Imagine going to a party and this type of music plays and everyone is like, "What is that noise?" meanwhile I'm in the corner saying, *"Oh yeah, This is my jam"*
I'd be standing or sitting somewhere in trance to the music bc it either makes me so uncomfortable i love it or it makes me fall into a deep trance that feels like sleep with open eyes and an awake mind
This makes me feel safe and understood, I’m going through the same thing and wonder if I’ll ever be able to go to that perfect world or if I’ll be stuck here forever...
Have you ever cried into something before? If you cry atleast every two days or more into a specific stuffed animal it starts to feel like everything is better. The tears soak into the plushie and start to dry into the stuffing. It then leaves a aroma of comforting despair to remind you it's okay to cry. Let it all out into the small thing until you pass out from it all. I cried for atleast four hours yesterday into Goldie, he always tells me something new to comfort me and never makes it feel like its a lie. I've been with goldie since I was 5. We've always cried together. Please remember it's completely okay to cry into something and tell it everything. People will betray, abandon, or loose interest in us always. Plushies and stuffed toys stay forever. They are there forever.
I've also had a stuffed animal since I was 5 years old, I've always slept with it, but since I've been given more stuffed animals, I feel like I'm hurting it, I still feel like shit for forgetting and losing it for months, almost years. I think he no longer feels the same, even if it is a simple stuffed animal, I have always liked to invent stories with him and talk to him from time to time, he continues and he will always be my best friend.
i just want to be real. i want to stop crying. i want to be real. i want to be real. i want to be real. i want to be real. please make me real. please. why am i not real. make me real. i want to be real. please.
@@northiecoumpusan4419 you are real, you just can't understand all the way, and that's fine. being real doesn't mean comprehending, you can feel confused and fuzzy and weird but that doesn't change the fact that you are real :) (I hope this is the proper way to make you feel better, if I made you feel worse I'm sorry, just tell me and I'll delete it)
why does it matter if youre real or not? life is worthless anyway, everything that ever existed dies eventually, just fucking do your thing, live, enjoy yourself and die, there's nothing more to it, don't over complicate it
dont stop crying, not crying makes things less real. Haven't cried for 2 years and I think I'm just some ghost stuck in my head who cant get over their own death
I have a eating disorder called Rumination Disorder and it grosses ppl out so I grew up thinking I’m gross which makes me really sad and I use to cry all the time so these things make me feel safe but at the same time not safe.
hey dear, don’t worry what they believe nor say. you’re so strong and you made it this far into the world. i know it’s hard to not want to end it, but wouldn’t things be better if we exist and show off out of spite? if people shame you for something they dislike; they’re a disgusting phobic. stay safe and be strong sweetheart 💕 best wishes
Hey, it's okay (god I wish I was better at comforting people) it's not something you can control, so they're just being jerks, they're not even trying, not even the bare minimum to understand. U are who you are, and don't let other people's *not valid* opinions get to you. You are so valid and as long as it doesn't harm you or others just be you! (as cheesy as it sounds ':D)
Hey uh it's okay, I have a phobia called botanophobia, the fear of plants, so yk people look at me like 'wtf is this chick doing' every time I stand beside a plant. And plus I'm scared of people's judgement, so I always ask myself if they're thinking I'm a freak or something. Really, we should live how we like it, not based on other people's likes. I hope one day you'll be much more confident and live a wonderful life ❤
I feel this on a personal level, i have a ed that most people don't know it exists. And when i my family found out they just made fun of me:/ I know how it feels.
_i ‘ m pacing back and forth in my room because i Maladaptive Daydream ( i can put myself in other universes just by daydreaming , it ‘ s an escape from reality ) and DDLC came on and my paranoia went through the roof , i can ‘ t with that song_
Ugh same 🤦♂️ that song is terrifying when your mind just wanders off and then it comes on and u get so scared. Monster (da drink) gives me extreme paranoia. I literally cant drink it anymore cause the last time i had a panic attack and locked myself in my room for a day.
the thumbnail pls- i can relate to that the hardest in my soul bc i have intrusive thoughts and i matured from an early age (4 years old. yeah :/) and its always in car rides and when i dont have music or anything on my mind that my intrusive thoughts come and theyre disgusting. but then theres my comfort characters to help me get through it all, by visualizing i just imayine them giving me hugs and saying "its all gonna be ok, i promise". everytime i get in a fight with my mother or anyone i just imagine them telling me its all ok that theres no need to worry or feel mad, that its ok to cry, if they didnt exist idk what i'd do. sometimes i dont know why i act like an adult when im young and i beat myself up about it like "why, why do you act this way, stop doing these things" and i just can handle it anymore. please someone just give me a hug. please?. atleast c!techno, ghostbur and c!philza got me :] sorry for the sad fest :/
you ever feel as if your friends secretly hate you or dont rlly like you as they did before, you try to fix everything and try to appreciate them but do they appreciate you? I feel like that, theres this pain at my chest but i cant find where its coming from and i want it to stop. Everyday i overthink it. Do they still love me? what do i need to do to make them happy. what do i do. am i being selfish?
Chocomikii pii i'm asking the same question to myself like one of my friend dont want to talk to me anymore and just dont want me around her anymore and i'm always asking what did i do to lost this friendship? does i'm just overthinking? she like me has a friend or she just never see me has her friend? did i do something that make her like that? what can make her happy with me around her? does i'm just being selfish? what can make her love me like before? i hear her saying that she dont want me around her anymore or around her friend does it's really true? ...
@@fleurs5006 im not really good with advice but try thinking about past things that maybe she or he has done to see what faults maybe the both of you did that led to that situation, you should also give both of yourselfs some space to reflect and maybe in the future when you have improvrd on yourself you two may talk it through, but now maybe focus on yourself and try to make yourself happy and try new things!! (trust is key in any type of relationship) hope it helps ehe ( •̀ ω •́ )✧
Heres some weirdcore dreamcore playlist ideas Just take my wallet-jack stauber six forty seven - Instupendo PONPONPON - Kyara Pamyu Pamyu Still life- sitcom Lavender town - PokéMon Burning memories - The caretaker (listen to the Caretakes song there good!) Baby Hotline- Jack Stauber Sugar Crash - elyOtto (?) Buttercup- Jack stauber I hope you enjoy the idea!!
