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I know who I am
it's devastating when you know exactly who you are, and with the small chances of voice, you've done everything you can to try to be able to express it, whether it be as a artist, a person-pretty much anything other than a corporate invisible cog. never one day of my life have I not been completely alone in everything that I've ever done, screaming into literal absolute nothingness and the suffering I experienced daily is like nothing else. I'm forced to do things I don't want to do just because I have no connection with anyone or ever have. no one sees me as human, and I don't feel human. I don't sleep, I can't thank, and social media is a flimsy way of being able to execute how devastating that actually is- but there's no other voice for us, small and as helpless as it might be.
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Відео

April 5, 2024
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April 5, 2024
neuroditergent
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neuroditergent
I only care because these people are so terrible and influence people to be terrible too
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I only care because these people are so terrible and influence people to be terrible too
where are the humans
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where are the humans
FUCK THE CORNY PATHETIC S*** PEOPLE DO TO BE SUCCESSFUL
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FUCK THE CORNY PATHETIC S PEOPLE DO TO BE SUCCESSFUL
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March 20, 2024
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March 20, 2024
March 20, 2024
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March 20, 2024
2 million on a divorce from an undeserving, stupid overly celebrated pig
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2 million on a divorce from an undeserving, stupid overly celebrated pig
I will go down with self-awareness and dignity
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I will go down with self-awareness and dignity
lifelong spiritual suffering like a terminal illness
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lifelong spiritual suffering like a terminal illness
March 16, 2024
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March 16, 2024
it's genuinely just sad at this point
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it's genuinely just sad at this point
we will never have authenticity at this rate, and mental health will suffer
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we will never have authenticity at this rate, and mental health will suffer
LMFAOOOO
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LMFAOOOO
My life advice from Instagram ♥️
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My life advice from Instagram ♥️
save me from this cattle country
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save me from this cattle country
prayers to be saved from this country and the people in it
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prayers to be saved from this country and the people in it
YOU WON'T TAKE AWAY MY SELF-ESTEEM NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY CELEBRITIES, YOU'VE TAKEN EVERYTHING
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YOU WON'T TAKE AWAY MY SELF-ESTEEM NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY CELEBRITIES, YOU'VE TAKEN EVERYTHING
CELEBRITY AND CONSUMER CULTURE IS THE ENEMY.YOU WILL BE FIGHTING IT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
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CELEBRITY AND CONSUMER CULTURE IS THE ENEMY.YOU WILL BE FIGHTING IT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
February 17, 2024
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February 17, 2024
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February 17, 2024
spiritual suffering
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spiritual suffering
February 11, 2024
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February 11, 2024
ad
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ad
FUCK AMERICA. FUCK YIY. I AM FUCMING HYTERTRICSLA ARE YOU FUCKING HEARING ME
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FUCK AMERICA. FUCK YIY. I AM FUCMING HYTERTRICSLA ARE YOU FUCKING HEARING ME
CELEBRITIES DON'T WANT YOU TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF OR ANYONE ELSE EITHER
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CELEBRITIES DON'T WANT YOU TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF OR ANYONE ELSE EITHER
Just because it's the way it's always been doesn't mean I can
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Just because it's the way it's always been doesn't mean I can
american lyrics.
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american lyrics.

КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @JamieMcsorley
    @JamieMcsorley 4 дні тому

    Nice lips

  • @georgetsiotsios3796
    @georgetsiotsios3796 24 дні тому

    We the people lost our character with these stupid phones n the internet We we're better people without it

  • @TheAcarch2
    @TheAcarch2 28 днів тому

    I'm thumbs-upping this, but it feels weird. Just keep moving. Time is the keeper.

  • @fernandosilva-en3iy
    @fernandosilva-en3iy 29 днів тому

    Let’s go for a walk by the beach….?

  • @zacherynicholascarter
    @zacherynicholascarter Місяць тому

    “This is an aesthetic century. In history, there are ages of reason and ages of spectacle, and it's important to know which you’re in. Our America, our internet, is not ancient Athens. It’s Rome. And your problem is you think you're in the forum, when you’re really in the circus.” - ContraPoints

  • @suzannecudden9048
    @suzannecudden9048 Місяць тому

    You are beautiful inside and out. Please don’t give up. Life is worth another chance. ❤

  • @Larryray-nz6vc
    @Larryray-nz6vc Місяць тому

    God bless you

  • @TheAcarch2
    @TheAcarch2 Місяць тому

    Love your style. And I also love to hear you rant. And I know nothing is going to change. Just do your thing, it's all that matters.

