I'm an Ex-Mormon Gay Escort in Salt Lake City | The Life of An Escort
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- Опубліковано 19 жов 2024
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I went to Salt Lake City for a week to film episodes - I am fascinated with Salt Lake City and the culture there, and was excited to meet up with a gay escort there to hear about what life is like for a gay sex worker there.
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I love love love love Patch. He has a big heart And has a pure, beautiful soul. Please please please do a part two of this. Go back and see him in a couple of months and let’s see how he’s doing.
Yes! Let’s keep our eyes and prayers (whatever type) on him. Please, keep us informed about him.
@@christianeduardo1 Yes please, a part two for this one.
I would love to
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@@OurQueerLife , Mormon's church ...? 🤔
You've got this hun. I was a mess at 37.. I'm now 53 and living my best life. You so got this. It gets better
As someone who life is a mess at 37 lol I needed to hear that.
@@kimmymarky9538 go out and go after the things you want to do. You can make your life happen don't wait for others. Go to free events if you can't pay for stuff. Do what makes you happy. Stop trying to live like the jonses.
I second this…at 37 i was just out of 6 years of drug addiction, for the same reasons he shared. At 52, married and happy and fulfilled, but it was years of wondering why i could never quite get it together. It only really started about 5 years ago…there is hope.
Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
You're correct. It does get better. Btw, I'm 52 now, married to a sweet man, and happy.
"Your Parent can actually be the Villain." Listen...There are a lot of people who never realize this, or realize it Too Late. Shout out to the Parents who affirm and protect with unconditional love.
SO SO TRUE! My mom almost became a villain in my scenario as an openly gay POZ man. After a very hateful letter from her (just after coming out officially to her and told her I was HIV POZ) I was shocked and of course being a Capricorn and having an Irish temper wrote her a hateful letter back but a friend, who is a writer, asked to borrow it for the day. She came back with TWO letters, mine and a rewrite. IT was perfect and sounded like something I would have written without all the anger. Sent that to her and we are good friends today but it could have gone horribly wrong. I'm thankful for my friend Laurel rewriting the letter and thankful my mom realized that she could have lost her only son because of her "Christian values" .....
Unquestioning affirmation isn't a healthy or good thing
The largest number of pedophiles in the United States answer to the name "Father." Or, "Mother."
I remember the first time I read "the road less travelled" from Scott Peck. He talks about the fact that the hardest thing for a human being to accept in therrapy its...I don't love my parents, or especially, my parents doesn't love me.
I feel badly for this guy. It comes across like he is incredibly sad and is doing this because he feels he has no other option financially and “needs to” in order to get ahead. I hope he finds his happiness.
I too sensed a sadness in his voice. Truly heartbreaking. However, as long as he's happy, I support whatever life choices he feels are right for him, emotionally or financially. He seems to be such a sweet soul. Loners, a demographic in which gay people are likely overrepresented, tend to be such giving people. It's just that very few people get to know them in depth.
@@valsainking He's not happy if he has sadness in his voice. This man is not happy. Becoming a sex worker will only make the clear depression Patch has even worse. And I'm all for sex work--if you're in the right frame of mind. But if you're doing it partly to escape unhappiness, it will only end in more misery and anxiety. I feel that Patch has undiagnosed depression and he hasn't done much, or can't do much, to alleviate it. And that that is what has stopped him from moving up the career ladder in the restaurant service industry, which is doable. But, again, if you're in the right frame of mind.
@@Luboman411 It's a shame. i hope he can get his head in the right space. He is very articulate and seems very smart. He deserves to get true happiness out of life.
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100% i dont get this sex work positive shit. Like who in their right mind would want to be fkd by dirty pervs for money? Obviously these people are broken and have serious mental health issues or traumas
Matt, you are a very compassionate interviewer. Patch really needed that hug, and I wish I could have given him one as well. Recovery from religion robs us of many productive years and so much more. Unfortunately, there are no quick solutions.
