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YWNBAM, you aren't a man will never be one and please don't hurt yourself sister

I am going through this. Its really hard. I dont know what life looks like without my partner. Its the most serious relationship and love ive ever known, yet Im a lesbian.

Thank you for sharing. Now going through this myself and it's nice to feel I'm not alone ❤

Ps you live in Florida I know a few lonely bu beautiful lesbians but there 27 and 36 Tina's in her 40s and is lesbian but never been out with another woman she's gorgeous and so alone tried to get me I truly love my Shawna don't cheat I will marry her sorry you can delete me sweetheart jenn.❤

I feel for your husband

Interested on how things pan out .Also how you husband gets through this . His world must be completely trashed.

Keep up the good work! Please make more videos!

I think that you are incredibly brave. You will get through it. I look forward to seeing your journey. Look after no 1 first. You ❤❤❤

We miss you Simon!!!

I just saw your other video and I was hoping for an update!!!

I hope you’re doing better now 🫂 I really wish you the best

Driving my car, weeping. very moving. And you’re doing something I can never do which is to talk about a major event like that while it’s happening.

I’ve always had moments where I wanted to be a boy. Never really looked into trans because I’m fine with being a woman yet have also had bouts of thinking I was a man and cat fishing as one but that’s because what I wanted to do with women were only okay if I was a man. I even thought I was Michael Jackson… and felt like I connected more with men. I’m glad I can be more fluid in my gender expression now. Hearing your story is inspiring. And I admire your bravery.

You guys probably don't have kids, otherwise I guess you would've mentioned it, but yeah, the situation can be even weirder and harder to resolve. Here's my experience - unlike you, I WAS a rebel, I knew I was gay at 15 when I fell in love with a girl from class, but my generation had t.A.T.u.and All The Things She Said, from Russia with (lesbian,illicit, teenage) love...so YEAH, REPRESENTATION MATTERS and also knowing you are NORMAL as a gay person, and not a DEVIANT. Therapy helped me realize that because I was on the verge of taking my own life, outed by my sister to my mom (read my texts) and my whole family turned their backs on me (I was 16 and the youngest of 5) fast forward to me aged 32, having been exclusively with women all my life, having been engaged to a woman, but that relationship ended, I met the coolest man ever (WHO TREATED ME WELL) and at first we were friends, but we fell in love and decided to have a child together...maybe subconsciously we thought it was our only chance at a family...but we got 2 kids at once, twin boys and I just became a mom, it was my whole life...but as a.wife to a man, I became dissatisfied and realized I never belonged with a man and I was...a) fooling myself, b) making my parents happy by giving them grandkids, c) entered too quickly into a relationship after having had my heart broken into a million pieces by a woman I thought I was gonna marry and...so many more reasons...life is funny sometimes and you can surprise yourself. I fell in love with his mind and his soul,not his body, but what I need now honestly is a divorce,he won't give it to me and my.kids are only 3 and I don't want to destabilize them by being selfish in my own needs...so yeah, it could be worse and yeah, sometimes it's hard to know why we do the things we do. It takes a lot of MENTAL work, as you said, and a LOT of patience. Hope this comment also helps someone who is in a similar jam 💙

I would love to read your book Simon!

Im glad the masterdoc helped you self reflect but i woule like to point out its not called the masterdoc because of some scientific committee deemed it so. Its the workings of a kid on tumblr thats been added onto. Self reflection is cool, and the doc can be a good mirror for that self reflection but its not been vetted, y'know?

I totally respect you. I am gay and my wife of 51 years was very accepting. I cared for her with MS for 26 years before she passed. I am now free to be the gay man I always was. Too old to look for a husband now. I am 77. Trust you are able to work your way through this difficult situation. I support you with whatever decision you make.

