You prolly dont care but does anybody know of a tool to get back into an instagram account..? I was stupid forgot the login password. I would love any tips you can give me.
@Nehemiah Ivan thanks for your reply. I found the site on google and Im trying it out atm. Looks like it's gonna take a while so I will get back to you later when my account password hopefully is recovered.
Your satoshi kon series keeps getting me to cry I was born in Japan, lived in America and have since moved back to japan. At every turn in my life I’ve had to deal with being belittled for both who I am and the history of where I’m from. As a young girl in America with a Japanese accent, kids who had never met someone who is Asian would call me by slurs, blame me for things Imperial Japan had done, make fun of my accent and my food, until I hated myself for being Asian, until I attempted to eliminate everything “foreign” about me. Eventually, after both my parents had died while I was in my twenties I was left with the job of looking after my younger sisters. And as a teacher I couldn’t raise two kids in America, so I moved to where I was always a citizen, I went home for the first time. For a year finding work was hard, I was called a chameleon, a fake Japanese because I was so obviously American. For the first time I hated my younger self for hating me. People would accuse me of being complicit in what Americans did on Okinawa. Anytime an American did something shitty, somehow I was to blame. It’s been 5 years now, I’m still American in obvious ways, tattoos, unaccented english, and a love of watching videos like this to name a few. But now that I live in tokyo, had have synthesized my two histories, for the first time in my entire life, I’m happy. I finally feel love. This has been weird and rambly but I’ve always loved millennium actress for its prospective on WWII, about how both sides were grey, because as a kid and an adult history taught to me in part by millennium actress was my best defense against people who hated me for what I look like not who I am.
Aaaa this is one of my favorite comments I've ever gotten! I'm so glad my writing resonated with you and I'm even more glad you could find comfort and happiness in your identity
Usually I'm a jaded cynical asshole, that scoffs people mourning famous deaths. Kon's is one of the three deaths that really sadden me and leave me wondering how much more we could have gotten out of such an amazing person. Also, if you haven't already read that, Kon's last words, a letter to his parents as he was dying from cancer, are truly an incredible read that will leave you sobbing, and I think any of his fan would still love to read them nontheless www.makikoitoh.com/journal/satoshi-kons-last-words
Also quick TW; sexual abuse, violence, racism - I get into some pretty tense subject matter later in the video given the film's historical context so I want y'all to be aware of it ahead of time. Love you love you love you!
Hey I disagree Logan! I understand his work is tense and dark and features themes of sexual assault and violence a lot but this video specifically discusses very large scale acts of those themes in real life perpetrated by real people so I felt the least I could do was consider how that may affect my followers!
BREADSWORD I would encourage them to expose themselves to disturbing experiences because that makes them tougher and being tough is useful. Love the video bro :P I very much admire your work.
it's very, very rare that a video on this platform makes my eyes tear up. Rarer still that it's an analysis of cinematography putting me on the brink of crying. I had chills running down my spine every minute or so watching this video. I had to just sit still and stare at the screen for a full minute as I allowed the experience to properly sink in. Something about the way you discuss the notion of love resonates in my cold, sad, foreveralone heart in a way I cannot put into words. I could sit here and write a thesis-long comment about how much I adore your videos, the broad and universal scope that you steadily funnel down into a razor-sharp point over and over again, the unapologetic passion in your delivery that makes me care about things I never knew I could care about, the obvious care and research you put into understanding the full context of every aspect of these films... Seriously, I could go on forever, but I won't. You are the most heartfelt, sincere, and enthusiastic creator I have ever seen in any medium, and it absolutely blows me away every single time you put up a new video. I'm a creator myself: an illustrator, specifically, and I can honestly say that watching your videos inspires me to push myself, improve, and care about the work I make more than almost anything else I've ever experienced. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for everything you do, Breadsword.
When I feel like the world can be sometimes overly cynical on it's view on love, I'm glad there are videos like this one to prove what I knew all along, that love in all forms is just one of the best things about life
Thank you for this beautiful video. My family is Japanese, and my great uncle was Gordon Hirabayashi, one of the only people who stood up against the Japanese American internment. This is a beautiful love letter to a wonderful movie, and an in-depth dive into the horrors of war, fear, and discrimination.
To say that this video perfectly encapsulates the nature mankind’s love of love is an understatement. I’ve long since battled with extreme loneliness, crippling depression, suicidal and frightening thoughts, feelings of utter despair and a sense of total worthlessness. But that idea, the concept that I too could find someone who gives my heart the overwhelming sensation to stand up, move forward and RUN for all I am worth......that is one of the very few things that truly keeps me going in life. For a short moment in I had someone with whom I felt a shared love. But, much as with the many flawed, human and at times broken characters in this film, I too made my fair share of mistakes. Ultimately when I should have been moving towards that person and forward in life I opted to stay still and let the distance build. Mistakes, doubts, obsessions, anger, regrets, all of it pushing and pulling at life, when in reality, all I had to do was run past it, and go towards what I now know was love for the sake of love. For the first time in an extremely long time, as I watched your video today, I was moved to tears by something greater than the sum of it’s whole. Thank you.
That made me cry! Millennium Actress is my favorite film of all time, period. It resonates deeply with me, because... I've been obsessive about shipping since early childhood, and... It's something that makes me really happy, but at the same time, it gets to me sometimes that the characters I love aren't real. It can be a reminder of what I don't have in my own life, what I can't truly believe I'll ever find. If I had to show someone how it feels, I'd just show them Millennium Actress. Chiyoko's in love with this idea of a man she met once, and is constant pursuit of something unattainable. And the movie also has a lot to say about our relationship with fiction, how it's as much a part of our lives as external reality. That's the point of showing Chiyoko's movies as part of her and Genya's real life -- to them, the distinction is meaningless. And now that I think about it... Fiction is the eternal pursuit of our desires and ideals. God, what a painfully beautiful movie!
something i have noticed is that in the discussion of satoshi kons work, you will always see comments saying that the kon film in question is their favorite. i think that speaks to the excellency of his craft and the diversity of the stories hes told.
