Ex Opiate Addict interview-Tim

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  • Опубліковано 16 вер 2024
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Tim, a former opiate addict from Clearwater, Florida.
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  • @spacewombat6174
    @spacewombat6174 3 роки тому +339

    I found Tim to be one of the most humble and relatable people you have interviewed.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +62

      Thank you, not so long ago pride was my downfall. Being humble is a very important lesson I've learned.

    • @roannfrome1025
      @roannfrome1025 3 роки тому +12

      @@Tim.M.Johnson Tim, you are a really likeable person. Like, a very good person. Smart and articulate. Loveable 💗 Tough 💪 Handsome 🤭 Hate seeing this happening to you. 😥

    • @louisfamily9948
      @louisfamily9948 3 роки тому +1

      8feet was

    • @triplejandcrafts2753
      @triplejandcrafts2753 3 роки тому +2

      @@Tim.M.Johnson please take this as your chance to do what you have dreamed me. You have been thru hell never go back. 🙏

    • @sallyannbarrington1392
      @sallyannbarrington1392 3 роки тому +5

      Lots of respect for you Tim, you took some hard lessons in life the hard way and for this I am sorry. You have worked hard, humble and respectful. A real u turn - congratulations 👏 x

  • @kiefsweat6507
    @kiefsweat6507 3 роки тому +283

    As I sit here in a lonely dark room watching this documentary and smoking fentanyl after loosing my wife of 14 years to a relapse and overdose after we were both clean ,after seeing sobriety for 6 years I can honestly say it’s not easy but the happiness is worth it, I don’t wish anyone the pain I’m feeling right now and am so proud that you were able to remain sober. All I long for is to be with her again, don’t care about anything else.

    • @UhaveN0idea
      @UhaveN0idea 3 роки тому +40

      Sending you all the love in the world. There’s not much else I can say. Whether or not you believe it, you deserve to feel peace; whatever that may mean or be to you. ❤️

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +42

      I wish you the best. I've lost an ex girlfriend and my ex-wife to this battle. My best friend, who was there when my brother passed, committed suicide a week ago. Not to mention all of the friends from school and through life that have passed. The struggle is real. Just know that it CAN be different, once you really want it. I will say a prayer for you. Just know that you're loved by someone somewhere. I wish you the best, keep your head up.

    • @realMaverickBuckley
      @realMaverickBuckley 3 роки тому +22

      Don't give up. If you OD you won't see her again. Kick that Evil crap. You know you can.

    • @louisianarainwater
      @louisianarainwater 3 роки тому +7

      💚🕊️💚

    • @sodapop4585
      @sodapop4585 3 роки тому +2

      ❤️‍🩹

  • @brandondimmitt5050
    @brandondimmitt5050 3 роки тому +507

    I know you're not making the money you used to make Mark, but I can assure you the impact your videos make far outweigh any picture you've ever taken (not to diminish your career.) Please keep it up.

    • @thekatt...
      @thekatt... 3 роки тому +5

      💯❤

    • @doopstoop4656
      @doopstoop4656 3 роки тому +6

      It’s not about the money.

    • @thematriarchy2075
      @thematriarchy2075 3 роки тому +53

      @@doopstoop4656 Ofcourse money is part of this. How is he going to be able to create this content without it? He has spent a lot of his own money on this project.

    • @lori6477
      @lori6477 3 роки тому +20

      Great Project Mark!!! Found you one day on You Tube and haven't looked back since!
      Thank you for this!

    • @michealgideon2001
      @michealgideon2001 3 роки тому +7

      I feels bad for people who just live for money all they think about is money they judge people based off money

  • @jasonolinger7585
    @jasonolinger7585 3 роки тому +146

    Tim's voice is an example of what it is like for addicts when they are completely off of drugs, he has constant anxiety all the time and just talking to people is not pleasant for him. Long term drug and alcohol abuse damages the prefrontal cortex resulting in anxiety, social anxiety, impaired decision making, bad memory, depression, compulsion. These people suffer from mental health problems that need to be treated with understanding and compassion, not looked at as weaker than or less than, yet there is this stigma that addicts are taking the easy way out being high all day.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +75

      You are correct sir. I was definitely nervous telling my story for the first time on camera, especially UA-cam. It was definitely easier to keep using, than to face reality. Unfortunately that really only leads to two places, institutions or death. I've got too much to lose, and too much to live for.

    • @jasonolinger7585
      @jasonolinger7585 3 роки тому +18

      @@Tim.M.Johnson I am A recovering addict as well Tim, and i appreciate you despite not feeling comfortable still following through with the video.

    • @tnelly1295
      @tnelly1295 3 роки тому

      Yuppppp

    • @XJ0n3s
      @XJ0n3s 2 роки тому +8

      The stigma is societies biggest and worst epidemic.

    • @afterthestorm221
      @afterthestorm221 2 роки тому +4

      Learning to forgive myself and put down the heavy weight of regret was one of the biggest steps in my recovery.

