💖No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma and I believe this is what Chester would have wanted.💖 Learn the EXACT steps I took in getting my depression and BPD in check, overcoming addiction and self harm and going from ready to end it all to true healing. amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost
Eres luminosa, tan sensitiva, sensible y emocional; eres la suavidad que el mundo necesita descubrir en su corazón y conectarse con la mente desde el alma. Soy alguien que carga el peso de una armadura que me protege y al mismo tiempo me sienta pesada al camino. Pero confío en la vida para volver a mi voluntad perdida; la espada que sostengo sigue firme y afiliada, éstas manos no se cansan de alzarla. Solo pido discernir entre la voz de mis demonios al de mi Ángel de la Guarda. Amiga, Gracias. Con cariño un Abrazo.. 🌹🛡️⚔️
Hello Amanda. I had a very good week. I hope it continues like this. Edward sent me a message and I was so happy to hear from him. Maybe I'll come back to the pack in September, after our vacation, and we can do a livestream together. I have to show you all my new room. Greetings from Germany to you, Edward, David, George, our Poet and the rest of the pack.
Today is a day that needs to be remembered. We remember two amazing legends with beautiful voices. Sound garden lead singer Chris Cornell turns 60 years old and this marks 7 years since the tragic death of Linkin Park’s Chester Bennington. I felt like I should bring this up because I recently made a suicide attempt after relapsing and now I feel ashamed for what I did. I’m sorry if this is triggering to anyone but I just felt like I needed to speak up. At least I’m okay now but I fear that this might happen again…..😢
😢 glad your still here! It's rough inside the prison that's in our own minds dealing with are demons, thoughts, feelings and emotions day in and out! You gotta keep Pushing and Punching you're way through life everyday don't give up think about the pain and suffering you'll bring to your family and find something in your life that gives you or makes you feel like you have a purpose here!!! And Definitely find someone with who your comfortable talking too about what's going on inside your head and let it out it not good keeping it bottled up inside you believe me talking helps.
The only 2 "celebrities" that I've never met that actually made me cry when they died, were Chris Cornell and Anthony Bourdain. They impacted my life in ways they will never know. Don't numb the pain or your feelings with substance abuse, easier said than done...I know. But the withdrawal and the depression/anxiety that comes with it can put you through a tail spin. Stay with us brother, life is worth living.
No need to apologize. That is what this community is for! I’m so sorry to hear about your recent suicide attempt after relapsing, and I understand the shame you might be feeling. I felt it many times. I've faced dark times too, and I know how terrifying it can be to fear that it might happen again. It's okay to feel this way. I highly suggest sitting down and figuring out what it was that triggered the relapse and making a safety plan to reduce future risk. But through it all, remember all of those days you DIDN'T give in instead of dwelling on the one slip.
@@MentalAmanda Thank you. I’m starting to figure it out now. It’s been about a week and I haven’t had any thoughts since. Still recovering from an ED but I’m still grinding with life. I think it was mainly stress with work and fighting this disease and I just wanted to give up. But I just got a wake up call from my doctor and I don’t think I want to die anytime soon. Staying strong and hoping for the best. Thanks again! ❤️🙏
In February of 2023 my 14 year old daughter was put into a program after being on a 72 hour hold for a suicide attempt. While in the treatment center she was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and mild Schizophrenia. She lives half the continent away from me with her mother, and that made things even harder because I burdened myself with thoughts of "maybe I could have noticed something if I was there" and "what kind of father can't be there when his child needs him the most?" Talking with my daughter after she got out helped to push those thoughts away. Even those closest to her at the time (physically and emotionally) couldn't see the signs. I still struggle with this sometimes, but far less frequently. Earlier this year, for her 16th birthday and to celebrate 1 year of still being here, she went to see one of her favorite bands, Papa Roach, for the first time. She called me the next day and told me all about it. She loved it.
I am so glad that you were able to talk with her and have those thoughts eased. Those of us who struggle can become excellent at masking it so even people close to us might never know. Papa Roach is an amazing band and I think that was an excellent choice for celebration! I hope the two of you continue to heal and find ways to stay close despite the distance.
We are going through the same thing right now. It’s so hard to be away from her for three days. We can’t sleep, we cry, but at the same time, she is still with us. I understand very well what you’re feeling. A lot of time has passed since your comment, but I just hope that God protects your daughter and your family. This is a step-by-step process, but the fear of her relapsing is always on our minds.
A live performance of this song and the message Jacoby provided before the performed it saved my friend’s life. He’s stone cold, never thought he had shit going on and he just broke down. Thanks P Roach
" Holding on.....why is everything so heavy.....I keep dragging around everything that's bringing me down....if I could just let go I would be set free... holding on....why is everything so heavy "😢
Talking and being truthful with people who care can be a huge relief it allows that wall to open up a little and words actually make sense rather than bounce off of you
Yessssss! I've so been waiting for you to react to this song. Fell in love it the first time I heard it and instantly felt you would as well. Such a great song and support for a very important cause. They were taking proceeds from the song as well dontations from the tour and donating to that charity. Statement I think they issued last year quoted: "This campaign for us started on "The Revolutions Live Tour" with our friends Shinedown and Spiritbox, which resulted in a donation being made made in name of each show - Our initial donation of $155,000 is just the start of the work we wish to do on behalf of this important cause. "
The first time I heard this song I broke. Being a three time survivor and I ever needed was someone to show the wanted to listen. I was alone for years drifting further and further away. I survived and so can you, but don't do it the way I did. Get help, never think your not worth it. There is someone that would rather hear your story that hear your eulogy.
