A Very Emotional 4th Of July
Вставка
- Опубліковано 16 вер 2024
- Podcast channel - / @relaxwithcolleenander...
Instagram - / colleen
TikTok - / colleen
Main Channel - / psychosoprano
PO Box 55995
Sherman Oaks, CA 91413
Colleen Ballinger is dedicated to creating a safe, inclusive, positive space online and bullying will not be tolerated. Thank you!
I’m a silent watcher but also so beyond grateful that you are here for this Fourth of July. I remember last summer as well and feeling so incredibly concerned for you and so worried I’d, selfishly, never hear your beautiful voice again or see your beautiful smile. Your videos, specifically your vlogs, have been such an absolutely massive source of comfort for me for years. I’m 21 now but I’ve been watching you religiously since my middle school days and you and your beautiful family were there for me at my absolute darkest moments. I am so beyond relieved and overjoyed to see you thriving again. As someone who has struggled with severe chronic anxiety and ocd my entire life I cannot accurately express how much you and your videos do for me. I feel like I’ve grown up with you as a big sister/fun aunt and knowing how challenging last year must have been for you is deeply saddening. Seeing you gracefully make your way through and out of that time of your life has been emotional and so inspiring. Know that there are people that will always love you and wish you all the best things life has to offer.
Beautifully said, I hope Colleen see this.
This was beautifully said. I’m sure she’ll see it and be grateful
@@zoneil22 I feel the exact same way. Colleen is family and I didn’t know what to do without her last year
I felt exactly like this too. I am SO happy she is still here and I am so happy we have our beautiful friend back sharing her beautiful family with us. Thank you for your lovely comment.
couldn't have said it better myself (I'm 20 and have also been watching since middle school)
Seeing that clip at the end of you crying in bed last Fourth of July broke my heart. I was so so worried about you those days. It hurts seeing you suffering, I knew you were suffering but seeing it is so heartbreaking. I am just so glad you made it through. Flynn is right you are the best mommy in the whole world. You are an inspiration to me. I am so grateful you made it through such a tough time and are here today doing better.
I am sobbing with you. Me and my husband both come from a lot of childhood traumas. I struggle with depression. We both always said we would raise our children with love and compassion. Holidays in general make me emotional. This year me and my husband watched our babies run and play while watching fire works. Our oldest yelled “this is the best night ever! I love my life!” And in that moment me and my husband just looked at eachother with tears in our eyes. Even when we think we are failing our children think differently. I’ve always loved watching your family and I’ll continue to do so. It’s therapeutic to know I’m not the only one who cries over everything 😂❤️
Kids pull us through the darkest of times. I’m going through a really dark time right now and my kids are my strength. Sending you love. I was doing the same for you last year too. Even if you couldn’t feel, see, or know that we were there…you had thousands of lights shining for you last 4th of July too. We were sending thoughts, hope and love that you would reach your mountaintop. That you would be okay. I’m glad you’re there.
This is making me cry! I hope she sees this! 🥰
Thousands of us were loving you and praying for you from afar. I felt so sad that my sweet family was not in my world! To watch you at the end of this video, broke my heart and I wanted to just give you hugs! I personally was working hard combating the evil that dared to assail you. God gave you your dear family to love you through it and nothing is more important than that. Depression/grief can really floor a person. Just know you are loved more than you know and I will forever hold your banner high! God bless you and we all thank the Lord for walking with you through the valley. Seems like my words don’t go far enough ! You are a bright light and a fine person! Much love to you, Colleen! You have a large FANmily, Mirfarmy!❤️🙏🥰💄💋🦖🦕🦑🐞🦑
I just want to tell you how grateful I am for you and how vulnerable you can be with us. I am currently having such a hard time battling my depression. Hearing my kids say they love me and hug me and say I'm the best mom ever when I don't feel like I am or deserve that or could be better. My kids are my world. It's an everyday battle, some are better than others. But we can't stop fighting.
