I love that you took time to thank god and actually noticed that he helped you and didn't just continue on with ur life without thanking God!! AMAZING video!! I'm so glad ur feeling better!!
This story was so motivational! I am struggling with the same thing you were/ are dealing with. I am having so many days where I relapse, and I really just needed to hear that I'm am loved by God and he wants so much more from me than this... Thank you so much, yo are so brave for making this video! Xoxo
Thank you for sharing so much of your personal experiences, I went through similar struggles and I'm still struggling...I admire your strenght to fight through this! lots of love xx
This made me cry, really spoke to me on a personal level. You told such a heartbreaking but triumphant story. You're a beautiful young lady and your faith is strong. All the best for the future.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Its so inspiring to see the strength God has given you! Admitting let alone talking about having an eating disorder is so very hard, your video has really helped me! Thank you and God bless!
I have been looking for this video for the longest. I remember watching this when I was 17, sometime during my Sophomore year of high school. This brings tears to me eyes... I hope you’re doing well! 💗
Hey I just wanted to say your story is heartbreaking I hope you're doing better now hun!! Or at least feel happy in the way you are now :) I completely relate to the video ,as previously suffering from anorexia and later developing into a binge eating disorder and everything is all just a little messed up right now but you're video has inspired me and made me feel like recovering is possible and not so evil :) thankyou for sharing your life online like this, I know it must be hard but I defiantly appreciate it :) thankyou so much I hope you're okay xx
I just want 2 say thank you 4 being brave and 4 sharing your story it cant have been easy to make this video so thank you. Im glad to know your doing better I hope you recover fully one day soon.
You have such a beautiful personality, and let me tell you that you are a gorgeous person, both inside AND out. I really hope things work out for the absolute best in your life, and I hope my own and others' words of encouragement really help in your recovery.
I have heard story after story about struggling with eds but you're first that I've found that turned to God for help. And that's what helped me and so thank you so much for helping me I'm praying for you
I'm an atheist too and only after seeing your video did I truly truly come to realize the importance of religion, especially to people to have lost faith in everything else.
I love how you used pictures in your video. it's not that telling the story wasn't enough, it just stuck more with the visuals you used. it's a well done video and I'm happy you lived past it. I heard a raunchy comedian poke fun at the whole idea of anorexia saying (in a whiny tone) "I don't wanna eat" and it was heartbreaking to see how lightly people take this. it's not a joke and it's not about just not eating, as you know. I dealt with my own struggle with anxiety and depression and simply not thinking about eating. I've always been a loner too, I'm very restrictive of my food intake, I feel weird eating around others, sometimes I binge eat but don't purge and it's usually the times I remember that I've forgotten to eat. I get dizzy at work some times and a couple time, they did send me home because I looked awful. I'd blame the heat, the weather, my allergies, etc. I never came clean to my boss or anyone else I work with. I round house kicked a support beam at my house in bare feet just to have a reason to not take kickboxing anymore, working out took too much energy. I commented on another video of yours before telling a little bit about my cousin and her failed struggles but I didn't mention how alike we are. I'm not quite where she was, the last time I weighed myself, I was 125lbs (or 56.7 kg) at 5'7 (or 170.18 cm) but I do have to take into account that muscle weighs more than fat and I do work out. it's a scary thing but it definitely didn't just come from not wanting food. also, as a few others who have commented are, I am an atheist. that only means that I don't believe in a deity, I'm not an evil person hell bent on destroying the livelihood of others. I understand that for believers, it offers a form of motivation and a feeling of not being alone in everything during recovery. what scared me "straight" from the past of neglecting to take care of myself is all the confirmed health concerns it causes and I really don't want my family to grieve me as they (and myself) all grieved over my cousin who couldn't get herself better, no matter what she tried. so there's a little story to share with UA-cam and maybe if others struggling can see as many life stories of others they can relate to, it'll help them to heal. it's why I've been looking up videos like this one. sorry this was so long, I just had a lot to say and it felt relevant. have a great day. UA-cam users 😎😊
It sounds exactly like the same problem i had when I was a teenager. I still to this day have problems with binge eating, at 26. I do not know how to diet without starving myself... I didnt want to believe it when I was younger, but with time I have realized I had a problem. It is so hard still to this day being healthy. Thank you for this video.
Thank you for sharing, your def not alone with binge eating. There are multiple ways to stop it, though not always easy to implement :S Was watching some of your vlogs, so excited that you have your own son!! I've been infertile for 7 years, so maybe hope for me too ;)
Wow I'm so glad I just saw this. Thank you for sharing! You're truly a beautiful person inside and out. I just recently realized that I honestly don't know how to eat. It seems silly. I had a baby 7 months ago and was trying to eat healthy and exercise to gain muscle and I haven't noticed how much weight I've lost. Everyone keeps telling me I've lost a lot of weight and that i look like im on drugs (which im not) but I don't see it because I keep telling myself that I'm "eating". And i noticed ive been very distant, i dont have any friends right now. I went into treatment once 3 years ago and it's weird because I thought I was fine but now idk. I honestly cant see it and i wish i could put on a magic pair of glasses that can see past the lies haha. But thank you for sharing, you're awesome! I'm so glad you shared about how God has helped you through this. I believe the only cure is through God. :)
I'm 15 and have had Anorexia since i was 13 years old. It came to the point where i couldn't walk, talk or even move. I constantly felt dizzy and struggled to open my eyes but i forced myself to so that it looked like i was fine. I constantly forced myself to do hours of exercise even when i was about to faint. Over 4 months, i lost 12 kilos and wasnt prepared to stop. I got admitted into a hospital and still refused that i had an eating disorder. I was in there for months and got out last year, i started eating again and being happy but then it has gone downhill from there. I am losing weight every week, chucking out food and self harming. I find it remarkable how you seem so strong through a horrible time, but stay strong gorg xx
It's a shame how young you were when it started. I'm twenty years old and I've had bulimia for 3 years. I know deep in my heart this is no way to live. Habits that have been learned can fortunately be unlearned and new, healthier habits can take its place. Keep your head up
Alexandra Tillmann i know how horrific it must be for you, it really is hard. It's amazing that you have that outlook on it now though, aww thank you, keep your head up too
Thank you for sharing Alexandria. Sorry you struggled for so long. The throwing up turns into a viscous cycle, it can be hard to break such a ingrained habit. Though of course possible as you know. I hope you get through this soon, even if it's been so long having it, I believe one day you will be able to get to a place where you don't struggle with it anymore. It's a long healing process but so so worth it! Take care of yourself
I’m Struggling but you talking about days of freedom and more Days of Freedom. This is helpful. For last while saying each day I choose to walk on water but now get this sense I am walking on Water but I’ve got arm bands on and terrified to let go of them.