  • @fernandapartridge5174
    @fernandapartridge5174 3 роки тому +151

    I didn’t want this interview to end. Found him fascinating. He’s been through some serious shit, that would have destroyed a lot of people and has come out the other side. He’s a tough dude, very likeable. I’m sorry that all that happened to you and your family Tim…. Thanks for sharing your story. ❤️

  • @bernitajenkins3180
    @bernitajenkins3180 3 роки тому +26

    Another reason to respect Tim... I don't recall another interviewee who took the time to thank people in the comments.
    A true gentleman. His family should be proud.

  • @oldbear6813
    @oldbear6813 3 роки тому +25

    Living with pain is no only physically exhausting it's also incredibly mentally exhausting, good on Tim for taking on the attitude he has when living this journey! Stay strong buddy!!

  • @smeegain3657
    @smeegain3657 3 роки тому +32

    All the best for your journey, Tim! You are such a humble and honest person and you deserve a good life!❤️

  • @lizbetpcb3759
    @lizbetpcb3759 3 роки тому +23

    You’re a good guy, Tim. I find your story fascinating. I’d love to hear more of it if you decide to share more here, again.
    Mark, thank you for allowing people to come to this safe place to share with all of us. My eyes are wide open come what may.
    All the best to you, Tim. 💕

  • @Labyrinth22
    @Labyrinth22 3 роки тому +74

    I wish Tim all the best. I hope 2021 brings him health, happiness, and peace from his trauma. He’s a sweet soul. 💜

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +19

      Thank you, so far this has been a good year.

    • @taraf1819
      @taraf1819 3 роки тому +1

      @@Tim.M.Johnson ♡

  • @istateyourname4710
    @istateyourname4710 3 роки тому +80

    Tim, my brother was in a devastating motorcycle accident as well. Motorists don't allow a car length for people on cycles like they should. His ankle was so shattered that he looked down @ his foot and didn't recognize it as his own b/c it was facing the opposite direction. Doctors told him he would heal, but never run a marathon or anything like that. Three years later, he completed his first marathon. The tenacity of the human spirit, body, & mind cannot be understated. Good luck to you, and thanks for sharing your story.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +7

      Thank you, and yes you can do just about anything you put your mind to.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +2

      @@Tim.M.Johnson 😊👏❤

    • @samsham8218
      @samsham8218 3 роки тому +1

      Amen.

    • @jacketofthe80s13
      @jacketofthe80s13 3 роки тому +1

      ya know whats funny though the arrogant fucking few that ride bikes take over the road like they own it splitting lanes of traffic just for the fun of it those bikers get every single thing they deserve. normal one just driving normal on their bikes they're cool to me

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +2

      @@jacketofthe80s13 Whoa! That's harsh. Nobody deserves to be hurt in a motorcycle accident.

  • @SellsZac
    @SellsZac 3 роки тому +273

    You can just feel the anxiety in this guys voice.

    • @denamullen340
      @denamullen340 3 роки тому +33

      It’s the most uncomfortable, nonstop feeling. I was a Xanax abuser too and I swear it fucks up your nervous system. I think anxiety is the number one reason for relapse. For the ones that truly want to be clean.

    • @dp6970
      @dp6970 3 роки тому +22

      I know, it’s really difficult to watch, personally, because I’ve suffered from anxiety my whole life. 😓 I feel bad for him.

    • @simplyshanna5021
      @simplyshanna5021 3 роки тому +4

      I think he’s high

    • @Arree1969
      @Arree1969 3 роки тому +10

      He's suffering because he needs drugs.

    • @4Thug2Life0
      @4Thug2Life0 3 роки тому +13

      What would he gain from lying to us? He can bc on prescription meds or had a few , don’t be so judgmental.

  • @Christina-gm3xn
    @Christina-gm3xn 3 роки тому +9

    Thank you for sharing your experience Tim . I lost my husband in 2016 to opiates . You’re incredibly strong . I wish you the best

  • @mercedesd236
    @mercedesd236 2 роки тому +8

    Mark as an ex heroin addict I want to thank you for these videos. They remind me of the pain I was in, why i was using, and also show me how far I've come since I decided to get clean. I watch these videos and I feel for these people still stuck in the life. Thank you for giving addicts a voice in a world that is so cruel to us who only wish for us to die, who think we are useless and not able to change, who stick felony records on us almost forcing us away from being able to have any type of normal lives. Our childhoods were rough but the world continuing that abuse us I think is ultimately worse and keeps us in the cycle.

    • @holly0297
      @holly0297 11 місяців тому

      You just said what my heart wants to scream from the rafters.

  • @jacquelinehull6234
    @jacquelinehull6234 3 роки тому +31

    Can anyone else just picture themselves talking to this dude for HOURS? Best of luck to you Tim!

  • @skyking228
    @skyking228 3 роки тому +193

    He'd be the best high school counselor for boy's ever... Always interesting, thanks.

    • @taxpayer9546
      @taxpayer9546 3 роки тому +2

      How so?

    • @whichonespink333
      @whichonespink333 3 роки тому +11

      @@taxpayer9546 he seems like someone you could easily relate to; there's something so human about him

    • @LuchadorMasque
      @LuchadorMasque 3 роки тому

      How is that? Where'd he get that masters from?

