Man at this point I'm unsubscribing, I've been rooting for you for a whole 2 years. And it's obvious by now you really don't want this. You're a grown ass man with a ton of connections most people would only dream of. And your out here playing games. I'm done watching your continuous fall from grace.
I can hear the powder in your nose, bro. I guess it could just be allergies or a cold, but I feel like that’s unlikely. You’re playing with fire, my man. Just don’t go until you get too deep.
Lush you def right about how once you make that call or once your on your way to get drugs, literally symptoms/withdrawals all stop cause I know I’m about to be on
Stop relapsing bro you don’t need the drugs to be great, you’re interviews were dope , you have the potential to be the next Nardwar without the random gifts. Keep interviewing, mainly Bay Area artists. In my eyes an untapped market for interviews and talent fr.
You sound super young, but more importantly sound like you care. It’s not just that easy to say stop relapsing and you don’t need drugs. As for someone who’s been addicted to drugs it’s the hardest thing a human we’ll ever have to go through. Drug addicts don’t want to be drug addicts.
Those who do not recover are those who will not COMPLETELY give themselves to this program. Recovery ONLY comes first. Anything else is just delaying "the installment plan". Some cats OD others of us do it over time.
I see so many parallels within this person struggle that it's actually a reminder of what not to be and how not to act so for that I do greatly appreciate it
Everyone that tslkin down prob never been through it because this speech helped alot i can relate to all of of it i just learned to not tell anyone anything about it because im not gonna tell everyone im doin better until i know im done
Lush I love you brother. You reached out to me many times and tried to help. I’m 2 1/2 years sober thank god, but if you can’t get through a blog talking about you still respect the 12 step program without asking if it’s okay if I smoke or take a shot don’t you think it’s something you should take a look at ❤- Jesse rican
Uno! You are a treasure trove of information in the culture and I wish you all the best in your journey. Been a long time constituent and ❄️🤖Bot Mafia soldier, keep doing your thing! P.S. I wore the same Supreme+North Face jacket tonight and people been complimenting me like crazy
Seriously this is sad tho. I’ve actually seen Lush since i was growing up. I’m still a very big fan of battle rap and the battle rap community and I’ve been watching since 2 raw for the streets dvds and smack dvds and lions den days and I use to watch Lush a lot back in the day when KOTD was big and it’s actually heartbreaking to see how downhill Lush has gone and continues to go smfh I’m myself 8 months sober from a 7yr addiction and I hope Lush gets the help he needs.
If you went to a rehab, and worked the steps as diligently as it sounds you did, the fact is that you can’t modulate or tamp down or moderate your drinking or drugging. You have a fatal and progressive disease and you know that. The fact is that neither a drink nor a drug will fix your “you” problem. You’re not the same guy from 2013 and a drug isn’t going to bring back your 2013 energy.
This right hereeee.... It seems as if he thinks all the SHlT he endured from the no jumper era when he was sober was a result of his new found approach on how he deals with the world as a person in active recovery... When the fact he was SOBER is what got him there in the first place and also kept him afloat after all the BULLSHlT.. so now that he thinks using is going to somehow revert him back to the LUSH he used to be before no jumper that wouldnt of allowed himself to get treated how he did at no jumper Is 100000000% his addiction trying to trick him into justifying his use. Be that as it may.....if he says he's fine and content with his relapse at the moment... It is what it is...im no one to give anyone SHlT about that and relapse DOES HAPPEN. Its just reality....But the one thing thats bothering me about all of this is how he's acting so passive .. and blahzah blah...about it all and trying to use this warped sense of redemption... tryna justify him now being brought back to his "full form" now that he's using again. The one thing he and all of us addicts whove ever been through recovery at some point SHOULD ALWAYS KNOW AND KEEP AS A GOLDEN RULE OF THUMB is that DRUGS ARE ALWAYSSSSSS BAD. AND ARE THE ENEMY.. PERIOD...Even if they did help you in several different ways through a turbulent time. THEY ARE STILL THE ENEMY.. and being an active drug user is BAD BAD BAD BAAAAADDDDD. Bro really tryna move goal posts now and trick himself into thinking he gotta grip on it and it's the answer for him at the moment....like I said.. like having a good friend around to lean on during a bad time.. maybe IT IS..and maybe hes right..But him TRYING to justify it as if its something he possibly can have a handle on... And something that is "helping" is STRAIGHT UP SAD. Lush bro... I'm not tryna preach at you im currently in relapse myself...even taking methadone and still i haven't COMPLETELY GIVING IT UP since relapsing... but one thing IS...I DO DEFINITELY RECOGNIZE IT IS A BAD THING THAT I AM DOING.. and it is something i feel utter and complete shame about.. you dont need to beat yourself up over it.... that's not what I'm saying....but YOU DEFINITELY NEED TO COME TO TERMS WITH REALITY.. the reality that just like you said a relapse isn't about if its gonna happen JUST WHEN.....Well you loosing ALL OF THE FRUITS OF HARD HARD LABOR YOU ENDURED during your sobriety you got back... And having a firm grip on your life again... is INDEFINITELY GOING TO BE RIPPED FROM YOU AGAIN... It's not about if... it's just WHEN. trust and believe that
@@Esheezy69 if nobody gonna give it to someone the way I think they should. (Ppaauuseee) I feel obligated to KICK that SCIENCE to best of my ability Who knows? What I say may be what saves a life or helps someone get over that hump.. that they was having trouble getting over.
