Fun little tidbit, "Ptolemaea" is the name Dante Alighieri gave, in the Inferno, to a place in hell especially reserved for those who betray the guests in their house.
@@corinnae.7877 you'll find in a lot of old wives' tales about honor, betraying a guest to be a common occurrence. basically, when you invite someone into your home, you are giving them your word in their wellbeing, and in your hospitality. it's a significant thing, morally, to honor this understanding, as the guest trusts you. you are offering them trust by taking them under your roof. so it's an extremely heinous and dishonorable thing to go against that standard and harm your guest. to trick and betray them, killing them under your care. it's seen as most sinister and atrocious to betray a common code. think of game of thrones: the red wedding was seen as an atrocity all across Westeros whether people were allies or enemies to the Starks (the guests in the castle). in the same show, one of the characters tells of a tale of a lord killing his guests' sons and baking them into a pie to feed to their father. the lord is then cursed by the gods to be an endlessly starving monster. another character asks if it was because he cooked them and fed them to his father (because that is obviously insanely evil), but the storyteller says "no. the gods care little for cruelty. he had to be punished, you see, because they were guests in his home, and he betrayed his word."
When you deal with years of physical abuse, hearing that "stop..STOP" scream is so triggering yet strangely so cathartic. I can feel her pain. Her helplessness. Her grief. Her strength- I can hear it all because i experienced all those things. The trauma lasts more than people want to admit. It's in everyday things like when someone oversteps your boundaries, personal space, or patience. When they raise their voice at you, when they touch you, when they make jokes at your expense. All you want to do is defend yourself or run away and cry in silence. After all these years and i'm still fighting. I'm still waiting for the day i get my peace.
I understand. And I’m so sorry that you still have to keep climbing this forsaken mountain. I don’t know if it’ll ever really get any easier, I just know I’m away from them now and all I have is also: now. Don’t let go of the rope, get to that peak. I swear on my life I’m rooting for you. They can’t continue to rob our lives from us. You will know peace. Someday I will as well.
@@gooba2390 Your comment made me shed a tear. Thank you so much for taking the time to write that, truly. You piece words together so beautifully. I hope you find your peace and rhythm too.
It never ends for those of us with trauma--it's always there you just learn how to live better. Life is extremely unfair. I try to focus on the positive things in my life, but some days I'm better at it than others. It's been 10 years for me. Still no peace yet.
"What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me" Is such a raw and deeply unfortunate line that reflects reality far too often. It resonates with me, as a woman, and is something almost instinctual that lays in our bones from thousands and thousands of years of violence perpetuated against us on all levels and for all excuses and reasons.
@@oculed1101you came onto a video where the whole comment section looks like this comment. They didnt say anything, so u dont have to listen, so they dont have to shut up. take ts somewhere else
This song is abjectly terrifying. Like it's literally one of the scariest songs I've ever heard. Reminds me of when I'd see a scary movie as a child and be looking over my shoulder and cowering in fear at every "humanoid" shadow.
I know a lot of death/black metal songs and that's not what shes talkin about. This song is not terrifying bc of the brutality but the vibe and psychological effect. I dont scared of any metal songs, not scared of it either but make me going deeper into my darkness. @@eladbenm
This album covers every genre: Gospel, classic rock, lo-fi, hick ass country, and this song, the sound equivalent to having a panic attack while on speed in the woods
aka “post-metal” if you want to hear an entire album of something that sounds like this, check out stuff like neurosis, cult of luna, and the one that i can’t mention due to their name aging unfortunately
fun little fact; in dante’s ‘inferno’ you will see that those in ptolomaea actually are up to their necks in ice and are eating the other traitor. ethel is a “traitor” to her community and family by going against their beliefs and isiah is a traitor to ethel by killing her, and eating her.
Hollywood needs to hire Ethel Cain to do soundtracks for movies. I can hear her music being played in the background of great movies like Silence of the Lambs. She creates hauntingly beautiful music.
"stop... stop... Stop. STOP!!" God, how many times I've said that in my life to try & save myself from damage. This song hurts, but feels so releasing when she says that part. Like my chest blowing open & my heart screaming.
Yes. How many times do I want to or have to scream like this to let them know that I do want them to stop what they're doing to me. And How many times do I have to control myself from screaming like this so as to keep them from feeling offended, as if they are the one who should be offended. I couldn't even count.
@@mintyyy111 OMFG I ALSO THOUGHT OF OUTLAST (especially the one with the priest and weird cult thing, i think it was whistleblower) AND RESIDENT EVIL 7 WHEN I FIRST LISTENED TO THIS
@@SwiftMoments13 YESSS when they were in that weird village and this whole weird ass anti christ thing djskskdk this song literally feels like being thrown back into that world
I grew up in Kentucky. One day I was riding my bike through the cemetery. There was a dumpster outside the fence. There was a completely skinned deer laying next to it with some flies buzzing. I heard growling. I look back it's a doberman showing me it's teeth. This song reminds me of that. And when I have panic attacks I see it again. I've always felt like the skinless deer. Wasn't fast enough. Easy prey.
i burnt my hand while trying to make instant Mac and cheese and I think that was my most terrifying shaking in my pants experience idk what’s up with you tho xxxxxx ❤️
I’ve never felt a song put sexual assault so perfectly into sound… the dreading, the knowing it’s going to happen, the fear while it’s happening and the terrifying scream when it finally happens… it’s all in this song. So perfectly presented.. I feel seen, so many of us feel seen. Thank you.
It sounds like Ethel is hallucinating and she's not only seeing/hearing Isaiah but an amalgamation of him, the devil and her father. An unholy trinity.