  • @Mister8Music
    @Mister8Music Місяць тому

    Hottie ❤

  • @Mister8Music
    @Mister8Music Місяць тому

    Try my music

  • @karlgoldberg9268
    @karlgoldberg9268 Місяць тому

    You hate these various celebrities yet have allowed them to live rent-free in your head as evidenced by the hours of video of you complaining about them. I don't even know what to say to be honest.

  • @Noblesavagemetalarts
    @Noblesavagemetalarts Місяць тому

    Have you ever heard of Kambô ? Has transformed my life !

  • @Mister8Music
    @Mister8Music Місяць тому

    😊

  • @rhodayackez9570
    @rhodayackez9570 Місяць тому

    You're so pretty when you're smiling.

  • @dinorockwell7670
    @dinorockwell7670 2 місяці тому

    Feed yourself good food, good words, and good thoughts.

  • @Typhoon792
    @Typhoon792 2 місяці тому

    Can we talk?

  • @seattlerain4444
    @seattlerain4444 2 місяці тому

    Absolutely beautiful. Thanks for sharing this. ( : 💚🍀🕊️

  • @Libertrinity
    @Libertrinity 2 місяці тому

    😂❤🎉ikeetmyrhea6😊

  • @seattlerain4444
    @seattlerain4444 2 місяці тому

    Girl....that is a beautiful. It's art. Absolutely love the colour, fabric, flow. Very nice. Good to see you smiling more and being even more confident in your very insightful thoughts as of late. You go girl ( : 💚🍀🕊️

  • @bluest1524
    @bluest1524 2 місяці тому

    Nice to see you smile now and then. I wish you wouldn't torment yourself with these negative thoughts. Your brain lies to you.

  • @bluest1524
    @bluest1524 2 місяці тому

    Society has not robbed from you the ability to marry and have children.

  • @bluest1524
    @bluest1524 2 місяці тому

    Volunteering would do you a lot of good. Work with animals. They need you, you need them.

  • @bluest1524
    @bluest1524 2 місяці тому

    What is the TikTok channel of Clarissa?

  • @TheAcarch2
    @TheAcarch2 2 місяці тому

    Thank you sister.

  • @MatrixMaster777
    @MatrixMaster777 2 місяці тому

    Wait, What Just Happened?

  • @TheAcarch2
    @TheAcarch2 2 місяці тому

    I love your rants. I’ve noticed the decline since the late 80s. It will bite them in the a$$ just watch.

  • @TheAcarch2
    @TheAcarch2 2 місяці тому

    Well I think you’re wonderful. I don’t care what anybody else thinks either.

  • @dnwalkingoneggshells
    @dnwalkingoneggshells 3 місяці тому

    I just got back from visiting family in Wyoming and it's given me a different perspective on life. maybe you need different perspective.

  • @udoschwarzer1847
    @udoschwarzer1847 3 місяці тому

    Danke schön Liebe Frau habe dich lieb lieb und lieb dich auch wenn ich dich vermisse Deutschland Nürnberg udo ja ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @JeffMcCoy-vr2uz
    @JeffMcCoy-vr2uz 3 місяці тому

    Everything you say is absolutely brilliant

  • @davidkellymitchell4747
    @davidkellymitchell4747 3 місяці тому

    I've been watching your videos and you do have legitimate rants and you're not mentally ill. You see the world as it really is. i'm 70 years old now and I can see a huge change in everything for the worse when I was 27. You reach a point when you realize nothing is gonna change. The world is on a collision course and we're along for the ride. When I was 24 I was traveling the world playing guitar for celebrities and most had severe issues. and they knew it. Life is a rough ride. At 55 I found myself with no family and living in a hospital fighting leukemia. I went on down a little further and had a medical bill over a million dollars for 5 months in the hospital. I couldn't begin to pay it and one night when I was just about dead from a 105 degree fever with zero white blood cells because the chemo destroyed them and all that was keeping me alive was the world's strongest antibiotics, 7 at once on the IV pole I just turned all my problems over to Jesus. I decided not to worry about nothing. I gave all my problem to him and the next morning the fever was gone and some generous soul I never met or got their name paid my total bill off at the hospital. Life just kept getting better from there. We can't change the world but we can change who we are with a little help from above.

