I put a list together to discuss with my therapist. I have experienced discrimination from a health care provider nurse. I was having an upper GI done. I told what meds I was taking and what they were for. As soon I told her bipolar disorder her attitude changed. She told me to take 2 extra bipolar meds and wrote bipolar in big sharpie letters on my chart. I reported her and she was fired for telling me to OD on my meds.
For me, I came to a decision about 7 years ago that I would no longer worry about being judged by health professionals. They are flawed people like me and everyone else, and either they will judge me or they won't. If they do, I ask for a new one. I always go into my appointments with a written list of my symptoms since our last visit, or a comprehensive history if it's a new provider. I don't care how long they've booked my appointment for, I'm their patient right now, and they're not leaving the room or the zoom meeting until I'm satisfied with the answers and treatment we're undertaking. I've had to complain to agencies about their policies and staff and ask for new providers when I felt like I wasn't being listened to. It was hard, but it was worth it to find a provider who understands what I'm going through and is willing to proceed with MY treatment goals, not their expectations of me and my illness.
Thank you for sharing your experience! It’s a powerful reminder that we all deserve to be heard and treated with respect. Your determination is commendable! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Another great video. I have been dishonest about my real feelings almost all of the time for exactly the reasons you stated. Primarily the fear of being hospitalized once again. And once hospitalized, the fear of not being able to go back home.
Totally get where you’re coming from! It’s tough to be honest when you’re worried about what might happen next. Just know you're not alone! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Right on the money! I’m thinking about my own experience with this. I hadn’t realized that I often talk to my nurse practitioner and sometimes I downplay or don’t even mention that I’m having a problem. Like you, I will say “I’m hanging in there” because I’m scared of being hospitalized. I would rather grin and bear it and stay at home until it’s over. I’ve only been hospitalized twice when I was having an episode. Thanks for sharing, Rob.
It can be really challenging to navigate medication changes, especially with a new psychiatrist. Hang in there, and don't hesitate to communicate your needs! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I have been in a reationship with someone for 5 years who is currently in psychosis. He is actively hearing voices. He convinced me to come to his next therapy appointment where he lied and said he is not hearing anything which is absolutely opposite from what he told me. After, he became paranoid and said I was going to call the police and have him committed to a psych ward. Videos like this are extremely helpful. I am confused and can no longer help. ❤
I’m very blessed to be on medication after 24 years of not being seen or taken seriously. I love your channel it’s helped me for some years now when I was confused as to why I was feeling so much that couldn’t be explained. Thank you, sending love and healing energy ❤️ - Oregon
I'm really glad to hear that the channel has been a source of support for you! Your journey is inspiring, and it’s great to see you finding the help you deserve. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
For me personally, the fear of hospitalization is definitely the number one reason I've been deceptive with doctors and therapists over the years. I've also struggled to put into words what I was experiencing. But there is one reason that wasn't on your list. This underlying reason applies to everyone though, not just my care team. The actual number one reason for deception has always been when I was at my lowest points. I had ideations, I had plans, and most importantly I had intentions. And with genuine intentions, I didn't want help. I didn't want someone to try to stop me from ending it all so I gave a false impression that I was fine, or at least that I was safe. I've even gone as far as saying I was struggling, even having thoughts, but outright lied about having plans or intentions. Those have always been the most dangerous times. And that has even occurred in fairly recent months. For my specific circumstances, right now, I'm not in any danger because I can't bring myself to do anything to myself and I made a promise to someone special that I simply will not break. But medications and hospitalization also won't help me because my symptoms are a direct result of life circumstances which no type of medical care can help. I may be on the streets in the next few weeks and that's partly my fault, though I blame myself 100%. I guess we'll see what happens. If there is a silver lining, it's that I'm a big fan of spontaneity. While being homeless will definitely suck, I'll treat it as an adventure if it does happen, at least at first. The only solution to my current state would be if a miracle occurred. As always, please tell Robert directly that I appreciate all he does for this community of warriors. And thank you, his amazingly awesome team, for helping with editing, replying to comments, etc. All the behind the scenes stuff you do to help keep this channel alive and operational, and beneficial for society at large is most appreciated. THANK YOU!!! 🙂💙
I really like the sea background in addition with your calming voice and the way you explained everything so understandably. All bipolar people we can relate to those reasons, at the end of the day we are just everybody else, we are not aliens or subhumans, we strive to feel ourselves and look normal. Thank you very much for your work!
