Son we are so very proud of you, two years of ups and downs, but lots of positives. You really are an inspiration to other people in the same situation, we love you so much, and the person you have become xxxx
It is hard to move. I know. Sometimes my right leg was paralyzed when I had a blood clot in it, so I took the red medicine for it and that made my leg feel better. I can move right now
I just woke up all alone in my apartment. The time was 1 am. I was lonely and feeling sort of down. Then I came across your video and was inspired by your positive attitude. Thank you.
Glad the stars aligned. As a mom, I can’t imagine ever losing my son to an accident, let alone suicide. Please, don’t ever do that… you’re here for a reason.
I appreciate your kind words! I am far from depressed these days, feel free to check out some of my more recent videos. I’m pretty much the happiest I’ve ever been ❤️
Blaming yourself is one of the biggest hurdles to get over, but you gotta remember that none of us can see the future. Even back then it probably seemed fine boarding there. The truth is that it isn't anyone's fault. These things happen sometimes and not to good or bad people specifically. These things happen to regular old people. Hang in there dude and stay positive
Thank you for sharing your story. My 18 year old daughter has a T12 complete spinal cord injury. She was shot Oct 2020. My daughter also went through a lot of depression and would say she wanted to kill herself. Now since it has been over a year she is doing a lot better.
Your daughter is in my prayers 🙏 ❤. I'm sorry to hear that your daughter 😢 got injured. Continue to keep trusting in Jesus and may God anointed healing and prayers be with your family.
I am a C7 Incomplete 8 months post injury. The new life we are given is such a hard journey. Depression definitely sets in. I feel like a burden to my folks as they had to become my full time caregivers. Many times I think everyone would be better off if I wasn't here. It's a sad reality. I was a runner and a dancer which I'm now in a chair. I have limited hand function. I'm paralyzed from the chest down. This was from domestic violence from a monster. Thank you for sharing your story. It really helps being around other SCI injured. It helps knowing so many others are going through the same myriad of emotions. Congrats to you on your journey! Stay strong! 💪❤❤❤️
Read your story. Sending you love and good wishes. Never doubt that you matter. Find little bits of joy in each day. ❤ My Dad had a spinal cord injury. I am 67 today, he is still my favorite person. 😊
I'm so sorry this has happened to you at the hands of your abuser. So much harder to accept than as a result of .an.accident or illness. I hope you get justice and find inner peace. ❤️
I am also paralyzed from the waist down. I got into PC gaming and bought a VR headset. I mostly do flight sims with the VR. It truely is an escape to being limited from activities. I totally zone out when I'm flying. You might want to look into it. The tech has come so far in advancements.
Thanks, but I’m trying hard to stay as active as possible. I fear that if I get into gaming I will be even more sedentary and my health will get worse. Currently enjoy hand cycling and swimming, but certainly see the appeal of games like that.
Im 53 now and healthy. I enjoyed your story. I almost hit delete so I wouldn’t have to contemplate watching it. I’m actually a spoiled brat that hates losing in my hobbies and business. I need an awakening so I can smile and be great full like so many people in worse shape than me. I missed the part of how you ended up in France. I always wanted to surf the French coast.
I dated a guy in a wheelchair, he also had spasticity...but he said (his injury was 20 years old) it kept his muscle tone intact, which was a good thing! GOD bless you and everyone you love. Glad you made it!
I lived with a friend who was paraplegic. We went to Craig Hospital several times and I learned so much about paralysis and complications. She is no longer here on earth; when I dream about her, she is walking. I miss her so much.
Thank you for sharing your story. I had a spinal cord virus in 2014 that put me in a wheelchair for about a year. I did recover and could walk again but it damaged my legs and nerves and I struggled with balance, lots of pain, and depression. I could for sure feel your pain. Prayers are on your way. Wishing you the best ❤
Hey there Fred. What a brave guy you are. Just watched your video and you have inspired me. I had a car crash back in May 2021. At the time of the accident i had my own business, was very successful and had a wife and kids but was going through a divorce as i was struggling with my sexuality, i was a very fit guy, 3rd dan black belt chief instructor and had it all. Then, BANG……i was T-Boned at a junction by an ambulance. Dead at the scene but they got me going again, spent 7 weeks in a coma and 4mths in hospital. I had a smashed pelvis, liver lacerations, my spleen had to be removed, 3 smashed ribs on my right side and 10 smashed ribs on my left side. I am more metal now than bone. I had a massive head injury and my right ear was ripped off and also had brain damage too. My urethra was ripped to shreds by my pelvis and i cant pee or anything else in that department and now have a catheter in my bladder through my tummy and have had 2 failed surgeries since to repair it and still no luck. I also have gone through massive stages of depression, i am in constant chronic pain, still on the morphine 7 times a day and cannot walk without my crutches or get around in my wheelchair. Tried to take my life on 2 occasions as id had enough. I have had no one to talk to about my difficulties and to see your video tonight made me smile, someone talking about their own experiences and to be so brave as to do a video. You made me smile Fred. You keep strong my friend and im going to watch your other videos. Take good care of yourself. Richard xxx
Thank you so much for sharing a tough story, my partner is 8 years post injury and still has occasional bad days but they get less as time passes. I think it’s so important to talk about these things, both to help personally and to help others who may be new to this crazy life. Much love x
I'm recovering from a bad MTB crash. I hit hard at 50 kmph, broke 4 ribs and clavicle. Breaks in my ribs were very close to my spine. I was being so reckless even though I'm smart enough to know I was taking the risks, and still did it anyway. I was morbidly obese (210kg) for years so I was practically disabled, so when I lost all the weight I got addicted to riding, it was like a second chance at life, and even have won bike races now. The problem was I got so obsessed with riding that it was negatively affecting my life, but I wouldn't stop. Only now after the accident has it made me stop. I'm so grateful that my injuries are only temporary, stories like your help make me realize that I just got slightly luckier than you. Glad you didn't kill youself, as I'm sure you are too. Goodluck
Hi Mate,Dont give up hope ,keep strong and positive. In 2006 I had a motor cycle accident resulting in an incomplete,fractured dislocation L3,L4. Mended with Titanium and bone grafts from my hip. Was told I would never walk again.After 2 years wheel chair bound I slowly started getting feeling back to my limbs and twitching in my toes. Legs and Glutes had wasted away..I resonate so much with your experience.After many years and a lot of determination i can walk pretty well now in my opinion.(18 years) Cant run or jump ,by no means a race horse but so grateful for having my mobility.After 6 weeks ICU I stopped all my pain killers and regarded my pain as a discomfort and not the agony suffered..Importantly I mourned the loss of my former self physically ,but never allowed depression to control my emotions. Only saw your video today and believe I was meant to in order to give you hope.. Put your Faith in God our Source..Love and Light Peter.