Your video made me realize something: there's someone in my life I still love, despite all odds. And lately I've been bitter than I ever was, slowly turning into The Old Lady, like in the movie, because my pursuit for her has ended, because of the distance between us, physically and figuratively. It's too soon for me to stop running, I must run after her, no matter where it takes me... Thank you.
Millenium Actress makes me cry every time I watch it, and this video essay mnaged to perfectly encapsulate the same emotions that the film itself brings. So I cried again. Wonderfully done.
I must say... the way you speak about Satoshi Kon's work is absolutely beautiful. I literally have a tear in my eye. I like hearing people's take on his work (especially Perfect Blue) and none have made me just come back to watch again except for yours. You have a wonderful way with words. Keep up the amazing work.
So worth the wait, and I eagerly awat more! Satoshi KKon is one of my favorite filmakers of all time. Every one of his films managed to shake me emotionally. I did a presenttion on him for my Asian Art History course in college. My professor had never heard of him before, but became hooked onto his cinema shortly after. It was actually my professor that told me one morning of the heart breaking news that Kon has passed away, the next semester after I had presented. He was an amazing creator whose creations connected people so well.
I can't explain it, but your videos not only calm me, but they also cause me to get more connected to my emotions. I've been going through some rough times and your "all you need is love" videos honestly give me the warmest feeling till i feel better in the end
That was beautiful. Millenium Actress is my fav out of all of Kon's work and your love essay for it really pull the strings out of my heart. Thank you for reminding us how great Kon's work is and that deep message really sinks hard. Keep up the good work mate!
Been counting the days (128) since you started this series, waiting patiently for the next installment to come out...because I knew it would be Millennium Actress (my favorite Satoshi Kon film). Loved this movie as a kid and I love it more with each passing year as its message of love and the pursuit of love mean more to me now than ever before. Thank you so much for making this and the Perfect Blue video, they're truly beautiful! I cannot wait to see what else you have to say about the rest of Kon's work.
This video did a great job articulating why this film is my favorite of Kon’s impressive career. I didn’t know about the symbolism of the crane and lotus. Thanks for diving so in depth on this wonderful film.
Thank you so much for introducing me to Satoshi Kon's work with your video on 'Perfect Blue'. More than that, thank you for having such a thorough analysis and putting his work into words that I found hard to find. Absolutely beautiful.
I cried at the beginning of this video. You explaining how you felt as a kid was too relatable... And it continues to chip at me every day, I always saw Love as an escape and I longed for my significant other...
We need more people like you in the world in my opinion, or so it seems, because I don't actually know you in person. But...To be so honest and aware of our nature as humans, the history going from our respective countries to what we've achieved as a species, as well as the horrible things we have done to ourselves and to the world around us is captivating to say the least. Thank you, really. Almost every single one of your video analyses has moved me in a way that would make me feel guilty if I didn't share your content with people, sadly I'm from South America and pretty much nobody here speaks English on a fluent enough level to follow your train of thought throughout your compositions, that being said, you definitely need more exposure. This episodes about love really hit it kind of close to home right now for me, because I'm currently dealing with the "loss/absence of love" at this particular moment of my life. Keep being smart, and uploading content that makes you proud, I and many others will be waiting with our thinking caps on for your next upload.
That intro definitely describes me when I was younger too, maybe even still now! I always mentioned how I "loved love" and how it made me so happy to see, for as long as I could think logically and form my own opinions. I still feel that inside me these days, no matter how negative things make me or I make myself...
I wish I had watched this when you first uploaded it. It wouldn’t change how I feel but it’s like you’re late to a party that everyone’s been to but still want to enjoy it anyways. This message of love, the artistry of how it presents its theme throughout a single action as running and how it reflects so strongly on what it means in Satoshi Kon’s Millennium Actress. It all feels like a memorabilia of the beautiful, tragic, and heart-pounding feelings that are invoked and pulled out from a long forgotten memory until now. Your work on these video essays rlly lets me see these things in a whole different perspective than I originally saw them. My eyes and heart are open to all of these subtle motifs, thought-provoking imagery, and deep symbolism that escaped me the first time I watched it. And it makes me want to rewatch it all over again just to see it w/ these new ideals that you’ve inspired within me. I want to thank you so much for taking the time to make these videos. They mean so much not just to me but for anybody else who has felt like chasing after something impossible was still something worth trying. I hope that you continue to inspire others just the same.
I recommend Satoshi Kon to all of my friends specifically so they can watch your wonderful analyses. Your description and analysis, editing and voice, every aspect of your videos is enjoyable and full of thought and feeling that is incredibly hard to find on UA-cam. I feel calm and honestly emotional as you detail everything. I very much look forward to what you'll publish in the future!
also i'd like to say its bizarre, i mention satoshi kon at school to some japanese girl who was having trouble explaining her favorite story tellers, i said, my favorite japanese storyteller is satoshi kon... unfortunately she didnt know who he was.... and of course i come home to this....
@breadsword this is so beautiful. Finally watched a MILLENNIUM ACTRESS last night and this hits the nail on the head. And you know what I kept thinking about? PAST LIVES.