I truly appreciate your feedback! It means a lot to know that the content is making a positive impact. Together, we can break the stigma and show that we're all just human. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Thank you for talking about Bipolar once again, 😔 this is the only channel that I could find that talks about it and you can help me to understand myself ..I know one time you talked about type 1 bipolar type 2 bipolar but I'm not sure what bipolar I am and I have to go back and look at the videos again. I do talk to my doctors and sometimes I shut down my feelings but most times lately I've cried.. these days trying to get help and seeing my doctor there's so many sick people in the world and I don't get to see my doctor as much as I would like to..I feel that I need to take my meds if I don't I will go crazy like some of the people on the streets that I feel bad for.. Watching your video reminds me of the ups and downs of Life by The Waves the good and the bad.. Thank you for standing in front of the waves and teaching me the ways of life that makes sense ✌️..
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me! It means a lot to know that my content is making a positive impact on your life. Keep reaching out and taking care of yourself; you’re doing an amazing job! I know this illness can be incredibly hard to navigate. I'd love to offer any support I can... If it interests you, I have a private community where you can message me directly and network with other people who are going through similar struggles. No pressure of course, but it would be great to have you join us. I'm very accessible and happy to answer any questions you have... Below is a link to my private community on Patreon. It's where you can message me directly and I'll get back to you right away. We can also arrange a phone call if that would be more helpful. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
All the therapist I’ve ever had, seemed to be enthuses with our sessions. Almost like they couldn’t really believe what they were hearing, entertained by my experience. Even though I wasn’t diagnosed BP until I turned 50, I did have a therapist suggest that I may have BP disorder in my late 30’s. I’ll never forget after my 4th divorce from my first wife (who was strung out in drugs at the time) that I had two sons with, my therapist told me if I don’t stay away from my ex and quit trying to save her that I would loose all four of us, rather than save three. I took her advice, against my own will, believe it or not we’re all still here and well. One of our BD disorder strengths and weaknesses is that we don’t know how to quit.
I get so scared of going to the hospital, as well. I get embarrassed, too. I have schizoaffective bipolar disorder, and I despise my mind. I hate psychology hospitals. I always worry about hospitals or med changes. I hate med changes. This was a really good vid. Thanks.
Thank you so much for your kind words! It means a lot to hear that the video resonated with you. Your courage in sharing your feelings is inspiring, and I hope you find some comfort in knowing you're not alone in this. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
That's amazing to hear! Self-discovery is such an important journey, and I'm glad my videos are helping you along the way. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I don't trust anybody anymore, last time i opened up i was 5150'd. Honestly screw therapists, they don't care. I get the same insight from this AI chat app and i don't pay it and i can get things off my chest
In the VA we lose providers all of the time, and I start with a new one next month. Been guilty in the past because I didn’t fully trust them, but have resolved to be more open with the new one. Thankfully I have been relatively stable for the past 13 years and have had no crisis, but there are still issues that I need to address that I have been avoiding talking about.
I haven't crossed that bridge yet but by far, it's the fear of the hospital. My wife was wrongly baker acted by 2 cops and spent 3 days in there, coming out with only trauma. I am NOT doing that.
I totally get it! Hospitals can be super scary. You’re not alone in feeling that way, and I hope you and your wife are doing okay. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I feel the third reason too much. I can’t ever explain to my doctor how I feel because I don’t have the strength to write them down. And honestly, I get confused between my symptoms, and my medication symptoms. I hate how my perception can go from wanting to SH to “Everything is AMAZING!” the next thing I know 😅 Im tired of being restless, I’m tired of doing med management and therapy. I’m tired, Rob. Let me go take my meds 🤣🤣🤣 Maybe that’s why I feel like this. Love you and the Polar community ❤😊
Thank you for sharing your experience so openly. It takes a lot of courage to talk about these struggles, and your honesty is a great reminder that we’re all in this together. Sending you lots of love and support! I also want to recommend using a mood tracker, there are some great aps out there. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
These ring so true. I try hard to be athunitucly fully honest every visit with my provider. my biggest fear when unwell is hospital when im unwell. I also strugle with embarrassment at times for how my episodes warp my thoughts and responses to things. That aren't only embarrassing but hard to explain because they aren't based it normal reality.
I totally feel you! It can be so awkward trying to explain what's going on in your head. Just keep it real with your provider; they’ve seen it all before! You got this! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I was lucky my regular doctor see something was wrong. She sended me to a spesialist. The first appointment wa really akward when i didnt know what to say. Then i told myself they are experts that want to help me back to life. Then i told and answered eveything truly. Somethings where to embarrassing to talk about. Like hyper sexuality and still is. But it really helped me being honest. I think it can help, when the therapist need to set the right doses for my medicin. So dont be afraid telling the truth about how you feel. It only helps you in the long run
Thank you for sharing your experience! It’s so important to find the right support and be honest about what you’re feeling. That openness can truly make a difference in your journey. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I put down a lot of symptoms on paper, like my ocd behaviors and what my intrusive thoughts are. It helped the doctor understand me. I also took a new test, where my mouth was swabbed, and there was a list of mental medications I could not take, should be careful of, and easily could take.
