The worst part about rock bottom, is that no matter how bad it is or how much we swear to ourselves that it will "never happen" again, it almost always does. That's how much of a grip addiction can have.
Yes exactly, I was trying to explain this to my family member earlier who was asking me how could I go back to the bottle over and over after all the bad that happened. It’s something that we really can’t explain, but we understand each other. Hope all is well after hours, always love seeing your comments! Much love my friend. 🙏
@Slayer-7373 , God can deliver us from all our addictions. Lay your burdens on him. I assure you if yoi seek him in good faith. Submit and repent he will, i assure you come to be your rock. Your relief and your salvation from bondage of addiction. I assure you. Im living proof. Jesus is the the way the truth and the life. Amen. I pray you find him. Hes been with you the whole time. You just didnt know or see it.
You are helping so many people! Don't ever be afraid of black cats. That's just a demon making you think it's a bad sign. They're actually very sweet and loving!
You remind me of that sober forever channel. A very bad drunk, relapse is a disaster. This guy said of his last 2 day relapse. ‘I was in a small town so I survived but if I’d been in the city I’d be dead’.
don’t be hard on yourself. you are fully aware . thankyou for showing us . this is how my girlfriends rooms are abs car . as you know she is drinking again. basically homeless now . i see the sadness in her eyes as she try’s to be upbeat. she is renting a car and will live in that because all her $ goes on booze and cigarettes. we have this bro . we love you and you have your intelligence. you help both addicts and the ones that love them
Hey Andre i appreciate that brother I really do. I consider you a friend at this point. It saddens me about your girlfriend because I understand that pain. It’s a vicious cycle that sometimes you can’t ever get out of. Pray for her, keep her in the best wishes. Much love to you my friend, thank you. 🙏
my last relapse 3 weeks ago was a living hell. I'm so sorry you went through that! I drank for 2 days straight twice that week. my mother called the cops on me declared me missing. We text everyday so she was worried. I didn't want to text because I was so drunk. Not okay on my part. I had thought oh I'm feeling better I can drink now. I got liver disease. Well, I got so sick I never ever want to go through this again!! I was freaking out so bad I could not function. Shaking, crying, puking blood, panic attacks, not showering (ew) unable to sleep, liver in agony. The pain had me screaming my head off into my pillow. I'm not lying. I swear. Never again. It really is insanity this addiction. This scared me sober.
@@Slayer-7373 not yo mention all of the horrible blackouts I used to get and having another person remind me of all the stupid shit I had done the night before! I don't miss that shit at all!! lol
@@Thagy1973 the blackouts only get worse too lol, to the point that you have people telling you stuff the next day and your jaw is just hanging wide open 😂😓. Nothing to miss at all my friend!!!! Glad we are both sober tonight. ✌️💯
Damn bro I am so proud of you man. Never give up. Relapse is part of the process. It doesn't matter how many times it takes to get it right as long as you don't stop trying. I've never been an alcoholic but I have two yrs clean from IV heroin and fentynal. Unbelievable bro. You got this homie.
Slayer! I'm not sure if you saw my comment unde one of your videos? You're not alone. Keep in touch. You know what's up and you understand it and make no excuses. The road is tough. Keep good and positive people close to you and talking to us, it does help.
This randomly popped up in my feed today and I needed this. I am in recovery (4.5yrs clean) and sometimes my addict brain likes to chirp still. Thank you for sharing ☀️
Hey Tracy this is awesome, I’m glad I could help. That’s what it’s all about, I really feel like as addicts we are all in this together. Support one another and life each other up. Congratulations on the 4.5 years as well!!!🙌that is incredible :).
Any relapse is only a other 🪜 stepping stone towards eventual victory. Cause you will always remember how it felt to relapse-therefor that's a very powerful deterrent in the future. We are only human brother-defeating addiction is a gradual process. It's built on a series of experiences. 👍. We're all with you on this journey brother. 👍🙌
Slayer I’m so happy you’re sober right now. I’m sure it’s very painful to relapse, it’s good you filmed it to spread awareness to folks and reminder to you. Stay strong friend. Hugs to you Slayer 🙏🏼💚💪🏻
Hey Slayer, 😳 literally felt that deeply. I know this wasn’t easy but it does serve as a reminder. You were in a very dark place but I believe you have at least one guardian angel. Maybe several…we all have someone who protects us. We just have to let them. I’m also very in tune with the signs the universe presents us, good and bad. Let the pain go as those are just chains holding you back from all your greatness. Slay, always remember that. You should be very proud for having 2 months sober and continuing to build on that. Take it easy my friend. Much love back at you 💜.
Hey micru 👋, it definitely is a reminder that I need. It’s not easy to watch those videos or share them but it will help me and others, that’s what’s important. I also believe in guardian angels, all the insane stuff I’ve been through I’ve got to have someone watching over me!! 🙏 It is time to let go of a lot of pain and regret, time to start a new life for myself and I’m bringing y’all with me for the ride. I have huge plans for this channel and community micru and you’ve been such a massive part of it. I appreciate the kind words more than you know. Much love always, take care 🙏🖤
Thanks for positing this. I ended up drinking again for the last few weeks after being able to get past that first week. I gotta get back on sobriety bro. Stomach and liver are sore. Feel like crap.
Hey brother, I was wondering where you have been. It happens to the best of us my friend, please pick yourself up and do whatever you need to do to get yourself back on track. Both our livers are sore when we drink now and that’s a sign that it’s time to stop! Please be safe man, I believe in you and I’m here if you need to talk. Much love 🙏
Yo Slayer, I found your channel about a month ago while I was completely wasted. Love the content and can completely relate to everything you’ve said. I’m 31 & have been an alcoholic & a drug addict for 15 years easy. I’ve been to the ER over 20 times from withdrawal OD’s you name it. Anyway, I’d like to talk to you sometime about the struggles we go through. One more thing, I puked a puddle of brown blood on the 17th this past Monday and rushed to the ER after another crazy bender/binge. I had blood in my intestines, my liver was in pain, my heart is weak and I’ve been drained since leaving the hospital on Thursday. ALCOHOL WILL KILL US if we continue to drink for anyone who reads this. I just had to put this out there. Keep up the content! I’ll always support you my Brother in Christ! Prayers 🙏🏼 - Rich
Hey what’s up brother?? I’m glad you found the channel my friend and that it’s helping. Comments like yours help me more than you know!!! Im gonna write your name down brother, not sure if you would be interested in an interview? Also you can DM me privately on instagram as well if you would like. My insta is slayer_youtube_73 Also holy sh*t man that is some scary stuff! It’s time for us to STOP for good! You are 100% right it will take us down. I feel it on the daily, I feel like a 80 year old unhealthy man most days. We can heal from this if we just give ourselves the time. PLEASE be safe and be careful those symptoms are very concerning. I appreciate you and thank you, my brother in Christ 🙏🙏🙏. Be safe.
@@Slayer-7373 definitely would be down for an interview. I don’t really use instagram, but I’ll DM you so we can talk more about this. Now that I’ve been over a week sober my sleeping schedule is out of whack and it’s been tough setting up a new routine. I am feeling better though. You ever considered creating a discord so the community can all interact there? Your channel and everyone on here feels almost like family because nobody judges and we can all relate for the most part. Btw… you need more subscribers man. The content you put out is solid!! Hope you’re doing well bro and congrats on almost 2 months of sobriety!!! 💪🔥🔥🔥
Hey congrats on staying sober. It takes guts to share stuff like that from your rock bottom. You look clean now as you said, and your skin looks very healthy. Have a great weekend
Thanks for the video Slayer - I was in a relapse cycle for almost two years, and it was traumatic to say the least. Congrats on the 2 months of sobriety btw, it's an awesome milestone.
