My goodness if this doesn't hit home. I feel you so hard right now. I binge and it makes me depressed which makes me binge which ,Ames me depressed and repeat. I was doing so well. 70lbs down. Quit smoking in October and the binge eating took off. Gained 30 and i try so hard every damn day and can't seem to get in control of what I put in my mouth. Thank you for speaking out about this and for being so open and honest!
It's oddly comforting to see you be so open about this. It's a struggle that more people need to talk about because it's so secretive. This makes me feel more connected to you and I appreciate you posting this ...
I find I have the hardest time right after going through something hard/stressful. It makes sense that you're here since you just went through your most recent surgery and the loss of your dog. Don't beat yourself up, show yourself grace, patience, and love. Take it day by day. Thank you for sharing your journey!
+Jancilyn Pettitt I didn't even think about those playing a role in my relapse until now and it totally makes sense that they would be some what of a trigger. Thank you for pointing that out and for your support💗
You're not alone sweetie!! I suffer through this too. My heart hurts when I think about it. When I get in that mindset, I retreat too and try to disappear. But I'm so proud of how strong you are for making this video. You are not only strong but beautiful inside and out. You inspire young, older women and men to keep going and be honest with themselves. Keep on moving forward and know you are a fighter! #peacefulladywarrior ❤️
I am literally so glad you made this.... I have always thought I am the only one really going through this... obviously I'm not the only one... but it is releasing hearing someone else feels the exact same way... I believe in you ❤️
Yes!!! I have felt totally alone in my own struggle of falling back into binge eating and feeling alone brings on the shame and makes it worse. It helps SOOOO much to know I'm not alone and there isn't something "wrong with me" - it's a legit struggle so many have. Thank you!!!
Do not be ashamed. Get yourself back on track and keep pushing yourself! I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life at the moment and I feel ashamed and disgusted in my eating habits as well. In 2009 I lost 75 lbs. and wasn't even trying and was so proud of myself and then I found out I was pregnant and while pregnant I kept telling myself I could eat whatever I wanted because I was eating for two and I gained all of the weight back. After having my son 6 years ago I still have not lost the weight again, in fact, I have gained even more and recently found out I have arthritis in my knees. I want to be around when my son is older and be able to watch him grow up into a man and I want to alleviate my arthritis so I am trying to eat healthier and I am walking more and going to physical therapy. I have a long road ahead and finding your channel and videos has shown me that and motivated me even more. But I am determined to lose this weight and be here for as long as I can. Thank you. Sending you good vibes and hoping you can work through this hard time.
I cannot tell you how hard this hits home for me. I've struggled with binge eating since I was 12. I'm 26 now. It is by far the hardest, most draining thing I've ever had to deal with and I don't wish it on anyone. I'm in the pre-op process for VSG and I've followed you on IG for a while, but just found your videos and I have to say that you are so inspiring! I too try to be as transparent about this entire journey and talking about BED is a challenge because I've kept it to myself for so long. Thank you for being open and sharing your story including your struggles. I know this is an old video, but I needed to hear this today and so many of us need to know that we're not alone.
I wonder if Morgan realizes how much of a motivational video this is, to know that nobody is perfect. This is possibly one of the best and realist fitness and weight loss videos I've watched. We are here for you Morgan and we appreciate how much of a massive achievement having the guts to make this video must have taken. You are still an inspiration to us all.
I have followed you on Insta for a while now, but never watched your UA-cam much. I saw your recent post about your surgery anniversary or whatever and decided to come watch since I’m considering surgery myself. Wow..this video is my life the last 6-7 months. I have really struggled with binging and hiding it from my husband and friends and family. I have avoided going around anyone because of weight gain and being so self conscious and have been disgusted with myself. I finally recently realized I have to get help because I’m killing myself. I told my husband about it and I keep putting off getting professional help but this has encouraged me so much to. It feels better to know you’re not alone in the struggle. Thank you for sharing your life and journey so honestly!
this is the first video of yours I've ever seen and it had me in tears! I can relate completely . I realize this is a old video but thank you I have been struggling a ton with this lately 💕💕
Thank you so much for talking about this! I've been struggeling with binge eating for over half of my life now. I still binge some days but at my worst I would binge multiple times a day. Most people seem to think it's about willpower I feel upset or stressed all I can think about is how food will make me feel better and it often makes me weak when I can't just say no.
I am suffering from this same exact thing. And I just found out I have PCOS with just causes me to binge more. You would think that the dr telling me that losing some weight might help in conceiving a child, but I still can't get motivated. My family thinks I'm just lazy, but really I'm not. I also have rheumatoid arthritis, which makes it hard to workout. Which then gets me upset and I binge. Lots of factors involved. I've been considering seeing a counselor. I have never seen your channel before, and your video just so happened to pop up for me to see this morning. I think this is a sign and you now have a new follower ❤️
I SO relate to people just thinking you're lazy, I'm sorry you're having to deal with that :( Seeing a counselor really helped me, I'd say its def something to consider. Best of luck lady, sending lots of love and light your way xo
I can't tell you how much you've taken the words right out of my mouth. You can do this. We can do this! I also have been seeing a CBT therapist for years. The most important thing that I have learned from him is that The problem is not that you don't have ENOUGH motivation -- the problem is that you have TOO MUCH motivation. If you're anything like me, maybe you're a perfectionist or you expect a LOT from yourself, and that is the problem. Give yourself time to breathe during this time. Let yourself take a minute, take a step back, and ALLOW yourself time. It will be healing for you, and you don't have to explain yourself to anybody. We all need that. If I can add anything, reading the book "Brain Over Binge" was life changing for me. I highly recommend it to help you to see bingeing for what it really is. You are not powerless. You have defeated this and will defeat it again. Hang in there girlie.
You're only human. And you know what? What's inspirational is being honest and showing ups and downs and how you can come back from difficulty. My two favorite mantras apply. "You can do hard things" and "This too shall pass". Hang in there girl!
girl I get you! hate how thoughts can consume the mind! I feel like I am in a tunnel and I can't get out. My mind gets so negative, and down. girl you'll get out of the cycle in time. celebrate ever small victory. that helps me get out a bit. sometimes you gotta just let it run it's course... which sucks. But I believe in you
This absolutely hit home. I am a year out from bypass surgery. 117pounds and still have this problem and I can tell you that your not alone in the depression and your eating disorder. There is hope and you can do this.
What have helped me with binge eating was to accept it and be part of me, also I made commitment to only binge on vegan or vegetarian foods ( I know its the last thing you want to binge on when you are in it) but you can eat a lot, the food just heals you with its nutrients while you binge and you don't put on weight, therefore you are less depressed after you come out of it and thats how you break that crazy cycle. Try it, what you've got to loose ? I hope that helps because resisting it for the rest of your life is impossible but the minute you " Fully" accept it, it will take the burden off your shoulders.
This is real. This is raw truth. This is so incredibly stripped down real. It takes a lot to make a video like this. It takes a lot to be THIS REAL. It takes a lot to be THIS vulnerable. YOU are amazing. You are an incredible person. Why are you so incredible? BECAUSE OF THIS VIDEO!!! It's frustrating to watch people who lose weight pretend that these issues don't still exist! They do! They are real!! You, sweet Morgan, are so mature, beautiful and incredible. This is just another hiccup in the road. You have so much strength inside to admit what has gone on with not only us but yourself. Admitting things to yourself is the hardest step! DO NOT beat yourself up! You are NOT a failure. You are forever going to be a recovering binge eater, just like myself, and so many out there. I highly recommend Mindful eating book, overeaters journal, and the food and feelings workbook. I have used them and found them very helpful. Hugs Morgan! Just take everything one day at a time.
Wow I respect your transparency and I see a lot of you at this moment in me.. A person would never know the struggle would binge eating. I'll be keeping you in prayer
This hits home for me so hard, I am struggling with binge eating disorder as well and I am 17 and around 350 lbs. I have had so much trouble gaining control of my life.. but you have given me hope that things can change and they can get better.. thank you for posting this video and being so real with us ❤️
this just hit a home with me. I went from 179-125 2009-13. over the last 4 years I feel like I'm back siding. habits that I thought I have beaten are creeping back up. now at 145lbs I feel like I am just not doing well anymore. Motivation is so hard for me too right now. Thank you for sharing I don't have anyone in can talk to about this. I'm taking it one day at a time right now.so thank you so much Morgan. we are all with you.
oh morgan, you're so strong for doing this! thank you for sharing and being open, real and pure. you deserve the world and the recovery you need. i love you ❤️ you're on the right path in life.
