why tf was september so hard? [drawing, creative stuff, feelings]
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- Опубліковано 16 жов 2024
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I’m sorry you are struggling. It can be so hard not only in your day to day but in your creative endeavors. Depression… anxiety… mental illness in general is a constant struggle sometimes you can talk over the demons and sometimes their shouting a little too loud. And it’s not easy in spaces on the internet anymore
😢 don't be sad internet senpai, you can't let criticism stop you!
The amount of critiques I get for my book vary wildly and I'm always grateful either way, if they hate it even, I thank them for their time and move on
I had buried those memories of Augustin....
Q4 is going to be a lot of reading, and a lot of kurokenshin editing as per usual.
Whoever insulted your art is dumb. I was watching this literally in love with your art and how good you've gotten!
I'm sorry this month has been so bad
I'm glad to hear you're working on the Westies! That story sounds so fun!
Also, for anyone reading it was my wedding! And Ian was a beautiful bridesmaid!!!
Congratulations!
@@spookyfirst9514 thanks!
fantastic art! love the character backgrounds, very thoughtful.
Good on you for working on what you can when it’s tough. I think that’s really the way to do it! Hoping better things come your way soon
You can't learn to walk without taking a few stumbles. If it's any consolation, I think your art's come a long way and is at a high level for someone who doesn't do it often. You've definitely got your own unique art style and no artist likes all of their own art. "Trusting the process" is a huge hurdle. Some days art just doesn't want to art and that's okay too.
I'll say this much about 2024, I came into the year thinking "this is my year, I'm gonna make a difference," as literally every hopeful soul does. My long distance partner was coming to visit in June and I'd planned for my first book release just last month.
Then life happened. There was a death in my partner's family and due to costs I'm not going to be able to see her again until potentially next year. Recently I got the news that the majority of my graphic design clients have decided to go the way of AI art. So my main source of income is dwindling and I've been rushing to make a portfolio (since most work was NDA or conceptual I can't showcase it) so I can keep the lights on.
Couldn't get worse, right? I get the dreaded 30 days notice to vacate my home due to the landlords selling the property I called home, in the middle of a rental crisis in Aus. Here's the kicker, vacate day is the day I'd set in stone for my first book release with KDP since pre-orders had already been made.
Thankfully, I fought tooth and nail to get a place and I've just moved in to my new (arguably better) home, my book released to about as much success as I could expect/hope for in regards to a debut indie novel and my portfolio is looking better and better every day.
2024 can suck a big one, but it's not over yet and I'm still gonna make the most of it. Life is the heaviest thing that anyone and everyone has to deal with. But we have to push through it, grow stronger, and be the best people we can be.
TL;DR: Life's a b*tch, but we're better than what it throws at us, we just have to try and persevere.
Apologies for the essay comment, but your vids always inspire me and I just hope to help share some perspective that eventually all will be okay in the end :)
Never apologize for essay comments. I love hearing from people and hearing the journey, triumphs, or trying to help support people in their struggles. Thank you so much and good luck to you on not only the release, but getting to meet your partner! That's huge!
Thank you so much :D
You're always so genuine and that's why I keep watching.
And I have thankfully already met my partner for the first time early last year, but it will be nice to see her in person again
I had a long comment written and my computer decided to shut off and erase it. The gist of what I wanted to convey is that depression is something that can swallow you if you let it. September was a dark month for me too, but writing always helps steady my mind. It's clear your art is essential to your being and that is why an uncaring comment can cut so deep. The main thing is to remember that art is an exploration of your soul, and each step brings us to a place we've never been before. That can't be erased by a thoughtless comment. The great Chinese poet Tu Fu wrote, "Swelling clouds sweep by. Returning birds ruin my eyes vanishing. One day soon, at the summit, the other mountains will be small enough to hold, all in a single glance."
Just keep your heart and eyes on the summit of whatever project calls out to you.
Hang in there, Ian! I had that happen to me a year ago with friends getting back-stabby, and I got bummed out and then turned it all into writing. Rise above! And the drawings don't suck, don't let people tell you that stuff.
I can definitely see an improvement in your drawing, not just the result but the process!
I think you should be proud of yourself for being strong onto keep going while being put down. And speaking out about your struggles. Sadly it’s a step all artist must go through on the journey of become great. Being belittled is just a test of your courage and determination, nothing more. Never fear God is here.