Taking one's life is the realization that everyone that surrounded you and supported you wasn't really there to help you, you fall into a dark hole because you reach out for the ledge but there's no one there when you need them, their only there when it's convenient for them, the more you fall the less hands reach out to save you, you realize that falling is better than being in a life of pain and false hope, it is more difficult to say you need help than just letting go of your life.
I feel this so deeply. I remember after losing my parents, everyone was so accommodating and supportive. Until they weren't. Meanwhile, trauma kept pelting me, but even my closest friends started writing me off because I was just "too much". I found I would move mountains to be there for them and they could barely be bothered to lift a finger when I was in emotional agony. If there is one lesson I have learned in life it's that nobody is coming to save you. People, be it friends or professionals, might help you, but you have to save yourself. Even in the depths of that dark hole is a tiny flicker, a tiny bit of fight left. We have to hold onto that and work on growing that fire. It's hard. Our Shadow will tell us it's impossible. But there's always a way out of the hole, even if we don't immediately see it.
First, thank you for sharing this. I just started following your posts and being an old 50's and 60's kid, I had never heard these artists before. It was a beautiful song. I feel that today's cancel culture does more harm by prohibiting controversial topics. We need to be able to talk about things not with hate, but with love. My generation used comedy to show the absurdity of racism and bigotry. Not many people realize that Richard Pryor wrote most of Blazing Saddles so that we could laugh at the racial slurs. I read a comment that someone was ashamed of their attempt. That is what we need to fight against. We don't need shame for people fighting to get well. People that have survived a tornado and crawl out dirty, muddy, bleeding, and with torn clothes are some of the most beautiful people in the world. It doesn't matter if you're crying and your makeup is smeared, you are still loved and your soul is still beautiful.
I really enjoyed listening to this song and in the same token it really tugs at my heart strings. Been dealing with things in my life and this song is a real comfort. ❤you Amanda and thank you so much for saving a place for me. ❤❤❤
One if my favorite bands ever! I've been a fan of papa roach since they debuted. I used to sneak into my brother's room when he was out of the house and listen to infest. This song and their music in general always help me through life. Music saves lives
Such a beautiful song supporting such an important cause. I will always be a light for anyone who needs it, having experienced that dark place many times myself 💜💜
Hard to believe 7 yrs since Chester's passing 😢 When I hear my teenage/college rock bands doing songs like this, I can't translate how emotional I get as I get older. Especially at live shows, many times I get choked up during these type of tracks. I hope Amanda for how much you review, you get a chance to see some shows live...these bands have evolved and I bet would hit you different now vs when you were younger. Great video 😊
This song saved my relationship with my pregnant fiancee. We're both broken and have triggers. But I am suicidal and her hearing the message they do at live shows opened her eyes to my thoughts. Jessica if you see this you are the J in in Anthony J. I love you.
Linkin Park was my beacon of light when my brother passed away in 2011 when I was 13. When Chester passed away Linkin Park still remained as my medicine, in honor of Chester I got his portrait tattoo, his name, and his signature flame with LP symbol in the middle. Last year a week before my birthday my dad committed suicide same way as Chester did. I guess he had his own reasons. Everyone does, but he was a happy person everytime. And I know that wherever he is. He’s happy that he’s reunited with his Son.
I think "I'll Leave A Light On For You" also refers to someone who will always be there if they need to just talk. Like someone who is waiting for them to come home and they will "leave a light on" so they can find them through all the darkness.
Been saying this for a long time! ALFRED GREMSLYS book, " It's All In My Head," it's a book written in the form of poetry on mental health! And it is pure genius!!! Do yourself a favor and check itbout!!!
I am a fan of Papa Roach and Linkin' Park, I thank Papa Roach for putting out this song. I kinda learned to hate the part of me that could annoy people, all I want is to be accepted for the worst of me or the part of me that has social anxiety and can't let things go. We need to reach out to people who are struggling, I wish Chester was saved. He may be gone but the impact he made will live on. He will live on.
Thank you Amanda. I had not heard this song before, but it has me wondering now if there is any universal "sign" that someone who is struggling can knock on my door at any time. How would someone who is struggling, falling, giving up... know that I will invite them in and listen even though I don't know them yet.
@@MentalAmanda my mom has told me that in Germany in the 40s people who needed help would put a mark on the resident's name plate on the side of the apartment building so other folks would know where they could get help. Something like this. A few years ago I was part of a motorcycle association where every year they would publish a members booklet that had contact info for members and any help they could provide. Like if I was out on a long trip and broke down I could look to see who lived nearby... and someone has tools, someone has a trailer, someone has a spare room, stuff like that. It was completely voluntary what kind of assistance you let them publish, if any, but it was a really cool idea for connecting people and creating a network for them to help each other. Obviously this is a different situation and the world is crazier now, but there's still got to be a way to leave the light on for people who need it.
hey, I rarely write comments, I'm an introvert. I wanted to write to you that I love your sensitivity It's obvious that you were on the dark side of your soul and thanks to that you understand people much better I don't like it when someone says "Don't exaggerate, it's not that bad" They don't know or don't want to know because then God forbid they would have to do something It's better to pretend it's OK Or leave a person because they are too sad.
