+Sydney Katherine Sorry about that! If you're interested, try lowering the speed (lower right corner). You won't be able to hear the music, but it may be easier to read. ♡
Btw-while I am not anorexic, I can see how easy it is to fall down the slippery slope. I believe I have body dysmorphic disorder. I use to be over-weight and always see the fat person staring back at me, even when I'm at the low end of my weight range. This stems from being raised by a mother thAt is anorexic. It's very complicated, but her way of eating and comments toward me, have molded my self esteem. My level of self-worth is reflected by what number I see on the scale. A year ago, I rid of the scale because I was so sick of the cycle...in doing this, it caused my weight to climb, again. It's ugly and I am very tired.
I think the same!! I speak native spanish and learned english, so I understand almost everything in English but not that fast! Hahah I had to slow it down
I usually shy away from these types of videos because i agree, seeing others girls' AN photos just make my disorder jealous and feel like I'm not sick enough. But I watched yours and it moved me to tears. We are so alike - no, scratch that, our DISORDERS are so alike - because as hard as it is for me to believe, I know I am someone else beneath all the lies my ED tells me. It broke my heart to see you morph from a happy young woman to a shell of her. I can't see that I'm doing that to myself despite what my family and friends are telling me. However, your video sheds hope. You transformed again, even though you were scared, into a woman with a genuine smile who lives life rather than hides from it. I'm struggling right now and plagued by those same horrible ED side effects you mentioned. I just want to tell you from one ED warrior to another that I admire your bravery. If you can do it, I can too. Xoxo
I felt the same way watching this :') Waking up confused... denial... Everything. It's scary how something initially just a "thought" can turn into your death story :(
Please seek help. I know it must be scary and maybe you have to push yourselves into doing it, but I hope you realise soon that, if you don't, you will die. Warriors aren't a common thing among our society, they're a thing to keep.
Thank you c: I'm "recovered" now (healthy weight cuz that aparently means that you're okay now .-.), but I'm struggling to remain :/ But I will push through, I promise
I went through this 20 years ago. I was a zombie and not even skinny lol. I was still plus size but not eating. Just drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes . It was easy because I wasnt working. Once I started working I lost my safety and friend (not eating) because I had to think and be alert and interact with people as a dental assistant. I gained all my weight back and more. But I have a great life and I love myself. I dont get a thrill out of starving anymore.
You have the most beautiful smile I've ever seen! The video was so inspirational and well made :) I wish you all the best and I hope you fully recover♥ Tons of love from me xx
Research anorexia. Actually being fat isn't the point (because they're not...they see it in their minds when there's physically no, or very little fat). It's a control mechanism to make up for where they feel their lives are inadequately meeting their needs.
thank you for helping me understand more about anorexia. I'm sorry you had to struggle and lose control of this, and it took so much to post it up to help other people. you're a very strong woman.
This video is SUPERB. It's been hard for me to understand what a person struggling with this disorder feels like or why they do it. You are the first person who has made me understand why and how it snowballs. I understand addiction and it's really similar in so many ways. 6.5 years sober from vicodin here. 😊 YOU are amazing and have such good insight. I don't know you, but am SO proud of you. ❤❤
ive struggled with all 3...anorexia, binge eating, and bulimia for about 7 years now. watching your video was so emotional for me because I could relate to so much of what you were feeling and all of the pressure that society has placed on girls to be so thin. Just want to say you are an inspiration and I applaud you for all of your progress! you look fantastic and hope all is well!
I understand everything in this video soo well! Please be careful in the future, eating disorders never leave for good - it comes back when you feel down. For me it kinda destroyed my mind, health as well but mind mostly. (I have anorexia + bulimia since I was 11 years old).+ You are super beautiful
EMIKR 에미케이알 Recovery is 100% possible. 25+ yrs of eating disorder. Lots of damage done, but been fully recovered for about 7yrs now!!! Yes occasional body image issues but short lived and hasn't made me want to go back. Life is worth more!! And yes it is possible even though many believe and say it's not!!
@@SamirCCat you are 100% on target. Yes I've damaged mine in many ways and I truly pray others do get to recovery before the damage starts!! Breaks my heart. But on the plus side of it all, I'm alive, healthy, and damn proud of it!!!! Thank you for sharing!!
Wow... All I can say is wow. You're such a beautiful person... I feel like I know you and I want to say that I'm so proud of you (which I definitely am) as if I'm your mom. Things like this aren't a joke and the fact that you were able to overcome it in such a manner is incredible. Keep up the hard work, Tia. It's really paying off, you look gorgeous!
Hi there, I'm so happy that things are going well for you now. I know your video will help others who are struggling with anorexia. It took a lot of guts to put your personal story on UA-cam for all to see. I think that says a lot about you. You are a strong person and you are truly beautiful!
If I may point out something and for when you have your, "bad days" I hope my comment comes to mind. I want you to look at the pictures of when you were unhealthy and look at your face than compared to your face now. You look so much younger and pretty now. If I didn't read what you said in your video I would have guessed you to be in your late 30's early 40's when really you were in your early 20's. Your face was so thin and the stress gave you wrinkles. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!
Thank you for the video. I use it every semester in my sr. high Health class for the subject of eating disorders. My district is just north of UW-L. Your growing up in a small town in Wisconsin hits home as well. Nice job. Stay strong. Keep the faith. Stay with your support system. Best of luck in your future!
It is very brave of you to share your story! You are an amazing individual. To be able to share your darkest, innermost secrets with us on UA-cam, had to be so challenging. I hope and pray you are able to find peace every day! Keep up the good work, Tia! You rock!!!
i'm glad you recovered.. I was very much worried after seeing your photos being so skinny to the bones... You are so pretty and your smile is ecstatic! You have that glow that makes everyone happy too... You were never fat to begin with.. Not even close to being chubby.. Keep living life!! Thank you for not giving up.. You inspired me..
