finally crying after 15 years...

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  • @mommyjuice2000
    @mommyjuice2000 5 років тому +850

    It’s so interesting how the “bubbly happy funny” people be going through it the most. Trust me I know, I’m the same way. Find yourself a therapist it’s the best decision I’ve ever made.

    • @Lo2smoove
      @Lo2smoove 5 років тому +12

      Mommy Juice coping mechanism

    • @AuraEsteem
      @AuraEsteem 4 роки тому +3

      yes they do

  • @Iamjoshimmanuel
    @Iamjoshimmanuel 5 років тому +231

    From one black man to another, I'm sending my love. I'm glad you're starting therapy soon. Been doing it since August and it has opened me up much more and allowed me to see a lot of the pain that I haven't yet healed from. Much love

  • @samanthatyrell3001
    @samanthatyrell3001 5 років тому +1003

    Seeing Will cry is so heartbreaking, especially after meeting him in person and seeing how he makes everything so joyful. There’s nothing we can say to make it better but I wish everything will become better for you Will. You have some fans who are willing to be here for you as a shoulder to cry on including myself.

    • @funnybunny2304
      @funnybunny2304 5 років тому +15

      Yeah, that's what's heartbreaking about this 😢. Crying is good for releasing negative emotions so I'm glad that he's letting it out and I appreciate him being honest and open like this.

    • @an1ah
      @an1ah 5 років тому +1

      I totally agree

    • @telisah9611
      @telisah9611 4 роки тому +1

      So cool you got to meet irl. I bet you Will is crazy and the most fun. Will get what you need to take care of Yourself! We'll b here, regardless. 😍😘

  • @marianb2530
    @marianb2530 5 років тому +104

    "...I cannot prioritize you for a 7 minute video just to make you laugh, over my mental well being..." well said Will.

  • @lavendervanilladepressioni5536
    @lavendervanilladepressioni5536 5 років тому +2174

    To the people saying “don’t cry it’s okay” LET 👏🏻 HIM 👏🏻 CRY. Will your feelings are valid and you’re allowed to feel them 💜
    Edit: thank you all for the kind replies 💕 stay wonderful you all

    • @JJaleesa
      @JJaleesa 5 років тому +57

      Crying is so important. Its a step to just feel and recover! ❤️

    • @Heevvyy
      @Heevvyy 5 років тому +55

      Right people should start correct themselves and say " It’s okay to cry " instead 🥺

    • @lavendervanilladepressioni5536
      @lavendervanilladepressioni5536 5 років тому +9

      Anaaaa that’s what I’m sayinnnn! 😭💜

    • @Tajouramir
      @Tajouramir 5 років тому +42

      Yes! For some reason it’s taboo for people to cry or not feel 100%. For Black men it’s even more taboo! We’re told as young boys that in order to be strong men we can’t be in touch with our emotions. I know for a fact that that kind of psychological mentoring has created alot of social repression which turns into aggression in some cases. I’m a black guy and i used to feel so ashamed for being a crybaby...but you know what, it keeps me in touch with my emotions and it actually helps to let it all out instead of trying to live by those toxic masculinity standards. I also can’t stand how alot of gay guys in my community and others push these toxic masculinity standards despite all that we’re still going thru to get to true equality! So to anyone who needs it...cry today, tomorrow, the next day and the day after...i promise you’ll sleep better and feel better too. Blessings y’all ✊🏾❤️✨

    • @lavendervanilladepressioni5536
      @lavendervanilladepressioni5536 5 років тому +3

      Amir I love this response! Thank you so much for sharing your experience and raising more awareness 💖 have a blessed day

  • @AsheCatsup
    @AsheCatsup 5 років тому +122

    This feels like grief. I can understand this. The anxiety, the loneliness. I just want to give a big old hug.

    • @petinachambersmcvay8482
      @petinachambersmcvay8482 4 роки тому +2

      AsheCatsup 💋 it actually is grief. We grieve over losses... i.e. life, marriage, relationships, if your home burns down, etc ...anything that you invest your heart in. The grieving process kicks in and in a natural human response to loss. Do, yes, literal grief. Fun fact: the chemical makeup of tears from grief are literally different from other tears that come from other reasons from our eyes.

    • @myrthasmascary4086
      @myrthasmascary4086 2 роки тому

      I hear u don't feel bad we all go threw it and just remember u have help so many people ty so much 4 sharing u experience

  • @lorrainebrown5391
    @lorrainebrown5391 5 років тому +367

    When I came across this the mother in me said 'Whats wrong!?' When you said someone left you the mother in me said 'What idiot left this beautiful young man!?' Baby boy I believe I've been in your shoes before. I'm 54 yrs old and you've been teaching me how to take care of my hair. 'Thank you.!' You go head and cry baby. One day you'll stop but until then don't keep it bottled up. I'm so glad your friends are there for you. Your fans love you. Continue to take care of yourself. Love you son❤

    • @marianb2530
      @marianb2530 5 років тому +8

      I am in your age range, and I watch him from time to time regarding hair, but I feel bad for him and I hope he is doing better.

    • @robynisrael1015
      @robynisrael1015 5 років тому +5

      I'm 54 too, a mother too, and your words spoke volumes to Will for me. My heart is hurt for him, my tears are real for him, and all I want to do is speak to and hug him forever.

