i’m so sorry 🥺. it’s so frustrating when you care so deeply for everyone that matters to you but when you just need someone you seem to be invisible. i wish people were more considerate
this is such an unfortunate truth. consideration is the one of the highest forms of love and if you can cover that you'll cover all grounds, I just wish people had an understanding of that 🫂
im so sorry Luna - just a reminder that you wouldn't be the Snow Queen if people didn't believe you were capable or that YOU didn't believe you were capable. You are doing amazing and I wish you the best of luck and love ♥♥
*betterhelp was the worst therapy experience i've ever had. they broke HIPAA laws multiple times & literally had to refund me about a THOUSAND dollars for how horrific the experiences were. traumatizing.*
Honestly I never understood how betterhelp could be a serious therapy platform. They also sponsor religious fundamentals, who mention in their videos that betterhelp also has religious therapists available (christian in the one I have seen). And don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with being religious and not every christian is toxic, but these specific fundamentals are! And it really worries me when I see their values (women only being homemakers, childbearers, husband head of the home etc) and they talk about how on betterhelp you can also find a therapist who bases their values solely on the bible! I can't imagine having a person with church trauma try therapy only to be taught the same old stuff again. It honestly worries me.
@@musich1024 I'm in school to become a licensed counselor. I can understand where you are coming from, but people need to find others with whom they can connect through their life perspectives. There are people out there who are religious themselves and looking for a therapist with a similar background so they can understand them. We are all people at the end of the day, so seeking a therapist who fits your values is important. It is wonderful that they advertise this so you know before becoming their client.
I’m sorry the fouettés have been causing so much stress! I was guest dancing in nutcrackers in my early 20s and it was a VERY stressful time in general. You’ll come out the other side stronger, more well rounded and more mature than your non-dancer/ nonartist peers…I can confirm that the 30s are WONDERFUL. You’re a tremendous turner and of course fourttes are hard when we’re on our periods…our center of mass and balance totally changes. 🧡
hey girl 🙋♀️i’m a physiotherapist that works with athletes and dancers and regarding you feeling that you are weak in your fouette standing leg, you could probably benefit from some strengthning training - Bulgarians - Single leg squat - Heel raises in passé (aim for 30 reps) - Clam shell If you can add some weights and you’ll see a real difference. I’ve seen this do wonders so i hope this helps
@@Sophia-fw3it yes and no. A pistol squat is ass to the ground - opposite leg straight out in front so it is a single leg squat but in s specific form. A single leg squat is just a single leg squat nothing more...
@@Sophia-fw3it a pistol squat is kinda of an advanced version of the SL squat. I would start by doing a SL squat to a chair/box (which can be as high as you can manage at this time) with a dumbbell held to your chest. And then progress in depth of your squat Hope that helps!
That feeling of being everyone's light and not getting that energy in return is so real. It took me many years to learn to be selfish. Learning to set boundaries and to say no will change your life. In those tough moments you have to remember you are doing this for Luna. I hope the rest of the nutcracker season treats you well ❤
the minute 4 breakdown I so connected to that. love you luna bc I literally feel like your friend as weird as that sounds. I literally aspire to be like you
the level of resilience you have to have with her mindset is insane and makes me feel like I can be doing more myself. Especially not letting a bad week define you. Much respect to you. So tough.
Luna, I'm 38, supposedly a mature woman, but still going through the motions. If it helps you at all, your videos make me feel better and I'm grateful for how much you put yourself out there on UA-cam.
Don’t be so tough on yourself love. Your literally an amazing dancer, it’s unreal. 90% of people can’t do anything near what you do. I’m so sorry you’re going thru a tough time hun. October was a cursed month, I feel you on that.
How you were crying in your car, saying you never receive the love that you put out. I’ve been there way too many times and I’ve learned to not be around those people anymore. I stick to my husband, he’s the only one in my life that has given me 100% what I’ve given him. I don’t care about anyone else anymore
i definitely feel you when it comes to shedding light to others but no reciprocation from others into your life. be that light that you give to others for yourself and be your own friend in those times of need
Watching you in the car talking about how much you give and how little you receive hit my heart so hard. I feel the same way. My mother isn’t empathetic at all and doesn’t understand what it’s like to suffer with anxiety and depression (which I have. Not projecting on you.) My husband doesn’t even understand why I can’t just “be happy.” My son is 20 and at the age where he is an adult but still a child, so he doesn’t ever ask me about my day or emotional state. My friends are all much younger than I am and have young children, so it is hard to get together with them, but they do try to be there for me when they can. Your raw emotion just hit me and made me cry and made me feel like I wasn’t really alone after all. Thank you, Luna. You’re living my ballerina childhood dream and I so love watching you dance and your life. Much light and love.
i COMPLETELY resonate with what you’re feeling right now, and the feelings of loneliness. it’s comforting to know that people are going through the same things and that you’re never truly totally alone🌟
I feel the exact same way when it comes to putting all your love and effort into friends that just don’t reciprocate that feeling, which is so so so hard. But the important thing is that you know how amazing you are and maybe shed that light toward yourself more. ❤ It’s hard sometimes, but just be so confident in your amazing heart, and I PROMISE that someday, a person is going to notice and hug that with all their might. 💌
I completely sympathise with the shoe issue. I had a similar thing with an oboe exam decades ago. Simply could not get a monstrous piece of Bach that was full of runs. Teacher handed me her oboe and said to play it on that. Nailed it first time. It was the instrument. Sometimes it is genuinely the equipment. I wasn’t going to be a good enough player in time for the exam to be able to make that machinery play that music. Ironically I can play it no problem on the baroque oboe, which has none of this key work that is supposed to help us. So much for progress! It was so good to see you take your self in hand, get some perspective and keep smiling through this video. So proud of you.