Your beautiful! Just by looking at all these pictures of you, it obvious you are an amazing person!! And you really are, very beautiful!! I can only imagine how hard it is to over come this disease but you CAN do it!! God bless you! Don't give up!!
I wish I could have read the words without having to pause it. But I was anorexic when I was 7. And I know it sounds weird but I was always the type to over think things and at that time I was being bullied so bad and I was always the short fat girl so I started starving myself and got really really sick. U could see my bones on my back and see my ribs and my face was starting to get so skinny my eyes looked so bad and skin got pale like sick pale not I'm just that color pale. I used to throw up whenever I did eat something. And I was going threw a rough time in life. I got ptsd that year. I wasn't living with my mom either but she did notice and had taken me to the hospital. I was like that for a year. And then again it started when I was about 9 or 10 I started throwing my eggs out the window or putting my food under my bed until I came home from school and I could take them to the kitchen without anyone knowing. And then I got better but it happened again when I was 12 and recently stopped when I was about 15 maybe early 16. Mid year of me being 16 I started dieting but I did it my way... I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it but I ate very small portions of everything and only drank water. And then after all that I was like fuck it because I was getting to skinny again and now I was more developed then I was before so my boyfriend started telling me I needed to eat more because I was starting to look sick so slowly that started to change and I put on more weight he was happy I was doing better. Now I'm 17 and pregnant and I eat whatever I want when I want to and how I want to and I don't care and it's not because I'm pregnant I just don't care what people think of me anymore. If I like the way I look and my boyfriend does to that's all that matters. Learning to love ur self is key in everything.
yes it is! plus you gotta feed the baby growing inside you 😆 oh and something random put coco butter on your belly if you wanna avoid stretch marksJ('ｰ`)し
+MicahThaOriginal lol I lost so much weight being pregnant because I eat so much but it all just goes it him. It sounds weird but he's so big n fat lol. But thank u for the tip. Thank God I don't have any from the pregnancy n im half way but I know I'm going to blow up soon lol do I definitely will try that. 😊
I also had anorexia. I previously watched this and felt triggered, but now watching this I feel empowered. Anorexia is a horrible disease and if anyone is struggling with it I just want you to know it gets better. No matter how hard it may feel right now, you will beat it. whether it's next year or next week you will get through this. your beautiful and worth so much, keep fighting💖. Thank you Tia you really helped me fight this disease and you are beautiful on the inside and out. I hope I can do the same! xoxo
Tia THanks for shooting this and being so unabashed to document your pre, present and post-Anorexia states. You look so much younger with weight on- everyone told me that when i also suffered from this body dismorphia disease in high school and i applaud you for your bravado!
Amazing! I wish you could reach out to youtuber Eugenia Cooney and help her in some small way. She denies being anorexic but it's very apparent. I hope she gets help before it's too late.
congrats you are sooo beautiful when you are healthy-looking in the last few pics, your face was still beautiful when you were underweight but you looked sick and I am happy for your recovery
her smiles looked manic during the lowest points of her illness tho. so glad you're recovering tia! you look beautiful and you have a beautiful personality
This video was so accurate that it felt exactly like what happened to me! I really applaud you! Bravo! The most accurate video I've found on youtube about this illness!
Its less about the vegan lifestyle but the motives that lead her to change to raw vegan food: She did with the clear goal to lose weigth. In the beginning, where it was still just all about ethicality, she was a vegetarian only.
So glad that you could recover your life. This video has showed me that you should take care of yourself in a good way and that consequences of not doing it can be really serious. Thanks for sharing your story!
Eat no more than 1200 calories??? On a daily basis, no restrictions, I end up eating around 800 and I'm actually overweight...NOTHING MAKES SINCE ANYMORE
Well she probably has a really high metabolism. I eat 300 a day. Sometimes if I work out for a few hours, I'll allow myself 450. I do not recommend ANYONE do this. I've almost fainted at the gym countless times. It's not fun.
I cried through this video, I know what it is like to be starving and be literally unable to eat even a piece of raw broccoli. 14 years after my recovery I have not seen my weight on a scale, there are no scales in my house and I weigh backwards at the doctor. The world is cruel but mostly this is a disorder dying for control. I hope you have a complete recovery and realize that none of those number define you (and really are none of your business). Much love.
I still struggle with Anorexia, that dirty word. But, yiu are a SUPERSTAR!!! I AM SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! You are BEAUTIFUL... Stay Healthy, Pretty Lady. You're A True Inspiration 💖
You are such a beautiful and confident girl, a great inspiration. I understand this feeling and insecurities, and your video is like a wake up call for me to stop starving myself before it becomes serious.
Oh. My! I am sure I went through every single emotion as I watched your inspiring journey to recovery. I wish I could squeeze you right now :D You are one amazing chickita! I too struggled with eating/ over-exercising 3 years ago and although I wasn't as severe as your case... I did worry everyone in my life. Well, after about 8 months of this (and caring for a newborn- the "post" preggo weight had started this).. i actually got *flesh eating disease!* I was so run down :( Anyway, i lost a big chunk of my arm but, I am here, alive and happy! (With another little girl running around.) Your story is just so... incredible! And you are incredible! I am so so so happy that you have posted this online! I KNOW this will help *LOTS* of others who are struggling. It is a disease that isn't as easy as "just eat something".. . Anorexia and bulimia are SOOOOO complex. You are sooooo beautiful and your story def has a purpose! Keep a smile on that beautiful face of yours :D Sending ya *loads* of love
You are an incredible person. I know exactly how hard it is to have done what you're doing and keep it up. Very few people will ever understand the effort and commitment but I hope you'll get a few congratulations along the way from people (like me) who do. All the love and congratulations in the world and you look absolutely beautiful, (I mean stunning!) now. Do you have any advice for someone trying hard to recover. I am 25 and was diagnosed at 12, I haven't had a period in over 6 years and have osteoporosis among other things. I am trying desperately hard to recover, and I have made a lot of progress in my mind - I used to barely leave the house and see my husband once every few days as I couldn't eat with him. Now we are moving in together, see each other multiple times a day, I can have smoothies and small snacks with him, I have a PhD position and a teaching job that I love and manage to fulfil despite the anorexia. I am a 1.5 kilos up from my lowest weight and my family and husband are so wonderful and I am more positive than I have ever been, but it has taken a year to make this small gain and I swear some days I just go right back to square one. And my psychologist is leaving so I am terrified! Aside from all the fab health benefits I would really like to be able to wear a dress in public and look fab (like you do!) without the stares and eatafuckingburger comments... It's the little things... Again. You are incredible. You should be so so proud of what you are doing and keep being proud always.
