This video should bee used in treatmentprograms. Not many statements like this with clear insight of the whole history will be told by obvious reasons. I am proud of you. Love from Sweden!
Thank you Bosse! ❤️ I also believe my experiences could be useful for treatment-facilities. Hopefully it will reach someone who can make good use of it. Thank You, much love from Norway 🙏
Oh my goodness ! Ive worked in mental health , drug services and homelessness as well as having plenty of personal experience of drugs as well as supporting friends who have needed a lift in dark times . I cannot fault one word of what you said , I am so happy that you are well now and seem to have such a comprehensive understanding of all the issues surrounding your experience , personal and political . Amazing stuff Richard ! I feel to write some more but Im a bit blown away !
In november 2022, I had a burnout, and then I took cannabis because I thought it would calm the situation in my head, but in fact it created even more chaos in my head, I didn't know who I was, what was happening, I simply disappeared. Afterwards I had suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety and when I closed my eyes I would see vivid pictures of places and people. I stopped working for a year I was taking olanzapine 7.5 mg of medication, after 9 months the psychiatrist stopped the therapy and then suicidal thoughts, depression returned. I am now on 2.5 mg of olanzapine at bedtime and I am stable. I have none of the symptoms. A year and 2 months have already passed. I started working and training again and slowly return to normal life. btw, a very inspiring story, it helped me a lot. Thank you Greetings from Germany
Thank you for sharing man, makes me warm that you’re doing good again! I also in fact was on olanzapine, and it was a good medication for me. Slowly getting off it also helped me getting the ‘excitement’ of life back, but it has to be done gradually. Best of luck forwards, friend, I am confident you’ll make it and will have a plentiful wonderful life a head of you 🙏
I started smoking weed heavily at age 18, I'm 30 now. Looking back, I suffered a very serious psychotic breakdown the summer of 2015, then again this winter, about a month ago. I am over 3 months sober from marijuana and couldn't be more grateful for that. It 100% caused me to suffer very very very very serious mental effects from it. I became extremely conspiratorial as you said you did. It caused me to do things I would have never done, thought, or said, if I had not been using marijuana. I came to the conclusion about 3 years ago that marijuana is an extremely dangerous substance that can cause extremely serious mental problems in individuals. I never ended up in a hospital for it, but am 100% sure I suffered psychosis and multiple psychotic breakdowns during my 11-12 years of marijuana abuse. Funny enough a breakup at 18 with my high school sweetheart is what caused me to turn to marijuana to begin with, I was unable to manage to emotions that came with that situation. Glad I found this video. It confirmed to me that I am not crazy and that the abuse of marijuana was the cause of much of my mental torment I experienced. God bless you bro, here's to a bless and joyful 2023.
Hello. I hope you’re doing well. I am curious what was your most difficult part of withdrawal: sleep, digestion, nervous system, emotional and mental states such as anxiety
Much luck to you, your brother and family. I think close relatives sometimes go through the hardest part considering a psychotic patient is not as present during the illness as the relatives are who have to watch the madness.. Stay strong, much love ❤️🙏
@@TheDingsBoms thank you, I appreciate videos like yours as they give hope. I just want him to go back to normal and enjoy his life, knowing it is possible give us strength
After 20+ yrs of drinking I recently started to feel like I was going mad. The last couple of years I only drank on the weekends but I didn't realize that the effects were lasting well into the week. I was thinking of seeing a therapist or getting some meds until I decided to just not drink at all for a week. Im only a week sober but I feel myself slipping back into reality. I didn't realize I might have been slipping into an alcohol induced psychosis until today. If your even a mild drinker and feel this way stop drinking because the feeling is absolutely horrible. I can't believe the lens I'm seeing through right now has been absent for years. Awesome video man. Also, if you feel this way you might not realize it because I graduated college on the deans list, excel in my job, own a house, and have good relationships so I kept telling myself there is no way alcohol is the problem. As of right now, I'm convinced it is. So, its an insidious process is what I'm saying.
Alcohol is a brutal substance friend, our culture with it makes it difficult to handle as well. Best of luck to you, glad you found my video useful 🙏❤️
Hi Richard, this is a very helpfull and informative video, well done. I had psychosis twice, and the way I got into the first one is very similar to yours, In 2020 during the pandemic I started to smoke weed daily, and in april 2021 I had a mania episode (I discovered I am type 1 bipolar) that lead to a psychosis. And I also was into these spiritual things and meditation so I thought I was enlightened. I wanst hospitalized but the episode was pretty bad. I found out that staying away from cannabis is the best thing for my mental health. Great video and greetings from Brazil.
Richard, I found profound similarities between our experiences. I used to think my disease was going to be life-long and that was really discouraging. Your story not only inspired me but also provided me with hope. Thank You!
@@yuzhouzheng I am medicine-free in fact, got off them before I was advised to, but I’m doing fine! I think it varies a lot from person to person whether it’s a good idea. For me I felt that getting Ill again was not a risk, the medicine took more from me than they gave, but that’s no guarantee for good success. Either way, if you want to get off them you should do it gradually and slowly 😊❤️
I don't often comment on yt, but man this was great, thank you so much for sharing your experiences. You seem like a very decent and hard-working young man, props!
Had a psychotic break ten years ago induced by weed and am in a much better place now too. Thanks for sharing your story and perspective. I feel like I'm still putting the pieces together from my childhood traumas even before drugs and it's making more sense all the time.
My pleasure man, glad to hear you’re doing better! It’s a heavy experience, but can be filled with wisdom and experience if you get out at the better end
Impressed how you summarised your thoughts and experiences during and after rough times, brave… and author-like. You could write a book! Anyway-thanks for sharing
Hey dude, thanks so much for uploading this. I took "acid" (most likely NBOMe, an acid knock off) back when I was a freshman in college and it definitely didn't do wonders for my mental health. Luckily I recovered without any psychological/pharmaceutical help but I really wish I knew the risks of doing psychedelics before I took them. Thanks for sharing so openly about your experiences with these powerful substances.
My pleasure man! That is a serious risk with psychedelics in a state of illegality, where we don’t have any idea what we actually get , especially with LSD and NBOMe, or ‘ecstasy’ which used to be pure MDMA. Doesn’t exactly help with the “set and setting” aspect 😋
Knowledge is power. We are our own best doctors. Never trust a single source of information, always triangulate from unrelated sources. Research everything you feel and notice about yourself. Focus on understanding yourself. Focus on your gnosis, this also requires trusting the self (work on this, too). Your story has only just begun, dude, you have soooooo much more you get to discover, you're going to be a completely different person on the other side of your gnosis. If you have the heart to dive into the self, the level of freedom is phenomenal. Begin by researching quantum sciences, spiritual alchemy, and Shadow Work (Carl Jung) or inner child work. Trust your heart, not your gut, find your true self, find your truth, and the humans you meet, you'll change forever. ❤ Peace.
Thank you for posting this. Your story is very valuable. What might feel like a set back for you is truly a sacrifice for others now. Sounds like you might have had some CPTSD as well. Happy to see you’re doing much better😊!
Hi Richard! Thank you for this video, I can relate to your story as I am 24 and have been dealing with addiction and my lifestyle very poorly. I started using cannabis last year for 6 months (smoking once per week around 0,5-1 grams at once). It made me lazy, unmotivated, gave me brain fog, but worst of all, it gave me terrible anxiety and overthinking. I constantly caught myself slipping into maddening thought loops, not being able to relax and had some terrible breakdowns and panic attacks. Thankfully, I haven't used any drug for a month, however my anxiety only got worse and worse. I decided to self medicate with very low doses of shrooms which actually really helped face those disturbing thoughts and accept my situation for what it is. The anxiety and thought loops have been reduced but only a week has passed since I last dosed so maybe it is too early to tell if the effect is permanent. I intend on not using any drug other than low doses of mushrooms on rare occasions (once per year maybe less). For now, I can now focus a lot more on my goals and make the best of my life. Hopefully I will not get the nasty anxiety and thought loops back. I will update this comment as time goes on.