Thank you so much for your honesty in this video. Right before watching this video I made the decision to go home earlier from my vacation, because my binging is so bad again after a good period. And I just can't get myself straight in another environment then my own home. I got so much support of watching this video and reading all the comments! I will also start my fight against binging again. I want to encourage you: You will get through this! And we can do this! Please Stay this honest. It helps yourself and a lot of other people, including me. Sending much love and strenght to you!
Morgan, I know that binge eating is a disorder, it serious, it's an issue but honest to God you're really weighing so much on yourself. You've done SO much and come SO far. You're AWESOME! At times like these, 'relapse', I think you should just pack your things and travel somewhere. Lose yourself in an experience bigger than food. Thinking about fitness, body, fashion goals...etc. just adds to the pressure. You don't need that. You need enjoyment and a break.
Morgan you are so brave and strong! You are taking the right steps forward, listen to yourself, make yourself go seek help, I am SO impressed by you! (I am a therapist and I appreciate your openness and honesty) it's okay to be human, it's okay to not to be perfect and you honestly blow me away by openly talking about your issues, I hope more people begin to do this as well. I know you've brought some comfort to females and males out there to know they aren't alone and that someone else knows exactly what they are feeling. Keep fighting lady.....also the fact you are so honest and open makes you (in my opinion) more real and makes me want to follow you and watch more because I know that life is REAL, it's not all rainbows and butterflies! Keep it up! I got faith in you! Xo
This is a great upfront video of our struggle with binge eating. I had 2 different weight loss surgeries, after falling victim to my binge eating disorder after my sleeve and having regain. I find the first and most important step in recovery is admitting we have this issue. I find myself going back to old habits still, but make a conscious effort to try and figure out why, and then turn my thoughts to something else. Also giving my all to God, and asking him to help me. I don't want to be a glutton anymore, I want to be free. Never give up, there are people in your corner fighting with you.💚
Morgan - I love you and how honedt and real you are and you are nothing but an inspiration for me. I've recently hit my point that ive wanted to become healthy and lose weight, and its been a struggle because with stress, I binge eat and I become numb and spend money on food and dont care, etc. Ive struggled fighting it and have only managed to lose 10 lbs... but.. ive seen what youve done and youve fought. I know binge eating comes back and we mess up sometimes, but you knownth as t you wont let it control you again and just you fighting.. makes me want to fight... im back on track with my weight watchers and im trying to focus on the gym when im stressed amd trying not to just numb out.. you're amazing, dont give up
It's like you're taking the words out of my mouth. It is totally exhausting and binging gives you such tunnel vision. I recently started attending Overeaters Anonymous meetings and I'm learning what a hold food has on my life. It's super scary. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Thank you for your honesty; solidarity sister. Solidarity.
Wow, Morgan, first I want to say how strong you are for dealing with this early on into your binge habit and sharing this with us, your losing team. When I was right around your age I was probably passed the 300lb mark and I was able to lose 120lb but I did not deal with the mental issues that come with it. Fast forward 8 years and I'm almost at the 300lb mark again and It's been exactly 3 days that I haven't binged. Unfortunately it took me regaining the weight and going through years of hating myself for it to finally realize that I'm strong and that this is not where I want to be, so I'm back to trying to focus on nourishing myself and exercising in a healthy way, not a punitive one. I was numb like you said for years. I would hide food from my family, lie that I was going to the gym but I was actually going to a buffet to stuff my face twice a day, I relate completely to eating in your car and just spending hundreds of dollars on food and not caring, not feeling anything actually other that a need to buy food and eat all of it and then more and then hating yourself and wanting to do horrible things. All that to say that you are so strong and try to focus on the fact that you are aware of it and it was early on. You're awesome and inspire so many of us and kind of take the shame a little our us because we can relate. Share more, make videos and let us send you love and understanding from around the world. I can honestly say that your a TRUE inspiration and I would love to meet you and give you a hug and say you're the best! I'm in NJ so whenever you're back on the east coast again I won't miss that opportunity!
Priscila, my goodness lady! Your sweet words have seriously touched me more than I can comprehend.. Thank you so much for supporting me and being vulnerable enough to share what you've been through.. I have so much faith in you! You are AMAZING girl! We can tackle this. xoxo
I have binge eating disorder, and sometimes is so hard to deal with. Sometimes I Am so scared to be back where I was 9 months ago, before my VSG (279lbs)... Stay strong babe girl, you gonna fight this out and win!
This video hits home on so many levels for me! I've struggled with my weight and binge eating since I was in middle school. Like yourself I even got up to 292 when I was 19. Decided not to go to college at that time so I could focus on my life! Lost over 100 pounds in less then a year. But I traded binging for working out 6 hours a day every day! So not healthy. Needless to say I gained almost all that weight back in the years that followed! Now as an adult I took a more healthy balanced approach to losing weight and getting healthy. I'm not gonna like I still have days, even weeks where I binge. It is something I know I am always gonna struggle with. I used to go to Taco Bell to get a "snack" before I'd go to dinner with my boyfriend or friends. None of them every knew. Food consumed me. Know that you are not alone! ((hugs))
Thank you for sharing this Morgan. This is something I struggle with too. I had the sleeve in 2015 and lost 150+ lbs, but put 40-50 lbs back on this past winter. It has been so defeating, isolating and all the other things you described. Anyway, I just really appreciate your honesty and openness...these are tough things to talk about. I am working hard to be open and honest about these things on my channel as well, but it's definitely a challenge. Just gotta keep trying...we only fail if we give up. That's the only way. Sending you love and light.
So relatable Mo 💗 #teamlosing is here for you! I have been struggling with BED lately also. You are so strong and I know you will beat the binge again!! 💗💗💗
Thank you so much for sharing this Morgan. It;s so incredibly brave of you to do, and also helps others realise they aren't alone, we can all feel this way sometimes! Thank you, sending loads of love and thoughts your way
This really hits home! I lost 35 lbs last year, then got depressed and went out of control- gained 50 lbs in 6 months. It was like I went from complete health nut, to binging on fast food alone in my room until I was numb. I joined weight watchers finally about 5 weeks ago and I'm slowly getting back to my good habits but the fear of losing control is always there
I so get it. I'm at the end of my Masters degree; final few weeks of the final semester, and I was contacted and told that I am close to not passing the course. The stress of that and the multiple projects I had this weekend and that I've had to relax on my workout plan to allocate more time to coursework led me to multiple episodes over the past few weeks. I've only gained 5 pounds, but it feels like an incredulously amount because I know how hard it is for me to lose any weight (and yet I still had lost 70 pounds in a year). I see myself so wrong now, but I know it's temporary. When the semester is over, I can reallocate my time to losing weight and all that, and when I do, I'm sure I'll make progress again, hand over fist. I got distracted, but what I meant was that I understand your struggle. Whatever it is that's triggering you (stress seems to be the case for both of us) is only temporary and we both know the path to get back on track. Keep on keepin' on! P.S. You are not a coward. You have accomplished so much and are genuinely such a genuine person! Thank you for sharing!
Until I watched this video I had thought no one understood! But OMG you make me want to burst into tears because your words are validating me. Your words about food controlling us rings true for me. Im a slightly different binger because I don’t have the need to hide my food from anyone... but omg My life feels like it ruled by it! Im thinking about it morning noon and night.. I just want want want. Even when I’m uncomfortably full because I cant fit much due to my new sleeve.. i have anxiety because WANT more food! And if I wait a few minutes maybe I can fit another bite! Its ridiculous, I feel ridiculous. I know how dumb I sound in my head and how wrong it is but the my want and perceived need over rides this. A family member said to me the other day, “Just hang an old outfit up where you can see it everyday to remind yourself how far you’ve come!” In my head Im like ‘Bitch please! This is my SECOND weight loss surgery Id don’t think my fat clothes are going to be my motivational magic here!’ But thanks. I feel like overweight people are either just not honest about how they struggle or were just a special f*cked up few.. and those who haven’t been big just don’t understand the struggle. They don’t get were just not wired the same. I struggle EVERYDAY!!!! EVERY DAY is a battle with food and what and how much of it I will put in my mouth. Well it rule my thoughts today, or will i rule it. Its exhausting. 😫
You are so beautiful and so strong for what you have achieved. I've been struggling with weight loss and depression to for quite some time and it is so hard. We just have to stay strong and keep going on this adventure. :) P.S Flipping love your lip color.
