its 2am and i'm still missing you
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- Опубліковано 14 чер 2024
- Sleep/Ambient Mix
Chill & Calm
🎧 Lofi/Chill Beats 🎧
Listen on Spotify - sptfy.com/i-still-miss-you
Tracklist:
0:00 amies x cxlt. - you
/ amies-x-cxlt-you
2:14 kainbeats - Chasing Eternity
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4:17 Osaki - Nagoro
/ nagoro
7:06 im.fine - somewhere someday
/ somewhere-someday
9:57 Ottom - Emerald
soundcloud.com/ottommusic/eme...
11:53 Aiirwave - Nightfall
/ nightfall
14:19 Misc.Inc - Dawn
/ miscinc-dawn-1
16:51 jhove - from above w/ niquo
/ from-above-w-niqou
artwork by @bootleganime
/ bootleganime
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You can now listen to this whole series on Spotify - sptfy.com/i-still-miss-you 💜
*"Sometimes its not about missing someone, it's wondering if they are missing you."* 💙
Eternity so true
Yes... this!
copied this to my insta story straight away 🤩
yeah...
True
If you are reading this you are good enough no matter what anyone tells you have a good day
U2 💞
Thanks! You too 🙏🏼.
I really needed this thanks ❤
I knew that
Too bad it's me who says i'm never enough
"We are trying to hide our feelings, but we forgot that our eyes speak..."
♥♥♥
Yeah that's true, I hope you are good 😇
@@BRITdave-so1sl I'm good, i hope you are too :)
Exactly cause "Tears Expose Us".
But my friend, not everyone knows how to read. . .
I don't know why, but I don't cry anymore... but i know that i am sad so my eyes do nor speak🤷♂️
We're a sad generation with happy faces.
Hard to agree, but hopefully things would get better
So true
we pretend that everything is ok but it is not
Damn this comment HIT me
I donno why??
She was at her lowest point when we met.
He cheated. Like everyone else.
I helped her trough it, got her out of that dark place. We fell in love.
I worked odd jobs. Really odd jobs. To get money asap so I can fly to live with her before borders close again.
And ohhh it was wonderful. Felt like a dream. No one had made me as happy ever before. I felt complete. Just two of us. Filled with passion and care. Nothing could ruin that. Right?
Fast forward a month. Her self loathing and attachment issues surfaced again. I wasn't good enough anymore. I was making her stressed but she failed to realise that half of that she was doing on her own. Or rather..her fears were making her do it.
Yesterday she decided I have to leave. I have to leave all those dreams, future, possibilites. I have to leave her warm touch and the kindest of hearts. I have to leave that person who showed me that I haven't really loved before.
I basically agreed to start my life from scratch with her by moving to another country. Yet...the forever didn't become always.
Now I'm just sitting here. All alone. With her downstairs with that awfully hateful look on her face. It broke me. More then that.
But atleast this time she let her voice be heard. She didn't throw her away for someone else. I am proud of her for that.
I just wished...I wouldn't have been that lesson she needed.
Even after all this I'm still not giving up on her because for the first time in my life my gut is telling me that this is something that happens just once per lifetime.
But is that really the right choice?
I don't know. I guess we shall see what the future holds.
For now. Just a little lost. (:
*Thank you for reading, whoever you are. Hope you are doing better then I am right now. And if not. Don't worry. Everything always happens for the best. Even if you sometimes refuse to believe it.*
EDIT: I gave her space. She thought about it. Said sorry about giving up so easily. We aren't giving up just yet. I'm staying :)
Edit 2: I ended up having to leave. One eternity sooner then we expected.
Since now is the time for her to find herself, focus on self reflection and growth, she can't do that and focus on loving me at the same time.
One of our last talks I said:
- You know...No matter what, I will wait for you. You are the only one I want.
- I know, she replied with a smile.
It hurts, sure. It's tough nowadays without her by my side even though we still text.
Yet, I still believe that she is my soulmate, which is why I believe sooner or later we will end up pulled back into eachothers arms.
Until then. Heh. Just a little empty.
Be strong bro
Goodluck, stay strong! You can do it
Stay strong bro everything works out in the end
glad to hear it
🥺🖤
I miss the old version of myself before falling in the curse of love
The old version of you does not know how to avoid the curse but your current does BC he/she has already gone through that experience
If you need to talk I'm right here
Period. I gotta get me back!
