my experience with OCD
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- Опубліковано 11 лют 2021
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pure o gang. it can be so draining. sucks when you're stressed and it just pops back up
OCD is so much more then organization and constantly washing of hands, people who really went through it, know how dark it gets.
That's so true. Whenever I have told someone about my OCD, the first question is always "So you like to wash your hands a lot?" Like, not quite (for me) it's more than that. Dark, as you said.
Small suggestion that helped me: call it “the OCD” vs “my OCD”
It helped me distance myself from the disorder
Wow that is a very good piece of advice. Thank you
I’ve just tried that recently you right lol
this is a good idea, thank you!
I really like this. I don’t have OCD but I have a syndrome and I’m going to start doing this because I definitely struggle with my ‘identity’ in terms of living with a syndrome
The fact that she is talking about a very serious issue that she had to go through in her life and that there are people who are asking her to react to Lisa's dance thing makes me so mad. LIKE SHE WAS BRAVE AND STRONG ENOUGH TO SHARE THIS WITH US AND ALL SOME PEOPLE CAN THINK OF IS LISA'S LILIFILM. Speechless
WE LOVE YOU CAMI STAY STRONG AND THINK POSITIVE EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OK
LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH
It's almost like Lisa is an obsession and posting comments about her is compulsive.
I feel the same :(
Like this is a serious topic. But you know people these days... they only care about themselves and their wants and needs.
I hope she still feels the support from everyone nonetheless 💕
this is so funny to me
Haven’t watched the video yet, but just wanted to say we appreciate you ❤️
Cami I’m 5 mins in and honestly I really appreciate this. I do not have OCD but I have been struggling with mental health issues for so long and particularly this year... it’s good to learn about people’s struggles and it also makes me feel less alone ❤️❤️❤️
@@CamiPetyn PLEASE REACT TO LISA SAY SO😭
Thank you for advocating professional diagnosis ❤️ As a psychology student it’s really good for people to know that while the internet is a phenomenal place to do research and find out more about self discovery, it’s imperative to get a professional for a diagnosis. Mental illness can so easily distort your perception of self and might end up giving a false ‘diagnosis’. ❤️ Thank you also for opening up so other can benefit from your experience and be inspired to seek help. 🙂
Oh 100% but I also think getting a professional diagnosis can be a privilege that some ppl don't have. For example, I was just diagnosed with adhd. My mom handled it bc I'm a minor and shes a therapist, and she was able to use her connections to get me diagnosed fairly quickly (within 1-2 weeks). However, she told me that without her connections, I might not have gotten professionally diagnosed until late summer. On top of that, we are monetarily alright (basically middle class), and many ppl arent in a situation to pay an exorbitant amount of money for a diagnosis, much less meds or whatever else they need. Basically long story short, yeah try to get a professional diagnosis as soon a possible, but I understand lots of ppl arent able to for months if not years so yea idk
Thanks sharing your experiences. I did a lot of research into OCD when creating my UA-cam video and it’s definitely a topic that should have more awareness!
@@CamiPetyn PLEASS REACT TO LISA SAY SO😭
Yes, I self diagnosed when I was 13 by looking up bipolar and finding a youtuber that uploads about her experience with the disorder. I still did tons of research on it, thinking I had bipolar 1, rapid cycling, mixed episodes, researching everything about the disorder. I had come to realize months later it was actually bipolar 2 that I had. I probably would've gotten a diagnosis for just depression if I hadn't come to them saying I thought I had bipolar 2 and everything that I experienced with it. I didn't actually get help until a few years later bc I wasn't ready to confront my parents and get help, but it was nice to get help from others who share it online
And I self diagnosed OCD which is something I struggled with since I was 6 and professional help is needed to get the full treatment, not just what others say from their experience. When I first figured out about bipolar though i also researched schizophrenia, bpd to see if I had it and all the anxiety disorders and thought I had them at first every time. At the end of the day if your symptoms and experiences line up with what you think you have its still important to tell a professional and get the official diagnosis and help
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All those asking her to react, please calm down and respect the atmosphere of the video here. Also, shout out to Cami for the wonderful explanation and for staying strong through all of this. More power to you!
