You're such a kind soul and I can't express how grateful I am to have stumbled across your videos. Your words are always so uplifting and they really resonate with me sometimes, that I start to tear up. I saw your tweet in March. Take all the time you need to recover. You deserve all of the positivity and warmth you bring to others. I just want to thank you for all of the effort you've put into this channel. It has really made a difference in me and everyone else that happens to find this gem.✨
Thank you so much for this. I had to flee my house some months past because my parents were so toxic and abusive. I've had to cope with PTSD from that, and audios like yours really really have helped me heal. I still have a long way to go, but just having a voice telling me that I'm valuable and that they love me, has made a world of difference. Thank you again. What you're doing is valuable and I'm glad you're doing it.
I needed this... emotionally abusive mother and cold father makes things tough as an only child. A family that looks happy and normal but broken under the fascade. Thank you.
Often times, I feel like I have to hide who I really am around my mom. I can never express myself around her because she always criticises my interests because they don't meet her expectations. They're very harmless interests at that. I can't wait to go to college so I can get out of this house and really have an opportunity to be who I am.
I am like precious gem stone that I keep safe. I will not give myself to thieves and liars but to those who have earned my trust and will love me unconditionally.
Man. This really shed tears to me. I live with my family where my parents reject half of my decisions, so I feel a little out of place sometimes, but this is a little reassurance to help me. Thank you.
Hey it's good to see you're back. I hope you're feeling better. I do stand alone with my family, I've always been the odd one out. My parents barely accepted the fact that I was pansexual but even then they still make petty and passive aggressive comments about how I can't be a good Catholic or Sunday school teacher because of my sexual preference which I know is rubbish. Thanks for making this amazing video. Great job, keep up the great work. And Happy holidays from the US. 😊🎅🎄
It's been three years and I do hope things have gotten better along with it. I think I kind of get what you meant by 'barely accept' after dropping out of the after school activities that I could barely keep on top of, my father and other relatives haven't exactly been the happiest with me. I know it must be nothing near what you went through with your sexuality but...I felt the need to drop out because I had no more time to practice said hobbies because I had to study for my first big national level exam, and after that settle into secondary school, bringing along the issues with normalizing only 3 to 5 hours of sleep 6 days a week, the exception being Friday nights, new school environments and the need to learn new skills and stuff along with online schooling amidst the pandemic. I felt burnt out, tired, exhausted. I felt as if I couldn't go on any longer, as if life was just a repetitive cycle of automated processes and responses. I dropped out and told my father I couldn't do it anymore, and gave multiple excuses along with our financial state not being the best, because I knew that I couldn't just say "I'm mentally exhausted" and leave it at that. No, mental health is never an excuse where I'm from. Regardless, my father did let me drop out, and to this day I feel almost mocked for not being able to hold out like everyone else. My father rarely talks about me to anyone anymore because there's nothing worth mentioning about me. Hell, just recently we had to do weekly cleaning and as he wiped an old picture frame from my win at a national cultural singing competition he said "What a lovely girl, I wonder where she is." with my fantastic acting skills I shot back "I wonder, you must miss her very much don't you? She was brilliant wasn't she?" without missing a beat he answered back "Yes" I just laughed it off and walked to my bathroom and silently cried into my knees. For a very long time I've given up on things like God and religion because for so long people around me told me if I wore an off shoulder ankle length dress it would make me a whore, and apparently God doesn't like whores. If I did this I'd go to hell, if I did that God would be disappointed. At this point whether God is real or not he's free to hate me, I hate me, my father hates me, (albeit rather subtly) I fail to see the difference. To this day they all make passive aggressive remarks on how "You used to be such a brilliant, polite young girl, I wonder what happened" now all I do is vaguely keep myself alive and occupy my days with school. I hope that doesn't happen to you though. You seem to be a kind and lovely person. It's good to know people like you have the opportunity to influence young minds for the better. I'm happy for you :) (I'm really sorry if the things I've said may come off as insensitive or triggering, if it does, do let me know and I'll delete the comment immediately, I only wanted to show that your not alone when it comes to disappointed parents :)
First of all, thanks so much for all that you do. You actually... Lessen my depression. Like, just today, I felt happy. It was weird. I had all this energy and blissfulness. I go to counseling and write in a journal and stuff and their great, but you seriously had a huge impact on my life and I can't thank you enough. You really... made me accept my need for gentleness. I always thought I might be too sensitive, and I still do, but you help me realize that that's not a negative thing. I know you're probably dealing with depression right now and I wish I could help. I will work extra hours so that I may put money towards your patron. You are such a important person. You seriously improve people's lives and deserve better 💕💕💕
Can you do a audio of comfort for bullying/cyber bullying. I've been dealing with that alot lately and your audio's always make me feel so much better. :) Thank you
Wow! Thank you! I often feel so alone and like I just don't fit in with my family. Like when ever I am around them I have to be someone else, the girl they have always made me to be. I find i often feel like i lead at least a different lives. My family life and my work/friend life. But this is the first time someone has said it's ok to put on a mask of it help you to get through. So thank you, thank you for making me feel like I'm alone in doing just that.
