Another amputation side surgery (literally right now) [CC]
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- Опубліковано 1 жов 2024
- Heading into surgery as we speak! I'll be updating people on Instagram at / footlessjo when I'm conscious and feeling up to it 😉
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Jo, you're having legitimate fears. I don't see any pity party here. You're not wrong, those friends, family members, counselor helping you are your tools ❤ don't forget you can talk to them
@@britneygoth3811 this is a really bad take. You really should keep those opinions to yourself. Also that’s the wrong term, sadists like causing pain to others.
@@Saria121 I reviewed her channel. What did I say was inaccurate? She's abusing human compassion, when you give her your energy.
@@britneygoth3811 great. So you think she should prefer lifelong suffering and lifelong opioids instead of trying all the utmost to lead a better life?
So, her amputation was for nothing, since she's still addicted to countless pain and surgeries, just like before when she claims to have ankle removed so she doesn't have to constantly have surgery after aurgery....She almost had us fooled... She needs to learn to ignore the pain and just live. Stop making a medical procedure your entire personality. Stop exploiting pain for profit.
@@britneygoth3811 glad you have a happy life, or, seems you're not happy 🤔 bored?
The very root of PTSD is feeling helpless. Being where you are in terms of pain management, it’s no mystery why you’re having such a difficult time. If you do nothing, you know you’ll continue to get worse. If you have surgery you may get worse, or better after a period of time. From the standpoint of disability, you have a great case for insurance covering an ultralight wheelchair that fits you, which is a game changer.
Thank you for being around and talking lots about disability acceptance. I became disabled 2 years ago, and it's been tough. I've learned to love my canes (mr sticky and lady willow) because they help me walk without as much pain and fatigue, and today I'm getting my electric wheelchair (her name will be Chairissa!!). You inspire me to be the best me I can be, and to not let my illness get the best of me!! Thank you for being wonderful!!
Chairissa! That’s brilliant.
@@Piper_____ thanks! I'm on long term disability, so i have all the time in the world to think of dumb punny names!
I hope you find the fun in zooming about on the electric weelchair! Ive always found weelchair users really cool as a physically abled person (am autistic so tecnically have a mental disability)
As someone who's relatively new to the disabled community and finally identifying as disabled, it's such a wonderful thing to get to see people like Jo (also Jessica Kellgren-Fozard! been watching her a lot) talking openly about being disabled in a way that both embraces it as a part of our experience, "not a dirty word", and still acknowledging the pain and difficulty that comes along. I often feel pressured to minimize the issues I experience because I don't want people to think that being disabled is automatically worse or that I wish I were abled. But it does hurt, and it is frustrating.
Chairissa, welcome!
Your reluctance to get additional surgery is something I totally understand. My uncle was also an amputee and he put off a knee replacement on his flesh leg all the way until he passed away because the risk of losing even more mobility is frightening.
I don't blame him. Losing mobility is sort of losing some of your independence.
I'm 49 and just went through a month in the hospital, finding out that I have type one diabetes, and that if I hadn't gone in I was heading towards losing my left leg from blood clots. I went through a near death experience in that room, yet because of my surgeon I'm home and working on getting my strength back. Know that we are all thinking of you, and can't wait to see you back with your fur babies.
almost lifelong type 1 here, solidarity!
Getting diagnosed with t1 diabetes tends to be terrifying! I passed out in high school and went to a walk in center who immediately made me go to hospital LITERALLY as soon as I walked in and then I had to spend 3 days in the ICU! I'm glad u managed to keep Ur leg and there are plenty of support groups and charities that can help if you are struggling
I hope everything is up from here. Learning how to take care of yourself with diabetes can be daunting. As I've been told, cut yourself some slack; managing diabetes isn't a moral test based on your glucose or A1c and if someone tries to go there, don't follow thrm
😮 have you always had it & never found out until 49?
@@DaisyZhangAI That would be literally impossible. Someone with Type 1 diabetes is reliant on insulin to survive and *will* die without. (Which is also why the cost of insulin in the US is criminal)
They likely developed it relatively recently.