I 100% agree that censoring the word suicide does more harm than good. Might as well censor "depression" as well, sweep it under the rug...pretend it doesn't exist...make it harder for people who deal with it to openly talk about it, and share, and fine companionship and community...help...support.
If someone played this for me and I didn't have a screen to look at and wasn't told who it was, I wouldn't know it was Papa Roach. There were times they sounded like Seether, times they sounded almost like Three Days Grace in a way, and I mean these things in the best way possible. (I love Seether!) - and this was a powerful song. Very fitting for this channel, and a positive message as I'm kinda mourning Chris Cornell this evening. I really would have liked to have met Chris.
Hi, Amanda. You have to know the band Korn. Vocalist Jonathan Davis sings all his plots, abuses and sufferings in songs that welcomed many people, showing that they were not alone. These are disturbing, shocking, visceral lyrics. Tracks like "Falling Away From Me", "Thougtless", "Hater", "Clown", "Daddy" and so many others that marked a generation. Korn is iconic, the precursor of Nu Metal, a phenomenon of the 90s, intimate, brutal and addictive.
I have dealt with someone in my life that was depressed/suicidal and I had said all of these things, and they didn’t want help. They would just tell me not to worry about it, or I would tell them that I’m not going anywhere. They would just said BS and would never believe anything. And it gets exhausting when you constantly have to tell that someone you are here and they never believe you
It's incredibly difficult to be in that position, caring deeply for someone who is struggling but feeling like your efforts aren't making a difference. It can be exhausting to constantly reassure them, only to have your words dismissed. The frustration and helplessness you feel are completely valid. Remember that supporting someone through depression or suicidal thoughts is one of the toughest things to do, and sometimes, despite our best efforts, they may not be ready to accept help. It's important to take care of yourself, too, in these situations. You're doing your best, and that matters, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes.
I don't know if anyone has heard of or has seen this video. O.A.R. Gonna Be Me. Would love to see you react to this song. Newest song by them and OMG its nothing like they have ever done! Love Love Love your stuff!
It’s understandable that this song hits hard, especially after such a profound loss. I can’t imagine how heavy that must feel. If you want to talk about it-how you’re feeling or what the song brings up for you-I’m here to listen. My contact info is in my video descriptions. You’re not alone in this, and I care if your light goes out.
Have you guys ever wondered how someone we never met can have such profound impact on us.... LP songs have always put it in words the things I feel and cannot talk about. We should take time to reflect on our mortality, mental health and check up on close ones. Hey Amanda.... I'm sure you are beacon for many struggling with mental health. Thanks for what you do, much love from India.... Love to see your reaction for below songs Carry me down by Demon hunter Dead flowers by Demon hunter Scars in heaven by casting crowns
Jacoby originally wrote this song when his kids went off to college. It was originally meant to be for Sewerslide awareness but the fans adopted it as such and they've ran with it
When you said how not saying the word makes it like silencing suicide it made me think of Metallica's song Screaming Suicide off their latest album. You will really appreciate the song it is really special.
6 years ago my fiancee and I were hit by a drunk driver. He was killed. I was cut out of the car and in the hospital for weeks. I had to move back in with my mom and I just was in so much physical and emotional pain. I tried to commit suicide. My mom came in to tell me good night and saw the empty pill bottles. She saved my life.
So happy that you are still here with us. I can only imagine how hopeless that must have felt. I have a half brother I will never know because of a drunk driver and my dad was completely disabled because of another. I have no patience for it. I hope that you are finding ways to connect with your fiance's energy and that it gives you strength. Feel free to share your favorite memories of him here so we can help keep his energy alive.
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I hope you see "me" looking out, I think he said. Still, not much different than "I'm". On a lighter note, this song kind of reminds me of the motel 6 commercials, lol
You need to watch Pearl Jam Jeremy mv uncensored version it is a true story about a high schooler named Jeremy Wade Delle who killed himself in front of his teachers and fellow classmates please
This is by far the most beautiful song I have heard. I am sure more than just me suggested you react to this. I chock up every time I hear this. Linkin Park is my favorite band of all time. When I saw Papa Roach in 2023 and I heard Jacoby dedicate this song to Chester and I could not hold back the emotion. Linkin Park, Papa Roach, and Metal music has saved my life so much over the yrs. This song sums up a huge part of my life. When I hit bottom it included jail time. If not for my family leaving that light on I know I would not be typing this today. Thank You for what you do and your emotion to this is how I feel every time I hear this song which I listen to everyday. Thank You Amanda
Nowadays there are rock songs that there are people who want to cancel and delete them because of their lyrics and treat women as sexual objects, since these are currently sensitive topics in many countries around the world! 😨 What do you think Amanda? I hope you respond to the message and know your opinion Amanda please 🙏🏻🩷
I don't believe in censorship. I believe that things like this are an opportunity for conversation. This isn't a song, but I will use the movie Twilight as an example as I have had personal experience with it. A close friend of mind had a daughter that was the target audience for these movies. They were all the rage and she really wanted to watch them. My friend came to me concerned because of the toxic relationship that is glorified in this franchise. I suggested that she allow her daughter to watch them, but use it as a bonding opportunity afterward to talk about healthy relationships. My friend said it was an incredible experience for them as she felt like they could really connect over something. It strengthened their relationship. Because of the way she approached that, her daughter broke up with boys/men the second she saw a red flag and has never dealt with toxic relationships because she knows her worth and knows what to watch out for. She is happily engaged last I heard and was expecting her first child. Do I agree with objectifying women? I don't agree with objectifying anyone. But conversation is a more effective route than trying to suppress things that we will face in the real world eventually. It's better to know how to recognize and handle things.
