated, trust me
Taken from The Books Of Terror And Longing, the Poetic Translations, Book 2, Part III, translated by William Shelley, All Stars Aground Books
And at the very top, where he was alone, but not alone
he pulled back his string and he tightened his bow
and said nothing at all
just breathed and held it, a moment, and then
let everything go.
no troubles
no fears
no people
no forests
no animals
no earth
no space
no souls
no nothing
no anything
and there were arrowheads
arrowheads
arrowheads
everywhere.
4/10 needs more arrowheads
underrated comment
Couldn't agree more
Dethguy One no u
couldn't agree more
Dethguy One You clearly don't get the joke...oh and that Crimson King profile so edgy and pretentious
this album is important to me in a level no other person could even understand. I've listened to this through the toughest times, where I'd had panic attacks, horrible weeks at my house, or weeks I didn't even got up from bed. all of that emotional gunk building up to a depressing life where I didn't even imagine it would go for more than 20 years, and yet, here I am, almost 20 years old, happier, almost married, just got my first job, rebuild everything that I thought it never could be anything.
I don't wanna get into detail on what happend, just know that every song has a very strong meaning for me, and I related to the message on it very strongly during my entire teen years, and understand how I felt through this album made me work all of it and go to a better place. the album didn't save my life, no, but it sure as hell made me hang on there and work things for the better
also less be real here, emotional trauma overcoming aside, c'mon, the songs fucking rock.
Glad you overcame your struggles man. God this album is so good
One of the best, most darkly beautiful albums of all-time. A masterpiece.
Glad I finally gave this album the time of day. It really resonates with the aching, inescapable, ceaseless void that churns inside me day and night. So it's great.
boy what the hell u talking about
This edible aint sh-
best comment
THEY SOOTHE THE GREAT MACHINES
Does anybody know where I can buy this thing?
I've been trawling the internet and I can't find it anywhere.
I'm trying to give them money for God's sake, why do they not want my money?
Wow, you are not kidding. Their label, "Enemies List Home Recordings", raises more questions than answers. Neither Amazon.com nor amazon.co.uk have them (mp3, vinyl, CD, ...). Sucks ass...there is one moneygrabber on Ebay putting the thing out on vinyl (with some other stuff thrown in) for 150 clams: www.ebay.com/itm/Have-a-Nice-Life-Deathconsciousness-2xLP-w-book-Enemies-List-Mint-/151206322500?pt=Music_on_Vinyl&hash=item2334996144
Vismund Floyd Download is on the enemies list website. Deathconciousness is supposed to be reissued this year, so dont spend 150+ on an LP
JewishCore
Jesus Christ.
I actually just bought it.
This is massive.
Bandcamp!
are y'all still alive
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut"
07:52 "Bloodhail"
13:31 "The Big Gloom"
21:36 "Hunter"
31:25 "Telefony"
36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?"
41:24 "There Is No Food"
45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail"
51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000"
58:08 "The Future"
61:58 "Deep, Deep"
67:23 "I Don't Love"
73:40 "Earthmover"
+David Sajdak
I post this again, it was at the very bottom
I have no words to explain how I felt listening to the first track of this album. Such a strange feeling that I have never experienced before
00:01 "A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut"
07:52 "Bloodhail"
13:31 "The Big Gloom"
21:36 "Hunter"
31:25 "Telefony"
36:07 "Who Would Leave Their Son out in the Sun?"
41:24 "There Is No Food"
45:22 "Waiting for Black Metal Records to Come in the Mail"
51:41 "Holy Fucking Shit: 40,000"
58:08 "The Future"
1:01:58 "Deep, Deep"
1:07:23 "I Don't Love"
1:13:40 "Earthmover"
Truly paradoxical, but I believe this album just saved my life. Literally prevented me from committing a suicide.
I tried hanging myself to this album last may
Take it from me, keep living. I barely managed to survive and I regret it with every ounce of my being to this day.
saved me too. it's not paradoxical, it's like the ancient greeks' concept of catharsis. that's why sad music make sad people less sad.
hope you guys are doing well all the best to yeah! :)