Years from now you will look back and laugh at these moments, trust me. Keep your head up my dood. Life goes on and there’s so much more waiting for you in your life. Sometimes things don’t go the way we plan it and we have to learn to accept it and move on. You’ll certainly find someone new and if there were mistakes made in the past we are more wiser not to repeat them next time. ❤️
Don’t we all.
Decko ti si naebal
she was my peace she made me a better person
That's what love can do bro, it brings out the better version of yourself
Fr my guy
Yk i just really miss her
They always leave before the mission is complete...
They always leave before the mission is complete...
*am i the only one sitting in the corner enjoying the music but having literally no one to think bout ?* 👁️👄👁️
ur not the only one
Me to...
Kinda way that makes me sad...
Nope
Same here
The Bootleg boy is so underrated seriously. I’ve been listening to everything for at least 4 years now. I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon. Thank you
“Anyone who loves in the expectations of being loved in return is wasting their time.” - Paulo Coello
Well said
Smoking to this as soon as the sunsets
This title brings back so many memories, very happy ones. Ones that I’m glad I lived. No matter what happens in life, keep living. Make the memories that you will love and cherish for years to come.
These missing you mixes all ways hit hard man
They are the best👌
Sausie Sausie ?
fr tho. I miss someone who doesn't exist
You ever just look up at the ceiling and have endless thoughts about how one simple thing you did in the past could change everything right now? Yeah me too
Always.
Dont dwell on the past decisions man, you did what you thought was right in that moment and you cant blame yourself for that shit. It’ll eat you up and make you question every single decision you make in the future. Like it did me, i overthink everything and i end up not doing the things i set out to do because I dont want to get hurt. Not again, but i hope thats not your situation.
Yes, all the time no matter what I'm underneath and looking at.
@@alexn7567 ❤💔
Same 🥺
Living in Indian Ocean, get a alert of your channel dropping a new playlist at exactly 2AM ... that’s perfection ❤️❤️
I've known this girl since I was 6, we use to go to each other's house and play, our parents were great friends too, we grew up together. They moved to another town when we were 10. We haven't seen or spoke since then. We lost contact with each other. A few months ago they came to town because her grandmother was in ICU. We both knew that we would bump into each other but didn't know when. That day finally came. When I saw her. She just froze. Her eyes were sparkling with tears from all the years we haven't seen each other. So I walked up to her, gave her a hug. When I wanted to let go. She held me tighter and started to cry. She said that she was sorry. We both knew that it wasn't her fault, I said sorry too. I guess we both had to say that. They stayed for about 3 weeks. And then love came creeping. I told myself don't let the feelings take over, it will only ruin my relationship with her. But I couldn't help myself. The day they would've departed. I confessed. I told her I love her. U know what she said? I love u too. I hugged her and she hugged back. She started to cry, again. It gave me pain in the chest. All those years we haven't seen or spoken to each other. We were strangers. Yet at that moment in time. It felt as if we've known each other for a lifetime. We walked the entire day, just talking and laughing. Then she cried again saying that the next time we'd see each other might be at her wedding. That hurt me the most. Knowing that here she is, someone I wanna be with, spend my life with, Only to lose her to someone else. We decided to exchange numbers so that we don't lose contact again. As you can guess. The moment arrived when they had to go. It was heartbreaking seeing her go. Knowing that I lost her for almost 12 years and only had her back for 3 weeks and never again. After that, we texted a lot, every minute, every second. But as I feared. Every second turned into every minute, the minutes turned into hours, the hours into days and the days into weeks. I'd wait for a response for days but yet she was online 2 minutes ago. Now she doesn't bother to text me back.
Update(2021/07/24)
So I do Downhill Longboarding, we were doing a run at night in the city, I mean we have done it a lot, no trouble, no accidents so forth. But around 2 weeks ago, I got into an accident, a drunk driver driving on the opposite side of the road, I flew over the car and was knocked unconscious. I only recently got out of the hospital, I'm luckily not in a wheelchair anymore, but, guess who was waiting outside of the hospital... She was standing there with her mom and my parents. they had to wait outside due to Covid restrictions. But there was a face I didn't know, I greeted him as if I knew him, I could tell she was very nervous when I greeted him, that's when I clicked and it made sense, they are Bf and Gf. We all went to my house, she was very glad that I was back at home and I could tell that her Bf was uncomfortable every time she was around me, she was by my side the entire time, to an extent I tried to get away from her cause I could imagine how her Bf felt, her being the entire time with a guy he barely knew while she had her whole childhood with me. She cried and apologized for not replying and making contact with me, she said that after weeks of not replying she felt that it would actually just turn out rude if she did reply to those texts, but, what surprised me the most was that she apologized of not making the effort to be in a relationship with me, she said that she is so unhappy in her current relationship. Her Bf heard it of course, but I only found out about it recently when she told me that they broke up...