I have had OCD since I was a child, and I only found out last year (same!) Before I really thought I was a crazy person, because my type of OCD is religious, but I was very happy after the diagnosis, and finally understood that I'm not a bad person. Thank you for sharing your story! It helps to know that we are not alone in the world, and that other people also have to deal with the same problems (in different ways).
YESSS YESS YESSS I FEEL YOU SO MUCH! I love this ocd awareness.
same so many people called me irresponsible and anxious
The driving / hitting a pedestrian thing hit me hard, it's really nice to hear my thoughts validated. I have those thoughts regularly and it's terrifying, thought I know it's so irrational. I've always "known" (don't diagnose yourself) I had OCD but haven't wanted to spend the money for therapy yet. I will soon though! Thank you for making this!
I decided to go to therapy for this and I’m glad I did. I’m doing ERP and CBT therapy for this. I’m sure I have Pure OCD where the compulsions are just mental like rumination and pushing my thoughts away and mental checking. It’s hard but I want to change and recover from this. My family knows about this but they don’t understand it. My friends don’t really know about it at all. I mentioned it once, but that was it. This is something I don’t really talk about.
Thanks for this. I am 27 and have only just realised myself that I have suffered with this for a loooong time. Hope you guys are all doing good. OCD attacks the kindest most empathetic people, that’s why you gets so scared by the thoughts. Remember that your biggest fear is really your biggest strength!
We love you cami 💕 thank you for using your platform for important topics like this 🤗
Thank you for posting this even thoug it was hard for you!❤
I’m glad u shared your experience with us, I’m proud of u, u did great and I appreciate your hard work 🥺💗
I’m so glad you’re talking about this on UA-cam it’s very misunderstood & many people need to learn about it. I was diagnosed at 8 years old but your situation is SO common. Keep learning, getting help, and sharing!
I hear you girl! Thanks for opening up and being vulnerable. It really helps.
the thoughts I had with pure o were so traumatizing and upsetting. There is no way to rationalize with them even though I want it to make sense. It gives me a sense of control knowing what happened, even though I find it hard to trust myself. I don’t know what’s real anymore. Now I almost completely dissociate every day to avoid having to remember what happened. It’s like I was a different person then. I didn’t know how to relate to myself because the OCD was telling me such horrible things. Or if I was doing anything right. Now I am afraid to have any thoughts. My brain is silent a lot of the time from how much I detach myself via dissociation. Just terrified to live in my brain. I never knew what it felt like to feel safe mentally with all the illness. Feels like my memory is shot because I know how powerful my brain can be. I don’t want to turn it back on. I have been living like a robot for 4 years. I know I am smart and sensitive but I know how quickly things can go wrong for me. It sucks
This has really helped me to understand my mum and bff so much! Thank you, Cami, for making this video ❤
thanks for posting this personal stuff Cami, helps a lot of people I think
thank you for making this!! it really helped me ❤❤❤❤
you're so brave to speak out ! love you
thank you so much for informing me and many others, Cami. I had no clue that OCD was this complex!
I love you Cami! Thank you for the video, I appreciate you so much and I’ve missed you. I love you so much! 💚
So important and so beautifully made🙏 thank you for lifting this Cami and being so open about it even though it is difficult❤️
Omg, yes Cami!!! I’ve been missing your mental health videos and mukbangs! So excited to watch 😭☺️
Been struggling with OCD too thanks for bringing up awareness on it
thank you so much for making this video. hearing other people's experiences with OCD helps you feel less alone. i'm sure this video has, and will continue to help so many people:)
Cami I just love you! Please know that you are such an inspiration to so many! Thanks for being so honest and for talking about mental health.
Thank you SO much for being so open and honest
Thank you for so much for taking about this! I myself have diagnosed OCD and its so nice to finally hear someone actually talk about it.
i am feeling proud that u took ur tym n talked abt this i hope ur video helps others too
We really appreciated you and this video girl! You're my bias in all video reactors here :)
thank you for posting this Cami. I know you will help a lot of people with this.