You spoke so many truths! I got diagnosed about 3 years ago. It is so very hard!! I used to be so independent, ran my own boutique, basically did whatever I wanted... now, that has all changed. Acceptance is so very hard, and yep, there are days when I am like "fuck it, I don't want to live like this" and other days I can see the light. I wish you well... life is certainly full of surprises! I am much older than you, and that does make it a bit easier to handle, but still not much fun!
Hi! I’ve never been in an accident as bad as yours but once I fell snowboarding in the Alps and they had to helicopter me to the hospital. I was pretty out of it but one of the more lucid thoughts I remember having was mourning my sweater cause they had to cut it off. So definitely relatable! All the best to you!
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy Sounds good 👍 If you would, I’ve got a UA-cam channel too. In the beginning I’ve got stuff about my stroke. Just if you would though. 😊
Huge respect .. must have taken a lot of guts to do this but you may have given some people hope and also opened a lot of peoples eyes to disability ... live life to the full because you never know what is around the corner x
Thank you for being so open, vulnerable and candid about your experience and journey. You are very eloquent and it is so true what you say about the other aspects of paraplegia that are esoteric. It sounds like you have come a long way.
I have indeed come a long way since this was filmed and there are many updated videos on my journey to the man I am today, UA-cam just seems to like promoting this particular one to a lot of people. I appreciate your comment, thank you ❤
Thank you for your video. I have a friend that is now a paraplegic because of a home invasion and she was shot three times in the back. One of the bullets hit T7 so she is paralyzed from her sternum down. She is now in a rehab hospital.
I'm so so lucky ( I'm 73) . Trialing a new horse and I had ridden him for 5 day's he was strong but nothing I could not handle, my coach arrived and I took him into my work yard and was relaxed and just chatting when he spooked no darned unexpected. I broke 5 bones in my back and a lot of hardware in my left shoulder and arm. I had hit my head too, but wearing a helmet, YES otherwise my head would have had a crunch too. And yes they cut a exspensive riding top off!!! I had Ketamin, it makes you lose any memories, well I did. Still recovering still. Please do not lose heart, I have freinds in wheelchair and they ride still. Yup they still ride. Me I'm waiting till I'm healed. Good luck on your journey.
Thank you for sharing Fred.... keep living your best life! A friend of mines son had a similar accident in dec and he’s still very early in his injury recovery. I’m going to show him this video so he can be inspired like I was.
I always feel a little insecure when I feel sorry for myself seeing someone in your predicament. In October 2020 I had a severe allergic reaction to an antibiotic and nearly died from it. Hospitalized a bunch of times. 8 surgeries (recovering from the 8th now.) The drug dissolved the connective tissue in my body. I've had some improvements and when I'm not recovering from a surgery I can walk a mile or two in a day. I even had a short while in April 2022 where I was nearly pain free and recovered before getting injured again. Maybe one day that'll come. In the mean time I need to cultivate a positive attitude like yours. Stay strong. Love from Florida
You have every right to feel sorry for yourself, don’t give yourself a hard time over it. Your situation sounds very difficult, especially with your surgeries and pain. But if my positive attitude can inspire you to cultivate your own then that’s great. There is always something to be grateful for ❤️
I was injured Christmas Day 2016 in a car wreck. I experienced many of the same feelings except I was in denial for a few months. Just completely numb. I didn't cry, nothing. Pure shock. I think sometimes our secondary complications our far worse than being paralyzed. Prayers to you and your family. C6-7 incomplete
I totally understand and honor your story. I was enjoying my favorite activity, cycling, when I became a quad. Keep your spirits high and you’ll make it.
Hey mate! Thanks so much for giving such an honest account of what happened and how you’re getting on. And I’m so glad you’re still with us. The world is a better place with you in it! Best wishes to you my man ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story..what a whirlwind of changes, experiences, emotions you went through. I'm so happy that you had someone like Lou there for you to help you through the toughest times. You're a inspiration to others in showing that no matter how hard things can get you can make it through and take each opportunity to live your life and move forward..however that may look..just keep fighting and move forward. I hope and wish a wonderful future for your wife and you.
Sorry Fred, it took me until today to watch this whole video. I should introduce myself - I am James Smith, I live in Winnipeg Canada, and I’ve been following your friend Brit for 3 or 4 years and I’ve watched all your joint Wheel Talk podcasts. For reference, I am the bloke who said I might miss your next podcast, as it is the day before my birthday. I too am very glad you survived your accident. Thank you for being so honest of how you felt after your fall; I always wondered how Brit felt after her accident, and her time in Rehab. Yes, no A-B, myself included, knows that paraplegia includes so much more than loss of use of one’s legs.
We still remain great friends, but we moved on in different directions. She now has a baby with a new man, she lives in wales and is very happy. I have a new girlfriend and I’m also very content indeed.
You both are, just in different configurations! You are one special guy, so much humor and charm in the midst of adversity, I am so glad you are out there, I try to emulate your generosity of spirit.
The thing that worried me the most about being paralyzed is that there is no one to take care of me. I struggled taking care of myself as an able body person. You seem like a very determined and positive person I'm sure you can overcome anything.
I had exactly the same x ray, almost could be mine. I had a burst fracture of T7 and stabilized above and below. For me, it was close but I guess I was lucky that spinal damage wasn’t the case for me. Even so I listen to your account and I recognize what you say and how those first few days of opiate haze cloud what really is the situation. It’s inspiring to hear how you have dealt with this. Strong!
Hello sweetheart, I’m so sorry you have gone through all this. You have a great outlook on life, even though you’ve had some low lows. Keep pushing on my friend. Your beautiful smile is needed in this world. Hugs from Australia.
Thanks so much, however, I live a great life these days and have many more videos documenting how good it can be, even after suffering a SCI UA-cam seems to like recommending this video to people, but if you care to check out more recent ones, I'm actually thriving.
Freddo thank you so much for sharing your story I know how much bravery that would of taken especially going through the grieving process which ultimately becomes character building. So awesome to see you grabbing life with both hands. These videos help so many people that you’ll never see or know but will help them in so many ways. God bless Freddo and your lovely as you both continue your wonderful life together. Take care 🙏🤗♿️
Fred thanks for sharing your story. I totally get your situation , I'm so glad you're receiving good healthcare which is so important and good support from your family. I wish you well and pray that you can deal with each day !
