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I enjoyed your honesty, and i think you are doing great. I too have a couple attempts to do minecraft videos. "Noob Mom" series. I talk a lot thru my nerves. But i look at it like keep being natural, you will get better. It is your world, your environment and you're pleasant and enjoyable making your fun. luv it

i randomly found this video on my home page and i'm extremely grateful i did :( we're in extremely similar positions and that lingering loneliness can be so troubling and difficult to navigate, and hearing that i'm not alone is very comforting. it's hard to really form valuable connections with people when life moves so fast. - i also feel u with your friends moving away, i recently moved continents and am starting from 0 with literally no friends in a foreign country and it's soooo lonely, so hopefully it can all iron out for everyone eventually :))

I'm sorry but it's SO twisted and evil for a parent to tell their child that they can't take anti-depressants. It's almost like they don't care at that rate. But.. I feel you.. my parents are unaware of my feelings too, as if they don't care. Made worse by the fact that I'm a trans-girl.. it's a struggle.

From what you've said you have really great parents that really care for you, once you become an adult you are truely free to do what ever you want. Paving your own path is difficult and scary and since your parents are imigrants they are probaby very well aquanted with how hard life can be and how hard it is to pave a new path and don't want you face the same difficulties they did. This isn't to say they are right about everything, you at the end of the day are the one that lives your life and you need to make decisions that push you in a direction you think will lead you to happiness. Would you be more happy working as a lawyer making good money, have a good non leaky roof over your head and not having to worry about about that extra item you got in your coffee at starbucks, but not enjoy the job you do and have less free time to do content or creative stuff on the side? Lawyers work 60 hour weeks you know. Or would you be more happy working as a teacher, likely unable to do too much content stuff on the side (Many teachers work 70 hour weeks! But they also don't work during vacation which is pretty awesome plus side, most adults don't get anywhere near that much paid time off) but have a fulfilling job you enjoy and are passionate about? You probably won't get that extra item at starbucks and fixing a leaky roof may take you a while but at least you will be happy and content. If neither of these options sound right to you, you can forge your own path to find something that fits, just know carving your own path is hard and turning back is even harder, so if you decide something totally different just give it 120% percent of your effort and you will succeed. Something people don't often admit about the world of adults is most people half arse everything or just don't care that much about what they do, doing better than them is pretty easy if you give it 120% percent effort, you will be seen. Sorry to hear your mum has an Auto Immunue problem, my mum does too and it's pretty rough. Although she has never said it was my or the rest of my family's fault, that's gotta be rough to hear. Hoping the best for you!

I dont know how this video found me but be always true to your feelings during these situations. from someome who has felt the same.

I can’t really relate with this kind of stuff but I’ve had and have friends who go through this and I get where your coming from

"super sweet fanta" girl was drinking LCL lol u were being tested to become a EVA pilot!

you have no idea how much this resonates with me. I always end up feeling like im the problem even when i know i'm not. It sucks a lot. Our mothers often want whats best for us. Other times they just have a undying urge to be right. As for family, i like to live by the phrase "Family is more than blood". It'll be okay, just hang in there alright? So many people understand and we are here for you. Soldier on.

I can relate. I grew up in a toxic household and my mom is a narcissist. It’s hard for me to see that my little brother (who’s 17 not so little anymore) has to deal with her.

About the law school / school stuff: You could take a year off of school (if you're done with high school or college) it could help a lot, after a year or two off you will feel refreshed and more motivated. You don't need to instantly go to law school, you spent 90% of your life in school, it's ok to take a break.

Have you tried making some new friends online? Online friends can be comforting or making a small server with some good people to hang with will help

I grew up with a toxic, narcissistic dad. He would always manipulate me, hit me, argue with me for no reason ect. I hope you know you're not the only one, you are an amazing person 💕

I feel the same way, my parents aren't immigrants or anything but they always made me feel like i needed to earn everything.

