I only started calling myself goth recently but I grew up always being goth. Same movies and music as you. I literally got bullied in the fifth grade just for wearing band t-shirts.
We called them alternative where I’m from. They all liked the cure. This was in the mid eighties. Really down to earth people. I was a skater and found I too liked the cure and made fast friends with a few. Still friends to this day.
Your journey very much reflects my own. Love from an Elder Millenial who grew up in Iowa. Grew up very punk/goth in response to very the same small-minded love. I'm glad you made it through, too.
This is so crazy cause I’m currently in my senior year of high school and I’m a metal head/goth and I’ve similarly had people just think I’m a total weirdo just for being this way? I’ve been accused of being a school shooter multiple times even though I try to stay out of everyone’s way. So it is really crazy how some things don’t change
I would say it gets better but I was escorted out of a presentation in college/university for the same "school shooter" type accusations. Always play the game quietly my friend. There are always snakes amongst crowds of honest values.
Spawn soundtrack was epic, even my non alternative mates liked that CD. I only watched Spawn the movie last year though lol. Subbed! I look forwards to more of your storytimes :D Take care :D
I really appreciate your content. I’m 40, goth & can really relate. It helps to hear someone else has had such similar experiences. Your mental health videos are making me a lot less scared to go get the re-diagnosis my psychiatrist has been pushing me to get, just the feeling of not being alone, others deal with all this too. So thanks!
Glad they could be of some help. You have to do what you feel what is right for you. If you feel a re-diagnosis is right for you, then go for it, but if you don't feel its right for you, dont let anyone (even a mental health professional) push you to do it. Fear comes and goes.... nerviousness comes and goes... anxiety and depression come and go... but the only thing that is constent is whats right for you.
@@smcornthwaite13 I know having the testing done is the right thing for me, I just don’t want to for a plethora of reasons that all boil down to fear. With that said, reminding myself that I do know it’s the right thing for myself helps the fear as well. In the end it will be beneficial, I just need to get past all of the intrusive thoughts regarding doing it. Typically I tell myself that my brain is lying to me & to shut up, I’ll now change that to “Jenny, you know this is the right thing, this is an intrusive thought which is lying to you.” That will definitely help a ton I believe, thanks again! Oh and your snow globe video allowed my brain to shutdown last night so I could finally sleep. All the years of therapy no one had ever taught me that technique, thanks for that as well!
Goth music I love is Bauhaus, The Wske, Sisters of Mercy, The Mission. Me I got into the Goth scene in high school, through seeing goths & dark wave alternative people in a area of Ohio that had a punk goth skater alternative scene. I loved what I saw up at OSU in Columbus Ohio, lots of cool record stores and progressive clothing stores that catered to punk , goth wear. Went to a goth dark wave industrial club. We had two. Mean mr mustards & Crazy mamas. High st in Columbus in the short north up to campus was very alternative, artsy and just teenagers and adults that was into the scene dress up in all black, mo hawks Etc. I was interested into that style, I all way been different and did my own thing. Met up with some cool goths & dark wave people and they introduce me to Siouxsie ,?the Cure, Bauhaus, and I loved it. Love the music and the style.,got crap in high school for wearing all black and Com bat boots,, & just black clothing that I could afford to make work because i could not afford lip service but eventually stated to get little things as time went on. But my freshman year to senior year I was the dark wave of my high school and there was a few other that was metal heads & punk and we all hung out. Goth movies are cool to, hear in Atlanta Georgia we have a scene in little 5 points that’s goths punk’s and hippie’s Etc. Music venues and record stores and alternative west like black clothing and spike wriest bands boots jewelry
I resonate with u so much my dude! I am only a minute and half in! No matter appearances, we can always find commonalities somewhere in others I think! Gosh! I even dressed up as the Undertaker age 15 or younger for Halloween hahaha
Idk if you like heavy music, but Kalmah is very ethereal and Carnifex is really dark, two of my favorite bands. Kalmah is also really great if you like Children of Bodom, only more serious. Check these bands out. Thanks for sharing your experience
