I love and so appreciate your honesty about being scared when your baby was born. Society definitely puts an expectation on what it “should” be like when you first meet your baby. It’s so important that everyone know it’s not WRONG to have a different set of emotions.
Easier said then done, but Do not doubt yourself.... you ARE an amazing mom! The fact that you doing yourself shows how much you adore her! You are exactly the mom she deserves and needs, because your HER mom. Sending you all the love, light and strength!! Your gonna get that baby back, and it’s going to be so beautiful
Woo look at that crisp quality! Can't wait to see you blow up like Jess 😄 thank you for all your videos, you help me a lot and empowered me to work myself for rehabilitation and I'm dedicated to share all my love to the people who don't receive it and need it most ❤
Thank you for your video, I found out I was having my daughter a year after prison and then a 10 month program for Human Trafficking survivors with mental health and substance abuse issues.... And I was terrified! She's still here with my now and we are happy and healthy! Sadly we lost her father to addiction.
Hey Jen!! Bella is JUS AS BLESSED TO HAVE 1 KICK ASS MAMA THAT WLD GIVE HER OWN LIFE TO MAKE THAT BABY GIRL HAPPY ♥️ We ALL that are Mom's here can probably tell U we ALL either had the SAME feeling's when our babies where born or VERY SIMILAR!! U are normal for feeling how U did Jen, 1 day Bella will stand before U an U will be SO VERY PROUD UR HER MAMA!! CUZ #1 SHE IS PART OF U, #2 U DID NOT GIVE UP!! ON HER OR U!! WE ALL make mistakes, it's jus OUR mistakes involved substance's BUT we are BETTER an 1,000% STRONGER!! The thing's that U hate the MOST?? U HAVE ALREADY PAID FOR, AN NO ONE ELSE KNWS OOUURR F**K UP'S MORE THEN WEEE DO!! And with time girl friend... WE have to learn to FORGIVE OUR SELVES ... AND FOR SOME OF US?? THAT DNT COME EASILY AT ALL 💯💯 BUT IT'S PART OF RECOVERY GIRL FRIEND ♥️ LOL GIRL I SWARE WHEN U CRY SO DO I!! UR ONE TUFF LADY AN MAMA!! AS I WAS SAYING TO BEGIN WITH ... THAT LIL GIRL IISS GONNA THANK U SOME DAY, AN WHEN SHE DOES MAYBE THEN YOU WILL SEE THAT ALL FRM THIS POINT ON IS GOOD ♥️♥️ I HOPE that comes to U SOONER then that!! I DNT have the same exact feelings an for the same reasons, but MY baby is now 22 yrs old and I have experienced with MINE what I'm telling U about ♥️♥️💯💯♥️♥️🌴🌴♥️♥️ much love AND RESPECT Jen Frm the Sunshine State!! FL.!! ♥️🌴♥️ #WEDORECOVER!!! 💯💯💯💯
Love your Intro. And the new back round. Just to hear you say Bella is Amazing, brings tears to my eyes to know that a mother feels that way about her child. I think it's so awesome and so deep a connection between the two of you.
giving birth is just like meeting a stranger but it’s a lot more painful lol. Totally understandable why mothers don’t fall in love immediately, newborns look like aliens 👽
Felt this on such a deep level when you said “everything good I’ve ever done is her” 😭🥺 I think the same every single time I look at my daughter and it brought tears to my eyes. ♥️ love your videos so much and I’m so glad I found your channel!
Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you. You’re an amazing mama. Please never doubt yourself (easier said than done). Sending love your way & a hug xoxo
I found your channel recently (through Jessica Kent). I’ve never struggled with drug addiction, but I have used social media to cyberbully myself in the past and in doing so hurt people, lost friends, and lost my parents’ trust. You’re really inspiring :) - Anika P.S. I love the glasses! They look great :)
@@marsharowaihy6725 Ive had both of mine while on Suboxone and neither one went through withdrawal. I know it's scary, but don't worry no matter what the outcome your going to be ok. Good for you for doing the right thing and you ARE doing the right thing by staying on it if that's what you feel you need to do to stay healthy. Don't let anyone make you feel ashamed! Congrats and good luck to you.
@@marsharowaihy6725 Hey i dont want to be the negative one and it doesnt mean it will happen at all but i was on a high dose too, i think i was up to 24mg when i had my son and unfortunately we had to stay 3 weeks in the NICU. But like i said it doesnt mean that it will be the case for you, but consider it a possibility. I wish you all the luck and a healthy baby and a smooth delivery.
Wow Jenn, you make me want to give you a big fat hug 🤗 thanks for the great videos that you have created"make me want to cry with you"this one did! Luv to you, Jerred and Bella 💙 God bless 🌟💯❤️
Thank you for being so open and honest. My kids are 21 and 24 and everyday I worry about if I'm the mom they deserve. That's what us moms do. You're an amazing mom, an amazing person. 💜
I can relate so hard to not feeling like your baby is the love of your life on the first day, and when you said you had no idea how to be a mom. I had my daughter at 20 and felt zero maternal instincts and I felt like she was a stranger that I was responsible for. And I've never told anyone that out of fear of being judged. Feels good to hear it from another mom.