    • @marianb2530
      @marianb2530 5 років тому +1

      @@robynisrael1015 I think he is doing fine now going by the last few videos he uploaded. I like the one where he showed Ebony from ANTM getting her courage up when she found out she made the cut! That was a great show.

  • @barbarabutterfield2679
    @barbarabutterfield2679 5 років тому +1103

    I command in the name of Jesus that healing and peace come to Will ( and anyone reading this) for the glory of the Father! Amen!

    • @alib180
      @alib180 5 років тому +36

      Barbara Butterfield amen! When 2 or 3 agree! Mighty things happen! In Jesus name amen!

    • @Tpproductions_
      @Tpproductions_ 5 років тому +17

      Amen!!!

    • @mstamalaj
      @mstamalaj 5 років тому +15

      Amen❤️

    • @PrettyGirl8496
      @PrettyGirl8496 5 років тому +8

      Amen! ❤

    • @sgaines6807
      @sgaines6807 5 років тому +9

      Amen!💝💖

  • @tentoestauruss
    @tentoestauruss 5 років тому +548

    this is literally what happens when people decide to address the emotional trauma thats been following them. eye'm proud and thankful that you shared this. we love you will you are literally the sweetest person. ramember crying is cleansing so yes baby let all that out !!! this makes me so happy because eye've been facing my trauma head on. glad that eye'm not alone. you remind me to stay bright and stay sweet. bless your heart

    • @oohlalaa2390
      @oohlalaa2390 5 років тому +7

      👀👀👀👀👀
      ❤💕❤💕❤ love this comment so much
      🤣😂🤣😂🤣

    • @makibliss4675
      @makibliss4675 5 років тому +18

      Eye?

    • @zariaskinner4606
      @zariaskinner4606 5 років тому +24

      um eye’m?😂

    • @Jsween876
      @Jsween876 5 років тому +10

      Spell your words the way you should. Making yourself sound illiterate is not cute. Eye've ? Seriously? What are you trying to be...unique?
      On another note: what you wrote was very sweet.

    • @chicagogirl14
      @chicagogirl14 5 років тому

      Same here!

  • @christinarouse1209
    @christinarouse1209 5 років тому +162

    It’s not fair for someone to feel lonely who has so many thousands of people who want to be there to love them. Why can’t we all meet somehow? 😭

  • @Dreinnerstar
    @Dreinnerstar 5 років тому +140

    WE STAN MENTAL HEALTH❗❤

  • @lexiblieux
    @lexiblieux 5 років тому +86

    "The icing on the cake" or "The straw that broke the camel's back". Scene.. You're just having it rough at work, car acting up, fam and friends on some funny ish, then you get home and drop your keys trying to open the door and instantly lose it. You're not alone. Cry and release. Thank you for helping us to do the same.

  • @joaris333
    @joaris333 5 років тому +328

    This community is here for you, love. This sounds like anxiety related to the past that continues to echo to this day. I'm not a doctor but I stan self care (because I wouldn't be typing, breathing, living my best life if I didn't have my therapist. Real talk). Have you checked out doctors on demand or someone to talk to? As a UA-cam celebrity/influencer, you probably don't realize you are the one that keeps some of us going using your gift and your talent. But that means you are always in a state of giving to others. But now it's time for you to take care of YOU. TreatChoSelf. Like you nourish those curls boo, nourish that soul. 🧡🧡 No matter how long you take for yourself, your fans ain't goin nowhere. Periodt. #NotificationGang

    • @ChristinaQueenHeart
      @ChristinaQueenHeart 5 років тому +21

      I am a doctor and I completely agree with you. You can't give from a cup that's not full.

    • @TheJlb527
      @TheJlb527 5 років тому +7

      Period. "Like how you nourish those curls, boo. Nourish you soul." THAT'S WORD 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

    • @chalabrooks5433
      @chalabrooks5433 4 роки тому

      Preach! 👋🏽👋🏽💖

  • @BAFABA
    @BAFABA 5 років тому +517

    Im glad you are starting therapy soon. #BlackMentalHealthMatters

    • @kristenlowe7353
      @kristenlowe7353 5 років тому +21

      All mental health matters no matter what skin color take care of yourself no matter what

    • @mimidairo2805
      @mimidairo2805 5 років тому +8

      All mental health matters

    • @BAFABA
      @BAFABA 5 років тому +35

      Yes ALL mental health matters but as it pertains to THIS video, #BlackMentalHealthMatters.

    • @alexiajolie
      @alexiajolie 5 років тому +24

      Cupcakery Gaming true but right now we’re acknowledging black peoples mental health

    • @inotcarlyy
      @inotcarlyy 5 років тому +3

      Alexia Hackshaw there ain’t a difference between blacks whites, yellows, browns, and others other than their skin color.