I remember the first time I watched Millennium Actress. I sat there sobbing through the credits, deeply moved. This made me feel very much the same. Excellent work, as usual
PLEASE! Continue this series you’re videos are so good and I’m enjoying this series so much. Before this I’d only seen Paprika but now I’ve watched all of cons filmography and its such a spectacle. Tokyo Godfathers was probably my favorite anime film ever tbh. I really hope to see a new part on it so keep up the good work and can’t wait to see more of your content!
i practically only watch video essays, but this one is the first one in a while that was really great and actually expressed something. keep going dude!
This is the most beautiful love letter to Satoshi Kon I've ever witnessed. Millenium Actress is my favorite movie, thank you for giving it such a wonderful tribute. Glad to have come across it.
I needed a solid month after watching Millennium Actress to recover from the depression I got caught up in. I've always been the one to pursue non reciprocated love like a moron. I used to get so caught up on people like every person in this movie. But I learned as I grew up how to let things go fast that didn't seem to be working out. Some scenes made me sob and sob because I'd been there. I'd clung to the false hopes of romance and I agonized in wanting them all to just let it go and be happy with themselves. Just a masterpiece of a film. Thank you for covering it in this way.
Whatever income or achievements you gain from your videos are not enough. Your ability to be introspective and discover the smallest symbolism in film is incredible. Its only topped by your ability to explain it so well to the lame brains like myself. Every video you make has remarkable beauty to it. It's art. You're a fantastic artist. Don't stop being great.
It's always difficult explaining this movie when showing to friends who haven't seen. You pinned down my favorite movie *perfectly*. Thank you so much!
Damn it breadsword...this is the only video I have ever watched that made me cry. For real tho you are my favorite UA-camr and have been ever since I saw your treasure planet video, I see all these UA-camrs thanking their fans for the subscriptions and likes...but I think that I speak for everyone who've seen your channel when I say, thank you. Thank you for making videos like this for all of us to see, and thank you for making our days happier than they were before seeing your vids.
You actually moved me to tears with your video. Thank you so much, this feels like a love letter. This feels like poetry. I sat completely transfixed in front of my laptop for 32 minutes, existing very much outside the timely boundary. You resparked my love or this movie I couldn't watch for the last couple of years. Whenever a movie touches me so deeply but I don't understand why, I try to push it away from me. You actually made me understand why it frightens me so and I feel like I can watch it another time. Again, thank you so much for your hard work!
I follow a lot of Film UA-camrs, but what you're doing is so genuine and unique, unapologetically candid and emotional, it really stands out in the sea of clever sarcasm. Keep up the good work!
Satoshi Kon is one of my all time favorite directors. I've seen almost all of his work except for the first two parts of this series! Waiting to watch those so I can binge watch your series. You should do Tokyo Godfathers next. It's my favorite movie and there's surprisingly little online about it.
good lord, that bold italics bit is so iconic. Had to rewatch this with the release of ep 3. This series is much appreciated, anxiously awaiting the coming episodes with anticipation and love, tysm
I was a bit worried when I saw that the video after your first Kon examination wasn't about Millennium Actress, but I'm so glad you've continued the series! I love Kon's work, and you do such an amazing analysis with every video you make, so this is the perfect match!
Breadsword! Love every single one of your videos including the one on the musical you used to have on your channel, I think all of them are extremely well made, fun, interesting, and educational. I love the way you style your videos and you deserve a lot more views than you are getting. I've mentioned you in videos of mine to some of my viewers and to friends and family. Keep doing a great job and you got a supporter in me!
This film is always one of my favourites, it is so beautiful in a Japanese way told with modern and western ideology. It shows you the beauty of uncertainty and loss, and wave it with the burning desire to chasing behind pure and love. You made a great video, and I really envy your ability to tell this story with such elegance and passion. I am just sorry that youtube didn't really reword long video that is long not because it refuses to end, but there is just so much to tell.
As I was watching the video I started crying, it was as if I was rewatching the movie x20, so many things escaped my gaze when I watched it a couple of years ago, please keep making this Satoshi Kon's series
I'm not too big on movies, and when I do watch them I prefer lighthearted comedy, but Kon's work was always the exception. I specifically searched up millennium actress and found your first video on perfect blue in this series in the results a while back, and am so happy to see this episode uploaded. A really thorough work youve put together, tons of insightful commentary that I had no idea was even in the film. Hearing people give their thoughts on these works of art really makes them all that much more meaningful, and you've provided a fantastic tribute to Kon's work with this series. Looking forward to the rest!!
We need to talk about how the muted background music is another level of ASMR, where it makes me feel exactly like when I was a kid, and time felt longer, and we were at family parties, and the night was young, but I was now tired after hours and hours of running and playing with my cousins, and now finally bored, finally sitting against a wall, I can hear all the adults dancing to the slow music, and I'm just there, wondering when will THEY get tired. When will THEY want to go to sleep. When will my parents finally take me back home, not knowing that all those adults, that feel time a lot faster than I do, are absorbing every second of the night, every second of the party, every second of the family that they don't usually see. I love the feeling this background music gives to me.
Just rewatched Millennium Actress last night and started my day with your video this morning. You perfectly summarize everything that there is to love about the film.
I have no clue how old you are Breadsword but your maturity, class and eloquence come through in every video you create. It's apparent how much your respect and adore the subject matter you discuss, and I am truly thankful you create content for this platform. Keep on keeping, I can't wait to see what other pieces of Japanese cinema you discuss in the future!
I've never been moved to tears by a video essay before, and I ain't mad about this one being the first to do so. Absolutely remarkable in every way, I can't even words right now.