You are so strong and inspirational Cami!! The pandemic and other stuff hit my mental health pretty strong too, and for the past few months I have been struggling with bad eating patterns (not to a level of a disorder though) and I ended up watching your video about your eating disorder. I really appreciate you being open about all this stuff, your video helped me quite a bit, and to see how you’ve grown and changed is incredibly inspirational!! You seem to have been handed a lot of tough experiences in this life, and how you’ve grown from that is really encouraging, so thank you :)
Cami, you are an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing this (probably) very scary video. We love you!
this was so so helpful. i've known about mine for years, but still doubt myself constantly. especially with quarantine, like you said, it got so much worse and just out of control. this was the reminder i needed, thank you again. you're so brave for sharing your experience. love you cami!
I love that you don't just share your experience but you educate us as well. Thank you, love u.
You sound so so so relieved to have put a name on it and i can relate and so wanted to say that i am so happy for you ! Not happy that you've been struggling of course but happy that you're finding help and answers 🤍
i love seeing people open up about their ocd and intrusive thoughts because i've struggled with this since the fourth grade. i've been to a lot of therapy and although i'm a lot better now than i used to be, intrusive thoughts are so hard and confusing and often tell me that i'm a piece of shit. so thank you for sharing this part of your life with us, i appreciate it
Thankyou for sharing your experience! It can help alot of silent sufferers out there!
I came across this video when you posted it at the time but I never fully watched it until now. It was a great video . We love u!!!
i remember u struggling so much with driving! and the disassociating that went along with it sometimes. It must feel relieving to understand the root of this anxiety. thanks for always sharing your continued journey with mental health. It really helps me to remember there is no right/wrong in healing
This video made me so emotional because it brought back so many memories, but thank you for speaking up
Bravo!! for putting yourself out there and telling us about what has been happening. It was a very informative topic that I didn't know much about, and somehow can relate to. Impressed that you identified within yourself that something is wrong and have seeked help for it. Thank you for shining a light on OCD.
thanks so much for posting this video!! struggling tonight with relationship ocd and this helped me feel not so alone!! 🤍🤍
Dont worry cami, we always be with you❤️ stay strong girl🥰
Omg this video was an eye opener for me and my situation, THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Thank you much much for posting this. Every video like this helps. I am sorry to hear you've got it ... I myself have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, with occasional OCD like symptoms, so, can't say I know what you've been through, but I've had a taste, and it sucks, badly! So, sympathy and empathy and hugs to you, from me :)
I think a point you made early in the video is just so, so critical ... that OCD and disorders like it represent a difference in degree, not in kind. There are so many disorders out there that have symptoms that are instantly recognizable and relatable to just about everybody. People don't seem to get that there is a key difference between being sad because something sad happened and being depressed for any or no reason at all; key difference between being sick with anxiety about an upcoming presentation vs the long grinding experience that is being sick with anxiety over anything, everything, and nothing, every day all day. People don't seem to understand that these things are called disorders because they take something that is a normal part of the human condition and magnify it into something that becomes difficult or impossible to live with. So. Very, very glad you got diagnosed, very very glad you are getting the treatment you need, and just extraordinarily grateful for you using your platform to educate and raise awareness.
woah dude! been watching you forever and Ive been struggling with OCD for the past 2 years and went through the same therapy process with NOCD. that little app saved my life and im so grateful that you are brave enough to tell you story and shine a light on OCD. thank you for this
Okay, but nervous Cami is so cute! 🙈💕 thank you for this honest chat, really inspired me to keep working towards mental wellness!
Cami I have only watched the first minute of this video but I am already so happy you are talking about this. The exact same thing happened to me. I’ve been dealing with OCD for years and always believed it was just being clean and like you my OCD spiked in 2020 leading me to research and finally be diagnosed (was diagnosed literally 2 days ago). I just wanted to tell you that you’re not alone, and that I and many other people are here to support you! ❤️
thank you so much for making this video!! I have OCD too and am currently in therapy, but I have difficulty talking with friends and family about it because its hard to explain and the shame obviously comes with it too.. I‘ve been following you on youtube for years and seeing you talking about your experience made me feel so much less alone with it! sending a big hug from switzerland 😘
Wowow thank you so much for posting this. I've been struggling with OCD for years but this past year it has been almost unbearable and completely taken over my life. When you say you didn't want to be alive anymore to just escape I felt that girl!!! If you haven't read the book Pure by Rose Bretecher, I recommend! Its about the authors experience with Pure O and really helped me feel a bit less alone because, as I'm sure you know, OCD can make you feel so fucking lonely and misunderstood. Stay strong chica
I just wanna thank you for opening up to this. Tbh i thought ocd was all about obsessive abt cleanliness all this while and so glad i found this video. Thank u cami and hope u hang in there!