This reminds me of a "friend", started out as a diet and escalated quickly. She still thinks about it everyday but knows the damage it can do. This made me cry lots. I hope you're better now x recovery is a long process, you're never really recovered, all you are is stronger and wiser.
How extremely brave you are for sharing your struggle with complete strangers, I'm sure you have positively impacted someone else's life in doing so. Thank you & I pray for your continued health. God loves you.
Wow, it's so great to see you as happy today. I can't believe you did all your recovery by yourself. You are so brave and strong. It must have been so hard to make this decision to gain weight again considering that most anorexics gain their first kilos at the hospital. At the end of your video, when you talked about the time you lost being sick, let me tell you that this is also something that I thought a lot about after having recovered from anorexia. However, once we have battled our eating disorder, our life is changed for the better and for myself, anyways, I am totally better person than I ever was before my anorexia. Thank you, incredible video that shows the whole spectrum of an eating disorder.
Enjoyed the video and your total humility. You will make a great wife and mother one day! While I don't have an eating disorder, the things you learned hit home and really made me think. Praying for you that you are always mightier than your struggles. Chuck
I've had a lot of serious problems in my life but luckily anorexia hasn't been one of them. I like to eat. When I'm under stress I don't eat but I can't starve myself. It seemed like you were trying to do too much and maybe were too hard on yourself. I'm happy you got your weight back and were willing to share. You never know who you will be helping.
I know from my own personal battle that we finally take control, instead of letting it control us. Funny, the one reason that it happens is the same way you recover. I pray for anyone who is battling this disease. That you are not alone. Love and God Bless. PS YOUR LAST PIC'S YOU ARE GOOOORGIOUS!!!!
This made me so happy. You are so beautiful. Our stories are different, like everybody, but your words echo so many of my own. Thank you for sharing your story. I am writing a memoir about my eating disorder and other mental illnesses. I'm mostly recovered as well. I have bad days but not very often. I am learning to love myself a little more everyday too. I wish you so much joy and happiness. Blessings. xo
+nancy medina For me, it was a matter of re-focusing my perspective. My weight WAS the only thing I cared about, for a long time. I had to relearn how to appreciate other parts of life - like relationships, and events, and actually having energy.
Be obsessed about your weight, but let the weight be normal. Many women are obsessed about their weight, but they don't go deadly thin. If you have some sort of eating disorder, my question is, do you see these women who weigh 80 pounds as looking "hot?" When I see a Victoria Secrets model, she just looks like a thin chick, not some diseased looking chick. There has to be a balance.
I suffer from agoraphobia and anxiety. I know how you feel on that front. I only struggle with my weight now due to some medications I've been prescribed and lack of wanting to exercise due to the agoraphobia and anxiety. This ended up sending a really strong message to me. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm glad you didn't die, because that was a very real threat. I am a little confused though about a diagnosis of "agoraphobia"? (contrary to some peoples' impressions, agoraphobia is not a fear of fuzzy sweaters. Ha. But I digress.) Fear of public places / people / leaving the house ? You have travelled the world, went away to college, seemed to have gone out to parties and all kinds of events with your friends. You've had a LOT more exposure to the world than most people I know. I'm not making a connection with your life and agoraphobia at all. I do hope that you are in therapy and knowing that you describe yourself as having a desire to be 'the best', I know that if you are in therapy, you're working hard :) Keep it up girl, enjoy the beauty of a simple day without counting or obsessing, and keep taking care of yourself. It's worth it, and so are you.
im so happy youve gotten better and im so glade that the way you put recovery. this is a big deal and some people are not strong enough to get through it like you did. your a true inspiration
Wow! I suffer from panic disorder too! it's odd how an ED and that can go hand and hand! it is a struggle and I am humbled by your story! it really is about taking it one moment at a time,for sure! Hang in there!
Just wanted to say that I think you are so brave for sharing your story! I've posted my own video of my struggles so I completely understand how terrifying it is! Sending love xx
Bless you. I stumbled on this video and feel you are very courageous. Recovery is YOURS! It's a lifelong commitment that we deserve. Every step counts. Keep learning, loving and sharing your beautiful purpose. You survived for great reasons. Sending you love and light!
If you're watching this on a computer, you can try lowering the speed in the bottom right corner of the video. It's not ideal - I apologize for the inconvenience - but that may help!
Thank you for this... you may have saved many lives for those suffering who watched this today... again thank you .. you are brave and beautiful ... you have many wonderous things ahead of you blessings in all you do sister friend xx
She is a very strong woman this video actually ment something to me thank you for sharing your braveness with the world you inspired me even though I haven't experienced anorexia but I do have weight problems and yes the world is very cruel but we have to learn to make it through alive...xxx
"The world is a cruel place and life is unfair..." Because your parents got divorced and your dad died?? You are so delusional if you think that's "cruel" and "unfair".
