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Projection and Self Love (Empathy/Compassion/Acceptance)
I talk about projection and self love and ways to show love to yourself through others.
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Why I Have Travel Anxiety
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In this video i speak about why i believe i have travel anxiety. I get very anxious when i am traveling by myself that it is very taxing on me to spend days moving from one place to another. www.hammzradio.com
I Survived Traveling With Strangers - India
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The last few days i spent traveling with strangers in India. This is part 2 to my last video. Last week I decided on traveling with strangers I met at a hostel in India. We went to Amritsar to visit the Golden Temple, the holiest shrine in Sikhism. Located in India's state Punjab. This was my favorite part of the whole trip. I share other things and lessons that i was able to learn on this trip...
Trusting Strangers in a Hostel in India
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Trusting strangers in a hostel sounds a lot crazier than it is. The breed of people that tend to be in hostels have, in my experience, been extremely welcoming and willing to help and overall trustworthy. I haven't really had a person who rubbed me the wrong way (even if they did, that would show me something about myself - not them). HTTPS://www.HammzRadio.com
My Daily Paranoia
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I struggle daily with paranoia, mostly when it comes to interacting with other people. Separating what is real and what is my mind is extremely difficult as it all seems real to me. www.hammzradio.com
Solo Female Traveler Talks About Anxiety on the Road
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www.hammzradio.com I, a solo female traveler, talk about anxiety as it affects me in my travels. I am learning that anxiety controls a lot of what I do and how I do it, even in my everyday activities. Most of the anxieties are just made up in my head.
5 Things I Learned Living on an Island in Belize
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www.hammzradio.com/ Here are 5 things i learned living on an island in Belize. 00:00 Introduction 02:24 #1: Snap judgement of others prevented me from connecting with others 05:28 #2: I do not need any person to make me happy 09:22 #3: I perceive debt where there might not be any 11:32 #4: I have a sensitivity to noise 13:58 #5: Learn to let go
Anxiety Attack Under Water
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www.HammzRadio.com I talk about how I handle an anxiety attack under water while trying to complete one of the dives for my next certification. I even backed out of an obligatory dive, so I did not complete my class this week. I will get one more chance next week to complete my last dive for my Advanced Open Water Certification.
Fighting Anxiety While Scuba Diving in Peru
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www.HammzRadio.com I am getting scuba certified this week. This video is about how I am fighting anxiety while scuba diving. I have had anxiety surrounding water since I was little. I am facing my fear this week while I try not to panic under water.
Vagabonding - The Call
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Vagabonding is something I have recently learned more about and as I read Rolf Potts' bookd "Vagabonding," something was definitely calling me. I felt like I belonged in the stories he was telling. Never have I felt such "homieness" as when I started reading this book. The feeling of being where I belonged was just too strong to ignore. www.HammzRadio.com (click photos for the individual blogs)
Military vs Civilian Suicide Rates 2020
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In this video i compare military vs civilian suicide rates 2020. All of these stats are a fucking problem. As a veteran myself, I have struggled tremendously with my mental health and i can now identify the times i was most susceptible to following those some of the suicidal ideation I've experienced. I want to start talking about this more as I am beginning to see the affect of healing and abi...
I Almost Quit Spanish - More Than Once
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I almost quit my Spanish classes on multiple occasions - coming up with reasons why I didn't REALLY want to learn Spanish, because I had some hard days. Here is a funny thing that happened that was proof of my progress.
The Power of Acknowledging Your Fears 2023
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In this video i talk about the power in acknowledging your fears. By talking about the anxiety and lack of power i felt when i came to my fear engaging in Spanish, I felt my power returning and my fears diminishing shortly after sharing them here.
I'll Never Be As Smart As My Sisters
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I'll Never Be As Smart As My Sisters
GOODBYE! Disappearing and finding myself in 2023
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GOODBYE! Disappearing and finding myself in 2023
6 mo sober- letting go of EVERYTHING
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6 mo sober- letting go of EVERYTHING
Living Empowered in 2022 - The Drama Triangle vs TED* (*The Empowerment Dynamic)
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Living Empowered in 2022 - The Drama Triangle vs TED* (*The Empowerment Dynamic)
Applying the Creator Orientation- My Abuser Michael Nanto
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Applying the Creator Orientation- My Abuser Michael Nanto
Are you a victim or creator? HOW TO change in 2023
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Are you a victim or creator? HOW TO change in 2023
What is My Purpose? Finding it in 2022
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What is My Purpose? Finding it in 2022
I am Emotionally Stuck - 2022
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I am Emotionally Stuck - 2022
Firing My Therapist
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Firing My Therapist
13 Steps to Managing Emotional Flashbacks 2022
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13 Steps to Managing Emotional Flashbacks 2022
Fawning to Survive - C-PTSD
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Fawning to Survive - C-PTSD
4 STEPS to Silencing Inner Demons
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4 STEPS to Silencing Inner Demons
CPTSD: Emotional Flashbacks
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CPTSD: Emotional Flashbacks
Why I'm leaving America 2022
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Why I'm leaving America 2022
I Don't Date Healthy People
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I Don't Date Healthy People
Do You Self-Abandon? Say YES! To Yourself
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Do You Self-Abandon? Say YES! To Yourself
Transforming Inner Resistance Into Inner Peace
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Transforming Inner Resistance Into Inner Peace