The part about grieving the life you wanted but don’t get to have really hit hard for me. In September I failed out of university even though I loved what I was studying and I tried with all my heart. I am not upset at failing, I failed so many times in my life and recovered from it. The thing that upsets me is that a door that I wanted so badly to walk through is now permanently closed.
You are the first person who was able to put this into words for me, thank you so much for that.
I feel this. I decided to leave my grad school program last year. I still want to have a career in that field, but it’s super competitive and I probably won’t be able to get into another program after leaving. Sucks not having the option.
One door closes and another one opens...I could tell you about the obstacles in my life that affected my quality of life and then again something tragic happened..I could no longer fight and sadly I have given up on this journey but increased in prayer to the Lord..I wish you better days ahead..
I empathize. I went back to school with two little ones. I had to go part time while working, pay cash, and get excellent grades to earn academic forgiveness for dropping out improperly when I was young. It took 5 years, and I had one semester left. Covid hit. A series of things ended up with me losing any chance of completing my degree. The school screwed me completely. I couldn't move past the depression until I properly mourned what I had lost. I'm sharing because that is how I relate, and I know you'll find something that makes you excited to work towards again. Maybe something you never would have guessed.
I understand that but theres always a reason i used to think it was bs but ive had many things like that lead me to something greater like in college i got my aunt to help me a lot and that lead to her inviting me to a haunted house where i met her friend who is now my boyfriend. I had to leave college because the depression of my homelife was just too much but because of my boyfriend ive moved into a better place im saving for a house and ive met so many people and plan on going back to college once i get a house (i already had 20k left to me and almost at another 10k now) ill probably get a fixer upper so i can resale the house
Thank you for this comment
Medical trauma is so real. I'm going into the OR this summer for my disability's version of the last result surgery (baclofen pump). I live in fear of something happening to my very functional arms that carry all the weight of my shit meat legs. Sending you all the good vibes. Hearing you talk about this helps. Thank you for being vulnerable on the Internet for others. I know that takes a toll.
Good luck!! I really hope your surgery helps improve your quality of life. 💕
My friend got one of these and it made a MASSIVE difference for her, I hope it works as well for you too. ❤
This is extremely valid, Jo. Being disabled is SO traumatic. The physical, emotional, and psychological pain and stress is VERY real. What you’re feeling is super normal and to be expected honestly. Praying for you and I hope this one works.
She disabled herself, along with immoral doctors, who profit off her inability to adapt and push thru some inconvenient pains, we all face.
Do we have any moderators here? I feel the above comment needs deleting!
@@sarahnash7174 Cowardly, much, Sarah? You need an echo chamber of lies, to feel safe? GROW the EFF UP!
@@sarahnash7174, agreed
I love how your dogs are switching sides, just encasing you!! It's so sweet!! 🥰
Her dogs are amazing!
As someone who has had 10+ surgeries and multiple other medical hurdles, the feelings are legitimate and it really doesn't get easier. You're lucky to have a great supportive crew around you but it's still super difficult. It's simply BS and I had to accept that in my head that it just sucks. Best of luck!
Same. I have the 'weird gene" I inherited all the random crap from both sides of my family. Yay go me 😕 no matter how many procedures & surgeries I still get nervous. I am looking forward to knee surgeries 9 &10 (replacement)
All you can do is just take a breath, pray & make sure you're comfortable with your surgeon & other doctors. Good luck! Your babies will be waiting for you.
::Jo talks about living alone::
Doggies: and I took that personally ::jumps on Jo’s lap::
I really hope the surgery goes as well as it can go and life will be get a little easier again afterwards 🤞❤️❤️
Here's to hoping you get to be in the 85% on this one with an efficient heal and excellent results. I can see how just *tired* you are of all the medical stuff but with hitting the gym and staying fit and active I think you've done all you can to be primed for healing when the surgery is over.