Mental health struggles has robbed so much from so many, myself included. Climbing yet another proverbial mountain right now, but I just wanted you to know how happy I am that you had the perfect view of the fireworks this year😉 For those of us still struggling, this message was much needed and appreciated!!❤ The fireworks light up the darkness with a beautiful bright explosion of color…a wonder to behold indeed!! Sending you lots of love and light through the darkness🎆☁️❤
I appreciate you sharing the dark side of depression and the light at the end of the tunnel. I also will die on this mountain that you did not deserve everything that was brought unto you. I truly believe it was just for clout and that’s what bothers me the most. I’m so happy to see you finding yourself again and I pray it continues ❤
How are u already finished watching the video?
💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯
We all do things that we regret. Or realize we should have done things differently.
Colleen is not alone ❤
I am so glad you are here Colleen. You fought like hell. And look at you now. You're not dead you are surely alive. We love you❤
I speak for all of us, Colleen, we are so happy you fought to be here with us. We are so lucky you allow us to be part of your journey. We love you and we are happy you stayed ❤
seeing clips of you from last year is so jarring. i remember thinking how we were never ever gonna see your face again. glad you're here ❤
Hi, I’m also a silent viewer, and I have always been rooting for you. You are an *amazing* mama to your children and no one can take that away from you. Ever. I’m glad you’re here this Fourth of July and that you continue to share a piece of your world with us🥰💗💗
Our sweet Colleen, this footage is exactly why I drove all the way to your show in Indy on June 22nd of last year. All the times you helped ME get through the lowest of my lows, I needed to give you love and strength in any which way that I could. I’m not one to pray anymore, but I prayed and prayed and prayed for you to be ok. Mourning you at this time last year and now seeing this footage, I just want to give you the biggest hug and talk about Taylor Swift.
The very second 16:59 hit the screen and I saw the pain on your face, oh my god 💔. Please know we never left your side. I thought of you every single day and wanted more than anything to call you and tell you that everything was going to be fine.
You have a good heart, you’re brave, and you are so loved. I’m glad you’re here and I love you so so much. You’re a fighter and one of the strongest women I know
I have no words other than I'm glad you're here Colleen
Best raw and real vlog ever I think you will help many people sharing. Happy 4th we’re glad your hear this year too!
Colleen, as a silent watcher I just need to tell you how grateful I am for you and your little family. Seeing you cry made me cry. I wish I could hug you and tell you how much you truly mean to me. How much of a rockstar you are. As a mom, wife, performer, signer, creator, entertainer, and more. Last year I remember being so so worried about you. I had a feeling it was a hard day for you and when I saw your first vlog post in November I JUMPED up and down, because I saw that you made it. You did it. You persevered. You are so strong and so brave. You ARE the best mommy in the whole world. And I’m so grateful that you are here for this forth of July. Your kiddos love you, and I do too and forever will. From behind this little screen. Keep being amazing mama ❤
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing what depression can look like. Your raw emotions hit my heart and made me reflect on my own journey. Please, please know that I see you and shared tears with you because I can relate and with those dark and terrifying feelings. You are here for a reason. You matter. You are worthy. You are incredible and unstoppable. You are loved. Keep smiling beautiful. XO
I’m crying with you. I was praying for you all last year and watching old videos thinking about you wondering how you were. I would leave you comments hoping you’d see them, I’m so glad you got the courage to come back and start sharing your life again. We all love you! ❤
the way you described depression is unlike anything i’ve heard before. i struggled with it myself, and i could never find anyone who described it closely to the way it felt for me. but wow, that really struck home. thank you for your insights
Thank you for sharing. Currently my heart is shattered into a million pieces. Today, July 5th, I ended up having to put down my sweet boy, my love, my cat Buddy. He got sick and went downhill So Fast these last 3 weeks, but man he was a little trooper through it all my sweet boy. I watched him be born and take his first breath and this morning I held him in my arms as he took his last. I would wake up almost every morning to him purring next to me and now there will be only silence.... 14 years was not long enough my sweet Buddy. I will hold you in my heart, always.
I’m so sorry for your loss! Sometimes it’s harder to lose a beloved pet than even a family member. 😢
I'm so sorry you lost your sweet boy. It sounds like he was your heart cat. I lost mine 4 years ago to cancer and it feels like yesterday. I saved a little of his hair and put it in a memorial bracelet that never leaves my wrist so he is always at my side.