Honestly, Ptolemaea really speaks to me. I’m a poor autistic girl that grew up in the south. And I’ve been abused by men. For me, the building, overwhelming nature of Ptolemaea, really feels similar to the escalation of being berated by the man you love, afraid he’s going to hit you. The noise of things hitting the wall, of his rage. The expectation for you, the lamb, to bend to his will. To retain your “purity”. The “betrayal” of every imagined infraction that you commit. And all of your senses are extra sensitive and you don’t know what you did to deserve this. The only thing you did was reject his sexual advances. The part where she screams “stop” felt like an amalgamation of those feelings and it honestly makes me cry my eyes out. I find myself silently screaming with her. It’s so therapeutic. I know that isn’t the meaning of this song. But that’s how I interpret it because of my experiences. And I think that’s the beauty of her music.
Grew up in white trash Mississippi with a grandma suffering from some severe munchausen by proxy, the fear at night and overwhelming paranoia while only being 10 is captured so well in the darkness of this music. I often feel so scared to write my music using expressions of such dark subject matter but clearly it can be done tastefully and in a way which other people can resonate. Thank you.
♡ Lyrics: I followed you in and I was with you there I invited you in twice, I did You love blood too much But not like I do, not like I do Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee Promising a big fire, any fire Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire Suffering is nigh, drawing to me Calling me the one, I'm the white light Beautiful, finite Even the iron still fears the rot Hiding from something I cannot stop Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh Buckled on the floor when night comes along Daddy's left and momma won't come home You poor thing Sweet, mourning lamb There's nothing you can do It's already been done What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show your face) Please, don't look at me I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me Turn me, what have you done? Stop, stop (make it stop), stop, make it stop, stop Make it stop Make it stop, I've had enough Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop I am the face of love's rage I am the face of love's rage Blessed be the Daughters of Cain, bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception Blessed be their whore mothers, tired and angry waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again Blessed be the children, each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence Blessed be you, girl, promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you I am no good nor evil, simply I am, and I have come to take what is mine I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood I am here now, as you run from me still Run then, child, you can't hide from me forever
I struggle with apathy. When I need to cry, I can’t. It’s the worst thing ever. Playing this song helps me dig out all of my inner emotions, release them, and shed tears.
THIS LEFT ME SPEECHLESS but I HAD TO write something. Totally unexpected. Brutal. The sound of flies adds to the realism of it all. Truly respect your attention to detail throughout the whole album. Stunned.
even though i’m young i’ve got a lifetime of anger repressed. knowing that someone could scream emotions out your system like that amazes me... it makes me feel a lot better, regardless of the headaches for listening to it on repeat
I’ve dealt with a whole lot of repressed anger too, remember, your anger loves you. Realizing that has been the most helpful thing for me, I wish you the best of luck
Lingua Ignota is another artist who makes music that feels almost overwhelmingly cathartic to listen to. It's disturbing and unsettling and possibly the most intense emotions I've ever heard expressed through any artistic medium. Her album Caligula is the one I'd recommend.
At the very start I feel like Isaiah was talking to her, but the next voice is literally Death. Basically telling her that it's too late. Isaiah attacked her at the beginning of the song. That's why she can't stop it, and that's why Death was like, "there's nothing you can do. It's already been done." She's already dying. She's just been refusing to believe it.
Anyone else notice that from 3:50ish the lead vocal went from being amplified to having the mic essentially cut off? He silenced her, that's why she had to scream
Wow that’s crazy it really is on there! I thought this was some kind of girlypop BTS y2k stan twitter lingo ironic joke but I just checked Spotify and it’s REALLY on there! 😮
I am not terribly familiar with her work but the title made me curious as a fan of Dante's inferno. This song really captures the lonely frigid feeling of Ptolomaea, one of several regions of Cocytus, the frozen lake which is the 9th and lowest circle of Hell, the circle of Treachery Ptolomaea is where those who have betrayed their guests linger on in frigid agony
Basically her album, Preachers daughter follows a storyline of a preachers daughter and her life and tragic death at the hands of her second lover. It gets VERY dark lore wise as this song is her character getting sa’d, murdered, and then cannibalized. She goes to heaven after this and looks back at her life and gets conflicted because she’s very upset at what he’s done to her, but still has feelings for him. She then decides to kill him from the grave by food poisoning.
after years of childhood molestation and doing all I can to heal and get sober from heroin and other hard drugs and being shunned by certain parts of my family and friends for being trans I feel seen heard and understood I started last year off in a hospital I had an overdose and something snapped in me and I saw much around me that I was becoming all rooted in pain and trauma and this album felt like having a hand to hold while I walked through my own physical and mental hell
The first few "stop" of hers sound so much like the narrative we women are expected to play even in misery, pain and the most horrid of experiences. We are expected to be quiet and clean about it. Make no fuss. Bring no disrespect and shame to your family by screaming that you've been tainted. That is the belief for the women in my country. I'm glad she screamed like that. I too, have wanted to scream like that for a long time.
As someone who was in a state of severe paranoia for months due to a traumatic experience this song hits really close to home. This is exactly what the fear felt like to me.
WOW???! this is absolutely PACKED with emotion, like vacuum sealed packed. this woman is genius. the breakdown or climax is insane & so carefully crafted to convey an incredibly strong tone & atmosphere.