I am seeking a nice man to marry
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Patch is a very gentle soul, hope he finds peace and happiness. You can see kindness in his eyes and damn look good at 37❤
Don't let people make you feel less than because you're realistic about your finances. A lot of it is smoke in mirrors- people live beyond their means. One day you won't have to because you were honest with yourself
That's very true. I went to a home in one of the wealthiest areas here in Pittsburgh, they were moving, and selling things. I thought most things would be top of the line, but honestly, most people reading this probably have nicer things. They obviously realized that they were living way above their own means.
So true. Don’t believe everything you see either. We live in a very superficial society now and we have to be focused on what is real. Ya never know how other ppl acquired the things they have…
The phrase is: smoke and mirrors, not smoke in mirrors, I find myself on a mission to preserve language, the purity of old phrases, words have meaning, in the meaning is power, accuracy matters, kids these days are bastardizing language, words, phrases, it feels wrong, disrespectful, and worst of all illiterate and stupid....not you, but the big picture....
@@bethewalt7385 I have a great respect for the language, but it is reasonable that someone misheard this phrase. Especially as"And" is often pronounced " 'n' " in speech, and it's not a phrase often seen in writing.
@@gilgameshofuruk4060 I’m normally the person standing up for correct grammar and spelling, but in this case, I agree with you. Smoke ‘n mirrors is mostly a spoken phrase and anyone could hear that wrong.
I hope Patch will be ok. He is such a lovely person.
I agree. He should not compare himself to others. Continue the road you are on. What's for you will be Patch. You will be just fine.
Awwwwww @ 8:15 when patch said he would like to date but he doesn’t because he thinks no one like him because he is poor, That broke my heart to hear him say that, it’s heartbreaking that he would even think like that…..love doesn’t care about how much $ people have…
he is a wounded soul and needs to heal, naturally, hope his experience evolves as mine has, it takes time?
As someone who was raised in a similar environment (gay, Jehovah's Witness, abusive father, mother with fibromyalgia and other chronic illnesses), I can tell you, Patch, that there's a lot of catching up to do in life when you were given such an extraordinary amount of obstacles. Oftentimes my insecurities are my number one hindrance, but I see every day as an opportunity to grow and get to know myself more and figure out what life can be post-cult and abuse. I really struggle with money and my career path (although I'm an artist and not in the adult industry, yet at least :P) and I'm 31. Don't give up, you're not alone and we can do this, it all takes time. Big hugs
I grew up as a JW it was not as hard for me, but it took some time. Hope you’re healing!
Part 2 please!!! Follow up with Patch, he is a beautiful hurting soul and we ALL need to know that he is ok!
This interview made me sad. I had a couple good friends get into escorting and nothing good came out of it. They both felt useless and hollow, and the one committed suicide a couple years ago. The one who survived I lost touch with. Drugs took over and I couldn't relate to him as a friend or even a person anymore. His whole life was a lie. I hope Patch finds clarity. It's not always about the money, don't try to live as your wealthier friends, there's nothing to prove there. Self worth and self respect is what's most important. Surrounding yourself around positive role models who care about you as a person inside and out is the best. I wish you both well.
I love your comment, that's what i will told to a friend too. Saying "go boy, do what you want " is not always the best advice
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Davey7358 ❤ur comment...mine was similar posted 2 mins ago before reading yours.
@@ChristianSoldier71 The interpretation of the Bible is very dubious. The Catholic Church through the Roman Empire propagated an idea that suited their need for power. Jesus was a philosopher and died two thousand years ago. He's not coming back. What prove you have of the existence of Hell, or Heaven?
@@carlosmachado5176 Refusing to believe in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, will not make him go away. Jesus loves you and He died on the cross for our sins. The grave could not keep Jesus down because He arose from the grave and defeated death. Once you die, it will be too late to repent. Jesus Christ is the only one who can save you from the fires of Hell. Repent and put your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior today, we are not guaranteed tomorrow.
ROMANS 10:13 For whosoever will call upon the name of the Lord, shall be saved.
Who else just totally fell in love with Patch? He is just amazing, so beautiful inside and out! I'll marry him in a heartbeat.
I did too! He seems to have such a beautiful soul!❤
I feel what Patch is saying. I was wishing I could give him a big hug… and then you did. Thank you.
hell no, I promise you it is not.... but nice that you have that kind of naivete
I can promise you his emotional instability makes him hate your pet dog/cat... like serious major red flag
@@adrianfeeger Are you a Mormon? lol
Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
He looks like he really needs a long hug and someone to look after him for a while. I hope he`s strong enough to survive in the path he`s chosen.
