TheBenzoFreeGuru
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Still Benzo-Free and keeping it real......
Hi Everyone! I haven't posted any videos in over a year and I felt really drawn to post one today. So here it goes....#freelyexpressingmyself #revistingandrealigning
Up next: Surrendering & Leaning in
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Відео

I'm finally coming out of hiding......it feels good to be back!!!!!
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I have been on a little bit of a hiatus ok maybe a long haitus..... but I am back and I am determined to stay back. I celebrated 2 years Benzo~Free on 12.22 of this past year! Sometimes, I wonder how I even got here when I believed for so long I never would. But I did and that's all that matters now. I feel incredibly lucky and grateful and ready to continue my story. Thank you for viewing and ...
The Power of Being Seen.
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The content found here is for inspirational and informational purposes only, and is in no way intended as medical advice, or a substitute for medical counseling.
Cold Turkey off Benzodiazepine. How I decided NOT to come off cold turkey!
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This brief 2 month experience of "cold turkey" launched me into my benzo withdrawal journey. Please check out See ya Perfection! Pt 1 Cold Turkey before viewing this!
See ya Perfection! Pt 1 of Cold Turkey video.
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See ya Perfection! Pt 1 of Cold Turkey video.
Be~Coming Benzo Free. My Intro video.
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The BenzoFree Guru is all about my personal journey of coming off benzodiazepine once and for all. I will be posting weekly videos about my experience in tapering off clonazepam. I plan to share all the tips and tools I learned along the way that helped to make my journey off benzos attainable. My intention of this channel is to speak my truth and raise awareness of these medications. I hope to...

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  • @devinramos6317
    @devinramos6317 7 місяців тому

    Feels more like an uncontrolled substance😢

  • @DH-dh2nj
    @DH-dh2nj 8 місяців тому

    Oh yeah, taper off for one to two years and be miserable. Why not have pills and not take it and when you start tripping out and getting bad you just take a little bit and then keep riding it out and within 3 to 7 days stop and ride it out know that you got it if you need it next thing you know you’re off This crap of oh i’ve been off of them for seven years seven years and I’m still struggling there’s something else wrong ! I think alot of you are lying. You’re wanting views to make money is bullshit. that’s right old bullshit !

  • @Yippekiayymothertrucker
    @Yippekiayymothertrucker Рік тому

    She never came back

  • @jcruz3114
    @jcruz3114 Рік тому

    Its been 9 yrs! Are u still alive?

  • @wendyc3777
    @wendyc3777 Рік тому

    7 yrs ago cold Turkey. Shoulda woulda coulda,done things different.I am alive though.

  • @lauriina85
    @lauriina85 2 роки тому

    Did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and can't understand that people can live their lives? I call it brain lock. Wake up every morning to hell and feel like I have no brain. If o try to walk and run brainlock is ruing it and feels like my brain just shuts down. Did you feel any point anything like that? And also depersonalization and derealisation? I was prescriped a big amount of oxazepam and doctor didn't warn me after my dog had to put to sleep at the age of 16 and I had terrible panic attacks and starting to suffer brain lock. Year ago my brain lock went away when I was in bad withdrawl symptons of oxazepam and doctor did crossover from oxazepam to diazepam and brain lock went away and I had my functioning life back for few weeks. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong. Long story after that and my new doctor prescriped me klonopin to get me relief for a while and then taper but it didn't help. I am isolated a lot because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people. Normally I am confident and social person. Now I said to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we started few weeks ago. Feel awful. Brain lock is awful. My new doctor says I have tolerance and that's why klonopin didn't help and I suffer withdrawl symptoms. And she thinks this drug is making me sick and more anxious and I agree. And she thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away. I feel also that what you mentioned, fears that I lose relationships. I can't see anybody, just very little time. And now because of klonopin the same amount of diazepam is huge. Now that we are doing crossover from klonopin to diazepam klonopin is 1,5 mg and diazepam is 25 mg so total diazepam 55mg 😥 I want this drug off of me and have my good life back. I have long tapering ahead and have no power left. Please if you can answer if you had any problems with brain function problems? I fear this brain lock is permanent even it went away year ago when I had diazepam in a bad withdrawl symptons of oxazepam. Hope you are good and thank you if you response.