@@TheDingsBoms so around 2-3 weeks have passed since my comment, I am actually doing really well, definitely had some mushrooms afterglow for about a week, but now I just have a lot less anxiety compared to before, and I am feeling like things are just going back to normal, no more intrusive thoughts, no more excessive anxiety and just a very normal life which I am very grateful for. I also had the courage to fix my current relationship with my SO and told her the truth about me. I may not have as great achievements in my life as you do, but I can see myself on a path of living peacefully and with gratitude. Will come back to this in a longer time =)
@@kevinhornbuckle Yes, I know, I do wim hof, cold showers, a lot of mtb, take time to talk to myself but my anxiety only got worse and worse while getting off weed. For sure, what I did for relaxation was very helpful in the moment but otherwise I would just be a ball of anxiety. Mushrooms really helped me but I am not saying they are for everybody, heck, maybe I just got very lucky.
The key takeaway for me was that other people are how they are and i have to work with them as such. I should not set expectations of others in accordance with what i think is proper. This idea could probably be broken down in an entire book as there is a lot of nuance to it, but the general idea of orienting myself with the world around me instead of my own mind is powerful. I've realized this before seeing your video, but there was a time in my life when i did not understand, and i was often miserable because of it.
Exactly, great takeaway! In the broader perspective of life every individual has a personal responsibility to relate to other beings and the outer world in general. If this is done correctly some beautiful harmonies can be expressed and experienced.
I'm Norwegian too. I had mild psychosis and several hospital visits...I smoked weed. Its more dangerous than we think. I was sure everyone in my psych hospital was against me. It still scares me to this day because that is so irrational. I love your style and honesty.
Tusen takk! 🙏 There are for sure real dangers with cannabis, where especially a certain demographic is exposed to serious mental illnesses that we as a public are not well enough aware of.
@TheDingsBoms Tusen Takk 🙏 Your welcome. I like how you just got into your history in this video. Good confidence and sound dampening room!! Thanks for the heart.
I also had psychosis induced from HEAVY 2 months of Cannabis abuse. It was really bad - I was in 10 hour stand off with SWAT - guns were involved. I got multiple felonies - almost killed my neighbor and dog. Thank GOD I was living alone. I am medication and all symptom free - I cannot touch cannabis or any other psychedelic.
I am 24 and have been to the mental ward twice. The first was an incredible experience; the second nearly killed me. The juxtaposition was incredible. Nothing much was different and that was the problem - it was all the same as the first time to the point where it started depressing me. The first time I went psychotic was when I was off my meds in high school. I was obsessed with 9/11 and a sewerslide pact that every kid at school had made and could be referenced with code words. I thought my librarian teacher was testing me by changing the lesson plans, so I just didn't do anything that class. Earlier this year I was prescribed Adderall, which was maybe the stupidest thing my doctor ever did. Since it's basically sisters with meth, you can imagine what it did to my mentally ill ass. I went full-blown psychotic, my DID basically exploded, and I was finally admitted to the ward. It was actually great for me as I detoxed and they put me on an antipsychotic which is what my therapy place had never bothered to do, despite being fully aware of my history and traumas. The second time I had committed an act of self-harm. It wasn't an attempt, but rather a compulsion to get out my extremely painful emotions. This was at the end of July. The ward was exactly the same. God I am glad to be out of there and I don't ever want to go back. I too have drug-induced psychosis and I'm lucky I didn't get put in there because of all those edibles I took one night, lol. Everyone was very concerned but I got out scot-free with that one. Other times, though.. My dad's called the cops on me 18 times because he doesn't know how to deal with me. However, the ward has also basically fixed my life; he was abusive as hell and finally treats me with basic human respect. That's more than my therapy place has ever done for me! They're gonna hear it. Thank you for the video. Your script writing is really good and I could relate to you a lot. It's a very vulnerable and probably nerve-wracking to upload a video like this lol, so thanks again. I'll take the advice about the external world and the pillars to heart. No better advice to take than from those who have been where you are, right? ^ That all helped. This feels like an internet checkpoint lmao. Have a great day + life, hope things stay going well. 💜💙
Thank you for sharing your story! We share some intense life-experiences which we will have to make the best out of, and in the end we will hopefully have become wiser and better, kinder and more understanding human-beings 😊❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. My son is coming out of his second hospitalization. He used a lot of cannabis and he is young. I find your video to be very helpful . I would have a question for you and your answer could be very helpful for me to help my son and i making the best decision for his health. My question is: Were you on medication when you got your second and third episode? Were you taking your medication and smoking cannabis and it led you to get hospitalized or you had stop taking your medication and continued smoking weed? Another question without being to indiscret is: Are you still taking medication and do you think it’ s necessary to take it for the rest of your life to stay away from another psychotic episode?
I’m glad I can help. 😊 I was not on any medication on my second and third episode, I stopped using medication much earlier than recommended. I am not on any medication now, although it is recommended based on statistics. To me the downside of being ‘down’/‘heavy’ and apathetic from the medicine made it worth getting off of, but it’s a risk one have to seriously consider, and professional advice is probably what one should stick to. I personally did not, and I’m glad I’m not on any medication, but I’m confident that for me a trigger would be only if I start using substances again, which I don’t do. But I think this is very different from person to person, and I might even be wrong about myself.. Hope there are insights of value here, feel free to ask any more questions, I’m happy to help 😊❤️
@@TheDingsBoms Absolutely valuable insights!! Thank you so much. Your answer to my questions are so much appreciated. There’s nothing to compare with having someone who share his experience of this rocky road from the core. Experience is the greatest teacher !! I totally agree that a healthy routine and a balanced lifestyle is necessary to stay on track. I also find your answer to my questions to be very clear,informative,objective and honest. Thanks a million!! Bless your soul 🎶
I believe that the we enter when I take a psychedelic drug I enter the same world that we have to enter when we die and facing our fears of living in this other world will make me adapt better. Although I am aware that this does not help me living in this world. What do you think? Although I agree with you on many things that you have mentioned.
That’s an interesting thought! Many studies with psilocybin mushrooms and cancer patients suggest that the experience may alleviate the fear of death. To me this suggests that there is some other-worldly experience being perceived, perhaps the afterlife. As you said, being there or staying there recreationally might not be helpful to this current material reality, but being aware of its existence might be soothing for an existential crisis. I personally believe that we are in a temporary state of existence to learn about the wonders of duality, love and hate. Ultimately we will return to the state of omniscient unity consciousness where we realize that we’ve enacted separate roles of ourselves to learn more of ourselves. Fundamentally, we are infinite love. A happy thought, and a great perspective and philosophy on life, whether or not it’s true. 😊❤️
While on LSD I got the following message: "the material world is your rock to hold on, while the spiritual/psychedelic/nonphysical experiences remember you to not hold on too much."
This is a very good and hard question. I think the number one problem with how people get affected by psychedelics is due to the illegal state it’s in, and therefore at the get go creating a very unfortunate set and setting. In a set and setting where it is legal, socially accepted, and surrounded by professional medical staff/trip sitters, the possibility of a positive outcome is much higher. However, I’m not a medical expert, but there seems to be a genetic correlation or simply a personality trait that make some people even more sensitive to these experiences, for better or for worse. In my case, definitely for the worse. I hope and believe that one day we will reach the point of psychedelic maturity as a society where as many people as possible can benefit from its medicinal properties, but as of today I would advise everyone, especially sensitive people prone to mental illness to stay away from these substances, until we can achieve a proper safe and healing set and setting.