I am so proud of you, Slayer!! You have come such a long way and you really have no ego with this. I have had many moments like this where I felt defeated and found myself crying, almost like I was in mourning..I felt like I had abandoned my friends and family and didn't think I could turn things around. I felt such grief. But here we are!!! The trick is to NEVER give up. I agree whole heartedly that change will happen whether or not you decide to jump on the ride. My spirituality calls it God or spirit, but you could definitely say it's karmic, or simply the give and take of energy. Whenever I'm fighting change, 10,000 things go wrong, and suddenly I'm welcoming change. Lol this has been the way my ENTIRE life. But when I've kept my eyes and my heart open, things seems to work to my benefit. I seem to get exactly what I need at exactly the right time. Whether that be a conversation, a bonus from work, a friend OR a supportive UA-cam channel. Haha glad to know you're doing well, friend!! Congratulations on 2 months!! GET IT 🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🙏❤️❤️❤️
Amanda thank you so much as always 🙏🙏, I can always relate to your comments and I always take some wisdom from them as well. Also yes change is going to happen no matter what lol, sometimes so fast and quick you weren’t prepared for it at all. It comes with life and unfortunately for me it’s always been hard for me to change. I get comfy in the same old rut. Way too dangerous of a game to be playing. Thanks for all the love Amanda it really does mean the world to me 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I really feel that. We are only humans and creatures of comfort for that reason. It makes me so happy that I can be there in that way. Thank you for everything you do. I'm grateful to be on this walk with you and everyone here!! ❤️🙏❤️
Glad to hear you are doing well. Never would have even thought to have taken a video of myself when i was on the struggle but its an effective tactic. Putting it on youtube is next level. Keep on trucking
I have have relapsed a 1001 times , and each time beforehand, I always thought,….THIS TIME IT WILL BE BETTER !! ….I got this this time ! I will be able to control it this time ! I was sadly mistaken every fucking time !! Thank God I survived my last relapse and I finally said ,..THATS IT …I’M DONE WITH THIS SHIT !! Almost 29 months of sobriety and although life stuff still occurs, but I much more able to deal with it rationally, without reaching for the copious amounts of beer , & risking getting another impaired charge. I am so grateful and happy to be sober . 🙏👍❤
Another great video brother. I commented on your last video about you inspiring me to attempt sobriety again and you said to keep you updated. Its going well. About to have 5 days. Just taking them one at a time but these videos help massively. Thank you for sharing
That is absolutely amazing my friend!!!! Comments like these is what keeps me going man. Fk yea don’t look back, take it one day at a time. I’m very proud of you man!!! Thank you!!!! 🙏🙏 keep me updated and be safe!
Great VID Slayer!! I half expected to see half eaten pizza 🍕 boxes laying around that ppl had stepped in,but then you said you hadn't eaten in FIVE DAYS!! Even your liver hurt! You were probably so close to being in the hospital. Feel for ya man!! (1000 YEAH!!)...Gotta rewatch this.
That room looks like my room right now. I relapsed and I’m really ashamed and just feeling bad about it. I needed to see this video because at least I know I’m not alone.. Thank you!
I was going down this road myself, been struggling with mental health issues all my life. I was desperate to feel something. I have clinical depression and I've been living with suicidal thoughts nearly every single day the past year. So I was desperate, tired to live with these thoughts so I started drinking alchohol. I've always had a high tolerance, even if I get blackout drunk I get no hangover the next day. I just sleep it off and feel fine like it never happened. Now my depression is better then ever. I found through work (now that I finally got anti depressent) I'm feeling better than ever. I still crave to drink alcohol, like get a beer first then 40%vodka or some other hard liquor. No, I'm not going down that road man. I'm staying sober.
Don’t go back my friend you’ve got the right idea!!!! I also struggle with chronic depression, I completely understand how rough it is but it still isn’t worth going back to that poison. Because that’s all it is is poison! I wish the the best on your journeys my friend, you have a community here if you ever need some people to talk with. 🙏
Hey brother in sobriety. Thanks for posting. I wish I could give you a big hug in that video. We are here for YOU as much as you’re here for us. Reach out anytime
1000 subs......way to go, my brother! We got your back Slayer. Get strong, stay strong. One day, you will meet 'the one' and will see that the journey, however cruel and hard, was worth it. Love and strength to you, my Slayer.
Hey natsnikki !!! Awe this is an awesome comment, I’m glad you found my videos and well and they are helping. That’s what this is all about. Thank you so much 🙏🖤.
I wish my brother watched your channel. His level of alcoholism is about as severe as yours. Last rehab stint we thought was his rock bottom. Delerium tremens, seizures, losing his wife and dog. This rehab stint began when when he was skin and bones, couldnt walk very far, cirrosis of the liver. Hes been sober one month now. One month ago today was when he was vomitting and convulsing at my parents from not having a drink in the morning. I fear im headed that path. I undoubtedly have a drinking problem. But its not that severe. My concern is that it will get that severe. It only gets worse. I dont want to go to AA though because i dont think id fit in there, simce everyone is in much worse shape.
I’m so sorry to hear this my friend. That’s unfortunately the reality of this disease. It takes and takes and takes till there is nothing left. Im just a few bad moves away from being in the position your brother is. My advice to you is get yourself some help, you are worth it. Stop it in its tracks before it reaches the point that I got to or your brother got to. Because it really does catch up with every single one of us eventually. Some can get away with it longer than others. My cousins husband drank every day for 35+ years, never caused a scene always handled himself well. Never caused problems but a couple years ago he was diagnosed with cirrhosis and needed a liver transplant. It always catches up one way or another. Keep me updated on your journey and please be safe!!! 🙏
@Slayer-7373 thank you for your response. It means alot...hearing about your relative. Because I've hung out with my brother before and would drink more than him. It was several years ago, but I think about that sometimes. Like maybe I just handle myself better or something? I really don't know, but seeing him is my biggest motivation to stay away. Far too thin, homeless, hair messy, etc. Literally someone you'd see on the streets, but my parents have taken him in. That's my motivation- to think I don't want to be that, but unfortunately that's not motivating enough for me. But I feel I handle myself so well that no one sees I'm struggling.
You're pretty young to be experiencing delirium tremens. It's not the first time I've heard of young people reaching that point with no return. It took me 30 years of drinking to get there. I drink beer, but beer and hard liquor are essentially the same. I can drink anywhere from 15 to 25 beers a night. I've gone through seven withdrawals and I know exactly what you mean-it's hell. Once you cross that line, everything you're talking about is 100% real. If you'd told me about delirium tremens before it happened to me, I would've thought you were full of it. I would've said it sounds like an acid trip or some other drug hallucination because I didn't think alcohol could do that. To my surprise, it does, and hallucinating from alcohol is much more realistic than an acid trip. I've been to the hospital three times out of my seven relapses. On my first relapse, I found Delirium Dirk on UA-cam four years ago and thought about documenting my own experiences to help others, but I didn't follow through. Now, after my seventh relapse into DTs and seeing your channel and learning about the loss of Delirium Dirk, I think I'm going to start documenting my journey and what I've experienced. I also follow Bat Country, Sober James, and Sober Dogs. That dude is intense. I watch others on UA-cam because I don't want to go to AA. I've been sober for five months after this last relapse, and yes, it gets worse every time. They call it the kindling effect. Research it. I am also a spiritual person. I've known this ever since I was a kid and used alcohol to block that ability, but I guess I can’t do that anymore. I need to follow my spiritual path. Call it a higher force calling me. By the way, if you didn't know, cats stand at the gateway to the other world. I love cats. Research cats in Egyptian culture-it's fascinating.
