@@Slayer-7373 every since my 20s I have been staying to myself, I cant ever do heroin not even once, and every time I get a few days clean my mind goes, hey you just need to "do things right" you need to sell it, stash it, dont do it all at once, cycle methadone and H to save bla bla... it never works, now am in my 40s and STILL junkie..it can NEVER BE ONCE! its clean or junkie, sober or alcoholic, there is never once drink, one bottle or one time. I know 100% what your going though, as you lying there in treatment, thinking how the hell did my life end up here, the isolated feelings, the shame, the body pains, the fucking evil crippling cravings that mince you up. just please keep going, so many are struggling right now, your not alone. keep pushing forward and keep trying. good luck.
You're not a failure!!! I just got over a 15 day binge.relaspe.. after 40 days sober..horrible at home detox..brutal! 5 days sober...Slayer...you'll be back! You're a warrior! Nobody is giving up on you!! We love you bro..And God isn't ashamed of you..🙏
@@Redsnapper123I have, and the hallucinations of horrendus things/beings, can't even call them animals or shadows are enough to make your heart stop from fear. And the body shaking the entire time while you're awake in a nightmare is our of this world for sure.
Dont beat yourself up man. I had 6 years sober at age 30-36. I was 1 month from 7 years and began the cycle of relapses ive been dealing with for 2 years now. Youre still here, thats whats important.
Bro. I just relapsed & completely BINGED drank for my bday for 4 days. Only difference is I, like a lot of your other subscribers, don’t have UA-cam to even tell anyone we’ve fell off the high horse again. And if we did, I bet maybe 1 out of 100 of us would even be brave enough to come & let the community know we’ve relapsed. We’re not gonna get it right the 1st time, the 2nd, or the 10th or sometimes it even takes the 100th time. Don’t beat yourself up so bad & don’t EVER be embarassed. We’re literally ALL in this together. You’ll get thru this man. Everyday is a new day to start fresh. I hope you’re okay (no serious health issues). Keep fighting, my man. Love. 🤍🙏🏽
@@MikNik_ you guys truly are amazing, thank you so much. I’m fighting I will be okay I’m sure, you know what I will be okay. I gotta remain positive, love y’all. This community has been such a light in this dark time. 🙏
The honesty we have seen today tells us that you are strong enough to do it. And without hiding behind your sunspecs! You are a beautiful boy with so much going for you. Brreak free and live your life without alcohol. You can do it.
I’m glad you did upload it. Shows the real struggle and reminds us what we’re fighting for and the consequences of slipping. Real humility here thank you
You're not a failure! Trust me you've had more days sober between relapses than most people. Pick yourself back up and get on the horse again!.. try, try, try again until you succeed! Prayers dude..God bless!
It's not your fault brother. It's a disease, a lifelong one. It gets the better of all of us sometimes. The important thing is that you pick yourself up and keep fighting.
You must be able to hold the seemingly contradictory ideas in your head that i) it’s not your fault and ii) real change for the better IS possible. Good luck, brother. You’ve got this. Your chances are better this time with what you’ve learned.
It's ok not to be ok. Beating yourself up leads you back into self sabotage, but doing things a different way this time around will make you grow, lessons learned and let go of shame. It doesnt matter if you broke your "sober days streak", honestly for me it's not as important as the ability to keep wanting to be sober, to try and to accept failures, to let go. Thank you for saying it all, it must have been hard to share. I really hope you have a great therapist(without mine i'd probably be sleeping in a ditch somwhere high af) and i wish you strength and i know you have it we all do as addicts. Getting sober, even for a short time, takes a shit ton of willpower. And you have it, use it ❤
Hey Slayer. Jersey girl here. Sobriety is not as simple as black or white. You either stop or you don't. In my opinion, there's an in-between. My in-between is you just keep trying! Hang in there. Forget about your relapses and celebrate your sober days. Love ya ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for the update. Have been praying for you so much. Just know that your TEST is your TESTIMONY and is so needed for all the others on the journey. No need to be embarrassed…your transparency and vulnerability is so healthy and to be respected. God sees you, He knows your name and is WITH you in the wilderness. You WILL get thru this…embrace the suck, cuz as you know there is beauty and people that need you on the other side. Your voice is used for good, even in the darkness. We love you so much and will NEVER give up on you (or leave your channel)! Love you bro ❤️🙏🏻
Hi Slayer, you're not a embarrassment at all. You posted and were honest. It's an illness like cancer, except this illness eats away at your soul. Be proud and stand tall. Just get back on the train of sobriety. It is so much easier said than done, I know. I have been battling with this disease for over 20 yrs. It's so freaking hard. Give yourself compassion and forgiveness, ❤
Proud of you for not giving up I had numerous relapses but now 12 years sober. You can do it just use your supports and get back on the horse. God bless you can do it.
🙏god bless you too my friend, thank you for the encouragement. I can do it along side with y’all’s help as well. It’s amazing this community thank you.
Oh no…I’m so sorry to hear that. I’m scared for you, too. What else can we do? I hope this is not ending bad. On the bright side you were sober 35/40 that’s 87.5% success rate!
You know the process/ you know the "path" that disrupts it. But a disruption is not finality. It's embarrassing, but only in your mind brother, because nobody here is going to wag their head, or throw stones. We care, seeing a bit, or a lot of ourselves in you !! In brief, start the process again, and again if necessary, just don't give up !! Really glad you posted brother 🙏!!
Slayer man no reason to be ashamed. You are still progressing. It's like with the stocks of a prosperous company. If there is fluctuation it doesn't mean the company is not successful and progressing long term. You are the prosperous company. You've got this and I'm glad you are ok. And 60 days is huge, although like you say you managed 4 months before. Don't let this event sit in your head.
You got this bro, don't beat yourself up over minor setbacks. It took me several tries before I finally made it. Sending love and encouragement from a subscriber who's rooting for you!
Never be embarrassed and you're certainly not a hypocrite! We're a community and most of us are struggling against this addiction in one way or another! I probably wouldn't even have the few sober days that I do now without videos like yours. Never give up! We're all here for you! Been praying for you 🙏❤❤❤
You're not alone in this, man! Never forget that. And thank you for being honest about your relapse, it's really appreciated, if you only knew! I know things might seem bleak now, but you don't have to stay stuck where you are at the moment. I bet you'll feel better if you give it a week or so, just get back on the horse again. You deserve it. I decided to relapse myself exactly 2 weeks ago today, for about 5 days as well. Glad i didn't end up on a 3 week bender which i did last time, but i get you! It still hurts, especially the first 4-5 days. You feel like a total failure but remember, it is not your fault if you stumble and you should not beat yourself up about it. This is the nature of addiction, and i hope you can use this experience as another reminder that you don't want to end up in hospital again. I was approaching 4 months and things seemed stable but now when i've recovered both physically and mentally i'm happy to be back even if the first days were horrible. I know the root cause (at least for me) for me relapsing is my strained relationship to God. As an alcoholic there's always a risk for a slip if i don't prioritize prayer or meditation, EVERY DAY SINGLE DAY. Being a part of a fellowship is also very crucial i think, could be AA, could be church. Depending on where you feel the most comfortable with the people. Thank you for sharing your thoughts once again! Continue being honest and tell how it is, it will be for your own benefit! Now get the rest you need and ride this thing out. You'll come out of the other end. Be grateful for still being alive and don't hesitate to talk to the people around you (i'm here too btw!) if you're feeling low. Bless!