love lush dont wanna see u down bad. your strong homie and You are very self aware. youll be straight homie think positive even tho its cliche and hard sometimes
Exactly...the fact hes trying to use all of the adverse effects his recovery gave him. Is 100% indicative of someone who's brain is tricking him into tryna justify being in active addiction Relapse is apart of recovery.. YES.... TRYNA justify it and dismiss it tho... IS MOST DEFINITELY NOT THO. If his sponsor is telling him that... dude needs to be removed from his responsibilities as a sponsor.. im not even in NA and have never been to one rehab in my life But even i know... Once you relapse and start using whatever drugs you relapsed with as a consistent crutch regularly and THEN HAVE THE AUDACITY TO TRY AND JUSTIFY IT as if its a good thing...is definitely a one way ticket and a recipe into completely loosing EVERYTHING YOU GAINED IN RECOVERY . And unless im misunderstanding what lush is saying...it sounds like that's exactly what hes doing.
Celebrated 18 months yesterday man . When I heard the no jumper interview first thing you said you stopped going to meetings. I would love to be sober forever but who knows . Imma pray for you man and there are no coincidences maybe it’s part of your journey.
Prayers for the still suffering in and out of the program. You sound a lil wishy washy "Lush". Keep coming back, better yet STAY! No advice and my only suggestions are in THEE book.
Your intent is to be transparent but you’re still obscuring the truth. No, I don’t want to see you drink or smoke. What kind of plan is that? Get honest with yourself.
Lush I send mine’s brotha addiction is mf but you got this love one your gifted bro trying interviewing Northern California artist unexplored talent and with your gift of interviewing is only a matter of time
Those doctors need to be sued. They shouldnt have prescribed such addictive drugs to you if they were aware of your history and mental health and addiction struggles. They shoulda looked at your chart and given you safer drugs to intake. Those fucking doctors get more people addicted than street drugs and peer pressure does. My ex’s dad got addicted bc of “pain pills” he was prescribed. He killed himself one day. I wasnt with her when he did but she always struggled carrying that weight bc she was just a young girl. Ever since i experienced all that i never viewed doctors as people who are on our side.
@@lifeinterrupted678 doctors are enablers and they should be aware of his history and taken the extra precaution. Any doctor could’ve accessed his chart. In fact they’re supposed to while they see you. I can and will blame the doctors for this. You clearly just ignored everyrhing i said bc u hv a bias towards the medical industry which is crazy. U should research them sometime.
@@Dev_A_Station THEY ONLY KNOW WHAT HE TELLS THEM! No one but Lush is responsible for his relapse. If you or he knew anything about recovery you’d acknowledge that and stop shifting the blame.
@@lifeinterrupted678 and you clearly know nothing about mental health or recovery bc if u did u would know that any rehab or institution u stay in is public record and also they can look at that and judge based off that what drugs to give him. They feed you the same fucking addictive pills inside the wards as they do on the street. I been in a ward. Have you? Ive seen it all with my own eyes. Ur a random with a keyboard who’s horrifically misinformed. Now stop arguing with me and use the same device you’re on to research some shit. Bc u need to tap in.
I was your biggest hater i really didn't like you 5 minutes ago never liked you because I knew you were cappin.I must say I fucks with you my boy I thank you for being 💯 with us you just gained 1 more fan just keep it real and enjoy with no crash out and your good I just subscribed for the first time😅
The contents of your streams nearly always descend into relentless biography and lack any depth. You continually display delusions of grandeur and self-obsession. If you were able to step back and watch these streams from the perspective of "what would I think if this wasnt me?" you might see how you're coming across. All the best.
