We do, especially women who seem to put others before ourselves. You know what colours you really like, so indulge yourself, be your friend, relax, get your hair done, whatever you WANT to do. 🫂🇨🇦
I'm excited to see the new beautiful life you create for yourself! You're a very talented and smart business woman! We all need a time out to reflect and rest, so we can come back even stronger! Sending you love and hugs!
I have been in your space. When my marriage ended i was lost, sad, and I didn't know who I was. But I am now on the other side and can tell you that you will shine again!! I've missed you on YT and was wondering how you were coping. Just know we women are resilient. I believe in you!
When I watched Serena's video, I could so relate because I have been where she is. My marriage failed and I had 2 young children to raise. Not to mention, I am a quadriplegic and rely on my mom and sister for care. Right now, in the dead of winter, things feel gloomy. Just watching your video and hearing your story made me feel like I'm not the only one in spring is coming. It also reminded me that I need to order seed for those big beautiful marigolds. So gorgeous. Things will get better
I am a newer sub, but I have also thought of you lately, and hoping you were doing well! Things will get better promise, I have been there, you need to take care of YOU, and make YOU happy for once! Much ❤️
I can’t wait to watch you cultivate a beautiful life for yourself. We are all here cheering for you. You are not alone. Winter is so hard but remember the peony. Without those freezing temps, she wouldn’t bloom. The winter serves a purpose too. Rooting for you.
I'm nobody but I believe you are graceful and incredible. You've publicly handled a situation I cannot even imagine and done it with grace. You've made something from nothing and I look forward to learning from you so I can fill my life with flowers too.
The words I couldn’t find. Thank you! Long time subscriber. Years. I learned how to grow with this channel. Serena is strength and there’s beauty in this journey- bloom baby bloom.❤
Me to, Alyssa. Serena has taught me so incredibly much about gardening. She inspired me during COVID and it broke my heart to see her difficulties. I believe in you, Serena!
In 2022 I was diagnosed with cancer. As I started going through 5 months of chemotherapy, having loved to garden most of my life and despite fatigue, I started to dig up the (grass) parkway in front of my house by hand and replace it with flowers. A little bit at a time. No gardener, just me. I needed to do something simply to deal with the emotions I was going through. I've never considered myself a strong person, just stubborn. Today, my cancer is in remission, I continue to get stronger every day, and the flower garden is thriving. It's almost become a badge of honor. Flowers are truly food for the soul.
"i don't want to hide my talents for fear that someone else might feel less because of them." This is the reality of many women. I hope we all rise, push back and walk away from these suffocating people and relationships.
That statement stood out to me too, since starting my flower journey or anything good in life, I’d have to keep them on the down-low because of toxic friends that don’t like when good things happen to me. This year I said no more!! I’m going to surround myself with people that are happy with my achievements.
I thought the title was click bait so I resisted watching it for a while, but oh my word. So glad I watched. This was like an essay for all the women out there who feel the same. You are important to people you will never even know exist because of your beautiful work here! Keep blooming ❤
I died when watching this. You’re bravery in wearing your heart on your sleeve, and speaking so openly about your pain in your past, but also your determination... it’s just so impressive. Your strength will surprise you one day looking back at this time. But at what cost! I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through.
Serena, I am flower farming because of you. It started out as seeking someone with business advice on UA-cam for vegetable market gardening and I pivoted when you did. You've never been invisible to us, here. You are strong, a hard worker, bright, thoughtful, and you are admired by many. I barely ever comment on any videos, but I needed to share with you that you have been such a positive influence on so many of us! ❤️
I second everything you said ! we all love you and thank you for sharing your lives with us all . its hard life is hard my mom died 2 years ago from cancer and these videos make me want to get outside and plant more things , I tried geo seeds and figured out that crazy book with no pictures Thanks to you ! we are here for you Serena
PS: You reminded me of one of my favorite poems. Part of it says, "Don't wait on someone to bring you flowers. Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul."
I recently saw Ian’s videos. My heart goes out to you Serena! You worked so hard on the flower farm. Not only do you have to grieve the loss o marriage but the loss of the farm, your business, and the person you thought you knew and the father of your children! You have every reason to be struggling! I hope you are seeking out some help❤
@@audrobinI’m not sure what part of my comment you found disrespectful. I was trying to be empathetic with Serena! She has a lot to deal with and I really enjoyed both Seren and Ian on this channel for a very long time!
I've been a florist (growing flowers in season also) for 2 1/2 years now, and last week, a small bouquet delivery date ended up changing last minute so I opened the paper, grabed a vase and arranged them for my kitchen table. I hadn't done that ever. Since then, I swap the dead flowers as they die for a few new ones to keep it looking fresh. It has brought me more joy than I would have thought. In the cool room, flowers are work, but on my kitchen table, it's a little breath of happy. Take care 🫶
I love the flower metaphor. You know, I was depressed and jobless at home when I found your channel. I was at rock bottom and you were the flowers in my life. I actually started learning to garden BECAUSE I found your channel, when I've only had house plants I killed before. I got racks, grow lights, the works.. and when I was stuck on something... I messaged you on instagram and you answered every time. I hope you understand that you've been a great thing for others, and I think we can all agree you deserve the best... happiness, peace, respect. This may be your bottom now, and I and probably many others are here for you if you need us. You are more loved than you think. Reach out... find your people... and know that it gets better.
It only took a couple minutes of this video to make me cry. ME, who used to never allow myself even one tear. Not tears of sorrow but understanding. It was your voice, your feelings and your life but it's a road I've traveled. I have to tell you that it took me a long time. To find the right road. It was a marathon of emotions. It took me eight years of focusing on me and what I needed, but I made it through. I went from survive to thrive and learned to take time to smell the flowers. And along the way I became jaded and even harder. Then I thought it would always be just me, the children grown and gone and my horse my closest friend. I needed no one. I did for myself. To heck with the world, i had my own back. Then it happened. I received the greatest gift; someone who saw me, appreciated me, fit in my world. I wasnt looking. I was basking in the contentment of freedom and independence. I understand now that it took me those lonely years to be ready for this new life. It is meant to be and glorious. When the time is right. Once you have processed and found your rhythm someday you may find a best friend that isn't the earth. Take your time. Enjoy the journey. It will be beautiful. Become the best version of yourself surrounded in flowers!
You will find yourself each time you do something new on your own. We know you are strong but you get to be fragile and afraid, you’re human and you’re hurting. No need to put on a show here, we know and admire you for who you are, your knowledge ,your enthusiasm for life (it will come back along with the flowers). Sending big hugs and kindness from the UK. We will all stay on this journey with you🥰
"I haven't had a lot of softness in my life. I think I felt I deserved hard, so I went out and found hard for myself." So. Many. Women. Serena, you are not only an incredible flower farmer, you are a beacon of light showing us a path to follow. This is your gift to all of us who follow you. Your vulnerability leaves me inspired. Thank you for all of that. Big hugs (and many flowers) to you ❤💐🌻🌷🌺
Yes But what bothers me is her ex.Husband ian now becca is celebrating his or now her life on another youtube channel and she's crying and depressed. This is so sad to me I hate it.
@@LisaGuigar Yea, I hear you. And I saw Ian's/Becca post. S/he seems lost. Just my read on that. I've known others who transitioned really well, that's not what I'm seeing with him/her.
I am sorry that you are going through this. You've had a lot of changes, none of which you asked for. You do deserve flowers, kindness, love and respect. If it doesn't come from outside sources then give yourself that gift. You know what gives you joy and fills your soul and soon the weather will change and you will be able to start on your garden.