How do you know if your not just really high ? Or if it is a psychosis? Listening to this I believe I may have been in psychosis but isint that what a person smokes / take Shrooms for ? To have an alternate sense of reality to give you a new perspective on a particular situation ? I’m not sure but you didn’t really explain the difference…. Anyways nice blender model 👍 I had to stop smoking weed because it’s just a super big waste of time and money 💰, and certain jobs will test for thc… I am currently take Adderall (brand name) and it definitely helps my day to day…. Greetings from California Bay Area…. Love Germany by the way. I dated one of the best women I knew, was from Germany. She was actually much larger than me (proportionate) and not so pretty in the face… but now that I am more mature I would have loved to have been with her… most people think German woman are mean and bossy but I found that is my preference because I actually like smarter women than myself and I thrive from the guidance… anyways I kinda digress ( ADHD) lol. Take care 👍 Thanks 🙏🏽
@@Plant_lover_495 Hey man! That’s an excellent question, and you can definitely argue that the difference is close to none! I guess the problem with a psychosis is that the high never wears off, or at least not in a reasonable timeframe. This is can be a problematic situation where someone who might just need some time to land, ( or a downer like benzos ) get prematurely sent to a clinic or hospital, prolonging the trip so to speak. Difficult decision to make though, if someone is seriously ill, they probably should get help asap you know.. In my case I definitely needed help, at least the first time around, but I actually suspect that someone to talk to and a downer would have landed me the other times. Cheers from Norway! 🇳🇴🤘
I’m grateful to you- my loved one is experiencing some intense paranoid delusional thoughts… and has been for 2.5 years… we desperately need help… there are no services available here in the US. AND Our LO does not have insight into their illness. :( I have some questions if you might be able to share your privacontact info. I would like to get your input and thoughts
Yes, so I didn’t really go into the specifics of my situation, just because it would be such a long video, but my main symptoms were the delusions of grandeur and thinking people knew what I thought. I thought I was the center of the universe and that all of life’s impressions were for me to realize that I am subconsciously making all this up for myself like a game. This meant that necessarily everyone knew my thoughts, and that the game would be ‘over’ ending in an infinite stale mate if I got to close to realizing. Really horrifying stuff! 😅
@@TheDingsBoms I had some very mild psychosis symptoms that last a couple months after a very very large acid dose mixed with nitrous oxide. I believed I was some kind of extra dimension god soul reincarnated Into this life. I believed that I had to use high dose psychedelics to fight some kind of battle for these entities. Kept me doing way to much acid to frequently to "train" for this battle. Managed to get over it with time after not using psychs. Had many many very awful trips. Fortunately for me weed does not cause me psychosis and psychedelics have not precipitated it since. However it has robed me of enjoy psychedelics much these day. It very nervracing now and just makes me anxious and paranoid. I used to be all about tripping. Been trying to cut away my identity from drug use now. I don't enjoy being seen as a drug user anymore
@@invan99999 I’m a huge fan of actualized! I definitely think we are god experiencing itself, but it doesn’t make much of a difference when it comes to taking personal responsibility of your own life
There is a history of cannabis and alcohol abuse in my family, I've been curious about trying at least cannabis but even at 19 i cant bring myself to after what i saw it made my family act like, its silly to say outloud but its just too scary for me, I know that's not what this video is about but I feel like too many people treat cannabis and alcohol like it's user-friendly and harmless or something meanwhile im still trying to overcome my fear for it, mental illness and neurodiversity also run in my family , so I feel like I should adresse that before I get anywhere near stuff anyways lol
«Modus Arbeidstrening» was a place in Norway for younger people who dropped out of high school in order to get some kind of routine, work experience and references for applying for a real job. You would either work at a cafeteria, repair broken electronics, work as a shop clerk or help out at a landfill. I worked with fixing electronics, like old amplifiers, TV’s and speakers, something I already had interest in. 😊
I have a last question . Since 6 months I’m recovering from drug induced psychosis. After recovering from it . I want to become an athlete and body builder . Can I full fill this dream ? Before this psychosis I was a gym freak guy. One more question while recovering is it possible to work at McDonald’s or dishwasher job ? Part or full time
Sure thing man! Becoming a professional bodybuilder is immensely difficult, but working out is great for your health either way. I personally worked at a grocery store, and that was fine, however it has to be done in portions and gradually adjusted so you don’t get too stressed or overworked
@@TheDingsBoms I have seen a guy from Ireland who is an athlete and body builder after a drug induced psychosis . My dream is to live Independently . My parents are supporting me but I don’t feel like taking support . I don’t know how much time it’s gonna take for me to feel normal and move out independently.
@@ashkiratdhillon7579 I see! During this period, I think it’s wise to receive and accept as much support as possible, especially by the ones close to you. Best of luck my man! 💪
hi richard i want to ask you if you use antipsychotic medication if you do i want to now if you get off and how long thats take you to get off and thank you for all your advices i wish you the best
Hi, thanks for watching! I’m currently not on any medications, I got off my meds rather quickly after getting better, despite what I was recommended. I know many fall back when quitting meds, luckily I didn’t. I felt I lost a bit of energy and emotions using meds.. Last time I was on meds I was probably on it for 3-4 months I would guess! But I had longer periods before, would highly recommend to follow your psychiatrist recommendations, but you gotta feel out stuff on your own at times as well! Cheers!
I have been experimenting with weed for around 2 years naw and going through phases of doing it daily for a month or 2 and then taking a few weeks to a month of. During the months I do it every day taking high doses of edibles, and using 98% thc vap pens. I have also experimented with a few low doses of shrooms and have not experienced any physiological problems. Do you think that a higher dose of mushroom, or lsd could set something of, because I’ve always had a feeling I would have a bad trip and become schizophrenic? Do you think there is anything you could have done to prevent your psychosis?
I think that if you suspect you might get I’ll from psychedelics, you probably have some bad circumstances for going on heavy trip. I’m not qualified to advice you to do anything, but for me high or small dose didn’t really matter, I couldn’t seem to settle/land again. Maybe some trip-killers would help, but I would suggest to you to rather be interested in these phenomena to try to master this 3D-existence while it lasts. I’m sure there are magnificent experiences waiting for us at the other end of life ❤️
My recommendation is to just quite while your ahead man I never got psychosis from weed but i got weed induced DPDR which is a cognitive distortion and i felt like i was developing psychosis but found out this was not the case but scared me out of every substance after heavy weed smoking for a year, I'm usually rather sensible with substances when something's off I never had an issue leaving it behind I just wasn't aware weed could do these things coz it's not talked about but if you know that's half the way to prevent a circumstance that can make your life a short period of hell
It varied from time to time, first time was the longest, took me about six months after starting to get better, that’s a year and a half in total. The next times was shortened down to months 😊
I was lucky enough to be given the space by my parents when they rebuilt the house. The egg cartons themselves are dirt cheap, but all the equipment I’ve invested in I’ve probably spent over 10k on 🫣😅
Hii Richard I’m recovering from drug induced psychosis . It’s been 6 months I’m recovering from my psychotic episode . Is it possible to work after one year ?
Hi! I’m happy to hear you’re recovering. It completely depends, I would advise having an arrangement with your boss to give you flexibility so you can ‘dip your toes’ before working like before! Having work can improve the health though, so there’s a balance there where it can help your recovery, but too much can be stressful and trigger symptoms
Yes, so this is something I experienced personally for sure. If you take this realization in healthy manner and don’t confuse your ego into this truth, that we are fractals of unified infinite consciousness, it can be a very helpful philosophy of life. Thank you for sharing! 🙏
I have schizophrenia. My voice lives and breath everyday. He is evil. But i like him. He has a good side. I mean hes a full blown personality. He has facets to his personality. Mostly bad for me but some of him i like. He is evily funny if you can laugh at insults to yourself. Im confused if i dont try to take my meds and get rid of him i can have episodes, but i like having company everyday. Idk what to do
Hey! Thank you for sharing, being in that state sounds bothersome my friend. There’s definitely some ‘fun’ in tampering and exploring these beings and states, but I want you to try to remember back to the days when you weren’t deep in this voice. There’s a whole world of opportunities waiting for you, and your friends and family miss you. Try to see the excitement and wonder of getting into a normal life again. ❤️🙏
Hi! It is not demonic, don’t worry my friend. These illnesses are the results of brain-, and thought patterns, so we need to break those circuits somehow. For me and for most people, I believe this involves setting some new good healthy routines like working out, eating healthy, socializing and stimulating your intellect with reading or puzzles etc. Slowly but surely you will unravel these treacherous and untrue thought patterns and get closer and closer back to our material shared ‘boring’ reality.
Hi Richard, i've recently been diagnosed with drug-induced psychosis from a mushroom trip. I've experienced delusions that my friends are out to get me and that they are against me, i didn't have any hallucinations or auditory symptoms. i just can't find my words and it's really hard to organize my thoughts and talk it feels like i've forgotten things that i've learned and a lot of times i can't find my words when i'm thinking of something or trying to explain something as if i've forgotten words. I'm wondering if you had anything similar at all since i can't find any videos on the internet with similar symptoms
Hey man! I’m answering you in a hurry just to let you know that what you’re going through is completely normal, don’t be afraid. Let your mind settle down with time, be patient and kind to yourself and slowly but surely you will get back and remember the thought patterns you used to have. You’ve gone through a very stimulating experience and your brain needs time to process and get back to old patterns. Stay calm, be patient, everything will be fine 😊❤️
@@TheDingsBoms have you ever experienced spacing out? Like i'm on my meds and my vocabulary is starting to come back but it feels like my whole personality is gone. i'm sitting in the car with my brother for example and i'm just gazing forward with no though or idea of what to say. i used to be extremely curios prior and would ask a lot of questions and socialize with people. I feel like i'm literally gone
@@szabikis9999 yeah man that’s extremely common, especially with meds. I remember one time talking to my parents and literally drooling with a blank gaze. Don’t worry, this period might be lame and tough at the same time, but it’s a necessary part of the process. What you’re sort of doing is boring your mind so hard that no thought seems remotely far fetched or extraordinary, til you get the point again where your not afraid of having eccentric thoughts 🙏
@@TheDingsBoms what would you recommend that i do to help myself if i may ask. I can't stop googling everyday to see if there's another cause of trauma or anything else that's happening to me or it's just the psychosis. The problem is that I only started meds in april and the first episode was in december, since then until starting meds i did more drugs so i'm worried it might've fucked me even harder. And i get super weird questions in my head like for example, as if words lost their meaning or i can't come up with their explanation. for example today i caught myself not being able to explain what a computer is or an institution. It's like my mind is frozen and cannot process and deliver the information that i need.
