it'll be ok hon, trust me. no pain lasts forever, it gets buried down into the deepest parts of us and gets easier to bear with. i promise that a little later in life you'll be happier, knowing who you are and all those years will be some kind of a past life. it'll be ok, you will be ok
"One day after my suicide" The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, embracing my clothes with my pictures scattered around her, I saw so much love beyond the tears in her eyes. The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard, in the midst of this great sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me. The day after my suicide. I saw that teddy (my furry best friend) was more incredible than I could have ever imagined. Every time someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, seeing that I wasn't me, he would lie in front of the door and keep waiting for me. The day after my suicide. I felt my sister's love when I saw her sitting in her room with tears in her eyes. I remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. processing moments. The day after my suicide. I felt how important my best friend was. They were looking at all of our pictures together... remembering the laughs we shared. The day after my suicide. I felt sad for my teachers. They blamed themselves for noticing it. At night I went to the morgue to find myself. I was sad. I looked at myself and said: “So many dreams we had,” “So many loved ones,” “So many people we’re going to meet,” “You had so many people who loved you, but you threw them all away?” You must have a lot of courage to end your life. Why didn't you use that courage to win? "" Thank God it was just a vision. to remember. You are still here and you can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. The most beautiful, the smartest and the strongest. Make this yours. Save it in notes and read it later. - A person on UA-cam
Beautiful words. If you’re a writer you should think about publishing. No matter how short, it’s still worth it, especially a piece like this. Many very sad and lost souls need to read it. Thank you✊🏽💜
My friend died the other day in a car accident. He loved Billie Eilish. No one will ever be like him. I wish I was closer. I wish my other friend would call me back...I just need a hug. I feel so alone. I want to live... want to share warm happy times with beautiful hearts... everything feels so cruel... I've lost so many people..I'm so tired... Thank you for sharing this slowed version it's fitting for grieving..
Just know they're actually not dead. They're there with you. Now and forever. Just because you don't feel their presence doesn't mean they don't exist anymore. They rather exist within you. So don't you feel sad. Everybody is here with you. You have nothing to lose.
@@blossoms7815 I know you have the best intentions, but that can be very hard for some people to hear. It could help for some, could make it a lot worse for others. You did nothing wrong, this is just for future reference, to check your wording of the first sentence.
@@janlukasweiershausen5019 im sorry thats what ur going through... yk I wrote this comment a while Ago and now I feel better and I found someone who is different... just know im here for u and pls vent abt anything if u need to
Not depressed… but not happy either. I don’t know how to explain to anyone what is going on inside my head because no one will understand. I don’t even understand. So I suffer in silence.
Look, bud. I have the same problem as you. The only solution is you don't fight it off. You let it come and do it's thing. Maybe this will go on and on but one day boom, it'll stop. You'll feel okay again. Yourself again. You don't have to worry at all, luv. You'll be okay. There's always this little light at the end of the tunnel waiting to guide your way into happiness whenever you get lost. ;)
I am so lost and confused at the moment and I’ve never felt this lost and confused in my life I’ve always been able to take control of the situation but for some reason I am lost and numb and I was scrolling through UA-cam and here comes this song at 1:30 am, the rest is just……unexplainable. It’s insane what music is capable of doing!!
my ex used to listen a lot to billie,i didnt listen at all to her when i was still with her. one day she tells me to listen to the this song.I listed to the song but didnt notice the lyrics. it's been almost 3 years and I now know what she really felt.
1:39 am rn, it’s raining and i just finished a cry session. I’m so stressed with tests that I relapsed. My grades are plummeting and I just want to make my mom proud. Either that or I get neglected. It’s 1:40 now, I’m tearing up again. But, even so, I hope you kind souls have a great night, day or afternoon
it feels weak to show emotion, but it hurts to hold it all inside. it's hard to trust anyone after you have been hurt by someone close to you. i wish i had someone to share everything with. i miss that
I know your pain bro. I was ostracized from a very young age because they didn’t understand me. Now years later i’ve grown bitter and angry and push people away. I hate society
Why are there tears rolling down my face I thought I was stronger then this but there’s always one thing stronger then me sad nostalgia that chills me to the core..
this is literally me when i’m tossing and turning thinking of him… he was my everything and left .. i miss his hugs and smiles and jokes. i never fully got over his passing and i don’t think i will. this song comforts me knowing that there are other people feeling the same i am. i find comfort in music and this edit always helps me calm my mind when i think of him.
2 years ago I listened to this song because I thought it sounded good. Now I am listening to this and relating to the music. The amount of people who let out their emotions with music is astronomical. I lost my favorite person in the world a few months ago. He was the first person I let down my guard to and he burned every nerve in my body. This song is the actual representation of that.
my best friend showed me this song back when we werent really that close. right now shes going through a lot and so am i. we havent fallen out or anything im just really worried for her and even though she tells me shes ok i know shes not. its kinda what i also do. i hope we both make it out of this dreadful depression misery.
Putting this on loop because for some reason, this makes me feel warm and fuzzy. Because I interpret this as two people who loved each other, but no longer can, due to things outside their control, except they actually get a happy ending. This makes me feel like I'll get a happy ending. Atleast, as happy as an ending can get. I can now sleep in peace, and smile.
i lost myself a couple months back. i thought i would be able to bounce back to normal, but i never did. i let myself and so many others down and i have never felt so hurt, but this song reminds me that everything will be okay. hopefully soon.