New follower. Saw you in a Christina Randall video and really enjoy watching hers and Jessica Kent's videos. Just started watching them today as well. Enjoy your insight as well. One fact that tells me that no matter what you feel, you are going to be what your daughter needs as a mom. The reason I say this is because even though I've raised my son I still doubt myself. I know every parent says this but my son is a great kid. I doubted every day and struggled for 15 years as a single dad. He was always first and I see that same desire in you. It's my kids time. I've made my mistakes and have to live with that. Now it's my kids time to fly. You're a good mom despite what circumstances you were in when she was born. I see it clearly in you that she is first and foremost to you. You continue down that road and your daughter will always know you were there and did the best you could for her.
I am sooooo glad you said what you did about becoming a new mom and not having all the feelings... it is so real and more moms needs to know that it is ok to feel that way
I just want to say how glad I am you mentioned that you had to build a bond with your daughter. I was the same way with my child who was very much planned and wanted. I was scared that I didn’t feel this immediate overwhelming amount of love. I was scared, exhausted, and so clueless. All he did was cry and I had no idea what to do. It’s not shameful to say you had to build a bond.
Love your honesty Jen and have great respect for you and what you have endured. You are a beautiful soul and you will continue to have a stronger bond with Bella. Sending you lots of love and blessings ❤💪🙏
Truth be said it takes time to bond with your child. Child birth is not easy and I have been through it 3 times. My children are my world and all of what you are saying makes perfect sense.
Thank you for opening up about this and being real, Jen! My daughter is also 9 and I felt the same way when she was born. I was clueless about motherhood. 💜🌻
I love the fact that you are so real & honest. I'm sure you loved your child, but, it takes a minute for you to "fall in love" with your baby. I have four daughters and I can recall the day I actually "fell in love" with them.❤️
GIIIIRL, you are GLOWWWing! Anywho, it’s a bit “refreshing” (if you can say that), to hear that Bedford seemed to have a rather positive program and provided y’all with a “relatively normal-as normal as that situation COULD be” given the location and overall environment. No mother-child relationship is the SAME. I appreciate your honesty explaining how your bond came to be. Everyone’s journey in motherhood (I suspect since I don’t have a child) is different, and we should respect the CHOICES one makes along THEIR JOURNEY in motherhood as long as it’s for the BENEFIT of THEIR child. You are one strong mama! You have every right to be proud of where you came from and where are you are now. Can’t wait to watch and hear about what the future holds for y’all! Much love, lady 💕
thank you for being so raw & honest... prison or not no one talks about the trauma/loneliness of childbirth or not having the feelings you’re “supposed” to have the second they are removed from your body lol. Bella is so lucky to have you as a mama & you keep doing the next right thing, which is all you can do. keep it up mama 💕
Birth can be traumatic no matter where it happens. Wishing everyone immense healing around their births. Making birthing a real connected experience where Mom is trusted is of upmost importance. That can look or be any way or outcome. Birth is powerful in intergatrating our experience we receive that power.
Thank you for saying it was ok not to instantly love my baby I have carried so much guilt for many years also I tell him every day how he saved my life from being the next one that would have been in a box because of my addiction I said that if the good Lord blessed me with a baby of my own I would remain sober because he deserves a sober mother and if I ever did anything right in my life he is the only thing that I have done right in my life he is my greatest blessing I have ever revived in my life and sobriety feels amazing
I love you even more after watching this!!! You’re pretty fucking amazing girl.......and yell it loudly for the people in the back! Never doubt yourself, you deserve to be a full time Mommy and raise that baby and teach her lifetime experiences! Stay strong 💪💕😘
Your reaction at birth and bond will be affected by so many things...childhood, relationship with the dad, how much you get to bond during pregnancy. I've had lots of babies (6 including one stillborn son) & did have that bond at birth, but I also mentored young moms for 7 years, who had different experiences. I'm also a younger widow now and have met women widowed while pregnant. So deep in grief, experiencing what you planned as a couple, holding his child, looking at a life with it all alone. That is a compelte mindf**k so of course many don't bond immediately and are shell-shocked.
this is why I relate to you I said I would stop but I didn't know you were 41 I'm 39 so see I'm young that I said I'm young cuz I am I don't feel 39 at all! So yeah that's why I'm holding my granddaughter okay I'll stop now I love you Jen
Have you ever watched Mamma Doctor Jones? She is an OBGYN and mom to 4 kids she talks about how it takes time to get to know your baby and how it’s not unusual to not be instantly fall in love with your new baby it takes time to get to know each other 💜💜
Thanks for sharing, Jen❤ so interesting listening to your birth story along with Jess Kent's...from an outsider it seems so meant to be how each one worked out...Jess needed to 'lose' her baby in order to kick her ass into gear and you needed to have longer time to bond in order to kick YOUR ass into gear. If you had your baby taken away after birth you never would have bonded and who is to say what your life would look like now? You each had completely different yet equally powerful experiences that lead you both to the amazing things you are doing now. Bella and Myka (spelling?) Are so so lucky to have such incredibly loving mamas❤❤
I get you ... crying bc also ... I want my baby girl to have the mama she deserves .. and , you can understand how hard that is to be on your own, and with others involved that do not maybe have the best for her at heart ❤️ hope you have a blessed day. Get some vitamin C epsom salt bath !!