You guys are keeping me fighting, thank you beyond words thank you my friend. God bless you and I wish you nothing but the best in your sober journey as well. Please keep me updated!! 🙏
You’re not a failure bro! Don’t believe those lies! I relapsed 100’s of times and even after almost 4 years alcohol free, I almost relapsed 3 weeks ago when my wife lost her job and my whole life flipped upside down. Yours and LD’s videos got me through. You’re not a hypocrite. You help so many. Just keep pushing forward. God bless.
Slayer don’t beat yourself up and don’t feel ashamed. It takes extreme courage to allow this level of vulnerability. Don’t focus on the fall but how many days you did have sober and you can do this again as you have proven you can. I have been worried about you and did send a note via email but just had the feeling that you were in a dark place. All I could do on my end is send you positive energy and prayers that you crawl back out. And here you are. You’re out of the black hole 🕳️ now dust it off and keep trying. You have a strong mind Slayer, just need to allow the time to pass to keep building on refraining from ever touching that stuff. I will never judge you, no one should. I’m here with you on this journey. Keep fighting!! Much love always. 💜
😪😢🖤y’all literally got me choking up over in the hospital. This is more than a community, this is a group of Like minded friends. Thank you micru always
Keep your head up brother! You have the balls to post and keep us updated and i appreciate that. I relapse time n time again and yet i preach the gospel of sobriety. I feel like a hypocrit doing so but we all have speed bumps along the way to sobriety. One day at a time G. You still have a follower/subscriber in me man.
That could be any of us at any time. You moved forward, and that needs to be celebrated. We don't always get it right, but that doesn't make our wisdom worthless ❤❤
Been there done that my friend. It’s just another learning experience. Try to chill out for a few days focus on yourself and look forward to feeling good again. Don’t beat yourself up we all do it or have done it.
Slayer 😢 you are not a failure. Dont beat yourself up and don’t give up on yourself either. One day at a time and no matter how many times you fall just keep getting back up getting stronger every time. I know you feel terrible right now. I would never unfollow you and will not stop being here to support you. Please keep going in the sober journey. No matter what please. I’ll be praying for you. Don’t beat yourself please !!! Big hugs my friend 🙏🏼🤟🏻🫶🏻💚💚
You got this! There was some kind of trigger that caused this. I believe you and LD have a gift of gab and a gift of sharing your successes, failures, and everything in between. You both help so many people and i am not sure if you can see that or not. You're loved and I'm praying for blessings to come your way💕💕💕
I love LD and I love y’all, thank you so much for this comment. Thank you for everything, this community is beautiful. Thank you for everything including the prayers. You’ve been here for a long time, you help me as much as I help you. Trust me 🙏🙏
Please don't stop doing videos. Just because you relapsed doesn't mean everything you've said before isn't true, or hasn't helped people. You can be imperfect and still have great value to this community. That 60 days still means something. You made the right choice for 60 days. Addiction is an ugly, difficult thing.
Keep flying with the team bro. You're with the team. This is it. WE are it, and you're with us. Nobody gives a shit that you messed up, we are so happy that there's a guy on the internet that speaks about the hardship we go thru. We don't give a shit bro. We're a team. Sometimes I'm drinking while I'm watching you, LD, Bat country, fit recovery, the whole Team. I'm too scared to ever post a vid. You're not, you share your self on the eternal internet. That's brave. That's leader quality. Leading from the front, taking hits. Relapse is a hit. Showing us how you RESPOND to hits is what people are actually looking for, because we're trying to recover ourselves. Don't be poisoned by the illusion that your role is to be a flawless model/icon. The reason we fucking love you is your message. Your message is the legacy. Helping people isn't about you. It's about what you STAND for. And standing for the team means you exemplify that same love when you mess up. Show us what to do when you mess up. Show how you get right back on that beautiful truth-train. Because WE mess up, and we want someone to show us what to do and how to be when WE mess up, because we're going through the shit too. ❤
This is a legendary comment that literally made me smile from ear to ear. I love y’all, this is a TEAM!!! And we will make it through!!!!! Stronger and tougher than ever!!!! 💪🙏ugh I feel complete sh*t but this comment gave me strength. God bless
@@Slayer-7373remember ....WHY YOU NEED TO STOP when you wanna start❤ Keep us updated on your release when you can...when you can. XoXoX Melissa #weareit
Your young..alcoholism is a fight we’re your success is a day by day thing of remembering the collective pain of the punches you take.. don’t stay on your stool.. KEEP getting up for another round of fighting. Whatever you do don’t put TOO much pressure on yourself with too many promises.. it’s day by day. It’s about YOU. Best- Mark. UK
Tomorrow is just a few hours away. You've done well and you are not the first person to have a relapse, repeatedly. You are strong and are helping so many people. This video will save someone's life.
i wanted to encourage you again Slayer. Please believe in yourself. Sometimes relapse is part of this disease, but you can start again. Glad you can let us know and we can support you. This is got to be so hard on you, but even though I do not know you, I am praying for you. Hugs One more comment, I think it is really good you show this,so that people know what what it really like to go through this and be in the hospital. Blessings.
You are definitely not a failure! You relapsing is not failing. Just keep going forward and we’re with you all the way bro. You’ll get there, just keep fighting and never give up my bro. Lots of love to you my bro and we will always be here for your support. Love you bro and never ever stop fighting and you will win.
@@carlosb.5362 Carlos thank you brother, much love to you my friend. The understanding and kind words from you guys blow my mind. Hope is restored in humanity 🙏
If i had a dollar for every relapse ive had, i wouldnt have to work anymore! You are not a failure or a fuck up, you are human. We gotta get up, lace our boots and keep fighting the good fight. One day you will have peace i have no doubt. Im praying for you brother! I wish you the very best in life. ODAAT!
Thank you Joseph my brother, for letting me know I’m not alone in all of this. Reading all these comments has shown me we really are so much alike and all here together battling this disease. I appreciate the comments more than y’all know. Thank you and god bless
Slayer, sugar. We love and care about you so much. Please know we are here!! Don’t be embarrassed….we are addicts. You keep the faith …. Many of us have been where you are. Sending all my strength and love and prayers your way …. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
On a lighter note, this reminds me of a joke, *"Quitting drinking is easy! I've done it a 1,000 times!!"* Don't get down on yourself man. It ain't over till we're sober 👍🏾
I’ve been with this channel from nearly the beginning, i intend to stay with the channel. Remember LD’s words, just keep trying, eventually you will win. Just keep trying.
I just found your page today & it just so happens you posted this today.. taking this as a sign for myself. But I just wanted to say I am proud of you and how far you have come. Relapsing doesn’t wash away all the hard work you’ve done so far. Just remember to take it easy on yourself, you are only human. I just relapsed after 4 months of no gambling. Signing my exclusion papers tomorrow to be banned for life. Little steps at a time ❤ it will get better
I kinda had a gut feeling....when we weren't hearing from you. NO YOU'RE NOT A FAILURE. LET'S GET THAT STRAIGHT! You are perhaps not ready or haven't hit rock bottom. We love you, and want to see you succeed. Just keep trying.
I get it. Once you start feeling better its like you forget how bad you felt and your subconscious mind kicks in. It's so scary. And you hate yourself. Quitting drinking is so much more than putting down the drink. You have to work on the subconscious mind.
It’s crazy how much you forget about what it feels like to be alcohol dependent after you have been sober for 6 months +. But the best news is that after about a year you forget how bad it was but you also at that point forget how much “fun” you also thought alcohol was. The mind change is absolutely astounding
6 days is better than 6 years. All we can do is pick ourselves back up and learn from it.. after my last relapse I learned what I've got to do differently when faced with the temptation to drink again.. I've never regretted NOT drinking.
