I sit alone in my room as I do every night. Alone. It’s to the point where I don’t even get notifications on snap or text anymore. It hurts but still somehow I prefer this way. It’s like I’m not meant to be with others because when i try to be around people my anxiety fires up, like a steam engine pummeling down a route on a cold winter’s morning. Being alone allows me to be myself. The judgement given in this world is sickening. No one is perfect but still some don’t seem to see their own issues and it angers me. Being alone is great but I just want someone to care about me sometimes. Someone. Someone who I can actually trust and love. I’ve come to think I’ll never find those things in this cold cruel dirty world we live in. All I’ve ever received from others including family is anger and disappointment when all I try to do is make others lives better. Apparently I can’t. So I’ve just shut up. When I try to communicate my feelings to others it never goes well. So I don’t do that anymore. Can I just please find that someone if you are really out there?Please. 1 year later I’ve found that someone and now I’m more happy than I’ve ever been. Thank you to all the people who replied with encouragement. I appreciate you all and hope you all are doing well and progressing in your lives.
There are people out there that care brother don’t be afraid to reach out and talk to Anyone, literally anyone. People care trust me people care about you
I feel different af. I’m just sitting in my room and my window’s open, I’m listening to this and just.. reminiscing. The breeze is warm and inviting, the scent of summer is in the air.. I love moments like these.. 9:37 pm June 23rd 2023
@@TheLiquidEdit I know you're probably just saying this as a general thing but this made me laugh so hard. like stay safe from what? the breeze? the scent of summer ?😭😭
It doesn’t get better, you work with it thru your life making you stronger and able to work around it. If you do nothing it stays the same, I learned that later then I would’ve liked. If your reading this I hope you’re genuinely okay though.
I’m not okay Lord, I don’t know why I keep seeing the other days ahead. I’m just waiting for you to take me willingly because I don’t want to go to hell due to killing myself. To the person who made this slowed version thank you, I cried with a heart that’s trying to heal from all the past traumas and wants be happy in 2022.💔
I will pray for you. I know the Lord will bless you with strength to get through it. It may seem so impossible but every waking moment you are breathing is a chance. Promise you it will get better. Hang in there❤️ the world needs you
She was my first. Looking back feels like a dream, or a movie. The tears from laughter, happiness, sadness, anger, love, I can still feel them sliding down my face. Everything was so simple.
You ever just feel so tired of life that you just lay in bed and think about every good memory you’ve ever had and just visualize reliving them all? I do. It’s so comforting and painful at the same time knowing that I have to eventually move on and create more. Why can’t the old original ones just be enough?
I hope ur doing ok....man...ever down jus talk to me.... I cant truly feel what u have been feeling lately but could resonate to ur feeling for the least... Stay safe buddy
Everyone has something in their lives going on, reading them in the comments as I have a story too like you all, here this music sets comfort and a deep reflection trance state. To overthink, to cry, to resonate of something we love or hate or miss or just about anything, lonely yet alone internally.
This makes me think it being in a clear ocean, with different shades of blue flowing around me. Listening to the sounds the creatures make. With closed eyes i just meditate,and think.
I’m so tired of myself dude. I pray that God just takes me away because I can’t fathom the feelings I’m pouring out right now. I feel so alone and so empty all I want is happiness. I’ve lost so much. Even people I’ve loved most. I’m sitting in my room talking to God about how I feel and I can’t help but to beg to be taken home. I don’t want to be here. I’m not suicidal but I just wish I was simply… gone.
I miss being happy yknow. Being a joy filled little kid. I remember the days I smiled and the days I didn’t. It feels like I don’t smile as much anymore. I can’t even focus anymore I feel so lost. I’m lacking in school already, I can’t sleep, I pass out as soon as I get home. I’m such a mess and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve realized I’ve bottled up things without even realizing. Thought of things I didn’t know I thought about. And all of it’s pouring out right now. I have so much love to give but nobody to give it to except for God. It makes my heart ache so much feeling like this. I want this feeling to go away. I wanna be happy like I once was. I can’t do this anymore.
@@sinti1079 Im so sorry that you’re feeling that way :( trust me everything will eventually get better over time and god is listening to you ! He’s with you and understands exactly what you’re feeling. Please don’t give up there’s so much ahead of you that you have yet to live. You will find happiness
Joy and happiness will come and go throughout life. The same goes with sadness and depression. You can take steps in either direction whenever you want, nothing is stopping you and nothing ever will. Start in the right direction sooner rather than later friend, for time is never on our side.
God loves you, God hears you and God can heal you, he cares for you and did way before we even existed, Allow him into your life and watch the beauty of his Grace and Love transform your life, Stay blessed, you got this brother ❤️
bro what this song got me feeling like 🫢 You in your room, home alone, the TV is on.. it’s raining.. you get a blanket, go to the window, and watch the rain next to your bed. It starts to calm you, you feel sleepy and start to lay on the bed and flick ur eyes closed. Now, goodnight.
