Malachi's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2024)
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- Опубліковано 21 вер 2024
- 02:50 DPDR from a Panic Attack
05:55 "You're telling me there's nothing wrong with me?"
08:20 Two friends ALSO had DPDR!
13:14 Panic Attack Triggers
16:08 Malachi's DPDR Symptoms
19:20 Explaining DPDR to Parents
20:39 Seeing other Doctors + Therapists
21:53 The Lowest Point
25:00 How Did Recovery Start?
29:43 What Did Recovery FEEL Like?
31:43 The Depersonalization Manual
34:10 Can You REALLY Get Back To Normal?
38:05 Advice For DPDR Sufferers
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Malachi (18) is from New York. He's a talented athlete with a bright future in American Football. But last year, he developed Depersonalization Disorder after a severe panic attack. He struggled with it for some time but has thankfully since made a complete recovery.
As Malachi wrote to me in a recent email: "Because of your DP Manual, my life has went back to normal and I hardly even remember it ever happening."
And he's with us today to tell us about his experience with and recovery from Depersonalization Disorder!
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.
Thank you for this!!! I'm in my recovery Journey for a month now, but already feeling so much better since I purchased the manual. Much love and gratitude from Brazil ❤
So happy to hear that Arthur! 😊 Keep up the good work and enjoy your recovery! ❤
Shaun How much is the manual?
Hey shaun, im really scared i feel like im in a bad dream and that i cant wake up, but watching youre videos really helps i hope i get trough this soon thank you for youre kindness and videos
Glad the videos have been helpful 😊❤️
Here me out guys. I know you are scrolling comments to relate as much as possible. I know it is frightening. I know it feels like you won’t make it. I know you relapsed again and came here to sympathise. My name is yug mehta, i am from India. Now whatever you call it, Dp, Dr, Anxiety, fight or flight etc. You will certainly overcome this. Been here in Jan 2022. Been here in Aug 2022. Been here in Nov 2022. Each time feeling much more better. Just live your life. Here i am completely out of this never ever thinking about it again. And if i do, i laugh. Don’t be in your head 24/7. Go outside, meet your friends, spent some time with family every day. Most importantly do things that you love to do. I know sometimes it is so irritating and overwhelming but trust me, you will learn to be more patient. Just hang on. :)
Special shout out to this guy ! Doing such a great job. You are a blessing man !
I love you and bless your soul for writing this comforting comment
When DP first started for me my husband had just died and Covid started.. I was going round and round in my head about the future.. I needed major dental work, I was embarrassed for anyone to see me but I kept thinking I was on my own now and had to go out into the world. The periods of “being outside my” actually helped me get across the country for dental implants. I remember thinking whatever this is it is just helping me through this time and will disappear when I get it all together. The terrifying part was when I got back and there was nothing stopping me from going out the curtain around my mind hit full time. I went for therapy,medical appointments and talked to everyone I knew but nothing helped..until I googled what I was experiencing and found the DP manual. I want everyone to know the reason you are feeling this doesn’t matter..try and continue living your life not concentrating on the strange place your mind has gone..you will get better before you know 💛
Thanks so much for your comment Pamela -- And I'm very happy that The DP Manual was helpful on your journey ❤️
I can so relate to this specific journey! Thankfully fully recovered but its goes to show how common this really is.
Thanks for your comment and I'm glad to hear you've recovered! 😊
How did you recovered?
My DpDr started with a horrible panic attack to and trip to the ER where they told me the same as you. Still trying to fins the exit!
Living with dpdr is like being in a burning building and trying to be OK with it
big thanks for your videos!
Glad you like them! 😊
My problem is that i can’t stop thinking about symtoms , my mind is all the time ruminating . I don’t know what is key to stop obsessing because this is the problem why i’m not recovering yet
Same Here.. like today i feel normal and okey Thank God and sometimes a little less then i think its a big problem.. and im still focusing on my breathing it is now 10 months since i started to do it… when Will it end????