I just got out of a 5 day binge. We all relapse. We all do it. What's important is getting back to sobriety asap and taking care of ourselves!! Love you man❤
Dust yourself off and keep going. Work with a sober coach, see a therapist, start going to meet up groups. Watch this video time and time again when you get the itch. Check in with LD. We ALL get it bud. One day at a time. LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As LD says, “the only time you fail is when you stop trying.” I know you’re not going to give up, Slayer!! This road contains many bumps and potholes. You got this and are in no way shape or form an embarrassment. You are a quality guy going through a rough patch and we are here for you always. 🩷🩷
STOP calling yourself a failure! You are NOT! Support is what you need. Yoi know I'm here to supposrt and I have relapsed well over 60 times, I told you one time that one of the times I ended in hospital and lethal amounts of alcohol. I'm terrified of the damagr I know I have. We can nake it through. The walk is rough, show your inner strength and BEAT that monster or it will beat you. You're not alone in this. I will alwaya support you in your sobriety but please make a promise to YOU and GOD that you will love and nurture yourself, forget the past and be grateful you're NOT dead, I for sure almost gone 2 years ago. Be positive and practice mental strength and meditate. DELETE those negative throughts immediately! I told you before Alcohol and benzoa for sure the most lethal drugs to withdraw from and the other ones people die cause they chase that high, end up overdosing and dying. You can also die from alcohol poisoning. You can renew yourself I promise. Practice self discipline and quit the negative thoughts. I'm sending you strength from far away. People make mistakes and as long as we STILL have life we can learn and change for the better. I know you can do it! Much lov3 and blessings! Kill that beast, don't let it kill you cause it will if you give it another chance. Stay strong! Remember, God gives the toughest battles to his stronger soldiers. We're all here to help one another. ❤
Was In the same spot as you last week did a 7 day binge relapse but went cold turkey. I'm on day 3 sober now , hardly no sleep . This disease is so cunning I hope you can pull yourself back up out of this , good luck Slayer. Ps in the UK if you go to hospital for withdrawals they just send you home and tell you to taper off no matter how bad your situation is so , be lucky you didn't have to go cold turkey 😂 ❄️🥶 , you can do this slayer 😊
relapsed today after almost a year and you upload the millisecond i catch my buzz to my liking and check if you did. we worry too much about others, cant complete ourselves because of it, and we cycle. this is what ive learned after 13 years in it. 28 btw
Let’s start back over together my friend, let’s pick each other up. “You are only a failure if you give up” great words from LD and so true. God bless you man
please know this. YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. You are an alcoholic - LIKE we are here on your channel.. YOU have been so brave to step out with this video. DO not take the shame that the booze plants on your lap! Get up, get up and keep getting up. You're an awesome young man - keep the journey going and never stop. Kia Haka. from NZ
@@Slayer-7373 Ah, I am glad to hear from you and I hope you're doing better. You have all of us here rooting for ya! This is a bloody marathon not a sprint. God bless to you too. 🙏🤍🤍 NZ is waiting when you're ready!
From what I understand, relapses are part of the recivery process- you fall down but you get up. No need to beat yourself up. Talk to yourself the way you would talk to a friend who is in recovery & relapsed. You wouldn't beat him up, you'd encourage him to just get back on track. No need to be embarrassed. It happened & now you are back on track. Eventually the distance between the relapses get longer and longer, not because you beat yourself up but because you finding a way to love & care for yourself as you do something that is challenging. And you learn. You gain more self- awareness on how this happens & you will learn how to catch yourself sooner. Your honesty & encouragement no doubt is helping many people.
Give it to God man! One thing that I’ve come to realize is that on our own power we will fail! Prayers man. And it’s a journey, keep on keeping on. And you didn’t loose this subscriber, you gained one.
Hey brother i haven't commented in a while cause i also had a slip up, about to hit two weeks again this coming weekend. You have to be gentler with yourself man, yes you have people that look up to you (including myself), but that's because you're human bro, nobody here expects you to be anything more than human. We're all rooting for you man, please show yourself some love, clear your head and tell that scared, confused little boy in your heart, that doesn't know where it all went wrong, that it's going to be okay, he needs to hear it from you. Glad to hear from you brother, and im glad you're somewhere safe getting the care you need.
We need to share stories with each other because it helps. You're suffering right now for a reason. It's to be able to help someone else one day. You will come out of this & you will be the one with long term sobriety later, passing your knowledge on to someone else who needs it. You will stop some ppl from dying. Believe it or not, you will one day! That's why we go through things like this. Please forgive yourself. As long as you learn a lesson from every relapse, I mean, truly learn something from it. Figure out something new everytime, & don't give up, it's okay. Many of us go through relapses with different bad & addictive habits. Forgive yourself & do not stop trying to do better the next day. Each day is a new opportunity to be better. Never perfect, but better. ❤ You are loved & you DO matter! Remember that.
This comment is so powerful I don’t even truly know what to say excerpt it moved me when I read it. If it will save lives, then honestly it was worth it. I will also save my own, y’all’s comments have blown me away. 🙏🖤 thank you my friend for making me think and honestly means more than you know.
Slayer. I'm so sorry you're feeling the way that you are. Not being ready and failure are two different things. Your own words: relapse is just a part of the journey. Also your own words: You're never a failure unless you stop trying. When you fall, don't be ashamed of yourself and give yourself grace. Pick yourself right back up and keep moving forward. One of these days it will stick. As a friend, I will pray that you can start giving yourself the same grace, the same love and the same confidence that you freely give the rest of us. Like I've mentioned before, you should have my email address with my contacts in it. If you ever need your friends, we're here for you. I know that you've got this, and I hope you know that you should never feel embarrassed around us. I would never feel ashamed of you. Only proud to know you. We're all in this together!!! Love you, my friend!! ❤❤❤
@@amandaflaherty7528 Amanda, like so many on this channel thank you for being a genuine friend. For lifting me up every single video, for showing me grace and understanding. Much love to you my friend and the same goes to you, never hesitate to reach out. 🖤🙏
Been watching your videos. As someone who use to slam a 30 pack every night, it takes time, hardwork and patience. I no longer drink 30 beers every night, and I thank God. I spent a year in rehab from 2017-2018. You say demons, I know about those. It took a wonderful counselor, digging up the ugly inside me, and helping me heal. Healing hurts! Don't give up
Appreciate you watching and being part of this community my friend. Like you said them “demons”, it’s time for me to clean out my closet so to speak. Y’all have shown me I’m not alone at all in this, thank you and I’m glad you could get some healing. God bless
Absolutely! Like I said before, sobriety is like a boxing match, you get knocked down, you get up and get back in the fight! I use to box back in the day and alcohol reminds me of a tough opponent, we get knocked down we get up, never quit, never surrender! We might get beat up sometimes, but nobody could beat us up, like we can beat ourselves up! You got this bro 👊👊
Yes, very much this! You're looking good, Slayer, and you are NOT a failure! The world needs you, please please don't leave UA-cam! You are so young, you have the world at your fingertips. We LOVE you!! ❤️‼️
Hey Slayer, repeated failure can be a part of the process.......so never stop picking yourself up and trying again........but every times you fail you need to figure out what needs to change. There may be something there you aren't dealing with or addressing.......or there may be a trigger in your life that causes you to fail. My opinion......maybe you need a couple of good church friends or something......really find you an actual social group that doesn't drink or party.......find a circle of friends........you can always come back to this later.
Exactly brother, as long as I learn from this thats what really matter. Y’all are absolutely amazing, this community is amazing. Straight wisdom 🙏🙏 god blwss
I used to hate carrying those things around with me in the hospital too. They try to keep us tied up in there. Don’t worry, you’ll be through it Soon.🙏💞
I struggle with addiction too. Not alcohol but other things that ruin me. Being open about addiction, understanding and admitting that you have a problem is a very important step. Calling out for help is brave, and shows determination that something is wrong with you that you desperately wish to get rid of. My friend, pray to God. Please do this. You can do this.
