I someone found out I'm schizophrenic, she said "oh thats so cute" I think she meant it as I was seeking pity, but at the time I thought she really meant it was cute, I turned and looked at here confused, I said "Yeah its real cute when you dont shower for two weeks, forget your friends exist, and have been up for 3 days straight feeling like your having a bad meth trip" Hell I made a tattoo gun and tattooed myself with no idea how to tattoo, all because I was manic and couldn't sleep, I dont even remember doing it. I wreak my family's only car in a suicide attempt, then crawled out and beet up the car, the cops thought I was on pcp all because I was manic and my meds were fucked up at the time. And to top it all off Ive been up for 2 days, and surfing youtube at 5 in the morning, sharing personal details about my life.
I used to be highly intelligent. I used to take care of myself and had a job. Now, on the maximum dose of their drugs I find myself unmotivated, isolated, 60 pounds overweight, unemployed, and stupid. All because I told them angels and devils were talking to me in my head. 23 years of my life gone and no future.
Sounds a lot like my father. He was a naval officer, came out of the Navy and earned his MBA. He's such an intelligent man and I'm not sure why or when things changed for him. Thought maybe someone slipped something in his drink, thought maybe that it was an 'genius is a type of insanity' kind of thing. Or maybe he was too observant. I think I he got lost trying to get to the root of all his problems. Every other sentence is 'I got dissapeared', '...in the underground', 'on the _____ side of the house, this is happening', 'there's 3 or 4 different versions of _____ out there'. It's exhausting but I just listen. I know that's all he wants. The meds DO make him better. He sees it as poison and where he lives with my grandma is a prison. The food is poisonous and no one is who they say they are. Idk if I'll ever have my Dad back. He was functioning with it for 3 years on the medication... until he stopped. He wanted to be 'normal' without it.... but he's not. & he's not safe when he's not. His life will never be the same and it breaks my heart... every day.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I have skitzophrenia but my doctor won't giv me any thing cause I am to young but at this point with depression medicen I would rather live with the voices cause all they are the only ones who understand me they are part of who I am and without them I am numb cause they are the only thing that tell me I am not weird or strange they are mean sometimes but they have never mad me cry or want to run they are my life line and without them I am not me they are the only ones who will tell me the truth while others try to make the situation better I am happy when I don't have drugs always in my system I don't even want the meds but the doctor tells me I am depressed but I don't fell sad I am not a happy person but I love how I am the voices are part of me and I love them for that
I someone found out I'm schizophrenic, she said "oh thats so cute" I think she meant it as I was seeking pity, but at the time I thought she really meant it was cute, I turned and looked at here confused, I said "Yeah its real cute when you dont shower for two weeks, forget your friends exist, and have been up for 3 days straight feeling like your having a bad meth trip" Hell I made a tattoo gun and tattooed myself with no idea how to tattoo, all because I was manic and couldn't sleep, I dont even remember doing it. I wreak my family's only car in a suicide attempt, then crawled out and beet up the car, the cops thought I was on pcp all because I was manic and my meds were fucked up at the time.
And to top it all off Ive been up for 2 days, and surfing youtube at 5 in the morning, sharing personal details about my life.
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I love this poem it's so inspiring and amazing thank you for performing this
My mothers schizophrenic, this has really opened my eyes to see and understand her condition
I used to be highly intelligent. I used to take care of myself and had a job. Now, on the maximum dose of their drugs I find myself unmotivated, isolated, 60 pounds overweight, unemployed, and stupid. All because I told them angels and devils were talking to me in my head. 23 years of my life gone and no future.
Sounds a lot like my father. He was a naval officer, came out of the Navy and earned his MBA. He's such an intelligent man and I'm not sure why or when things changed for him. Thought maybe someone slipped something in his drink, thought maybe that it was an 'genius is a type of insanity' kind of thing. Or maybe he was too observant. I think I he got lost trying to get to the root of all his problems. Every other sentence is 'I got dissapeared', '...in the underground', 'on the _____ side of the house, this is happening', 'there's 3 or 4 different versions of _____ out there'. It's exhausting but I just listen. I know that's all he wants. The meds DO make him better. He sees it as poison and where he lives with my grandma is a prison. The food is poisonous and no one is who they say they are. Idk if I'll ever have my Dad back. He was functioning with it for 3 years on the medication... until he stopped. He wanted to be 'normal' without it.... but he's not. & he's not safe when he's not. His life will never be the same and it breaks my heart... every day.
hey man, i truly felt your words, your comment broke me, im crying. i wonder how are u doing today, i hope u are better, wish u all the best. ❤
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
That was beautiful...mind opening!
Thank you for this I'm diagnosed as schizophrenic with aspbergers syndrome
I have skitzophrenia but my doctor won't giv me any thing cause I am to young but at this point with depression medicen I would rather live with the voices cause all they are the only ones who understand me they are part of who I am and without them I am numb cause they are the only thing that tell me I am not weird or strange they are mean sometimes but they have never mad me cry or want to run they are my life line and without them I am not me they are the only ones who will tell me the truth while others try to make the situation better I am happy when I don't have drugs always in my system I don't even want the meds but the doctor tells me I am depressed but I don't fell sad I am not a happy person but I love how I am the voices are part of me and I love them for that
This is beautiful
So true, I agree with him 100%
Fuck, I relate so much oh my god
When mental illness cruelly distorts an individual's thoughts and emotions, let us ensure that society does not also rob them of their dignity.
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