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You don’t need to “stop it”. The way out is to stop obessing over symptomes and also stop obsessing about that you are obsessing. Notice the thought pattern and interrupt it. Look outside, take a shower, take a deep breath, watch a funny video. Interrupt the pattern and let it go. You don’t need to solve it you need to stop focusing on it at all. It can be difficult at the beginning, I know that. But trust me, stick with it, it will get better. Everytime you catch yourself obsessing over symptomes, stop it, switch your focus.
@@e.r.4075 👌❤️🙏🏽
@@e.r.4075 Thank you very much🥰
Totally true, you get rid of it! You have to understand that dp/anxiety is a normal reaction but it keeps despite of time because you are obsess over it and is all you think about. It is as normal as going to the bathroom, you know if you eat something your body process it, if you don’t your body don’t process anything because you didn’t eat, the same happens with dpdr, if you care, if you obsess, if you fear your body will react the same way because it can’t make any difference between a real danger or just an stupid tought.
Greetings from Argentina! I would like to give my recovery story (5 month)
Thanks for your comment and I'm very glad to hear you've recovered! 😊 And yes I'd be happy to feature your recovery story on the channel, drop me a line 😊
@@DpmanualI Can share my email!
4 and half years in and every once in a while i start to feel desperate and depressed over this again. So i get here to get encouragement. I just want to see world normally again
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
And try to be more positive. Saying stuff like, I wanna be normal can be triggering for people going through this, especially when you’ve been experiencing it for years. Think positive and continue studying from DP Manual. I’m in the same fight you are as well as many others. You’ll get through this! 😁
Get blood work man
@@kingrobotnik6950how are you bro
thankful for this the things malachi was going through was very similar to me🙏🏽
Glad it was helpful 😊
thanksss for another video❤
You're welcome 😊
In the midst of DP I went to the ER and anxiety was never mentioned.. I was advised to get a head MRI..yeah put me in a steel coffin!..major anxiety!..thank goodness for the DP manual..knowing what was happening to me was the beginning of getting better.
So glad The DP Manual was helpful Pamela 😊 If you'd ever like your story to be featured on the channel just drop me a line ❤️
Thanks a lot for another video.I am currently 17 and I feel that i am recovering and am enjoying it very much, hope that one day I can appear on one of your videos.
Glad to hear the videos have been helpful 😊 And yes for sure, looking forward to having you on the channel someday soon! 😊
I’m also 17 and experiencing dpdr, do you want to be friends?
i am struggling with dpdr for almost a year now It has grounded me in so many ways and giving me a very tough time if i had the money I would not even hesitate to buy the manual.
Are you still struggling with this?
@@maxnettles Yes Unfortunately
@maxnettles5725 unfortunately yes
Interesting take with the ashwaganda. Ashwaganda actually helped me. It is supposed to lower stress-hormones in your body and thereby boost your testosterone. For me it did the job. But it propably has different effects.
6:45 I also can’t sleep in my bedroom anymore, I’m still sleeping on the couch. My parents are curious about that shift. Which I can’t tell em cause I don’t wan to seem crazy. My one was triggered while I was doing meditation let’s just say during that session I encountered my past traumatic experience.
I swear to god depersonalization has made my brain just hyper conscious and i hate it, like im so conscious of every little thing and now im so so insecure, is it possible for my brain to go back to how i was before ? like i'll stop being so insecure and overly conscious and all that? will all my old dreams, all my old way of seeing life and everything come back? im so sad and scared at the thought that how i used to always think of the world and how i used to feel and how in general everything was will all of a sudden be gone. i hate this.
Yes, you can and will get 100% back to normal and how you were before 😊❤️ Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
Ashawagonda is to help with anxiety, you most likely had a subconscious level reaction to pressure's in life and your cup tipped over so to speak. And then your nervous system got stuck in fight or flight and your cortisol levels stayed up ect
It was an edible on a plane while thinking negative stuff and playin horror game that did it for me. Cocktailed myself and it gave me the big spook lol I used Ashawagonda tea to help me get through the worst of it. Now I’m just working on telling my mind to stop being a baby and cross over back to the normal side of thinking. I promised myself I’d play Catherine when I’m properly back to normal 😄
A small suggestion everyone should get a full doctor check up one time check for any vitamin deficiency and for your health first if that’s all good just let go and move on and you’ll be 1000000% ok
i am so scared bro. everything is not a real. sometimes i think people arent a real. i have strange fears. sometimes i have strange thinks about life. why? i am only 14 years. its so hard bro. i had dpdr 4 month ago and now it back. does it normal?