@@MentalAmanda I totally agree with you on your opinion and message. The story you told me is interesting. I hope you are doing well ☺️❤️ I also really appreciate your great work and you deserve to have many successes and followers 🥰💕
This is by far the most beautiful song I have heard. I am sure I am not the to suggest this to react to. I choke up everytime I hear this. Linkin Park is my favorite band of all time. When I saw Papa Roach back in 2023 and I heard Jacoby dedicate this to Chester and I heard the song I lost it. Linkin Park, Papa Roach and Metal music has saved my life many times over the years. This song sums up a part of my life. When I hit bottom it included jail time. If not for my family and friends leaving that light on I would not be typing this today. Thank you Amanda for what you do and thank you for your reaction to this beautiful song
Amanda, thank you for sharing this! This song really destroyed me as I have not had Aidan who is my 14 year old at my house since December and his mother is not helping matters! Aidan told her that he only came outside on Father's Day is because he was already "downstairs". She said nothing to me and I found out about this from Collin who is my 10 year old 😭😭. On top of that, I have lost 4 brothers that I served with to suicide since November, so that and my attempt and those make it worse. I feel so trapped in that "deep black hole" with the "light" getting dimmer by the day! If you feel you want to listen to this song that describes my internal battle then reply (don't have to), it's cool. Here is the song I am talking about...have tissues! Hold space for me PLEASE! ua-cam.com/video/YnCMnsPH6d0/v-deo.htmlsi=dKYrMjV_u4p7SwGS
@@MentalAmanda I feel grateful that I have this community to lean on! Has the same effect on me as it did you I guess is where I am at right now. Even though I have those feelings of weak and exhausted, I HAVE to fight through it because I can't leave the boys like that. You guys give me a shoulder to lean on when I feel exhausted and help ensuring that my light stays on/won't allow me to "reach" for the light much less just flipping the switch. You guys are my lighthouse and I LOVE Y'ALL! THANK YOU! I cried tears of gratitude/relief when I wrote the poem for you. I hope you have read it! I LOVE Y'ALL
As a trans frau I know the makeup problem but most importantly I know the pain. Honestly I wish I weren't here any longer but I will never kill myself. Religious reasons. At least I hope.
Thank you for sharing your feelings and your struggles. As a trans frau, I can imagine the challenges you face, both with makeup and the deeper emotional pain. I’m truly happy that you have found a reason to hold on, but I want you to know that you deserve to be here, to heal, and to find joy in your life. Not just to exist because you feel obligated to. Your life is important, and you deserve support and understanding. If you ever need to talk you can message me on IG @mentalamanda. You're not alone! I care if your light goes out!
sorry but ig refuses to let me sign up. never been on the site. they finally sent me a code to sign up but kept giving me an error. my whole life....one big error. I GIVE UP.
💖No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma and I believe this is what Chester would have wanted.💖
Learn the EXACT steps I took in getting my depression and BPD in check, overcoming addiction and self harm and going from ready to end it all to true healing. amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost
Eres luminosa, tan sensitiva, sensible y emocional; eres la suavidad que el mundo necesita descubrir en su corazón y conectarse con la mente desde el alma.
Soy alguien que carga el peso de una armadura que me protege y al mismo tiempo me sienta pesada al camino. Pero confío en la vida para volver a mi voluntad perdida; la espada que sostengo sigue firme y afiliada, éstas manos no se cansan de alzarla. Solo pido discernir entre la voz de mis demonios al de mi Ángel de la Guarda.
Amiga, Gracias.
Con cariño un Abrazo..
🌹🛡️⚔️
Hello Amanda. I had a very good week. I hope it continues like this. Edward sent me a message and I was so happy to hear from him. Maybe I'll come back to the pack in September, after our vacation, and we can do a livestream together. I have to show you all my new room. Greetings from Germany to you, Edward, David, George, our Poet and the rest of the pack.
We still miss you Chester 💔
🌹REST IN PEACE🌹
Today is a day that needs to be remembered. We remember two amazing legends with beautiful voices. Sound garden lead singer Chris Cornell turns 60 years old and this marks 7 years since the tragic death of Linkin Park’s Chester Bennington. I felt like I should bring this up because I recently made a suicide attempt after relapsing and now I feel ashamed for what I did. I’m sorry if this is triggering to anyone but I just felt like I needed to speak up. At least I’m okay now but I fear that this might happen again…..😢
We need you here! Please don’t leave us.
😢 glad your still here!
It's rough inside the prison that's in our own minds dealing with are demons, thoughts, feelings and emotions day in and out! You gotta keep Pushing and Punching you're way through life everyday don't give up think about the pain and suffering you'll bring to your family and find something in your life that gives you or makes you feel like you have a purpose here!!!