This is a really hard song to wake up with it stuck in your head. As a survivor with c-ptsd, this song is cathartic but extremely triggering for me. Put me in the weirdest headspace for the day. I'm barely even here today living in the traumatic memories this brings up. This song is a spell and it is extremely powerful. The first time I heard it I had a full on physical reaction, my whole body broke, the scream sent me reeling, the pheonix fire in me got reignited. Thank you for this song but damn if I can't handle waking up with it as my earworm for the day
This song sounds like what it felt to be betrayed by my uncle as he sold my body out to men. Very few songs make me feel this way but this song... this song makes me feel seen, heard, understood fully and completely.
Idk if this is a good recommendation for you because it could be super fucking triggering (i have it with this song in a playlist called "put u in a bad mood" for when i just need to get all the gross feelings out after a panic attack or something :,)) but daddy by korn also has this vibe, but a lot more explicit.
@@uncertain_zee yeahhh, I've listened to it lol. I still listen to it every once in a while... it also is weirdly comforting to hear for some reason lol
How lucky i feel to be able to see the universe through Ethel Cain's eyes... both the character and the woman behind. This track feel like if it was written by Laura Palmer, in the best way possible.
I 100% agree with the feeling that it was written by Laura Palmer. It’s all I imagined when listening to the song. It's so haunting but beautiful, just like Laura’s story.
No joke, a friend of mine used Strangers in a presentation about horror in music and theater and I was instantly intrigued. She described that the album Preacher's Daughter was a scary album about a preacher girl getting caught up in a romance with a psycho cannibal killer and knew I had to give it a try. Being a self-described metal head, I charged head first with an eager interest and WOW. I have never heard a blend of sounds like this before! It is also genuinely terrifying as well! It honestly reminds me of hearing groups like Meshuggah for the first time in terms of sheer brutality yet beauty as well. There's such a wide mix of genres here I'm almost certainly Ethel Cain has invented a new one with this album. It is way more than your average pop singer-songwriter kind of music. I wouldn't even bat an eye if she opened for a death metal band with tracks like this. One thing is certain, and that is I am now a big fan of her's! If Ethel happens to be reading this, I love what I've heard so far and can't wait to see what you do next! :)
yknow how it feels when you've always cried in silence but you've figured out you can scream and rage and curse everyone who unsanctified you? thats this song
this was actually terrifying, the LYRICS?!, the fly buzzing noises, the eerie humming, the repetitive stops, that scream?! this made me feel some sort of way and i love it
This is our reminder that still here, on this planet, there is monsters living among us unhuman things and that we need to be always be cautious about who we trust
This song sounds like a panic attack and suffocation. I've only heard a few Ethel Cain songs before and I didn't really like them but this one. This one.
this artist physically ripped my heart out and served it on a dish that resonates with me on such an insane level that i have to eat it and puke it out.
I discovered this song one night when I fell asleep and left my earphones on and my Spotify on shuffle with suggested songs, and woke up to this song and unlocked my phone and got scared af, I thought I was dreaming or died lol naturally I put it on my playlist 😊 Ethel Cain 🤘
The perfectly ambivalent chill and tension that comes from reliving abuse willingly. The warm, dense feeling that comes from leaning into your depression. And the disassociative glare that fills the empty space between the falls. There is a strange comfort in all this that sticks to your conscience and rests in the recesses of your mind untill it pushes to the front and takes control. Those are the emotions and thoughts that come to me from this song. Truly a masterpiece. Very very few songs can make me FEEL like this one does. It almost becomes impossible for me not to regress into my thoughts and internalize every ephemeral synaptic connection much more deeply. The emotions flow smoother, and its almost cathartic in a chaotic manner. Thank you Ethel.
the comments are talking about how they'll never listen to this again bc it's so disturbing and while I agree I have also been listening to it on repeat I love the part after the scream so much
This song has been living in my head since the day it came out. Shout out to the UA-cam algorithm for recommending this when 2 hours after it was released out of no where. Clicking this video was one of my best choices recently. If anyone knows of any songs similar to this, leave suggestions
I know I'm a bit late but as someone has already mentioned, Chelsea Wolfe has some similar stuff in some of her albums, I'd say maybe try "Pain Is Beauty", "Abyss" and "Hiss Spun", although "Abyss" is the album that comes closer to this.
I feel understood with this track. Its comfortable and unnerving at the same time. This is how i have lived most of my life, always on edge with the falsehoods of peace by people around me. internally i have rage and twisted thoughts due to years of neglect and being forced into emotional isolation by my parents. This feels like a release
This song feels like the spiritual black sticky goo that creeps into you while having to endure traumatizing things. Shallow breathing, racing heart & darkened mind.
What scares me about this song is that it's really well produced. This person has clearly went through s**t and there are people in the comments thinking it's a "dark beautiful" song and making different comparisons. This is really dark stuff.
This album was recommended to me so I went in blind and am listening straight thru. For a lot of the songs I was like "ah, indie folk. This is full of feeling but still very chill somehow. I guess that's what it all is. But I'll keep going just in case." And then I got to the song before this. And then I got to this. Literally life-changing. Earth-shattering art.
I heard this song 4-5 days ago at mid night. I thought why isn't it getting more view yet? This hits hard. Look at it now... 1M views. CONGRATULATIONS 🎊. WE MADE IT YALL.
so y2k
HI IM GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL
@@jeremymcguire8385 Go off schizophrenic!
