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The Ash Files
United Kingdom
Приєднався 8 кві 2023
I’m Ash - Writer, Filmmaker + Creative finding humor in places no one asked me to… but here we are. ✍🏻🎥
christmas is beginning to look a lot like... something else.
This year, Christmas isn’t loud. There’s no family chaos, no interrogation about my love life over dry turkey, and no questionable matching pajamas. It’s just me, London in its holiday finest, and a kind of quiet I wasn’t entirely prepared for-but maybe needed.
In a city that insists on playing the lead in its own holiday rom-com, I’m rethinking what Christmas can be when you strip away the noise. From glittering streets to overpriced nostalgia at the Southbank markets, this isn’t the Christmas I grew up with-and that’s the point.
This piece is for anyone figuring out what the holidays mean when they stop looking like the movies. There are no grand epiphanies, just the strange beauty of letting Christmas be whatever it is this year.
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ABOUT ME:
Hi! 🙋🏼♀️
I’m Ash - a writer, content creator, and movie lover with a penchant for the nostalgic. I spend more time talking to my dog than actual humans, and when I’m not arguing with fictional characters, my days are spent writing endless drafts or down movie-related rabbit holes. In this little corner of the internet, I share my love for storytelling, the ups and downs of my creative process, and the sometimes ridiculous, often relatable moments that come with being a 30-something and not having it all figured out.
In a city that insists on playing the lead in its own holiday rom-com, I’m rethinking what Christmas can be when you strip away the noise. From glittering streets to overpriced nostalgia at the Southbank markets, this isn’t the Christmas I grew up with-and that’s the point.
This piece is for anyone figuring out what the holidays mean when they stop looking like the movies. There are no grand epiphanies, just the strange beauty of letting Christmas be whatever it is this year.
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TikTok - bit.ly/4dakJdD
Instagram - bit.ly/3zKLmYb
Substack - bit.ly/3y2AGU6
Freewrite Typewriter - bit.ly/3W29yfO [affiliate link]
Templates + Digital Products - stan.store/the-ashfiles
Work with Me - hello@the-fridayclub.com
ABOUT ME:
Hi! 🙋🏼♀️
I’m Ash - a writer, content creator, and movie lover with a penchant for the nostalgic. I spend more time talking to my dog than actual humans, and when I’m not arguing with fictional characters, my days are spent writing endless drafts or down movie-related rabbit holes. In this little corner of the internet, I share my love for storytelling, the ups and downs of my creative process, and the sometimes ridiculous, often relatable moments that come with being a 30-something and not having it all figured out.
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Відео
notes on coming back to YOUR life.
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Somewhere along the way, you lost yourself. One day, you wake up and realize you’ve been living someone else’s version of adulthood-a series of small compromises that snowballed into a life that doesn’t quite feel like yours. Sound familiar? In this video, we’re exploring what it means to take back the script, scene by scene. Forget grand gestures or dramatic reinventions-change doesn’t have to...
autumn days in london.
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In this video, we’re leaving behind the sweaty chaos of summer in London and stepping into that glorious, golden in-between where the city finally exhales. This isn’t just about cooler air-it’s about permission to slow down, to wander the market stalls of Notting Hill without rushing, and to finally ditch the pretense of loving rooftop cocktails. Fall sneaks up on you, reminding you that someti...
doing life alone.
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In this video, I share the realities of navigating life on my own-handling the quiet routines, figuring things out as I go, and occasionally wishing someone else could pitch in with the emotional heavy lifting. It’s about finding balance between independence and the hope that maybe, one day, there’ll be room for someone else in the life I’ve built. TikTok - bit.ly/4dakJdD Instagram - bit.ly/3zK...
settling into my new life.
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Here’s a peek into my first few days in London-navigating the excitement of a new city while also wrangling the chaos of unpacking what feels like my entire life. I wander through the colorful chaos of Camden Market, indulge in some rom-com nostalgia in Notting Hill, soak in the history at Westminster, and find my way to Covent Garden for some much-needed people-watching. And while it all sound...
when life hands you London... you make a go of it.
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When life hands you London… you make a go of it. This video is about my unexpected move to London in my mid-30s. What started as a casual idea somehow turned into a reality, and trust me, it’s been a mix of excitement, chaos, and everything in between. From navigating the tricky London flat hunt to figuring out the everyday mundane piece of life in a new city, I’m sharing my honest experience o...
a short stay in the city of lights.