  • @freddumee
    @freddumee 2 роки тому

    33 years on lorazepam. Close your channel if you do not respond or update

  • @UserConn
    @UserConn 2 роки тому

    How are you now? I am free on Benzos because of your vids. After 2 long years I am slowly starting to feel better.

  • @tylerrawson21
    @tylerrawson21 3 роки тому

    The benzos work...why get off them?

  • @MonacoRocha
    @MonacoRocha 3 роки тому

    I was on 0.5 clonazepam ( Klonopin) at bedtime... Was on it for 20 years... tapered for 19 months( CRAZY CANUCK) You Tube....milk taper......took my last dose 32 days ago.... I didn't suffer that much... it wasn't easy but so far so good . Hope I don't get PAWS.... DO NOT FORGET TO MENTION THAT 10 to 15 % of people on Benzos go through a hard time.... at least 80% of people getting off do not suffer ....!!!

  • @Marcus72ful
    @Marcus72ful 3 роки тому

    Hi Benzofreeguru.How long were you on your medication for ?

  • @lorig1087
    @lorig1087 3 роки тому

    WHOEVER IS WATCHING THIS, DON'T EVER COLD TURKEY OFF OF ANY BENZODIADEPINE'S!! IT WILL CAUSE SEIZURES AND CAN KILL A PERSON!! VERY, SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE!!

  • @Rotary12A
    @Rotary12A 3 роки тому

    Amma sooo scared am taking 4mg xanax a day.

  • @UserConn
    @UserConn 4 роки тому

    I am here today after a 4 year taper I started after watching your videos. I am just shy of 90 days 100 percent benzo free. While I am dealing with super symptoms I am alive and I will make it. I never thought I could do this but everytime I was discouraged with no hope in sight I watched your channel. It gave me enough hope to keep chipping away. I don’t know you but I know your story. I will never forget the hope you channel gave me along the way. From the bottom of my benzo belly I thank you so much.... Shawn

  • @xxx-ly7jf
    @xxx-ly7jf 4 роки тому

    Hi!! How are you doing now? :)

  • @Walsh25
    @Walsh25 4 роки тому

    Hi Erin it’s been 5 yrs how are you any updates 👌👍

  • @Janellabelle
    @Janellabelle 4 роки тому

    I do NOT give people that quit cold turkey "huge huge props". Its reckless and dangerous and could be fatal, cause seizures and/or a coma.

  • @sintakounboulommavong3138
    @sintakounboulommavong3138 4 роки тому

    I had a seizure without the reason 3 months ago, i’d been sent to the hospital, and then the psychiatrist had given me the phenobarbital 200mg and Valium 10 mg per day, after i took those medicines for 1 month i felt more drowsiness, problem of movement and hard breathing. after that, i went to see the doctor, and doctor told me to reduce the phenobarbital from 200 to 100mg and valium 10 to 5mg. after that i experienced with many withdrawal symptoms such as: headache, hypersensitive to noise, muscle spam, heart palpitation, anxiety, depression, insomnia, anorexic, tiredness and etc. 25 days later, doctor told me to cut valium from 5mg to 2.5, but still keep phenobarbital at the same dose at 100mg, during this time i still experienced the same symptoms, but i can stay with it. 15 days later, the doctor told me to take out of valium from 2.5mg like (Cold turkey), day 1-2 i had panic attack, anxiety, day 3-4 i had a trouble with breathing and other days with the many symptoms like the first cut the valium from 10 to 5mg. Currently, i had been taking of Valium from 2.5mg for 1 month, but i’m still feeling with anxiety, sleep problem, tiredness, but feel it will be reducing. With all that said, i recommend you shouldn’t withdraw this medicine by Cold Turkey way. lastly, this is my fault that i didn’t search the information before and if i know the way that this doctor told me to tapper this medicine, i won’t do as his recommendation.