I hope you find more love and joy in another fur baby someday, although each one is special and holds a piece of our hearts. ❤❤
I am so sorry for your cat! Lossing a pet is so hard, you got this! ❤
So sorry Karley. 😢
I don’t know if this will help you at all, but wanted to share.
My Mom adopted a cat 3 weeks ago, and named him Buddy. ❤ He was found locally stuck in a tree and the animal control officer held him for a week and my Mom won the lottery to adopt him. Shes over the moon. Her last kitty was named Harley, and he passed from cancer at only 5 years old just a couple years ago. And this little man is so much like him. Shes in love.
So maybe if you know we are loving on a Buddy as well, it’ll help you. ❤
I'm so very sorry for your loss ❤
I’m slightly behind on your vlogs so I’m only watching this video now, but I’m in tears at the thought of you not being on this earth Colleen. I’m so sorry you had to go through that, you are such a beautiful light and bring joy to so many people ❤ I’m so happy you were able to celebrate the 4th of July with your family this year!
Hi Colleen, I watched your clip at the end of this video and just wanted to hug you. I’m selfishly happy you’re here. But I promise you’re not alone with those feelings. I’ve read thru these comments and it seems like you and your feelings resonate with so many of us. Thank you for staying. ❤️🩹🤍
I just wanted to say I’ve been watching you pretty much since the beginning (when Bailey was a baby) and I’ve followed all of your journeys. Last year was absolutely horrible and heartbreaking to see that happen to you. It wasn’t deserved and I’m glad you didn’t let them win. I lost my brother last year from him taking his own life and it destroyed my soul. Keep fighting the demons❤
😢😢😢😢sending prayers of cont healing I’m so sorry to hear of your brother hang on to the ones you love till one day you and your brother meet again
You have three beautiful children that need their mother. I too suffer and know only too well that feeling. I now take it one hour at a time if I have to. I've become more grateful and have gratitude for the simple things. It's a hard road but your not alone. You deserve to be here and your children deserve their mother and Eric needs his wife. Sending healing hugs❤
Hi, I never really comment, but I have to say how much I’m so glad that you’re back. You are literally one of my biggest idols. We are so similar even though I’ve never met you having ADHD and dermatilimania and a lot of things that you go through I see in me and my life + your personality is so much like mine. It’s crazy but that’s not the point the point is I was so sad last year during this time, and even though I did fun things in the summer, I was very sad because I thought that you would never come back. Watching you was a big part of me growing up and graduating high school.
I’m so thankful for that. And this year has been an amazing year and to be able to continue to watch you and continue to look up to you has been the greatest gift. You’re an amazing mom and amazing person and thank you so much for everything you’ve done to impact my life, even if you don’t even meet me or know me, just know you are a big part of my happiness and success. Maybe in the future I’ll get to meet you that be my greatest dream. Seen everything you have done as a woman with ADHD has really gave me the confidence to keep pursuing my acting career. You been on waitress has been such an inspiration. Anyway, this is really long thank you so much. I hope you read this and I really hope that you get to be so happy and your kids are amazing. Thank you !!!! ❤❤
Wesley saying "BACK Up" had me cackling - I sure needed that laugh! Happy belated 4th to you and the Fam. We are very glad you are here, Colleen - You are loved and adored.
I want to tell you that my favorite part of you is your great, big, sweet, heart. I love seeing you being a Mommy. Your kiddos love you so much. You are giving them a wonderful childhood. They are smart, creative, inquisitive, and beautifully compassionate little human beings. You are responsible for that. Be proud Mama!! ❤
The end of this vlog meant so much to me. I'm in a place at the moment where I'm not wanting to be here, everyday. What you said about depression robbing the good memories was so powerful. Because when our depressed brains catalogue our memories they cut out all the small moments of not necessarily joy or happiness but something just a little less awful than depression. I'm going to try and remember this more often. Thank you Colleen 🖤
I'm so glad you got the help you needed to pull you out of the dark place you were in last summer. The world is a better place because you're in it!