  • @unathinaomimasango5313
    @unathinaomimasango5313 5 років тому +258

    Whenever you wake up with that feeling of anxiety or dread
    Remember : You are here for a purpose
    You are allowed to feel
    You are an inspiration by sharing
    You are who you want to be
    We love you, we didn't stay subbed for content. We literally would cry if anything happened to you❤

  • @MsN0ire
    @MsN0ire 5 років тому +157

    15 years of unresolved pain is a lot, so be gentle with urself getting through it all 💕 i hope u get the healing u need. it's good to hear u have friends around u u can share ur thoughts with. wishing u all the best💜💜💜

  • @daisyflow3994
    @daisyflow3994 5 років тому +164

    PROTECT URSELF FIRST then everything after that comes SECOND.

    • @klickingkayasmr7585
      @klickingkayasmr7585 5 років тому +7

      daisy flow Exactly. And i hate when people call that “being selfish.”

  • @honeycoco341
    @honeycoco341 5 років тому +79

    Burning out is the worst feeling.

  • @isthatachicken
    @isthatachicken 5 років тому +197

    I almost skipped that Headspace ad because I wanted to see and show love as soon as possible☹️ I'm less than a minute in but may you receive comfort and healing through the Holy Spirit in the name and blood of Jesus, amen❤️
    We love you Will, we're here for you❤️

  • @tarynmichelleart
    @tarynmichelleart 5 років тому +21

    "Communication is great; connection is better; both of those things is best"
    - Will
    Wow. I needed that. Thank you.

  • @ah-ss7he
    @ah-ss7he 5 років тому +280

    The parking ticket was the straw that broke the camel’s back.

    • @krobin2723
      @krobin2723 5 років тому +4

      ah I did not mean to laugh so hard 💀

    • @ItsNessaTho
      @ItsNessaTho 5 років тому +32

      I remember my history teacher told me this story 🤔 moral of the story: "it's never just one thing, it's almost always a buildup"

    • @BluDrop5
      @BluDrop5 5 років тому

      @TheReisecup89 Every.Single.Time. (Even though you know didn't want to move your car the night before. Lol.)

  • @pearlav
    @pearlav 5 років тому +55

    it’s okay to cry 💕
    it’s good to cry 💕
    it’s *valid* to cry 💕
    Will you honestly are one of the most genuine people on UA-cam. Don’t let these struggles define you, experience them and acknowledge your emotions. Present your problems and overcome them 💕 I hope you find the comfort you need, I hope the people around you support you, and I hope you take a break whenever you need it ✨ we all love you!!!

  • @PowerfulBongo
    @PowerfulBongo 5 років тому +450

    We love you and we’re are here to support you PERIOD

  • @crystalanderson9981
    @crystalanderson9981 5 років тому +22

    It really breaks my heart to see him cry like this and not be able to hug him. It really does hurt and I really feel his pain in his cry.

  • @apinder53
    @apinder53 5 років тому +121

    Dont ignore your feelings, speak with someone. I hope talking about it makes you feel better but dont ignore it please

  • @monnikajohnson2794
    @monnikajohnson2794 5 років тому +15

    For anybody that just so happens to see this, please remember that God loves you and you have a purpose in His kingdom. Have a great day 💓

  • @bronzedgold
    @bronzedgold 5 років тому +341

    Aww babe I’m only 3 minutes in and you’re gonna make me cry. I’m going to finish watching, but everything is going to be okay 👑
    Don’t ignore how you feel. Don’t repress it. Take the time to work through it. It takes work and it takes falling apart in the process, but it’s how you put yourself back together. You have to face whatever it is. Do not repress how you feel. Don’t run from it. Embrace your tears. There is healing in them. I’m hear if you ever need to talk or vent. I don’t know you, but I love you. And you’re young so I want you to work through this early in your life. The 30s are so much better than the 20s for me. Childhood structured us and sometimes we have to go back to find out why we feel how we feel now 💯

    • @mshill2406
      @mshill2406 5 років тому +1

      wonderful sentiments

  • @loveabundantly
    @loveabundantly 5 років тому +3

    I see the parallel between what you described with the car accident and how you felt after being dumped by the person you love. How you felt that spinning, chaotic sensation then were left, alone, to look around and make sense of what just happened. It makes so much sense why you’ve been crying nonstop and hurt so badly. The dreams we make for ourselves can lead to disappointment when we’re married to it. I pray for peace in your life and complete restoration of your heart and spirit. You being honest with yourself and feeling everything has already changed something inside of you for the better. You’re strengthened by allowing your weaknesses to surface. Life can build up to a deafening scream when we’re pushing for the plans we’ve set up for ourselves but peace and release comes when we surrender to the good and perfect plans of what God has in mind. Every person who was once in your life and isn’t here anymore wasn’t needed in that plan. You’re always being protected and you are never forgotten. Continue to be the light of the earth ❤️

  • @jaylaanderson9702
    @jaylaanderson9702 5 років тому +70

    You have to FEEL to HEAL! The process is hard but so important.

  • @asmrsharm1060
    @asmrsharm1060 5 років тому +18

    Aww Will. I love you ❤️ I hope healing goes your way.

  • @beverlyb9568
    @beverlyb9568 5 років тому +390

    I’m sorry for you having to feeling like this😭🥺 this made me cry

  • @LateefahABrown
    @LateefahABrown 5 років тому +29

    “Communication is great.
    Connection is better.
    Both of those things is best.”
    You spoke a whole WORD there! It is my prayer that you heal and find that light inside of you so many of us see. When I was at the lowest, lowest point of my life, your videos brought me so much joy and laughter. Take the time to be that for yourself. You are an amazing, loving, caring person. Don’t ever let someone else’s rejection ruin that. Love you! ❤️

  • @krystleholland1869
    @krystleholland1869 5 років тому +47

    Will, I have experienced very similar anxiety. Everyday I wake up, I'm angry that I'm still here and so are the problems. Not waking up seems like it would be a relief. Hang in there. I'm here. We can do this!