I grew up in a household full of narcissistic abuse from my parents, one covert and one overt, and I am worried that you have been experiencing the same thing (note: I am not a doctor) If they/she wont take responsibility [she said you are the reason for her stress disorder, which is NOT TRUE), continues to do the same things you say are harming you, its all about family when its on you but not when its on them, wont listen, attacks/yells at you and then blames you for your reaction (reactive abuse), goes from crazy one moment to acting normal the next, if you feel like you are walking on eggshells in order to avoid another emotional outburst, it also sounds like your parents are trying to live through you (pushing you to be a lawyer instead of considering your strengths and passions and supporting them) completely invalidating your feelings ... Punishing you for being depressed.... These are all BAD BAD signs. Both my parents were like this, my dad was also physically abusive (I hope you dont experience that, but the mental trauma is just as damaging if not MORE) Im once again, not a doctor, I only have my experience to compare to. Regardless, I also felt like I wanted to go home, while I was home. I lost home at a young age and never really found it again, and you are not alone holmes. What youre going through is WHACK!! Thanks for sharing, thanks for being strong enough to share. And its okay to squiggle, you are taking steps towards health and those are steps some people never take. You will see life entirely differently when youre in a different environment, big promise. Keep your head up. Also btdubs your cave is cool and now I kinda want a cave base 😂

I've played Minecraft for 6 years and still haven't beaten it...

don’t give a fuck tbh

Dang! It only took 3 weeks before you reached 1220 subscribers, that has to be some type of record!

The more you try the better you get and the less you try the worst you get

More video's 😊😊

So sad 😢😢😢😢

It's ok i am so exited that u are a bit better, like you aren't as sad

Hey your quite successful on this channel you got 200 subscribers in 14 hours your going to be successful.

You got this. You are doing very well for starting. Most people don't even reach a 1000 subscribers in there 1st year. You are doing extremely well to be feeling like you failed. You've already reached enough subscribers to be monetized now you just wait for the watch time. Keep it up

This video: Reflects my entire life

Don’t give up I gave up now I am regretting it because what ever I try to do it won’t revive my chancel, you still have a fan base use it you got this

you got it girl!!! take care 💕

It’s ok bm😢 You’re doing amazing. Keep going at your own pace ❤️

I feel this so deeply. Thank you for being vulnerable. Often times, when trying to find motivation to push past my fear of failure, I end up comparing myself to people who are much farther ahead. People who have great success behind them, and skills to prove that their fear of failure is only in their head. I don't have that. I don't have any proof that I'm good at anything and when I try to learn I get frustrated with my lack of progress. In the end, I feel more like a failure than before. I think the best way to get past that anxiety is to have the encouragement from others.... I always push people away because I'm afraid of messing up, Afraid of being vulnerable, afraid afraid afraid!! Please don't push away people who support you. Please don't hide yourself from them. You have something SO special and unique to share with the world... because it's yours. And no one else can do you like you can! You will find success and happiness one day, but until then you will feel like a failure.... but only by continuing to learn can we ever free ourselves from our self-doubt! Hold on to that hope! Use the warmth of kind-hearted people fuel your fire! And when that fire burns out, it's time to rest. You find hope again... We will get through this together ❤️ I believe in us

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Build a house and make a chest so you can put your stuff in the chest. 😊😊😊

failure is a major step in success, eventually you will find the answer and break through this process. i dont have anything super beneficial to say so ill try to keep it short but just know that we learn from mistakes, even if they aren't as obvious. eventually your procrastination will teach you how to push through and just do what you might be avoiding. something i learned from a book i read (thank you dan howell. love that guy.) is the 5 minute rule, if there is something you are procrastinating just do it for 5 minutes, and then you can stop. most times you will continue past 5 minutes and realize its not so bad, or you won't even realize 5 minutes have already passed. its allllll about that starting point. even if you do stop at 5 minutes, hey atleast you got 5 minutes of work done just try to not push yourself to hard or it will just backfire!! hope you get passed this dreaded task and know we support you!! <3

It’s ok bro it’s happened to me before too

You are not a failure. Look at yourself. You are a UA-cam content creator. That's more than 6 billion other people. I can't say that about myself. I think you touched on this before, that playing Minecraft makes you feel alone. I fired up my world a few weeks ago, and I found a new cave. I had to shut it down though because I felt like I couldn't explore alone. i haven't played since. I looked at your other channel, and I appreciate the effort you put into these videos. I tried creating a dash cam video for a drive to the Japanese grocery store this morning. Clipchamp was not in the mood. That doesn't mean I'm a failure, I just have to try again later. I like watching your videos because you play better than I do. I died a lot early game, and then I played okay but died in lava a few times. It sucks, but it happens to everyone who doesn't play Creative Mode. Now having watched your video, it sounds like you are afraid to try things because of how you will be judged by others. Let me tell you about something I learned in my 40s -- People will just find any reason to judge you. They'll just make up a whole bunch of rules for everyone else to follow, but their rules aren't exactly legal. They just do it to feel better about themselves and their own failures. And you know what to say to those people? Nothing. No one can judge you because they are not you. You are not breaking any laws by being you. Just be you and keep playing MC.