  • @maxpower1337
    @maxpower1337 4 роки тому

    Thanks the video ♥️

  • @thomasn3882
    @thomasn3882 4 роки тому

    I was on Ativan daily from 1997 to 2010; and by the end I was up to 3mg per day. I realized that I was trapped on a dangerous drug of dubious medical value, so I decided that I wanted to get off of Ativan completely. So I tapered myself off at a pace which I would later find out was way too fast. But I don't regret doing it so quickly, because neither my therapist nor my doctor was very motivated to have me get free from the drug. So I reduced my dose by half a mg per day each week until I was free. Yes, I suffered intense withdrawl pains for 6 to 8 weeks; but after that shock of pain, I was off of Ativan and I never took the drug ever again. My psychiatrist was dumbstruck when I marched into her office one day and announced to her that I was off of Ativan; and that I no longer needed her to prescribe it for me. She congratulated me for my choice to come off of the drug; but she expressed dismay that I had chosen to do that so abruptly. She said that I should have told her of my decision, and she would have helped me to do it much more gradually.

  • @ziggylayneable
    @ziggylayneable 4 роки тому

    Gabba Gabba hey...(yes I'm still on Xanax I have been for 16 yrs. I'm a lifer). I know I can't handle coming off of them. I won't even bother to try. I've been through withdrawal when I got locked up. Fuck that. I'm staying on these forever.

  • @DONALD1951
    @DONALD1951 4 роки тому

    Ok...what dose is the amount you need to be careful on? I only take .5 mg a day.

  • @Murshidtv532
    @Murshidtv532 4 роки тому

    Plz help me

  • @amandaoneill5136
    @amandaoneill5136 5 років тому

    Love the way you pronounce "withdrawal" and you are the image of ahh benzo brain..the girl in kill bill. Stay strong xx

  • @fromindiawithlovefromindia832
    @fromindiawithlovefromindia832 5 років тому

    Came off 14 years of ativan cold turkey. Been off 5 years. Ruined my swag but I have got it back.

  • @ambermae6
    @ambermae6 5 років тому

    I could make you feel better.

  • @MonacoRocha
    @MonacoRocha 5 років тому

    My list has 239 days ... the Ashton list.... slowly slowly but for sure .. thank you I loved your video.

  • @MonacoRocha
    @MonacoRocha 5 років тому

    This is exactly what I started doing 4 th day now.. Ashton from U.K....

  • @rossrcfallacaro3422
    @rossrcfallacaro3422 5 років тому

    I’m about 6 weeks from 2mg cold turkey of clonazapam after 10 years of daily use - never abused. Probably the best decision I’ve ever made, but I’m finally eating healthy, exercising (not strenuous), and going to group therapy daily down at the Miami VA. I feel better than I’ve felt in years.

    • @kostasvalanidis7560
      @kostasvalanidis7560 4 роки тому

      That's great. You can sleep??

    • @lauriina85
      @lauriina85 2 роки тому

      Did you ever feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? When on klonopin and after taper? I call it brain lock. I am doing crossover from klonopin to diazepam and I asked to taper with Ashton manual and my doctor supported me. This hell started in summer 2021when my dog had to put to sleep at the age of 16 and I had terrible panic attacks and doctor prescriped me a big amount of oxazepam and doctor didn't warn. I was shocked when I realised that I was hooked up with this drug. I have been though many traumas and survived from them and have good life. Year ago I had bad withdrawl symptoms of oxazepam and doctor did crossover from oxazepam to diazepam 10 mg. Brain lock went away. My depression symptoms went away because I could do anything and felt good, I could see my partner and mom and other people (Now im isolated a lot because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I'm in a different reality from other people) could have normal sleep and normal mornings in peace. I could exercise and have a good feeling first time after my dog died. I could go to store without agoraphobia (normally I'm confident active social person) and cook and was happy and sure that I will get off of diazepam. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong. In spring I was one month without benzo and in hospital and they tapered me to zero straight and I had terrible panic attacks and withdrawl symptoms and rude doctor said after I couldn't have any withdrawl symptons and I got to home very sick. Nobody said it could take a year or something to heal. Another doctor prescriped me klonopin to get me relief for a while and then taper but it didn't help. When I go to the store to get food I feel depersonalization and derealisation. And if I try to walk and run (wich I love) brain lock ruins it and I feel like my brain just shuts down. I'm isolated and fear to go even outside my home. I have never felt like this. I wake up every morning to death and can take one day suffering with brain like this and anxious and not live. After six months of suffering and being in constant fight or flight state I said month ago to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we started few weeks ago. I feel awful. I have dropped klonopin from 2,5 mg to 1 mg and added 30 mg of diazepam, total amount of diazepam is about 50 mg 😥 And year ago I had just 10 mg and I was myself and my brain worked few weeks. I was so close. My doctor says I have tolerance and that's why klonopin didn't help and she thinks this drug is making me sick and more anxious and I agree. She thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go. I fear I have permanent brain damage and I don't understand a simple thing and afraid for my independent life. I have called to my country's best rehab center (we don't have good places for benzo) and they said they taper normally in 2-3 weeks and I said I die in that timeline and they said my doctor can talk to their doctor and ask longer time. I think I have to quit there, I am not addict, have dependency but I think I don't have physically and mentally power to taper a year and then heal. Even it would be best for the brain to addapt slowly. I was year ago (before I got diazepam in hospital) week in an awful rehab center and they took 30 mg off of oxazepam in a week and I didn't sleep, felt paralysed, puking, was almost in psychosis and then I was supposed to see a nurse and talk to her and go back to rehad center but right when she saw me she asked a doctor who said I'm in very bad withdrawl and sent me to hospital and I got relief when I had diazepam. So I know the fast tapering is pure hell but I think I have no choice. I want my functioning brain back. Thank you if you can answer if you had any problems with brain function and understanding normal things in any point. Hope you are well.