the part where she was talking about how she was giving her everything for others and was t getting it back made me feel so heard. i’m 14 and i’ve struggled with this since i was about 10 and i feel like everyone around me has so many people that care and love on them and i can’t seem to find that person for me. i am so nice and i am always there if someone needs to talk but when im struggling no one is there. thank you so much for talking about this it made me feel less alone and i really needed that
Ballet is so so so hard and it can be easy to get wrapped up in the one little thing that doesn't work! But believe me when I say Luna you are SUCH a beautiful and strong dancer in so many ways and I look up to you both as a dancer and as the wonderful human you are 💖
hey luna, im so sorry for what you've been going through and I can totally relate. Im only a teenager but i've never felt so lonely in my life. It feels like I shed all my light towards people but in return I get absolutely nothing, not even recognition of existence. moreover, i also do ballet and august-october was possibly the WORST months of my entire life. fighting with body image, mental blocks, feeling like nothing is working technically is absolutely draining. I promise you though, it DOES get better!!! I have been watching you for years and admire you so much
I wish you could see your dancing through our eyes, it is absolutely beautiful and brings me so much joy to watch. You only fail if you don’t try. You’re always trying your hardest and you’ll get there or do something differently and the dance will still be a masterpiece ❤
I hear you. I see you. My advice: go dance in a completely different style. Reset the joy meter. Go get refit. There are so many ways to customize Blochs, if those are your jam. Remember, when you are training well, it might not be you; it might be the shoe. As someone who has gone through this exact struggle, and more beyond- (bed bound and 140# heavier to back to dancing and teaching!) you can do anything you set your mind to. Shine on Luna.
Luna, you are an inspiration genuinely. I’ve been watching your for years, almost my entire ballet journey. I’m a senior in high school now getting ready for nutcracker. I’m rehearsing for Arabian and I totally get the crying in my car after rehearsal. Literally happened to me last week. As bad as it sounds hearing about your struggles made me feel so seen as a dancer. Things will get better! Just know your such an inspiration.
Thank you, Luna!!!! Today was my performance day and before going on stage, I watched your video. I was feeling unsure because some steps werent perfect yet. But after seeing you push through and do your fouettés, I told myself "If she can do it, I will try as well!!!" And it worked! I also really felt what you said in the car about always being there for others but feeling like no one is there for you when you need them. I’ve been through that too, and it’s such a hard feeling. I hope things get better for you soon. ❤🩹You’re so strong and inspire so many people, including me. Thank you for being so real and sharing your journey.
I so feel you on giving so much to others and not getting it back. I don’t dance anymore but I’m a teacher going through the same feelings with my job. I cried right after I dropped my students off at the bus. Wishing for future successful rehearsals.
Change your pointe shoes by upgrading and take the fouettés as 4 blocks of 4 or 8 blocks of 2 rather than a set of 16. Much love and a virtual hug from the UK.
luna, i understand that you’re going through a hard time. i really relate to the emotions you’re expressing, more than you know. however, PLEASE know that MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY i think about what my “dream life” looks like, and your channel ALWAYS comes to mind! your solitary life is exactly what i long for. i know that it feels lonely sometimes, i really get that. i wish you love and support. but please know even in your lowest moments, you just sharing your life is an inspiration for so many. i’m wishing you love, peace, joy, happiness, success, comfort, and support ❤
I’m glad you posted this video instead of hiding your feelings. I’m sorry that you’ve been going through this. I also had a terrible week and ended up getting fired from my job. I feel terrible about myself and feel lonely as well. It was comforting to see I’m not the only person going it through it this week. Also, I know you will do great as Snow Queen!
i so feel you. keeping your childhood hobby in your 20s is going to be heartbreaking a lot of the times🥺 i keep asking myself why the f*** am i still doing this at 24 if i still suck? But then remember it's only a bad day maybe i need the challenge to improve. keep positive as much as you can🫶🏻
you’re not alone with feeling like this Luna. i assure you, the people willing to reciprocate the care and comfort you give to other are out there, and you will find them, they just haven’t found you yet. stay strong girl :) you’re one of my biggest inspirations as an aspiring dancer and teenage girl and you are not alone.
Imagine feeling all of this but also struggling with money… that’s what I’m going through. So don’t worry I understand how you feel and what you’re going through
Honestly I relate. I’m 23 and swear that this year and last year have been some of the worst years of my life. I thought this was supposed to be such a fun time, but I legit have no friends and am at a sucky job. No fun. You are definitely not alone
Thanks very much "Luna" for all your honest openness. I appreciate all your feelings that you've experienced lately. Because I "Was" supposed to participate in a Zumbathon for Pancreatic Cancer on Fri. Nov.1st. I rehearsed the Dances several times with the Zumba Instructor and another participant. I even went over Ballet classes for Goodness Sake. So, the Funding for my transportation arrived too late for me to attend the Zumbathon that day! The Feelings of letting down your fellow teammates is devastating. Maybe, they forgot already? But i''m having a hard time and experiencing much embarrassment, over this failure to show up. And on top of all that Mess, there may be a Mass Transit Strike at any moment. Which will make it impossible to attend any Ballet or Zumba Dances. And these are invaluable to me! Well, at least one good thing happened from all this. I made the Contribution for the Event, months in advance. Thanks again, for all your Wonderful Videos.
Luna, I totally feel you with your feelings of loneliness and not having your light reciprocated! I am also 23, and involved in professional athletics (SCUBA... very different from ballet but still lol), and those two factors combined can be a nightmare. I'm glad you're talking it out with a therapist and maintaining a mindset of growth and healing! My main reason for posting this comment is to say that you are an incredibly wonderful and natural teacher! Watching that last scene with you and the latte girls was amazing. The direction you give is clear and digestible while still being ACTUALLY helpful. You are encouraging, give them agency, and use kind words to inspire them. Those girls (and any others you are around) are so lucky to have you as a role model in both dance and life!! Keep that in mind... you have a gift in both dance and teaching, which is so so special. Never doubt yourself!