I really like the way you made this video. It is awesome that you had your mom there for you. I went through something similar when I was a teenager and nobody really understood that it was a control thing
Yeah I was lucky my mom visited me, probably the closest we had been, though she thought I had a serious physical illness not an ED, once I became a binge-eater/bulimic she wanted nothing to do with me. It's hard for others to understand how controlling it is. I hope you are in a better place now
Yeah it was difficult for my mom to understand a lot of it. She obsessed over what I was doing or not doing- trying to follow me to the bathroom all the time, etc. But once she backed off and let me heal things got better. It has been about 10 years since my ED and as you know it's a daily struggle. But the good news is we have ways to cope with stress in a different way. : )
Waaah, this made me cry. Thank you for sharing your inspiring story even though it must have been really hard to do. I'm truly glad you are well. God bless ♡♡♡
Sorry to hear your struggling, it's extremely hard. His love for His children is unconditional with or without E.D. but ofcourse He wants us free and filled with joy/love/life/His power, not trapped in E.D. You will get through this :) it's the little changes that make big progress xx
You are so beautiful and inspiring. I had an eating disorder about two years ago that no one knew about because I would wear big clothes. I would puke up food after I ate. After I realized I gained 30lbs and I'm not 185lbs and I'm so happy with myself! You are amazing!!
Your story is just wow. I'm so glad you've made it this far, you are an amazing person. I'm happy that your faith is strong, God will lead you to great places because you are a great person.
You're so inspiring :') I literally teared while watching:) working towards getting better without relapse too God bless and stay strong Thank you for your video
I think you're really strong and I'm proud of you. 'Cause eating disorders are so hard to overcome. I have BED and I feel hopeless all the time; but you inspired me. Thank you! And please check out your e-mails, I need your answer.
PEACE'S EATING DISORDER VLOG Hello my dear! Thank you and same to you, I'm here if you need a chat, thank you for being open and sharing your journey, you've been/going through a lot but you will come out stronger overtime. Sending some love ;)
There is power in prayer! You are an amazing girl. This video meant so much to me. Made me tear up because i have been dealing with the exact same thing. Thank you, thank you! I can only pray that the Lord will help me with this issue. I am so unhappy with where I'm at right now and I don't want food to take over my life.
+Rebekah VanDusen Thank you Rebekah, sorry so late checking my messages! I am so sorry to hear you struggled so much :( That is true, so much power in prayer. How are you doing now?
I'm an atheist, so I find some of this a little difficult. However, whatever it was that gave you strength, I hope it continues to burn brightly in you. I wish you well for the future, lots of happiness, and continued health. All the very best.
Oh wow!! :(, I used to be fat and bullied, and my dad wouldn't even let me eat at the dinner table. Your video has blessed me so much. I'm honestly tearing up!!! God bless you so much!!!
you should go to 12 step meetings. they have meetings for all eating disorders just like addictions. its all inter-related. thanks for sharing. the journaling about your awareness of your anger is a great idea. sharing is caring
Youre beautiful. I love your vid and I just wanna tell you that what matters is you are spiritually, physically, and mentally healthy. God bless you always :) keep up the good work!
I have selective eating disorder, so I kind of know how it feels ... I get terrified of food to. The point where just thinking about eating a certain food sends me into a panic attack. I can only eat about 7 things ... Asking me to try a new food is like asking me. To jump off a cliff ... I wish I wasn't the way I was, but I was born with this condition.
KinzelRox Thank you for sharing and being open about your struggles Kinzel, that is hard:( Have you people close to you that are supportive and understanding? *hugs* to you
+IIISparta x After you sweetie....hahaha kisses! Don't be rude. I get that you can feel tough hiding behind a keyboard in a safe locked room, but people like you are a part of the problem. Just bcuz it's the Internet & you can hide in anonymity doesn't mean you can be a bully. It just shows your own insecurity. Why are you even here if you're just trying to pick on ppl? Learn some etiquette & stop being a bully, you don't know what their story is.