Hi jo! I just want to say, as a hs junior, your vulnerability gives me hope. Hearing you talk about your hard experiences in such a strong way, it really feels like I’m talking to a friend when I watch your videos. Thank you for showing (and not telling) what a healthy mindset towards working out looks like. And thanks for being a great educator. Sending love! You’re going to get through this. Virtual hugs!
Hope everything goes well for you. I had a 2nd surgery on my stump. Belated happy birthday to you.
As someone with PTSD from stuff that happened in hospitals I totally get the dread that comes with anything medical. The thought of going near a hospital makes me feel sick. I hope your surgery goes well, and good luck. You’re strong, it’s gonna suck, but I know you can make it through.
As an able-bodied therapist, I really appreciate your videos talking honestly about your journey, both the good and the bad. Your perspective is really helpful as I'm working with chronically ill folks and trying to help them navigate our ableist society, grieving the life they thought they would have, and figuring out how to find pockets of joy (and/or just coping) in-between of bad months. I hope you're able to get at least some relief from this surgery.
I'd just like to say I really appreciate that you are taking the time and effort to learn about and help those with chronic illness.
I went through a string of unintentionally ableist therapists which only served to distance me further from the medical establishment.
I finally found a therapist with some experience and willing to actually meet me in the reality of my illness(es) and it has been game changing
I hope things work out for you, your advice always hits close to home. Especially the “it’s ok to mourn the fact that I’ll never have life I envisioned while building a life I’m happy with within my limitations.” As someone who has struggled with my mental health since I was in early elementary , this gives me hope that I’ll keep on going after I graduate next month. ❤
You're not having a pity party, you're feeling extremely anxious. You're allowed to vent and express your feelings, be it online or in daily life. I wish you the very best for good results from this surgery. I wish I could give you a big hug. I have chronic health conditions, and I empathise with you so much. You are such a badass, really you are. You will get through this, but this is scary as fuck for you. We support you ❤
I do take it as she is joking in the beginning of her own situation. I think it is okay to joke like that. She even threw a pun in there! I think we can all laugh a little with her. The joke is there if you listen. If there is any funny way to start a video, thats a good joke. Since usually when people say "have you own pity party". Meaning you are alone and nobody is attending. Usually its said in a condemning way. Jo on the other leg... haha. Invited us all instead! See the joke. A sense of humor is good in bad situations. We need to stop seeing jokes as a bad thing. They make things less sad.
No, she's having a non-stop, pity parade, as she's a sadist, who gets off to this victim-addiction. It's called "transableism" and *Peggy Hall* ' s latest video touches on this topic.
@@britneygoth3811 you psychoanalyzed someone entirely based on their videos talking about their experience as an amputee. what a weird rabbit hole you’re in…
@@britneygoth3811 bad shitty bait
@@britneygoth3811 just admit you don’t like disabled people who try to help themselves. Or that you’re envious? I can’t tell
Having my 12th surgery in few weeks because I have incredible nerve pain and a stimulator helped before. Healing energy and prayers!
Take care, I hope the surgery will go well and you'll feel as good as possible 🙏🏻🍀
Me and my matching nubbin are rooting for you!
The gym time you've been so proud of being suddenly halted is a very valid thing to be annoyed by! Even if bodies don't work like that, its something you've been working on and are proud of and it's completely understandable to be upset that its changing!
I'm so glad I've found your channel, I grew up knowing nothing about disabled people and learning all these things about your daily life and perspective of your disability is very important to me, especially in an ableist society.
Thank you so much for doing what you do, if it's important for an able-bodied person like me I can only imagine how much your channel does for others with disabilities like yours (or different).
This is not pity party. Completely understandable all the feels. Please don’t feel guilty for feeling all your feels 💕
I feel you so much about not wanting to go through difficult experiences alone, even if you're not "alone". Having a supportive partner to hold you and make your fears and discomforts feel less overwhelming is a great thing and it is far different than just friends and family.