I’m right there with you. Since I lost my son watching your flower videos has been my go to for comfort. You even gave me the courage to start growing flowers. Bring surrounded by flowers is when I feel the happiest. Praying for you and yes you deserve flowers everyday ❤
Welp, I gotta tell ya. When I started watching your videos 3 years ago, I didn’t see this coming. I’m so sorry for you and your family. Some people say that an event like this makes you feel like a widow/widower. The person you once fell in love with has died. I’m not sure if you feel this way or ever will, but I hope you have a support system aside from us. On the positive side… if you have 50/50 custody of the kids, at least you’ll get a much needed break on a regular basis. ❤
You write exactly what I was thinking about how it has to be for Serena! As he also changes his name and look, it has to be like you would loose your husband completely. On one side I am often wondering how easy it seems to be, that men go their way and live "their" life and on the other hand I completely understand, that he has to do that, if he has these feelings. But on the other hand I am completely aware, that Serena, who never asked for this change in her live, again has a ton of pressure to carry alone! She didn't demand for this change in HER life, she always gave her best until complete exhaustion and to be honest: I don't understand why he didn't take the money and buy himself a new house. He could have left his children their home and Serena her farm (because actually it was mainly her brain and muscles, that made this farm start and shine). That would have been some nice way to do it, not putting SO much pressure and changes to the children and her. That would have been the kind way to a new life for him, not talking on UA-cam about all the success he will have for example with all the peonies, she put in during some cold period ... I remember her working on that. And now he is profiting from her work, while she has to start all over again. To be honest, that has a bitter taste to me!! 😢 But I am completely sure, that she will start up like a phoenix from the ashes (because as sad as it is: thats what she learned in her youth) and I hope, that she will stay independant for the rest of her life! I completely know what I am talking about, being 58 and in the same situation. Many women tend to work hard for their families and don't think about themselves, until they are burnt out or not considered as "interesting enough any more" etc. But to be honest: being in the same situation, I myself don't consider many men as interesting enough ;) Often it's also difficult to keep or find new friends, when you are always working. To many people you (= I) seem to be not that funny any more and they just loose interest in contacting you. Thats really bad and also sad, especially in a situation, when you would need some good friends!! I completely understand the point Serena mentioned: we should try to be nicer to ourselves, if we didn't learn that in our youth. She is absolutely right and I am thankful, that she was brave enough to share that and remind me of it! I see a huge lot of women, that were brought up with the attitude to give everything for their family, not being also nice to themselves. I wonder, if this point could also become a side-theme of this channel: How can we take care of ourselves ... I would love to get some inspiration!! 💖🤗🌞 Greetings from Denmark!!! 😘
@@uteberg4781I hope you realise that you are judging a situation that you do not know a lot about. They shared a bit of their journey but not much. You are making a lot of assumptions and partially are even ignoring things they shared (e.g. that they seemed to share looking out for the kids often in a way that Becca (Ian) had intense times with the kids so assuming, that the farm will only feel like home to them kids when it belongs to Serina is interesting…) Separation, with kids and a business is always hard and there will be loss inevitably. And it is super sad that Serina will not continue to be part of a business that she put her heart and soul into. But they never badmouthed the other person, just communicated their reasons and circumstances about what led to this decision. They seem to be still amicable. I feel that we, who do not know much, should just act according to their example. You can grieve loss without pointing the finger. That is what Serina does. It is a good example also for her kids. Let’s maybe follow along.
@ I was not judging at all, and you completely misunderstood the point I was talking about, concerning who is owning the farm. I didn't mean that the kids just feel at home when the farm is owned by Serena, but Ian already was talking about the fact, that he rents the farmhouse as Airbnb, so to normal understanding its clear that the children can't live in this house/= their former home any more. Thats what I meant. And its also clear, that Serena had to leave her former home too, what she also was talking about in all of her new video. So I don't understand what you think I got wrong. Those are big changes for each of them, what I also mentioned and its totally ok to support also Serena and her hard way, that she didn't choose to go. She already mentioned, that she didn't have the money to buy Ian out, but he had. Nothing wrong in what I said. And yes, we should support them, thats what I am doing. Do the same and don't interpret thoughts in my words, that are not meant like this. You will not be helping them with wild speculations about others.
Serena you have never been invisible. You have been a shining star in the online flower world. You have inspired us, taught us and led the way into fearless farming and being 100% your authentic self.
I saw your ex husbands video a few days ago and I am not sure how you managed in such a space. My heart broke we have never met but UA-cam surrounds us with so much family. Know that in this new era you will be great as you know knowledge is power. As you enter this new chapter love yourself enough to know you don’t deserve the hard. We all deserve the flowers, grace, refill your cup daily with all the joy this world offers. Know you are loved by many and we are all here to support you Serena. Love always ❤ keep going the garden will flourish before you know it and all the things you long for will be achieved. Stay blessed!
I am so so sorry for what you are going through. You didn’t deserve to have your life and dreams blown up. I am heartbroken for you, but also believe that the best is yet to come. Take your vitamin d and keep your head up. 🌹
Serina, I can‘t even imagine how gut-wrenching your losses must feel. Everybody experiencing this would struggle. So glad you choose the way of compassion, softness and gentleness four yourself. You deserve to be overwhelmingly generous to yourself and to only let close whatever extends this attitude towards you! You are a wonderful person! I hope you can rest.
Having survived breast cancer, losing my home and then divorced in a matter three years, I can empathize how you have been impacted from losing your farm, your business and your marriage. It is perfectly normal for you to feel vulnerable and lost at this time. Clinging to the one constant, flowers, will give you the strength to move forward, more secure, more confident, more empathetic to vulnerable women who have had to pick-up the pieces and start again. You will survive this and smile once again. I miss your beautiful smiles. Like phoenix, you will emerge from the fire and be recreated once more. Hang in there, I guarantee it does get better. Much love, Gloria.
I started watching this channel years ago when I wanted more flowers... your message is sitting a little different in my life right now. I wish you all the power to make your life what you need.
Serina, my heart goes out to you! I’m a survivor of divorce with young kids that are now grown adults. I’m now on the other side, thriving and also sharing my love of flowers on UA-cam. The garden has always been my place of solace and refuge, my place to start over - multiple times. I’m thinking of you & your kids, sending you hope, love and positive vibes. This garden community loves you!! Keep going, you are strong. Thank you for all that you do. You have helped thousands of people in sharing your journey and grief. Happy Birthday Beautiful! You deserve all the flowers!!💐 ❤
What you said in this episode, almost sounded like poetry. Please write these things down or type it in a very pretty font and post it so that you can remind yourself of these things that you have said to yourself into others. I think that you should definitely plan for a pretty garden at your own house. It may take time, but it will be worth it. We bought a new house that had so much to do, and now almost 4 years later, it is starting to look the way I wanted it too. So also be patient with yourself and with your dreams. Please keep sharing. You may not feel our appreciation of you each day, however, I have been inspired over the years of watching you. You deserve the life that you want.
I watched you struggle and the illnesses and I thought to myself this woman is being drained of life. Surround yourself with people that give you joy and love. You don’t need anyone to “give” you flowers when you can get them yourself. You are beginning a journey.
I love this. It took me 70 years to figure this out so you’re way ahead of the game. You didn’t ask but you need a social life, some girlfriends. Superficial relationships can nourish you, it doesn’t have to be intense. Really looking forward to what you do with your channel. I love flowers.