You are beautiful inside and out. Find solace in that you are not alone. I can relate to every single word and your honesty is brave, raw, and refreshing. Remember, you have a tool now. Get back to basics. Rely on it. Don't look bad. Look forward. This too, shall pass. You are warrior. You just have to accept it and have the heart to be kind to yourself, forgive yourself and take the next breath and step forward. You got this, girl.
Difficult to say your very young and when I was your age I wasn't overweight. Now I have difficulty with my weight and your journey inspires me. I'm 55 and this journey is about taking responsibility for my health and life. Hayzzz it's the core issue that takes a lot. I have just spent a doing exactly the same
Morgan! the timing on this post couldnt have been any better, the last little while i myself have been struggling again with the same thing and i can relate to everything you said in this video 100% trying to get myself back on track and find out how to solve this issue that is getting out of control. Your not alone here and this #TeamLosingFam is amazing because we are all on the same mission here and can work together to better ourselves. I would love to hear about what decisions you make to help this situation so that i could possibly try and do something similar if not the same to better myself as well !! you got this girl!! #SNAPFAMBITCHES
I can identify with some of your feelings. I've relapsed after going from 280 lbs to almost 225 lbs and recently I've been eating poorly and excessively and gained back stunne 15 lbs. Hearing you talk about this helps me feel a little less isolated and ashamed.
This was so helpful for me right now. I've been suffering from depression that past few weeks and have seriously relapsed on my bad eating after losing 55 lbs over the past 2 years. I feel gross and out of control. I hope you will continue to update us on your efforts. I'm really lacking the motivation lately
Morgan, I have not been following you but have recently been marathon watching your videos and just love you. I must be the same person from another mother. I bet you hear that often. There are so many people out in the world with the same types of feelings, episodes and desires. You are a beautiful human being! You are gorgeous and so Inspirational. thank you for sharing your heart and help so many others. Can I ask what you have done sine this video to defeating the binge? You sound so down in this video and the fact that you can acknowledge this and want to move forward is such a success! I don't know you but I love you and thank you for being so candid! Praying for your continued journey!!! xoxo ~EdieAnne
I can relate 100%! I lost ~40 pounds last year and put it ALL back on this year. It's such a struggle and it's so embarrassing. I felt so controlled by food and it was the only thing I thought off and literally no motivation lasted for more than a few hours, but I've been praying and Jesus is seeing me through. it's a spiritual battle too, it's never too late to start over. Ask Him for help sweetheart, He's the only one who can set you free forever. It reminds me of Mt 12:45 "Then goeth he, and taketh with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first." Thank God we have help in Jesus. I'll be praying for you, love, know you're not alone!❤
This hit home to me as well! Thank you so much for making this video. I totally admired your journey but now I have complete respect for you and your message! You are brave and a rock star. keep your head up darling ❤😍
Morgan (and all the others here!) this is truly something I can connect with- There are two different kinds of binges - one is over eating as a normal pattern, the other truly BINGE eating - a vast amount of food, calorie dense in a short time- I recently found out I've got a couple of genes, which are common in the obese population- COMT, ANKK1 and DRD2- As depressing as this was (ie I can't just fix this once and for all) I'm lucky in that my regular doc did a residency at a university bariatric clinic. Together (as I had already read about it too) we decided I should try Vyvanse for the BED- I've tried every other drug know to man kind for the BED with no results- Well I've got to say on 60mg of Vyvanse I STOPPED cold the binging (I went off for a couple of days and it came right back) - my binges just stopped- really. BUT I'm still fat, gaining weight because I'm still not eating small enough portions, or healthy enough food- (I also found out I've FTO and SH2B1 and the very rare MC4R- all very bad genes and there are more- the 'stack' is long)- But now I know why I've failed at this my whole darn life. Binges are demoralizing- self-loathing after one just causes another one- But I'm telling everyone don't blame it ALL on yourself- really, if you were color blind would that be your fault? Sure we've got to deal with obesity- each in our own way but constantly feeling down and bad about your actions without knowing there are things beyond your control or hindering your progress and you must FIGHT to get help, you must educate yourself beyond the emotional component - You must do the research and get the tests so you can ask for the right kind of assistance- DO NOT let any doctor who dose not know about the genetic issues tell you it's just your fault and you're not trying hard enough. Find a surgeon, find a primary doc who is willing to learn and keep learning- who are willing to be on your side- Then find a shoulder to lean on- professional, family or friend- This is a hard and complicated fight we are all in- there are few 'easy' days or 'easy' ways out of obesity and staying on the healthy side of life- A day at a time- don't give up!
Oh how I wish I didn't understand what you're going through but unfortunately I very much do. Part of me I'd incredibly comforted to know I am not the only one that feels this way and part of me is sad that others go through the same internal, emotional, and society turmoil as I do. In fact it has gotten so bad that I finally am seeking the help of a nutritionist. Keep your chin up! I know you can put this disease in its place.
I have been watching your videos for awhile now and I seriously think we should be best friends, I can relate to you 100%. I'm dealing with PCOS, Mental Illnesses, Binge Eating, plus so much more. It'll be okay, stay strong!
I am in the same exact position. I have been hiding, not posting on my fitness insta/personal insta. At work I am very aware of my eating in front of my coworkers and clients so I plan my binges after work or on my days off I binge every time I'm hungry. This has really hit home. I am starting a workout challenge where I have to physically show up to a group class instead of my usual online/insta challenges. It starts the 24th but I'm letting myself eat and eat and eat. I don't want to do this anymore but that isn't motivating enough. And honestly I don't really know what is. I have read the comments and I am going to try the book others have suggested. I have gone almost 9 months without a therapist so maybe I need to find one in my new home town. CBT has been suggested to me for sleep, but never for BED.
Honey, you're human. Don't ever feel like a hypocrite when it happens. If anything, use your influence as motivation but never make yourself feel worse than you do when it happens. Remember, YOU. ARE. HUMAN. And you will come back from this. You did it before, you can do it again. You've got this 💜💜 Love you lots!!
I'm so happy you made this video because I feel like I have somebody to relate to. I've lost 80 pounds in the past two years! But the past few months I started binging again and I'm up 20 pounds. I know how you feel girl. I just made an appointment to get professional help. We will make it through this :) #teamlosing !!
There really are so many people dealing with this! I'm so happy you're seeking the professional help you need and deserve to get yourself.. I'm following in your footsteps xo
I've been diagnosed as suffering from anxiety and depression have lost 50lbs in a year but still have spells where I binge and purge normally happens when everything else is out of control except what I eat. You are doing brilliantly keep your chin up and focus on why you are doing this big hugs x
I been on my journey for now about five or six year and I still to this day have bingeing issues. I never had enough money for help but did my best to understand what was going on with me. I understand now that if I binge eat I'm am never to beat myself up. Don't give up on yourself!!👍
I'm in the same situation. I've been on my weight loss journey for two years now. I've lost a total of 170 pounds, almost half my weight. Self control has never been an issue for me till now.. I was always able to easily avoid all the bad foods. Last week I went on vacation and went a little over board with going out eating.. I thought this crazy addiction feeling would end there but it hasn't. I've had no self control over what I eat since I've been back. I'm even starting to scare myself honestly. I feel like since I'm soo close to my goal weight that I can just eat whatever. I've been avoiding the scale at all cost.
nobody is perfect. I think you've gotta want find something you're passionate about and let that drive you. it's the same way ive cut down my drinking. I realised that it was holding back my Rugby so I had a choice, keep drinking more and more or start playing and really enjoying rugby and therefore life.
I can relate. Whenever I feel like binging I force myself to get occupied with a project. Reorganize a closet, read a book, color. Whatever it is ... and if I can’t and just keep thinking about good I’ll binge on carrots or a vegetable. Only a couple hundred calories in a pound of veg.