I kind of always knew I was different than other kids, just in my nature of questioning things and being attracted to horror even at a very early age. But somehow I learned early that if someone was being mean or bullying me, I could just completely ignore they even existed and they would eventually get tired of being ignored and go away or pick on someone else. I never gave them any satisfaction or any of the attention that they were subconsciously craving. This was probably a tactic I learned from my father that would always tease me, make fun of me, and talk shit to me. He backed off as soon as he realized I would go mute and never talk to him again or acknowledge he existed for months at a time. I would do this no matter how much he yelled, asked me to tell him what was wrong or told me to clean out my ears and listen. He would get nothing. I think I was probably lucky that I was in a blue state despite being in a small country town though. Alot of the people that knew me actually thought I was pacifistic and just wouldn't fight people because I didn't want to hurt anyone. But to be honest, that's not how I really felt. And if pushed far enough I would actually hit someone and tell them to never bother me again. But also I felt more like that if someone were to push me far enough to actually fight them, it would at that point be a threat against my life and I think that in the heat of things I could actually see myself trying to kill someone. Regardless, something about taking fighting too seriously and ignoring people being stupid got most bullies to leave me alone. And despite me being one of the only kids to have a somewhat freakish appearance in the ways I dressed and styled my hair, I was actually very friendly and made lots of friends regardless of the social groups we belonged to. Being goth definitely had an affect on how people initially judged me or saw me however, atleast until they noticed I was friendly and wasn't a threat. lol But it also made it easier to know who was chill and who to avoid. I enjoyed hearing about your experiences though and it's interesting to know how you had to deal with things. I'm glad you were able to survive through all of that.
@smcornthwaite13 You're like that UA-camr angela benedict. Confused and lost within desires, using the internet as a tool for your alter egos. These goths videos are all 💩🤮
Hi brother you are showing good content about childhood trauma and mental health, Personality disorders. Happy for you❤.
I only started calling myself goth recently but I grew up always being goth. Same movies and music as you. I literally got bullied in the fifth grade just for wearing band t-shirts.
We called them alternative where I’m from. They all liked the cure. This was in the mid eighties. Really down to earth people. I was a skater and found I too liked the cure and made fast friends with a few. Still friends to this day.
Your journey very much reflects my own. Love from an Elder Millenial who grew up in Iowa. Grew up very punk/goth in response to very the same small-minded love. I'm glad you made it through, too.
Inspiring as fck. Born goth, living it out everyday for twenty four years. Don't regret a thing.
Sounds like we were into a lot of the same things I'm 37. I'm glad I found your channel. Cheers bro!
good shit, respect. I was always the grunge guy and still am. Nowadays its "alternative" but always had the goths as in my corner. keep on keeping on
Cool channel. I just found you today in my recommended. c:
Hey, thanks!
This is so crazy cause I’m currently in my senior year of high school and I’m a metal head/goth and I’ve similarly had people just think I’m a total weirdo just for being this way? I’ve been accused of being a school shooter multiple times even though I try to stay out of everyone’s way. So it is really crazy how some things don’t change
I would say it gets better but I was escorted out of a presentation in college/university for the same "school shooter" type accusations. Always play the game quietly my friend. There are always snakes amongst crowds of honest values.
Spawn soundtrack was epic, even my non alternative mates liked that CD. I only watched Spawn the movie last year though lol. Subbed! I look forwards to more of your storytimes :D Take care :D
I really appreciate your content. I’m 40, goth & can really relate. It helps to hear someone else has had such similar experiences. Your mental health videos are making me a lot less scared to go get the re-diagnosis my psychiatrist has been pushing me to get, just the feeling of not being alone, others deal with all this too. So thanks!
Glad they could be of some help. You have to do what you feel what is right for you. If you feel a re-diagnosis is right for you, then go for it, but if you don't feel its right for you, dont let anyone (even a mental health professional) push you to do it. Fear comes and goes.... nerviousness comes and goes... anxiety and depression come and go... but the only thing that is constent is whats right for you.
@@smcornthwaite13 I know having the testing done is the right thing for me, I just don’t want to for a plethora of reasons that all boil down to fear. With that said, reminding myself that I do know it’s the right thing for myself helps the fear as well. In the end it will be beneficial, I just need to get past all of the intrusive thoughts regarding doing it. Typically I tell myself that my brain is lying to me & to shut up, I’ll now change that to “Jenny, you know this is the right thing, this is an intrusive thought which is lying to you.” That will definitely help a ton I believe, thanks again! Oh and your snow globe video allowed my brain to shutdown last night so I could finally sleep. All the years of therapy no one had ever taught me that technique, thanks for that as well!