@@2001victim @Junko Enoshima The aesthetic on the video is not the same as the musical genre and if so enters more into the Decora style not in dreamcore or weirdcore
@@天使の顔Angel I was pretty stupid and didn't know what decora style and i compared decora style and PONPONPON together, Yes PONPONPON would pretty much be thrown into Decora style.
having a trauma-breakdown while listening to this playlist made my day. Might sound weird cause breakdowns are horrible, but it made me discover new answers for my problems. Also, good choice on adding six forty seven to this, is one of my favs
Breakdowns can be good sometimes. Sometimes people need to properly feel things before they can feel better. Feeling sad or scared can be necessary in order to move forward. I hope you're doing good today ^^
I've been obsessed with this feeling of sadness and loneliness since I was 10, im 15 now, If I had to choose a certain feeling above all, id choose sadness, bc I actually feel it, experiment the pain through it, happiness is not real to me (if I feel happinessat all), I don't feel anything with it, its just another random and careless thing to me, I would say im in love with sadness, I recognize that I might be a little (or entirely) masochist, my one friend says that I have to cut this out but I can't, perhaps I don't want to, I almost never complain about my sadness bc I enjoy it, I refuse to talk with someone bc im afraid that if I talk abut it I might end up loosing this feeling that I love so much, everything hurts to me, even the good things, I tend to use sadness as my cope mechanism, idk if I can call it a cope mechanism if im not facing anything but it feels like it, I've never been trough traumatic or sad experiences in my life, I guess that's why I like to feel like this, lonely, broken and numb of my own perception sense, my life needed a little plot twist from being completely fine to extremely bad, I always dream about being the sad and fucked up character in a show, well, I guess i already am, im proud of me for keeping this feeling for so long, its kind of my biggest accomplish, I don't hate anybody or anything in special, I don't hate myself either, I don't hate my life, or my school, or my friends, neither I feel happy about anything, I only feel sadness but nothing makes me sad at the same time, its kind of confusing but that's how it is, im not trying to show off my depression (if I can call it that) its not like im in need of attention, its not like that at all, its even weird im telling this to random strangers in a UA-cam video comment section, believe me its even weird me talking about myself at all, but today I kind of felt like sharing this, maybe some of u can relate to this, maybe not at all, no one can tell what sadness, or happiness, or any feeling is, everyone has their own way of feeling, maybe my sadness is completely different to a person, or maybe accurate to their perception of it, but no one can tell, no one can feel what other person feels, that's why I love sadness, its complex and confusing, everyone has their own type of it, its truly one of the most beautiful things that exist, that's why its my favorite feeling, that's why im attached to it
Thank you for explaining what I also feel, everything is nothing to me. I don't feel happiness, even if I do it's a numb or remote happy. I never feel anything much anyways. I don't want to stop because it gives me a excuse to be alone... But I can never be alone can I?
Hello. I’m just a random person. I found these playlists in my recommendations all the time. It’s confusing. But after reading all of your comments and thoughts, I feel...sad. Sad that people can go through something (minor or not) and have that be with them forever. I don’t have any ‘worthy’ trauma. Well, maybe a few, but it’s really all a blur. I just wanna give you all hugs and some cookies, telling you all it’s gonna be okay. Cause it will be, sooner or later. It’s going to be alright. stay strong everyone. goodbye, friends. -Golden Heart 💛
if yall lazy to open my descriptio>_< 0:00 kikuo- hole dwelling 5:57 stcom- still life 9:41 doki doki literature club- sayonara OST 12:15 instupendo- six forty seven 14:12 current joys- blondie 19:21 jack stauber- just take my wallet 20:49 lemon demon- ask for nothing ur welcome in advance!!
"momma's cryin.. Mamma's cryin for you.." Gives me a feeling I cannot explain but I will try. Every hair on my body sticks up and I feel an overwhelming dread, guilt even. It makes me uneasy and yet I can't turn off the song. Those words transporting me back like I'm there, in that same nightmare again, that same moment. Ouch.
Because whenever you comment somewhere here, the community is welcoming and supportive. It's one of the most positive spaces I've ever found, if not the most. You can be open, you can be safe, you can be comforted. Because other people know what it's like, and they understand. They get you. People get you. It truly is home.
I fake all of my emotions. not matter if I with someone or just by myself. I have a fear someone notice this disgusting habit (like, sometimes I laughing too loud and something like this), so I trying hard to act natural, but I still can't do this, lol 👐
I have this separate 'voice' in my head that I call my brain. And I'm my imagination. It's not mean to me but it wishes bad things upon me and it sounds like me but it isn't, I'm so confused. It talks over my thoughts and spirals out of control and I get confused and upset. But then it also gives me false senses of danger and constantly makes me feel on edge by saying things that scare me. I promise that it isn't me, it's something else. The unhealthy part of my brain has been operated into a different being only existing in my head. HELP
I have the same thing. I don't really know how to get rid of it, but you could try to think of why you are having those thoughts and logic your way out. It could help, idk.
I have a voice in my head that normally speaks to me through family members voices or just random peoples voices, it's normally a woman's voice that tells me peculiar things, I'm not going to write some as they are honestly terrifying, when I am in random situations she will just say 'your not meant to be here, go home' I usually get very anxious and upset but I feel you, I want the voice to go away and not talk to me.