@@lightlylemony ACTUALLY IM THE DOCTOR WHO PRESCRIBES MEDS
@@jeremymcguire8385 yassssss
What
Fun little tidbit, "Ptolemaea" is the name Dante Alighieri gave, in the Inferno, to a place in hell especially reserved for those who betray the guests in their house.
god i fucking LOVE references to Dante
I´m a slut for dante references
@@elisabeth2193 SAME IDK WHAT IS IT BUT I JUST LIVE FOR DANTE'S INFERNO REFERENCES
What does it exactly mean, "betraying guests"
@@corinnae.7877 you'll find in a lot of old wives' tales about honor, betraying a guest to be a common occurrence. basically, when you invite someone into your home, you are giving them your word in their wellbeing, and in your hospitality. it's a significant thing, morally, to honor this understanding, as the guest trusts you. you are offering them trust by taking them under your roof.
so it's an extremely heinous and dishonorable thing to go against that standard and harm your guest. to trick and betray them, killing them under your care. it's seen as most sinister and atrocious to betray a common code. think of game of thrones: the red wedding was seen as an atrocity all across Westeros whether people were allies or enemies to the Starks (the guests in the castle). in the same show, one of the characters tells of a tale of a lord killing his guests' sons and baking them into a pie to feed to their father. the lord is then cursed by the gods to be an endlessly starving monster. another character asks if it was because he cooked them and fed them to his father (because that is obviously insanely evil), but the storyteller says "no. the gods care little for cruelty. he had to be punished, you see, because they were guests in his home, and he betrayed his word."
The sound of all the fly's makes this sound so much more "disgusting" and "icky" and "scary" it's perfect
i don't know if this makes it worse, but they're not flies. they're bees.
@@internet-gf kinda like that movie Candyman
@@internet-gf NOT THE BEES AAAAAAAAAAAA
@@cry-piddawg I gotta say this, but candyman is fine asf
@@lookingsubmissiveandbreeda1512 not the bees! Anything but that!
Adding this one to my "relaxing before bed" playlist for sure
Currently doing just that
I could never. This song gives me anxiety
That’s exactly what I’m doing, I cannot get enough of this song.
@@thenightranger987 same
The way she screams that last "stop" and the break down after it are so soothing.
Ethel Cain has reminded us we’re not alone in our pain. That’s why this album is so special.
this exactly
i wanna like this comment but it would ruin the 666
@@Eduardoo2001 hahaahha
YEP
We're all just a little special. Lol. But, seriously. The pain will always remain. It's just that sometimes it's prominent and right in our faces.
When you deal with years of physical abuse, hearing that "stop..STOP" scream is so triggering yet strangely so cathartic. I can feel her pain. Her helplessness. Her grief. Her strength- I can hear it all because i experienced all those things. The trauma lasts more than people want to admit. It's in everyday things like when someone oversteps your boundaries, personal space, or patience. When they raise their voice at you, when they touch you, when they make jokes at your expense. All you want to do is defend yourself or run away and cry in silence. After all these years and i'm still fighting. I'm still waiting for the day i get my peace.
I understand. And I’m so sorry that you still have to keep climbing this forsaken mountain. I don’t know if it’ll ever really get any easier, I just know I’m away from them now and all I have is also: now. Don’t let go of the rope, get to that peak. I swear on my life I’m rooting for you. They can’t continue to rob our lives from us. You will know peace. Someday I will as well.
@@gooba2390 Your comment made me shed a tear. Thank you so much for taking the time to write that, truly. You piece words together so beautifully. I hope you find your peace and rhythm too.
praying you find your peace bby
Fr..i got mentally and physically abused for like 13 years my mom wasn't even there for my first 3 years of life
It never ends for those of us with trauma--it's always there you just learn how to live better. Life is extremely unfair. I try to focus on the positive things in my life, but some days I'm better at it than others. It's been 10 years for me. Still no peace yet.
I was listening to this while walking home in the dark and i had to stop the track and listen to some salsa or i was gonna have a heart attack omfg
i literally almost like passed out it was insane how strong this song was the first time listening
@@girlinthelocketand I was high as f listening to it. Never felt my heart pumping so hard
Bro had to salsa that shit off lmao ur so real for that
The last stop is the most cathartic shit I've ever experienced, nothing like silently shouting along with it
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or fully shouting along with it
This is genuinely the first time I’ve been scared while listening to a song. It captures dread so perfectly
It feels like some swans songs like 93 ave blues
Listen to Nico's 1968 album The Marble Index.
same it made me feel like I needed to look over my shoulder 😭
@em🕷️ I was laying on my stomach before this started and had to turn to face my room😭
You ever heard “do you doubt me traitor”
"What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me" Is such a raw and deeply unfortunate line that reflects reality far too often. It resonates with me, as a woman, and is something almost instinctual that lays in our bones from thousands and thousands of years of violence perpetuated against us on all levels and for all excuses and reasons.
Whyyyy?!!!!😢
Probably related to her being transgender
oh god shutup
@@oculed1101you came onto a video where the whole comment section looks like this comment. They didnt say anything, so u dont have to listen, so they dont have to shut up. take ts somewhere else
lol shutup nerd@@kobiecarroll3169
Not even exaggerating, this is the best song that I've ever heard and I don't think I can bring myself to listen to it ever again.
u should read beloved by toni morrison. same vibe
Do acid and listen again. Or shrooms.
I listen to it almost everyday, that and Gibson Girl are the best songs for me on the album.
It gets in the bones
this
This song is abjectly terrifying. Like it's literally one of the scariest songs I've ever heard. Reminds me of when I'd see a scary movie as a child and be looking over my shoulder and cowering in fear at every "humanoid" shadow.
