I've been listening to this for awhile now. And I feel like I need to rant a little bit. This is both calming and escaping at the same time. Let me 100% honest with everyone who happens to see this. Recently I've changed everything in my life thinking that it was necessary to do so. I've always been in deep depression ever since my mom past away years ago. Once she was gone, no one and I mean no one came to check on me at all. I was only 11 years old at the time and seeing my mother completely lifeless was so.........hard to even think about. I honestly thought it was all one big nightmare, but sadly it wasn't. For the past 9 years now ever since her passing. I have constant nightmares of the same day. It has never went away and tbh, I'm used to it by now. Recently I got rid of the people in my life who I thought actually cared in some way, but they never did. I thought I had friends but really I never had any. My entire family despises everything about me because I'm not normal. They call me worthless and a complete disappointment but I choose to just ignore it now. Anyway like I said, I'm trying to move on and better myself and maybe one day. Have a family of my own and make sure my children never have the same thing happen to them. I just figured I should share my story if you read it, thank you. I just needed a place to rant about it. And honestly don't feel bad about my experience I'm doing better than I was a couple months ago. Anyway hope you all have a Fantastic day and Keep on smiling.
Glad you stayed strong and pushed through life. Things do get better with time and hopefully your family changes for the better but , Im really sorry about your mom's passing. I'm sure she's watching over you everyday and is proud of how far you've come as a person since you were little. Anyways. Goodnight 😄
hey man i had the same problem with my dad he killed himself like 6 years ago and i wanna talk to somebody that cam relate to what happened to me he died when i was 6 and ever since that day I have cried myself to sleep because my mom told me the reason and it was because I always stayed in my room and sleep and he got tired of it because he wanted me to spend time with him more and all he had to do was ask and he didn't. I used to play with my toys a lot as a kid and now a days every time i touch one I think about him and when he died i had so much to ask and i wanted him to teach me how to drive cause my mom she has trouble talk and not crying, sometimes she cries so much while driving down that one street we have to pull over for like ten minutes and I am sorry for saying all of this i just can not hold it in anymore thanks stranger.
I want to be able to melt into someone’s arms and know I’m fully loved and that they have my back I want a support system I want to feel like there’s a point to my life I want to be able to relax and breathe I’m so tired There's no limit for what people expect from me It's always my fault I'm always the one who's apologizing I keep pushing and I never get the break that I need I'm so tired My friends are slowly drifting away My family is steadily stopping to care My grades are declining I stop socializing I'm. So. Tired.
Hey man. Stranger here. I don’t think this comment will help you, but I’ll be honest and tell you that whether it helps you or not isn’t my problem. You’re the only one that knows how you feel and has to live with that. I understand you. I understand how you feel. I wish I could tell you it gets better but it doesn’t. Over time, you just learn how to let it hurt you less. It doesn’t go away, the pain you’re feeling is just replaced by new stresses, pains, losses. But its not all bad. I promise. It’s been awhile since you left this and I hope you’re feeling better now, but if you’re not, *It will turn out alright.* Maybe not great, maybe not how you would’ve liked, and definitely not the way you expected, but at the end of it all you’ll be able to accept what’s happened in your life and how you’ve lived it. That doesn’t do a lot of good for you now, I know. You might not care much about the light at the end of the tunnel , hell, I don’t. But whatever sliver of hope and optimism you have left, please please PLEASE hold onto it and don’t let it go. No matter how dark, bad, it gets. No matter how much you want to end it all, keep going. Please. Stranger on the internet, I don’t know you, you don’t know me, so odds are this just annoyed you more than anything else. But I promise that one day you’ll be able to genuinely smile again, without a filter or a mask. Without the weight of the world holding you down. So please keep going. Much love man. Stay safe.
Hey everyone, I hope all of you reading this, whoever you are, wherever you’re from, have an awesome day/night. It gets better guys. I’m proud of you guys for being strong!
Sometimes i wonder "What am i doing with my life'' Im currently sitting in a dark room with my head on my desk crying, Just wanting too go back too the times when i could truly smile, But hey thats life.
Listening to this whilst the room being cold, your hands cold. It being wet/rainy, extremely windy outside and the window open to see and hear all of it, is such a great feeling.
I love listening to this only because I either want to cry, overthink,or just something I want to be sad at random times and this is the best for me to listen to I can also play this when I sleep and it's really calming but if you can relate, the ads kinda annoying it.
I have a memory of my parents fighting in front of my brother and me. Blood was on the walls and things were shattered. The police came and aressted my father for 35 hours. Even when he was the one who had done everything. And this song reminds me crying in my room praying to hope that they will stop. 7 years later. I'm ten now, thinking of the past. And now thinking if I ever become a parent I will never hit my children as much as my father did to me and my brother. It's all burning memory. Ingraved in my skull. I got back into contact with him. And we went to his house for the weekend a couple of times. More than 20. He has a new wife and two new children. He seems happy. With them. He still used to yell at use at his house and we were forced to take care of his kids while they went out. It was scary. And I didn't want to be there. And whenever we were about to leave to go there I would ball my eyes out and ask my mom if I can stay. But she said no. And told me to stop being such a bitch. Because my father wanted to get custody of me and my brother and tell us that my mom was the bad guy. And when I told them I was trans and queer. His wife told me it was just a phase and to stop being a bitch and act like a girl. Not a boy. Since they were christian, they only thought that gods marriage was only with a male and female. I wish I will not go back there. And I never hope I will. So, Chris, if you see this. Did I fail you as a son? I'm sorry, it was a mistake I never meant to actually be who I thought I was, and I'm sorry. See you someday..
Sobbing. I am literally sobbing, thinking of all my life choices and how I'm doing currently. Fact of the matter is, I'm not doing so well. I want to scream and cry until I physically can't anymore, or until I feel nothing at all. I'm so tired of this overwhelmed and overbearing depressive feeling. . . I can't do anything anymore, I can't even have a good day and look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I look pretty. I don't. I never do. Ever. I'm so tired, I just wanna give up. It seems so much easier, than living here. . .