yk idk what to call it but i want to make like a playlist of songs that make me feel not real. like lately ive been feeling more nd more disconnected nd just experiencing a lot of depersonalization nd derealization nd stuff like that but somehow its oddly comforting sometimes, nd finding songs that support those feelings is kinda nice
I feel like describing how my PTSD feels, and what my bad days feel like. Read if ya want, I think my writings are one of the only things I'm proud of. My lungs are heavy, and thick. The fear and anger is sticky mud that's stuck in the back of my throat, and piles in my stomach. I feel unreal and untethered, I can't land. I'm numb except for the negatives. I can't remember shit. I can't remember anything. My brain's tired and foggy. I always feel on the edge of crying, but I can't cry, I haven't for weeks. Can't talk to my family, they don't understand, and of course, they're either responsible, or they fuckin let it happen. I'm shaky, I can't eat. I don't feel hungry. And I'm so glad I didn't take my meds today, or else I'd be feeling light, forced happiness. I'd be floating and ignorant. I want to stay in my bed forever, hugging my pillow to my chest and trying not to feel her nails digging into me. Or her screaming in my ear. I'll wake up tomorrow and reflect on how down I seemed today. The switch will flip again, I'll take my pills and enjoy the sunshine. I'll forget. I'll loose it, and I will be less. Why do I only feel like myself when I'm typing out my pain, and stewing in it. Today's a bad day, and tomorrow will be too, just in a different way. Good luck everybody
@@IntelegentFool of course, my meds are supposed to be for my ADHD, but they're also anti depressants. When I take them I feel like I can't tap in to any complex emotions. Like I can't finish processing negative thoughts
Hiya! This is just a drabble of feelings I slapped on here. Take care of yourself, okay? (TW: childhood trauma, gaslighting, threats(?), swearing, caps, unhealthy coping mechanisms, self-isolation... let me know if I need to add anything else, please.) I hear your angry screams echoing in my head whenever I’m around you. How the HELL am I supposed to tell you anything real or emotional when you crush the vulnerable emotions I let you see into guilt and self loathing. How do you DO that to me and THEN have the gall to try to guilt me into telling you why I’m always MISERABLE. Why I’m always afraid. I can’t even communicate effectively with anyone. I HID THE FACT THAT I WAS SICK FROM EVERYONE FOR A WHOLE WEEK. BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED THEY’D EXPLODE INTO A FIT OF RAGE. LIKE YOU DO. CALL IT A THING OF THE PAST ALL YOU WANT, IF YOURE WEAPONIZING THE KNOWLEDGE OF HOW TRAUMATIZED YOU CAN MAKE US, ITS NOT IN THE PAST. IF I HEAR THE ECHOES OF THAT SAME PAST YOU SPEAK OF EVERY. SINGLE. TIME YOU SEEM EVEN MILDLY ANGERED AND RAISE YOUR VOICE, YOU DO NOT GET TO DISREGARD IT AS “All in the past!” I hide from the people I love because I’m afraid they’ll all just get tired of me and act like YOU. THIS WAS YOUR FAULT, AND YOU ACT LIKE I *CHOOSE* TO BE AFFECTED BY THE NIGHTMARE *YOU* INFLICTED ONTO MY PSYCHE. Why can *YOU* throw your trauma at us? Why can’t I GET AWAY FROM YOU?! *WHY AM I THE CRAZY ONE?! WHY AM I BEING LOOKED AT LIKE I NEED HELP WHEN YOU’RE DOING ALL OF THIS, THINKING THAT ITS REMOTELY OKAY?! WHY CAN’T I EVEN LET MYSELF HAVE TEARS WITHOUT YOU STOMPING ALL OVER IT?!?! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, JUST GET OUT OF MY ROOM, GET OUT OF MY CHEST, GET OUT OF MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR, AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HEAD!!!*
@@user-bt7nu8zm3j Ah, yeah! I’m ok now. Just was in a bit of a place when I wrote this. Writing it really helps. So does listening to music like this, hehe!
Just 'suck it up' am I right? Nobody's anything to me. My advice is to not latch onto people's opinions or even people themselves. Everything upsetting and scary. "That's just life". People's words can hurt and coming from a sensitive person people can misunderstand you a lot if you don't say... But therapy is awkward and nobody will listen.
@@northiecoumpusan4419 Yeah, it’s a big phat F from them to us & that’s about it lol I mean, I don’t blame them much tho, I don’t know how to deal with my own self either. But regardless of that, you still deserve to be supported, loved, & listened to, okay? It’s okay to feel that way right now, & talking isn’t always necessary, but it can help in some cases to just talk to someone who listens & cares. If you wanna vent more, I’ll listen! If not though, that’s cool too! We can just vibe to the funky trauma tango hehe
Laughing at pain is beautifully freeing tbh. Do it sometime. I got so euphoric once, it brought me outta my depression for a day or so. Of course, crying and laughing is the best.
This reminded me that I can only dream when I’m in uncomfortable places, I forgot about that stupid castle room dream ( I would be chased but the chaser never caught me, it was always in a large open space in a medieval esc place) until I dreamt of it again and for some reason this playlist took me back to those castle rooms(I fell asleep), except I was just there, alone in a much smaller room and it was the most peaceful stress I’ve ever felt in one of the rooms.
I don’t think I’m real....my parents don’t know about what happens to me,I’m crying all the time ,my thoughts are disgusting my stepdad says I’m full of bullsh*t and my mom and my stepdad traumatized me I’m scared of everything .I tried suicide but didn’t work and my mom found out I harmed myself by hitting and cutting she didn’t try to understand and then started shouting nonsense.I’m failing everything..
It's hard for me to remember that this world is real, I feel like I'm the only one that has a mind to think. Other people are just people that don't think and do actions if they where programed.
Me: *Jamming out to this playlist while drawing screaming sunflowers after having another PTSD episode tearily smiling* My family: *Staring at me in horror*
"my own thoughts disgust me" why am i so f*cked up like this? God i was so happy but then- i don't even know what happened but- now i'm like this. My thoughts aren't mine anymore. They are dirty, lewd, disgusting. I'm stuck with them, I'm not proud of them, i'm not proud of myself. I can't stop thinking about them, i can't stop them. I am me but after a while i'm not me anymore, i'm a complete different person with different thoughts, that person has the disgusting thoughts, not me, i never even thought of that before that person appeared. They control my hands, force me to see disgusting things. They find them amusing, they love it, and won't stop until they see all of it. When i have something i can find comfort in, they come back and push me into the worst part of it. They look like me, talk like me, but they aren't me. They can't be me, i don't want to be them. They're disgusting, i hate them so much. They're destroying my life. I don't have control of my own thoughts anymore, they have control of my thoughts now. Did i even had control of them in the first place?