Listen to end of life by death spells
Just listen to doom/death/black metal and you’ll have it💀 bro thinks it’s special
I know a lot of death/black metal songs and that's not what shes talkin about. This song is not terrifying bc of the brutality but the vibe and psychological effect. I dont scared of any metal songs, not scared of it either but make me going deeper into my darkness. @@eladbenm
@eladbenm bro thinks metal is cool
@@eladbenmshits not scary at all, just edgy. This song is scary because of the dread and atmosphere it sets up
This album covers every genre: Gospel, classic rock, lo-fi, hick ass country, and this song, the sound equivalent to having a panic attack while on speed in the woods
dream pop, slowcore, shoegaze, post rock, ambient, and folk rock are also some more notable genres
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Hick ass country 😂😂
aka “post-metal”
if you want to hear an entire album of something that sounds like this, check out stuff like neurosis, cult of luna, and the one that i can’t mention due to their name aging unfortunately
doom metal?
You know when you get so high that it stops becoming fun because everything just feels scary? This songs feels like that. Love it.
gibson girl to this song rly describes this perfectly
literally omg
You mean any time I have any weed at all? Yeah
You hit that right on the mark. I tried telling my friend is sounds like an overdose.
bro I was just listening to this song high asf and this is what it felt like but it was nice at the same time 😭
fun little fact; in dante’s ‘inferno’ you will see that those in ptolomaea actually are up to their necks in ice and are eating the other traitor. ethel is a “traitor” to her community and family by going against their beliefs and isiah is a traitor to ethel by killing her, and eating her.
can i know the name of the book?
@@NidorssDante Alighieri’s divine comedy; specifically the first book, Inferno
Hollywood needs to hire Ethel Cain to do soundtracks for movies. I can hear her music being played in the background of great movies like Silence of the Lambs. She creates hauntingly beautiful music.
like she would have fit perfectly on the soundtrack of X, hopefully they reach out to her for the prequel movie
Spot on.
@@chrispycore omg yes, the whole "preacher's daughter" thing
That's actually what her music is! She wanted to make movies but her music is the soundtracks to the films she has in her head! : )
@@jinjasdiorlocket WHAT
this song deserves a horror movie inspired music video ASAP
I read somewhere that Ethel Cain wants to make a movie about the preacher's daughter album
Can you imagine how the people who were brought in by American Teenager and thought this would be a pop record must've reacted to this track?
I’m one of those people. This song traumatised me 😭
Yeah I came the other way and I got so confused! had to check I was listening to the same person, i want more like this!!
Yep that's me 😍
I'm one of those. This made me love her more. I love an interesting song.
i came from this song so american teenager was the odd one out for me
"stop... stop... Stop. STOP!!" God, how many times I've said that in my life to try & save myself from damage. This song hurts, but feels so releasing when she says that part. Like my chest blowing open & my heart screaming.
Love this too😢
Yes. How many times do I want to or have to scream like this to let them know that I do want them to stop what they're doing to me.
And How many times do I have to control myself from screaming like this so as to keep them from feeling offended, as if they are the one who should be offended.
I couldn't even count.
@@ririko_asakura The worst thing ever was I read posted Lyrics that read 'stars' instead of 'stop' ludicrous.
idk how to explain but i wanna live in the resident evil 7 house with this song in the background
YES YES YES
u literally put my thoughts into words. this feels rotten like resident evil n a lil bit of outlast
@@mintyyy111 OMFG I ALSO THOUGHT OF OUTLAST (especially the one with the priest and weird cult thing, i think it was whistleblower) AND RESIDENT EVIL 7 WHEN I FIRST LISTENED TO THIS
@@SwiftMoments13 YESSS when they were in that weird village and this whole weird ass anti christ thing djskskdk this song literally feels like being thrown back into that world
@@SwiftMoments13 YES
I grew up in Kentucky. One day I was riding my bike through the cemetery. There was a dumpster outside the fence. There was a completely skinned deer laying next to it with some flies buzzing. I heard growling. I look back it's a doberman showing me it's teeth. This song reminds me of that. And when I have panic attacks I see it again. I've always felt like the skinless deer. Wasn't fast enough. Easy prey.
damn 🧍
@@beautifulprincessoftheworld 😭
i burnt my hand while trying to make instant Mac and cheese and I think that was my most terrifying shaking in my pants experience idk what’s up with you tho xxxxxx ❤️
@@sufferinginheaven why are u being such a hater I’m just a fifteen year old girl 😨
@@beautifulprincessoftheworld BRO SAME THO I TOO HAVE BURNED MY HAND MAKING INSTANT MAC
I’ve never felt a song put sexual assault so perfectly into sound… the dreading, the knowing it’s going to happen, the fear while it’s happening and the terrifying scream when it finally happens… it’s all in this song. So perfectly presented.. I feel seen, so many of us feel seen. Thank you.
YUPPP and it's so triggering but also cathartic as fuck
yes, i can't tell if listening to this is healing or triggering? the build up and release of it is so visceral.
i thought this song was about drug abuse?
@@sunnyiee_03 it’s about both (sadly)
the way i just felt it was about that omg 😭
my favorite Christian music album!!
Not Georgia peach 🍑
HELPP
@@katiegrace4588 what is Georgia Peach?
@@skjbhdjh what do you need help with? Be more specific.
@@ReubenWaltonit was a joke, they dont need help.
It sounds like Ethel is hallucinating and she's not only seeing/hearing Isaiah but an amalgamation of him, the devil and her father. An unholy trinity.
That 'stop' was so beautiful oh my god... Perfectly captures the desperation when we are faced with danger
Honestly, Ptolemaea really speaks to me. I’m a poor autistic girl that grew up in the south. And I’ve been abused by men. For me, the building, overwhelming nature of Ptolemaea, really feels similar to the escalation of being berated by the man you love, afraid he’s going to hit you. The noise of things hitting the wall, of his rage. The expectation for you, the lamb, to bend to his will. To retain your “purity”. The “betrayal” of every imagined infraction that you commit. And all of your senses are extra sensitive and you don’t know what you did to deserve this. The only thing you did was reject his sexual advances. The part where she screams “stop” felt like an amalgamation of those feelings and it honestly makes me cry my eyes out. I find myself silently screaming with her. It’s so therapeutic. I know that isn’t the meaning of this song. But that’s how I interpret it because of my experiences. And I think that’s the beauty of her music.