Hi there! I am truly sorry if my comment came across as uneducated or 'delusional'. What I was really trying to say in that statement (the world is cruel/unfair) is that for everyone - not just myself - bad things will happen. Life isn't made out so that good things happen to good people, and bad to bad. Inevitably, bad things will happen to most people throughout the course of their lives - without provocation or reason. I do think that whenever bad things happen to someone - unexpected deaths, unstable home lives, assaults, rape, etc. (the list goes on) - that these things ARE cruel and they ARE unfair. I did not intend for my statement to come across as a victim, because I don't think of myself as one, and I know that there are many, many people who have it faaaaaar worse than I do. What I did mean, though, is that everyone, in life, will get hurt - and these were the things that hurt me (death & divorce). We're all affected by the things that hurt us, and they direct us to the decisions we make in life. And for me, I didn't cope well with the hurt I was feeling, and in turn tunneled those feelings into an eating disorder. I hope this helps to clarify what I said in the video!
+TiaTravels I apologize for my cold hearted opinion on your struggles and hurt. I guess in a way I feel I have a sense of entitlement to self destruct because of my past. I had no right to judge how you should react to hardships. I appreciate your mature and empathetic response. Thank you, and continue to do well. 😊
@115027360681407615115 Of course - it's okay! I understand I and truly am sorry you went through those things - no one should have to deal with that. I wish you the best of luck in your future. ♡
Recovery is so hard but we can do it! We get better every day but our past will always haunt us, but in the end we are survivors. I wish you the best of luck you beautiful sweet girl.
after 6 months i relapsed again after watching this video i realized that i don't want to be like that again it's just not a way to live life thanks for making this video and being brave enough to share your story it really opens ones eyes!
I just wanted to comment and say that I appreciate how strong you are. Posting something like this isn't easy but you did it :-) I'm glad to see that you've gotten better. Through all of that you're still an amazing, strong and beautiful women.
you are a stunning girl ...inside and outside! you are so much stronger than this ilness, don.t allowed this to get to you again! it was love at first sight, you are just amazing
As you get older, the world will make sense. This I promise you. I've been where you were in my 20s. Looks like you got this under control-Don't let anything or anyone change that. ❤️
i think the video made me become a faster reader
+Sydney Katherine Sorry about that! If you're interested, try lowering the speed (lower right corner). You won't be able to hear the music, but it may be easier to read. ♡
slowing it to .5 makes it easier to read and music is still there.... great video, ur beautiful, stay strong xx
Same lol
LOL TRUE.
Very sweet story. Sorry about your daddy.
Great story...my only suggestion is that you slow the captions down. I'm a slow reader and I had to keep going back and pausing.
Btw-while I am not anorexic, I can see how easy it is to fall down the slippery slope. I believe I have body dysmorphic disorder. I use to be over-weight and always see the fat person staring back at me, even when I'm at the low end of my weight range. This stems from being raised by a mother thAt is anorexic. It's very complicated, but her way of eating and comments toward me, have molded my self esteem. My level of self-worth is reflected by what number I see on the scale. A year ago, I rid of the scale because I was so sick of the cycle...in doing this, it caused my weight to climb, again. It's ugly and I am very tired.
I think the same!! I speak native spanish and learned english, so I understand almost everything in English but not that fast! Hahah I had to slow it down
Alice Darque what I did was slow the video down in the playback setting
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i cannot read all the sentence even if it is short. too fast
That big smile of yours looks much better on your healthy face. :)
she's so pretty I'm glad she was strong
Agreed. Because it reaches her eyes now.
There people go again. Keep talking about the looks. That's all the seemed to drive her purpose.
Are we not going to talk about how pretty you are
RIGHT!!!
Yeah she really is!
Thank you so much. ♡
I usually shy away from these types of videos because i agree, seeing others girls' AN photos just make my disorder jealous and feel like I'm not sick enough. But I watched yours and it moved me to tears. We are so alike - no, scratch that, our DISORDERS are so alike - because as hard as it is for me to believe, I know I am someone else beneath all the lies my ED tells me. It broke my heart to see you morph from a happy young woman to a shell of her. I can't see that I'm doing that to myself despite what my family and friends are telling me. However, your video sheds hope. You transformed again, even though you were scared, into a woman with a genuine smile who lives life rather than hides from it.
I'm struggling right now and plagued by those same horrible ED side effects you mentioned. I just want to tell you from one ED warrior to another that I admire your bravery. If you can do it, I can too. Xoxo
I felt the same way watching this :') Waking up confused... denial... Everything. It's scary how something initially just a "thought" can turn into your death story :(
Please seek help. I know it must be scary and maybe you have to push yourselves into doing it, but I hope you realise soon that, if you don't, you will die. Warriors aren't a common thing among our society, they're a thing to keep.
Thank you c: I'm "recovered" now (healthy weight cuz that aparently means that you're okay now .-.), but I'm struggling to remain :/ But I will push through, I promise
Same.
I don't know you, but I'm happy you're on this planet
Sue Burgess I don't know you but I'm happy your on this planet. 💜💜💜
"...anorexia had taken a lifeform - as my best friend. And I'd do anything to protect it" This....spot on. so true
emmakiwi this is exactly how I feel right now
Emma This was so true for me as well!
I went through this 20 years ago. I was a zombie and not even skinny lol. I was still plus size but not eating. Just drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes . It was easy because I wasnt working. Once I started working I lost my safety and friend (not eating) because I had to think and be alert and interact with people as a dental assistant. I gained all my weight back and more. But I have a great life and I love myself. I dont get a thrill out of starving anymore.
A slim fast ad played for this video.....not funny
Oh man!
