I guess we finally figured out why he has a mental breakdown every vacation. His mind is so far gone after streaming for his entire adult life that he needs chat for constant validation and confrontation.
On one hand, I don't understand why we all have such an intense parasocial fascination with the personal life of a married man. On the other, I really appreciate all of your work doing these highlight videos because he's incredibly entertaining.
"The remedy is super simple. There's a streamer called Northernlion and his inner turmoil harkens to the universality of the modern thirty year old in 2024. Listen to him for a couple of hours and it'll set you right up." "But Docteur, I'm Northernlion"
This poor man once he hits an age where he can no longer stream and won't have a captive audience to riff off of and yap at for 5+ hours. Wait staff in shambles in 30 years.
28:03 the wombo combo is insane, baits cashier to start off with English, make them switch to Korean with your perfect Korean, then finish em off with the "yeah I can't actually speak Korean, go back to English"
Literally the entire time I was thinking "you're literally autistic and you were overstimulated, didn't have any of your usual routines or places, no shit you have a shutdown every time you leave the country"
@@PierrickUke it's somewhere in the first couple hours of the Best of March 2024 vid on the Squeex Hairline channel. Just skimmed through and i think it's around the "pookie bear" chapter.
When I went to Japan I wanted to try Kobe beef with my partner. I know very broken Japanese and when in doubt just say “Hai” (Yes) in Japanese because it usually works out (I.e. do you want a bag? Do you want the English menu?) At the restaurant the chief asked me a bunch of questions to which I said yes to all of them. Suddenly, the chief puts a giant flag and and toy cow on my table that reads “MUSLIM FRIENDLY” as it appears I said “yes, I am in fact Muslim and would like the halal menu” He was very proud and I paid an extra $40 for blessed meat.
Ego birth bit imo was just NLs internal stress being confronted with people in Japan enjoying fairly trivial matters when he's in no condition to offload his own problems. That's just life, sometimes other people grate us through no fault of our own or their own.
The roses don't look so fun to stop and appreciate when you have nonstop stress lmao. I swear it gets amplified in a foreign country where you can't properly communicate with the locals too.
@@touchpadnm1 SO true THANK YOU for verbalizing this, I went to the Balatro OST comment section for validation and found none, just a bunch of people talking about THE GAME ITSELF like that matters
12:56 NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place. Corn was being popped, a man spoke Sugoi under his breath NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place. Instead, he found the opposite of egodeath.
ik he said this happened in Korea but truly the number of times me and my bf were in Tokyo looking for a specific business in a big ass multi-story building only for the business to be defunct or just two people with 2 tables in a 400 square foot space was insane LMAO.
this whole story is SO relatable. anxiety/sensory overwhelm/logistics stress/other people/all work no play = breakdown, people asking what’s wrong with you, lol. anyway hopefully soonish Luna gets old enough that they can enjoy some museums together or other activities that are mutually age appropriate; I know my dad was into a bunch of obscure shit that was super interesting once I had half an attention span lol
Man, hearing K8's side of the story made it seem SO much worse than how NL was telling it himself. I really hope it doesn't stick with him too long and he gets his groove back. That was honestly pretty worrying to hear parts of. But at the same time it's NL so we all know he can handle it and all we gotta do is feed him some +2's and he'll be a happy camper in no time
At the same time I feel like saying “We all know he can handle it” is a little much. The reason I watch NL is that he seems like a real guy with real takes, if he actually is developing some kind of chat dependency he should get help and not just get fed by our perception of his capability.
@@mrpseudonym893 Yes, absolutely agree. I just felt myself getting a little "too real" but even then he himself has always shown himself as being confident enough to at least provide for his family, no matter ups and downs. Like just look at how many times he's gotten sick the past few years, for example. He's a fucking champion. BUT yes at the end of the day he's a normal person like any one of us and if these "withdrawals" are recurring and rough (as it sounds) he might benefit from seeking help. But if he's fine without it then that's great too. I just wanna see egg and his family and friends happy, at the end of the day.
As a non stream viewer I’ve been thinking the last couple weeks had been some of the least I’d been searching out NL vids. Turns out there just wasn’t new content on my recommended feed because of his travels and I had forgotten. Thanks Librarian for showing me I’m more addicted to egg than I thought.
I feel so bad for Ryan, i empathise with his internal crisis so much, i get just like that when im not able to do my normal social activities. That must have been really hard.