I wanted to give you the biggest hug! You’re an amazing mom Colleen, if anything in life never doubt that! ❤
Hi colleen! I just wanted to thank you for getting me and my daughter through covid! For us and many other people covid was devastating but everyday my daughter and I would watch you and after every video we would feel a little more happy again! I just want you to know that you are loved by my daughter and I and we still watch ur videos till this day❤
💜 I think that you being able to show the reality of last years day vs. what your memory of it was will be such a huge breakthrough for you! I know it just taught me to use going back & watching old videos as a tool to help me re-write the stories that have set up shop in my head.
Our brains are constantly manipulating us, most of the time they work against our best interest!! I’ve heard ppl say that therapy is stupid that it’s just tricking yourself, that smart ppl can’t be tricked blah blah but in reality we get to choose every day, every moment how we interpret and how we react or respond to every moment. You are just as much tricking yourself into thinking negatively, as you are if you switch & think positively. And this is such good evidence that I hope many ppl can use to show that often times our memories of something are more fiction than fact!
Well said
Colleen, i know you won’t see this but i want to say thank you. I’m having a really bad mental health night and I’ve been crying for hours, and watching this made me feel not crazy and not alone. I feel like I’ve gone through so many hardships and i can’t catch a break and everything keeps falling apart. All my happiness is gone. And seeing your vlog reminds me that I’m not alone.
I can’t get over how mature Flynn is now! And he’s very bright!
He’s incredible!!! ❤
So grateful for you. Happy you are here. You made it!!
Colleen, I am so sorry that you had to go through such a dark time and feel like that. It absolutely breaks my heart to see you in emotional pain 💔I have been where you are, I know what it’s like to feel hopeless and have no point to life and feel like you are nothing to the world but a disappointment. I know how it feels to feel like your existence means nothing and that you just want the pain to stop. I know I will never fully understand exactly how it felt for you, but I can relate to it in some ways. How you felt during that time, I’m so sorry you were hurting like that, please know that you are valid. Your allowed to take a break and not be okay. But please always know that there are so many people who care about you and love you and appreciate you so much. I first discovered you and your videos during that dark time. I was so panicked when I saw how people online were treating you as I know how damaging that kind of hate can be. And I knew none of it was true. I reached out to you and gave you my full love and support and have never left since. When you came back I felt so much relief as I was so worried about how you were doing. The way you described the mouton fireworks is exactly it. You over came it even though it was so hard and felt impossible, you did it. I am proud of you for that. I know I am just a stranger on the internet, but I watch your videos every week and you always cheer me up. You are appreciated so so much. Thank you for sharing with us how you were feeling, it’s not an easy thing to do, it reflects how strong you are and how far you have come ❤️
This type of honestly and vulnerability is what this world needs. Thank you for sharing these incredibly intimate and personal times with us. I can relate to this so much and I am so thankful you’re still here. Life is hard for everyone but life with depression is almost impossible. Every single day is an uphill battle with weight strapped to your back and nothing but obstacles in your way. What a gift your children must be. Giving you a purpose to keep going, even when you can literally feel your body dying. You are so loved. And you are not alone. For anyone suffering with depression, keep going. The clouds will part. The blue skies are always there but storms cloud our vision and it’s up to us to push through. You are strong. You are capable.
I'm so amazed by the way you have handled and gracefully grown from last year. I'm so happy we still have your vlogs to enjoy you and your family. You're an amazing and beautiful person and this world is lucky to have you.
I'm really grateful for you, Colleen. You're amazing! Happy belated 4th. Many more to look forward to!
I am so very happy you are here and made it through, as a mom of 2 that both have struggled with depression I see the struggle you have been dealing with and see how very far you have come since deciding to come back on UA-cam. It hurts me so much to see how other people go out of there way to hurt a person for their own personal gain and don't care at all about how it negatively effects not just the recipient of their negativity but all the people around them who care for them I for one am so very proud of you, you held on tight to the love that surrounds you and it shows. I love watching your entire family thrive and grow and can't waite to see whats next.
Back up!!😂😂😂 That was the 4th of July you needed. It was important that you hear your son say those words to you. Continue to look for the top half of the fireworks Colleen. 💐
We are grateful for another 4th with you, Colleen! 🌸✨
I'm so grateful you maybe it through last year. You're so strong. Thank you for sharing. I'm really sorry you had to go through all that.