So happy you have gotten help and are moving forward! I started struggling with OCD at about 9 years old and now I am 25 and finally doing ERP! Excited to finally break out of this dark cloud that has been hanging over me for 16 years!
Cami you’re so strong and I just respect your honesty and genuine will to help others. I’m very happy that you found a path to understanding this disorder and regaining control of your life. While I identify with many of the things you described, I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, only depression and anxiety. I also found a great therapist, and have been doing much better, especially since 2021 began. I wish you luck girl, and thank you for staying so humble and true. ❤️✌🏼
Such an important topic!!! So happy to see accurate OCD representation. I had a similar experience with not being diagnosed bc of so much misinformation and stigma
im talking with my therapist about a possible ocd diagnosis and i really appreciate videos like these right now thank you
I'm so so glad you did this video it was very relatable and comforting to watch a good youtuber explaining the same things I experience that is not talked upon enough. I love that you talked about the stereotypes too because I've had it since I was 6 but didn't realize until I was 13 even though I'd watch shows with my parents with ppl acting like they had OCD, but it is such an exaggeration and not an accurate representation. I did realize some of the qualities/concepts were the same though. I've struggled with many different subtypes of OCD and the intrusive thoughts are real! I had nightmares growing up about intruders robbing my house and in 6th grade I was the last 1 to leave and the 1st to come back so I felt a huge responsibility in locking every door so we wouldn't get robbed and I constantly had nightmares about it. I also had horrible thoughts when I was around 9 of me being a pedophile and tricking children(even though I was one) and being like that for my little brother which I hated. Then I would have thoughts of me sawing my family and loved ones in half. It's the worst. No one should want OCD and hearing ppl say they have it and explain why they do a certain quirk when it's clearly not OCD really bums me down
This was a really good and informative video. I don’t know that I ever had OCD but I have experienced a lot of intrusive thoughts and still do. Hearing about the specific thoughts you actually dealt with was helpful as most people won’t talk about that. Thanks for being vulnerable and real.
Just found this video after dealing with some OCD issues myself. This made me feel so heard and validated 😭. I feel relief knowing I’m not the only one. Thank you for posting.
You’re very brave, smart and kind. You cared enough about others to make yourself vulnerable and put yourself out there. That’s hero stuff right there. God bless you. ❤
Aww dear Cami, the whole video I was like " I wanna hug you CAMI ☹️💕" ...
I've been wanting to share my own experiences with OCD and treatment for so long but haven't been able to figure out how. You relating your experiences has really helped to give me some direction - thank you!
I'm studying Psychology in college and I've been feeling umotivated lately and I even thought about dropping BUT this video really inspire me a lot to keep going and I'll definitely read more about OCD now. So thank you Cami ❤
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thank you oh my God!! i've been struggling with Pure O for a while now and i was so terrified, i thought i was going insane. this makes me feel so much better
thank you for having the courage to share this. if it wasn’t for people like you online i wouldn’t have had the ability to seek a diagnosis for my ADHD 💗
thank you for opening up about your experience and shedding light on OCD in such a real, educational, and research based way. I'm constantly cringing at people saying "oh I'm so OCD!" and throwing it around like it's not an actual disorder that people suffer (often silently) with
We missed you!! 🥺🥺❤️❤️
Thank you! This was a very clear, intelligent, and courageous presentation of an experience with OCD. For example, I found it very valuable to share your experience about the seasons when OCD doesn't show up and it feels like there was never anything wrong, even though it is an illusion and help is still very much needed.
I wish you the best and thank you once again.
Just started my own channel and its taken a lot of guts as I have suffered all my life with OCD but your site is amazing and really encourages me and others to challenge OCD. thank you so much for spending the time to help people like me.
I feel privileged to have heard your story. Thank you.