I wholeheartedly adore how much the role of a modern interweb jester has encased and cocooned him that mere weeks of going outside is enough to trigger a Paul Atreides-Lisan Al Gaib level of Ascension that generates wisdoms aplenty that he bottles up and release to guide the Stilgar in all of us, while we look up the sun set as pepe via twitch emote and being :aware:
Man. Knew NL was coming back around this time and on my commute home from work I typed ‘Library of Letourneau’ in the UA-cam search bar. When this video showed up, a surge of dopamine and wave of relief went through me.
It’s been a month without pogs. I have gone on a pog cleanse. Now the pogs are back. And I am going to slurp up the refined librarian farmed pogs. I am having a pog OD and I am loving every minute of it Jerry.
Librarian, I love you so much. We all would have missed so many good rants and bits and monologues without you, and you constsntly enhance them with the reciepts. Truly doing the work of an arcivist
This is the best, The best, video of NL by NL, I have ever seen. Did my first 2 week trip to Japan as a 40yo last Xmas, I felt this, and am now filled with mirth wearing a crooked grin. Chuckling.
Hes not emotionally dependent on chat LOL its just really exhausting and alienating to spend weeks in a place where you can't communicate with anybody. I've done it and even though i speak the local language far better than NL does, i still know what he means. Everyone is just enjoying conversation without you all the time and you feel stupid & unwanted for not being able to follow along. You also regularly experience some actual discrimination which just makes it even more of a downer.
what in the hell is bro cooking up in the first rant about how he wants people to be rude to him lol edit: NL responding to a native Japanese speaker with "Sorry, I speak Japanese." has had me *squealing* for several minutes straight.
Ryan’s unwavering commitment to keeping interactions with strangers, he’ll never see again, copasetic instead of trying to make his anniversary a pleasant experience is disheartening.
love these two but, not crazy about how kate talks about his crisis. especially after really relating to some of the stuff he said but i’m sure there’s more to it
Same, I felt as if maybe I wouldn’t want this aired out. It was similar, but not quite the same way he put it. It made me think he should talk about it with a therapist, whereas I wasn’t thinking about that when he was recounting it.
As someone who spent years living in Japan, I feel some of these anecdotes deep in my core. Simple interactions or transactions becoming like 10x more steps is so accurate.
I mean it sounds like he went through an existential crises during his trip.. He mentions "ego death" and it's possible to have something like that without taking drugs. His therapist gonna be on OT the next month
I imagine NL getting pulled into a streamer specialized hospital/ER with the doctors and nurses going: This man is suffering from critically low levels of POG! He needs three major injections of +2's STAT! Prepare the Balatro soundtrack and some trashy reality tv show for his recovery room so it's ready after the procedure!
kuromi NL by hueg - x.com/huegDraws/status/1794237188718416036
also that delivery of sugoi was oscar worthy
for real, it played out exactly like a bit from Saiki K
Sugoi Guy might be my favorite one-off character in the NL-verse
he dropped that story so early on i was in fucking tears
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau careful of your mascara bro
@@onezerotwo he finds that hot bro
Papaya man still the goat
@@TheLibraryofLetourneauThat is a moment that would give a life crisis for sure "what are we doing here?" It's also so fucking funny
I guess we finally figured out why he has a mental breakdown every vacation. His mind is so far gone after streaming for his entire adult life that he needs chat for constant validation and confrontation.
its so over, he needs us as much as we need him
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau Wake up honey, new symbiotic relationship just dropped
@@Phoenix0F8 i'm pretty sure the term is commensalism
@@CaptainHogmeat wouldn't it be mutualism?
@@ElPestino Let's ask a bio major.
On one hand, I don't understand why we all have such an intense parasocial fascination with the personal life of a married man. On the other, I really appreciate all of your work doing these highlight videos because he's incredibly entertaining.
The fact that he is married is even better. He's like a sitcom dad.
Because, unironically, he's a relatable Family Guy
@@Faircraft3 You're right, we're honestly so lucky there's a man who positively can do all the things that make us laugh and cry
@@HC-qc5rphe’s. a. family. guyyyyyyyyy 👍
@@Faircraft3 WE’RE FAMILY GUYS. OF COURSE WE CAN DO ALL THE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH AND CRY
he goes to asia for two weeks and becomes pagliacci the tragic egg
"The remedy is super simple. There's a streamer called Northernlion and his inner turmoil harkens to the universality of the modern thirty year old in 2024. Listen to him for a couple of hours and it'll set you right up."