All my life ive been trying to live up to what i thought where other peoples expectations. I punished myself and my body by starving myself and whenever i allowed myself to eat i would not be able to stop. I lost many friends because i was scared they would judge me or because i thought they would leave me if they knew who i really was. I looked in the mirror without seeing a single beautiful thing about me and i couldnt help but compare myself to others. All because of bad experiences and mean comments others made about my body. It took me so long to get over it and im still fighting everyday to find the way to myself and to find a way to be myself without letting mean comments get to me and without letting myself go or trying to escape into a nother reality. What im trying to say is that everybody deserves to be loved, not only by others but also by themselves. Everybody deserves to be happy and to live and laugh and to have a beautiful life Whe should all just stop comparing ourselfes to others and should try to find our own way, no matter how hard it might seem at first. Everybody is beautiful and everybody is precious. I love you
I miss you a lot, B. Our daughter Mimi is growing up so fast, and being a single dad is tough. I really wish you were here to share these moments with us. I hope whatever made you leave was worth it. We're always here, waiting for you. 🥀
i used to cry to this song back in 2019, which was my worst heartbreak i never loved anyone like him again, and i was never heartbroken like that again nor do i ever ,, ever want to be.
i get you babe. you can do everything right but still get what you didn’t deserve. my best friend broke my heart but at the end of the day we’re stronger than we cut ourselves out to be. we grow each and every day from each experience we encounter. you are worth so much
Its uh, its 19th of May 2022. 4 weeks from now is summer and im sitting here drinking cold water after a shower wondering where ill be in 2 years, 21:40 and i havent done my homework. I wish to listen to this a couple more times than, than ill get back to this comment and cry 7 months into the future. Dont delete this post, its freaking perfect and it brings such comfort. Please, thank you. - me, myself May 22..
@@zeeeeeeeee5554 i just noticed this comment and im very glad it brought me back in time. Ive been thru alot of things, but at the end of the day it helped me be the person i am today and im so grateful for it. If youre ever going thru any bad period in life just know itll pass, believe in yourself and fight the battles even if youre alone. I hope youre doing good.
This song can be interpreted all different ways. That’s what’s amazing and beautiful about it. Music can be a cope for people of just a vent, and this song can be for so many people for so many different reasons. And even though we all have different reasons in this comment section, we can all relate from the pain of one thing love. Which is one of the most powerful things in the whole world. And it’s supposed to bring people joy, and yet it brings more people sadness.
I wanna leave this world as well. I can't bare another night of crying myself to sleep. but i cant go because I think of the friends I'll leave behind, even if they are slowly slipping away. I just want to see everything before I go, I want to watch what this world will be.. even if our story's are different and we may not know each other let's get thru this together ❤
The first time i listened to this song , i was mourning silently for my father. 2 years ago. Today i listen to it to for comfort and not for grief. Its amazing how Billie has carried our yrouble hearts through pain and isolation and brought us to light and liveliness. If someone told me 2 years ago id listen to this song and not cry but just feel comforted , id not believe them
It's not true Tell me I've been lied to Cryin' isn't like you Ooh What the hell did I do? Never been the type to Let someone see right through Ooh Maybe won't you take it back? Say you were tryna make me laugh And nothin' has to change today You didn't mean to say, "I love you" I love you and I don't want to Ooh Up all night on another red eye I wish we never learned to fly I Maybe we should just try To tell ourselves a good lie I didn't mean to make you cry I Maybe won't you take it back? Say you were tryna make me laugh And nothin' has to change today You didn't mean to say, "I love you" I love you and I don't want to Ooh The smile that you gave me Even when you felt like dyin' We fall apart as it gets dark I'm in your arms in Central Park There's nothin' you could do or say I can't escape the way I love you I don't want to, but I love you Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
I'm not really well because... listening to this perfection of depression.. it really hurt... it hurt so much for me to be ready to sleep with this song.... this woman deserves the whole world
when i was at my lowest this song was making me so emotional and it was just with me. now im starting to feel this bad again and this song appeared on my yt page, it's not a coincidence
i used to listen to this song all the time, but it’s been a while since i played it. i saw this video and decided to click it… looked at the time… it was 1 : 29 and i watched it turn 1:30 am.
2 years ago I stumbled upon this song, the day before she told me “I miss talking to other people, I miss being single” the next day she told me. “ I didn’t mean what I said, I love you and want to be with you” I was already broken
01:10 and now it turned 01:11 This song shatters me. I listened to this song last year when I was reading my favorite fanficton ‘possessive’ and it literally fucking broke me. I was crying for a year. Every time I listened to this song or a thing from that book came to my mind, my tears just fell off. Now I don’t cry while typing this. Maybe I just got used to this, even tho I never really listened to this song after I read that book. I miss the feelings that I had while I was reading it. The smile, the pain.. love. It will always and forever be my favorite book. Deep in my heart, possessive & I love you. ❤️ 14.07.22
when i was 6, i used to ask myself “why doesn’t anyone like me?”. now im 19, and i ask myself “why can’t i make anyone stay?”. i wish i was being dramatic, im always called that here. i feel misunderstood.
to whomever may be reading this, i'm truly so proud of you for making it this far. you're so strong and i appreciate the fact that you continue to be here. life may throw heavy things at us, but its always worth it to fight back. everything is going to be okay, alright? :) dont forget to drink some water and eat something delicious! i love you
This feels better to listen to now, a lot has happened in the last years, sometimes I wish I told people I cared about more about it instead of thinking it would just be a burden to then for me to even talk. I feel much better wow, being sad was bad but getting numb of all emotion was way worse, it's good to feel again.
Reminds me of myself after I just got out of a toxic relationship, I found it difficult to trust that he wasn't going to hurt me, but now we are closer than I've ever been to anyone
Dear, Daniyrus You were always there. You were by my side during my first day of middle school, you were there during my rehabilitation, you were there when i was getting my diagnostic test done, and you were there when i was told to get out of sight. Even if you aren't real, you were still there, and i appreciate that. Truly your's, Constance.
It was just a small crush. I don't remember when did all these feelings turned from crushing to loving. I've never been more addicted he just changed idk how. Ig he really didn't mean to say he loved me. Idk when amd how did we lost our spark. I say i moved on but when it's night and im all by myself ig i didn't yet. I still have this kind of hope. I still want to give it a try a "chance". Sometimes i tell myself : "just tell him everything, tell him what do you feel. Even if he rejected you.. You'd never have to overthink if he likes you. You'll just move on. Or maybe he does actually, maybe he likes you!". Having hope is not always good. As billie once said : "i can't escape the way i love you, i don't want to, but i love you." so accurate. That's what im feeling. In my opinion *he is the nicest guy I've ever met*.