Kindling affect exactly!!! Bat country did an excellent video on this. It’s 100% true and is that have been through it we know how awful and “real” it is. It’s like an instant catapult back into insanity but it’s even worse than the last time!!! Please document your experience friend if you feel comfortable with that, there is not enough information and videos out about delirium tremens. I think for some very strange reason UA-cam doesn’t want people watching that stuff. In my opinion it’s because the booze business is a massive money 💰 maker!!!!! If you decide to make a video I’ll support you 100%. Congratulations on the sobriety time as well, please don’t look back. God bless 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Just a warning: stress and happiness are two major triggers for relapse and returning to alcohol. You might wonder why happiness is a trigger. It's because when something very nice happens, you often feel like celebrating. Stress is understandable, but happiness can also lead to celebrating, which may involve alcohol.
man I never recorded myself in those situations, I wouldn't think to! One of my rockbottoms would be.. probably the time I left work to go buy alcohol at 8am but I had to time it when the liquor store opened in a different county lol. I made it back to work with the wds at bay and no one noticed somehow. anyway fuck that shit. boring life = good life
I've tried so hard to functionally drink and control my drinking but it just never works. 6 pack of beer a night seems okay for a few days than leads to a 12 pack a night leads to more and more until full relapse and your drinking 24/7 again. It just can never work...
Every single time kuhzzy, every single time it lead back to the same place! I’ve went back into it with the best intentions ever yet it never ends that way lol. Thanks kuhzzy for your comments and support my friend 🙏
Mr Slayer , hope everything's ok just checking in. Your videos give light and hope to people who are in the darkest places as you know how scary alcohol can be if your a heavy drinker, man I wish you all the best and please make an update video I miss you content and I love watching your stuff when I'm suffering because it seriously connects. Sober slayer you are a legend
@@lukepowell5353 hey thanks Luke, i appreciate this man. You guys are the legends!!! I plan to make an update video today or tonight. Life has been really crazy, I have a lot to tell you guys. I miss you guys too and talking to y’all. Much love luke and be back soon. 🙏
Hey man i appreciate what you do I just want you to know i also struggle n juggle what you go thru man. I totally relate to you pretty accurately. The heartbreak, the relapses, the fight and the dessertion that comes from it. I go thru it on a monthly basis Brother. It gets better but it is up to us on how we handle ourselves. I do believe in moderate drinking but to us alcoholics there is no end. The only end is what you have portrayed. I thank you for this video man. I really do. 🙏🙏🙏
Hey what’s going on brother 👋, I can totally relate. I’m sorry to hear those things have happened to you my friend but in a way it really helps me to read comments like these. It shows me I’m not alone in this battle, we are in this together. Like you said tho ultimately it’s a decision that the individual must make for themselves. Comments like these are what keep me going man, I thank you as well for watching and being part of this community. Much love 🙏
Hey thanks man, you are an og of the channel dude and i appreciate that more than you know. You genuinely seem like a cool a*s dude who I can see myself chillin with. Take care brother ✌️💯
Slayer Congrats on hitting 1.0K subscribers!!!! I am so happy for you. And I am so sorry 😢that you have had to go through all of the relapses’s ….. But you seem solid now & doing 👍🏻 great !!!! Slayer 🐈⬛ cats are not creepy?? I have 2 tuxedo cats 🐈⬛ they are my babies.. be safe … friend.
Hey trippy!!! I love you too dude, you’ve been around since the early days!!! I see you in all of the comments showing love which is awesome. You are a huge part of the community my friend!!!! Be easy! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 man your videos are awesome, i know it may have been requested before, but could you do a video on what its like to withdrawl, like the feeling when your lying in bed throwin up, cant even make it to the bathroom
Congrats on the 1k subs. I've been away, but now I am back after my own relapse. I am still catching up on everyone's videos. Another great video totally raw. And I agree. I felt pretty damned ashamed and didn't really want to make the relapse video. We are all honest in this community.
@@ShadesOClarity i appreciate that brother thank you, I’m glad you are back my friend. I plan to make an update video and tell y’all but I did have a lapse a few days ago. My dog passed away suddenly, it was one night but it still has messed with me pretty bad. I went to the doctor and it turns out it wasn’t my lungs that have been in pain it’s my pancreas! Numbers were elevated, inflamed a bit. It’s time for me to put the bottle down once and for all, I can’t ever drink again. Never ever ever again. I totally understand the shame about making the video, it’s been a big part why I haven’t yet because I’m ashamed and embarrassed. I feel like I let y’all down. Anyways I’m back to being sober and I’m not messing up again. Take care brother, it’s one day at a time.
@@Slayer-7373 Well, now I don't feel so ashamed and alone. I am sorry about your dog. So you have pancreatitis? I heard the pain from that is awful. Remember, it's progress not perfection and certainly one day at a time. Have you ever spoken to a doctor about Antabuse? It might help you in early sobriety. I take it every day now. Anyway, you're right. Look at the first step and not the whole staircase. Since I got back I had wondered where you've been.
@@ShadesOClarity yea you aren’t alone brother, I have acute pancreatitis which is a less severe version, it should heal the doctors said. It has definitely sucked tho. I have talked to him a bit, he wants me on naltrexone. I’m going to look into those medications. But yea man that’s where I’ve been, looking forward to coming back and making videos again. I miss it and I miss y’all. Take care man.
@@Slayer-7373 I've had some friends from A.A. present at the ER with intense lower quadrant abdominal pain radiating to the back. Yep. Acute pancreatitis in all of them. Fortunately, I've never had it. Hope to see you back in action soon.
@@ShadesOClarity yea it sucks, the back pain is very real!! I hope you never get it man. Hoping as well to be back in action very soon! Thanks brother.
I have been in bed for almost all week because of binge drinking. I'm hearing dogs barking at night, but i have no dogs and live in the middle of nowhere.
Hey brother I’ve been there before trust me!! You are not alone!!! I do want to ask you though my friend to please be safe, I would suggest getting to your nearest hospital. They can take care of you there safely. Remember this as long as you are still breathing that means there is still opportunity to change!! I believe in you but you’ve gotta believe in yourself. Please keep me updated!!! 🙏
25 Days Alcohol FREE!!!♥️💯. Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤ Awesome Video Slayer!!!♥️ Relapsing Always Gets Worse & Worse!💯 I haven’t ever stayed Sober and regretted it the next morning! If you’re ever tempted, Just put it out until tomorrow! You won’t ever regret it.💯♥️
@@bobmerrifield3371 it’s okay brother. It happens it really does, what really matters is what you do moving forward. Jump back on that horse and push forward! Use the fall as motivation to go twice as hard. Tough situations make tougher men, it’s cliche but it’s true. It’s time for both of us to drop all the BS excuses we tell ourselves to go out and drink that poison again and you know what I mean by the excuses. I have a million excuses to drink and a lot of them are really good ones!! But I don’t want to die young!! Take it one day at a time man and so will I. Best of luck to you and keep me updated! 🙏
I totally get the "black cat" story. I was in a very abusive relationship and much later in time I realized there were always snakes and frogs at our home. We all know what the bible says about both of those. I even saw a HUGE snake coiled up on our sidewalk in broad daylight. Still, it didn't occur to me that maybe God was telling me to get the heck out of there before I couldn't!!!!
That’s fascinating Rita, I’m glad that someone can relate. I 100% believe god uses animals to show us signs. I believe the devil might be able to do the same thing tho so you gotta be careful. Much love 🙏🖤
All animals are God's creations. The Bible uses some animals as metaphors. We are not to be cruel to His creations. This is modern times. Believing in superstitions is weird.
Please don't perpetuate the black cat superstition 🐈⬛ As a cat rescuer, this is a very painful thing to hear, that people still buy into this absolute nonsense! Black cats are the last ones to be adopted from shelters because of this harmful commentary that continues. Black cats are actually considered good omens in many cultures.