+IIISparta x Granted, some ppl do it for attention, but not all. While the majority seem to be white girls from well to do families, there are all different types & genders, not just wealthy white girls. Some ppl have ulcers & actual stomach problems that make it impossible to eat. I practically lived on milk & started doing drugs 15 yrs ago bcuz it helped me eat. I've never been one to complain either & never sought help bcuz I can do it myself. I won't go to a hospital for anything less than a serious gunshot (I've pulled a bullet out of my leg so it doesn't count as serious). The point is, unless you personally know whether or not it's serious, don't be rude. Count yourself lucky to not have serious problems, physical, mental or otherwise, unless you're like me & just suffer in silence bcuz being resigned to existence means we just don't give a f*** whether we live or die. That isn't normal. Most humans need interaction, conflict, drama, anything to feel accepted, if they have seemingly perfect lives maybe there's pressure to live up to that standard. We don't know. I live on the streets & I've eaten out of trash cans, I wouldn't know what it's like to have all that pressure to succeed in school & be perfect. I've had ppl say to me "I wish I lived in an RV on the streets & played guitar & write songs all day", & I ask why, & they say they're tired of the pressure to excel, become rich & successful, to please their family, significant other, basically living for everyone else. When some ppl feel they don't have control in their own lives, restricting food is a sense of control. There are so many different reasons & you can't generalize all eating disorders as "just eat something", each case can be different. Just bcuz heroin works for me doesn't mean it will for everyone else. Some ppl just need acceptance, to know that they don't have to be the best at everything & that s*** happens, its ok to just do what you can & not what everyone else wants of you. Someday, if you ever have a problem & someone says to you "get over it & man up", just remember how you treated others who had a problem that you didn't understand. While I may not understand starving on purpose to become thin, I understand not being able to eat bcuz of stomach problems (which I fixed myself by using dope). Everyone's got different problems that aren't going to apply to everyone else & who are any of us to judge how serious the problem is? If I have a higher threshold for pain than is normal, is it right of me to judge how much pain someone of a lesser threshold is experiencing? No, it's not, therefore who is anyone to judge? Maybe someone with very similar parameters, but even so, there are always variables involved. Unless you're just a bully, maybe try to be a little more understanding that everyone's different even in generalizations & stereotypes bcuz there's always exceptions in all walks of life. You never know, maybe one of these days if you're having a hard time, someone might be understanding for you rather than a selfish bully. Let girls know they look good with curves. They just need self esteem. Just one little comment about weight or fat in a negative manner can set them off. Girls are sensitive about that stuff, why do you think they go through all this tortuous beauty stuff? It's probably really hard to be a chick in this modern culture. I have no idea.
@@knutelindstrom3716 I know this is a very late reply (only just watched this video today), but I just wanted to thank you for sharing your comment. You seem to have a lot of insight, wisdom & empathy. As someone who had a severe eating disorder for years, I can also say you are right about it being about control. Usually due to chaotic or traumatic experiences (eg I grew up in an abusive & highly controlling cult, on top of other traumas I won't go into). I know others suffer with various traumas & difficulties too; I think part of my problem is that I blamed myself for everything & bottled up all my pain inside. And letting the external pressures build up to a level where I felt there was no escape. Self starvation feels like the only thing to have a feeling of free will/control (until it takes over), & also gives a person a high (for a time at least). Then, once someone has had an ED for long enough they forget who they are. To overcome the eating disorder feels like it's killing the only part of you that still exists. It becomes a living hell you feel trapped in. If you feel incapable of life anyway, it can be hard to fight the very thing that shuts you off from it all. It is worth the fight though of course. Life is full of pain yes, but it is also a gift & an opportunity to connect with & love those around us. I myself am grateful for so much & for the opportunity to keep striving, growing, learning, giving & receiving. To love others unconditionally. A long ass comment haha, but anyway thank you for sharing your thoughts & heart. You are doing it tough & yet it shows what gifts you still give so freely 😊👌
wonderful, thank you so much for this video. (: and the people who don't know much about ED, please pay attention. talking about it, is like talking about your deepest, darkest and saddest secret of your soul. I wish you all the best, take care. xoxo
Abuse does hurt, its so wrong :(. Take care of yourself Bunny, you never deserved what you went through. Thanks for commenting! Sending much love to you x
I love hearing your story! I'm also vlogging and sharing my recovery from my eating disorder as well on my channel! Another person supporting you along the way :)
Such an amazing story!! Even though I believe in another religion, it really doesn't matter as long as we have the concept of faith and God. I was actually inspired to gain my strength from God from your video, after I have completely given up on my weight recovery journey. So thank you for that I will give it a try :') I'm defiantly subscribing!
You seem you're doing great , i really need help i'm struggling with so many addictions that i just can't stand being me anymore . Sometimes i wanna give up , sometimes i don't . . I don't know what the hell i've been doing with my life , i'm feeling that i've got to a point without reverse , i can't think properly , but i still have faith that someone somewhere would be able to help me .
after 7 years of mental health struggle, I have finally accepted that a god does not exist. I would pray and pray for him to help, and then I realized he wasn't just not listening to my cries for help, he wasn't even there to begin with
Incredibly inspiring. Being bulimic, it was nice to see the story through another person's perspective. Despite my silly profile picture, I am telling you god bless with the most serious tone I can give! Thanks for this video :)
hehe! Aw thanks, I accept "God bless" in a cheery tone too ;) Sorry that you are struggling, grrr Bulimia! I hope you recover fully one day, you have alot to offer to the world as a person (and your vids are entertaining too!)
My weight mysteriously dropped to 31kg (and I DO eat), and now I'm too weak to even shower. Been trying to gain for 10 months, with no results, I just get weaker, and am totally housebound
God bless you! You are NOT your eating disorder. You are a child of the most High God. Do not speak any negativity over yourself. You will overcome in Jesus' Name!
I know it should be sad, but it's actuallyy a lovely story lol I'm somehow going through the same thing, I'm an 18 y.o man, who's 1m82 (5"11) an weighs 117lb, but his family is stupid enough to think that it's normal.. I'm also going through a mood disorder but it doesn't seem related to that (or maybe it is :o) so I'm going through this kiiind of alone lol just wish me luck , for my weight at least :D
+ShadowXg0z Hi! Sorry for only seeing this now. I hope you are doing better, you deserve to be anyway. Mood disorder can sometimes be related to eating disorders for sure. Take care of yourself ShadowXg0z
Don't ever think that you aren't capable of overcoming it yourself. I'm sorry, I'm sure you were trying to be subtle, but I just think Religion, at least for me, was part of the problem. Because then it's the feeling of hopelessness that the one being that's meant to be looking after me isn't. He let me get to the state I'm in, saw me killing myself and didn't do a damn thing about it. Once I turned to myself, made it all my doing, I was able to see the value in life from a more realistic perspective. I'm very proud of you though for making this video
Hey Hairyfrankfurt (Kate), I'm sorry you have gone through such painful/hopeless times in your life. *hugs*. I was also hurt alot by religion and damaging perceptions of who god is. Keep finding worth and value in your life, you seem like such an encouraging person from your videos, thats a real gift and I love how your want to empowers others. Don't give up, your inspiring-and you are loved. P.S. I seriously want your accent ;) swap?! x
I'm not too sure what to say, but God is very complex. In what seems very peculiar to us to why he is so secluded from our lives, we must still think to why He even has us in existence anyway. It is hard to comprehend for everyone, but he doesn't rely on what we consider logistics. The problems that we have today is what may make us find ourselves in the future. I could never leave God's side, as crazy as it sounds.