Okay, just a little note : (I'm practically your biggest fan now 😂🖐) I scrolled down to expect to see one of these audios, and I'm glad I did. I'm not too close with my family, even though my mom knows me better than I know myself. I always feel myself not being comfortable with them as I used to be when I was younger, because I always didn't feel good enough as my sibilings. It's quite a struggle considering I never know how to be myself around them, or even comfortable with them. They've always told me that it's because I'm the middle child, but I feel like you should love and treat your children the same way no matter what. It always bothers me realizing that they're my family and I need to love them, which I do, but I just hate how I'm being treated. I can't even tell them about my problems or anything without them mentioning my mental health is being damaged because of my damn phone or something. People have feelings, and people shouldn't have to think they have to hide them because someone thinks otherwise. It honestly sucks. Thank you Rainy, I appreciate you. I hope someday I'll be surrounded by others I can trust and actually be comfortable with them. Amazing audio by the way, it helped me out
Having this video pop up in my recommendations today after having a pretty bad day...Just made me feel so much better. Thank you so much for these videos, even with this one being quite old. I appreciate what you do.
Im pan and I have a bf im also male I came out to my mom and dad my dad was ok with it but my mom hated me so we had a lot of fights to the point where I had to move in with my dad :( but I still love my mom I even still help with her bills and im very happy with my dad and school is just amazing evryone supports me there and I love it. :)
I'm bisexual but only my friends and my sister knows my parents don't and I don't know if I can or will because I'm scared they won't love me for the way I was born. I hate the maskes I wear I want to be me. but one day I will not have to wear a mask.
It took me so long to realise this 😔 I've been afraid all my life to turn out like them, I forced myself with a "perfect" lifestyle trying to be someone I'm not, and it really messed up my head... A lot... I left my whole family 10 years ago when I was finally and legally allowed to live on my own, and everyone is always asking me how is it possible that I don't missed them. But how can I? I lived for 18 years a life that wasn't mine, I felt abandoned, betrayed, guilty and never loved, not even once. And thank god I've never came out to them, otherwise I'm not sure I would've been here right now. So thank you for making me feel less alone 🙏🏻
Cps urged me to get counseling but I was always against it. The second this quarantine is over I’m getting help. So beyond grateful towards you, I wish you every happiness.
I'm very proud of you. Counselling can be tough but it's one of the most valuable, healing things we can experience. Your first counsellor may not be a good fit for you and that's okay, I'd recommend trying some others if you don't really like their approach. It's important to find a counsellor who is a good fit for you, much like a pair of shoes. You may be going on quite a journey with them, so they need to be comfortable and supportive.
You're very welcome. You don't owe me anything, I just do this to help people. Though perhaps one day you can support me on Patreon or pay it forward to someone else when you're able. That's more than enough
I know this audio will help a lot of people. I'm glad you talked about how the importance/reverence of family is really pervasive in so many aspects of culture and it does create a dissonance if that's not your personal reality. It took me a while to deal with that myself. To the people in the comments - you're not alone in your experience, and there are definitely people out there who want to know you fully. And you are resilient diamonds x
Recently I have been in an important part of my life, and you know its been difficult on me. I am just glad people as gracious as you have given the time and effort to help out everyone else. I thank you dearly and passionately because I have needed audios like these now more than ever.