God bless mate from New York. Thanks for sharing your story with us on this journey.I have had nerve injuries in both arms and neck that has caused me to have 14 surgeries two of them were neck surgery,but here we are still fighting the fight . Your bless to have the strength and wife that you have god bless.
You seem like a good man. You may not be able to use your legs, but Im sure life will give you the opportunity to shine in a different way. God bless you buddy.
Thanks for sharing your story so honestly. I enjoyed you recent videos on insta. It is fun watching Luna in the background, and realising we are wearing the same hoody today (tbh, I live in it!) You have had quite a journey. The circumstances last year certainly have not helped. Love you positivity and give you a virtual hug. All the best wishes for you and your family, wherever it may take you.
I appreciate your effort... You're making the best of it... A great inspiration... I'm glad to hear you're doing well... You're a very strong man... And you have a nice Dog... Have a great future
I feell so sorry for you, but please try to look at the greater picture: our journey in this physical world is just a school and is not more real than a stage play. We are not our bodies: I don't mean that we are not only our bodies, I mean that our bodies are just a temporary and fictitious vehicle we inhabit (or character we play, if you prefer) in order to make experience, learn and develop as souls. You took a hard course in order to develop faster than others, and you will benefit of this developement after dismissing earthly life. We learn by doing and by experiencing, and at the same time we teach the other souls (people) we interact with. You are teaching a great deal of lessons to a huge number of people my friend! I'm sure about it! Thank you for that and for not giving up! Take care!
Life long skier and instructor here. A word to the wise, never ever duck under a rope. Ski patrol know what they are doing, if there’s a rope leave it go somewhere else.
Not too bad actually, a small repair was needed and I sold it to a friend. One of the ski patrol that saved me, bought another snowboard from me after that, I didn't recognise him, but he told me he was there. I said he could have it, as I owed him my life, but he insisted on paying full asking price.
@ Amazing you survived getting down the mountain! Super nice they bought your boards. My cousin was ski patrol setting high snow tracks - she died in a very small avalanche over a cliff, in Dec 2012.
I deliberately dont do these kind if sports for this exact reason... The fear of broken bones or worse..... However, those that do it, are fearless and probably live a life far more on the edge than i ever could. I have nothing but pure respect for your courage before and after the accident 💪
A good honest video Fred. One thing that I'd like to know is how a newly disabled person is funded in France. For example, in the UK some people have employment insurance policies but many have to rely on social security which doesn't pay that much. How does it work in France?
Same almost happened to me at Steamboat. 1st run I told my friend to NOT take me to that type of area...of course he did. He warned me with about 10 feet to go to zig and not zag. Good thing. It was all white also and there was a camel hump in front of me. If I went over it with any momentum, or if it collapsed under my weight, it was a long, rocky way down.
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy Thanks man. It was close. Another time, at Vail I had a friend scout a jump. He waived me on. I hit it fast- it was massive. I was expecting the typical hump- 5-10 feet jump. It was about 40 feet. I got very lucky and landed it. Also at Vail, first visit, I miss judged China Bowl and tucked the bottom section. I still had about 100 yards to the bottom but it was white out so I didn't know. I picked up speed to about 70mph...then I saw moguls. I jumped the first one and landed it. Tried to jump the 2nd set and crashed spectacularly. How I didn't break many bones, I have no idea...and at least one ski stayed on which easily could have ripped my knee apart. Looking back I was very lucky. Look into clinical trials dot gov. They are doing some great work getting people walking again- recent progress in that area. Nice guitar- I assume you play? I do too. Make some vids.
@@MOAB-UT Thanks man, yeah I've had some close calls in very similar situations. As for the guitar, if you search Freddo Smith Music, you'll find a hidden channel with some original songs on it, beware, some of them are pretty cringy! haha - enjoy
I found this video to be incredibly compelling it drew me in completely and although it was devastating to hear what happened to you it was very inspiring and uplifting as well and funny very funny in parts especially the crazy neighbor complaining about your ramp💔😥, you are such a cool guy and it's such a crazy thing how these things can happen to the coolest people that's what I kept thinking when I was watching this I'm following a number of other people on UA-cam who are paralyzed and the incredible unexpected ways that it can happen through no fault of anyone's own. Anyway I hope you don't find this to be rude but you're still extremely hot 🔥 haha hope your wife doesn't get mad at that one,! I'm not sure how old this post is but please keep posting! Thank you so much for the presentation of this incredible devastating but at the same time very sobering and uplifting life experience and journey you're on, maybe you should write a few little scripts and propose it as a series to Netflix with the same name as your UA-cam channel I am certain it would be a hit and you would get very rich! Not that money would matter much to someone like you because you seem very deep and super down to earth anyway now I'm the one who's rambling...👌💕🌹
This life is but a vapor. Don’t give up. You will have good days and bad, but endure. You can overcome. Sometimes you will feel angry, go into the blame game, grief, but your times are in God’s hands and depend on him with everything you have. He’s not put out because you need him. He wants you to talk to him, just like you’d talk to a friend. The Holy Spirit will help you and give you ideas to adjust. Wisdom is better than strength. God still cares for you and he will never leave. Trust him. Forgive.
Thank God you are alive and your life is worth fighting for. With God all things are possible through Christ Who strengthen thee 🙏. So sorry about your injury ❤ 🙏. Life is precious despite your disability challenges.
Hi there, the positive side is that you're not quadriplegic, and you live in civilized country. So you can still enjoy your life, and one day you might even get your spinal cord fixed. Where I came from it would be a million times worse.
There is a guy called Brian on youtube who's paralyzed. He's married with a baby and very happy. Tyfs the name of his page on youtube is called paralyzed living
9:10 same story for me! Just bought new $$ full length zippered mountaineering pants and the rescue medics cut them to shreds - rather than unzip! 😭 🤷♂️ oh well, they saved my life still 😁
Freddo brother, hope you read my comment some day. I had a motorcycle accident in which i broke a vertebrae of my spine and a couple secondary injuries along with that but not even nearly as bad as yours. I am not paralyzed i was very close to be but i wanted to tell you that all those things lining up to you that day in your favor to survive such a horrific accident was GOD! I dont know if you are atheist or religious but God is real Freddo and he saved you cause he loved you so much!
I don't think what your girlfriend went trough is more traumatizing. But the fact that you think that just proves how much of a saint you are. Also it shows that you are a sensitive person and an angel that you still cared what a neighbor had to say after such a horrific accident. Too bad you decided to keep this video short because I could listen to you all day.