I've been putting off several treatments because I don't have someone to lean on besides my dad. I know it's not wise, but I really don't care about that at this time. I can't do this stuff "alone" at this time. But I don't really see myself finding anyone who wants to deal with my life either, so eventually I'm going to have to suck it up.
Hey Jo, I hope your surgery went well and I hope your pain is less some after surgery. I wish you a speedy recovery and less pain going forward. Your videos have made me feel better about my chronic illness and pain seeing you strong you’ve been. I really hope your pain gets better and you can go back to the things you enjoy. ❤
My life has been even worse than it is for some months now and I have a really big storm coming in May. I won't go into the details but I have absolutely no idea what's gonna happen to me. The amount of pain and suffering is literally indescribable in words. The worst part is not having anyone who understands or cares about my situation. I really hope things get easier for all of us. We're here for you Joe. This absolutely sucks but surviving is the only option we have. I also just had my birthday a few days ago and it was a really weird and painful day. I just googled and found out our birthdays are two days apart so that's cool lol. If your reading this from the hospital Joe then just know we're all rooting for you. Happy belated birthday and I know that this is WAY easier said then done but please stay strong!
I hope life treats you better than it has so far. You are stronger than you know, you got this
I'm sorry you are having to go through everything you are experiencing. Not to insult anyone commenting here, but I've had to accept that I'm not always strong and that's ok, even if I don't like it.
Happy belated birthday to you and I'm wishing you all the best. Sending you love and light, loads of strength that you come out a winner ❤
I hope everything goes well in May!
@@FenceOnAWall Thank you so much. Your encouraging words mean alot to me.
Thank you for sharing your whole story and all these pieces along the way. 💙
That is completely valid. Sometimes everything sucks, even the small things, and it is ok to feel like everything suck and to feel overwhelmed, and feel all the feels, and it is ok to feel like that. I am still working on this and accepting my feelings myself, which is why I know how important it is, and having someone online who is on the same mission really really helps. I wish you all the best with both your surgery and with processing your emotions.
Here's hoping you land in the 85% successful side this time! Do what you gotta do, and thank you for sharing what you can with us - it does help me, personally, to see and hear how you deal with creating a life you want out of one that you didn't anticipate having. Thank you for helping many of us feel less alone.
Thank you for sharing this. Honestly, seeing the "I cannot do this" side of your journey actually really helps show the full picture of pain related disability. It's really tough, and sometimes you need to have a literal pitty party to get through.
Community is so important, and I'm so glad you have good friends and family around you during these tough times.
I hope your surgery went well and that you make a fast and easy recovery. ❤
Wishing you well. Your feelings are valid.
When you said you would see us “on the other side” I laughed and cried. I said that to my husband just before one of his surgeries. The doctor quickly told me that my husband would be okay, interpreting what I said ominously. However, at this hospital, the patient goes in the OR on one side and comes out of recovery on the other side of the unit. 😂
Tears are from the feelings that we share with you about facing another surgery; this isn’t how we dreamed our lives to be.
Thank you for sharing. You are not alone and by sharing we know we aren’t alone either.
When you go through things like this, people will tell you how strong you are… but I just want to tell you that you don’t have to be strong. Be hurt, be angry, be frustrated. Have your pity party. Feel whatever you’re feeling and WHEN you’re ready, CONQUER IT. You got this girl.
This 🙏🏻
Your gains will NOT be for nothing! You will recover faster because your are stronger and you will be able to get up and around faster than someone who may be over weight! Your hardwork WILL PAY OFF!
Thinking of you! You’ve got this, strong woman!!!!