Dang, whew.
Oh boo hoo, cry us all a river!
@@tobypoopoo2902 what’s your problem
sending love
@@tobypoopoo2902 why are you here?!?
It’s funny to see that this is every woman’s comfort song and every man who listens to it nightmare song.
I truly believed this is one of the greatest songs ever made.
Ive been replaying it for hours ethel is a goddess and she has me in a trance i cannot escape from
Oh easily
It literally is, like the emotional reaction that it evokes and captures is one of the most masterful things ever achieved in music, not exaggerating.
When you work at McDonald’s and listen to Ethel Cain something happens to your brain
panera bread*
Panera bread happens to your brain yes
Grew up in white trash Mississippi with a grandma suffering from some severe munchausen by proxy, the fear at night and overwhelming paranoia while only being 10 is captured so well in the darkness of this music. I often feel so scared to write my music using expressions of such dark subject matter but clearly it can be done tastefully and in a way which other people can resonate. Thank you.
I grew up in Mississippi too :') the whole state is trash
♡ Lyrics:
I followed you in and I was with you there
I invited you in twice, I did
You love blood too much
But not like I do, not like I do
Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee
Promising a big fire, any fire
Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me
I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire
Suffering is nigh, drawing to me
Calling me the one, I'm the white light
Beautiful, finite
Even the iron still fears the rot
Hiding from something I cannot stop
Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh
Buckled on the floor when night comes along
Daddy's left and momma won't come home
You poor thing
Sweet, mourning lamb
There's nothing you can do
It's already been done
What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show your face)
Please, don't look at me
I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me
Turn me, what have you done?
Stop, stop (make it stop), stop, make it stop, stop
Make it stop
Make it stop, I've had enough
Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop
I am the face of love's rage
I am the face of love's rage
Blessed be the Daughters of Cain, bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception
Blessed be their whore mothers, tired and angry waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again
Blessed be the children, each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence
Blessed be you, girl, promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you
I am no good nor evil, simply I am, and I have come to take what is mine
I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood
I am here now, as you run from me still
Run then, child, you can't hide from me forever
The monologue at the end makes me think the voice is Death, just my interpretation
Thank you!
@@cocteaupvssylice is it the same exact voice that spoke in the album opener?
not the heart signal have u LISTEN this song bae im crying
@@cocteaupvssylice no it’s not.
i’ve never listened to a song that left my stomach so sick, the shriek, shivers
yeah the first time i listened to it my tummy hurt but i listen to it everyday its a masterpiece
@@victoriayusibova1606 I agree, probably didn’t help that I was watching Dahmer at the time so the imagery of this song was quite powerful 💀
Thought this said like Shrek instead of the shriek at first
I struggle with apathy. When I need to cry, I can’t. It’s the worst thing ever. Playing this song helps me dig out all of my inner emotions, release them, and shed tears.
Yes!! It annoys me when people pride themselves on not feeling emotion, it’s such a soulless feeling
^so real. I'm just now starting to take ownership of my emotions and music is part of that healing process. I'm proud of my progress
This is so me. I only have a good cry at certain songs and I need to do this regularly now, or I get ill masking no lie.
THIS LEFT ME SPEECHLESS but I HAD TO write something. Totally unexpected. Brutal. The sound of flies adds to the realism of it all. Truly respect your attention to detail throughout the whole album. Stunned.
On the night of the release, she went live on Instagram and I asked her what insect it was, and she said bees because bees have smoother droning :)
@@hudsonbarbour7361 didn't know that! Thanks for the info
This captures the rage of a woman. The rage of not having the right to own yourself. What a beauty.
Yes
even though i’m young i’ve got a lifetime of anger repressed. knowing that someone could scream emotions out your system like that amazes me... it makes me feel a lot better, regardless of the headaches for listening to it on repeat
I’ve dealt with a whole lot of repressed anger too, remember, your anger loves you. Realizing that has been the most helpful thing for me, I wish you the best of luck
@@jennys209that line holds a lot of wisdom “anger loves you”
Lingua Ignota is another artist who makes music that feels almost overwhelmingly cathartic to listen to. It's disturbing and unsettling and possibly the most intense emotions I've ever heard expressed through any artistic medium. Her album Caligula is the one I'd recommend.
@@jennys209Your anger loves you. Holy shit man. Fuck.
At the very start I feel like Isaiah was talking to her, but the next voice is literally Death. Basically telling her that it's too late. Isaiah attacked her at the beginning of the song. That's why she can't stop it, and that's why Death was like, "there's nothing you can do. It's already been done." She's already dying. She's just been refusing to believe it.
One of the best songs ever created I'm so serious
So real
realest ever
the ambiance in this track is so rich. the flies, the background voices, the layering; it’s perfect
The “I am the face of love’s rage” after the scream is so tragic to me
I wish she made more songs like this the feeling it gives me is almost like a trance
fr thoo
Its like Type O Negative on steroids
@@DontFretAboutIton estrogen*
the way the "you can't hide from me forever" sticks out so tastefully at the end is incredible
It makes me feel so understood, not just as a woman but as a person. Ethel Cain is amazing at portraying emotions.