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Getting to London from Vancouver with my dog required a stopover in Paris… poor me 🙃 - in this vlog, enjoy some quiet bits of scenery from the trip. Hoping it inspires you to take a trip to Paris yourself or helps you remember the beauty of this city. Places Visited: -Arc de Triomphe -Eiffel Tower -The Louvre -Marche Aux Puces -Saint Ouen Flea Market -Montmartre -Les Deux Magots -Notre Dame Cat...
Paris... between the lines.
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Spent a few days in Paris on my way to London, and it was... well, interesting. Not quite the postcard-perfect experience, but I had some good moments and a lot of thoughts... most of which are explained here. It's not the main event, but it's part of the journey. TikTok - bit.ly/4dakJdD Instagram - bit.ly/3zKLmYb Substack - bit.ly/3y2AGU6 Freewrite Typewriter - bit.ly/3W29yfO [affiliate link] ...
moving vlog - last days in Vancouver // quick trip to LA.
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Hi there! This video is a break from my narrative pieces... a silent vlog of my last days living in Vancouver, packing up and moving, along with a quick trip to Los Angeles before the big move to London! Vancouver highlights include: Stanley Park, Granville Island and Gastown. Los Angeles highlights include: A stay at The Cara Hotel, Universal Studios and The Academy Museum of Motion Pictures [...
an introvert's goodbye to her safe space.
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an introvert's goodbye to her safe space.
it’s not too late to start over… [moving to London.]
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it’s not too late to start over… [moving to London.]
tales of a 30-something in progress.
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tales of a 30-something in progress.
Unpopular take. The way I see it, Christmas itself is more or less the same. The intensity of its excitement varies from time to time, yes (especially when one compares this year's to that of 2020). Yet, its essence stays intact: a cold holiday season (not really the case in a tropical country, but it'll do) sprinkled with festivities, laughter, and lights all around the city. My point, however, is that what changes significantly is the people who experience it-us-and our life circumstances. Through the particular experience of feeling something different in Christmas, we also indirectly realize that we are no longer the same. And I think that's okay. Sure, there is comfort in experiencing the familiar and exposure to difference can feel scary most of the time. Yet, familiarity also entails boredom and there is joy to be found in the unknown.
I love that you’ve brought up the evolution of the self in the context of a holiday experience 🥰✨
Oh, a therapy session? Good, I needed that, thxs!💗
Glad you liked it ☺️✨
❤ gumption ❤ ... love that word !!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
One of my favourites! ✨
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas to you too! 🎄✨
Lovely! Happy Christmas to you❤
Merry Christmas to you too! 🎄✨
Oh, but you’ll find someone soon The Ash Files 😉 As usual, thank you for sharing your thoughts and your videos. Somehow they make me feel part of an invisible community of introverts, observers of the chaotic world we’re living in 😂 Merry Christmas from Italy
So glad to hear my videos make you feel a part of something! Merry Christmas to you! 🎄✨☺️
letting yourself be authentic is so life changing, a one day decision to let yourself be yourself (or even learn who you are) can change everything
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‘no amount of new starts can solve what you’re avoiding inside.’
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I am absolutely in love with your writing style.
Thank you so much! That means a lot! 🙏🏻✨
You might just have described my Xmas (in a less exotic spot) but I hear you! A personal Xmas-where everything that is important - brings you to tears. A life well lived….❤️🎄❤️
Merry Christmas to you!! 🥰🫂🎄
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Beautiful video thank you for sharing
Thank you so much! 😊✨
I just love watching your videos and your voice.
Thank you so much! 🥹🙏🏻✨
"Are you holding back?" I have a wall of thoughts and reminders and will definitely include this, thank you. ♡
what a nice picture :) nice wisdom :)
I live alone as well, and the holidays sometimes can make me feel like I don't belong.. but this helped. Thank you & happy holidays ❤
Thank you so much for sharing-I’m glad this offered a little bit of comfort this holiday season. 🫂✨
Thanks!
Thank you 🙏🏻🥹✨
❤ Love love love ❤️
Thank you! 🥰✨
Thank God you're not an AI voice your words are very humane thank you
A stunning video, thank you.
Thank you so much! ☺️✨
Wow - where are you editing this?
I use Final Cut Pro ✨
Poetry.