I'll save you a half hour. Psychosis is caused by a few things, number 1, mind reading. You can't mind read. Stop trying. 2, clairvoyance. You can't know the future. Stop trying. 3, trauma. If it happened it happened. Maybe not on purpose. Maybe with zero bad intentions. However, bad things still happen. Sometimes your memories are true no matter how much you deny them. If you want to escape psychosis, start from the assumption that people are GOOD even if you disagree and if you are 100% honest, life will 100% treat you better. Stop lying, stop making up stories unless you're clear it's fiction. Stop believing in things you can never prove or spreading lies about things you've never experienced. Here's a good one, the moon landing! I don't knew if it's ever happened but i can't say it didn't either. I wasn't there. but you might say, all this evidence says it didn't happen. Bull. You don't even understand what they're taking about, you've just been persuaded by someone else's bs story. Psychosis is 100% enforced by religious thinking. Stop. Lying is the worst and cascades into more lying.
It takes too much time unfortunately, I can only generalize, outline common patterns and pick out tidbits. Every episode is unique, but the common traits are delusions as a result of feedback-loops in the reward circuits of the brain, like stature of grandeur and paranoia
@@TheDingsBoms thanks, maybe one time there will be a video. I think what I experienced, - mainly caused by sleep deprivation- but self medication with psychedelics also played a role, - resembles a lot of your story. Fortunately it was shortlived and didn't come back. Its not unheard of that people with bipolar-(which I was diagnosed with recently) are prone to trigger mania and the following depression by multiple sources. the crazy high with delusions of being superior, and when paranoia kicked in, it all went to hell so badly. The worst was to have an long planned important meeting far away in an unfamiliar surrounding which I attended none the less. Only at home and with the aid of sleeping pills it stopped and brought me to the total bottom. And only a few weeks before I thought I was cured of depression, haha
I'm lving proof that weed didn't worsen my psychosis because I have bipolar with psychotic features And I also have been in psychosis and treated involuntary I smoke weed everyday And I was hospitalized when I was using and not using
1:40 in and I cant watch anymore, because of course you are God -everyone is. And everyone is Jesus Christ also in an allegorical sense. Clearly no one is literally Jesus Christ or God because neither can be known, but you are the family of man and they are both concepts of the mind of man. It's the scarcity/lack/wanton mindset of society that makes up all these fake labels and stories of what is mental health and mental illness in otherwise able bodied healthy people. mental illness is a term for those who cannot handle a world of unnaturalness and falseness, what is wrong with that? Unnaturalness and falseness is why religions change, the world changes and lower court laws change so often. Look to see what is changeless in those three things and that is the only reality in the experience- tings like Gods benign healing miraculous love for all, harm no other without a just reason, and respect the natural boundaries and basic human needs of Self and others. Funny how a planet so populated can be so lonely to so many, yet people still believe in mental health and illness. It's really a joke.
@@TheDingsBoms I had all the issues you did until I stop feeding certain things in my body. Something is going on that we do not quite understand. They are doing things to us that is not normal by any means. I would suggest looking into Paul Chek. Psychosis is brought on by many means, but the underlining issues have to do with hormones and also bacteria profiles accordingly. Parasitic infections can be one of the worst issues for those with these issues along with toxicity and the bodies inability to excrete certain caustic chemicals that can totally shift an individual's ability to reach homeostasis accordingly. You combine that with other co-factors, and it seems very daunting to move out of. Autism is on the rise as well, when you can snare individuals by polarizing their cognition they are easily controlled by fear and engulfed in psychosis. I wish you the best in your journey!!
Bro, all this on weed lol😂. Bro, that weed must have been sprayed down with liquefied p2p ice. Because I've never heard weed ruining anyone's life this bad lol. Sorry.
Does happen to some! The combination of meditation, cannabis and my genetics caused the illness, however I’ve never gotten Ill from cannabis alone since
This video should bee used in treatmentprograms. Not many statements like this with clear insight of the whole history will be told by obvious reasons. I am proud of you. Love from Sweden!
Thank you Bosse! ❤️ I also believe my experiences could be useful for treatment-facilities. Hopefully it will reach someone who can make good use of it. Thank You, much love from Norway 🙏
You took responsibility for getting better. You made a plan and worked toward it.
Since I experienced pretty much the same thing once, I think it's great how you convey it so informatively and objectively
Thank you!😊🙏
Your bravery and your immense ability to convey a very tough subject through your own experiences is truly admiring. Hats of to you, sir!
@@flatlus95 Thank you so much, very kind words, much appreciated! 🙏❤️
Oh my goodness !
Ive worked in mental health , drug services and homelessness as well as having plenty of personal experience of drugs as well as supporting friends who have needed a lift in dark times .
I cannot fault one word of what you said , I am so happy that you are well now and seem to have such a comprehensive understanding of all the issues surrounding your experience , personal and political .
Amazing stuff Richard !
I feel to write some more but Im a bit blown away !
Thank you so much good sir! 🙏❤️
In november 2022, I had a burnout, and then I took cannabis because I thought it would calm the situation in my head, but in fact it created even more chaos in my head, I didn't know who I was, what was happening, I simply disappeared. Afterwards I had suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety and when I closed my eyes I would see vivid pictures of places and people. I stopped working for a year I was taking olanzapine 7.5 mg of medication, after 9 months the psychiatrist stopped the therapy and then suicidal thoughts, depression returned. I am now on 2.5 mg of olanzapine at bedtime and I am stable. I have none of the symptoms. A year and 2 months have already passed. I started working and training again and slowly return to normal life.
btw, a very inspiring story, it helped me a lot. Thank you
Greetings from Germany
Thank you for sharing man, makes me warm that you’re doing good again! I also in fact was on olanzapine, and it was a good medication for me. Slowly getting off it also helped me getting the ‘excitement’ of life back, but it has to be done gradually. Best of luck forwards, friend, I am confident you’ll make it and will have a plentiful wonderful life a head of you 🙏
Thank you Richard. I am 44 and found this useful for my situation. My story has a very similar start....
Best of luck my brother. ❤️ Strength and persistence will get you through this. 💪🙏
I started smoking weed heavily at age 18, I'm 30 now. Looking back, I suffered a very serious psychotic breakdown the summer of 2015, then again this winter, about a month ago. I am over 3 months sober from marijuana and couldn't be more grateful for that. It 100% caused me to suffer very very very very serious mental effects from it. I became extremely conspiratorial as you said you did. It caused me to do things I would have never done, thought, or said, if I had not been using marijuana. I came to the conclusion about 3 years ago that marijuana is an extremely dangerous substance that can cause extremely serious mental problems in individuals. I never ended up in a hospital for it, but am 100% sure I suffered psychosis and multiple psychotic breakdowns during my 11-12 years of marijuana abuse. Funny enough a breakup at 18 with my high school sweetheart is what caused me to turn to marijuana to begin with, I was unable to manage to emotions that came with that situation. Glad I found this video. It confirmed to me that I am not crazy and that the abuse of marijuana was the cause of much of my mental torment I experienced. God bless you bro, here's to a bless and joyful 2023.
My pleasure man, glad I could help! Have an amazing 2023 🙏❤️
Hello. I hope you’re doing well. I am curious what was your most difficult part of withdrawal: sleep, digestion, nervous system, emotional and mental states such as anxiety
My pupils dilate when not smoking at least once a day. I have alterations of white brain matter and meds don't help with that.