Thanks, that’s kind. There are plenty more videos on my channel if you enjoy listening to me talk. I’ve documented my whole journey. I dare you to go down the rabbit hole
It’s crazy that you had to find out about all of the other aspects of your injury and care from Google. Although there are really helpful and informative people like yourself on UA-cam, it sure seems like your medical team should have been more forthcoming.
Indeed, but it was not a proper spinal unit, and they didn't have the specialist knowledge. I am so grateful to UA-cam and the people who posted stuff that helped, and now the feedback loop is complete, and I am doing the same for others ❤
Hi Freddo, It sounds like you were about my age when I got injured back in 2001. I was 38 years old in February of 2001, the month and year of my injury. I remember that year well because I watched 9/11 unfold from my bed, still recovering from my wreck. Let me know if I was close on the age thing. I just made 60 a couple of months ago. 👍
I was 36, so very close. I’m grateful I had 36 years of able bodied fun, even tho I am happier now. Sometimes through struggle we find strength and growth ❤️✌️
Skiing, backflips, diving, bmx .. WHY? Why you people are doing such activities, where one split second can ruin your life forever. WHY? My only question is WHY? I dont feel like I am part of human race… ever since I was a young boy, atm I am 34, I have never done any of the things above, why take risk with your body, my main question is why you all take your body, spine, movement etc for granted? I feel that you people will do anything for gratification, to be center of attention or for some cheap few seconds thrills..😢😢
For me it was about living in the moment, exploring all the glorious opportunities life has to offer, the feeling of exhilaration and adrenaline. Some people get paralysed from car accidents and some people get struck down from things that happen in their sleep. I still don’t live a sheltered life, living IS risky, but getting to the end of life and looking back on all the things you could have done with a healthy, flexible body is not a regret I will die with.
I appreciate your response. Shelterd life, thats a perfect description how my life is. I am 34, 6‘4, fairly good looking but never had a gf, never was part of some group of friends, after Highschool my social life ended due to overthinking, possible some other disorders but mostly no confidence etc…on the way I developed sports betting addiction, I am currently in debt, basically everything I do in my my life is work , going home, betting or watching youtube.. thats literally my life.. I sometimes think my gambling addiction is my outlet to experience adrenaline etc that you guys experience doing these kind of outdoor experiences etc.. its killing me inside.. I am fascinated with SCI, I want to know all the disturbing details of accidents, realisation that this is now new reality etc.. its disturbing but this is perhaps my way to cope with my life ie lack of life.. I feel like a observer of life, while other people are living it.. I am in such a dark place, sometimes I have these dark thoughts that I feel like if sci happens to people that are naturally extroverted, have gf, sex, etc etc all the normal stuff that I was deprived off in my 20s… i feel some morbid satisfaction like that thing balance itself out… its horrible I know, but that is just how it is.. I dont know, I feel like I need some wake up call, its as if watching your experiences etc will somehow wake me up to let go, to finally start to live my life.. there is a nice girl at my work but I am too scared to ask her out due to no experience etc, so again shelter mentality… I hate myself for it and I wish I can let go all these overthinking etc… I am complete mess.. at the end I want to say that deep down I feel extremely sorry for you guys, I pray and hope that cure will show up.. but the cure that will ABSOLUTE reverse sci.. i wish you peace and I wish it for myself.. sry for long comment….
I’ve been snowboarding, racing motorbikes & MTB for the past 35 years. To understand why people do certain sports you have to experience it for yourself. The adrenaline rush and feeling is amazing. You can play it safe all your life but taking a few risks makes you feel alive. You don’t need to be an adrenaline junkie.
Son we are so very proud of you, two years of ups and downs, but lots of positives. You really are an inspiration to other people in the same situation, we love you so much, and the person you have become xxxx
Cheers Mum, really appreciate all your love and support, not just in the last two years, but since forever! ❤️
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuyI need to talk with you very badly
It is hard to move. I know. Sometimes my right leg was paralyzed when I had a blood clot in it, so I took the red medicine for it and that made my leg feel better. I can move right now
Your son is a very special person
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I just woke up all alone in my apartment. The time was 1 am. I was lonely and feeling sort of down. Then I came across your video and was inspired by your positive attitude. Thank you.
You’re welcome, I’m glad it helped
No way; protect your body 110% the best strategy BJRICH&HAPPY
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Most people don’t realise the complications of paraplegia. It’s great that you can explain this to us. I’m sure it will help many people
Glad the stars aligned. As a mom, I can’t imagine ever losing my son to an accident, let alone suicide. Please, don’t ever do that… you’re here for a reason.
I appreciate your kind words! I am far from depressed these days, feel free to check out some of my more recent videos. I’m pretty much the happiest I’ve ever been ❤️
I agree 100%……….this story moved me, I can’t begin to imagine what you have survived…..in so many ways ❤
I’m away to watch more x
Blaming yourself is one of the biggest hurdles to get over, but you gotta remember that none of us can see the future. Even back then it probably seemed fine boarding there. The truth is that it isn't anyone's fault. These things happen sometimes and not to good or bad people specifically. These things happen to regular old people. Hang in there dude and stay positive
Sweet couch doggie!!!🥰
Thank you for sharing your story. My 18 year old daughter has a T12 complete spinal cord injury. She was shot Oct 2020. My daughter also went through a lot of depression and would say she wanted to kill herself. Now since it has been over a year she is doing a lot better.
Keep fighting! How was the shooting? Not something that happens in Europe
Your daughter is in my prayers 🙏 ❤. I'm sorry to hear that your daughter 😢 got injured. Continue to keep trusting in Jesus and may God anointed healing and prayers be with your family.
I am a C7 Incomplete 8 months post injury. The new life we are given is such a hard journey. Depression definitely sets in. I feel like a burden to my folks as they had to become my full time caregivers. Many times I think everyone would be better off if I wasn't here. It's a sad reality. I was a runner and a dancer which I'm now in a chair. I have limited hand function. I'm paralyzed from the chest down. This was from domestic violence from a monster. Thank you for sharing your story. It really helps being around other SCI injured. It helps knowing so many others are going through the same myriad of emotions. Congrats to you on your journey! Stay strong! 💪❤❤❤️
Read your story. Sending you love and good wishes. Never doubt that you matter. Find little bits of joy in each day. ❤ My Dad had a spinal cord injury. I am 67 today, he is still my favorite person. 😊
I'm so sorry this has happened to you at the hands of your abuser. So much harder to accept than as a result of .an.accident or illness. I hope you get justice and find inner peace. ❤️
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I am also paralyzed from the waist down. I got into PC gaming and bought a VR headset. I mostly do flight sims with the VR. It truely is an escape to being limited from activities. I totally zone out when I'm flying. You might want to look into it. The tech has come so far in advancements.