"But Docteur, I'm Northernlion"
Peggliacci
Tamagocci. That's a clever Japanese pun btw
@@clementhossaert5234 +2
More like pogliacci
kate calling her husband ‘my bro’ is so funny
She's like a female Asian Spicoli from Fast Times at Ridgemount High
found himself screaming in the hotel room
The evils of Lucy was all around him
He found himself screaming in a hotel roo- AAAHHAHHHHHHHHHHHH
found himself screaming in the hotel roo- HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP ME
I constantly thought about Kate saying that Ryan will never stop streaming cause he needs it. She knows him better than he does for sure😂
He truly is the Conan of Twitch
This poor man once he hits an age where he can no longer stream and won't have a captive audience to riff off of and yap at for 5+ hours. Wait staff in shambles in 30 years.
@@swirle13 He's gonna be the old man angry at everything in the neighborhood.
Guy misses Splash Mountain so much he convinced his family to go all the way to Tokyo to ride it.
my man really spent an hour and a half not touching the game just to give us our much needed attention. We're so back.
Papa Ryan bless
He's a generous lover
The librarian tweet about him finding inner peace was actually so prophetic, also seeing them both have a mental breakdown when separated lmao
the balatro music constantly playing really adds to the bits
It matches the vibe of his yapping shockingly well
Unhinged rants require balatro music, death-defying life experiences require Issac noises
K8 talking about Ryab not eating sounds like a concerned pet owner
Goddam bro was going through it. Also the popcorn machine story killed me lmao.
the way he said sugoi is peak NL right there
28:03 the wombo combo is insane, baits cashier to start off with English, make them switch to Korean with your perfect Korean, then finish em off with the "yeah I can't actually speak Korean, go back to English"
Brain Destroyer irl
travelling while neurodivergent is truly an insane experience and he articulated it so well here
Literally the entire time I was thinking "you're literally autistic and you were overstimulated, didn't have any of your usual routines or places, no shit you have a shutdown every time you leave the country"
guys i think it would be really funny if we were all really amicable to NL and never confront him about anything
Chat's not ready but that's a fantastic bit
emotionally abusive bit
squeex chat did it once. drove him insane.
@@lysolcoke2HD Would you happen to have a VOD link to that? Sounds hilarious!
@@PierrickUke it's somewhere in the first couple hours of the Best of March 2024 vid on the Squeex Hairline channel. Just skimmed through and i think it's around the "pookie bear" chapter.
When I went to Japan I wanted to try Kobe beef with my partner. I know very broken Japanese and when in doubt just say “Hai” (Yes) in Japanese because it usually works out (I.e. do you want a bag? Do you want the English menu?)
At the restaurant the chief asked me a bunch of questions to which I said yes to all of them. Suddenly, the chief puts a giant flag and and toy cow on my table that reads “MUSLIM FRIENDLY” as it appears I said “yes, I am in fact Muslim and would like the halal menu”
He was very proud and I paid an extra $40 for blessed meat.
+22
+222
Poor Ryan living out a off Joke Boat day for 2 whole weeks
That lady at the hair salon was going through her own Splash Mountain.
+2
I really hope that gets linked to him in case kate undersold it at the moment. I would be riding on those compliments like he rides the peloton
+2
+2
Ego birth bit imo was just NLs internal stress being confronted with people in Japan enjoying fairly trivial matters when he's in no condition to offload his own problems. That's just life, sometimes other people grate us through no fault of our own or their own.
yeah just seems a number of external factors and unlucky timing really got his experience warped
hope he feels better
The roses don't look so fun to stop and appreciate when you have nonstop stress lmao. I swear it gets amplified in a foreign country where you can't properly communicate with the locals too.
He so clearly needed to yap after being gone for two weeks I didn’t even care he barely played Balatro
he just sat there on the menu for almost one and a half hours straight yapping
@@TheLibraryofLetourneaubrave streamer
The Balatro theme is the yapper leitmotif
@@touchpadnm1 SO true THANK YOU for verbalizing this, I went to the Balatro OST comment section for validation and found none, just a bunch of people talking about THE GAME ITSELF like that matters
holy the opening monologue was just him outlining in a single anecdote what I've spent months in therapy realizing about myself
That's Neo in the matrix moment outside of the matrix moment.
The first rain after a season of drought is the most refreshing
Man so thirsty they forgot to type LMAO
12:56
NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place.
Corn was being popped, a man spoke Sugoi under his breath
NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place.