Everyone says i have an ED but i deny it bc im really not sure if you would call mine that. I have 2 different stages i go back and forth from. 1 is i will go days without eating anything and then other days i would eat alot but vomit right away is that considered an eating disorder if so what's it called
Hi just saw your vid while looking up stuff about selective eating disorder. I really hope you're doing well, and thanks so much for sharing your story! Have you found out anything more specific about what was causing the initial issue? Because you mentioned that you were eating but still losing weight, and the doctors kept thinking it was anorexia. This sounded a lot like this case study I read about a woman with celiac disease, so I'm wondering if your doctors were able to find anything physical involved. Anyways sorry if I sound like some internet stranger trying to provide medical advice because obviously you know better than I do. Just hoping that you're doing well and had found some more answers since you last posted this. :)
+MrCatboy Funny, I swore it was celiac or something like Crohns etc but they found nothing. Now when I look back it was obviously because I was getting enough calories and exercising too much for my age and metabolism, I just didn't want to admit to myself that I could be responsible for my own sickness. I am pretty much recovered now at least :)
Beautiful words, I believe too that God has gone through the pain to set me free. I have had trouble with another sin for years now .. it truly haunts me. I have to trust God that he can save me.
even though i am extremly atheist, this is the only thing i have every watched that hasnt made me flinch and im so glad that you found something that pulled you through thats fab, maybe God was the healthy you, trying to reach out to sick you?
This was so lovely
I love that you took time to thank god and actually noticed that he helped you and didn't just continue on with ur life without thanking God!! AMAZING video!! I'm so glad ur feeling better!!
Ur story literally just makes me feel so happy thank for uploading it ur a real star
This story was so motivational! I am struggling with the same thing you were/ are dealing with. I am having so many days where I relapse, and I really just needed to hear that I'm am loved by God and he wants so much more from me than this... Thank you so much, yo are so brave for making this video! Xoxo
Thank you for sharing so much of your personal experiences, I went through similar struggles and I'm still struggling...I admire your strenght to fight through this! lots of love xx
Thank you Lis, I just replied to your email :) x
This brought me to tears. Your faith and strength is so inspiring.
This made me cry, really spoke to me on a personal level. You told such a heartbreaking but triumphant story. You're a beautiful young lady and your faith is strong. All the best for the future.
Rebecca Young Thank you so much Rebecca for sharing that and for your kind words! Sending much love to you and best wishes for your future too :)
You give so much hope & inspiration to those of us suffering & recovering. Thank you for being so strong & sharing this. I hope you are doing well.
Hey Kristin! Thank you for commenting. Stay strong my dear and take good care of yourself, even when it's hard to.
Thank you you so much. Positive affirmation & strength go a long way. Xo
Thank you for sharing this, you make me want to have faith and truly believe things get better a long the way.
Thank you again.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Its so inspiring to see the strength God has given you! Admitting let alone talking about having an eating disorder is so very hard, your video has really helped me! Thank you and God bless!
Kelly Cohernour Oh Kelly, I just noticed I had not replied, Thank you for your kind comment, it is sweet of you! May God bless you too
I have been looking for this video for the longest. I remember watching this when I was 17, sometime during my Sophomore year of high school. This brings tears to me eyes... I hope you’re doing well! 💗
Hey I just wanted to say your story is heartbreaking I hope you're doing better now hun!! Or at least feel happy in the way you are now :) I completely relate to the video ,as previously suffering from anorexia and later developing into a binge eating disorder and everything is all just a little messed up right now but you're video has inspired me and made me feel like recovering is possible and not so evil :) thankyou for sharing your life online like this, I know it must be hard but I defiantly appreciate it :) thankyou so much I hope you're okay xx
I just want 2 say thank you 4 being brave and 4 sharing your story it cant have been easy to make this video so thank you. Im glad to know your doing better I hope you recover fully one day soon.
Thank you Susan, take care my dear!
You have such a beautiful personality, and let me tell you that you are a gorgeous person, both inside AND out. I really hope things work out for the absolute best in your life, and I hope my own and others' words of encouragement really help in your recovery.
Anna, your such an encouraging person. I hope you speak just as encouraging words to yourself as you did to me. Take care of yourself my dear :) xx
I have heard story after story about struggling with eds but you're first that I've found that turned to God for help. And that's what helped me and so thank you so much for helping me I'm praying for you
You are an amazing and beautiful person and I'm so glad your better now! I will pray that you stay healthy for the rest of your life! :)
Your amazing, thank you! :)
I'm an atheist and some of it is a bit hard for me to be engaged in because of it, but you did a great job on this video. Xoxo, Emily
Thanks Emily, your sweet :) xx
I'm an atheist too and only after seeing your video did I truly truly come to realize the importance of religion, especially to people to have lost faith in everything else.
Crazily Dani You're*
Aaliyah Matthews Haha this is great😂😋
Simmer Princess im an atheist but I support anyone following the path that makes them happy.