    • @De_Sava
      @De_Sava 5 років тому +1

      Krystale please get professional counseling, I am sad you feel this way. You deserve to wake up not feeling this way, so please start working on taking care of yourself starting now. Call your insurance, get a counselor and keep working to feel worthy of waking up calm and free of constant negative thoughts. Peace and Blessings.

  • @WhatTheKink
    @WhatTheKink 5 років тому +11

    Those journal entries will come in handy when you start going to your therapy sessions. 🥰

  • @nicholemobley6470
    @nicholemobley6470 5 років тому +95

    Not my baby you make me smile so much my feelings are truly hurt by you being hurt I want you to pray talk to God and I'll be praying for you too

  • @effiejames9129
    @effiejames9129 5 років тому +17

    Sounds like you needed a good cry (or two). Losing someone you love is hard. Looking at you toward the end of the video made me feel like you were in the passing clouds after a storm and before the sun returns. You will be ok. I'm praying for you!

  • @AiresLyre
    @AiresLyre 5 років тому +43

    I’ve cried from start to finish. It hurt to see someone like him harbor all those feelings and pain and gone through what he has. But somehow managed to get on camera and give laughter joy and amazing content is just outstanding.

  • @CoCoFantastique
    @CoCoFantastique 5 років тому +26

    "The straw that broke the camels back" " When you are carrying a heavy load and one last tiny thing piled on breaks you.

  • @CatsAndPokemon
    @CatsAndPokemon 5 років тому +152

    I think the term you're looking for is "the straw that broke the camels back"
    Like you're dealing with so many things and repressing, trying to stay positive then one thing happens (could be as small as getting a parking ticket or as big as a horrific car accident) and you just completely break down.
    I feel for you so much Will.
    I'm not here to give you anymore corny sayings I just hear you brother. I hear you loud and clear. ✊🏾

  • @vampiredetective
    @vampiredetective 5 років тому +191

    I waited until my 20s to finally sleep with someone. He was the first guy I had been with. We got married and 3 years into it, whe he got his papers (he was from another country), that same month, he left me for our neighbor. I was crushed. So much pain. Now, It's been 3 years since we separated and I haven't dated anyone yet. BUT, I am happy now. It gets better. Before I would randomly cry in public for 'no reason' because of the overwhelming pain. I started to get physically ill. Now I know there is no sense IN shedding tears over someone who left me, someone who never cared about the pain I went through.
    What really helped me though was:
    1. slowly learning my worth through good deeds; seeing how I create value to life by being a decent human being,
    2. hearing others experiences; knowing I was not victim but blessed to be able to experience life. I could now give myself permission to see new days as opportunities for my renaissance (without having to consider the feelings/needs/time of someone who wouldn't so the same for me). Looking at those who 'found' life after a relationship and are happier than ever. (Even celebrities like jlo). I consciously choose to be a jlo.
    3. remembering the bad moments. All the moments that showed me who my ex was and how that person really wasn't the one I needed or wasnt someone who really cared about me. Although it wasnt my choice we got divorced, in retrospect it was the best choice for me and my potential.
    and finally,
    4. knowing that being alone isnt an 'end all, be all'. You never know what life has in store for you. I had a friend who found the LOVE of her LIFE and a few months after their second child he died in a car crash. Although she has now remarried, she says nothing can compare to what was. She misses him still. They never saw their living potential. Sometimes finding your one can be just as painful as finding the wrong one.
    As long as you have breath in your lungs and faith in your heart there is still a chance for you to shine and make life better for yourself and others cause we never know what people are going through.
    Hope this helps a little.

    • @thund3rcloud3
      @thund3rcloud3 5 років тому +18

      Girl I would have sought a lawyer immediately. That is a crime. www.nolo.com/legal-encyclopedia/what-should-i-i-believe-i-am-victim-marriage-fraud.html

    • @mallu8868
      @mallu8868 5 років тому +11

      @@thund3rcloud3 You're right! That is illegal, please seek legal advice

    • @chadicchildhausaewesulluba8320
      @chadicchildhausaewesulluba8320 5 років тому

      Was he African? Are you white?

    • @ybwjbw3348
      @ybwjbw3348 5 років тому +9

      @@chadicchildhausaewesulluba8320 y does that matter, tho?

    • @vintageclipse3548
      @vintageclipse3548 4 роки тому +2

      I know this is from months ago and I am SO sorry that he put you through that.
      But I'm sorry, if that happened to me I would have been on Snapped or one of those shows because they would both be gone😭

  • @mushooporkie
    @mushooporkie 5 років тому +21

    hey darling💛 from your previous videos, you kind of alluded to some childhood trauma. Hearing you talk about it here too, it may be some events that are happening rn related to that trauma and may be a huge trigger and unleash some of the things your brain has repressed. You can repeat a mantra: “I am safe, I have a roof over my head, I am worth keeping around and not being discarded, I am the one in charge of decisions, and not others.” While these tears and extreme anxiety may be overwhelming, it’s so good that you are releasing these things. I wish you love, healing, wellness, and a tribe or resources that can support you with all of these things.