Hey, thank you for this. This is a particular struggle I’ve been facing this holiday season, and this helped me to remember keeping safe doesn’t mean I’m abandoning who I am. I really appreciate your videos - helps ease the stress this season. Happy holidays to you, friend! ✨
hugging you trough wireless connection from a place somewhere unknown, at. least it's the same planet, right! and though we will never meet personally, i guess you made yourself a pillow in a small corner of our hearts, and made us phantasise of a dearest friend, that many wouldn't otherwise have, but more than that teaching us the meaning of alexithymie we wouldn't otherwise have the chance to learn about and grow emotionally , healing the world (🎶 heal 🌍) it reminds me of "Her" the movie it's sad but necessary the world is sick,. it was always sick. i hope you are doing well,. for someone who. is. giving comfort, i. hope. you can feel safe to turn to us if needed. tank❤u how is yours doing?
More so about the music recommendation playlist but you wouldn't get the comment on it. Have you listened to Amber Run? The song called 'I Found' especially. I feel like it might be a song that would fit your taste maybe? Idk sorry
I hadn't heard it, but that's quite a nice song, thank you. I'm not sure what you're apologising for, recommending me a song? That doesn't seem like you've wronged me.
Can we get a self love aid vid? I'd love that so much it would mean a lot to me growing up as a homophobic gay I was born in a super catholic town that was constantly scaring us with threats of hell and I hated myself because I was told to However I'm better now and more open, but I'm still a little afraid of being too open with people
Hello I just ask a video with the word shhh it must be soft It must be long time not strong to try to sleep With whispers if you want Thank you very much good day
/My family on me being trans/. I've tried coming out in the passed, it's just never worked out well (I didn't get kicked out thank goodness). I feel loved by them, but they don't accept people in the LGBT... Heck yesterday I told my mom wanted to get something online and she asked me what and I told her it was an under shirt (actually a binder) and she asked me why I had to get it offline and I told her because it was the one I wanted. (I can't tell her it's a binder and it's not sold in stores, at least not here in Louisiana). And she told me she'd let me use her card, but I told her no, that I was going to use a prepaid card, she asked me what the website was and I can't tell her it's GC2b, because then she'd look it up and find out it's a binder and not let me get it. I've told her in the past how I feel with my chest and such. It turned into an argument so... I try to avoid telling her how I feel and I just talk to my friends about it. Also to note what you said about family isn't always blood related, I know this, my mom was adopted when she was 12. I know some of my biological family, but the people I grew up with were my family. (I will explain why I said were) they kinda kicked me out of the family when I came out a few years ago on Facebook, but it's fine. Like you said family isn't just by blood. There's a song by boyinaband called spectrum and the song is about what you just said. I think it'll be nice to take a listen. ^^
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you have helped me so much in the past when no one was there for me.
You're such a kind soul and I can't express how grateful I am to have stumbled across your videos. Your words are always so uplifting and they really resonate with me sometimes, that I start to tear up. I saw your tweet in March. Take all the time you need to recover. You deserve all of the positivity and warmth you bring to others. I just want to thank you for all of the effort you've put into this channel. It has really made a difference in me and everyone else that happens to find this gem.✨
Thank you so much for this. I had to flee my house some months past because my parents were so toxic and abusive. I've had to cope with PTSD from that, and audios like yours really really have helped me heal. I still have a long way to go, but just having a voice telling me that I'm valuable and that they love me, has made a world of difference. Thank you again. What you're doing is valuable and I'm glad you're doing it.
I needed this... emotionally abusive mother and cold father makes things tough as an only child. A family that looks happy and normal but broken under the fascade. Thank you.
Often times, I feel like I have to hide who I really am around my mom. I can never express myself around her because she always criticises my interests because they don't meet her expectations. They're very harmless interests at that. I can't wait to go to college so I can get out of this house and really have an opportunity to be who I am.