Don’t be embarrassed man it’s part of recovery. You’re so BRAVE and you INSPIRE ME to continue to be sober! Your videos are awesome man just hang in there we’re going to get through this! Much love man 💪🙏
I love you. I am not completely sober but I’m a lot better. you are the reason I put myself in rehab and got better than I have been ever before. Keep ur head up buddy
Also wanted to say that’s absolutely incredible that I’m the reason you went to your first rehab, that’s so cool, but really it was you who made that decision ultimately for yourself and you definitely made the right one. 💯💯
I know how hard this is. I had 17 years sober from alcohol and recently relapsed. I commend your honesty about this. Makes me feel not so alone. I hope your journey improves. Hang in there!
@@SavedFromDeath-s1x decent point as well brother, suffering is personal in a lot of ways and each person’s suffering levels are different, what people can handle. Y’all both make good points, as long as I’m alive though I do have choice to overcome. I have definitely suffered A LOT, but others have suffered way more. Some don’t need to suffer much to get sober, as for some they must lose it all. God bless yall
I've fought alcoholism for many decades. I hop on and fall of the wagon many times. I'm struggling with wanting to get a bottle right now and normally I would say not today but today is one of those that well not sure if I'm going to make it through the day without drinking! This is the life of a person struggling with alcoholism
Dear Slayer, I've known you for a couple of weeks now And your Channel has helped me immensely. You don't need to "man Up" now, you were man enough to make this Video. You're Not guilty, only alcohol is. You're already Back to sober again right now. Much love from Germany And please keep making Videos. We all relapse. It's Not the end of the world-the Main Thing is to quit again And that's what you've done now!
Thank you for this beautiful comment my friend, I’m glad you’re here and part of this community and getting some value from my videos. I always say that you guys help me just as much as I help you and I mean that. Also awesome, my dads side of the family is mostly german, shout-out to you and shout out to Germany :). God bless
Bro are you kidding????? This is amazing that you could be this strong to even admit this. Let’s keep going
💪🙏 thank you brother, thank you.
@@Slayer-7373 every since my 20s I have been staying to myself, I cant ever do heroin not even once, and every time I get a few days clean my mind goes, hey you just need to "do things right" you need to sell it, stash it, dont do it all at once, cycle methadone and H to save bla bla... it never works, now am in my 40s and STILL junkie..it can NEVER BE ONCE! its clean or junkie, sober or alcoholic, there is never once drink, one bottle or one time.
I know 100% what your going though, as you lying there in treatment, thinking how the hell did my life end up here, the isolated feelings, the shame, the body pains, the fucking evil crippling cravings that mince you up. just please keep going, so many are struggling right now, your not alone. keep pushing forward and keep trying. good luck.
Dont be embrassed bro. The road to recovery is long and hard. You got this man.
💪🙏y’all are helping me so much!!!
You're not a failure!!! I just got over a 15 day binge.relaspe.. after 40 days sober..horrible at home detox..brutal! 5 days sober...Slayer...you'll be back! You're a warrior! Nobody is giving up on you!! We love you bro..And God isn't ashamed of you..🙏
15 day binge holy cow.
@@Redsnapper123 Done 30 days before..
@@JCarm-LK785 wow. Ultra alcoholic. Do DT’s occur in your case?
@@Redsnapper123I have, and the hallucinations of horrendus things/beings, can't even call them animals or shadows are enough to make your heart stop from fear. And the body shaking the entire time while you're awake in a nightmare is our of this world for sure.
@@nidiaborge wow. Are you in active addiction now?
Slayer, I admire you for making this video. Don’t give up on us, we definitely won’t give up on you. ❤
@@DonnaMcClint hey thanks so much Donna, you guys really have helped so much through this I can’t thank you enough ! 🙏
Do not be so hard on yourself. We are here to support you. You can start again. Please be kind to yourself.
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Dont beat yourself up man. I had 6 years sober at age 30-36. I was 1 month from 7 years and began the cycle of relapses ive been dealing with for 2 years now. Youre still here, thats whats important.
Amen brother, we are both still here. Let’s keep fighting man, as long as we are here we have another opportunity. God bless
Bro. I just relapsed & completely BINGED drank for my bday for 4 days. Only difference is I, like a lot of your other subscribers, don’t have UA-cam to even tell anyone we’ve fell off the high horse again. And if we did, I bet maybe 1 out of 100 of us would even be brave enough to come & let the community know we’ve relapsed. We’re not gonna get it right the 1st time, the 2nd, or the 10th or sometimes it even takes the 100th time. Don’t beat yourself up so bad & don’t EVER be embarassed. We’re literally ALL in this together. You’ll get thru this man. Everyday is a new day to start fresh. I hope you’re okay (no serious health issues). Keep fighting, my man. Love. 🤍🙏🏽
@@MikNik_ you guys truly are amazing, thank you so much. I’m fighting I will be okay I’m sure, you know what I will be okay. I gotta remain positive, love y’all. This community has been such a light in this dark time. 🙏
@MikNik_ we are for here please stay with us.
Thanks for posting, have been worried about you. Stay strong
Nah thank y’all, you guys are helping me more than you know.
@@Slayer-7373 , please read my comment about watching the documentary I mentioned and TedX talk.
The honesty we have seen today tells us that you are strong enough to do it. And without hiding behind your sunspecs! You are a beautiful boy with so much going for you. Brreak free and live your life without alcohol. You can do it.
Hey Christopher 👋, thank you so much brother. Y’all really are getting me through this.
I’m glad you did upload it. Shows the real struggle and reminds us what we’re fighting for and the consequences of slipping. Real humility here thank you
Thank you clay, 🙏🙏
"Why do we fall?? So we can learn to pick ourselves up"
*- Batman Begins*
Love this, god bless you afterhours
You're not a failure! Trust me you've had more days sober between relapses than most people. Pick yourself back up and get on the horse again!.. try, try, try again until you succeed! Prayers dude..God bless!
🙏🖤💪god bless, thank you
It's not your fault brother. It's a disease, a lifelong one. It gets the better of all of us sometimes. The important thing is that you pick yourself up and keep fighting.
🖤🙏y’all have really uplifted me
You must be able to hold the seemingly contradictory ideas in your head that i) it’s not your fault and ii) real change for the better IS possible. Good luck, brother. You’ve got this. Your chances are better this time with what you’ve learned.
It's ok not to be ok. Beating yourself up leads you back into self sabotage, but doing things a different way this time around will make you grow, lessons learned and let go of shame. It doesnt matter if you broke your "sober days streak", honestly for me it's not as important as the ability to keep wanting to be sober, to try and to accept failures, to let go. Thank you for saying it all, it must have been hard to share. I really hope you have a great therapist(without mine i'd probably be sleeping in a ditch somwhere high af) and i wish you strength and i know you have it we all do as addicts. Getting sober, even for a short time, takes a shit ton of willpower. And you have it, use it ❤
@@countingsheep4sleep love this comment, thank you my friend. 🙏🙏🙏
Hey Slayer. Jersey girl here. Sobriety is not as simple as black or white. You either stop or you don't. In my opinion, there's an in-between. My in-between is you just keep trying! Hang in there. Forget about your relapses and celebrate your sober days. Love ya ❤❤❤
@@cheryldeanley2074 you guys have really become the light in the darkness with all the kind words and understanding, love y’all too 🙏🖤
Thank you so much for the update. Have been praying for you so much. Just know that your TEST is your TESTIMONY and is so needed for all the others on the journey. No need to be embarrassed…your transparency and vulnerability is so healthy and to be respected. God sees you, He knows your name and is WITH you in the wilderness. You WILL get thru this…embrace the suck, cuz as you know there is beauty and people that need you on the other side. Your voice is used for good, even in the darkness. We love you so much and will NEVER give up on you (or leave your channel)! Love you bro ❤️🙏🏻
Beautifully stated ❤
@@LHM-fj7cj this is a beautiful comment, thank you. Love y’all too and god bless 🙏
Oh no Slayer I am so sorry!! Hang in there. ❤
We will make it through jackie!! 🙏thank you guys
Hard to watch. Sorry to hear. If it's any consolation I drank longer than you have been alive. 1987-2021. Time is still on your side
😪 I’ll get this brother, I will. I’m determined, y’all are helping.