Just remember, you CAN do this. You have done it-- multiple times now. Take the small wins and allow yourself to be proud! You do not have to humble yourself to make room for other people's insecurity. Give yourself permission to be "selfish" every once in awhile, too. That's what helped me a lot when I felt so burnt out emotionally and completely alone. Sometimes, we're too busy looking out for everyone else that we forget we are people who deserve love too. And the better you feel, the better you help others too. It's okay to not be happy all the time, and you are allowed to feel your emotions, even the negative ones-- just remember, they aren't permanent 💞
When I was younger I would always spread myself out thin for my family. I was always trying to be there for everyone in my home. And as a result I neglected myself. And when I was the one struggling there was no one there for me. I just wanted to tell you this so that you are not alone in what you are feeling. If I could say anything, I would say take care of yourself the way you wish the people in your life would. I hope this helped luna💕💕
LUNA!!!! I love your videos so much, what u said rly hit me and I can relate so hard. Being lonely SUCKS. But your videos help me, I love rewatching ur videos and they are so enjoyable. When you said how you cant always rely on the best friend or boyfriend that hit so close. I just started therapy recently and it def has helped. Wishing you the best
4.07min I hear you so much x I went through the same thing over the past few years and it is so exhausting when people aren't there for you as much as you'd be there for them. Hold on x and I'm here if you need to talk
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only 20 something year old girl that feels lonely and barely has any friends. So even though it sucks that we both feel like this, it makes me feel a little less lonely🧡
it's so incredibly relieving to know that other people are struggling lately and none of us are alone. i hope that we can all continue to heal and grow together
10:00-10:15 this is the most important message. You were so young the first time you went through this. Now you find yourself facing the exact same challenge and this moment has blessed you with the opportunity to right the wrongs and get it done. After you accomplish this challenge you are going to feel like you're dancing on the moon!
4:11 I hear you, Luna. I feel the same way sometimes-always giving so much of myself that it can feel unreciprocated. It’s okay to prioritize yourself and take moments to focus on just you. You deserve that care. We may not know each other, but if you ever need to call or text, I’m here. You’re not alone. 🫶🏼
October WAS a cursed month! Definitely also the worst time of my life, I literally felt like I was going insane😭 I’m also in my twenties and so many things suddenly changed and so many bad things happened, and I’m so over it! But it gets better! You‘re not alone in this❤️
i have never felt so heard oh my gosh. i give so much love, time and energy to the people i love and it's never ever reciprocated and then i'm like should i be more selfish and stop being so giving? but that just feels mean. it's so frustrating because i care so so deeply for everyone that matters to me and whenever i need someone i'm ignored and i feel invisible. i'm so sorry you're going through this, sending so so so much love luna 💕💕
I really appreciate your honesty and your transparency through this video and just you really voicing about just feeling lonely and upset something that has a 19-year-old living alone in her first apartment and a new city not knowing anyone feeling super disconnected. I can relate to a lot. So I appreciate it and it’s not annoying. It’s kind of comforting in a way and I never understood that when people would say that or comment that under videos like this but coming to that point now I do. I admire you and I thank you again❤
Sweet Sweet Luna - there is a huge difference between "being selfish" with your time and your energy and having good boundaries for your mental health. It took me a long long time to realize that I dont have to be there for everyone all the time to the deteriment of my own mental health. Its okay to not be there when people ask you to be, if them asking you to be is not good for you. Realize your worth is more than simply what you give to others. You are a complete and wonderful human being even if you say no to someone requesting your time or assistance. It helps you maintain focus on the real ones that will be there for you.
Luna I just want you to know that I love you so much and you inspire me every day. Truly I watch your videos and they motivate me so much. I hope you get through whatever you're going through and just know we love you.
Lovely lady, please be less harder on yourself. You are a light to so many. Even strong, caring people need a shoulder sometimes and it's super saddening when it's not reciprocated. People quite often don't know how to help those that help others, lovely xxx...You are amazing...Please never forger that...Lots of love and hugs lovely xxx
luna I’m so sorry that you felt like this :( i just want you to know that you are such a bright light and an inspiration to so many ballerinas, including me! 💗 u r beautiful
Very well done in persevering with your Fouetté turns, and in one pointe shoe too, wow! I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time, I'm here for you, sadly I know what it's like when you are there for your friends when they need you, yet they let you down when we really need them, it really hurts. Sending you loads of love and strength Xxx
You're looking GREAT as snow queen!! Best of luck, Luna! You're an inspiration with your technique! Also I totally relate to being a young adult and coming home and feeling so alone... it gets better, as long as you keep going!
Hi Luna! I'm a contemporary dancer and I can relate to what you are saying! Sending all my love 🧚🏻♀💕🧚🏻♀!!! My therapist told me one thing that helped so much, and it may work for you also! Do not motivate/push for more if you are already a super ambitious person cause it's gonna be too much, like jumping and hitting the ceiling, we need more motivation when we go to the gym every day or do everyday ballet class to get up from bed, but when we do things like that that requires more stress motivating more is actually worse because we are already motivated enough and we go out of control :) !!!! just to breathe in and out and go through it as you did on the first run! With the same intention, u already have everything u need to do it! :) 💕💕💕💕💕
Gorgeous I think that particular count for you (fuetes?) is purely mental. I think your teachers know that which is why they're pushing you so hard. Whether you take them out or leave them in I know you can do it. You're a spectacular dancer and I'm really seeing it in rehearsals this year with this role! You can do anything don't forget that. You are worthy of the opportunity, it's just breaking the cycle you're in right now. Sending you all the love and support
Omg you are completely describing me with my family and friends. I feel like I put out so much and no one cares at all. I feel like I’d drop the world for them also. Also, have you ever heard if the October slide? Look it up. It’s a real thing and will explain a lot . Keep doing you! You’re amazing !
I feel this so much, I feel like I'm always the one reaching out to people and trying so hard to be kind and make friends but no one seems to do the same to me. I feel so alone and this is also the first time in my life I'm away from my family since I'm a freshmen in college so I just feel so alone in the world.