Jo, many prayers for you, you're surrounded by loving family and friends, two legged and four.
i understand completely how you are feeling. I have multiple chronic health problems, type 1 diabetes since 1966, stage 4 kidney disease, severe rheumatoid arthritis, vision loss, and severe heart problems. I am getting heart bypass Monday 5-1-23. At least 5 grafts. I understand your pity party I had one last weekend after I had my second heart attack. Then I decided like you "that it is what it is" and that I will survive just like you will. Best of luck on a complete recovery free of pain and any compilations.🙏🙏🙏
You are braver than you let yourself believe and are always an inspiration to watch. I'm in that 15% too and it's a difficult place to be but I think it secretly gives us super powers to handle what most others couldn't. Will be keeping you in my thoughts during your surgery but YOUVE GOT THIS!! ❤
I really love your friends. I know you also had a goodbye party for your ankle and to shave your head for brain surgery as well. I am glad they are supporting you and having fun with you.
I love that just as you were talking about it being scary to go through this surgery while living alone, your dogs turned up again, like, 'WHADDAYA MEAN living alone, huh? We got you!'
Sending you love, strength and all the hooe that this goes as planned. As a person with medical trauma, I get it. ❤ Hugs Jo. We got your back.
It was so cute seeing your dogs taking care of you with licks and cuddles. Best of luck in the surgery. ❤
You're willing to bare your soul; I'm one of many who are willing to listen to you. You've got this. Like you said, you have a bunch of people for support, and you have your own strength. I hope for the best for you. Good luck.
I hope everything goes well with this. And also, you should know, your arms are looking great, girl! You look like a superhero
I can relate to what you have gone through. In 9 yrs I had over 30 surgeries on my left leg/foot. It is very hard to go through all that it entails, and come out sane.
You help all that have gone through basically the same things you went through, being open about is the best way to understand some of what amputees go through.
Thanks for being someone we can relate to and for giving helpful advice. Prayers 🙏🙏
Strength to you, girl ❤. My mom had a knee replacement, then followed buy an above knee amputation on the other leg. It's been an uphill battle, but Jesus has helped us through it all. She has occasional pain but she is alive and strong. Christ keeps us going as a family.
Here's hoping you have kind, attentive nurses, and that your surgery goes smoothly! I also hope they give you the good stuff to help with your pain after surgery.
Your internet team is out here sending you tons of energy and positive thoughts for this procedure. Remember, you too are beautiful and lovely no matter how you look. Hang in there Jo!!
Hi Jo, You are doing the right thing, there's nothing wrong with going into survival mode to get this done. It sounds to me that you are not back all closed up, you are talking about what you are going to do to make it through, which is good. Wishing you a good operation and that you update us all soon on how it's gone. Especially if you are able to post whilst drugged up to high heaven, you know it's gotta be good for a giggle to look back on ;-) Seriously though, if you are not up to it, rest, relax and recover, that's the most important thing you can be doing for the next few weeks.
You're in my thoughts today! I hope your surgery goes well.
You got this. I am hoping, praying, putting good vibes into universe whatever works for you. I fall into 5%, if there is 95% chance a surgery will work. It is ok to be a robot to go through surgery & healing, you can deal with all the emotions after the fact. As someone who is also not living the liife I wanted. Who thought, I would be laid up as at 44 on permanent disability with many surgeies in my knees. I finally have them replaced, yet here I sit with my legs up unless I am engaged in specific activity.
Im so sorry the amputation us leaving you with so many issues. I hope this surgery helps!!!
Wish you a fast & speedy recovery, Jo. Godspeed.
I totally understand what you are saying. Even with my neck stuff lately, I have only had two surgeries and I am already so over it. I really hope this second one worked, because I really really really don't want to do that again.
I was noticing how buff you are getting, I know it will be hard to be stuck resting for a while. I know you will be able to be back in the gym before you know it.
I hope it goes well and you get relief from the pain. I'd say you're totally normal for how you feel about yet another surgery after going through so much.
Chronic Pain is such a mind destroying ordeal. no one who hasn't dealt with it can understand. You've gone through so much more than most people, and you do what you need to to get through it.
Also divorce SUCKS. it's also something that the majority of the population doesn't understand. and that's on a normal day.
You're so strong and inspiring. We're here for you!
Jo: I am so lucky to have so many good friends.
Dogs: That's our cue!