I am just divorced but have been living alone for several years now. Everything you are now resolved to do for yourself, give yourself flowers, grow yourself flowers to be surrounded by beauty-i do this for myself. As i listened to your video, i was literally yelling “HELL YEAH!!” after each resolution you made. Go go GO!!!!! We are here for you!!
We all know how fiercely strong you are, but just because you carry the weight well, that does not mean it is easy. One observation I have-if your ex says "It's not you, it's me" we can all agree that truly is the case here. Hugs and prayers for you all in moving forward down this new path.
Girl!! Welcome to the self care club.prioritizing yourself is what’s best for your family. When we feel good our family flourishes. I also got a makeover. I cut and colored my hair. Like a drastic change. I felt renewed. I’ve never been a makeup girl but committed to wearing lipgloss or lipstick every time I leave home no matter if it’s to the grocery store or to pick up a kid. The point is to do something for me everyday. Just taking a moment to apply lipgloss feels like I’m taking a moment to pamper me because I’m important too. And so are you. Life can take over and we forget to be be prissy and indulgent to ourselves BUT when others realize that you take care of you they also begin to see you differently. Kudos to you for the flowers. My husband buys me flowers from time to time but I want them all the time so I buy them just for me. I’m praying for you. May I say that you should join a group or a club even if it’s online. Something fun.
During a year of trials, I ran across this phrase. What if YOU WERE ENOUGH? Just you, living and breathing on the planet. Not what you accomplished. Not how others judged you, good or bad. Not how you judged yourself. What if just sitting under that old grandfather tree and breathing in and out was enough. It changed my perspective on everything. We deserve to be enough. That to do list? It's never gonna be a ta-done list. Cause we will ALWAYS be adding things to the bottom as we cross stuff off of the top. I don't want to get to the end of my life, however long it was (I'm 58) and just see a to-do list that never quite got finished. I want to have moments of joy and discovery and creativity and comfort and time in nature just breathing in and out. You are enough. Hugs from SE Washington.
Just the other day I watched the video where you explained why you don’t receive flowers. I think it was from 7 years ago. It made me so sad and parallels my own situation it was sad seeing you be so self sacrificing that you had an excuse for why not receiving flowers was better. I’m so happy you finally realized you deserve all the beautiful little gestures in life. You are an incredibly strong beautiful woman and you put everyone else first you deserve all the flowers in the world Serena!
When I read the title I didn’t want to watch it because I really couldn’t watch any sad, scary or tragic news. But I did. It kind of gave me a slight feeling to still want to be hopeful. We have different struggles and these days I always say “I’m ok about not smiling or laughing. I just don’t want to be sad and angry anymore.” Maybe flowers could help. We’ll see.
I bought my self a gold & diamond necklace.. i didn't need a man's opinion of my worth. Later in life your kids will see your worth.. don't be discouraged treat your self & pamper your self to a pedicure & manicure or buys shoes dress hat or dinner.. My dad would say better to be alone than in bad company miserable. He was so Right.
I too gave until I was empty. I too was discarded instead of refilled. I have followed you for years but THIS season is my absolute favorite. I can't wait to watch you get YOUR flowers. And teach me how to get mine. ❤️
Dear Serina, happy birthday! I always bought flowers for myself. I've always been a flower girl, but even if your channel was about vegetables in the beginning, I followed it for you. You are magnetic, charismatic. You are that girl. We all want to be friends with you. It's not fun to suffer, to be in mourning, but in the end, walking alone is easier than carrying someone who is fighting their own battles. Winter passes, you haven't lost your garden, just a property. You make the garden and you do it well ❤
I'm sorry you have to walk this path. It is so hard, I know from experience. People will be supportive and encouraging which is wonderful but at the end of the day it is only you on that path. It will take time, it always does but I promise out of the pain, struggle, there will be beauty in your life.
I honestly hope she is not alone on that path. I hope she has her family and friends close to her because it is a hard path to walk alone. My sister went through a similar situation and she wouldn't be with us anymore if she had to do it alone... Both because her ex was abusive and because she was psychologically and emotionally at the very bottom. She didn't have a lot of people next to her, but the ones that were there, were there every time and in any way she and her children needed us. I hope Serena will have the same.
@@potocatepetl I think you misunderstood my post. I was not saying that she did not have any support. I was saying that although you have support and help, ultimately it is a path you have to walk, no one else is able to walk it for you, but as I said you can come out the other side.
Wow that was powerful. Imagine a world where we could all be open to strangers and our vulnerabilities be held in each others hands gently. We need more vlogs like this instead of people telling us we are not good enough, how to be, what to think and feel. Thank you.
I remember the depths of despair going through a divorce, and I can relate to you so much. You WILL experience peace and beauty again - actually, you're experiencing it now, but the beauty you're experiencing now is seen in a rear view mirror. I'm here for your journey and praying for you. Can't wait to see the results!!
I want you to know that this video may be one of the most inspiring I have ever seen. I have been watching you on this journey for quite some time..please know that I will continue to join you for each new video. Keep growing and you deserve better. I’m glad you now know it.
I empathize with you and your animals, outdoors, family, friends, hobbies will help you through this time of your life. Stay strong and value yourself because you are a beautiful human being!
And you deserve all that - and guess what - you can give yourself all that - and buy yourself flowers. In life I've learned that no one is going to love you exactly the way you need to be loved or understand you even if you explain it to the people closest to you, even though they may try. Everyone else looks at us through their own lens and experiences. So be good to yourself. You deserve it all!
I'm glad you made this video so you can see in the comments how much we all love and care for you. I have every faith that you will ride out this storm and blossom xx
Your eloquence and perspective is profound. I feel as strong women, we ARE forgotten, we are expected to serve the needs and wants of everyone but ourselves. I love that you recognized this and will give yourself the grace you deserve. Your passions and unbelievable talents shine brighter than you may know! You are loved by many and you deserve nothing shy of the best!!!!!
Just wow. You have me in tears. If you have a Trader Joe's near you can get cheap flowers. I go for one bunch that brings me joy for $4.99. They usually have three or four choices for that price. Carnations, mums, and 'filler flowers' (yes that is what the tag reads). I just look in the 4.99 bins and pick one that calls to me. Every time I walk into the kitchen and see flowers in a quart canning jar it immediately brightens my mood and makes me smile. I live alone and my 21 year old cat passed away about six months ago, so now I'm really alone. It can get cold and dreary in the winter here. I have decided to leave my tiny fake Christmas tree and the big string of colored Christmas lights that I hung on the wall above it there all year. It makes me happy so I'm not going to put them away. Find things that bring you joy and surround yourself with them. Now we know that if we are looking for you we will find you in the flowers. I am excited to follow your videos of how to grow from beginning to bloom. Virtual hug....
You are amazing. Let things be, don't chase answers or expect closure. They have already taken too much of your energy. Focus on you and what brings you joy now. x
You worked so hard. And I saw through the smiles. I knew something was up. You will be allright. You will survive this. You will create beauty again. Because you woman deserve it. Love Deborah.
Serina, I am happy you will not be giving up on flowers. We have a neighbor here who sells flowers and vegetables in their urban farm stand. I am a flower farmer, too. I would never give up my flower farming dream. You deserve everything in life. Don't give up on your dreams that will keep you up and running. Don't give up on selling flowers. i have seen so many people sell from their backyard. I grew just on 500 sqft and made $ 1000 a week. You can do this too.
I'm so sorry for your rough patch. Hang on- spring is coming, and yes!, take good care of yourself! You are beautiful, and you deserve the best! I so look forward to a year of flowers. ❤
This too shall pass,, My flowers are what kept me going after I lost my husband,, , Others find happiness in your flowers,, even if you have to downsize,,, you can do it!! I know it is hard emotionally , and this time of year especially . I am 77 years old and the artheritis is kicking in,, but my flowers make me happy!!! Hang in there honey!