I Love listening to traumacore,dreamcore and weirdcore playlists during my parents arguing or when i Just had a flashback of......ya know,Thank you for making this,i guess those playlists are my cooping mechanism And idk if i should talk about my possible ptsd even if i dont even know if what i have is ptsd or not ... Heh,i guess Thats all i can tell..right?
I try to deal with nihilism and this sense of detatchment of humans in particular through stories and magical worlds made inside my head. It makes me sad that I will never be able to truly visit them. Theres something strangely comforting about this music that just got me through a panic attack, and I can't put my finger on it. Maybe its the cute tones played with distorted vocals one would typically find scary. Maybe its the airy and aloof qualities that make the music feel like an astral projection. Whatever it is, it feels like a personification of what I feel like in the outside world. Distant, distorted, and only half there.
just yesterday I was doing fine? Now I can't wait for my mother to find my lifeless body hanging in my room? What am I? I don't want this! I DONT WANT TO DIE! I ONLY WANT TO DISAPPEAR PLEASE I DONT WANT TO DIE NO STOP THIS I DONT WANT TO LOSE MY BREATH- NO PLEASE I DONT WANT THIS I DONT WANT TO THINK OF DYING IM STILL ONLY SO YOUNG PLEASE--
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"my own thought disgust me " I really know how it feels especially during car rides my mind just wonders into weird places and I'm not proud of it
I get that so much.
Yeah.. sometimes that happends to me too
Tbh same, and no matter how hard I try I can't get rid of them.
YEAH its always the car rides😐
Same, your mind just wanders
You know it’s gonna be good when it starts with the ✨trauma tango✨
we're all here for the ✨trauma tango✨ !!
✨trauma tango✨
The words you have said in this order makes my trauma level very confused
I have learned an important new sentence today
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Imagine going to a party and this type of music plays and everyone is like, "What is that noise?" meanwhile I'm in the corner saying, *"Oh yeah, This is my jam"*
''sitcom still life starts playing'' (DNIFBC EVERYONE WOULD BE LIKE WTF IS THIS BAHAHWDCNIV)
I'd be standing or sitting somewhere in trance to the music bc it either makes me so uncomfortable i love it or it makes me fall into a deep trance that feels like sleep with open eyes and an awake mind
If you really want to feel uncomfortable, then check абуя ко (now he working at other project called группа густота, but it's not that good)
Honestly I’m really scared to even admit I like these types of songs cuz people would judge me SO HARD 💀💀💀
@@EEEEEEE36364 same
My imaginary friend even hates me. They wont comfort me anymore and my daydreaming about us having fun together are becoming less hyper realistic
@KAGE I wish, I've grown too attached to them to think of any other friends to make
This makes me feel safe and understood, I’m going through the same thing and wonder if I’ll ever be able to go to that perfect world or if I’ll be stuck here forever...
@@dissectedmarshmallow7432 yeah, I have made another one but she isnt as lively and doesn't understand me as much
@@CyberByte777 im sorry if im bad at advice, perhaps find a comfort streamer or fictional character to cope with?
@@autisticatianaralph6751 I could try thank you ^^
Have you ever cried into something before? If you cry atleast every two days or more into a specific stuffed animal it starts to feel like everything is better. The tears soak into the plushie and start to dry into the stuffing. It then leaves a aroma of comforting despair to remind you it's okay to cry. Let it all out into the small thing until you pass out from it all. I cried for atleast four hours yesterday into Goldie, he always tells me something new to comfort me and never makes it feel like its a lie. I've been with goldie since I was 5. We've always cried together. Please remember it's completely okay to cry into something and tell it everything. People will betray, abandon, or loose interest in us always. Plushies and stuffed toys stay forever. They are there forever.
I've also had a stuffed animal since I was 5 years old, I've always slept with it, but since I've been given more stuffed animals, I feel like I'm hurting it, I still feel like shit for forgetting and losing it for months, almost years. I think he no longer feels the same, even if it is a simple stuffed animal, I have always liked to invent stories with him and talk to him from time to time, he continues and he will always be my best friend.
I still have my stuffed teddy from when I was 6, and it comforts me though I haven’t been able to cry even when I’m sad for a while...
@@pastelskies1967 I have a problem where I cry even when I'm not sad, the tears just come out even though I'm not upset
My dad threw my favorite stuffed animal away when I was 7. He never really apologized for it and made fun of me because he was my best friend ;-;
@@mangodangodangomango8881 omg.... i cant even imagine that.. im so sorry, you would have a new best friend! i swear!
i just want to be real. i want to stop crying. i want to be real. i want to be real. i want to be real. i want to be real. please make me real. please. why am i not real. make me real. i want to be real. please.
@@Teresa-qs7fl then why don't I feel real? Life is purgatory. All emotions are fuzzy and I can't comprehend most
@@northiecoumpusan4419 you are real, you just can't understand all the way, and that's fine. being real doesn't mean comprehending, you can feel confused and fuzzy and weird but that doesn't change the fact that you are real :) (I hope this is the proper way to make you feel better, if I made you feel worse I'm sorry, just tell me and I'll delete it)
why does it matter if youre real or not? life is worthless anyway, everything that ever existed dies eventually, just fucking do your thing, live, enjoy yourself and die, there's nothing more to it, don't over complicate it
dont stop crying, not crying makes things less real. Haven't cried for 2 years and I think I'm just some ghost stuck in my head who cant get over their own death
@@QuiescentusAstra I don't think this is very helpful sorry
I have a eating disorder called Rumination Disorder and it grosses ppl out so I grew up thinking I’m gross which makes me really sad and I use to cry all the time so these things make me feel safe but at the same time not safe.
hey dear,
don’t worry what they believe nor say. you’re so strong and you made it this far into the world. i know it’s hard to not want to end it, but wouldn’t things be better if we exist and show off out of spite? if people shame you for something they dislike; they’re a disgusting phobic. stay safe and be strong sweetheart 💕
best wishes
Hey, it's okay (god I wish I was better at comforting people) it's not something you can control, so they're just being jerks, they're not even trying, not even the bare minimum to understand. U are who you are, and don't let other people's *not valid* opinions get to you. You are so valid and as long as it doesn't harm you or others just be you! (as cheesy as it sounds ':D)
Hey uh it's okay, I have a phobia called botanophobia, the fear of plants, so yk people look at me like 'wtf is this chick doing' every time I stand beside a plant. And plus I'm scared of people's judgement, so I always ask myself if they're thinking I'm a freak or something.