And Definitely find someone with who your comfortable talking too about what's going on inside your head and let it out it not good keeping it bottled up inside you believe me talking helps.
The only 2 "celebrities" that I've never met that actually made me cry when they died, were Chris Cornell and Anthony Bourdain. They impacted my life in ways they will never know.
Don't numb the pain or your feelings with substance abuse, easier said than done...I know. But the withdrawal and the depression/anxiety that comes with it can put you through a tail spin. Stay with us brother, life is worth living.
No need to apologize. That is what this community is for! I’m so sorry to hear about your recent suicide attempt after relapsing, and I understand the shame you might be feeling. I felt it many times. I've faced dark times too, and I know how terrifying it can be to fear that it might happen again. It's okay to feel this way. I highly suggest sitting down and figuring out what it was that triggered the relapse and making a safety plan to reduce future risk. But through it all, remember all of those days you DIDN'T give in instead of dwelling on the one slip.
@@MentalAmanda Thank you. I’m starting to figure it out now. It’s been about a week and I haven’t had any thoughts since. Still recovering from an ED but I’m still grinding with life. I think it was mainly stress with work and fighting this disease and I just wanted to give up. But I just got a wake up call from my doctor and I don’t think I want to die anytime soon. Staying strong and hoping for the best. Thanks again! ❤️🙏
For fans of Carrie underwood, Papa Roach released a video of both of them singing this as a duet
It’s an amazing song!!! Please review this new version
In February of 2023 my 14 year old daughter was put into a program after being on a 72 hour hold for a suicide attempt. While in the treatment center she was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and mild Schizophrenia. She lives half the continent away from me with her mother, and that made things even harder because I burdened myself with thoughts of "maybe I could have noticed something if I was there" and "what kind of father can't be there when his child needs him the most?" Talking with my daughter after she got out helped to push those thoughts away. Even those closest to her at the time (physically and emotionally) couldn't see the signs. I still struggle with this sometimes, but far less frequently. Earlier this year, for her 16th birthday and to celebrate 1 year of still being here, she went to see one of her favorite bands, Papa Roach, for the first time. She called me the next day and told me all about it. She loved it.
I am so glad that you were able to talk with her and have those thoughts eased. Those of us who struggle can become excellent at masking it so even people close to us might never know. Papa Roach is an amazing band and I think that was an excellent choice for celebration! I hope the two of you continue to heal and find ways to stay close despite the distance.
We are going through the same thing right now. It’s so hard to be away from her for three days. We can’t sleep, we cry, but at the same time, she is still with us. I understand very well what you’re feeling. A lot of time has passed since your comment, but I just hope that God protects your daughter and your family. This is a step-by-step process, but the fear of her relapsing is always on our minds.
@5:19 I didn't even make that connection b/w this vid and the 'One More Light' vid where it had the same image and I've seen this 100x+ now
A live performance of this song and the message Jacoby provided before the performed it saved my friend’s life. He’s stone cold, never thought he had shit going on and he just broke down. Thanks P Roach
I am so happy to hear this!
This is such a beautiful song and once again shows a side to papa roach that soooo many people miss. Brilliant.
" Holding on.....why is everything so heavy.....I keep dragging around everything that's bringing me down....if I could just let go I would be set free... holding on....why is everything so heavy "😢
Many of LP lyrics were in that direction, unfortunately... However I will never forget LP or Chester's unique and powerful voice.
Talking and being truthful with people who care can be a huge relief it allows that wall to open up a little and words actually make sense rather than bounce off of you
Yessssss! I've so been waiting for you to react to this song. Fell in love it the first time I heard it and instantly felt you would as well. Such a great song and support for a very important cause. They were taking proceeds from the song as well dontations from the tour and donating to that charity. Statement I think they issued last year quoted:
"This campaign for us started on "The Revolutions Live Tour" with our friends Shinedown and Spiritbox, which resulted in a donation being made made in name of each show - Our initial donation of $155,000 is just the start of the work we wish to do on behalf of this important cause. "
ty to all of us vets dealing with ptsd and close to our breaking
Thank you to all for your service and sacrifice! You are loved and appreciated.
Thank you I’m a veteran with ptsd it’s been a hard road doing my best shout out to my fellow veterans hooah.
Amanda, you are so wonderful and I’m happy that you’re still here with us today!!
The first time I heard this song I broke. Being a three time survivor and I ever needed was someone to show the wanted to listen. I was alone for years drifting further and further away. I survived and so can you, but don't do it the way I did. Get help, never think your not worth it. There is someone that would rather hear your story that hear your eulogy.
I am so glad to know your light is still on!
Taking one's life is the realization that everyone that surrounded you and supported you wasn't really there to help you, you fall into a dark hole because you reach out for the ledge but there's no one there when you need them, their only there when it's convenient for them, the more you fall the less hands reach out to save you, you realize that falling is better than being in a life of pain and false hope, it is more difficult to say you need help than just letting go of your life.
I feel this so deeply. I remember after losing my parents, everyone was so accommodating and supportive. Until they weren't. Meanwhile, trauma kept pelting me, but even my closest friends started writing me off because I was just "too much". I found I would move mountains to be there for them and they could barely be bothered to lift a finger when I was in emotional agony. If there is one lesson I have learned in life it's that nobody is coming to save you. People, be it friends or professionals, might help you, but you have to save yourself. Even in the depths of that dark hole is a tiny flicker, a tiny bit of fight left. We have to hold onto that and work on growing that fire. It's hard. Our Shadow will tell us it's impossible. But there's always a way out of the hole, even if we don't immediately see it.