Hi Slayer, you're not a embarrassment at all. You posted and were honest. It's an illness like cancer, except this illness eats away at your soul.
Be proud and stand tall.
Just get back on the train of sobriety.
It is so much easier said than done, I know.
I have been battling with this disease for over 20 yrs.
It's so freaking hard.
Give yourself compassion and forgiveness, ❤
@@jenniculford1358 🖤🙏 thank you for the understanding and compassion. Us addicts understand each other.
Proud of you for not giving up I had numerous relapses but now 12 years sober. You can do it just use your supports and get back on the horse. God bless you can do it.
🙏god bless you too my friend, thank you for the encouragement. I can do it along side with y’all’s help as well. It’s amazing this community thank you.
Oh no…I’m so sorry to hear that. I’m scared for you, too. What else can we do? I hope this is not ending bad. On the bright side you were sober 35/40 that’s 87.5% success rate!
We will get through this brother, as a community. God bless you man and thank you.
I love you man. You are not a failure just keep pushing forward
Love you Jeff, thank you brother
You know the process/ you know the "path" that disrupts it. But a disruption is not finality. It's embarrassing, but only in your mind brother, because nobody here is going to wag their head, or throw stones. We care, seeing a bit, or a lot of ourselves in you !! In brief, start the process again, and again if necessary, just don't give up !!
Really glad you posted brother 🙏!!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt much love to you brother, thanks Craig for being a friend man. 🙏
Don't be so hard on yourself, it's the worst thing you can do man .. I'm 2 weeks sober now, after 35yrs of drinking... Hang in there!!
Congratulations on 2 weeks!! ❤🎉🎊🎉
Go you!
💪 y’all are helping me so much, 2 weeks is absolutely amazing too bro.
@@amandaflaherty7528 Thank you!!
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks man... I hate the shit, with a passion!!
I’m so sorry Slayer. Hang in there. Sometimes it just takes time.🙏💞
Much love Cindy, it does take time. Y’all are th best 🙏😪
I'm glad you're still here. Rest up, dust yourself off, get back on the regimen. Peace and love brother
🖤 thank you brother, y’all really are amazing.
Slayer man no reason to be ashamed. You are still progressing. It's like with the stocks of a prosperous company. If there is fluctuation it doesn't mean the company is not successful and progressing long term. You are the prosperous company. You've got this and I'm glad you are ok. And 60 days is huge, although like you say you managed 4 months before. Don't let this event sit in your head.
This is a great way to look at it brother, thank you for the comment and understanding. 🙏
Keep going.
We ve all been there.
Standing up a thousand times is better than laying still.
@@DrIncredible-ml9lq never quit quiting, I ain’t out of this fight yet. Thank you my friend 🙏🙏
Slayer don't beat yourself up man. You are human! And we love you brother!! You are gonna be alright man I just know it!
Love y’all too brother, thank you for the understanding. You guys have shown me the light that I needed. God bless
There's no shame ij being honest, that's a bravery. You're strong, you'll tough it through
Appreciate this more than you know my friend. 💪
dont be embarrassed or upset brother, we are all here for you
Appreciate y’all more than you know. Real friends in this battle man, makes me want to shed a tear!!
You got this bro, don't beat yourself up over minor setbacks. It took me several tries before I finally made it. Sending love and encouragement from a subscriber who's rooting for you!
Appreciate this :), thank you 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 No prob man, your honesty is commendable. You're a good dude and you've got nothing to be ashamed about.
Never be embarrassed and you're certainly not a hypocrite! We're a community and most of us are struggling against this addiction in one way or another! I probably wouldn't even have the few sober days that I do now without videos like yours. Never give up! We're all here for you! Been praying for you 🙏❤❤❤
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@@Slayer-7373 You're going to beat this, friend ❤️ Keep praying and fighting 🙏
I'm on my way back right now. 4th time. Got out July 12th last time. I'm sorry and I'm right there with u slayer.
We got this together, we WILL MAKE IT THROUGH!!!
You're not alone in this, man! Never forget that. And thank you for being honest about your relapse, it's really appreciated, if you only knew!
I know things might seem bleak now, but you don't have to stay stuck where you are at the moment.
I bet you'll feel better if you give it a week or so, just get back on the horse again. You deserve it.
I decided to relapse myself exactly 2 weeks ago today, for about 5 days as well. Glad i didn't end up on a 3 week bender which i did last time, but i get you! It still hurts, especially the first 4-5 days. You feel like a total failure but remember, it is not your fault if you stumble and you should not beat yourself up about it. This is the nature of addiction, and i hope you can use this experience as another reminder that you don't want to end up in hospital again.
I was approaching 4 months and things seemed stable but now when i've recovered both physically and mentally i'm happy to be back even if the first days were horrible. I know the root cause (at least for me) for me relapsing is my strained relationship to God. As an alcoholic there's always a risk for a slip if i don't prioritize prayer or meditation, EVERY DAY SINGLE DAY.
Being a part of a fellowship is also very crucial i think, could be AA, could be church. Depending on where you feel the most comfortable with the people.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts once again! Continue being honest and tell how it is, it will be for your own benefit!
Now get the rest you need and ride this thing out. You'll come out of the other end. Be grateful for still being alive and don't hesitate to talk to the people around you (i'm here too btw!) if you're feeling low.
Bless!
You guys are keeping me fighting, thank you beyond words thank you my friend. God bless you and I wish you nothing but the best in your sober journey as well. Please keep me updated!! 🙏
You’re not a failure bro! Don’t believe those lies! I relapsed 100’s of times and even after almost 4 years alcohol free, I almost relapsed 3 weeks ago when my wife lost her job and my whole life flipped upside down. Yours and LD’s videos got me through. You’re not a hypocrite. You help so many. Just keep pushing forward. God bless.
🖤y’all are really keeping me going, congratulations on not relapsing as well. God bless you
So sorry to hear this Slayer, but tomorrow is another day and you got this 🙏
🙏tomorrow the sun will shine again, thank you all so much.
Slayer don’t beat yourself up and don’t feel ashamed. It takes extreme courage to allow this level of vulnerability. Don’t focus on the fall but how many days you did have sober and you can do this again as you have proven you can. I have been worried about you and did send a note via email but just had the feeling that you were in a dark place. All I could do on my end is send you positive energy and prayers that you crawl back out. And here you are. You’re out of the black hole 🕳️ now dust it off and keep trying. You have a strong mind Slayer, just need to allow the time to pass to keep building on refraining from ever touching that stuff. I will never judge you, no one should. I’m here with you on this journey. Keep fighting!! Much love always. 💜
😪😢🖤y’all literally got me choking up over in the hospital. This is more than a community, this is a group of Like minded friends. Thank you micru always
Also I’m here for you any time too 🖤
@@Slayer-7373 you’re so worth it. I’m choked up too. The amount of love is beautiful. Just breathe, you got this!