Later:
Jo: It is so hard going through this as someone who lives alone.
Dogs: Mommy feels alone?! WE CAN'T HAVE THAT!
Strong women are beautiful, be it physical strength or mental strength. You have both!
Sending love and support your way. All the physical gains you've made (your arms look amazing!), plus being comfortable with your wheelchair around the house, those things have to help so much with recovery. Not to mention with the injured knee. Even though it might not feel like it, it seems like you've done really great work to prepare for this. We're here, wishing you well.
I don’t see or hear self pity, you are in the right to be very concerned and even scared about the surgery and then all that recovery. May you find comfort in your loved ones and this community.
Sending you all the good vibes and positive healing thoughts I can muster. I hope your surgery goes well!
don't look now, but I think you've got some bicep showing there.
Jo, you are incredible. The fact that this scares you & you don't know how to handle it and your doing it ANYWAY. That is so incredible.
I am just now learning the "do the things scared" thing, being scared of pretty much everything myself. It is so freaking hard, I have no idea how you do it.
Seeing you working towards creating a better future for yourself, not losing your humour, openly talking about your fears & the emotional turmoil...I guess you hear it all the time but you really are such a wonderful person.
Fingers crossed for the next 6 months of your journey, may the nubbin be rearranged satisfactorily ✨
This isn't a pity party. It's a legitimate hard time. I struggle with the distinction, too. It was a bad week and I have been low and my husband pointed out, this week just sucked for me and that's okay to admit. It's okay to admit you are afraid. I have health issues and I understand the fear. First, there is the fear of pain management. Then you worry if it will help or if you did it for nothing or what if it gets worse . Sometimes we have to try anyways, and the more you have to try the harder it is. But you are doing amazing. Talking about it ways helps. You are going to get through this. Whatever the outcome, you will figure it out. You deserve to have something go right and I hope you get through it all perfectly and that you have a good recovery. You are definitely not alone. Thank you for sharing your own trauma. It has helped.
Jo thanks for sharing your journey and your vulnerability AND strength with us. I really hope this surgery is a successful one!!!
Praying for a smooth surgery and a speedy recovery.
Here’s hoping you’re getting good rest right now and that the recovery goes as well as it can ❤
Try to heal your left knee without surgery. I had meniscus tears, plus issues & UCSF Ortho got me considerably better without surgery. It took 4 years. I'm sending Positive Vibrations🥰😘🥰
Hearing about your journey and the emotions you have gone through has been helpful for a number of people I know dealing with chronic pain and other medical challenges. I know the feeling of being in that 15%, but its clear you have taken the time to reason this through, despite the pain, and are confident you have made the correct decision.
You're going through natural human emotions, which is perfectly understandable. Understanding that our mental, physical, emotional and sexual health are ALL connected.
YOU are the ONLY thing PERMANENT in your life, so you have every right to your wants and needs. 💜. Love from Rhode Island, USA.
I think I'm in good company in wishing you the best. May you have a speedy and uneventful recovery.
Hi Jo, I understand exactly what you were describing. I've been battling bladder cancer since 2011 and have been put under to remove tumors more times than I can even count. I've seriously lost count. I even woke up in the middle of surgery once and screamed due to the pain. I think that might have pushed me over the edge. lol I did find out recently though that I have medically induced PTSD so that might be what you have already, if you didn't already know. You're not alone, for sure. I have found that I just make jokes now instead of crying. I'm all cried out. :) If there are any potential side effects of any treatments, I'm going to have it. LOL....You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Others may have already broken if they'd gone through what we've been through. It's okay to get tired of it all. Just pull yourself back up when you've had a rest and keep moving forward. You got this, Jo! :) You can vent anytime you want. BIG HUGS from Florida!
I'm sorry you're struggling so much with deciding to go through this, and I'm so proud of you for doing it anyway. All the best in your recovery! We'll be eagerly awaiting news and hoping that it goes perfectly.