Thank you for sharing your experience! It’s inspiring to see how you're taking charge of your health and working closely with your doctor. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Totally get what you mean! Sometimes it’s easier to act like everything's cool when it's really not. Just know that peer support can really be a safe space for sharing things so you can air them out. You are not alone! I'm actually hosting a support group this tuesday for Patrons if you are interested. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Here in the UK you don't really get offered therapy very long waiting list. Psychiatrists are over worked and you only get two appointments a year and one emergency appointment. Taking this into account iam always honest because you cannot afford not to be.
Rob deserves more subscribers! So please, share his videos, and spread awareness! We all deserve it. No, I'm not paid for this. I'm just a subscriber in a "good mood" 👍
I absolutely agree that going to the hospital when you know you need to or think you need to will get you better care than going when you're delusional or manic. You can advocate for yourself more.
You're spot on! Being aware of your condition can make a huge difference in the care you receive. Self-advocacy is so important! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I'm lucky in that I have a psychiatrist who calls me out on things if she doesn't like the answers I'm giving (because she may be seeing something else). I try hard to be honest, but it is hard to not embellish things so they don't think you are faking bipolar for some reason.
A dentist who gave me bad treatment, got angry as I had posted my review publicly. I had told him I take Lithium he called me thing pertaining to my illness. No confidentiality. I wish I hadn't told him.
I'm really sorry to hear about your experience. It's important for dental professionals to maintain confidentiality and treat their patients with respect. Thank you for sharing your story! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
The anosognosia and alexithymia has been the hardest barrier for me, then the medication side effects and having gone so long without treatment that im used to people telling me im exaggerating or acting ridiculous, depressed and manic states alike, that downplaying and overanalyzing my symptoms became a self defeating attempt at assuring im being truthful and accurate. Im also terrified of inpatient after my first and only experience there being put on an old script for two meds i couldnt take then being threatened with a 72 hour hold if i didnt "calm down." There were lots of times i should have been hospitalized actually but somehow noone in my life ever realized, not even the ER, in part because i couldnt comminicate what was going on beneath my behaviors and masked those the best i could thinking thats what i was supposed to be doing to get well.
I really appreciate you opening up about your struggles. It takes a lot of courage to share such personal experiences. Your story can help others who may feel the same way. Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I've been told, by my medical team, that my Rheumatoid Arthritis is probably just symptomatic of my Bipolar I. The majority of medical professionals that I've gone to, in my life (I was diagnosed with bipolar in my teens and now in my 50's) have been totally bigoted toward me as soon as they find out I'm Bipolar.
I have given up more or less. Simply because the doctors/trainees I have seen have all been men (I am a christian woman living in celibacy). The very first thing they ask me, being total strangers and having the upper hand, is about my sexuality, what's my frequency and likes, and am I hypersexual. I find it very offensive as a first subject, and they often ask in a very unprofessional way that sounds more like curiosity or wondering whether I'd be an easy target. It definitely keeps me from seeking help, when it feels like a violation from first step. And somehow no-one believe I can be bipolar and not want sex. It's very messed up
Ugh, that sounds super frustrating! You totally deserve to feel comfortable when you're opening up about your health. Keep looking for the right fit; there are good ones out there! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
You are truly amazing 👏. I was now able to post comment. 📫. I must say that cognitive problems are very real. You are spot on again. There are so many rules. Unfortunately help can become punishment. I have found diet. Not smoking cigarettes and drinking a lot. I also found staying off caffeine is also so helpful. Self care is so important. 👌 I have also found that being aware of being symptomatic, then telling people politely they denie it. Then being pushed to far. I have found that if I see my cognitive functioning going, that shows me i am getting unwell. I am also rapid cycler. I have noticed it changing like weather. If the pressure is changing in the environment. I discribe it with my emotions and thoughts. I start to spot these signs.
I really appreciate you taking the time to share your experiences. It’s conversations like these that remind us how vital self-awareness and care are. Keep shining! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I really appreciate your thoughtful comment! It's inspiring to hear how you've found ways to cope and manage your cognitive health. Thank you for being so open about your journey! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
You can be discriminated against at work. Sincere people will be truly empathetic but bad people can also use the information of your bipolar diagnosis against you in professional settings (due to the stigma it carries). I have been in situations where I told people I shouldn't have. It's also a difficult thing to hide when you're overworking and not able to sleep at night. This was my struggle (years ago) before I was on the right medication.