Well.. it’s finally summer 2023. Spring went by so fast.. I just don’t understand. I love the summer so much, I never want it to end. Everything is so warm and inviting, those warm summer nights.. 4 am.. and if I felt like it, sneaking down to the pool and having an early morning dip. I’m currently sitting in my bed.. it’s 3:41 pm. I hear the cicadas calling and a storm is brewing, I hear the thunder. Summer has never always been my favorite season, but since 2021.. I’ve grown to love it.
it's 10:45 at night rn. i have my first biology gcse paper tomorrow morning and i'm petrified. i really want to do radiography or sonography when i'm older and i really need to make these grades. i've worked my ass off but i feel like it's all going to come crashing down on me. i heard this sound for 3 seconds on tiktok and immediately started welling up with tears. i've got one shot and the pressure i have put on myself is only starting to hit me and i don't want to let my future self down. i'm scared
@@StopDropDash i've now completed all of my gcses and am on summer break. results day is over a month away which is quite scary but most of the papers were okay. at this point i just have my fingers crossed because i can't change any of the results 🤞🏼. i'm now dealing with a detachment from my friend group but all is good because i think it's for the better anyway :)) it's funny, cause i was going through a lot a month ago cause of gcses, trying to get over 3 different people for 3 different reasons and was feeling lonely within my friends. i'm trying my best to be as positive as i can now and see the good in bad situations. thank you for checking up, i appreciate you 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I smoke N drink to this I just look back at all the should’ve,would’ve and could’ve I had in my life then I realize it will all come again just not the way I want you know…life comes full circle at the end this is peace this really puts my soul at peace ☮️ ❤️🔥
Lord Jesus help me soul forgive me of my wrongs and evils give me your love and mercy I thank you for everything you do and have done for me. Forgive my hypocrisy and legalism and let be trust you and you alone amen
A terrible period has started again in my life, everything is pedos, I don't understand anything and it's hard for me to think about anything other than these things, this music is the only one that relaxes me and allows me to arrange everything in my head, thank you for everything, and I still have a lot to do and think about, I want to live the way I want and not the way it's received, be strong and do everything for your happiness
This makes me feel like I'm drifting in space with a limited amount of oxygen knowing I'm going to die. Cycling through all my memories, the time wasted, the gratitude I have for having lived, all while drifting toward a vibrant nebula appreciating its colorful beauty as I slowly lose oxygen and join the void
Sinto um vazio enorme. Sinto me sozinho mesmo acompanhado, sinto que houve um abismo em meus pensamentos, como se nada fosse importante. Medicamentos são as maiores merdas que eu já consumir para poder me aliviar. É foi isso que está me matando desde o início. Essa música me faz pensar se algum dia eu vou querer conquistar algo ou simplesmente desistir.
Vinicius meu querido, tenha esperança de que as coisas vão melhorar, seja gentil contigo, o sofrimento é muito, mas se tivermos compaixão conosco dá pra amenizar, e outra dica importante, viva um dia de cada vez. Espero que esteja bem
I'm so glad to have my best friend. We've both been here for each other every step of the way when we were struggling. I hope she knows how much I care about her, because I couldn't imagine my life without her. We've only known each other for a few months, but she saved me. I'm only 13, and when I transitioned into the second term of year seven, I let my confidence shine one lesson in-front of her and I just let things happen. Best thing I've ever decided to do. She introduced me to the whole year, and I gained immense popularity, sure it was great at first, but it was hard knowing people talked crap about you just for being known. I'm in my last term of year 7, instead of me and her hanging out with a large, fake group of popular kids we hang out alone. I feel so much more at peace, and I love her with all my heart.
I can produce original music in my mind when awake( more like a remix) . But I've never tried doing it while sleeping, come to think of it I've never heard music while in dreams.
I've always loved this song and this version. Just an odd but nice feeling. Just feels like I'm floating around the night sky without a worry in the world
Im fallin apart, cant do something about it, depression anxiety and overthinking I just wanna get through this things in my life changed after 2020 for the bad godddd just take me back to the night that all this was just started i can mange i can do all the things that i couldn’t do back there
I hope you doing better man, and I just want to let you know that when I was my lowest in life, it was the love of Jesus that saved me. I don't mean to be inconsiderate, because I don't know what you're going through, but I can't express to you how much he loves you and wants you to be with him. Seek him and you will find comfort. God bless you.