Do what makes you happy bro u aint new to this. Keep your life in balance tho you can still smoke blunts and have a pill without being a skante warrior. Stay away from coke, ice and opiates all that smoker shit Lush cmon cuh
Been so dope sick and the minute a dealer says he’s good and to come through my body immediately starts to feel better, crazy how the mind works
Half the H withdrawals goes away when the connect says come thru
Back at it like a crac addict
Lush tryna monetize his relapse GTFOH nobody care man it's over go ask for ya NJ job back
😂😂😂 monetize a relapse😂😂😂
Man at this point I'm unsubscribing, I've been rooting for you for a whole 2 years. And it's obvious by now you really don't want this. You're a grown ass man with a ton of connections most people would only dream of. And your out here playing games. I'm done watching your continuous fall from grace.
IT AiNT EASY .. LIVING A LIE IS NOT LIVING.. ...................................WE ALL GOTTA GO AND IT WOULD SUCK TO GO LAST.. 50cent
He HAD connections and addict burns hella bridges
Don’t give up on the goat
your too real for the internet. I appreciate you opening up and posting though I dont want you to stop unless you need to. very relatable
I can hear the powder in your nose, bro. I guess it could just be allergies or a cold, but I feel like that’s unlikely. You’re playing with fire, my man. Just don’t go until you get too deep.
Lush you def right about how once you make that call or once your on your way to get drugs, literally symptoms/withdrawals all stop cause I know I’m about to be on
Stop relapsing bro you don’t need the drugs to be great, you’re interviews were dope , you have the potential to be the next Nardwar without the random gifts. Keep interviewing, mainly Bay Area artists. In my eyes an untapped market for interviews and talent fr.
It’s not as easy as “just stop”
You sound super young, but more importantly sound like you care. It’s not just that easy to say stop relapsing and you don’t need drugs. As for someone who’s been addicted to drugs it’s the hardest thing a human we’ll ever have to go through. Drug addicts don’t want to be drug addicts.
@@RyanZe89well said!
@@mrjones7644you hoe yes it is. It’s a decision. If you can’t make that decision it’s do to lack of self belief and you are weak. Simple
Bro said “just stop” it’s a disease my boy, not how it works
Everyone in the NJ universe started fw you when you were sober, not off drugs. No need for the drugs fam
Those who do not recover are those who will not COMPLETELY give themselves to this program. Recovery ONLY comes first. Anything else is just delaying "the installment plan". Some cats OD others of us do it over time.
I see so many parallels within this person struggle that it's actually a reminder of what not to be and how not to act so for that I do greatly appreciate it
Just a roadbump dawg.
ALL GOOD LUSH. WE BEEN WIT U ❤🥰HAPPY FOR YOU UNO💪🏾👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏
Everyone that tslkin down prob never been through it because this speech helped alot i can relate to all of of it i just learned to not tell anyone anything about it because im not gonna tell everyone im doin better until i know im done
Lush I love you brother. You reached out to me many times and tried to help. I’m 2 1/2 years sober thank god, but if you can’t get through a blog talking about you still respect the 12 step program without asking if it’s okay if I smoke or take a shot don’t you think it’s something you should take a look at ❤- Jesse rican
Uno! You are a treasure trove of information in the culture and I wish you all the best in your journey. Been a long time constituent and ❄️🤖Bot Mafia soldier, keep doing your thing! P.S. I wore the same
Supreme+North Face jacket tonight and people been complimenting me like crazy
Seriously this is sad tho. I’ve actually seen Lush since i was growing up. I’m still a very big fan of battle rap and the battle rap community and I’ve been watching since 2 raw for the streets dvds and smack dvds and lions den days and I use to watch Lush a lot back in the day when KOTD was big and it’s actually heartbreaking to see how downhill Lush has gone and continues to go smfh I’m myself 8 months sober from a 7yr addiction and I hope Lush gets the help he needs.
Respect on your sobriety! I remember your twitter account from back in the day I believe.
Been a big fan since GrindTime... gotta say I'm disappointed. Wish you the best though.
It was only one time! ☹️💅
If you went to a rehab, and worked the steps as diligently as it sounds you did, the fact is that you can’t modulate or tamp down or moderate your drinking or drugging. You have a fatal and progressive disease and you know that. The fact is that neither a drink nor a drug will fix your “you” problem. You’re not the same guy from 2013 and a drug isn’t going to bring back your 2013 energy.
lush is in his 40s😂
This right hereeee.... It seems as if he thinks all the SHlT he endured from the no jumper era when he was sober was a result of his new found approach on how he deals with the world as a person in active recovery... When the fact he was SOBER is what got him there in the first place and also kept him afloat after all the BULLSHlT.. so now that he thinks using is going to somehow revert him back to the LUSH he used to be before no jumper that wouldnt of allowed himself to get treated how he did at no jumper
Is 100000000% his addiction trying to trick him into justifying his use.