Everything is slowly returning back to normal, yet, she still cries every time she sees me, she cries about regret, and then it makes me feel guilty because what can I do to make her happy again...
Update (06/06/2022)
The mother is in critical condition in hospital and 'her' funeral was today, she was shot by a stray bullet with the current mass shootings over the weekend, who would've believed....
I know they won't see this, but thank you, thank you for the time everyone spent in my life, love u all♥️.
I luv your story dude
My thoughts are with you, thinking eternally, you are not alone
Hey man. I have a similar story and being thru that shithole of emotions, I can only say that you should never let go of yourself. Turn that anger and sadness into energy and try different things. Mechanical work on cars, driving around, just cruising and the gym saved me. I still think of her everyday and the worst part is that we still see each other but I can't let my emotions ruin my life again so I just exercise and work on my dreams with that energy. So I beg you to stay strong and make the most out of every day! Life is worth living but it's not fair to anyone. Don't let pain and sadness define you! We are here for you, brother!
i'm crying rn...
my story was exactly like you but the only difference was i didnt tell her i love you and now she is gone
i dont think she remembers me anymore but i lf she does she remembers me as a stranger
i wish that i would tell her i love you but now that i think about it
she wouldn't even care....
she’s moved on. she has a bf. but i’m still in love. i miss out late night conversations. i miss seeing her smile. she’s doing all that with someone else.
same situation..
listen/read to pablo neruda's poem "saddest lines"
same same bro love for you from czech you are not alone
I've never even had an SO and I still felt that
Maybe I am going to be in the situation
I miss someone who will never miss me until am gone
i miss someone who will never miss me,even i m gone :)
That moment when you're missing someone who told you that they'll be fine without you as well.
Me too actually that perfectly describes it, hang in there man we’re in the same boat
ify
Be strong we are with you
who else is missing someone right now ?
Yup 😔
i miss old days with her, not her.
Solaire (sunbro) reletable
My grandpa who died from cancer
Jaimes Ambrosio
1940-2012
I still miss him...
My dog died from a tumor
Doxy
2006-2019
I will never forget him...
My best friend from school , sickness
Leo ??????
2004-2019
One of my rare hope gone...
Bastion FR stay strong❤️
Listening to this at 2am trying to sleep. Feeling so lonely wishing I could have someone to hold me. Goodnight, I love you all, thank you for being here and staying strong. 🖤
Stay strong :)
COVID-19 screwed our plans to be together, but there is no giving up! Together we will be successful and enjoy the fruits of our win.
My partner is in Japan and im in Australia... We were suppose to be living together again by now, its been 6 months. It could be another 12 before I get to see her again.
I feel your pain
Never give up man!
Bye from Italy,Milano
I'm in Wuhan & she was the bat soup
Damn it hurt reading this it legit happened to me. I have never loved someone as much as her she was my everything, sadly to covid we stopped talk as much we was good together too good I just wish we could have stayed together. I miss her.
She was a huge impact in my life. She meant everything to me, she was the only girl who actually enjoy talking to me. I genuinely dont smile a lot but, when she’s with me. She *_never_* fails to make me smile. I miss her so much and I don’t think I’ll be able to move on from her. I really, really loved her. She was my first kiss, and my first love. That’s why I’m so deeply in love with her and I’ll never forget her. I really miss her so much. Texting & thinking about her is breaking me down.... ima go. Have a good day everyone.
you too! have a great weekend ❤️
I hope you find someone new that can make you feel that way again
i feel u but it will get better, maybe not soon but it will i promise. I loved my ex for 6 months and still miss him💔
I love you bro you aren’t alone
See we guys are sucidal kids telling each other sucide isnt a solution 🎭
“Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.” - Rumi
Even the happiest of people can still feel lonely
so true.i guess thats me.
Sunday mixes are the best 😌🎶🎧
Ngl i agree
I agree too
@@harutosoraki9792 hell yeah, Sundays just hit different
@@sdrawkcabsiemanym5458 it makes you think about life
@@BRITdave-so1sl yeah they do i realized that
Almost 4 years, and I still missing her...