@ImagineDiamonds Ads are how UA-camrs make their money sis
You're beautiful, and honestly this was inspiring to me (as I'm going through my recovery)
+Annika Osterlund - I am so glad! Wishing you the best. ♡
Annika you're so beautiful
I hope you are recovering well now two years later xx
aw, I really hope you fully recover. best of luck to you, you're beautiful. 💖
+Renee Lynn Thank you! I truly appreciate your support. ♡
You have the most beautiful smile I've ever seen! The video was so inspirational and well made :) I wish you all the best and I hope you fully recover♥ Tons of love from me xx
Thank you so much for this!! People in my school call me fat and ugly... I don't what to do... But because of you I feel stronger now💗💗💗😘😘
She wasn't fat in ANY of these photos
Research anorexia. Actually being fat isn't the point (because they're not...they see it in their minds when there's physically no, or very little fat). It's a control mechanism to make up for where they feel their lives are inadequately meeting their needs.
thank you for helping me understand more about anorexia. I'm sorry you had to struggle and lose control of this, and it took so much to post it up to help other people. you're a very strong woman.
Your smile is so pretty!! I'm really so glad that u recovered,Tia !!😍
This video is SUPERB.
It's been hard for me to understand what a person struggling with this disorder feels like or why they do it. You are the first person who has made me understand why and how it snowballs. I understand addiction and it's really similar in so many ways. 6.5 years sober from vicodin here. 😊
YOU are amazing and have such good insight. I don't know you, but am SO proud of you. ❤❤
You look so happy and alive. Im glad you got your life back.
ive struggled with all 3...anorexia, binge eating, and bulimia for about 7 years now. watching your video was so emotional for me because I could relate to so much of what you were feeling and all of the pressure that society has placed on girls to be so thin. Just want to say you are an inspiration and I applaud you for all of your progress! you look fantastic and hope all is well!
I understand everything in this video soo well! Please be careful in the future, eating disorders never leave for good - it comes back when you feel down. For me it kinda destroyed my mind, health as well but mind mostly. (I have anorexia + bulimia since I was 11 years old).+ You are super beautiful
EMIKR 에미케이알 Recovery is 100% possible. 25+ yrs of eating disorder. Lots of damage done, but been fully recovered for about 7yrs now!!! Yes occasional body image issues but short lived and hasn't made me want to go back. Life is worth more!! And yes it is possible even though many believe and say it's not!!
EVERYONE can become fully recovered from an eating disorder. It's just about getting well before your physical health gives out.
@@SamirCCat you are 100% on target. Yes I've damaged mine in many ways and I truly pray others do get to recovery before the damage starts!! Breaks my heart. But on the plus side of it all, I'm alive, healthy, and damn proud of it!!!! Thank you for sharing!!
You should be proud!! Go you!
Yes they actually do. That kind of mindset makes them not though😒
Wow... All I can say is wow. You're such a beautiful person... I feel like I know you and I want to say that I'm so proud of you (which I definitely am) as if I'm your mom. Things like this aren't a joke and the fact that you were able to overcome it in such a manner is incredible. Keep up the hard work, Tia. It's really paying off, you look gorgeous!
who is healthy and little over weight and watching it?
Hi there,
I'm so happy that things are going well for you now. I know your video will help others who are struggling with anorexia. It took a lot of guts to put your personal story on UA-cam for all to see. I think that says a lot about you. You are a strong person and you are truly beautiful!
you look super-healty and beautiful! so happy for your recovery
If I may point out something and for when you have your, "bad days" I hope my comment comes to mind. I want you to look at the pictures of when you were unhealthy and look at your face than compared to your face now. You look so much younger and pretty now. If I didn't read what you said in your video I would have guessed you to be in your late 30's early 40's when really you were in your early 20's. Your face was so thin and the stress gave you wrinkles. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!
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Thank you for the video. I use it every semester in my sr. high Health class for the subject of eating disorders. My district is just north of UW-L. Your growing up in a small town in Wisconsin hits home as well. Nice job. Stay strong. Keep the faith. Stay with your support system. Best of luck in your future!
You are such a special woman. I appreciate you very much!
It is very brave of you to share your story! You are an amazing individual. To be able to share your darkest, innermost secrets with us on UA-cam, had to be so challenging. I hope and pray you are able to find peace every day! Keep up the good work, Tia! You rock!!!
This video has inspired me to eat cause I suffer from Aneroxia and it's made me realize that I don't want to go that far
Jessica Thompson so do I, I know how you feel
I know, it's really confronting 😔 I've always remained thin through restriction but my heart breaks to see people this thin 💔
i'm glad you recovered.. I was very much worried after seeing your photos being so skinny to the bones... You are so pretty and your smile is ecstatic! You have that glow that makes everyone happy too... You were never fat to begin with.. Not even close to being chubby..
Keep living life!! Thank you for not giving up.. You inspired me..
Your beautiful! Just by looking at all these pictures of you, it obvious you are an amazing person!! And you really are, very beautiful!! I can only imagine how hard it is to over come this disease but you CAN do it!! God bless you! Don't give up!!
wow seeing the photos of you recovered made me so happy you looked so healthy and full of life! i wish you the best
Well done beautiful girl. I'm so proud of you for getting where you are! That's incredible.
Always glad to see these kinds of stories turn out for the better. You got your glow back and look alive again!