I love how honest you are about how you felt when you first gave birth. People say how amazing it is and how the baby is the love of their life at first and I’m not a mother yet but I feel like I would just be scared.
also, last time I'm going to comment but I do apologize for the voice text of every single one of these and also commenting instead of just doing one big comment because I just reread one of these and voice text does not do very well with picking up my voice because I am in Tennessee and my southern twang it twist everything all around so I do apologize for that.. this apology honestly is to Jen and also to the real ones that are on her channel
I was wondering what was going on. I figured it was voice text. Or I thought maybe she says shes in recovery but relapsed & is on a good one. Im soo happy thats not the case & it was just talk to text. May angels keep you. 😇
you are so correct and that is beautiful that they taught you how to be a mother and advocate for her because I mean and it is okay to cry and I don't think a lot of mothers have that support at all they don't by the way and children are do not come with instructions! That is why they say it takes a village to raise a child
I'm not crying your crying 😭 Girl, yasss! Being a parent is hard as fuck! Being a mom is legit the most terrifying thing I've ever done lol! I don't think it'd be normal not to doubt yourself tho, it's a good thing bc that keeps you constantly on point and making sure you're headed in the direction you want to go! Good vibes being sent to your step son Anthony ❣️ And even better vibes to you girl 🤗
people are lucky to have you and I see what you see now that everything is a blessing and I see the positives but I didn't see any of that girl and I mean I tell you what we all have been through some s*** that's why I know I need to share my story quickly cuz I think I can break it down in a different way than everyone else does just like you break it down in a different way Jessica does we all do and we all have our own different stories and that is what is so beautiful about recovery and helping others! I need to email you about something but I want to comment but I'm not going to comment in the comment section you know you may have some trolls just like every channel does on UA-cam of course so therefore I'm just glad I found this before there was a ton of comments so hopefully you will see this but I try to let Jessica know..because I think Jess could help me a lot but the thing is plus her heart I know that she is completely overwhelmed I mean look how many subscribers she's got now which is amazing I'm just saying like you and I like your amazing and I just love that you know her and I need to email you about something because I think that you and her could really help me just saying so that's as far as I'm going to go into it the rest I'll email you girl you have a wonderful day!!!by the way I know something and it's something that I could help you with as well so that's all I'm going to say and it has something to do with your daughter that's all I'm going to say
Morning ☀️ Don’t get me wrong.. you ALWAYS look beautiful- but you are GLOWING today girl! Looking forward to this video. Also, because I’m pregnant, and not working my full schedule i plan on writing to Anthony. If I can bring him a quick smile or, occupy even just a few minutes of his time by sending him a letter... there is no reason why I wouldn’t. As far as putting money on his canteen- is that also an option by chance? I don’t have much but I know that quite literally, anything will help ❤️❤️
Thank you for being so honest about your feelings not having another child. Having children together with my partner isnt in the cards and we know thats the best choice. But, theres still moments where I wonder just what it would be like.
Great video...I have a question for you...were the guards who were in the room with you during delivery good to you?? Jen, look you are an amazing person and you will be a great mother.♥️♥️
Thank you for making this and yes they did ask really a good questions! even though you've already shared your story a little bit of it of course but the thing is I hate that you're still getting judged but that's just the way of the world you know? But the thing that I love is and what I realize is babies need their mothers and it doesn't matter where you guys are even if it's in prison so I know that you're definitely grateful for Bedford and I just think more prisons and more jails they all need babies and mothers to be together I mean there's no reason to just rip babies from their mothers I mean in some cases of course but...it breaks my heart with Jessica because I can relate to her story so much I wasn't prison but it was a whole story like that but I mean it's just so traumatic and I really need to get I have the courage I just need to definitely get up on UA-cam and talk because that's just one little inkling to my crazy ass life story thank.. you girl for doing what you do I appreciate it so much keep it up
@@JenCutting ...and that sucks because some people make awful choices in their lives and people change for the better and get in a better place in their lives and that shouldn't be held over their heads forever. Just my opinion. 🤷
My first child I was head over heels in love at first sight my second I had in prison and knew they where going to take her I was greaving for my baby is the best way I can explain the pain of them taking her. My last child I was to scared to bond for along time. I just felt like someone was just going to take her to.
Hey Jen, I'm here because I saw Jess say you were getting close to 10K. I saw this title and click right away. I knew a guy when I was locked up who's girlfriend was giving birth while they were locked up on having 4 oz of weed. When my daughter was born I was in love with her immediately my wife not so much, so I understand how you felt.