Extreme Otaku same
Same
Just listened to this three times in a row. Might do it again. Your words mean a lot. Thank you.
I am like precious gem stone that I keep safe. I will not give myself to thieves and liars but to those who have earned my trust and will love me unconditionally.
Man. This really shed tears to me. I live with my family where my parents reject half of my decisions, so I feel a little out of place sometimes, but this is a little reassurance to help me. Thank you.
It must be magic, that you always now which words to use. Thank you so much.
Hey it's good to see you're back. I hope you're feeling better. I do stand alone with my family, I've always been the odd one out. My parents barely accepted the fact that I was pansexual but even then they still make petty and passive aggressive comments about how I can't be a good Catholic or Sunday school teacher because of my sexual preference which I know is rubbish. Thanks for making this amazing video. Great job, keep up the great work. And Happy holidays from the US. 😊🎅🎄
It's been three years and I do hope things have gotten better along with it. I think I kind of get what you meant by 'barely accept' after dropping out of the after school activities that I could barely keep on top of, my father and other relatives haven't exactly been the happiest with me.
I know it must be nothing near what you went through with your sexuality but...I felt the need to drop out because I had no more time to practice said hobbies because I had to study for my first big national level exam, and after that settle into secondary school, bringing along the issues with normalizing only 3 to 5 hours of sleep 6 days a week, the exception being Friday nights, new school environments and the need to learn new skills and stuff along with online schooling amidst the pandemic. I felt burnt out, tired, exhausted. I felt as if I couldn't go on any longer, as if life was just a repetitive cycle of automated processes and responses.
I dropped out and told my father I couldn't do it anymore, and gave multiple excuses along with our financial state not being the best, because I knew that I couldn't just say "I'm mentally exhausted" and leave it at that. No, mental health is never an excuse where I'm from. Regardless, my father did let me drop out, and to this day I feel almost mocked for not being able to hold out like everyone else. My father rarely talks about me to anyone anymore because there's nothing worth mentioning about me.
Hell, just recently we had to do weekly cleaning and as he wiped an old picture frame from my win at a national cultural singing competition he said "What a lovely girl, I wonder where she is." with my fantastic acting skills I shot back "I wonder, you must miss her very much don't you? She was brilliant wasn't she?" without missing a beat he answered back "Yes" I just laughed it off and walked to my bathroom and silently cried into my knees. For a very long time I've given up on things like God and religion because for so long people around me told me if I wore an off shoulder ankle length dress it would make me a whore, and apparently God doesn't like whores. If I did this I'd go to hell, if I did that God would be disappointed. At this point whether God is real or not he's free to hate me, I hate me, my father hates me, (albeit rather subtly) I fail to see the difference. To this day they all make passive aggressive remarks on how "You used to be such a brilliant, polite young girl, I wonder what happened" now all I do is vaguely keep myself alive and occupy my days with school.
I hope that doesn't happen to you though. You seem to be a kind and lovely person. It's good to know people like you have the opportunity to influence young minds for the better. I'm happy for you :) (I'm really sorry if the things I've said may come off as insensitive or triggering, if it does, do let me know and I'll delete the comment immediately, I only wanted to show that your not alone when it comes to disappointed parents :)
First of all, thanks so much for all that you do. You actually... Lessen my depression. Like, just today, I felt happy. It was weird. I had all this energy and blissfulness. I go to counseling and write in a journal and stuff and their great, but you seriously had a huge impact on my life and I can't thank you enough. You really... made me accept my need for gentleness. I always thought I might be too sensitive, and I still do, but you help me realize that that's not a negative thing.
I know you're probably dealing with depression right now and I wish I could help. I will work extra hours so that I may put money towards your patron. You are such a important person. You seriously improve people's lives and deserve better 💕💕💕
Thank you so much, that means a lot to me. Please, don't overwork yourself on my account, just take care of yourself.