Oh my gosh, I just want to give Patch a giant hug! He deserves to be happy, and I suspect when he finds at least some happiness he’ll find a person who connects with him in the way he wants. Patch deserves happiness and fulfillment, and I wish for that!! My heart goes out to him 🥹
Patch is so sweet. I really hope he feels happy very soon. Want to hug him.
Gongratulations my brother and friend Thank you for your
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Don't despair, Patch. I didn't even come out till I was 36. My life started anew then. Keep pushing forward. Travel is an important part of life. Until you can go afar, travel within your area. Explore nearby places you've never been. As time goes on, you'll venture out further and further. Don't give up or quit trying. I know your feelings for your mother. You're a good person to want to help her. But her life is her's. You need to focus on yourself and your life. If you win the lottery, yeah, help your mom. But right now, if you're not healthy, you can't make others healthy. You are the most important person in your life right now. Look for the book, Finding the Boyfriend Within. It helped me a great deal.
this 🙌
this is what a good person looks like. i hope he ends up with everything he dreams about.
I feel so much what patch was talking about in terms of his family. I'm not gay but I watch this because I want to get a view, an understanding, an appreciation of others who have different lives and see the world differently. Perspective is so important and we need to be able to see things from someone who understands the world differently. My heart went to and still goes out to Patch. I would hug him if I could. I know what you are going through, I've been there myself; the exact environment I grew up in. Men today in our world are desperately in need of platonic touch. Friends that they can hug and not necessarily be sexual. The reason why these men want to talk to you is because they crave and need intimacy. They have sacrificed the whole identity of manhood which includes being able to feel, to accept those feelings without judgment and to constructively do something with them. Too many men have been told that they have to be stoic and that they have to cut that part off of themselves. We have a culture of what is means to be a man that is not even close to what being a real man actually is.
Thank You for your comments and having such a bright and open mind. Thank You!
So on point with this Seth! Thanks so much for sharing this!
Seth VERY well said. There's so much toxic masculinity and I stay the hell away from these guys. I want an authentic person I can talk to!
Thanks for sharing, Seth.
The initiative to understand or appreciate something gives me hope in our dying world
What an excellent, honest video. Thank you for allowing Patch to shine through and Patch, thank you for being open, filterless and willing to share. I have nothing but respect and admiration for you.
He’s so honest and sweet and soft spoken. His vibe is so comforting and inviting.
What a beautiful soul. I can so relate to him for various reasons. It’s a struggle and I feel it’s not too late for neither of us.
Matt, you are a rare gem ❤
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WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
@@ChristianSoldier71 said the guy hiding behind an oxymoron. Peace
@@ludwig82 Jesus loves you and He has a plan and a purpose for your life. Once you die, it will be too late to repent. Put your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior today, we are not guaranteed tomorrow. Have a great day!
@@ChristianSoldier71 I appreciate your good intentions and you mean well. Be kind to all ❤️
I just happened to come across your interview. To Patch: don’t be afraid to have a relationship with someone, it’s a learning day to day adventure, no one is perfect from day one, it’s a relationship that you build as you and partner go along…❤❤❤❤❤
Patch: you are on the right path. Sometimes it takes longer than we want but patience and perseverance wins the day! Hugs to you and thanks to @MattCullen for profiling your story!
Porn isn't the right path. More depression
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
on the right path? a male prostitute????
Patch,please remember the best is yet to come!Am 52 and happily married-please take good care of your future self-I’m sure you’d like that guy👍🏼👀✨love &respect from the Netherlands!✨
Sending so much love to Patch! You are a catch and you're doing much better than you think!!!
He was awesome and so open and real .. I felt his feelings on a few things . I hope he gets what he’s working for !
This guy needs a big hug and someone to love him unconditionally
What's so beautiful about this channel is seeing gay men be so supportive and loving towards each other ☺
i bet they hooked up after the interview.
It’s absolutely the minority, it’s is in no way true for the whole of the gay community, it’s 1000 times more toxic than the straight community.