Good job on 1.19K subs I only have like 5 or six or something your going to be a successful person okay I'm kinda lazy but you just got to work through it your going to be very successful

Wait your family member passed?

Its okay just try please it will work and please don't call yourself a disappointment .Trust me just relax and don't call yourself a disappointment please you need a break and take a vacation.

You’re not a failure you have1.19k subs

This happens a lot it’s hard but it’s not impossible and that’s enough for me

I have never been this emotional, but u got this try to be more positive , try u got this stop being so negative, and u have done something , u played minecraft and talked to us stop being so negative do your best

Did they die? We're your friends you can tell us. I want to help you.

You don't have a problem . 3:45

We support you and encourage you. Hang in there!

You can cry ,what's wrong,and I have never seen your channel, but it's ok you are not a failure ,and you can.

Dear friend, you should stop blaming your self, what you are doing is ok

Another bm break, another cam yap sesh I’m not going to assume I know whats going, but I’ve felt and am feeling something similar. There’s so much you NEED to do, and everyone is watching, and everything is hinging on this, and for some reason you just can’t do anything. You procrastinate, and you torture yourself for not getting anything done. It’s the most crushing, painful feeling, and I am so sorry that you have to feel that way. I hold my self to an unfair standard and I constantly punish myself for every single shortcoming or procrastination. Frankly, I can’t stop doing that; that’s how I’m wired and it feels impossible to stop. What I do know though is that if you kick a horse while it’s down, it’s not going to run faster. Work through your mistakes with yourself, BE PATIENT with yourself, because finding the right answer is more important than punishing a mistake. I promise you there IS a reason you cant get things done. It is so easy to minimize your pain or your struggle, or just straight up ignore it, but it doesn’t go away. For me, it’s because I’m hurting. It took four and a half years to admit that to myself. I lost or threw away basically everything, and it is so hard to get out of bed. I had to feel that and accept that before I could make any real progress, something I’m still working on. It sounds like you’re dealing with a lot of loss and pressure, and you need to let yourself feel that. When it comes to pressure, I havent figured out that one out yet. With my anxiety/paranoia, everyone is an enemy and is judging or is praying on my downfall. It’s a product of stress and other things and these people do care about me and aren’t those things. Knowing that in my head is one thing, but feeling it is another m. Best option so far is to gaslight myself into believing it:) Have some grace with yourself, let yourself feel, and again, know that youre not alone. Good luck and dont give up:) o7

Don't be afraid to fail. It teaches you more than sucess does, the more you know theless you fail. You are not a failure, a failure is someone who gives up. And procrastination? Please, 99% of people do it. Take a break. Go back to those friends, laugh smile goof off. You will never be perfect, and you shouldn't want to be. Perfection is the dumbest thing ever. If your perfect and do evetything right all the time, youll feel shitty, and when you eventually do fail, because you will, it will be earth shattering. bm, i may not know you, but i know what your going through. You are pefectly imperfect. Take a break. Breathe. Dont be so hard on yourself and things will go smoother. Dont be perfect. You are an amazing person who is under a lot of stress. It gets better. Trust.

im sorry to hear this i hope you feel better soon ❤

Don't worry Bm, it's alright! Things like this happen a lot. Some call it seasonal depression, while other times it's just because we're tired. Many times when we're pretty active in our lives, we tend to raise the bar on ourselves. Expecting too much even when the capacity is low. And it's completely normal, we tend to overwhelm ourselves because of this. Which leads us to underperform rather than performing better. Sometimes we just need to cool off, y'know. Take a whole day or two, get your bearings. It's actually important, otherwise the body will be burnt out and more will be lost. If you're feeling down because you're not able to do things even though there's no reason why you can't, take a break. Get some rest and calm down, we all need it! Don't worry about always meeting expectations, even the mightiest of us need some time to rest to keep up the facade. I hope you're doing well, Bm! You got us anyways, here to support you! 💯

Hi

I think you did a great job articulating all of your points you were trying to say, so don't be so hard on yourself you are fantastic on camera. I think the best part why so many people want to watch your videos and enjoyed this one is because you are so genuine and unique, it's a breath of fresh air. Over the last 3-4 months I have been filming very similar style videos on my channel. Just playing minecraft, chilling, and trying to send a message that maybe one person really needs to hear and I could help. It's a hidden gem and I very much enjoyed watching and listening to your video. Thank you for putting yourself out there, you are giving the world a gift.