I know exactly how you feel. Chin up man... greatness is on the way
What a great comment section
Same its been 4 years.
same bro.
Same it’s been exactly 4 years (48 months) since we met, 3 years 11 months since we started going out, 3 years 7 months since we broke up, ive tried dating other people but i always go back to the memory of him, i wonder if he finally dyed his hair, or travelled to that place we both said we wanted to go, if his sick mom got better, if he’s happy, if he’s doing what he wants to do. I hope he did, i want him to be happy he gave me some of my happiest memories, he really was a keeper. Fuck..... I miss him....
‘’When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead’’ - Barney Stinson
dont be sad, the rain will eventually wash away all the bad things, in one way or another. enjoy the life on its fullest, try new things, dont procrastinate, dont ever waste time and be always yourself. living can be tough, all of us did or will experience painful things one day, you’re never alone in this world. and always remember, even if you think you’re not loved, one stranger on the internet or even one person you dont know genuinely cares about you. love ya
As soon as the time hits 2am this vid uploads...
she told me she wanted to spend forever with me, and then said the same thing to someone new three months after i left for college. she may not need me but oh boy do i need her
Stay strong
Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today:
You matter.
You're important.
You're loved.
And your presence on this earth makes a different whether you see it or not!
💚
thank you
I hope someday I find my soulmate. Someone who'll love me for me. Someone who'll stay by my side and support me no matter what. I hope I find him someday.
You will one day. Fighting! 💜
@@urancestor Thank you uwu 💗💘
Keep being yourself and fight 💙
Gaaas
Believe it and you will find someone who you really want.
You were the brightest star on my darkest night. 🖤
It's hurt when the person gave you the best memory became memories.
felt
I can relate I had a best friend but she left my school so we got a bit distant, we texted but my phone broke suddenly so we got distant and I miss the memories we had saddest part is she has a new bestie I just miss the good times
Dude the title of this video is so relatable...
dont call him dude
Just think about the parallel universe, where you and the person you miss right now are together, just be happy for yourself and I really hope we all can achieve greats things in our lives.
Sometimes it's hard to keep a positive outlook on life, especially during tough times like this. But I believe in you! You can do it, you will survive and the problems that you're facing now; you'll be able to laugh at them! You'll find happiness and success, just continue on the path. Sometimes we need these speedbumps to keep us level and not get ahead of ourselves. We gotta take the lows with the highs. All in all, enjoy the journey! Peace and love ✌️❤️
its actually 2 am and i do miss that person
I feel ya
Same here
Word.
Yep..
Same here..
Why is it that I always listen to this in the middle of the night? Why do I miss someone that by now I've already considered dead to me? Are my own feelings lying to me. I don't even know what I want, and who I'm missing at this point. But the songs from this amazing channel always help me out. Much love
If u are reading this I want to say that I love u and long live my friend ❤️
You too :)
I miss her guys she made me feel complete
Hey, your seeing this comment. Its late and your reflecting upon your decisions throughout life “what if I did this differently” you say to yourself as you go deeper into the Abis known as thought. You recall your times as a sweet kid who wanted nothing other than being the best. You think to yourself this is not what I wanted to become maybe I should Just give up. I want to let you know I’m here for you and I can tell you that you 100% did the right things in life. If you need a shoulder to cry on or a friend to talk to I’m right here
Just scrolling through the comments and saw this that kinda made my day, because you, a total stranger to everyone here care about people who may feel low or alone. You seem very warm-hearted and I hope that never changes bud
Regretting your mistakes is the only thing you should ever regret mistakes make us human and one can always learn from them
Thanks...... this gave me flashbacks ill elaborate if you want to know
@@hulpepatriciaalina5354 You get the niceist person award today. Thank you for all of your help mysterious stranger. I hope if you're going through somthing you know everyone here also has felt a similar pain, sometimes people who offer help are the ones who feel truely lost.. and if thats the case all of us here in the comments are here to listen and help in any way we can
Thank you.
Im not heartbroken, i just hate my self for being introvert and that much shy. Make it really dificult for me to make friends. Every time i try to make friends im too shy to say what i am thinking. Its like im not really me. I hope one day i will have a group of friends with i can be myself. (sorry for my english )
there's no reason to hate yourself just because you're an introvert.
being Introvert is so special, you don't need nobody else for being happy. just be you.