Great introduction Jen! Very professional!😁 I'll be shopping soon. I got my my first paycheck finally.. after they screwed up my direct deposit, but that's another story.. lol
Love you channel, your so open and real and it shines through ❤️ Gutted I missed the question box, when I was watching your video about giving birth in prison it got me thinking do you get a “hospital bag”? ☺️ I wish for good news to come for you and Bella soon she belongs with you ❤️
ya look exceptionally gorgeous today miss !! babies are terrifying, no shade i don't think i have the automatic maternal response either even though i'm super maternal ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ how far were you when you got arrested?
Don't regret your past and let it hunt u it's what made you who u are today be honest with yourself it's important in your recovery and I'm not trying to sound like a dog but your beautiful just like jes and Christina your better of a person that what u was in the past
You're only 41 so there's still time left. I could imagine such a bad first experience bringing fear . I wish you could experience a pregnancy as per normal ? It's every woman's right. It had to be right in everyday though too. Sometimes we experience the bad before the good and it holds us back 😥 ! How sad but I believe the true good ones we have undo that negativity and rewrite it in out mind's ,heart's &soul's. I'll add 💝.
here from Jessica's channel i love ur videos. they makes me feel less nervous to make youtube videos again :) only thing that drove me nuts was the camera zooming in and out tryna focus on u lol
I gave birth alone too. My ex husband was out with friends and I was too embarrassed to let my mom know. I had back contractions for 32hours at 35w5d and epidurals weren't done as easily in 2002 in my country. Also because I wasn't 37w yet. The birth was brutal. They snipped me without numbing it, I was already in so much pain I didn't feel it. I didn't feel my birth was beautiful at all. I was screaming "wtf is this, Aliens?!" and begging and crying if I could please go home. 32 hours of no sleep. I kept holding on to the fact that I was told as soon as the baby comes out, you forget all the pain. I pushed with all the strength I had left. But lies. lies. lies. I was still very much in pain and hysterical because of it. I've been shamed so many times for the fact that my birth story was very traumatizing to me. I wasn't listened to, I wasn't taken seriously. I felt powerless which triggered past traumas. It definitely influenced my bonding experience with my baby. I love her to death. Nothing I wouldn't do for her but the birth was absolutely awful. The second one 41w3d was like on out of the books and it healed a bit of the trauma of the first. Thank you for being honest about this.
I love and so appreciate your honesty about being scared when your baby was born. Society definitely puts an expectation on what it “should” be like when you first meet your baby. It’s so important that everyone know it’s not WRONG to have a different set of emotions.
for 2 youtubers who had a tiny human in prision. you and jess still had very different experiences from what i gather.
I know bella is so proud of you ❤️ i cant wait till she is older and understands more in depth what you do!
Easier said then done, but Do not doubt yourself.... you ARE an amazing mom! The fact that you doing yourself shows how much you adore her! You are exactly the mom she deserves and needs, because your HER mom. Sending you all the love, light and strength!! Your gonna get that baby back, and it’s going to be so beautiful
The reason you are the perfect mom for her is that you doubt yourself.
Woo look at that crisp quality! Can't wait to see you blow up like Jess 😄 thank you for all your videos, you help me a lot and empowered me to work myself for rehabilitation and I'm dedicated to share all my love to the people who don't receive it and need it most ❤
Thank you for your video, I found out I was having my daughter a year after prison and then a 10 month program for Human Trafficking survivors with mental health and substance abuse issues.... And I was terrified! She's still here with my now and we are happy and healthy! Sadly we lost her father to addiction.
Yeah motherhood and birth is by far from glamorous and actually not having an immediate bond with your child is SOOOO NORMAL & NATURAL !
Hey Jen!! Bella is JUS AS BLESSED TO HAVE 1 KICK ASS MAMA THAT WLD GIVE HER OWN LIFE TO MAKE THAT BABY GIRL HAPPY ♥️ We ALL that are Mom's here can probably tell U we ALL either had the SAME feeling's when our babies where born or VERY SIMILAR!! U are normal for feeling how U did Jen, 1 day Bella will stand before U an U will be SO VERY PROUD UR HER MAMA!! CUZ #1 SHE IS PART OF U, #2 U DID NOT GIVE UP!! ON HER OR U!! WE ALL make mistakes, it's jus OUR mistakes involved substance's BUT we are BETTER an 1,000% STRONGER!! The thing's that U hate the MOST?? U HAVE ALREADY PAID FOR, AN NO ONE ELSE KNWS OOUURR F**K UP'S MORE THEN WEEE DO!! And with time girl friend... WE have to learn to FORGIVE OUR SELVES ... AND FOR SOME OF US?? THAT DNT COME EASILY AT ALL 💯💯 BUT IT'S PART OF RECOVERY GIRL FRIEND ♥️ LOL GIRL I SWARE WHEN U CRY SO DO I!! UR ONE TUFF LADY AN MAMA!! AS I WAS SAYING TO BEGIN WITH ... THAT LIL GIRL IISS GONNA THANK U SOME DAY, AN WHEN SHE DOES MAYBE THEN YOU WILL SEE THAT ALL FRM THIS POINT ON IS GOOD ♥️♥️ I HOPE that comes to U SOONER then that!! I DNT have the same exact feelings an for the same reasons, but MY baby is now 22 yrs old and I have experienced with MINE what I'm telling U about ♥️♥️💯💯♥️♥️🌴🌴♥️♥️ much love AND RESPECT Jen Frm the Sunshine State!! FL.!! ♥️🌴♥️ #WEDORECOVER!!! 💯💯💯💯
Love you and how open you are. You are doing BIG things by sharing your story. Thank you!