Feeling vibrations and throttling in neck also the symptoms of Dp and after consuming weed for the first time i got a bad trip and then a panic attack i thought my salaiva production was totally stopped and I feared a lot and got hospitalised
I m from India plz help
Here people don’t take these things seriously and it almost 1 month passed but i m still feeling anxious and fear to go outside and travelling in bus
💯 x💯 s/o Malachi the courage to open & share your experience bro. Hate to say it but not a lot representation or awareness, let on alone, any priority for mental health of black men in the US. But, iHope your testimony resonates to other brothers as it did for me. The world can be a little dismissive in general already, which begets neglect. The complacency. Eventually, shame because we view mental health issues as a sign of weakness.
But, there’s strength in any numbers ✊🏾
Gotta get that clock working Malachi
I had smoked weed in the fall of 2019 with my friend. It was his first time and he started to freak out so naturally I did as well and I was just trying to keep him relaxed. I remember he started to breathe very heavily and start panicking and that’s when I went “oh fuck” in my own head. I also freaked out and was trying very hard to keep my shit together and help him out. The next day I felt weird and he did too. I thought that it was just a “weed hangover” and I’d be back to normal. But then a few days went by and I continued feeling weird and didn’t know what was wrong and immediately started thinking that I fried my brain or something. I never really talked to him too much about it mostly because I was scared too. But it sounded like he was back to normal after a few weeks or maybe a month I can’t remember. But I continued feeling weird and now it’s almost been 4.5 years since that happened and I still feel messed up. It’s only visual for me as in if I’m outside looking around something just seems off. I can’t really explain it. When I go to the grocery store everything just seems wacky in my vision. I’d say it’s almost like I have a wide view looking through a magnifying glass almost. That right there doesn’t quite describe it but it’s the best way I can describe it. Any way for a long time I just accepted that I fried my brain and this is how it will be for the rest of my life. But I’ve been still doing research on it and I’m thinking it must be DP/DR. I’ve been trying to keep my mind off of it and let myself heal from it but it’s hard to do. I bought the DP/DR manual and I’m really hoping that it will work. It’s been way too long and I need to erase it from my mind.
Please someone help me 😭😭😭 I don't wanna go crazy 😭😭😭 i don't know what to do anymore 😭 I'm so scared 😭😭😭
Don’t worry, fears of going crazy are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frightening but they’re harmless and temporary and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
How are you now ?
@@Willow-lh46 I'm good now bro, not fully recovered but I'm good now, i got a new job, still fighting
@@fatjarvis6050 how did you start too recover?
Totally agree when the medical people tell you nothing is wrong you get worse!!!😢
I think shrooms triggered my DP! I regret eating them cause now my brain goes back to that uneasy feeling of being out of your mind/body.I’ve been a chronic weed smoker since 16-27. Weed definitely messes up your mental health! I’ve been sober for a few days now and I’m never going back! Actually made a doctors appointment today first time I’m actually doing something about my mental health! 💪 💪
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
@@Dpmanual feeling great now! Keep giving people hope!
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I've had dp for few months and I'm currently recovering. The biggest thing for me is what caused it. I've never used any drugs or alcohol and I've never had panic attack. I don't remember any traumas that could affect me. Only thing I know is years ago I had few short moments with dp. So I have no idea about it
Check if you have ADHD. Sometimes ADHD could cause constant anxiety and overtime your body may end up with DP. It could also just be you are generally anxious and overtime your body viewed it as a significant threat to the point it engaged this defense mechanism known as do/dr
@@Gianni21M okay thanks, I'll definitely think about it
Don't worry Alex, DPDR isn't always caused by something as clear and obvious as a panic attack or trauma 😊
Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
I kind of recovered from dpdr but still sometimes if I think about it and question my self if this random table is real or not I feel it’s going to come again like I’m recovered but not 100 Precent
Don’t worry Leo, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
Hey Shaun. Is intense exercise good or bad for dpdr? Ive heard it stresses your nervous system, not really sure what to think because i exercise 5 days a week. Let me know pls!