Sometimes backsliding is part of the process. I was 300 lbs at my heaviest before I started dieting. I lost about 70 lbs over the course of a year. I was able to keep that weight off for a while, but my weight loss had stopped. I was still eating healthy, but I was not controlling portions, and I was not getting enough exercise. I felt discouraged at the lack of progress, and I started allowing myself a "cheat day" once a week just to get my dopamine sorted out. The diet I was on had really depressed me, and even seeing progress didn't cheer me up. I did this for a while, and my weight loss started again! I had read that cheat days can reignite weight loss when you plateau, and it actually worked, but that was the start of relapsing. My cheat days went from one meal a day, to one or two. Then I started having more than one cheat day. This went on for a while, and I put nearly all my weight back on. The combination of depression, and just being tired of constant vigilance when it came to food allowed me to backslide. I started getting serious about weight loss again last month, and I'm down 9 lbs today (I tend to lose fast at the beginning). I'm much older than you, and I'm glad you got your head straight so young. You will be fine. In time, you might have other relapses, but you will still be fine. If you keep your goals in sight, the rest of it will happen naturally. You've only lost if you give up.
thank you for sharing I also suffer from secretive binge eating I also had gastric sleeve surgery 2 years ago my highest weight was 325 after surgery I was down to 184 then I went into a depression and starting binge eating again I am now back up to 280/290 and slowly working my way back on track just trying to stay positive and having an awesome support system with me
I don't know you, but I want you to know I am thinking of you. Don't beat yourself up, just keep doing your best. It's a lifelong issue, but you can win!
other people think if you have lost weight and didn't binge for a while you are in recovery and already have got healthy relations with food and your body. but it's wrong. may be you are right that binge episodes will stay forever. it is really hard to understand that food starts consume your mind again despite the fact you are rather far on your weight loss journey. my last binge was 2 weeks ago and i was totally exhausted, isolated and sick. To stop it i planed to my family for a week. it helped but now i start planning next binge.... But disoders teach us to stand up again and again even after very painful falls. So keep going, giiirl (i say it and for you and for myself:))!
I suffer from bulimia, I would compulsively exercise after a binge and when not binging would be restricted to maybe 400 calories a week. I lost a lot of weight and I got compliments from almost everyone, most people thought it was so great. I spent literally every waking moment thinking about calories, food, and my shape. I went into recovery and I gained about 20kg in 2 years of recovery. I now hear people, who KNEW I had treatment from bulimia that I should lose weight again. I've recently been feeling fatigued and awful and I put it down to my obesity. (I had a BMI of 33) I tried so hard to not let it control my life, to eat a healthy amount of food and a reasonable amount of exercise but it has snapped.
It wouldn't be a journey without a little bit of struggle! Thank you for sharing all aspects of your journey. It's truly so helpful seeing the highs and the lows. I feel like I'm going down the shit stream of eating ALL the junk food and take out. I feel so gross about myself but I guess it can only go up from here. Little steps at a time😊❤️
I feel like shame makes it harder to stop because of the emotional defeated feeling. I've slipped up but found that if you're able to get back on the horse like nothing happened, it goes a little smoother. I understand you might have a more intense feeling than me but thats just what works for me. I used to eat 2-3k calories per meal back in the day. Try to forgive yourself for crashing and look forward from there.
Want to know what I did? After being 120lbs from excessive exercising and bulimia I just let myself go. I lived in a constant state of binging for 3-4yrs and went up to almost 400lbs and now after a gastric bypass not only I can’t binge but I’m also not fat. I’m not saying this will solve everyone’s problem and I do know most of it is physiological but if you can afford sleeve surgery get it and truly defeat binging and get control of your health life and body. Good luck!
I've noticed that when I eliminate sugar and carbs from my diet, I have less binge eating episodes. Whenever I have episodes, I limit my sugar/carb intake the next day.
I totally understand and relate to where you were in this video. I am confused, however, how you were able to over eat/"binge" post surgery though? You mentioned fast food, and I thought that bread and potatoes sat really heavy on your tummy after RNY. My surgery is set for this Friday 4/7.
Morgan Losing Your reply last week was the first time in years someone encouraged me. My friends fat shame me without even realising that they are. I have used cognitive therapy which is an incredible tool. You are very brave, I have hidden away for nearly 2 years so your honesty and openness really challenged me. Your reply was responsible for me taking control and changing. Thank you so much. Sometimes we need to be alone so we can do the work we need to do for ourselves. Stay strong and yes we can conquer this.❤️
I love you and if you need to talk im here I will keep you in my prayers, food addiction is not easy I beinge sometimes and understand how you feel I thank you for sharing this part of your journey I know its not easy you beat this before and I know you will again ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for being honest :) I've lost four stone but I'm struggling at the moment I seem to have a good three weeks then stuff my face and blow it :( xx
So idk if this would help other people but I saw someone in a group I'm in talk about an app that goes along with intermittent fasting but she uses it as a way to not binge. It basically starts a timer that says you have fasted for ____ amount of time. Idk if that would work for others but just wanted to share that tool. I can't remember what it's called but would probably come up in a search.
Right now I'm at 340...I've never said this to anyone but I feel like letting it out will help to motivate me. My binging is soooo bad and I just don't know how to stop or why I even do it. Struggling hard. Much love
I wonder how much kcal is she eating every day. im eating around 2000kcal every day, and i eat everything, ofcourse smaller portions and generally more healthy but still, with this kcal i can eat everything i want. is it possible that bindge attacks come when people eat too little calories and too healthy, they do not satisfy their apetites? i eat healthy but also nonhealthy things daily:D. and i have not had any binge desires. for example i eat regularly fast food once a week, ofcourse i coose small cheeseburger and small nuggets and small fries instead of some bick mac and big fries and so on, but i get my wishes satisfied and still stay inside my normal kcal amount also i eat sweets couple of times a week. sometimes i substitute a meal with 100g of chips or 100g of chocolate etc, cos this is the same kcal as normal meal, but i get my desires satisfied and again stay around 2000 kcal daily. i really think that if people allow themselves to eat not tooooo healthy, normally, there will be no bingeing. at least much lesss. my goal was to eat healthy, no diets, no big restrictions. ofcourse im loosing weight rather slowly, ca 1 to 2 kg per month, but im not afraid to relapse. i have had a strict diet and i lost a lot, but i was so miserable and after weight loss i got all back and more. so now i just learn hot to eat normally.... i really would like to recoment, that obese and overweight people who want to loose weight, do not be too strict. take 2000 to 2500 ckal a day for a goal. its much better than 3000 or 4000 like before and just learn to eat normal. you will loose weight anyway. not fast, but you will learn hot to eat normally and do it until the rest of your life. forget strict diets and regimes..... sometimes my eating goes out of control too, i eat maybe 3000 kcal per day, but i admit that that can hapen, so basically just do it one or two days but then get back to normal. without feeling too quilty. i have gained couple of kg also sometimes, but, i think that is very normal. i just contiune after that. its impossible to always loose and be on track. people, do not be too strickt to yourself, ok
My goodness if this doesn't hit home. I feel you so hard right now. I binge and it makes me depressed which makes me binge which ,Ames me depressed and repeat. I was doing so well. 70lbs down. Quit smoking in October and the binge eating took off. Gained 30 and i try so hard every damn day and can't seem to get in control of what I put in my mouth. Thank you for speaking out about this and for being so open and honest!
+Linds G Thank you for the support and for sharing a bit of your struggle. We got this💗
+Linds G Thank you for the support and for sharing a bit of your struggle. We got this💗
I also have binge eating disorder and PCOS. I have just recently started my own journey. I feel this on a spiritual level. Stay strong, Sugar.
+Tori Bravo You too love, thanks for the suppprt😘
It's oddly comforting to see you be so open about this. It's a struggle that more people need to talk about because it's so secretive. This makes me feel more connected to you and I appreciate you posting this ...
Thank you so much Laura.. It's amazing to see how many people are dealing with this
I find I have the hardest time right after going through something hard/stressful. It makes sense that you're here since you just went through your most recent surgery and the loss of your dog. Don't beat yourself up, show yourself grace, patience, and love. Take it day by day. Thank you for sharing your journey!
+Jancilyn Pettitt I didn't even think about those playing a role in my relapse until now and it totally makes sense that they would be some what of a trigger. Thank you for pointing that out and for your support💗
You're not alone sweetie!! I suffer through this too. My heart hurts when I think about it. When I get in that mindset, I retreat too and try to disappear. But I'm so proud of how strong you are for making this video. You are not only strong but beautiful inside and out. You inspire young, older women and men to keep going and be honest with themselves. Keep on moving forward and know you are a fighter! #peacefulladywarrior ❤️
I am literally so glad you made this.... I have always thought I am the only one really going through this... obviously I'm not the only one... but it is releasing hearing someone else feels the exact same way... I believe in you ❤️
You're definitely not alone! xo
Yes!!! I have felt totally alone in my own struggle of falling back into binge eating and feeling alone brings on the shame and makes it worse. It helps SOOOO much to know I'm not alone and there isn't something "wrong with me" - it's a legit struggle so many have. Thank you!!!