Love your Intro. And the new back round. Just to hear you say Bella is Amazing, brings tears to my eyes to know that a mother feels that way about her child. I think it's so awesome and so deep a connection between the two of you.
giving birth is just like meeting a stranger but it’s a lot more painful lol. Totally understandable why mothers don’t fall in love immediately, newborns look like aliens 👽
True. Mom said she thought something was wrong w me. That i was an ugly baby. I love her for being honest w me. Lol.
I thought I was the only person who thought their baby looked like an alien.
Right?! Some look like old people esp when they’re wrinkly 😹
Felt this on such a deep level when you said “everything good I’ve ever done is her” 😭🥺 I think the same every single time I look at my daughter and it brought tears to my eyes. ♥️ love your videos so much and I’m so glad I found your channel!
Hi Jenn!! Jess did a great job with the pics in the beginning, it looks awesome!
Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you. You’re an amazing mama. Please never doubt yourself (easier said than done). Sending love your way & a hug xoxo
Not being bonded to your baby right away is so unbelievably normal!!! I wish more people talked about it. Also I love the intro so much!
If ain’t nobody else told you today, I’ll tell you, you’re amazing, and the world needs more people like you in it 💓 Much love 💕
I found your channel recently (through Jessica Kent). I’ve never struggled with drug addiction, but I have used social media to cyberbully myself in the past and in doing so hurt people, lost friends, and lost my parents’ trust.
You’re really inspiring :)
- Anika
P.S. I love the glasses! They look great :)
I love your honesty!! I was on subutext with my daughter and l had her in a Florida hospital. I was treated like a criminal. It was awful!!!
Can I ask if the baby went through withdrawal? I ask, bc I’m due next month, and am on the same med.
@@marsharowaihy6725 Ive had both of mine while on Suboxone and neither one went through withdrawal. I know it's scary, but don't worry no matter what the outcome your going to be ok. Good for you for doing the right thing and you ARE doing the right thing by staying on it if that's what you feel you need to do to stay healthy. Don't let anyone make you feel ashamed! Congrats and good luck to you.
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Thank you. I just worry, because I’m on 3 tabs 8 mg per day which is a high dose
@@marsharowaihy6725 Hey i dont want to be the negative one and it doesnt mean it will happen at all but i was on a high dose too, i think i was up to 24mg when i had my son and unfortunately we had to stay 3 weeks in the NICU. But like i said it doesnt mean that it will be the case for you, but consider it a possibility. I wish you all the luck and a healthy baby and a smooth delivery.
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Thank you for letting me know. I’m on 24 mg too.
Wow Jenn, you make me want to give you a big fat hug 🤗 thanks for the great videos that you have created"make me want to cry with you"this one did! Luv to you, Jerred and Bella 💙 God bless 🌟💯❤️
Thank you for being so open and honest. My kids are 21 and 24 and everyday I worry about if I'm the mom they deserve. That's what us moms do. You're an amazing mom, an amazing person. 💜
I love the background of your video and your intro❤️. Your one of my favorite youtubers.
I can relate so hard to not feeling like your baby is the love of your life on the first day, and when you said you had no idea how to be a mom. I had my daughter at 20 and felt zero maternal instincts and I felt like she was a stranger that I was responsible for. And I've never told anyone that out of fear of being judged. Feels good to hear it from another mom.
New follower. Saw you in a Christina Randall video and really enjoy watching hers and Jessica Kent's videos. Just started watching them today as well. Enjoy your insight as well.
One fact that tells me that no matter what you feel, you are going to be what your daughter needs as a mom. The reason I say this is because even though I've raised my son I still doubt myself. I know every parent says this but my son is a great kid. I doubted every day and struggled for 15 years as a single dad. He was always first and I see that same desire in you. It's my kids time. I've made my mistakes and have to live with that. Now it's my kids time to fly. You're a good mom despite what circumstances you were in when she was born. I see it clearly in you that she is first and foremost to you. You continue down that road and your daughter will always know you were there and did the best you could for her.
I am sooooo glad you said what you did about becoming a new mom and not having all the feelings... it is so real and more moms needs to know that it is ok to feel that way
I just want to say how glad I am you mentioned that you had to build a bond with your daughter. I was the same way with my child who was very much planned and wanted. I was scared that I didn’t feel this immediate overwhelming amount of love. I was scared, exhausted, and so clueless. All he did was cry and I had no idea what to do.