Hey neighbour! I literally never comment on videos but I simply cannot help myself here 😊 I feel so much of this in my own journey this past year. I started my farm, felt who I was for the first time in forever, saw the truth of my life, and split from my partner of seven years. I also never got flowers, and my birthday was almost always an afterthought if it was even remembered. The softness and beauty is something I will never let myself let go of again, and the beauty in me is something I will make sure is seen by anyone who gets let in. As deep and challenging as it is to grow back into ourselves and feel grounded and healthy again after being uprooted, we’ll always reestablish if we make sure to nurture ourselves. I’m soooo excited for you just like I’m excited for me too! As soon as I saw you were on your solo life venture, I was excited. It’s so hard, it’s so deeply difficult, but it’s so beautiful. Let your old life decompose and nurture your new one. ❤ see you around!
Serena-The hardest part of my divorce from the cheating, lying bastard was letting go of my dreams, not him. the best about a smaller house-lower bills, less maintenance. Smaller lot-less maintenance. I use grow bags excessively on my 1/4 very hilly acre lot because at 67 years old I'M NOT DIGGING ANY MORE HOLES IN THIS ROCKY SOIL. Serena, I am so sorry you've had to deal with this nightmare. much compassion from Southern York County Pennsylvania
I’m an artist. I’ve won first place and best of show here and there for decades. (My paintings are my flowers.) I’ve always painted what everyone else wants. Thank you for making me understand in and quick instant that it’s okay to paint beautiful things for ME… not just because it might do well in a juried exhibition or just because someone commissioned me to do it or just because that subject sells well. Thank you, beautiful flower grower! This is the first of your videos I’ve ever seen and I’m thankful for you today.
Just know we love you. I'm sending hugs and prayers. God has a plan and he is beside you. You deserve more than what's been going on the past few years.
Serina, I am so grateful for the beauty and joy you have brought into my life. I wish there was a way I could make you smile in return for all the smiles you have given me. Yes, to treating yourself like a birthday girl all year long!
One of my other favorite vloggers has a thing she says a lot: “buy yourself the damn flowers” and she says it as a reminder to herself, and everyone to be your own joy in life. It will be a hard road ahead but it will be so worth it. Give yourself grace and love. You deserve it. ❤
Life can be difficult & complicated, but, no one is ill & that is the main issue. Your health is your wealth. I would love to see you growing again, & in time developing your new space in such a way you can create bouquets again.
Wow.... Going through a break up because I finaly decided to see myself and to see my needs and to choose me and I resonate with this video so much! It made me cry because it put words on some of my feelings. Thank you for being vulnerable, thank you for letting us see and hear this. Wishing us all the flowers all the time!
One thing i always thought about you as i watched your video's was how hard you work!! There is no flower farm without you Serena. My heart goes out to you and your children. You have shown SO much grace over the past several months as things have been revealed. I watch your video's because of you and the beauty that you create. You've taught me so much about growing flowers and i look forward to learning so much more. I have been, and will continue to pray for you and your children. You deserve better.
This time of year is notoriously difficult for many of us particularly if huge life changes are occurring. Serena give yourself time to recuperate and recharge. Please don’t beat yourself up about needing to hunker down and hibernate if necessary. It’s allowed. Listen to your body and then all in good time “ you can have flowers “.🌺
You have given a lot of people joy with your flowers. I'm still enjoying the dried bouquet I picked up a year and a half ago when we were travelling in the area. I'm glad you are going to make yourself the priority and find your joy with flowers too. Take care of yourself. There's a lot of folks pulling for you.
Serena, when the flowers come, hold them close to your heart, close your eyes and you will feel their healing energy, which they will have because of the energy you gave them, when you grew them and nurtured them ❤️ xx
I was a grower and Florist running a nursery did Farmers Market for years. Done! I hope to get my patio and planters full of flowers and give me some. I have been purchasing flowers since last year help me get thru the hard days. Great thoughts and you can do this!
Happy birthday! 🥳 You will probably never know how many people (like me) who watched you, with the light on your hat, working alone, into the wee hours and were simply amazed at your strength. I learned a ton from you about gardening and about resilience. I respect you immensely! I’m looking forward to seeing you bring your new garden into being and, undoubtedly, I will learn even more from you! 🥰
I love your channel, I'm here rooting for you, cheering you on and understanding when days are sometimes difficult to support and pray for you. You're doing an amazing job with the large space on the farm now with your smaller space of your beautiful home. Large or small your space is providing beautiful for you as well as your viewing audience and we say thank you. I wish I could have you as my neighbor to collaborate and grow our dream gardens of beauty together. In conclusion on the dark days remember you have us who truly appreciate all you put into providing the world a beautiful space of flowers, with kindness, love, and a wonderful smile each and every time you post.
It’s completely understandable as to how you are feeling. Your whole life has been turned upside down. You’re a grafter and a fighter, you are strong, but definitely not invisible! You can, and you will, find your own peace….and that kind of peace is priceless. We’re all here to follow you on your new journey….you got this Girl!! 💕And yes, you do deserve flowers every day. 🌼🌸🌺
Prayers, I know this is a tough journey. Keep your channel respectable. Watch the drama that can be cause by your new journey… and you deserve flowers. You’re doing a great job… one step at a time!!
May it be so! You are amazing and this is a beautiful prayer. Thank you always for your honesty, and showing us your strong spirit through it all. There is so much strength and grace shinning through your journey.
We all deserve flowers!
We do, especially women who seem to put others before ourselves. You know what colours you really like, so indulge yourself, be your friend, relax, get your hair done, whatever you WANT to do. 🫂🇨🇦
I'm excited to see the new beautiful life you create for yourself! You're a very talented and smart business woman! We all need a time out to reflect and rest, so we can come back even stronger! Sending you love and hugs!
You definitely deserve flowers especially on your birthday!!!💐 🌺🪷🌸💮🏵️🌻🌼🌹🪻💐
❤💐🌸🥀🌺🌻🌼🌷⚘🌾❤
We all need a season of rest and fleets… love you… mad respect !
I have been in your space. When my marriage ended i was lost, sad, and I didn't know who I was. But I am now on the other side and can tell you that you will shine again!! I've missed you on YT and was wondering how you were coping. Just know we women are resilient. I believe in you!
When I watched Serena's video, I could so relate because I have been where she is. My marriage failed and I had 2 young children to raise. Not to mention, I am a quadriplegic and rely on my mom and sister for care. Right now, in the dead of winter, things feel gloomy. Just watching your video and hearing your story made me feel like I'm not the only one in spring is coming. It also reminded me that I need to order seed for those big beautiful marigolds. So gorgeous. Things will get better
I believe in you too! ❤ You are an INSPIRATION
I have been watching you for years. I sense a new determination and energy. Your prose sound clear and inspired. You are ready.
I am a newer sub, but I have also thought of you lately, and hoping you were doing well! Things will get better promise, I have been there, you need to take care of YOU, and make YOU happy for once! Much ❤️
But the problem became gay that's different history that's disgusting
You go girl, plant those flowers for you, you deserve it. Rome wasn't built in a day, one day at a time.
I can’t wait to watch you cultivate a beautiful life for yourself. We are all here cheering for you. You are not alone. Winter is so hard but remember the peony. Without those freezing temps, she wouldn’t bloom. The winter serves a purpose too. Rooting for you.
