Hey brother, I started writing a novel in response to your response and then deleted it because I realized what I wanted to say was very simple. I too have and am suffering and truly feel for you. I am one tuff MF’er but life crashes away at even the toughest of us. You will find something amazing around this song. People will find you and your tears and honesty will help someone!!! One big thing that stood out for me in the song was when he said “I stand here BESIDE you today”, not in front of but beside. People will stand beside you and prop you up when you need it. Another was “I will inspire the meek to be strong!” You will do that too. Well, I ended up writing a novel again...Stand strong brother and let the tears flow when needed!
Thank you so much! Your kind words mean the world my friend! I’m so grateful to have so many reach out in support and show such compassion for a complete stranger. Faith in humanity has definitely been restored! Thank you for taking the time to watch and share your thoughts with us all! Hope all is well for you my man!
Dude we all cry. I've seen this video probably 200 times in the last 2 weeks. It still hits me in the feels. I'm crying right now as a matter of fact. Show your feelings.
@@bShawreacts hiya! So.... freakin random.... but, my sister was going to need a transplant, and it did not go trough....but, I'm ready. So, if you need a piece of liver..
@@bShawreacts the contribution of the Welsh influence here on Merseyside has often been overlooked, despite the FAB4 having Irish roots, John Lennon reputedly was descended from Owain Glyndwr, peace and love..E..❤❤
I'm not crying... my eyes are sweating. It's all those ocular crunches I've been doing, trying to get those six pack oc's. Yep... that's my story and I'm stickin to it!
Do you know why we all watch reaction videos? At least for me, it's the fact that I can only experience a song for the first time, once....but reaction videos let me re-experience others first time with that same song. Your reaction to this emotional song hit the nail on the head. I appreciate your willingness to share that with us all.
100% this. This is exactly how I explained it to another person when they were curious why someone would watch reaction videos. Especially with this song it’s that living vicariously through others hearing it for the first time. Blew me away the first time I heard it. Cried for an hour and watched countless times
I’m 50yo now, and I’ve been doing reactions way before reactions were a thing. Since I was a kid, I remember introducing movies to friends on HBO and VHS, sitting near them, loving the classics with new eyes as I tried not to on-the-nose telegraph my excitement for pivotal scenes/dialogue hits… and indeed trying not to be noticed that I was *clearly* vicariously re-introducing myself through their eyes by watching👀 their physical/emotional reactions… reliving the impactful beauty of the art.
Me too. I want to get that full on emotional thing that happened the first time. Sobbing and not daring to breathe. My life will never be the same again. Ren makes more than music. He makes the pain go away.
57 year old man. 'Hi Ren' changed my life. No Lie. So much happier now that I have the insight how to deal with my internal critical voice. Embrace it. New chapter starts today.
I'm a 50 yr old man and Ren has made me cry more in the last 2 months than I have in 20 yrs. But his music has also made me feel more hope and self acceptance than I have in a long, long time. Let him wash over you, it's worth the ride.
Perfect, just perfect. big hug for you from me.🇦🇺 (53 yr old Mum to a 17yr old). Ren is an absolute gift to humanity (A Messiah, an Angel, two words I think of when I think of Ren, I love him like a brother)❤
Other than my age (66 vs. 50), 100% the same journey for me. What a blessing he is, as is the community that we are all now a part of through him. I call it “Ren’s Island of Misfit Toys”. Great reaction - one of many, many I have watched since I first stumbled across this via @TheCharismaticVoice and her also great and moving reaction. You captured so many of the emotions I felt during my first watching. Recapturing those first emotions is why I suspect most of us constantly make the rounds of his reaction videos (as well as daily visits back to the content and sharing it widely). Welcome to the @RenMakesMusic Rabbithole - dozens of brilliant, diverse, powerful, beautiful, jarring, amazing, sad, funny works of art. Peace and many days of light to you, @bShawreacts
Ren is a voice for those who are suffering from chronic illness. He sings about his pains & mental illnesses. I felt your tears & sending you positive vibes.
Ren Erin Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales on March 29, 1990; he eventually moved to Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, Ren began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony. Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which led him to experience psychosis and develop PTSD. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure. Ren is currently in Calgary, Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023) undergoing IV and other interventions five days a week. Ren recently underwent wisdom tooth removal and cavitation surgery. In addition, his Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder (MCAD), which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals as well as his bones/joints. Now, Ren is receiving additional treatments for this previously undiagnosed condition.
Just a heads up, Ren actually publicly said you don't need to distort audio at all to react to his music, if the video gets copyright claimed, just dispute it & he says it'll fix automatically from there. Ren actually LOVES the support he gets from the reaction community of UA-cam
This is true. Ren was attending music school, and under contract with Sony records. He started getting sick and sleeping up to 20 hours a day, Sony dropped him, and the doctors kept telling him the pain etc was in his head. They treated him as a with all kinds on meds. After over seven years, a doctor in Wales discovered he was suffering from lyme disease. He came to the US for stem cell treatment, and is now in Canada under going more treatment for issues caused by all the meds he was given that destroyed nerve sheaths in his brain. Ren is a modern musical and story telling genius. Some people react very emotionally, and others are just speechless. You should react to his trilogy of Jenny and Screech Thanks for your reaction.
I’m completely blown away right now. Makes my struggle seem trivial but I feel we are each carrying our own burden. It’s what we do with our lives that counts for me, not so much about how long we will live. Poor guy…. I hope he is feeling better and will soon be able to get past his struggles. Thank you for the information on Ren. Hope all is well for you also…👍
@@bShawreacts At least we can share our burdens with each other through artistry like Ren's, he's connecting so many of us. Takes a special person to do that. i'm so sorry for your loss as well, it's hell losing a beloved pet, they're family.
I thought you were going to bail at more than one point, but you stuck with it and as a result we all got to witness one of the most raw, honest reactions out there to this genius creation - and I've watched a LOT of them. Between your health problems and the loss of your pup, you're obviously going through a lot right now, but you just showed us all how strong you can be, so keep going, brother! Much love from the UK.
@@bShawreacts Yes, One of the most honest raw reactions to this song on UA-cam. It's therapeutic for anybody that watches but especially for those that have louder voices and issues talking in their head. We all have them.
Re: The Saw pig at the beginning. Its playing a character from a slasher film Saw. I saw an interview where he talked about how we live in this time of extremes- the world is just burying us in content that is made to trigger our emotions. All the sex, violence, its about shock value and grabbing our attention, and we feel all that, its everywhere around us, but also none of it is real. So what he wants to do with his music is create something real. Emotion that is real. And more than anything, thats what people are craving, seeking out in this fake plastic world. There are so many references here. When you start to unpack what he is talking about, its amazing.
I lost my dog of 17 years last Thursday. She was dying but I still wasn’t ready to let her go. I still cry into her blanket. I’ve had leukemia for four years, and the nausea, etc… is devastating. Ren has Lyme disease, so he really understands. You are okay even though you aren’t.
I’m so sorry to hear about your pup. We weren’t ready either but it was time. He was suffering. I’m still heartbroken. He was literally like son to me for 12 years! So hard to say goodbye but I know he isn’t suffering. I’ll be praying for you and that you can find the strength to keep going! 👍
Sorry to hear you’re going through it right now. And so sorry to hear at the beginning of the vid that you recently lost your pup. That’s one of the toughest things. I hope you hang in there. You genuinely seem like a great guy with a good heart and I wish the best for you.
@@bShawreacts We are all here for ya brother! May not know us in person, but we all feel like we know you man so know we a rooting for good things for you, keep being the best you man.
I’ve been in a Hi Ren reaction hole this week and all I wanted to do was hug you like 20000 times. And I kept saying KEEP GOING. It gets there. I hope you’re doing ok and thank you for your vulnerability and your story.
I seriously need an app to keep count of how many Ren videos I have watched and how many reactions to this I have seen. This song broke me the first time I heard it and the more I listened to it the more layers I found. I have cried and stood and cheered analyzed every part of this song and excitedly watched others react to this. But you sir brought me back to that first time. Your heart felt and deeply honest reaction to this made me cry right along with you. I am so sorry about your loss and perhaps this may not have been the best time to experience this. Or perhaps it was the perfect time? Either way I quickly and enthusiastically subbed, liked and told my circle to watch this reaction in particular. THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR VULNERABILITY. and for sharing this masterpiece with your circle.
Reading your comment….i could feel what you felt. I could feel what he felt. I cried for the first time in about the last 50 of the 200 times I watched. Sir, your emotions….THANK YOU. More than you will ever know. Both of you. For the comment writer but especially bShaw. Your reaction was what thousands NEEDED to hear and see. The last year, This song and the comments and Ren and reactors, have showed me I’m not alone. But you two, I am you, you are me. We are one, Can’t you see. I just needed this. We must remember, we are only human beings, and we can only live in the moment Day by day. Trying to be as grateful as humanly possible. Moving forward. We have got this!! We must remember,
I've watched more reactions to this song than I can count and that's one of the purest most honest reactions I've seen. Evidently a tough task but one you stuck to. Please be proud and empowered that you made it through. Rens struggles are well documented and very real. This.... Art.,shines a light on the struggles many face from nagging doubts to far harsher things and that some form of acceptance will ultimately see us through. We are human beings, New sub
Thank you so very much for the kind words. I honestly thought not to post this reaction but I promised myself to always be genuine and honest, especially when it comes to emotions. The more I tried to push them down and never speak about my “struggle” the more it hurt. It’s tough. We are told as Men that we have to be strong and not be afraid to do what has to be done. I agree with that statement. I’m also a firm believer that it’s okay to struggle and feel tired. As you and Ren both have said… I am only human. I hope all is well for you! 👍
What the medical community did to Ren is disgusting. He was suffering from Lyme Disease and was left untreated, they replaced real physical care with anti-psychotic drugs and painkillers. Lyme destroys its victim piece by piece attacking nerves and connective tissue in the body. Once it lays waste to the brain it begins to destroy the myelin sheathing causing psychosis and extreme pain waves. Ren was finally diagnosed in Belgium then an American Dr. paid for stem cell treatments that helped save his life, but the damage done is permanent. He is in Canada doing immune rebuilding and surgery to repair connective tissue damage. Sony, canceled his contract after this began who we all know is the most evil of the industry. Take finding Ren and his talent as a blessing that he means for it to be. His abilities are amazing, and even more so is his great humanity.
Man, this thing is so powerful. Calling it a song feels disrespectful, it is an absolute masterpiece in all areas, music, theatrics, poetry, exploring how fragile the mind is and how we battle against ourselves. Nothing wrong about crying to this beautiful piece or art that reaches the deepest parts of us. As a failed musician, there are parts that resonate so hard with me on how I wanted to change the world with my music, but I was never able to break into the industry and life took me on a different career path. Also having battled with depression and a lot of internal conflict against my negative side, it just moves me beyond words.