Oh myyyyy!! I’m now thinking I might have Pure-O.. I think I’m going to figure that out now LOL.. but thank you for sharing.. definitely opens up the doors for more discussions.. and very proud of you for opening up 🤍
Oooohhhh my word!! Every word, every example…just everything!
I’ve had Pure O (I hate that name too! lol) that would come and go throughout my entire life. I finally found a therapist 7 years ago and she explained everything to me! I’m so thankful for people sharing their stories. I hate that other people go through this as well, but it’s also comforting to know that I’m not alone.
Thank you girl!! ❤️❤️❤️
thank you thank you thank you. this was the wake up call i needed to help me put the pieces together. i’ve been told for YEARS that i have “depression and anxiety with OCD tendencies” and was mainly treated for depression and anxiety, but this made me realize that my OCD is probably the main cause of most of my mental issues and i just didn’t know how to verbalize what was happening in my brain properly to get the right help. so happy that you made the connection and got help, plus were so kind to share your story with all of us 🤍
p.s. i’ve been watching you for so many years now and seeing you grow and thrive is so heartwarming 🥺
Thankyou for making this video i am struggling a lot with my mental health , I recently discovered i have maladaptive daydreaming disorder and watching your video made me feel like i am not alone in my journey towards mental health❤️
I´m very proud of the internet mental community for making such helpful content and of you for adding to it
I really enjoyed watching all your videos💕💕💕
I hope you're healthy, happy and always blessed✨
This video is extremely validating. Thank you for making this! Although I haven't been officially diagnosed, I exhibit many behaviors associated with OCD and it's always comforting to hear others' experiences. I also struggle with driving-related OCD, which doesn't pair well with the driving-related PTSD I've acquired over the past few years from accidents. I frequently picture myself getting into horrible crashes, cars rear-ending me, being pulled over and arrested (I've never been pulled over or arrested) or hitting someone while looking the other way. I also have been a nail/cuticle biter since I was a kid, which is used to cope with a wide variety of obsessive thoughts I have, from potentially cheating on my partner (me: I would never... brain: or would I??) to all the responsibilities I have as a freelancer. I could go on but I'll leave it at that. :p My final thought: Healing is possible!
I was diagnosed with OCD in 2021 at 25 so I’m doing research and listening to others story’s. You made me feel not alone by sharing yours because we had a similar experience. So thank you for this video. I’ll be making my own to spread awareness & share my story as well. 💖
This honestly makes me feel so validated in what my OCD is. I constantly have thoughts of violence towards myself and have NEVER been able to drive, bike or do any transport where I have control. That’s only a minuscule part of it, but I related to that aspect of your video so well. I often convince myself I don’t have ocd because I don’t always have physical compulsions, especially lately. I’m always stuck in my own head, desperately trying not to think of these horrible things, but this has made me realise that mental compulsions can take many forms. I often repeat phrases or things in my head that I thought were obsessions, making me think they were just obsessions and not ocd, but actually just doing that could be the compulsion :0
I was diagnosed at 17 but I know is been there since I can remember...trauma and other things can really mess you up, it’s so incredibly hard to deal with, I have pureO too, besides other types but the disturbing intrusive thoughts never stop to impress me... I hope it gets better I’m 30 now and with time, therapy, meds (if you actually feel comfortable taking them) you can actually live with the disorder and be functional. But it’s important to be prepared for relapses and anxiety crisis. Never lose hope, you are not alone in this and it’s really nice to know that we are not the only ones. You are really brave Cami, thank you for sharing your experience! Much love from Costa Rica. 🐱
I'm dealing with pureo already 2 years now. Gladly, I'm learning how to manage it. Still a long way to go in my recovery journey, but I do feel understood now. I know how to react on thoughts, what's wrong and what's right. You seem such a nice person and I'm so glad that I found this video, we will definitely be okay, just need a little bit of time to understand what our brains want from us.😄 Wishing you all the best!❤️
I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE GRATEFUL FOR A VIDEO THANK U FOR EXPLAINING IT TO EVERYONE it’s so hard to tell people why i have OCD when they only have this stereotype in their head
Thanks for being brave enough to share your experience! I don’t think I experience OCD, I relate to some of the things you mentioned but it’s only because I do suffer from anxiety, and the disorders are quite similar in some ways. However, your testimony and experience have helped me become aware of some of my unhealthy behaviors/thoughts, and now I can go and mention them to my therapist!