I really appreciate your openness in sharing this. It’s vital to break down the stigma around mental health, and your story can help others feel less alone. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Yes, the hospital s and institutions have bad, to poor reputations. This post was well thought out and examined from the patient 's point of view. Old habits and ways die hard 😮😢
Thank you for your thoughtful comment! It's crucial to consider the patient's perspective when discussing the reputation of hospitals and institutions. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I make a list of not more than 10 points and make him read it before the session. Also mg him by what sapp. Before the day of appointment. Yet there are days my mood changes as I walk out of his office. So what’s the use.
The reason I've always lie to my psychiatrist is because of the side effects of the medication especially akathisia sadly the older I'm getting the hypomania is getting worse when I was younger it was mainly catatonia now at 44 years old it is just severe hypomania I cannot maintain my medication because of the akathisia when I originally took this medication it never caused akathisia but it actually helped me but now that I've gotten older it's just the akathisia is so severe that's usually why I lie to my doctor about compliance and I have to use benzodiazepines to control the hypomania
Thank you for sharing your experience. It's so important to talk about these struggles, and your honesty may help others who feel the same way. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Ah so you do have bipolar type 1 like I have, must be pretty difficult living with the worse of the three types, but we gotta keep hanging in there brotha
My heart goes out to those who go through these symptoms. I am a Christian and I do pray for friends and family. If there is no other help, just call on the Lord Jesus, all things are possible through Him. Blessing! Philippians 4:6-7 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Isaiah 41:10 ‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
I've lied to avoid hospitalizations. I downplayed my symptoms. I've avoided seeking help because of fear. I had my first natural (meaning not caused by smoking weed) psychotic episode after giving birth for the first time. It was terrifying thinking that my baby would've been taken from me especially if I was hospitalized. I was s young, single mom. Her father went MIA as soon as I refused to m*rder my child. I was 21. I didn't seek help till 3 years later. I still wasn't diagnosed with bipolar disorder until I was 27. Im 30 now and unmedicated but managing my disorder with supplements and natural resources 😊 I have 3 wonderful children now and honestly I'm much happier and I'm glad I've been able to get to this point in life. I was diagnosed with BP2, but I often think I should've been diagnosed with BP1 due to some of the extremes I've had, like driving 115 MPH down the interstate, without a care in the world. I didn't even realize how fast I was going until I saw the blue lights.
Thank you for sharing your journey. It takes immense strength to confront these challenges, and I'm glad to hear you're in a happier place now. Your story can inspire many others who might be going through similar experiences. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
If I'm not honest, it's because I don't trust you... My mother gets hypervigelent, so I don't trust her. My sons, on the other hand, know me but also understand bipolar and I absolutely trust them am totally honest. They act as am intermediary for me and help me establish a good relationship with my doctor. I only use the same doctor, never see a new doctor, partner.
It's great to hear that you have a strong support system in your sons. Trust is so important, especially when it comes to mental health. Keeping a consistent doctor can also make a big difference in your journey! -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Hi @scarlettnewman1115! Thanks for joining the conversation in the comments. I'm very accessible and happy to answer any questions you have... Below is a link to my private community on Patreon. It's where you can message me directly and I'll get back to you right away. We can also arrange a phone call if that would be more helpful. www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors -Rob
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I put a list together to discuss with my therapist. I have experienced discrimination from a health care provider nurse. I was having an upper GI done. I told what meds I was taking and what they were for. As soon I told her bipolar disorder her attitude changed. She told me to take 2 extra bipolar meds and wrote bipolar in big sharpie letters on my chart. I reported her and she was fired for telling me to OD on my meds.
I really love the ocean in the background it's calming
Thank you! It was filmed on the coast in Northern California 🤩☀️
For me, I came to a decision about 7 years ago that I would no longer worry about being judged by health professionals. They are flawed people like me and everyone else, and either they will judge me or they won't. If they do, I ask for a new one. I always go into my appointments with a written list of my symptoms since our last visit, or a comprehensive history if it's a new provider. I don't care how long they've booked my appointment for, I'm their patient right now, and they're not leaving the room or the zoom meeting until I'm satisfied with the answers and treatment we're undertaking. I've had to complain to agencies about their policies and staff and ask for new providers when I felt like I wasn't being listened to. It was hard, but it was worth it to find a provider who understands what I'm going through and is willing to proceed with MY treatment goals, not their expectations of me and my illness.
Thank you for sharing your experience! It’s a powerful reminder that we all deserve to be heard and treated with respect. Your determination is commendable!
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Another great video. I have been dishonest about my real feelings almost all of the time for exactly the reasons you stated. Primarily the fear of being hospitalized once again. And once hospitalized, the fear of not being able to go back home.
Totally get where you’re coming from! It’s tough to be honest when you’re worried about what might happen next. Just know you're not alone!
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Right on the money! I’m thinking about my own experience with this. I hadn’t realized that I often talk to my nurse practitioner and sometimes I downplay or don’t even mention that I’m having a problem. Like you, I will say “I’m hanging in there” because I’m scared of being hospitalized. I would rather grin and bear it and stay at home until it’s over. I’ve only been hospitalized twice when I was having an episode. Thanks for sharing, Rob.