  • @Schoolboner
    @Schoolboner 3 місяці тому

    It’s a dark reality we’re in

  • @robertforbes6502
    @robertforbes6502 3 місяці тому

    You have the absolute Best Hair, makes me think of Guinevere

  • @alterego157
    @alterego157 3 місяці тому

    Have you tried caring about someone else? Sometimes it's good to get out of your own head.

  • @KenlyPiilola-jd7dl
    @KenlyPiilola-jd7dl 3 місяці тому

    Ok

  • @Schoolboner
    @Schoolboner 3 місяці тому

    Yeah this reality literally seems like a trap. I was legitimately born into a trap and I don’t think any of us are going to make it. I don’t know how humanity got this far. I cant imagine humans ever having cohesion, or humans ever having actual empathy that so strong they’d die for the person standing next to them. This whole existence is just emotionally traumatizing since the day we are born up until the day we die and I have not had a moment of respite from the suffering that’s came over me since entering adulthood

  • @Typhoon792
    @Typhoon792 3 місяці тому

    Honestly, your rants and what you're saying is all anyone should be saying, answering to, and dealing with. Anyone who isn't talking about this is a p.o.s. or willfully ignorant.

  • @bellow_musicalpoetry
    @bellow_musicalpoetry 3 місяці тому

    This society is rotten to the core...superficial is what the masses demand, nobody wants to use their brain for anything useful. The ego-driven human condition is destroying everything that's good in the world. It's all about individualism, the 'hey, look at me and what I can do! give me some likes or I'll suffer an emotional breakdown' attitude of the world seems to be the only trouble many people are facing in the modern world, a world that is facing environmental collapse and that needs our urgent attention. But no, people only seem to care about how popular they are. The writing's on the wall.

  • @infamous-flex
    @infamous-flex 3 місяці тому

    Everyday people are doing exactly what you do get over what real people are going threw its not about u get over it

  • @bluest1524
    @bluest1524 3 місяці тому

    You are so young, and talented, and bright, and nice looking. WHY do you say it will never happen to you? You're going to be a classic case of someone who had it all and whose thinking held her down. You have to learn to believe in yourself and be more optimistic about yourself and your life. You are the author here. Please don't write a tragedy, because if that happens it will have been your design. Look at this, for one moment for me. You are a *very* young woman saying that having a child will "literally never happen to me". Don't you see how this is self--created? Why can't it happen for you!? Are you infertile? You can't talk to men? You'll do fine. *Change the story* lady. Change the script.

  • @aegisreflector2725
    @aegisreflector2725 3 місяці тому

    Try not to make comparisons, and try not to focus on things you can't control. It make look like another person has it all, but trust me, there is no escape from the pain of life. God has put us here for a glories reason, and we can only discover it when we have the strength to endure. Your life has meaning.

  • @Noblesavagemetalarts
    @Noblesavagemetalarts 3 місяці тому

    You should turn on your comments on new videos . So your listeners can express themselves also. Appreciate you

  • @davidcarr2649
    @davidcarr2649 3 місяці тому

    I would offer words of encouragement. I have tried in the past, but you're not like me. You're happy to not have my friendship? I'm fine with that. Maybe I should just unsubscribe?

  • @seattlerain4444
    @seattlerain4444 3 місяці тому

    Hey girl, good for you you tell em ! Always cheering you on ( : 💚🍀🕊️

    • @davidcarr2649
      @davidcarr2649 3 місяці тому

      I bet she's never shown any appreciation or acknowledgement of/for your efforts?

    • @swordsnorchids1997
      @swordsnorchids1997 3 місяці тому

      ​@@davidcarr2649Quit having para social relationships it's creepy and fake.

  • @leahmabe9231
    @leahmabe9231 3 місяці тому

    ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

  • @garzagotrucking3536
    @garzagotrucking3536 3 місяці тому

    I think you should do more videos without the filter and the dresses are a nice tease.

  • @bellow_musicalpoetry
    @bellow_musicalpoetry 3 місяці тому

    goto Jiddu Krishnamurti: crisis of consciousness

  • @garzagotrucking3536
    @garzagotrucking3536 3 місяці тому

    You are very pretty. You’re very smart too. Angry, but that will go away.

  • @infamous-flex
    @infamous-flex 3 місяці тому

    U need something more then social media it eating ur mind but i completely understand ur views

  • @garzagotrucking3536
    @garzagotrucking3536 3 місяці тому

    I like the red dress. Your hair is very long and pretty.