Im so thankful I met her. Im so glad that all the choices both me and her made have led to us becoming something. We’re in a tough spot right now but I know that hopefully one day we’ll continue our everlasting journey :) I love you so much
this song would be the music playing through those memories I've had with my friends, when things were normal. when things weren't so empty cold and dark, when they were with me and we'd laugh the whole day as everyone else would wish they were us, but look at me, what am I withough them? they just dumped me like I never cared, like I never tried to make things right when they were in the wrong, when I had to sacrifice my loved ones' trust for them. everythings' ruined, I have nobody to talk to, nobody to laugh, to care about or with. I'm not capable of living in this world without friends, trust me I've tried being independent but that hole of loneliness still aches for friends, but now it's getting deeper and nothing is filling it up. I'm just asking for someone who'd look at me and see that i'd be there for them, but if they're willing to do the same. i wish they'd come back to me, somehow.
If you were awake for all the hours you were asleep, you would have figured out a lot of things. Edit 2024: i see so many people talking about how being around people is stressful and they love alone time. Does it not strike you that life does not need to be lived so loudly? Appreciate the company of others, the joy, the laughter, and every emotion. But do not retreat to your solidarity and complain of the draining nature of socialization. I’m an extrovert, i love greeting people and initiating conversation and being loud. When i return home to be alone, I’m not texting and calling and being always social. Silence is natural, and not a thing only you partake in because people are draining
This makes me think about all my trauma that happened to me….makes me feel a different type of pain….how am I supposed to tell ppl what happened to me when they got the wrong picture
To everyone out there YOU matter. And im proud of you all for everything you've been through and making it this far im proud of you for eating im proud of you for getting up im proud of you for waking up this morning im proud of you for brushing your teeth im proud of you for cleansing yourself im proud of you for cleaning your room. You are just as important as anyone else out there and if anyone says anything about you dont be afraid to cuss them out they deserve it. You may not think this now but latter on in life you might find something or someone that interests you and you'll be thinking back like my younger self would have never thought that i would've made it this far and found the one thing that could actually make me happy. Sometimes you just need to get out of the mess itself and find ways to cope with it take a walk go eat something that you enjoy or talk to someone you know will listen and if they wont i will. Dont waste your time on people who dont care about you. Just know you will get past these things and i believe in you stay safe loves and enjoy your life while it lasts you on live once
if you overthink about a problem you cannot solve right now, you will only create more problems. let the problem be and it will either solve itself or you will find the right solution because taking things slow is the key to everything. if you *can't* solve it, why worry? if you *can* solve it, why worry?
I just wish I was pretty so that people would treat me better. I wish I could look at my self without feeling disgusted with myself. I wish that someone would look at me and tell me how pretty I am.
I have never felt seen in this world, ghosts are more alive than me. This web of darkness i have created in my life has brought me to this song. I am slowly decaying in my bed, drowning in tears with a broken heart and nobody to hold. I break everything i touch, and burn every bridge i build, so whats the point anymore? I have reached my limit, there is no rescuing me, i hope whoever see’s this, that you find peace, something I will never feel again. It feels liberating to end things, a rough pleasure that might be the most selfish thing to do. I’m so tired. My heart is drained and my soul is lifeless. I can’t be saved. Hope is just a burning memory now, a ship that has sailed a long time ago, as i drown in my sea of tears, i hope to hold your hand one last time my love. To see the reflection of the sunrise in your eyes, to kiss your soft cheeks one last time. Your love is ecstasy, but my love is poison. A curse. Before i retire, i wanted to let anyone know who is reading this that you matter. You have what it takes to push through. I hope you find the peace, safety and courage within yourself to see the light, and live a gracious life filled with passion, curiosity and love. Treasure every moment like it was your last.
I want to accept the fact I am who I am but it hurts. It's appalling that I may never change. What if I stay miserable and insecure and incapable of doing anything? I don't want to be like this.
I've been struggling with an eating disorder for the past 6 months. Its been on and off recently and everyday I have to make a choice between recovery and ⭐ving myself. I know that I cant go on like this forever, or else I'll be dead. I haven't told anyone about it yet because i don't want people to worry about me. But living in this body is so exhausting, and it seems like the only way for me to be happy with my looks. I know I can't change my face, but I thought that at the very least, i would be able to change my body. I've been forcing myself to eat because i know that if i dont, i wouldn't be here much longer. But seeing myself gain weight and no longer look like my 'sick self' is terrifying. Im so sick of my brain and my body. I want to dissapear.
And to be honest with you, I never thought I would last this long. It’s like looking over a cliff and seeing the land disperse into the sky. Like gazing into the abyss of the ever knowing oceans. Where do I go now? I don’t know. You are not alone, such a strange way to say I have been you and you have been me. How we are such strangers and yet we are bonded over our silent burdens. My friend, all I have to say to you is you are not alone, for I am alone with you. Maybe we are not alone after all.