Keep your head up brother! You have the balls to post and keep us updated and i appreciate that. I relapse time n time again and yet i preach the gospel of sobriety. I feel like a hypocrit doing so but we all have speed bumps along the way to sobriety. One day at a time G. You still have a follower/subscriber in me man.
That could be any of us at any time. You moved forward, and that needs to be celebrated. We don't always get it right, but that doesn't make our wisdom worthless ❤❤
@@dc2chet07 this is a bad*ss uplifting comment my friend, thank you.
@@amandaflaherty7528 🖤
Been there done that my friend. It’s just another learning experience. Try to chill out for a few days focus on yourself and look forward to feeling good again. Don’t beat yourself up we all do it or have done it.
Much love to you man, thank you for understanding. One day at a time
Slayer 😢 you are not a failure. Dont beat yourself up and don’t give up on yourself either. One day at a time and no matter how many times you fall just keep getting back up getting stronger every time. I know you feel terrible right now. I would never unfollow you and will not stop being here to support you. Please keep going in the sober journey. No matter what please. I’ll be praying for you. Don’t beat yourself please !!! Big hugs my friend 🙏🏼🤟🏻🫶🏻💚💚
You got this! There was some kind of trigger that caused this. I believe you and LD have a gift of gab and a gift of sharing your successes, failures, and everything in between. You both help so many people and i am not sure if you can see that or not. You're loved and I'm praying for blessings to come your way💕💕💕
I love LD and I love y’all, thank you so much for this comment. Thank you for everything, this community is beautiful. Thank you for everything including the prayers. You’ve been here for a long time, you help me as much as I help you. Trust me 🙏🙏
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Alcoholism is so horrible. Never give up! I’m rooting for you ❤
@@crisd7142 appreciate this more than you know 🖤, alcoholism is definitely horrible.
Please don't stop doing videos. Just because you relapsed doesn't mean everything you've said before isn't true, or hasn't helped people. You can be imperfect and still have great value to this community. That 60 days still means something. You made the right choice for 60 days. Addiction is an ugly, difficult thing.
🖤because of y’all, im not going anywhere. Y’all and god
Keep flying with the team bro. You're with the team. This is it. WE are it, and you're with us. Nobody gives a shit that you messed up, we are so happy that there's a guy on the internet that speaks about the hardship we go thru. We don't give a shit bro. We're a team. Sometimes I'm drinking while I'm watching you, LD, Bat country, fit recovery, the whole Team. I'm too scared to ever post a vid. You're not, you share your self on the eternal internet. That's brave. That's leader quality. Leading from the front, taking hits. Relapse is a hit. Showing us how you RESPOND to hits is what people are actually looking for, because we're trying to recover ourselves. Don't be poisoned by the illusion that your role is to be a flawless model/icon. The reason we fucking love you is your message. Your message is the legacy. Helping people isn't about you. It's about what you STAND for. And standing for the team means you exemplify that same love when you mess up. Show us what to do when you mess up. Show how you get right back on that beautiful truth-train. Because WE mess up, and we want someone to show us what to do and how to be when WE mess up, because we're going through the shit too. ❤
We.
Are.
It. THE TEAM!!! 🎉❤🎉❤🎉❤
This is a legendary comment that literally made me smile from ear to ear. I love y’all, this is a TEAM!!! And we will make it through!!!!! Stronger and tougher than ever!!!! 💪🙏ugh I feel complete sh*t but this comment gave me strength. God bless
@@Slayer-7373remember ....WHY YOU NEED TO STOP when you wanna start❤ Keep us updated on your release when you can...when you can.
XoXoX
Melissa
#weareit
Your young..alcoholism is a fight we’re your success is a day by day thing of remembering the collective pain of the punches you take.. don’t stay on your stool.. KEEP getting up for another round of fighting. Whatever you do don’t put TOO much pressure on yourself with too many promises.. it’s day by day. It’s about YOU. Best- Mark. UK
Love this man 🥊 never stop fighting, god bless you and thank you for these words. Y’all are amazing people
Tomorrow is just a few hours away. You've done well and you are not the first person to have a relapse, repeatedly. You are strong and are helping so many people. This video will save someone's life.
😢🙏y’all have helped me so much
i wanted to encourage you again Slayer. Please believe in yourself. Sometimes relapse is part of this disease, but you can start again. Glad you can let us know and we can support you. This is got to be so hard on you, but even though I do not know you, I am praying for you. Hugs One more comment, I think it is really good you show this,so that people know what what it really like to go through this and be in the hospital. Blessings.
🖤🖤 god bless and thank you.
You are definitely not a failure! You relapsing is not failing. Just keep going forward and we’re with you all the way bro. You’ll get there, just keep fighting and never give up my bro. Lots of love to you my bro and we will always be here for your support. Love you bro and never ever stop fighting and you will win.
@@carlosb.5362 Carlos thank you brother, much love to you my friend. The understanding and kind words from you guys blow my mind. Hope is restored in humanity 🙏
You’re always welcome bro. Always in your corner over here 💯
Your Always in my prayers brother .. keep believing
Appreciate this more than you know brother, thank you. God bless 🙏🙏
If i had a dollar for every relapse ive had, i wouldnt have to work anymore! You are not a failure or a fuck up, you are human. We gotta get up, lace our boots and keep fighting the good fight. One day you will have peace i have no doubt. Im praying for you brother! I wish you the very best in life. ODAAT!
Thank you Joseph my brother, for letting me know I’m not alone in all of this. Reading all these comments has shown me we really are so much alike and all here together battling this disease. I appreciate the comments more than y’all know. Thank you and god bless
Slayer, sugar. We love and care about you so much. Please know we are here!! Don’t be embarrassed….we are addicts. You keep the faith …. Many of us have been where you are. Sending all my strength and love and prayers your way …. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Y’all are amazing and understanding. This community gives me hope for humanity again. God bless you 🙏🖤
On a lighter note, this reminds me of a joke, *"Quitting drinking is easy! I've done it a 1,000 times!!"* Don't get down on yourself man. It ain't over till we're sober 👍🏾
@@afterhourscinema782 ;) love this buddy, thank you for a laugh in a dark time.
I’ve been with this channel from nearly the beginning, i intend to stay with the channel. Remember LD’s words, just keep trying, eventually you will win. Just keep trying.
@@Redsnapper123 🖤🙏much love to you reedsnapper I appreciate you being here man. “You’re only a failure if you stop trying”
@@Slayer-7373 👍
I just found your page today & it just so happens you posted this today.. taking this as a sign for myself. But I just wanted to say I am proud of you and how far you have come. Relapsing doesn’t wash away all the hard work you’ve done so far. Just remember to take it easy on yourself, you are only human. I just relapsed after 4 months of no gambling. Signing my exclusion papers tomorrow to be banned for life. Little steps at a time ❤ it will get better
Let’s gets get back at it together my friend, much love and thank for this comment. 🖤🖤🖤
I kinda had a gut feeling....when we weren't hearing from you. NO YOU'RE NOT A FAILURE. LET'S GET THAT STRAIGHT! You are perhaps not ready or haven't hit rock bottom. We love you, and want to see you succeed. Just keep trying.
@@RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p thank you rons mom, you are always here and I truly do appreciate it!! Love y’all too and I mean that. 🙏😪
I get it. Once you start feeling better its like you forget how bad you felt and your subconscious mind kicks in. It's so scary. And you hate yourself. Quitting drinking is so much more than putting down the drink. You have to work on the subconscious mind.
Yep! How easily we tell ourselves "Eh, that wasn't so hard. I can always quit again. Ooh! Is that a liquor store?". 🤪
Amen to that!