I just found your channel and I'm very interested on your experiences with alcohol and demonic Stuff. I know a person who is psychic and can help removing dark entities so you can heal. I have had traumatizing demonic experiences too and i can assure you they need to be removed completely by a genuine psychic for us to be released. Those entities won't leave you alone unless deep energy clearing is done. Let me know if you're interested on her information. Blessings my friend 🙏✨
Bro if nothi g works try praying to god it worked for me now im obsessed with jesus .. i known it sounds crazy but it works and im so gratfull clean 2 months
@@brysoncain7506 it doesn’t sound crazy at all brother, I know for myself that’s the ONLY way I’ll ever get sober is through god. It’s when I turn my back on him that all goes down hill. Congratulations on your sobriety my friend, you should be proud!!! Keep up the good work. Much love 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 sounds like you already know then ... I'm very happy you get it cuz most don't and everything I go against him I'm punished severely and it's suffering to the extreme I hate it... im so glad you found the truth you are really blessed to know what you know it means lot to me people know that because he saved me and I was the worst ... I mean just straight horrible person... I felt a tugging g in my spirit a battle and I faught... and with God all things are possible and he changed me and you.. he fixes the worst and makes them great its so amazing.. thank you for your response it meant a lot to me knowing people know the truth
@@brysoncain7506 absolutely my friend, I’m happy you know as well. ALL things are possible through Christ Jesus who strengthens us. We are living in crazy times, I think we as a people are being tested more than ever!!!! I feel as if time is running out and we must not only strengthen our relationship with god/Christ but also try our best to spread the word. That’s the biggest reason I bring up that I’m Christian or that I believe in the Bible and Jesus in these videos. Is to try and show someone out there hey this guy seems pretty cool and he’s Christian? Maybe I should look into that. Much love brotha, take care 🙏
Keep claiming Christ. We all sin but we see it and are convicted and try to repent daily. We’re nowhere near perfect and never will be until we get to heaven. Your videos are great and claiming Christ gives Him the glory and reveals your refuge. This channel will grow. I volunteer to be on the channel. Let me know. I think I can help your channel. God bless you and your mission.
This comment Bryan is 100% spot on!!!! Do you have an instagram by chance brother that you could private message me on?? Let me know, god bless 🙏 and thank you.
Slayer..one love cuz..I relapse after 58 days..ugh..but..God is great.. Jesus Christ is God . we'll beat Satan's bitch ass again!! Love u bro for your content!!
The band you mean? I do yes. I use to be a massive metal head. Pantera, Metallica, slayer, megadeth and more. I don’t listen to metal as much as I use to but I’ll always appreciate the music. 🤘
@@Slayer-7373 oh cool, yeah I meant the band. I’m more into other heavy music but the song Disciple by Slayer is particularly awesome. And dude, thanks for posting. I’m 8 months sober, no cravings, no desire, but I gotta say I forgot how painful it is and how hell is just a sip away. Thank you for reminding me.
@UnbeatableJacob damn man so much, I still do listen to metal so those bands. Plus I like Alice In Chains, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, I mean I’m a huge rock head. I love F with some rap tho too. I really like the underachievers, Flatbush zombies, beast coast. I will have to show y’all my Spotify sometime I think you guys would like what you see. Thanks Jacob ✌️💯
@@GoneNForgotten that’s okay brother, it happens. It’s all about what you do afterwards. You know relapse can be extremely tough, but tough times make tougher people. You got this, just get back on that horse even if that means going to rehab or aa or watching these videos all day long. Whatever it takes, but trust me I know how hard it is, I struggle as well. Take it one day at a time. Keep me updated!! 🙏
Hey brother Im sorry to hear this. It happens don’t beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a brand new day with new chances. Just get back on that horse no matter what you have to do. I’ll keep you in my prayers brother, keep me updated. 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 You are so welcome 🤗 You must understand that beer, liquor or wine and even drugs all have a spirit that is behind all that! That's why if you have ever noticed that when these stores advertise what they sell you will see that some of the signs say the word spirit! That what enters into you when you start to drink this poison and it takes over you! You must be born again of the water and of the Holy Ghost (Spirit) God's Spirit because he will give you his Power to overcome these demons! Without God's power you will be powerless and you cannot defeat these demons on your own!
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In 3 days I will have 2 months of sobriety!!! 💪💪, also someone remind me to stop shaving!!! Lol. Love y’all.
I believe in that drug. !!!!!!5
Slayer ate u a Pisces?
I think it’s God too
Don't worry I keep shaving too lol
@@Kristen10-22Libra! ✌️
Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing this slayer.
If it helps someone then that’s all that matters. Much love Jeff 🙏
The worst part about rock bottom, is that no matter how bad it is or how much we swear to ourselves that it will "never happen" again, it almost always does. That's how much of a grip addiction can have.
Yes exactly, I was trying to explain this to my family member earlier who was asking me how could I go back to the bottle over and over after all the bad that happened. It’s something that we really can’t explain, but we understand each other.
Hope all is well after hours, always love seeing your comments! Much love my friend. 🙏
@Slayer-7373 , God can deliver us from all our addictions. Lay your burdens on him. I assure you if yoi seek him in good faith. Submit and repent he will, i assure you come to be your rock. Your relief and your salvation from bondage of addiction. I assure you. Im living proof. Jesus is the the way the truth and the life. Amen. I pray you find him. Hes been with you the whole time. You just didnt know or see it.
You got this. Two months tomorrow is a big deal and you should be super proud of yourself. Love all the way from the UK.
I appreciate this thelma thank you so much. Much love back to you! 🙏
You are helping so many people! Don't ever be afraid of black cats. That's just a demon making you think it's a bad sign. They're actually very sweet and loving!
that cat was just sayin, Dude, I need some chow. Help a cat out
😆 you are right Angela I should have fed him and seen if he was friendly. Maybe he was just hungry haha. Much love 🙏
You remind me of that sober forever channel. A very bad drunk, relapse is a disaster. This guy said of his last 2 day relapse. ‘I was in a small town so I survived but if I’d been in the city I’d be dead’.
Im going to have to check this out popcorn I’ve never heard of him before. Much love my friend.
@@Slayer-7373 👍
don’t be hard on yourself. you are fully aware . thankyou for showing us . this is how my girlfriends rooms are abs car . as you know she is drinking again. basically homeless now . i see the sadness in her eyes as she try’s to be upbeat. she is renting a car and will live in that because all her $ goes on booze and cigarettes. we have this bro . we love you and you have your intelligence. you help both addicts and the ones that love them
Hey Andre i appreciate that brother I really do. I consider you a friend at this point. It saddens me about your girlfriend because I understand that pain. It’s a vicious cycle that sometimes you can’t ever get out of. Pray for her, keep her in the best wishes.
Much love to you my friend, thank you. 🙏
my last relapse 3 weeks ago was a living hell. I'm so sorry you went through that! I drank for 2 days straight twice that week. my mother called the cops on me declared me missing. We text everyday so she was worried. I didn't want to text because I was so drunk. Not okay on my part. I had thought oh I'm feeling better I can drink now. I got liver disease. Well, I got so sick I never ever want to go through this again!! I was freaking out so bad I could not function. Shaking, crying, puking blood, panic attacks, not showering (ew) unable to sleep, liver in agony. The pain had me screaming my head off into my pillow. I'm not lying. I swear. Never again. It really is insanity this addiction. This scared me sober.
_Just wanted to wish you well. Keep it up. You're a good soul._
That’s really awesome of you to say don, thanks brother. 🙏
the most sincerest and relatable alcoholic stories I've been through. Exactly what Ive been through to the tee!