Be that as it may.....if he says he's fine and content with his relapse at the moment... It is what it is...im no one to give anyone SHlT about that and relapse DOES HAPPEN. Its just reality....But the one thing thats bothering me about all of this is how he's acting so passive .. and blahzah blah...about it all and trying to use this warped sense of redemption... tryna justify him now being brought back to his "full form" now that he's using again.
The one thing he and all of us addicts whove ever been through recovery at some point SHOULD ALWAYS KNOW AND KEEP AS A GOLDEN RULE OF THUMB is that DRUGS ARE ALWAYSSSSSS BAD. AND ARE THE ENEMY.. PERIOD...Even if they did help you in several different ways through a turbulent time. THEY ARE STILL THE ENEMY.. and being an active drug user is BAD BAD BAD BAAAAADDDDD.
Bro really tryna move goal posts now and trick himself into thinking he gotta grip on it and it's the answer for him at the moment....like I said.. like having a good friend around to lean on during a bad time.. maybe IT IS..and maybe hes right..But him TRYING to justify it as if its something he possibly can have a handle on... And something that is "helping" is STRAIGHT UP SAD.
Lush bro... I'm not tryna preach at you im currently in relapse myself...even taking methadone and still i haven't COMPLETELY GIVING IT UP since relapsing... but one thing IS...I DO DEFINITELY RECOGNIZE IT IS A BAD THING THAT I AM DOING.. and it is something i feel utter and complete shame about.. you dont need to beat yourself up over it.... that's not what I'm saying....but YOU DEFINITELY NEED TO COME TO TERMS WITH REALITY.. the reality that just like you said a relapse isn't about if its gonna happen JUST WHEN.....Well you loosing ALL OF THE FRUITS OF HARD HARD LABOR YOU ENDURED during your sobriety you got back... And having a firm grip on your life again... is INDEFINITELY GOING TO BE RIPPED FROM YOU AGAIN... It's not about if... it's just WHEN. trust and believe that
@@p__kingg damn dude you just spit hella facts. Mad respect.
@@Esheezy69 if nobody gonna give it to someone the way I think they should. (Ppaauuseee) I feel obligated to KICK that SCIENCE to best of my ability
Who knows? What I say may be what saves a life or helps someone get over that hump.. that they was having trouble getting over.
I bet you can give us page numbers for this! Straight out the book! Back to the basics!
love lush dont wanna see u down bad. your strong homie and You are very self aware.
youll be straight homie think positive even tho its cliche and hard sometimes
He really isn't very self aware.
relapse doesn't change your recovery plan
also id like to state that relapse does not have to be part of your recovery process.
Exactly...the fact hes trying to use all of the adverse effects his recovery gave him. Is 100% indicative of someone who's brain is tricking him into tryna justify being in active addiction
Relapse is apart of recovery.. YES.... TRYNA justify it and dismiss it tho... IS MOST DEFINITELY NOT THO.
If his sponsor is telling him that... dude needs to be removed from his responsibilities as a sponsor.. im not even in NA and have never been to one rehab in my life
But even i know... Once you relapse and start using whatever drugs you relapsed with as a consistent crutch regularly and THEN HAVE THE AUDACITY TO TRY AND JUSTIFY IT as if its a good thing...is definitely a one way ticket and a recipe into completely loosing EVERYTHING YOU GAINED IN RECOVERY .
And unless im misunderstanding what lush is saying...it sounds like that's exactly what hes doing.
All it takes is one drink too many and next thing you know, you're putting shit up your nose man, come on
i fw you heavy i appreciate your honesty 🙏💯
Celebrated 18 months yesterday man . When I heard the no jumper interview first thing you said you stopped going to meetings. I would love to be sober forever but who knows . Imma pray for you man and there are no coincidences maybe it’s part of your journey.
You’ll be good homie. We got you out here in the Bay
Prayers for the still suffering in and out of the program. You sound a lil wishy washy "Lush". Keep coming back, better yet STAY! No advice and my only suggestions are in THEE book.
Dude sounds like he on a spaceship with that background noise
Lush High AF here, coming from a former addict, one thing about addicts you can always spot em en drop em at the dime of a hat
I feel like hanging around people who are actively using is not good for you Lush..
Keep pushing Lush, you got this.
Your intent is to be transparent but you’re still obscuring the truth. No, I don’t want to see you drink or smoke. What kind of plan is that? Get honest with yourself.