Chester my savior. I'll miss you my brother. Rest in peace
First, thank you for sharing this. I just started following your posts and being an old 50's and 60's kid, I had never heard these artists before. It was a beautiful song. I feel that today's cancel culture does more harm by prohibiting controversial topics. We need to be able to talk about things not with hate, but with love. My generation used comedy to show the absurdity of racism and bigotry. Not many people realize that Richard Pryor wrote most of Blazing Saddles so that we could laugh at the racial slurs. I read a comment that someone was ashamed of their attempt. That is what we need to fight against. We don't need shame for people fighting to get well. People that have survived a tornado and crawl out dirty, muddy, bleeding, and with torn clothes are some of the most beautiful people in the world. It doesn't matter if you're crying and your makeup is smeared, you are still loved and your soul is still beautiful.
I really enjoyed listening to this song and in the same token it really tugs at my heart strings. Been dealing with things in my life and this song is a real comfort. ❤you Amanda and thank you so much for saving a place for me. ❤❤❤
You are always welcome here!
One if my favorite bands ever! I've been a fan of papa roach since they debuted. I used to sneak into my brother's room when he was out of the house and listen to infest. This song and their music in general always help me through life. Music saves lives
Such a beautiful song supporting such an important cause. I will always be a light for anyone who needs it, having experienced that dark place many times myself 💜💜
Hard to believe 7 yrs since Chester's passing 😢
When I hear my teenage/college rock bands doing songs like this, I can't translate how emotional I get as I get older. Especially at live shows, many times I get choked up during these type of tracks.
I hope Amanda for how much you review, you get a chance to see some shows live...these bands have evolved and I bet would hit you different now vs when you were younger. Great video 😊
I Love ♥️ That Song Leave A Light On From Papa Roach Amanda i Listen to it Ever Single Day
This song saved my relationship with my pregnant fiancee. We're both broken and have triggers. But I am suicidal and her hearing the message they do at live shows opened her eyes to my thoughts. Jessica if you see this you are the J in in Anthony J. I love you.
I am so happy to hear this!
Thank you Amanda.
Linkin Park was my beacon of light when my brother passed away in 2011 when I was 13. When Chester passed away Linkin Park still remained as my medicine, in honor of Chester I got his portrait tattoo, his name, and his signature flame with LP symbol in the middle. Last year a week before my birthday my dad committed suicide same way as Chester did. I guess he had his own reasons. Everyone does, but he was a happy person everytime. And I know that wherever he is. He’s happy that he’s reunited with his Son.
I just put together in my head, this feels like a sequel to One More Light😔
I think "I'll Leave A Light On For You" also refers to someone who will always be there if they need to just talk. Like someone who is waiting for them to come home and they will "leave a light on" so they can find them through all the darkness.
Been saying this for a long time! ALFRED GREMSLYS book, " It's All In My Head," it's a book written in the form of poetry on mental health! And it is pure genius!!! Do yourself a favor and check itbout!!!
Thank you
I am a fan of Papa Roach and Linkin' Park, I thank Papa Roach for putting out this song. I kinda learned to hate the part of me that could annoy people, all I want is to be accepted for the worst of me or the part of me that has social anxiety and can't let things go. We need to reach out to people who are struggling, I wish Chester was saved. He may be gone but the impact he made will live on. He will live on.
I never heard this before... Thank You Amanda ❤❤❤❤🌹🌹🌹🌹I have the same reaction as you!!! 😥😁🇺🇸
Such a powerful song.
Jacoby Shaddix would be a great person to interview
Thank you for this reaction. The next Papa Roach song you should do is "Last Resort." Falls right in line with the subject of your channel.
"Last Resort" - that's going back a few years.....ok - 24 years.....
Thank you Amanda. I had not heard this song before, but it has me wondering now if there is any universal "sign" that someone who is struggling can knock on my door at any time. How would someone who is struggling, falling, giving up... know that I will invite them in and listen even though I don't know them yet.
I love this idea! Having some kind of symbol. I'm going to reflect on this more for sure!
@@MentalAmanda my mom has told me that in Germany in the 40s people who needed help would put a mark on the resident's name plate on the side of the apartment building so other folks would know where they could get help. Something like this.
A few years ago I was part of a motorcycle association where every year they would publish a members booklet that had contact info for members and any help they could provide. Like if I was out on a long trip and broke down I could look to see who lived nearby... and someone has tools, someone has a trailer, someone has a spare room, stuff like that. It was completely voluntary what kind of assistance you let them publish, if any, but it was a really cool idea for connecting people and creating a network for them to help each other. Obviously this is a different situation and the world is crazier now, but there's still got to be a way to leave the light on for people who need it.
hey, I rarely write comments, I'm an introvert. I wanted to write to you that I love your sensitivity
It's obvious that you were on the dark side of your soul and thanks to that you understand people much better
I don't like it when someone says "Don't exaggerate, it's not that bad"
They don't know or don't want to know because then God forbid they would have to do something
It's better to pretend it's OK
Or leave a person because they are too sad.