He seems like the sweetest person ever ❤
Matt you are so kind and amazing at meeting people where they are and uplifting them. Love the positivity vibez!!!
Hi’s future boyfriend will be one of the luckiest guys. Patch, despite the story, it’s evident you’re a pure soul. Wish you all the best!
Awwww big hugs from me to you Patch!! You got this! Keep your head up and stay strong.
Sending you all the love and good energy, Patch 💓 I'm rooting for you and I truly hope you find peace and happiness 🥰
Those thinking patterns kept me captive for years. When you come into your own, life starts anew. Patch I'm sure your future will bring beauty and all the things you want to accomplish. You seem to be a beautiful soul.💖
My heart goes out to him. I just wanted to hug him. He is on the right track, it is just gonna take some time. Stay strong and don't lose focus. I love you Patch.
It’s sad to hear about Patch’s struggles. Life can be very difficult at times. I come from a toxic family also and I will have to tell you Patch, education really help put me on a path to financial freedom. Getting an education definitely involves a lot of sacrifice, but it pays off in the end. Best wishes, sending lots of love your way.
I like patch but I hope u get out of porn because of the drinking, drugs & the lifestyle that goes with it. Be Careful.
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Patch has a friend now, Matt! Such a good interview, Patch was open and honest. Matt you have Patch some excellent advice, you have empathic vibes to you. I hope you two stay in touch.
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So sweet. I would hug him all the interview long, he deserves to be loved. How come such a sincere and true man is left behind...Thinking of him, let our prayers be heard, there is no justice among us but there should be a way to a new life. Just want him to find peace, bliss and grace. You deserve a better life filled with care, acceptance and joy. Please, be happy!
Ohh Patch, you are not alone, and you are finding your ways through this craziness of life, you can find your way no matter how old you are! Don’t compare yourself to other people’s paths, we are all unique in different ways and that is fine!
You seem to have a good heart and don’t ever lose that!
Be proud of who you are and the path you’re on! 😊
I am seeking a nice man to marry Kelly from Canada
Bruh its not respectful at all.
Gongratulations my brother and friend Thank you for your
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Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Matt you're such an amazing and compassionate interviewer. Keep up the good work.
I am a disabled gay man in NYC. I have used the services of a male escort on two occasions and both were good experiences. Two things are always important to discuss via telephone in advance: what it is you (the customer) want to do with the escort and the agreed-upon price. Nothing should be left unspoken.
Very relatable. I loved the ones that make me feel really connected. He was really open and real. ❤️
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*hugs* such a sweet guy, so sorry to hear you are still hurting from how you grew up... keep moving forward one tiny step at a time and you will heal 💕
Thank you Sir for posting this. Patch is such a sweet young man and I really feel his pain. I truly hope he finds love and happiness in this life.
Things will work out Patch. Sometimes we have different paths in life. Turning a corner is always scary, and uncertain, but when things work out all the hard work, loneliness and hardship are worth it. Matt, thank you so much for this wonderful series.
From 18 to 23 I was a male escort. I was also a dancer at a few gay clubs in south Florida and Boston Massachusetts. I eventually got out of it. Glad I never got into the drug scene and always had safe sex. These days at 52, I have my own place and I am in the music industry. Anything is possible when you believe
I’m 17 and I’m a escort now I want to get out of this but I just can’t
@@xae6178 You need to be strong willed. My biggest advice to you is don't touch any drugs and Move Away... far away
@@xae6178 you just can’t because emotionally /physically or financially??
I'm so glad I watched this interview, today is Thanksgiving and I'm spending it by myself but this made me feel so not alone.
ditto
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Patch is so warm and amazing! I could relate, with toxic parents and why I left CA at 21! He is gorgeous and obviously very talented. The best part about him, is that is so real and honest. What you see is what you get! That is so fucking refreshing! He seemed like a genuine person from a tough situation!
I loved being a dad to my guys that are 36 and 38, and I can't having a warm caring dad either, mine only cared about himself and his parents, not even his family. So I get not communicating with him and not seeing him. I was able to go to college for a year in Seattle and never went back! When my dad died almost 20 yrs ago, my 1st thought was "good" now I don't have to wish him happy fathers day or birthday, when I don't mean it!