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  • @legalfictionnaturalfact3969
    @legalfictionnaturalfact3969 29 днів тому

    The US government knew exactly what they were going to do to these kids and listing. They told all the lies they needed to tell to get those signatures. Then they screwed up a bunch of young people and sent them home. If you're not a psychopath, murdering innocent people messes you up. The soldier follows orders. The warrior follows her own code of honor. The latter is the correct choice. But you don't get free healthcare and provisional housing and a GI Bill and suite deals on all kinds of loans on the taxpayer dime for it. It's just something you do because you know it's right.

  • @AddyV619
    @AddyV619 Місяць тому

    Glad to see an update from you. Hope your travels have been going well.

  • @Cproductions1319
    @Cproductions1319 2 місяці тому

    Lots of people are Ashamed of wanting to look for god, not religion. I get you. Surfing and riding take me close to god in a way. Surfing for sure!

  • @tonyhinojos2434
    @tonyhinojos2434 2 місяці тому

    Hi becka, hope all is well. Miss you girl 😊

  • @sweet2sourr
    @sweet2sourr Рік тому

    Lovely I hope you’re well, I was just thinking about you and wanted to stop by and say hey

  • @CableGuy74
    @CableGuy74 Рік тому

    I wish I had a box of Kleenex and my shoulder for you to lean on.....

  • @PabloHernandez-fm3nn
    @PabloHernandez-fm3nn Рік тому

    I watched both part 1 and 2 of this lady. Is " Bud" the weed she's smoking or a person ? And I heard the word " slut" but didn't hear any story/stories of her being one.

  • @PabloHernandez-fm3nn
    @PabloHernandez-fm3nn Рік тому

    You need to get off the weed indeed. I've took on my problems of past and present sober. Sobriety gives you control of your emotions and decisions. Yes it calms you down and makes you mellow. That's what it does. I said " no" to alcohol, hard narcotics, and weed over 20 yes ago. I'm so glad I finally put my head on correctly. I now decide how I feel, what I choose to say , and I make my own life happy as I possibly can. 😊

  • @PabloHernandez-fm3nn
    @PabloHernandez-fm3nn Рік тому

    I'm sorry. Your stoned to where you can't get your words out. Your like " uh..uh..uh.......I get it. Thank you for your service. Always Faithful

  • @PabloHernandez-fm3nn
    @PabloHernandez-fm3nn Рік тому

    Are you smoking a blunt ? So your stoned ?

  • @randygee2715
    @randygee2715 Рік тому

    Omg what a trip... I was a wildland Firefighter for 20 seasons and I became a squad boss to crewboss and fear of the unknown is what I battled always, but through prayers and confident help me alot. ... I think weed relapse did your body , because sometimes smoking weed will eventually help your stomach aches quick.