I think your drawings are pretty good, especially for someone who hasn’t been at it for very long. I really like this round you are showing in this video and I think you’ve improved a lot!
I think what you are doing with your channel and how you interact with other creatives is wonderful.
Sorry things have been so tough. Praying for you, Ian!
Sometimes things don't stick, but that's okay. It doesn't mean you're bad at it nor does it mean it's getting worse. What it means is that you caught yourself before it got worse.
My goals for the end of the year are.. Many.
To acquire my temporary residency visa from the country of Chile, of which I have moved to with my amazing wife, to be an even better and more understanding husband to my wife, to try to get healthier and healthier (I am very disabled), and learn more about the US (where I am from) as well as Canada since I very much would like to develop a Mod or Game based in the Americas.
I think what you said about this year and September being hard is true for so many, and sadly I do think things will be tough for a time. The best we can do imo is to be the best to our loved ones and those that matter most in our life, as well as, if capable, helping those in need that we can.
Please don't let the world, specifically the internet, change or damage the goodness in you. You deserve to keep it.
Personally, it's been the past 2 years for me. I've been writing and re-writing the same 2/3rds of a book over and over again, and I just can't see the end. There are too many distractions, and nothing is coming together as it should. Putting words down on paper is as painful as pulling teeth, yet I've done just about anything other than what I should: write the ending.
There's certainly the usual insecurities and demoralisation that come with any creative project, but the real problem I think is uncertainty in everyday life. Far too many mundane responsibilities are mounting up and a general sense of going nowhere has taken over. Adding worries over economic instability and it's extremely hard to focus on anything creative or otherwise.
I used to have a vision and a plan for where things were going, and now I don't. Every time I try to mock something up, things change or random issues pop up and throw a wrench into everything.
It is all so draining and distracting, but what can you do other than keep trying until it starts going smooth again? As long as you stick with what's important to you and never give up no matter what is thrown at you, I think it's inevitable that things will work out in the long run.
I'm an oil painter and in the last few months of 24, I'm doing indie comic fan art so I could pick up some commissions.
It sounds like your art problem is you're not growing. You seem to have a system perfected on how you draw your characters and there is nothing wrong with that, but It's time to push past that. You said you can't draw curly hair, you should be drawing curly hair. You should be finding things you want to improve on and attacking them. New challenges should bring your passion back. Good luck and keep up the good work in 24.
3:30 Kinda miss the artwork. I do understand why you stopped. I quit sharing mine years ago.
3:34 The Pig Pen Cloud? One of the reasons I don't like election years is that continuous Pig Pen Doom Cloud hanging over everything. It's exhausting. September is the month of losses...best friends, a spiritual teacher, and a few more have gone during that month, and it's tough. (It's not a Harvest month for no reason. Reaping of crops and lives starts in September.)
When I can't get motivated, it means rest is necessary. Pushing through it tends to hurt worse than taking time to recharge. Unplugging also helps. Nobody can be toxic at you if you're not there.
I loved your images of Orienda House and all the graffiti around Baltimore. It made the stories come alive for me.
20:19 It's the crossed eyes. Then he's a bit too wide eyed. Makes him look permanently surprised.
Once seen, it can't be unseen. (My whole life's been like that.) One of the reasons I write is to share the parts of my life nobody has any references for.
As I get older, the wisdom of Roadhouse makes more sense: "I want you to be nice. Until it's time not to be nice."
When I draw curly hair, I cheat and make squiggles, or a dark mass with wispy squiggles.
Goals? Getting a final draft done, taking time to put in some serious brush milage on a landscape class I started in January. I was agonizing over that class for weeks, then I finally threw up my hands and did what I had to do: get my health back on track.
If I've been insensitive in my past comments, I apologize. The thick skin on my emotions can blunt things. You've made an effort to keep your kind heart. I know how tough that gets, having had to harden mine one time too many. Keep drawing and writing at your own pace....it's not a race. Give yourself space to cry, it's a good way to get the pain out. I'm keeping you and Doggie in my prayers.
Yeah my burnout hit end of last year so all of 2024 has trying to but never recover so its just 2024 the year of the burnout and all around crappy life. Im waiting for 2025. Which is super not motivational.
Youre drawing is so good like im inpressed.
Sending you all the well wishes🫶🏾 I don’t share art online anymore either outside of a finished book cause I am not really a fan of the online pinup art industrial complex 😁
I hope you can keep doing stuff for yourself, though, and continue to enjoy the process.