I wish I could have read the words without having to pause it. But I was anorexic when I was 7. And I know it sounds weird but I was always the type to over think things and at that time I was being bullied so bad and I was always the short fat girl so I started starving myself and got really really sick. U could see my bones on my back and see my ribs and my face was starting to get so skinny my eyes looked so bad and skin got pale like sick pale not I'm just that color pale. I used to throw up whenever I did eat something. And I was going threw a rough time in life. I got ptsd that year. I wasn't living with my mom either but she did notice and had taken me to the hospital. I was like that for a year. And then again it started when I was about 9 or 10 I started throwing my eggs out the window or putting my food under my bed until I came home from school and I could take them to the kitchen without anyone knowing. And then I got better but it happened again when I was 12 and recently stopped when I was about 15 maybe early 16. Mid year of me being 16 I started dieting but I did it my way... I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it but I ate very small portions of everything and only drank water. And then after all that I was like fuck it because I was getting to skinny again and now I was more developed then I was before so my boyfriend started telling me I needed to eat more because I was starting to look sick so slowly that started to change and I put on more weight he was happy I was doing better. Now I'm 17 and pregnant and I eat whatever I want when I want to and how I want to and I don't care and it's not because I'm pregnant I just don't care what people think of me anymore. If I like the way I look and my boyfriend does to that's all that matters. Learning to love ur self is key in everything.
yes it is! plus you gotta feed the baby growing inside you 😆 oh and something random put coco butter on your belly if you wanna avoid stretch marksJ('ｰ`)し
+MicahThaOriginal lol I lost so much weight being pregnant because I eat so much but it all just goes it him. It sounds weird but he's so big n fat lol. But thank u for the tip. Thank God I don't have any from the pregnancy n im half way but I know I'm going to blow up soon lol do I definitely will try that. 😊
Dezzy baby glad to help
Hi Dezzy! I totally agree - learning to love yourself is key! Good luck with your pregnancy. ♡
+TiaTravels thank u 😊
I also had anorexia. I previously watched this and felt triggered, but now watching this I feel empowered. Anorexia is a horrible disease and if anyone is struggling with it I just want you to know it gets better. No matter how hard it may feel right now, you will beat it. whether it's next year or next week you will get through this. your beautiful and worth so much, keep fighting💖. Thank you Tia you really helped me fight this disease and you are beautiful on the inside and out. I hope I can do the same! xoxo
I am so happy you're doing better. Thank you for explaining anorexia so accurately.
+Na Waal Thank you so much. ♡
Tia THanks for shooting this and being so unabashed to document your pre, present and post-Anorexia states. You look so much younger with weight on- everyone told me that when i also suffered from this body dismorphia disease in high school and i applaud you for your bravado!
Amazing! I wish you could reach out to youtuber Eugenia Cooney and help her in some small way. She denies being anorexic but it's very apparent. I hope she gets help before it's too late.
Truer words were never said..."Some days I am okay with it, some days I'm not." It's a long journey.
You remind me of Blake Lively, so beautiful
OMG she totally looks like Blake Lively! Just a gorgeous, classic blonde.
Videos like these can be very powerful, and I'm glad that you amongst many others have overcome this disease😊
One of the most inspiring videos ever 💜❤️ I wish you the very very best xoxo btw ure so so gorgeous
+K Haylee - Thank you! ♡
+TiaTravels You've done amazingly :) I can tell there is so much more of a vibrancy and presence about you when you're eating enough
+TiaTravels what song it is at 2:30?
+Luchian Marina Hi Luchian! 2:30 is the song "Not for Nothing" by Otis McDonald.
+TiaTravels thanks :)
this touched me in soooo many ways!! I can't even describe it. it's helped me!
I hope you are okay and i wish you the best in your recovery
She is ALWAYS smiling!!😍😘 That is cool!👍🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴
+Celina Ait Thank you! I try. ♡
TiaTravels
Yes I see that... ;)
congrats you are sooo beautiful when you are healthy-looking in the last few pics, your face was still beautiful when you were underweight but you looked sick and I am happy for your recovery
you were always smiley though lol
her smiles looked manic during the lowest points of her illness tho. so glad you're recovering tia! you look beautiful and you have a beautiful personality
This video was so accurate that it felt exactly like what happened to me! I really applaud you! Bravo! The most accurate video I've found on youtube about this illness!
Being raw vegan is not the source of her anorexia
Kim Miranda exactly! raw vegans generally try to eat 2500 for women and 3000 for men 1200 is unacceptable when raw
Kim Miranda she never said it was
Its less about the vegan lifestyle but the motives that lead her to change to raw vegan food: She did with the clear goal to lose weigth. In the beginning, where it was still just all about ethicality, she was a vegetarian only.
When I was raw vegan instead of just vegan, I ate a lot more calories on average than now. Raw vegans eat a lot of nuts, if done properly.
Wow. Thank you. I needed this. ❤ I'm seeing my dietitian today and for some reason this vid made me feel less fearful about it ❤
So glad that you could recover your life. This video has showed me that you should take care of yourself in a good way and that consequences of not doing it can be really serious. Thanks for sharing your story!
Eat no more than 1200 calories??? On a daily basis, no restrictions, I end up eating around 800 and I'm actually overweight...NOTHING MAKES SINCE ANYMORE
Bleach Prince Aka MinSuga I guess it's exercise then
I eat fairly healthy
you know the basics, eat healthier and exercise. That's all there is to it really but everyone's body is different
Well she probably has a really high metabolism. I eat 300 a day. Sometimes if I work out for a few hours, I'll allow myself 450.
I do not recommend ANYONE do this. I've almost fainted at the gym countless times. It's not fun.
I cried through this video, I know what it is like to be starving and be literally unable to eat even a piece of raw broccoli. 14 years after my recovery I have not seen my weight on a scale, there are no scales in my house and I weigh backwards at the doctor. The world is cruel but mostly this is a disorder dying for control. I hope you have a complete recovery and realize that none of those number define you (and really are none of your business). Much love.