I love how you used pictures in your video. it's not that telling the story wasn't enough, it just stuck more with the visuals you used. it's a well done video and I'm happy you lived past it. I heard a raunchy comedian poke fun at the whole idea of anorexia saying (in a whiny tone) "I don't wanna eat" and it was heartbreaking to see how lightly people take this. it's not a joke and it's not about just not eating, as you know. I dealt with my own struggle with anxiety and depression and simply not thinking about eating. I've always been a loner too, I'm very restrictive of my food intake, I feel weird eating around others, sometimes I binge eat but don't purge and it's usually the times I remember that I've forgotten to eat. I get dizzy at work some times and a couple time, they did send me home because I looked awful. I'd blame the heat, the weather, my allergies, etc. I never came clean to my boss or anyone else I work with. I round house kicked a support beam at my house in bare feet just to have a reason to not take kickboxing anymore, working out took too much energy. I commented on another video of yours before telling a little bit about my cousin and her failed struggles but I didn't mention how alike we are. I'm not quite where she was, the last time I weighed myself, I was 125lbs (or 56.7 kg) at 5'7 (or 170.18 cm) but I do have to take into account that muscle weighs more than fat and I do work out. it's a scary thing but it definitely didn't just come from not wanting food.
also, as a few others who have commented are, I am an atheist. that only means that I don't believe in a deity, I'm not an evil person hell bent on destroying the livelihood of others. I understand that for believers, it offers a form of motivation and a feeling of not being alone in everything during recovery. what scared me "straight" from the past of neglecting to take care of myself is all the confirmed health concerns it causes and I really don't want my family to grieve me as they (and myself) all grieved over my cousin who couldn't get herself better, no matter what she tried. so there's a little story to share with UA-cam and maybe if others struggling can see as many life stories of others they can relate to, it'll help them to heal. it's why I've been looking up videos like this one.
sorry this was so long, I just had a lot to say and it felt relevant. have a great day. UA-cam users 😎😊
It sounds exactly like the same problem i had when I was a teenager. I still to this day have problems with binge eating, at 26. I do not know how to diet without starving myself... I didnt want to believe it when I was younger, but with time I have realized I had a problem. It is so hard still to this day being healthy. Thank you for this video.
Thank you for sharing, your def not alone with binge eating. There are multiple ways to stop it, though not always easy to implement :S Was watching some of your vlogs, so excited that you have your own son!! I've been infertile for 7 years, so maybe hope for me too ;)
crazilyloved Yes, never lose hope. I almost did. If you ever need to talk to anyone about it feel free to message me. :)
Angela ProudMommy Thanks Angela :)
Wow I'm so glad I just saw this. Thank you for sharing! You're truly a beautiful person inside and out. I just recently realized that I honestly don't know how to eat. It seems silly. I had a baby 7 months ago and was trying to eat healthy and exercise to gain muscle and I haven't noticed how much weight I've lost. Everyone keeps telling me I've lost a lot of weight and that i look like im on drugs (which im not) but I don't see it because I keep telling myself that I'm "eating". And i noticed ive been very distant, i dont have any friends right now. I went into treatment once 3 years ago and it's weird because I thought I was fine but now idk. I honestly cant see it and i wish i could put on a magic pair of glasses that can see past the lies haha. But thank you for sharing, you're awesome! I'm so glad you shared about how God has helped you through this. I believe the only cure is through God. :)
this is truly amazing! Im soo happy for you this is beautiful you are so strong
Awww thank you Kalei, your so sweet! x
I cried; I love this video. Extremely inspiring
Thank you for taking time to comment Essence Davis and for your encouragement! x
I'm 15 and have had Anorexia since i was 13 years old. It came to the point where i couldn't walk, talk or even move. I constantly felt dizzy and struggled to open my eyes but i forced myself to so that it looked like i was fine. I constantly forced myself to do hours of exercise even when i was about to faint. Over 4 months, i lost 12 kilos and wasnt prepared to stop. I got admitted into a hospital and still refused that i had an eating disorder. I was in there for months and got out last year, i started eating again and being happy but then it has gone downhill from there. I am losing weight every week, chucking out food and self harming. I find it remarkable how you seem so strong through a horrible time, but stay strong gorg xx
It's a shame how young you were when it started. I'm twenty years old and I've had bulimia for 3 years. I know deep in my heart this is no way to live. Habits that have been learned can fortunately be unlearned and new, healthier habits can take its place. Keep your head up
Alexandra Tillmann i know how horrific it must be for you, it really is hard. It's amazing that you have that outlook on it now though, aww thank you, keep your head up too
such a beautiful video! It made me cry. Thanks for sharing your story and letting me know that I'm not alone
Your def not alone, take care of yourself :)
This is absolutely amazing! I have struggled with throwing up for 5 years now.... I love this and it really helped thank you!
Thank you for sharing Alexandria. Sorry you struggled for so long. The throwing up turns into a viscous cycle, it can be hard to break such a ingrained habit. Though of course possible as you know. I hope you get through this soon, even if it's been so long having it, I believe one day you will be able to get to a place where you don't struggle with it anymore. It's a long healing process but so so worth it! Take care of yourself
I’m Struggling but you talking about days of freedom and more
Days of Freedom. This is helpful. For last while saying each day I choose to walk on water but now get this sense
I am walking on Water but I’ve got arm bands on and terrified to let go of them.
I really like the way you made this video. It is awesome that you had your mom there for you. I went through something similar when I was a teenager and nobody really understood that it was a control thing
Yeah I was lucky my mom visited me, probably the closest we had been, though she thought I had a serious physical illness not an ED, once I became a binge-eater/bulimic she wanted nothing to do with me. It's hard for others to understand how controlling it is. I hope you are in a better place now
Yeah it was difficult for my mom to understand a lot of it. She obsessed over what I was doing or not doing- trying to follow me to the bathroom all the time, etc. But once she backed off and let me heal things got better. It has been about 10 years since my ED and as you know it's a daily struggle. But the good news is we have ways to cope with stress in a different way. : )
Waaah, this made me cry. Thank you for sharing your inspiring story even though it must have been really hard to do. I'm truly glad you are well. God bless ♡♡♡
Aw thank you for kinds words quitedapper :) Your lovely and loved!
Your story is so beautiful! Will be praying for you! Stay strong!!
Thank you Emma for your encouragement!
I love this video!! You tell this part of your story beautifully. My faith has given me strength too. Thank you for sharing!
Thank you Raganmae, just watched a few of your videos, thank you for sharing your continuous journey :)
Wow Ragan! I watch your videos, funny to see you here!