@@AkkarisFox cringe
My brother has drug induced psychosis. Thank you for this video. I love him so much and I want to help him
Much luck to you, your brother and family. I think close relatives sometimes go through the hardest part considering a psychotic patient is not as present during the illness as the relatives are who have to watch the madness.. Stay strong, much love ❤️🙏
@@TheDingsBoms thank you, I appreciate videos like yours as they give hope. I just want him to go back to normal and enjoy his life, knowing it is possible give us strength
This is so helpful and very informative as we’ve through recently with our son. He’s not fully recovered yet but getting there. Thank you so much.🙏
After 20+ yrs of drinking I recently started to feel like I was going mad. The last couple of years I only drank on the weekends but I didn't realize that the effects were lasting well into the week. I was thinking of seeing a therapist or getting some meds until I decided to just not drink at all for a week. Im only a week sober but I feel myself slipping back into reality. I didn't realize I might have been slipping into an alcohol induced psychosis until today. If your even a mild drinker and feel this way stop drinking because the feeling is absolutely horrible. I can't believe the lens I'm seeing through right now has been absent for years. Awesome video man.
Also, if you feel this way you might not realize it because I graduated college on the deans list, excel in my job, own a house, and have good relationships so I kept telling myself there is no way alcohol is the problem. As of right now, I'm convinced it is. So, its an insidious process is what I'm saying.
Alcohol is a brutal substance friend, our culture with it makes it difficult to handle as well. Best of luck to you, glad you found my video useful 🙏❤️
@@TheDingsBoms I absolutely agree. I really can't understate how awesome this video is. Thank you for sharing man.
Hi Richard, this is a very helpfull and informative video, well done. I had psychosis twice, and the way I got into the first one is very similar to yours, In 2020 during the pandemic I started to smoke weed daily, and in april 2021 I had a mania episode (I discovered I am type 1 bipolar) that lead to a psychosis. And I also was into these spiritual things and meditation so I thought I was enlightened. I wanst hospitalized but the episode was pretty bad. I found out that staying away from cannabis is the best thing for my mental health. Great video and greetings from Brazil.
Thank you for your response and sharing your valuable insight. Glad to hear things are better, keep it up! ❤️
I had a very similar experience with marijuana. Much love, JD. Here's to a blessed 2023.
Richard, I found profound similarities between our experiences. I used to think my disease was going to be life-long and that was really discouraging.
Your story not only inspired me but also provided me with hope.
Thank You!
My pleasure friend, glad I could help 🙏❤️
@@TheDingsBoms if I may, are you still taking those antipsychotics? If no, how did you get off them?
@@yuzhouzheng I am medicine-free in fact, got off them before I was advised to, but I’m doing fine! I think it varies a lot from person to person whether it’s a good idea. For me I felt that getting Ill again was not a risk, the medicine took more from me than they gave, but that’s no guarantee for good success. Either way, if you want to get off them you should do it gradually and slowly 😊❤️
@@TheDingsBoms Thank you for your advice.
I don't often comment on yt, but man this was great, thank you so much for sharing your experiences. You seem like a very decent and hard-working young man, props!
Thank you sir, glad it was of value! 😊
Thank you for your wisdom and for your example of success in illness
Had a psychotic break ten years ago induced by weed and am in a much better place now too. Thanks for sharing your story and perspective. I feel like I'm still putting the pieces together from my childhood traumas even before drugs and it's making more sense all the time.
My pleasure man, glad to hear you’re doing better! It’s a heavy experience, but can be filled with wisdom and experience if you get out at the better end
Impressed how you summarised your thoughts and experiences during and after rough times, brave… and author-like. You could write a book! Anyway-thanks for sharing
Thank you so much! One of my all time favorite compliments for sure! 📝🙏
I'm all about this information being shared. Well done.
Thank you bro. I feel motivated to start some healthy routines, and start feeling better about myself.
Thank you so much for sharing!❤🙏🏻
My pleasure 😊❤
Hey dude, thanks so much for uploading this. I took "acid" (most likely NBOMe, an acid knock off) back when I was a freshman in college and it definitely didn't do wonders for my mental health. Luckily I recovered without any psychological/pharmaceutical help but I really wish I knew the risks of doing psychedelics before I took them. Thanks for sharing so openly about your experiences with these powerful substances.
My pleasure man! That is a serious risk with psychedelics in a state of illegality, where we don’t have any idea what we actually get , especially with LSD and NBOMe, or ‘ecstasy’ which used to be pure MDMA. Doesn’t exactly help with the “set and setting” aspect 😋
Knowledge is power. We are our own best doctors. Never trust a single source of information, always triangulate from unrelated sources. Research everything you feel and notice about yourself. Focus on understanding yourself. Focus on your gnosis, this also requires trusting the self (work on this, too). Your story has only just begun, dude, you have soooooo much more you get to discover, you're going to be a completely different person on the other side of your gnosis. If you have the heart to dive into the self, the level of freedom is phenomenal. Begin by researching quantum sciences, spiritual alchemy, and Shadow Work (Carl Jung) or inner child work. Trust your heart, not your gut, find your true self, find your truth, and the humans you meet, you'll change forever. ❤ Peace.
Thank you for posting this. Your story is very valuable. What might feel like a set back for you is truly a sacrifice for others now. Sounds like you might have had some CPTSD as well. Happy to see you’re doing much better😊!
Good you overcame it, i hope you keep doing well, all the best for the future.
Thank you!🙏
Great video 💚 very accurate description
Thank you! 🙏
This was such a great video, thank you!
Your egg creat work is hella like perfect man solid af
Hi Richard! Thank you for this video, I can relate to your story as I am 24 and have been dealing with addiction and my lifestyle very poorly. I started using cannabis last year for 6 months (smoking once per week around 0,5-1 grams at once). It made me lazy, unmotivated, gave me brain fog, but worst of all, it gave me terrible anxiety and overthinking. I constantly caught myself slipping into maddening thought loops, not being able to relax and had some terrible breakdowns and panic attacks. Thankfully, I haven't used any drug for a month, however my anxiety only got worse and worse. I decided to self medicate with very low doses of shrooms which actually really helped face those disturbing thoughts and accept my situation for what it is. The anxiety and thought loops have been reduced but only a week has passed since I last dosed so maybe it is too early to tell if the effect is permanent. I intend on not using any drug other than low doses of mushrooms on rare occasions (once per year maybe less). For now, I can now focus a lot more on my goals and make the best of my life. Hopefully I will not get the nasty anxiety and thought loops back. I will update this comment as time goes on.
Thank you for your wonderful comment, the best of luck, and please keep me updated. Hats off to you 🙏
You can get a book or two on relaxation techniques and teach yourself how to relax. You do not need mushrooms to relax.
@@TheDingsBoms so around 2-3 weeks have passed since my comment, I am actually doing really well, definitely had some mushrooms afterglow for about a week, but now I just have a lot less anxiety compared to before, and I am feeling like things are just going back to normal, no more intrusive thoughts, no more excessive anxiety and just a very normal life which I am very grateful for. I also had the courage to fix my current relationship with my SO and told her the truth about me. I may not have as great achievements in my life as you do, but I can see myself on a path of living peacefully and with gratitude. Will come back to this in a longer time =)
@@kevinhornbuckle Yes, I know, I do wim hof, cold showers, a lot of mtb, take time to talk to myself but my anxiety only got worse and worse while getting off weed. For sure, what I did for relaxation was very helpful in the moment but otherwise I would just be a ball of anxiety. Mushrooms really helped me but I am not saying they are for everybody, heck, maybe I just got very lucky.
@@Dudu98 So glad to hear man, enjoy the present of this peace and keep thriving into the fulfilling life you deserve 🙏❤️
The key takeaway for me was that other people are how they are and i have to work with them as such. I should not set expectations of others in accordance with what i think is proper.
This idea could probably be broken down in an entire book as there is a lot of nuance to it, but the general idea of orienting myself with the world around me instead of my own mind is powerful.
I've realized this before seeing your video, but there was a time in my life when i did not understand, and i was often miserable because of it.
Exactly, great takeaway! In the broader perspective of life every individual has a personal responsibility to relate to other beings and the outer world in general.
If this is done correctly some beautiful harmonies can be expressed and experienced.
I'm Norwegian too. I had mild psychosis and several hospital visits...I smoked weed. Its more dangerous than we think. I was sure everyone in my psych hospital was against me. It still scares me to this day because that is so irrational. I love your style and honesty.