Wow. It's been a month. Well i moved on. Im with someone better now. I read this comment and still remember the way my eyes were puffy my face was red and i couldn't type everything was blurry cz of my tears. Yeah well i knew he didn't deserve me. I was enough. More than he even wanted. There is nothing wrong with me. It's all bcz of him. Idc abt him anymore. And yes im falling in love with someone else. Finally someone who is not toxic as he was. When i was typing that comment i never believed that i would get over him. Or that time would heal me. But it did. I got over him. Over everything. I deleted all our pics. I didn't delete our chat. Idk why. I still don't care abt him. I moved on. Finally.
The love at first sight exist guys... So this is my history. She was the prettiest girl that I've ever seen. I was in Disney, Magical Kingdom (5/5/2022). I will never forget that date. It was 9:45 pm, I was running at an attraction (Space Mountain, its like a roller coaster) and a girl was running too with her little sister. I said "go ahead" and I stopped of run. She said "are you sure? if you want you can go ahead." I said "its okay". Then her mother was behind me and I said "are you with them?" and she said "yes". So I let her pass. And then we were in the line. I was with my aunt and two cousins, one of them has 6 and the other one has 11. I remember when she was talking with her mom I was trying to see her face disguising. And then I remember I was talking with my aunt and the girl moved her face trying to see my face (because I had a bucket hat). And we were looking at each other disguising. I don't know if I was crazy but it was reciprocal. Men always are saying "I felt something different with you", etc. But guys, I promise in my 15 years living at this planet I just can't explain how did I feel. When I was trying to see her my heart was shaking a lot, and I was so nervous, I was literally looking down at her shoes (I remember those were grey). I also remember she was dancing with her sister and her mom was watching at them. When the line was over and she were leaving thru the attraction I said "good luck" and she said the cutest "thank you" that I've ever heard. Then when I went thru the attraction, she was there with her mother and her little sister looking at the photo (you know the photo that the camera take it when you are in the roller coaster lol). They were leaving thru the tunnel, and my aunt and cousins went to see the photo and I told them "lets go to the other attraction" just because I wanted to see her face once more. I remember that I was holding my cousin's left (the one that has 6 years) hand when we were walking thru the tunnel. So I saw her and she was holding her sister's left hand. I was talking to my cousin and she looked down to see me. What a sensation. The final destination of the tunnel was a shop, and they stayed in the shop and we left. We were looking for my uncle, because he didn't want to go to Space Mountain again because we already had been in space mountain like at 12pm and it was our second time. I don't know why, my instinct tell me to check in a specific place, and meanwhile I was looking for him I was thinking "why didn't I tell her something" And when my aunt found him I turned back to go to them and I saw that girl again with her little sister and her mom. My heart literally stopped for a moment. The worse thing was that I just keep walking... 30 seconds later, I regretted to don't tell her, and I was looking for her. I told to my uncle that I was looking for a known person (lie). I couldn't find her... 1 day before this, I read in a YT comment of always take risks. And I didn't. I've been so sad since that day. I feel so weak, and think that this was the worse mistake of my life. Fuck, I just want to go thru the past and tell her how cute she was and ask for her number or Instagram, just to talk with her... I wish some day find you and talk to you. Just in case y'all want to help me, she was white, and had the typical 2 braids. She was like blond but not too much, I don't remember well tho. Her eyes were green or blue, I couldn't see her eyes color well because was at night and in the place that is the attraction was so dark with blue leds. I appreciate if the creator of the video want to pin this, I want to find her please :(. I made a tiktok tho, and I posted a video, if yall want to help me the account is called "iwishseeyouagain", thanks.
it really is 1:30 when i found this. Adigital timestamp of my thoughts: i've felt this ache in my heart before but the new feelings i feel when sad are so different and scary. i hope i get to live and love someday.i want to make it through all the illness i've been burdened with and will continue to endure. i want my momma back in my life. I dont hate you dad, i just wish you woulda saw the signs when i needed love. i wish you woulda loved me more than her.she hurt me in ways youll never know because i love you. i waited till i was almost 18 trying to build a bond but you had no interest. So to keep your happiness i have to stay away. maybe you'll love me more in another life ya dickhead
Seven months ago i lost my best friend. Not from death, or moving, but by time. I lost her by getting older, and growing up. We were best friends for 9 years. More than half my life and i will always have love for her. If you read this mar, i miss you and i hope one day we can talk again. I miss you with every part of me. Lots of love
I lost someone so important to me a few months ago and i thought that with time i would get better but the hole in my heart is still there. I don't know how to make it stop hurting. It hurt at first so much but when I realized that once they were truly undoubtedly gone I knew half of me was too. There would be times through the day where I would expect to see them like the time they usually came home and I would have to remind myself that they are gone.
Have you ever deny yourself so much you love someone because your gut, your heart and mind is warning you that this is gonna hurt... But the more you deny the more you wanna yell out loud 'I Love You'!
this song was in my head a lot a few years ago. only now i can actually relate to it. now i cry whenever i hear "i didnt mean to say i love you" the whole song reflects something that happened a few months ago with someone im currently in love with. idk if it will ever work between us. i hope so. i dont wanna loose her. i dont wanna end up like i did last time i fell in love... this song makes me think about it, but ironically it stops me from crying.
she changed it all. i grew up with autism, a chronic illness, and severe depression. i was stuck-up, lonely, and lost. i wouldn't speak to other children in preschool and kindergarten because i thought i was "too mature" for them. i was bad at expressing love, and my parents convinced me to start believing that i was incapable of love/being loved because i didn't express it. i hated people. everyone. i thought people were like an terminal illness. you live and die with them without a choice. i hated myself. when i was six i devised a plan to end it all. then i moved cross-country. and i met her. she was perfect. kind, outgoing, and so, incomprehensibly happy and innocent. i couldn't figure it out. i was infatuated. she was my first friend. my first crush. my first love. i had never loved, platonically or not, in my life. not once, until her. and she loved me too. when i was 13 we started dating in secret. in a toe-curling, cry-to-each-other, dance-in-the-rain-while-thinking-of-each-other kind of romance. we were (and are) so in love. we were found out a day before our one-year anniversary. my parents have always hated her. they hate her because she's everything i always needed in a person. they hate her because i'd do anything for her. they hate her because i wasn't supposed to ever love or be loved. both my parents are aro/ace so they really don't understand. it's been nearly three years since we started dating. through it all, we triumph. hand in hand, over and over again. we've never had a fight. there's no jealousy. she is my sanctuary and i am her home. we've grown up together and are permanently intertwined. wherever we go and whatever happens, part of our hearts will always belong to the other. this song reminds me of all the unavoidable pain of love. but the storm is outside of us. we are pure in a world of chaos. perhaps you need a reminder that the storm is outside of you, too.