Thanks, but I’m trying hard to stay as active as possible. I fear that if I get into gaming I will be even more sedentary and my health will get worse.
Currently enjoy hand cycling and swimming, but certainly see the appeal of games like that.
Im 53 now and healthy. I enjoyed your story. I almost hit delete so I wouldn’t have to contemplate watching it. I’m actually a spoiled brat that hates losing in my hobbies and business. I need an awakening so I can smile and be great full like so many people in worse shape than me. I missed the part of how you ended up in France. I always wanted to surf the French coast.
I dated a guy in a wheelchair, he also had spasticity...but he said (his injury was 20 years old) it kept his muscle tone intact, which was a good thing! GOD bless you and everyone you love. Glad you made it!
You date a guy in a wheelchair that means you have a heart of gold
@@LoveYourself.....Gold digger maybe. No girl is gonna date a poor in a wheelchair. This isnt the movies
@@LoveYourself.....that’s why she told you lol
@@LoveYourself.....and then she dumped him
I lived with a friend who was paraplegic. We went to Craig Hospital several times and I learned so much about paralysis and complications. She is no longer here on earth; when I dream about her, she is walking. I miss her so much.
You speak so well, amongst the pain for you, you were enjoyable to listen to!
Thank you for sharing your story. I had a spinal cord virus in 2014 that put me in a wheelchair for about a year. I did recover and could walk again but it damaged my legs and nerves and I struggled with balance, lots of pain, and depression. I could for sure feel your pain. Prayers are on your way. Wishing you the best ❤
That’s so kind, thank you ❤️ I’m glad you managed to “recover”
These days life is great and I’m very happy.
Hey there Fred. What a brave guy you are. Just watched your video and you have inspired me. I had a car crash back in May 2021. At the time of the accident i had my own business, was very successful and had a wife and kids but was going through a divorce as i was struggling with my sexuality, i was a very fit guy, 3rd dan black belt chief instructor and had it all. Then, BANG……i was T-Boned at a junction by an ambulance. Dead at the scene but they got me going again, spent 7 weeks in a coma and 4mths in hospital. I had a smashed pelvis, liver lacerations, my spleen had to be removed, 3 smashed ribs on my right side and 10 smashed ribs on my left side. I am more metal now than bone. I had a massive head injury and my right ear was ripped off and also had brain damage too. My urethra was ripped to shreds by my pelvis and i cant pee or anything else in that department and now have a catheter in my bladder through my tummy and have had 2 failed surgeries since to repair it and still no luck. I also have gone through massive stages of depression, i am in constant chronic pain, still on the morphine 7 times a day and cannot walk without my crutches or get around in my wheelchair. Tried to take my life on 2 occasions as id had enough. I have had no one to talk to about my difficulties and to see your video tonight made me smile, someone talking about their own experiences and to be so brave as to do a video. You made me smile Fred. You keep strong my friend and im going to watch your other videos. Take good care of yourself. Richard xxx
Wow man I’m sorry you had to go through that. Sounds tough.
I’m glad you enjoyed the video and it gave you a smile.
Stay strong brother
Thank you so much for sharing a tough story, my partner is 8 years post injury and still has occasional bad days but they get less as time passes. I think it’s so important to talk about these things, both to help personally and to help others who may be new to this crazy life. Much love x
I'm recovering from a bad MTB crash. I hit hard at 50 kmph, broke 4 ribs and clavicle. Breaks in my ribs were very close to my spine. I was being so reckless even though I'm smart enough to know I was taking the risks, and still did it anyway. I was morbidly obese (210kg) for years so I was practically disabled, so when I lost all the weight I got addicted to riding, it was like a second chance at life, and even have won bike races now. The problem was I got so obsessed with riding that it was negatively affecting my life, but I wouldn't stop. Only now after the accident has it made me stop. I'm so grateful that my injuries are only temporary, stories like your help make me realize that I just got slightly luckier than you. Glad you didn't kill youself, as I'm sure you are too. Goodluck
Thanks, i'm glad my story found you if it gives you perspective, happy healing 😊
Hi Mate,Dont give up hope ,keep strong and positive. In 2006 I had a motor cycle accident resulting in an incomplete,fractured dislocation L3,L4. Mended with Titanium and bone grafts from my hip.
Was told I would never walk again.After 2 years wheel chair bound
I slowly started getting feeling back to my limbs and twitching in my toes. Legs and Glutes had wasted away..I resonate so much with your experience.After many years and a lot of determination i can walk pretty well now in my opinion.(18 years) Cant run or jump ,by no means a race horse but so grateful for having my mobility.After 6 weeks ICU I stopped all my pain killers and regarded my pain as a discomfort and not the agony suffered..Importantly I mourned the loss of my former self physically ,but never allowed depression to control my emotions. Only saw your video today and believe I was meant to in order to give you hope..
Put your Faith in God our Source..Love and Light Peter.
You spoke so many truths! I got diagnosed about 3 years ago. It is so very hard!! I used to be so independent, ran my own boutique, basically did whatever I wanted... now, that has all changed. Acceptance is so very hard, and yep, there are days when I am like "fuck it, I don't want to live like this" and other days I can see the light. I wish you well... life is certainly full of surprises! I am much older than you, and that does make it a bit easier to handle, but still not much fun!
Hi! I’ve never been in an accident as bad as yours but once I fell snowboarding in the Alps and they had to helicopter me to the hospital. I was pretty out of it but one of the more lucid thoughts I remember having was mourning my sweater cause they had to cut it off. So definitely relatable! All the best to you!
Thanks for sharing your story… Glad to hear you seem well surrounded and find meaning in life despite that brutal change of physical state. ❤
I have read a few responses from your parents. You are blessed to be so loved and supported.
I can’t imagine going through that. I respect your optimism. You’re an amazing strong human being, thank you for this video!
great video bro!! ya brought me back to my injury and how that felt..I agree with lord...always keep ya head bro..
You seem like a very nice person Fred ! Stay strong !
I have to say, being in a wheelchair myself, you have a great attitude. 😊
Thanks 😊 that’s such a kind compliment. I’ve come a long way since this video, feel free to check out my other vids. I hope they resonate with you ❤️
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy Sounds good 👍 If you would, I’ve got a UA-cam channel too. In the beginning I’ve got stuff about my stroke. Just if you would though. 😊
Huge respect .. must have taken a lot of guts to do this but you may have given some people hope and also opened a lot of peoples eyes to disability ... live life to the full because you never know what is around the corner x
Thanks for sharing this, your resilience is remarkable...your honesty is way more than the travel videos I'm looking for.