@@scottharman3331 hey thank you brother, god bless you 🙏🙏
Takes a real man who cares about others to share that. Stay sober Slay, stay strong.
Hey Bryan thank you man, really I mean that thank you. Much love to you brother 🙏
Also, the thing about it is that the actual buzz doesn't feel all that great anymore either (the older you get).
100%!!!!
@@Slayer-7373 not yo mention all of the horrible blackouts I used to get and having another person remind me of all the stupid shit I had done the night before! I don't miss that shit at all!! lol
@@Thagy1973 the blackouts only get worse too lol, to the point that you have people telling you stuff the next day and your jaw is just hanging wide open 😂😓. Nothing to miss at all my friend!!!! Glad we are both sober tonight. ✌️💯
Damn bro I am so proud of you man. Never give up. Relapse is part of the process. It doesn't matter how many times it takes to get it right as long as you don't stop trying. I've never been an alcoholic but I have two yrs clean from IV heroin and fentynal. Unbelievable bro. You got this homie.
🙏thank you so much brother, also congratulations on 2 years!!! That is incredible my friend. That’s what I inspire to do !!! God bless bro
Slayer! I'm not sure if you saw my comment unde one of your videos? You're not alone. Keep in touch. You know what's up and you understand it and make no excuses. The road is tough. Keep good and positive people close to you and talking to us, it does help.
I appreciate this nidia, you aren’t alone either!!! I got your email!! I will send you one back when I get a chance. 🙏much love
@@nidiaborge I just wanted to say once again thank you!!!! Your kindness is amazing. The same always goes for you! Don’t hesitate to reach out.
This randomly popped up in my feed today and I needed this. I am in recovery (4.5yrs clean) and sometimes my addict brain likes to chirp still. Thank you for sharing ☀️
Hey Tracy this is awesome, I’m glad I could help. That’s what it’s all about, I really feel like as addicts we are all in this together. Support one another and life each other up.
Congratulations on the 4.5 years as well!!!🙌that is incredible :).
Slayer.... thanks for sharing. Take care. Stay safe and sober.
Hey thank you my friend!! You do the same 🙏🙏
Don't be hard on yourself bro.. addiction is very very tough to break. Just put the relapse down to experience.. just keep fighting brother. 🫂
@@john-bo9ve 🙏will do brother, comments like yours are what keeps me pushing forward.
Any relapse is only a other 🪜 stepping stone towards eventual victory. Cause you will always remember how it felt to relapse-therefor that's a very powerful deterrent in the future. We are only human brother-defeating addiction is a gradual process. It's built on a series of experiences. 👍. We're all with you on this journey brother. 👍🙌
Slayer I’m so happy you’re sober right now. I’m sure it’s very painful to relapse, it’s good you filmed it to spread awareness to folks and reminder to you. Stay strong friend. Hugs to you Slayer 🙏🏼💚💪🏻
Appreciate this Mona, I’m glad that we are both sober today. God bless 🙏
Hey Slayer, 😳 literally felt that deeply. I know this wasn’t easy but it does serve as a reminder. You were in a very dark place but I believe you have at least one guardian angel. Maybe several…we all have someone who protects us. We just have to let them. I’m also very in tune with the signs the universe presents us, good and bad. Let the pain go as those are just chains holding you back from all your greatness. Slay, always remember that. You should be very proud for having 2 months sober and continuing to build on that. Take it easy my friend. Much love back at you 💜.
Hey micru 👋, it definitely is a reminder that I need. It’s not easy to watch those videos or share them but it will help me and others, that’s what’s important.
I also believe in guardian angels, all the insane stuff I’ve been through I’ve got to have someone watching over me!! 🙏
It is time to let go of a lot of pain and regret, time to start a new life for myself and I’m bringing y’all with me for the ride. I have huge plans for this channel and community micru and you’ve been such a massive part of it.
I appreciate the kind words more than you know. Much love always, take care 🙏🖤
Hey!💞
@@Slayer-7373 I’m excited for you and honored to be a part of your journey. You have a community backing you.
Thanks for positing this. I ended up drinking again for the last few weeks after being able to get past that first week. I gotta get back on sobriety bro. Stomach and liver are sore. Feel like crap.
Hey brother, I was wondering where you have been. It happens to the best of us my friend, please pick yourself up and do whatever you need to do to get yourself back on track. Both our livers are sore when we drink now and that’s a sign that it’s time to stop!
Please be safe man, I believe in you and I’m here if you need to talk. Much love 🙏
Yo Slayer, I found your channel about a month ago while I was completely wasted. Love the content and can completely relate to everything you’ve said. I’m 31 & have been an alcoholic & a drug addict for 15 years easy. I’ve been to the ER over 20 times from withdrawal OD’s you name it. Anyway, I’d like to talk to you sometime about the struggles we go through.
One more thing, I puked a puddle of brown blood on the 17th this past Monday and rushed to the ER after another crazy bender/binge. I had blood in my intestines, my liver was in pain, my heart is weak and I’ve been drained since leaving the hospital on Thursday. ALCOHOL WILL KILL US if we continue to drink for anyone who reads this. I just had to put this out there. Keep up the content! I’ll always support you my Brother in Christ!
Prayers 🙏🏼
- Rich
Hey what’s up brother?? I’m glad you found the channel my friend and that it’s helping. Comments like yours help me more than you know!!!
Im gonna write your name down brother, not sure if you would be interested in an interview? Also you can DM me privately on instagram as well if you would like. My insta is slayer_youtube_73
Also holy sh*t man that is some scary stuff! It’s time for us to STOP for good! You are 100% right it will take us down. I feel it on the daily, I feel like a 80 year old unhealthy man most days. We can heal from this if we just give ourselves the time. PLEASE be safe and be careful those symptoms are very concerning.
I appreciate you and thank you, my brother in Christ 🙏🙏🙏. Be safe.
@@Slayer-7373 definitely would be down for an interview. I don’t really use instagram, but I’ll DM you so we can talk more about this. Now that I’ve been over a week sober my sleeping schedule is out of whack and it’s been tough setting up a new routine. I am feeling better though. You ever considered creating a discord so the community can all interact there? Your channel and everyone on here feels almost like family because nobody judges and we can all relate for the most part. Btw… you need more subscribers man. The content you put out is solid!! Hope you’re doing well bro and congrats on almost 2 months of sobriety!!! 💪🔥🔥🔥
Hey congrats on staying sober. It takes guts to share stuff like that from your rock bottom. You look clean now as you said, and your skin looks very healthy. Have a great weekend
Hey thanks so much Rebecca 🥹, i appreciate comments like these. You have an amazing weekend as well, much love 🙏
Thanks for the video Slayer - I was in a relapse cycle for almost two years, and it was traumatic to say the least. Congrats on the 2 months of sobriety btw, it's an awesome milestone.
Hey thank you Paul!!! 🙏god bless you my friend. Im glad you are out of that vicious horrible cycle brother. Take care
I am so proud of you, Slayer!! You have come such a long way and you really have no ego with this. I have had many moments like this where I felt defeated and found myself crying, almost like I was in mourning..I felt like I had abandoned my friends and family and didn't think I could turn things around. I felt such grief.
But here we are!!! The trick is to NEVER give up.
I agree whole heartedly that change will happen whether or not you decide to jump on the ride. My spirituality calls it God or spirit, but you could definitely say it's karmic, or simply the give and take of energy. Whenever I'm fighting change, 10,000 things go wrong, and suddenly I'm welcoming change. Lol this has been the way my ENTIRE life. But when I've kept my eyes and my heart open, things seems to work to my benefit. I seem to get exactly what I need at exactly the right time. Whether that be a conversation, a bonus from work, a friend OR a supportive UA-cam channel. Haha glad to know you're doing well, friend!! Congratulations on 2 months!! GET IT 🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🙏❤️❤️❤️
Amanda thank you so much as always 🙏🙏, I can always relate to your comments and I always take some wisdom from them as well.