Holy shit. After watching this breathtaking video, I can't believe I've seen Perfect Blue, Paprika, Tokyo Godfathers, and Paranoia Agent but haven't seen Millennium Actress yet. If it weren't already 2 in the morning, I'd be hopping right over to watch this movie. What glowing praise for a film
You don't put out content often. What you put out. How long it runs and pretty much everything about it would have the YT algo throw it in the trash. In the face of this you ignore it and still produce such quality content and analysis. And for that, I thank you. You are a gentleman and a scholar. I patiently await for your next installment.
I don't have words to describe how much I love and appriciete your works, you have a magnificent style in your writing and I don't have anyting more to say. When the wind starts blowing in my sails I wiil definitly become a patreon!
This is my most watch videos ever, your aesthetic in not only the videos but also the background sound is just fascinating. Can't help falling in love with your channel. Keep up the great work.
Literally only watched/discovered Satoshi Kon's work because I saw that you had videos about it. I can't overstate how insightful and amazing your videos are. Opened my eyes to how fantastic a movie Dr. Strangelove is. You put so much heart into your videos, it isn't under appreciated, believe me. Thank you for exposing me to such a brilliant director. Great work, Breadsword. Keep it up, proud of you!
Damn, I had forgotten what shivers feel like. You had me physically transfixed a couple of times there, riveting. I remember seeing the film in a cinema during one of the first ever anime festivals in my backwater country, back in a very tender age, lots of callused over feels there. Thank you for shaking all that up and sharing this mesmerizingly awesome perspective. Guys, our boy needs to do this full time. Link in the description.
I had to pause this 25 minutes in to bawl. I really wish I could express how much this series means to me, but said simply, you're doing amazing work. Thank you.
The beauty of your work as made me cry way too many times... Great job man... keep it up! ;) Btw, the love on this comment section is just heartwarming. A lot of genuinely interesting comments :)
I have never watched the films that this channel is commenting on. However, I feel like the writing and delivering of the video just made me really appreciate the beauty of these films and I haven't even watched more than just the little clips that are shown here.
I totally love your videos involving Satoshi Kon, he's been my favorite director in animation for while now, the great thing about this is that with your videos I keep rediscovering why I love his work. Also you remind me to dig deeper into the small details, those are the ones that make the final piece shine. Your love letter to Satoshi kon's work is great and brings me to tears, I hope one day I can express my love for the arts with the same amount of passion that you have. Thank you for sharing your love and please don't ever stop. PS. English is not my primary lenguage, sorry for any mistakes or weird expressions
Wow. This is a beautiful video. I almost cried my eyes out towards the end. Thank you for bringing that awareness. We are quick to forget that atrocities still occur, and that love (or the pursuit of it) is still very much necessary.
(Im from the Netherlands no good English). For now i have watched every single video that you made. And every time i watched it(except for treasure planet because that movie is one of my favorites) i realize new toughts that had never prevoked me. Watching these video's. The way you explain your perception's its made of little nods to diffrent directors. The music you use in your'r videos are not bij accident. The scenes you show are very perticular. I keep coming back here for the maximum effort you put in to you'r video's and i thank you for that. You not only gave me new insight in film. You gave me a new way of comprehading and seeing a movie that i never tought of before.
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Can you drop a playlist with all the background music in your videos?
You prolly dont care but does anybody know of a tool to get back into an instagram account..?
I was stupid forgot the login password. I would love any tips you can give me.
@Damian Zachariah Instablaster :)
@Nehemiah Ivan thanks for your reply. I found the site on google and Im trying it out atm.
Looks like it's gonna take a while so I will get back to you later when my account password hopefully is recovered.
@Nehemiah Ivan it worked and I actually got access to my account again. I am so happy!
Thank you so much, you really help me out!
Your satoshi kon series keeps getting me to cry
I was born in Japan, lived in America and have since moved back to japan. At every turn in my life I’ve had to deal with being belittled for both who I am and the history of where I’m from.
As a young girl in America with a Japanese accent, kids who had never met someone who is Asian would call me by slurs, blame me for things Imperial Japan had done, make fun of my accent and my food, until I hated myself for being Asian, until I attempted to eliminate everything “foreign” about me.
Eventually, after both my parents had died while I was in my twenties I was left with the job of looking after my younger sisters. And as a teacher I couldn’t raise two kids in America, so I moved to where I was always a citizen, I went home for the first time.
For a year finding work was hard, I was called a chameleon, a fake Japanese because I was so obviously American. For the first time I hated my younger self for hating me. People would accuse me of being complicit in what Americans did on Okinawa. Anytime an American did something shitty, somehow I was to blame.
It’s been 5 years now, I’m still American in obvious ways, tattoos, unaccented english, and a love of watching videos like this to name a few. But now that I live in tokyo, had have synthesized my two histories, for the first time in my entire life, I’m happy.
I finally feel love.
This has been weird and rambly but I’ve always loved millennium actress for its prospective on WWII, about how both sides were grey, because as a kid and an adult history taught to me in part by millennium actress was my best defense against people who hated me for what I look like not who I am.
Aaaa this is one of my favorite comments I've ever gotten! I'm so glad my writing resonated with you and I'm even more glad you could find comfort and happiness in your identity
Glad I'm not the only one crying. This series has likewise been moving me to tears.
deep
Your experience seems pretty terrible. Do you ever think to live in countries outside US and Japan or move to Hawaii instead?
Considering she moved out of the US due to economical reasons, moving to Hawaii would've been even worse.
I can't believe he is gone. I'm so glad someone has made such a beautiful tribute to kon's incredible work. love you breadsword
Usually I'm a jaded cynical asshole, that scoffs people mourning famous deaths. Kon's is one of the three deaths that really sadden me and leave me wondering how much more we could have gotten out of such an amazing person.