    • @LuchadorMasque
      @LuchadorMasque 3 роки тому +1

      @@whichonespink333 probably that he is indeed a human?

    • @skyking228
      @skyking228 3 роки тому +13

      @@LuchadorMasque You might want to work on your comprehension skills... Have a great day.

  • @murphy6424
    @murphy6424 3 роки тому +41

    Good for him. He's so right " if nothing changes, nothing changes".

  • @newmewhodis3372
    @newmewhodis3372 3 роки тому +21

    I love his ability to be open and vulnerable

  • @nhgirl733
    @nhgirl733 3 роки тому +27

    Respect to Tim and the best of wishes! You got this! I am rooting for your continued recovery! What a nice guy!

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +14

      Thank you, just taking things one day at a time.

  • @savorsalvagescent2300
    @savorsalvagescent2300 3 роки тому +20

    Tim, I have so much respect for you + the incredible changes you are making. So inspiring.

  • @QueenEvil504
    @QueenEvil504 3 роки тому +24

    I could listen to him for hours and would buy the book if he ever wrote 1. Keep pushing through, Tim. You got this!

  • @Shelbs644
    @Shelbs644 3 роки тому +40

    May of 2020 my oldest sister accidentally overdosed. I am the baby sister and had to be the one to make the phone call to our parents. It’s a nightmare I relive every single day.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +10

      Stay strong, it will get easier with time. I'll say a prayer for you.

    • @Sunshine-gh6vy
      @Sunshine-gh6vy 3 роки тому +5

      Rest In Peace 🕊 so sorry for your loss. Even though it’s hard but Keep being strong 💪

    • @KimbradleyMasterGardener
      @KimbradleyMasterGardener 3 роки тому +5

      So sorry

    • @crustcity
      @crustcity 3 роки тому +5

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @user-randi1987
      @user-randi1987 3 роки тому +4

      I am so very sorry for your loss

  • @soshea5655
    @soshea5655 3 роки тому +16

    Much love to Tim and congratulations to him and his sobriety, wonderful interview

  • @JohnR.Luv2luvu
    @JohnR.Luv2luvu 7 місяців тому +2

    So glad you made it through after all these tragedies. So sorry about your brother. Think of the good times to keep his memory alive . It’s great you have your child now. Wishing the best for you and family. God Bless You All! ❤

  • @Sh0rtStuff101
    @Sh0rtStuff101 2 роки тому +4

    The strength you have is radiating. Your story brought me to tears for half an hour Tim, and it’s so good to see how high you hold yourself. It’s hard to do that sometimes, even when we are in recovery. Thank you for sharing man, hope you are well.

  • @Niko-pi3ks
    @Niko-pi3ks 3 роки тому +82

    Tim is highly articulate, intelligent, open , and honest. I really wish him sobriety m.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +10

      Thank you

    • @sherbear1748
      @sherbear1748 3 роки тому +4

      @@Tim.M.Johnson wow Tim you’ve lived 100 lives already. 😉
      Thankfully you’re thriving and sober after all that. I wish you nothing but peace, love and happiness...to you AND your entire family.
      I live in Sarasota, was crazy when I heard you say St Pete, very close to home. Lol
      God Bless and take care.✌️

    • @people_watcher
      @people_watcher 3 роки тому +4

      Hi Tim, I have lived in the Largo/Seminole area my whole life. Drugs are so bad in Pinellas County. I am so happy that you found your way to sobriety. Just from watching stories like yours and others on You tube . I can only imagine the pain and struggles that comes with addiction. Never look back and continue your life sober. Much love , prayer and well wishes from over here in Largo.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +3

      @@people_watcher Thank you so much for the support. Yes it's been bad in Pinellas for quite a while.

    • @glowingsme7943
      @glowingsme7943 3 роки тому +2

      @@people_watcher I’m not sure, Pasco might have Pinellas beat on crazy and drugs…. The population is just thicker in Pinellas

  • @seedsareus6853
    @seedsareus6853 3 роки тому +10

    I wish this man very well. It was a blessing to hear his story and I hope he lives a happy life moving forward from his past.

  • @charlesE89
    @charlesE89 3 роки тому +14

    He’s been through it. It’s inspiring to see him stoic in the face of his circumstances. I’ve been feeling sorry for myself, and compared to him I’m the luckiest guy on earth, perspective.

  • @levigodro9827
    @levigodro9827 3 роки тому +24

    Hats off to this guy ! He is one of the few on this channel that takes responsibility for their own actions in life. His drive to improve and staying focused on being a good parent is very honorable. I wish Tim the best.

    • @xwakingthefallenx
      @xwakingthefallenx 3 роки тому +1

      I mostly agree with what you're saying, but honestly the majority of people accept their decisions as their own and take responsibility for their actions from what I've seen on here and speaking with addicts personally. They just have a disease preventing them from stopping

  • @bthalsey5943
    @bthalsey5943 3 роки тому +9

    Wow! He just had the BEST therapy session of his life. Bless you Mark. And best of luck to Tim 😊

  • @cassiopeiathetortoise115
    @cassiopeiathetortoise115 3 роки тому +14

    Such an eye opening, educating interview. Feeling thankful that I could hear his story. So glad Tim is doing so good now after all he has been through. Became a father to be proud of. Best wishes..