Thank you so much Flynn for teaching us all about cuttlefish.
You absolutely are the best mommy, because you are the exact mommy that your kids need, want and love… most of all.
Thank you for sharing, I have bipolar disorder and get depressive episodes, and awful thoughts and I know how hard it is to talk about it. You are awesomely perfect ❤❤❤❤
I am so glad you fought to hold on and be here this year. Even though you were in such a dark place the way you showed up for your kids last year is a testament to your strength and love for your babies. Keep fighting mama.
It goes to show how strong you are and how the love you have for your children and family helped you overcome some of your darkest days! We are all human and have those days, too! Keep your head up, look at all the blessings you have, and remember you are very special to them, and they need you!!! Sending love and hugs!!! ❤
I cried at this video because it brought back memories of my depression and how I got out of it. It’s hard…but it’s life changing. All I want to do is hug you.
Love you, Colleen. You make this world a better, brighter place and I’m so happy you’re still here.
I’m so glad you’re back and I’m so glad you’re here and in the present and your family is here. I’m grateful that you posted this to see what many of us suffer from every single day. So thank you for being you and being amazing and just thank you.❤❤❤❤
Colleen, thank you for allowing us to see the hard alongside the beautiful. You are an incredibly brave woman and Flynn is right, you are the best mom in the world. Every mom who loves her kids unconditionally and makes their happiness and well being a top priority deserves that title.
I have come to realize that life is beautiful not in spite of how difficult it is, but because of it. I am so sorry for what happened last year, and so grateful that you chose to stay. Love and hugs and prayers and blessings to you!
As a fellow mama with adhd, annxiety, depression and panic disorder I AM SO PROUD U MADE IT THRU. I love ur vlogs. They are like hanging out with the mom friends I don’t have in real life and my littles know ur littles by name too 😂 WE love u guys and are thankful for u and ur little family too. Thank u for being raw and real and exposing even the hardest bits cuz those moments are just as important as the fun ones. I was rooting for u ur whole break and im ever so glad ur still here❤
“who am I talking to? me?” little did you know you’d be back on the internet, thriving and talking to your fans who appreciate you so much 🫶👏
I’m so, so glad you are here, Colleen.
Colleen - I know exactly what you are going through. 4 years ago I decided that this world wasn't for me. I was literally in a ditch when I decided that I needed to stick around for my husband and nieces and nephew, and that what I was feeling wasn't as bad as my brain made it seem. It was pure luck that I was found and I couldn't be more grateful. Please know there are people who love you unconditionally and we can't wait to see what happens in your life. 🥰
I just admire how you put your beautiful smile when the kids are around you…. Life is hard to handle, but even more when you have to put a smile on feeling so off. I admire you because you love your kids that much to try and put your best self when they’re around you. They are going to be so proud of mama for that.
I am a silent watcher and may I say, we are so happy you are here. I remember thinking how evil everyone was acting toward you last year and I had nothing but hope and prayers for you that things would get better. We love you. We are so grateful you are here.
I don't have kids...you/your videos have been my touchstone throughout the years, especially the dark and terrifying times, of which I've had too many. I was filled with so much rage and hatred and sorrow last summer because of what others were doing to you, to my touchstone. NEVER doubt the positive impact, comfort, and value you bring to the lives of thousands of strangers, just by sharing yourself. P.S. Flynn's right, THAT was a glorious fireworks show. 💜
Colleen you are an incredible mother. Never doubt yourself. You are doing an amazing job raising your children. ❤️
I love you Colleen! I'm so sorry you had to go through that last year.
Now you know you are the best mom in the whole world, you heard it from the world's smartest kid.
Tearing up watching this.. I can feel your pain, I am so sorry you've also felt like that.. I actually have a very similar video of myself crying in bed from my lowest point. You are so incredibly strong Colleen and I'm so so glad you're doing better this year, and I'm so glad you're back posting videos, you're amazing. Love you lots.
Umm after hearing everything Flynn had to say about cuttlefish I suddenly think I might also be obsessed with cuttlefish
Right??? Me too! They are so cool!
My heart goes out to you. Sometimes just the smallest moments with no expectations lead us to core memories.
