I knew terrible darkness in my childhood, too. I hope you can disengage from the people who judge you... you are deserving of love and compassion. I had a therapist who helped me believe that about myself, and now I've come to believe it's true of everyone... you deserve understanding, love, and compassion, and however you reacted to your terrible childhood, it's understandable.
The way you said you were 'spit out' of your childhood really evokes what comes after, you come out incredibly vulnerable and will quickly fall prey to even more demons who seem to be eagerly waiting for your weakened, low self-esteem self who could not yet develop emotionally because of having to live on survival mode the whole time.
Hotep - It's always so so much easier to point fingers without looking within to begin to wonder 'what happened'? Your strength for sharing your pain I know must be so cleansing and liberating. Continue to RISE, SHINE and do what you are doing.
I admire you. I was raised by two psychopaths, my own biological parents. I know how it is, what we go through every day, and every night. Know that you deserve the best.
Hey there! Thanks for sharing your powerful story. So I’m 28 years old and my overall nation or my complete culture from the Mediterranean borders consists of a lot of hateful crime, human lawlessness, lack of social rights and overall equality and freedom based on what I’m hearing because of the countries dictatorship and oppression. And I don’t know if my bloodline or my ex-relatives mindsets or behavioural patterns stems from their cultures adaptations of why their so sociopathic, narcissistic , sadistic. Or why their just incredibly sick and outrageously vile and emotionally cruel, hostile and abusive. But from the sound of my story kinda of resonates with yours. I think it’s safe to say don’t blame yourself for what you’ve been through! I too was raised and tortured and abused by psychopaths or sociopaths my whole life and had survived chronic loneliness, isolation and depression APD and post complex chronic trauma CPTSD we’ve both been through crime. Your not alone and I think your a very strong brave and amazing person. Please don’t let your past define you or stop you from moving forward.
Thank you for sharing with me! If you ever need support, a friend, an ear, feel free to reach out to me! My email is IAMCameronJewell@gmail.com I think a lot of it has to do with bloodlines and patterns and that it’s our responsibility to break these patterns and create new ones to pass onto our children
People don't understand how being raised in profoundly dysfunctional environments knocks off your internal guidance system and causes you to make a string of shit decisions later on in life until you figure it out. My parents were psychos, too.
I am hoping to bring awareness to this. It’s been very challenging. Even after people watch my 10 year old drug addict video they still call me a junkie or a few other names…. When it literally talks about me being a child and being given drugs - how was I to know better? It’s a strange world.
@@iamcameronjewell And yet ... You eventually did figure it out. The same way I figured out that conning and using people was wrong. There is a compass inside us. If we labor to find it, we can grow in the right direction.
Hey cam. I see it man. I can see it bro. Im sorry i really am for your pain. I ask God how is that you can bear all the pain in the world! & the answer i got was, because His love is as strong as death. & thats displayed when Jesus died for love, & truth, & You. Hes no stranger to your pain. I know we just met, but i feel it in my soul to say that i love you always. Eternally connected. & one day there will be no more pain, no more sorrow. I want to share some of the wisdom ive been given to end this though, & i mean this will all the sincerity of my heart. When we consider the torture others have done to us, & we still have an emotional reaction can we truly say we have forgiven them? This may or may not apply. Im not saying i know your heart cam. I would love to share with you some of the darkness ive gone through as well as getting to know some of the deeper things within you. I hope, & pray to have this honor, & blessing. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Tremendously powerful & on point!✌️💚
Thank you 💚
I knew terrible darkness in my childhood, too. I hope you can disengage from the people who judge you... you are deserving of love and compassion. I had a therapist who helped me believe that about myself, and now I've come to believe it's true of everyone... you deserve understanding, love, and compassion, and however you reacted to your terrible childhood, it's understandable.
Thank you so much for taking the time to watch and share with me. I appreciate it ✨🫂
The way you said you were 'spit out' of your childhood really evokes what comes after, you come out incredibly vulnerable and will quickly fall prey to even more demons who seem to be eagerly waiting for your weakened, low self-esteem self who could not yet develop emotionally because of having to live on survival mode the whole time.
Your comment feels like you truly understand. I appreciate you taking the time to watch and comment. Thank you
Hotep - It's always so so much easier to point fingers without looking within to begin to wonder 'what happened'? Your strength for sharing your pain I know must be so cleansing and liberating. Continue to RISE, SHINE and do what you are doing.
Thank you ✨💚
I admire you. I was raised by two psychopaths, my own biological parents. I know how it is, what we go through every day, and every night. Know that you deserve the best.
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Hey there! Thanks for sharing your powerful story. So I’m 28 years old and my overall nation or my complete culture from the Mediterranean borders consists of a lot of hateful crime, human lawlessness, lack of social rights and overall equality and freedom based on what I’m hearing because of the countries dictatorship and oppression. And I don’t know if my bloodline or my ex-relatives mindsets or behavioural patterns stems from their cultures adaptations of why their so sociopathic, narcissistic , sadistic. Or why their just incredibly sick and outrageously vile and emotionally cruel, hostile and abusive. But from the sound of my story kinda of resonates with yours. I think it’s safe to say don’t blame yourself for what you’ve been through! I too was raised and tortured and abused by psychopaths or sociopaths my whole life and had survived chronic loneliness, isolation and depression APD and post complex chronic trauma CPTSD we’ve both been through crime. Your not alone and I think your a very strong brave and amazing person. Please don’t let your past define you or stop you from moving forward.
Thank you for sharing with me! If you ever need support, a friend, an ear, feel free to reach out to me! My email is IAMCameronJewell@gmail.com
I think a lot of it has to do with bloodlines and patterns and that it’s our responsibility to break these patterns and create new ones to pass onto our children
Yes, Sistren ! You are WorthyAF to hold SO MUCH LIGHT! The things you have endured and overcome blow my mind!!
I have felt your support since the day that I met you, Amanda. My love and gratitude for you runs deep. Thank you so much.
Stay strong. We love you.
Awe! Thank you! I love you!
People don't understand how being raised in profoundly dysfunctional environments knocks off your internal guidance system and causes you to make a string of shit decisions later on in life until you figure it out. My parents were psychos, too.
I am hoping to bring awareness to this. It’s been very challenging. Even after people watch my 10 year old drug addict video they still call me a junkie or a few other names…. When it literally talks about me being a child and being given drugs - how was I to know better? It’s a strange world.
@@iamcameronjewell And yet ... You eventually did figure it out. The same way I figured out that conning and using people was wrong. There is a compass inside us. If we labor to find it, we can grow in the right direction.
❤❤❤❤I love you!
I love you so much!!
Hey cam. I see it man. I can see it bro. Im sorry i really am for your pain. I ask God how is that you can bear all the pain in the world! & the answer i got was, because His love is as strong as death. & thats displayed when Jesus died for love, & truth, & You. Hes no stranger to your pain. I know we just met, but i feel it in my soul to say that i love you always. Eternally connected. & one day there will be no more pain, no more sorrow. I want to share some of the wisdom ive been given to end this though, & i mean this will all the sincerity of my heart. When we consider the torture others have done to us, & we still have an emotional reaction can we truly say we have forgiven them? This may or may not apply. Im not saying i know your heart cam. I would love to share with you some of the darkness ive gone through as well as getting to know some of the deeper things within you. I hope, & pray to have this honor, & blessing. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
jesus .. you poor thing !!!
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