Tusen takk! 🙏
There are for sure real dangers with cannabis, where especially a certain demographic is exposed to serious mental illnesses that we as a public are not well enough aware of.
@TheDingsBoms Tusen Takk 🙏
Your welcome. I like how you just got into your history in this video. Good confidence and sound dampening room!! Thanks for the heart.
Dude I was off weed for 6 months and those people in the hospital were probably after you. Sorry
I also had psychosis induced from HEAVY 2 months of Cannabis abuse. It was really bad - I was in 10 hour stand off with SWAT - guns were involved. I got multiple felonies - almost killed my neighbor and dog. Thank GOD I was living alone. I am medication and all symptom free - I cannot touch cannabis or any other psychedelic.
That’s an intense experience man, glad you’re doing alright now! The mind can really take you dangerous places, precaution is vital for us! 😊
thanks for sharing this story man
Wow! Thank you!
Nice, after watching this video I realize i might be psycotic too, thanks for sharing your story
If this is the case, then you’ve already done the most vital part in the healing process. Stay strong ❤️
@@TheDingsBoms true, thanks 🙃, stay strong too ❤️
I am 24 and have been to the mental ward twice. The first was an incredible experience; the second nearly killed me. The juxtaposition was incredible. Nothing much was different and that was the problem - it was all the same as the first time to the point where it started depressing me.
The first time I went psychotic was when I was off my meds in high school. I was obsessed with 9/11 and a sewerslide pact that every kid at school had made and could be referenced with code words. I thought my librarian teacher was testing me by changing the lesson plans, so I just didn't do anything that class.
Earlier this year I was prescribed Adderall, which was maybe the stupidest thing my doctor ever did. Since it's basically sisters with meth, you can imagine what it did to my mentally ill ass. I went full-blown psychotic, my DID basically exploded, and I was finally admitted to the ward. It was actually great for me as I detoxed and they put me on an antipsychotic which is what my therapy place had never bothered to do, despite being fully aware of my history and traumas.
The second time I had committed an act of self-harm. It wasn't an attempt, but rather a compulsion to get out my extremely painful emotions. This was at the end of July. The ward was exactly the same. God I am glad to be out of there and I don't ever want to go back.
I too have drug-induced psychosis and I'm lucky I didn't get put in there because of all those edibles I took one night, lol. Everyone was very concerned but I got out scot-free with that one. Other times, though.. My dad's called the cops on me 18 times because he doesn't know how to deal with me. However, the ward has also basically fixed my life; he was abusive as hell and finally treats me with basic human respect. That's more than my therapy place has ever done for me! They're gonna hear it.
Thank you for the video. Your script writing is really good and I could relate to you a lot. It's a very vulnerable and probably nerve-wracking to upload a video like this lol, so thanks again. I'll take the advice about the external world and the pillars to heart. No better advice to take than from those who have been where you are, right?
^ That all helped. This feels like an internet checkpoint lmao.
Have a great day + life, hope things stay going well. 💜💙
Thank you for sharing your story! We share some intense life-experiences which we will have to make the best out of, and in the end we will hopefully have become wiser and better, kinder and more understanding human-beings 😊❤️
Great video! You presented it clearly and to the point.
Great video. Shared!
You are doing a great job of experience sharing. I am from Top of the world - Nepal.
Cheers! 🙏
I'm going through this right now I was given medicine thats bad for people who have mental illness, no meds. To help nothing I was given
This is an amazing video. Thank you for your work, and know that you made an impact.
Richard will go far in his life 👏👏👏
Thank you brother
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. My son is coming out of his second hospitalization. He used a lot of cannabis and he is young. I find your video to be very helpful . I would have a question for you and your answer could be very helpful for me to help my son and i making the best decision for his health. My question is: Were you on medication when you got your second and third episode? Were you taking your medication and smoking cannabis and it led you to get hospitalized or you had stop taking your medication and continued smoking weed? Another question without being to indiscret is: Are you still taking medication and do you think it’ s necessary to take it for the rest of your life to stay away from another psychotic episode?
I’m glad I can help. 😊
I was not on any medication on my second and third episode, I stopped using medication much earlier than recommended.
I am not on any medication now, although it is recommended based on statistics. To me the downside of being ‘down’/‘heavy’ and apathetic from the medicine made it worth getting off of, but it’s a risk one have to seriously consider, and professional advice is probably what one should stick to.
I personally did not, and I’m glad I’m not on any medication, but I’m confident that for me a trigger would be only if I start using substances again, which I don’t do. But I think this is very different from person to person, and I might even be wrong about myself..
Hope there are insights of value here, feel free to ask any more questions, I’m happy to help 😊❤️
@@TheDingsBoms Absolutely valuable insights!! Thank you so much. Your answer to my questions are so much appreciated. There’s nothing to compare with having someone who share his experience of this rocky road from the core. Experience is the greatest teacher !! I totally agree that a healthy routine and a balanced lifestyle is necessary to stay on track. I also find your answer to my questions to be very clear,informative,objective and honest. Thanks a million!! Bless your soul 🎶
Aye!!!! Will you come to New York City with the band?
We’d love to to! I’ll make sure to let you know when we do 🤘❤️
Thanks for sharing 🎉 congratulations and keep it up . I twisted to your story very much
Thank you!🙏
I believe that the we enter when I take a psychedelic drug I enter the same world that we have to enter when we die and facing our fears of living in this other world will make me adapt better. Although I am aware that this does not help me living in this world. What do you think?
Although I agree with you on many things that you have mentioned.
That’s an interesting thought! Many studies with psilocybin mushrooms and cancer patients suggest that the experience may alleviate the fear of death. To me this suggests that there is some other-worldly experience being perceived, perhaps the afterlife.
As you said, being there or staying there recreationally might not be helpful to this current material reality, but being aware of its existence might be soothing for an existential crisis.
I personally believe that we are in a temporary state of existence to learn about the wonders of duality, love and hate. Ultimately we will return to the state of omniscient unity consciousness where we realize that we’ve enacted separate roles of ourselves to learn more of ourselves. Fundamentally, we are infinite love. A happy thought, and a great perspective and philosophy on life, whether or not it’s true. 😊❤️
While on LSD I got the following message: "the material world is your rock to hold on, while the spiritual/psychedelic/nonphysical experiences remember you to not hold on too much."
Would you say that people who have experienced Psychosis should not take Psychedelics since their brain are prone to not handle them well?
This is a very good and hard question. I think the number one problem with how people get affected by psychedelics is due to the illegal state it’s in, and therefore at the get go creating a very unfortunate set and setting.
In a set and setting where it is legal, socially accepted, and surrounded by professional medical staff/trip sitters, the possibility of a positive outcome is much higher.
However, I’m not a medical expert, but there seems to be a genetic correlation or simply a personality trait that make some people even more sensitive to these experiences, for better or for worse. In my case, definitely for the worse.
I hope and believe that one day we will reach the point of psychedelic maturity as a society where as many people as possible can benefit from its medicinal properties, but as of today I would advise everyone, especially sensitive people prone to mental illness to stay away from these substances, until we can achieve a proper safe and healing set and setting.
@@TheDingsBoms wow amazing answer! Thank you for taking the time. I'm glad you are doing fine now 😊
one year of hospitalization, we cant afford things like this here, in the US. You will be discharged in a week, maximum 3 weeks
I have been admitted to the psych ward a number of times myself man.
How do you know if your not just really high ? Or if it is a psychosis?
Listening to this I believe I may have been in psychosis but isint that what a person smokes / take Shrooms for ? To have an alternate sense of reality to give you a new perspective on a particular situation ?
I’m not sure but you didn’t really explain the difference….
Anyways nice blender model 👍 I had to stop smoking weed because it’s just a super big waste of time and money 💰, and certain jobs will test for thc…
I am currently take Adderall (brand name) and it definitely helps my day to day….
Greetings from California Bay Area….
Love Germany by the way. I dated one of the best women I knew, was from Germany. She was actually much larger than me (proportionate) and not so pretty in the face… but now that I am more mature I would have loved to have been with her… most people think German woman are mean and bossy but I found that is my preference because I actually like smarter women than myself and I thrive from the guidance… anyways I kinda digress ( ADHD) lol.
Take care 👍
Thanks 🙏🏽
@@Plant_lover_495 Hey man! That’s an excellent question, and you can definitely argue that the difference is close to none! I guess the problem with a psychosis is that the high never wears off, or at least not in a reasonable timeframe.
