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Thank you natureasintended ! I really appreciate your support :)

gaining weight was the hardest part for me too and trusting was a process in and of itself. I got to a place where I was miserable enough that I had to just throw myself into recovery, which included weight restoration. From my experience and my research i truly believed that fruit is our ideal food, and that eating it in abundance was the only way to go and that it could only lead to my long-term health. Once i had made that decision (which of course came out of a place of feeling i deserved recovery, i.e. self love) and started eating unlimited calories, the weight gain didn't bother me. The tactile feeling of gaining had always been the hardest part of gaining for me (like your legs rubbing together), it used to make my skin crawl. But that didn't happen, and doesn't happen any more, as long as I am carbed up. I have had instances where I have gotten severely undercarbed and my negative thought patterning and tactile defensiveness flared up again. So 1. you have to value yourself--you life and your happiness, enough to commit to recovery and 2. you have to stay carbed-up so your brain can function properly so your sensory input doesn't go haywire (there are actually studies that show that people with EDs are more sensitive to tactile input, so we are not alone in that). and 3. know that i believe in you :) xo

Hannahsgotmelons thank you so much for your reply! It means so much and you really helped to put it in perspective for me! Still working on self love part i think! Thank you for shedding light on some new information re: sensory input and tactile. I enjoy learning new things. <3

It is my pleasure joey jojo jnr The self-love piece is definitely hard, but you can do it! xo

Hey thank you! Who is this? <3

Hannahsgotmelons notleau :)

I would assume that some lose weight straight away because they don't have metabolic damage....and others have years of it to undo. I know women who have been struggling with an eating disorder for 40+ years, they would probably not lose weight for at least a decade. Does that mean that they shouldn't eat all they care for? Does that mean that they should continue being miserable and restricting their calories? No, that's bs. I understand having doubts about this, Daniel, but you have to understand that the alternative to being fat and happy for a few years, for individuals with eating disorders, is to continue starving themselves. For us, this diet "working" has nothing to do with weight, and everything to do with finding peace and happiness with our bodies. The metabolism encompasses every system in the body, so before we lose weight, we see metabolic damage reversed when our hormones levels come up to normal (I got my period back after 8 years of not getting it naturally when i started eating unlimited; also got the levels confirmed with tests that I compared to my tests from years prior; we also usually experience an increase interest in, or just an interest in for the first time, sex). Metabolism also includes digestion. My digestion had all but stopped when I got to the end of my calorie restriction days, and within a week of eating unlimited from fruit was 90% better. Blood circulation is also a part of the metabolism. My hands and feet were always cold and would turn blue when i was sick. That has gone away and my body temperature regulates beautifully. So yes, metabolic damage is real, and yes it can be reversed, even if the results have nothing to do with weight :)

I am so happy my videos have been helpful :D I do have instagram! it is @hannahfruittree. Definitely connect with me on there! xo

thank you joey :) :) the night ended up going really well. No one even asked why i was eating a bag of grapes at the dinner table :P lol Definitely feeling more and more like there would be no point to trying to cover up....that would make my efforts in this life pointless..working towards nothing is not a good use of my energy and time!

YAY! Well done :D I think its pretty normal to feel how you were feeling but i think soon people will start to see how healthy and happy you are be like hey maybe i should eat more fruit too! Also if they do ask just say I'm vegan haha! Caring for animals, health and environment isn't strange..i think its admirable (maybe I'm a little biased tho). Grapes are so nice! i bought some the other day in Australia and they were so gross. Comeon summer!! HAHA. Did you find it hard to eat all fruit when you first started? I keep wanting to try going all raw but think i won't feel full at dinner.

thank you ***** !

Awe thank you Carol!! Your comment means the world to me :) I am so happy for you! That is so great that you took initiative and have found happiness with this abundant lifestyle. You are so strong and brave! Seeing others find peace like i have brings me so much joy and hope for the world. It can be hard with family at first, but all we can do is walk the walk and hope that they'll see the difference in our overall happiness and be happy for us. My family has had ups and downs with my veganism, my raw veganism, and then even my recovery on fruit, gaining weight eating this way confuses people a lot and for a while they were convinced i had diabetes :P lol all my love xoxo

Thank you NaturalACB :)

Yes! that is is ;)

Hi fashionspy96 :) I completely understand that you desire to want to lose weight the healthy way...and you're doing just what you need to do to get there! Eventually. That's really the catch, here: The only way to lose weight healthfully (ie without calorie restriction) is to be veeeerrrrrryyy patient. It may end up taking a few years to get down to the size your industry prefers. Your career goals and your health goals just may not be compatible :/ In the long run, I think they certainly can be. But in the mean time, if you truly want to lose weight in a healthy sustainable way, I would suggest taking care of yourself so you can make that happen and find another job to get you through until then. Find something else you love or are passionate about and focus on that and your health first. No one wants to be stuck struggling to meet a standard set for them by having to starve themselves! That's no way to live life! I wish you health and happiness xoxo

Well this certainly makes me sad.. Like VERY sad.. Actually the "few years" thing makes me wanna cry.. I mean.. Does that mean that while i'm eating this way i'm gonna be stuck in this fat chubby body for YEARS? I didn't even restrict for that long, it's not fair... Gosh this seriously makes me doubt everything.. And i don't even eat 3000 calories, i eat ablut 2000, sometimes a little more, some few times around 2800-3000.. I still i've gained a ton of inches (i don't really care about the weight though i know i've gained like 6-8kgs). I'm 18, i don't have time to lose.. Please tell me this will work.. Or actually if you think it's not, then say it too.. I'm not saying i need to get super lean by tomorrow, but i started in april, so it'd be ideal to start losing all this fat in march/april.. Gosh i'm so fucking worried i'm just gaining weight that i'll have to work my ass out to lose (by going back to "the balanced diet"). After all, i don't know any real model who's rt4 and lean and actually working