Do not be ashamed. Get yourself back on track and keep pushing yourself! I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life at the moment and I feel ashamed and disgusted in my eating habits as well. In 2009 I lost 75 lbs. and wasn't even trying and was so proud of myself and then I found out I was pregnant and while pregnant I kept telling myself I could eat whatever I wanted because I was eating for two and I gained all of the weight back. After having my son 6 years ago I still have not lost the weight again, in fact, I have gained even more and recently found out I have arthritis in my knees. I want to be around when my son is older and be able to watch him grow up into a man and I want to alleviate my arthritis so I am trying to eat healthier and I am walking more and going to physical therapy. I have a long road ahead and finding your channel and videos has shown me that and motivated me even more. But I am determined to lose this weight and be here for as long as I can. Thank you. Sending you good vibes and hoping you can work through this hard time.
I cannot tell you how hard this hits home for me. I've struggled with binge eating since I was 12. I'm 26 now. It is by far the hardest, most draining thing I've ever had to deal with and I don't wish it on anyone. I'm in the pre-op process for VSG and I've followed you on IG for a while, but just found your videos and I have to say that you are so inspiring! I too try to be as transparent about this entire journey and talking about BED is a challenge because I've kept it to myself for so long. Thank you for being open and sharing your story including your struggles. I know this is an old video, but I needed to hear this today and so many of us need to know that we're not alone.
I wonder if Morgan realizes how much of a motivational video this is, to know that nobody is perfect. This is possibly one of the best and realist fitness and weight loss videos I've watched. We are here for you Morgan and we appreciate how much of a massive achievement having the guts to make this video must have taken. You are still an inspiration to us all.
i am in tears bc this is my life. i thought i was alone. thank you for being honest & sharing this with us. thank you so much.
I have followed you on Insta for a while now, but never watched your UA-cam much. I saw your recent post about your surgery anniversary or whatever and decided to come watch since I’m considering surgery myself. Wow..this video is my life the last 6-7 months. I have really struggled with binging and hiding it from my husband and friends and family. I have avoided going around anyone because of weight gain and being so self conscious and have been disgusted with myself. I finally recently realized I have to get help because I’m killing myself. I told my husband about it and I keep putting off getting professional help but this has encouraged me so much to. It feels better to know you’re not alone in the struggle. Thank you for sharing your life and journey so honestly!
this is the first video of yours I've ever seen and it had me in tears! I can relate completely . I realize this is a old video but thank you I have been struggling a ton with this lately 💕💕
Thank you so much for talking about this! I've been struggeling with binge eating for over half of my life now. I still binge some days but at my worst I would binge multiple times a day. Most people seem to think it's about willpower I feel upset or stressed all I can think about is how food will make me feel better and it often makes me weak when I can't just say no.
I totally get what you mean, it can be so defeating. We're not alone though!
I am suffering from this same exact thing. And I just found out I have PCOS with just causes me to binge more. You would think that the dr telling me that losing some weight might help in conceiving a child, but I still can't get motivated. My family thinks I'm just lazy, but really I'm not. I also have rheumatoid arthritis, which makes it hard to workout. Which then gets me upset and I binge. Lots of factors involved. I've been considering seeing a counselor. I have never seen your channel before, and your video just so happened to pop up for me to see this morning. I think this is a sign and you now have a new follower ❤️
I SO relate to people just thinking you're lazy, I'm sorry you're having to deal with that :( Seeing a counselor really helped me, I'd say its def something to consider. Best of luck lady, sending lots of love and light your way xo
I can't tell you how much you've taken the words right out of my mouth. You can do this. We can do this! I also have been seeing a CBT therapist for years. The most important thing that I have learned from him is that The problem is not that you don't have ENOUGH motivation -- the problem is that you have TOO MUCH motivation. If you're anything like me, maybe you're a perfectionist or you expect a LOT from yourself, and that is the problem. Give yourself time to breathe during this time. Let yourself take a minute, take a step back, and ALLOW yourself time. It will be healing for you, and you don't have to explain yourself to anybody. We all need that. If I can add anything, reading the book "Brain Over Binge" was life changing for me. I highly recommend it to help you to see bingeing for what it really is. You are not powerless. You have defeated this and will defeat it again. Hang in there girlie.
+becksgetsbanded Ahhh thank you SO much for this comment.. Needed to hear so much of that💗
You're only human. And you know what? What's inspirational is being honest and showing ups and downs and how you can come back from difficulty. My two favorite mantras apply. "You can do hard things" and "This too shall pass". Hang in there girl!
girl I get you! hate how thoughts can consume the mind! I feel like I am in a tunnel and I can't get out. My mind gets so negative, and down. girl you'll get out of the cycle in time. celebrate ever small victory. that helps me get out a bit. sometimes you gotta just let it run it's course... which sucks. But I believe in you
+Sarah Rumbles I sooo feel you on that cycle girl.. Thank you for the love💗
This absolutely hit home. I am a year out from bypass surgery. 117pounds and still have this problem and I can tell you that your not alone in the depression and your eating disorder. There is hope and you can do this.
What have helped me with binge eating was to accept it and be part of me, also I made commitment to only binge on vegan or vegetarian foods ( I know its the last thing you want to binge on when you are in it) but you can eat a lot, the food just heals you with its nutrients while you binge and you don't put on weight, therefore you are less depressed after you come out of it and thats how you break that crazy cycle. Try it, what you've got to loose ? I hope that helps because resisting it for the rest of your life is impossible but the minute you " Fully" accept it, it will take the burden off your shoulders.
This is real. This is raw truth. This is so incredibly stripped down real. It takes a lot to make a video like this. It takes a lot to be THIS REAL. It takes a lot to be THIS vulnerable. YOU are amazing. You are an incredible person. Why are you so incredible? BECAUSE OF THIS VIDEO!!! It's frustrating to watch people who lose weight pretend that these issues don't still exist! They do! They are real!! You, sweet Morgan, are so mature, beautiful and incredible. This is just another hiccup in the road. You have so much strength inside to admit what has gone on with not only us but yourself. Admitting things to yourself is the hardest step! DO NOT beat yourself up! You are NOT a failure. You are forever going to be a recovering binge eater, just like myself, and so many out there.
I highly recommend Mindful eating book, overeaters journal, and the food and feelings workbook. I have used them and found them very helpful.
Hugs Morgan! Just take everything one day at a time.
Wow I respect your transparency and I see a lot of you at this moment in me.. A person would never know the struggle would binge eating. I'll be keeping you in prayer
This hits home for me so hard, I am struggling with binge eating disorder as well and I am 17 and around 350 lbs. I have had so much trouble gaining control of my life.. but you have given me hope that things can change and they can get better.. thank you for posting this video and being so real with us ❤️
this just hit a home with me. I went from 179-125 2009-13. over the last 4 years I feel like I'm back siding. habits that I thought I have beaten are creeping back up. now at 145lbs I feel like I am just not doing well anymore. Motivation is so hard for me too right now. Thank you for sharing I don't have anyone in can talk to about this. I'm taking it one day at a time right now.so thank you so much Morgan. we are all with you.
oh morgan, you're so strong for doing this! thank you for sharing and being open, real and pure. you deserve the world and the recovery you need. i love you ❤️ you're on the right path in life.
+APony4 Thank you so much for the love💗
Girl u are amazing this relapse is just another bump in the road and as long as u just keep trying u will meet ur goal again ly
Thank you so much for your honesty in this video. Right before watching this video I made the decision to go home earlier from my vacation, because my binging is so bad again after a good period. And I just can't get myself straight in another environment then my own home. I got so much support of watching this video and reading all the comments! I will also start my fight against binging again. I want to encourage you: You will get through this! And we can do this! Please Stay this honest. It helps yourself and a lot of other people, including me. Sending much love and strenght to you!
Morgan, I know that binge eating is a disorder, it serious, it's an issue but honest to God you're really weighing so much on yourself. You've done SO much and come SO far. You're AWESOME! At times like these, 'relapse', I think you should just pack your things and travel somewhere. Lose yourself in an experience bigger than food. Thinking about fitness, body, fashion goals...etc. just adds to the pressure. You don't need that. You need enjoyment and a break.
Morgan you are so brave and strong! You are taking the right steps forward, listen to yourself, make yourself go seek help, I am SO impressed by you! (I am a therapist and I appreciate your openness and honesty) it's okay to be human, it's okay to not to be perfect and you honestly blow me away by openly talking about your issues, I hope more people begin to do this as well. I know you've brought some comfort to females and males out there to know they aren't alone and that someone else knows exactly what they are feeling.