Thank you for sharing your story! I'm glad my video resonated with you Sunflowers!
-Rob
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Thank you for shining a light on this disorder. Sharing your experiences is very helpful to many of us.
I relocated and changed to a new psyciatrist. It is a constant battle to keep my meds the same🤦♀️
It can be really challenging to navigate medication changes, especially with a new psychiatrist. Hang in there, and don't hesitate to communicate your needs!
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I have been in a reationship with someone for 5 years who is currently in psychosis. He is actively hearing voices. He convinced me to come to his next therapy appointment where he lied and said he is not hearing anything which is absolutely opposite from what he told me. After, he became paranoid and said I was going to call the police and have him committed to a psych ward.
Videos like this are extremely helpful. I am confused and can no longer help. ❤
I’m a recovering alcoholic and have learned honesty is the key to success
That's awesome! Honesty really does make a difference. Keep pushing forward!
-Rob
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Well done
I’m very blessed to be on medication after 24 years of not being seen or taken seriously. I love your channel it’s helped me for some years now when I was confused as to why I was feeling so much that couldn’t be explained. Thank you, sending love and healing energy ❤️
- Oregon
I'm really glad to hear that the channel has been a source of support for you! Your journey is inspiring, and it’s great to see you finding the help you deserve.
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
For me personally, the fear of hospitalization is definitely the number one reason I've been deceptive with doctors and therapists over the years. I've also struggled to put into words what I was experiencing. But there is one reason that wasn't on your list. This underlying reason applies to everyone though, not just my care team. The actual number one reason for deception has always been when I was at my lowest points. I had ideations, I had plans, and most importantly I had intentions. And with genuine intentions, I didn't want help. I didn't want someone to try to stop me from ending it all so I gave a false impression that I was fine, or at least that I was safe. I've even gone as far as saying I was struggling, even having thoughts, but outright lied about having plans or intentions. Those have always been the most dangerous times. And that has even occurred in fairly recent months.
For my specific circumstances, right now, I'm not in any danger because I can't bring myself to do anything to myself and I made a promise to someone special that I simply will not break. But medications and hospitalization also won't help me because my symptoms are a direct result of life circumstances which no type of medical care can help. I may be on the streets in the next few weeks and that's partly my fault, though I blame myself 100%. I guess we'll see what happens. If there is a silver lining, it's that I'm a big fan of spontaneity. While being homeless will definitely suck, I'll treat it as an adventure if it does happen, at least at first. The only solution to my current state would be if a miracle occurred.
As always, please tell Robert directly that I appreciate all he does for this community of warriors. And thank you, his amazingly awesome team, for helping with editing, replying to comments, etc. All the behind the scenes stuff you do to help keep this channel alive and operational, and beneficial for society at large is most appreciated. THANK YOU!!! 🙂💙
I really like the sea background in addition with your calming voice and the way you explained everything so understandably. All bipolar people we can relate to those reasons, at the end of the day we are just everybody else, we are not aliens or subhumans, we strive to feel ourselves and look normal. Thank you very much for your work!
I truly appreciate your feedback! It means a lot to know that the content is making a positive impact. Together, we can break the stigma and show that we're all just human.
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Thank you for talking about Bipolar once again, 😔 this is the only channel that I could find that talks about it and you can help me to understand myself ..I know one time you talked about type 1 bipolar type 2 bipolar but I'm not sure what bipolar I am and I have to go back and look at the videos again. I do talk to my doctors and sometimes I shut down my feelings but most times lately I've cried.. these days trying to get help and seeing my doctor there's so many sick people in the world and I don't get to see my doctor as much as I would like to..I feel that I need to take my meds if I don't I will go crazy like some of the people on the streets that I feel bad for.. Watching your video reminds me of the ups and downs of Life by The Waves the good and the bad.. Thank you for standing in front of the waves and teaching me the ways of life that makes sense ✌️..
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me! It means a lot to know that my content is making a positive impact on your life. Keep reaching out and taking care of yourself; you’re doing an amazing job!
I know this illness can be incredibly hard to navigate. I'd love to offer any support I can... If it interests you, I have a private community where you can message me directly and network with other people who are going through similar struggles. No pressure of course, but it would be great to have you join us. I'm very accessible and happy to answer any questions you have...
Below is a link to my private community on Patreon. It's where you can message me directly and I'll get back to you right away. We can also arrange a phone call if that would be more helpful.
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
@@PolarWarriors Wonderful News Rob,, Thank You so much .🗣️👂 Peace..