I have cried more about my red tabby cat Puddy, that had a stroke in 18. He was my best buddy and always spent a minimum of 1/2 when I got home sitting on me or laying on me!
I was married for 15 years Patch and came out at 41. It was very rough getting to hear. It was like being a high schooler at 41! Yuk! lol. It cost me dearly to get here but I am finally real at 69, but don't look it thank god! lol I love being gay, it is who I am!
I wish Patch was local, I would want to have coffee with him and talk!
Don't give up! You had to save yourself and heal and get strong enough, before you can safe your mother or anyone else.
Thank you for sharing and being so open. I would think guys, or dads like me would line up for a sweet guy like you!
Good job
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I love Patch’s personality. He is so sweet and kind.
I want to meet Patch. He seems down to earth and fun, so relatable!
contact via his RM page, bet he would be happy to chat
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Patch is adorable! I pray he finds himself and life gets so much better for him. He deserves it.
très touchante cette conversation avec Patch , les durs moments qu'il traverse, être seul , travailler tout le temps pour assurer sa vie ...la haine su'il a envers son père et son amour pour sa mère malade et qui vit l'enfer avec son mari...tout cela me touche , j'ai de la compassion pour Patch .Thank you Matt .
You are such a beautiful soul Patch. When he talked about his mom , I could feel his pain and his deep love for me. Patch you are loved and your so special. Jesus is not about religion.. He loves you.
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Sending great energy and big love to Patch. Please, don’t give up and believe that things will eventually get better.
Love you Patch!
Really a sincere interview. Well done Matt. Your channel is always so on point and informative. Patch is so right it’s not about sex at all- mostly it’s just about the company, someone to connect to and just “not feel alone” for an hour or three. I’m in my 50s and have found such value in escorting services. If you are lucky to make a connection with an special escort it just so rewarding. I feel they provide such an essential service of companionship and connection- it really soul work, not “sex work” and indulging in this type of service has literally saved me so many times over the years from going down that all to familiar “rabbit hole” of dark depression and “closing the life book” So we’ll done Patch for acknowledging this very selfless service to other humans - all the very best for your future, I will assisted where I can through your linked pages. Thanks Matt for your channel. Greetings from South African 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Who doesn't want to reach inside this video and give him a big tight hug! Wow, he seems like a kind-hearted man who doesn't know his worth. I hope he finds his tight circle of friends and his forever person. Big hugs Mate!
It's just the perfect time for me to watch this video, I'm in. A very similar situation (just turned 30) and trying to fix my life after my 20's we're chaotic and filled with depression. Thanks for such a beautiful video ❤️
What a kind sweet gentle soul he is ... ❤️
Thanks for sharing your story Patch!
Hi Troy
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Here in Spain I saw a documentary once of a male escort who worked in Madrid. He tried his best to put on a good face but in the end you could see that he was far from happy. Some of the stories he told about his job made my stomach turn. He said the first thing you have to do if you want to be an escort is put your dignity in a box, lock it and put the box somewhere you can find it in hopes that one day you will return for it.
What's the name of the documentary?
@@curlyhairdudeify I am checking. I saw it years ago. It was about one male prostitute and how he dealt with the requests from his clients and his loss of self respect. I'll keep looking because is was authentic.
I love how Mat always asks if he can film the person he interviews
What a sweet guy! Hope he finds happiness...
I do too, you can see his hurt.... tho, as our world is now, I have my doubts that RM is the best way - it may give him the income to travel, but not all on there will be looking out for his wellbeing, along with some shitty studio bosses!!
At least with OFS he keeps much more of his income and stays safe.
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
@@ChristianSoldier71 Oh god what a narrow minded way of seeing life and God. Grow up!!!
@@ChristianSoldier71 Stupid comment. Work on yourself and find ways to be a better person. Instead of being passive and waiting for something to help you.
@@CRS327 Jesus loves you and He has a plan and a purpose for your life. Once you die, it will be too late to repent. Put your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior today, we are not guaranteed tomorrow. Have a great day!
You are correct that we are depressed and sad because our lives are stagnant and unprogressive. But we don't give up because we are here for ourselves every step of the way, and our life is our own responsibility. I'm glad we're not privileged people who have everything handed to us because when we make it, we'll be glad we worked hard every day to become the successful people we are.