I’m 4 months late but hey. Don’t bare yourself down like this. The problem is the intrusive thoughts. There are always days where you will feel like this but what can you do to fix this? There is always one thing that keeps you going whether it’s your family or friends or I don’t know. But my point is. You keep going & do you! You’re beautiful as ever, don’t ever give up because that’s when the real trouble kicks in. Crying is the least of the problems. Everyone cries & as a guy I cry hella too. So just let it out if needed, speak to someone love 💓 never give upppp
Whoever is reading this I hope you’re okay, always remember you’re loved and wanted but it not seem that way. I love your smile, laugh, awkward moments, it makes you who you are, I love you🖤
look. You may be hurt from the past, or you may be happy from the past, but now, well it doesnt matter. If you had something bad happen to you in the past. Sooo what, you cant change it can you? No you cant, live with it, learn from it, cry from it, be happy from it. Dont let the past effect the life you are living in now, doesnt matter how bad it is. Live your life 1 step at a time and dont let anything stop you- myself
To anyone that wants no adds on any vid, you can skip until theres like a minute left from it, let it end, and when it ends usually an adds pops up, and after that you replay and there are no adds,, i hope this helps😺
It was a girl, a girl who changed my life like i was my entire life seeing white and black and after seeing her my eyes beginned to see colors that I've never seen i begin to talk to her, in my mind was already the whole marriage ceremony in my mind, but when i found out she is lesbian and taken i feeled more embarrassed than the guy who start the whole covid thing
hello there! i hope you're doing good ^^ life can be tough, but never give up! even if i don't know you, you're beautiful, talented and im so proud of you. life's worth living, i promise
It is okay, but not acceptable, especially the family thing. I'm experiencing the same thing rn and I really hope everything will be fine in the future. Never loose hope and whatever happens, there will be a person or more people who love u and always will. Just know how proud I am at u for going that far
It is ok you can be like that but nothing can hurt us we need to stay strong in the future I am sure an one day you can have an good peaceful day. One day...
I was just sitting here listening to this and I just started crying. I don't know why but the tears just started rolling down my face and I just realized how much of a failure I am and how truly fucked up of a person I am.
people who's going through breakups. well at least you know what it is like to be loved, people who are suffering from loneliness and never experienced what its like to be and feel loved like that hurts even more.
y estoy aquí sentado frente a mi computador echado sobre la silla y a mi lado el ventilador girando, esta canción me hace sentir nostalgia, paz y tristeza me hace recordar los pocos años que fui feliz y ahora solo me limito a observar sin hacer o decir nada mientras veo como mi vida se derrumba poco a poco y me enamoro de alguien inexistente que es muy similar a mi... estoy muy mal... estoy.... cansado
Recuerdo en verano de 2021,no paraba de escuchar esta canción para relajarme e ir a mi RD de kimetsu,me trae demasiados recuerdos cada que la escucho,nunca logre ir pero tengo el sentimiento de que los personajes me siguen esperando
this helps me calm me down whether it's anger, sadness, or even calmness. i play this in the car, on my speakers, on my headphones. Can never get enough of it❤
Pov: your about to finish your minecraft house with the bros and it's getting late so you ask if they want to play again tomorrow. They say yes, you tell them goodnight and shut it down... that was 7 years ago.
I'm 14 and I don't know what my life is everyday I wake up almost miss the bus because I go to bed at 1-2 am every night because I can't sleep and I'm stressed af and i don't have a really supporting family and my friends don't even care about my well being and I come home after school play games, watch TV, and listen to music then fall asleep and wake up at around 6:30 in the moring everyday bus leaves at 6:45 and school starts at 7 I just don't know what to do anymore I feel lost
No hablo inglés pero te comprendo me pasa lo mismo la verdad es que esa sensación es realmente triste y frustrante pero ánimo seguro encontrás un pasatiempo o novia, algo interesante te pasara, por lo menos eso espero que te pase y me pasé a mí...
This song makes me feel emotions I never felt before it scratches my brain in the right places it makes me wanna end it all but doesn’t at the same time
It gives that headache you get before crying. laying down , my breathing matches up with the music. I want it to not fade. to not be alone with my thoughts. why do I only ever vent in places like this, where no one will or wants to see this? Is it comforting?I'm empty currently.
I’m glad this popped up, I’m absolutely wasted. Gota get up early to take a test for college then work after that, and I jus feel alone and like I can’t do it much longer, but this….this right here really helps me calm down and relax for a min
Hoy mi mascota ha fallecido estoy destrozado y no tengo ganas de hacer nada voy a intentar desahogarme con esta linda canción. Siempre te voy a querer escobi ♥️♥️♥️
I know it's a temporary thing, it always is. I have extreme mood swings for no reason, one moment I mad another sad or lonely. Lately life has just been all a blur, my life right now is... complicated. Everyone here had something bad happen to them, I'm reading through comments and realizing I'm very lucky but it still doesn't change. I'm mentally exhausted for the stupidest things, I tend to blame it on puberty. Throughout my childhood I've had pretty good moments, I had a great mother not the best but she was there and I love her so much. Memories to remember with her that'll never change, good and bad. For what I'm going through currently is isolation, most kids my age are mainly introverts but I feel pretty neutral. Recently not even a month ago I've been homeschooled for not paying attention during class, my dad didn't care for school anyways. Most would really like it but for me I feel..idk like I'm missing out on just life in general. So right now I'm homeschooled and isolated, another thing is that I get lonely a lot. Ever since I was little I've longed for a lover, I forced things for no reason trying to find someone that isn't there. Highschool I thought would be my opportunity to find someone to love me and hold me in their arms, but I don't even know anymore...I just feel..unloved. Because of how long I've been without a father it's super weird for my dad to hug we fully especially with my breasts, so I don't get a full embrace which is what I long for and still never have gotten. I don't think I've ever gotten a full comfortable loving embrace, I want to feel the warmth of another so badly it's painful...I just want affection
Although it is quite depressing, and it gives off the same vibes as this wallowing feeling of sadness, it helps me with studying. It's hard to find music which balances between being something which wont distract but then again, something you'd feel something about, and this song does just that.