It’s not shameful to say you had to build a bond.
Thank you for your honesty. Love your intro. Love watching your videos. From Australia
I love you Jen your feels of jealousy are more than validated. Don’t let ignorant people take away from your pain.
Love your honesty Jen and have great respect for you and what you have endured. You are a beautiful soul and you will continue to have a stronger bond with Bella. Sending you lots of love and blessings ❤💪🙏
I love watching this channel grow🙌😊 and the confidence in front of the camera is going up so much 🙌🤩
Omg omg omg!!! 🙀🙀🙀
Your backdrop is EVERYTHING!!! It’s a combo of two of my faves: exposed brick and the color grey 😉
Truth be said it takes time to bond with your child. Child birth is not easy and I have been through it 3 times. My children are my world and all of what you are saying makes perfect sense.
I do love the purple, you totally pull it off ❤️❤️sending you hope and praying you get your girl home
Thank you for opening up about this and being real, Jen! My daughter is also 9 and I felt the same way when she was born. I was clueless about motherhood. 💜🌻
I love the fact that you are so real & honest. I'm sure you loved your child, but, it takes a minute for you to "fall in love" with your baby. I have four daughters and I can recall the day I actually "fell in love" with them.❤️
GIIIIRL, you are GLOWWWing!
Anywho, it’s a bit “refreshing” (if you can say that), to hear that Bedford seemed to have a rather positive program and provided y’all with a “relatively normal-as normal as that situation COULD be” given the location and overall environment.
No mother-child relationship is the SAME. I appreciate your honesty explaining how your bond came to be. Everyone’s journey in motherhood (I suspect since I don’t have a child) is different, and we should respect the CHOICES one makes along THEIR JOURNEY in motherhood as long as it’s for the BENEFIT of THEIR child.
You are one strong mama! You have every right to be proud of where you came from and where are you are now. Can’t wait to watch and hear about what the future holds for y’all!
Much love, lady 💕
thank you for being so raw & honest... prison or not no one talks about the trauma/loneliness of childbirth or not having the feelings you’re “supposed” to have the second they are removed from your body lol. Bella is so lucky to have you as a mama & you keep doing the next right thing, which is all you can do. keep it up mama 💕
I think this is your best video so far. Your story is worth sharing so thank you for being brave enough to do so.
You are amazing! Thanks so much for your truth. Peace.
So close to 10K subscribers!! So proud of you!!
Birth can be traumatic no matter where it happens. Wishing everyone immense healing around their births. Making birthing a real connected experience where Mom is trusted is of upmost importance. That can look or be any way or outcome. Birth is powerful in intergatrating our experience we receive that power.
Merely being a mom, plus doing it in jail, you are a hero! Your daughter won life’s lottery having you for her mom., my view.
I love how honest you are!
Good morning Jen! Sending well wishes to you and the kids, and I hope Anthony is doing ok! ☀️ ❤️
💖 you are such a good mom, can tell thru your answers!
I LOVE your honesty!
Don't worry! You will be a fabulous mom! 👧🏼👧🏼💜🙏🏻
Thank you for saying it was ok not to instantly love my baby I have carried so much guilt for many years also I tell him every day how he saved my life from being the next one that would have been in a box because of my addiction I said that if the good Lord blessed me with a baby of my own I would remain sober because he deserves a sober mother and if I ever did anything right in my life he is the only thing that I have done right in my life he is my greatest blessing I have ever revived in my life and sobriety feels amazing
Good 😌 luck on your recovery. I can def relate with what you are talking about in the beginning of having a baby
Well first of all I’m so happy to see you at 1k views by an hour! Your story is important. Girl we love you!!!! 🤩
You deserve to be proud❤️ your journey Is just getting started don’t be so hard on yourself I love you
Great Video As Always Jen Have A Great Weekend
Been waiting for this one! Got my coffee ready. Thank you for sharing 💜 I admire your strength and honesty.
I love you even more after watching this!!! You’re pretty fucking amazing girl.......and yell it loudly for the people in the back!
Never doubt yourself, you deserve to be a full time Mommy and raise that baby and teach her lifetime experiences!
Stay strong 💪💕😘
Your reaction at birth and bond will be affected by so many things...childhood, relationship with the dad, how much you get to bond during pregnancy. I've had lots of babies (6 including one stillborn son) & did have that bond at birth, but I also mentored young moms for 7 years, who had different experiences. I'm also a younger widow now and have met women widowed while pregnant. So deep in grief, experiencing what you planned as a couple, holding his child, looking at a life with it all alone. That is a compelte mindf**k so of course many don't bond immediately and are shell-shocked.