Can you do a audio of comfort for bullying/cyber bullying. I've been dealing with that alot lately and your audio's always make me feel so much better. :) Thank you
That is a great idea. Bullying and Cyber bullying is so damaging and hurtful.
Wow! Thank you! I often feel so alone and like I just don't fit in with my family. Like when ever I am around them I have to be someone else, the girl they have always made me to be. I find i often feel like i lead at least a different lives. My family life and my work/friend life. But this is the first time someone has said it's ok to put on a mask of it help you to get through. So thank you, thank you for making me feel like I'm alone in doing just that.
Okay, just a little note : (I'm practically your biggest fan now 😂🖐) I scrolled down to expect to see one of these audios, and I'm glad I did. I'm not too close with my family, even though my mom knows me better than I know myself. I always feel myself not being comfortable with them as I used to be when I was younger, because I always didn't feel good enough as my sibilings. It's quite a struggle considering I never know how to be myself around them, or even comfortable with them. They've always told me that it's because I'm the middle child, but I feel like you should love and treat your children the same way no matter what. It always bothers me realizing that they're my family and I need to love them, which I do, but I just hate how I'm being treated. I can't even tell them about my problems or anything without them mentioning my mental health is being damaged because of my damn phone or something. People have feelings, and people shouldn't have to think they have to hide them because someone thinks otherwise. It honestly sucks. Thank you Rainy, I appreciate you. I hope someday I'll be surrounded by others I can trust and actually be comfortable with them. Amazing audio by the way, it helped me out
This is the best Christmas present I received this year. Thank you. You are greatly appreciated 🌸
Having this video pop up in my recommendations today after having a pretty bad day...Just made me feel so much better. Thank you so much for these videos, even with this one being quite old. I appreciate what you do.
Im pan and I have a bf im also male I came out to my mom and dad my dad was ok with it but my mom hated me so we had a lot of fights to the point where I had to move in with my dad :( but I still love my mom I even still help with her bills and im very happy with my dad and school is just amazing evryone supports me there and I love it. :)
I'm bisexual but only my friends and my sister knows my parents don't and I don't know if I can or will because I'm scared they won't love me for the way I was born. I hate the maskes I wear I want to be me. but one day I will not have to wear a mask.
It took me so long to realise this 😔
I've been afraid all my life to turn out like them, I forced myself with a "perfect" lifestyle trying to be someone I'm not, and it really messed up my head... A lot... I left my whole family 10 years ago when I was finally and legally allowed to live on my own, and everyone is always asking me how is it possible that I don't missed them. But how can I? I lived for 18 years a life that wasn't mine, I felt abandoned, betrayed, guilty and never loved, not even once. And thank god I've never came out to them, otherwise I'm not sure I would've been here right now.
So thank you for making me feel less alone 🙏🏻
Cps urged me to get counseling but I was always against it. The second this quarantine is over I’m getting help. So beyond grateful towards you, I wish you every happiness.
I'm very proud of you. Counselling can be tough but it's one of the most valuable, healing things we can experience. Your first counsellor may not be a good fit for you and that's okay, I'd recommend trying some others if you don't really like their approach. It's important to find a counsellor who is a good fit for you, much like a pair of shoes. You may be going on quite a journey with them, so they need to be comfortable and supportive.
Rainy Day Audios omg I didn’t see this thank you will do my best!
god i needed this audio so much, thankyou rainy, once again - exactly what i needed. you’ve helped me so much, and i owe you so much tbh
You're very welcome. You don't owe me anything, I just do this to help people. Though perhaps one day you can support me on Patreon or pay it forward to someone else when you're able. That's more than enough
Andeh you're back!! And with such a helpful video as well I'm sure this will help loads of people ❤❤
My family hate me bv I'm a failure to them so thanks for making this audio dude
this audio means so much to me😿
I’m feeling so lovely right naw but this comforting me xxx
i really needed this today!!💗
I know this audio will help a lot of people. I'm glad you talked about how the importance/reverence of family is really pervasive in so many aspects of culture and it does create a dissonance if that's not your personal reality. It took me a while to deal with that myself.