I listen to this song when I am just inches away from giving up, like today has been completely fucking shit I literally just wanna fucking leave my house go to this hill and listen to this song at my favorite spot and stare at the stars and wonder is the effort is even worth it ya know?
Im generally tired of every person I get close to leave me and just before they do leave I always show my worst self because of the fear of a other person leaving me but I just don't want to care anymore I'm so un-fucking-believably tired of the bullshit I always try my hardest but no one else does, I always give but no one gives me anything anymore, and I always listen to people but no one listens to me.. I am so tired of all this bullshit
Listening to this almost makes me cry. For anyone who cares I’m going to rant and let it all out. Ever since I was a young toddler or even before that, my mom and dad have hated each other so much they would have constant fight and sometimes they got physical. I remember crying all the time and the sounds of glass breaking. Its been a loop because my mom always forgives my dad and she constantly gets drunk which also makes the fighting more frequent. They fight so much I barely even care anymore. My little siblings, 7 and 9, have to deal with the same bullshit I do and I hear them crying and begging them to stop fighting. It really reminds me of my childhood, and I feel terrible just hearing them cry like that. And my mom wonders why I hate her so much and she even got so drunk she sexually abused me and my little sister when I was in second grade, and the next morning she said sorry, but then said we probably deserved it. I had my whole damn childhood broken away and i wanna leave this house so bad.
I've been listening to this since 2019 everytime i listen to it i remember memories and i feel unreal like i don't exist like i'm in someones body, i love this song 💗!!
The background really gives off the vibe you want, if anymore I’m having a difficult time right now, life is too sad sometimes, it’s normal, just need someone to talk to.
Life is just a void of emotions. One second you can be the happiest person alive, the next you can feel like absolute shit. You never know what's next. The only choice you have is to embrace reality. There is no eternal happiness in this world. Everything is temporary including joy. There's always something that comes along to end it. We always try to delay whatever will end our joy. But it's inevitable. That's just life. A never ending tug of war for satisfaction, but in the end even if you win, the victory is always so short lived. You try to mask any signs of unhappiness by putting on a fake smile but very soon your true emotions come to light. No matter what, the feeling of sadness will forever take over joy no matter how hard you try. If it's not sadness, it's anger for the fact that we cannot stay happy forever. If not anger, there is always another emotion next in line. Worry, disgust, discomfort, so many emotions that invade any feeling of satisfaction and happiness. That's all life is. I'm not being edgy, I'm only saying what's on my mind.
this makes me think about what is the point of living like we go to school then college(maybe not) then we work till we retire then we are like 80 then we die then our kids do the same thing until they die like man whats the point... This kind of song makes me think just why. I have already been alive for 11 almost 12 years and it went by fast after I die what will happen will there be heaven or hell or will there just be me drifting in space.
life is hard for everyone but general people ignore this and only focus on the moment, you can't live when you realize that life is too hard, so let's not notice it. I lost a loved one on April 19, I am helpless and I am aware of it, I continue to live because I am aware that there is nothing to do, if dying was a solution I would die but it is not. (I am a believer in afterlife.)
when i listen to this it feels like im in the past , watching my old memories. it feels like im trying to clear those memories or the new, the future. but i just cant, im not ready for the future, or to let those memories go. so it just feels like my life is put to a stop, or is just going by very slowly. also listening to this makes me have no thoughts at all, just me living, and looking at my ceiling at night, when nobody is awake. this makes me feel like my life has no meaning.
hey, everybody. ive been listening to this for awhile and figured it needed something else to go with it. somehow, i managed to play two videos at a time. (ALERT: please use the WEBSITE youtube.) so, once you have this video up, make it take your whole screen up. (whatever thats called.) and there should be a button next to the X at the top left of your screen. click that button and it should make the screen mini somewhere in your device screen. swipe it to the side and play it. now, open another tab with youtube. search “rain”, and choose whatever you want. play. if school rooftop turns on, simply turn it back on. it should work for you guys. it works for me. have a nice of your day/night < 33 stay strong.
Reading these comments makes me realize how little my problems are. I complain about things that are minuscule to other people. I’m still fighting my own demons as well as other people but I really need to get my shit together. I still have times when I feel hopeless and want to go back to my younger days.
To stop the adds on any video you can skip until theres like a minute left from the video, let it end, usually an add will appear then ans after that you replay the vid and there are no adds
I wish i could say something that would stop us from growing apart. I just want you to stay, because you taught me how to open up and talk. I know i fucked up lately but i dont want my stupidity to end our friendship. It's incredible how someone could grow to a best friend in 2 months, which is why i just cannot let my sad emotions change me. I think that i changed in a abd way and even though people tell me that i am a good person and they like to hang out with me, i don't know if i can believe them, because i was already left alone with myself even though i thought that these people would stay with me through the darkest moments of my life. My point is, that you are the first person in months, who i want to trust and have by my side. I want to say sorry for being who i am and for those times, where i was just a weight you had to carry. I hope that we will someday just see each other forever until we go from this world. And if we loose each other, because of my dumb actions, i will search for you everyday until i find you and just give you everything that i can't give you right now.