This comment is absolutely spot on, y’all have really helped me through this and continue to. Thank every single one of you.
The subconscious mind is a scary thing.
It’s crazy how much you forget about what it feels like to be alcohol dependent after you have been sober for 6 months +. But the best news is that after about a year you forget how bad it was but you also at that point forget how much “fun” you also thought alcohol was. The mind change is absolutely astounding
Hey man, don't be so hard on yourself. Just keep quitting until you quit. It's a process :)
Hey nes thanks my friend, y’all have literally lifted me up. The understanding is awesome
6 days is better than 6 years. All we can do is pick ourselves back up and learn from it.. after my last relapse I learned what I've got to do differently when faced with the temptation to drink again.. I've never regretted NOT drinking.
You learned from it and this is what I must do. God bless y’all 🙏
Oh noooo!! You’ll get up again and try again. You’re only human and don’t beat yourself up so hard. We will still be here for you ❤🤗
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I just got out of a 5 day binge. We all relapse. We all do it. What's important is getting back to sobriety asap and taking care of ourselves!! Love you man❤
We never stop trying, never quit. Love you too brother 🙏
We still love you and so does our Heavenly Father. We all love your heart and we want you to keep making videos🙏
🖤😢, love y’all and our god the night high. Thank you for giving me hope.
@@Slayer-7373 🙏💙💖
Dust yourself off and keep going. Work with a sober coach, see a therapist, start going to meet up groups. Watch this video time and time again when you get the itch. Check in with LD. We ALL get it bud. One day at a time. LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@@BillSteve-w9l this is the type of motivation I need in this dark time, thank you brother. Let’s go!!! 💪
As LD says, “the only time you fail is when you stop trying.” I know you’re not going to give up, Slayer!! This road contains many bumps and potholes. You got this and are in no way shape or form an embarrassment. You are a quality guy going through a rough patch and we are here for you always. 🩷🩷
😢🖤🙏thank you so much
STOP calling yourself a failure! You are NOT! Support is what you need. Yoi know I'm here to supposrt and I have relapsed well over 60 times, I told you one time that one of the times I ended in hospital and lethal amounts of alcohol. I'm terrified of the damagr I know I have. We can nake it through. The walk is rough, show your inner strength and BEAT that monster or it will beat you. You're not alone in this. I will alwaya support you in your sobriety but please make a promise to YOU and GOD that you will love and nurture yourself, forget the past and be grateful you're NOT dead, I for sure almost gone 2 years ago. Be positive and practice mental strength and meditate. DELETE those negative throughts immediately! I told you before Alcohol and benzoa for sure the most lethal drugs to withdraw from and the other ones people die cause they chase that high, end up overdosing and dying. You can also die from alcohol poisoning. You can renew yourself I promise. Practice self discipline and quit the negative thoughts. I'm sending you strength from far away. People make mistakes and as long as we STILL have life we can learn and change for the better. I know you can do it! Much lov3 and blessings! Kill that beast, don't let it kill you cause it will if you give it another chance. Stay strong! Remember, God gives the toughest battles to his stronger soldiers. We're all here to help one another. ❤
So much love sent to you nidia, thank you doesn’t do it justice. 🙏
Was In the same spot as you last week did a 7 day binge relapse but went cold turkey. I'm on day 3 sober now , hardly no sleep . This disease is so cunning I hope you can pull yourself back up out of this , good luck Slayer. Ps in the UK if you go to hospital for withdrawals they just send you home and tell you to taper off no matter how bad your situation is so , be lucky you didn't have to go cold turkey 😂 ❄️🥶 , you can do this slayer 😊
Congratulations on 3 days, Luke!! You've got this!! I know you do 😊❤
Love you bro, also that’s insane that they handle it like that in the UK, dangerous! But this whole disease is dangerous though.
Yes listen to Amanda, keep going my friend
You are not a failure. Alchol is so hard to stop. Please stay with us
I’m with y’all and y’all are with me. 🙏 much love to you
relapsed today after almost a year and you upload the millisecond i catch my buzz to my liking and check if you did. we worry too much about others, cant complete ourselves because of it, and we cycle. this is what ive learned after 13 years in it. 28 btw
Let’s start back over together my friend, let’s pick each other up. “You are only a failure if you give up” great words from LD and so true. God bless you man
Don’t quit quitting. don’t say never. Just say one day/hour at a time. People rooting for ya
Exactly brother, never quit quitting I love that saying. I’m with y’all, thank you man god bless 🙏
Hang in there brother! Gotta stay strong and take it one day at a time.
Appreciate you brother, I will man. Never quit quitting. One day at a time 🙏
please know this. YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. You are an alcoholic - LIKE we are here on your channel.. YOU have been so brave to step out with this video. DO not take the shame that the booze plants on your lap! Get up, get up and keep getting up. You're an awesome young man - keep the journey going and never stop. Kia Haka. from NZ
Thank you so much 🖤🖤, also so cool you’re from NZ. I’ve always wanted to visit. God bless my friend
@@Slayer-7373 Ah, I am glad to hear from you and I hope you're doing better. You have all of us here rooting for ya! This is a bloody marathon not a sprint. God bless to you too. 🙏🤍🤍 NZ is waiting when you're ready!
@@recoverychannel657 🖤🖤
From what I understand, relapses are part of the recivery process- you fall down but you get up. No need to beat yourself up. Talk to yourself the way you would talk to a friend who is in recovery & relapsed. You wouldn't beat him up, you'd encourage him to just get back on track. No need to be embarrassed. It happened & now you are back on track. Eventually the distance between the relapses get longer and longer, not because you beat yourself up but because you finding a way to love & care for yourself as you do something that is challenging. And you learn. You gain more self- awareness on how this happens & you will learn how to catch yourself sooner. Your honesty & encouragement no doubt is helping many people.
I hope it’s helping my friend, I think you’re spot on with this comment and explain it really well. Thank you 🙏
Give it to God man! One thing that I’ve come to realize is that on our own power we will fail! Prayers man. And it’s a journey, keep on keeping on. And you didn’t loose this subscriber, you gained one.
This is 100% true, thank you brother and god bless. Prayers are everything and I’m glad you’re here with me on this journey. 🙏
Its better to see the good and the bad my man, you're not a failure. Keep your head up!
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Hey brother i haven't commented in a while cause i also had a slip up, about to hit two weeks again this coming weekend. You have to be gentler with yourself man, yes you have people that look up to you (including myself), but that's because you're human bro, nobody here expects you to be anything more than human. We're all rooting for you man, please show yourself some love, clear your head and tell that scared, confused little boy in your heart, that doesn't know where it all went wrong, that it's going to be okay, he needs to hear it from you. Glad to hear from you brother, and im glad you're somewhere safe getting the care you need.
Another thing, 60 days is A LOT of time, a relapse doesn't erase all that, continue to be proud as hell of that man, it ain't gone.
🖤 beautiful comment my friend, congratulations on the almost 2 weeks, that is amazing. We just have to keep pushing forward together. 🙏
Im still going to continue paying attention to you and watching your content
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Much love y’all, you guys are pulling me out of hell right now.
We need to share stories with each other because it helps. You're suffering right now for a reason. It's to be able to help someone else one day. You will come out of this & you will be the one with long term sobriety later, passing your knowledge on to someone else who needs it. You will stop some ppl from dying. Believe it or not, you will one day! That's why we go through things like this. Please forgive yourself. As long as you learn a lesson from every relapse, I mean, truly learn something from it. Figure out something new everytime, & don't give up, it's okay. Many of us go through relapses with different bad & addictive habits. Forgive yourself & do not stop trying to do better the next day. Each day is a new opportunity to be better. Never perfect, but better. ❤ You are loved & you DO matter! Remember that.