I'm nobody but I believe you are graceful and incredible. You've publicly handled a situation I cannot even imagine and done it with grace. You've made something from nothing and I look forward to learning from you so I can fill my life with flowers too.
Beautifully written!
The words I couldn’t find. Thank you! Long time subscriber. Years. I learned how to grow with this channel. Serena is strength and there’s beauty in this journey- bloom baby bloom.❤
Me to, Alyssa. Serena has taught me so incredibly much about gardening. She inspired me during COVID and it broke my heart to see her difficulties. I believe in you, Serena!
You're not nobody, you're you and the only you that's ever been or ever will be.
In 2022 I was diagnosed with cancer. As I started going through 5 months of chemotherapy, having loved to garden most of my life and despite fatigue, I started to dig up the (grass) parkway in front of my house by hand and replace it with flowers. A little bit at a time. No gardener, just me. I needed to do something simply to deal with the emotions I was going through. I've never considered myself a strong person, just stubborn. Today, my cancer is in remission, I continue to get stronger every day, and the flower garden is thriving. It's almost become a badge of honor. Flowers are truly food for the soul.
"i don't want to hide my talents for fear that someone else might feel less because of them." This is the reality of many women. I hope we all rise, push back and walk away from these suffocating people and relationships.
That statement stood out to me too, since starting my flower journey or anything good in life, I’d have to keep them on the down-low because of toxic friends that don’t like when good things happen to me. This year I said no more!! I’m going to surround myself with people that are happy with my achievements.
I’m in your corner and will
be supporting you this year:) I too chose to my own cutflower garden.
I thought the title was click bait so I resisted watching it for a while, but oh my word. So glad I watched. This was like an essay for all the women out there who feel the same. You are important to people you will never even know exist because of your beautiful work here! Keep blooming ❤
I died when watching this. You’re bravery in wearing your heart on your sleeve, and speaking so openly about your pain in your past, but also your determination... it’s just so impressive. Your strength will surprise you one day looking back at this time. But at what cost! I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through.
Serena, I am flower farming because of you. It started out as seeking someone with business advice on UA-cam for vegetable market gardening and I pivoted when you did. You've never been invisible to us, here. You are strong, a hard worker, bright, thoughtful, and you are admired by many. I barely ever comment on any videos, but I needed to share with you that you have been such a positive influence on so many of us! ❤️
I second everything you said ! we all love you and thank you for sharing your lives with us all . its hard life is hard my mom died 2 years ago from cancer and these videos make me want to get outside and plant more things , I tried geo seeds and figured out that crazy book with no pictures Thanks to you ! we are here for you Serena
PS: You reminded me of one of my favorite poems. Part of it says, "Don't wait on someone to bring you flowers. Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul."
I think so many of us women have this exact realization but feel so alone. You deserve all that you mentioned and more.
I recently saw Ian’s videos. My heart goes out to you Serena! You worked so hard on the flower farm. Not only do you have to grieve the loss o marriage but the loss of the farm, your business, and the person you thought you knew and the father of your children! You have every reason to be struggling! I hope you are seeking out some help❤
What videos?
Despite their split I don’t think Serina would find support in blatantly disrespectful comments.
@@halfcenturyfarm607red roof flower farm is Ian’s channel
@@audrobinI’m not sure what part of my comment you found disrespectful. I was trying to be empathetic with Serena! She has a lot to deal with and I really enjoyed both Seren and Ian on this channel for a very long time!
@ Maybe you missed the official announcement, Serena’s ex goes by Becca now.
I've been a florist (growing flowers in season also) for 2 1/2 years now, and last week, a small bouquet delivery date ended up changing last minute so I opened the paper, grabed a vase and arranged them for my kitchen table. I hadn't done that ever. Since then, I swap the dead flowers as they die for a few new ones to keep it looking fresh. It has brought me more joy than I would have thought. In the cool room, flowers are work, but on my kitchen table, it's a little breath of happy. Take care 🫶
I love the flower metaphor. You know, I was depressed and jobless at home when I found your channel. I was at rock bottom and you were the flowers in my life. I actually started learning to garden BECAUSE I found your channel, when I've only had house plants I killed before. I got racks, grow lights, the works.. and when I was stuck on something... I messaged you on instagram and you answered every time. I hope you understand that you've been a great thing for others, and I think we can all agree you deserve the best... happiness, peace, respect. This may be your bottom now, and I and probably many others are here for you if you need us. You are more loved than you think. Reach out... find your people... and know that it gets better.
It only took a couple minutes of this video to make me cry. ME, who used to never allow myself even one tear. Not tears of sorrow but understanding. It was your voice, your feelings and your life but it's a road I've traveled.
I have to tell you that it took me a long time. To find the right road. It was a marathon of emotions. It took me eight years of focusing on me and what I needed, but I made it through. I went from survive to thrive and learned to take time to smell the flowers. And along the way I became jaded and even harder. Then I thought it would always be just me, the children grown and gone and my horse my closest friend. I needed no one. I did for myself. To heck with the world, i had my own back.
Then it happened. I received the greatest gift; someone who saw me, appreciated me, fit in my world. I wasnt looking. I was basking in the contentment of freedom and independence. I understand now that it took me those lonely years to be ready for this new life. It is meant to be and glorious.
When the time is right. Once you have processed and found your rhythm someday you may find a best friend that isn't the earth. Take your time. Enjoy the journey. It will be beautiful. Become the best version of yourself surrounded in flowers!
So Nice tnx four the story and suport
You are seen…you are heard. Flowers bring out the sparkle buried deep inside each of us. Best to you!
You will find yourself each time you do something new on your own. We know you are strong but you get to be fragile and afraid, you’re human and you’re hurting. No need to put on a show here, we know and admire you for who you are, your knowledge ,your enthusiasm for life (it will come back along with the flowers). Sending big hugs and kindness from the UK. We will all stay on this journey with you🥰
This is so beautifully written. Thank you for your vulnerability. So excited for this year of soft and cozy and flowers.
I agree with this!! So beautifully written
"I haven't had a lot of softness in my life. I think I felt I deserved hard, so I went out and found hard for myself." So. Many. Women. Serena, you are not only an incredible flower farmer, you are a beacon of light showing us a path to follow. This is your gift to all of us who follow you. Your vulnerability leaves me inspired. Thank you for all of that. Big hugs (and many flowers) to you ❤💐🌻🌷🌺
Yes But what bothers me is her ex.Husband ian now becca is celebrating his or now her life on another youtube channel and she's crying and depressed. This is so sad to me I hate it.
@@LisaGuigar Yea, I hear you. And I saw Ian's/Becca post. S/he seems lost. Just my read on that. I've known others who transitioned really well, that's not what I'm seeing with him/her.
The children going through this and how it affects them now and into their future
I am sorry that you are going through this. You've had a lot of changes, none of which you asked for. You do deserve flowers, kindness, love and respect. If it doesn't come from outside sources then give yourself that gift. You know what gives you joy and fills your soul and soon the weather will change and you will be able to start on your garden.
I’m right there with you. Since I lost my son watching your flower videos has been my go to for comfort. You even gave me the courage to start growing flowers. Bring surrounded by flowers is when I feel the happiest. Praying for you and yes you deserve flowers everyday ❤
Welp, I gotta tell ya. When I started watching your videos 3 years ago, I didn’t see this coming. I’m so sorry for you and your family. Some people say that an event like this makes you feel like a widow/widower. The person you once fell in love with has died.
I’m not sure if you feel this way or ever will, but I hope you have a support system aside from us.