  • @mandypotter5095
    @mandypotter5095 11 місяців тому +2

    Thank you for getting back with me , today will be a struggle as meeting up with an old friend whom still use and I don’t need much pushing so wish me luck

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 11 місяців тому

      Stay strong and keep your head up.

  • @tmusa2002
    @tmusa2002 3 роки тому +5

    This is probably one of the strongest guys I’ve ever heard speak. He has beaten a lot of odds and came a long way over a rocky road. Respect for this dude.

  • @Crystal_chill
    @Crystal_chill 3 роки тому +13

    What a good storyteller and I believe he just needed to speak from his heart, and we are listening. Drugs took my dad when I was 14.
    They suck.

    • @Mr.otaka108
      @Mr.otaka108 2 роки тому +1

      So sorry for your loss 💜

  • @patsykaeIn_PA
    @patsykaeIn_PA 3 роки тому +4

    This was by far the best interview I have seen on SWU. So informative. I have watched them all and this man seems to be the most sincere. No BS. I am sure he will stay sober and this might help many others. We all make mistakes in life. Now you are on the right path. Thanks so much for telling your story.

  • @rlms56
    @rlms56 3 роки тому +14

    He’s a smart articulate young man. Hopefully he will get the help he needs and deserves.

  • @justjay4405
    @justjay4405 3 роки тому +15

    I super related to Tim. I grew up in Central Florida at the same time and experienced a lot of what Tim described. I wonder if we ever crossed paths. Wishing him the best and grateful we both survived.

  • @jacobclayton4828
    @jacobclayton4828 3 роки тому +29

    Tim, there is so much I need to tell you, but for the next few hours tho, I gotta go help take care of my dad. I’ll be back. (unless my frazzled mind forgets until it remembers) You’re a good guy, and worthy of so much respect with what you’ve been through. Don’t let anyone, not even yourself (Sorry, not to presume, I am my own worst malefactor in my existence, and I know how commonplace that is) convince you otherwise!

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +14

      Thank you sir.

    • @Parrotgirl-tattoo
      @Parrotgirl-tattoo 3 роки тому +11

      @@Tim.M.Johnson Blessings to you Tim. You're another example of how this could happen to anyone.
      Love from Hillsborough county. :)

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +18

      @@Parrotgirl-tattoo Thank you, I hope my story can help deter or give someone hope. Gotta always remember things can be worse.

    • @thekatt...
      @thekatt... 3 роки тому +4

      ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @ruthjuliana9222
    @ruthjuliana9222 2 роки тому +5

    He is so proud of his brother and his brother overdosing was his first heartbreak and you can tell by the way he speaks about it, he still hurts.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 2 роки тому +3

      Yes, he was such a good person, and I've held onto blame for a very long time. I've slowly had to accept and realize that he made the choice, but I still have guilt for ever allowing myself to let him take part with my friends and I. He was only 18 months younger than me, so he always wanted to hangout with me and my friends. The worst part was he got sober and cleaned up, then would dabble once and a while. What got him was mixing the benzos with opiates, especially with a low tolerance. He was my only sibling. Thanks for your comment.

  • @nicxbec
    @nicxbec 11 місяців тому +2

    Thank you for sharing your story. I could hear your voice shaking in the beginning, I know exactly what that feels like. But as you continued I found myself drawn to listening to you. You have a great voice and a great way of speaking. You came off as intelligent and interesting. I wish you nothing but the best! And thank you Mark.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 11 місяців тому +2

      Thanks for your kind words. I was definitely nervous going in front of a camera, to expose my vulnerabilities and issues to the world.

  • @Sarai0901
    @Sarai0901 3 роки тому +10

    What a great guy, I'm glad he takes responsibility of is own actions and does something about it. Wish him all the love, he deserves it!

  • @midgard8550
    @midgard8550 3 роки тому +14

    Tim has been through a lot. In Some ways he reminds me of myself. I grew up in the 90s as well. Really great interview

  • @powderandpaint14
    @powderandpaint14 3 роки тому +40

    One lesson from this is absolutely always wear full gear and a helmet if you're riding a motorbike!

    • @brucegwynn8509
      @brucegwynn8509 3 роки тому +4

      @@apaaaa that's the best saying that I have ever heard , works for motorcycle riding or drug use I think

    • @revelationtruth1252
      @revelationtruth1252 3 роки тому

      Yes!!

  • @Ashleyiza
    @Ashleyiza 3 роки тому +9

    Keep pushing Tim. You aren't alone 💖 nothing changes if nothing changes! I love that saying so much. Needed to hear it today

  • @stella-vu8vh
    @stella-vu8vh 3 роки тому +18

    He sounds so nervous, on the verge of shaking from nervous energy, cant wait to finish this one.