Anyone else notice that from 3:50ish the lead vocal went from being amplified to having the mic essentially cut off? He silenced her, that's why she had to scream
Holy shit i cannot BREATHE after this realization, he took her voice i cant, i literally cant -this song haunts me
The fucking doom metal outro! This girl came for blood!!!!!
I can't believe McDonalds actually added this song to their Grimace's Birthday Playlist on Spotify.
Wow that’s crazy it really is on there! I thought this was some kind of girlypop BTS y2k stan twitter lingo ironic joke but I just checked Spotify and it’s REALLY on there! 😮
genuinely just shitty corpo trying to appeal to gen z
one of the employees is going through it 😭
I am not terribly familiar with her work but the title made me curious as a fan of Dante's inferno. This song really captures the lonely frigid feeling of Ptolomaea, one of several regions of Cocytus, the frozen lake which is the 9th and lowest circle of Hell, the circle of Treachery
Ptolomaea is where those who have betrayed their guests linger on in frigid agony
Basically her album, Preachers daughter follows a storyline of a preachers daughter and her life and tragic death at the hands of her second lover.
It gets VERY dark lore wise as this song is her character getting sa’d, murdered, and then cannibalized.
She goes to heaven after this and looks back at her life and gets conflicted because she’s very upset at what he’s done to her, but still has feelings for him. She then decides to kill him from the grave by food poisoning.
after years of childhood molestation and doing all I can to heal and get sober from heroin and other hard drugs and being shunned by certain parts of my family and friends for being trans I feel seen heard and understood I started last year off in a hospital I had an overdose and something snapped in me and I saw much around me that I was becoming all rooted in pain and trauma and this album felt like having a hand to hold while I walked through my own physical and mental hell
Your coment was so chilling to me because the exact same thing happened to me. I hope u can find a way to move on, and have a happy life find you : )
God, I resonate so much with this comment.
Damn we're pretty similar then, except for the drugs since I've never been a drug type of person
This has me feeling like I'm sinking into an inky abyss. It's both simultaneously disconcerting and comforting.
god, what a bloodcurdling scream. thank you ethel cain for making such a writhing, agonizing, beautiful, and holy record
The first few "stop" of hers sound so much like the narrative we women are expected to play even in misery, pain and the most horrid of experiences. We are expected to be quiet and clean about it. Make no fuss. Bring no disrespect and shame to your family by screaming that you've been tainted. That is the belief for the women in my country. I'm glad she screamed like that. I too, have wanted to scream like that for a long time.
Same!!
unironically my comfort song rn
the fact this became a comfort song to me
Thanks Ethel, needed this pov from my sleep paralysis demon
I laughed out loud to this!
@@mandalasky i rolled on the floor laughed to this!
As someone who was in a state of severe paranoia for months due to a traumatic experience this song hits really close to home. This is exactly what the fear felt like to me.
WOW???! this is absolutely PACKED with emotion, like vacuum sealed packed. this woman is genius. the breakdown or climax is insane & so carefully crafted to convey an incredibly strong tone & atmosphere.
This is a really hard song to wake up with it stuck in your head. As a survivor with c-ptsd, this song is cathartic but extremely triggering for me. Put me in the weirdest headspace for the day. I'm barely even here today living in the traumatic memories this brings up. This song is a spell and it is extremely powerful. The first time I heard it I had a full on physical reaction, my whole body broke, the scream sent me reeling, the pheonix fire in me got reignited. Thank you for this song but damn if I can't handle waking up with it as my earworm for the day
This song sounds like what it felt to be betrayed by my uncle as he sold my body out to men. Very few songs make me feel this way but this song... this song makes me feel seen, heard, understood fully and completely.
Idk if this is a good recommendation for you because it could be super fucking triggering (i have it with this song in a playlist called "put u in a bad mood" for when i just need to get all the gross feelings out after a panic attack or something :,)) but daddy by korn also has this vibe, but a lot more explicit.
@@uncertain_zee yeahhh, I've listened to it lol. I still listen to it every once in a while... it also is weirdly comforting to hear for some reason lol
obsessed with the transition of gibson girl to ptolemaea to august underground, this album is a masterpiece
a song to play during dinner on a lovely christmas night with the family 🌲🎅
this was my number 1 song for 2023 on spotify 😭
HOW TF DO U LISTEN TO THIS SONG CONSISTENTLY ???
@@Sza4L As somebody who listens to thus song constantly, really bad mental health.
@@atadbitahistory9660 oh 😧😭
How lucky i feel to be able to see the universe through Ethel Cain's eyes... both the character and the woman behind.
This track feel like if it was written by Laura Palmer, in the best way possible.
I 100% agree with the feeling that it was written by Laura Palmer. It’s all I imagined when listening to the song. It's so haunting but beautiful, just like Laura’s story.
HOLY SHIT THAT IS THE BEST THING KVE EVER. THIS IS SO FUCKING LAURA PALMER
i completely concur. like, fu*k yes.