Thank you! 🥹✨
i aspire to write as beautifully as you someday
Oh my goodness, thank you so much 🥹✨🙏🏻
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🇬🇧 ~ Merry Christmas 🎄 - What magic 🪄 you captured in this little present 🎁 to us far & near! London REALLY goes all out in December - WOW! It looks like you have created the most cozy & charming holiday season for yourself and Raffi - your first living full-time in the United Kingdom 👑 💜 🏰!!! Looking forward to an apartment tour when you are ready to share it with us! Sending extra warm holiday hugs 🫂 from Southern California! Best, Michelle 🥰
Thank you Michelle! Merry Christmas to you too! 🎄✨ London definitely goes all out and it’s made navigating the holidays a lot easier being so busy with seeing it all! Raffi and I will be just fine this Christmas, I’ve definitely made us a cozy spot 🥰
@the.ashfiles Merry Christmas 🎄 ~ It's really incredible the effort, expense & time folks put into decorating for The Holiday Season in London; it's really quite spectacular! Surrounded by so much beauty, festivities & goodwill; I hope you are soaking it all in fully! I have watched (among many other movies) "The Holiday" a favorite; also, it looks like they show it there in London in a beautiful theatre 🎭 with an orchestra too?!? How fantastic! Last night I watched "Love Actually" ❤️ - so - I'm feeling a bit of the British vibe way out here in California! Well, you have certainly created an amazing "new life" for yourself & Raffi, of which you should be proud! Soak it all in and enjoy the magic 🪄 Christmas 🎄 invariably brings - even in the solo moments! Again, big hugs & thank you for your inspired, creative & unique voice + UA-cam channel! May it blow up in 2025 ... ⭐‼️
Merry Christmas from Toronto!! I don't know what it is,, but Christmas feels,,, different this year. It feels,,, less special and im not sure why,,, maybe it's just where I am in life,,, ( I have plans and Xmas parties I'm going to with family,,) but just on a personal level,,, it feel odd,,, maybe I need to start making some personal traditions I do with myself every year.
Thank you for sharing this! It sounds like you’re in such a reflective place this year, and honestly, creating personal traditions can be such a beautiful way to reconnect with the season in your own way. It’s okay for Christmas to feel a bit different as life shifts-sometimes those changes lead to something really meaningful. Wishing you a Merry Christmas from here to Toronto! ✨🎄🫂
@the.ashfiles your videos have a real way of clicking. And ya it really is starting to seem like I'm in a rather reflective place this year. Which is strange honestly lol. You make a great point in life shifting. Think I'm gonna start with little traditions just for myself:) Thank you!! 🎄🎄🎄😁😁
I just had my 10 year relationship end in November and while I'm still really hurting - I'm spending this Christmas alone and this was really kind and helpful for me. Thank you ❤ Merry Christmas from Vancouver, BC
@shelbysloan5983 ~ 💔 Dear Shelby: I'm sorry to hear your relationship of ten years has ended ... 😢! Somehow break ups at / around The Holidays (Thanksgiving thru New Year's Day) seem extra painful & jarring! May you find comfort in family & friends; if desired, otherwise try to do some extra special things "just for you" that bring you comfort & JOY! Wrapping you in a warm holiday hug 🫂 from Southern California ... ☀️🎄❤️🎄☀️
Thank you for sharing this, Shelby. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, especially during the holidays. It takes so much strength to face such a big change, and I’m glad this could offer even a little comfort. I hope you can find some joyful and comforting things to do for yourself. Sending you love and warmth from one Vancouverite to another. Merry Christmas ❤️🫂✨
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Had a 20 year marriage end in November. And, due to various reasons will not be with any family for Christmas or new years. Grateful to have friends to enjoy the holidays with. And, it is quiet but the quiet feels very warm and cozy.
This was beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing. Merry Christmas from Chicago.
Thank you so much! Merry Christmas to you too! 🥰✨
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This was such an amazing video!! Your voice is so soothing!
Thank you so much! I’m really happy it resonated with you. 🫂✨
What a beautifully narrated video!!! You gained a new supporter
Thank you so much! 🥰 and welcome! ✨
the people who told you to shrink, they are not your people
I have watched this video every day for the last 7 days. And it's really been helping me go through a horrific marriage break down. It makes me feel like even though I have big feelings, that the grief is immense... so is the joy.. ✨🙏
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m so sorry you’re going through such a difficult time, but I’m incredibly touched that this video has brought you even a little bit of comfort. Your strength in embracing both the grief and the joy is so inspiring. Sending you so much love and healing energy as you navigate this. 🫂❤️✨
This was really refreshing, glad I found your channel on this Sunday morning.