Also yes change is going to happen no matter what lol, sometimes so fast and quick you weren’t prepared for it at all. It comes with life and unfortunately for me it’s always been hard for me to change. I get comfy in the same old rut. Way too dangerous of a game to be playing.
Thanks for all the love Amanda it really does mean the world to me 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I really feel that. We are only humans and creatures of comfort for that reason. It makes me so happy that I can be there in that way. Thank you for everything you do. I'm grateful to be on this walk with you and everyone here!! ❤️🙏❤️
@@amandaflaherty7528 💯🖤
Glad to hear you are doing well. Never would have even thought to have taken a video of myself when i was on the struggle but its an effective tactic. Putting it on youtube is next level. Keep on trucking
This is what I was thinking great tactic
Appreciate this brother, thank you. 🙏
Congrats on the 1000 bro! Going straight to the top. Great, honest video as always.
Hey BC thanks brother 🙏, I’m glad to see you’re doing well and still killing it with the videos!! Be easy my friend!
You are BRAVE❤
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I have have relapsed a 1001 times , and each time beforehand, I always thought,….THIS TIME IT WILL BE BETTER !! ….I got this this time ! I will be able to control it this time ! I was sadly mistaken every fucking time !! Thank God I survived my last relapse and I finally said ,..THATS IT …I’M DONE WITH THIS SHIT !! Almost 29 months of sobriety and although life stuff still occurs, but I much more able to deal with it rationally, without reaching for the copious amounts of beer , & risking getting another impaired charge. I am so grateful and happy to be sober . 🙏👍❤
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Another great video brother. I commented on your last video about you inspiring me to attempt sobriety again and you said to keep you updated. Its going well. About to have 5 days. Just taking them one at a time but these videos help massively. Thank you for sharing
That is absolutely amazing my friend!!!! Comments like these is what keeps me going man. Fk yea don’t look back, take it one day at a time. I’m very proud of you man!!! Thank you!!!! 🙏🙏 keep me updated and be safe!
Great VID Slayer!! I half expected to see half eaten pizza 🍕 boxes laying around that ppl had stepped in,but then you said you hadn't eaten in FIVE DAYS!!
Even your liver hurt! You were probably so close to being in the hospital. Feel for ya man!!
(1000 YEAH!!)...Gotta rewatch this.
Hey thanks Craig!!! Appreciate your comments always man. God bless 🙏
That room looks like my room right now. I relapsed and I’m really ashamed and just feeling bad about it. I needed to see this video because at least I know I’m not alone.. Thank you!
Wishing you brighter days ahead, you got this❤❤
Keep up the good work, Slayer.
Will do my friend 🙏, you’ve been around for a long time and i appreciate that. Take care and much love
I was going down this road myself, been struggling with mental health issues all my life. I was desperate to feel something. I have clinical depression and I've been living with suicidal thoughts nearly every single day the past year. So I was desperate, tired to live with these thoughts so I started drinking alchohol. I've always had a high tolerance, even if I get blackout drunk I get no hangover the next day. I just sleep it off and feel fine like it never happened. Now my depression is better then ever. I found through work (now that I finally got anti depressent) I'm feeling better than ever. I still crave to drink alcohol, like get a beer first then 40%vodka or some other hard liquor. No, I'm not going down that road man. I'm staying sober.
Don’t go back my friend you’ve got the right idea!!!! I also struggle with chronic depression, I completely understand how rough it is but it still isn’t worth going back to that poison. Because that’s all it is is poison! I wish the the best on your journeys my friend, you have a community here if you ever need some people to talk with. 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Much appreciated man. Will do for sure if I need additional help. Take care
Slayer I’m so proud of u!
Remember tant RAGE
Thank you Kristen!! 🙏🙏
Hey brother in sobriety.
Thanks for posting. I wish I could give you a big hug in that video. We are here for YOU as much as you’re here for us.
Reach out anytime
I appreciate comments like these more than you know brother, thank you 🙏. You’ve been here for a long time and that means a lot to me. ✊
I’ve recently joined your channel. Thankyou so much for your content and being so open and honest about this horrific addiction. Thankyou.
🙏🖤hey thank you. I’m glad I’m helping, y’all help me too.
Love you Slayer. Keep up being the voice we need to hear.
Hey hope, thank you 🙏🥹. I’m just glad I’m helping.
Slayer, Congrats on 1000 Subscribers!!!💯 Totally Awesome!🎈
Hey thanks so more Cindy, it has definitely been awesome. 🙏
1000 subs......way to go, my brother! We got your back Slayer. Get strong, stay strong. One day, you will meet 'the one' and will see that the journey, however cruel and hard, was worth it. Love and strength to you, my Slayer.
This is an absolutely awesome comment. 🖤🙏🥹 thank you.
10:01 holy cow man. Animal’s sense more stuff than us. Spirits (hard liquor) means the spirit world. Could the cat sense your DTs?
I could popcorn which is the STRANGEST part of it all. You know what’s up my friend, much love as always 🙏
Hey Slayer! ❤ I’m a new subscriber and am so happy I found your channel, your videos are so helpful! I relate to you so much. Congrats on 1k!!!🎉
Hey natsnikki !!! Awe this is an awesome comment, I’m glad you found my videos and well and they are helping. That’s what this is all about. Thank you so much 🙏🖤.
I wish my brother watched your channel. His level of alcoholism is about as severe as yours. Last rehab stint we thought was his rock bottom. Delerium tremens, seizures, losing his wife and dog. This rehab stint began when when he was skin and bones, couldnt walk very far, cirrosis of the liver. Hes been sober one month now. One month ago today was when he was vomitting and convulsing at my parents from not having a drink in the morning.
I fear im headed that path. I undoubtedly have a drinking problem. But its not that severe. My concern is that it will get that severe. It only gets worse. I dont want to go to AA though because i dont think id fit in there, simce everyone is in much worse shape.
I’m so sorry to hear this my friend. That’s unfortunately the reality of this disease. It takes and takes and takes till there is nothing left. Im just a few bad moves away from being in the position your brother is.
My advice to you is get yourself some help, you are worth it. Stop it in its tracks before it reaches the point that I got to or your brother got to. Because it really does catch up with every single one of us eventually. Some can get away with it longer than others. My cousins husband drank every day for 35+ years, never caused a scene always handled himself well. Never caused problems but a couple years ago he was diagnosed with cirrhosis and needed a liver transplant. It always catches up one way or another.
Keep me updated on your journey and please be safe!!! 🙏
@Slayer-7373 thank you for your response. It means alot...hearing about your relative. Because I've hung out with my brother before and would drink more than him. It was several years ago, but I think about that sometimes. Like maybe I just handle myself better or something? I really don't know, but seeing him is my biggest motivation to stay away. Far too thin, homeless, hair messy, etc. Literally someone you'd see on the streets, but my parents have taken him in. That's my motivation- to think I don't want to be that, but unfortunately that's not motivating enough for me. But I feel I handle myself so well that no one sees I'm struggling.
You're pretty young to be experiencing delirium tremens. It's not the first time I've heard of young people reaching that point with no return. It took me 30 years of drinking to get there. I drink beer, but beer and hard liquor are essentially the same. I can drink anywhere from 15 to 25 beers a night. I've gone through seven withdrawals and I know exactly what you mean-it's hell. Once you cross that line, everything you're talking about is 100% real. If you'd told me about delirium tremens before it happened to me, I would've thought you were full of it. I would've said it sounds like an acid trip or some other drug hallucination because I didn't think alcohol could do that. To my surprise, it does, and hallucinating from alcohol is much more realistic than an acid trip.
