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I have been hospitalized for psychosis like 8 times now, and the last time was terrible. I had to get out and get back to work. I almost got evicted because missing work made me late on my rent. I don’t have the luxury of this. I can’t even afford the meds they prescribed me already. I just have to buckle down, not lose sleep, try to put my life back together, and hope I don’t go crazy again.

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Hi Richard. Is there anyway we can connect or have a small conversation? Via e-mail or instagram? I'd really appreciate it.

Your bravery and your immense ability to convey a very tough subject through your own experiences is truly admiring. Hats of to you, sir!

I’m grateful to you- my loved one is experiencing some intense paranoid delusional thoughts… and has been for 2.5 years… we desperately need help… there are no services available here in the US. AND Our LO does not have insight into their illness. :( I have some questions if you might be able to share your privacontact info. I would like to get your input and thoughts

How do you know if your not just really high ? Or if it is a psychosis? Listening to this I believe I may have been in psychosis but isint that what a person smokes / take Shrooms for ? To have an alternate sense of reality to give you a new perspective on a particular situation ? I’m not sure but you didn’t really explain the difference…. Anyways nice blender model 👍 I had to stop smoking weed because it’s just a super big waste of time and money 💰, and certain jobs will test for thc… I am currently take Adderall (brand name) and it definitely helps my day to day…. Greetings from California Bay Area…. Love Germany by the way. I dated one of the best women I knew, was from Germany. She was actually much larger than me (proportionate) and not so pretty in the face… but now that I am more mature I would have loved to have been with her… most people think German woman are mean and bossy but I found that is my preference because I actually like smarter women than myself and I thrive from the guidance… anyways I kinda digress ( ADHD) lol. Take care 👍 Thanks 🙏🏽

Great video 💚 very accurate description

Great heavy groove and excellent arrangement! Nice video work. Super cool! Rock on! 👍👍

Masterpiece!

Great video. Shared!

I have schizophrenia. My voice lives and breath everyday. He is evil. But i like him. He has a good side. I mean hes a full blown personality. He has facets to his personality. Mostly bad for me but some of him i like. He is evily funny if you can laugh at insults to yourself. Im confused if i dont try to take my meds and get rid of him i can have episodes, but i like having company everyday. Idk what to do

Thank you for your wisdom and for your example of success in illness

Would you say that people who have experienced Psychosis should not take Psychedelics since their brain are prone to not handle them well?

You are doing a great job of experience sharing. I am from Top of the world - Nepal.

Wow, what a sincere and inspiring display of CANDOR! That was one of the most thoughtful, and courageous demonstrations of vulnerability I've come across online. Your even keeled delivery is so utterly genuine and disarming. This will save lives. When it's a dark season of life, and we are in this much pain...we forget "this too shall pass" and soon we become despondent. My path was different but I arrived to a similar place, my friend. I know it doesn't take long to begin thinking of permanent solutions to temporary problems. Picture this video resonating with someone at the event horizon, someone who stared into that abyss like we did. Here you come, a sliver of light spills into the room along with your extended hand. Powerful! Kudos for using this platform in the way you've done here. This took guts. This took heart. This took the audacity to give a damn. Thanks for caring about yourself enough to care about others. Best wishes to you and yours. - Rick P.S. - I volunteer at a recovery facility and have many friends in the field. This video is solid gold. Please let me know if you're ok with me passing it along to the clinicians. If not, hey I understand no big deal at all. Just couldn't NOT ask when it's better than anything I've ever seen. Thanks again =)

Since I experienced pretty much the same thing once, I think it's great how you convey it so informatively and objectively

Better title: i cant handle my weed.

Thank you

How much did it cost to build that studio ?

Impressed how you summarised your thoughts and experiences during and after rough times, brave… and author-like. You could write a book! Anyway-thanks for sharing

I don't often comment on yt, but man this was great, thank you so much for sharing your experiences. You seem like a very decent and hard-working young man, props!

Oh my goodness ! Ive worked in mental health , drug services and homelessness as well as having plenty of personal experience of drugs as well as supporting friends who have needed a lift in dark times . I cannot fault one word of what you said , I am so happy that you are well now and seem to have such a comprehensive understanding of all the issues surrounding your experience , personal and political . Amazing stuff Richard ! I feel to write some more but Im a bit blown away !

There are people who should never take drugs. This man appears to be one of them. They are somewhat uncommon but they exist.

How did you afford all that hospital?