  • @thenameless1896
    @thenameless1896 3 роки тому +54

    I don't get why doctors keep prescribing opiates for wisdom teeth?! Especially to someone who's had drug problems?!
    Like I also had mine impacted and had to be surgically taken out. Had two surgeries both only on local anaesthesia, went home by myself after it both times and the only thing I've got was ice and Ibuprofen (advil) for like a week and it was fine?! Don't they realise that giving opiates for such a small surgery is SO dangerous like why

    • @thesunbehindthesun1574
      @thesunbehindthesun1574 3 роки тому +3

      Yup I am a recovering addict and that’s all I got as well for pain. I wasn’t expecting anything else either except antibiotics and Ibuprofen 800mg. I am on Methadone 90mg 1x daily, Gabapentin 800mg 4x daily, and medical cannabis around 0.25g a day of 90% pure cannabis distillate or live resin. Being on Methadone anyways for addiction it did WONDERS for my tooth pain post procedure of tooth extraction and an an infection in my gums. I really didn’t need anything else.

    • @Cbd_7ohm
      @Cbd_7ohm 3 роки тому +2

      Don't blame the doctor.

    • @Parrotgirl-tattoo
      @Parrotgirl-tattoo 3 роки тому +6

      They don't prescribe it anymore. Not in florida anyway. The epidemic had become so bad that there were pain clinics EVERYWHERE. People would come here from out of state just to get pills, until Gov Scott & Pam Bondi finally cracked down. That left a bunch of addicts with no supply. Now we have a bunch of heroin & fentanyl addicts. Very sad. :(

    • @thenameless1896
      @thenameless1896 3 роки тому +6

      @@Parrotgirl-tattoo yeah cutting the supply like that wasn't a smart choice either and left so many people in dispair

    • @nurseanastasialiberty
      @nurseanastasialiberty 3 роки тому +13

      I'm a nurse. If a patient states they have pain a 10/10 or even mention that they are in excruciating pain, then the doctor has no choice but to treat the pain with something stronger like an opiate. Sometimes doctors have no choice. We can't ever assume that a patient is an addict, or addicted to opiates, otherwise we can lose our license or get sued. It's very complicated but we are usually faced with these complex issues every day.

  • @leneo1731
    @leneo1731 2 роки тому +3

    This is one of the videos that have a huge impact on me.
    I can't imagine loosing my sibling like that.
    The guilt, omg, just unbearable!
    What a strong, amazing person you are!
    I wish you get a good life, you truly deserve it!

  • @staceyklj
    @staceyklj Місяць тому +2

    Tim, bro we could've easily hung out back in the day! I kept thinking I knew you because your past is that familiar. I'm so glad that you did this interview despite your level of anxiety. I could feel it through the screen but man, props to you for getting your stuff together and living your best life and being able to share your story of hope! Much love and light. ❤

  • @Krulle37
    @Krulle37 3 роки тому +12

    Wow this dude been through it all.
    Good to hear hes doing well now and takes care of his kid.

  • @J_Alrighty
    @J_Alrighty 3 роки тому +9

    Thanks for your story Tim. We should never underestimate the amount of strength and determination people like you possess.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +4

      Thank you, I'm trying everyday to remain strong.

  • @estevangriffin4826
    @estevangriffin4826 3 роки тому +62

    An "Underbelly" top ten for sure... 👍

  • @thisway6539
    @thisway6539 3 роки тому +42

    i'd like tim to have a series of average days, where nothing especially good or bad happens.

  • @madelinebarnes3274
    @madelinebarnes3274 3 роки тому +6

    Amazing ❤ his voice is so nervous for being so honest. 7 years clean from heroine and 6 months off suboxone!

  • @mendagy
    @mendagy 3 роки тому +2

    The tone & timbre of his voice - especially added on top of the emotional tremorw - really hit home. My heart goes out to him. Few things devour the soul, leaving behind a sad, hollowed-out husk, like drugs do. It doesn't matter; it eats away at a person, leaving them less than human, in their own eyes & the eyes of the world.
    Thank you, Sir, for treating these already-damaged people with such respect & dignity.

  • @zosothezephead837
    @zosothezephead837 3 роки тому +6

    Wow, I've gotta hand it to you Tim. Your willpower and inner strength are stronger than steel. And such an outlook. My best wishes to you, my friend.

  • @margaretcostello8528
    @margaretcostello8528 3 роки тому +9

    What a great story of recovery. I am impressed by his stoicism.

  • @joshua7233
    @joshua7233 2 роки тому +17

    The poor dude is going back to terrifyingly sad and brutal memories, give him a break. I would be a wreck too if I had to condense all my deepest traumas into a 40-minute video.

  • @kristopherbearden590
    @kristopherbearden590 8 місяців тому +2

    Very interesting story I enjoyed it immensely. I wish you nothing but happiness and fortune to come your way. Thanks to you and Mark!

  • @koffinkat666
    @koffinkat666 3 роки тому +64

    Man did he just make it through the whole interview without mentioning the sickness you get when you don't have it? This dudes tough, I am THE first one to mention the horror show sickness when talking about my addiction. He didn't even mention it DAMN!