Just discovered you’re channel, and this video was so inspiring to me. Seeing you working hard and nailing the fouettés at the end was amazing! I’m sorry ur going through it right now but u are making a positive impact on ur viewers!
Wow, the feels are real. Thank you for sharing this. You’re such an inspiration for me rn. I’ve been working through some of my own mental health stuff recently. To hear about your triumphs is really inspiring. I have really bad imposter syndrome when I see people’s perfect life. You’re so open about your life and on UA-cam. I don’t know how you do it. Also, 30s are better mentally than the 20s
Set your boundaries and protect your peace, gorgeous girl! It’s okay to give more energy to yourself and withhold it from others. Hope you’re feeling better! 🩷
I saw a video of a girl having this break down the other day, and I’m the exact same. We love to love, we love so full and intensely and we are cursed to never receive that back. But just know you are not alone. There are many of us who care and do not get it back.
Sending love 💕 I know how it feels to be constantly helping others and being there for everyone when they need you and yet feel like no one is there when you need them most. It's easy to make excuses for them but at the end of the day it sucks. I've been going through a hard time myself recently, all alone, where the only person I can rely on is myself. Stay strong, you deserve the love you need xx❤🫶
I just want to give you the biggest hug ever and tell you how loved you are and how you are going to succeed beyond belief in this role and in life in general. You are so inspiring!! Keep pushing 🫶🏻
only one shoe on and you ATE Luna 🤩 appreciate your vulnerability, i love how you keep it so real. makes your victories even more sweet and exciting! and i love seeing you with the little ones, telling them they're perfect
❤❤❤sending you lots of love! And you’re right, 20’s suck but your 30’s will rock, it was the same for me. You got this! And from someone who has watch your videos since you did snow Queen before, your dancing had matured and grown so much since then, it is beautiful to see. ❤❤❤
hey luna i don’t usually comment but i wanted to thank you for telling us how you feel and being vulnerable. i think a lot of us can relate, and it makes me feel soooo much better knowing im not alone with how i feel
I’m so sorry you’re going through a hard time Luna :(( all I can say is, sometimes there’s no reason to keep giving yourself away to people but you just have to keep doing it - sending lots of love xx 🫶🏼
luna, as soon as i saw the title i knew it wasn't going to be a good experience ... you are such a kind and loving person and i cant imagine what you are going through alone. please try not to be too harsh on yourself and i hope you can come back with the passion and love for ballet we all know you have deep down❤️❤️ so proud of you for picking yourself back up and NAILING it by the end !!
sending you the biggest virtual hug luna! 🩷🩷🩷 I know how hard ballet is, and how difficult the part of the snow queen is. fouettes are so stressful already, so the fact that you're pushing yourself to do them is already something to congratulate yourself for attempting!! 🩰 I'm currently rehearsing for my own school's nutcracker, and I will say you are doing such a spectacular job! it's so exhausting when it feels like no one is there for you when you're always there for them, but just know that you're not alone!! 🩰🩵
I just found your channel and follow you ‘cause I love your vibe but I understand when sometimes we feel alone in this world. And, I’m ok that you could share it. I hope all of us will pass this struggle for sure!! (I’m sorry, if I say something weird because it’s not my first language)
Your car cry has been my hubby and my YEAR! I feel you. It just became very apparent that we damn near do back bends on a bed of nails for everyone else and then when we just need something simple like a listening ear or a simple reply it’s like we are asking for a kidney and their first born. It’s madness to see how people REALLY don’t value your time energy and love 💕 no reciprocation is exhausting. So much effort and energy OUT and none back in IS AN UNSUBSCRIBE for us now. ALL THAT TO SAY sending you light and love. We’ll all get through it 💪🏾🙏🏾
I feel the same way girly, it sucks but I had to literally pull back myself and put it into myself because giving more than you receive is traumatic fr especially in times you need it. Praying for you 🫶🏾
I hope you get to feel a little bit more empowered and are able to see how amazing you are and how beutiful you are inside and out!!! I would love to look like you, also have the strength and just amazingly huge heart!! My heart breaks for you I wish I could help you not feel so alone!! I do therapy 2 times a week because it is amazing 🎉 my therapist is my best friend.. I can tell her anything and she understands!! I know you got this whole snow queen thing!! I bet you will get on stage for your show and it will totally just come together!!!
i’m so sorry 🥺. it’s so frustrating when you care so deeply for everyone that matters to you but when you just need someone you seem to be invisible. i wish people were more considerate
Me too!!!
this is such an unfortunate truth. consideration is the one of the highest forms of love and if you can cover that you'll cover all grounds, I just wish people had an understanding of that 🫂
im so sorry Luna - just a reminder that you wouldn't be the Snow Queen if people didn't believe you were capable or that YOU didn't believe you were capable. You are doing amazing and I wish you the best of luck and love ♥♥
*betterhelp was the worst therapy experience i've ever had. they broke HIPAA laws multiple times & literally had to refund me about a THOUSAND dollars for how horrific the experiences were. traumatizing.*
hey fun, same !! signed up for working on eating disorder and hte first question the therapist asked me was 'how much do you weigh' ☠
Honestly I never understood how betterhelp could be a serious therapy platform. They also sponsor religious fundamentals, who mention in their videos that betterhelp also has religious therapists available (christian in the one I have seen). And don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with being religious and not every christian is toxic, but these specific fundamentals are! And it really worries me when I see their values (women only being homemakers, childbearers, husband head of the home etc) and they talk about how on betterhelp you can also find a therapist who bases their values solely on the bible! I can't imagine having a person with church trauma try therapy only to be taught the same old stuff again. It honestly worries me.