Simon❤ Thanks for your posting! Being a late bloomer myself, I find your video very valuable. There are some significant differences and some similarities between yours and my story. I do, after three years and at the age of 55! Yes! Fiftyfive! recognize that I am a homosexual. My wife doesn’t know (yet). But I’ve only recognized this for the last year. There were fewer signs of my sexual orientation in youth and later. I never had a crush on boys. Early signs are that I loved, ever since the age of 11, wearing pantyhoses. That continued until the pandemic. During the pandemic, I discovered I had testicle cancer. I am now cancer free, but one of my testicles was removed. Testicles are the source of testosterone production. I seriously do not know if this was the turning point, but after my testicle removal, my emotions went bananas. Pre-cancer, I was a fairly macho guy showing no feelings. Suddenly I had these emotional outbursts. Just recently my wife and I watched «disobidience», the lesbian romance. While my wife thought of it as good and moving, I literally drowned in tears. Also, my cross dressing habits incresed. Now I wear female underwear, dresses, makeup. I am so lucky to go on business twice a year to Paris. There is a store there, Shoesissime, which sells large size womens shoes. I have bought pumps and heel sandals. I wander if the lack of testosterone makes me more true with my inner self. I don’t know really. Over the last few years, my attraction to men has grown to the extent that I consider myself a homosexual, even if I’ve haven’t had sex with men. Yet. But I plan to. My problem is somewhat the same as yours. I love my wife. But it’s not fair to her, how we live now. My fear is not coming out. It is about explaining why I come out at the age of 55! Did I deceive her? Well, not conciously. I am not sure what path I am choosing. But at least I am in peace with myself that I am a homosexual. Me deceiving my wife or not, however, is an entirely other question. Since I love her I don’t want her to leave. At the same time, I cannot hold on to her because that wouldn’t be honest of me. She deserves better. At the same time, I really would be sure by experiencing sex with another man. Oh… life is not easy. Anyway… I wish you all the best and I hope you find your soulmate and ultimate love. ❤❤❤

Ive just added comment to your first video what a big change im so happy for you my mum beat me from the age of 8 to 13 recently she said i changed when i was 13 and ive realised it was at the same time as i had my first crush on a man i cant remember what happened when i was 8 she did encourage me to dress up as a boy when i was 10 i dont remember why but thats when the beatings got worse both of these videos have helped me sooo much i really hope you realise what a big impact your videos are making xxx

You have gone through exactly what i am now you described my gay journey throughout life perfectly i cant believe someone has had almost exactly the same journey as me we even look alike when im ready too i will send this video to the people i love thank you so much this has made a BIG difference to my life all the best xxx

Thank you for this voice, even though I have been aware of myself since I was 12 years old and I consciously chose the path of being true to myself and I have been doing these little daily coming outs for years - such voices are very important and I appreciate them. Because they prove that being gay is not "choosing a comfortable path because you don't want to try for a man" but we are born with it and that's it :)

I am 59 I was married to a man for 20 years, I have been divorced for 21 years and have been alone all those years. I just came out this year only 4 people know. It's been hard making lesbian friends. I live in a rural area which make it even harder. I have been talking to people on Facebook right now just friends because I have no clue what I am doing. Hope everything works out for you.

Wishing you well in your new life and moving on not living your real self . To hell with others opinions about what and how you should think and be as live is very short and you anyone are responsible for directing your direction of happiness . Offering a little love and hope for your continued happiness. ❤

I’m reading this in 2024. 3 years after posting. So courageous. I hope your life has worked out for you and that you e found strength and happiness fueled by your admirable faith in yourself.

Ur video just pop up again! I dont remember how i first found that video of u coming out but it was in the same week u posted. Im glad u finding ur truth

More power to you dear

I'm a 61 year old woman just discovering I'm lesbian and I had 10 years of marriage with a guy who decided he was gay but through therapy it came out for me and I know I need to be with another woman but at this point I'm 1/2 way out the door trying to put the struggle behind me. I had a very hard time accepting he was gay but that was back in 2007.

Ok so i just watched your comming out as gay video. I had no idea at the time you were also trans. We are now almost 2yrs past covid. I started my transition just before Covid and my journey was similar to yours. Lost my spouse, but i still love her very much. Anyway I feel your pain, and I'm glad your still here.