This is can be a problematic situation where someone who might just need some time to land, ( or a downer like benzos ) get prematurely sent to a clinic or hospital, prolonging the trip so to speak.
Difficult decision to make though, if someone is seriously ill, they probably should get help asap you know.. In my case I definitely needed help, at least the first time around, but I actually suspect that someone to talk to and a downer would have landed me the other times.
Cheers from Norway! 🇳🇴🤘
I’m grateful to you- my loved one is experiencing some intense paranoid delusional thoughts… and has been for 2.5 years… we desperately need help… there are no services available here in the US. AND Our LO does not have insight into their illness. :( I have some questions if you might be able to share your privacontact info. I would like to get your input and thoughts
@@CGood-k I’m so sorry to hear that. I’ll send you my email so we can get in touch.
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But like what was your psychosis like?
What happened, what were your delusions and how did you recognise them?
Yes, so I didn’t really go into the specifics of my situation, just because it would be such a long video, but my main symptoms were the delusions of grandeur and thinking people knew what I thought. I thought I was the center of the universe and that all of life’s impressions were for me to realize that I am subconsciously making all this up for myself like a game. This meant that necessarily everyone knew my thoughts, and that the game would be ‘over’ ending in an infinite stale mate if I got to close to realizing. Really horrifying stuff! 😅
@@TheDingsBoms I had some very mild psychosis symptoms that last a couple months after a very very large acid dose mixed with nitrous oxide. I believed I was some kind of extra dimension god soul reincarnated Into this life. I believed that I had to use high dose psychedelics to fight some kind of battle for these entities. Kept me doing way to much acid to frequently to "train" for this battle.
Managed to get over it with time after not using psychs. Had many many very awful trips.
Fortunately for me weed does not cause me psychosis and psychedelics have not precipitated it since.
However it has robed me of enjoy psychedelics much these day. It very nervracing now and just makes me anxious and paranoid.
I used to be all about tripping.
Been trying to cut away my identity from drug use now. I don't enjoy being seen as a drug user anymore
@@TheDingsBoms what if that’s actually true? Check Leo Gura’s video on solipsism
@@invan99999 I’m a huge fan of actualized! I definitely think we are god experiencing itself, but it doesn’t make much of a difference when it comes to taking personal responsibility of your own life
There is a history of cannabis and alcohol abuse in my family, I've been curious about trying at least cannabis but even at 19 i cant bring myself to after what i saw it made my family act like, its silly to say outloud but its just too scary for me, I know that's not what this video is about but I feel like too many people treat cannabis and alcohol like it's user-friendly and harmless or something meanwhile im still trying to overcome my fear for it, mental illness and neurodiversity also run in my family , so I feel like I should adresse that before I get anywhere near stuff anyways lol
You’re not missing out, I would argue the quality of life gets richer without alcohol or cannabis 😊❤️
Thank you
Can you tell us what the training you mention at 7:39 is? military?
«Modus Arbeidstrening» was a place in Norway for younger people who dropped out of high school in order to get some kind of routine, work experience and references for applying for a real job. You would either work at a cafeteria, repair broken electronics, work as a shop clerk or help out at a landfill. I worked with fixing electronics, like old amplifiers, TV’s and speakers, something I already had interest in. 😊
I have a last question . Since 6 months I’m recovering from drug induced psychosis. After recovering from it . I want to become an athlete and body builder . Can I full fill this dream ? Before this psychosis I was a gym freak guy. One more question while recovering is it possible to work at McDonald’s or dishwasher job ? Part or full time
Sure thing man! Becoming a professional bodybuilder is immensely difficult, but working out is great for your health either way. I personally worked at a grocery store, and that was fine, however it has to be done in portions and gradually adjusted so you don’t get too stressed or overworked
@@TheDingsBoms I have seen a guy from Ireland who is an athlete and body builder after a drug induced psychosis . My dream is to live Independently . My parents are supporting me but I don’t feel like taking support . I don’t know how much time it’s gonna take for me to feel normal and move out independently.
@@ashkiratdhillon7579 I see! During this period, I think it’s wise to receive and accept as much support as possible, especially by the ones close to you. Best of luck my man! 💪
excellent advice
hi richard i want to ask you if you use antipsychotic medication if you do i want to now if you get off and how long thats take you to get off and thank you for all your advices i wish you the best
Hi, thanks for watching! I’m currently not on any medications, I got off my meds rather quickly after getting better, despite what I was recommended. I know many fall back when quitting meds, luckily I didn’t. I felt I lost a bit of energy and emotions using meds.. Last time I was on meds I was probably on it for 3-4 months I would guess! But I had longer periods before, would highly recommend to follow your psychiatrist recommendations, but you gotta feel out stuff on your own at times as well! Cheers!
@@TheDingsBoms thank you man appreciate it
@@TheDingsBomswhat is the longest period you use meds in
@@weldlbourniyate8181 About two years!
@@TheDingsBoms okay thank you bro appreciate it i wish you the best bro
I have been experimenting with weed for around 2 years naw and going through phases of doing it daily for a month or 2 and then taking a few weeks to a month of. During the months I do it every day taking high doses of edibles, and using 98% thc vap pens. I have also experimented with a few low doses of shrooms and have not experienced any physiological problems. Do you think that a higher dose of mushroom, or lsd could set something of, because I’ve always had a feeling I would have a bad trip and become schizophrenic? Do you think there is anything you could have done to prevent your psychosis?
I think that if you suspect you might get I’ll from psychedelics, you probably have some bad circumstances for going on heavy trip. I’m not qualified to advice you to do anything, but for me high or small dose didn’t really matter, I couldn’t seem to settle/land again. Maybe some trip-killers would help, but I would suggest to you to rather be interested in these phenomena to try to master this 3D-existence while it lasts. I’m sure there are magnificent experiences waiting for us at the other end of life ❤️
@@TheDingsBoms thanks for the advice and the video was vary helpful and more clear than any video I have seen on this topic
My recommendation is to just quite while your ahead man I never got psychosis from weed but i got weed induced DPDR which is a cognitive distortion and i felt like i was developing psychosis but found out this was not the case but scared me out of every substance after heavy weed smoking for a year, I'm usually rather sensible with substances when something's off I never had an issue leaving it behind I just wasn't aware weed could do these things coz it's not talked about but if you know that's half the way to prevent a circumstance that can make your life a short period of hell
How you holding up man?
How long it took for you to recover from the experience and start working or studying ?
It varied from time to time, first time was the longest, took me about six months after starting to get better, that’s a year and a half in total. The next times was shortened down to months 😊
How much did it cost to build that studio ?
I was lucky enough to be given the space by my parents when they rebuilt the house. The egg cartons themselves are dirt cheap, but all the equipment I’ve invested in I’ve probably spent over 10k on 🫣😅
Where did the illustrations come from?
AI-generated with prompts using midjourney!
Hii Richard I’m recovering from drug induced psychosis . It’s been 6 months I’m recovering from my psychotic episode . Is it possible to work after one year ?
Hi! I’m happy to hear you’re recovering. It completely depends, I would advise having an arrangement with your boss to give you flexibility so you can ‘dip your toes’ before working like before! Having work can improve the health though, so there’s a balance there where it can help your recovery, but too much can be stressful and trigger symptoms
You are a part of reality, you are a part of the all/whole (holy). You are God.
Yes, so this is something I experienced personally for sure. If you take this realization in healthy manner and don’t confuse your ego into this truth, that we are fractals of unified infinite consciousness, it can be a very helpful philosophy of life. Thank you for sharing! 🙏
I have schizophrenia. My voice lives and breath everyday. He is evil. But i like him. He has a good side. I mean hes a full blown personality. He has facets to his personality. Mostly bad for me but some of him i like. He is evily funny if you can laugh at insults to yourself. Im confused if i dont try to take my meds and get rid of him i can have episodes, but i like having company everyday. Idk what to do
Hey! Thank you for sharing, being in that state sounds bothersome my friend. There’s definitely some ‘fun’ in tampering and exploring these beings and states, but I want you to try to remember back to the days when you weren’t deep in this voice. There’s a whole world of opportunities waiting for you, and your friends and family miss you. Try to see the excitement and wonder of getting into a normal life again. ❤️🙏
I have schizophrenia how do I recover? Is it demonic?