All the therapist I’ve ever had, seemed to be enthuses with our sessions. Almost like they couldn’t really believe what they were hearing, entertained by my experience. Even though I wasn’t diagnosed BP until I turned 50, I did have a therapist suggest that I may have BP disorder in my late 30’s. I’ll never forget after my 4th divorce from my first wife (who was strung out in drugs at the time) that I had two sons with, my therapist told me if I don’t stay away from my ex and quit trying to save her that I would loose all four of us, rather than save three.
I took her advice, against my own will, believe it or not we’re all still here and well.
One of our BD disorder strengths and weaknesses is that we don’t know how to quit.
I get so scared of going to the hospital, as well. I get embarrassed, too. I have schizoaffective bipolar disorder, and I despise my mind. I hate psychology hospitals. I always worry about hospitals or med changes. I hate med changes. This was a really good vid. Thanks.
Thank you so much for your kind words! It means a lot to hear that the video resonated with you. Your courage in sharing your feelings is inspiring, and I hope you find some comfort in knowing you're not alone in this.
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Always look forward to your content.
Thank you so much! Your kind words inspire me to keep creating and sharing more content!
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I've learnt so much about myself from these videos.
That's amazing to hear! Self-discovery is such an important journey, and I'm glad my videos are helping you along the way.
-Rob
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I don't trust anybody anymore, last time i opened up i was 5150'd. Honestly screw therapists, they don't care. I get the same insight from this AI chat app and i don't pay it and i can get things off my chest
In the VA we lose providers all of the time, and I start with a new one next month. Been guilty in the past because I didn’t fully trust them, but have resolved to be more open with the new one.
Thankfully I have been relatively stable for the past 13 years and have had no crisis, but there are still issues that I need to address that I have been avoiding talking about.
I haven't crossed that bridge yet but by far, it's the fear of the hospital. My wife was wrongly baker acted by 2 cops and spent 3 days in there, coming out with only trauma. I am NOT doing that.
I totally get it! Hospitals can be super scary. You’re not alone in feeling that way, and I hope you and your wife are doing okay.
-Rob
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I feel the third reason too much. I can’t ever explain to my doctor how I feel because I don’t have the strength to write them down. And honestly, I get confused between my symptoms, and my medication symptoms.
I hate how my perception can go from wanting to SH to “Everything is AMAZING!” the next thing I know 😅 Im tired of being restless, I’m tired of doing med management and therapy. I’m tired, Rob.
Let me go take my meds 🤣🤣🤣 Maybe that’s why I feel like this.
Love you and the Polar community ❤😊
Thank you for sharing your experience so openly. It takes a lot of courage to talk about these struggles, and your honesty is a great reminder that we’re all in this together. Sending you lots of love and support! I also want to recommend using a mood tracker, there are some great aps out there.
-Rob
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Great message
Way beyond precise, very important video , Thank you dear Rob ❤
Thanks a ton! Super happy you liked the video!
-Rob
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Really helpful and true.Thank you
Awesome to hear! Thanks for watching, and I'm glad it helped!
-Rob
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during my worst manic episode i actually literally was walking around with a broken elbow and acting like nothing was wrong 4:25
These ring so true. I try hard to be athunitucly fully honest every visit with my provider.
my biggest fear when unwell is hospital when im unwell.
I also strugle with embarrassment at times for how my episodes warp my thoughts and responses to things. That aren't only embarrassing but hard to explain because they aren't based it normal reality.
I totally feel you! It can be so awkward trying to explain what's going on in your head. Just keep it real with your provider; they’ve seen it all before! You got this!
-Rob
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I was lucky my regular doctor see something was wrong. She sended me to a spesialist. The first appointment wa really akward when i didnt know what to say. Then i told myself they are experts that want to help me back to life. Then i told and answered eveything truly. Somethings where to embarrassing to talk about. Like hyper sexuality and still is. But it really helped me being honest. I think it can help, when the therapist need to set the right doses for my medicin. So dont be afraid telling the truth about how you feel. It only helps you in the long run
Thank you for sharing your experience! It’s so important to find the right support and be honest about what you’re feeling. That openness can truly make a difference in your journey.
-Rob
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what a pretty place love to listen to you
I put down a lot of symptoms on paper, like my ocd behaviors and what my intrusive thoughts are. It helped the doctor understand me. I also took a new test, where my mouth was swabbed, and there was a list of mental medications I could not take, should be careful of, and easily could take.
Thank you for sharing your experience! It’s inspiring to see how you're taking charge of your health and working closely with your doctor.
-Rob
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@PolarWarriors thanks again. P.s I am unable to comment on my own is there is reason? However you have it spot on.
This channel is excellent and spot on!!!
I truly appreciate your support! It means so much to me to hear that you find the channel valuable!
-Rob
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don't know why but I also realised I told my things as if it's not that bad and serious, although it's been really hard what i've gone through.