I can see the sadness when you're talking to Flynn in that clip. We love you and I'm always in awe of you as a mother when you have nothing left to give you somehow give them the entire world still.
There needs to be Flynns Fact of the Day! I could listen to that sweet boy spit out facts all day long!
I am so glad that you are here, and that you chose to fight to be here for you and for your kids. Last summer I worried about you and your kids and prayed for you all. I would vent to my husband about how heartbreaking it was how you were being treated. Like others have said, we were rooting for you and sending you love. Thank you for the message of hope that you have always shared. You helped me get through postpartum depression when you were pregnant with the twins and postpartum, and you have always helped me feel hopeful and bright in dark times. Still sending love your way.
Just know that this time last year many of us were praying for you and sending love any way we could ❤
You are an amazing mom and a wonderful person. I am so glad you are here too.
Happy 4th of July vlog Day! This is not the life you imagined. For so many reasons you were sent down a different path. At the time it seemed like a disaster. But it’s not!! You have had amazing mom moments and family & friendship moments. You have found a whole new level of love and respect for the ocean and its treasures. YOU ARE still LOVED by your followers like me! I count you when I count my blessings ❤
TTQ: Does Flynn know who you are talking to when you speak to the camera? Like does he grasp the concept of what mom does for a living? I got curious cause he was also talking to the camera!
Colleen you really are the best mother. ❤
yes super mother and super daddy Erie perfect parents
Truly
You have helped me more than you know by talking about your own struggles with mental health. I am in the middle of taking care of my dying husband, the love of my life and it’s HARD. It’s so hard that sometimes I don’t know if I can go on. But, your analogy of the fireworks above the clouds made me think that maybe I just can’t SEE the reason I’m going through this. It’s there, I just can’t see it through my depression. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reminding me that life is a gift and this is just a terribly sad time that I WILL get through. Peace and love to you🫶
You are an amazing human being.
Goleta had no fire works this year so TK and I settled for a 4th of July meal of hot dogs, (my) macaroni salad and watermelon.
So.glad you recorded your 4th last year as I'm certain that it lifts your heart. 💞
I’m so glad ur happy it literally makes me happy!!! And our kids are the world!! 💙🫶🧨
Not knowing if you were going to be here for this 4th July was so heartbreaking. I’ve been there. I know this feeling deeply and I’m so glad, like me, you found the light again. Xxxxx
I live with severe anxiety and depression myself. It’s hard to see past our grief to see that there really is still happiness waiting for us on the other side. I’ve spent so much time thinking I’d never make it through and I’m finally starting to see a light glowing through the fog of anxiety and depression. Glad you’re seeing it too, we really want you in this space but your family needs you, you have so much love right inside your house so why wouldn’t you have it out here too? We’re here.
Colleen😭😭😭 I’m so happy that you are apart of this world! I have been a faith follower for YEARS! I have seen you before a mother and become a mother and you’re nothing but AMAZING. The internet is a dark horrible place, but you are the LIGHT QUEEN. 🫶🏼👏🏼 thank you for being so venerable and sharing things that people like me are scared to share. I wish I could hug you and just cry with you. Colleen, YOU ARE ENOUGH. I love you so much. ❤
WE are so grateful that you are here for the 4th of July and many more to come ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Silent watcher. I always felt a little selfish when Colleen would share about her mental health struggles and I would feel a little better because it made me feel less alone. Thank you so much Colleen for being vulnerable and helping me get through rough times in my life.
Thank you for sharing such vulnerable moments. You put it so well in how you were feeling and I am so pleased you are starting to feel a little better.
wow colleen i am so proud of you for fighting and staying strong. it scares me that you were suffering so much that you wanted to end it all. it literally makes me sob to think about but you are an amazing human and an inspiration to so many people!! i love you. thankyou.
I am also a silent watcher. I remember last year and I was so broken hearted for you and your family. I am so grateful you are back and you are overcoming your trial and tribulations. God bless you Colleen, and so happy you are back🥰
we are all so happy you’re still here this year, colleen ❤️ keep fighting. your sweet babies will always pull you through the darkness ❤️
TTQ: Colleen, last year when all the bad things were happening and you didn't want to be here. How did Erik help you through this?
