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The Great Reveal
Приєднався 3 тра 2024
This is my unmasking diary as I suspect I am autistic and have ADHD. These video entries are about how I am making sense of the whole complex and emotional unmasking process. My son is autistic/ADHD and my daughter is ADHD, and my husband is ADHD. I also have many diagnosed relatives who are autistic/ADHD. Neurodivergent people are the norm in my family but it was a school friend who was the person that really made me think that I was autistic after she was diagnosed as autistic (because of course I will not listen to those closest to me! Lol!)
Currently trying to make sense of it all and I hope these ramblings and videos are helpful to others who are trying to understand decades of masking.
Thank you to everyone who has subscribed and especially to those who have shared their experiences too.
Currently trying to make sense of it all and I hope these ramblings and videos are helpful to others who are trying to understand decades of masking.
Thank you to everyone who has subscribed and especially to those who have shared their experiences too.
The pressure of Christmas - Unmasking Autism and ADHD
Wishing everyone a very merry Christmas season and also to say isn't the pressure of Christmas just exhausting?
Hello Overwhelm my old friend 🤪
Thank you for watching!
Hello Overwhelm my old friend 🤪
Thank you for watching!
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Masking to feel safe - Unmasking Autism and ADHD
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It's no big moment of realisation that masking is to do with safety, but as I continue on this masking journey and talk more and more to those who are diagnosed or identify as autistic/ADHD, it still saddens me how much it is to do with safety. I reference Dr Mona Delahooke in this, she does such excellent work, Google her and check out her socials and books. Oh and apologies for my son shoutin...
Who is behind the steering wheel in my ND car? - Unmasking Autism and ADHD
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Having spent some time with family lately and us all realising how ND people are the norm in our family, it led to the conversations of "which neurodivergent traits are mostly driving your car?" We all seem to be both autistic and ADHD, which isn't a surprise as that's what most of our kids are diagnosed, but it does feel like one is more prominent than the other. I like how my car is driven, i...
Masked for so long that I got ill - unmasking Autism and ADHD
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Thanks for checking in with me. I have had a bit of a break but it's because I have been recovering. I went into deep and heavy masking when travelling and got quite ill as a result. I'm still learning to put in the accomodations and adjustments I need, and often the automatic masking just happens. Which it did and I got ill as payback. Onwards on the journey, I guess. Thank you so much for the...
When my daughter said she was "too much" for her friends - Unmasking Autism and ADHD
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Two videos in a week! I'll be hiding under my duvet for the next few days! Lol! However, I'm very grateful that my daughter can share her worries with me. I didn't have that as a teenager and it had a lifelong negative impact. But it was hard to hear her saying the very words that I said in my head as a teenager. I hope these videos at the very least build more awareness through the act of shar...
Looking at my past through the lens of autism...Part 1 of 'for the rest of my life!'
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I've been doing this since the suggestion of autism was put in my brain and more and more makes sense. I know I'll be sieving through all the memories for the rest of my life and trying to understand 'was that autism or not?' I may never get an answer on some of them but overall there is a theme of getting things wrong, feeling awkward and not part of what is happening, and generally feeling sh...
What happens when you can't mask anymore? - Unmasking Autism and ADHD
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I have reached a point where it is hard to mask to the level I once did and the result is that I am feeling lost. It feels like I have to learn new rules. Maybe I don't and I'm just sitting in a place of anxiety, but this unmasking process is a rollercoaster, and I am learning more about myself than I expected. I have gone to such levels to mask my autism and ADHD that it has created a false ex...
Terrified of being labelled - Autism/ADHD Unmasking
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I am working for a more inclusive society for autistic people and those with ADHD but I'm terrified of labelling myself at the same time. There's such a conflict that is happening from years of trying to fit in. I am so early in my journey. Thank you so much for watching, commenting and just being supportive ❤️
Recovery after heavy duty masking - Unmasking Autism and ADHD
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Learning to give myself permission to recover after a tough day of masking is not natural. I have to work at it and I give myself such a hard time. But recovery is needed more than ever as the alternative is getting really ill. Thank you so much for watching my videos and thank you for commenting!
Always feeling wrong - Autism Unmasking
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I almost re-recorded this video because of mistakes I felt I had made, but that was the whole point of this video = constantly feeling like I am getting it wrong. So I didn't re-record and I have posted it up in all it's glory! I'm so worn out by feeling like I am always getting it wrong in pretty much everything I do. This invisible marker I set myself against. Another big part of the unmaskin...
5 things about being a mum who is autistic - Unmasking my Autism
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Being an autistic mum has its challenges! It has a lot of good things and mostly a lot of revelations about the early years of my parenting now that I know I am autistic. I love my kids, I say that wholeheartedly, they are everything. But....being an autistic mum to an autistic child is not easy as many autistic parents will understand. I hope this helps someone else out there, it helped me a l...
Catastrophising! Autism Unmasking
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The feeling of dread as I catastrophise is exhausting and affects me physically, mentally, and emotionally. Having done this my whole life, it is only as an adult who is in the process of unmasking my autism that I realise that this is part of who I am. A very recent situation caused me to spiral down quickly. Thank you so so much for watching and commenting!
Mirroring accents in autism - Unmasking my autism
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As I learn more about what I do when I mask my autism, I am learning that I can't help myself but mirror accents! Thank you for watching and commenting! This is a shorter and less intense video for a change!
Public transport meltdown/shutdown - Autism unmasking
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I don't often use public transport as I find it overwhelming. Since actively unmasking I have become more aware of what is going on for me and today I realised just how tilted public transport can be for me. Perhaps today was an exceptional experience and I was just unlucky, or maybe this is exactly how I have felt many times before but only now I am able to make sense of it. Going to need a be...
Masking with smiling - Unmasking my Autism
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Smiling to mask my autism and anxiety is something I have always done, even as a child. I am realising that it is not actually helping me and its a hard one to address because I am so conditioned into smiling whenever I am in a new situation or awkward situation and I want people to think that I am ok and coping. But I think now it's just a manic grin and having the opposite effect! We're still...
Sleep (deprivation) and Autism - Unmasking Autism
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Sleep (deprivation) and Autism - Unmasking Autism
Autism and ADHD: it's complicated - Unmasking my Autism
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Autism and ADHD: it's complicated - Unmasking my Autism
Pretending to be someone I am not - Unmasking my Autism
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Pretending to be someone I am not - Unmasking my Autism
Too many people! Crowds and overwhelm - Autism unmasking
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Too many people! Crowds and overwhelm - Autism unmasking
Masking my anxiety at eating in public - Unmasking my autism
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Masking my anxiety at eating in public - Unmasking my autism
Arghh...Awkward Social Interactions - Unmasking my Autism
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Arghh...Awkward Social Interactions - Unmasking my Autism
The hardest part of unmasking my autism so far....!
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The hardest part of unmasking my autism so far....!
Do our autistic sensory profiles change as we get older?
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Do our autistic sensory profiles change as we get older?
Transition periods and autism making me feel sick...
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Transition periods and autism making me feel sick...
Recovery time after big moments - Autism Unmasking
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Recovery time after big moments - Autism Unmasking
Pain and reaction to pain - Unmasking my autism
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Pain and reaction to pain - Unmasking my autism
Am I Control Freak? Unmasking Autism
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Am I Control Freak? Unmasking Autism
3 things I've noticed since I begun to unmask my autism
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3 things I've noticed since I begun to unmask my autism
As the autism mask falls...unexpected experiences - does anyone else have these?
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As the autism mask falls...unexpected experiences - does anyone else have these?