  • @ANDYrexaffseo-oc4ig
    @ANDYrexaffseo-oc4ig Рік тому

    Hopefully you find the psychological balance. Also, please try and maybe write down your feelings more. Also, try to love your personalities as well. Like the Archetypical Personalities as per Psychology. Love can mean also just a hug in your imagination to your own personalities of your mum, the little girl all of them are your shadows...

  • @dennissutton3767
    @dennissutton3767 Рік тому

    Hello….i hope you have nothing but goodness coming your way…

  • @JohnBurrows-i4j
    @JohnBurrows-i4j Рік тому

    Thank you for sharing these most difficult things. It may help many. Take it from another child abuse survivor. I was 55 before I faced my issues, I'm now 62. Thank you

  • @dennissutton3767
    @dennissutton3767 Рік тому

    I hope your father paid for his crimes. I would care for you…

  • @dennissutton3767
    @dennissutton3767 Рік тому

    I think you are so awesome. You are a powerful woman..a woman that exudes empowerment. And you are beautiful.

  • @CableGuy74
    @CableGuy74 Рік тому

    Just found your channel… thumbs up

  • @CableGuy74
    @CableGuy74 Рік тому

    I’m sorry that you had to endure such trauma so early and that it continued on… you seem like such a cool lady to have/hang around not just to f…, you are very pretty inside and out!!!!

  • @nobolife933
    @nobolife933 Рік тому

    You can come and please me for 10 minutes chicky, chicky baby. Don't feel so sad, try living in my shoes I'm a man and been shit on all my life. I hate people except my family witch are all gone now.

  • @BeatsbyLonza
    @BeatsbyLonza Рік тому

    Semper fi. Wish you well and health.

  • @LLJJ-w6n
    @LLJJ-w6n Рік тому

    People Listen......This is not just about the Marines and sex its a great lesson on life of all walks about sacrificing yourself for acceptance and what weight it carries....The powerful message in my opinion here is the powerful strength she used to step back and look at herself and hold herself accountable and not make excuses.....Strong woman!

  • @LarrySchwartz-mm3gx
    @LarrySchwartz-mm3gx Рік тому

    I completely understand and appreciate what you are going through. Stay strong..Semper fi.

  • @LarrySchwartz-mm3gx
    @LarrySchwartz-mm3gx Рік тому

    Your a strong beautiful woman..as marines nothing can keep us down. Semper fi.

  • @benalexender3046
    @benalexender3046 Рік тому

    ❤❤

  • @julioavalos2936
    @julioavalos2936 Рік тому

    Ooorrrraaaaaahhhhh sister!!! Let me join you !!!

  • @walterkennard5880
    @walterkennard5880 Рік тому

    Very touching. I know what you are going through because I had anxiety and it rob you of your goals. You just did to fit in. You always went places where you felt comfortable at cause you didn't trust many people. Reading different books i liked help a very lot.

  • @wayne251975
    @wayne251975 Рік тому

    I was in 94-98. I remember a few women that had some wild experiences. It was their choices. I befriended a few. But as hard as it was to rationalise, I never once wanted anything sexual from them. 94-95 Camp Hansen 7th comm barracks. Man, when i was on Duty one Sat night on the 3rd Deck. I got the shock of a lifetime. One of them had decided to roll on over to the MEU's barracks and boy they didnt disappoint. I heard the Boo Hooing coming up the stairs and ole girl looked like a triple glazed donut. I had no idea that much could stick like that. I truly wanted to give her a hand, but im gonna say it was this very episode that reminded me of why no young woman I knew was going to be the party platter ever again if l could help it. I thought alot of her, these choices didnt change anything, but rest assured no man wants to touch another mans baby batter. I'm being as nice as I can but we have a tendency to have some dark humor even in the most serious of times. The next day her roomate had explained that she evidently accepted the challenge of "Pivot Man" Every orifice, hand, foot had at least one of the grunts ateending there in the game. I know all this is crude as hell and as a grown man now it bothers me remembering it like this. But I am going to say this. I regret not getting involved to prevent some of this. That young lady didnt have any idea what she was signing up for by befriending these clowns. As a Father, now I have tears for each of you. No one should ever demean themselves like this. Everyone one of you deserve the love of someone who has you in their heart. Dont believe anyone telling you there arent any good ones out there. There are many, and anyone willing to take this advantage of you like this isnt anyone you need to be near. Mam I dont know you, but I do love you just as many of us do. Be open to hear the things you dont want to hear. Sometimes that is the exact shit you need to hear. Take care.