It is possible that it will take years, but if you haven't restricted for very long then it's also possible it will only take about 1 year, or less. It varies so much for everyone. The pattern i've seen is 3 months of being at a higher weight for every year of restriction. I restricted for 8 years, so i don't expect to see anything change at all for at least 2 years. Which at first would have sounded like a long time for me, but it has gone by so fast! I am already at the 1.5 year mark in my recovery. Also, once I started eating enough, the amount of time it would take me to shed the excess stopped being important, because I was so HAPPY! I honestly wouldn't mind if i stayed this weight for the rest of my life because my mental state is just so much better and now that is all that matters. My unhealthy relationship with food and my body had taken over my life and by the time I gave up calorie restriction I was too miserable to care about gaining weight. Girl 18 is young! I know that models typically retire in their early 20s, but I think that freelee could easily model and she is in her early 30s. Not that we will all end up looking like freelee, or that we should, but just as a reference. And she started when she was i think 26, AND she (it sounds like) had a much more abusive health history than you. Really the bottom line is that, it is entirely possible that you will shed weight and be model lean within the time range you want, but should that really be the deciding factor in whether you start nourishing yourself the best way you know how? Your health and happiness should come first! I know it is hard to do, and i probably wouldn't have done it if i hadn't exhausted all of my other options first. I kept trying to restrict for 8 years (and 2.5 of those years were with 811, it doesn't work!), and finally realized it wouldn't bring me happiness. So you could choose to keep restricting and one day end up at the same cross-roads i did...but then you have that many more years of damage to undo. I have always been someone who has to learn and make mistakes myself before I will modify my behavior, so I don't know if I would have changed any sooner than I did--but don't make the same mistake I did! start taking care of yourself now! don't wait until you're miserable and your body is falling apart. You are worth more than that <3

Thanks.. last sunday i talked with my parents for like 5 hours, and they actually have some arguments that show, meaning that i ACTUALLY gained 10 kgs (22 pounds) in just 5 months on 80 10 10! (not meaning fully raw, just those ratios), and eating low fat high carb and around 2000 cals. Another thing that they keep saying is that i have "fat gens" from my dad's side, so it's pretty unlikely that i'll get lean without restricting some calories (he tells me about 1500), and idk.. i'm doubting A LOT.. because i've gained a LOT of weight in a really shor period of time, and i don't want my skin to strech so much, nor to deform myself and suffer in the summer (which btw is right around the fucking corner)

Hi fashionspy96, sorry it took me so long to reply! it's been a long week! I believe you, you that you gained weight! I did too, and I expect MOST of us to gain weight in the beginning, because most of us have restricted, to some extent, in the past. I gained a lot of weight in a very short period of time as well--about 30 pounds in 8 months! about twice what you have for the time allotment. I honestly don't believe in "fat genes". Of course, everyone has a different body type, but i believe we can all heal our metabolisms to function efficiently, and help us reach our "ideal" weight once our bodies are healthy and consistently well-fed. I really implore you to think about your long term health and happiness! and weight for that matter! If i had quit calorie restricting earlier (i ate 801010 while undereating for 2.5 years before finally letting that habit go!), I would probably already have lost any healing weight i am carrying! Don't put your short term goals like bikini season take away from your future health! don't create MORE metabolic damage for yourself to undo down the line! if what you are worried about is having to wait for the weight to come off, you are only making that lag time longer by continuing to restrict! I just made a video inspired by our exchanges, hope you find it helpful xoxo

Wow thank you so much AnneSoFruits ! I really appreciate the compliment. I am so happy that what I'm trying to get across is resonating with some of you guys! all my love <3

You deserve it! <3

Aw thank you Joey! I love you! and i so appreciate all of your support :) I know the chest pains were really terrifying. There were times when i was so feeling so lost to my disorder that they wouldn't really scare me anymore because i just figured that i would inevitably drop dead one day, so i would just daydream/wonder about what dramatic way that would take place, how i would be remembered, etc. It sounds totally insane now, that i had romanticized my "broken"-ness to that point.

thank you ScottieDOESknow ! yes, health is first <3 !!

aw thank you sean! I miss you and hope all is well in Thailand!! ps. i love you videos! xoxo

I will! that is a great idea! When I start a new plate I will show everything from step one :) I'm glad someone is interested in seeing this!! <3

I know every time i would play it back while editing it to see if it flowed well i would have a hard time stopping it so i could edit again, i just wanted to listen to the whole song lol. and i feel ya on the making videos! thankfully i took a video editing studio class in undergrad, but the software i have on my comp was completely different, so i had to teach myself aaaaallllll day yesterday...well all afternoon, it took me the whole first half of the day to get the damn watermelon and film myself eating it, lol

yes, HUGE! i've seen them live twice :) yay, i love finding fruities that i have shared musical interests with!

Thank you Fran! Crazy how things change when we get healthy! I am glad others can relate <3 <3 ps. i've subscribed to your channels just in case you decide to start making videos ;)

Hannah, you beautiful woman....it is on the horizon for sure! Have a blessed day over there stepping into this next phase x