  • @ashurisama
    @ashurisama 5 років тому +27

    I just want to give this man the biggest hug possible

    • @munenemaina4503
      @munenemaina4503 5 років тому +1

      Me too I also cry when I am in pain l have crying sessions made me feel better there is more room outside than inside

  • @gjfhgkib4512
    @gjfhgkib4512 5 років тому +399

    Can yall stop sending him these dms? Seriously please respect people's wishes. Don't corner him like that

    • @LateefahABrown
      @LateefahABrown 5 років тому +36

      Destiny Lewis For real! Leave this man alone. Let him heal.

    • @coronavirus5738
      @coronavirus5738 5 років тому +4

      @@LateefahABrown they thirsty😂😂😂😂

    • @pnathanielboejr5124
      @pnathanielboejr5124 5 років тому

      Understand you keep doing your thang

  • @BxTiki
    @BxTiki 5 років тому +4

    Let the tears flow. All of this is happening now because you're able to deal. You have a community that supports and loves you through all of this. Hugs and love!

  • @ct89093
    @ct89093 5 років тому +50

    The most joyous personalities have a lot of pain 😔😭 WE LOVE YOU WILLL!!! Please stay strong, take care of yourself first. I hated watching you cry....but I'm glad you are. We support you with whatever you need!!

  • @an1ah
    @an1ah 5 років тому +31

    ITS TOTALLY OKAY. You don’t need to post a video everyday just for vlogmas, I care about ur mental health soooo much more...❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @graciebattle8781
    @graciebattle8781 5 років тому +83

    This is so painful to see someone who makes me laugh so much cry like will take care of you before you worry about making videos for us cause you always come first 😭❤️❤️

  • @blacksa-tang2488
    @blacksa-tang2488 5 років тому +12

    When he made that video of his life story and kept a straight face I knew something wasn't adding up

  • @lunana1139
    @lunana1139 5 років тому +269

    Will you can take time off if you need to bb, its okay to not be fine.

  • @DNajai-Bettis
    @DNajai-Bettis 5 років тому +32

    I can totally understand where you're coming from I've bottled my emotions for years and finally broke down once i came to college. I've been coping with things by drawing and I'm also trying to get my dog as an ESA. Maybe you should get one. They're there for you and me and my dog is definitely helping me whenever I visit home.

  • @eliascharbel3998
    @eliascharbel3998 5 років тому +77

    This broke my heart , this guy makes me laugh everyday and makes me happy when I feel low and to know that he’s going tru this pain , breaks my heart , I hope he gets better , I wish u all the best Will , I love you , we love you 🥺❤️

    • @daligogh1
      @daligogh1 5 років тому +1

      That's exactly how I feel

  • @kurab1
    @kurab1 5 років тому +8

    This is 15 years of emotions being released. Let it out and take your time. Take baby steps to pick yourself up and know that we are all here supporting you 💓 we love you Will :')

  • @gjfhgkib4512
    @gjfhgkib4512 5 років тому +17

    Vlogmas and UA-cam aside. I truly just want the best for you. ❤

  • @j.flaner8506
    @j.flaner8506 5 років тому +4

    I'm crying with you too. Let's all just send Will a warm hug and pray for him, each other and this sometimes cruel world. Thank you, Will, for your honesty. I know that this was hard for you and I hope in some way, this will be a part of your healing.

  • @cassidysamantha8639
    @cassidysamantha8639 5 років тому +42

    All the love for you Will ❤️ it’s okay to be hurting or cry it’s never wrong. How you feel is NEVER EVER WRONG.

  • @Willa4420
    @Willa4420 5 років тому +21

    Cry and get it all out. I cry at times too. I'm a middle aged woman and crying keeps me from drinking or doing drugs !! We all need to cry sometimes. Get the pain out of your system. Just take care...things get better.

  • @youaintneverlied
    @youaintneverlied 5 років тому +31

    Please also take it to the Lord in prayer. He will help you. I will pray for you. Take care Will. I hope things get better soon

    • @AngellaMarieTV
      @AngellaMarieTV 5 років тому +4

      youaintneverlied couldn’t agree more. I just prayed for him too. God is willing. All we need to do is have faith

  • @KylaFuller
    @KylaFuller 5 років тому +9

    I’ve been through a phase in my life where I didn’t cry at all. I got on hormones to fix some health issues and when the tears started it was wild. I cried for maybe a year (not consistently) and I hated it being uncontrollable but I quickly learned that it was not just the pills and that I needed it out. Sometimes you gotta let it out.

  • @tishaw.8254
    @tishaw.8254 5 років тому +48

    I still feel like this sometimes after my mom passed in nov of 2017. It’s hard to have to push that shit down to get things done.
    I just wanna give him a hug. We’re all here for you. ❤️ don’t keep it down, trust me, let it all out.