I 100% agree that censoring the word suicide does more harm than good. Might as well censor "depression" as well, sweep it under the rug...pretend it doesn't exist...make it harder for people who deal with it to openly talk about it, and share, and fine companionship and community...help...support.
This is my anthem, myself and my home is a safe places for anyone that need love and support.
If someone played this for me and I didn't have a screen to look at and wasn't told who it was, I wouldn't know it was Papa Roach. There were times they sounded like Seether, times they sounded almost like Three Days Grace in a way, and I mean these things in the best way possible. (I love Seether!) - and this was a powerful song. Very fitting for this channel, and a positive message as I'm kinda mourning Chris Cornell this evening. I really would have liked to have met Chris.
Hi, Amanda. You have to know the band Korn. Vocalist Jonathan Davis sings all his plots, abuses and sufferings in songs that welcomed many people, showing that they were not alone. These are disturbing, shocking, visceral lyrics. Tracks like "Falling Away From Me", "Thougtless", "Hater", "Clown", "Daddy" and so many others that marked a generation. Korn is iconic, the precursor of Nu Metal, a phenomenon of the 90s, intimate, brutal and addictive.
I have done a few Korn songs and Jonathan Davis is one of my favorite vocalists.
величайшая группа,топ 1 для меня,всегда буду любить их
I have dealt with someone in my life that was depressed/suicidal and I had said all of these things, and they didn’t want help. They would just tell me not to worry about it, or I would tell them that I’m not going anywhere. They would just said BS and would never believe anything. And it gets exhausting when you constantly have to tell that someone you are here and they never believe you
It's incredibly difficult to be in that position, caring deeply for someone who is struggling but feeling like your efforts aren't making a difference. It can be exhausting to constantly reassure them, only to have your words dismissed. The frustration and helplessness you feel are completely valid. Remember that supporting someone through depression or suicidal thoughts is one of the toughest things to do, and sometimes, despite our best efforts, they may not be ready to accept help. It's important to take care of yourself, too, in these situations. You're doing your best, and that matters, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes.
I don't know if anyone has heard of or has seen this video. O.A.R. Gonna Be Me. Would love to see you react to this song. Newest song by them and OMG its nothing like they have ever done! Love Love Love your stuff!
I like your shirt ❤
Hugs. Go out to all of you. And ill leave a light on for all of you from Ryan Barron ❤❤❤❤❤
My dad killed himself and I don't want to live.. this song hits different when you feel like that
It’s understandable that this song hits hard, especially after such a profound loss. I can’t imagine how heavy that must feel. If you want to talk about it-how you’re feeling or what the song brings up for you-I’m here to listen. My contact info is in my video descriptions. You’re not alone in this, and I care if your light goes out.
Have you guys ever wondered how someone we never met can have such profound impact on us.... LP songs have always put it in words the things I feel and cannot talk about.
We should take time to reflect on our mortality, mental health and check up on close ones.
Hey Amanda.... I'm sure you are beacon for many struggling with mental health. Thanks for what you do, much love from India....
Love to see your reaction for below songs
Carry me down by Demon hunter
Dead flowers by Demon hunter
Scars in heaven by casting crowns
Jacoby originally wrote this song when his kids went off to college. It was originally meant to be for Sewerslide awareness but the fans adopted it as such and they've ran with it
I’ve been feeling alone lately. No job for 3 months. I’ve been having those thoughts. 😭😭
I am sorry you are feeling that way. We are here for you. You can always message me on IG (@mentalamanda).
Check Lacey Sturm and Lindsey Stirling Breathe With Me!!! ❤❤❤❤
Wow what a combination... Loved it... 🔁
There's another version of this featuring Carrie Underwood that is equally amazing.
You should check out the Duet he did with this song with Carrie Underwood its amazing
When you said how not saying the word makes it like silencing suicide it made me think of Metallica's song Screaming Suicide off their latest album. You will really appreciate the song it is really special.
Would love to see a full reaction to the death of slim shady ❤️
I am new here finding the channel. Has a reaction being done to Falling in Reverse last resort re-imagined?
It is on my list.
Next please react to poison " something to bellieve in " , thankyou really love your channel 🎉
6 years ago my fiancee and I were hit by a drunk driver. He was killed. I was cut out of the car and in the hospital for weeks. I had to move back in with my mom and I just was in so much physical and emotional pain. I tried to commit suicide. My mom came in to tell me good night and saw the empty pill bottles. She saved my life.
So happy that you are still here with us. I can only imagine how hopeless that must have felt. I have a half brother I will never know because of a drunk driver and my dad was completely disabled because of another. I have no patience for it. I hope that you are finding ways to connect with your fiance's energy and that it gives you strength. Feel free to share your favorite memories of him here so we can help keep his energy alive.
Hey, I'd like to suggest a reaction for your eyes, ears and mind. These outstanding visuals will for sure blow you away.
Please take your time to enjoy the perfection that is:
The Closing Ritual | Defqon.1 Weekend Festival 2022
Thank you.
There is a collaboration of this song with carrie underwood
You should have reacted to their duet with Carrie Underwood. Way more emotional!
The music video for " heavy" by LP might be a good illustration of living with a mental illness.