This voice reminds me of myself. I have burned up all my energy and love due to the loss of my family and my loneliness. I do not know how I will build a family in the future, how to give love and attention to my husband and children. I do not know who would accept to live with a person without feelings like me. I don't think there is anyone who will give me love like my mother did. I'm still searching for a father and I can't find him. There's still a burning in my heart until my end.
I'm here cause I was actually just roaming around on UA-cam. I've been struggling in my relationship the past months, I feel very unloved, but my problem is, that I can't let go. I love this person so much, but I don't want to. This song is really helping me get the tears out and calming down again. Thank you
I’m vaping now. I’m 19 in the marine core, just picked up Lance Corporal, and here I am, 12am, vaping, along in my living room. Life hasn’t been that good to me lately, like a building block I keep building that keeps getting broke and destroyed, knocked over time and time again, and I’m doing what I hated most. Beautiful song man, the rain really helps man, I swear it does. Like shooting stars and holding someone’s hand, that magical feeling in your chest when you feel your heart beat, it’s all the same. I yearn for that
2 months ago i was in the psychiatric hospital and i was listening to this song endlessly and crying now that i remember that days i get shattered all over again
This music is touching my heart so deeply…I have such a great life with a husband..but a horrible mental state..which makes me feel miserable..I wish I could make my brain happier so I could be truly happy..I have everything..a hospital job..a home..a husband…but a unhappy mind..
This song makes me cry every time because it reminds me how much I’m in love with my boyfriend and how much he’s help with In family problems, mental health issues, and transitioning(FTM).
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one million views :)
Can anyone suggest me songs like this plsss
one million and more people depressed in this toxic world
it's 2million now
@@alidevolper Yup
2 million*
4 years ago I listened to this song crying at the loss of another person 4 years later I am mourning the loss of myself.
I wish you all the best, take care
Sorry to hear. If you need someone to talk to i am here to listen. Hope all is well.
it'll be ok hon, trust me. no pain lasts forever, it gets buried down into the deepest parts of us and gets easier to bear with. i promise that a little later in life you'll be happier, knowing who you are and all those years will be some kind of a past life. it'll be ok, you will be ok
Couldn’t relate more
@@ananyarahman2001 stay safe, i hope the best for you
"One day after my suicide"
The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, embracing my clothes with my pictures scattered around her, I saw so much love beyond the tears in her eyes.
The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard, in the midst of this great sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me.
The day after my suicide. I saw that teddy (my furry best friend) was more incredible than I could have ever imagined. Every time someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, seeing that I wasn't me, he would lie in front of the door and keep waiting for me.
The day after my suicide. I felt my sister's love when I saw her sitting in her room with tears in her eyes. I remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. processing moments.
The day after my suicide. I felt how important my best friend was. They were looking at all of our pictures together... remembering the laughs we shared.
The day after my suicide. I felt sad for my teachers. They blamed themselves for noticing it.
At night I went to the morgue to find myself. I was sad. I looked at myself and said: “So many dreams we had,” “So many loved ones,” “So many people we’re going to meet,” “You had so many people who loved you, but you threw them all away?” You must have a lot of courage to end your life.
Why didn't you use that courage to win? ""
Thank God it was just a vision.
to remember. You are still here and you can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. The most beautiful, the smartest and the strongest.
Make this yours. Save it in notes and read it later.
- A person on UA-cam
Thank you. Just thank you a million times. These are very wise lines and they deserve to be saved and reread from time to time.
@@wintercriessilverrainyatum9762 i agree
I didn't think I would cry again today. Thank you for this
Beautiful words. If you’re a writer you should think about publishing. No matter how short, it’s still worth it, especially a piece like this. Many very sad and lost souls need to read it. Thank you✊🏽💜
i love you?
There's nothing worse than realizing how little you mean to those who mean the most to you.
Yea…💔
Going through it now. Again
don’t remind me again, god
damn.
😢
My friend died the other day in a car accident. He loved Billie Eilish. No one will ever be like him. I wish I was closer. I wish my other friend would call me back...I just need a hug. I feel so alone. I want to live... want to share warm happy times with beautiful hearts... everything feels so cruel... I've lost so many people..I'm so tired...
Thank you for sharing this slowed version it's fitting for grieving..
I’m so sorry, I hope you can find more people that love and care about you. If you need to just talk I’m here to listen
Are you okay ?