listen. im not the kind of person to take hate in to where i feel in emotionally but the amount of hate ive been getting is unreal. i may not be smart or as wise as some of you, shit im only 12, but when you go on to tell me i cant be MY SELF, it fuckin hurts. And when you go on to tell me that you are not the wise one, you are the hurt one. Do better guys- me
Damn, don’t listen to the haters, just ignore them, act like you don’t give a fukc about it and they will kind of stop hating on you. Keep going man, don’t let the haters stop you from what your doing. Your videos are really good, I’m 15 and I can’t do those type of videos lol. I hope you get better soon. 🫂❤️
Esta canción es la que necesitaba para desahogarme me siento como un robot sin sentimiento estoy vacía y no se poruqe quisiera acabar con mi vida pero no soy capaz ☹
This is the exact feeling of peace. Ever since I was 6, I’ve had severe anxiety. Like, severe. I’ve always been a self conscious kid. I’m 12 now. I’ve always felt… in my own world sometimes. Like I can’t get out. This peaked in 2020 during covid especially. It’s still bad, but not as bad as 2020. You know how it’s usually for people with anxiety they chew their nails? Well, I chew the skin off my fingers. It’s weird, and most people think it’s gross. It is, but it’s just how I am. Look up doctor pimple poppers fingers. That’s what my fingers look like, just more red and bleeding. I often hurt myself and start bleeding sometimes. All my fingers have bandages on them a lot. The pain isn’t severe, just annoying and dull. It takes hours, days, for the pain to go away. Whenever I go to the doctors for a physical, we always ask if theirs anything we can do to stop it. They always say “just stop”. It pisses me off. If I could stop, I would! I would have 6 years ago! Honestly, I’m scared of a lot of things. The fact I chew on them daily 24/7 (literally) it shows how bad it is. I do have one main fear that interferes daily. I wouldn’t exactly say I have anxiety of people, but more specifically anxiety of getting in peoples ways. You know when you walk straight toward someone and you do that weird hop thing because you don’t know to go to the left or the right? Most people just feel a little embarrassed. I almost start crying, pleading for forgiveness. I’ll at LEAST remember this for another 3 hours. Just things like this make me feel terrible. Going to a big school doesn’t make it any better. Sometimes when I have my band aids off of my fingers I’ll just stare at them. Just knowing this is what I do to myself. I hurt myself. Im the fault for my own pain. These are really my hands. It’s so weird sounding on paper, but it’s just confusing in real life. To think, it was 6 years ago since my fingers have been real. My lesson here is to break bad habits. Especially if it’s physically hurting you. If you don’t break these bad habits, you might be sitting in a dark room staring at your fingers, crying, like a mad man. Any help of this and how to stop, please give me advise. I’m desperate.
I recently lost my dog and I couldn’t stop listening to this and I just want to have more time with him I want him to lay on my bed with me so that I can sleep but now it’s just quiet and still no one to greet me when I come home and overall depressing to me
I feel you I lost my dog a day after Christmas last year what was supposed to be a great new year was a San new year but let me tell you it gets a little better with time but never go away
why am I still alive after 15 years of my life when i dont even remember what happend a year ago i feel like i was born like 4 years before now , and im in high school, my life is boring and i dont know how to talk to ppl even tho i need them . I go to sleep at 11-12 and wake up at 5:30 to go to school which starts at 7:45 im home again at 6 pm sometimes even later then i waste all of my time on games or just scrolling through youtube, i know that i hav tk do something about my life and start living my life as i should and want, i have a supporting familly so i think the problem is in me. if you are reading it and you came to the end i have accually no idea why im writing all these things about me
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I've been listening to this for awhile now. And I feel like I need to rant a little bit. This is both calming and escaping at the same time. Let me 100% honest with everyone who happens to see this. Recently I've changed everything in my life thinking that it was necessary to do so. I've always been in deep depression ever since my mom past away years ago. Once she was gone, no one and I mean no one came to check on me at all. I was only 11 years old at the time and seeing my mother completely lifeless was so.........hard to even think about. I honestly thought it was all one big nightmare, but sadly it wasn't. For the past 9 years now ever since her passing. I have constant nightmares of the same day. It has never went away and tbh, I'm used to it by now. Recently I got rid of the people in my life who I thought actually cared in some way, but they never did. I thought I had friends but really I never had any. My entire family despises everything about me because I'm not normal. They call me worthless and a complete disappointment but I choose to just ignore it now. Anyway like I said, I'm trying to move on and better myself and maybe one day. Have a family of my own and make sure my children never have the same thing happen to them. I just figured I should share my story if you read it, thank you. I just needed a place to rant about it. And honestly don't feel bad about my experience I'm doing better than I was a couple months ago. Anyway hope you all have a Fantastic day and Keep on smiling.
Keep strong 💪😊
Glad you stayed strong and pushed through life. Things do get better with time and hopefully your family changes for the better but , Im really sorry about your mom's passing. I'm sure she's watching over you everyday and is proud of how far you've come as a person since you were little. Anyways. Goodnight 😄
hey man i had the same problem with my dad he killed himself like 6 years ago and i wanna talk to somebody that cam relate to what happened to me he died when i was 6 and ever since that day I have cried myself to sleep because my mom told me the reason and it was because I always stayed in my room and sleep and he got tired of it because he wanted me to spend time with him more and all he had to do was ask and he didn't. I used to play with my toys a lot as a kid and now a days every time i touch one I think about him and when he died i had so much to ask and i wanted him to teach me how to drive cause my mom she has trouble talk and not crying, sometimes she cries so much while driving down that one street we have to pull over for like ten minutes and I am sorry for saying all of this i just can not hold it in anymore thanks stranger.
hope you will be what you want
valla, hermano suerte en la vida
i love this melody can't stop listening to it
Bro :' )
same
“If we have more friends online… it makes us feel better about not having any in real life”
-Gumball Watterson
damn the blue cat is becoming pretty relatable
frfr
I love watching TAWOG!
That hit harder than it should've
"Im not depressed, I just love the vibe"
yes yes......
i'm chill with this song. Nice cat, i will take the soul
I want to be able to melt into someone’s arms and know I’m fully loved and that they have my back
I want a support system
I want to feel like there’s a point to my life
I want to be able to relax and breathe
I’m so tired
There's no limit for what people expect from me
It's always my fault
I'm always the one who's apologizing
I keep pushing and I never get the break that I need
I'm so tired
My friends are slowly drifting away
My family is steadily stopping to care
My grades are declining
I stop socializing
I'm. So. Tired.
that's how it feels.