Really, we should live how we like it, not based on other people's likes. I hope one day you'll be much more confident and live a wonderful life ❤
aww no baby, you arent gross!
I feel this on a personal level, i have a ed that most people don't know it exists. And when i my family found out they just made fun of me:/ I know how it feels.
lemon demon and jack stauber are the definition of weirdcore / dreamcore
_i ‘ m pacing back and forth in my room because i Maladaptive Daydream ( i can put myself in other universes just by daydreaming , it ‘ s an escape from reality ) and DDLC came on and my paranoia went through the roof , i can ‘ t with that song_
i hope you're okay, daily reminder it's safe now .How do you do that by the way? Sounds very interesing
Ugh same 🤦♂️ that song is terrifying when your mind just wanders off and then it comes on and u get so scared. Monster (da drink) gives me extreme paranoia. I literally cant drink it anymore cause the last time i had a panic attack and locked myself in my room for a day.
Slide 1 😭
kikuo just hits diff
the thumbnail pls- i can relate to that the hardest in my soul bc i have intrusive thoughts and i matured from an early age (4 years old. yeah :/) and its always in car rides and when i dont have music or anything on my mind that my intrusive thoughts come and theyre disgusting. but then theres my comfort characters to help me get through it all, by visualizing i just imayine them giving me hugs and saying "its all gonna be ok, i promise". everytime i get in a fight with my mother or anyone i just imagine them telling me its all ok that theres no need to worry or feel mad, that its ok to cry, if they didnt exist idk what i'd do. sometimes i dont know why i act like an adult when im young and i beat myself up about it like "why, why do you act this way, stop doing these things" and i just can handle it anymore. please someone just give me a hug. please?. atleast c!techno, ghostbur and c!philza got me :] sorry for the sad fest :/
That beat drop things in Hole Dwelling was SO satisfying and makes you feel a specific way
you ever feel as if your friends secretly hate you or dont rlly like you as they did before, you try to fix everything and try to appreciate them but do they appreciate you?
I feel like that, theres this pain at my chest but i cant find where its coming from and i want it to stop.
Everyday i overthink it. Do they still love me? what do i need to do to make them happy. what do i do.
am i being selfish?
Everything I think is overlapped by something saying they don't love you, they're not your friends... It's confusing
They don't hate you. And if you ask them upfront, they'll tell you. They won't shout for you asking, it's fine
Chocomikii pii i'm asking the same question to myself like one of my friend dont want to talk to me anymore and just dont want me around her anymore and i'm always asking what did i do to lost this friendship? does i'm just overthinking? she like me has a friend or she just never see me has her friend? did i do something that make her like that? what can make her happy with me around her? does i'm just being selfish? what can make her love me like before?
i hear her saying that she dont want me around her anymore or around her friend does it's really true?
...
@@fleurs5006 im not really good with advice but try thinking about past things that maybe she or he has done to see what faults maybe the both of you did that led to that situation, you should also give both of yourselfs some space to reflect and maybe in the future when you have improvrd on yourself you two may talk it through, but now maybe focus on yourself and try to make yourself happy and try new things!! (trust is key in any type of relationship) hope it helps ehe ( •̀ ω •́ )✧
also the irony when i sent them a vid saying i appreciate them and love them for being with me and they left me on read so i changed the subject :D
the vocaloid made me so happy idk why :0
Heres some weirdcore dreamcore playlist ideas
Just take my wallet-jack stauber
six forty seven - Instupendo
PONPONPON - Kyara Pamyu Pamyu
Still life- sitcom
Lavender town - PokéMon
Burning memories - The caretaker (listen to the Caretakes song there good!)
Baby Hotline- Jack Stauber
Sugar Crash - elyOtto (?)
Buttercup- Jack stauber
I hope you enjoy the idea!!
Ponponpon is not weirdcore or dreamcore
@@天使の顔Angel It is, if you watch the video, its just so dream-ish like.
@@2001victim @Junko Enoshima The aesthetic on the video is not the same as the musical genre and if so enters more into the Decora style not in dreamcore or weirdcore
@@天使の顔Angel I was pretty stupid and didn't know what decora style and i compared decora style and PONPONPON together, Yes PONPONPON would pretty much be thrown into Decora style.
@@天使の顔Angel true
having a trauma-breakdown while listening to this playlist made my day. Might sound weird cause breakdowns are horrible, but it made me discover new answers for my problems.
Also, good choice on adding six forty seven to this, is one of my favs
I feel okay venting to the comments listening to this,
It's nice I guess
Breakdowns can be good sometimes. Sometimes people need to properly feel things before they can feel better. Feeling sad or scared can be necessary in order to move forward.