Just know they're actually not dead. They're there with you. Now and forever. Just because you don't feel their presence doesn't mean they don't exist anymore. They rather exist within you. So don't you feel sad. Everybody is here with you. You have nothing to lose.
if i was there with you right now i would hold onto you and never let go. maybe your friend rest in heaven
@@blossoms7815 I know you have the best intentions, but that can be very hard for some people to hear. It could help for some, could make it a lot worse for others. You did nothing wrong, this is just for future reference, to check your wording of the first sentence.
billie hits harder then that moment you realize they don't love you the way you love them :')
Couldn’t agree more
Feeling this like rn :/
@@janlukasweiershausen5019 im sorry thats what ur going through... yk I wrote this comment a while Ago and now I feel better and I found someone who is different... just know im here for u and pls vent abt anything if u need to
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@@miacapris5314 that was quick
Not depressed… but not happy either. I don’t know how to explain to anyone what is going on inside my head because no one will understand. I don’t even understand. So I suffer in silence.
me personally i like the feeling of being sad
its like a drug
i dont feel anything else so it feels good to feel something
Even if u tried to explain it they would get it wrong..... I think we all suffer in silence and try to ignore it
Look, bud. I have the same problem as you. The only solution is you don't fight it off. You let it come and do it's thing. Maybe this will go on and on but one day boom, it'll stop. You'll feel okay again. Yourself again. You don't have to worry at all, luv. You'll be okay. There's always this little light at the end of the tunnel waiting to guide your way into happiness whenever you get lost. ;)
numb
It will be okay i promise
im not as sad anymore but i still feel comfort in the sadness of this song
...To feel comfort in Sadness...What a thought...
Your not sad just numb… I think that’s worse
😖😖😖
I know what the empty numbness feels like.. family illness and hiding a broken heart can do that to you.. trust me i know
i remember listening to this song for the first time in 2019 crying so hard. now its 2023 and i still feel the same way lol
Heart Chakra....
I hope you’re okay❤
Damn
I am so lost and confused at the moment and I’ve never felt this lost and confused in my life I’ve always been able to take control of the situation but for some reason I am lost and numb and I was scrolling through UA-cam and here comes this song at 1:30 am, the rest is just……unexplainable. It’s insane what music is capable of doing!!
I am going through the same thing right now and I don't know how to make it better:(
why are my videos blowing up all of the sudden i posted this well over 2 years ago
Idk but it’s 1:30
Lol idk but maybe ur luck wake up just now..🥹
Same it's raining here today and this song hits different
Idk maybe we all just depressed now✋
@@prarthanadevu5791 yeaah
i miss him so much. it hurts so so much yet i feel so so numb.
I know what you are feeling right now but stay strong ok?
like they said.. Stay strong, don’t give up! We’ll be here 🖤
my ex used to listen a lot to billie,i didnt listen at all to her when i was still with her.
one day she tells me to listen to the this song.I listed to the song but didnt notice the lyrics.
it's been almost 3 years and I now know what she really felt.
It's a beautiful song.
thats sad af
1:39 am rn, it’s raining and i just finished a cry session. I’m so stressed with tests that I relapsed. My grades are plummeting and I just want to make my mom proud. Either that or I get neglected. It’s 1:40 now, I’m tearing up again. But, even so, I hope you kind souls have a great night, day or afternoon
You posted this 3 months ago, though i'd like to ask how you're doing right now
it feels weak to show emotion, but it hurts to hold it all inside. it's hard to trust anyone after you have been hurt by someone close to you. i wish i had someone to share everything with. i miss that
Hope you are doing better bud, open to yourself to yourself it will set you free i promise❤️
I know your pain bro.
I was ostracized from a very young age because they didn’t understand me. Now years later i’ve grown bitter and angry and push people away. I hate society
Why are there tears rolling down my face I thought I was stronger then this but there’s always one thing stronger then me sad nostalgia that chills me to the core..
this is literally me when i’m tossing and turning thinking of him… he was my everything and left .. i miss his hugs and smiles and jokes. i never fully got over his passing and i don’t think i will. this song comforts me knowing that there are other people feeling the same i am. i find comfort in music and this edit always helps me calm my mind when i think of him.
2 years ago I listened to this song because I thought it sounded good. Now I am listening to this and relating to the music. The amount of people who let out their emotions with music is astronomical. I lost my favorite person in the world a few months ago. He was the first person I let down my guard to and he burned every nerve in my body. This song is the actual representation of that.
it's 6:36 and i'm waiting for the bus but it still gives the same feeling
my best friend showed me this song back when we werent really that close. right now shes going through a lot and so am i. we havent fallen out or anything im just really worried for her and even though she tells me shes ok i know shes not. its kinda what i also do. i hope we both make it out of this dreadful depression misery.
Putting this on loop because for some reason, this makes me feel warm and fuzzy. Because I interpret this as two people who loved each other, but no longer can, due to things outside their control, except they actually get a happy ending. This makes me feel like I'll get a happy ending. Atleast, as happy as an ending can get. I can now sleep in peace, and smile.
i was looking for this vibe, thank you!
stay safe
this version unlocks a sad emotion i've never felt before
I've lost so many friends in the past year, it's something that will always stick with me. Music was there when people weren't.
i lost myself a couple months back. i thought i would be able to bounce back to normal, but i never did. i let myself and so many others down and i have never felt so hurt, but this song reminds me that everything will be okay. hopefully soon.
All my life ive been trying to live up to what i thought where other peoples expectations. I punished myself and my body by starving myself and whenever i allowed myself to eat i would not be able to stop. I lost many friends because i was scared they would judge me or because i thought they would leave me if they knew who i really was. I looked in the mirror without seeing a single beautiful thing about me and i couldnt help but compare myself to others.
All because of bad experiences and mean comments others made about my body.
It took me so long to get over it and im still fighting everyday to find the way to myself and to find a way to be myself without letting mean comments get to me and without letting myself go or trying to escape into a nother reality.
What im trying to say is that everybody deserves to be loved, not only by others but also by themselves. Everybody deserves to be happy and to live and laugh and to have a beautiful life
Whe should all just stop comparing ourselfes to others and should try to find our own way, no matter how hard it might seem at first.
Everybody is beautiful and everybody is precious.
I love you
I miss you a lot, B. Our daughter Mimi is growing up so fast, and being a single dad is tough. I really wish you were here to share these moments with us. I hope whatever made you leave was worth it. We're always here, waiting for you. 🥀
😢
i used to cry to this song back in 2019, which was my worst heartbreak
i never loved anyone like him again, and i was never heartbroken like that again
nor do i ever ,, ever want to be.
It's 1:20am and snowing, here I am thinking about things I went through this year, thank u 4 this playlist ❤
I'm so tired, i hate him but i miss him. I always was a good friend..... And he just broke me... I'm sooo tired.