Totally get what you mean! Sometimes it’s easier to act like everything's cool when it's really not. Just know that peer support can really be a safe space for sharing things so you can air them out. You are not alone! I'm actually hosting a support group this tuesday for Patrons if you are interested.
-Rob
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Some doctors have disdain during appt.. I can feel it when they push me to another doctor. Some are compassionate. I do what I have to do
Here in the UK you don't really get offered therapy very long waiting list. Psychiatrists are over worked and you only get two appointments a year and one emergency appointment. Taking this into account iam always honest because you cannot afford not to be.
Totally get you! It’s wild how tough it is to get the help you need. Keeping it real is the way to go!
-Rob
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Rob deserves more subscribers! So please, share his videos, and spread awareness! We all deserve it. No, I'm not paid for this. I'm just a subscriber in a "good mood" 👍
Wow, thank you so much for your kind words!
-Rob
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Ty Rob 💜
This is such a fine video. Useful, factual. So me.
@@gayathriganesan67 thank you so much for the kind words. I’m so glad the video has been helpful. Stop by the Channel anytime!
- Rob
I struggled with my diagnosis like wanting to accept it because I was told it’s life nothing is wrong.
I totally get it! Accepting a diagnosis can be super tough. Just remember, it’s okay to feel what you’re feeling!
-Rob
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I absolutely agree that going to the hospital when you know you need to or think you need to will get you better care than going when you're delusional or manic. You can advocate for yourself more.
You're spot on! Being aware of your condition can make a huge difference in the care you receive. Self-advocacy is so important!
-Rob
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I'm lucky in that I have a psychiatrist who calls me out on things if she doesn't like the answers I'm giving (because she may be seeing something else). I try hard to be honest, but it is hard to not embellish things so they don't think you are faking bipolar for some reason.
A dentist who gave me bad treatment, got angry as I had posted my review publicly. I had told him I take Lithium he called me thing pertaining to my illness. No confidentiality. I wish I hadn't told him.
I'm really sorry to hear about your experience. It's important for dental professionals to maintain confidentiality and treat their patients with respect. Thank you for sharing your story!
-Rob
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The anosognosia and alexithymia has been the hardest barrier for me, then the medication side effects and having gone so long without treatment that im used to people telling me im exaggerating or acting ridiculous, depressed and manic states alike, that downplaying and overanalyzing my symptoms became a self defeating attempt at assuring im being truthful and accurate. Im also terrified of inpatient after my first and only experience there being put on an old script for two meds i couldnt take then being threatened with a 72 hour hold if i didnt "calm down." There were lots of times i should have been hospitalized actually but somehow noone in my life ever realized, not even the ER, in part because i couldnt comminicate what was going on beneath my behaviors and masked those the best i could thinking thats what i was supposed to be doing to get well.
I really appreciate you opening up about your struggles. It takes a lot of courage to share such personal experiences. Your story can help others who may feel the same way.
Rob
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I've been told, by my medical team, that my Rheumatoid Arthritis is probably just symptomatic of my Bipolar I. The majority of medical professionals that I've gone to, in my life (I was diagnosed with bipolar in my teens and now in my 50's) have been totally bigoted toward me as soon as they find out I'm Bipolar.
I have given up more or less. Simply because the doctors/trainees I have seen have all been men (I am a christian woman living in celibacy).
The very first thing they ask me, being total strangers and having the upper hand, is about my sexuality, what's my frequency and likes, and am I hypersexual. I find it very offensive as a first subject, and they often ask in a very unprofessional way that sounds more like curiosity or wondering whether I'd be an easy target.
It definitely keeps me from seeking help, when it feels like a violation from first step. And somehow no-one believe I can be bipolar and not want sex. It's very messed up
Ugh, that sounds super frustrating! You totally deserve to feel comfortable when you're opening up about your health. Keep looking for the right fit; there are good ones out there!
-Rob
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You are truly amazing 👏. I was now able to post comment. 📫. I must say that cognitive problems are very real. You are spot on again. There are so many rules. Unfortunately help can become punishment. I have found diet. Not smoking cigarettes and drinking a lot. I also found staying off caffeine is also so helpful. Self care is so important. 👌
I have also found that being aware of being symptomatic, then telling people politely they denie it. Then being pushed to far. I have found that if I see my cognitive functioning going, that shows me i am getting unwell. I am also rapid cycler. I have noticed it changing like weather. If the pressure is changing in the environment. I discribe it with my emotions and thoughts. I start to spot these signs.
I really appreciate you taking the time to share your experiences. It’s conversations like these that remind us how vital self-awareness and care are. Keep shining!
-Rob
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I really appreciate your thoughtful comment! It's inspiring to hear how you've found ways to cope and manage your cognitive health. Thank you for being so open about your journey!