On the positive side… if you have 50/50 custody of the kids, at least you’ll get a much needed break on a regular basis. ❤
You write exactly what I was thinking about how it has to be for Serena! As he also changes his name and look, it has to be like you would loose your husband completely. On one side I am often wondering how easy it seems to be, that men go their way and live "their" life and on the other hand I completely understand, that he has to do that, if he has these feelings. But on the other hand I am completely aware, that Serena, who never asked for this change in her live, again has a ton of pressure to carry alone! She didn't demand for this change in HER life, she always gave her best until complete exhaustion and to be honest: I don't understand why he didn't take the money and buy himself a new house. He could have left his children their home and Serena her farm (because actually it was mainly her brain and muscles, that made this farm start and shine). That would have been some nice way to do it, not putting SO much pressure and changes to the children and her. That would have been the kind way to a new life for him, not talking on UA-cam about all the success he will have for example with all the peonies, she put in during some cold period ... I remember her working on that. And now he is profiting from her work, while she has to start all over again. To be honest, that has a bitter taste to me!! 😢 But I am completely sure, that she will start up like a phoenix from the ashes (because as sad as it is: thats what she learned in her youth) and I hope, that she will stay independant for the rest of her life! I completely know what I am talking about, being 58 and in the same situation. Many women tend to work hard for their families and don't think about themselves, until they are burnt out or not considered as "interesting enough any more" etc. But to be honest: being in the same situation, I myself don't consider many men as interesting enough ;) Often it's also difficult to keep or find new friends, when you are always working. To many people you (= I) seem to be not that funny any more and they just loose interest in contacting you. Thats really bad and also sad, especially in a situation, when you would need some good friends!! I completely understand the point Serena mentioned: we should try to be nicer to ourselves, if we didn't learn that in our youth. She is absolutely right and I am thankful, that she was brave enough to share that and remind me of it! I see a huge lot of women, that were brought up with the attitude to give everything for their family, not being also nice to themselves. I wonder, if this point could also become a side-theme of this channel: How can we take care of ourselves ... I would love to get some inspiration!! 💖🤗🌞 Greetings from Denmark!!! 😘
@@uteberg4781I hope you realise that you are judging a situation that you do not know a lot about. They shared a bit of their journey but not much. You are making a lot of assumptions and partially are even ignoring things they shared (e.g. that they seemed to share looking out for the kids often in a way that Becca (Ian) had intense times with the kids so assuming, that the farm will only feel like home to them kids when it belongs to Serina is interesting…)
Separation, with kids and a business is always hard and there will be loss inevitably. And it is super sad that Serina will not continue to be part of a business that she put her heart and soul into. But they never badmouthed the other person, just communicated their reasons and circumstances about what led to this decision. They seem to be still amicable. I feel that we, who do not know much, should just act according to their example.
You can grieve loss without pointing the finger. That is what Serina does. It is a good example also for her kids. Let’s maybe follow along.
@ I was not judging at all, and you completely misunderstood the point I was talking about, concerning who is owning the farm. I didn't mean that the kids just feel at home when the farm is owned by Serena, but Ian already was talking about the fact, that he rents the farmhouse as Airbnb, so to normal understanding its clear that the children can't live in this house/= their former home any more. Thats what I meant. And its also clear, that Serena had to leave her former home too, what she also was talking about in all of her new video. So I don't understand what you think I got wrong. Those are big changes for each of them, what I also mentioned and its totally ok to support also Serena and her hard way, that she didn't choose to go. She already mentioned, that she didn't have the money to buy Ian out, but he had. Nothing wrong in what I said. And yes, we should support them, thats what I am doing. Do the same and don't interpret thoughts in my words, that are not meant like this. You will not be helping them with wild speculations about others.
Sadly, I felt like they were going to separate… the way she talked to him in so many videos… something was off…
Serena you have never been invisible. You have been a shining star in the online flower world. You have inspired us, taught us and led the way into fearless farming and being 100% your authentic self.
I never thought it looked easy, I honestly don't know you've done it. Respect is deserved and given you.
I saw your ex husbands video a few days ago and I am not sure how you managed in such a space. My heart broke we have never met but UA-cam surrounds us with so much family. Know that in this new era you will be great as you know knowledge is power. As you enter this new chapter love yourself enough to know you don’t deserve the hard. We all deserve the flowers, grace, refill your cup daily with all the joy this world offers. Know you are loved by many and we are all here to support you Serena. Love always ❤ keep going the garden will flourish before you know it and all the things you long for will be achieved. Stay blessed!
Do you have a link for his video that you can share?
Red roof flower farm is his/her new channel. @@E2Limonchi
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL
WE SEE YOU AND YOUR HARD WORK ALL THESE PAST YEARS❤❤❤❤❤
I am so so sorry for what you are going through. You didn’t deserve to have your life and dreams blown up. I am heartbroken for you, but also believe that the best is yet to come. Take your vitamin d and keep your head up. 🌹
Amen!
Welcome to the sisterhood of women who refuse to be diminished because of others' insecurities. You go girl!
Serina, I can‘t even imagine how gut-wrenching your losses must feel. Everybody experiencing this would struggle. So glad you choose the way of compassion, softness and gentleness four yourself. You deserve to be overwhelmingly generous to yourself and to only let close whatever extends this attitude towards you! You are a wonderful person! I hope you can rest.
Me too... May we all manifest a year of soft, cozy, grace, beauty, and respect.
Having survived breast cancer, losing my home and then divorced in a matter three years, I can empathize how you have been impacted from losing your farm, your business and your marriage. It is perfectly normal for you to feel vulnerable and lost at this time. Clinging to the one constant, flowers, will give you the strength to move forward, more secure, more confident, more empathetic to vulnerable women who have had to pick-up the pieces and start again. You will survive this and smile once again. I miss your beautiful smiles. Like phoenix, you will emerge from the fire and be recreated once more. Hang in there, I guarantee it does get better. Much love, Gloria.
I started watching this channel years ago when I wanted more flowers... your message is sitting a little different in my life right now. I wish you all the power to make your life what you need.
Serina, my heart goes out to you! I’m a survivor of divorce with young kids that are now grown adults. I’m now on the other side, thriving and also sharing my love of flowers on UA-cam. The garden has always been my place of solace and refuge, my place to start over - multiple times. I’m thinking of you & your kids, sending you hope, love and positive vibes. This garden community loves you!! Keep going, you are strong. Thank you for all that you do. You have helped thousands of people in sharing your journey and grief. Happy Birthday Beautiful! You deserve all the flowers!!💐 ❤
What you said in this episode, almost sounded like poetry. Please write these things down or type it in a very pretty font and post it so that you can remind yourself of these things that you have said to yourself into others. I think that you should definitely plan for a pretty garden at your own house. It may take time, but it will be worth it.
We bought a new house that had so much to do, and now almost 4 years later, it is starting to look the way I wanted it too. So also be patient with yourself and with your dreams. Please keep sharing. You may not feel our appreciation of you each day, however, I have been inspired over the years of watching you. You deserve the life that you want.
Happy Birthday Sweetie, we are all cheering for you.
Happy Birthday 🎈🎂🤩🥳 Serena 🍰
I watched you struggle and the illnesses and I thought to myself this woman is being drained of life. Surround yourself with people that give you joy and love. You don’t need anyone to “give” you flowers when you can get them yourself. You are beginning a journey.
Looking forward to all your flowers🌷🌺🌸💐
I love this. It took me 70 years to figure this out so you’re way ahead of the game. You didn’t ask but you need a social life, some girlfriends. Superficial relationships can nourish you, it doesn’t have to be intense. Really looking
forward to what you do with your channel. I love flowers.