U deserve soo much better than this pain he is causing you. U gotta move on.i am so sorry and I hope you will feel better.
I could relate. I thought I was making the right decision for both of us by leaving him but I miss him so much it hurts.💔
i get you babe. you can do everything right but still get what you didn’t deserve. my best friend broke my heart but at the end of the day we’re stronger than we cut ourselves out to be. we grow each and every day from each experience we encounter. you are worth so much
Its uh, its 19th of May 2022. 4 weeks from now is summer and im sitting here drinking cold water after a shower wondering where ill be in 2 years, 21:40 and i havent done my homework. I wish to listen to this a couple more times than, than ill get back to this comment and cry 7 months into the future. Dont delete this post, its freaking perfect and it brings such comfort. Please, thank you.
- me, myself May 22..
its been 2 years how you doing ?
following
@@zeeeeeeeee5554 i just noticed this comment and im very glad it brought me back in time. Ive been thru alot of things, but at the end of the day it helped me be the person i am today and im so grateful for it. If youre ever going thru any bad period in life just know itll pass, believe in yourself and fight the battles even if youre alone. I hope youre doing good.
@@lime9836 thank you I’m doing fine right now things have been hard but it really does help to build character 💪
@@zeeeeeeeee5554 im glad, i believe in you !! Stay strong friend
This song can be interpreted all different ways. That’s what’s amazing and beautiful about it. Music can be a cope for people of just a vent, and this song can be for so many people for so many different reasons. And even though we all have different reasons in this comment section, we can all relate from the pain of one thing love. Which is one of the most powerful things in the whole world. And it’s supposed to bring people joy, and yet it brings more people sadness.
i feel so numb and invisible to everyone around me. why can’t i just leave this life already.
please stay, you’re worth so much and I hope that u get through this
I wanna leave this world as well. I can't bare another night of crying myself to sleep. but i cant go because I think of the friends I'll leave behind, even if they are slowly slipping away. I just want to see everything before I go, I want to watch what this world will be.. even if our story's are different and we may not know each other let's get thru this together ❤
The first time i listened to this song , i was mourning silently for my father. 2 years ago. Today i listen to it to for comfort and not for grief. Its amazing how Billie has carried our yrouble hearts through pain and isolation and brought us to light and liveliness. If someone told me 2 years ago id listen to this song and not cry but just feel comforted , id not believe them
It's not true
Tell me I've been lied to
Cryin' isn't like you
Ooh
What the hell did I do?
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through
Ooh
Maybe won't you take it back?
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothin' has to change today
You didn't mean to say, "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to
Ooh
Up all night on another red eye
I wish we never learned to fly
I
Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
I didn't mean to make you cry
I
Maybe won't you take it back?
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothin' has to change today
You didn't mean to say, "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to
Ooh
The smile that you gave me
Even when you felt like dyin'
We fall apart as it gets dark
I'm in your arms in Central Park
There's nothin' you could do or say
I can't escape the way I love you
I don't want to, but I love you
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Pin this
The lyrics are lovely and have a touch of sadness to them I just love old Billie her songs are relatable lol
Was looking all over for this
I'm not really well because... listening to this perfection of depression.. it really hurt... it hurt so much for me to be ready to sleep with this song.... this woman deserves the whole world
when i was at my lowest this song was making me so emotional and it was just with me. now im starting to feel this bad again and this song appeared on my yt page, it's not a coincidence
maybe i'm crying
take care
@@orsolyacsintalan631 I see u commenting. Your so kind. Thank-you
i used to listen to this song all the time, but it’s been a while since i played it. i saw this video and decided to click it… looked at the time… it was 1 : 29 and i watched it turn 1:30 am.
This song got me through so much stuff and hearing this version just broke me instantly. Good work, keep it up.
I just need a hug,i want to cry,im tired to pretend everything is fine
I’m sorry :( it’s okay to show your emotions, it could actually be good for you to talk about it
felt.
@@RynoJ5 thanks:)
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I'm speechless, this is the best version of any song that I've heard thank you ❤
Billie is the best person ever. I love her ahhh she's the besttt
2 years ago I stumbled upon this song, the day before she told me “I miss talking to other people, I miss being single” the next day she told me. “ I didn’t mean what I said, I love you and want to be with you” I was already broken
i’m so sorry u deserve better hon.
it's 1:33 am, my fbi agent should stop stalking me and making me cry, I have school tomorrow morningg
The way I used to listen to this song in a perfectly happy way and now I listen to it because I've lost myself and everything I've stayed for
"I wish I was there that night, to save her. But I failed. Now I have to live with that burden for the rest of my life. I'm so sorry, i love you"
just a typical night listening to this and crying on my bed for no reason, felt really broken, tired, lonely and sad:(
I love you and I don’t wanna lose you in my life 🥺
Have a good time in the world and
@@4usprosperity and
01:10 and now it turned 01:11
This song shatters me. I listened to this song last year when I was reading my favorite fanficton ‘possessive’ and it literally fucking broke me. I was crying for a year. Every time I listened to this song or a thing from that book came to my mind, my tears just fell off. Now I don’t cry while typing this. Maybe I just got used to this, even tho I never really listened to this song after I read that book. I miss the feelings that I had while I was reading it. The smile, the pain.. love. It will always and forever be my favorite book.
Deep in my heart, possessive & I love you. ❤️
14.07.22
when i was 6, i used to ask myself “why doesn’t anyone like me?”. now im 19, and i ask myself “why can’t i make anyone stay?”. i wish i was being dramatic, im always called that here. i feel misunderstood.
you will be understood eventually man
to whomever may be reading this, i'm truly so proud of you for making it this far. you're so strong and i appreciate the fact that you continue to be here. life may throw heavy things at us, but its always worth it to fight back. everything is going to be okay, alright? :)
dont forget to drink some water and eat something delicious! i love you
Thank you
thank you
Atleast you love me...I love you too😢😳❤
Thank you so much. I really truly needed this right now more than ever❤️
Who's here listening in 2024 ?!!?