    • @thesunbehindthesun1574
      @thesunbehindthesun1574 3 роки тому +27

      Yeah what the hell? That’s one of the first things I will mention to people who are curious about how addiction works. I try giving them the analogy of getting food poisoning, having the flu with a 101 degree fever, getting the most severe panic attack that lasts like 4 hours at a time, finding out your family died in a plane crash, feeling like your bones are on fire, can’t fall asleep or stay asleep, impending feelings of terror, finding out your spouse cheated on you with your best friend, finding out your child is not really yours, etc. You get the picture. Pretty much some of the most intense mental and physical torture you will go through, as a result of hijacking your brain and forcing it to be artificially dependent on substances to make it through the days.

    • @joski9030
      @joski9030 3 роки тому +18

      Hope you pull through man I’m a functional alcoholic unfortunately
      Every day is a struggle

    • @koffinkat666
      @koffinkat666 3 роки тому +13

      @@thesunbehindthesun1574 See you nailed it!, I explain it like that as well. I hate when people say it's like the worst Flu you've ever had......Doesn't even come close to the pain it really hits you with.
      Indeed very odd of him not to mention it, That's one of the first things I mention too when trying to explain Opiate addiction to people.

    • @koffinkat666
      @koffinkat666 3 роки тому +12

      @@joski9030 I have been addicted to many things in my life, The two hardest things to come off of was Opiates and Alcohol.
      I used to drink like a fish and at one point was cracking a bottle of Vodka in the morning....NASTY! One thing I can tell you is you know when they say "It get's better"
      I never believed it but it does, When you quit drinking it is hell for a few weeks then milder hell for a month then shitty for about 2-3 months THEN nearly nothing!
      Not kidding, The only issue is making it that long. Good luck man I know exactly how you feel.

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 3 роки тому +4

      @@koffinkat666..Definitely right about the alcohol...thats exactly how it was for me when I stopped

  • @charlesdaubner7667
    @charlesdaubner7667 3 роки тому +7

    You are a remarkable man Tim, an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story. And thank you Mark for your amazing work.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +4

      Thank you, I hope this can help someone .

  • @carolynrupard2699
    @carolynrupard2699 3 роки тому +4

    Tim, I wish you well. You have been through it. Shows how strong you are. I'm rooting for you! Praying you receive all of what you want in life!

  • @quackalot9073
    @quackalot9073 3 роки тому +8

    This is an incredibly strong person. What an inspiration

  • @miketan8857
    @miketan8857 3 роки тому +11

    one day at a time Tim
    seems like your mindset is where it needs to be I'm so happy for you even though i don't know you

  • @nacsondabeat442
    @nacsondabeat442 3 роки тому +15

    Dope interview!! These videos always gives me a new look on things.

  • @Tonysoprano666
    @Tonysoprano666 3 роки тому +8

    Bruh what a story & he handled hes speech so well without many questions to ask

  • @shelaghmatthews3852
    @shelaghmatthews3852 3 роки тому +3

    Tim, please keep pushing forward. I hope you attend either AA or NA, not only for your benefit, but you have so much to offer others. Sending you love, light and prayers for your serenity and sobriety.

  • @coweenuhm9662
    @coweenuhm9662 3 роки тому +4

    I really enjoyed watching this. Man, he’s been through hell and back. I’m glad to hear an interview of someone who made it out!

  • @yogalyfe
    @yogalyfe 3 роки тому +7

    He is an excellent storyteller and very articulate. He didn't swear. I could listen to him for hours.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +3

      Thank you, I've definitely had to curb my language, especially with me raising my son. I'm trying, and will keep pushing forward.

  • @jasonblack6059
    @jasonblack6059 3 роки тому +11

    Man he's so articulate and honest. That's impressive. Also It's nice to see a vid on someone who's no longer an addict!

    • @jimparsons4312
      @jimparsons4312 3 роки тому +1

      I agree. Seeing someone who came out on the other side gives everyone out there struggling hope.❤️ there are so many layers to addiction and the complicated web it weaves. This channel will go on forever!!!!!!!!!!!

  • @jijimoore6120
    @jijimoore6120 3 роки тому +9

    Im glad im still seeing videos being uploaded. I love and appreciate what you do.

  • @teresashelton8819
    @teresashelton8819 3 роки тому +16

    Dear Tim, It’s not your fault that your brother died. I promise he doesn’t blame you. I also promise that he wants you to do what he wasn’t able to do. LIVE! live your best life! Let go of the pain and guilt. It’s the only way you can move on❤️🙏🏼

  • @Sarahstarr1000
    @Sarahstarr1000 3 роки тому +10

    I live in Clearwater! Tim is telling the real deal here everyone is addicted to pain killers. Wish the best for him.

  • @michaelswinehart2788
    @michaelswinehart2788 3 роки тому +4

    Tim i gotta tell ya, you are one tough guy. Not only physically. You have had a tough life up to the present time. But somehow you had the intestinal fortitude to get through it. Have you ever considered becoming a counselor of some type? You are right, you have to change for yourself. Period. Life is all about priorities, and you are living proof of it. You should be proud of yourself. I am proud of you and i never met you. Your son has a good old man. Stay straight, stay safe andGod bless you Tim.