    • @ashleyschwartz9550
      @ashleyschwartz9550 5 років тому +3

      SAME!!! My dad died Nov 2017 too. It’s a sad day everyday since but they’re not gone just not visible anymore. They live on in us ❤️

    • @torioffline
      @torioffline 5 років тому +3

      one year anniversary of my mom’s death just passed. we’re all in this together 💖

  • @KB-hj3zs
    @KB-hj3zs 5 років тому +15

    Seeing you cry breaks my heart...but I do believe that crying the soul's way of releasing pressure. I think that the key to healing is to be able to objectively sit with the pain and "make friends with it", so you can ultimately discard it. As a survivor of way too damn much, I had to try and quiet my mind so that I could function and not lose it all the damn time. It DOES get better...truly it does. Sending good karma and healing your way, and I hope that you can find peace.

  • @creamcheese1467
    @creamcheese1467 5 років тому +166

    When you cry I cry I started crying with you >>>>>

    • @ellythomas2498
      @ellythomas2498 5 років тому

      Good for you stupid

    • @creamcheese1467
      @creamcheese1467 5 років тому +15

      Idk why your hating cause you don’t know what other people go through and for you to comment rude like that is Disgusting

    • @indriadrayton1132
      @indriadrayton1132 5 років тому +10

      @@ellythomas2498 Is it stupid to care about someone? Really?

    • @sibria
      @sibria 5 років тому +3

      @@ellythomas2498 go away, stupid.

  • @noell50
    @noell50 4 роки тому +1

    Confession is good for the soul. So good that you are able to open up and free your spirit. There’s nothing wrong in crying, it’s a great release. Be strong Will you are a wonderful person. Love you bro. Stay blessed. Some people are not meant to be in your boat. Let it go and wait for what divinely yours

  • @Thatonegirl989
    @Thatonegirl989 5 років тому +52

    I’m sorry you’re going through a rough patch right now. You’re okay, sometimes you need to ride that wave of emotion. Cry if you need to, yell if you have to. Just remember it’s okay to have these feelings ❤️

  • @negritasolita07
    @negritasolita07 5 років тому +2

    Cry. Let it out. Let it flow. We are hear for you and with you. ❤️

  • @buhlengoma
    @buhlengoma 5 років тому +36

    waking up literally hurts!💔 i hope you have happier days soon. you deserve so much happiness! please take it easy, take as many breaks as you need. you’re in my thoughts ❤️

  • @humblyvida7079
    @humblyvida7079 5 років тому +34

    Cry, let it all out, scream, throw some things. LET IT ALLLLLLL OUTTTTT.

  • @PowderedFace
    @PowderedFace 5 років тому +25

    I know how you feel.
    I know it so well.
    You're such a great person and you deserve to be happy.

  • @Lowdermoomoo
    @Lowdermoomoo 3 роки тому +1

    Oh will, I’m just watching this now and I just wanna reach through the screen give you a big old hug! I come from a traumatic past and some days like today forme we just feel it. I’m healing from 24 years of trauma and it’s only been 7-8 moths for me and I’ve worked so hard on myself and That’s not gonna erase a lifetime of hurt, i just signed up for my last class for my college degree applied for graduation and I’m still sitting in my room fucked up over my feelings. You get so used to being in “survival” mode that you don’t “feel anything” when you come out of it, it feels like hell and all these emotions come out and you have to process them and it’s so fucking hard man. I feel you. I understand you.

  • @skinny5428
    @skinny5428 5 років тому +51

    Seeing you cry made me so sad and hardbroken 💔😢 Life is so hard and the reality of it is even harder to face. It's okay to cry and let your feelings out, we are all here for you and we love you sm. 💕

  • @queen_j1422
    @queen_j1422 5 років тому +1

    I sympathize, and understand completely. Have those feelings, cry...as much as you need to. To say things will get better, is something we say, but if you've been through A LOT and STILL are? As I am as well, can tell you, everyday gets a little easier. Many hugs (if I could) and much love!

  • @jonathana2599
    @jonathana2599 5 років тому +27

    I just wanna hug you and cry together

  • @MsRockstar013
    @MsRockstar013 5 років тому +2

    You don't have to tell us anything Will. We are here for you if YOU need to vent but please don't feel like you have to explain anything to us. Just know that we're earnestly praying for you and are hoping you'll get through this. You've been an outlet for us during our bad times too. I can only speak for myself but seeing you in pain makes me want to just send love your way, but the last thing I want you to feel is pressure from us. Even if that means stepping away for some time. I just want you to be healed and whole. I love you Will, I really really really do. You have been in my prayers lately and you will continue to be.

  • @keshaclarkduvall
    @keshaclarkduvall 5 років тому +6

    Mental health is very important! 😥 Love you Will! 🥰 Praying for you! 🙏🏾

  • @amandabaez7305
    @amandabaez7305 3 роки тому +1

    Watching this a year later and it's so crazy to see the progress you've made

  • @tierrasimone9
    @tierrasimone9 5 років тому +70

    I feel like God has so much in store for you. A lot of times in life things get so much worse before they get better. You are going to make it and I am personally rooting for you, Will. I love you so much❤️ All of us are here for you and we will never leave.