Keep fighting lady.....also the fact you are so honest and open makes you (in my opinion) more real and makes me want to follow you and watch more because I know that life is REAL, it's not all rainbows and butterflies! Keep it up! I got faith in you! Xo
Thank you so much Caitlyn! It feels amazing to have my vulnerability met with embrace
This is a great upfront video of our struggle with binge eating. I had 2 different weight loss surgeries, after falling victim to my binge eating disorder after my sleeve and having regain. I find the first and most important step in recovery is admitting we have this issue. I find myself going back to old habits still, but make a conscious effort to try and figure out why, and then turn my thoughts to something else. Also giving my all to God, and asking him to help me. I don't want to be a glutton anymore, I want to be free. Never give up, there are people in your corner fighting with you.💚
+celticjen14 Totally agree🙌🏼 Thanks for the support love, it really means a lot💗
Morgan - I love you and how honedt and real you are and you are nothing but an inspiration for me. I've recently hit my point that ive wanted to become healthy and lose weight, and its been a struggle because with stress, I binge eat and I become numb and spend money on food and dont care, etc. Ive struggled fighting it and have only managed to lose 10 lbs... but.. ive seen what youve done and youve fought. I know binge eating comes back and we mess up sometimes, but you knownth as t you wont let it control you again and just you fighting.. makes me want to fight... im back on track with my weight watchers and im trying to focus on the gym when im stressed amd trying not to just numb out.. you're amazing, dont give up
It's like you're taking the words out of my mouth. It is totally exhausting and binging gives you such tunnel vision. I recently started attending Overeaters Anonymous meetings and I'm learning what a hold food has on my life. It's super scary. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Thank you for your honesty; solidarity sister. Solidarity.
I am praying for you. I understand the binge eating disorder, I have struggled with that my whole life. You are not alone!
+Kari Fields 💗💗💗
Wow, Morgan, first I want to say how strong you are for dealing with this early on into your binge habit and sharing this with us, your losing team. When I was right around your age I was probably passed the 300lb mark and I was able to lose 120lb but I did not deal with the mental issues that come with it. Fast forward 8 years and I'm almost at the 300lb mark again and It's been exactly 3 days that I haven't binged. Unfortunately it took me regaining the weight and going through years of hating myself for it to finally realize that I'm strong and that this is not where I want to be, so I'm back to trying to focus on nourishing myself and exercising in a healthy way, not a punitive one. I was numb like you said for years. I would hide food from my family, lie that I was going to the gym but I was actually going to a buffet to stuff my face twice a day, I relate completely to eating in your car and just spending hundreds of dollars on food and not caring, not feeling anything actually other that a need to buy food and eat all of it and then more and then hating yourself and wanting to do horrible things. All that to say that you are so strong and try to focus on the fact that you are aware of it and it was early on. You're awesome and inspire so many of us and kind of take the shame a little our us because we can relate. Share more, make videos and let us send you love and understanding from around the world. I can honestly say that your a TRUE inspiration and I would love to meet you and give you a hug and say you're the best! I'm in NJ so whenever you're back on the east coast again I won't miss that opportunity!
Priscila, my goodness lady! Your sweet words have seriously touched me more than I can comprehend.. Thank you so much for supporting me and being vulnerable enough to share what you've been through.. I have so much faith in you! You are AMAZING girl! We can tackle this. xoxo
Thank you for being real. We appreciate videos that are honest and talk about the hard times like today.
+michaelal20 ❤️❤️❤️
I have binge eating disorder, and sometimes is so hard to deal with. Sometimes I Am so scared to be back where I was 9 months ago, before my VSG (279lbs)... Stay strong babe girl, you gonna fight this out and win!
This video hits home on so many levels for me! I've struggled with my weight and binge eating since I was in middle school. Like yourself I even got up to 292 when I was 19. Decided not to go to college at that time so I could focus on my life! Lost over 100 pounds in less then a year. But I traded binging for working out 6 hours a day every day! So not healthy. Needless to say I gained almost all that weight back in the years that followed! Now as an adult I took a more healthy balanced approach to losing weight and getting healthy. I'm not gonna like I still have days, even weeks where I binge. It is something I know I am always gonna struggle with. I used to go to Taco Bell to get a "snack" before I'd go to dinner with my boyfriend or friends. None of them every knew. Food consumed me. Know that you are not alone! ((hugs))
Also you're really brave & thank you so much for putting yourself out there for us!!!
Thank you for sharing this Morgan. This is something I struggle with too. I had the sleeve in 2015 and lost 150+ lbs, but put 40-50 lbs back on this past winter. It has been so defeating, isolating and all the other things you described. Anyway, I just really appreciate your honesty and openness...these are tough things to talk about. I am working hard to be open and honest about these things on my channel as well, but it's definitely a challenge. Just gotta keep trying...we only fail if we give up. That's the only way. Sending you love and light.
So relatable Mo 💗 #teamlosing is here for you! I have been struggling with BED lately also. You are so strong and I know you will beat the binge again!! 💗💗💗
Love you lady! So so much!
Thank you so much for sharing this Morgan. It;s so incredibly brave of you to do, and also helps others realise they aren't alone, we can all feel this way sometimes! Thank you, sending loads of love and thoughts your way
This really hits home! I lost 35 lbs last year, then got depressed and went out of control- gained 50 lbs in 6 months. It was like I went from complete health nut, to binging on fast food alone in my room until I was numb. I joined weight watchers finally about 5 weeks ago and I'm slowly getting back to my good habits but the fear of losing control is always there
wow, thank you so much for sharing this. binge eating is such a hard thing to be open about.
I so get it. I'm at the end of my Masters degree; final few weeks of the final semester, and I was contacted and told that I am close to not passing the course. The stress of that and the multiple projects I had this weekend and that I've had to relax on my workout plan to allocate more time to coursework led me to multiple episodes over the past few weeks. I've only gained 5 pounds, but it feels like an incredulously amount because I know how hard it is for me to lose any weight (and yet I still had lost 70 pounds in a year). I see myself so wrong now, but I know it's temporary. When the semester is over, I can reallocate my time to losing weight and all that, and when I do, I'm sure I'll make progress again, hand over fist.
I got distracted, but what I meant was that I understand your struggle. Whatever it is that's triggering you (stress seems to be the case for both of us) is only temporary and we both know the path to get back on track. Keep on keepin' on!
P.S. You are not a coward. You have accomplished so much and are genuinely such a genuine person! Thank you for sharing!
Take the words right out of my damn mouth. I hate that anyone else goes through this but it’s also nice knowing I’m not alone.
Thanks for being transparent, I too have my binging momemts. I do well then go back to the binging so your talk helped
Until I watched this video I had thought no one understood! But OMG you make me want to burst into tears because your words are validating me. Your words about food controlling us rings true for me. Im a slightly different binger because I don’t have the need to hide my food from anyone... but omg My life feels like it ruled by it! Im thinking about it morning noon and night.. I just want want want. Even when I’m uncomfortably full because I cant fit much due to my new sleeve.. i have anxiety because WANT more food! And if I wait a few minutes maybe I can fit another bite! Its ridiculous, I feel ridiculous. I know how dumb I sound in my head and how wrong it is but the my want and perceived need over rides this. A family member said to me the other day, “Just hang an old outfit up where you can see it everyday to remind yourself how far you’ve come!” In my head Im like ‘Bitch please! This is my SECOND weight loss surgery Id don’t think my fat clothes are going to be my motivational magic here!’ But thanks. I feel like overweight people are either just not honest about how they struggle or were just a special f*cked up few.. and those who haven’t been big just don’t understand the struggle. They don’t get were just not wired the same. I struggle EVERYDAY!!!! EVERY DAY is a battle with food and what and how much of it I will put in my mouth. Well it rule my thoughts today, or will i rule it. Its exhausting. 😫
You are so beautiful and so strong for what you have achieved. I've been struggling with weight loss and depression to for quite some time and it is so hard. We just have to stay strong and keep going on this adventure. :)
P.S Flipping love your lip color.
+Ashley Scarman Thanks so much girl! Yes we do💗
Thank you for talking about this so openly!~ I know a lot of us can relate. I believe in you ❤️
thank you so much girl xox
You are beautiful inside and out. Find solace in that you are not alone. I can relate to every single word and your honesty is brave, raw, and refreshing. Remember, you have a tool now. Get back to basics. Rely on it. Don't look bad. Look forward. This too, shall pass. You are warrior. You just have to accept it and have the heart to be kind to yourself, forgive yourself and take the next breath and step forward. You got this, girl.