Genuine emotion, don’t ever be afraid to show it brother. Ren’s music has a way of drawing it out and trust me, his fans appreciate when we see it connect to people for the first time. This is quite the rabbit hole as he is limitless in his musical and creative talents, he’s basically a genre chameleon and it is shocking just how good he is at everything. Also check out his former band(hopefully temporarily) The Big Push, it’s WELL worth it.
Hey man I lost a kidney at 6 years old and my spleen was removed at 19, I get the sickness struggles you experience. Ren is amazing and this is a great reaction. New sub here!
Seen 200 Reactions to this masterpiece and for what its worth yours tops the list. So sorry to hear about the appalling health problems you've been enduring at such a young age. So young that the medical tech (stem cells, etc...) could yet roll in for you. No question life can be total bitch but IMO works of art like this and honest reactions such as yours speak to our higher nature. So all best wishes and hang in there.
Thank you so much for the kind words. Truly means a lot! I’m trying to keep the faith and be strong it’s just tough sometimes ya know? Thank you for checking out the reaction and the support you have given! Hope all is going well for you! Take care my friend… 👍
I am so glad you shared this reaction. And please don’t ever apologize for showing your emotions. Too often we put on a brave face, rather than allow ourselves to process the pain we feel. I’ve watched countless reactions to Hi Ren and it resonates deeply with people of all ages and backgrounds. That’s the power of music and art like this that comes from deep within an artist’s soul. As others have commented, yes, this was a live recording and it represents a real internal struggle triggered by undiagnosed/misdiagnosed Lyme disease and periods of psychosis. He lost most of his 20s and Sony dropped him from the label when he got sick. But he’s a fighter and he is making waves as an independent artist. Ren posted vlogs documenting the various stages of his illness and one that I watched recently was only 6 years into his battle - before he was diagnosed with Lyme disease - and he said that the one blessing was that his experience gave him empathy. And as you noted, it gave him tremendous wisdom, well beyond his years. He is using his tremendous gifts and his heartbreaking struggles to help others and share a message of hope. I don’t think I’ve ever seen anything as powerful as the closing monologue. The imagery of a pendulum and our dance between the dark and the light will stick with me always. I hope that it gives you something to make your own medical and mental health journey more bearable. The Ren rabbit hole is filled with many gems 💎 from a broad range of styles. And as you can see, the Ren community (RENegades) is incredibly supportive. I’ve subscribed and hope you will react to more Ren. Be kind to yourself 🥰
You are who you are because you're a beast. A monster in battle. Deep breath, clear your thoughts, grab your sword and keep swinging. Crush it all and stand upon your own ashes as you've done so many times before.
I am sure there have been others that have told you a bit more about Ren's history. But he was a very young up and coming artist and got signed by Sony Records... but then he became ill to the point where he couldn't even get out of bed. Test after test, pill after pill, they tried to treat him but nothing was working. He was nearly defeated and didn't think he'd live much longer till finally someone figured out what it was. He had been bitten by a tick and has Lyme disease. It affected him so badly that he had bouts of sycosis as there was fluid on his brain. He is in Canada right now getting treatments and it has helped him. His music was his only outlet, as I am sure yours is. Mine too, I am also a musician. You really should watch Ren - The Tale Of Jenny & Screech (Full) his collab with Chinchilla Chalk Outlines, Sick Boi, Illest of our time, How To Be Me, and his band the Big Push also did some great covers and such!
First time here... NEVER feel guilty about any reaction as a REACTOR!! Good or bad, indifferent or crying your eyes out, people that watch you respond to honesty in reactors first and foremost! Stay well.
Welcome to the Renaissance. Ren is by far the most humble, genuine, raw, extremely gifted artist I have come across in a very long time. He is a gift to us all. And for those of us who are chronically ill he exposes our realities to the masses and there is comfort there. It is rare that an artist comes along and is able to touch one’s soul but he does. He has a song for every mood and a style for everybody. He is incredibly well read and often pays homage to other artists that have inspired him. He is unafraid of speaking truth to power or tackling the grittier sides of life but without being exploitative in the process. Thank you for your reaction. It was honest and genuine. Sorry to hear that you are suffering. There are many of us in similar situations. Know that we are out here if you ever need support or simply need a place to let your guard down. We understand the battle. I wish you peace.
Sharing your road with you, we made it over the hurdles and came through fire to be here today, stronger than ever. Kudo's to you, I don;t know your journey, but can see by what you wrote you have your own tales to tell. Keep on keeping on. Life IS a gift.
Finally I found a reaction channel that understands the song from the perspective of someone going through the same experiences. I have a chronic autoimmune disease and cptsd. This song is the perfect example of how I feel daily and the acceptance i have to carry that this is my life. It's all about keeping enough balance to keep strong. If you read all this I strongly suggest rens sick boi.
I read and respond to every comment that I possibly can. Kinda tough when you start getting 1000’s of comments but I try to respond to each of them. I’m sorry to hear you are going through it as well. Your right though, as hard as it is for us we must accept our new “reality” and maintain a balance when possible! I sincerely hope you are doing ok and will be sending positive vibes out into the universe for you my friend. Thank you for taking the time to watch and share your story with me. Means a lot my friend. Take care…. Much love and respect to you! 💪👍💙
@@bShawreacts thank you for taking the time to read and respond to my comment. Also thank you for the well wishes. Same goes to you and hoping you also have better days ahead since you said you had been struggling lately in your video. Stay strong. With the worst of days a better day is always worth the wait.
I am about 40000 watches into Ren and I cry 80% of the time, his messages hit, he gets everyone in the feels. I have zero mental health issues and life is great, but we are all human.
Rarely react to a reaction video. Been battling MS (Multiple Sclerosis) and depression myself for 10 years now. I get your reaction after the "half my life ill" and feel for you. Wanted to wish you all the best!
Right back at you my friend. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me! Hope all is going okay at the moment for you! Stay strong (as hard as that is)! 👍
Here is some additional information on Ren's story that I gathered from old newspaper interviews, articles, and Ren's livestreams and posts where he discussed his condition. Ren Erin Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales on March 29, 1990; he eventually moved to Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, Ren began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony. Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which led him to experience psychosis and develop PTSD. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure. Ren is currently in Calgary, Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023) undergoing IV and other interventions five days a week. Ren recently underwent wisdom tooth removal and cavitation surgery. In addition, his Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder (MCAD), which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals as well as his bones/joints. Now, Ren is receiving additional treatments for this previously undiagnosed condition. Let's keep supporting Ren as he undergoes his treatments. Check out and subscribe to his channel, if you are a content creator, ask your audience to subscribe to Ren. Listen to some of his earlier work, like and comment on his performances, and let's lift Ren's spirits. If you are a believer, pray for him. Ren is an artist with something to say to the world, and his work is important in these troubling times. Someone has finally created a Wikipedia page for Ren, so there is additional information available. Here is the link to Ren’s GoFundMe page to raise money for his current treatment. Ren has exceeded his initial goal. However, his goal was very conservative and did not reflect the added costs of unforeseen surgical procedures, and treatment for additional health issues such as MCAD. www.gofundme.com/f/ren-get-better-from-lyme-disease-and-autoimmunity
@@bShawreacts Thank you for your kindness and generosity. For what it's worth, I have added you to my daily prayers my friend. I am truly sorry to hear about your health struggles.
@@JensRandolff You are welcome my friend. I was asked by many to start a Gofundmepage so I did (even though truthfully it is so hard to ask for help like that to me). Here is the link gofund.me/b2b8c2cd If you can find some time to share it and read the information on the page it will better describe my health situation as well. I’m really just trying to spread awareness about the importance of taking care of your liver as it contributes to more than 500 things to your body. That is so much more important to me than anything else honestly. Most people (myself included) don’t realize how important the liver is until it’s too late to reverse the effects of damaging it. I didn’t personally do anything to damage my liver (just unlucky genes in my family) but I hope you understand what I’m trying to say and do by sharing my experience. Thank you for spreading the love and support for Ren my friend… the messages has been received by so many! Much love and respect to you and everyone who has/is helping him. He deserves every little bit of it with all he has gone through. Also, I hope you got the chance to see my latest reaction video to Chalk Outlines… literally my new favorite song! 💙
From a fellow "viking" 😉 brother from Sweden with alot of the health issues you talked about and also Ren's. I knew what you got into and could just hope for you to get through it. And you did. Now just keep on fighting. With a little bit of help from Ren, and knowing not being alone in this. 👊
I appreciate your honesty and courage to share some of your own story, and I can empathize with you. I am 57 y/o, a totally and permanently disabled veteran who has been suffering from Chronic Multisymptom Illness (Gulf War Illness) for nearly 30 years. I have been dealing with mental health issues (Major Clinical Depression, Bipolar Disorder, and Unspecified Mood Disorder) in addition to various chronic physical issues. My mental health cost me a successful military career, a marriage, and friendships to the point that I have become a total recluse for the past 13 years. Very rarely do I interact with others outside of the occasional social media (UA-cam, Twitter) post. My condition was brought on by prolonged exposure to low-dose sarin nerve gas and experimental vaccines and meds during the Gulf War. A few years later, the now black-boxed use of the anti-malarial "Mefloquine" pushed me over the edge, and I experienced a psychotic episode. For over 15 years, I was prescribed a cocktail of max doses of psychotropics until I decided to carefully wean myself off all medications in 2014. The side effects of the drugs were too many and too severe, left me an emotional zombie and the benefits were negligible. I struggle with my mental health, as well as physical symptoms, daily, but I rather feel pain than nothing at all. Ren has been able to express through his songs what I have been unsuccessfully trying to communicate to others regarding my mental, emotional, and physical struggles. Each new day, I wholly rely on God for my strength and remind myself that I am doing better than I deserve; without Him, I would have "checked out" a long time ago.
Wow. First, Thank you for your service. Second, you are obviously a tough son of a gun to go through all of that and still be here to help support Ren and other people who are suffering by sharing your story. It’s not easy to get through each and every day. I had a psychotic episode in September because my ammonia levels were elevated and I completely checked out for 4 days. No recollection of anything I did. The Dr. Finally put me into a medically induced coma as I was a danger to myself and anyone around me. They had to get the levels of ammonia corrected until they finally woke me up. One of the many occasions of when my illnesses have gotten the better of me. I pray that in some way there is a way for you to find peace as we go through this journey of life. Thanks again and I will continue to send healing vibes! 👍
@@bShawreacts My friend, I am no tougher than you. We have our struggles and do what we can to get through every day as best as possible. Again, I will keep you in my prayers. God bless you.
I am so glad you are still here, Jens! I think Ren was sent by God for us all. And man I can relate to the psych meds; they are brutal and impossible to get off of.