The "medical truma" is straight-up truma, ongoing, and continuous. I became disabled in 2004 while in Iraq. Your strength is incredible, as are your friends and family! Thanks for the cry....I mean that!
you are such a warrior. and love your pups too. and love the new tattoo on your arm…
Good luck with your TMR surgery, Jo! If your surgeon is at the top, he will be able to practically eliminate phantom limb pain and neurogenic pain. The downside is that it will take you several months to be comfortable wearing your prosthesis. My revision surgery was 4 months ago and just now I'm starting to be comfortable with my prosthesis, but every person is different and I hope you make me a liar😀
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I'm glad you have your videos to instruct others and verbally process all this trauma (even if you hate that word).
I have extremely debilitating nerve pain in my paralyzed arm. I worked 10-14 hour 6 days a week doing landscaping for 13 years with my arm paralyzed and then an accident caused the arm to get worse as far as pain. For the last 8 years I only leave my house to go get my pain medication and Walmart every other week. I can't be around ppl anymore and have not seen a friend in 3 years. The pain doctor won't increase my medication. I have been on 60mg of Xtampza and 2400mg gabapentin a day for 2 years without an increase. They say a 40% reduction in pain is what they are going for and if I'm not getting that with the meds then they will stop giving them to me. I have to lie and say my pain is 5-6. When the time comes I think doing it in the doctor's office might be the way to go. Maybe they will start listening to patients. I have asked for any opinions like cutting the arm off or cutting the nerves or shots. I tried 2 different Spinal chord simulators that did absolutely nothing.
Anyway I hope you get the relief you need!
Hey, howya feelin'? I imagine there is more pain in the short term. I pray you will heal and the pain will dimish. Don't feel like you have to give us an update,.even a short, while fighting debilitating pain. Hard to be "up" when all of your consciousness is overshadowed by pain. Without being completely doped up. Hang in there kiddo!
Sending you all the love in the world Jo, I wish I could give you the biggest hug ❤ Good luck, you're strong, brave and resilient, you can get through this! You inspire me ❤️
I encourage you to seek professional counseling during this period of your life. It is so important to talk and medical trauma is a real thing. I had some medical trauma after my first child was born and it was really hard to find a counselor back then (10 years ago). Now my city has a counseling clinic dedicated to women's struggles birth, postpartum, infant loss, etc. I say that to say there is probably a counselor who specializes in medical trauma who could help you get through this difficult journey. Sending love and blessings your way ❤.
You deserve to have a pity party! This isn't fair! I wish you the BEST OF LUCK 💜💜
Sometimes, Jo, you don’t need hope, because we all have enough hope for you. I trust that it’ll work, it’s worked for so many people and sometimes i have to remind myself, if it worked for them why wouldn’t it work for me? I’m not special? ❤
“ could not stand it anymore “ LMAO IDK WHY THIS AMDE ME LAUSE SO HARD
I have literally been admiring your muscles the entire video. 😂❤ That is so cool! I have also been taught that muscles on girls is basically ugly, and now that I am on my way also to not get thin, but actually strong, looking at you doing that too (and so incredibly well) is incredible. You look strong and capable, and it is going to come bck! ❤❤
6:19 "Long story short, it is really scary going through this as someone who lives alone."
_Proceeds to get smothered by her doggos, probably saying "Moooooom! What about us, mom?!"_ 😅
Your strength is inspiring. Keep going Jo you truly are a source of inspiration to others going through personal truma. Talking it out with friends or professionals is mobing forward. You are not stuck. Keep going. We love your channel.
Rosemary and Dave.
You are awesome, and you rock! We're all rooting for you. Sending all the positive energy your way.
I got your ad on your video haha so neat! Sending healing vibes~~ Robot mode is okay for a little bit! That’s why we have that skill ykow? Self love and gentleness is the key right now, but you know all that and you got this! xx
Hey Jo, all your gains (physical and mental) were for the next few months - imagine how much easier your recovery will go now that you're so strong in every way.