Also, if you haven't already read that, Kon's last words, a letter to his parents as he was dying from cancer, are truly an incredible read that will leave you sobbing, and I think any of his fan would still love to read them nontheless www.makikoitoh.com/journal/satoshi-kons-last-words
Absolutely incredible
LOVE U NICK BRO
*I Don't Dance plays softly in the background*
oh hey its you!
Dude this is dream come true
Are you guys brothers?
This is a brilliant love letter to a brilliant love letter. Well done.
Also quick TW; sexual abuse, violence, racism - I get into some pretty tense subject matter later in the video given the film's historical context so I want y'all to be aware of it ahead of time. Love you love you love you!
I somebody needs "Trigger Warnings" then they shouldn't be watching a documentary series on the works of Satoshi Kon.
Hey I disagree Logan! I understand his work is tense and dark and features themes of sexual assault and violence a lot but this video specifically discusses very large scale acts of those themes in real life perpetrated by real people so I felt the least I could do was consider how that may affect my followers!
You are one of my favorite content creators bread you are really smart
The saga of love progresses ti the next part. Excited that the next installment is in! Thank you for slaving over this and your past videos good sir.
BREADSWORD I would encourage them to expose themselves to disturbing experiences because that makes them tougher and being tough is useful.
Love the video bro :P
I very much admire your work.
Your voice makes me relaxed.
Update: I cried three times watching this.
OUR BOY BACK AT IT
YESS!! I've waited so long for this but knowing Breadsword, it's worth the wait
Honestly one of the best videos I've seen in a long time.
I bawled my eyes out, not gonna lie.
it's very, very rare that a video on this platform makes my eyes tear up. Rarer still that it's an analysis of cinematography putting me on the brink of crying.
I had chills running down my spine every minute or so watching this video. I had to just sit still and stare at the screen for a full minute as I allowed the experience to properly sink in. Something about the way you discuss the notion of love resonates in my cold, sad, foreveralone heart in a way I cannot put into words.
I could sit here and write a thesis-long comment about how much I adore your videos, the broad and universal scope that you steadily funnel down into a razor-sharp point over and over again, the unapologetic passion in your delivery that makes me care about things I never knew I could care about, the obvious care and research you put into understanding the full context of every aspect of these films...
Seriously, I could go on forever, but I won't. You are the most heartfelt, sincere, and enthusiastic creator I have ever seen in any medium, and it absolutely blows me away every single time you put up a new video. I'm a creator myself: an illustrator, specifically, and I can honestly say that watching your videos inspires me to push myself, improve, and care about the work I make more than almost anything else I've ever experienced.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for everything you do, Breadsword.
Thank you for such a sincere and warm comment dawg I love this and hope you find all the warmth and success and love you could ever want in life
When I feel like the world can be sometimes overly cynical on it's view on love, I'm glad there are videos like this one to prove what I knew all along, that love in all forms is just one of the best things about life
Thank you for this beautiful video. My family is Japanese, and my great uncle was Gordon Hirabayashi, one of the only people who stood up against the Japanese American internment. This is a beautiful love letter to a wonderful movie, and an in-depth dive into the horrors of war, fear, and discrimination.
To say that this video perfectly encapsulates the nature mankind’s love of love is an understatement. I’ve long since battled with extreme loneliness, crippling depression, suicidal and frightening thoughts, feelings of utter despair and a sense of total worthlessness. But that idea, the concept that I too could find someone who gives my heart the overwhelming sensation to stand up, move forward and RUN for all I am worth......that is one of the very few things that truly keeps me going in life.
For a short moment in I had someone with whom I felt a shared love. But, much as with the many flawed, human and at times broken characters in this film, I too made my fair share of mistakes. Ultimately when I should have been moving towards that person and forward in life I opted to stay still and let the distance build. Mistakes, doubts, obsessions, anger, regrets, all of it pushing and pulling at life, when in reality, all I had to do was run past it, and go towards what I now know was love for the sake of love.
For the first time in an extremely long time, as I watched your video today, I was moved to tears by something greater than the sum of it’s whole.
Thank you.
Almost cried at the mirroring at 17:15. How the guy is looking towards her but she is looking towards the eternity.
Did cry, with snot running down my face.
Your videos always take me on a journey, there's so much effort behind them. I love your writing. :)
That made me cry! Millennium Actress is my favorite film of all time, period. It resonates deeply with me, because... I've been obsessive about shipping since early childhood, and... It's something that makes me really happy, but at the same time, it gets to me sometimes that the characters I love aren't real. It can be a reminder of what I don't have in my own life, what I can't truly believe I'll ever find.
If I had to show someone how it feels, I'd just show them Millennium Actress. Chiyoko's in love with this idea of a man she met once, and is constant pursuit of something unattainable. And the movie also has a lot to say about our relationship with fiction, how it's as much a part of our lives as external reality. That's the point of showing Chiyoko's movies as part of her and Genya's real life -- to them, the distinction is meaningless. And now that I think about it... Fiction is the eternal pursuit of our desires and ideals.
God, what a painfully beautiful movie!
Millennium Actress is Satoshi Kon's best work! Change my mind.
Why would we want to change it when you're correct?!
hairyson 94 Guess my opinion still stand, then. :)
I mean, Perfect Blue is always gonna be my #1 pick when it comes to his work, but you have your opinions and I have mine-
I can't change your mind cuz damn that film hit me in the heart!
something i have noticed is that in the discussion of satoshi kons work, you will always see comments saying that the kon film in question is their favorite. i think that speaks to the excellency of his craft and the diversity of the stories hes told.
I just cried the last 6 minutes, omg that was deep
Your video made me realize something: there's someone in my life I still love, despite all odds.