This comment is so powerful I don’t even truly know what to say excerpt it moved me when I read it.
If it will save lives, then honestly it was worth it.
I will also save my own, y’all’s comments have blown me away. 🙏🖤 thank you my friend for making me think and honestly means more than you know.
You're a REAL fighter✊!!!
🙏thank you so much my friend.
It's OK to have to start over. What matters is you're sober today
Exactly sumshine 😢🖤 y’all have really helped with these comments, I’m mind blown.
@@Slayer-7373 we all need each other. U would do the same for us.
Don't be embarrassed! You are great! I love your videos !! You'll be fine sweetheart .Lots of love xxxx
🖤🖤thank you so much, I’ve said it now multiple times but the understanding is incredible.
It’s okay, man. Just keep trying! You knew you did wrong. You’ll just keep getting stronger.
Thank you for the understanding brother, i appreciate you my friend.
Slayer. I'm so sorry you're feeling the way that you are. Not being ready and failure are two different things. Your own words: relapse is just a part of the journey. Also your own words: You're never a failure unless you stop trying. When you fall, don't be ashamed of yourself and give yourself grace. Pick yourself right back up and keep moving forward. One of these days it will stick. As a friend, I will pray that you can start giving yourself the same grace, the same love and the same confidence that you freely give the rest of us. Like I've mentioned before, you should have my email address with my contacts in it. If you ever need your friends, we're here for you. I know that you've got this, and I hope you know that you should never feel embarrassed around us. I would never feel ashamed of you. Only proud to know you. We're all in this together!!! Love you, my friend!! ❤❤❤
What this guy said❤you are so special.please know that God's grace is with you. Please give yourself some❤❤❤😊
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@@amandaflaherty7528 Amanda, like so many on this channel thank you for being a genuine friend. For lifting me up every single video, for showing me grace and understanding. Much love to you my friend and the same goes to you, never hesitate to reach out. 🖤🙏
@Slayer-7373 Thank you, Slayer! Sending you my best thoughts! I hope you feel better soon. 😊❤️
Been watching your videos. As someone who use to slam a 30 pack every night, it takes time, hardwork and patience. I no longer drink 30 beers every night, and I thank God. I spent a year in rehab from 2017-2018. You say demons, I know about those. It took a wonderful counselor, digging up the ugly inside me, and helping me heal. Healing hurts! Don't give up
Appreciate you watching and being part of this community my friend. Like you said them “demons”, it’s time for me to clean out my closet so to speak. Y’all have shown me I’m not alone at all in this, thank you and I’m glad you could get some healing. God bless
Absolutely! Like I said before, sobriety is like a boxing match, you get knocked down, you get up and get back in the fight! I use to box back in the day and alcohol reminds me of a tough opponent, we get knocked down we get up, never quit, never surrender! We might get beat up sometimes, but nobody could beat us up, like we can beat ourselves up! You got this bro 👊👊
Please reach out to LD
Yes, very much this!
You're looking good, Slayer, and you are NOT a failure! The world needs you, please please don't leave UA-cam! You are so young, you have the world at your fingertips. We LOVE you!! ❤️‼️
I reached out to LD, he was a huge help. Love LD and I love y’all. 🙏
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Hey Slayer, repeated failure can be a part of the process.......so never stop picking yourself up and trying again........but every times you fail you need to figure out what needs to change. There may be something there you aren't dealing with or addressing.......or there may be a trigger in your life that causes you to fail. My opinion......maybe you need a couple of good church friends or something......really find you an actual social group that doesn't drink or party.......find a circle of friends........you can always come back to this later.
Exactly brother, as long as I learn from this thats what really matter. Y’all are absolutely amazing, this community is amazing. Straight wisdom 🙏🙏 god blwss
I used to hate carrying those things around with me in the hospital too. They try to keep us tied up in there. Don’t worry, you’ll be through it Soon.🙏💞
🖤😪 you’re definitely right Cindy, love y’all
I’m sorry brother. I’m in the same boat.
You've got this, Chris!! Just pick yourself back up and keep moving forward!! One of these times, it will stick ❤ Sending you strength 💪 ❤
We will get through this together brother and come out strong individuals. 💪 god bless
I struggle with addiction too. Not alcohol but other things that ruin me. Being open about addiction, understanding and admitting that you have a problem is a very important step. Calling out for help is brave, and shows determination that something is wrong with you that you desperately wish to get rid of. My friend, pray to God. Please do this. You can do this.
🙏💪 thank you my friend. God bless you
I am sorry man. Just pick yourself up. Dust yourself off and move forward.
Appreciate you shades, keep going on your path brother. You’re doing amazing man. 🙏
Don’t be embarrassed man it’s part of recovery. You’re so BRAVE and you INSPIRE ME to continue to be sober! Your videos are awesome man just hang in there we’re going to get through this! Much love man 💪🙏
You guys inspire me, love ya too brother. Thank you as always.
You got this man, I've relapsed a million times.
Hey addictedtomore, i appreciate that brother. I hope you’re doing well man 🙏
I love you. I am not completely sober but I’m a lot better. you are the reason I put myself in rehab and got better than I have been ever before. Keep ur head up buddy
😢🙏 y’all are the best, love y’all too
Also wanted to say that’s absolutely incredible that I’m the reason you went to your first rehab, that’s so cool, but really it was you who made that decision ultimately for yourself and you definitely made the right one. 💯💯
I know how hard this is. I had 17 years sober from alcohol and recently relapsed. I commend your honesty about this. Makes me feel not so alone. I hope your journey improves. Hang in there!
Y’all make me feel not so alone, I’m so sorry for your relapse my friend but we are in this together. God bless you and good luck 🙏
Love yourself in spite of your failures!!!! You are worth more than you think buddy!!! I love you friend!!!!
@@joshchapman3515 hey josh thank you man, love you too buddy. 🙏🙏
Hey man, it's OK. Don't beat yourself up. You have a lot of support. You are cared about!
I care about y’all too, like a big family 🙏🖤
You’re still young, you’re still not done suffering yet, the choice is yours
Amen brother. Thanks y’all, for being here. 🙏
@@SavedFromDeath-s1x decent point as well brother, suffering is personal in a lot of ways and each person’s suffering levels are different, what people can handle. Y’all both make good points, as long as I’m alive though I do have choice to overcome. I have definitely suffered A LOT, but others have suffered way more. Some don’t need to suffer much to get sober, as for some they must lose it all. God bless yall
So brave to post this!!!! it must’ve been so difficult so congratulations for doing it. You’re helping so many people and I hope you feel better soon!
Appreciate you. 🙏🖤
Slayer you're the man, dude! We're STILL here and we ALWAYS need you, and love you.
🖤🖤🖤I need y’all just as much.
I've fought alcoholism for many decades. I hop on and fall of the wagon many times. I'm struggling with wanting to get a bottle right now and normally I would say not today but today is one of those that well not sure if I'm going to make it through the day without drinking! This is the life of a person struggling with alcoholism
Please don’t brother, please stay sober man. 🙏
Dear Slayer, I've known you for a couple of weeks now And your Channel has helped me immensely. You don't need to "man Up" now, you were man enough to make this Video. You're Not guilty, only alcohol is. You're already Back to sober again right now. Much love from Germany And please keep making Videos. We all relapse. It's Not the end of the world-the Main Thing is to quit again And that's what you've done now!
Thank you for this beautiful comment my friend, I’m glad you’re here and part of this community and getting some value from my videos. I always say that you guys help me just as much as I help you and I mean that. Also awesome, my dads side of the family is mostly german, shout-out to you and shout out to Germany :). God bless