I am just divorced but have been living alone for several years now. Everything you are now resolved to do for yourself, give yourself flowers, grow yourself flowers to be surrounded by beauty-i do this for myself. As i listened to your video, i was literally yelling “HELL YEAH!!” after each resolution you made. Go go GO!!!!! We are here for you!!
Wow! Serina this is so powerful, so beautiful and so uplifting to see you valuing yourself in this way. Much love to you from us over in Wales.
We all know how fiercely strong you are, but just because you carry the weight well, that does not mean it is easy.
One observation I have-if your ex says "It's not you, it's me" we can all agree that truly is the case here.
Hugs and prayers for you all in moving forward down this new path.
Girl!! Welcome to the self care club.prioritizing yourself is what’s best for your family. When we feel good our family flourishes. I also got a makeover. I cut and colored my hair. Like a drastic change. I felt renewed. I’ve never been a makeup girl but committed to wearing lipgloss or lipstick every time I leave home no matter if it’s to the grocery store or to pick up a kid. The point is to do something for me everyday. Just taking a moment to apply lipgloss feels like I’m taking a moment to pamper me because I’m important too. And so are you. Life can take over and we forget to be be prissy and indulgent to ourselves BUT when others realize that you take care of you they also begin to see you differently. Kudos to you for the flowers. My husband buys me flowers from time to time but I want them all the time so I buy them just for me. I’m praying for you. May I say that you should join a group or a club even if it’s online. Something fun.
Yes to the lipgloss. A 30 second thing that makes us feel just a tiny bit more beautiful. Awesome suggestion!
During a year of trials, I ran across this phrase. What if YOU WERE ENOUGH? Just you, living and breathing on the planet. Not what you accomplished. Not how others judged you, good or bad. Not how you judged yourself. What if just sitting under that old grandfather tree and breathing in and out was enough. It changed my perspective on everything. We deserve to be enough. That to do list? It's never gonna be a ta-done list. Cause we will ALWAYS be adding things to the bottom as we cross stuff off of the top. I don't want to get to the end of my life, however long it was (I'm 58) and just see a to-do list that never quite got finished. I want to have moments of joy and discovery and creativity and comfort and time in nature just breathing in and out. You are enough. Hugs from SE Washington.
Just the other day I watched the video where you explained why you don’t receive flowers. I think it was from 7 years ago. It made me so sad and parallels my own situation it was sad seeing you be so self sacrificing that you had an excuse for why not receiving flowers was better. I’m so happy you finally realized you deserve all the beautiful little gestures in life. You are an incredibly strong beautiful woman and you put everyone else first you deserve all the flowers in the world Serena!
When I read the title I didn’t want to watch it because I really couldn’t watch any sad, scary or tragic news. But I did. It kind of gave me a slight feeling to still want to be hopeful. We have different struggles and these days I always say “I’m ok about not smiling or laughing. I just don’t want to be sad and angry anymore.” Maybe flowers could help. We’ll see.
Flowers are so rewarding. And bring joy. Find what sparks joy.
Beautiful. Sending love and softness!
I bought my self a gold & diamond necklace.. i didn't need a man's opinion of my worth. Later in life your kids will see your worth.. don't be discouraged treat your self & pamper your self to a pedicure & manicure or buys shoes dress hat or dinner..
My dad would say better to be alone than in bad company miserable.
He was so Right.
I too gave until I was empty. I too was discarded instead of refilled. I have followed you for years but THIS season is my absolute favorite. I can't wait to watch you get YOUR flowers. And teach me how to get mine. ❤️
We are behind you , Serena. I will be growing too. We all deserve flowers.
Yes! Do it! You totally deserve flowers and we'll be here rooting for you.💐
Get the stinky lilies!! You deserve all your favorite things in your garden ❤
She has cats so not a good idea
Hahaha you're missing the point of the stinky lilies, Butterfly 😂
"I want to hoard beauty". I love that you said that! Sending you love and wishes to have everything you want and deserve!
Dear Serina, happy birthday! I always bought flowers for myself. I've always been a flower girl, but even if your channel was about vegetables in the beginning, I followed it for you. You are magnetic, charismatic. You are that girl. We all want to be friends with you. It's not fun to suffer, to be in mourning, but in the end, walking alone is easier than carrying someone who is fighting their own battles. Winter passes, you haven't lost your garden, just a property. You make the garden and you do it well ❤
I'm sorry you have to walk this path. It is so hard, I know from experience. People will be supportive and encouraging which is wonderful but at the end of the day it is only you on that path. It will take time, it always does but I promise out of the pain, struggle, there will be beauty in your life.
I honestly hope she is not alone on that path. I hope she has her family and friends close to her because it is a hard path to walk alone. My sister went through a similar situation and she wouldn't be with us anymore if she had to do it alone... Both because her ex was abusive and because she was psychologically and emotionally at the very bottom. She didn't have a lot of people next to her, but the ones that were there, were there every time and in any way she and her children needed us. I hope Serena will have the same.
@@potocatepetl I think you misunderstood my post. I was not saying that she did not have any support. I was saying that although you have support and help, ultimately it is a path you have to walk, no one else is able to walk it for you, but as I said you can come out the other side.
Wow that was powerful. Imagine a world where we could all be open to strangers and our vulnerabilities be held in each others hands gently. We need more vlogs like this instead of people telling us we are not good enough, how to be, what to think and feel. Thank you.
I remember the depths of despair going through a divorce, and I can relate to you so much. You WILL experience peace and beauty again - actually, you're experiencing it now, but the beauty you're experiencing now is seen in a rear view mirror. I'm here for your journey and praying for you. Can't wait to see the results!!
I want you to know that this video may be one of the most inspiring I have ever seen. I have been watching you on this journey for quite some time..please know that I will continue to join you for each new video. Keep growing and you deserve better. I’m glad you now know it.
I empathize with you and your animals, outdoors, family, friends, hobbies will help you through this time of your life. Stay strong and value yourself because you are a beautiful human being!
Love this so much! You are amazing Serena and deserve all the flowers!
Happy birthday Serina! We love you!
And you deserve all that - and guess what - you can give yourself all that - and buy yourself flowers. In life I've learned that no one is going to love you exactly the way you need to be loved or understand you even if you explain it to the people closest to you, even though they may try. Everyone else looks at us through their own lens and experiences. So be good to yourself. You deserve it all!
I'm glad you made this video so you can see in the comments how much we all love and care for you. I have every faith that you will ride out this storm and blossom xx
Your eloquence and perspective is profound. I feel as strong women, we ARE forgotten, we are expected to serve the needs and wants of everyone but ourselves. I love that you recognized this and will give yourself the grace you deserve. Your passions and unbelievable talents shine brighter than you may know! You are loved by many and you deserve nothing shy of the best!!!!!
Just wow. You have me in tears. If you have a Trader Joe's near you can get cheap flowers. I go for one bunch that brings me joy for $4.99. They usually have three or four choices for that price. Carnations, mums, and 'filler flowers' (yes that is what the tag reads). I just look in the 4.99 bins and pick one that calls to me. Every time I walk into the kitchen and see flowers in a quart canning jar it immediately brightens my mood and makes me smile.
I live alone and my 21 year old cat passed away about six months ago, so now I'm really alone. It can get cold and dreary in the winter here. I have decided to leave my tiny fake Christmas tree and the big string of colored Christmas lights that I hung on the wall above it there all year. It makes me happy so I'm not going to put them away. Find things that bring you joy and surround yourself with them. Now we know that if we are looking for you we will find you in the flowers.