  • @mos.83
    @mos.83 5 років тому +1

    Awwwwww Babe🥺😢😭 Please release those burdens to reset your energy!!! It’s okay to cry and let it go...it cleanses the Soul!!! Take care of yourself Will...we’ve all been there before. Sounds like PTSD, ANXIETY, BORDER LINE DEPRESSION. You are someone to so many people; know that you are loved even though I have never met you I feel like your my friend in my head. Take care dear at all cost you are SPECIAL KNOW THAT FEEL THAT RECEIVE THAT!!!! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾😘😘😘😘😘

  • @chrissy8835
    @chrissy8835 5 років тому +18

    It’s ok you’ll be ok 🥺❤️😔

    • @msterrific
      @msterrific 5 років тому +2

      AL AE well I mean.. you don’t have to say it like that .

    • @jaune-soleil
      @jaune-soleil 5 років тому +4

      AL AE- I’m not sure who or what hurt you, but I truly hope your outlook changes. Over time and with facing what ever it was- it can be ok. Maybe not everything but at least some of the things. Ok is measured differently by each person. The hurt has control because we hold on to it as if it is what makes us. It is apart of us but we are more than the hurt. It gets better if you’re open to it. It took a decade for me to be open to one trauma. Time. Things take time. Ok takes time.

    • @chrissy8835
      @chrissy8835 5 років тому +2

      AL AE I’m very confused all i was trying to do was comfort him🥺

    • @Bv3276
      @Bv3276 5 років тому +5

      AL AE Y’all gotta stop projecting your issues onto these situations. Will will be okay. He needs some therapy, a good prayer with God, and some TLC. I’m sorry whatever you’re going through but you need some positivity.

    • @chrissy8835
      @chrissy8835 5 років тому +1

      Sicily Valentin thank you I thought I was doing something wrong 😔

  • @rfbrown07
    @rfbrown07 5 років тому +1

    You are strong.
    You are loved.
    Your are chosen.
    You are guided.
    You are amazing.
    You are an inspiration.
    You are a bright light.
    You are limitless.
    You are courageous.
    You are you...beautiful soul and mind.
    Sending you love, joy, peace and strength (with tons of positive energy).

  • @dvon_ata8446
    @dvon_ata8446 5 років тому +14

    Damn man I’m sorry bro continue to stay strong and do what’s best for you that’s what it’s all about at the end of the day

  • @SadeWatkins
    @SadeWatkins 2 роки тому +1

    This specific video came to mind today.
    I remember when you first posted this video and for the 1st time I saw someone put language to a space
    and set of circumstances
    I was and am
    STILL going through
    You LITERALLY came up on my timeline today and I’m not subscribed
    so for you to come up on my timeline
    I said I need too double check to see if you’re the same person that made this video
    I still resonate with this video deeply
    I literally walked into my room
    Looked up and said God Why
    Right before I watched this
    Thank you for this video
    It has transcended time
    May God continue to cover
    & Bless you as you continue on your journey in Jesus Precious Name

  • @Shaybouverie
    @Shaybouverie 5 років тому +22

    🥺🥺 my Hearts breaking (🥺 I hate seeing you cry )
    I also keep a diary 📔 , it helps a lot with stress relief

  • @triahughes4052
    @triahughes4052 4 роки тому +1

    First of all, thank you for sharing yourself wholeheartedly with us. Thank you for the laughter you bring. Thank you for the very usefull information you give us. Thank you for your authenticity. You're an awesome person. I too wish I could call and say hey Will it'll be ok. Or lets hang out until you feel better. Or even just give you some tissues and a hug or 6. Keep your head up love. You're stronger than you know. Looking forward to seeing you again. On UA-cam. Lol. Keep being you! 😉😘🤗😁

  • @mimirose3009
    @mimirose3009 5 років тому +20

    FRIEND we love & support you!!! *I face physically & mentally altering anxiety every single day!* I lost the only person that truly loved & understood me 2 yrs ago & the world (it seems like) has been coming after me since. My mom (from the generation where you never address ANYTHING) dismissed me even after I was attacked & we actually had it out smh which I regret bc tbh I realized she's never dealt with her own traumas. Move on she says...but that generation is the reason why these millennials are the way they are now

    • @isthatachicken
      @isthatachicken 5 років тому +1

      I wish our parents atleast tried to face their traumas because those problems really end up facing us at a later stage :( e.g. if your parent ends up believing that they are always the victim and always under attack

    • @mimirose3009
      @mimirose3009 5 років тому +1

      @@isthatachicken Nail on the head my mother if I bring anything up to address how she's made me feel I'm attacking her but at least I understand now not to take it to ❤️ bc you can't expect anyone to see things from your perspective you can only control your response

  • @NaturallyFearless
    @NaturallyFearless 5 років тому +23

    What I had to learn:
    Express those feelings
    Take time for yourself if you need
    Never apologize to anyone for how you feel because you are entitled to feel!!
    Cry when u feel!
    We love you Will, I felt every bit of this in my soul❤️

  • @_barbiechocolat
    @_barbiechocolat 5 років тому +36

    Will, sometimes we hold too much and its good to break down, we need it to be healed and move on. I hope you can find a professional to help you in this process. I feel same as you and I'm gonna find help. I wanna you to know that even meeting you from internet, I admire you and your work. Much love, wish you the best ❤️ you are not alone

  • @sabrinastrong
    @sabrinastrong 5 років тому +2

    This broke my heart to watch because I love your videos so much and your beautiful bright soul. Seeing you in so much pain and hurt, hurt me like you were a dear friend or loved one. I understand so so well how you're feeling and I just am praying so hard for you. I'm hoping that therapy really helps I do. Time does heal, it truly does but it really can be slow as hell. Thank you for posting this, for being so vulnerable and open. Seeing so many of the things I've been feeling expressed this way and seeing someone be so uncut, you don't know how that has helped me as much as it hurt. I'm so glad you let yourself feel this. Cry as much as you have to. I'm sending you so so so much love.