@@jennymeyers1890 Thank you for your kind words. Psychotropics are indeed difficult to get off of, but not impossible. One has to be smart about it. At one point in time I just quit cold turkey and consequently ended up in handcuffs in the back of a police cruiser, being taken to a psych ward. I learned my lesson and 5 years later very slowly weaned myself off of psych meds and have never again taken any pharmaceuticals of any kind; not even aspirin. God bless you.
This is the song that everyone didn't know they needed. There has not been one person that I have seen react to this that didn't breakdown and weep or sit in sheer awe. I've seen this quite a few times and I still tear up. I'm thankful that I did not have the camera on me when I first seen/heard this. I melted down. I have not been the same since. In a beautiful way. I hope peace finds you my friend. Peace and love always until there is no more!😊❤
Same sister, I feel the exact same, life is changed forever, in a good way. Music is my passion and #Ren has given me hope for the next generation. That there is still incredible music we have yet to hear. It's infinite, thankfully. Peace and love to you. PS my first thought as tears rolled down my face when I first heard this was just one word, all I could think of...PROFOUND, and I haven't stopped sharing Ren's amazing back catalogue, and playing #Ren #TheBigPush #SamTomkins on a loop. World needs #Ren so badly right now. Like we've been sent an Angel, it truly is.
@@zed4225 I hear what you're saying for sure and I totally agree with you. I've been sharing as well in hopes the people I love around me would feel it too. I feel as you do about Ren. I believe he is an angel too. Whole heartedly! Be well friend.❤
Aww peace friend. Have been living with lupus since 2004 and understand doing everything you can to survive the micromoment just to get on to the next one. Ren has helped me to face and think on things that are so deeply buried and are quite frankly terrifying on a level that I cannot really put into words, I just don't know how. Being able to relate to relate on a human level in this way is something I didn't know was possible. Whether Ren's artistry brings a modicum of relief or a moment of utter clarity, he will move you and make you think. Appreciate your reaction and hope you gain some peace and contentment. Peace #Renolution
This song completely changes everything for me. I feel every ounce of what you just explained. I know what I want to say just don’t have the words to express my feelings. It’s tough. The positive is that we are never truly “Alone”. There is always someone who can relate to what we are going through and it is comforting for me to be reminded of that. Didn’t expect that reminder today while checking out Ren for the first time but I am so very grateful. I hope and wish that all is well on your end and that we can all continue to move forward through the kindness and love of others. Which is exactly what you just did… I felt it. Honestly. Thank you. Means the world to me for sure. Take care and know you made my day! 👍
@@bShawreacts Best wishes my friend. I hope Ren helps you with your dance. He's taught me to start learning how to dance instead of fighting. It has been a valuable lesson. Stay strong. Remember, those dark shadows only exist cos there is a bright light around the corner.
Dude... broke my heart to see you go through it with Ren. But...I also noticed that you have almost as many views as you do followers... This MV has a momentum of it's own. And trust me... more than a few thousand have shed tears and relief in the art of this. Be well and find peace.
Yeahhhhh. Mmmmm. Feel you. What struck me after a multitude of reactions I’ve watched since December, was your continuing after hesitating to return to his video beCause of the chords he touched in you. By the very end you said, ‘It’s Over??!’ Like you/we want him/his understanding, to still Be There. Well, you’ve got lot to look forward to😏 💕 What a tough challenge for a reaction person not to jump in and listen to more, on his own. after this little ‘taste’. When I heard this unique musical performance artist I binged out on his colorful palette you have surely been suggested by now to comment on. Timely is Ren. An unfolding gift, every time, and how fortunate are we that follow his generous presence.
Sorry for your struggles. You were saying "I don't know if I'm going to make it to the end" and I'm so glad you did so you could get the positive message. This work of art gets me almost every time and I've watched it many times. We ALL feel this to one degree or another - as he says, "we are human beings". Oddly, it seems to hit the older guys (like me) harder than some of the younger reactors I've seen. I guess the longer you live, the more chance of having the pendulum swing very far to the dark side. I genuinely hope you get to see it swing to the light side again. I think Ren's 33 now and others have listed his very real medical/psychiatric battles since he was a teenager, so yes, about half his life. Also yes, this is essentially a live recording, but I think they edited in some of the close-ups.
Thank you … 👍 Seems you are correct. The longer I live, the harder it gets. I guess that can be said for almost everyone. Thank you so much for taking time to watch and for sharing your thoughts in the comments. Means the world to me my friend. It truly does! Hope you are well! 👍
Thanks for your bravery, man. Your video will speak to many. It feels like it adds yet another layer to Ren's piece. Wish I could just get over to wherever you are and give you a big hug.
Ren's community has your back ❤ 1.1k views in a matter of 3hrs. Ren is 100% wise beyond his years. And this song has brought so many people together, and has helped many people too. I have a close friend that is very ill... She doesnt know how long she has left. She has been secluding herself, its a dark place to be. 😔 But you're looking great man! Anyone that has a heart cries sometimes. And those who dont, are just eating themselves up inside. Its good to release sometimes. I wish you all the luck and the best ❤😊
So very sorry to hear about your friend. I secluded myself from it all about 5 years ago and it nearly destroyed me. I have found that being completely and wholeheartedly honest with those who want to help is the only way I can pull through this struggle. I hope the entire world gets a chance to experience this song at least once! Hope all is well for you… 👍
I'm glad you didn't bail on this one, because Ren's music touches a lot of people who need it. And it helps us find each other and lift each other. I'm sorry you're going through it, but it helps to know so many others can emphasise and maybe lessen our burden. I'll see you on more reactions - hopefully more Ren (he's going to blow your mind, it'll be great to share him with you). And shout out to the Ren army. Such a loving crowd,
Thank you! I almost didn’t post this reaction because I was such an emotional wreck and didn’t want to ruin the experience of what is Ren for everyone. After some thought I asked myself why hide it? Would Ren hide it? No… so neither will I. I must say I am so incredibly grateful that I did share. You guys are so amazing with all of the love and support being given to me… just some random guy on the internet. It’s mind blowing! Hope all is well!
Good interpretation keep it up. Ren is amazing. I think all of us especially those of us that have gone through or are going though health issues can relate.
As a fellow chronic illness warrior, this work of art absolutely broke me open. I felt for you watching your reaction from that perspective- sending you lots of hugs and health vibes.
You showed some heart here sir. No matter how you may look back on it, you went through it. You did not run away even though you struggled from the start. Respect, utmost reapect because this is what it’s all about.
Your reaction is way better than all others , I watched you many times, you are the only one almost who understand beyond the words thanks for sharing with us ❤
You gotta hold on brother. No matter what we cant go down without a fight. You GOT THIS. You hear me? If its one message that Ren wants to put out through this song is that no matter how difficult the cicurmstances you never bow to your demons and you always keep your head up high. You're strong I know it. I believe in you and I know you've got this.
Well done. You made it through Ren's 's journey from one end of his personal hell to the other. The fact that you never gave up means you can now enjoy more of Ren's music which is quite extensive especially when we include several collaborations and his busking street band, The Great Push. Many of Ren's fans have struggles of their own to contend with and Ren performs for us all, transforming our pain into art. Every one of his performances are unique and surprising. We never know where Ren will take us.
This song hit me just like it hit you and I also cried. When you face difficulty and hear something so powerful as this, you get it. I’m so glad you did this reaction and showed your vulnerability. That is what true bravery is. ❤
Thank you… I almost didn’t post it but I am not ashamed of emotions. I just really didn’t want it to come across in the wrong way when I spoke to my health. This song is just so real I couldn’t help but share. Thank you again for watching and commenting. Means a lot… honestly! Hope all is well for you! 👍
7:38 the moment a new Renegade was born ❤️ So sorry to hear you've been going through it, here's a big virtual hug 🥰 You've stumbled into the right place at the right time it seems! Read the descriptions on his videos, here gives more info. Ren has helped so many of us going through it. This is the best community, so much love here. I'm excited to watch your journey down the rabbit hole! I think "how to be me" and "chalk outlines" should be next for you. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you! It is incredibly touching to know there are so many people out there who are willing to share and support anyone who may need. Your absolutely correct also… I am definitely a Renegade now… can’t wait to see what else Ren has to share with us! Hope you are doing well… 👍
Thank you for this reaction. I am going through some stuff too and it was the same reaction for me - " i am not sure i need this right now". Turns out Ren is exactly what i needed. A voice i do not have and who managed to start a wave of empathy among so many people. Please do not apologise for being emotional-we all cry. I hope his music and this community can bring you a bit of comfort and joy. Feel yourself hugged ❤
Thank you so very much! His music is incredible and has already opened my mind! Sorry I was so all over the place with emotions in this reaction. It just hit me in the feels… hope all is well for you also! 👍
i knew the line, "I've spent half my life ill" was going to hit you hard when you said you deal with illness in the beginning. I cried along with you. That line broke me when i first heard this song as a chronically ill 16 year old. Ren has since then saved my life on multiple occasion. I love your reaction and your emotion.
Hey Phoenix , am sending big big love that you're managing to find peace, strength and love in every day if not for all of the day. Keep going brother ❤
I’m doing okay. Still dealing with all of my medical issues but I’m a firm believer that everyone is going through it with something in life. It’ll work out sooner or later.
I’ve watched 50 reactions to this song. Yours was my favorite because it was raw. It reminded me of my own reaction the first time I saw it. Here’s to your health and let those tears out. I struggle to allow myself to cry, but as Ren said. Relax…soften. It’s ok to feel.
Welcome to the rabbit hole of Ren - where we all fall into and learn more about him and ourselves and about human nature in general. Ren tackles personal and social issues in his lyrics and puts us all in a contemplative state with each line and song he delivers. As he once said in one of his short videos vs. CNN - there are social and mental issues that get swept under the rug which nobody wants to talk about. But only by talking about them do we get people to understand and engaged in finding solutions. A lot of us have shed tears over his songs so you're in good company! Please feel free to do more of Ren's songs!
Been touched by performance art many times, even many Broadway shows with many of the greats performing at the top of their craft, but I never had quite the religious experience of watching Hi Ren for the first time. Thanks for the wonderful reaction. Wish you the very best in getting your health issues managed.
Hey mate. All power to you for pushing through this impactful video. Your very human reaction to our daily hurt and pain speaks to us all. Thank you for being you and putting this out. Showing your vulnerability like this is a very Ren thing to do. You’ll get a lot of love from the Ren community. Know that we are on your side and wish you well in your daily struggle.
Well you had me in tears too. So sorry to hear about your dog and your liver problems. You and Ren are in a very relatable situation to each other. I hope for both of you that you will get what you need to restore your health. May there be brighter days ahead, all the best.