I hope you're doing good today ^^
I've been obsessed with this feeling of sadness and loneliness since I was 10, im 15 now, If I had to choose a certain feeling above all, id choose sadness, bc I actually feel it, experiment the pain through it, happiness is not real to me (if I feel happinessat all), I don't feel anything with it, its just another random and careless thing to me, I would say im in love with sadness, I recognize that I might be a little (or entirely) masochist, my one friend says that I have to cut this out but I can't, perhaps I don't want to, I almost never complain about my sadness bc I enjoy it, I refuse to talk with someone bc im afraid that if I talk abut it I might end up loosing this feeling that I love so much, everything hurts to me, even the good things, I tend to use sadness as my cope mechanism, idk if I can call it a cope mechanism if im not facing anything but it feels like it, I've never been trough traumatic or sad experiences in my life, I guess that's why I like to feel like this, lonely, broken and numb of my own perception sense, my life needed a little plot twist from being completely fine to extremely bad, I always dream about being the sad and fucked up character in a show, well, I guess i already am, im proud of me for keeping this feeling for so long, its kind of my biggest accomplish, I don't hate anybody or anything in special, I don't hate myself either, I don't hate my life, or my school, or my friends, neither I feel happy about anything, I only feel sadness but nothing makes me sad at the same time, its kind of confusing but that's how it is, im not trying to show off my depression (if I can call it that) its not like im in need of attention, its not like that at all, its even weird im telling this to random strangers in a UA-cam video comment section, believe me its even weird me talking about myself at all, but today I kind of felt like sharing this, maybe some of u can relate to this, maybe not at all, no one can tell what sadness, or happiness, or any feeling is, everyone has their own way of feeling, maybe my sadness is completely different to a person, or maybe accurate to their perception of it, but no one can tell, no one can feel what other person feels, that's why I love sadness, its complex and confusing, everyone has their own type of it, its truly one of the most beautiful things that exist, that's why its my favorite feeling, that's why im attached to it
Thank you for explaining what I also feel, everything is nothing to me. I don't feel happiness, even if I do it's a numb or remote happy. I never feel anything much anyways. I don't want to stop because it gives me a excuse to be alone... But I can never be alone can I?
Emotions confuse me
@@northiecoumpusan4419 emotions are just so confusing that just drags me more into them
@@zoemaya4292 IKR. And they can be so hard to explain to people.😔
Bruh I feel this;-;
The thumbnail: My own thoughts disgust me.
Me: I mean, I can relate to be honest.
DAMN WHY YOU MAKING ME REMEMBER SAYORI -
bro that fuckin scene hurt
*i gently open the door*
OH AND ONE THING I PICKED THE WRONG AUDIO AT NUMBER 5
Whenever Sayo-nara plays I just expect Stressed Out to start playing a bit later...
SAME
hey
keep scrolling..
you are amazing
I hope you are doing well
❤️
Thank you. I hope you're doing well too.
@@kurootetsurou5248 :))
pls this almost made me cry 🏃
@@rottenbutter_6702 NO DONT CRYYU
@@Dan-ko4gj IM SORRY ~ ^~
Hello.
I’m just a random person. I found these playlists in my recommendations all the time. It’s confusing. But after reading all of your comments and thoughts, I feel...sad.
Sad that people can go through something (minor or not) and have that be with them forever.
I don’t have any ‘worthy’ trauma. Well, maybe a few, but it’s really all a blur.
I just wanna give you all hugs and some cookies, telling you all it’s gonna be okay.
Cause it will be, sooner or later.
It’s going to be alright.
stay strong everyone.
goodbye, friends.
-Golden Heart 💛
Thanks bro 💗
Any amount of trauma is worthy trauma, remember that, not everyone's trauma is the same but it should still be validated.
ddlc fans coming
I've come.
I'm already here
Hey hey
Hi 👩🦲
Here.
thank you for properly crediting kikuo
if yall lazy to open my descriptio>_<
0:00 kikuo- hole dwelling
5:57 stcom- still life
9:41 doki doki literature club- sayonara OST
12:15 instupendo- six forty seven
14:12 current joys- blondie
19:21 jack stauber- just take my wallet
20:49 lemon demon- ask for nothing
ur welcome in advance!!
I think you mixed up “blondie” with “kids” by current joys
The song blondie is actually Kids (Slowed down) by Current joys!
@@skittypop4929 yeah i did i made this like when i was tired hehehehe
*sitcom
SORRY FOR CORRECTING!!!
@@v01d30 u wrote descriptio xd
"momma's cryin.. Mamma's cryin for you.." Gives me a feeling I cannot explain but I will try. Every hair on my body sticks up and I feel an overwhelming dread, guilt even. It makes me uneasy and yet I can't turn off the song. Those words transporting me back like I'm there, in that same nightmare again, that same moment. Ouch.
i know where the musics coming from but it feels like its coming from every direction
It's going to be okay, you don't have to be alone, and for anyone who need to hear this: trauma is not karma, it's not your fault ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
**why did my recommended knew i needed this**
All Kikuo's songs are material for weirdcore playlist
Why do these playlists feel more like home than anywhere else?🍊
Because whenever you comment somewhere here, the community is welcoming and supportive. It's one of the most positive spaces I've ever found, if not the most.
You can be open, you can be safe, you can be comforted. Because other people know what it's like, and they understand.
They get you. People get you.
It truly is home.
this is so comforting omg
I fake all of my emotions. not matter if I with someone or just by myself. I have a fear someone notice this disgusting habit (like, sometimes I laughing too loud and something like this), so I trying hard to act natural, but I still can't do this, lol 👐
I have this separate 'voice' in my head that I call my brain. And I'm my imagination. It's not mean to me but it wishes bad things upon me and it sounds like me but it isn't, I'm so confused. It talks over my thoughts and spirals out of control and I get confused and upset. But then it also gives me false senses of danger and constantly makes me feel on edge by saying things that scare me. I promise that it isn't me, it's something else. The unhealthy part of my brain has been operated into a different being only existing in my head. HELP
I have the same thing. I don't really know how to get rid of it, but you could try to think of why you are having those thoughts and logic your way out. It could help, idk.
I have a voice in my head that normally speaks to me through family members voices or just random peoples voices, it's normally a woman's voice that tells me peculiar things, I'm not going to write some as they are honestly terrifying, when I am in random situations she will just say 'your not meant to be here, go home' I usually get very anxious and upset but I feel you, I want the voice to go away and not talk to me.
Bro I have the same voice!! Idk why we have them it's odd tho....
I think it's linked to depression and/or anxiety but I'm not sure....
5:57 if you wanna skip the first song.
AND ONE THING, THANK YOU FOR 1K VIEWS💗😭
yk idk what to call it but i want to make like a playlist of songs that make me feel not real. like lately ive been feeling more nd more disconnected nd just experiencing a lot of depersonalization nd derealization nd stuff like that but somehow its oddly comforting sometimes, nd finding songs that support those feelings is kinda nice
Ah yes, i too love to trigger myself
Same
I know this is good when it starts with Kikuo, the current host of my Yandere playlist.
for me, kikuo and ddlc ost is only good tracks in this playlist
your thoughts do not deem who you are as a person, your words and actions do.