I'll save you a half hour. Psychosis is caused by a few things, number 1, mind reading. You can't mind read. Stop trying. 2, clairvoyance. You can't know the future. Stop trying. 3, trauma. If it happened it happened. Maybe not on purpose. Maybe with zero bad intentions. However, bad things still happen. Sometimes your memories are true no matter how much you deny them. If you want to escape psychosis, start from the assumption that people are GOOD even if you disagree and if you are 100% honest, life will 100% treat you better. Stop lying, stop making up stories unless you're clear it's fiction. Stop believing in things you can never prove or spreading lies about things you've never experienced. Here's a good one, the moon landing! I don't knew if it's ever happened but i can't say it didn't either. I wasn't there. but you might say, all this evidence says it didn't happen. Bull. You don't even understand what they're taking about, you've just been persuaded by someone else's bs story. Psychosis is 100% enforced by religious thinking. Stop. Lying is the worst and cascades into more lying.

Knowledge is power. We are our own best doctors. Never trust a single source of information, always triangulate from unrelated sources. Research everything you feel and notice about yourself. Focus on understanding yourself. Focus on your gnosis, this also requires trusting the self (work on this, too). Your story has only just begun, dude, you have soooooo much more you get to discover, you're going to be a completely different person on the other side of your gnosis. If you have the heart to dive into the self, the level of freedom is phenomenal. Begin by researching quantum sciences, spiritual alchemy, and Shadow Work (Carl Jung) or inner child work. Trust your heart, not your gut, find your true self, find your truth, and the humans you meet, you'll change forever. ❤ Peace.

Had a psychotic break ten years ago induced by weed and am in a much better place now too. Thanks for sharing your story and perspective. I feel like I'm still putting the pieces together from my childhood traumas even before drugs and it's making more sense all the time.

In november 2022, I had a burnout, and then I took cannabis because I thought it would calm the situation in my head, but in fact it created even more chaos in my head, I didn't know who I was, what was happening, I simply disappeared. Afterwards I had suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety and when I closed my eyes I would see vivid pictures of places and people. I stopped working for a year I was taking olanzapine 7.5 mg of medication, after 9 months the psychiatrist stopped the therapy and then suicidal thoughts, depression returned. I am now on 2.5 mg of olanzapine at bedtime and I am stable. I have none of the symptoms. A year and 2 months have already passed. I started working and training again and slowly return to normal life. btw, a very inspiring story, it helped me a lot. Thank you Greetings from Germany

Hey dude, thanks so much for uploading this. I took "acid" (most likely NBOMe, an acid knock off) back when I was a freshman in college and it definitely didn't do wonders for my mental health. Luckily I recovered without any psychological/pharmaceutical help but I really wish I knew the risks of doing psychedelics before I took them. Thanks for sharing so openly about your experiences with these powerful substances.

Thank you brother

Please check I replied your comment . Thanks

I have a last question . Since 6 months I’m recovering from drug induced psychosis. After recovering from it . I want to become an athlete and body builder . Can I full fill this dream ? Before this psychosis I was a gym freak guy. One more question while recovering is it possible to work at McDonald’s or dishwasher job ? Part or full time

How long it took for you to recover from the experience and start working or studying ?

Hii Richard I’m recovering from drug induced psychosis . It’s been 6 months I’m recovering from my psychotic episode . Is it possible to work after one year ?

Wow! Thank you!

I have schizophrenia how do I recover? Is it demonic?

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Richard, I found profound similarities between our experiences. I used to think my disease was going to be life-long and that was really discouraging. Your story not only inspired me but also provided me with hope. Thank You!

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. My son is coming out of his second hospitalization. He used a lot of cannabis and he is young. I find your video to be very helpful . I would have a question for you and your answer could be very helpful for me to help my son and i making the best decision for his health. My question is: Were you on medication when you got your second and third episode? Were you taking your medication and smoking cannabis and it led you to get hospitalized or you had stop taking your medication and continued smoking weed? Another question without being to indiscret is: Are you still taking medication and do you think it’ s necessary to take it for the rest of your life to stay away from another psychotic episode?