And lately I've been bitter than I ever was, slowly turning into The Old Lady, like in the movie, because my pursuit for her has ended, because of the distance between us, physically and figuratively.
It's too soon for me to stop running, I must run after her, no matter where it takes me...
Thank you.
I enjoy how genuine you are. It's not easy allowing yourself that, in this age of irony. ^^;
Millenium Actress makes me cry every time I watch it, and this video essay mnaged to perfectly encapsulate the same emotions that the film itself brings. So I cried again. Wonderfully done.
I must say... the way you speak about Satoshi Kon's work is absolutely beautiful. I literally have a tear in my eye.
I like hearing people's take on his work (especially Perfect Blue) and none have made me just come back to watch again except for yours. You have a wonderful way with words. Keep up the amazing work.
I love you. Keep it up, dad.
So worth the wait, and I eagerly awat more! Satoshi KKon is one of my favorite filmakers of all time. Every one of his films managed to shake me emotionally. I did a presenttion on him for my Asian Art History course in college. My professor had never heard of him before, but became hooked onto his cinema shortly after. It was actually my professor that told me one morning of the heart breaking news that Kon has passed away, the next semester after I had presented. He was an amazing creator whose creations connected people so well.
I can't explain it, but your videos not only calm me, but they also cause me to get more connected to my emotions. I've been going through some rough times and your "all you need is love" videos honestly give me the warmest feeling till i feel better in the end
That was beautiful. Millenium Actress is my fav out of all of Kon's work and your love essay for it really pull the strings out of my heart. Thank you for reminding us how great Kon's work is and that deep message really sinks hard. Keep up the good work mate!
Been counting the days (128) since you started this series, waiting patiently for the next installment to come out...because I knew it would be Millennium Actress (my favorite Satoshi Kon film). Loved this movie as a kid and I love it more with each passing year as its message of love and the pursuit of love mean more to me now than ever before. Thank you so much for making this and the Perfect Blue video, they're truly beautiful! I cannot wait to see what else you have to say about the rest of Kon's work.
This video did a great job articulating why this film is my favorite of Kon’s impressive career. I didn’t know about the symbolism of the crane and lotus. Thanks for diving so in depth on this wonderful film.
Thank you so much for introducing me to Satoshi Kon's work with your video on 'Perfect Blue'. More than that, thank you for having such a thorough analysis and putting his work into words that I found hard to find. Absolutely beautiful.
I live for these videos! Thanks breadsword!
AND I LOVE FOR LOVELY COMMENTS LIKE THIS! THANK YOU!
I cried at the beginning of this video. You explaining how you felt as a kid was too relatable... And it continues to chip at me every day, I always saw Love as an escape and I longed for my significant other...
We need more people like you in the world in my opinion, or so it seems, because I don't actually know you in person. But...To be so honest and aware of our nature as humans, the history going from our respective countries to what we've achieved as a species, as well as the horrible things we have done to ourselves and to the world around us is captivating to say the least.
Thank you, really. Almost every single one of your video analyses has moved me in a way that would make me feel guilty if I didn't share your content with people, sadly I'm from South America and pretty much nobody here speaks English on a fluent enough level to follow your train of thought throughout your compositions, that being said, you definitely need more exposure.
This episodes about love really hit it kind of close to home right now for me, because I'm currently dealing with the "loss/absence of love" at this particular moment of my life.
Keep being smart, and uploading content that makes you proud, I and many others will be waiting with our thinking caps on for your next upload.
That intro definitely describes me when I was younger too, maybe even still now!
I always mentioned how I "loved love" and how it made me so happy to see, for as long as I could think logically and form my own opinions.
I still feel that inside me these days, no matter how negative things make me or I make myself...
I wish I had watched this when you first uploaded it. It wouldn’t change how I feel but it’s like you’re late to a party that everyone’s been to but still want to enjoy it anyways.
This message of love, the artistry of how it presents its theme throughout a single action as running and how it reflects so strongly on what it means in Satoshi Kon’s Millennium Actress. It all feels like a memorabilia of the beautiful, tragic, and heart-pounding feelings that are invoked and pulled out from a long forgotten memory until now. Your work on these video essays rlly lets me see these things in a whole different perspective than I originally saw them. My eyes and heart are open to all of these subtle motifs, thought-provoking imagery, and deep symbolism that escaped me the first time I watched it.
And it makes me want to rewatch it all over again just to see it w/ these new ideals that you’ve inspired within me.
I want to thank you so much for taking the time to make these videos. They mean so much not just to me but for anybody else who has felt like chasing after something impossible was still something worth trying. I hope that you continue to inspire others just the same.
I recommend Satoshi Kon to all of my friends specifically so they can watch your wonderful analyses. Your description and analysis, editing and voice, every aspect of your videos is enjoyable and full of thought and feeling that is incredibly hard to find on UA-cam. I feel calm and honestly emotional as you detail everything. I very much look forward to what you'll publish in the future!
also i'd like to say its bizarre, i mention satoshi kon at school to some japanese girl who was having trouble explaining her favorite story tellers, i said, my favorite japanese storyteller is satoshi kon... unfortunately she didnt know who he was.... and of course i come home to this....
@breadsword this is so beautiful. Finally watched a MILLENNIUM ACTRESS last night and this hits the nail on the head. And you know what I kept thinking about?
PAST LIVES.
CURRENTLY BRUSHING TEARS AWAY. PLEASE NEVER STOP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING.
I remember the first time I watched Millennium Actress. I sat there sobbing through the credits, deeply moved. This made me feel very much the same. Excellent work, as usual
Father is back!
Edit: he has noticed me again 😍
I am in love with Kon's depiction of love, and your own loving words for it. Thank you so much.