I love this playlist! Thank u! :D 💕💫
im glad you like it! ^_^
oh lord the ddlc one caught me off guard 😰
So much pain and anguish, so its time for a fuck ton of playlists and a03 stories to fill this void
I feel like describing how my PTSD feels, and what my bad days feel like. Read if ya want, I think my writings are one of the only things I'm proud of.
My lungs are heavy, and thick.
The fear and anger is sticky mud that's stuck in the back of my throat, and piles in my stomach.
I feel unreal and untethered, I can't land. I'm numb except for the negatives.
I can't remember shit. I can't remember anything. My brain's tired and foggy.
I always feel on the edge of crying, but I can't cry, I haven't for weeks.
Can't talk to my family, they don't understand, and of course, they're either responsible, or they fuckin let it happen.
I'm shaky, I can't eat. I don't feel hungry. And I'm so glad I didn't take my meds today, or else I'd be feeling light, forced happiness. I'd be floating and ignorant.
I want to stay in my bed forever, hugging my pillow to my chest and trying not to feel her nails digging into me. Or her screaming in my ear.
I'll wake up tomorrow and reflect on how down I seemed today. The switch will flip again, I'll take my pills and enjoy the sunshine. I'll forget.
I'll loose it, and I will be less.
Why do I only feel like myself when I'm typing out my pain, and stewing in it.
Today's a bad day, and tomorrow will be too, just in a different way.
Good luck everybody
Can you elaborate on the forced, light happiness you feel on meds? Of course if that's too personal then please refuse.
@@IntelegentFool of course, my meds are supposed to be for my ADHD, but they're also anti depressants. When I take them I feel like I can't tap in to any complex emotions. Like I can't finish processing negative thoughts
@@garydoq ah, so you're not intentionally dismissing unpleasant thoughts, it just happens unwillingly?
@@IntelegentFool yup
lol you just described me
hope youre fine now though
Hiya! This is just a drabble of feelings I slapped on here. Take care of yourself, okay?
(TW: childhood trauma, gaslighting, threats(?), swearing, caps, unhealthy coping mechanisms, self-isolation... let me know if I need to add anything else, please.)
I hear your angry screams echoing in my head whenever I’m around you. How the HELL am I supposed to tell you anything real or emotional when you crush the vulnerable emotions I let you see into guilt and self loathing.
How do you DO that to me and THEN have the gall to try to guilt me into telling you why I’m always MISERABLE. Why I’m always afraid. I can’t even communicate effectively with anyone. I HID THE FACT THAT I WAS SICK FROM EVERYONE FOR A WHOLE WEEK. BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED THEY’D EXPLODE INTO A FIT OF RAGE. LIKE YOU DO. CALL IT A THING OF THE PAST ALL YOU WANT, IF YOURE WEAPONIZING THE KNOWLEDGE OF HOW TRAUMATIZED YOU CAN MAKE US, ITS NOT IN THE PAST. IF I HEAR THE ECHOES OF THAT SAME PAST YOU SPEAK OF EVERY. SINGLE. TIME YOU SEEM EVEN MILDLY ANGERED AND RAISE YOUR VOICE, YOU DO NOT GET TO DISREGARD IT AS “All in the past!”
I hide from the people I love because I’m afraid they’ll all just get tired of me and act like YOU. THIS WAS YOUR FAULT, AND YOU ACT LIKE I *CHOOSE* TO BE AFFECTED BY THE NIGHTMARE *YOU* INFLICTED ONTO MY PSYCHE.
Why can *YOU* throw your trauma at us? Why can’t I GET AWAY FROM YOU?! *WHY AM I THE CRAZY ONE?! WHY AM I BEING LOOKED AT LIKE I NEED HELP WHEN YOU’RE DOING ALL OF THIS, THINKING THAT ITS REMOTELY OKAY?! WHY CAN’T I EVEN LET MYSELF HAVE TEARS WITHOUT YOU STOMPING ALL OVER IT?!?! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, JUST GET OUT OF MY ROOM, GET OUT OF MY CHEST, GET OUT OF MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR, AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HEAD!!!*
Hello! I hope your doing okay now! You can always vent to someone!
@@user-bt7nu8zm3j Ah, yeah! I’m ok now. Just was in a bit of a place when I wrote this. Writing it really helps. So does listening to music like this, hehe!
Just 'suck it up' am I right? Nobody's anything to me. My advice is to not latch onto people's opinions or even people themselves. Everything upsetting and scary. "That's just life". People's words can hurt and coming from a sensitive person people can misunderstand you a lot if you don't say... But therapy is awkward and nobody will listen.
@@northiecoumpusan4419 Yeah, it’s a big phat F from them to us & that’s about it lol
I mean, I don’t blame them much tho, I don’t know how to deal with my own self either.
But regardless of that, you still deserve to be supported, loved, & listened to, okay?
It’s okay to feel that way right now, & talking isn’t always necessary, but it can help in some cases to just talk to someone who listens & cares.
If you wanna vent more, I’ll listen! If not though, that’s cool too! We can just vibe to the funky trauma tango hehe
@@wickedskyes yeah, I like playlists like this. And thank you. Have a nice night (assuming)
i was literally preparing myself for the ddlc song but when it came on it still scared tf out of me lmfao
its time for the tango trauma dance!
Once I heard Miku I instantly thought of hole dwelling
my favorite song from ths playlist has to be still life it's so good
for some reason the first song kinda summons my instability and makes me want to laugh in pain
Laughing at pain is beautifully freeing tbh. Do it sometime. I got so euphoric once, it brought me outta my depression for a day or so. Of course, crying and laughing is the best.
i laugh to cope with the thoughts
or i make happy stories in my head
All of my friends ask why I'm always holding a tedy/ being so childish....
I never got to have a childhood.
so I'm making my own 🥰
The first song went: ⬅️➡️⬅️➡️⬅️➡️⬅️ in my ears and it was nuce
i cant feel my body, i feel high.