I wounder how many of us came out during Covid and lost our marriage? Also I totally understand how you love your husband and hate hurting him with this truth that you can't deny about yourself. I had the same experience. My spouse didn't take it well. She's better now, but it was a very hard time for both of us. Hugs.

I'm grateful that I found your channel. I'm so glad you found yourself.

6:15 this sparked a memory, and a realization that why I broke down upon finding out that an old classmate had passed away. She was my first crush, she was so nice to me and she taught me how to use the monkey bars. I adored her 🥺

Thank you for sharing this. ❤

Ew, gay.

You do not give me trans vibes and I would caution you from applying medical changes on yourself that are irreversible and can cause massive changes. Your mannerism and way of reacting to life are still profoundly female/feminine. If you have problems with yourself, changing your body won't solve that, it will just create new problems. My advice (from someone who went through something similar) is to focus on other things, some productive things that can improve your life. Improve your mental health by doing some real therapy (instead of the fake postmodernist one) and taking medicine for mental issues. Right now you are looking a lot for people to give you stuff, but if you change your paradigm and focus on giving and being grateful for things you do have,it will really improve your life. Regardless, the point of living is to live and not really to be happy. You say you are ok now, but you clearly aren't because you're still looking for something, going online to tell everyone your story. You can't accept nobody cares as much as you do...

I like your videos because you are sincere..

thank you for sharing <3

And then you made the video "I WAS WRONG: Coming out AGAIN after thinking I was a Lesbian and Leaving Mormonism"...

Do you have Instagram? Can i follow you somwhere?

Hey, im sixteen and I feel that your experiences with men really match mine, which grounds me in my belief that I'm actually a lesbian, too. I've always had these men friends that I really loved and cared for, so I took that as an obvious sign of me liking them (=being hetero). But every time they eventually made a move in the romantic direction, i felt so out of place and sad that I might loose them, if I don't try to conform to their vision of our relationship. I just never had this experience of such close friendship between a man and a woman, nor did I see any representation of it in media. All I'm trying to say is that it really hit hard when you said that your husband is the most important person in your life, and as that is, in my opinion similar to my experiences, I feel so seen.

Thank you for the videos. I am in counseling now and planning to comming out. I have worked through attractions and feelings also. I am a gay man and had feelings from early grade school. I descovered CPTSD and did a 20 questionare on it and scored 18 out of 20. I will be comming out because I will not live the remainder of my life "pretending" or in a church pretending that GOd will work it out. I'm telling myselff I will NEVER go back. Only forward.

What in the world happened? You used to be a cute woman now you're.... Wow....

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. All my love to you. I hope you continue to enjoy meeting yourself. ❤

It's the feelings that pop up that I stuff down and then it becomes automatic. And then when you finally feel safe to feel the feelings, you can actually acknowledge the instant attraction you feel. It wasn't ever safe to be gay growing up. It's sad.

Sorry for the strife in your life. It’s amazing that you chose to be brave and authentic despite that strife. I hope for better days ahead for you. The angry, hurtful voices might be loud, but love conquers all.

This is just proof women are easily influenced by societal trends. I rest my case.

If you had lived in your truth as a teenager, you wouldn't have had a husband and he wouldn't have been lied to.

Congratulations. I admire your courage your love & respect for yourself. I wish you TRUE Love and happiness. Now it is time for you to have a beautiful life.

💯 Bothness > duality Bothness is the ALL in the ONE.

I'm glad you put yourself first. Im sure you'll find an amazing woman who will treat you 10x better than your former partners.

I’m so happy for you, and it’s so wonderful to hear that you feel so hopeful for the future. I don’t think I’ve ever commented but I’ve been following your journey since you started posting. I found your videos when I was coming to terms with being queer myself. I now have an incredible partner, and this year we moved in together! I feel like I’m still in the middle of figuring out my gender, but your hope gives me hope! Thank you for sharing your story ❤