So glad you found it! 😊✨
This sounds like an AI voice
It’s my voice, no need to be rude.
@@the.ashfilesI'm a grumpy old bastard but you have a beautiful voice thank you for your direct simplicity
My heart hurts so much, when I watch your videos and I have to admit that I'm crying while watching them. I feel so heard.
I’m so glad to hear they resonate with you, thank you for being here ✨🫂
Omg I'm also 37 and wanting to move to London 😭😭😭 but the Visa process is so frightening and so expensive 😞
I know it’s a stressful and complicated process, I’ve been through it before but in a different country. Takes time and perseverance for sure (and money)… but it’s worth trying if it’s what you want. Just don’t put the pressure of a certain time frame… just baby steps ✨
So beautifully read. No AI voice. Perfect. I love it. Thank you❤
Thank you so much! ☺️✨🙏🏻
Thank you. I've lived my life by the book, followed every rules and made sure everyone around me was alright and now everything came crumbling down I don't know who I am anymore I thought I was a failure I still am but this video made me realize things happen for a reason and where I am right now is alright I may not be in college like my friends I'm still finding out who I am and who I want to become so thank you, this video is the only one that gave me assurance. I also need to learn how to say no hahaha...
I'm so glad you're finding your way back to YOU. Keep going! 🫂✨
I’m here for all of this🔥🔥🔥🙏🏽🥰
Thank you! ☺️✨🙏🏻
this came at the perfect time <3
So glad it found you! ☺️✨
Wow... This is exactly what I needed, feel like. Thank you so much
I’m so happy to hear it resonated with you! ☺️✨
This felt like reading the inner monologue that should be for me. Having always been solo so far, at 24 as a dude, makes me feel irredeemably defective and very much envious of my peers who are able to connect. Now, these two negative feelings have been amazing fuel for growth and achievement, but I'm still miserable for it at least one evening per week, minimum.
Thank you for being so honest. It’s tough to feel like you’re on the outside looking in, but it’s also impressive how much you’ve channeled that into growth. That said, feeling miserable for at least one evening a week? Totally valid. Just don’t be too hard on yourself-connection doesn’t have a timeline ✨
This was nice. I enjoyed this
Truly... This was so relatable. These are the moments that make social media so beautiful. I am so grateful for this comment section , it makes me feel so less alone. I am just 14 years old, throughout all my life, both my mom and dad had an extremely busy life which led to me being independent and self sufficient. My mom shifted to another city this year, and I felt like I relied on comfort by my friends. But lately, even those relationships have failed to fulfill me. As for romantic relationships, no one has ever truly 'loved me' or given me the same amount of safety, and love. Being independent has never been a bad thing for me and I appreciate the liberation that comes with it, also knowing the responsibility but it definitely does feel alone- with couples and friends and social media and a house that is empty. I also know that I am too young to already have a fixed pattern in my life. But truly, these videos give me so much comfort, gives me assurance that I'm not alone, even in the lonely.
Thank you for sharing this so openly. It sounds like you’ve already done a lot of reflecting for someone your age, which is impressive. Being independent is a huge strength, but it can also feel isolating sometimes-especially when it seems like everyone around you has connections that you’re still figuring out. I’m really glad these videos make you feel less alone, because you’re not. You’re navigating so much, and it’s okay to not have it all figured out yet-you’ve got time. ☺️🫂✨
Thank you for this! I'm crying 😭
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thank you for this. very well said and just what i needed to hear these days :]
So happy to hear it resonated with you 🥰
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so true. so, so so.... true. !!!!
What if you dint know what you want? I’m 59 and although I enjoyed 29 years in the military which I think is the life I wanted, but I can’t be part of that anymore so I don’t know who I am if been going from job to job over the last 12 years and I am currently unemployed and apart from my home I have very little in terms of income … ok a lot to be grateful for not happy in my marriage but we are friends and we have a great family and children and grandchildren which are real blessings but inside I’m unhappy, I hate the state of the world it seems like there is no hope for peace … I can’t switch off from it, everyone is fighting …
Thank you for sharing this so openly. It sounds like you’re carrying so much, and feeling stuck in a place where you’re grateful and unhappy can be such a lonely experience. That in-between of not knowing what you want next can feel impossible to move through-I’ve been there too. And adding the weight of the state of the world doesn’t make any of this easier. I’m actually working on a video about that feeling: what to do when you don’t know what you want. Hopefully will have it out in January. 🫂✨