Eu consigo te entender
Você vai ficar melhor
Me to bro
Hey man. Stranger here. I don’t think this comment will help you, but I’ll be honest and tell you that whether it helps you or not isn’t my problem. You’re the only one that knows how you feel and has to live with that.
I understand you. I understand how you feel. I wish I could tell you it gets better but it doesn’t. Over time, you just learn how to let it hurt you less. It doesn’t go away, the pain you’re feeling is just replaced by new stresses, pains, losses.
But its not all bad. I promise. It’s been awhile since you left this and I hope you’re feeling better now, but if you’re not, *It will turn out alright.*
Maybe not great, maybe not how you would’ve liked, and definitely not the way you expected, but at the end of it all you’ll be able to accept what’s happened in your life and how you’ve lived it.
That doesn’t do a lot of good for you now, I know. You might not care much about the light at the end of the tunnel , hell, I don’t.
But whatever sliver of hope and optimism you have left, please please PLEASE hold onto it and don’t let it go. No matter how dark, bad, it gets. No matter how much you want to end it all, keep going. Please.
Stranger on the internet, I don’t know you, you don’t know me, so odds are this just annoyed you more than anything else.
But I promise that one day you’ll be able to genuinely smile again, without a filter or a mask. Without the weight of the world holding you down. So please keep going.
Much love man. Stay safe.
Hey everyone, I hope all of you reading this, whoever you are, wherever you’re from, have an awesome day/night. It gets better guys. I’m proud of you guys for being strong!
Thanks
Thanks man
even tho this was a year ago tysm
Sometimes i wonder "What am i doing with my life'' Im currently sitting in a dark room with my head on my desk crying, Just wanting too go back too the times when i could truly smile, But hey thats life.
real bro 100% facts
Listening to this whilst the room being cold, your hands cold. It being wet/rainy, extremely windy outside and the window open to see and hear all of it, is such a great feeling.
that feeling when you feel like you want to do something but your body refuses to do so.
You control your body
@@Chillico buddy 💀
I love listening to this only because I either want to cry, overthink,or just something I want to be sad at random times and this is the best for me to listen to I can also play this when I sleep and it's really calming but if you can relate, the ads kinda annoying it.
same. :/
I miss old life it's not the same anymore
Same 😢
I have a memory of my parents fighting in front of my brother and me. Blood was on the walls and things were shattered. The police came and aressted my father for 35 hours. Even when he was the one who had done everything. And this song reminds me crying in my room praying to hope that they will stop. 7 years later. I'm ten now, thinking of the past. And now thinking if I ever become a parent I will never hit my children as much as my father did to me and my brother. It's all burning memory. Ingraved in my skull. I got back into contact with him. And we went to his house for the weekend a couple of times. More than 20. He has a new wife and two new children. He seems happy. With them. He still used to yell at use at his house and we were forced to take care of his kids while they went out. It was scary. And I didn't want to be there. And whenever we were about to leave to go there I would ball my eyes out and ask my mom if I can stay. But she said no. And told me to stop being such a bitch. Because my father wanted to get custody of me and my brother and tell us that my mom was the bad guy. And when I told them I was trans and queer. His wife told me it was just a phase and to stop being a bitch and act like a girl. Not a boy.
Since they were christian, they only thought that gods marriage was only with a male and female. I wish I will not go back there. And I never hope I will. So, Chris, if you see this. Did I fail you as a son? I'm sorry, it was a mistake I never meant to actually be who I thought I was, and I'm sorry. See you someday..
@vampskvll thank u so much, I rly appreciate that :)) have a good day and drink sum water!
sounds like u need a perc
@@stoppressingenou6051 👁️👄👁️yea
I felt like i was reading a real book right here
Well first of all, that story is pain.
And it reminds me of my story.
Its the same except the trans part, im not a trans xd.
Hoy igual que ayer… ayer igual que hoy. Una rutina a la que ya me he acostumbrado pero a la vez me vuelve loco
Yes, I'm like you.
this song gives me goosbumps and makes me want to just watch the sunset while im thinking bout life.
Sobbing. I am literally sobbing, thinking of all my life choices and how I'm doing currently. Fact of the matter is, I'm not doing so well. I want to scream and cry until I physically can't anymore, or until I feel nothing at all. I'm so tired of this overwhelmed and overbearing depressive feeling. . . I can't do anything anymore, I can't even have a good day and look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I look pretty. I don't. I never do. Ever. I'm so tired, I just wanna give up. It seems so much easier, than living here. . .
I’m 4 months late but hey. Don’t bare yourself down like this. The problem is the intrusive thoughts. There are always days where you will feel like this but what can you do to fix this? There is always one thing that keeps you going whether it’s your family or friends or I don’t know. But my point is. You keep going & do you! You’re beautiful as ever, don’t ever give up because that’s when the real trouble kicks in. Crying is the least of the problems. Everyone cries & as a guy I cry hella too. So just let it out if needed, speak to someone love 💓 never give upppp
Seek the kingdom of God and all else shall be added to you.
@@montyrz I'm sorry I haven't replied until now, but I really appreciate that. Thank you. ❤️❤️❤️
@@m4xxw no worries. Stay strong 💪🏽💕
Whoever is reading this I hope you’re okay, always remember you’re loved and wanted but it not seem that way. I love your smile, laugh, awkward moments, it makes you who you are, I love you🖤
look. You may be hurt from the past, or you may be happy from the past, but now, well it doesnt matter. If you had something bad happen to you in the past. Sooo what, you cant change it can you? No you cant, live with it, learn from it, cry from it, be happy from it. Dont let the past effect the life you are living in now, doesnt matter how bad it is. Live your life 1 step at a time and dont let anything stop you- myself
To anyone that wants no adds on any vid, you can skip until theres like a minute left from it, let it end, and when it ends usually an adds pops up, and after that you replay and there are no adds,, i hope this helps😺
It was a girl, a girl who changed my life like i was my entire life seeing white and black and after seeing her my eyes beginned to see colors that I've never seen i begin to talk to her, in my mind was already the whole marriage ceremony in my mind, but when i found out she is lesbian and taken i feeled more embarrassed than the guy who start the whole covid thing
Bro.... I feel bad for you....
j'adore le sentiment que m'apporte cette musique
Personnellement, quand j'écoute ce type de son là, je me sens vide ou moins stressé.