I love billie so much this is so beautiful
This feels better to listen to now, a lot has happened in the last years, sometimes I wish I told people I cared about more about it instead of thinking it would just be a burden to then for me to even talk. I feel much better wow, being sad was bad but getting numb of all emotion was way worse, it's good to feel again.
i remember hearing this song for the first time and it hit me so hard but i was too hurt to cry
I discovered this song today by this version and I'm completly broken listening to it non-stop. It gives me the Hireath and the dying in peace vibe
I’m literally sobbing over this rn
Reminds me of myself after I just got out of a toxic relationship, I found it difficult to trust that he wasn't going to hurt me, but now we are closer than I've ever been to anyone
Dear, Daniyrus
You were always there. You were by my side during my first day of middle school, you were there during my rehabilitation, you were there when i was getting my diagnostic test done, and you were there when i was told to get out of sight. Even if you aren't real, you were still there, and i appreciate that.
Truly your's, Constance.
i just dont want to lose him
It was just a small crush. I don't remember when did all these feelings turned from crushing to loving. I've never been more addicted he just changed idk how. Ig he really didn't mean to say he loved me. Idk when amd how did we lost our spark. I say i moved on but when it's night and im all by myself ig i didn't yet. I still have this kind of hope. I still want to give it a try a "chance". Sometimes i tell myself : "just tell him everything, tell him what do you feel. Even if he rejected you.. You'd never have to overthink if he likes you. You'll just move on. Or maybe he does actually, maybe he likes you!". Having hope is not always good. As billie once said : "i can't escape the way i love you, i don't want to, but i love you." so accurate. That's what im feeling. In my opinion *he is the nicest guy I've ever met*.
Wow. It's been a month. Well i moved on. Im with someone better now. I read this comment and still remember the way my eyes were puffy my face was red and i couldn't type everything was blurry cz of my tears. Yeah well i knew he didn't deserve me. I was enough. More than he even wanted. There is nothing wrong with me. It's all bcz of him. Idc abt him anymore. And yes im falling in love with someone else. Finally someone who is not toxic as he was. When i was typing that comment i never believed that i would get over him. Or that time would heal me. But it did. I got over him. Over everything. I deleted all our pics. I didn't delete our chat. Idk why. I still don't care abt him. I moved on. Finally.
The love at first sight exist guys... So this is my history. She was the prettiest girl that I've ever seen. I was in Disney, Magical Kingdom (5/5/2022). I will never forget that date. It was 9:45 pm, I was running at an attraction (Space Mountain, its like a roller coaster) and a girl was running too with her little sister. I said "go ahead" and I stopped of run. She said "are you sure? if you want you can go ahead." I said "its okay". Then her mother was behind me and I said "are you with them?" and she said "yes". So I let her pass. And then we were in the line. I was with my aunt and two cousins, one of them has 6 and the other one has 11. I remember when she was talking with her mom I was trying to see her face disguising. And then I remember I was talking with my aunt and the girl moved her face trying to see my face (because I had a bucket hat). And we were looking at each other disguising. I don't know if I was crazy but it was reciprocal. Men always are saying "I felt something different with you", etc. But guys, I promise in my 15 years living at this planet I just can't explain how did I feel. When I was trying to see her my heart was shaking a lot, and I was so nervous, I was literally looking down at her shoes (I remember those were grey). I also remember she was dancing with her sister and her mom was watching at them. When the line was over and she were leaving thru the attraction I said "good luck" and she said the cutest "thank you" that I've ever heard. Then when I went thru the attraction, she was there with her mother and her little sister looking at the photo (you know the photo that the camera take it when you are in the roller coaster lol). They were leaving thru the tunnel, and my aunt and cousins went to see the photo and I told them "lets go to the other attraction" just because I wanted to see her face once more. I remember that I was holding my cousin's left (the one that has 6 years) hand when we were walking thru the tunnel. So I saw her and she was holding her sister's left hand. I was talking to my cousin and she looked down to see me. What a sensation. The final destination of the tunnel was a shop, and they stayed in the shop and we left. We were looking for my uncle, because he didn't want to go to Space Mountain again because we already had been in space mountain like at 12pm and it was our second time. I don't know why, my instinct tell me to check in a specific place, and meanwhile I was looking for him I was thinking "why didn't I tell her something" And when my aunt found him I turned back to go to them and I saw that girl again with her little sister and her mom. My heart literally stopped for a moment. The worse thing was that I just keep walking... 30 seconds later, I regretted to don't tell her, and I was looking for her. I told to my uncle that I was looking for a known person (lie). I couldn't find her... 1 day before this, I read in a YT comment of always take risks. And I didn't. I've been so sad since that day. I feel so weak, and think that this was the worse mistake of my life. Fuck, I just want to go thru the past and tell her how cute she was and ask for her number or Instagram, just to talk with her... I wish some day find you and talk to you. Just in case y'all want to help me, she was white, and had the typical 2 braids. She was like blond but not too much, I don't remember well tho. Her eyes were green or blue, I couldn't see her eyes color well because was at night and in the place that is the attraction was so dark with blue leds. I appreciate if the creator of the video want to pin this, I want to find her please :(. I made a tiktok tho, and I posted a video, if yall want to help me the account is called "iwishseeyouagain", thanks.
Iwishseeyouagain?
Also this story is adorable I hope u find her :)
@@satxrnsringz608 I deleted it.
@@satxrnsringz608 Thank you :)
it really is 1:30 when i found this. Adigital timestamp of my thoughts: i've felt this ache in my heart before but the new feelings i feel when sad are so different and scary. i hope i get to live and love someday.i want to make it through all the illness i've been burdened with and will continue to endure. i want my momma back in my life. I dont hate you dad, i just wish you woulda saw the signs when i needed love. i wish you woulda loved me more than her.she hurt me in ways youll never know because i love you. i waited till i was almost 18 trying to build a bond but you had no interest. So to keep your happiness i have to stay away. maybe you'll love me more in another life ya dickhead
this song is one of the reminders of him which used to make me cry all night until i lose my breath
"Wish i sang to her one more time i wish i told her i loved her but she fell asleep knowing she will never wake up again ." I love you mom
Its funny, i dont cry anymore i just sit there feeling my heart shatter into millions of pieces and no one even knows.