Hi Gabe -- 'Intense' is relative to how fit someone is. If you're fit and used to intense exercise and not pushing your body too hard, I'd say that's fine. But the fact that you're exercising so frequently in general is a very good thing👍
Hello sir..
I was suffering from health anxiety since October which caused chronic stress to me..and recently I started feeling so weird...i noticed some symptoms
• I feel like I'm not here
• Everything looks so strange to me
• I'm living in a constant fear that something is gonna happen to me
• I don't feel real..It feels like my brain is stuck somewhere..
Kindly help me to get out of this ...I am so scared 😨
Thanks for your comment 😊 From what you've described that does sound like DPDR to me, but please take a look through the list of symptoms here, see if they sound familiar: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
Hello Shaun, I think I've reduced my depersonalizasyon, maybe even reached a point of improvement, but I have a question. I had some concerns that I managed to overcome, but whenever I experience any anxiety, I go numb. I don't understand if I'll always face this numbness every time I panic about something. It worries me. Can you please respond?
Recovery means that you won't panic about things unnecessarily and so won't experience feelings of DPDR in your day to day life 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
@@Dpmanual Thanks, Shaun. I have a fear of death and what comes after death these days 😅 Thanks to your advice, I've come this far. Thank you very much, we will get better 👋
@@smhg5665 Don’t worry, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
Thanks for another vid👏 Ive been struggling with dp for a few months now, but i made a lot of progress since I found Shauns manual last week. I know now this is most likely the dp talking, but even though im starting to move away from the scary existential thoughts, I still feel constantly like: none of this makes sense. It cant be real. Floating on a rock in infinite space etcetera. That makes me worried, becaude it feels like my brain is starting to accept the nonsense thought that 'all of this is most likely not real' Also im a bit worried that - when it gets better - im not able to forget how 'not real' everything felt, and that my brain cant go back to accepting that everything in fact is very real. Does this sounds familier for anybody?
Don’t worry, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
And to answer your second question, watch this 😊
ua-cam.com/video/Qy3DAFDBY30/v-deo.html
@@Dpmanual thank you🙌 your recovery package is helping me a lot.
@@Dpmanual if i can ask you one more question. My therapist thought it might be a good idea for me to talk with a Philosopher about these topics (things like existence), but now i know it is just the anxiety that is worrying about those things. I know you are not a therapist, but do you think it would be wiser just not to talk about these things anymore? Like not talking about the DP.
@@JAN0123789 I personally wouldn't recommend discussing the condition in philosophical terms, read this for more info: psychcentral.com/lib/is-depersonalization-disorder-a-form-of-enlightenment
But I'm not a medical health professional and ultimately the decision is up to you and your therapist 😊
@@Dpmanual cheers mate! Thank you for your responses. Keep up the great work💪
No way I could play football or sit in classroom with my dpdr
Im recovering from it but i still think about the symptoms, and i fell like its whats making me feel depressed and anxious again, i go to the gym and workout during the day and it helps alot but i cant stop drinking beers at night because it helps me relax, should i consider taking anxiety and depression pills ?