  • @beebeel6285
    @beebeel6285 5 років тому

    Just need to know what helped.

  • @elainebezak7158
    @elainebezak7158 5 років тому

    Hi Guru. . I’m contemplating withdrawal from over 10 years of a high dose of Xanax. When you say if I can do it anyone can. . I feel like I’m that person that can’t do it. Listening to you I felt like I was listening to myself. I noticed this utube is from several years ago. . Only 1 other fairly recent comment. I hope you’re still out there, I still need help. Thx.

  • @peternorthrup6274
    @peternorthrup6274 5 років тому

    Great job. Im on suboxone. Tapering. Its a beast. Im glad i never took any benzos. Suboxone is bad enough.

  • @treatmenice1564
    @treatmenice1564 5 років тому

    Where did she go?

  • @peternorthrup6274
    @peternorthrup6274 5 років тому

    Same, same. Whatever? Who paid for all the doctors? What do you do for a living? You had alot going on in your life. I bet your a blast at a party. How is work? Insurance costs money. How do you support yourself? Eat? A car? Car insurance? Rent. I sure hope you dont have kids. You cant take care of yourself. 40lbs? You must have been a fat ass.

  • @m.l.m1135
    @m.l.m1135 5 років тому

    Updated on how you doing now

  • @damarissotomayor8119
    @damarissotomayor8119 5 років тому

    Can you help me please text me.

  • @cherbear6377
    @cherbear6377 5 років тому

    How long was your O ordeal In other words how long did it take you to get to where you're at right now I'm on 8 mg xanax for 9 years and I do not plan ever coming out of the hum and going through withdraw I will not survive

  • @babblingbrookc.8659
    @babblingbrookc.8659 5 років тому

    I quit cold Turkey first of January. I had no idea it was so dangerous!! Didnt think I was going to make it. I'm wondering if I'm out of the "Danger Zone" or whatever issues may simply arise due to not tapering now that I'm on month #4. I am better than I was but far from normal... .

    • @francinemartinez-cruz3335
      @francinemartinez-cruz3335 5 років тому

      Brook Basics I love BenzoBuddies! View Profile Personal Message (Online) Success reinstating ? I can’t handle this I’m dying « on: September 09, 2019, 10:42:52 pm » QuoteModifyRemove Please any positive support of dosing back up I was only on .5-1 mg Ativan for 6 weeks This has been so bad My doc on Friday with the pharmacist decided I should go back up. I went down to .25 starting aug 23. The symptoms are crazy non tolerable I really feel like I can’t make it today starting that week I had pelvis and back pain crazy stomach pains to anxiety feeling I can’t take care of kids can’t eat can’t sleep stopped going to work then I was not wanting to drive or go to store I’m fallingappart headaches leg pain and jello legs hot and cold I can’t take care of my kids I went from a month ago working cooking cleaning running my kids around planning trips and eating and exercising last day was aug 6th. I want to cry I want to scream I don’t have support for 2 plus years I have bills including a home and two teenage boys in high school. I cried on Friday because I couldn’t go to my son football game. I never missed a game. They will loose there mother. I always put them first always :-\

    • @harrynac6017
      @harrynac6017 4 роки тому

      @@francinemartinez-cruz3335 How are you doing now? I heard some good stuff about the Heather Ashton method.