I've been to the hospital three times out of my seven relapses. On my first relapse, I found Delirium Dirk on UA-cam four years ago and thought about documenting my own experiences to help others, but I didn't follow through. Now, after my seventh relapse into DTs and seeing your channel and learning about the loss of Delirium Dirk, I think I'm going to start documenting my journey and what I've experienced. I also follow Bat Country, Sober James, and Sober Dogs. That dude is intense. I watch others on UA-cam because I don't want to go to AA. I've been sober for five months after this last relapse, and yes, it gets worse every time. They call it the kindling effect. Research it.
I am also a spiritual person. I've known this ever since I was a kid and used alcohol to block that ability, but I guess I can’t do that anymore. I need to follow my spiritual path. Call it a higher force calling me.
By the way, if you didn't know, cats stand at the gateway to the other world. I love cats. Research cats in Egyptian culture-it's fascinating.
Kindling affect exactly!!! Bat country did an excellent video on this. It’s 100% true and is that have been through it we know how awful and “real” it is. It’s like an instant catapult back into insanity but it’s even worse than the last time!!!
Please document your experience friend if you feel comfortable with that, there is not enough information and videos out about delirium tremens. I think for some very strange reason UA-cam doesn’t want people watching that stuff. In my opinion it’s because the booze business is a massive money 💰 maker!!!!! If you decide to make a video I’ll support you 100%.
Congratulations on the sobriety time as well, please don’t look back. God bless 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Just a warning: stress and happiness are two major triggers for relapse and returning to alcohol. You might wonder why happiness is a trigger. It's because when something very nice happens, you often feel like celebrating. Stress is understandable, but happiness can also lead to celebrating, which may involve alcohol.
Hope you make two months sobriety! One day at a time 🌈
🙏🖤thanks so much jan, I got this!!! One day at a time.
man I never recorded myself in those situations, I wouldn't think to! One of my rockbottoms would be.. probably the time I left work to go buy alcohol at 8am but I had to time it when the liquor store opened in a different county lol. I made it back to work with the wds at bay and no one noticed somehow. anyway fuck that shit. boring life = good life
Boring life=simple life, simple life=good life.
Much love brother, thanks for watching. 🙏
I've tried so hard to functionally drink and control my drinking but it just never works. 6 pack of beer a night seems okay for a few days than leads to a 12 pack a night leads to more and more until full relapse and your drinking 24/7 again. It just can never work...
It Never worked for me either! Today I have 25 Days Sober and I shall not do that Again!! It’s so rough. Have a Beautiful Weekend!
Its rough. Thanks you too!
Every single time kuhzzy, every single time it lead back to the same place! I’ve went back into it with the best intentions ever yet it never ends that way lol.
Thanks kuhzzy for your comments and support my friend 🙏
Mr Slayer , hope everything's ok just checking in. Your videos give light and hope to people who are in the darkest places as you know how scary alcohol can be if your a heavy drinker, man I wish you all the best and please make an update video I miss you content and I love watching your stuff when I'm suffering because it seriously connects. Sober slayer you are a legend
@@lukepowell5353 hey thanks Luke, i appreciate this man. You guys are the legends!!! I plan to make an update video today or tonight. Life has been really crazy, I have a lot to tell you guys. I miss you guys too and talking to y’all. Much love luke and be back soon. 🙏
Hey man i appreciate what you do
I just want you to know i also struggle n juggle what you go thru man. I totally relate to you pretty accurately. The heartbreak, the relapses, the fight and the dessertion that comes from it. I go thru it on a monthly basis Brother. It gets better but it is up to us on how we handle ourselves. I do believe in moderate drinking but to us alcoholics there is no end. The only end is what you have portrayed. I thank you for this video man. I really do. 🙏🙏🙏
Hey what’s going on brother 👋, I can totally relate. I’m sorry to hear those things have happened to you my friend but in a way it really helps me to read comments like these. It shows me I’m not alone in this battle, we are in this together. Like you said tho ultimately it’s a decision that the individual must make for themselves.
Comments like these are what keep me going man, I thank you as well for watching and being part of this community. Much love 🙏
Keep on keeping on slayer
For sure!
Congrats on 1K dude.
Hey thanks man, you are an og of the channel dude and i appreciate that more than you know. You genuinely seem like a cool a*s dude who I can see myself chillin with. Take care brother ✌️💯
@@Slayer-7373 you too dude.
Slayer Congrats on hitting 1.0K subscribers!!!! I am so happy for you. And I am so sorry 😢that you have had to go through all of the relapses’s ….. But you seem solid now & doing 👍🏻 great !!!! Slayer 🐈⬛ cats are not creepy?? I have 2 tuxedo cats 🐈⬛ they are my babies.. be safe … friend.
love you guys, ive never been through "real alchol withdrawalsl" but i when i guite after my room looked like shit
Hey trippy!!! I love you too dude, you’ve been around since the early days!!! I see you in all of the comments showing love which is awesome. You are a huge part of the community my friend!!!! Be easy! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 man your videos are awesome, i know it may have been requested before, but could you do a video on what its like to withdrawl, like the feeling when your lying in bed throwin up, cant even make it to the bathroom
Congrats on the 1k subs. I've been away, but now I am back after my own relapse. I am still catching up on everyone's videos. Another great video totally raw. And I agree. I felt pretty damned ashamed and didn't really want to make the relapse video. We are all honest in this community.
@@ShadesOClarity i appreciate that brother thank you, I’m glad you are back my friend. I plan to make an update video and tell y’all but I did have a lapse a few days ago. My dog passed away suddenly, it was one night but it still has messed with me pretty bad. I went to the doctor and it turns out it wasn’t my lungs that have been in pain it’s my pancreas! Numbers were elevated, inflamed a bit. It’s time for me to put the bottle down once and for all, I can’t ever drink again. Never ever ever again. I totally understand the shame about making the video, it’s been a big part why I haven’t yet because I’m ashamed and embarrassed. I feel like I let y’all down. Anyways I’m back to being sober and I’m not messing up again.
Take care brother, it’s one day at a time.
@@Slayer-7373 Well, now I don't feel so ashamed and alone. I am sorry about your dog. So you have pancreatitis? I heard the pain from that is awful. Remember, it's progress not perfection and certainly one day at a time. Have you ever spoken to a doctor about Antabuse? It might help you in early sobriety. I take it every day now. Anyway, you're right. Look at the first step and not the whole staircase. Since I got back I had wondered where you've been.
@@ShadesOClarity yea you aren’t alone brother, I have acute pancreatitis which is a less severe version, it should heal the doctors said. It has definitely sucked tho. I have talked to him a bit, he wants me on naltrexone. I’m going to look into those medications. But yea man that’s where I’ve been, looking forward to coming back and making videos again. I miss it and I miss y’all. Take care man.
@@Slayer-7373 I've had some friends from A.A. present at the ER with intense lower quadrant abdominal pain radiating to the back. Yep. Acute pancreatitis in all of them. Fortunately, I've never had it. Hope to see you back in action soon.
@@ShadesOClarity yea it sucks, the back pain is very real!! I hope you never get it man. Hoping as well to be back in action very soon! Thanks brother.
I have been in bed for almost all week because of binge drinking. I'm hearing dogs barking at night, but i have no dogs and live in the middle of nowhere.
Hey brother I’ve been there before trust me!! You are not alone!!! I do want to ask you though my friend to please be safe, I would suggest getting to your nearest hospital. They can take care of you there safely. Remember this as long as you are still breathing that means there is still opportunity to change!! I believe in you but you’ve gotta believe in yourself. Please keep me updated!!! 🙏
Helllllllyeaaa congrats!!!!!!!