Difficult to say your very young and when I was your age I wasn't overweight. Now I have difficulty with my weight and your journey inspires me. I'm 55 and this journey is about taking responsibility for my health and life.
Hayzzz it's the core issue that takes a lot. I have just spent a doing exactly the same
Morgan! the timing on this post couldnt have been any better, the last little while i myself have been struggling again with the same thing and i can relate to everything you said in this video 100% trying to get myself back on track and find out how to solve this issue that is getting out of control. Your not alone here and this #TeamLosingFam is amazing because we are all on the same mission here and can work together to better ourselves. I would love to hear about what decisions you make to help this situation so that i could possibly try and do something similar if not the same to better myself as well !! you got this girl!! #SNAPFAMBITCHES
Check out the book brain over binge! It gives a different perspective on binge eating disorder. You may find it helpful! Best wishes.
+Janine Signore My sister raves about that book! I'll check it out for sure.. thanks for the recommendation😊
I can identify with some of your feelings. I've relapsed after going from 280 lbs to almost 225 lbs and recently I've been eating poorly and excessively and gained back stunne 15 lbs. Hearing you talk about this helps me feel a little less isolated and ashamed.
This was so helpful for me right now. I've been suffering from depression that past few weeks and have seriously relapsed on my bad eating after losing 55 lbs over the past 2 years. I feel gross and out of control. I hope you will continue to update us on your efforts. I'm really lacking the motivation lately
Sorry to hear you're dealing with this girl :( I'll definitely document this journey xo
I just started watching you today. Bless your heart and you are very brave. I wish all the best for you. ❤️🙏
Morgan, I have not been following you but have recently been marathon watching your videos and just love you. I must be the same person from another mother. I bet you hear that often. There are so many people out in the world with the same types of feelings, episodes and desires. You are a beautiful human being! You are gorgeous and so Inspirational. thank you for sharing your heart and help so many others. Can I ask what you have done sine this video to defeating the binge? You sound so down in this video and the fact that you can acknowledge this and want to move forward is such a success! I don't know you but I love you and thank you for being so candid! Praying for your continued journey!!! xoxo ~EdieAnne
I can relate 100%! I lost ~40 pounds last year and put it ALL back on this year. It's such a struggle and it's so embarrassing. I felt so controlled by food and it was the only thing I thought off and literally no motivation lasted for more than a few hours, but I've been praying and Jesus is seeing me through. it's a spiritual battle too, it's never too late to start over. Ask Him for help sweetheart, He's the only one who can set you free forever. It reminds me of Mt 12:45 "Then goeth he, and taketh with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first."
Thank God we have help in Jesus. I'll be praying for you, love, know you're not alone!❤
This hit home to me as well! Thank you so much for making this video. I totally admired your journey but now I have complete respect for you and your message! You are brave and a rock star. keep your head up darling ❤😍
Morgan (and all the others here!) this is truly something I can connect with- There are two different kinds of binges - one is over eating as a normal pattern, the other truly BINGE eating - a vast amount of food, calorie dense in a short time-
I recently found out I've got a couple of genes, which are common in the obese population- COMT, ANKK1 and DRD2- As depressing as this was (ie I can't just fix this once and for all) I'm lucky in that my regular doc did a residency at a university bariatric clinic.
Together (as I had already read about it too) we decided I should try Vyvanse for the BED- I've tried every other drug know to man kind for the BED with no results- Well I've got to say on 60mg of Vyvanse I STOPPED cold the binging (I went off for a couple of days and it came right back) - my binges just stopped- really.
BUT I'm still fat, gaining weight because I'm still not eating small enough portions, or healthy enough food- (I also found out I've FTO and SH2B1 and the very rare MC4R- all very bad genes and there are more- the 'stack' is long)- But now I know why I've failed at this my whole darn life.
Binges are demoralizing- self-loathing after one just causes another one- But I'm telling everyone don't blame it ALL on yourself- really, if you were color blind would that be your fault?
Sure we've got to deal with obesity- each in our own way but constantly feeling down and bad about your actions without knowing there are things beyond your control or hindering your progress and you must FIGHT to get help, you must educate yourself beyond the emotional component - You must do the research and get the tests so you can ask for the right kind of assistance- DO NOT let any doctor who dose not know about the genetic issues tell you it's just your fault and you're not trying hard enough.
Find a surgeon, find a primary doc who is willing to learn and keep learning- who are willing to be on your side- Then find a shoulder to lean on- professional, family or friend-
This is a hard and complicated fight we are all in- there are few 'easy' days or 'easy' ways out of obesity and staying on the healthy side of life- A day at a time- don't give up!
Oh how I wish I didn't understand what you're going through but unfortunately I very much do. Part of me I'd incredibly comforted to know I am not the only one that feels this way and part of me is sad that others go through the same internal, emotional, and society turmoil as I do. In fact it has gotten so bad that I finally am seeking the help of a nutritionist. Keep your chin up! I know you can put this disease in its place.
I have been watching your videos for awhile now and I seriously think we should be best friends, I can relate to you 100%. I'm dealing with PCOS, Mental Illnesses, Binge Eating, plus so much more. It'll be okay, stay strong!
+Nicole Barker Thanks lovey, same to you💓
Thanks for making yourself so vulnerable. You are going to be ok.
I am in the same exact position. I have been hiding, not posting on my fitness insta/personal insta. At work I am very aware of my eating in front of my coworkers and clients so I plan my binges after work or on my days off I binge every time I'm hungry. This has really hit home. I am starting a workout challenge where I have to physically show up to a group class instead of my usual online/insta challenges. It starts the 24th but I'm letting myself eat and eat and eat. I don't want to do this anymore but that isn't motivating enough. And honestly I don't really know what is. I have read the comments and I am going to try the book others have suggested. I have gone almost 9 months without a therapist so maybe I need to find one in my new home town. CBT has been suggested to me for sleep, but never for BED.
We love you!! NO MATTER WHAT. ❤️
Honey, you're human. Don't ever feel like a hypocrite when it happens. If anything, use your influence as motivation but never make yourself feel worse than you do when it happens. Remember, YOU. ARE. HUMAN. And you will come back from this. You did it before, you can do it again. You've got this 💜💜 Love you lots!!
I'm so happy you made this video because I feel like I have somebody to relate to. I've lost 80 pounds in the past two years! But the past few months I started binging again and I'm up 20 pounds. I know how you feel girl. I just made an appointment to get professional help. We will make it through this :) #teamlosing !!
There really are so many people dealing with this! I'm so happy you're seeking the professional help you need and deserve to get yourself.. I'm following in your footsteps xo
I've been diagnosed as suffering from anxiety and depression have lost 50lbs in a year but still have spells where I binge and purge normally happens when everything else is out of control except what I eat. You are doing brilliantly keep your chin up and focus on why you are doing this big hugs x
Thank you so much for being so honest and candid. I totally get it and understand as I also suffer binge eating too.
I been on my journey for now about five or six year and I still to this day have bingeing issues. I never had enough money for help but did my best to understand what was going on with me. I understand now that if I binge eat I'm am never to beat myself up.
Don't give up on yourself!!👍
+Mellaenah 💗💗
I'm in the same situation. I've been on my weight loss journey for two years now. I've lost a total of 170 pounds, almost half my weight. Self control has never been an issue for me till now.. I was always able to easily avoid all the bad foods. Last week I went on vacation and went a little over board with going out eating.. I thought this crazy addiction feeling would end there but it hasn't. I've had no self control over what I eat since I've been back. I'm even starting to scare myself honestly. I feel like since I'm soo close to my goal weight that I can just eat whatever. I've been avoiding the scale at all cost.
I totally relate to being close to your goal and losing that discipline.. Don't give up love! Addressing the issue head on really helps!
nobody is perfect. I think you've gotta want find something you're passionate about and let that drive you. it's the same way ive cut down my drinking. I realised that it was holding back my Rugby so I had a choice, keep drinking more and more or start playing and really enjoying rugby and therefore life.
+Liam Noone Congrats on cutting down on drinking!
I can relate. Whenever I feel like binging I force myself to get occupied with a project. Reorganize a closet, read a book, color. Whatever it is ... and if I can’t and just keep thinking about good I’ll binge on carrots or a vegetable. Only a couple hundred calories in a pound of veg.