@@musich1024 I'm in school to become a licensed counselor. I can understand where you are coming from, but people need to find others with whom they can connect through their life perspectives. There are people out there who are religious themselves and looking for a therapist with a similar background so they can understand them. We are all people at the end of the day, so seeking a therapist who fits your values is important. It is wonderful that they advertise this so you know before becoming their client.
Whaaat??? Wow that sounds crazy. What did they dooo
@@musich1024but what do you expect from Church and Christians? That is what God intended us to be
I’m sorry the fouettés have been causing so much stress! I was guest dancing in nutcrackers in my early 20s and it was a VERY stressful time in general. You’ll come out the other side stronger, more well rounded and more mature than your non-dancer/ nonartist peers…I can confirm that the 30s are WONDERFUL. You’re a tremendous turner and of course fourttes are hard when we’re on our periods…our center of mass and balance totally changes. 🧡
Fouettés suck. Ugh, so hard to do esp if you are tired. I say take them out. I don’t think people expect them in snow.
hey girl 🙋♀️i’m a physiotherapist that works with athletes and dancers and regarding you feeling that you are weak in your fouette standing leg, you could probably benefit from some strengthning training
- Bulgarians
- Single leg squat
- Heel raises in passé (aim for 30 reps)
- Clam shell
If you can add some weights and you’ll see a real difference. I’ve seen this do wonders so i hope this helps
hii! when you say single leg squats is that like a pistol squat? I have the same issue as Luna haha
@@Sophia-fw3it yes and no. A pistol squat is ass to the ground - opposite leg straight out in front so it is a single leg squat but in s specific form. A single leg squat is just a single leg squat nothing more...
@@Sophia-fw3it a pistol squat is kinda of an advanced version of the SL squat. I would start by doing a SL squat to a chair/box (which can be as high as you can manage at this time) with a dumbbell held to your chest. And then progress in depth of your squat Hope that helps!
That feeling of being everyone's light and not getting that energy in return is so real. It took me many years to learn to be selfish. Learning to set boundaries and to say no will change your life. In those tough moments you have to remember you are doing this for Luna.
I hope the rest of the nutcracker season treats you well ❤
the minute 4 breakdown I so connected to that. love you luna bc I literally feel like your friend as weird as that sounds. I literally aspire to be like you
the level of resilience you have to have with her mindset is insane and makes me feel like I can be doing more myself. Especially not letting a bad week define you. Much respect to you. So tough.
Luna, I'm 38, supposedly a mature woman, but still going through the motions. If it helps you at all, your videos make me feel better and I'm grateful for how much you put yourself out there on UA-cam.
Don’t be so tough on yourself love. Your literally an amazing dancer, it’s unreal. 90% of people can’t do anything near what you do. I’m so sorry you’re going thru a tough time hun. October was a cursed month, I feel you on that.
How you were crying in your car, saying you never receive the love that you put out. I’ve been there way too many times and I’ve learned to not be around those people anymore. I stick to my husband, he’s the only one in my life that has given me 100% what I’ve given him. I don’t care about anyone else anymore
i definitely feel you when it comes to shedding light to others but no reciprocation from others into your life. be that light that you give to others for yourself and be your own friend in those times of need
Watching you in the car talking about how much you give and how little you receive hit my heart so hard. I feel the same way. My mother isn’t empathetic at all and doesn’t understand what it’s like to suffer with anxiety and depression (which I have. Not projecting on you.) My husband doesn’t even understand why I can’t just “be happy.” My son is 20 and at the age where he is an adult but still a child, so he doesn’t ever ask me about my day or emotional state. My friends are all much younger than I am and have young children, so it is hard to get together with them, but they do try to be there for me when they can. Your raw emotion just hit me and made me cry and made me feel like I wasn’t really alone after all. Thank you, Luna. You’re living my ballerina childhood dream and I so love watching you dance and your life. Much light and love.
i COMPLETELY resonate with what you’re feeling right now, and the feelings of loneliness. it’s comforting to know that people are going through the same things and that you’re never truly totally alone🌟
I feel the exact same way when it comes to putting all your love and effort into friends that just don’t reciprocate that feeling, which is so so so hard. But the important thing is that you know how amazing you are and maybe shed that light toward yourself more. ❤ It’s hard sometimes, but just be so confident in your amazing heart, and I PROMISE that someday, a person is going to notice and hug that with all their might. 💌
I completely sympathise with the shoe issue. I had a similar thing with an oboe exam decades ago. Simply could not get a monstrous piece of Bach that was full of runs. Teacher handed me her oboe and said to play it on that. Nailed it first time. It was the instrument. Sometimes it is genuinely the equipment. I wasn’t going to be a good enough player in time for the exam to be able to make that machinery play that music.
Ironically I can play it no problem on the baroque oboe, which has none of this key work that is supposed to help us. So much for progress!
It was so good to see you take your self in hand, get some perspective and keep smiling through this video. So proud of you.
the part where she was talking about how she was giving her everything for others and was t getting it back made me feel so heard. i’m 14 and i’ve struggled with this since i was about 10 and i feel like everyone around me has so many people that care and love on them and i can’t seem to find that person for me. i am so nice and i am always there if someone needs to talk but when im struggling no one is there. thank you so much for talking about this it made me feel less alone and i really needed that
Ballet is so so so hard and it can be easy to get wrapped up in the one little thing that doesn't work! But believe me when I say Luna you are SUCH a beautiful and strong dancer in so many ways and I look up to you both as a dancer and as the wonderful human you are 💖
hey luna, im so sorry for what you've been going through and I can totally relate. Im only a teenager but i've never felt so lonely in my life. It feels like I shed all my light towards people but in return I get absolutely nothing, not even recognition of existence. moreover, i also do ballet and august-october was possibly the WORST months of my entire life. fighting with body image, mental blocks, feeling like nothing is working technically is absolutely draining. I promise you though, it DOES get better!!! I have been watching you for years and admire you so much
I wish you could see your dancing through our eyes, it is absolutely beautiful and brings me so much joy to watch. You only fail if you don’t try. You’re always trying your hardest and you’ll get there or do something differently and the dance will still be a masterpiece ❤
I hear you. I see you.