Hi Patrick, glad to hear you're making progress. I'd suggest cutting down on alcohol if you can and certainly avoiding hangovers: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-alcohol-cause-depersonalization/
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
Shaun is it normal to have random anxiety when you go out I feel like I have got over the actual fear of dpdr it’s more the fact I just have anxiety I got it from trying weed once am I safe from phsycosis and all of them
Hi Alfie, thanks for your comment 😊 Remember that ultimately, DPDR is just a symptom of anxiety so when the symptoms vary, it's just your anxiety levels going up and down, and certain situations / environments can change them. I know it might seem difficult to believe but you actually have complete control over it 😊 Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website, starting with this one: www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
@@Dpmanual I feel like I got over dpdr but I just feel anxious when I’m out alone and stuff like that and I feel like it’s over nothing I’m just stressing but it won’t be psychosis will it
@@Amyn8bp Read these articles, I think you'll find them useful 😊
www.dpmanual.com/articles/schizophrenia_cancer_depersonalization/
www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
@@Dpmanual alls I’m really wondering is if dpdr is the start of psychosis and the weed I done was exactly a year ago and would of I knew by now if it was a brain disease
@@Amyn8bp hey my name is Zac, I did weed for my first time 1 year ago I’m 26 now, Ive already had anxiety all my life, I had THEE worst trip on weed you can imagine, at the time I didn’t even know what DPDR was it was literally THEE most terrifying experience I have ever had it was unlike anything I’ve ever felt, one year later I’m still suffering but i do have days that are better than others hope everything is we’ll keep fighting
Bonjour le livre est disponible en français?
Oui, le téléchargement est accompagné d'une traduction française complète 😊 www.dpmanual.com/purchase/
Hi Shaun, this is a random question. But when I recover will I be able to enjoy things like sugar and caffeine again. Every-time I consume either of those things my DPDR gets sooo much worse and the only time I can enjoy them is when I’m at home and know I won’t have to go out in public. Thanks :)
Well I get this as well, as DPDR is an anxiety symptom things that agitate the nervous system like caffeine and sugar will sometimes make the symptoms worse I found, as you recover you will find things like sugar and caffeine don't really affect it as much or at all :)
@@mrninjagamer9434 Thanks so much for your response. How did you recover ??
Hey Shaun, I have a question. Im curently using nicotine pouches(zyn). Is it ok to consume nicotine while our recovery or is it better to stop it.
In my opinion it's not a major factor in recovery. But if you would like to ask a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
Shaun is it normal to feel Deja vu
Don’t worry, feelings of Deja Vu are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frightening but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
Medication can works or not ? I take antidepressants. Looks like CBT help a lot.
Who have blurred vision 24/7 ? Thks
I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/
@@Dpmanual thanks for your answer :)
What about therapies it can help ?
I don’t know why I have all time blurred vision 24/7
@@felbaud I have blurred vision and is common, but overtime you will start to see better , now i can see more clear but i still feel disconnected from my body and surroundings
@@felbaud If you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR. And regarding visual symptoms, read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
Can depersonalization/derealization cause chronic stress ? Also can it cause skin problems
Read this, I think you'll find it helpful 😊
www.webmd.com/beauty/the-effects-of-stress-on-your-skin
Is normal to have mood swings , because i feel so angry sometime like i’m not normal😂
Read this, I think you'll find it useful: www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/symptoms/mood-swings
Hey I’ve fully recovered from DPDR from smoking weed one time. Do you think I would go back down the DPDR experiences if i smoked weed again?
I've got a new video on that subject on the way soon, stay tuned 😊
@@Dpmanual Ok I’m excited for it!
@@iuffty5848 😊😊
@@DpmanualI’m interest too
@@iamthefiremanjj Stay tuned 😊
Fast coment sir ❤
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Does overthinking made dpdr worse?
Racing thoughts are a common symptom of DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
Hey Daniel ! Is a different between having Dp/Dr disorder and having dp/dr symtoms only from anxiety and stress? I have heard that having disorder it lasts longer
Yes, there's a difference between experiencing the symptoms briefly and as a disorder. Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/
Will it turn into scritzophrenia?
No
@@itoukaiji9340then why do I feel like it's going to or I have symptoms of it
Read these articles carefully:
www.dpmanual.com/articles/schizophrenia_cancer_depersonalization/
www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
@@jaayrepzz I feel the same tbh do you just have an anxiety and you don’t know the cause
@@Amyn8bpyes
thankful for this the things malachi was going through was very similar to me🙏🏽
Glad it was helpful 😊