Matt, you have such a way with people & are such a light in this world. Love your natural curiosity about & openness to different ways of living. I've enjoyed every interview I've watched of yours. Keep up the amazing work!
Thank you so much, I really appreciate you :)
Wow a lot of ppl, gay men more specifically, are finding themselves lonely and without friends. I’m one of them. I mean I knew when I got older life would slow down but damn. Covid and social media certainly play a big part in this life of solitaire, but when are we ever going to be able to trust again? Hell, I’m looking for friendships never mind a intimate relationship. I just believe we can’t be afraid of being hurt. All relationships are a risk. One thing I’ve prided myself on is being a true and loyal friend. Most of mine are in relationships and/or are living away from me that we’ve grown apart. Well, I wish this young man lots of joy and success. Never give up and trust in something that is greater than yourself. 🙏🏾
Best wishes for Patch. He is a bright, articulate and attractive fellow and hope his life works out well for him.
How could anyone not love Patch? He's awesome.
Patch, sending good thoughts and positive energy your way. Hoping for good things in your future, be well!
Patch, you sound like a nice humble guy and good-looking too. Be yourself, if you are poor today, so be it, let people know you for who you are, not for what you have, the sun rises everyday for everyone. Just a word of advice, dont let drugs get in your life, always say no. You look amazing!
Patch, please don't give up. You have a beautiful soul; continue to be kind and generous. I found your story to be very moving. Here are the facts - everyone is broken in some way. When life is especially hard, we have to find the reasons to keep going on.
I also recommend self-care and taking time for yourself and headspace. I don't know why, but rock climbing and ice skating popped into my head as I was watching. I don't know what your hobbies are, but consider these.
Patch, having a good personality goes beyond how much money you have. Your monetary value do not equate to your human value. I’ve been in your position before financially and always comparing myself to others to making great money now and I thought that would fix my insecurities and make me truly happy but it didn’t.
At the beginning it was one interview, and then it became another and started getting real. Then it just ended. It made me think about how many of us are putting on a show. We need to feel connection to others, yet when we have to pay for it we can become so disillusioned and warped both mentally and emotionally, even physically.
I have credit cards and put almost everything on them; I spend my points on reducing my travel costs. There’s even websites where you can find people that post about their amazing deals.
I’ve always been interested in living for less and I’d never do OF because it’s a soul crusher.
I feel so much heartache here and wish I could be of better help, but Patch I think you may not want some of the words of advice I’d like to give. So, I’ll leave it at that and give you a hug across the miles from one Primary kid to another. You are important and you are loved. You’re a beautiful human being. I hope all of the best things in life for you.
I enjoyed listening to Patch and only offer him one small piece of advice ... When he said that one of the reasons he is not with anyone right now is because all the guys he's interested in are not interested back and probably just wants someone to take a chance on him to prove him right ... BUT, is he doing the same thing to guys who are interested in him but for whatever reason he is not.
Sometimes we need to realize that to break that cycle is that though we are good people deep down, we are only focused on the ones we are interested in & ignore or dismiss the ones that we say we are not.
When I realized I had been doing that the vast majority of my adult gay life (roughly around my 40th birthday & took off my "gay blinders" as I called them), I made a pact with myself that instead of trying to find that one guy who "checked off all those boxes" start pursuing anyone that piqued my interest. Now, I will admit, I have not found "the one" & the longest in the past 12 years that I have been with someone has been roughly 7 months, I have found some of the the best friends (some I have regular sex with to this day) that if I kept doing what I had been doing up until then, I never would have taken that chance.
Once you acknowledge and accept that you are your own "hurdle," own up to your past and fully like AND love yourself for everything you are (FUCK what others think about you), can you let that chains that hold you back, break away and start enjoying your life. I wish Patch all the joy and happiness that life brings him PLUS I 100% agree with Matt, he is a catch.
PS - not all of us gay men will "reject" you because you are not "rich." Money doesn't solve your problems, it only sometimes makes life easier to forget those problems.
I just stumbled on your videos. You are compassionate and quick to understand - and a really good interviewer. It seems to me everyone you touch is left in a better place. I am definitely going to keep tabs on all your work. Great job!!