Your story is so strong! And you're really pretty 😊
Ive been struggling with an eating disorder and ive been trying to see where God is in all this and your video really encouraged me
Sorry to hear your struggling, it's extremely hard. His love for His children is unconditional with or without E.D. but ofcourse He wants us free and filled with joy/love/life/His power, not trapped in E.D. You will get through this :) it's the little changes that make big progress xx
You are so beautiful and inspiring. I had an eating disorder about two years ago that no one knew about because I would wear big clothes. I would puke up food after I ate. After I realized I gained 30lbs and I'm not 185lbs and I'm so happy with myself! You are amazing!!
Thank you Lexie, your a star! Glad you a happier, be kind to yourself ;)
Your story is just wow. I'm so glad you've made it this far, you are an amazing person. I'm happy that your faith is strong, God will lead you to great places because you are a great person.
Val, you are super encouraging, thank you! You are so loved, wanted and treasured by Him always
God freed me, too! Thank you Dani. Glory to God because He is the ONLY One that can restore you.
This video is very touching! I'm glad you're doing better :)
This is such an amazing story. Loved it.
Stephanie M Aw thank you Stephanie for your uplifting comment :)
You're so inspiring :') I literally teared while watching:) working towards getting better without relapse too
God bless and stay strong
Thank you for your video
I think you're really strong and I'm proud of you. 'Cause eating disorders are so hard to overcome. I have BED and I feel hopeless all the time; but you inspired me. Thank you! And please check out your e-mails, I need your answer.
Thank you for this video! I am currently battling Anorexia and this was encouraging. We are here to support you!
PEACE'S EATING DISORDER VLOG Hello my dear! Thank you and same to you, I'm here if you need a chat, thank you for being open and sharing your journey, you've been/going through a lot but you will come out stronger overtime. Sending some love ;)
you are so incredibly beautiful. you should be so proud of yourself, love
Thanks for sharing this I will kept this forever "It doesn't have to consume you forever but you've been created for so much more"
Yeah do! It's for you :)
There is power in prayer! You are an amazing girl. This video meant so much to me. Made me tear up because i have been dealing with the exact same thing. Thank you, thank you! I can only pray that the Lord will help me with this issue. I am so unhappy with where I'm at right now and I don't want food to take over my life.
lmfao religious preachers
+Rebekah VanDusen Thank you Rebekah, sorry so late checking my messages! I am so sorry to hear you struggled so much :( That is true, so much power in prayer. How are you doing now?
I am still struggling...in fact I gave into yet another binge today. I feel like I am improving but its so hard to overcome. :,(
I'm an atheist, so I find some of this a little difficult. However, whatever it was that gave you strength, I hope it continues to burn brightly in you. I wish you well for the future, lots of happiness, and continued health. All the very best.
Thank you WhackoMacko, you're a very respectful and encouraging person. Same to you. Take good care.
Oh wow!! :(, I used to be fat and bullied, and my dad wouldn't even let me eat at the dinner table. Your video has blessed me so much. I'm honestly tearing up!!! God bless you so much!!!
I broke down in tears when you said you heard a voice that said "this is why I died for you"
Same 😢😢😢
Wow! I cried at the part where you were speaking about what God told you! SO inspirational :O
+Lolo Ente Love to you Lolo xx
I'm so happy for you. :) Your video probably helped inspire a lot of people.
Thanks for comment Gabrielle, take care :)
crazilyloved Thank you. Same goes for you. :)
Thank you so much for sharing your story! Amazing testimony
Thank you Jaimi! Xx
Just keep going and remember-- "the sun must set to rise"--Coldplay
Well done, stay strong, and you are truly inspirational, I wish the best for you, stay healthy, and don't give up 💕
Aw thank you Stormie (nice name!), you take care :)
you should go to 12 step meetings. they have meetings for all eating disorders just like addictions. its all inter-related. thanks for sharing. the journaling about your awareness of your anger is a great idea. sharing is caring
so happy for you (now), this is so inspiring
+elli aldrich Thank you Elli
Wow!!! thank you so much for sharing your story! may you experience more and more freedom...
Thank you Erika, same to you ;)
That's a sad story. Id feel like I've lost my life if that happens to me!
Thank you for sharing, you are very strong! I struggle myself, and it is really hard :(
Youre beautiful. I love your vid and I just wanna tell you that what matters is you are spiritually, physically, and mentally healthy. God bless you always :) keep up the good work!
Thank you Mykee, God bless you too :D take care
I have selective eating disorder, so I kind of know how it feels ... I get terrified of food to. The point where just thinking about eating a certain food sends me into a panic attack. I can only eat about 7 things ... Asking me to try a new food is like asking me. To jump off a cliff ... I wish I wasn't the way I was, but I was born with this condition.
KinzelRox Thank you for sharing and being open about your struggles Kinzel, that is hard:( Have you people close to you that are supportive and understanding? *hugs* to you
+IIISparta x After you sweetie....hahaha kisses!
Don't be rude. I get that you can feel tough hiding behind a keyboard in a safe locked room, but people like you are a part of the problem. Just bcuz it's the Internet & you can hide in anonymity doesn't mean you can be a bully. It just shows your own insecurity. Why are you even here if you're just trying to pick on ppl? Learn some etiquette & stop being a bully, you don't know what their story is.