@@_.non.social._ yeah but sometimes i see everyone in the class hang out and there is just me going home just cause i can't express myself when im talking to others.
But thank you, hope you're doing good 😊
I will be your friend dude and it's great honor to me
I went through something similar. But being your friend would be an honor for me, i would feel incredible. Once someone told me "you are the precious taste of someone beautiful" i know you are too
Be brave and never ever care what they will say. If you are yourself, it never matters to their comments on you. I hope that my words encourage you and at least try even if the start is bad.
I know you are probably reading this, because you are sad and you are looking for other sad people/comments....
But im not one of these sad comments. Im just a little happy comment between many sad ones, trying to give you a tiny break of your bad thoughts. So go to the window, take a deep breath and look at the sky. The stars are beautiful, arent they ?...
Thanks kind sir.
@@dominik95801 you are welcome, my friend
Unfortunately I don't see any stars
Thank you, Tobias. I appreciate you.
been a while since I last did a mix in this series, they're some of my fav! 💕
listen to another one here - ua-cam.com/video/lcX7j9UonyQ/v-deo.html
I first discovered your channel from these mixes and I have been hooked ever since 💜
geez im late
I love it so much
Never stop these mixes bro
Ah man, this is deep. It’s 2 a.m. & I have so many people I miss rn. Keep it up
i can’t believe im missing someone who doesn’t even exist
Yo lofi hits different when we are isolated from everyone and when depression hits you when you are at your worst possible mental state whatever you do during the remainder of quarantine and 2020 make the most of it otherwise you have just grown a year older with nothing to look back on but a sad and isolated point of your life.
That feeling of knowing you have someone who isn't your family that actually loves you, is now a distant memory
honestly, i’ve been feeling down....i feel like i’m not good enough :(
you are good brother, just don't give up.
know your worth, these girls or boys don’t deserve what they’re missing out on I bet you have a good heart and you are a good person don’t ever let yourself down saying you’re not good enough to trust me you are . Everyone is just playing games . You’ll the find the one soon. we have time. you’ll be better
lonely berry thank u so much 💕 peace and love to u 🖤
I know this feeling too well but never forget that your perspective is not the only one hour being viewd from and that improvement is always doable as long as you don't give up
I have been feeling like I'm not enough BC I have a adhd and my twin brother doesn't
He was way better at school, sports and he had a lot of friend and I was always an outcast even in my own home I felt like the disappointement of the family the "worse brother" what I had to realize is that even he admired me in certain aspects and that if I just give up I will never improve so I stared a kind of slef improvment "journey"
It is an overused phrase but if you don't try nothing is going to change and the inky one who can change something is YOU
@@kxilaa you can text me if you need someone to talk to
I thought she was my life but she was just a part of it
Chilling with this song in the corner room
2:14 Thanks so much for the support, bootlegboy
Man you make some epic music
@@calvinv3478 thank you
Who else is scrollimg down and listening at the same time.
And reading many relatable comments
ofc me cuz i m broken into many many pieces
@@usmantemuri5675 take your time to heal...everyone goes through it...take your time and slowly rise again
Dont ever lose hope!
Whenever I listen to this I sink into my dark thoughts and I start to think that I’m not worth anything to anyone least of all myself, can’t seem to function unless someone is telling me what to do I’m useless on my own
You’re worth it. These thoughts don’t define you. I hope you’ll find peace within yourself. :)
The scariest place to become trapped in is your own mind. Please don't let your thoughts be the only things you listen to. You are worth it, every aspect of you is worth it. I hope you find peace or at least zen within yourself. 💛
Same here.
exactly what my sleep deprived, depressed and malnourished ass needed.. thank you again bootleg for bringing us the bread and butter for being sadboys(and -girls), at night.
- kindest regards, a guy who misses her at 1am right now
you probably wont read this, but in the instance of you doing, thank you man
i appreciate you and i know youre going places with your talent but also care about us, you take care of your minds through your work
Sitting alone, listening to this sound. I just feel emotions so much stronger, some are good and some are bad. :/
I'm on the same page unfortunately.