Lush I send mine’s brotha addiction is mf but you got this love one your gifted bro trying interviewing Northern California artist unexplored talent and with your gift of interviewing is only a matter of time
No accountability at 42 years old.
fiend mentality
it’s cuz he’s a rich jew
Dope fiend lush, knew right away you was on like a porch light
Caddy Ron would be proud
Subs are fine to be on they don't get u hi n make u act out. Better than sticking nxxdles n ur arm in serious trouble every week no?
You put your girl business out that’s wild asf !
Who else had a heart attack at :40???
Damnnn looks like the cocaine bot is at it again... Literally 🤖❄️
Those doctors need to be sued. They shouldnt have prescribed such addictive drugs to you if they were aware of your history and mental health and addiction struggles. They shoulda looked at your chart and given you safer drugs to intake. Those fucking doctors get more people addicted than street drugs and peer pressure does. My ex’s dad got addicted bc of “pain pills” he was prescribed. He killed himself one day. I wasnt with her when he did but she always struggled carrying that weight bc she was just a young girl. Ever since i experienced all that i never viewed doctors as people who are on our side.
They only know what he told them. This is on Lush. Don’t blame the doctors. Hold him accountable.
@@lifeinterrupted678 doctors are enablers and they should be aware of his history and taken the extra precaution. Any doctor could’ve accessed his chart. In fact they’re supposed to while they see you. I can and will blame the doctors for this. You clearly just ignored everyrhing i said bc u hv a bias towards the medical industry which is crazy. U should research them sometime.
@@Dev_A_Station THEY ONLY KNOW WHAT HE TELLS THEM! No one but Lush is responsible for his relapse. If you or he knew anything about recovery you’d acknowledge that and stop shifting the blame.
@@Dev_A_Station FURTHER, he didn’t have to fill the prescription OR could’ve told the doc he wasn’t comfortable with an opiate. That simple.
@@lifeinterrupted678 and you clearly know nothing about mental health or recovery bc if u did u would know that any rehab or institution u stay in is public record and also they can look at that and judge based off that what drugs to give him. They feed you the same fucking addictive pills inside the wards as they do on the street. I been in a ward. Have you? Ive seen it all with my own eyes. Ur a random with a keyboard who’s horrifically misinformed. Now stop arguing with me and use the same device you’re on to research some shit. Bc u need to tap in.
Stay up bro . Becareful
Crash out UNOOO, how the mighty have fallen
Just hate seeing you like this bro
I was your biggest hater i really didn't like you 5 minutes ago never liked you because I knew you were cappin.I must say I fucks with you my boy I thank you for being 💯 with us you just gained 1 more fan just keep it real and enjoy with no crash out and your good I just subscribed for the first time😅
Much love homeboy! I appreciate that.
glad your back bro stay grounded
ITS NOT WORTH IT TO RISK IT !!! DROP THE BISCUIT !!!
Rooting for you Lush. Be sober sober brother. Not California sober lol
We back baby 💪🏾💪🏾💯🔱
The contents of your streams nearly always descend into relentless biography and lack any depth. You continually display delusions of grandeur and self-obsession. If you were able to step back and watch these streams from the perspective of "what would I think if this wasnt me?" you might see how you're coming across. All the best.
Let’s take over 2024 🔥🔥
All good lush, think of Caddy broski
I was following you until you talked about the gabapentin
Hi Lush and how you
COCAINE BOT FOR LIFE 🤖❄️🤖❄️🤖❄️
Stay up brodie
Stay up lush
Gets in the gym. Get addicted to fitness it’s the only way.
Dude get off the internet be you , get back to what you know f this fake life , its fake all these actors
Yes
Crack or tweek?
Downers foo
Your teeth give me anxiety x)
Does t Rex do meth?
Adam 16 made you relapse
53:08
Lush being fake again saying “on the set”
On the set u luv me
37:23 26:40 48:50 49:55 53:46 57:31
Sad 2 Say but once a fiend, always a fiend
He's on Meth
Lush what’s good fooo
Geeked 4L😵💫
Grown men saying pause is just admitting you having gay thoughts and then letting us know😂
Can’t be playing with your nose playboy smh 🤦🏾♂️
You went on all these poscast saying how you were totally sober but high the whole time. You lie about everything
sober as a fake gopher !!
YOU LIED TO ME LUSH
Do what makes you happy bro u aint new to this. Keep your life in balance tho you can still smoke blunts and have a pill without being a skante warrior. Stay away from coke, ice and opiates all that smoker shit Lush cmon cuh
Stomp on the like button
clown 😂
Boo. Super lame. Sober Lush is the best Lush. Remember Ronnie 2.0? Don’t go down like Ron, get clean man.
Lush, your a Rooster zodiac sign and this is your enemy year. The year of the cat. Take it easy