When surrounded by darkness, find or produce light. Wether flicker or flame, it is so much better than nothing
Is it ok to cry? Is it ok to be hurt? Is it ok to be hated by your family? Is it? Is it ok that your gonna loose someone you care about?
hello there! i hope you're doing good ^^ life can be tough, but never give up! even if i don't know you, you're beautiful, talented and im so proud of you.
life's worth living, i promise
It is okay, but not acceptable, especially the family thing. I'm experiencing the same thing rn and I really hope everything will be fine in the future. Never loose hope and whatever happens, there will be a person or more people who love u and always will. Just know how proud I am at u for going that far
It is ok you can be like that but nothing can hurt us we need to stay strong in the future I am sure an one day you can have an good peaceful day. One day...
I was just sitting here listening to this and I just started crying. I don't know why but the tears just started rolling down my face and I just realized how much of a failure I am and how truly fucked up of a person I am.
Started listening to this after my grandma died a few months ago, I still listen to it, I really miss her
this song its just necesary
people who's going through breakups. well at least you know what it is like to be loved, people who are suffering from loneliness and never experienced what its like to be and feel loved like that hurts even more.
Happines can be achived but at what cost
This song is the only thing that makes me sleep
I moved to Hawaii 4 years ago and haven’t left the island sense. Sometimes I miss the gray skies and rainy days.
y estoy aquí sentado frente a mi computador echado sobre la silla y a mi lado el ventilador girando, esta canción me hace sentir nostalgia, paz y tristeza me hace recordar los pocos años que fui feliz y ahora solo me limito a observar sin hacer o decir nada mientras veo como mi vida se derrumba poco a poco y me enamoro de alguien inexistente que es muy similar a mi... estoy muy mal... estoy.... cansado
I just wanna cry
Recuerdo en verano de 2021,no paraba de escuchar esta canción para relajarme e ir a mi RD de kimetsu,me trae demasiados recuerdos cada que la escucho,nunca logre ir pero tengo el sentimiento de que los personajes me siguen esperando
That feeling of nostalgia in you....
this helps me calm me down
whether it's anger, sadness, or even calmness.
i play this in the car, on my speakers, on my headphones. Can never get enough of it❤
Pov: your about to finish your minecraft house with the bros and it's getting late so you ask if they want to play again tomorrow. They say yes, you tell them goodnight and shut it down... that was 7 years ago.
i listened this the whole night
Same I fall asleep to this song every night
pov: you are lying on your bed remembering happy moments with your family and friends
life is hard 😞💔🙏🏻
It really is
I'm 14 and I don't know what my life is everyday I wake up almost miss the bus because I go to bed at 1-2 am every night because I can't sleep and I'm stressed af and i don't have a really supporting family and my friends don't even care about my well being and I come home after school play games, watch TV, and listen to music then fall asleep and wake up at around 6:30 in the moring everyday bus leaves at 6:45 and school starts at 7 I just don't know what to do anymore I feel lost
No hablo inglés pero te comprendo me pasa lo mismo la verdad es que esa sensación es realmente triste y frustrante pero ánimo seguro encontrás un pasatiempo o novia, algo interesante te pasara, por lo menos eso espero que te pase y me pasé a mí...
fr
We all are as lost as you are
same experience.
Seek the Lord Jesus
This song makes me feel emotions I never felt before it scratches my brain in the right places it makes me wanna end it all but doesn’t at the same time
This song kills my depression, I sit on the roof listening to this one hour loop, so calming ❤️😊
Next time could you do one without ads. I don’t particularly enjoy being woken up by British men screaming at me about my car insurance
i havent monetized the video since the music is copyrighted youtube plays ads on the video i hope you understand :)
@@pratikmandviya8033 have you heard abt jerk mate?
Same.
LMAOOOOOOOOO LOLL
deilytube
this song gives me a nostalgia that never existed before
It gives that headache you get before crying. laying down , my breathing matches up with the music. I want it to not fade. to not be alone with my thoughts. why do I only ever vent in places like this, where no one will or wants to see this? Is it comforting?I'm empty currently.
I'm very tired but i dont want die. I want live and be happy, free and just .....
I’m glad this popped up, I’m absolutely wasted. Gota get up early to take a test for college then work after that, and I jus feel alone and like I can’t do it much longer, but this….this right here really helps me calm down and relax for a min
This brings back so many memories...
Hoy mi mascota ha fallecido estoy destrozado y no tengo ganas de hacer nada voy a intentar desahogarme con esta linda canción. Siempre te voy a querer escobi ♥️♥️♥️
Espero que estés bien
no te olvidaremos escobii
I'll miss hearing this again...
close your eyes and open your mind and fly with your soul you're going somewhere all hearts is broken and alone but there calm 🖤💔🥀
I know it's a temporary thing, it always is. I have extreme mood swings for no reason, one moment I mad another sad or lonely. Lately life has just been all a blur, my life right now is... complicated. Everyone here had something bad happen to them, I'm reading through comments and realizing I'm very lucky but it still doesn't change. I'm mentally exhausted for the stupidest things, I tend to blame it on puberty. Throughout my childhood I've had pretty good moments, I had a great mother not the best but she was there and I love her so much. Memories to remember with her that'll never change, good and bad. For what I'm going through currently is isolation, most kids my age are mainly introverts but I feel pretty neutral. Recently not even a month ago I've been homeschooled for not paying attention during class, my dad didn't care for school anyways. Most would really like it but for me I feel..idk like I'm missing out on just life in general. So right now I'm homeschooled and isolated, another thing is that I get lonely a lot. Ever since I was little I've longed for a lover, I forced things for no reason trying to find someone that isn't there. Highschool I thought would be my opportunity to find someone to love me and hold me in their arms, but I don't even know anymore...I just feel..unloved. Because of how long I've been without a father it's super weird for my dad to hug we fully especially with my breasts, so I don't get a full embrace which is what I long for and still never have gotten. I don't think I've ever gotten a full comfortable loving embrace, I want to feel the warmth of another so badly it's painful...I just want affection
remember the week end at the 6:00PM playing MW3 or BO2 with random guy ten years Ago i was 11 wow now I'm 21 and god damn the nostalgic moment
This makes me feel happy and sad at the same time 😃👌
Although it is quite depressing, and it gives off the same vibes as this wallowing feeling of sadness, it helps me with studying. It's hard to find music which balances between being something which wont distract but then again, something you'd feel something about, and this song does just that.