To the people in the comments - you're not alone in your experience, and there are definitely people out there who want to know you fully. And you are resilient diamonds x
Recently I have been in an important part of my life, and you know its been difficult on me. I am just glad people as gracious as you have given the time and effort to help out everyone else. I thank you dearly and passionately because I have needed audios like these now more than ever.
Thank you for this.
Thank u so much for this it helped me so much
Thank you so much for this
Thanks to you, this is all I can say
thank you
Hey, thank you for this. This is a particular struggle I’ve been facing this holiday season, and this helped me to remember keeping safe doesn’t mean I’m abandoning who I am. I really appreciate your videos - helps ease the stress this season. Happy holidays to you, friend! ✨
Thank you. You are awesome.
Thank you. I needed to hear this today.
FINALLY😭❤️
yay finally u make another video I thought u were gone forever 😢😢
Thank u so much ☺
YOU stay strong too bud
hugging you trough wireless connection from a place somewhere unknown, at. least it's the same planet, right! and though we will never meet personally, i guess you made yourself a pillow in a small corner of our hearts, and made us phantasise of a dearest friend, that many wouldn't otherwise have, but more than that teaching us the meaning of alexithymie we wouldn't otherwise have the chance to learn about and grow emotionally , healing the world (🎶 heal 🌍)
it reminds me of "Her" the movie it's sad but necessary the world is sick,. it was always sick. i hope you are doing well,. for someone who. is. giving comfort, i. hope. you can feel safe to turn to us if needed. tank❤u how is yours doing?
Ok I love this and also u sound like Felix from stray kids XD just sayin! But anyway thank you for making this it’s really reassuring
More so about the music recommendation playlist but you wouldn't get the comment on it.
Have you listened to Amber Run? The song called 'I Found' especially. I feel like it might be a song that would fit your taste maybe? Idk sorry
I hadn't heard it, but that's quite a nice song, thank you. I'm not sure what you're apologising for, recommending me a song? That doesn't seem like you've wronged me.
i love you. sorry i had too.
I do stand alone...but i do have my son being my tiny family...who do precious in my life!! ☺
Only God can judge me!!
Humairaq Aliff awe how old is ur son and true
Just checking in... I hope you're okay...
i wondered what made me feel sad. i was doing fine just now. i wondered what hurt me tonight,
was it trauma? that's my guess
Okay.... damn I fucking love you..❤
My dad is a worthless cheater so this made me feel better ❤️
Can we get a self love aid vid? I'd love that so much it would mean a lot to me growing up as a homophobic gay
I was born in a super catholic town that was constantly scaring us with threats of hell and I hated myself because I was told to
However I'm better now and more open, but I'm still a little afraid of being too open with people
can you make somthing for sleeping or taking care of sick Girlfriend
So what do you do when you never had and never will?
Hello I just ask a video with the word shhh it must be soft It must be long time not strong to try to sleep With whispers if you want Thank you very much good day
FAINLY
I wish my family accepted me
/My family on me being trans/. I've tried coming out in the passed, it's just never worked out well (I didn't get kicked out thank goodness). I feel loved by them, but they don't accept people in the LGBT... Heck yesterday I told my mom wanted to get something online and she asked me what and I told her it was an under shirt (actually a binder) and she asked me why I had to get it offline and I told her because it was the one I wanted. (I can't tell her it's a binder and it's not sold in stores, at least not here in Louisiana). And she told me she'd let me use her card, but I told her no, that I was going to use a prepaid card, she asked me what the website was and I can't tell her it's GC2b, because then she'd look it up and find out it's a binder and not let me get it. I've told her in the past how I feel with my chest and such. It turned into an argument so... I try to avoid telling her how I feel and I just talk to my friends about it. Also to note what you said about family isn't always blood related, I know this, my mom was adopted when she was 12. I know some of my biological family, but the people I grew up with were my family. (I will explain why I said were) they kinda kicked me out of the family when I came out a few years ago on Facebook, but it's fine. Like you said family isn't just by blood. There's a song by boyinaband called spectrum and the song is about what you just said. I think it'll be nice to take a listen. ^^