Thank you so much. It’s been a tough journey for sure but as you said I am trying to focus on the brighter days ahead! Hope I didn’t ruin the reaction with all the blubbering I was doing. This hit me in the feels extremely hard and I was doing my best to hold it together! Thank you for taking the time to watch and commenting. All the best! 👍
I've watched hi ren 50 odd times so far and it hit me every time. We are all vulnerable and this song is like a depression detector. It reveals your feelings and starts the healing in under 10 minutes. Welcome to the Ren rabbit hole
Proud of you for making it through brother. Ren can put you through a ringer, but the message of hope is there. It's tough, but it's cathartic. Wishing you better health & less struggles.
My heart goes out to you because you touched mine. This masterpiece is almost a gift to humanity because it has an ability to unlock the doors that protect our deepest emotions. Beautiful to see this gift from you. Thank you 👊
I stuck with you the whole way through, my guy. I’ve seen many reactors break down to this song. I’m being tested for liver cirrhosis in three weeks. Been a heavy drinker for 20+ years. I quit drinking six weeks ago after I starting having some serious issues. So yeah, I get it. I’ve come to terms of what it could eventually mean. I wish you the best, truly.
Right back at you! I hope you get the best of results from your test. I have never even taken a sip of alcohol. It just never really seemed to be something I wanted to try. The non-alcoholic cirrhosis was inherited from my biological family. I was adopted at 11 days old and never even considered getting tested until obviously it was too late and my liver is completely destroyed. Stay strong and do your best to stay calm. It’s tough. Here for you my friend if ever you need to just vent or talk about anything. Take care… 👍
Wow, wishing you success and inner peace. You got this. Your an inspiration just by writing this. Massive virtual hug for you. From one who knows the road, and many others beside it, and have come through the fire stronger. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and never a truer sentence. You feel almost invincible. But with so much love, empathy and compassion for anyone going through their own personal he*l. Makes you want to pick others up, to let them know, they aren't alone. You are strong and you will prevail. Love n hugs x
I've seen literally every reaction to this song. This one is in my top twenty. Sitting here crying with you. Glad this found you. Sorry to hear you're struggling. Keep fighting and holding on to hope. Remember what matters. I wish you the best and I believe in you. Welcome to the catalog of a brilliant man. Make sure to see Chalk Outlines (live) w/Chinchilla as well as The Tale of Jenny and Screech (full) when you start digging in. Any that you react to, I'll be here. Liked and subbed.
Wow… that would be cool but not expecting that. I know he is going through a lot right now and most days it’s probably tough to just get out of bed… he is incredibly inspirational for sure! 👍
Thank you for this heartfelt reaction. I'm sorry for what you're going through - somehow this song found you at the right moment. Take care of yourself brother.
Hi Ben. Watched so many reactions to this song but yours is by far the most impactful. Thank you for sharing, God bless you mate, in my heart and prayers. Hope this comment finds you in a better place. John from UK
Thank you for sharing you reaction , one of the most pure, genuine and honest reactions ive seen in the last 3 months . Rens lyrics will stick in you head for a long time ...stay strong
Hello, I to have watched so many reactions to this but yours is one of the most honest and heartfelt. There is something about Ren that brings people together no matter what their experience of life. He is magical in his ability to touch our hearts and make us cry or laugh out loud alongside him. If you venture down the Ren rabbit hole you might be changed but you'll never regret it. Sending best wishes from the UK.
Ren definitely has the musical skills. The song is his reaction to years of misdiagnosed and mistreated health issues which eventually turned out to be Lyme Disease. Come along for the ride. His back catalog is amazing. This song is part of an album recorded last year he is producing & releasing song by song while undergoing further treatment overseas. I’ve watched so many reactors and learned so much from people with different skill sets and histories and backgrounds.
Oh wow… that makes perfect sense now. That’s tough… hope he is doing okay! He seems to be extremely tough to be going through it all yet find the strength to share his story through music with the world. I definitely should’ve reacted to this sooner. Honestly, I’m just blown away by the message and artistry and don’t know why I’m just hearing about Ren! Hope all is well for you and thank you for sharing with me… 👍
You ask if it’s true. Pretty much. His descriptions and timings have sone poetic license. A guy name Jens will likely be along pretty soon to post a well written bio of Ren, so if you don’t want to look it up Jens has got your back. I subscribed, see you next time.
@@bShawreacts Ren's song Power explains how music is how he deals with it all. At times the inflammation in his brain stops his ability to create, and those are his darkest days...
Greetings from Germany! Wishing you all the best! I hope this song will get attention all over the world. Mental health is an important topic. Many people are experiencing difficult struggles and are ashamed about themselves. I think there needs to be more solidarity in our societies. And honesty.
“But my music is really connecting”… It always feels so soothing to share the emotions, and I was crying with you through all of it. Thank you for your heartfelt and honest reaction!
Thank you for going on the journey with me as I experienced Ren for the first time! So incredibly inspiring! Hope you are doing well! Take care my friend…
First time I saw hi ren my reaction was just the same as yours. I've suffered with mental health issues since I was 15 and I'm now 43. I mostly handled the manic depression well and did my best to navigate society and social norms but the last 10 years I've struggled with sever social anxiety and panic attacks, which in turn increased the severity of depression and also has led to severe agoraphobia. Hi ren had me on the verge of tears almost immediately but fully broke me at hope 'the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope". The ending is beautifully uplifting though and I found it quite cathartic. It's so cleverly done throughout and what hits me the most that nearly all reactors I've watched have failed to notice or speculate is that when he goes back into the yodelling at the end, it's like his emotional battle has gone full circle and the yodelling with the lights flickering seems to imply that he's back at the start of the battle and about to go through it all over again such as a real mental health/psychosis episode often would do. Like many others who've watched multiple reactions to this, seeing the reactor get teary sets me off too lol but it's good ro be able to feel so strongly for other's and have that empathy. Great reaction, keep it up and keep well fella.
I plan to watch again for everything I missed on the first listen. So much going on throughout the video that it is nearly impossible to catch it all on first listen. Thank you for the kind words and please remember you are not alone in this either. I know it’s tough at times but we must keep on keeping on. I hope all is well for you my friend. Take care… 👍
@@bShawreacts yeah it's definitely worth giving a few listens. I can't imagine anyone would catch everything in one go. I'm doing okay really. Had to move back in with my parents in 2015 and have been here since. I've not worked since 2015 either due to the panic attacks and agoraphobia and it's been very tough losing so many aspects of personal independence but over time I've learned to lessen expectations of myself and become content with the few little things I can do and I'm now just focusing on fixing the physical problems that have amounted over time due to not being able to make or attend dental or medical appointments for the last 8 years. I have a roof over my head and a little bit of money to keep me going so I'm okay, I just struggle a lot with what most people wouldn't give a second thought, eg dentist apps, phone calls, even going to the shop 5 mins down the road is very hard but I'm going to do prolonged exposure therapy soon and with small steps hopefully get back to being comfortable leaving the house for extended periods of time. Anyway, I let you be! Thanks for replying! Take care man.
Oh and I'll just quickly add, I've always been fortune to find good uplifting music that helps when going through tough times. If you've not heard of them already, you may enjoy a band called "sunny day real estate" the "rising tide" album is one of my favourites and if you have a look for it you'll likely get suggested some other great bands of the late 90's to mid 00's.
Hey brother, I started writing a novel in response to your response and then deleted it because I realized what I wanted to say was very simple. I too have and am suffering and truly feel for you. I am one tuff MF’er but life crashes away at even the toughest of us. You will find something amazing around this song. People will find you and your tears and honesty will help someone!!! One big thing that stood out for me in the song was when he said “I stand here BESIDE you today”, not in front of but beside. People will stand beside you and prop you up when you need it. Another was “I will inspire the meek to be strong!” You will do that too. Well, I ended up writing a novel again...Stand strong brother and let the tears flow when needed!
Thank you so much! Your kind words mean the world my friend! I’m so grateful to have so many reach out in support and show such compassion for a complete stranger. Faith in humanity has definitely been restored! Thank you for taking the time to watch and share your thoughts with us all! Hope all is well for you my man!
Dude we all cry. I've seen this video probably 200 times in the last 2 weeks. It still hits me in the feels. I'm crying right now as a matter of fact. Show your feelings.
Dude… Yes to everything you just said. This song has definitely got me in my feels for sure! Hope all is well for you… 👍
@@bShawreacts hiya! So.... freakin random.... but, my sister was going to need a transplant, and it did not go trough....but, I'm ready. So, if you need a piece of liver..
@@bShawreacts the contribution of the Welsh influence here on Merseyside has often been overlooked, despite the FAB4 having Irish roots, John Lennon reputedly was descended from Owain Glyndwr, peace and love..E..❤❤
I'm not crying... my eyes are sweating. It's all those ocular crunches I've been doing, trying to get those six pack oc's. Yep... that's my story and I'm stickin to it!
Ya man… this def hits a lot of us who’ve been through it pretty hard (whatever “it” may be).
Don't be sorry for being human, we all felt what Ren was saying 😢
But thank you for (like Ren) being vulnerable. You helped so many people by being able to express emotion.
Do you know why we all watch reaction videos? At least for me, it's the fact that I can only experience a song for the first time, once....but reaction videos let me re-experience others first time with that same song. Your reaction to this emotional song hit the nail on the head. I appreciate your willingness to share that with us all.
Thank you!
You put so concisely what I rambled on about. I hope I can just add a heartfelt "ditto"!
100% this. This is exactly how I explained it to another person when they were curious why someone would watch reaction videos. Especially with this song it’s that living vicariously through others hearing it for the first time. Blew me away the first time I heard it. Cried for an hour and watched countless times
I’m 50yo now, and I’ve been doing reactions way before reactions were a thing. Since I was a kid, I remember introducing movies to friends on HBO and VHS, sitting near them, loving the classics with new eyes as I tried not to on-the-nose telegraph my excitement for pivotal scenes/dialogue hits… and indeed trying not to be noticed that I was *clearly* vicariously re-introducing myself through their eyes by watching👀 their physical/emotional reactions… reliving the impactful beauty of the art.
Me too. I want to get that full on emotional thing that happened the first time. Sobbing and not daring to breathe. My life will never be the same again. Ren makes more than music. He makes the pain go away.
He did this LIVE. Took 4 attempts and he went with the best take 💥👏. Dig deep into his catalogue. He is top tier in all genres BELIEVE ME 🍯🤌🎶🎵🙏
Our humanity shows with this video. Real men cry
This is THE most powerful song I have ever heard in my 46 years, hands down.
Completely agree!
Me too and I heard a lot! Addicted to these reaction vids
57 year old man. 'Hi Ren' changed my life. No Lie.
So much happier now that I have the insight how to deal with my internal critical voice.
Embrace it. New chapter starts today.
I'm a 50 yr old man and Ren has made me cry more in the last 2 months than I have in 20 yrs. But his music has also made me feel more hope and self acceptance than I have in a long, long time. Let him wash over you, it's worth the ride.