I am excited to follow your videos of how to grow from beginning to bloom.
Virtual hug....
A virtual hug to you too!😊
You are amazing. Let things be, don't chase answers or expect closure. They have already taken too much of your energy. Focus on you and what brings you joy now. x
You worked so hard. And I saw through the smiles. I knew something was up. You will be allright. You will survive this. You will create beauty again. Because you woman deserve it. Love Deborah.
Serina, I am happy you will not be giving up on flowers. We have a neighbor here who sells flowers and vegetables in their urban farm stand. I am a flower farmer, too. I would never give up my flower farming dream. You deserve everything in life. Don't give up on your dreams that will keep you up and running. Don't give up on selling flowers. i have seen so many people sell from their backyard. I grew just on 500 sqft and made $ 1000 a week. You can do this too.
I'm so sorry for your rough patch. Hang on- spring is coming, and yes!, take good care of yourself! You are beautiful, and you deserve the best!
I so look forward to a year of flowers. ❤
Me too!!!
This too shall pass,, My flowers are what kept me going after I lost my husband,, , Others find happiness in your flowers,, even if you have to downsize,,, you can do it!! I know it is hard emotionally , and this time of year especially . I am 77 years old and the artheritis is kicking in,, but my flowers make me happy!!! Hang in there honey!
Happy birthday girl 💐
Hey neighbour! I literally never comment on videos but I simply cannot help myself here 😊 I feel so much of this in my own journey this past year. I started my farm, felt who I was for the first time in forever, saw the truth of my life, and split from my partner of seven years. I also never got flowers, and my birthday was almost always an afterthought if it was even remembered. The softness and beauty is something I will never let myself let go of again, and the beauty in me is something I will make sure is seen by anyone who gets let in. As deep and challenging as it is to grow back into ourselves and feel grounded and healthy again after being uprooted, we’ll always reestablish if we make sure to nurture ourselves. I’m soooo excited for you just like I’m excited for me too! As soon as I saw you were on your solo life venture, I was excited. It’s so hard, it’s so deeply difficult, but it’s so beautiful. Let your old life decompose and nurture your new one. ❤ see you around!
Serena-The hardest part of my divorce from the cheating, lying bastard was letting go of my dreams, not him. the best about a smaller house-lower bills, less maintenance.
Smaller lot-less maintenance. I use grow bags excessively on my 1/4 very hilly acre lot because at 67 years old I'M NOT DIGGING ANY MORE HOLES IN THIS ROCKY SOIL.
Serena, I am so sorry you've had to deal with this nightmare. much compassion from Southern York County Pennsylvania
I’m an artist. I’ve won first place and best of show here and there for decades. (My paintings are my flowers.) I’ve always painted what everyone else wants. Thank you for making me understand in and quick instant that it’s okay to paint beautiful things for ME… not just because it might do well in a juried exhibition or just because someone commissioned me to do it or just because that subject sells well. Thank you, beautiful flower grower! This is the first of your videos I’ve ever seen and I’m thankful for you today.
Happy birthday, Serena. May you have flowers for every birthday going forward. You deserve them, and so much more.
Just know we love you. I'm sending hugs and prayers. God has a plan and he is beside you. You deserve more than what's been going on the past few years.
Serina, I am so grateful for the beauty and joy you have brought into my life. I wish there was a way I could make you smile in return for all the smiles you have given me. Yes, to treating yourself like a birthday girl all year long!
One of my other favorite vloggers has a thing she says a lot: “buy yourself the damn flowers” and she says it as a reminder to herself, and everyone to be your own joy in life. It will be a hard road ahead but it will be so worth it. Give yourself grace and love. You deserve it. ❤
Life can be difficult & complicated, but, no one is ill & that is the main issue. Your health is your wealth. I would love to see you growing again, & in time developing your new space in such a way you can create bouquets again.
You said everything I've been feeling
This forced pause is a curse and a blessing. It is so hard to see the blessing when your heart feels empty. Thank you for being authentic ❤
Wow.... Going through a break up because I finaly decided to see myself and to see my needs and to choose me and I resonate with this video so much! It made me cry because it put words on some of my feelings. Thank you for being vulnerable, thank you for letting us see and hear this.
Wishing us all the flowers all the time!
Let's go!!! Get those flowers girl. Amazing tribute to yourself. You got this 😁👍🏿
One thing i always thought about you as i watched your video's was how hard you work!! There is no flower farm without you Serena. My heart goes out to you and your children. You have shown SO much grace over the past several months as things have been revealed. I watch your video's because of you and the beauty that you create. You've taught me so much about growing flowers and i look forward to learning so much more. I have been, and will continue to pray for you and your children. You deserve better.
This time of year is notoriously difficult for many of us particularly if huge life changes are occurring. Serena give yourself time to recuperate and recharge. Please don’t beat yourself up about needing to hunker down and hibernate if necessary. It’s allowed. Listen to your body and then all in good time “ you can have flowers “.🌺
I really appreciate you being authentic in this hard time of your life. Your not alone.
Oh gosh, this brought me to tears!!! You got this. We are behind you, we are blooming WITH you! And YOU deserve beauty!!
You have given a lot of people joy with your flowers. I'm still enjoying the dried bouquet I picked up a year and a half ago when we were travelling in the area. I'm glad you are going to make yourself the priority and find your joy with flowers too. Take care of yourself. There's a lot of folks pulling for you.
Serena, when the flowers come, hold them close to your heart, close your eyes and you will feel their healing energy, which they will have because of the energy you gave them, when you grew them and nurtured them ❤️ xx
I was a grower and Florist running a nursery did Farmers Market for years. Done! I hope to get my patio and planters full of flowers and give me some. I have been purchasing flowers since last year help me get thru the hard days. Great thoughts and you can do this!
I think we should all play this, every morning. What a great inspirational speech. Thank you Serena!
Happy birthday! 🥳 You will probably never know how many people (like me) who watched you, with the light on your hat, working alone, into the wee hours and were simply amazed at your strength. I learned a ton from you about gardening and about resilience. I respect you immensely! I’m looking forward to seeing you bring your new garden into being and, undoubtedly, I will learn even more from you! 🥰
I love your channel, I'm here rooting for you, cheering you on and understanding when days are sometimes difficult to support and pray for you. You're doing an amazing job with the large space on the farm now with your smaller space of your beautiful home. Large or small your space is providing beautiful for you as well as your viewing audience and we say thank you. I wish I could have you as my neighbor to collaborate and grow our dream gardens of beauty together. In conclusion on the dark days remember you have us who truly appreciate all you put into providing the world a beautiful space of flowers, with kindness, love, and a wonderful smile each and every time you post.
It’s completely understandable as to how you are feeling. Your whole life has been turned upside down. You’re a grafter and a fighter, you are strong, but definitely not invisible! You can, and you will, find your own peace….and that kind of peace is priceless. We’re all here to follow you on your new journey….you got this Girl!! 💕And yes, you do deserve flowers every day. 🌼🌸🌺
🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻 some virtual flowers for you, Serina! keep moving forward!
Prayers, I know this is a tough journey. Keep your channel respectable. Watch the drama that can be cause by your new journey… and you deserve flowers. You’re doing a great job… one step at a time!!
everyone deserves flowers. thank you for sharing this piece
May it be so! You are amazing and this is a beautiful prayer. Thank you always for your honesty, and showing us your strong spirit through it all. There is so much strength and grace shinning through your journey.
I'm with you on this journey. I think I deserve flowers too. Sending love, hugs and strength from the UK