H E Y Y O U
YEAA YOU
HOLD ON DON'T SCROLL DOWN
I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS
AHHH CMON HOLD ON
*PATS YOUR SHOULDER*
I KNOW YOU DONT WANNA SAY ANYTHING
BUT ALL THIS ITS TEMPORARY AND YOU WILL SEE THE SUN TOMORROW
*KISSES ON YOUR FOREHEAD*
YOU MATTER ♡
♡
Made my night. 💖
u rly dunno how much this mean for me
This means alot for me
I wish if a can kiss my forehead ! 😔
The sadness part of life is when the peroson who gave you the best memories become memories...
if you are here cuz you need peace w urself, you always matter, and always will in the hearts of people you love most, and have a good day, wake up, and live life too the fullest.
I love these mixes it may be 3pm for me but i can sit back and just listen to these for hours and relax
this video was the reason why it was worth it to stay up late
If youre reading this and heartbroken. Know youre not alone. You are in charge of YOUR life. Better yourselves. Learn from it. Who knows maybe what you lost will come bacl
He was really my sunshine ☀️he was everything to me I'm not gonna lie he loves me so much I do the same but someday he changed not just period but he really changed his mind nd every thing I wish he back to the old person I meet 😭😭💔💔"my first luv my ex I still love u"
Park Mochi I know how you feel.
If you need help you can text me :)
I Hope you feeling soon better 💜
Sad boi hours🥺
When I'm scared (which happens a lot especially in night times)
your mixes are the only ones that make me relax, like please don't stop making these ❤️
It's about 1 am and still listening this to get this nasty scared feeling off me.
Truly love the positivity in these comments. Makes my day knowing people out there are going through the same situation. Although I don’t with it upon anyone, it gives me a sense that I’m not alone. Peace and love to all. Thank you guys for being great people. I don’t know y’all but I know I would love the positive vibes that y’all give off! Sending love from Texas!
remember the first mix 11 months ago. still missing her.
It is now 2AM as I watch this 8 hours later than it was posted. Thank you for the feels, but I'm ready to move on.
She'll never come back to me. Knowing this hurts my heart everyday.
Ist almost 2am in germany...and I really miss the time I spend with her, I just wish that she's happier now. :/
Im from Germany too ✌️💤
Hope u feeling soon better
Hey man, it will get better. Support from South Africa
Big vibes!
its been 8 months im sick of jus being her friend ive always been here for her and i cant stop thinking abt her
It doesn't matter what time it is. I know that I'll keep missing you for a really long time.
I don't know 'bout others but this guy "The bootleg boy" brings me the best music vibes I can ever feel.♥️
THANK YOU LOFI FOR CHILLING MY BRAINS AND SOUL.
Miss him 😭
All time I miss her I don't know why ..💔💔 even I drink water I also miss her ...hope .. nobody face this kind of situation ....., it's badly painfull💔😭💔
This lofi is so good, u dont need anyone to think about.
I'm not a heart broken but I love this channel and the guys who commenting I don't know them in real life but I feel like we are a family
Love u all have a nice day
O M G
That's Perfect
You are good as you are God has created you as a wonderful being you are perfect and wonderful ... Do not be told by wrong people .. turn around and let life be your teacher ... because everyone gets what he sends out .. !! There is a person who needs you just the way you are !!! Uniquely wonderful creative beautiful and intelligent ... God bless you🙏❤
Good Night miss him so much ❤
God doesn't exist, and this kind of reasoning only serves the purpose of making people resign to their current life, no matter how shitty it may be.
@ Exactly. im tired of these comments. "Oh you live in a shithole and your wife just left you?? Dont be ungrateful because these are gods gifts and he made everyone just the way they should be"
This side of youtube always inpspires me. Sometimes o genuinly lose hope in humanity, all of the horrible things that happen on a daily basis and people are too busy rushing from one place to another to even care, but you come here and everyone is opening up sharing stories and ACTUALLY LISTENING TO EACH OTHER! It makes me feel so happy the compassion in the comments. You guys are the best this world has to offer love you all
Side note by the way if you wana read this. Do you see (guys) as a male pronoun cause i personally just use it to refer to anyone. Like whats up my guy
these mixes are so blessed
The title is so relatable even tho it's 6 am here :v
yes it is ):
my life has been spiraling downwards, man i dont even know what to do anymore and the fact that im powerless means nothing in making me feel better. my brother just split my already ruined family, my dads been trying his hardest to help me and my siblings, my mom ran out on us in 2016 without a word and changed her name and everything about her to evade us. my grandma whos taken care of me is dying and ive been a horrible grandson all these years. mom im sorry dad im sorrry grandma im sorry
I smiled when I saw that this series came back after a while ❤️❤️
Who cares if I miss someone? I just liked the header. No missing scenes... Only success matters! Let's show our full potential!