Colleen I said so many prayers for you and your family last year! I thought I wouldn't never see you and your family again! So happy prayers were answered and you are doing better and so very happy to have you back! ❤️❤️❤️
This has shown me that even during the darkest times it will make the most beautiful future. Colleen, you have been such a role model for me growing up for a long time! Even before haters back off. Middle school was the darkest time for me and you pulled me out of it and I can whole heartedly say that you are why my 8th grade year wasn’t my last for me. Forever grateful that you are still here and I’ll always continue looking up to you. I’m so glad you are doing well and please keep your spirits up high!🫶🏼
I’m so happy you’re here for this 4th of July❤
Thank you for being brave enough to be so vulnerable with us. I am so grateful you are still here and have these beautiful memories to watch back. If this shows anything, it’s your resilience and love for your family. You faked it til you made it and did it with a broken heart and I know so many people are happy you did. Much love Colleen! ❤
Thankful for you Colleen💗 You have been with me through your vlogs and have helped me through so much.
Sending you so much love 💗
Thank you for having the courage to show us your vulnerability. I know exactly what you meant by depression stealing that joy from you. My husband has been dealing with depression after the loss of his father and it's been rough. I was able to find strength and eventually pull myself out of it. It is like coming out of a fog and you realize everything you felt or thought wasn't 100% true. Be kind and remind yourself it's not your fault. Happy belated 4th of July.
I’m sitting here watching your vlog, eating a hot pocket and drinking a root beer. And you start talking about your horrible year last year and your crippling depression, and how it steals so much from you. And I couldn’t keep from choking up and crying myself. I’m in the thick of postpartum depression with a ten-month old. I have very supportive people around me, and I love my baby, but I’m not happy, and I keep waiting for it to get better. Almost every day I feel miserable. And stuck. So I resonate with all those feelings you’re talking about. But I hope you know how glad we all are that you are still here. And because you held on, I will keep hanging on. Thank you ❤️
I’m so glad you’re still here. And so grateful that you’re back in this corner of the internet where sharing vulnerability is a thing to be commended and where we remember we’re not alone. Lysm ❤
I cant tell you how much I missed you when you were gone. How many times, I worried about you, prayed for you. SO many of us love you and always have. I know how hard depression can be. I am so thankful it has gotten a little better! ❤ You are so strong!
Colleen! I'm crying just hearing you say, what Flynn said. I feel you!
And thank you so much for sharing your journey with depression, even your seemingly lowest points. I don't think you can see, how many people you touch by this and even maybe jeop out of a beginning depression. I'm not a specialist in anything concerning mental health but I have the feeling, I am slowly drifting into a depression right now and seeing you fighting throug just shaked me! THANK YOU!
Much love. So glad you are here.
You have no idea how much I needed to hear this. My health isn’t good at the minute and I am trying hard to focus on the good but it is so so difficult. I’m so glad you are still here ❤️
I missed you so much those months Colleen. I thought about you everyday. As a long long time viewer, you have felt like a sister to me in a way. I was heartbroken thinking about what you must have been going through back then, and are still going through now…. Sometimes I forget that horrible nightmare but you probably can’t… I’m so so sorry.
But…. Just know that you are not alone and there are so many people who love you. I’m glad to see your light still shining… even if it’s covered in a little fog sometimes 🤍🎆
Omg Colleen 😭😭😭 I'm crying. I am so grateful for you and your adorable family. Your videos have been the ones that keep me going. They let me leave my reality for a bit. Love you all
I was very worried about you last year and am so happy you pulled through. I lost my mom 11 years ago unexpectedly, and she was my best friend, my confidante, my everything. I really struggled with dealing with losing her and was so depressed. I didn’t want to be here anymore either. My son was just about 3 years old and is the only reason I am here today. Time has lessened the pain but I still cry when I think about her and I struggle a lot more with depression than I used to, but my son is my reason. ❤
I grew up watching your videos with my family, I’m extremely glad you’re still standing, I’d be devastated if it were any other way, keep holding on for your family and know that your supporters are SUPPORTERS, and we won’t shake easily. Have a GREAT day! God bless! 🩷