Your honesty is the best!!! 💜
this is why I relate to you I said I would stop but I didn't know you were 41 I'm 39 so see I'm young that I said I'm young cuz I am I don't feel 39 at all! So yeah that's why I'm holding my granddaughter okay I'll stop now I love you Jen
Have you ever watched Mamma Doctor Jones? She is an OBGYN and mom to 4 kids she talks about how it takes time to get to know your baby and how it’s not unusual to not be instantly fall in love with your new baby it takes time to get to know each other 💜💜
Your BEST video yet, I can relate to you so much!! Btw you look absolutely beautiful in this video!!
We are all holding your hand now Jen. Xoxo
Thanks for sharing, Jen❤ so interesting listening to your birth story along with Jess Kent's...from an outsider it seems so meant to be how each one worked out...Jess needed to 'lose' her baby in order to kick her ass into gear and you needed to have longer time to bond in order to kick YOUR ass into gear. If you had your baby taken away after birth you never would have bonded and who is to say what your life would look like now? You each had completely different yet equally powerful experiences that lead you both to the amazing things you are doing now. Bella and Myka (spelling?) Are so so lucky to have such incredibly loving mamas❤❤
I get you ... crying bc also ... I want my baby girl to have the mama she deserves .. and , you can understand how hard that is to be on your own, and with others involved that do not maybe have the best for her at heart ❤️ hope you have a blessed day. Get some vitamin C epsom salt bath !!
I love how honest you are about how you felt when you first gave birth. People say how amazing it is and how the baby is the love of their life at first and I’m not a mother yet but I feel like I would just be scared.
also, last time I'm going to comment but I do apologize for the voice text of every single one of these and also commenting instead of just doing one big comment because I just reread one of these and voice text does not do very well with picking up my voice because I am in Tennessee and my southern twang it twist everything all around so I do apologize for that.. this apology honestly is to Jen and also to the real ones that are on her channel
I was wondering what was going on. I figured it was voice text. Or I thought maybe she says shes in recovery but relapsed & is on a good one. Im soo happy thats not the case & it was just talk to text.
May angels keep you. 😇
you are so correct and that is beautiful that they taught you how to be a mother and advocate for her because I mean and it is okay to cry and I don't think a lot of mothers have that support at all they don't by the way and children are do not come with instructions! That is why they say it takes a village to raise a child
I'm not crying your crying 😭
Girl, yasss! Being a parent is hard as fuck! Being a mom is legit the most terrifying thing I've ever done lol! I don't think it'd be normal not to doubt yourself tho, it's a good thing bc that keeps you constantly on point and making sure you're headed in the direction you want to go! Good vibes being sent to your step son Anthony ❣️ And even better vibes to you girl 🤗
Please don’t forget what a strong woman you are to be a role model for Bella ❤️
I love your new intro and background, girl! 🤩
people are lucky to have you and I see what you see now that everything is a blessing and I see the positives but I didn't see any of that girl and I mean I tell you what we all have been through some s*** that's why I know I need to share my story quickly cuz I think I can break it down in a different way than everyone else does just like you break it down in a different way Jessica does we all do and we all have our own different stories and that is what is so beautiful about recovery and helping others! I need to email you about something but I want to comment but I'm not going to comment in the comment section you know you may have some trolls just like every channel does on UA-cam of course so therefore I'm just glad I found this before there was a ton of comments so hopefully you will see this but I try to let Jessica know..because I think Jess could help me a lot but the thing is plus her heart I know that she is completely overwhelmed I mean look how many subscribers she's got now which is amazing I'm just saying like you and I like your amazing and I just love that you know her and I need to email you about something because I think that you and her could really help me just saying so that's as far as I'm going to go into it the rest I'll email you girl you have a wonderful day!!!by the way I know something and it's something that I could help you with as well so that's all I'm going to say and it has something to do with your daughter that's all I'm going to say
Love the new intro and song!
So happy you finally have an intro!!!!
You are so amazing Jen!!
People who think you don’t need time to get to know your baby have never had a baby.
Morning ☀️
Don’t get me wrong.. you ALWAYS look beautiful- but you are GLOWING today girl! Looking forward to this video. Also, because I’m pregnant, and not working my full schedule i plan on writing to Anthony. If I can bring him a quick smile or, occupy even just a few minutes of his time by sending him a letter... there is no reason why I wouldn’t. As far as putting money on his canteen- is that also an option by chance? I don’t have much but I know that quite literally, anything will help ❤️❤️
You're so sweet. I appreciate you.
& most of the girls that are locked up are mother's an miss their babies so of course their gonna do any and everything to protect them babies..💜💋🖤
Thank you for being so honest about your feelings not having another child. Having children together with my partner isnt in the cards and we know thats the best choice. But, theres still moments where I wonder just what it would be like.