Perfect, just perfect. big hug for you from me.🇦🇺 (53 yr old Mum to a 17yr old). Ren is an absolute gift to humanity (A Messiah, an Angel, two words I think of when I think of Ren, I love him like a brother)❤
Thank you!
Other than my age (66 vs. 50), 100% the same journey for me. What a blessing he is, as is the community that we are all now a part of through him. I call it “Ren’s Island of Misfit Toys”. Great reaction - one of many, many I have watched since I first stumbled across this via @TheCharismaticVoice and her also great and moving reaction. You captured so many of the emotions I felt during my first watching. Recapturing those first emotions is why I suspect most of us constantly make the rounds of his reaction videos (as well as daily visits back to the content and sharing it widely). Welcome to the @RenMakesMusic Rabbithole - dozens of brilliant, diverse, powerful, beautiful, jarring, amazing, sad, funny works of art. Peace and many days of light to you, @bShawreacts
Me too nearly 50 literally no song has ever made me feel as intense emotions or relate to ever❤
Ren is a voice for those who are suffering from chronic illness. He sings about his pains & mental illnesses. I felt your tears & sending you positive vibes.
Thank you so much. 👍
I felt them too. I cried right alongside with you. Stay strong and keep listening to music..thats what I do..😊
Ren Erin Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales on March 29, 1990; he eventually moved to Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, Ren began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony.
Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which led him to experience psychosis and develop PTSD. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure.
Ren is currently in Calgary, Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023) undergoing IV and other interventions five days a week. Ren recently underwent wisdom tooth removal and cavitation surgery. In addition, his Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder (MCAD), which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals as well as his bones/joints. Now, Ren is receiving additional treatments for this previously undiagnosed condition.
Just a heads up, Ren actually publicly said you don't need to distort audio at all to react to his music, if the video gets copyright claimed, just dispute it & he says it'll fix automatically from there. Ren actually LOVES the support he gets from the reaction community of UA-cam
Awesome! Thanks for sharing this with me! 👍
This is true. Ren was attending music school, and under contract with Sony records. He started getting sick and sleeping up to 20 hours a day, Sony dropped him, and the doctors kept telling him the pain etc was in his head. They treated him as a with all kinds on meds. After over seven years, a doctor in Wales discovered he was suffering from lyme disease. He came to the US for stem cell treatment, and is now in Canada under going more treatment for issues caused by all the meds he was given that destroyed nerve sheaths in his brain.
Ren is a modern musical and story telling genius. Some people react very emotionally, and others are just speechless.
You should react to his trilogy of Jenny and Screech
Thanks for your reaction.
I’m completely blown away right now. Makes my struggle seem trivial but I feel we are each carrying our own burden. It’s what we do with our lives that counts for me, not so much about how long we will live. Poor guy…. I hope he is feeling better and will soon be able to get past his struggles. Thank you for the information on Ren. Hope all is well for you also…👍
@@bShawreacts nothing trivial ,you are valued , my daughter is keeping going too, plodding on is what we do..❤❤
A slight correction: A doctor in Belgium, not Wales, diagnosed his Lyme disease.
@@Colleen_OH Yea, my error. He is from Wales not diagnosed there.
@@bShawreacts At least we can share our burdens with each other through artistry like Ren's, he's connecting so many of us. Takes a special person to do that. i'm so sorry for your loss as well, it's hell losing a beloved pet, they're family.
I thought you were going to bail at more than one point, but you stuck with it and as a result we all got to witness one of the most raw, honest reactions out there to this genius creation - and I've watched a LOT of them. Between your health problems and the loss of your pup, you're obviously going through a lot right now, but you just showed us all how strong you can be, so keep going, brother! Much love from the UK.
Thank you my friend. Means a lot for sure! 👍
@@bShawreacts Yes, One of the most honest raw reactions to this song on UA-cam. It's therapeutic for anybody that watches but especially for those that have louder voices and issues talking in their head. We all have them.
Perfectly said!
Spot on reply, this guy had me in tears. I hope he finds strength in REN’s message.
Re: The Saw pig at the beginning. Its playing a character from a slasher film Saw. I saw an interview where he talked about how we live in this time of extremes- the world is just burying us in content that is made to trigger our emotions. All the sex, violence, its about shock value and grabbing our attention, and we feel all that, its everywhere around us, but also none of it is real. So what he wants to do with his music is create something real. Emotion that is real. And more than anything, thats what people are craving, seeking out in this fake plastic world. There are so many references here. When you start to unpack what he is talking about, its amazing.
I lost my dog of 17 years last Thursday. She was dying but I still wasn’t ready to let her go. I still cry into her blanket. I’ve had leukemia for four years, and the nausea, etc… is devastating. Ren has Lyme disease, so he really understands. You are okay even though you aren’t.
I’m so sorry to hear about your pup. We weren’t ready either but it was time. He was suffering. I’m still heartbroken. He was literally like son to me for 12 years! So hard to say goodbye but I know he isn’t suffering. I’ll be praying for you and that you can find the strength to keep going! 👍
@@bShawreacts nutha hug for you❤
Sorry to hear you’re going through it right now. And so sorry to hear at the beginning of the vid that you recently lost your pup. That’s one of the toughest things. I hope you hang in there. You genuinely seem like a great guy with a good heart and I wish the best for you.
Thank you so much! Means the world! 👍
@@bShawreacts echo that sentiment too...😊
@@eamonnclabby7067 Thank you!
@@bShawreacts 😊
@@bShawreacts We are all here for ya brother! May not know us in person, but we all feel like we know you man so know we a rooting for good things for you, keep being the best you man.
Our Ren "community" rallies around him; wishing for him that he recovers well. I hope you find continued strength and comfort to fight your illness.
Thank you! Means the world to me…. Honestly. 👍
I love to see the comments in Ren reactions. So full of compassion, empathy and humanity.
I completely agree! 👍
@@bShawreactsThe Ren fan community shows so much love and support to each other. Hope you can feel it coming your way!
I’ve been in a Hi Ren reaction hole this week and all I wanted to do was hug you like 20000 times. And I kept saying KEEP GOING. It gets there.
I hope you’re doing ok and thank you for your vulnerability and your story.
I seriously need an app to keep count of how many Ren videos I have watched and how many reactions to this I have seen. This song broke me the first time I heard it and the more I listened to it the more layers I found. I have cried and stood and cheered analyzed every part of this song and excitedly watched others react to this.
But you sir brought me back to that first time.
Your heart felt and deeply honest reaction to this made me cry right along with you. I am so sorry about your loss and perhaps this may not have been the best time to experience this. Or perhaps it was the perfect time? Either way I quickly and enthusiastically subbed, liked and told my circle to watch this reaction in particular.
THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR VULNERABILITY. and for sharing this masterpiece with your circle.
Thank you! Means the world to me… truly it does. I hope you are doing well my friend…
I could not agree more and it’s stunning how many people have had similar experiences upon finding his music. It’s quite a phenomenon
Reading your comment….i could feel what you felt. I could feel what he felt. I cried for the first time in about the last 50 of the 200 times I watched. Sir, your emotions….THANK YOU. More than you will ever know. Both of you. For the comment writer but especially bShaw. Your reaction was what thousands NEEDED to hear and see. The last year, This song and the comments and Ren and reactors, have showed me I’m not alone. But you two, I am you, you are me. We are one, Can’t you see.
I just needed this.
We must remember, we are only human beings, and we can only live in the moment Day by day. Trying to be as grateful as humanly possible. Moving forward. We have got this!!
We must remember,
I've watched more reactions to this song than I can count and that's one of the purest most honest reactions I've seen.
Evidently a tough task but one you stuck to. Please be proud and empowered that you made it through.
Rens struggles are well documented and very real.
This.... Art.,shines a light on the struggles many face from nagging doubts to far harsher things and that some form of acceptance will ultimately see us through.
We are human beings,
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Thank you so very much for the kind words. I honestly thought not to post this reaction but I promised myself to always be genuine and honest, especially when it comes to emotions. The more I tried to push them down and never speak about my “struggle” the more it hurt. It’s tough. We are told as Men that we have to be strong and not be afraid to do what has to be done. I agree with that statement. I’m also a firm believer that it’s okay to struggle and feel tired. As you and Ren both have said… I am only human. I hope all is well for you! 👍
@@bShawreacts ❤
@@bShawreacts Stay strong brother
@@bShawreacts❤
We got you, boo. Sending support and love from Canada 🇨🇦 ❤
Thank you! 💙
What the medical community did to Ren is disgusting. He was suffering from Lyme Disease and was left untreated, they replaced real physical care with anti-psychotic drugs and painkillers. Lyme destroys its victim piece by piece attacking nerves and connective tissue in the body. Once it lays waste to the brain it begins to destroy the myelin sheathing causing psychosis and extreme pain waves. Ren was finally diagnosed in Belgium then an American Dr. paid for stem cell treatments that helped save his life, but the damage done is permanent. He is in Canada doing immune rebuilding and surgery to repair connective tissue damage. Sony, canceled his contract after this began who we all know is the most evil of the industry. Take finding Ren and his talent as a blessing that he means for it to be. His abilities are amazing, and even more so is his great humanity.
Man, this thing is so powerful. Calling it a song feels disrespectful, it is an absolute masterpiece in all areas, music, theatrics, poetry, exploring how fragile the mind is and how we battle against ourselves. Nothing wrong about crying to this beautiful piece or art that reaches the deepest parts of us. As a failed musician, there are parts that resonate so hard with me on how I wanted to change the world with my music, but I was never able to break into the industry and life took me on a different career path. Also having battled with depression and a lot of internal conflict against my negative side, it just moves me beyond words.
Genuine emotion, don’t ever be afraid to show it brother. Ren’s music has a way of drawing it out and trust me, his fans appreciate when we see it connect to people for the first time. This is quite the rabbit hole as he is limitless in his musical and creative talents, he’s basically a genre chameleon and it is shocking just how good he is at everything. Also check out his former band(hopefully temporarily) The Big Push, it’s WELL worth it.
Thank you for the kind words. It is so incredibly inspiring to see so many people who care. It’s humbling… honestly. Hope all is well for you! 👍
Hey man I lost a kidney at 6 years old and my spleen was removed at 19, I get the sickness struggles you experience. Ren is amazing and this is a great reaction. New sub here!
Thank you!
"I'm not going to cry, because who wants to see that, right."
Bro. We all want to see you cry, like we did/do the first time, and every time.
This is the most vulnerable and genuine reaction so far.. and I have seen dozens of Hi ren reactions. Thank you man. BE STRONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you my friend. I’m trying with all that I have!
Seen 200 Reactions to this masterpiece and for what its worth yours tops the list. So sorry to hear about the appalling health problems you've been enduring at such a young age. So young that the medical tech (stem cells, etc...) could yet roll in for you. No question life can be total bitch but IMO works of art like this and honest reactions such as yours speak to our higher nature. So all best wishes and hang in there.