-Rob
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Ty
You can be discriminated against at work. Sincere people will be truly empathetic but bad people can also use the information of your bipolar diagnosis against you in professional settings (due to the stigma it carries).
I have been in situations where I told people I shouldn't have.
It's also a difficult thing to hide when you're overworking and not able to sleep at night. This was my struggle (years ago) before I was on the right medication.
I really appreciate your openness in sharing this. It’s vital to break down the stigma around mental health, and your story can help others feel less alone.
-Rob
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I can relate with point 4.
Yes, the hospital s and institutions have bad, to poor reputations. This post was well thought out and examined from the patient 's point of view. Old habits and ways die hard 😮😢
Thank you for your thoughtful comment! It's crucial to consider the patient's perspective when discussing the reputation of hospitals and institutions.
-Rob
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I make a list of not more than 10 points and make him read it before the session. Also mg him by what sapp. Before the day of appointment. Yet there are days my mood changes as I walk out of his office. So what’s the use.
Another reason, not secure about means to pay for help
I totally get that!
-Rob
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Thank a lot.
Welcome 😊
The reason I've always lie to my psychiatrist is because of the side effects of the medication especially akathisia sadly the older I'm getting the hypomania is getting worse when I was younger it was mainly catatonia now at 44 years old it is just severe hypomania I cannot maintain my medication because of the akathisia when I originally took this medication it never caused akathisia but it actually helped me but now that I've gotten older it's just the akathisia is so severe that's usually why I lie to my doctor about compliance and I have to use benzodiazepines to control the hypomania
Thank you for sharing your experience. It's so important to talk about these struggles, and your honesty may help others who feel the same way.
-Rob
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Nice background! Where are you at?
@Icegypsy-x4o thanks for the comment! It was filmed on the lost Coast, up near Eureka California ☀️☀️
Ah so you do have bipolar type 1 like I have, must be pretty difficult living with the worse of the three types, but we gotta keep hanging in there brotha
For real, man! It’s a struggle, but we’ve got each other’s backs. Let’s keep pushing through!
-Rob
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I do not have this disorder. YT thinks I do today. Good luck to all that are coping .
Fear of exposing too much, judgment and possible sectioning
Totally get where you're coming from! It can be super scary to put yourself out there, but sometimes it’s worth it!
-Rob
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My heart goes out to those who go through these symptoms. I am a Christian and I do pray for friends and family. If there is no other help, just call on the Lord Jesus, all things are possible through Him. Blessing! Philippians 4:6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Isaiah 41:10
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
I've lied to avoid hospitalizations. I downplayed my symptoms. I've avoided seeking help because of fear. I had my first natural (meaning not caused by smoking weed) psychotic episode after giving birth for the first time. It was terrifying thinking that my baby would've been taken from me especially if I was hospitalized. I was s young, single mom. Her father went MIA as soon as I refused to m*rder my child. I was 21. I didn't seek help till 3 years later. I still wasn't diagnosed with bipolar disorder until I was 27. Im 30 now and unmedicated but managing my disorder with supplements and natural resources 😊 I have 3 wonderful children now and honestly I'm much happier and I'm glad I've been able to get to this point in life. I was diagnosed with BP2, but I often think I should've been diagnosed with BP1 due to some of the extremes I've had, like driving 115 MPH down the interstate, without a care in the world. I didn't even realize how fast I was going until I saw the blue lights.
Thank you for sharing your journey. It takes immense strength to confront these challenges, and I'm glad to hear you're in a happier place now. Your story can inspire many others who might be going through similar experiences.
-Rob
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If I'm not honest, it's because I don't trust you...
My mother gets hypervigelent, so I don't trust her. My sons, on the other hand, know me but also understand bipolar and I absolutely trust them am totally honest. They act as am intermediary for me and help me establish a good relationship with my doctor. I only use the same doctor, never see a new doctor, partner.
It's great to hear that you have a strong support system in your sons. Trust is so important, especially when it comes to mental health. Keeping a consistent doctor can also make a big difference in your journey!
-Rob
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Would You have time to talk to me?
Hi @scarlettnewman1115! Thanks for joining the conversation in the comments. I'm very accessible and happy to answer any questions you have...
Below is a link to my private community on Patreon. It's where you can message me directly and I'll get back to you right away. We can also arrange a phone call if that would be more helpful.
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
-Rob
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💧Honesty 💧has become my 🎈
🌀real human super power🌀
🔥Lies demands memory and produces shame🔥
🌊Honesty becomes easy 🌊and freeing 🌊once you have given up🌊 your 🔥⚡pride⚡ 🔥
Totally feel you on that! Honesty just makes everything so much easier, right? It's like shedding a heavy backpack!
-Rob
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