This made me tear up not gonna lie. This is actually a masterpiece in of itself. You are a tremendous orator.
PLEASE! Continue this series you’re videos are so good and I’m enjoying this series so much. Before this I’d only seen Paprika but now I’ve watched all of cons filmography and its such a spectacle. Tokyo Godfathers was probably my favorite anime film ever tbh. I really hope to see a new part on it so keep up the good work and can’t wait to see more of your content!
Im a simple man, I see Breadsword, I click the video
i practically only watch video essays, but this one is the first one in a while that was really great and actually expressed something. keep going dude!
Jesus christ, can you get any better? Cuz this is some of your best work so far!
I've been waiting for this for a while man. I love your videos. Especially the one on Treasure Planet. Keep up the good work!
This video of yours always makes me cry and yearn for life, I keep coming back to it when I need to feel alive. What an absolute masterpiece
This is the most beautiful love letter to Satoshi Kon I've ever witnessed. Millenium Actress is my favorite movie, thank you for giving it such a wonderful tribute. Glad to have come across it.
I’ve never had a UA-cam video hit me the way this one has. These reads of Satoshi Kon’s works is incredible.
I needed a solid month after watching Millennium Actress to recover from the depression I got caught up in. I've always been the one to pursue non reciprocated love like a moron. I used to get so caught up on people like every person in this movie. But I learned as I grew up how to let things go fast that didn't seem to be working out. Some scenes made me sob and sob because I'd been there. I'd clung to the false hopes of romance and I agonized in wanting them all to just let it go and be happy with themselves. Just a masterpiece of a film. Thank you for covering it in this way.
Saw this in my feed when I woke up and thought I was dreaming. So happy to see this video!!!
I love your videos man they make my day the mix between ur voice and background music is great
Millennium Actress is my favourite Satoshi Kon film. Thank you for this review!! It moved me deeply
omg this made me cry. what beautiful writing, what a beautiful presentation and what a beautiful mind you have.
Whatever income or achievements you gain from your videos are not enough. Your ability to be introspective and discover the smallest symbolism in film is incredible. Its only topped by your ability to explain it so well to the lame brains like myself. Every video you make has remarkable beauty to it. It's art. You're a fantastic artist. Don't stop being great.
My Wednesday just got so much better.
Thank you for blessing us with this video.
It's always difficult explaining this movie when showing to friends who haven't seen. You pinned down my favorite movie *perfectly*. Thank you so much!
Damn it breadsword...this is the only video I have ever watched that made me cry. For real tho you are my favorite UA-camr and have been ever since I saw your treasure planet video, I see all these UA-camrs thanking their fans for the subscriptions and likes...but I think that I speak for everyone who've seen your channel when I say, thank you. Thank you for making videos like this for all of us to see, and thank you for making our days happier than they were before seeing your vids.
I don't know what it is about this video but it plays into my fears and desires and makes me feel a mix of sorrow, joy, and agony. Thanks for that.
You actually moved me to tears with your video. Thank you so much, this feels like a love letter. This feels like poetry. I sat completely transfixed in front of my laptop for 32 minutes, existing very much outside the timely boundary. You resparked my love or this movie I couldn't watch for the last couple of years. Whenever a movie touches me so deeply but I don't understand why, I try to push it away from me. You actually made me understand why it frightens me so and I feel like I can watch it another time. Again, thank you so much for your hard work!
I follow a lot of Film UA-camrs, but what you're doing is so genuine and unique, unapologetically candid and emotional, it really stands out in the sea of clever sarcasm. Keep up the good work!
Satoshi Kon is one of my all time favorite directors. I've seen almost all of his work except for the first two parts of this series! Waiting to watch those so I can binge watch your series.
You should do Tokyo Godfathers next. It's my favorite movie and there's surprisingly little online about it.
good lord, that bold italics bit is so iconic. Had to rewatch this with the release of ep 3. This series is much appreciated, anxiously awaiting the coming episodes with anticipation and love, tysm
Man that first soliloquy about love hit hard my guy
I always love the background music and retro stylings you incorporate into your analyses. Please keep posting I love you
Hey bread-buddy, if you have a second, how do you choose what songs you'd like to integrate into your stuff? Genuinely curious tbh
I was a bit worried when I saw that the video after your first Kon examination wasn't about Millennium Actress, but I'm so glad you've continued the series! I love Kon's work, and you do such an amazing analysis with every video you make, so this is the perfect match!
Breadsword! Love every single one of your videos including the one on the musical you used to have on your channel, I think all of them are extremely well made, fun, interesting, and educational. I love the way you style your videos and you deserve a lot more views than you are getting. I've mentioned you in videos of mine to some of my viewers and to friends and family. Keep doing a great job and you got a supporter in me!
This film is always one of my favourites, it is so beautiful in a Japanese way told with modern and western ideology. It shows you the beauty of uncertainty and loss, and wave it with the burning desire to chasing behind pure and love.
You made a great video, and I really envy your ability to tell this story with such elegance and passion. I am just sorry that youtube didn't really reword long video that is long not because it refuses to end, but there is just so much to tell.
Please don't stop making these essays. I'm writing a book based on this interpretation of love you're banging out. I need these. Please don't stop.
you ever want to see the most tragically honest snapshot of the Japanese bombing watch "In This Corner of the World" haunting
Literally one of the best series ever on UA-cam
As I was watching the video I started crying, it was as if I was rewatching the movie x20, so many things escaped my gaze when I watched it a couple of years ago, please keep making this Satoshi Kon's series
the end of this video brought me down to tears.
Literally already crying not even 2 minutes in! GOLD
Brilliant. I just got to watch Millennium Actress the other day, and this is the perfect companion piece.