Thank you so much for the kind words. Truly means a lot! I’m trying to keep the faith and be strong it’s just tough sometimes ya know? Thank you for checking out the reaction and the support you have given! Hope all is going well for you! Take care my friend… 👍
We are junkies I lost count myself 😢
@@steinsway10 who’s counting? 😜
@@bShawreacts thoughts and prayers to you...❤❤😊😊
I am so glad you shared this reaction. And please don’t ever apologize for showing your emotions. Too often we put on a brave face, rather than allow ourselves to process the pain we feel.
I’ve watched countless reactions to Hi Ren and it resonates deeply with people of all ages and backgrounds. That’s the power of music and art like this that comes from deep within an artist’s soul.
As others have commented, yes, this was a live recording and it represents a real internal struggle triggered by undiagnosed/misdiagnosed Lyme disease and periods of psychosis. He lost most of his 20s and Sony dropped him from the label when he got sick. But he’s a fighter and he is making waves as an independent artist.
Ren posted vlogs documenting the various stages of his illness and one that I watched recently was only 6 years into his battle - before he was diagnosed with Lyme disease - and he said that the one blessing was that his experience gave him empathy. And as you noted, it gave him tremendous wisdom, well beyond his years.
He is using his tremendous gifts and his heartbreaking struggles to help others and share a message of hope. I don’t think I’ve ever seen anything as powerful as the closing monologue. The imagery of a pendulum and our dance between the dark and the light will stick with me always. I hope that it gives you something to make your own medical and mental health journey more bearable.
The Ren rabbit hole is filled with many gems 💎 from a broad range of styles. And as you can see, the Ren community (RENegades) is incredibly supportive. I’ve subscribed and hope you will react to more Ren. Be kind to yourself 🥰
Thank you. Your words are beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing with me! 👍
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A very compassionate and well written post, thank you for sharing this, Elizabeth..😊
You are who you are because you're a beast. A monster in battle. Deep breath, clear your thoughts, grab your sword and keep swinging. Crush it all and stand upon your own ashes as you've done so many times before.
I am sure there have been others that have told you a bit more about Ren's history. But he was a very young up and coming artist and got signed by Sony Records... but then he became ill to the point where he couldn't even get out of bed. Test after test, pill after pill, they tried to treat him but nothing was working. He was nearly defeated and didn't think he'd live much longer till finally someone figured out what it was. He had been bitten by a tick and has Lyme disease. It affected him so badly that he had bouts of sycosis as there was fluid on his brain. He is in Canada right now getting treatments and it has helped him. His music was his only outlet, as I am sure yours is. Mine too, I am also a musician. You really should watch Ren - The Tale Of Jenny & Screech (Full) his collab with Chinchilla Chalk Outlines, Sick Boi, Illest of our time, How To Be Me, and his band the Big Push also did some great covers and such!
I’m surprised that a few people haven’t cried in their reaction videos. Ren is remarkable.
Thank you so much for such a heart-felt reaction. I do wish for you improved health and much happiness.
Thank you!
We all cried the first time. And many times after. No shame. Big (gentle) hugs to you.
Thank you!
First time here... NEVER feel guilty about any reaction as a REACTOR!! Good or bad, indifferent or crying your eyes out, people that watch you respond to honesty in reactors first and foremost! Stay well.
Thank you! Means so much to me! Take care my friend!
Welcome to the Renaissance. Ren is by far the most humble, genuine, raw, extremely gifted artist I have come across in a very long time. He is a gift to us all. And for those of us who are chronically ill he exposes our realities to the masses and there is comfort there. It is rare that an artist comes along and is able to touch one’s soul but he does. He has a song for every mood and a style for everybody. He is incredibly well read and often pays homage to other artists that have inspired him. He is unafraid of speaking truth to power or tackling the grittier sides of life but without being exploitative in the process. Thank you for your reaction. It was honest and genuine. Sorry to hear that you are suffering. There are many of us in similar situations. Know that we are out here if you ever need support or simply need a place to let your guard down. We understand the battle. I wish you peace.
Sharing your road with you, we made it over the hurdles and came through fire to be here today, stronger than ever. Kudo's to you, I don;t know your journey, but can see by what you wrote you have your own tales to tell. Keep on keeping on. Life IS a gift.
Thank you!
That was very brave of you. You faced the pain head on which is exactly what Ren is asking us to do. Well done!
Thank you! 👍
Finally I found a reaction channel that understands the song from the perspective of someone going through the same experiences. I have a chronic autoimmune disease and cptsd. This song is the perfect example of how I feel daily and the acceptance i have to carry that this is my life. It's all about keeping enough balance to keep strong. If you read all this I strongly suggest rens sick boi.
I read and respond to every comment that I possibly can. Kinda tough when you start getting 1000’s of comments but I try to respond to each of them. I’m sorry to hear you are going through it as well. Your right though, as hard as it is for us we must accept our new “reality” and maintain a balance when possible! I sincerely hope you are doing ok and will be sending positive vibes out into the universe for you my friend. Thank you for taking the time to watch and share your story with me. Means a lot my friend. Take care…. Much love and respect to you! 💪👍💙
@@bShawreacts thank you for taking the time to read and respond to my comment. Also thank you for the well wishes. Same goes to you and hoping you also have better days ahead since you said you had been struggling lately in your video. Stay strong. With the worst of days a better day is always worth the wait.
I am about 40000 watches into Ren and I cry 80% of the time, his messages hit, he gets everyone in the feels. I have zero mental health issues and life is great, but we are all human.
Rarely react to a reaction video.
Been battling MS (Multiple Sclerosis) and depression myself for 10 years now. I get your reaction after the "half my life ill" and feel for you.
Wanted to wish you all the best!
Right back at you my friend. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me! Hope all is going okay at the moment for you! Stay strong (as hard as that is)! 👍
I have watched 100s of reactions to this video, yours is one of the most beautiful and sincere I have seen. Thank you!
Thank you!
Life is about managing the dark times. ! Please always keep some light! Aw best.
Here is some additional information on Ren's story that I gathered from old newspaper interviews, articles, and Ren's livestreams and posts where he discussed his condition. Ren Erin Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales on March 29, 1990; he eventually moved to Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, Ren began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony.
Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which led him to experience psychosis and develop PTSD. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure.
Ren is currently in Calgary, Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023) undergoing IV and other interventions five days a week. Ren recently underwent wisdom tooth removal and cavitation surgery. In addition, his Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder (MCAD), which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals as well as his bones/joints. Now, Ren is receiving additional treatments for this previously undiagnosed condition.
Let's keep supporting Ren as he undergoes his treatments. Check out and subscribe to his channel, if you are a content creator, ask your audience to subscribe to Ren. Listen to some of his earlier work, like and comment on his performances, and let's lift Ren's spirits. If you are a believer, pray for him. Ren is an artist with something to say to the world, and his work is important in these troubling times. Someone has finally created a Wikipedia page for Ren, so there is additional information available.
Here is the link to Ren’s GoFundMe page to raise money for his current treatment. Ren has exceeded his initial goal. However, his goal was very conservative and did not reflect the added costs of unforeseen surgical procedures, and treatment for additional health issues such as MCAD. www.gofundme.com/f/ren-get-better-from-lyme-disease-and-autoimmunity
Consider it done! I’ll do anything I can to help out Ren as he goes through this. Wow… what a talented and inspiring young man he is. 👍
@@bShawreacts Thank you for your kindness and generosity. For what it's worth, I have added you to my daily prayers my friend. I am truly sorry to hear about your health struggles.
@@bShawreacts Ask and we will help❤❤
@@JensRandolff You are welcome my friend. I was asked by many to start a Gofundmepage so I did (even though truthfully it is so hard to ask for help like that to me). Here is the link gofund.me/b2b8c2cd If you can find some time to share it and read the information on the page it will better describe my health situation as well. I’m really just trying to spread awareness about the importance of taking care of your liver as it contributes to more than 500 things to your body. That is so much more important to me than anything else honestly. Most people (myself included) don’t realize how important the liver is until it’s too late to reverse the effects of damaging it. I didn’t personally do anything to damage my liver (just unlucky genes in my family) but I hope you understand what I’m trying to say and do by sharing my experience. Thank you for spreading the love and support for Ren my friend… the messages has been received by so many! Much love and respect to you and everyone who has/is helping him. He deserves every little bit of it with all he has gone through. Also, I hope you got the chance to see my latest reaction video to Chalk Outlines… literally my new favorite song! 💙
@@JensRandolff thank you 🙏 same to to my friend 💙
From a fellow "viking" 😉 brother from Sweden with alot of the health issues you talked about and also Ren's. I knew what you got into and could just hope for you to get through it. And you did. Now just keep on fighting. With a little bit of help from Ren, and knowing not being alone in this. 👊
Thank you so much for this comment my friend! 👍
I appreciate your honesty and courage to share some of your own story, and I can empathize with you. I am 57 y/o, a totally and permanently disabled veteran who has been suffering from Chronic Multisymptom Illness (Gulf War Illness) for nearly 30 years. I have been dealing with mental health issues (Major Clinical Depression, Bipolar Disorder, and Unspecified Mood Disorder) in addition to various chronic physical issues. My mental health cost me a successful military career, a marriage, and friendships to the point that I have become a total recluse for the past 13 years. Very rarely do I interact with others outside of the occasional social media (UA-cam, Twitter) post. My condition was brought on by prolonged exposure to low-dose sarin nerve gas and experimental vaccines and meds during the Gulf War. A few years later, the now black-boxed use of the anti-malarial "Mefloquine" pushed me over the edge, and I experienced a psychotic episode. For over 15 years, I was prescribed a cocktail of max doses of psychotropics until I decided to carefully wean myself off all medications in 2014. The side effects of the drugs were too many and too severe, left me an emotional zombie and the benefits were negligible. I struggle with my mental health, as well as physical symptoms, daily, but I rather feel pain than nothing at all. Ren has been able to express through his songs what I have been unsuccessfully trying to communicate to others regarding my mental, emotional, and physical struggles. Each new day, I wholly rely on God for my strength and remind myself that I am doing better than I deserve; without Him, I would have "checked out" a long time ago.
Wow. First, Thank you for your service. Second, you are obviously a tough son of a gun to go through all of that and still be here to help support Ren and other people who are suffering by sharing your story. It’s not easy to get through each and every day. I had a psychotic episode in September because my ammonia levels were elevated and I completely checked out for 4 days. No recollection of anything I did. The Dr. Finally put me into a medically induced coma as I was a danger to myself and anyone around me. They had to get the levels of ammonia corrected until they finally woke me up. One of the many occasions of when my illnesses have gotten the better of me. I pray that in some way there is a way for you to find peace as we go through this journey of life. Thanks again and I will continue to send healing vibes! 👍
@@bShawreacts My friend, I am no tougher than you. We have our struggles and do what we can to get through every day as best as possible. Again, I will keep you in my prayers. God bless you.
