How I found Hope!!!**Trigger Warning!**Suicidal ideation**Anorexia*
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- Опубліковано 8 вер 2024
- I am telling more of my story!!
I am so proud of where is am today and I want to tell you all how I got there.
in this video I will be telling you a continuation of my story of what happened after I ran away from the hospital and how I found hope.
I hope you all enjoy and thank you so much for supporting my channel and listening to my journey.
love you all
TJ
OMG TJ that was the most inspiring thing I've seen in a long time. I was crying. So much wisdom -- "if you repeat it enough times you start to believe it" "when you're thinking of gratitude you can't be depressed" were two of my takeaways. I acknowledge that it takes great courage to share such personal, vulnerable stories. But you are making a difference. 🙌🤗
My heart is so happy reading this. Thank you so much for listening to my story. It truly means so much to me.
What a beautiful message! 😍😍
hi om my dear thank you so much and thanks to God i ve foiun your video today i needed it a lot♥...i suffer it for mroe then 20 years togehther with depression, possilbe BPD, suicidla ideations and aslo slefhahrm alsmot died few times but im still here...same as you in hospitla it truaamtised me even mroe i also love sauffering and punsishg me so itt made me jsut mroe deprssed i can relate so much and i hope you feel lot better now God bleess youz beautzf soul♥
Your story is definitely not over. Even if you feel like you are at the bottom of a cold well, and all you see is a tiny peek of light at the top, hold onto that light. You stayed focused on that light and what you were grateful for, and for that reason, you were able to climb up and out of that dark place and experience the light again. No one will ever know just how much strength that took to climb up each painful brick of that well, but you do, and you should be so proud of yourself.
I am so grateful for all your amazing dedication and help. I would never be where I am today without you.
With enough coffee anything is possible! 🥰😍🥰
TJ, I’ve watched you struggle, and seeing this has brought me joy. I am SO glad you have chosen life.
Oops! Well, double live to you!
Ha ha I love your comments thank you!
TJ, I’ve watched you struggle and lose hope. I am so very glad you have chosen life. You’re radiant!
Thank you so much my dear friend. I am so grateful to be alive.
I was wondering if you were ok and hoping you didn't get sick or Covid. WOW very insperational and watching you struggle even getting some parts of your story out in this video shows just how vulnerable and scary it can be to put ourselves out there. I mean, I take my medications for my physical and mental health, covid just sucked everything out, Auto-immune diseases suck, then throw in mental health where now your only able to stay inside your house and have little to no contact with anyone outside has got me HATING life, and that it took a year away from my grams and us. Way to much negative happening to see anything positive. I had weight loss surgery because I couldn't loose weight on my own, I got to an awesome weight that I was extremely happy and content with, now with all the medications, steroids, etc has made me gain and when I look in the mirror it is disgust. So I am trying to move around my house doing different things just so my body is moving, pushing through any pain and resistance my body is shouting out at me over. A hot cup of coffee helps loosen my fingers so I am able to open my fingers in the morning, then I turn on the IPad and portable speaker bring up my cleaning tunes and start to jam out, dancing around my house so my body is actually moving around. Were you in a place that starts with an R in Minneapolis? If so, I love that place, they have done an amazing job with my son and when we end up there for our many ambulance rides down there. Thank you for your raw and real video!
I love this and I’m so proud of you. It’s great to hear the origins of the gratitude posts.
Thank you so so much!
I just love you! 😊🧡🫂 I'm grateful for you!
💜💜💗🥰😊💓💜💜
Where you ever at Hershey?
Saw this and had to share! 💕
Me: Hey God.
God: Hello, my love.
Me: I'm falling apart. Can you put me back together?
God: I would rather not.
Me: Why?
God: Because you aren't a puzzle.
Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground?
God: Let them stay there for a while. They fell off for a reason.
Take some time and decide if you need any of those pieces back.
Me: You don't understand! I'm breaking down!
God: No - you don't understand. You are not breaking down,
you are breaking through.
What you are feeling are just growing pains.
You are shedding the things and the people in your life that are holding you back. You aren't falling apart. You are falling into place. Relax.
Take some deep breaths and allow those things you don't need anymore to fall off of you.
Quit holding onto the pieces that don't fit you anymore.
Let them fall off.
Let them go.
Me: Once I start doing that, what will be left of me?
God: Only the very best pieces of you.
Me: I'm scared of changing.
God: I keep telling you - YOU AREN'T CHANGING!! YOU ARE BECOMING!
Me: Becoming who?
God: Becoming who I created you to be!
A person of light and love and charity and hope and courage and joy and mercy and grace and compassion.
I made you for more than the shallow pieces you have decided to adorn yourself with what you cling to with such greed and fear.
Let those things fall off of you.
I love you! Don't change! Become! Become! Become!
Become who I made you to be.
I'm going to keep telling you this until you remember it.
Me: There goes another piece.
God: Yep. Let it be.
Me: So...I'm not broken?
God: No - but you are breaking like the dawn. It's a new day. Become!! Become!!
Author ~ John Roed
Thank you for sharing this!