When I heard Joey Dosik's "Running Away", my respect for you went up.
I'm not too big on movies, and when I do watch them I prefer lighthearted comedy, but Kon's work was always the exception. I specifically searched up millennium actress and found your first video on perfect blue in this series in the results a while back, and am so happy to see this episode uploaded. A really thorough work youve put together, tons of insightful commentary that I had no idea was even in the film. Hearing people give their thoughts on these works of art really makes them all that much more meaningful, and you've provided a fantastic tribute to Kon's work with this series. Looking forward to the rest!!
The first two minutes of this already made me choke up. This channel is literally my favorite.
We need to talk about how the muted background music is another level of ASMR, where it makes me feel exactly like when I was a kid, and time felt longer, and we were at family parties, and the night was young, but I was now tired after hours and hours of running and playing with my cousins, and now finally bored, finally sitting against a wall, I can hear all the adults dancing to the slow music, and I'm just there, wondering when will THEY get tired. When will THEY want to go to sleep. When will my parents finally take me back home, not knowing that all those adults, that feel time a lot faster than I do, are absorbing every second of the night, every second of the party, every second of the family that they don't usually see.
I love the feeling this background music gives to me.
Just rewatched Millennium Actress last night and started my day with your video this morning. You perfectly summarize everything that there is to love about the film.
I have no clue how old you are Breadsword but your maturity, class and eloquence come through in every video you create. It's apparent how much your respect and adore the subject matter you discuss, and I am truly thankful you create content for this platform. Keep on keeping, I can't wait to see what other pieces of Japanese cinema you discuss in the future!
Never before have i thought of a video essay as beautiful.
On every video of yours, every conclusion just gets to me
I've never been moved to tears by a video essay before, and I ain't mad about this one being the first to do so. Absolutely remarkable in every way, I can't even words right now.
Holy shit. After watching this breathtaking video, I can't believe I've seen Perfect Blue, Paprika, Tokyo Godfathers, and Paranoia Agent but haven't seen Millennium Actress yet. If it weren't already 2 in the morning, I'd be hopping right over to watch this movie. What glowing praise for a film
You don't put out content often. What you put out. How long it runs and pretty much everything about it would have the YT algo throw it in the trash. In the face of this you ignore it and still produce such quality content and analysis. And for that, I thank you. You are a gentleman and a scholar. I patiently await for your next installment.
I don't have words to describe how much I love and appriciete your works, you have a magnificent style in your writing and I don't have anyting more to say. When the wind starts blowing in my sails I wiil definitly become a patreon!
I don't have words for how kind this comment is!!! Thank you immensely
This is my most watch videos ever, your aesthetic in not only the videos but also the background sound is just fascinating. Can't help falling in love with your channel. Keep up the great work.
i love these Kon videos, keep going :)
Literally only watched/discovered Satoshi Kon's work because I saw that you had videos about it. I can't overstate how insightful and amazing your videos are. Opened my eyes to how fantastic a movie Dr. Strangelove is. You put so much heart into your videos, it isn't under appreciated, believe me. Thank you for exposing me to such a brilliant director. Great work, Breadsword. Keep it up, proud of you!
Damn, I had forgotten what shivers feel like. You had me physically transfixed a couple of times there, riveting. I remember seeing the film in a cinema during one of the first ever anime festivals in my backwater country, back in a very tender age, lots of callused over feels there. Thank you for shaking all that up and sharing this mesmerizingly awesome perspective.
Guys, our boy needs to do this full time. Link in the description.
I had to pause this 25 minutes in to bawl. I really wish I could express how much this series means to me, but said simply, you're doing amazing work. Thank you.
Your videos , honestly make me feel great emotions, something nostalgic, sad and happy. I really love your videos, keep up the phenomenal work.
The beauty of your work as made me cry way too many times...
Great job man... keep it up! ;)
Btw, the love on this comment section is just heartwarming. A lot of genuinely interesting comments :)
I have never watched the films that this channel is commenting on. However, I feel like the writing and delivering of the video just made me really appreciate the beauty of these films and I haven't even watched more than just the little clips that are shown here.
I hope they convince you to watch them yourself! I did just that and it was an amazing experience
I totally love your videos involving Satoshi Kon, he's been my favorite director in animation for while now, the great thing about this is that with your videos I keep rediscovering why I love his work.
Also you remind me to dig deeper into the small details, those are the ones that make the final piece shine.
Your love letter to Satoshi kon's work is great and brings me to tears, I hope one day I can express my love for the arts with the same amount of passion that you have.
Thank you for sharing your love and please don't ever stop.
PS. English is not my primary lenguage, sorry for any mistakes or weird expressions
Beautiful. I teared up quite a bit at your wonderfully worded description. This is an amazing video. Thank you.
BREADSWORD our prometheus! what fire of knowledge do you bring to us mortals today?
LOVE THE PROMETHEUS JOKE THANK YOU FOR THIS GENUINELY ONE OF MY FAVORITE COMMENTS
Wow. This is a beautiful video. I almost cried my eyes out towards the end. Thank you for bringing that awareness. We are quick to forget that atrocities still occur, and that love (or the pursuit of it) is still very much necessary.
(Im from the Netherlands no good English). For now i have watched every single video that you made. And every time i watched it(except for treasure planet because that movie is one of my favorites) i realize new toughts that had never prevoked me. Watching these video's. The way you explain your perception's its made of little nods to diffrent directors. The music you use in your'r videos are not bij accident. The scenes you show are very perticular. I keep coming back here for the maximum effort you put in to you'r video's and i thank you for that. You not only gave me new insight in film. You gave me a new way of comprehading and seeing a movie that i never tought of before.