+IIISparta x Granted, some ppl do it for attention, but not all. While the majority seem to be white girls from well to do families, there are all different types & genders, not just wealthy white girls. Some ppl have ulcers & actual stomach problems that make it impossible to eat. I practically lived on milk & started doing drugs 15 yrs ago bcuz it helped me eat. I've never been one to complain either & never sought help bcuz I can do it myself. I won't go to a hospital for anything less than a serious gunshot (I've pulled a bullet out of my leg so it doesn't count as serious). The point is, unless you personally know whether or not it's serious, don't be rude. Count yourself lucky to not have serious problems, physical, mental or otherwise, unless you're like me & just suffer in silence bcuz being resigned to existence means we just don't give a f*** whether we live or die. That isn't normal. Most humans need interaction, conflict, drama, anything to feel accepted, if they have seemingly perfect lives maybe there's pressure to live up to that standard. We don't know. I live on the streets & I've eaten out of trash cans, I wouldn't know what it's like to have all that pressure to succeed in school & be perfect. I've had ppl say to me "I wish I lived in an RV on the streets & played guitar & write songs all day", & I ask why, & they say they're tired of the pressure to excel, become rich & successful, to please their family, significant other, basically living for everyone else. When some ppl feel they don't have control in their own lives, restricting food is a sense of control. There are so many different reasons & you can't generalize all eating disorders as "just eat something", each case can be different. Just bcuz heroin works for me doesn't mean it will for everyone else. Some ppl just need acceptance, to know that they don't have to be the best at everything & that s*** happens, its ok to just do what you can & not what everyone else wants of you. Someday, if you ever have a problem & someone says to you "get over it & man up", just remember how you treated others who had a problem that you didn't understand. While I may not understand starving on purpose to become thin, I understand not being able to eat bcuz of stomach problems (which I fixed myself by using dope). Everyone's got different problems that aren't going to apply to everyone else & who are any of us to judge how serious the problem is? If I have a higher threshold for pain than is normal, is it right of me to judge how much pain someone of a lesser threshold is experiencing? No, it's not, therefore who is anyone to judge? Maybe someone with very similar parameters, but even so, there are always variables involved. Unless you're just a bully, maybe try to be a little more understanding that everyone's different even in generalizations & stereotypes bcuz there's always exceptions in all walks of life. You never know, maybe one of these days if you're having a hard time, someone might be understanding for you rather than a selfish bully. Let girls know they look good with curves. They just need self esteem. Just one little comment about weight or fat in a negative manner can set them off. Girls are sensitive about that stuff, why do you think they go through all this tortuous beauty stuff? It's probably really hard to be a chick in this modern culture. I have no idea.
@@knutelindstrom3716 I know this is a very late reply (only just watched this video today), but I just wanted to thank you for sharing your comment. You seem to have a lot of insight, wisdom & empathy.
As someone who had a severe eating disorder for years, I can also say you are right about it being about control. Usually due to chaotic or traumatic experiences (eg I grew up in an abusive & highly controlling cult, on top of other traumas I won't go into). I know others suffer with various traumas & difficulties too; I think part of my problem is that I blamed myself for everything & bottled up all my pain inside. And letting the external pressures build up to a level where I felt there was no escape. Self starvation feels like the only thing to have a feeling of free will/control (until it takes over), & also gives a person a high (for a time at least). Then, once someone has had an ED for long enough they forget who they are. To overcome the eating disorder feels like it's killing the only part of you that still exists. It becomes a living hell you feel trapped in. If you feel incapable of life anyway, it can be hard to fight the very thing that shuts you off from it all.
It is worth the fight though of course. Life is full of pain yes, but it is also a gift & an opportunity to connect with & love those around us. I myself am grateful for so much & for the opportunity to keep striving, growing, learning, giving & receiving. To love others unconditionally.
A long ass comment haha, but anyway thank you for sharing your thoughts & heart. You are doing it tough & yet it shows what gifts you still give so freely 😊👌
wonderful, thank you so much for this video. (:
and the people who don't know much about ED, please pay attention.
talking about it, is like talking about your deepest, darkest and saddest secret of your soul.
I wish you all the best, take care. xoxo
Frau Niemand Thank you so much Frau, you take good care too *hugs* xx
Great video and thanks for your closing words they helped me. all the best to you :)
+AeroNevin Thank AeroNevin for you message :)
I used to be physically abused and it hurt bad. Watching this video was inspirational;) thank you.
~Bunny
Abuse does hurt, its so wrong :(. Take care of yourself Bunny, you never deserved what you went through. Thanks for commenting! Sending much love to you x
I think you did a great job drawing and inspirational story!!
I loved this video, I hope things are better now! You're beautiful.
Aw thank you Esther :)
thank you for being so open and honest. really, this helps and i dont even have an eating disorder..
Thank you Sheldon, glad it helped abit :)
I love hearing your story! I'm also vlogging and sharing my recovery from my eating disorder as well on my channel! Another person supporting you along the way :)
Man I luv ur story. I'm glad ur ok
Arianna Pereda Thank you Arianna, you take hun :)
you are so strong :) Go on girl you are amazing ❤
+Lisette Van Rossem Thanks Lisette, I am all good now :)
Such an amazing story!!
Even though I believe in another religion, it really doesn't matter as long as we have the concept of faith and God.
I was actually inspired to gain my strength from God from your video, after I have completely given up on my weight recovery journey. So thank you for that I will give it a try :')
I'm defiantly subscribing!
MayBerealcolours Thank you for sharing! Yes do keep on looking after your body/health, you are treasured! Much love to you Mayberealcolours
Thanks for sharing! I love your honesty! Looking forward to more videos, and God bless you my dear! :)
Hey Rella RachRella, thank you for your comment ;)
I just cried!.. thank you!
this is like exactly the same as my eating disoder
Beautiful story. You are a beautiful person. Much love to you.
+Mélissa Brien Thank you Melissa, much love to you too!
You seem you're doing great , i really need help i'm struggling with so many addictions that i just can't stand being me anymore . Sometimes i wanna give up , sometimes i don't . . I don't know what the hell i've been doing with my life , i'm feeling that i've got to a point without reverse , i can't think properly , but i still have faith that someone somewhere would be able to help me .
Thank you so much for sharing your story! Very inspirational! God bless you!
Crystal W Thank you Crystal :)
I hope that you find peace in your relationship with food. Keep on the right path, you are wonderful. xoxo
Thank you Rebeccah! You have an amazing voice and you are very beautiful.
after 7 years of mental health struggle, I have finally accepted that a god does not exist. I would pray and pray for him to help, and then I realized he wasn't just not listening to my cries for help, he wasn't even there to begin with
Thank you for sharing! You're such a brave girl!