  • @seltzermint5
    @seltzermint5 3 роки тому +19

    I admire so much the way Tim continues to have goals for himself and his health. Way to be, man!

    • @maryreid3387
      @maryreid3387 Рік тому

      So, so informative- I could cry- information- No One Else- will tell the TRUTH- Like You!!! Thank you Mark!!!

  • @lillyanp4
    @lillyanp4 3 роки тому +12

    Great interview! Best wishes for Tim. Seems like a genuinely good guy. I hope everything goes well for him in the future. 👊🏻👊🏻👍🏻✌🏻

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +8

      Thank you, gotta keep on keeping on.

    • @lillyanp4
      @lillyanp4 3 роки тому +4

      @@Tim.M.Johnson No problem!! It’s cool and awesome to actually hear from the guy I JUST watched.😂 Man, I really do hope things are going well for you! You’re been through a lot. I can relate but I won’t get into that. You have a lot to look forward to and I wish you nothing but love and strength! Your a good man. I NEVER comment on UA-cam channels. Shit is crazy talking to the actual person. Keep it up bro. Your an inspiration for a lot of people.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +5

      @@lillyanp4 Thanks again, just keep taking things one day at a time. I did this to give hope and maybe deter people from traveling down the same path. I've got too much to lose and too much to live for to give up now.

    • @lillyanp4
      @lillyanp4 3 роки тому +5

      @@Tim.M.Johnson 💯💯💯! Just keep grinding man.👊🏻👊🏻✌🏻

  • @jilllinder9975
    @jilllinder9975 Рік тому +6

    Wow!! What a story, Tim you deserve to be loved beyond measure, hope you know what an incredible human you are.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson Рік тому +2

      Thanks, I just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and taking life one day at a time.

    • @22addict40
      @22addict40 Рік тому

      @@Tim.M.Johnsonhow are you doing today?

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson Рік тому

      @@22addict40 I'm doing really well. I finally quit smoking cigarettes and eating fast food over 6 months ago. I'm going to the gym at least 3 days a week. I also have an appointment in two weeks to get my teeth implants done. I'd say I'm very close to living my best life. Thanks for inquiring. God is good and life has been treating me well recently.

  • @itzmike_
    @itzmike_ 3 роки тому +5

    I feel his pain. I have a similar story in a lot of ways.. benzodiazepines and opioids are a demon, they will forever try to destroy me.. almost 20 years of abuse but I can honestly say, today I’m winning.. I’ve lost everything just in the past 6 months, EVERYTHING! But, I fight everyday not to fall victim ever again to addiction.

  • @Meg-bq2hy
    @Meg-bq2hy 3 роки тому +25

    He is about my age and sadly, this is a typical story from our teenage/early adult life. The pill mills and the Oxy’s, all the opiates and Xanax. I graduated high school in 1997 and have about 30 close friends who died due to overdose or use in general. I finally got clean 3 1/2 years ago. It was not easy for us coming up during that time.

    • @tundrawomansays5067
      @tundrawomansays5067 3 роки тому +3

      Thanks, Ms. Meg. You’re inspiring someone today and so many when and where you least expect it.

    • @ronmexico79
      @ronmexico79 3 роки тому +5

      SAME HERE! CLASS OF 97.. Sometimes I look back at the past 25 years and just think man WTF was that! So glad to still be here. Stay strong! 💪

    • @Meg-bq2hy
      @Meg-bq2hy 3 роки тому +1

      @@tundrawomansays5067 thank you! That means a lot!❤️

    • @Meg-bq2hy
      @Meg-bq2hy 3 роки тому +2

      @@ronmexico79 I look back and think the same! And thanks! Same to you!

  • @sherrycallaway6578
    @sherrycallaway6578 3 роки тому +6

    Yes... one day at a time Tim... and, enjoy all those good times with your kids, parents and friends too... congratulations on your sobriety... much love & blessings to you... 😇🙏

  • @WENDDEAD
    @WENDDEAD 3 роки тому +15

    Once you hit rock bottom, there's nowhere to go but up. I wish him and his family the best. They deserve it.

  • @SuperMoises03
    @SuperMoises03 3 роки тому +6

    Great Story, He's showing that still hope for people who unfortunately felt into Drugs, IS POSSIBLE TO GET CLEAN

  • @Emma-pw8rt
    @Emma-pw8rt 3 роки тому +7

    Tim you are a awesome man! That crash story is so intense I’m so sorry that happened.. lots of love to you Tim ❤️ xx

  • @dannidavis5820
    @dannidavis5820 3 роки тому +5

    Good for you Tim!! I’m in Bradenton and finally clean I hear you ! You’re doing great !

  • @user-randi1987
    @user-randi1987 3 роки тому +8

    Good luck to you Tim. I am sorry for your loss of your brother.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +3

      Thank you, the good die young, unfortunately.