Instead, he found the opposite of egodeath.
holy +2
Wow I didn't know K8 was trilingual. Every new fact about her has me more impressed.
she started taking spanish classes recently cause they plan on going to spain next year, its truly aspirational
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau WOOOW! That's crazy. K8's officially my new role model.
ik he said this happened in Korea but truly the number of times me and my bf were in Tokyo looking for a specific business in a big ass multi-story building only for the business to be defunct or just two people with 2 tables in a 400 square foot space was insane LMAO.
this whole story is SO relatable. anxiety/sensory overwhelm/logistics stress/other people/all work no play = breakdown, people asking what’s wrong with you, lol. anyway hopefully soonish Luna gets old enough that they can enjoy some museums together or other activities that are mutually age appropriate; I know my dad was into a bunch of obscure shit that was super interesting once I had half an attention span lol
It’s a little funny how nobody in chat could relate to the Sanrio breakdown because they’re all the type of person he’s describing.
Man, hearing K8's side of the story made it seem SO much worse than how NL was telling it himself. I really hope it doesn't stick with him too long and he gets his groove back. That was honestly pretty worrying to hear parts of. But at the same time it's NL so we all know he can handle it and all we gotta do is feed him some +2's and he'll be a happy camper in no time
Is there a place I can see k8's side? Am I missing another library?? ty!
EDIT: Just watched the rest of the video, oops 💀👍
At the same time I feel like saying “We all know he can handle it” is a little much. The reason I watch NL is that he seems like a real guy with real takes, if he actually is developing some kind of chat dependency he should get help and not just get fed by our perception of his capability.
@@mrpseudonym893 Yes, absolutely agree. I just felt myself getting a little "too real" but even then he himself has always shown himself as being confident enough to at least provide for his family, no matter ups and downs. Like just look at how many times he's gotten sick the past few years, for example. He's a fucking champion. BUT yes at the end of the day he's a normal person like any one of us and if these "withdrawals" are recurring and rough (as it sounds) he might benefit from seeking help. But if he's fine without it then that's great too. I just wanna see egg and his family and friends happy, at the end of the day.
NL meeting up with Arex, the only (bald) man in Japan that could have possibly understood his struggles.
I think by far my favorite NL content is when he’s just ranting & bantering while Balatro idles in the background.
Man inventing solipsism at Sanrio Puro land is so funny
As a non stream viewer I’ve been thinking the last couple weeks had been some of the least I’d been searching out NL vids. Turns out there just wasn’t new content on my recommended feed because of his travels and I had forgotten. Thanks Librarian for showing me I’m more addicted to egg than I thought.
so true, I felt like youtube was kinda empty, no good content...
Depression is bad but it’s a huge buff to internality holleeeee
The salon bit followed up by Pretty Fly For A White Guy was smooth, keep it up Librarian.
I feel so bad for Ryan, i empathise with his internal crisis so much, i get just like that when im not able to do my normal social activities. That must have been really hard.
the off-screen water drinking makes it look like he has a hamster bottle next to his desk
I will never be able to unsee this and the trajectory of my life has been changed forever
YES! I’ve said this exact thing
I wholeheartedly adore how much the role of a modern interweb jester has encased and cocooned him that mere weeks of going outside is enough to trigger a Paul Atreides-Lisan Al Gaib level of Ascension that generates wisdoms aplenty that he bottles up and release to guide the Stilgar in all of us, while we look up the sun set as pepe via twitch emote and being :aware:
So true brother, so true
+2
all these time we thought we are parasocial, but turns our favorite streamer is the parasocial one
Man. Knew NL was coming back around this time and on my commute home from work I typed ‘Library of Letourneau’ in the UA-cam search bar. When this video showed up, a surge of dopamine and wave of relief went through me.
His neurosis is so Costanza-coded.
He’s like if Jerry and Costanza were one person.
the puroland rant was just hilarious
...sugoi
Describing himself as a dostoevsky character was too good
this was so needed
Ryan Returneau (to canada)
The ego birth bit is how it feels to work in retail
Finally the return thanks for the upload lib
we’re so back….
The real question is if we would still love him as a worm in another country
It’s been a month without pogs. I have gone on a pog cleanse. Now the pogs are back. And I am going to slurp up the refined librarian farmed pogs. I am having a pog OD and I am loving every minute of it Jerry.
Librarian, I love you so much. We all would have missed so many good rants and bits and monologues without you, and you constsntly enhance them with the reciepts. Truly doing the work of an arcivist
5:00 wow this guy is literally just jerma for employed people
I cant be the only one whose primary streamer became NL after Jerma got sentenced to the old folks home
I'm ngl 3 suitcases of vintage clothes that haven't been worn since 1995 sounds amazing
This sequel to A Supposedly Fun Thing I'll Never Do Again is fire!
the real vacation was the existential dread we felt along the way
Holy shit one of the greatest rants of all time!