I'm in a similar situation to you (pain-wise), I have 12 years of nerve damage to my entire body thanks to an autoimmune disease that's destroying my nerves (CIDP - it causes pain, weakness, and numbness). It went very slowly for the first 8 years, then it picked up steam and i lost so much so quickly - no more hiking, no more exercise, no more driving, no more walking without a cane, no more walking (except short distances to medical appointments, and even then I pay with days of agony).
I thought it couldn't get much worse (...sweet summer child), but the last two months have made even going to the toilet hard (I cant feel anything down there now, and the muscles aren't strong enough either), but the worst part is the pain. It happens in short bursts, one to ten minutes of TEARING pain in my thighs, it's so bad I can barely breathe - it got turned up to 11, in other words.
I've tried everything the doctors could think of for pain relief, so they sent me to a pain clinic. I was hoping the doctors there would have another different medicine to try, but nope! A direct quote - "I can't reinvent the wheel". The only thing he could recommend is another surgery to implant a device called a spinal cord stimulator, which he said could help reduce my pain by at least half! But if it goes wrong, I could come out of it a paraplegic, and I don't know if I can deal with that right now. I've lost almost everything in the last 6 months, including my soul-mate cat (as the vets called him). He was what kept me going for so long, and I've got no idea how to keep going.
Anyway, surgery scary, still not sure I can deal with another surgery (I think it would be number 9, I could be forgetting something though). Listening to you talk about it and being in robot mode is VERY relatable, my body is so medicalised and it just feels like a prison (I'm the inmate, but also the caretaker? That seems unfair! 😆).
Good luck Jo, and thank you for letting us in to see your journey. I'm grateful for the chancee to see that I'm not alone in this medical shit-fuckery! I'll be waiting on the other side 💛
I have had multiple colds each year for my entire life!
...as I guess most of us have. But we all still dread getting a cold.
No matter how many surgeries some one has had, it's still not something one would look forward too.
It doesn't make some one cowardly or silly for putting off something as serious as surgery.
It sucks to hear that your life/pain has gotten bad enough that you're willing to go through with a surgery in hopes that you will find some comfort again
Hope your surgery went well! Thank you for sharing your journey and well wishes! You are amazing!❤
I think lots of people in this comment section have said wonderful and insightful things, so I can't bring more to that part of the conversation. But your arms look buff and cool, your dogs are cute and are happy to be by you, and your pity party straw is dope and well deserved.
My first thoughts this morning when I woke up were wondering how you are doing. I understand those fears. I wish your pups could put on some surgical gowns and be with you through this process. They are obviously so in love with you! I'm glad that you have a circle of family and friends who are there to support and help you through recovery. If I lived closer, I would certainly offer my help too. As hard as this process may look, I believe you have all the right pieces in place to make this a success. Sending hugs!!🤗
Jo, you are an amazing person. Thank you for being vulnerable about this stuff it truly shows how strong you are.
Jo, I am wishing so hard the best for you. If you get the green light to go to the gym in a cast with crutches, I say go for it 🙂 And your muscles are really starting to show - congrats on the epic gains!!
I can relate. I get what you are sharing. It sucks but sounds pretty "normal" to me. Do your best. Hope you have lots of good moments even on the worst of days. This too will pass. I hope it turns out not to be as bad as you fear. That's a pleasant thought isn't it? 🙂
I had this done in late September. Early days of TMR are hell, but you’ll get through it. It helped a good bit, but I lost a good bit of relief after needing a revision so essentially re-amputate below the knee. Medical Trauma is real. And I get the whole sucky surgeon experience. That’s led to 14 surgeries in the last 5 years. Hang in there 💪🏻💪🏻
All the best to you. You will push through. And your gains will wait for you when you're ready again.
Jo you have no idea how much I needed to see this video right now.
The dealing with things you don't want to, mourning the life you wish you had, fear of losing use of the good leg all hity really close to home with me.
Thank you.
Good luck with the surgery, maybe I will find a way to get mine so I can advance to a path I would enjoy.