  • @alexiswinder8955
    @alexiswinder8955 5 років тому +14

    When you feel comfortable enough to tell someone do it as soon as you can because you should hide this

    • @020ctmarie
      @020ctmarie 5 років тому

      Why are you telling him he should hide this??

    • @poppyseed1058
      @poppyseed1058 5 років тому +14

      020ctmarie I think they meant “shouldn’t”

  • @itsLayshia
    @itsLayshia 5 років тому +1

    It's hard seeing you like this but at the same time it's appreciated, so thank you. Social media can be so fake and for people that DO deal with anxiety everyday (and other mental illnesses/mood disorders) it's a good thing to know that we're not alone and we can all relate to an extent. I don't like being corny but the lows truly help us appreciate the little highs and the really good times in life. So ride this wave the best you can and use it as your testimony -Gods got you.

  • @SyxxsVyxxn
    @SyxxsVyxxn 5 років тому +14

    Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us. I love how real you are. I understand where your coming from. I hold on the tears so much too. I hate crying. But ffs when I let them out it's like a flood. It's ok. You're strong. We love you. 💙

  • @isaiahlee2768
    @isaiahlee2768 5 років тому +4

    This hits so hard because I’ve been thru a lot of the same things as you. We are stronger and better because of it. Remember who you are and remember your love for yourself mate! Much love pal❤️

  • @jaylaanderson9702
    @jaylaanderson9702 5 років тому +36

    My heart hurts for you! I totally understand that feeling you get in the morning. It's like a hairball of sadness that comes from your gut and hurls it into your chest, and you just cling to your chest and cry. It hurts a lot, and the worst part is that you feel so alone when it happens.
    You're totally valid in feeling this way! Don't listen to people who say, "Aw, you're always so happy this makes me sad", because it's not fair to you! You're not always going to be jolly. You've made it very far! And crying about it shows that you're breaking through!
    You can do this, I'm rooting for you!

  • @tashakayden2434
    @tashakayden2434 5 років тому +1

    Will, we do love your vlogmas but you are 100% correct that you need to put your health first. Vlogmas will always be there and we’ll still support you even if it mean you felt you couldn’t finish vlogmas. You are more important than UA-cam. Breath and be proud of how far you’ve come and all the people you’ve touched that you may never meet. There’s nothing wrong with crying or feeling your emotions. Your are a beautiful soul 😊👏🏾

  • @queensimonediaries
    @queensimonediaries 5 років тому +12

    i hate seeing you like this... i love you will. praying for you!

  • @mikaylajohnson7660
    @mikaylajohnson7660 5 років тому +1

    Will!!! I just want to hug you right now! In the words of Kirsten Bell as Anna, " Just do the next right thing!"

  • @coronavirus5738
    @coronavirus5738 5 років тому +21

    Whatever you going through remember God got your back through it all He understands your issues better than man so confide in him...you have my deepest condolences regarding your grandma😢...the nursing home killed my grams....stay strong my beautiful UA-camr with the beautiful hair...much love to you💞💕💞🌷🌸🌺

  • @walkingorchid
    @walkingorchid 5 років тому +1

    You cry, you scream, you do whatever you gotta do. Feel it. I’ve been there, man. Sometimes I’m still there. I don’t know what you’re going thru, but my heart hurts just seeing you like this, so I can’t imagine how it feels to be you rn. You do WHATEVER you have to do. You have so much grief from your whole life that you’re processing now, on top of the shit you’re going thru. It takes strength to let yourself feel ❤️

  • @laurensmith8333
    @laurensmith8333 5 років тому +6

    Please dont give up. I (and many others) love your content. You are one of my very favorite content creators... your editing? untouchable. your humor? undefeated. you? a natural king🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾❤️

  • @NYCutie
    @NYCutie 5 років тому +5

    Cheers to you for unpacking and clearing space for your own peace. That’s a bravery that takes time. Keep swimming. Love & blessings 🤗🤗🤗💛💛💛

  • @shalom_snge
    @shalom_snge 5 років тому +73

    Immediately clicked when that notification came

  • @TBella1226
    @TBella1226 5 років тому +1

    I'm glad you decided to see a therapist. There is nothing wrong with that. Also there is nothing wrong with crying. Hopefully you find a good therapist that helps you with the things you've been dealing with. I myself see a therapist and she has been a huge help. I'm an advocate for people in our community to not be afraid to talk to someone about our problems and end the stigma. I'm so proud of you and you are so brave to open up and be transparent with us. Love you so much Will!! I don't care if Vlogmas doesn't come back, as long as you are taking care of yourself, that's all I care about. 😘😘😘❤❤❤