I adore Patch. And I can relate to him on multiple levels. He has so much heart and I hope he finds someone to protect it. And yes, I would date him!
Patch is the friend/partner we all deserve. First time seeing him but he seems so caring, warm and genuine. Best of luck with everything man - from Ireland.
Listen, I learned a long time ago, that gay culture equates success with money when infact, just thriving as a gay man is winning in life. People, LGBTQ+, plus people forget how so many gay men suffer before they come out and after they come out. Keep your head up! You are winning!
Patch is a sweetheart. I understand his struggle. It will get better Patch!!🙏🏽🙏🏽❤
So sweet- the relationship he has with his mother. 🥰💖
Omg amazing please make a follow up , As I think we all feel like this , we all have those moments when the world is crashing down and you feel fed up and down.....Keep shining..
God I felt so much for him!!! I hope he finds real love and is able to get free from his past.
So much inner angst...and also in the world...yet we do need to find our way. Late thirties is not so late. Try mid seventies. It's all a matter of perspective. Letting go of past traumas and fear, embracing the safer mindscape of the present, and not allowing 'future worry' into our lives...puts age aside, and let's us live more joyously for today. Best.
Patch, you are such an honest soul. Keep working hard and you will make great things happen. Everyone has their own life path and you are forging your own ♥️
I really hope that everything gets easier for this man! Having all these jobs while suffering from depression is so hard but there he is working hard!! Hugs ✨
I really relate to that. Thank you. Give Patch a hug for me.
Give patch a hug for me please I'm going to be sick. Hahaha
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
What a sweet guy. Good vibes to you Patch 😊
Patch is a sweet soul. I wish him all the happiness in the world.
Such a sweet and lovely man. Who wouldn't want to hug and kiss him?
What a beautiful soul. He does not seem to give himself enough credit. I hope things are turning around for him and he learns to stop the comparison game. Hopefully one day you might be able to do an update 💛
I love this channel but the interviews are supposed to be much longer - if you want to tell deep stories about interesting and marginal people. This guy in particular deserves a whole documentary.
"Supposed to be" according to who?
@@sugarsore according to the laws of journalism you ignorant human being
Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
I didn't knew Patch before; but I just felt in love with him! his is such a nice guy. and if he want to visit Belgium I will be glad to help him out. Kisses for the two of you.
Great Interview. I can relate to the loneliness, but being lonely is not so bad. A change of environment will change your way of thinking and cope with the loneliness. So save your booty money and move!
totally agree. get a new start, even if it means back to the coffee shop. RM (and yep I did look up his profile) may give him income, but at what price.? So many models say that sex working makes finding a life partner, in our sexup, mixed up world today, so hard (is the guy after 'Patch', or the real me etc). Also escorting will have it's risks, mentally, medically.. and to some self worth (no judgement).
OFs at least one keeps most of the income, and is safe and preditor free.
I really hope Matt does a revisit in 3-6 months and an update video.
WARNING!!! Hell is real... We can not hide our sins from God. Is your heart right with God? Jesus Christ loves you and He died for our sins ACTS 2:38 “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit..
Mr. Cullen: I really appreciated your thoughts and sharing them with Patch. The counselor in you came out and it was GREAT! Thank you.
Patch, I’ve watched hundreds of interviews and stories about religious homophobia and yours related to me so much. I feel you. I thought life would look so different. I wanna change too. I’ve always wanted to go to Greece (all Mediterranean countries) and fall in love and maybe even live abroad or serve in the peace corps or teach English abroad but I let my inner issues derail those dreams. So much regret. Much love. ❤
His story really reminds me of the book “ eleven minutes”. Big hugs! You got this hun xx
I can't believe he's so,so handsome and feels this way...Our past trauma could really have an impact on us later on in life....
I wish him well....
I want to give him a big hug. I grew up in the same religion and understand most of what he talked about. I'm so happy he found something to give him financial freedom and a way out of his depression. My heart will always go out to ex-Mormons. It is a lonesome journey but a worthwhile one.
Loved this video, I feel sad for him. He is tying happiness to success and money. What he needs is human connection. Hope he finds his happy soon.