My soul is leaving from how satifying this is😌😌😌😍😍😍🥱🥱😴😴🫶🫶
I listen to this song when I am just inches away from giving up, like today has been completely fucking shit I literally just wanna fucking leave my house go to this hill and listen to this song at my favorite spot and stare at the stars and wonder is the effort is even worth it ya know?
Im generally tired of every person I get close to leave me and just before they do leave I always show my worst self because of the fear of a other person leaving me but I just don't want to care anymore I'm so un-fucking-believably tired of the bullshit I always try my hardest but no one else does, I always give but no one gives me anything anymore, and I always listen to people but no one listens to me.. I am so tired of all this bullshit
Hy man keep your head up and push through it. Try to be positive and find something that makes you happy to do, also to keep your mind busy l.
I have been cheated on 10 times i'm so fucking unlucky idk how
@@iipux10 Damnn 10 times I’m sorry
When I listen to this it makes me think abt my dead aunt... 😔
Listening to this almost makes me cry. For anyone who cares I’m going to rant and let it all out.
Ever since I was a young toddler or even before that, my mom and dad have hated each other so much they would have constant fight and sometimes they got physical. I remember crying all the time and the sounds of glass breaking. Its been a loop because my mom always forgives my dad and she constantly gets drunk which also makes the fighting more frequent. They fight so much I barely even care anymore. My little siblings, 7 and 9, have to deal with the same bullshit I do and I hear them crying and begging them to stop fighting. It really reminds me of my childhood, and I feel terrible just hearing them cry like that. And my mom wonders why I hate her so much and she even got so drunk she sexually abused me and my little sister when I was in second grade, and the next morning she said sorry, but then said we probably deserved it. I had my whole damn childhood broken away and i wanna leave this house so bad.
I've been listening to this since 2019 everytime i listen to it i remember memories and i feel unreal like i don't exist like i'm in someones body, i love this song 💗!!
I just want to be loved, but it feels like a fantasy and it's not ever going to happen.
The background really gives off the vibe you want, if anymore I’m having a difficult time right now, life is too sad sometimes, it’s normal, just need someone to talk to.
Keep going everyone, we’ll all make it eventually.
When I opened this co.ment section, I found all the people who really understand me.
Fun fact: This melody is the intro of "The girl next door - on top"
But slowed.
Life is just a void of emotions. One second you can be the happiest person alive, the next you can feel like absolute shit. You never know what's next. The only choice you have is to embrace reality. There is no eternal happiness in this world. Everything is temporary including joy. There's always something that comes along to end it. We always try to delay whatever will end our joy. But it's inevitable. That's just life. A never ending tug of war for satisfaction, but in the end even if you win, the victory is always so short lived. You try to mask any signs of unhappiness by putting on a fake smile but very soon your true emotions come to light. No matter what, the feeling of sadness will forever take over joy no matter how hard you try. If it's not sadness, it's anger for the fact that we cannot stay happy forever. If not anger, there is always another emotion next in line. Worry, disgust, discomfort, so many emotions that invade any feeling of satisfaction and happiness. That's all life is. I'm not being edgy, I'm only saying what's on my mind.
this makes me think about what is the point of living like we go to school then college(maybe not) then we work till we retire then we are like 80 then we die then our kids do the same thing until they die like man whats the point... This kind of song makes me think just why. I have already been alive for 11 almost 12 years and it went by fast after I die what will happen will there be heaven or hell or will there just be me drifting in space.
I don't want to live anymore
Don’t say that
I feel like that Sometimes
life is hard for everyone but general people ignore this and only focus on the moment, you can't live when you realize that life is too hard, so let's not notice it. I lost a loved one on April 19, I am helpless and I am aware of it, I continue to live because I am aware that there is nothing to do, if dying was a solution I would die but it is not. (I am a believer in afterlife.)
This makes me rethink life
It kinda is giving “sorrow” inside me it is depress to be alone and listen to for one hour when I feel sad.
K now am already addicted to this by now .
maybe it was fake.
or everything was real and we just can’t accept it.
How I would like to end everything at once, only then could I be happy..
when i listen to this it feels like im in the past , watching my old memories. it feels like im trying to clear those memories or the new, the future. but i just cant, im not ready for the future, or to let those memories go. so it just feels like my life is put to a stop, or is just going by very slowly. also listening to this makes me have no thoughts at all, just me living, and looking at my ceiling at night, when nobody is awake. this makes me feel like my life has no meaning.
When you finally finished your tasks:
thanks so much for this! it reminds me of nostalgia and for studying a the library! :)
hey, everybody.
ive been listening to this for awhile and figured it needed something else to go with it.
somehow, i managed to play two videos at a time.