Thanks 😊
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuyI need to contact with you very badly
Thank you for being so open, vulnerable and candid about your experience and journey. You are very eloquent and it is so true what you say about the other aspects of paraplegia that are esoteric. It sounds like you have come a long way.
I have indeed come a long way since this was filmed and there are many updated videos on my journey to the man I am today, UA-cam just seems to like promoting this particular one to a lot of people. I appreciate your comment, thank you ❤
Thank you for your video. I have a friend that is now a paraplegic because of a home invasion and she was shot three times in the back. One of the bullets hit T7 so she is paralyzed from her sternum down. She is now in a rehab hospital.
I'm so so lucky ( I'm 73) . Trialing a new horse and I had ridden him for 5 day's he was strong but nothing I could not handle, my coach arrived and I took him into my work yard and was relaxed and just chatting when he spooked no darned unexpected. I broke 5 bones in my back and a lot of hardware in my left shoulder and arm.
I had hit my head too, but wearing a helmet, YES otherwise my head would have had a crunch too. And yes they cut a exspensive riding top off!!!
I had Ketamin, it makes you lose any memories, well I did.
Still recovering still.
Please do not lose heart, I have freinds in wheelchair and they ride still. Yup they still ride. Me I'm waiting till I'm healed.
Good luck on your journey.
Thank you for sharing Fred.... keep living your best life! A friend of mines son had a similar accident in dec and he’s still very early in his injury recovery. I’m going to show him this video so he can be inspired like I was.
Amazing, so happy it has had an impact on you. Thanks for sharing 😁
Brutal. I am in awe how you survived mentally.
I am so glad you are alive. I hope you are and continue to be healthy and happy. ❤️
I’m all gravy baby thanks for asking 😎✌️
I always feel a little insecure when I feel sorry for myself seeing someone in your predicament. In October 2020 I had a severe allergic reaction to an antibiotic and nearly died from it. Hospitalized a bunch of times. 8 surgeries (recovering from the 8th now.) The drug dissolved the connective tissue in my body. I've had some improvements and when I'm not recovering from a surgery I can walk a mile or two in a day. I even had a short while in April 2022 where I was nearly pain free and recovered before getting injured again. Maybe one day that'll come. In the mean time I need to cultivate a positive attitude like yours. Stay strong. Love from Florida
You have every right to feel sorry for yourself, don’t give yourself a hard time over it. Your situation sounds very difficult, especially with your surgeries and pain.
But if my positive attitude can inspire you to cultivate your own then that’s great.
There is always something to be grateful for ❤️
I was injured Christmas Day 2016 in a car wreck. I experienced many of the same feelings except I was in denial for a few months. Just completely numb. I didn't cry, nothing. Pure shock. I think sometimes our secondary complications our far worse than being paralyzed. Prayers to you and your family. C6-7 incomplete
Indeed, I agree the secondary complications can be very challenging. I hope you live a happy life these days, even with your injury.
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I totally understand and honor your story. I was enjoying my favorite activity, cycling, when I became a quad. Keep your spirits high and you’ll make it.
I appreciate your comment, my accident was over 5 years ago and I’m going great thanks
Hey mate! Thanks so much for giving such an honest account of what happened and how you’re getting on. And I’m so glad you’re still with us. The world is a better place with you in it! Best wishes to you my man ❤️
Cheers Lav!
Thank you for sharing your story..what a whirlwind of changes, experiences, emotions you went through. I'm so happy that you had someone like Lou there for you to help you through the toughest times. You're a inspiration to others in showing that no matter how hard things can get you can make it through and take each opportunity to live your life and move forward..however that may look..just keep fighting and move forward. I hope and wish a wonderful future for your wife and you.
That's so kind, thank you ❤️✌️
Very emotional account Freddo, humbled to hear it
Cheers Gus - happy to share it 😊
All the best! You seem like a wonderful person! Thanks for sharing your experiences and lessons. You are helping people!!!!!!
Sorry Fred, it took me until today to watch this whole video. I should introduce myself - I am James Smith, I live in Winnipeg Canada, and I’ve been following your friend Brit for 3 or 4 years and I’ve watched all your joint Wheel Talk podcasts. For reference, I am the bloke who said I might miss your next podcast, as it is the day before my birthday. I too am very glad you survived your accident. Thank you for being so honest of how you felt after your fall; I always wondered how Brit felt after her accident, and her time in Rehab. Yes, no A-B, myself included, knows that paraplegia includes so much more than loss of use of one’s legs.
Have you ever considered a Medtronic intrathecal baclofen pump. I have one and it has helped my spasms so much and the nerve pain as well
thanks for sharing your story
The story of how you proposed is so lovely- I just found it and am hoping you are both living happily ever after!
We still remain great friends, but we moved on in different directions. She now has a baby with a new man, she lives in wales and is very happy. I have a new girlfriend and I’m also very content indeed.
You both are, just in different configurations! You are one special guy, so much humor and charm in the midst of adversity, I am so glad you are out there, I try to emulate your generosity of spirit.
The thing that worried me the most about being paralyzed is that there is no one to take care of me. I struggled taking care of myself as an able body person. You seem like a very determined and positive person I'm sure you can overcome anything.
Struggle makes you stronger 💪
I’m sure you’re stronger than you think you are.
I had exactly the same x ray, almost could be mine. I had a burst fracture of T7 and stabilized above and below. For me, it was close but I guess I was lucky that spinal damage wasn’t the case for me. Even so I listen to your account and I recognize what you say and how those first few days of opiate haze cloud what really is the situation. It’s inspiring to hear how you have dealt with this. Strong!
Cheers James, it seems so long ago now - I have such a full life these days, I have no regrets. Glad to hear your spine wasn’t damaged 😊
Inspirational to listen to you, wish you all the best from the uk.
Hello sweetheart, I’m so sorry you have gone through all this. You have a great outlook on life, even though you’ve had some low lows. Keep pushing on my friend. Your beautiful smile is needed in this world. Hugs from Australia.
Thanks so much, however, I live a great life these days and have many more videos documenting how good it can be, even after suffering a SCI
UA-cam seems to like recommending this video to people, but if you care to check out more recent ones, I'm actually thriving.