  • @matthewjjoss3821
    @matthewjjoss3821 Рік тому

    Girl your Beautiful!

  • @ANDYrexaffseo-oc4ig
    @ANDYrexaffseo-oc4ig Рік тому

    Great talk you from what you mentioned it seems like when you were young there was not love and care available to you as a child. For this reason the mind has formed a cauliflower to compensate for love. But love will NOT help at this point perhaps you will have to peel each emotion like inferiority complexity, anxiety, depression, lack of self confidence, unsatisfied with oneself etc so these emotions have grown like the leaves of a cauliflower. Love will simply just wash over the leaves of the cauliflower... 2 things perhaps one is expressing yourself by writing emotions and feelings in a small diary everyday with the thoughts and the theme of those thoughts and second number 2 Try and sit down for two minutes or one and close your eyes to simply let the thoughts come out in front of you. Just let the fucking thoughts come and observe them like a third point of view... Perhaps you can ask your mummy about a famous Psycho Analyst Prof Alfred Adler who wrote extensively on Inferiority and Superiority Complexity and what we must try is to form a balance in between the two complexities and have courage to move forward in life... Also, try to think if you could speak to the little girl that was you and if you could just give her a hug how would it feel...

  • @ANDYrexaffseo-oc4ig
    @ANDYrexaffseo-oc4ig Рік тому

    You definitely have said a lot of good things from a Psychological point of view... Amazing Good luck 🤞 and you can overcome and live life with love and with clarity without any cloud ☁️

  • @lastchance7323
    @lastchance7323 Рік тому

    I am a sinner, not perfect. No not one perfect person.

  • @lastchance7323
    @lastchance7323 Рік тому

    Remember this, today is a new day to do things differently ❤, present moment, keep moving forward in a positive way.❤

  • @benalexender3046
    @benalexender3046 Рік тому

    ❤❤

  • @gregorybennings8718
    @gregorybennings8718 Рік тому

    36 minutes too long. So what was this video about? Did she sleep around in the marines?

  • @lastchance7323
    @lastchance7323 Рік тому

    Semper Fi 😊

  • @c2dvr
    @c2dvr Рік тому

    Much prayers and healing Rebecca

  • @topwillie1992
    @topwillie1992 Рік тому

    Damn! Wish u were in the Marines when I was. I was in from 1992-2000. I was always trying, unsuccessfully, for a female Marine "Pal"

  • @mo6278
    @mo6278 Рік тому

    Hi hammz you have to be selfish you need to love yourself. To much time spent pleasing others go girl just found your channel all the best from Ireland 🇮🇪🍀💯

    • @HammzRadio
      @HammzRadio Рік тому

      Hey Mo, I’m learning to be “selfish” and it has served me well. Thank you ☺️

  • @mo6278
    @mo6278 Рік тому

    Hi im really emotional after listening to your story cos i can relate to the feeling of being unwanted Im from Belfast Ireland and suffering from ptsd from the war and things that happened to me. You are really worth more you are a blessing and i really got alot from your story im struggling atm but you give me hope. Maybe i can chat with you on Facebook if you ever want to pass on your knowledge 🍀💙💯