Thank you for your comment Jessica!
Incredibly inspiring. Being bulimic, it was nice to see the story through another person's perspective. Despite my silly profile picture, I am telling you god bless with the most serious tone I can give! Thanks for this video :)
hehe! Aw thanks, I accept "God bless" in a cheery tone too ;) Sorry that you are struggling, grrr Bulimia! I hope you recover fully one day, you have alot to offer to the world as a person (and your vids are entertaining too!)
Oh jeez, I'm blushing!
Anyways, Thanks for the video!
😭😭😭😭 such a heft wrenching story 😭😭😭😭
Such a perfect video I love it! Helped me so much! :)
Glad it helped! Take good care of yourself ;)
My weight mysteriously dropped to 31kg (and I DO eat), and now I'm too weak to even shower. Been trying to gain for 10 months, with no results, I just get weaker, and am totally housebound
This is amazing! You are incredible!
I love the message. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you 💓💓 💓💓 💓
God bless you! You are NOT your eating disorder. You are a child of the most High God. Do not speak any negativity over yourself. You will overcome in Jesus' Name!
This is truth indeed :)
Beautiful story sweetheart. JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!!
Your Beautiful, thank you for encouragement :)
Pray to God always, it helps and it's Proven.
Proven by what..
Life ? life has been proven by science you idiot
Proven to be a waste of time. There is no god. Sorting yourself out would be more helpful than praying.
Mick Allen don’t bash our religion we can believe God is our savior and you can stay how you are but we are entitled to our own opinion
Your beautiful, be proud of who you are :)
Thank you Sajeeda for encouraging me today ;)
awww :)
You are so inspirational 💓
I know it should be sad, but it's actuallyy a lovely story lol
I'm somehow going through the same thing, I'm an 18 y.o man, who's 1m82 (5"11) an weighs 117lb, but his family is stupid enough to think that it's normal.. I'm also going through a mood disorder but it doesn't seem related to that (or maybe it is :o)
so I'm going through this kiiind of alone lol
just wish me luck , for my weight at least :D
Seek for help if you can :) being alone is so difficult on these situation xox courage!
+ShadowXg0z Hi! Sorry for only seeing this now. I hope you are doing better, you deserve to be anyway. Mood disorder can sometimes be related to eating disorders for sure. Take care of yourself ShadowXg0z
i hope your doing better and your video made me cry haha
hope you the best
Thank you Jasmin! You take care too xx
your welcome beautiful xoxo
Don't ever think that you aren't capable of overcoming it yourself. I'm sorry, I'm sure you were trying to be subtle, but I just think Religion, at least for me, was part of the problem. Because then it's the feeling of hopelessness that the one being that's meant to be looking after me isn't. He let me get to the state I'm in, saw me killing myself and didn't do a damn thing about it. Once I turned to myself, made it all my doing, I was able to see the value in life from a more realistic perspective.
I'm very proud of you though for making this video
Hey Hairyfrankfurt (Kate), I'm sorry you have gone through such painful/hopeless times in your life. *hugs*. I was also hurt alot by religion and damaging perceptions of who god is. Keep finding worth and value in your life, you seem like such an encouraging person from your videos, thats a real gift and I love how your want to empowers others. Don't give up, your inspiring-and you are loved. P.S. I seriously want your accent ;) swap?! x
Accent transplant, that's a thing, right?
Thank you for taking the time to watch my videos! That means a lot to me
Hairyfrankfurt Your welcome hun, take good care x
I'm not too sure what to say, but God is very complex. In what seems very peculiar to us to why he is so secluded from our lives, we must still think to why He even has us in existence anyway. It is hard to comprehend for everyone, but he doesn't rely on what we consider logistics. The problems that we have today is what may make us find ourselves in the future. I could never leave God's side, as crazy as it sounds.
Everyone says i have an ED but i deny it bc im really not sure if you would call mine that. I have 2 different stages i go back and forth from. 1 is i will go days without eating anything and then other days i would eat alot but vomit right away is that considered an eating disorder if so what's it called
loved it. ihave n eating disorder too stay strong girl u got this!!!!
+Belle Messier You got this too, I know you will through it! I am pretty much recovered now, finally....and it's so good to be! x
thanks girl!!! so sweet
I’m losing a lot of hair and I’m always cold but I started eating more now since I was eating too less. I’m trying to eat more slowly
Eisha Sharjeel same
you are beautiful! i mean honestly! you look amazing now
Agatha, you are an amazing person. Thank you! (I read your other comment too) Take care my dear :)
Hi just saw your vid while looking up stuff about selective eating disorder. I really hope you're doing well, and thanks so much for sharing your story!
Have you found out anything more specific about what was causing the initial issue? Because you mentioned that you were eating but still losing weight, and the doctors kept thinking it was anorexia. This sounded a lot like this case study I read about a woman with celiac disease, so I'm wondering if your doctors were able to find anything physical involved.
Anyways sorry if I sound like some internet stranger trying to provide medical advice because obviously you know better than I do. Just hoping that you're doing well and had found some more answers since you last posted this. :)
+MrCatboy Funny, I swore it was celiac or something like Crohns etc but they found nothing. Now when I look back it was obviously because I was getting enough calories and exercising too much for my age and metabolism, I just didn't want to admit to myself that I could be responsible for my own sickness. I am pretty much recovered now at least :)
I think it’s weird that she’d never admit to not eating. This feels dishonest she’s not admitting what she’s doing
Beautiful words, I believe too that God has gone through the pain to set me free. I have had trouble with another sin for years now .. it truly haunts me. I have to trust God that he can save me.
even though i am extremly atheist, this is the only thing i have every watched that hasnt made me flinch and im so glad that you found something that pulled you through thats fab, maybe God was the healthy you, trying to reach out to sick you?
Wow!! Praise God. Thank you for sharing your story!!! Jesus is truly Redeemer.