My advice: go dance in a completely different style. Reset the joy meter.
Go get refit. There are so many ways to customize Blochs, if those are your jam. Remember, when you are training well, it might not be you; it might be the shoe.
As someone who has gone through this exact struggle, and more beyond- (bed bound and 140# heavier to back to dancing and teaching!) you can do anything you set your mind to.
Shine on Luna.
wow, well done for getting back to dancing after being bed bound, amazing! Xx
Luna, you are an inspiration genuinely. I’ve been watching your for years, almost my entire ballet journey. I’m a senior in high school now getting ready for nutcracker. I’m rehearsing for Arabian and I totally get the crying in my car after rehearsal. Literally happened to me last week. As bad as it sounds hearing about your struggles made me feel so seen as a dancer. Things will get better! Just know your such an inspiration.
I've been feeling exactly how you are, it's really comforting to know I am not alone. You're doing wonderful Luna
Thank you, Luna!!!!
Today was my performance day and before going on stage, I watched your video. I was feeling unsure because some steps werent perfect yet. But after seeing you push through and do your fouettés, I told myself "If she can do it, I will try as well!!!" And it worked! I also really felt what you said in the car about always being there for others but feeling like no one is there for you when you need them. I’ve been through that too, and it’s such a hard feeling. I hope things get better for you soon. ❤🩹You’re so strong and inspire so many people, including me. Thank you for being so real and sharing your journey.
I so feel you on giving so much to others and not getting it back. I don’t dance anymore but I’m a teacher going through the same feelings with my job. I cried right after I dropped my students off at the bus. Wishing for future successful rehearsals.
Change your pointe shoes by upgrading and take the fouettés as 4 blocks of 4 or 8 blocks of 2 rather than a set of 16. Much love and a virtual hug from the UK.
I am so sorry you're having a rough time! You are a stunning dancer though and you got this, queen!
luna, i understand that you’re going through a hard time. i really relate to the emotions you’re expressing, more than you know. however, PLEASE know that MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY i think about what my “dream life” looks like, and your channel ALWAYS comes to mind! your solitary life is exactly what i long for. i know that it feels lonely sometimes, i really get that. i wish you love and support. but please know even in your lowest moments, you just sharing your life is an inspiration for so many. i’m wishing you love, peace, joy, happiness, success, comfort, and support ❤
I so agree I wish I was more like luna all the time. l
I’m glad you posted this video instead of hiding your feelings. I’m sorry that you’ve been going through this. I also had a terrible week and ended up getting fired from my job. I feel terrible about myself and feel lonely as well. It was comforting to see I’m not the only person going it through it this week. Also, I know you will do great as Snow Queen!
i so feel you. keeping your childhood hobby in your 20s is going to be heartbreaking a lot of the times🥺 i keep asking myself why the f*** am i still doing this at 24 if i still suck? But then remember it's only a bad day maybe i need the challenge to improve. keep positive as much as you can🫶🏻
you’re not alone with feeling like this Luna. i assure you, the people willing to reciprocate the care and comfort you give to other are out there, and you will find them, they just haven’t found you yet. stay strong girl :) you’re one of my biggest inspirations as an aspiring dancer and teenage girl and you are not alone.
Imagine feeling all of this but also struggling with money… that’s what I’m going through. So don’t worry I understand how you feel and what you’re going through
Honestly I relate. I’m 23 and swear that this year and last year have been some of the worst years of my life. I thought this was supposed to be such a fun time, but I legit have no friends and am at a sucky job. No fun. You are definitely not alone
Thanks very much "Luna" for all your honest openness.
I appreciate all your feelings that you've experienced lately.
Because I "Was" supposed to participate in a Zumbathon for Pancreatic Cancer on Fri. Nov.1st.
I rehearsed the Dances several times with the Zumba Instructor and another participant.
I even went over Ballet classes for Goodness Sake.
So, the Funding for my transportation arrived too late for me to attend the Zumbathon that day!
The Feelings of letting down your fellow teammates is devastating.
Maybe, they forgot already?
But i''m having a hard time and experiencing much embarrassment, over this failure to show up.
And on top of all that Mess, there may be a Mass Transit Strike at any moment.
Which will make it impossible to attend any Ballet or Zumba Dances.
And these are invaluable to me!
Well, at least one good thing happened from all this.
I made the Contribution for the Event, months in advance.
Thanks again, for all your Wonderful Videos.
Luna, I totally feel you with your feelings of loneliness and not having your light reciprocated! I am also 23, and involved in professional athletics (SCUBA... very different from ballet but still lol), and those two factors combined can be a nightmare. I'm glad you're talking it out with a therapist and maintaining a mindset of growth and healing!
My main reason for posting this comment is to say that you are an incredibly wonderful and natural teacher! Watching that last scene with you and the latte girls was amazing. The direction you give is clear and digestible while still being ACTUALLY helpful. You are encouraging, give them agency, and use kind words to inspire them. Those girls (and any others you are around) are so lucky to have you as a role model in both dance and life!! Keep that in mind... you have a gift in both dance and teaching, which is so so special. Never doubt yourself!
Just remember, you CAN do this. You have done it-- multiple times now. Take the small wins and allow yourself to be proud! You do not have to humble yourself to make room for other people's insecurity. Give yourself permission to be "selfish" every once in awhile, too. That's what helped me a lot when I felt so burnt out emotionally and completely alone. Sometimes, we're too busy looking out for everyone else that we forget we are people who deserve love too. And the better you feel, the better you help others too. It's okay to not be happy all the time, and you are allowed to feel your emotions, even the negative ones-- just remember, they aren't permanent 💞
When I was younger I would always spread myself out thin for my family. I was always trying to be there for everyone in my home. And as a result I neglected myself. And when I was the one struggling there was no one there for me. I just wanted to tell you this so that you are not alone in what you are feeling. If I could say anything, I would say take care of yourself the way you wish the people in your life would.