Imagine hearing harsh words from your mom and feel like your mom hates your presence and knowing all this at young age how do except me to stay happy knowing that I’m the reason my mom is sad k
eu amo ser sozinho, eu amo me sentir sozinho, fico em paz, sem essa humanidade ridícula, aonde o amor e piada, aonde beber e fumar e ser legal, credo tenho nojo no mundo em q inf vivo, a solidão me seguiu a vida td, ruas, casas, vários lugares, aonde me sinto fora desse planeta e nos gramados, academia, e principalmente no meu quarto aonde crio cenários, aonde e uma paz imensa, aonde n tem ninguém julgando vc cm olhares sombrios, sem conhecer vc, vivo em mundo totalmente diferente do cenário da minha mente, eu particularmente n gosto de humanos, essa geração fútil, n gosto de conversar cm ninguém, literalmente ninguém, fds, oq eu realmente qr, e n posso por conto do medo q tenho dentro do meu coração totalmente quebrado e frio, cheio de remedos, existe uma pessoa a qual eu daria minha vida, ela se chama maria fernanda, porém, ela n sabe q eu amo ela, ela n sabe q eu sou totalmente obcecado por ela, ela particularmente n quer ninguém na vida dela, eu entendo eu tbm n, porém a questão, ela e a única mulher nessa terra a qual eu me casaria. se deus coloco ela na minha vida e pq a um propósito!, posso está iludido, porém e oq parece, ja reagi cm vários recadinho delas, curtindo coisas q tem aver cm gymratcasal, obs: nós fazemos academia juntos, juntos qr dizer na msm academia, ontem msm falei cm ela abracei ela, conversei cm ela, mais mal sabe ela, que eu tenho uma visão de futuro cm ela, a troca de olhares entre eu e ela, porem nenhum reage, acho q e pq temos medo do amor, o real motivo e, amor nos temos, so basta o amor acredita em nos. n sei mais oq falar, o real e isso, n há ninguém nesse planeta além dela! q eu estou disposto a amar, porém n vou tomar iniciativa alguma, jamais vai ter q acontecer cm Deus planeja. .. mais saiba n ha outra mulher nessa terra em qual eu posso me apaixonar, além de vc “ maria fernanda “ eu sou fanático e lunático por ti!, qm sabe nossas almas se conecta um dia, pq eu sinto uma galáxia dentro de me assim q vejo vc, e toco em vc , ss pareço a raquel de através da minha janela, aonde ela e obcecada no ponto doentio por ares deus grego, ss eu sou essa obsessão, Deus vai me dizer a hora em qual eu vou falar dos meus sentimentos pra vc, pessoalmente, nd de cll, essa geração so sabe de cll, vão ler um livro q e melhor!, e isso, o amor está escondido em me, pd ser q ele fique preso ae por mt e mt tmp, porém assim q vc sentir nossas galáxias se conspirando entre nós ele abre ate vc! n sei mais oq dizer 🥀 e isso MARIA FERNANDA. 🫀haverá o dia? 🫀🌙 i love you. serio e tantas coisas pea ilhe dizer q é impossível eu terminar de digitar, digitaria milhões e milhões de bíblias pra mostra o meu amor por ti, em escrito, pq o real amor é o que se demonstra, n oq fala.. MF, quarta-feira de 29/03/2023 as 2:49 da madrugada, volto aqui quando tiver em relacionamento sério cm vc, cm aprovação dos seus pais, e cm meus buquês de flores 💐, hj em dia mulheres n recebe flores, agr bebidas, festas ss, eu n tenho isso a oferecer jamais… eu tenho certeza que vc aceitaria minhas flores apesar que eu nunca dei buquê de flores pra nenhuma mulher, vc sera a primeira e única… maria fernanda. qm sabe vc ver isso um dia
I js want everything to be better, u know i always believe in God that everything will be better but somehow i still kept waiting im js here in my room crying waiting im js here wiping my tears so if ever my family comes up or someone they wont see me crying in pain i js want everyting to be better but still this world keeps messing me up keeps talking bad things about me but still i love them and i should pray them, i hope everything gets better i dont want to stay here on my room crying all night every single day i keep getting anxiety worry and fear and once its all gone another thing came up and yet again anxiety worry and fear. God bless you all i hope everything somehow gets better in all of your life. As i read the comments im not alone and as i read it got me encouraging on what pain im feeling right now and commenting it here thank you guysss. God bless you all and be safe to all of you and your loved ones
i remember scrolling through Tiktok at midnight cause i couldn't sleepIn 2020-2021 then years later (Now) hear this song its very slow and im in a moment of peace years later ive known to find peace within myself thank you for posting this so i can remember it again💖💖🥳🥳......Time sure does Fly Ive changed so much
This song is what it means to consider your being, and accept your introspection. Looking down at these comments I realize how occupied I am with myself to notice how everyone else is, I am not lonely I just love to think.