    • @HammzRadio
      @HammzRadio Рік тому

      Mo, Thank you for your encouraging words. And I’m sad that you have gone through what you have, and now having to live with feelings of not being wanted and ptsd. Things can get better. It’s not an easy path. But it’s there. No matter what’s happens or what I’ve done I can, at any moment, ask “what’s the next best step for me to take?” Simple, but not always easy. I’m not at the point where I can do more to pass on my knowledge than through my videos on YT at the moment. But I appreciate the offer

  • @grahamgreene4141
    @grahamgreene4141 Рік тому

    I like your clef

  • @grahamgreene4141
    @grahamgreene4141 Рік тому

    True severe abuse

  • @Cproductions1319
    @Cproductions1319 Рік тому

    Teach and learn as much as you can cause nothing is forever and we are all here for a limited time only. Take advantage of today. Time is relative and it does not need to be a holiday for us to enjoy the ones we love. Best of luck in your journey!!! Lol learning Spanish and culture? You had San Diego !!! Lol joke I joke

  • @richardleyba8584
    @richardleyba8584 Рік тому

    Hang in there girl , you are beautiful ! ❤

  • @passionfly1
    @passionfly1 Рік тому

    Just want to add about the borrowing pencil analogy. If people do not have their shit together when they are adults its their fault not yours. You are NOT RESPONSIBLE for raising grown adults who do not have their act together. That was their parents failure and not your burden to carry. Throw it back on them and say "no" to their requests. Feel no guilt either as you are helping them to grow the hell up even in the little requests. Some men are little boys in a grownups body. It is not your job to be anyone's 'customer service' representative. If you did not fill out an employment application then their request is moot.

  • @passionfly1
    @passionfly1 Рік тому

    Thanks for sharing this. Takes a lot of courage to be this open about your past. You are not alone in trauma, you just may think you are. No matter how broken you are or may feel, Jesus will ALWAYS love you. People, not so much but Jesus can take the wheel every time in your life if you allow His love into your heart. Bless you. ❤❤❤

  • @sofiandpheobe8589
    @sofiandpheobe8589 Рік тому

    May u continue to heal and move forward in your life!

  • @Cproductions1319
    @Cproductions1319 Рік тому

    The only thing that valances me is THC . My mind is so up so fast, smoking helps me mellow the f down. Thank you for your thoughts

    • @HammzRadio
      @HammzRadio Рік тому

      THC helps me so much. It has been instrumental in my healing ❤️‍🩹

  • @alanspeake8905
    @alanspeake8905 Рік тому

    Man i bet that took some strength to tell your story here,i wanted to give you a big old hug when you broke down half way through,glad that you took control of your life,more power to you girl,much love from the UK

  • @Cproductions1319
    @Cproductions1319 Рік тому

    Write a script my friend. You have great thoughts .unconditional love is dangerous. I love my kids unconditionally is all. It’s our need to be accepted like you said before. Edit some bits and pieces just as an editors point of view. But I love what’s inside your mind! Emotional intelligence is a mofo figure out your love language and blood type . Come to Baja foo! I would love to make a CASTRO PRODUCTIONS for one of my favorite Marines

    • @HammzRadio
      @HammzRadio Рік тому

      Unedited and unscripted is how I make my videos. I believe unconditional love is the answer - not only to me and in my life, but the world. I’ve still got some things I’ve gotta do on this trip. And I don’t know what the future holds for me, maybe I’ll find myself in Baja

  • @Cproductions1319
    @Cproductions1319 Рік тому

    What’s up dude! It’s Johnny we used to ride together. This is a cool thing to put yourself out there like this . Raw. Edit your stuff ! But I love it much love from Rosarito. It’s good that you are looking inwards. It’s important to get it out and identify the issue and only then you will get well. The mind is a wild beast . You aren’t only speaking for yourself. There’s millions of people that go thru this and don’t say a thing. So many kids that will see this and know they aren’t alone. You was great friends and I never wanted a thing from you. I remember you helped me once ! I thank you.

    • @HammzRadio
      @HammzRadio Рік тому

      Hey man yea of course I remember you! Thank you for sharing your thoughts - made me smile. Good to hear from you dude! I appreciate you Johnny