Hi! It is not demonic, don’t worry my friend. These illnesses are the results of brain-, and thought patterns, so we need to break those circuits somehow. For me and for most people, I believe this involves setting some new good healthy routines like working out, eating healthy, socializing and stimulating your intellect with reading or puzzles etc.
Slowly but surely you will unravel these treacherous and untrue thought patterns and get closer and closer back to our material shared ‘boring’ reality.
@@TheDingsBoms I tried but it is not helpful even meds didn't work later I heard from pastors what it is demonic
Hello, there is lot of studies between intestinal and brain connection. Many time food intolerances and microbiome imbalance can cause schizophrenia.
Why would you ask if it’s demonic?
Electronics is my passion my dream is to become an electrical ingineer 😊
I would like this video twice if i could.
Very kind of you to say, cheers!
Hi Richard, i've recently been diagnosed with drug-induced psychosis from a mushroom trip. I've experienced delusions that my friends are out to get me and that they are against me, i didn't have any hallucinations or auditory symptoms. i just can't find my words and it's really hard to organize my thoughts and talk it feels like i've forgotten things that i've learned and a lot of times i can't find my words when i'm thinking of something or trying to explain something as if i've forgotten words. I'm wondering if you had anything similar at all since i can't find any videos on the internet with similar symptoms
Hey man! I’m answering you in a hurry just to let you know that what you’re going through is completely normal, don’t be afraid. Let your mind settle down with time, be patient and kind to yourself and slowly but surely you will get back and remember the thought patterns you used to have. You’ve gone through a very stimulating experience and your brain needs time to process and get back to old patterns. Stay calm, be patient, everything will be fine 😊❤️
@@TheDingsBoms Thanks a lot for your answer man!
@@TheDingsBoms have you ever experienced spacing out? Like i'm on my meds and my vocabulary is starting to come back but it feels like my whole personality is gone. i'm sitting in the car with my brother for example and i'm just gazing forward with no though or idea of what to say. i used to be extremely curios prior and would ask a lot of questions and socialize with people. I feel like i'm literally gone
@@szabikis9999 yeah man that’s extremely common, especially with meds. I remember one time talking to my parents and literally drooling with a blank gaze. Don’t worry, this period might be lame and tough at the same time, but it’s a necessary part of the process. What you’re sort of doing is boring your mind so hard that no thought seems remotely far fetched or extraordinary, til you get the point again where your not afraid of having eccentric thoughts 🙏
@@TheDingsBoms what would you recommend that i do to help myself if i may ask.
I can't stop googling everyday to see if there's another cause of trauma or anything else that's happening to me or it's just the psychosis. The problem is that I only started meds in april and the first episode was in december, since then until starting meds i did more drugs so i'm worried it might've fucked me even harder.
And i get super weird questions in my head like for example, as if words lost their meaning or i can't come up with their explanation. for example today i caught myself not being able to explain what a computer is or an institution. It's like my mind is frozen and cannot process and deliver the information that i need.
I'll save you a half hour. Psychosis is caused by a few things, number 1, mind reading. You can't mind read. Stop trying. 2, clairvoyance. You can't know the future. Stop trying. 3, trauma. If it happened it happened. Maybe not on purpose. Maybe with zero bad intentions. However, bad things still happen. Sometimes your memories are true no matter how much you deny them. If you want to escape psychosis, start from the assumption that people are GOOD even if you disagree and if you are 100% honest, life will 100% treat you better. Stop lying, stop making up stories unless you're clear it's fiction. Stop believing in things you can never prove or spreading lies about things you've never experienced. Here's a good one, the moon landing! I don't knew if it's ever happened but i can't say it didn't either. I wasn't there. but you might say, all this evidence says it didn't happen. Bull. You don't even understand what they're taking about, you've just been persuaded by someone else's bs story. Psychosis is 100% enforced by religious thinking. Stop. Lying is the worst and cascades into more lying.
That’s a good way of putting it actually, it’s a way of lying to oneself. I do believe I offer more insights than that during the half hour though 😅
There are people who should never take drugs. This man appears to be one of them. They are somewhat uncommon but they exist.
now i have this strange urge to buy more eggs for some reason.... cant quiet put my finger on why though.....
My sanctum sanctorum 🥚😎
Can you tell about the contents of your thoughts, delusions, paranoia and the like?
It takes too much time unfortunately, I can only generalize, outline common patterns and pick out tidbits.
Every episode is unique, but the common traits are delusions as a result of feedback-loops in the reward circuits of the brain, like stature of grandeur and paranoia
@@TheDingsBoms thanks, maybe one time there will be a video. I think what I experienced, - mainly caused by sleep deprivation- but self medication with psychedelics also played a role, - resembles a lot of your story. Fortunately it was shortlived and didn't come back.
Its not unheard of that people with bipolar-(which I was diagnosed with recently) are prone to trigger mania and the following depression by multiple sources. the crazy high with delusions of being superior, and when paranoia kicked in, it all went to hell so badly. The worst was to have an long planned important meeting far away in an unfamiliar surrounding which I attended none the less. Only at home and with the aid of sleeping pills it stopped and brought me to the total bottom. And only a few weeks before I thought I was cured of depression, haha
How did you afford all that hospital?
Norways healthcare system.. It’s a socialist country with a lot of money, so none of it was spent by me or my family
way to go
Better title: i cant handle my weed.
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Dobrý je, že já ji nemám, tu má jenom ten teplej :D já beru drogy :D
I'm lving proof that weed didn't worsen my psychosis because I have bipolar with psychotic features
And I also have been in psychosis and treated involuntary
I smoke weed everyday
And I was hospitalized when I was using and not using
I don’t think telling yourself that is doing you any favors.
Ok but.... Have you tried not?
Smoking weed everyday when you have bipolar disorder with psychotic aspects is the last thing you should be partaking in. Weed exacerbates psychosis!
@@pjaw8226nah, people running their mouths…
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1:40 in and I cant watch anymore, because of course you are God -everyone is. And everyone is Jesus Christ also in an allegorical sense. Clearly no one is literally Jesus Christ or God because neither can be known, but you are the family of man and they are both concepts of the mind of man. It's the scarcity/lack/wanton mindset of society that makes up all these fake labels and stories of what is mental health and mental illness in otherwise able bodied healthy people. mental illness is a term for those who cannot handle a world of unnaturalness and falseness, what is wrong with that? Unnaturalness and falseness is why religions change, the world changes and lower court laws change so often. Look to see what is changeless in those three things and that is the only reality in the experience- tings like Gods benign healing miraculous love for all, harm no other without a just reason, and respect the natural boundaries and basic human needs of Self and others. Funny how a planet so populated can be so lonely to so many, yet people still believe in mental health and illness. It's really a joke.
Consider a carnivore diet and get back to me...
I agree that some of these unorthodox approaches might be helpful.. One day I’ll give it a shot, still a very controversial topic 😊
@@TheDingsBoms I had all the issues you did until I stop feeding certain things in my body. Something is going on that we do not quite understand. They are doing things to us that is not normal by any means. I would suggest looking into Paul Chek. Psychosis is brought on by many means, but the underlining issues have to do with hormones and also bacteria profiles accordingly. Parasitic infections can be one of the worst issues for those with these issues along with toxicity and the bodies inability to excrete certain caustic chemicals that can totally shift an individual's ability to reach homeostasis accordingly. You combine that with other co-factors, and it seems very daunting to move out of. Autism is on the rise as well, when you can snare individuals by polarizing their cognition they are easily controlled by fear and engulfed in psychosis.
I wish you the best in your journey!!
did he died
I am very much alive 😊
Bro, all this on weed lol😂. Bro, that weed must have been sprayed down with liquefied p2p ice. Because I've never heard weed ruining anyone's life this bad lol.
Sorry.
Does happen to some! The combination of meditation, cannabis and my genetics caused the illness, however I’ve never gotten Ill from cannabis alone since
U cry about marijuana but u drink? Great logic there bud
Weed can cause a lot of issues alcohol doesn't same viceversa
Hi Richard. Is there anyway we can connect or have a small conversation? Via e-mail or instagram? I'd really appreciate it.
@@Kamiil.94 hi there, absolutely, my instagram is @richardmaax, contact-mail health@rmax.no, feel free to get in touch!
I sent you a dm on insta, thanks ❤
@@Kamiil.94 Great! I can't see it though, let me send you a link just to make sure;
instagram.com/richardmaax/
It goes into your requests or hidden requests, since we don't follow each other
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