🤘💯 thanks Anna!!!
25 Days Alcohol FREE!!!♥️💯. Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤
Awesome Video Slayer!!!♥️ Relapsing Always Gets Worse & Worse!💯 I haven’t ever stayed Sober and regretted it the next morning! If you’re ever tempted, Just put it out until tomorrow! You won’t ever regret it.💯♥️
Congratulations Cindy!!!! That is absolutely incredible!!! I appreciate your comments and advice always! 🙏
That room looks like my room right now. I relapsed and I’m really ashamed and just feeling bad about it.
Bro, keep these videos coming. Your videos are like little rays of sunshine for me right now.
@@bobmerrifield3371 it’s okay brother. It happens it really does, what really matters is what you do moving forward. Jump back on that horse and push forward! Use the fall as motivation to go twice as hard. Tough situations make tougher men, it’s cliche but it’s true. It’s time for both of us to drop all the BS excuses we tell ourselves to go out and drink that poison again and you know what I mean by the excuses. I have a million excuses to drink and a lot of them are really good ones!! But I don’t want to die young!! Take it one day at a time man and so will I. Best of luck to you and keep me updated! 🙏
@@bobmerrifield3371 can’t stop won’t stop bro. Be safe!!
It will hold you accountable
Absolutely Kristen, much love 🙏
I totally get the "black cat" story. I was in a very abusive relationship and much later in time I realized there were always snakes and frogs at our home. We all know what the bible says about both of those. I even saw a HUGE snake coiled up on our sidewalk in broad daylight. Still, it didn't occur to me that maybe God was telling me to get the heck out of there before I couldn't!!!!
That’s fascinating Rita, I’m glad that someone can relate. I 100% believe god uses animals to show us signs. I believe the devil might be able to do the same thing tho so you gotta be careful. Much love 🙏🖤
All animals are God's creations. The Bible uses some animals as metaphors. We are not to be cruel to His creations. This is modern times. Believing in superstitions is weird.
Please don't perpetuate the black cat superstition 🐈⬛ As a cat rescuer, this is a very painful thing to hear, that people still buy into this absolute nonsense! Black cats are the last ones to be adopted from shelters because of this harmful commentary that continues. Black cats are actually considered good omens in many cultures.
Also, snakes & frogs are magnificent, please educate yourself!
I just found your channel and I'm very interested on your experiences with alcohol and demonic Stuff.
I know a person who is psychic and can help removing dark entities so you can heal. I have had traumatizing demonic experiences too and i can assure you they need to be removed completely by a genuine psychic for us to be released. Those entities won't leave you alone unless deep energy clearing is done. Let me know if you're interested on her information. Blessings my friend 🙏✨
This is cool
What’s her information brother??
Bro if nothi g works try praying to god it worked for me now im obsessed with jesus .. i known it sounds crazy but it works and im so gratfull clean 2 months
@@brysoncain7506 it doesn’t sound crazy at all brother, I know for myself that’s the ONLY way I’ll ever get sober is through god. It’s when I turn my back on him that all goes down hill.
Congratulations on your sobriety my friend, you should be proud!!! Keep up the good work. Much love 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 sounds like you already know then ... I'm very happy you get it cuz most don't and everything I go against him I'm punished severely and it's suffering to the extreme I hate it... im so glad you found the truth you are really blessed to know what you know it means lot to me people know that because he saved me and I was the worst ... I mean just straight horrible person... I felt a tugging g in my spirit a battle and I faught... and with God all things are possible and he changed me and you.. he fixes the worst and makes them great its so amazing.. thank you for your response it meant a lot to me knowing people know the truth
@@brysoncain7506 absolutely my friend, I’m happy you know as well. ALL things are possible through Christ Jesus who strengthens us. We are living in crazy times, I think we as a people are being tested more than ever!!!! I feel as if time is running out and we must not only strengthen our relationship with god/Christ but also try our best to spread the word. That’s the biggest reason I bring up that I’m Christian or that I believe in the Bible and Jesus in these videos. Is to try and show someone out there hey this guy seems pretty cool and he’s Christian? Maybe I should look into that.
Much love brotha, take care 🙏
Keep claiming Christ. We all sin but we see it and are convicted and try to repent daily. We’re nowhere near perfect and never will be until we get to heaven. Your videos are great and claiming Christ gives Him the glory and reveals your refuge. This channel will grow. I volunteer to be on the channel. Let me know. I think I can help your channel. God bless you and your mission.
This comment Bryan is 100% spot on!!!! Do you have an instagram by chance brother that you could private message me on?? Let me know, god bless 🙏 and thank you.
Slayer..one love cuz..I relapse after 58 days..ugh..but..God is great.. Jesus Christ is God . we'll beat Satan's bitch ass again!! Love u bro for your content!!
This is an absolutely amazing comment 😂🙌, love you as well brother. Thank you!!
Do you like Slayer?
The band you mean? I do yes. I use to be a massive metal head. Pantera, Metallica, slayer, megadeth and more. I don’t listen to metal as much as I use to but I’ll always appreciate the music. 🤘
@@Slayer-7373what do you listen to now days Slayer?
@@Slayer-7373 oh cool, yeah I meant the band. I’m more into other heavy music but the song Disciple by Slayer is particularly awesome. And dude, thanks for posting. I’m 8 months sober, no cravings, no desire, but I gotta say I forgot how painful it is and how hell is just a sip away. Thank you for reminding me.
@UnbeatableJacob damn man so much, I still do listen to metal so those bands. Plus I like Alice In Chains, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, I mean I’m a huge rock head. I love F with some rap tho too. I really like the underachievers, Flatbush zombies, beast coast. I will have to show y’all my Spotify sometime I think you guys would like what you see. Thanks Jacob ✌️💯
This is a badass song man!!!! Also congrats on 8 months!!!! That is absolutely incredible my friend.
I recently relasped too man
@@GoneNForgotten that’s okay brother, it happens. It’s all about what you do afterwards. You know relapse can be extremely tough, but tough times make tougher people. You got this, just get back on that horse even if that means going to rehab or aa or watching these videos all day long. Whatever it takes, but trust me I know how hard it is, I struggle as well. Take it one day at a time.
Keep me updated!! 🙏
Dont be so hard on you, brother, room isn't that bad in my opinion
Hey brother thank you. 🙏 I appreciate that my friend.
I relapsed an hour ago
Hey brother Im sorry to hear this. It happens don’t beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a brand new day with new chances. Just get back on that horse no matter what you have to do. I’ll keep you in my prayers brother, keep me updated. 🙏🙏
@Slayer-7373 I was 3 days away from a month, I went through he'll over the withdrawal.
@@Slayer-7373 I have 1 tall can left
@@Slayer-7373 I have money
@@Slayer-7373 I have to work tomorrow
Try... in the rooms, online meetings, life saver.
🙏🖤 I will thank you.
Dudes dad relapsed 8:13
lol
PROVERBS 26:11 KJV
PLEASE READ THIS CHAPTER IN YOUR HOLY BIBLE!
I’ve been reading my Bible daily, I’ll definitely check this out Helen. Thank you 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373
You are so welcome 🤗
You must understand that beer, liquor or wine and even drugs all have a spirit that is behind all that! That's why if you have ever noticed that when these stores advertise what they sell you will see that some of the signs say the word spirit! That what enters into you when you start to drink this poison and it takes over you! You must be born again of the water and of the Holy Ghost (Spirit) God's Spirit because he will give you his Power to overcome these demons! Without God's power you will be powerless and you cannot defeat these demons on your own!
I am ao happy you are here 🎉❤XoXoX #melissatirona
I’m happy you are here as well!! 🙏🖤