I am thinking about the feelings i used to waste on people i knew a girl once she was my best friend we would always hang out but turns out that she has a crush on someone that i also had a crush on so she used me to get closer to that person and then just left me . I never realized how stupid the problem was like at the end this world is just a test from god and we well all die soon and no one well remember
Night terrors don't usually bother me. I never really get genuinely scared of much. But tonight I had one that made me practically scared for my life. I'm still nervous and just hollow after it. I tried to scramble for someone and of course there's no one here. I messaged people casually. Searched through my phone for anyone I think would call me and just lay here with me but my personal relationships are all family who doesn't care. People who need money. People who wouldn't give that level of concern back to me. Or just people who aren't there. I usually don't care about having people around. I've made myself into a very solitary person that doesn't need anyone after years of needing the people around me. Now I just don't know what the hell I'm doing. All I really know is I'm really alone.
I escaped the one thing that has haunted over my entire life sense i was only just born. I made it out, I was happy until I wasn’t. My mother ruined me, you will never escape a parent because you are them in your own form. I feel sad even though I am mad, and I feel mad even though I am sad. When I put the two of those feelings in a combination it turns into happy, though I am not in fact happy. Mad has sad, and sad has mad. Happy has nothing, when I’m happy, I’m nothing. Although people will keep believing, believing I’m okay, believing I am happy, believing I love life. I wish I could act the way I act online, in real life. I would have friends and I would, be happy.
Did humanity really evolve that much? I think we're still as primitive as our distant ancestors. The only difference is that we're a more advanced civilization with a greater knowledge base. 😴
I'm in the process of starting my life. At least a more successful attempt than previous ones. At the very same time... I just want to retire.. from all this at 22. Appropriate song I suppose as some days it just seems I just want to truly want to live.
I lay in my room eveynight and I listen to this with headphones and think abt life and how my mom was still here before she died but I’m happy now cuz it’s a special day for her so happy Mother’s Day to my lovely mother
I uploaded the 1 hour normal speed of this song!!
This video is nice on all levels but thank you for that honestly.
I sit alone in my room as I do every night. Alone. It’s to the point where I don’t even get notifications on snap or text anymore. It hurts but still somehow I prefer this way. It’s like I’m not meant to be with others because when i try to be around people my anxiety fires up, like a steam engine pummeling down a route on a cold winter’s morning. Being alone allows me to be myself. The judgement given in this world is sickening. No one is perfect but still some don’t seem to see their own issues and it angers me. Being alone is great but I just want someone to care about me sometimes. Someone. Someone who I can actually trust and love. I’ve come to think I’ll never find those things in this cold cruel dirty world we live in. All I’ve ever received from others including family is anger and disappointment when all I try to do is make others lives better. Apparently I can’t. So I’ve just shut up. When I try to communicate my feelings to others it never goes well. So I don’t do that anymore. Can I just please find that someone if you are really out there?Please.
1 year later I’ve found that someone and now I’m more happy than I’ve ever been. Thank you to all the people who replied with encouragement. I appreciate you all and hope you all are doing well and progressing in your lives.
There are people out there that care brother don’t be afraid to reach out and talk to Anyone, literally anyone. People care trust me people care about you
i pray that you will find someone that will make your world a good place, i am sorry for everything that you ever been threw but dont give up!
things will get better, you will find that person i promise
Damn Man u sound just like me at least I’m not the only one experiencing this
I understand how u feel well and truly I’m here for u bro
before searching for true friends,
we should probably learn how to be a true friend first
is hard..... but true..... it fucking hurts....
I feel different af. I’m just sitting in my room and my window’s open, I’m listening to this and just.. reminiscing. The breeze is warm and inviting, the scent of summer is in the air.. I love moments like these.. 9:37 pm June 23rd 2023
stay safe (:
do you miss it now ?
@@manwhateverdudeyes
@@TheLiquidEdit I know you're probably just saying this as a general thing but this made me laugh so hard. like stay safe from what? the breeze? the scent of summer ?😭😭
@@catradorasprmanager7728 hahahaha breeze is a mad thing
It gets better. It actually does.
It doesn’t get better, you work with it thru your life making you stronger and able to work around it. If you do nothing it stays the same, I learned that later then I would’ve liked. If your reading this I hope you’re genuinely okay though.
It truly does.
I’m not okay Lord, I don’t know why I keep seeing the other days ahead. I’m just waiting for you to take me willingly because I don’t want to go to hell due to killing myself. To the person who made this slowed version thank you, I cried with a heart that’s trying to heal from all the past traumas and wants be happy in 2022.💔
i may not know u but i want you to know u are loved. your presence is loved. your soul is loved. there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel
I will pray for you. I know the Lord will bless you with strength to get through it. It may seem so impossible but every waking moment you are breathing is a chance. Promise you it will get better. Hang in there❤️ the world needs you
you will be happy in 2022. i promise
I wish you the best, hurting stranger
You'll be okay
I wish you a happy life
She was my first. Looking back feels like a dream, or a movie. The tears from laughter, happiness, sadness, anger, love, I can still feel them sliding down my face. Everything was so simple.
real.
this hurts so much
You ever just feel so tired of life that you just lay in bed and think about every good memory you’ve ever had and just visualize reliving them all? I do. It’s so comforting and painful at the same time knowing that I have to eventually move on and create more. Why can’t the old original ones just be enough?