(ALERT: please use the WEBSITE youtube.)
so, once you have this video up, make it take your whole screen up. (whatever thats called.)
and there should be a button next to the X at the top left of your screen.
click that button and it should make the screen mini somewhere in your device screen.
swipe it to the side and play it.
now, open another tab with youtube.
search “rain”, and choose whatever you want.
play.
if school rooftop turns on, simply turn it back on.
it should work for you guys.
it works for me.
have a nice of your day/night < 33
stay strong.
thanks you too
I just miss my mom so much, i miss the old times, i just want to be happy not sad, but happiness is to hard to get for me😔
When techno died i just was crying and I am just very sad I watched his videos a lot and he just made my day better
I feel you and I'm really sorry 😞 :/
Reading these comments makes me realize how little my problems are. I complain about things that are minuscule to other people. I’m still fighting my own demons as well as other people but I really need to get my shit together. I still have times when I feel hopeless and want to go back to my younger days.
This music is lo fi! I love the anime background i love this song
That boy seems L of Death Note... Anyway, beautiful music
it felt misery. .
It’s calming👌
can't disagree
The adds mess it up. I listen and relax then I get shouting about car insurance quotes
Fr
To stop the adds on any video you can skip until theres like a minute left from the video, let it end, usually an add will appear then ans after that you replay the vid and there are no adds
I wish i could say something that would stop us from growing apart. I just want you to stay, because you taught me how to open up and talk. I know i fucked up lately but i dont want my stupidity to end our friendship. It's incredible how someone could grow to a best friend in 2 months, which is why i just cannot let my sad emotions change me. I think that i changed in a abd way and even though people tell me that i am a good person and they like to hang out with me, i don't know if i can believe them, because i was already left alone with myself even though i thought that these people would stay with me through the darkest moments of my life. My point is, that you are the first person in months, who i want to trust and have by my side. I want to say sorry for being who i am and for those times, where i was just a weight you had to carry. I hope that we will someday just see each other forever until we go from this world. And if we loose each other, because of my dumb actions, i will search for you everyday until i find you and just give you everything that i can't give you right now.
listen. im not the kind of person to take hate in to where i feel in emotionally but the amount of hate ive been getting is unreal. i may not be smart or as wise as some of you, shit im only 12, but when you go on to tell me i cant be MY SELF, it fuckin hurts. And when you go on to tell me that you are not the wise one, you are the hurt one. Do better guys- me
Damn, don’t listen to the haters, just ignore them, act like you don’t give a fukc about it and they will kind of stop hating on you. Keep going man, don’t let the haters stop you from what your doing. Your videos are really good, I’m 15 and I can’t do those type of videos lol. I hope you get better soon. 🫂❤️
@@DanielGarcia-fh9tq thanks man that helps a lot
Esta canción es la que necesitaba para desahogarme me siento como un robot sin sentimiento estoy vacía y no se poruqe quisiera acabar con mi vida pero no soy capaz ☹
Entiendo eso
This is the exact feeling of peace. Ever since I was 6, I’ve had severe anxiety. Like, severe. I’ve always been a self conscious kid. I’m 12 now. I’ve always felt… in my own world sometimes. Like I can’t get out. This peaked in 2020 during covid especially. It’s still bad, but not as bad as 2020. You know how it’s usually for people with anxiety they chew their nails? Well, I chew the skin off my fingers. It’s weird, and most people think it’s gross. It is, but it’s just how I am. Look up doctor pimple poppers fingers. That’s what my fingers look like, just more red and bleeding. I often hurt myself and start bleeding sometimes. All my fingers have bandages on them a lot. The pain isn’t severe, just annoying and dull. It takes hours, days, for the pain to go away. Whenever I go to the doctors for a physical, we always ask if theirs anything we can do to stop it. They always say “just stop”. It pisses me off. If I could stop, I would! I would have 6 years ago! Honestly, I’m scared of a lot of things. The fact I chew on them daily 24/7 (literally) it shows how bad it is. I do have one main fear that interferes daily. I wouldn’t exactly say I have anxiety of people, but more specifically anxiety of getting in peoples ways. You know when you walk straight toward someone and you do that weird hop thing because you don’t know to go to the left or the right? Most people just feel a little embarrassed. I almost start crying, pleading for forgiveness. I’ll at LEAST remember this for another 3 hours. Just things like this make me feel terrible. Going to a big school doesn’t make it any better. Sometimes when I have my band aids off of my fingers I’ll just stare at them. Just knowing this is what I do to myself. I hurt myself. Im the fault for my own pain. These are really my hands. It’s so weird sounding on paper, but it’s just confusing in real life. To think, it was 6 years ago since my fingers have been real. My lesson here is to break bad habits. Especially if it’s physically hurting you. If you don’t break these bad habits, you might be sitting in a dark room staring at your fingers, crying, like a mad man. Any help of this and how to stop, please give me advise. I’m desperate.
Don’t look up dr pimple poppers hands, look up dermatophagia.
I recently lost my dog and I couldn’t stop listening to this and I just want to have more time with him I want him to lay on my bed with me so that I can sleep but now it’s just quiet and still no one to greet me when I come home and overall depressing to me
I feel you I lost my dog a day after Christmas last year what was supposed to be a great new year was a San new year but let me tell you it gets a little better with time but never go away
This helps me sleep
когда вышел на улицу летом впереди длинный день,не нашел друганов и просто идёшь и думаешь чем занять себя.Вот такие чувства навевает эта музыка
it´s very good song i love you thanks 🥰
why am I still alive after 15 years of my life when i dont even remember what happend a year ago i feel like i was born like 4 years before now , and im in high school, my life is boring and i dont know how to talk to ppl even tho i need them . I go to sleep at 11-12 and wake up at 5:30 to go to school which starts at 7:45 im home again at 6 pm sometimes even later then i waste all of my time on games or just scrolling through youtube, i know that i hav tk do something about my life and start living my life as i should and want, i have a supporting familly so i think the problem is in me. if you are reading it and you came to the end i have accually no idea why im writing all these things about me
its ok... just stay here and chill
I like this even when I'm mad I look at the ceiling I lay on my bed and release all the stress
this sounds like the music when i was a baby
Wild vibe
It’s kinda sad how many times I’ve came here,cried and then finish the whole vid
this hit different
one more day
bro... are you okay?
either listening to this to sleep or while im having intrusive thoughts 😼