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There is a history of cannabis and alcohol abuse in my family, I've been curious about trying at least cannabis but even at 19 i cant bring myself to after what i saw it made my family act like, its silly to say outloud but its just too scary for me, I know that's not what this video is about but I feel like too many people treat cannabis and alcohol like it's user-friendly and harmless or something meanwhile im still trying to overcome my fear for it, mental illness and neurodiversity also run in my family , so I feel like I should adresse that before I get anywhere near stuff anyways lol

one year of hospitalization, we cant afford things like this here, in the US. You will be discharged in a week, maximum 3 weeks

I smoked weed everyday to deal with anxiety/depression. I convinced myself and truly thought that if only I were to smoke x amount a day I'd be fine. "I'm only having 2-3 joints a day. I'm only having 4 joints or spliffs a day there's nothing wrong with that"... I couldn't be told by anyone. I didn't listen to anyone else nor the warnings from my brother. You cannot put into words how much of a mistake this was. Yeah, I enjoyed smoking it and yes it made be feel good initially - however - sooner or later I developed psychosis for the first ever time (once during the pandemic and once last year and both occasions I was smoking) which lead to serious issues! The first period of illness resulted in a stay at a mental health unit which was no fun in of itself. Paranoia, delusions, increased energy, insomnia, increased anxiety, an almost sudden extreme religious belief (I was never religious before) believing I was some powerful spiritual figure. Things to do with Satan, The Matrix, the government actively listening in on me, unbreakable denial because you outright and repeatedly refuse to acknowledge that anything is wrong with you etc etc etc. You are simply unaware and trapped in your mind for however long. My mind latched onto countless silly, far-fetched and unbelievable notions that I couldn't function normally and together with the continued use of cannabis... overstimulated... and... the psychosis was exacerbated. It is so MUCH to deal with for you personally and also your family/friends plus anyone in public hearing your deluded ramblings or witnessing your actions. (I didn't sleep for 3-4 days at a time and seriously believed I'd reached some sort of nirvana/spiritual awakenment when in actual fact it was psychosis as a result of smoking various strains of weed). To anyone who has read this... I am not the only one. I know many people who have had a very similar experience when using weed and other drugs for that matter. It is simply not worth it. It's not worth the money spent to acquire it. It's not worth the serious mental repercussions and the very real potential trouble you could be involved in in terms of the law. A large majority of men who're in mental health units in my country (particularly younger men) are in there because of drug induced psychosis thanks to weed and the like. You can't always trust what a dealer tells you either because at the end of the day they're out to make money and capitalise on your addiction/dependency. Another main factor is that you likely won't always know whether it's been tampered with, what's been put in it (i.e. spice, glass, LSD, ketamine, cocaine etc) or whether the THC content is plainly too much for you. Laced weed containing highly addictive drugs is common and it's largely done so that you will go back to the same dealer and buy more. Through the years many drug dealers have focused on strengthening THC content to give a greater high too which is unnecessary and can also be dangerous... Laying on the floor flat out unable to move your forearms/gasping whilst attempting regulate your breathing whilst going haywire isn't a great feeling! The damage it can do to your brain even in terms of memory can be profound. I know of a lad who's in his early twenties and already has major memory issues because of smoking weed. Try weaning yourself off it in a safe way with the close support of family/friends and medical professionals if needed. You do not wish or chance experiencing any of what I've went through because it's hellish I can assure you. The depression that followed coming out of psychosis and realising all the nonsense I was coming out with along with all the embarrassment caused was very very intense to process too. I hesitated commenting with all what I've put because even recalling the memories is quite difficult and still surreal to know that it all happened in the first place but I've moved on the best way I could, and if this info helps someone else then I'm all for that!! Great video Richard!

Love it 😊

My mother bought a labradoodle named Sugar, I would sometimes jokingly call her Gangar and then I found this band xD

1:40 in and I cant watch anymore, because of course you are God -everyone is. And everyone is Jesus Christ also in an allegorical sense. Clearly no one is literally Jesus Christ or God because neither can be known, but you are the family of man and they are both concepts of the mind of man. It's the scarcity/lack/wanton mindset of society that makes up all these fake labels and stories of what is mental health and mental illness in otherwise able bodied healthy people. mental illness is a term for those who cannot handle a world of unnaturalness and falseness, what is wrong with that? Unnaturalness and falseness is why religions change, the world changes and lower court laws change so often. Look to see what is changeless in those three things and that is the only reality in the experience- tings like Gods benign healing miraculous love for all, harm no other without a just reason, and respect the natural boundaries and basic human needs of Self and others. Funny how a planet so populated can be so lonely to so many, yet people still believe in mental health and illness. It's really a joke.

I'm Norwegian too. I had mild psychosis and several hospital visits...I smoked weed. Its more dangerous than we think. I was sure everyone in my psych hospital was against me. It still scares me to this day because that is so irrational. I love your style and honesty.

Can you tell about the contents of your thoughts, delusions, paranoia and the like?