Sometimes backsliding is part of the process. I was 300 lbs at my heaviest before I started dieting. I lost about 70 lbs over the course of a year. I was able to keep that weight off for a while, but my weight loss had stopped. I was still eating healthy, but I was not controlling portions, and I was not getting enough exercise. I felt discouraged at the lack of progress, and I started allowing myself a "cheat day" once a week just to get my dopamine sorted out. The diet I was on had really depressed me, and even seeing progress didn't cheer me up. I did this for a while, and my weight loss started again! I had read that cheat days can reignite weight loss when you plateau, and it actually worked, but that was the start of relapsing. My cheat days went from one meal a day, to one or two. Then I started having more than one cheat day. This went on for a while, and I put nearly all my weight back on. The combination of depression, and just being tired of constant vigilance when it came to food allowed me to backslide. I started getting serious about weight loss again last month, and I'm down 9 lbs today (I tend to lose fast at the beginning). I'm much older than you, and I'm glad you got your head straight so young. You will be fine. In time, you might have other relapses, but you will still be fine. If you keep your goals in sight, the rest of it will happen naturally. You've only lost if you give up.
thank you for sharing I also suffer from secretive binge eating I also had gastric sleeve surgery 2 years ago my highest weight was 325 after surgery I was down to 184 then I went into a depression and starting binge eating again I am now back up to 280/290 and slowly working my way back on track just trying to stay positive and having an awesome support system with me
Sending lots of love and positivity your way girl! You've got this xo
I don't know you, but I want you to know I am thinking of you. Don't beat yourself up, just keep doing your best. It's a lifelong issue, but you can win!
other people think if you have lost weight and didn't binge for a while you are in recovery and already have got healthy relations with food and your body. but it's wrong. may be you are right that binge episodes will stay forever. it is really hard to understand that food starts consume your mind again despite the fact you are rather far on your weight loss journey. my last binge was 2 weeks ago and i was totally exhausted, isolated and sick. To stop it i planed to my family for a week. it helped but now i start planning next binge.... But disoders teach us to stand up again and again even after very painful falls. So keep going, giiirl (i say it and for you and for myself:))!
+Pan Da Yes! Thank you so much for sharing💜
I suffer from bulimia, I would compulsively exercise after a binge and when not binging would be restricted to maybe 400 calories a week. I lost a lot of weight and I got compliments from almost everyone, most people thought it was so great. I spent literally every waking moment thinking about calories, food, and my shape.
I went into recovery and I gained about 20kg in 2 years of recovery. I now hear people, who KNEW I had treatment from bulimia that I should lose weight again. I've recently been feeling fatigued and awful and I put it down to my obesity. (I had a BMI of 33) I tried so hard to not let it control my life, to eat a healthy amount of food and a reasonable amount of exercise but it has snapped.
It wouldn't be a journey without a little bit of struggle! Thank you for sharing all aspects of your journey. It's truly so helpful seeing the highs and the lows. I feel like I'm going down the shit stream of eating ALL the junk food and take out. I feel so gross about myself but I guess it can only go up from here. Little steps at a time😊❤️
such a beautiful and strong person :) stay positive. everyone struggles. maybe eat a little bit more so thr cravings will get better. i know that feel
everybody slips my friend, brave girl for opening up.
+ich bin ein dion thank you💕
I cried and cried because I Feel the same and I fucking really thought I was alone with this problem. I don't know what to say but I LOVE YOU❤
I feel like shame makes it harder to stop because of the emotional defeated feeling. I've slipped up but found that if you're able to get back on the horse like nothing happened, it goes a little smoother. I understand you might have a more intense feeling than me but thats just what works for me. I used to eat 2-3k calories per meal back in the day. Try to forgive yourself for crashing and look forward from there.
I love you so much. I'm always here❤️ LOL AND ARE WE THE SAME PERSON?!
Sammy-Marie Grimm This was totally inspired by your video dude💗 Made me feel okay about talking about it, love you lady😘
that makes me so happy
Want to know what I did? After being 120lbs from excessive exercising and bulimia I just let myself go. I lived in a constant state of binging for 3-4yrs and went up to almost 400lbs and now after a gastric bypass not only I can’t binge but I’m also not fat. I’m not saying this will solve everyone’s problem and I do know most of it is physiological but if you can afford sleeve surgery get it and truly defeat binging and get control of your health life and body. Good luck!
Love you babe 😘😘 we all go through it!
I've noticed that when I eliminate sugar and carbs from my diet, I have less binge eating episodes. Whenever I have episodes, I limit my sugar/carb intake the next day.
You're GORGEOUS!!! Deal with it!
I'm sorry that you are taking this step back
Just came across your video, this resonates 100% with me too.
I totally understand and relate to where you were in this video. I am confused, however, how you were able to over eat/"binge" post surgery though? You mentioned fast food, and I thought that bread and potatoes sat really heavy on your tummy after RNY. My surgery is set for this Friday 4/7.
I am in the same place. Thank you for sharing today. We are both in the same space today...I just binged..
+Kiwi zNews Stay strong boo, we can conquer this💞
Morgan Losing Your reply last week was the first time in years someone encouraged me. My friends fat shame me without even realising that they are.
I have used cognitive therapy which is an incredible tool.
You are very brave, I have hidden away for nearly 2 years so your honesty and openness really challenged me.
Your reply was responsible for me taking control and changing. Thank you so much.
Sometimes we need to be alone so we can do the work we need to do for ourselves.
Stay strong and yes we can conquer this.❤️
I love you and if you need to talk im here I will keep you in my prayers, food addiction is not easy I beinge sometimes and understand how you feel I thank you for sharing this part of your journey I know its not easy you beat this before and I know you will again ❤❤❤
Love you, Morgan
Thank you for this. 💙
+alisha3241 💜
FatMeetsFire has a video where he admitted still binging. It's all a journey.
Thank you so much for being honest :) I've lost four stone but I'm struggling at the moment I seem to have a good three weeks then stuff my face and blow it :( xx
So idk if this would help other people but I saw someone in a group I'm in talk about an app that goes along with intermittent fasting but she uses it as a way to not binge. It basically starts a timer that says you have fasted for ____ amount of time. Idk if that would work for others but just wanted to share that tool. I can't remember what it's called but would probably come up in a search.
That sounds interesting - do you know what it is called?
Bethan Strangward I can't remember. Sorry. But I bet if you search fasting app it might come up
I'm gonna try to find this, sounds pretty cool! Thanks for the info! xo
Girl I could have made this post myself. I hate that this will be a life long struggle 😢
We can conquer this girl. A life long struggle just means a lifelong fight, I know we're strong enough! xoxo
Right now I'm at 340...I've never said this to anyone but I feel like letting it out will help to motivate me. My binging is soooo bad and I just don't know how to stop or why I even do it. Struggling hard. Much love
You're not alone babe. Stay strong xo
I wonder how much kcal is she eating every day. im eating around 2000kcal every day, and i eat everything, ofcourse smaller portions and generally more healthy but still, with this kcal i can eat everything i want. is it possible that bindge attacks come when people eat too little calories and too healthy, they do not satisfy their apetites? i eat healthy but also nonhealthy things daily:D. and i have not had any binge desires. for example i eat regularly fast food once a week, ofcourse i coose small cheeseburger and small nuggets and small fries instead of some bick mac and big fries and so on, but i get my wishes satisfied and still stay inside my normal kcal amount also i eat sweets couple of times a week. sometimes i substitute a meal with 100g of chips or 100g of chocolate etc, cos this is the same kcal as normal meal, but i get my desires satisfied and again stay around 2000 kcal daily. i really think that if people allow themselves to eat not tooooo healthy, normally, there will be no bingeing. at least much lesss. my goal was to eat healthy, no diets, no big restrictions. ofcourse im loosing weight rather slowly, ca 1 to 2 kg per month, but im not afraid to relapse. i have had a strict diet and i lost a lot, but i was so miserable and after weight loss i got all back and more. so now i just learn hot to eat normally....
i really would like to recoment, that obese and overweight people who want to loose weight, do not be too strict. take 2000 to 2500 ckal a day for a goal. its much better than 3000 or 4000 like before and just learn to eat normal. you will loose weight anyway. not fast, but you will learn hot to eat normally and do it until the rest of your life. forget strict diets and regimes.....
sometimes my eating goes out of control too, i eat maybe 3000 kcal per day, but i admit that that can hapen, so basically just do it one or two days but then get back to normal. without feeling too quilty. i have gained couple of kg also sometimes, but, i think that is very normal. i just contiune after that. its impossible to always loose and be on track. people, do not be too strickt to yourself, ok