I fcking love your honesty n authenticity
Great video...I have a question for you...were the guards who were in the room with you during delivery good to you?? Jen, look you are an amazing person and you will be a great mother.♥️♥️
Thank you for making this and yes they did ask really a good questions! even though you've already shared your story a little bit of it of course but the thing is I hate that you're still getting judged but that's just the way of the world you know? But the thing that I love is and what I realize is babies need their mothers and it doesn't matter where you guys are even if it's in prison so I know that you're definitely grateful for Bedford and I just think more prisons and more jails they all need babies and mothers to be together I mean there's no reason to just rip babies from their mothers I mean in some cases of course but...it breaks my heart with Jessica because I can relate to her story so much I wasn't prison but it was a whole story like that but I mean it's just so traumatic and I really need to get I have the courage I just need to definitely get up on UA-cam and talk because that's just one little inkling to my crazy ass life story thank.. you girl for doing what you do I appreciate it so much keep it up
Agreed. Babies shouldn’t be ripped away from their mothers. In some circumstances its needed. But more often than not a child needs their mother.
I love the new intro!
You’re a great mom, Jen! Could you adopt another child? 💜
As a fel n that would be unbelievably difficult. Unfortunately
@@JenCutting ...and that sucks because some people make awful choices in their lives and people change for the better and get in a better place in their lives and that shouldn't be held over their heads forever.
Just my opinion. 🤷
My first child I was head over heels in love at first sight my second I had in prison and knew they where going to take her I was greaving for my baby is the best way I can explain the pain of them taking her. My last child I was to scared to bond for along time. I just felt like someone was just going to take her to.
You are amazing. That is all. ❤
Hey Jen, I'm here because I saw Jess say you were getting close to 10K. I saw this title and click right away. I knew a guy when I was locked up who's girlfriend was giving birth while they were locked up on having 4 oz of weed. When my daughter was born I was in love with her immediately my wife not so much, so I understand how you felt.
Great introduction Jen! Very professional!😁
I'll be shopping soon. I got my my first paycheck finally.. after they screwed up my direct deposit, but that's another story.. lol
Love you channel, your so open and real and it shines through ❤️
Gutted I missed the question box, when I was watching your video about giving birth in prison it got me thinking do you get a “hospital bag”? ☺️
I wish for good news to come for you and Bella soon she belongs with you ❤️
ya look exceptionally gorgeous today miss !!
babies are terrifying, no shade
i don't think i have the automatic maternal response either even though i'm super maternal
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how far were you when you got arrested?
I was four months.
I wish they had something like that here in Oregon for mothers when they go to prison instead of taking their kids away putting them in foster care
“I am a trainer of thee narcan,” hahaha
Adore you, girl. Writing Anthony. Keep shining.
Don't regret your past and let it hunt u it's what made you who u are today be honest with yourself it's important in your recovery and I'm not trying to sound like a dog but your beautiful just like jes and Christina your better of a person that what u was in the past
Feel you on the deciding no more kids but still wishing sometimes.
Your strength is so beautiful ❤️
Love the plants!! ❤️
Hey pretty lady! Hope you have a wonderful weekend!!
“She had baby uggs” 😂 ❤️
Look at you glamed up! Love your look today!
You're only 41 so there's still time left. I could imagine such a bad first experience bringing fear . I wish you could experience a pregnancy as per normal ? It's every woman's right. It had to be right in everyday though too. Sometimes we experience the bad before the good and it holds us back 😥 ! How sad but I believe the true good ones we have undo that negativity and rewrite it in out mind's ,heart's &soul's. I'll add 💝.
here from Jessica's channel i love ur videos. they makes me feel less nervous to make youtube videos again :) only thing that drove me nuts was the camera zooming in and out tryna focus on u lol
Funny, I did not notice one time the camera focusing in and out.
I saw clarity. 😁💯
I guess it's the little things to point out..😉🤣
@@jennSalvate yeah i wasn't tryna nit pick at the video sorry if it came out that way.i just noticed it and pointed it out. 🤷♀️
Jen, great Video!! I really like your hair today!!
I gave birth alone too. My ex husband was out with friends and I was too embarrassed to let my mom know. I had back contractions for 32hours at 35w5d and epidurals weren't done as easily in 2002 in my country. Also because I wasn't 37w yet. The birth was brutal. They snipped me without numbing it, I was already in so much pain I didn't feel it. I didn't feel my birth was beautiful at all. I was screaming "wtf is this, Aliens?!" and begging and crying if I could please go home. 32 hours of no sleep. I kept holding on to the fact that I was told as soon as the baby comes out, you forget all the pain. I pushed with all the strength I had left. But lies. lies. lies. I was still very much in pain and hysterical because of it. I've been shamed so many times for the fact that my birth story was very traumatizing to me. I wasn't listened to, I wasn't taken seriously. I felt powerless which triggered past traumas. It definitely influenced my bonding experience with my baby. I love her to death. Nothing I wouldn't do for her but the birth was absolutely awful. The second one 41w3d was like on out of the books and it healed a bit of the trauma of the first. Thank you for being honest about this.
Wow. Im so sorry youve been shamed for your experience. Im happy the 2nd birth was able to heal some of ur trauma from the 1st. Youre so brave!!
@@elliemeow6167 Thank you Ellie ❤
Moming is so hard. I Also was not head over heals with my baby after birth.. you need time to create that bond.