Friday, 7th August 2020
Imagine you meet someone. Lets call her S.
Instant connection. You develop a friendship, things unfold, but S has a boyfriend.
Shit, ok, Let's stop talking because I shouldn't want that to happen to me.
After a while they break up and S texts you. Youu're all happy, things develop again, you start to get closer each day, until finally, there is progress.
S is so wow that you start dating her, trust more and more each day, spend one, two, three months together.
At the six months mark, you think: fuck it, lets live together, start something even more amazing together.
You both get jobs to afford renting a room and share a space for the first time. Everything goes downhill from this day forward. How you wish you knew....
The arguments begin but love is stronger than that, it surpasses everything.
Until S cheats on you the first time with her ex. He calls you explaining, she denies it until she finally admits it.
SHIT! heart broken, sad, you end up breaking up with her.
But S shows she's sorry for it, makes an effort, prooves that she's changed and, for about 4 months, she shows you that everything was just a mistake and that humans tend to make errors when they're inlove.
You decide to forgive her, it's just an obstacle in this big love story. You get it in your head that this will strenghten the relationship.
You decide to live together again, this time, in a real house.
After 1 year and 7 months of relationship, arguments are on the daily basis, its tense, mistrust on both sides. Lots of fights, lack of respect, texts from ex's, little to no patience, prohibitions like "you can't go out, you can't talk to x and y, are you going outside dressed like that?"
And you start to lose interest in the relationship.
You no longer feel peace in your own home, with S.
You don't want it anymore.
The problem is, you are so used to that routine, that comfort, those crumbs of love and happiness that she gives you that you can’t/ don't want to go. You don't have the balls to end it.
Self-esteem and Self-love at the bottom, you continue.
Then you hit 2 years of relationship, counting on the time you were together before dating. Physical confrontations are the last straw. Things end for good. There is no turning back.
Now its time to find a new house, grab your shit and get out. But first, you make sure S has food on the table, rent and expenses paid and transfer money to her savings. You say goodbye, in tears, and don't look back.
You leave the city that you grew up in and go far away, in search for a better way and a better life.
Until .... the news drop like a bomb.
You find out the person you were with for so long, the person that helped you grow, the one that you poured your out to kissed your best friend 3 days after you broke up with her.
Your mind is in a twist. There is a mix of revolt, a lot of rage, a lot of desire to go back and kill them both.
But you endure, its just more reasons to move on.
3 weeks have passed since you and S go your separate ways.
You find out that they are officially happy and dating.
S cheated on you with your best friend weeks before you decided that enough was enough.... Why, how?!
And you are obliged, for your own sake, to give up a life project that did not work.
This is my story. Its been 2 months since me and S broke up. Everyday I think about her, what could've been and what I should've done to prevent this. I cry too much for my own pride and mind to handle. I have mood swings. I'm not suicidal, I'm just confused whether if I'm losing love for life or hate for death itself.
I will get back on my feet soon. But for now, I'll just enjoy the music.
Man I’m only 16 and we only dated for 4 months, it was mutual but I want her back. You shouldn’t be with someone that cheats man that’s not right.
Ray Farmer If you think she is worth it, go for it bro.... I’m rooting for you!
André Fernandes thanks man it’s probably to late, she said she didn’t want to get back together lol but your story inspired me to keep pushing
Ray Farmer thank you brother, just stay true to who you are
Damn Andre... I really respect your strength for sharing this heartbreaking story. Remember, don't let your heart get played like a chess piece even though you're a king
It's 2 a.m. i miss u little girl. You brought me the best feeling of love ever. We got the good time, right? And now you just leave me behind.. like a stranger..!!
The damn thing is i cant sleep now, *"little sister"*
There always will be better times as long as you don't give up on yourself
I miss that feeling 😭
That I don't feel anymore 💔
Its 1 am here, but the feeling is always the same.. I am still missing someone
im tired of crying
Same- I just make people around me feel bad about them selves for crying and it makes me cry even more I even made my boyfriend call him self stupid because he blamed himself....
It is not sadness. It is disconnection with everything and a yearning to be one with all of it once again. We just feel it more acutely through lofi.
He is everything I never thought I needed
I still miss her so much
I love it please keep going 💙👑
its funny that everyone in comment section is not okay right now, but telling everyone to be okay, its too cute love u guys
I love this kind of mixes so much 😍