Freddo thank you so much for sharing your story I know how much bravery that would of taken especially going through the grieving process which ultimately becomes character building. So awesome to see you grabbing life with both hands. These videos help so many people that you’ll never see or know but will help them in so many ways. God bless Freddo and your lovely as you both continue your wonderful life together. Take care 🙏🤗♿️
Stay positive. You still have lots to give
hi fred thank you for your story
Would love to see you do more vlogs , your such an inspiring man , such a warming personality, i wish you well sending love from South Wales xxx
Fred thanks for sharing your story. I totally get your situation , I'm so glad you're receiving good healthcare which is so important and good support from your family. I wish you well and pray that you can deal with each day !
Many thanks, I’m actually thriving now. Life is glorious and I’m happier than ever. ❤️
I'm happy to hear that !@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy
God bless mate from New York. Thanks for sharing your story with us on this journey.I have had nerve injuries in both arms and neck that has caused me to have 14 surgeries two of them were neck surgery,but here we are still fighting the fight . Your bless to have the strength and wife that you have god bless.
Thank you for sharing your story
Strong story! 🙏🏼
I am amazed how happy you seem,I have been so sad ,and I have nt got have the things going on with u
I get sad sometimes too. I hope you feel better soon
You seem like a good man. You may not be able to use your legs, but Im sure life will give you the opportunity to shine in a different way. God bless you buddy.
Thanks for sharing your story so honestly. I enjoyed you recent videos on insta.
It is fun watching Luna in the background, and realising we are wearing the same hoody today (tbh, I live in it!)
You have had quite a journey. The circumstances last year certainly have not helped. Love you positivity and give you a virtual hug.
All the best wishes for you and your family, wherever it may take you.
Thanks Silke, really appreciate all your support 😊
Youre just great and cheefs for the candid share x
I appreciate your effort...
You're making the best of it...
A great inspiration...
I'm glad to hear you're doing well...
You're a very strong man...
And you have a nice Dog...
Have a great future
I'm so aorry Fred, you are so positive, all the luck in the world. 💕🐾🍀
I feell so sorry for you, but please try to look at the greater picture: our journey in this physical world is just a school and is not more real than a stage play. We are not our bodies: I don't mean that we are not only our bodies, I mean that our bodies are just a temporary and fictitious vehicle we inhabit (or character we play, if you prefer) in order to make experience, learn and develop as souls. You took a hard course in order to develop faster than others, and you will benefit of this developement after dismissing earthly life. We learn by doing and by experiencing, and at the same time we teach the other souls (people) we interact with. You are teaching a great deal of lessons to a huge number of people my friend! I'm sure about it! Thank you for that and for not giving up! Take care!
Life long skier and instructor here. A word to the wise, never ever duck under a rope. Ski patrol know what they are doing, if there’s a rope leave it go somewhere else.
Wow thanks Captain Hindsight
No shit Captain Obvious.
Amazing that your friend could get to you and call ski patrol. What did your snow board look like after the fall?
Not too bad actually, a small repair was needed and I sold it to a friend.
One of the ski patrol that saved me, bought another snowboard from me after that, I didn't recognise him, but he told me he was there. I said he could have it, as I owed him my life, but he insisted on paying full asking price.
@ Amazing you survived getting down the mountain! Super nice they bought your boards. My cousin was ski patrol setting high snow tracks - she died in a very small avalanche over a cliff, in Dec 2012.
Peace!!!
You are so positive. Keep 😊
Please do not look back with regret, you tried ur best, but accident happens.
Please take a look at some more recent videos, I am not looking back with regret at all, in fact I am thriving since the accident.
We love you brother
how u make a loggy ?
I deliberately dont do these kind if sports for this exact reason... The fear of broken bones or worse..... However, those that do it, are fearless and probably live a life far more on the edge than i ever could.
I have nothing but pure respect for your courage before and after the accident 💪
A good honest video Fred. One thing that I'd like to know is how a newly disabled person is funded in France. For example, in the UK some people have employment insurance policies but many have to rely on social security which doesn't pay that much. How does it work in France?
Let’s just say it works a lot better over here Pete 😉
I’m well looked after, the healthcare here is amazing
Raysist snow. Jumping off a 50 feet cliff, what could go wrong 😮
Same almost happened to me at Steamboat. 1st run I told my friend to NOT take me to that type of area...of course he did. He warned me with about 10 feet to go to zig and not zag. Good thing. It was all white also and there was a camel hump in front of me. If I went over it with any momentum, or if it collapsed under my weight, it was a long, rocky way down.
Scary stuff! Glad you avoided the fall
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy Thanks man. It was close. Another time, at Vail I had a friend scout a jump. He waived me on. I hit it fast- it was massive. I was expecting the typical hump- 5-10 feet jump. It was about 40 feet. I got very lucky and landed it. Also at Vail, first visit, I miss judged China Bowl and tucked the bottom section. I still had about 100 yards to the bottom but it was white out so I didn't know. I picked up speed to about 70mph...then I saw moguls. I jumped the first one and landed it. Tried to jump the 2nd set and crashed spectacularly. How I didn't break many bones, I have no idea...and at least one ski stayed on which easily could have ripped my knee apart. Looking back I was very lucky.
Look into clinical trials dot gov. They are doing some great work getting people walking again- recent progress in that area.
Nice guitar- I assume you play? I do too. Make some vids.
@@MOAB-UT Thanks man, yeah I've had some close calls in very similar situations. As for the guitar, if you search Freddo Smith Music, you'll find a hidden channel with some original songs on it, beware, some of them are pretty cringy! haha - enjoy
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy Thanks. Not bad- all music is good music.
God bless
I found this video to be incredibly compelling it drew me in completely and although it was devastating to hear what happened to you it was very inspiring and uplifting as well and funny very funny in parts especially the crazy neighbor complaining about your ramp💔😥, you are such a cool guy and it's such a crazy thing how these things can happen to the coolest people that's what I kept thinking when I was watching this I'm following a number of other people on UA-cam who are paralyzed and the incredible unexpected ways that it can happen through no fault of anyone's own. Anyway I hope you don't find this to be rude but you're still extremely hot 🔥 haha hope your wife doesn't get mad at that one,! I'm not sure how old this post is but please keep posting! Thank you so much for the presentation of this incredible devastating but at the same time very sobering and uplifting life experience and journey you're on, maybe you should write a few little scripts and propose it as a series to Netflix with the same name as your UA-cam channel I am certain it would be a hit and you would get very rich! Not that money would matter much to someone like you because you seem very deep and super down to earth anyway now I'm the one who's rambling...👌💕🌹
What a lovely comment. Thanks for all the kind words ❤️✌️
Just came across your content.. 1st off thanks for sharing & 2nd thank God you are here🙏I subscribed and hope you are doing amazing❤
Thanks so much, thats a very kind compliment, I hope you enjoy my other vids and welcome to the channel ❤
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuy Thank you🙂I'll definitely be checking in. Take care & Happy New Year...