Bless you. Thanks for sharing. What a wonderful community Ren has created.
I am so glad you are still here, Jens! I think Ren was sent by God for us all. And man I can relate to the psych meds; they are brutal and impossible to get off of.
@@jennymeyers1890 Thank you for your kind words. Psychotropics are indeed difficult to get off of, but not impossible. One has to be smart about it. At one point in time I just quit cold turkey and consequently ended up in handcuffs in the back of a police cruiser, being taken to a psych ward. I learned my lesson and 5 years later very slowly weaned myself off of psych meds and have never again taken any pharmaceuticals of any kind; not even aspirin. God bless you.
This is the song that everyone didn't know they needed.
There has not been one person that I have seen react to this that didn't breakdown and weep or sit in sheer awe.
I've seen this quite a few times and I still tear up. I'm thankful that I did not have the camera on me when I first seen/heard this.
I melted down. I have not been the same since.
In a beautiful way.
I hope peace finds you my friend.
Peace and love always until there is no more!😊❤
Thank you!
As a certain fellow scouser was wont to say ( Richard Starkey aka Ringo Starr) ...peace and love..E.😊
@@bShawreacts ❤Youre welcome
Same sister, I feel the exact same, life is changed forever, in a good way. Music is my passion and #Ren has given me hope for the next generation. That there is still incredible music we have yet to hear. It's infinite, thankfully. Peace and love to you.
PS my first thought as tears rolled down my face when I first heard this was just one word, all I could think of...PROFOUND, and I haven't stopped sharing Ren's amazing back catalogue, and playing #Ren #TheBigPush #SamTomkins on a loop.
World needs #Ren so badly right now. Like we've been sent an Angel, it truly is.
@@zed4225 I hear what you're saying for sure and I totally agree with you. I've been sharing as well in hopes the people I love around me would feel it too. I feel as you do about Ren.
I believe he is an angel too.
Whole heartedly!
Be well friend.❤
Aww peace friend. Have been living with lupus since 2004 and understand doing everything you can to survive the micromoment just to get on to the next one. Ren has helped me to face and think on things that are so deeply buried and are quite frankly terrifying on a level that I cannot really put into words, I just don't know how. Being able to relate to relate on a human level in this way is something I didn't know was possible. Whether Ren's artistry brings a modicum of relief or a moment of utter clarity, he will move you and make you think. Appreciate your reaction and hope you gain some peace and contentment. Peace #Renolution
This song completely changes everything for me. I feel every ounce of what you just explained. I know what I want to say just don’t have the words to express my feelings. It’s tough. The positive is that we are never truly “Alone”. There is always someone who can relate to what we are going through and it is comforting for me to be reminded of that. Didn’t expect that reminder today while checking out Ren for the first time but I am so very grateful. I hope and wish that all is well on your end and that we can all continue to move forward through the kindness and love of others. Which is exactly what you just did… I felt it. Honestly. Thank you. Means the world to me for sure. Take care and know you made my day! 👍
@@bShawreacts Best wishes my friend. I hope Ren helps you with your dance. He's taught me to start learning how to dance instead of fighting. It has been a valuable lesson. Stay strong. Remember, those dark shadows only exist cos there is a bright light around the corner.
Dude... broke my heart to see you go through it with Ren.
But...I also noticed that you have almost as many views as you do followers...
This MV has a momentum of it's own.
And trust me... more than a few thousand have shed tears and relief in the art of this.
Be well and find peace.
Thank you! 💙
Yeahhhhh. Mmmmm.
Feel you. What struck me after a multitude of reactions I’ve watched since December, was your continuing after hesitating to return to his video beCause of the chords he touched in you. By the very end you said, ‘It’s Over??!’
Like you/we want him/his understanding, to still Be There.
Well, you’ve got lot to look forward to😏 💕
What a tough challenge for a reaction person not to jump in and listen to more, on his own. after this little ‘taste’. When I heard this unique musical performance artist I binged out on his colorful palette you have surely been suggested by now to comment on.
Timely is Ren. An unfolding gift, every time, and how fortunate are we that follow his generous presence.
Thank you! 💙
Sorry for your struggles. You were saying "I don't know if I'm going to make it to the end" and I'm so glad you did so you could get the positive message. This work of art gets me almost every time and I've watched it many times. We ALL feel this to one degree or another - as he says, "we are human beings". Oddly, it seems to hit the older guys (like me) harder than some of the younger reactors I've seen. I guess the longer you live, the more chance of having the pendulum swing very far to the dark side. I genuinely hope you get to see it swing to the light side again.
I think Ren's 33 now and others have listed his very real medical/psychiatric battles since he was a teenager, so yes, about half his life. Also yes, this is essentially a live recording, but I think they edited in some of the close-ups.
Thank you … 👍 Seems you are correct. The longer I live, the harder it gets. I guess that can be said for almost everyone. Thank you so much for taking time to watch and for sharing your thoughts in the comments. Means the world to me my friend. It truly does! Hope you are well! 👍
I loved your raw and honest reaction video. Thank you!
Thank you!
Thanks for your bravery, man. Your video will speak to many. It feels like it adds yet another layer to Ren's piece. Wish I could just get over to wherever you are and give you a big hug.
Thank you so much! I’ll just think of it as a “virtual hug”! That was a tough one for sure! Hope all is well on your end of things…👍
❤may you find your personal strength during this time in your life❤
Thank you!
Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you peace.
Thank you!
Ren's community has your back ❤ 1.1k views in a matter of 3hrs.
Ren is 100% wise beyond his years. And this song has brought so many people together, and has helped many people too.
I have a close friend that is very ill... She doesnt know how long she has left. She has been secluding herself, its a dark place to be. 😔
But you're looking great man! Anyone that has a heart cries sometimes. And those who dont, are just eating themselves up inside. Its good to release sometimes. I wish you all the luck and the best ❤😊
So very sorry to hear about your friend. I secluded myself from it all about 5 years ago and it nearly destroyed me. I have found that being completely and wholeheartedly honest with those who want to help is the only way I can pull through this struggle. I hope the entire world gets a chance to experience this song at least once! Hope all is well for you… 👍
@@bShawreacts Thank you! So glad you crawled out of that seclusion somehow ❤️ and yes, I wish everyone would hear it at least once!!
What a brave and honest reaction. 👏
Wish you all the best with your health.
I hope you feel better soon. ❤ I think many Ren fans are suffering with health issues. 😢 we keep holding on.
I'm glad you didn't bail on this one, because Ren's music touches a lot of people who need it. And it helps us find each other and lift each other. I'm sorry you're going through it, but it helps to know so many others can emphasise and maybe lessen our burden. I'll see you on more reactions - hopefully more Ren (he's going to blow your mind, it'll be great to share him with you). And shout out to the Ren army. Such a loving crowd,
Back atcha #Binary Bad, love n peace to you and yours❣🤜🏼🤛🏼
Thank you! I almost didn’t post this reaction because I was such an emotional wreck and didn’t want to ruin the experience of what is Ren for everyone. After some thought I asked myself why hide it? Would Ren hide it? No… so neither will I. I must say I am so incredibly grateful that I did share. You guys are so amazing with all of the love and support being given to me… just some random guy on the internet. It’s mind blowing! Hope all is well!
Good interpretation keep it up. Ren is amazing. I think all of us especially those of us that have gone through or are going though health issues can relate.
Authentic, honest, simply real. Thanks for your reaction. 🙂 We are not alone.
Thank you!
Brother trust in the music. It will always bring us together on so many levels
A great reaction man. An honest one for sure. Ren is for you #Ren
As a fellow chronic illness warrior, this work of art absolutely broke me open. I felt for you watching your reaction from that perspective- sending you lots of hugs and health vibes.
Thank you!
You showed some heart here sir. No matter how you may look back on it, you went through it. You did not run away even though you struggled from the start. Respect, utmost reapect because this is what it’s all about.
It was tough for sure. It captured me from the first second of the song. So incredibly talented. Hope you are doing well! 👍
@@bShawreacts I understand, i felt the same way.. not doing ok,but I’m not alone im that regard..
Your reaction is way better than all others , I watched you many times, you are the only one almost who understand beyond the words thanks for sharing with us ❤
we are conected man - REN did that - go watch and listen to other stuff of him - he is a soulful healer on so many levels.
I plan to do exactly that! Thanks for taking time to respond and watch the reaction! Means a lot… hope all is going well for you! 👍
Thank you for sharing a part of you in your reaction.
You gotta hold on brother. No matter what we cant go down without a fight. You GOT THIS. You hear me? If its one message that Ren wants to put out through this song is that no matter how difficult the cicurmstances you never bow to your demons and you always keep your head up high. You're strong I know it. I believe in you and I know you've got this.
Thank you!
Well done. You made it through Ren's 's journey from one end of his personal hell to the other. The fact that you never gave up means you can now enjoy more of Ren's music which is quite extensive especially when we include several collaborations and his busking street band, The Great Push. Many of Ren's fans have struggles of their own to contend with and Ren performs for us all, transforming our pain into art. Every one of his performances are unique and surprising. We never know where Ren will take us.
This song hit me just like it hit you and I also cried. When you face difficulty and hear something so powerful as this, you get it. I’m so glad you did this reaction and showed your vulnerability. That is what true bravery is. ❤
Thank you… I almost didn’t post it but I am not ashamed of emotions. I just really didn’t want it to come across in the wrong way when I spoke to my health. This song is just so real I couldn’t help but share. Thank you again for watching and commenting. Means a lot… honestly! Hope all is well for you! 👍
7:38 the moment a new Renegade was born ❤️ So sorry to hear you've been going through it, here's a big virtual hug 🥰 You've stumbled into the right place at the right time it seems! Read the descriptions on his videos, here gives more info. Ren has helped so many of us going through it. This is the best community, so much love here. I'm excited to watch your journey down the rabbit hole! I think "how to be me" and "chalk outlines" should be next for you. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you! It is incredibly touching to know there are so many people out there who are willing to share and support anyone who may need. Your absolutely correct also… I am definitely a Renegade now… can’t wait to see what else Ren has to share with us! Hope you are doing well… 👍
@@bShawreacts ❤️❤️❤️
@@bShawreacts 🙌🫶😊
Thank you for this reaction. I am going through some stuff too and it was the same reaction for me - " i am not sure i need this right now". Turns out Ren is exactly what i needed. A voice i do not have and who managed to start a wave of empathy among so many people. Please do not apologise for being emotional-we all cry. I hope his music and this community can bring you a bit of comfort and joy. Feel yourself hugged ❤
Thank you so much! 👍
You need to hear this though, that's just it, nuts isn't it. But when you get to the end you will feel lifted. Like you got this. You have got this.