I hope this helped luna💕💕
So nice to know other people felt like October / beginning of November was so hard
I loved watching this candid video, it's so raw, but you rallying up at the end really helped me with my own week
LUNA!!!! I love your videos so much, what u said rly hit me and I can relate so hard. Being lonely SUCKS. But your videos help me, I love rewatching ur videos and they are so enjoyable. When you said how you cant always rely on the best friend or boyfriend that hit so close. I just started therapy recently and it def has helped. Wishing you the best
4.07min I hear you so much x I went through the same thing over the past few years and it is so exhausting when people aren't there for you as much as you'd be there for them. Hold on x and I'm here if you need to talk
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only 20 something year old girl that feels lonely and barely has any friends. So even though it sucks that we both feel like this, it makes me feel a little less lonely🧡
you definitely aren't
it's so incredibly relieving to know that other people are struggling lately and none of us are alone. i hope that we can all continue to heal and grow together
girl i feel you on such a deep level. you’re amazing and you’re gonna continue to be amazing no matter who’s around you. love you!
10:00-10:15 this is the most important message. You were so young the first time you went through this. Now you find yourself facing the exact same challenge and this moment has blessed you with the opportunity to right the wrongs and get it done.
After you accomplish this challenge you are going to feel like you're dancing on the moon!
4:11 I hear you, Luna. I feel the same way sometimes-always giving so much of myself that it can feel unreciprocated. It’s okay to prioritize yourself and take moments to focus on just you. You deserve that care. We may not know each other, but if you ever need to call or text, I’m here. You’re not alone. 🫶🏼
October WAS a cursed month! Definitely also the worst time of my life, I literally felt like I was going insane😭 I’m also in my twenties and so many things suddenly changed and so many bad things happened, and I’m so over it!
But it gets better! You‘re not alone in this❤️
sorry to hear this, sending you love! Xx
i have never felt so heard oh my gosh. i give so much love, time and energy to the people i love and it's never ever reciprocated and then i'm like should i be more selfish and stop being so giving? but that just feels mean. it's so frustrating because i care so so deeply for everyone that matters to me and whenever i need someone i'm ignored and i feel invisible. i'm so sorry you're going through this, sending so so so much love luna 💕💕
I really appreciate your honesty and your transparency through this video and just you really voicing about just feeling lonely and upset something that has a 19-year-old living alone in her first apartment and a new city not knowing anyone feeling super disconnected. I can relate to a lot.
So I appreciate it and it’s not annoying. It’s kind of comforting in a way and I never understood that when people would say that or comment that under videos like this but coming to that point now I do.
I admire you and I thank you again❤
Sweet Sweet Luna - there is a huge difference between "being selfish" with your time and your energy and having good boundaries for your mental health. It took me a long long time to realize that I dont have to be there for everyone all the time to the deteriment of my own mental health. Its okay to not be there when people ask you to be, if them asking you to be is not good for you. Realize your worth is more than simply what you give to others. You are a complete and wonderful human being even if you say no to someone requesting your time or assistance. It helps you maintain focus on the real ones that will be there for you.
I've never felt more heard in my life, thank you so much for being so vulnerable
As an ballet dancer you sharing this is so very helpful I love that you don’t just show good parts of being a ballet dancer
Luna I just want you to know that I love you so much and you inspire me every day. Truly I watch your videos and they motivate me so much. I hope you get through whatever you're going through and just know we love you.
Lovely lady, please be less harder on yourself. You are a light to so many. Even strong, caring people need a shoulder sometimes and it's super saddening when it's not reciprocated. People quite often don't know how to help those that help others, lovely xxx...You are amazing...Please never forger that...Lots of love and hugs lovely xxx
luna I’m so sorry that you felt like this :( i just want you to know that you are such a bright light and an inspiration to so many ballerinas, including me! 💗 u r beautiful
Luna you are beautiful! Thank you for keeping us apart of your journey 🎀❄️💕
I hear you. You are so beautiful. I hope you’re doing better.
Not another better help ad, wtf
Very well done in persevering with your Fouetté turns, and in one pointe shoe too, wow! I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time, I'm here for you, sadly I know what it's like when you are there for your friends when they need you, yet they let you down when we really need them, it really hurts. Sending you loads of love and strength Xxx
Luna I hope you are doing better
Snow is so hard you got this Luna!!
You're looking GREAT as snow queen!! Best of luck, Luna! You're an inspiration with your technique!
Also I totally relate to being a young adult and coming home and feeling so alone... it gets better, as long as you keep going!
Hi Luna! I'm a contemporary dancer and I can relate to what you are saying! Sending all my love 🧚🏻♀💕🧚🏻♀!!!
My therapist told me one thing that helped so much, and it may work for you also! Do not motivate/push for more if you are already a super ambitious person cause it's gonna be too much, like jumping and hitting the ceiling, we need more motivation when we go to the gym every day or do everyday ballet class to get up from bed, but when we do things like that that requires more stress motivating more is actually worse because we are already motivated enough and we go out of control :) !!!! just to breathe in and out and go through it as you did on the first run! With the same intention, u already have everything u need to do it! :) 💕💕💕💕💕
Gorgeous I think that particular count for you (fuetes?) is purely mental. I think your teachers know that which is why they're pushing you so hard. Whether you take them out or leave them in I know you can do it. You're a spectacular dancer and I'm really seeing it in rehearsals this year with this role! You can do anything don't forget that. You are worthy of the opportunity, it's just breaking the cycle you're in right now. Sending you all the love and support
Omg you are completely describing me with my family and friends. I feel like I put out so much and no one cares at all. I feel like I’d drop the world for them also. Also, have you ever heard if the October slide? Look it up. It’s a real thing and will explain a lot . Keep doing you! You’re amazing !