Wow what a story.
This life is but a vapor. Don’t give up. You will have good days and bad, but endure. You can overcome. Sometimes you will feel angry, go into the blame game, grief, but your times are in God’s hands and depend on him with everything you have. He’s not put out because you need him. He wants you to talk to him, just like you’d talk to a friend. The Holy Spirit will help you and give you ideas to adjust. Wisdom is better than strength. God still cares for you and he will never leave. Trust him. Forgive.
Thank you for sharing your story with us. You look younger than your age, btw. ☺️💕
kind compliment, thanks 😁
Thank God you are alive and your life is worth fighting for. With God all things are possible through Christ Who strengthen thee 🙏. So sorry about your injury ❤ 🙏. Life is precious despite your disability challenges.
No need to be sorry, I’m not. My life is indeed precious thanks for the kind words
Big love buddy x
Great video ❤
Hi there, the positive side is that you're not quadriplegic, and you live in civilized country. So you can still enjoy your life, and one day you might even get your spinal cord fixed. Where I came from it would be a million times worse.
There is a guy called Brian on youtube who's paralyzed. He's married with a baby and very happy. Tyfs the name of his page on youtube is called paralyzed living
9:10 same story for me! Just bought new $$ full length zippered mountaineering pants and the rescue medics cut them to shreds - rather than unzip! 😭 🤷♂️ oh well, they saved my life still 😁
They gave me like a 0.016467 chance of walking again! 😂
What Spinal Cord U Have That Has Allowed U To Walk Again
complete or incomplete sci Sir
incomplete
Freddo brother, hope you read my comment some day. I had a motorcycle accident in which i broke a vertebrae of my spine and a couple secondary injuries along with that but not even nearly as bad as yours. I am not paralyzed i was very close to be but i wanted to tell you that all those things lining up to you that day in your favor to survive such a horrific accident was GOD! I dont know if you are atheist or religious but God is real Freddo and he saved you cause he loved you so much!
How lovely, tell him I said thanks!
I don't think what your girlfriend went trough is more traumatizing. But the fact that you think that just proves how much of a saint you are.
Also it shows that you are a sensitive person and an angel that you still cared what a neighbor had to say after such a horrific accident.
Too bad you decided to keep this video short because I could listen to you all day.
Thanks, that’s kind. There are plenty more videos on my channel if you enjoy listening to me talk. I’ve documented my whole journey. I dare you to go down the rabbit hole
How did you become crystal
Your dog is totally bored ❤.
She's heard the story before 😉
I just do not understand how you have to courage to go on?From how it sounds,I would find some way to escape!
Maybe you see having a disability as a bad thing, I choose to see it as a superpower.
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It’s crazy that you had to find out about all of the other aspects of your injury and care from Google. Although there are really helpful and informative people like yourself on UA-cam, it sure seems like your medical team should have been more forthcoming.
Indeed, but it was not a proper spinal unit, and they didn't have the specialist knowledge. I am so grateful to UA-cam and the people who posted stuff that helped, and now the feedback loop is complete, and I am doing the same for others ❤
Hi Freddo,
It sounds like you were about my age when I got injured back in 2001. I was 38 years old in February of 2001, the month and year of my injury. I remember that year well because I watched 9/11 unfold from my bed, still recovering from my wreck. Let me know if I was close on the age thing. I just made 60 a couple of months ago. 👍
I was 36, so very close. I’m grateful I had 36 years of able bodied fun, even tho I am happier now.
Sometimes through struggle we find strength and growth ❤️✌️
The most costly lesson of life
Yeah but I wouldn’t change it
Hey :) what is happening with Lou ? Why is your future together incertain :-(
Good question, when the time is right I’ll go into it further on the channel. Thanks
Skiing, backflips, diving, bmx .. WHY? Why you people are doing such activities, where one split second can ruin your life forever. WHY? My only question is WHY? I dont feel like I am part of human race… ever since I was a young boy, atm I am 34, I have never done any of the things above, why take risk with your body, my main question is why you all take your body, spine, movement etc for granted? I feel that you people will do anything for gratification, to be center of attention or for some cheap few seconds thrills..😢😢
For me it was about living in the moment, exploring all the glorious opportunities life has to offer, the feeling of exhilaration and adrenaline.
Some people get paralysed from car accidents and some people get struck down from things that happen in their sleep.
I still don’t live a sheltered life, living IS risky, but getting to the end of life and looking back on all the things you could have done with a healthy, flexible body is not a regret I will die with.
I appreciate your response. Shelterd life, thats a perfect description how my life is. I am 34, 6‘4, fairly good looking but never had a gf, never was part of some group of friends, after Highschool my social life ended due to overthinking, possible some other disorders but mostly no confidence etc…on the way I developed sports betting addiction, I am currently in debt, basically everything I do in my my life is work , going home, betting or watching youtube.. thats literally my life.. I sometimes think my gambling addiction is my outlet to experience adrenaline etc that you guys experience doing these kind of outdoor experiences etc.. its killing me inside.. I am fascinated with SCI, I want to know all the disturbing details of accidents, realisation that this is now new reality etc.. its disturbing but this is perhaps my way to cope with my life ie lack of life.. I feel like a observer of life, while other people are living it.. I am in such a dark place, sometimes I have these dark thoughts that I feel like if sci happens to people that are naturally extroverted, have gf, sex, etc etc all the normal stuff that I was deprived off in my 20s… i feel some morbid satisfaction like that thing balance itself out… its horrible I know, but that is just how it is.. I dont know, I feel like I need some wake up call, its as if watching your experiences etc will somehow wake me up to let go, to finally start to live my life.. there is a nice girl at my work but I am too scared to ask her out due to no experience etc, so again shelter mentality… I hate myself for it and I wish I can let go all these overthinking etc… I am complete mess.. at the end I want to say that deep down I feel extremely sorry for you guys, I pray and hope that cure will show up.. but the cure that will ABSOLUTE reverse sci.. i wish you peace and I wish it for myself.. sry for long comment….
@@FreddotheWheelchairGuywell said.
I’ve been snowboarding, racing motorbikes & MTB for the past 35 years. To understand why people do certain sports you have to experience it for yourself. The adrenaline rush and feeling is amazing. You can play it safe all your life but taking a few risks makes you feel alive. You don’t need to be an adrenaline junkie.