Realizing that you can never get it back hurts tho
@@RyanHawkins-collins it really does man it really does
oh wow i see im that different? if im tired i'll just kym
This song connects a lot my dad died just 3 days ago, i feel like is just a dream and he is still here… hope he finds peace in his journey..
u good?
Sorry for your loss. Hope you’re doing ok
Mine passed away May 2022, but same feelings as yours
I’m sorry about that and I wish the best for your dad
I hope ur doing ok....man...ever down jus talk to me.... I cant truly feel what u have been feeling lately but could resonate to ur feeling for the least...
Stay safe buddy
Crazy how time numbs pain but leaves scar’s, it’s always apart of you.
Everyone has something in their lives going on, reading them in the comments as I have a story too like you all, here this music sets comfort and a deep reflection trance state. To overthink, to cry, to resonate of something we love or hate or miss or just about anything, lonely yet alone internally.
This makes me think it being in a clear ocean, with different shades of blue flowing around me. Listening to the sounds the creatures make. With closed eyes i just meditate,and think.
that is so comfortable to think about, and its exactly what i feel. relief.
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I just graduated and this song makes me think about all of the times I’ve had there and the next chapter ahead of me
I’m so tired of myself dude. I pray that God just takes me away because I can’t fathom the feelings I’m pouring out right now. I feel so alone and so empty all I want is happiness. I’ve lost so much. Even people I’ve loved most. I’m sitting in my room talking to God about how I feel and I can’t help but to beg to be taken home. I don’t want to be here. I’m not suicidal but I just wish I was simply… gone.
I miss being happy yknow. Being a joy filled little kid. I remember the days I smiled and the days I didn’t. It feels like I don’t smile as much anymore. I can’t even focus anymore I feel so lost. I’m lacking in school already, I can’t sleep, I pass out as soon as I get home. I’m such a mess and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve realized I’ve bottled up things without even realizing. Thought of things I didn’t know I thought about. And all of it’s pouring out right now. I have so much love to give but nobody to give it to except for God. It makes my heart ache so much feeling like this. I want this feeling to go away. I wanna be happy like I once was. I can’t do this anymore.
@@sinti1079 Im so sorry that you’re feeling that way :( trust me everything will eventually get better over time and god is listening to you ! He’s with you and understands exactly what you’re feeling. Please don’t give up there’s so much ahead of you that you have yet to live. You will find happiness
Joy and happiness will come and go throughout life. The same goes with sadness and depression. You can take steps in either direction whenever you want, nothing is stopping you and nothing ever will. Start in the right direction sooner rather than later friend, for time is never on our side.
God loves you, God hears you and God can heal you, he cares for you and did way before we even existed, Allow him into your life and watch the beauty of his Grace and Love transform your life, Stay blessed, you got this brother ❤️
When youve lost so much pain feels like nothing anymore.
(Knew this song for 2 and a half years❤️)
bro what this song got me feeling like 🫢
You in your room, home alone, the TV is on.. it’s raining.. you get a blanket, go to the window, and watch the rain next to your bed. It starts to calm you, you feel sleepy and start to lay on the bed and flick ur eyes closed. Now, goodnight.
Well.. it’s finally summer 2023. Spring went by so fast.. I just don’t understand. I love the summer so much, I never want it to end. Everything is so warm and inviting, those warm summer nights.. 4 am.. and if I felt like it, sneaking down to the pool and having an early morning dip. I’m currently sitting in my bed.. it’s 3:41 pm. I hear the cicadas calling and a storm is brewing, I hear the thunder. Summer has never always been my favorite season, but since 2021.. I’ve grown to love it.
at my lowest and i don’t think i can cope anymore
it's 10:45 at night rn. i have my first biology gcse paper tomorrow morning and i'm petrified. i really want to do radiography or sonography when i'm older and i really need to make these grades. i've worked my ass off but i feel like it's all going to come crashing down on me. i heard this sound for 3 seconds on tiktok and immediately started welling up with tears. i've got one shot and the pressure i have put on myself is only starting to hit me and i don't want to let my future self down. i'm scared
just remember god is there always with you! Love you!
How’s it goin, you alright man?