Me identifico contigo
I hope you see "me" looking out, I think he said. Still, not much different than "I'm". On a lighter note, this song kind of reminds me of the motel 6 commercials, lol
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You need to watch Pearl Jam Jeremy mv uncensored version it is a true story about a high schooler named Jeremy Wade Delle who killed himself in front of his teachers and fellow classmates please
You need to do the remake of this song with Carrie Underwood.
This is by far the most beautiful song I have heard. I am sure more than just me suggested you react to this. I chock up every time I hear this. Linkin Park is my favorite band of all time. When I saw Papa Roach in 2023 and I heard Jacoby dedicate this song to Chester and I could not hold back the emotion. Linkin Park, Papa Roach, and Metal music has saved my life so much over the yrs. This song sums up a huge part of my life. When I hit bottom it included jail time. If not for my family leaving that light on I know I would not be typing this today. Thank You for what you do and your emotion to this is how I feel every time I hear this song which I listen to everyday. Thank You Amanda
Think of this suicide is blocked on social media…the thing we should be talking about…but you can rap about killing people and murder all day
I need a ligth for me please god help me
We can help you shine.
Is that a tattoo of the tr-force on the back of your right hand?
Yes. :)
Nowadays there are rock songs that there are people who want to cancel and delete them because of their lyrics and treat women as sexual objects, since these are currently sensitive topics in many countries around the world! 😨
What do you think Amanda?
I hope you respond to the message and know your opinion Amanda please 🙏🏻🩷
I don't believe in censorship. I believe that things like this are an opportunity for conversation. This isn't a song, but I will use the movie Twilight as an example as I have had personal experience with it. A close friend of mind had a daughter that was the target audience for these movies. They were all the rage and she really wanted to watch them. My friend came to me concerned because of the toxic relationship that is glorified in this franchise. I suggested that she allow her daughter to watch them, but use it as a bonding opportunity afterward to talk about healthy relationships. My friend said it was an incredible experience for them as she felt like they could really connect over something. It strengthened their relationship. Because of the way she approached that, her daughter broke up with boys/men the second she saw a red flag and has never dealt with toxic relationships because she knows her worth and knows what to watch out for. She is happily engaged last I heard and was expecting her first child. Do I agree with objectifying women? I don't agree with objectifying anyone. But conversation is a more effective route than trying to suppress things that we will face in the real world eventually. It's better to know how to recognize and handle things.
@@MentalAmanda I totally agree with you on your opinion and message. The story you told me is interesting. I hope you are doing well ☺️❤️
I also really appreciate your great work and you deserve to have many successes and followers 🥰💕
This is by far the most beautiful song I have heard. I am sure I am not the to suggest this to react to. I choke up everytime I hear this. Linkin Park is my favorite band of all time. When I saw Papa Roach back in 2023 and I heard Jacoby dedicate this to Chester and I heard the song I lost it. Linkin Park, Papa Roach and Metal music has saved my life many times over the years. This song sums up a part of my life. When I hit bottom it included jail time. If not for my family and friends leaving that light on I would not be typing this today. Thank you Amanda for what you do and thank you for your reaction to this beautiful song
Amanda, thank you for sharing this! This song really destroyed me as I have not had Aidan who is my 14 year old at my house since December and his mother is not helping matters! Aidan told her that he only came outside on Father's Day is because he was already "downstairs". She said nothing to me and I found out about this from Collin who is my 10 year old 😭😭. On top of that, I have lost 4 brothers that I served with to suicide since November, so that and my attempt and those make it worse. I feel so trapped in that "deep black hole" with the "light" getting dimmer by the day! If you feel you want to listen to this song that describes my internal battle
then reply (don't have to), it's cool. Here is the song I am talking about...have tissues! Hold space for me PLEASE! ua-cam.com/video/YnCMnsPH6d0/v-deo.htmlsi=dKYrMjV_u4p7SwGS
We are here for you Tony. Please hold on, it can get better. You never know what tomorrow will bring.
@@MentalAmanda I feel grateful that I have this community to lean on! Has the same effect on me as it did you I guess is where I am at right now. Even though I have those feelings of weak and exhausted, I HAVE to fight through it because I can't leave the boys like that. You guys give me a shoulder to lean on when I feel exhausted and help ensuring that my light stays on/won't allow me to "reach" for the light much less just flipping the switch. You guys are my lighthouse and I LOVE Y'ALL! THANK YOU! I cried tears of gratitude/relief when I wrote the poem for you. I hope you have read it! I LOVE Y'ALL
@@MentalAmanda the detailed message and the poem are Instagram
As a trans frau I know the makeup problem but most importantly I know the pain. Honestly I wish I weren't here any longer but I will never kill myself. Religious reasons. At least I hope.
Thank you for sharing your feelings and your struggles. As a trans frau, I can imagine the challenges you face, both with makeup and the deeper emotional pain. I’m truly happy that you have found a reason to hold on, but I want you to know that you deserve to be here, to heal, and to find joy in your life. Not just to exist because you feel obligated to. Your life is important, and you deserve support and understanding. If you ever need to talk you can message me on IG @mentalamanda. You're not alone! I care if your light goes out!
Thank you. That means a lot to me. Having a hard hard day today.
sorry but ig refuses to let me sign up. never been on the site. they finally sent me a code to sign up but kept giving me an error. my whole life....one big error. I GIVE UP.
If IG doesn't work, my email is in the video description.