Great video, really well delivered and necessary. Thank you. There was a drama series relatively recently here in the UK focused on Pure O - I think it was called Pure. The writer has experience Pure O for years, and wanted to break down the preconceptions of what people imagine when they think of OCD, so it wasn't sensationalised or titillating in any way. I totally recommend it
I'm watching the video and just reading OCD breaks my heart because I've been diagnosed 3 years ago and taking paroxetine and other antidepressants since then and I'm still struggling a lot. thank you for sharing this story. love you cami.🥀
This video really helped me, just got diagnosed with OCD and didn't even know till this video mine was part of Pure O - Thank you for making me feel less alone :)
First off, thank you so much for talking about this and opening this discussion. I struggle with a lot of anxiety and don’t think I have OCD but sometimes I have similar patterns to PureO in regard to love or romance. I have the usual “what if I drove off the rode” thoughts but I’m not sure if they stick as much as someone diagnosed with OCD. My more severe patterns with love come up every few of months. I’m in a 4+ year relationship and randomly when nothing is wrong I find myself doing the whole “what if I don’t actually love them?” “What if I’m lying to myself about loving them” “what if I don’t even know what love is and I’m just so used to being with him that I think it’s love??” Or then there’s “what if he’s actually just annoyed by me I annoy him he’s might not actually love me” etc etc. And it really fucks me up because I spiral into feeling guilty for all of those questions because I DO LOVE HIM but my brain is like “how do you know that???”. Idk if this is OCD at all but I feel like it may be connected in a way. Luckily my boyfriend is very understanding and I’m able to talk to him about all of my crazy doubts and he’s helped me overcome them a lot. Yes I do love him I also haven’t had these thoughts in a while but when they do come up they really hit really hard.
Thank you for sharing your experiences so bravely with us!
I’ve been subscribed to you for so long and this video is so helpful I got diagnosed with ocd this year and it has been wild.
Thank you so much you actually made me realize I’m not going insane and crazy. It’s midnight and I just started to go all in person for school after being all virtual. Being a high school student is very stressful but I never wanted to tell anyone about all of this built up childhood trauma and negative thoughts. I was fearful of showing and weakness sides of myself which lead to me becoming my own therapist. If I ask my mom if I could go therapy her being narcissistic would start making fun of me for being sick. I knew from a very young age I’ve always been called neat, organized, quiet and obedient well… I was scared of judgment due to again my mother. But I knew I had OCD and I would brush it off because I was so scared for anyone to know since they might treat me differently. This video has helped me calm down a bit since I was going into a full panic mood at 1 in the morning which is washing clothes that have not been worn but I felt there was a built of germs and dust. Thank you I feel so calm. Luv y’all’s bye 🌸
Great description of this!! Thank you! 🌟
oh man the ''what if'' type is something i experienced 2 years ago..it was litterally the worst.I fucked up myself basically from being a depressed(diagnosed)person doing drugs carelessly and one day it hit me and it just created those obsessions..''what if i am losing my mind?''and the spiral just kept going ...thankfully i seeked help and i'm much better when it comes to obsessions..Bravo for speaking up,it takes a lot of courage..i can only hope healing for you
Okay so I’ve been thinking I had undiagnosed OCD for a whiiiiile. When you started talking about your intrusive thought patterns, especially with hitting a pedestrian, it was like you were describing exactly what goes on in my head. It’s so reassuring to know I’m not crazy omfg.
You're so beautiful, I've suffered from OCD for a long time, seeing this video I could relate in almost every way, I think although it can feel difficult at times to try compassionate detachment toward my thoughts, to try observe and witness my thoughts with compassion than engaging with them, but I completely sympathize cos OCD can feel very distressing and tormenting, but well done for having the courage to make this video well done xx :)
It's SO crazy going through your entire life having these intrusive (and honestly, insane thoughts) and just thinking they're totally normal?? I was just diagnosed at the end of last year and the more I talk to other people about their OCD the more I'm like, "oh well, I guess that thing I've been doing/thinking for my whole life is actually not normal whatsoever"