x3
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Still waiting on the Kidz Bop version of this song
LMAOO
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No joke, a friend of mine used Strangers in a presentation about horror in music and theater and I was instantly intrigued. She described that the album Preacher's Daughter was a scary album about a preacher girl getting caught up in a romance with a psycho cannibal killer and knew I had to give it a try. Being a self-described metal head, I charged head first with an eager interest and WOW. I have never heard a blend of sounds like this before! It is also genuinely terrifying as well! It honestly reminds me of hearing groups like Meshuggah for the first time in terms of sheer brutality yet beauty as well. There's such a wide mix of genres here I'm almost certainly Ethel Cain has invented a new one with this album. It is way more than your average pop singer-songwriter kind of music. I wouldn't even bat an eye if she opened for a death metal band with tracks like this. One thing is certain, and that is I am now a big fan of her's! If Ethel happens to be reading this, I love what I've heard so far and can't wait to see what you do next! :)
Same when I first herd Meshuggah exactly w cain
woke up in a bus in the middle of nowhere in Czech Republic listening to the chanting at the end of the song
10/10 experience
This kind of music makes you look behind your shoulder nervously while listening in headphones, and I'm all for it
Haha I had to take one ear bud out, it was too much
I’m not exaggerating when I say that this is one of the best songs I’ve ever heard in my life
getting ready for the club kinda track
hearing the beat drop after “it’s already been done” had me holding my breath for the whole rest of the album until at the end of strangers i lost it
Like something out of Silent Hill...true, horror laced atmosphere. Haunting, amazing
Exactly. Someone above mentioned, Resident Evil and I'm like, no, more like Silent Hill. Lol
god what a masterpiece. the doom metal outro is the most horrifying sequence of music i've ever heard.
bro when i was listening to this album on spotify and this played my ass got so scared😭 but i still sat through it and ended loving the whole song
Ah. Right into my "contemporary pop" Playlist between Diamanda Galas and Lingua Ignota.
LOVE Diamanda!!!
@@jamesduksta5595 me too brűther
Thanks for the recommendations
Yes! This song totally gives me Diamanda Galas vibes
perfect company
yknow how it feels when you've always cried in silence but you've figured out you can scream and rage and curse everyone who unsanctified you? thats this song
this was actually terrifying, the LYRICS?!, the fly buzzing noises, the eerie humming, the repetitive stops, that scream?! this made me feel some sort of way and i love it
This is our reminder that still here, on this planet, there is monsters living among us unhuman things and that we need to be always be cautious about who we trust
Haunting, nostalgic, spinning, atmospheric and layered in desperate passion. Best from the new album.
genuinely one of the best songs ever written
This song sounds like a panic attack and suffocation. I've only heard a few Ethel Cain songs before and I didn't really like them but this one. This one.
That screaming 'stop' towards the end gave me chills
this artist physically ripped my heart out and served it on a dish that resonates with me on such an insane level that i have to eat it and puke it out.
I discovered this song one night when I fell asleep and left my earphones on and my Spotify on shuffle with suggested songs, and woke up to this song and unlocked my phone and got scared af, I thought I was dreaming or died lol naturally I put it on my playlist 😊 Ethel Cain 🤘
Ethel didn't stand a chance.. :( This album makes me so emotional.
I’ve waited my whole life for this album.
playing this to my baby cousin when he's just about to go to bed
update: im not allowed at my cousins house anymore
HAHAHA
Straight out of a dark and atmospheric horror movie, this is amazing.
The perfectly ambivalent chill and tension that comes from reliving abuse willingly. The warm, dense feeling that comes from leaning into your depression. And the disassociative glare that fills the empty space between the falls. There is a strange comfort in all this that sticks to your conscience and rests in the recesses of your mind untill it pushes to the front and takes control. Those are the emotions and thoughts that come to me from this song. Truly a masterpiece. Very very few songs can make me FEEL like this one does. It almost becomes impossible for me not to regress into my thoughts and internalize every ephemeral synaptic connection much more deeply. The emotions flow smoother, and its almost cathartic in a chaotic manner. Thank you Ethel.
the comments are talking about how they'll never listen to this again bc it's so disturbing and while I agree I have also been listening to it on repeat I love the part after the scream so much
Y’all have GOT to hear the extra stuff after the initial scream
This song has been living in my head since the day it came out. Shout out to the UA-cam algorithm for recommending this when 2 hours after it was released out of no where. Clicking this video was one of my best choices recently.
If anyone knows of any songs similar to this, leave suggestions
have you seen me by nicole dollanganger has a similar feel/subject matter.
almost anything by chelsea wolfe, but especially "color of blood"
Eraser by Nine Inch Nails has a similar buildup with another haunting climax, it’s very similar.
@@aliese3831 Thank you!
I know I'm a bit late but as someone has already mentioned, Chelsea Wolfe has some similar stuff in some of her albums, I'd say maybe try "Pain Is Beauty", "Abyss" and "Hiss Spun", although "Abyss" is the album that comes closer to this.
I feel understood with this track. Its comfortable and unnerving at the same time. This is how i have lived most of my life, always on edge with the falsehoods of peace by people around me. internally i have rage and twisted thoughts due to years of neglect and being forced into emotional isolation by my parents. This feels like a release
suffocating, eerie, beautiful, cathartic. covered in goosebumps and teary eyed by the end of it
This song feels like the spiritual black sticky goo that creeps into you while having to endure traumatizing things. Shallow breathing, racing heart & darkened mind.
one of ethel’s best songs in her top three and the best song on this album
the musical embodiment of releasing trauma
What scares me about this song is that it's really well produced.
This person has clearly went through s**t and there are people in the comments thinking it's a "dark beautiful" song and making different comparisons.
This is really dark stuff.
This album was recommended to me so I went in blind and am listening straight thru. For a lot of the songs I was like "ah, indie folk. This is full of feeling but still very chill somehow. I guess that's what it all is. But I'll keep going just in case."
And then I got to the song before this.
And then I got to this.
Literally life-changing. Earth-shattering art.
I heard this song 4-5 days ago at mid night. I thought why isn't it getting more view yet? This hits hard. Look at it now... 1M views. CONGRATULATIONS 🎊. WE MADE IT YALL.
This is phenomenal.
this song sounds like it would be in a creepy cult horror movie. its so dark and captures raw emotion