@@StopDropDash i've now completed all of my gcses and am on summer break. results day is over a month away which is quite scary but most of the papers were okay. at this point i just have my fingers crossed because i can't change any of the results 🤞🏼. i'm now dealing with a detachment from my friend group but all is good because i think it's for the better anyway :)) it's funny, cause i was going through a lot a month ago cause of gcses, trying to get over 3 different people for 3 different reasons and was feeling lonely within my friends. i'm trying my best to be as positive as i can now and see the good in bad situations. thank you for checking up, i appreciate you 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I smoke N drink to this I just look back at all the should’ve,would’ve and could’ve I had in my life then I realize it will all come again just not the way I want you know…life comes full circle at the end this is peace this really puts my soul at peace ☮️ ❤️🔥
🙂
pain hitting hard rn
Ikr
Always
I might just overdose rn I need your opinion guys
@@amongebar1894its not worth it in the end. ik ur hurting i still am as well but we gots to see it thru
I've been waiting for this one)))
Lord Jesus help me soul forgive me of my wrongs and evils give me your love and mercy I thank you for everything you do and have done for me. Forgive my hypocrisy and legalism and let be trust you and you alone amen
My prayer tn , thank you 💙
A terrible period has started again in my life, everything is pedos, I don't understand anything and it's hard for me to think about anything other than these things, this music is the only one that relaxes me and allows me to arrange everything in my head, thank you for everything, and I still have a lot to do and think about, I want to live the way I want and not the way it's received, be strong and do everything for your happiness
Pedos?
you’re a pedo?
THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU
This makes me feel like I'm drifting in space with a limited amount of oxygen knowing I'm going to die. Cycling through all my memories, the time wasted, the gratitude I have for having lived, all while drifting toward a vibrant nebula appreciating its colorful beauty as I slowly lose oxygen and join the void
Thank you so much!! I love it!!
Loneliness lead me to this.
this.
Sinto um vazio enorme. Sinto me sozinho mesmo acompanhado, sinto que houve um abismo em meus pensamentos, como se nada fosse importante. Medicamentos são as maiores merdas que eu já consumir para poder me aliviar. É foi isso que está me matando desde o início. Essa música me faz pensar se algum dia eu vou querer conquistar algo ou simplesmente desistir.
Vinicius meu querido, tenha esperança de que as coisas vão melhorar, seja gentil contigo, o sofrimento é muito, mas se tivermos compaixão conosco dá pra amenizar, e outra dica importante, viva um dia de cada vez.
Espero que esteja bem
The peace I never knew I needed 💆🏾♀️☮️🤍!
I'm so glad to have my best friend. We've both been here for each other every step of the way when we were struggling. I hope she knows how much I care about her, because I couldn't imagine my life without her. We've only known each other for a few months, but she saved me. I'm only 13, and when I transitioned into the second term of year seven, I let my confidence shine one lesson in-front of her and I just let things happen. Best thing I've ever decided to do. She introduced me to the whole year, and I gained immense popularity, sure it was great at first, but it was hard knowing people talked crap about you just for being known. I'm in my last term of year 7, instead of me and her hanging out with a large, fake group of popular kids we hang out alone. I feel so much more at peace, and I love her with all my heart.
This sounds like if you asked your subconscious to play music in a lucid dream.
I can produce original music in my mind when awake( more like a remix)
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But I've never tried doing it while sleeping, come to think of it I've never heard music while in dreams.
Such a beautiful sentiment…….. I feel it exactly the same way………ethereal……….✨✨✨
@@saintsocramnymaia5511 I always hear music in my dreams and when I wake up I wish I could recreate it but I know nothing about making music.
2024 ,yall we got this, god bless you all!!! ❤❤❤
I've always loved this song and this version. Just an odd but nice feeling. Just feels like I'm floating around the night sky without a worry in the world
Im fallin apart, cant do something about it, depression anxiety and overthinking
I just wanna get through this things in my life changed after 2020 for the bad godddd just take me back to the night that all this was just started i can mange i can do all the things that i couldn’t do back there
I hope you doing better man, and I just want to let you know that when I was my lowest in life, it was the love of Jesus that saved me. I don't mean to be inconsiderate, because I don't know what you're going through, but I can't express to you how much he loves you and wants you to be with him. Seek him and you will find comfort. God bless you.
Omg…. Smoking a zkittlz blunt right now and this shit is amazing
im doing this
weed is love, music is life
bro was high when he commented dis😭
@@taiss_taee still high af
Im so thankful I met her. Im so glad that all the choices both me and her made have led to us becoming something. We’re in a tough spot right now but I know that hopefully one day we’ll continue our everlasting journey :) I love you so much
this is so cute
are y’all still together?
🌌🫂🌌 Thank you…
@palomar We love you 💙🌃
i come back to this video every single night.
literally
@@lannagoldin8312 i posted that comment a year ago, you brought me back
literally
literally
I love this song so much i didnt know it was possible. This song is my life
Feels like the end of everything.
this song would be the music playing through those memories I've had with my friends, when things were normal. when things weren't so empty cold and dark, when they were with me and we'd laugh the whole day as everyone else would wish they were us, but look at me, what am I withough them? they just dumped me like I never cared, like I never tried to make things right when they were in the wrong, when I had to sacrifice my loved ones' trust for them. everythings' ruined, I have nobody to talk to, nobody to laugh, to care about or with. I'm not capable of living in this world without friends, trust me I've tried being independent but that hole of loneliness still aches for friends, but now it's getting deeper and nothing is filling it up. I'm just asking for someone who'd look at me and see that i'd be there for them, but if they're willing to do the same. i wish they'd come back to me, somehow.
i hope they don’t.