I feel this so much, I feel like I'm always the one reaching out to people and trying so hard to be kind and make friends but no one seems to do the same to me. I feel so alone and this is also the first time in my life I'm away from my family since I'm a freshmen in college so I just feel so alone in the world.
I think most people feel the same way as you described yourself in the car
Just discovered you’re channel, and this video was so inspiring to me. Seeing you working hard and nailing the fouettés at the end was amazing! I’m sorry ur going through it right now but u are making a positive impact on ur viewers!
Wow, the feels are real. Thank you for sharing this. You’re such an inspiration for me rn. I’ve been working through some of my own mental health stuff recently. To hear about your triumphs is really inspiring. I have really bad imposter syndrome when I see people’s perfect life. You’re so open about your life and on UA-cam. I don’t know how you do it. Also, 30s are better mentally than the 20s
Sending you lots of love Luna!
Set your boundaries and protect your peace, gorgeous girl! It’s okay to give more energy to yourself and withhold it from others. Hope you’re feeling better! 🩷
I saw a video of a girl having this break down the other day, and I’m the exact same. We love to love, we love so full and intensely and we are cursed to never receive that back. But just know you are not alone. There are many of us who care and do not get it back.
Sending love 💕 I know how it feels to be constantly helping others and being there for everyone when they need you and yet feel like no one is there when you need them most. It's easy to make excuses for them but at the end of the day it sucks. I've been going through a hard time myself recently, all alone, where the only person I can rely on is myself. Stay strong, you deserve the love you need xx❤🫶
4:00 is so real. We'll find our people
I just want to give you the biggest hug ever and tell you how loved you are and how you are going to succeed beyond belief in this role and in life in general. You are so inspiring!! Keep pushing 🫶🏻
SOOO badass of you doing the fouettés with just one shoe! love your vlogs! and we all have our hormonal days so don't feel bad crying! sending love
I'm so so sorry Luna, i know is hard but you got this, and we are here for so you're not alone, i hope you feel better soon ❤
only one shoe on and you ATE Luna 🤩
appreciate your vulnerability, i love how you keep it so real. makes your victories even more sweet and exciting! and i love seeing you with the little ones, telling them they're perfect
Proud of ya for powering through! You got this!
Wow Luna! You're doing an awesome job! You just needed a break.
Sooo talented! ❤
Luna as a fellow ballet girlie and Gilmore girls lover, these videos are a vibe please keep them coming we love you queen
i feel exactly the same. thank u for this
❤❤❤sending you lots of love! And you’re right, 20’s suck but your 30’s will rock, it was the same for me. You got this! And from someone who has watch your videos since you did snow Queen before, your dancing had matured and grown so much since then, it is beautiful to see. ❤❤❤
hey luna i don’t usually comment but i wanted to thank you for telling us how you feel and being vulnerable. i think a lot of us can relate, and it makes me feel soooo much better knowing im not alone with how i feel
Keep up the good work, you'll do better every next day as long as you don't make brakes. Your mum is proud on you ❤
I’m so sorry you’re going through a hard time Luna :(( all I can say is, sometimes there’s no reason to keep giving yourself away to people but you just have to keep doing it - sending lots of love xx 🫶🏼
luna, as soon as i saw the title i knew it wasn't going to be a good experience ... you are such a kind and loving person and i cant imagine what you are going through alone. please try not to be too harsh on yourself and i hope you can come back with the passion and love for ballet we all know you have deep down❤️❤️ so proud of you for picking yourself back up and NAILING it by the end !!
sending you the biggest virtual hug luna! 🩷🩷🩷
I know how hard ballet is, and how difficult the part of the snow queen is. fouettes are so stressful already, so the fact that you're pushing yourself to do them is already something to congratulate yourself for attempting!! 🩰 I'm currently rehearsing for my own school's nutcracker, and I will say you are doing such a spectacular job! it's so exhausting when it feels like no one is there for you when you're always there for them, but just know that you're not alone!! 🩰🩵
I just found your channel and follow you ‘cause I love your vibe but I understand when sometimes we feel alone in this world. And, I’m ok that you could share it. I hope all of us will pass this struggle for sure!! (I’m sorry, if I say something weird because it’s not my first language)
Your car cry has been my hubby and my YEAR! I feel you. It just became very apparent that we damn near do back bends on a bed of nails for everyone else and then when we just need something simple like a listening ear or a simple reply it’s like we are asking for a kidney and their first born. It’s madness to see how people REALLY don’t value your time energy and love 💕 no reciprocation is exhausting. So much effort and energy OUT and none back in IS AN UNSUBSCRIBE for us now.
ALL THAT TO SAY sending you light and love. We’ll all get through it 💪🏾🙏🏾
our fouettés in the end were so pretty!!
I love that you show the good and the bad. it’s so inspiring to watch
I hope you’re feeling better now Luna, you inspire me with you’re dancing so much, like I can’t even do 1 fouetté on pointe yet 😅
I feel the same way girly, it sucks but I had to literally pull back myself and put it into myself because giving more than you receive is traumatic fr especially in times you need it. Praying for you 🫶🏾
I love watching your videos, you’re really my comfort place 🤍
my comfort UA-camr for like the last 5 years, been here since the video of you talking about your body dysmorphia ❤
Loved seeing you teach your latte maidens!! Sending love
Wow I’m loving the realness dance is so lonely yet you’re always in rooms full of people u ate with that breakdown
this is such a beautiful video, i was rooting for you the whole time!! you're an inspiration :)
I hope you get to feel a little bit more empowered and are able to see how amazing you are and how beutiful you are inside and out!!! I would love to look like you, also have the strength and just amazingly huge heart!! My heart breaks for you I wish I could help you not feel so alone!! I do therapy 2 times a week because it is amazing 🎉 my therapist is my best friend.. I can tell her anything and she understands!! I know you got this whole snow queen thing!! I bet you will get on stage for your show and it will totally just come together!!!