  • @wandarask8444
    @wandarask8444 2 роки тому +2

    Tim, Thankyou so for your courage, honesty, and determination.
    Give me faith .
    Love Australia x

  • @clacicle
    @clacicle 3 роки тому +21

    This really is such a terrible reflection of the society we’ve created. So many people like him have suffered terribly…thousands and thousands.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +9

      It is for sure. Unfortunately it seems like music and "pop culture" glorify the partying lifestyle nowadays. I hope that my story may deter or help someone in a similar position.

    • @LuchadorMasque
      @LuchadorMasque 3 роки тому +2

      This has been going on for decades. Nobody cared until the users were white.

    • @roannfrome1025
      @roannfrome1025 3 роки тому +3

      @@LuchadorMasque not so

    • @LuchadorMasque
      @LuchadorMasque 3 роки тому +1

      @@roannfrome1025 example?

    • @clacicle
      @clacicle 3 роки тому

      @@LuchadorMasque I definitely agree that once drug problems became more visible to mainstream white society, it was harder to ignore. This was very obvious with the opioids crisis which affected everyone. Drug laws often affected people of color far more than whites and that was no coincidence. Look at the sentencing guidelines for people caught with cocaine versus crack.

  • @nickslavik3232
    @nickslavik3232 3 роки тому +5

    Love your story, Tim. You're an inspiration my brother. Wishing you the best.

  • @dandelionkisss
    @dandelionkisss 3 роки тому +7

    Best of luck to you Tim! I’m proud of you for making it happen!

  • @bobbyomari5500
    @bobbyomari5500 3 роки тому +5

    Such a series of unfortunate events… Tim you’re a warrior my dude, keep your head up and pushing through day by day. We all want to see you succeed and get better because you deserve it. Praying for you and your family. Sounds like your family is playing as a good support system for you and that’s everything. Thank you for sharing your story to us all.

  • @EllicottCity1
    @EllicottCity1 3 роки тому +8

    Tim & I must be around the same age- I remember just about everything he says about the 90's. Wishing him all the best

  • @raven4231
    @raven4231 3 роки тому +10

    When he talked about his brother's death you can hear the sadness and guilt 💔 wishing him good luck and stay clean my friend

  • @MsVulture83
    @MsVulture83 3 роки тому +4

    By far one of my favorite interviews you've ever done!! Best of luck to you, Tim!

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +5

      Thank you, I'm doing what I can on a day by day basis to become a better man for myself and children.

    • @bernitajenkins3180
      @bernitajenkins3180 3 роки тому +1

      @@Tim.M.Johnson Good on you, Tim. Wishing you luck and much happiness 👏👍👋🇦🇺

  • @mistycgallegos9489
    @mistycgallegos9489 3 роки тому +4

    God bless this guy. I went through a somewhat similar situation loosing my younger sister. She was my only sister and i lost her to drugs and suicide at 29 yrs old. That has been 17 yrs ago and i was prrgnant with my youngest child. I to had to be the one to break the news of my sisters death to my family. One of thee most tragics events Ive ever endured. My one and only sister, my best friend.
    God bless.

  • @followme173
    @followme173 3 роки тому +32

    GOOD MORNING MARK AND THE ENTIRE SWU FAMILY

  • @georgemypuppy
    @georgemypuppy 3 роки тому +3

    He's amazing congratulations on your new life....life is so proud of you....much love to you....you brought tears to my eyes....

  • @Sheerkat7
    @Sheerkat7 2 роки тому +4

    Thanks, Tim. I'm sure you'll be an inspiration to a lot of people. Nice to hear that someone escaped and got clean. Unusual for this channel.

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 2 роки тому +3

      Thank you, if something I've said could help even one person to break free, than I will be happy. I've found that giving back and helping other's is very satisfying and good for the soul.

  • @jaywatson1194
    @jaywatson1194 3 роки тому +2

    Tim I commend you brother & you've encouraged me so much! You took so much responsibility, even when there was an option to share the blame or use one of the horrible occurrences as an excuse you always owned it! Being that I am in recovery as well, you're one of those ppl you love to be around & share your struggle with because past all the rough patches you've endured you are still optimistic & working towards a better life. I wouldn't knock you at all for being on disability but like many who are genuine & hard working, you/they would rather not be on it. Keep killing it in life & be proud of yourself, don't look back just keep trudging ahead!

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +2

      Thanks so much for the words of encouragement and support.

  • @graciechris1104
    @graciechris1104 3 роки тому +4

    What a story, I loved listening to Tim, I really hope he continues to do well, bravo sir

  • @PB-zw2ot
    @PB-zw2ot Рік тому +2

    His memory is amazing! I can't even remember what happened yesterday. Enjoyed his story a lot. Good luck.

  • @carolpoe2730
    @carolpoe2730 3 роки тому +5

    Tim, I think you’re doing great! I wish you the best in life! Your story is inspiring! Thank you for doing this interview as I know it had to be a difficult thing to do!!

    • @Tim.M.Johnson
      @Tim.M.Johnson 3 роки тому +6

      Thank you very much. I hope that it can help, even just one person. It was definitely difficult, I've never been on camera, let alone telling my story on UA-cam.