  • @marcusgrillo4935
    @marcusgrillo4935 5 років тому

    Uh yeah, I had to quit my CPTSD Anziety meds (benzo) thanks to Trump's decision to torture all Americans that are on benzos not giving two sh*ts about people that have a legiimate need for it. So I'm in full Benzo withdrawal as I'm typing this (barelyy).... I tapered from 2mg/day for a month, then 1.mg/day for a month, then 1.mg and when I started the .5, my brain went into shock and I had the most awful electric zaps that never stop, and the shaking and tremors are horrific!!! 24/7 I feel like I'm in a washing machine!!! I sincerely pray that Trump dies a slow painful death, with no access to pain meds or anything to help his stupid ass for torturing so many Americans. The very Americans that put his retarded ass in office.#ourpain #theothersideofopiates #benzowithdrawal #saynototrump

  • @kaylagerrard5770
    @kaylagerrard5770 5 років тому

    i thought your not supposed to get back on after 30 days ?

  • @debbiefinn6483
    @debbiefinn6483 5 років тому

    JUST THANK YOU..I AM NOT ALONE

  • @Noir-sr5bw
    @Noir-sr5bw 5 років тому

    I switched from klonopin to xanax 6 mod sgo. Kkonpin stoppef eorming hor xanax. I have had trmors snd ny mind is crazy. Could thst be withdrawal. I feel terrible

  • @marksilva2929
    @marksilva2929 5 років тому

    We're subscribing because you're so positive. I'm ten years and your the first person who made me feel like I could get off it. I'm scared to start.

  • @goddessvibes08
    @goddessvibes08 5 років тому

    Did you have burning pain?

  • @Cynthia431964
    @Cynthia431964 6 років тому

    One year ago I stopped Xanax cold turkey. I was on Xanax for 27 years and was taking 6/mg daily. My doctor lost his license to prescribe controlled substance. I am going through the worst nightmare of suffering that I want to die. I never could have imagined the thousands of symptoms of torture of my body attacking itself

  • @hirskdubbi
    @hirskdubbi 6 років тому

    Trying to be professional and courteous but I can't help it, you turn me on.

  • @shayaroth
    @shayaroth 6 років тому

    You're amazing!

  • @treatmenice1564
    @treatmenice1564 6 років тому

    I tried cold turkey this past holiday weekend. the first two days was not hard but on thanksgiving day it hit me. cold chill, muscle cramps, numbness in my feet and around my mouth. Pretty hard to even talk. started having a seizure. I learned to never try that again!

  • @user-tv6bv4ot1f
    @user-tv6bv4ot1f 6 років тому

    I want to CT .5 mg of clonezepam after being on it for 1 year. This drug is a nightmare. I have alot of differant physiological symptoms. Derealization, worse anxiety/panic, paranoia, body aches, diarhea, heart palps, dizziness. I want off. And i wish i could find a good dr. In SD that could understand this shit and help me. Im depressed and scared. If God is real, i need His help with this big time. Good luck anyone. We're fighting for our lifes here.

    • @AcidHead710
      @AcidHead710 6 років тому

      I'm with you, If I were you I would do the water titration method I wish I would have done this earlier. I'm down to 0.05mg k yesterday I had really bad stomach pain, headache and heart palpations

    • @user-tv6bv4ot1f
      @user-tv6bv4ot1f 6 років тому

      @@aimlessintopeka suprisingly ive been able to stay at .25- .5 a day only. But if i go too long without it.. Like a whole day..i feel it. Worse anxiety/panic attacks, dizzy, derealization. I hate the Dr who gave it to me. It actually works but im afraid that ill get stuck this way if its ever taken away now so i want to taper now. What a life. There must be some cosmic reason some of us on Earth are so sensitive to everything. I stopped trying to figure it out and try to stay away from the things that hurt me. Thanks for reaching out. Means alot. Im gonna try to taper at 10% a month.

  • @levettp
    @levettp 6 років тому

    You ever tried taking L-theanine during your tapering phase?