Well i don't know you but i am so proud of you girl! And your smile is like the most adorable thing ever...just saying
i'm so happy that you've recovered, you're beautiful inside and out and you seem like such a sweet, strong person 💕✨
I still struggle with Anorexia, that dirty word. But, yiu are a SUPERSTAR!!! I AM SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! You are BEAUTIFUL... Stay Healthy, Pretty Lady. You're A True Inspiration 💖
You are such a beautiful and confident girl, a great inspiration. I understand this feeling and insecurities, and your video is like a wake up call for me to stop starving myself before it becomes serious.
Thank you so much for the support 💕I'm glad it helped!
Oh. My! I am sure I went through every single emotion as I watched your inspiring journey to recovery. I wish I could squeeze you right now :D You are one amazing chickita! I too struggled with eating/ over-exercising 3 years ago and although I wasn't as severe as your case... I did worry everyone in my life. Well, after about 8 months of this (and caring for a newborn- the "post" preggo weight had started this).. i actually got *flesh eating disease!* I was so run down :( Anyway, i lost a big chunk of my arm but, I am here, alive and happy! (With another little girl running around.) Your story is just so... incredible! And you are incredible! I am so so so happy that you have posted this online! I KNOW this will help *LOTS* of others who are struggling. It is a disease that isn't as easy as "just eat something".. . Anorexia and bulimia are SOOOOO complex. You are sooooo beautiful and your story def has a purpose! Keep a smile on that beautiful face of yours :D Sending ya *loads* of love
You are an incredible person. I know exactly how hard it is to have done what you're doing and keep it up. Very few people will ever understand the effort and commitment but I hope you'll get a few congratulations along the way from people (like me) who do. All the love and congratulations in the world and you look absolutely beautiful, (I mean stunning!) now. Do you have any advice for someone trying hard to recover. I am 25 and was diagnosed at 12, I haven't had a period in over 6 years and have osteoporosis among other things. I am trying desperately hard to recover, and I have made a lot of progress in my mind - I used to barely leave the house and see my husband once every few days as I couldn't eat with him. Now we are moving in together, see each other multiple times a day, I can have smoothies and small snacks with him, I have a PhD position and a teaching job that I love and manage to fulfil despite the anorexia. I am a 1.5 kilos up from my lowest weight and my family and husband are so wonderful and I am more positive than I have ever been, but it has taken a year to make this small gain and I swear some days I just go right back to square one. And my psychologist is leaving so I am terrified! Aside from all the fab health benefits I would really like to be able to wear a dress in public and look fab (like you do!) without the stares and eatafuckingburger comments... It's the little things... Again. You are incredible. You should be so so proud of what you are doing and keep being proud always.
sometimes is hard to believe that a beautiful girl like you had such a terrible sickness , but you are a very strong human been, God bless !!!!!
You look so great! not just your weight, but you look so happy, you're not alone and this is just truly inspiring for those who may be struggling
It was so fast I couldn't read anything. But you are a beautiful girl, a inspiration I'd say. 😇
Put it on half speed
I can't keep up with your notes, but thank you for sharing. I am so glad you are recovering. God bless you
i pray that you stay on track with your recovery. your such a beautiful girl. keep healthy and positive during your journey:)!🌞💛✨
She is such a beautiful lady who has found the real beauty and love for herself. Thank you for sharing!!!!
Thank you so much for your kind comment! 💕
Such a beautiful smile :)
This reminds me of a "friend", started out as a diet and escalated quickly. She still thinks about it everyday but knows the damage it can do. This made me cry lots. I hope you're better now x recovery is a long process, you're never really recovered, all you are is stronger and wiser.
How extremely brave you are for sharing your struggle with complete strangers, I'm sure you have positively impacted someone else's life in doing so. Thank you & I pray for your continued health. God loves you.
Congratulatios,i am happy for you,GOD bless..
Wow, it's so great to see you as happy today. I can't believe you did all your recovery by yourself. You are so brave and strong. It must have been so hard to make this decision to gain weight again considering that most anorexics gain their first kilos at the hospital. At the end of your video, when you talked about the time you lost being sick, let me tell you that this is also something that I thought a lot about after having recovered from anorexia. However, once we have battled our eating disorder, our life is changed for the better and for myself, anyways, I am totally better person than I ever was before my anorexia. Thank you, incredible video that shows the whole spectrum of an eating disorder.
Enjoyed the video and your total humility. You will make a great wife and mother one day! While I don't have an eating disorder, the things you learned hit home and really made me think. Praying for you that you are always mightier than your struggles. Chuck
You look younger after gaining some weight. Keep it up!
I've had a lot of serious problems in my life but luckily anorexia hasn't been one of them. I like to eat. When I'm under stress I don't eat but I can't starve myself. It seemed like you were trying to do too much and maybe were too hard on yourself. I'm happy you got your weight back and were willing to share. You never know who you will be helping.
I'm so glad that you were able to recover. Always remember that you are beautiful just the way you are!
Africa is a continent-not a country. Which country did you visit?
I'm soo glad you are doing better. I hope your story can help others who are struggling with this disorder. Take care.
Thank you so much for your kind words 💕
agreed, I had to pause all the time taking away from the experience. Thank you for being brave and sharing your story
Hello dear person just a thought if you post again could you slow the video down.I haven't time read the words.Even if i remove my sunglasses
I know from my own personal battle that we finally take control, instead of letting it control us. Funny, the one reason that it happens is the same way you recover. I pray for anyone who is battling this disease. That you are not alone. Love and God Bless. PS YOUR LAST PIC'S YOU ARE GOOOORGIOUS!!!!
This made me so happy. You are so beautiful. Our stories are different, like everybody, but your words echo so many of my own. Thank you for sharing your story. I am writing a memoir about my eating disorder and other mental illnesses. I'm mostly recovered as well. I have bad days but not very often. I am learning to love myself a little more everyday too. I wish you so much joy and happiness. Blessings. xo
How can aperson stop thinking about how much they weigh if its the only thing they care about in their life?