Omg he admit it
Also that ego birth story is hilarious.
Glad I can listen to his rambling while I work again lmao
Mans going through it looking at the fishes
This is the best, The best, video of NL by NL, I have ever seen. Did my first 2 week trip to Japan as a 40yo last Xmas, I felt this, and am now filled with mirth wearing a crooked grin. Chuckling.
He's 100% right about puroland but it's still lit!
The stylist hitting on Ryan (to K8) transitioning into 'Pretty Fly for a White Guy' karaoke was inspired
comedy like this found nowhere else on the web, at all.
45:23 splash mountain got NL turmoiled up like when Eren kissed Historia's hand
**stoner voice** "wow, i know JUST what this guy needs"
And he just sounds like a normal guy and he's a fucking nerd that smokes weed.
The ending anecdote with the ending song is crazyyy
Scorn bit was +2 librarian. Feels good to reminisce once in a while after his passing 🕊️ 🪦
The dopamine hit from the jerma 'scorn' clip was insane, Based Librarian
Japanecdotes went crazy today. thank u librarian
NL on a Dr K stream would go hard.
Hes not emotionally dependent on chat LOL its just really exhausting and alienating to spend weeks in a place where you can't communicate with anybody. I've done it and even though i speak the local language far better than NL does, i still know what he means. Everyone is just enjoying conversation without you all the time and you feel stupid & unwanted for not being able to follow along. You also regularly experience some actual discrimination which just makes it even more of a downer.
Thank you Librarian, now time to down the first new long vid in one drag and then have to go through withdrawals again, till the end of the week.
what in the hell is bro cooking up in the first rant about how he wants people to be rude to him lol
edit: NL responding to a native Japanese speaker with "Sorry, I speak Japanese." has had me *squealing* for several minutes straight.
35:40 "japan is wakanda for white people" is probably one of the chat messages of all time
+2 chatter, +2
LMAOOO
Ryan’s unwavering commitment to keeping interactions with strangers, he’ll never see again, copasetic instead of trying to make his anniversary a pleasant experience is disheartening.
love the sync of the mr bean clip. Love the small details you sprinkle in the videos mr librarian.
Fully pogged out of my gourd for this one, ty Librarian
he was actually the parasocial one the whole time goddamn
I liked the intro. I think an entertainer could use a little flair, and that was great timing! Missed you NL😭🙏 Hope your vacation was great!
this is great dialogue content, the very reason there needs to be a a library for the Ryan Letourneau
Watched this all live but it was so pogged I gotta watch the librarian cut too.
The Jerma Scorn cut killed me lol
love these two but, not crazy about how kate talks about his crisis. especially after really relating to some of the stuff he said but i’m sure there’s more to it
Same, I felt as if maybe I wouldn’t want this aired out. It was similar, but not quite the same way he put it. It made me think he should talk about it with a therapist, whereas I wasn’t thinking about that when he was recounting it.
At around 26 mins NL is describing every leading woman’s outfit in romantic K-Dramas
As someone who spent years living in Japan, I feel some of these anecdotes deep in my core. Simple interactions or transactions becoming like 10x more steps is so accurate.
I relate with NL getting super anxious in Korea, the exact same happened to me, it's suffocating
Yep, this one's going to ny favourites list, thank you librarian and nl
k8 really hit him with the "don't worry, Ryan. You'll die first!" 💀
This is exactly what I was waiting for
Ongoing balatro menu music is the perfect match for these yap sessions
I'm in heaven RN with this
Amazing video Librarian. Keep it up
NLs timeskip arc apparently: Fish = me
The return of the king
I mean it sounds like he went through an existential crises during his trip.. He mentions "ego death" and it's possible to have something like that without taking drugs. His therapist gonna be on OT the next month
The balatro music goes incredibly well as background noise for his Yap sessions...wow😲
Damn no wonder he's Lost in Translation's strongest soldier.
Bro had red dots all over his HUD at sanrioland
drops a week before my japan trip lets gooo
I imagine NL getting pulled into a streamer specialized hospital/ER with the doctors and nurses going: This man is suffering from critically low levels of POG!
He needs three major injections of +2's STAT! Prepare the Balatro soundtrack and some trashy reality tv show for his recovery room so it's ready after the procedure!
Lmaooo
We're ER guys, of course we make niche refrences at the expense of our patients 💪
Can't believe I missed authentic wild Japanese egg by a couple weeks. Literally got back from a japan/korea trip a week before this man leaves
Thank you librarian for saving my work day 🙏