Seven months ago i lost my best friend. Not from death, or moving, but by time. I lost her by getting older, and growing up. We were best friends for 9 years. More than half my life and i will always have love for her. If you read this mar, i miss you and i hope one day we can talk again. I miss you with every part of me.
Lots of love
this song always makes me cry
it’s currently 1:31am, I love this ❤
I lost someone so important to me a few months ago and i thought that with time i would get better but the hole in my heart is still there. I don't know how to make it stop hurting. It hurt at first so much but when I realized that once they were truly undoubtedly gone I knew half of me was too. There would be times through the day where I would expect to see them like the time they usually came home and I would have to remind myself that they are gone.
Have you ever deny yourself so much you love someone because your gut, your heart and mind is warning you that this is gonna hurt... But the more you deny the more you wanna yell out loud 'I Love You'!
Feeling depressed is the new drug and it becomes an addiction
get it together
this song was in my head a lot a few years ago. only now i can actually relate to it. now i cry whenever i hear "i didnt mean to say i love you" the whole song reflects something that happened a few months ago with someone im currently in love with. idk if it will ever work between us. i hope so. i dont wanna loose her. i dont wanna end up like i did last time i fell in love... this song makes me think about it, but ironically it stops me from crying.
It’s 1:43 and not raining where I am…but it fits perfectly
God please help us
It’s so painful relating to these songs which are with deep meaning….🥺
am i crying ??
stay strong
Stay strong I am sorry for you ":
she changed it all.
i grew up with autism, a chronic illness, and severe depression. i was stuck-up, lonely, and lost. i wouldn't speak to other children in preschool and kindergarten because i thought i was "too mature" for them. i was bad at expressing love, and my parents convinced me to start believing that i was incapable of love/being loved because i didn't express it. i hated people. everyone. i thought people were like an terminal illness. you live and die with them without a choice. i hated myself. when i was six i devised a plan to end it all.
then i moved cross-country. and i met her.
she was perfect. kind, outgoing, and so, incomprehensibly happy and innocent. i couldn't figure it out. i was infatuated. she was my first friend. my first crush. my first love. i had never loved, platonically or not, in my life. not once, until her. and she loved me too.
when i was 13 we started dating in secret. in a toe-curling, cry-to-each-other, dance-in-the-rain-while-thinking-of-each-other kind of romance. we were (and are) so in love.
we were found out a day before our one-year anniversary.
my parents have always hated her. they hate her because she's everything i always needed in a person. they hate her because i'd do anything for her. they hate her because i wasn't supposed to ever love or be loved. both my parents are aro/ace so they really don't understand.
it's been nearly three years since we started dating. through it all, we triumph. hand in hand, over and over again. we've never had a fight. there's no jealousy. she is my sanctuary and i am her home. we've grown up together and are permanently intertwined. wherever we go and whatever happens, part of our hearts will always belong to the other.
this song reminds me of all the unavoidable pain of love. but the storm is outside of us. we are pure in a world of chaos.
perhaps you need a reminder that the storm is outside of you, too.
I was touched by your story bruh🥺
This voice reminds me of myself. I have burned up all my energy and love due to the loss of my family and my loneliness. I do not know how I will build a family in the future, how to give love and attention to my husband and children. I do not know who would accept to live with a person without feelings like me. I don't think there is anyone who will give me love like my mother did. I'm still searching for a father and I can't find him. There's still a burning in my heart until my end.
Hits different when it’s actually 1:30am
Never been in a relationship but this song makes me feel like I've had 50 ex's and 10 divorces
50 ex's >>>>> being single. I am proud of you
High as the sky and it’s amazing 🍃🍃
I'm here cause I was actually just roaming around on UA-cam. I've been struggling in my relationship the past months, I feel very unloved, but my problem is, that I can't let go. I love this person so much, but I don't want to. This song is really helping me get the tears out and calming down again. Thank you
I’m vaping now. I’m 19 in the marine core, just picked up Lance Corporal, and here I am, 12am, vaping, along in my living room. Life hasn’t been that good to me lately, like a building block I keep building that keeps getting broke and destroyed, knocked over time and time again, and I’m doing what I hated most. Beautiful song man, the rain really helps man, I swear it does. Like shooting stars and holding someone’s hand, that magical feeling in your chest when you feel your heart beat, it’s all the same. I yearn for that
God bless you
Not me listening to this song for hours every night whilst singing along with all the emotions I have left over from the day-
2 months ago i was in the psychiatric hospital and i was listening to this song endlessly and crying now that i remember that days i get shattered all over again
I hope Billie Eilish sees this....
3:42 AM and my heart still refuses to forget her 🙃
no matter how many times I'm listening to this song , it's always got me tearing up
this is the most beautiful thing i have ever heard.
crying.
This music is touching my heart so deeply…I have such a great life with a husband..but a horrible mental state..which makes me feel miserable..I wish I could make my brain happier so I could be truly happy..I have everything..a hospital job..a home..a husband…but a unhappy mind..
I was broken heart now,in my room listening this post,and its raining,at 01:29 am
oh..heyy everything is will be fine!😊
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Every time i feel sad , upset or angry i listened to this , it's make me clam .
It's like Magic for me
Is it good to stay up all night and miss her like 24/7 but she be enjoying with a new guy
Stay safe
No. Find a new girl
No . Find the new you , who doesn't need a girl to be happy and feel good
This song makes me cry every time because it reminds me how much I’m in love with my boyfriend and how much he’s help with In family problems, mental health issues, and transitioning(FTM).
There's nothing worse than not having love you gave
Each time we say goodbye it gets harder not to say I love you
i cant escape the way i love you... damn that hit so close to home
It's 3:47am, it's not raining but still amazing. I love you