@@jenspycole7646 awesome! I'm glad it could be of some help!
Goth music I love is Bauhaus, The Wske, Sisters of Mercy, The Mission. Me I got into the Goth scene in high school, through seeing goths & dark wave alternative people in a area of Ohio that had a punk goth skater alternative scene. I loved what I saw up at OSU in Columbus Ohio, lots of cool record stores and progressive clothing stores that catered to punk , goth wear. Went to a goth dark wave industrial club. We had two. Mean mr mustards & Crazy mamas. High st in Columbus in the short north up to campus was very alternative, artsy and just teenagers and adults that was into the scene dress up in all black, mo hawks Etc. I was interested into that style, I all way been different and did my own thing. Met up with some cool goths & dark wave people and they introduce me to Siouxsie ,?the Cure, Bauhaus, and I loved it. Love the music and the style.,got crap in high school for wearing all black and Com bat boots,, & just black clothing that I could afford to make work because i could not afford lip service but eventually stated to get little things as time went on. But my freshman year to senior year I was the dark wave of my high school and there was a few other that was metal heads & punk and we all hung out. Goth movies are cool to, hear in Atlanta Georgia we have a scene in little 5 points that’s goths punk’s and hippie’s Etc. Music venues and record stores and alternative west like black clothing and spike wriest bands boots jewelry
I resonate with u so much my dude! I am only a minute and half in! No matter appearances, we can always find commonalities somewhere in others I think! Gosh! I even dressed up as the Undertaker age 15 or younger for Halloween hahaha
Idk if you like heavy music, but Kalmah is very ethereal and Carnifex is really dark, two of my favorite bands. Kalmah is also really great if you like Children of Bodom, only more serious. Check these bands out. Thanks for sharing your experience
The heaviest I really go is Otep... but thanks for the recomendations
I been goth since 1998 I'm still goth at I'm in my 40s
I kind of always knew I was different than other kids, just in my nature of questioning things and being attracted to horror even at a very early age. But somehow I learned early that if someone was being mean or bullying me, I could just completely ignore they even existed and they would eventually get tired of being ignored and go away or pick on someone else. I never gave them any satisfaction or any of the attention that they were subconsciously craving. This was probably a tactic I learned from my father that would always tease me, make fun of me, and talk shit to me. He backed off as soon as he realized I would go mute and never talk to him again or acknowledge he existed for months at a time. I would do this no matter how much he yelled, asked me to tell him what was wrong or told me to clean out my ears and listen. He would get nothing.
I think I was probably lucky that I was in a blue state despite being in a small country town though. Alot of the people that knew me actually thought I was pacifistic and just wouldn't fight people because I didn't want to hurt anyone. But to be honest, that's not how I really felt. And if pushed far enough I would actually hit someone and tell them to never bother me again. But also I felt more like that if someone were to push me far enough to actually fight them, it would at that point be a threat against my life and I think that in the heat of things I could actually see myself trying to kill someone. Regardless, something about taking fighting too seriously and ignoring people being stupid got most bullies to leave me alone. And despite me being one of the only kids to have a somewhat freakish appearance in the ways I dressed and styled my hair, I was actually very friendly and made lots of friends regardless of the social groups we belonged to. Being goth definitely had an affect on how people initially judged me or saw me however, atleast until they noticed I was friendly and wasn't a threat. lol But it also made it easier to know who was chill and who to avoid.
I enjoyed hearing about your experiences though and it's interesting to know how you had to deal with things. I'm glad you were able to survive through all of that.
I'm 51 and Still goth just needing to rebuild my goth wardrobe,I'm kinda down to to a few goth clothes
Good morning from 🇮🇳
Poseur. You look normal.
Not Goth at all.
@@9.3noddydoll Goth doesnt have a specific look... Goth incorporates a lot of things
@smcornthwaite13 You're like that UA-camr angela benedict. Confused and lost within desires, using the internet as a tool for your alter egos. These goths videos are all 💩🤮
@smcornthwaite13 You deleted my second reply. Lol
This dork that got bullied for being into Dungeons & Dragons 😆
@@9.3noddydoll i didnt delete anything
Who are you to say who's goth and who isnt?