Hii just here to say, the song by Current Joys is called Kids! Not Blondie, though Blondie is an amazing song. Awesome playlist
WHY IS THERE 7K VIEWS AND ONLY LIKE 700 LIKES??? THERE SHOULD BE 7K LIKES BY NOW
IK-
Йайайай КИКУО....ЕЩЁ И МОЯ ЛЮБИМАЯ ПЕСНЯ в самом начале!
Omg Kikuo!!! :") I'm so glad.
Love this playlist!! the ddlc one still affects me when i hear it tho, i feel my whole being sink 😭😭 honestly scared of it lmao
This reminded me that I can only dream when I’m in uncomfortable places, I forgot about that stupid castle room dream ( I would be chased but the chaser never caught me, it was always in a large open space in a medieval esc place) until I dreamt of it again and for some reason this playlist took me back to those castle rooms(I fell asleep), except I was just there, alone in a much smaller room and it was the most peaceful stress I’ve ever felt in one of the rooms.
I love this playlist
omg kikuo.. good taste
I don’t think I’m real....my parents don’t know about what happens to me,I’m crying all the time ,my thoughts are disgusting my stepdad says I’m full of bullsh*t and my mom and my stepdad traumatized me I’m scared of everything .I tried suicide but didn’t work and my mom found out I harmed myself by hitting and cutting she didn’t try to understand and then started shouting nonsense.I’m failing everything..
i think about htis playlist a lot. in a good way. it helps me remember and deal with past stuff for some reason.thank you op!
This hits diferentes at midnight
"Nature, can I have conciousness?"
"For increased survival chances?"
"Yeeeeeeessss"
Proceeds to escape reality, creating new ones like a boss.
me and my imaginary friend always hang out because i dont have real friends, but my imaginary friend is great. we have a lot of fun adventures.
listening to this at 4 am,with fog outside
I wish it would be foggy again somewhen where i am or rainy... Storms with thunder and Lightnings that scare little children and make them cry
It's hard for me to remember that this world is real, I feel like I'm the only one that has a mind to think. Other people are just people that don't think and do actions if they where programed.
Op literally changed my life when they accidentally put the song kids instead of blondie.
I love you for adding ddlc sayonara omh
laying on the floor rn because im just so tired of literally existing lol
Me: *Jamming out to this playlist while drawing screaming sunflowers after having another PTSD episode tearily smiling*
My family: *Staring at me in horror*
"my own thoughts disgust me"
why am i so f*cked up like this? God i was so happy but then- i don't even know what happened but- now i'm like this. My thoughts aren't mine anymore. They are dirty, lewd, disgusting. I'm stuck with them, I'm not proud of them, i'm not proud of myself. I can't stop thinking about them, i can't stop them. I am me but after a while i'm not me anymore, i'm a complete different person with different thoughts, that person has the disgusting thoughts, not me, i never even thought of that before that person appeared. They control my hands, force me to see disgusting things. They find them amusing, they love it, and won't stop until they see all of it. When i have something i can find comfort in, they come back and push me into the worst part of it. They look like me, talk like me, but they aren't me. They can't be me, i don't want to be them. They're disgusting, i hate them so much. They're destroying my life. I don't have control of my own thoughts anymore, they have control of my thoughts now. Did i even had control of them in the first place?
i always see hallucinations and it scares me so bad so can you smile for me?
Well safe to say thta made me smile
If it starts with Kikuo it must be great playlist
I knew the Doki Doki literature club song immediately and almost screamed LMFAO help
BTW EVERYONE the blondie song is actually called kids - current joys but both songs are amazing!!
i like to call this the trama tango
Oh my i wasn’t expecting kikuo I love kikuo
I Love listening to traumacore,dreamcore and weirdcore playlists during my parents arguing or when i Just had a flashback of......ya know,Thank you for making this,i guess those playlists are my cooping mechanism
And idk if i should talk about my possible ptsd even if i dont even know if what i have is ptsd or not
...
Heh,i guess Thats all i can tell..right?
dang I love doki doki even if it has disturbing images it’s still mah fav game ever it’s so scary and fun at the same time :>
Do you ever cry but you have no tears?
OH NO WAY YOU PUT KIKUO 😭
I try to deal with nihilism and this sense of detatchment of humans in particular through stories and magical worlds made inside my head. It makes me sad that I will never be able to truly visit them. Theres something strangely comforting about this music that just got me through a panic attack, and I can't put my finger on it. Maybe its the cute tones played with distorted vocals one would typically find scary. Maybe its the airy and aloof qualities that make the music feel like an astral projection. Whatever it is, it feels like a personification of what I feel like in the outside world. Distant, distorted, and only half there.
Mister hug is here for me
When i'm sad, I hug him
and i'm fine
I wish Mister hug exist!!!!
It's a bit funny I have similar bedsheets to those on the bed they're almost identical.
Why is this on my recommended? I- *youtube knows something*
I wish we were real..all of us..not just the host...then again...sometimes things glitch..and we're not sure anymore..
you DARE put SAYONARA?? /j
what’s the kindest way to to say you took away my friend, my buddy.
The first six songs really hit down deep and now I’m sitting here listening to lemon demon and I can’t stop thinking about Ranboo 😍😍
We'll never be happy or satisfied :3
thank you yeah that did help, im crying
For everyone curious: 5 is not Blondie, but a song called ‘kids’ by current joys, just slowed down
This was made for me🙏🛐
Im gonna make another one i was pretty busy with school work woops..
Schools just another dumb thing that makes you upset. I understand
I love this playlist i recommend when making another traumacore playlist add yuri's death music from doki doki literture club
Thank youu ✧*。
THIS IS SO GOOD
just yesterday I was doing fine? Now I can't wait for my mother to find my lifeless body hanging in my room? What am I? I don't want this! I DONT WANT TO DIE! I ONLY WANT TO DISAPPEAR PLEASE I DONT WANT TO DIE NO STOP THIS I DONT WANT TO LOSE MY BREATH- NO PLEASE I DONT WANT THIS I DONT WANT TO THINK OF DYING IM STILL ONLY SO YOUNG PLEASE--