I hope that Ren’s music brings you some comfort and helps you come to terms with whatever parts of yourself you’re fighting right now ❤
Thank you so very much! His music is incredible and has already opened my mind! Sorry I was so all over the place with emotions in this reaction. It just hit me in the feels… hope all is well for you also! 👍
Both of you are marvellous for sharing...❤❤
i knew the line, "I've spent half my life ill" was going to hit you hard when you said you deal with illness in the beginning. I cried along with you. That line broke me when i first heard this song as a chronically ill 16 year old. Ren has since then saved my life on multiple occasion. I love your reaction and your emotion.
Hey Phoenix , am sending big big love that you're managing to find peace, strength and love in every day if not for all of the day. Keep going brother ❤
My heart goes out to you and just wanted to check in how you are doing. Just found your reaction and just wanted to hug you the whole time.
I’m doing okay. Still dealing with all of my medical issues but I’m a firm believer that everyone is going through it with something in life. It’ll work out sooner or later.
I’ve watched 50 reactions to this song. Yours was my favorite because it was raw. It reminded me of my own reaction the first time I saw it. Here’s to your health and let those tears out. I struggle to allow myself to cry, but as Ren said. Relax…soften. It’s ok to feel.
Thank you 🙏💙
Welcome to the rabbit hole of Ren - where we all fall into and learn more about him and ourselves and about human nature in general. Ren tackles personal and social issues in his lyrics and puts us all in a contemplative state with each line and song he delivers. As he once said in one of his short videos vs. CNN - there are social and mental issues that get swept under the rug which nobody wants to talk about. But only by talking about them do we get people to understand and engaged in finding solutions.
A lot of us have shed tears over his songs so you're in good company!
Please feel free to do more of Ren's songs!
Thank you. For your vulnerability , for your empathy, for your emotion. I appreciate you and your reaction so much!
Thank you! Right back at you my friend!
Been touched by performance art many times, even many Broadway shows with many of the greats performing at the top of their craft, but I never had quite the religious experience of watching Hi Ren for the first time. Thanks for the wonderful reaction. Wish you the very best in getting your health issues managed.
Thank you!
Hey mate. All power to you for pushing through this impactful video. Your very human reaction to our daily hurt and pain speaks to us all. Thank you for being you and putting this out. Showing your vulnerability like this is a very Ren thing to do. You’ll get a lot of love from the Ren community. Know that we are on your side and wish you well in your daily struggle.
😢. Thank you so much. That is so kind of you! 👍
The most authentic, genuine and heartfelt reaction to Hi Ren that I have seen and I have watched a lot of them. Thank you for posting this 🙏
Thank you so much!
Agree 100%
Well you had me in tears too. So sorry to hear about your dog and your liver problems. You and Ren are in a very relatable situation to each other. I hope for both of you that you will get what you need to restore your health. May there be brighter days ahead, all the best.
Thank you so much. It’s been a tough journey for sure but as you said I am trying to focus on the brighter days ahead! Hope I didn’t ruin the reaction with all the blubbering I was doing. This hit me in the feels extremely hard and I was doing my best to hold it together! Thank you for taking the time to watch and commenting. All the best! 👍
@@bShawreacts Your reaction was raw and honest and that is a beautiful thing.
I've watched hi ren 50 odd times so far and it hit me every time.
We are all vulnerable and this song is like a depression detector. It reveals your feelings and starts the healing in under 10 minutes.
Welcome to the Ren rabbit hole
Thank you!
Proud of you for making it through brother. Ren can put you through a ringer, but the message of hope is there. It's tough, but it's cathartic. Wishing you better health & less struggles.
Thank you!
My heart goes out to you because you touched mine. This masterpiece is almost a gift to humanity because it has an ability to unlock the doors that protect our deepest emotions. Beautiful to see this gift from you. Thank you 👊
Thank you…
I stuck with you the whole way through, my guy. I’ve seen many reactors break down to this song.
I’m being tested for liver cirrhosis in three weeks. Been a heavy drinker for 20+ years. I quit drinking six weeks ago after I starting having some serious issues. So yeah, I get it. I’ve come to terms of what it could eventually mean.
I wish you the best, truly.
Right back at you! I hope you get the best of results from your test. I have never even taken a sip of alcohol. It just never really seemed to be something I wanted to try. The non-alcoholic cirrhosis was inherited from my biological family. I was adopted at 11 days old and never even considered getting tested until obviously it was too late and my liver is completely destroyed. Stay strong and do your best to stay calm. It’s tough. Here for you my friend if ever you need to just vent or talk about anything. Take care… 👍
Wow, wishing you success and inner peace. You got this. Your an inspiration just by writing this. Massive virtual hug for you. From one who knows the road, and many others beside it, and have come through the fire stronger.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and never a truer sentence. You feel almost invincible. But with so much love, empathy and compassion for anyone going through their own personal he*l.
Makes you want to pick others up, to let them know, they aren't alone. You are strong and you will prevail.
Love n hugs x
I've seen literally every reaction to this song. This one is in my top twenty. Sitting here crying with you. Glad this found you.
Sorry to hear you're struggling. Keep fighting and holding on to hope. Remember what matters. I wish you the best and I believe in you.
Welcome to the catalog of a brilliant man. Make sure to see Chalk Outlines (live) w/Chinchilla as well as The Tale of Jenny and Screech (full) when you start digging in. Any that you react to, I'll be here. Liked and subbed.
Thank you so very much. Means a lot to me when people share their thoughts with me! Hope all is going well for you! 👍
Great reaction, and Ren is a great guy and often comments on reactions to his artworks. So hey Ren , give this guy a comment. :)
Wow… that would be cool but not expecting that. I know he is going through a lot right now and most days it’s probably tough to just get out of bed… he is incredibly inspirational for sure! 👍
Thank you for this heartfelt reaction. I'm sorry for what you're going through - somehow this song found you at the right moment. Take care of yourself brother.
Thank you!
There's always HOPE my friend, Ren touches so many people 🙏🥰
Hi Ben.
Watched so many reactions to this song but yours is by far the most impactful. Thank you for sharing, God bless you mate, in my heart and prayers. Hope this comment finds you in a better place. John from UK
Thank you John! Very much appreciated!
Thank you for sharing you reaction , one of the most pure, genuine and honest reactions ive seen in the last 3 months . Rens lyrics will stick in you head for a long time ...stay strong
Thank you! You are so right! Hit me extremely hard! Hope all is well for you! 👍
Hello, I to have watched so many reactions to this but yours is one of the most honest and heartfelt. There is something about Ren that brings people together no matter what their experience of life. He is magical in his ability to touch our hearts and make us cry or laugh out loud alongside him. If you venture down the Ren rabbit hole you might be changed but you'll never regret it. Sending best wishes from the UK.
Ren definitely has the musical skills. The song is his reaction to years of misdiagnosed and mistreated health issues which eventually turned out to be Lyme Disease.
Come along for the ride. His back catalog is amazing. This song is part of an album recorded last year he is producing & releasing song by song while undergoing further treatment overseas.
I’ve watched so many reactors and learned so much from people with different skill sets and histories and backgrounds.
Oh wow… that makes perfect sense now. That’s tough… hope he is doing okay! He seems to be extremely tough to be going through it all yet find the strength to share his story through music with the world. I definitely should’ve reacted to this sooner. Honestly, I’m just blown away by the message and artistry and don’t know why I’m just hearing about Ren! Hope all is well for you and thank you for sharing with me… 👍
You ask if it’s true. Pretty much. His descriptions and timings have sone poetic license. A guy name Jens will likely be along pretty soon to post a well written bio of Ren, so if you don’t want to look it up Jens has got your back.
I subscribed, see you next time.
@@bShawreacts Ren's song Power explains how music is how he deals with it all. At times the inflammation in his brain stops his ability to create, and those are his darkest days...
Greetings from Germany! Wishing you all the best!
I hope this song will get attention all over the world. Mental health is an important topic. Many people are experiencing difficult struggles and are ashamed about themselves. I think there needs to be more solidarity in our societies. And honesty.
“But my music is really connecting”… It always feels so soothing to share the emotions, and I was crying with you through all of it. Thank you for your heartfelt and honest reaction!
Thank you for going on the journey with me as I experienced Ren for the first time! So incredibly inspiring! Hope you are doing well! Take care my friend…
First time I saw hi ren my reaction was just the same as yours.
I've suffered with mental health issues since I was 15 and I'm now 43. I mostly handled the manic depression well and did my best to navigate society and social norms but the last 10 years I've struggled with sever social anxiety and panic attacks, which in turn increased the severity of depression and also has led to severe agoraphobia.
Hi ren had me on the verge of tears almost immediately but fully broke me at hope 'the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope".
The ending is beautifully uplifting though and I found it quite cathartic.
It's so cleverly done throughout and what hits me the most that nearly all reactors I've watched have failed to notice or speculate is that when he goes back into the yodelling at the end, it's like his emotional battle has gone full circle and the yodelling with the lights flickering seems to imply that he's back at the start of the battle and about to go through it all over again such as a real mental health/psychosis episode often would do.
Like many others who've watched multiple reactions to this, seeing the reactor get teary sets me off too lol but it's good ro be able to feel so strongly for other's and have that empathy.
Great reaction, keep it up and keep well fella.
I plan to watch again for everything I missed on the first listen. So much going on throughout the video that it is nearly impossible to catch it all on first listen. Thank you for the kind words and please remember you are not alone in this either. I know it’s tough at times but we must keep on keeping on. I hope all is well for you my friend. Take care… 👍
@@bShawreacts yeah it's definitely worth giving a few listens. I can't imagine anyone would catch everything in one go.
I'm doing okay really. Had to move back in with my parents in 2015 and have been here since.
I've not worked since 2015 either due to the panic attacks and agoraphobia and it's been very tough losing so many aspects of personal independence but over time I've learned to lessen expectations of myself and become content with the few little things I can do and I'm now just focusing on fixing the physical problems that have amounted over time due to not being able to make or attend dental or medical appointments for the last 8 years.
I have a roof over my head and a little bit of money to keep me going so I'm okay, I just struggle a lot with what most people wouldn't give a second thought, eg dentist apps, phone calls, even going to the shop 5 mins down the road is very hard but I'm going to do prolonged exposure therapy soon and with small steps hopefully get back to being comfortable leaving the house for extended periods of time.
Anyway, I let you be! Thanks for replying!
Take care man.
Oh and I'll just quickly add, I've always been fortune to find good uplifting music that helps when going through tough times.
If you've not heard of them already, you may enjoy a band called "sunny day real estate" the "rising tide" album is one of my favourites and if you have a look for it you'll likely get suggested some other great bands of the late 90's to mid 00's.
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