+nancy medina For me, it was a matter of re-focusing my perspective. My weight WAS the only thing I cared about, for a long time. I had to relearn how to appreciate other parts of life - like relationships, and events, and actually having energy.
thank you
Be obsessed about your weight, but let the weight be normal. Many women are obsessed about their weight, but they don't go deadly thin. If you have some sort of eating disorder, my question is, do you see these women who weigh 80 pounds as looking "hot?" When I see a Victoria Secrets model, she just looks like a thin chick, not some diseased looking chick. There has to be a balance.
I suffer from agoraphobia and anxiety. I know how you feel on that front. I only struggle with my weight now due to some medications I've been prescribed and lack of wanting to exercise due to the agoraphobia and anxiety. This ended up sending a really strong message to me. Thank you for sharing your story.
wow just wow.
I'm glad you didn't die, because that was a very real threat. I am a little confused though about a diagnosis of "agoraphobia"? (contrary to some peoples' impressions, agoraphobia is not a fear of fuzzy sweaters. Ha. But I digress.) Fear of public places / people / leaving the house ? You have travelled the world, went away to college, seemed to have gone out to parties and all kinds of events with your friends. You've had a LOT more exposure to the world than most people I know. I'm not making a connection with your life and agoraphobia at all. I do hope that you are in therapy and knowing that you describe yourself as having a desire to be 'the best', I know that if you are in therapy, you're working hard :) Keep it up girl, enjoy the beauty of a simple day without counting or obsessing, and keep taking care of yourself. It's worth it, and so are you.
This is a powerful story. Oh, my what you have went/been through! I'm so glad you survived!
im so happy youve gotten better and im so glade that the way you put recovery. this is a big deal and some people are not strong enough to get through it like you did. your a true inspiration
Wow! I suffer from panic disorder too! it's odd how an ED and that can go hand and hand! it is a struggle and I am humbled by your story! it really is about taking it one moment at a time,for sure! Hang in there!
Just wanted to say that I think you are so brave for sharing your story! I've posted my own video of my struggles so I completely understand how terrifying it is! Sending love xx
Bless you. I stumbled on this video and feel you are very courageous. Recovery is YOURS! It's a lifelong commitment that we deserve. Every step counts. Keep learning, loving and sharing your beautiful purpose. You survived for great reasons. Sending you love and light!
+MyOwnStickFigure Thank you so much! Best wishes your way as well. ♡
This video is so ANNOYING I can't read without having to pause every two seconds
If you're watching this on a computer, you can try lowering the speed in the bottom right corner of the video. It's not ideal - I apologize for the inconvenience - but that may help!
Thank you for this... you may have saved many lives for those suffering who watched this today... again thank you .. you are brave and beautiful ... you have many wonderous things ahead of you blessings in all you do sister friend xx
She is a very strong woman this video actually ment something to me thank you for sharing your braveness with the world you inspired me even though I haven't experienced anorexia but I do have weight problems and yes the world is very cruel but we have to learn to make it through alive...xxx
"The world is a cruel place and life is unfair..." Because your parents got divorced and your dad died?? You are so delusional if you think that's "cruel" and "unfair".
You're so ignorant and narrow minded.
Hi there! I am truly sorry if my comment came across as uneducated or 'delusional'. What I was really trying to say in that statement (the world is cruel/unfair) is that for everyone - not just myself - bad things will happen. Life isn't made out so that good things happen to good people, and bad to bad. Inevitably, bad things will happen to most people throughout the course of their lives - without provocation or reason.
I do think that whenever bad things happen to someone - unexpected deaths, unstable home lives, assaults, rape, etc. (the list goes on) - that these things ARE cruel and they ARE unfair. I did not intend for my statement to come across as a victim, because I don't think of myself as one, and I know that there are many, many people who have it faaaaaar worse than I do. What I did mean, though, is that everyone, in life, will get hurt - and these were the things that hurt me (death & divorce). We're all affected by the things that hurt us, and they direct us to the decisions we make in life. And for me, I didn't cope well with the hurt I was feeling, and in turn tunneled those feelings into an eating disorder. I hope this helps to clarify what I said in the video!
+TiaTravels I apologize for my cold hearted opinion on your struggles and hurt. I guess in a way I feel I have a sense of entitlement to self destruct because of my past. I had no right to judge how you should react to hardships. I appreciate your mature and empathetic response. Thank you, and continue to do well. 😊
@115027360681407615115 Of course - it's okay! I understand I and truly am sorry you went through those things - no one should have to deal with that. I wish you the best of luck in your future. ♡
+TiaTravels 😄. You are an incredible person. I did not expect those responses. Keep being awesome, gorgeous!
Recovery is so hard but we can do it! We get better every day but our past will always haunt us, but in the end we are survivors. I wish you the best of luck you beautiful sweet girl.
you're beautiful now! you look much happier now! STAY STRONG!
after 6 months i relapsed again after watching this video i realized that i don't want to be like that again it's just not a way to live life thanks for making this video and being brave enough to share your story it really opens ones eyes!
Good for you! keep going best wishesX
I've never heard it this way the true struggle&why --control. I'm sure you've helped a lot of people. Thanks for sharing
wow you must be one of the prettiest girl i've ever seen!! you look amazing after recovery!! I hope you stay strong and keep enjoying life
I just wanted to comment and say that I appreciate how strong you are. Posting something like this isn't easy but you did it :-) I'm glad to see that you've gotten better. Through all of that you're still an amazing, strong and beautiful women.
you are a stunning girl ...inside and outside! you are so much stronger than this ilness, don.t allowed this to get to you again! it was love at first sight, you are just amazing
As you get older, the world will make sense. This I promise you. I've been where you were in my 20s. Looks like you got this under control-Don't let anything or anyone change that. ❤️