The peace I never knew I needed ️️!. Thank you so much!! I love it!!.
The peace I need is a warriors win
you deserve way more attention
i love him so very deeply. i pray he stays forever❤️
Bro I felt loved , I was happy when I saw her,now she leaving and I’m never seeing her again
i can’t keep doing this it is mentally exhausting
Dont end it.
If you were awake for all the hours you were asleep,
you would have figured out a lot of things.
Edit 2024: i see so many people talking about how being around people is stressful and they love alone time. Does it not strike you that life does not need to be lived so loudly? Appreciate the company of others, the joy, the laughter, and every emotion. But do not retreat to your solidarity and complain of the draining nature of socialization. I’m an extrovert, i love greeting people and initiating conversation and being loud. When i return home to be alone, I’m not texting and calling and being always social. Silence is natural, and not a thing only you partake in because people are draining
I would have figured out a way to trade Klay Thompson
I miss her. We were supposed to get married this year. She really isnt coming back...
In the end we only have ourselves. Sad but true. Much love where ever you are in this small world.
This makes me think about all my trauma that happened to me….makes me feel a different type of pain….how am I supposed to tell ppl what happened to me when they got the wrong picture
To everyone out there YOU matter. And im proud of you all for everything you've been through and making it this far im proud of you for eating im proud of you for getting up im proud of you for waking up this morning im proud of you for brushing your teeth im proud of you for cleansing yourself im proud of you for cleaning your room. You are just as important as anyone else out there and if anyone says anything about you dont be afraid to cuss them out they deserve it. You may not think this now but latter on in life you might find something or someone that interests you and you'll be thinking back like my younger self would have never thought that i would've made it this far and found the one thing that could actually make me happy. Sometimes you just need to get out of the mess itself and find ways to cope with it take a walk go eat something that you enjoy or talk to someone you know will listen and if they wont i will. Dont waste your time on people who dont care about you. Just know you will get past these things and i believe in you stay safe loves and enjoy your life while it lasts you on live once
I like this guy sm idk why
when i listen to music like this i think back to when i was in elementary school and when life was easy
if you overthink about a problem you cannot solve right now, you will only create more problems. let the problem be and it will either solve itself or you will find the right solution because taking things slow is the key to everything. if you *can't* solve it, why worry? if you *can* solve it, why worry?
The slowed song gives me some *hyper light drifter* kind of vibes.
the photo is from Chungking Express directed by Wong Kar Wai
I just wish I was pretty so that people would treat me better.
I wish I could look at my self without feeling disgusted with myself.
I wish that someone would look at me and tell me how pretty I am.
you are pretty
goodnight yall :) hope you guys doing great or get well soon
J’ai rencontrer une bonne personne mais les chose font qu’il ne restera que des souvenirs
The Coordinate.
I realized that I love her when I lost her
lost the moon whilst counting the stars........
I’m here bc she was cold, she always hated the cold
Yk who else was cold today Klay Thompson
Felt like crying but the tears aren’t coming out.
Praise Jesus ❤
I miss him.
What If it doesn't work?
What if I ruin our friendship?
All that hard work for none
Please let us work
He's all I want
I can't do it without him
Good luck! Go for it! You'll forever be haunted by the 'what if' else
Emotional 😭
I have never felt seen in this world, ghosts are more alive than me. This web of darkness i have created in my life has brought me to this song. I am slowly decaying in my bed, drowning in tears with a broken heart and nobody to hold. I break everything i touch, and burn every bridge i build, so whats the point anymore? I have reached my limit, there is no rescuing me, i hope whoever see’s this, that you find peace, something I will never feel again. It feels liberating to end things, a rough pleasure that might be the most selfish thing to do. I’m so tired. My heart is drained and my soul is lifeless. I can’t be saved. Hope is just a burning memory now, a ship that has sailed a long time ago, as i drown in my sea of tears, i hope to hold your hand one last time my love. To see the reflection of the sunrise in your eyes, to kiss your soft cheeks one last time. Your love is ecstasy, but my love is poison. A curse. Before i retire, i wanted to let anyone know who is reading this that you matter. You have what it takes to push through. I hope you find the peace, safety and courage within yourself to see the light, and live a gracious life filled with passion, curiosity and love. Treasure every moment like it was your last.
I want to accept the fact I am who I am but it hurts. It's appalling that I may never change. What if I stay miserable and insecure and incapable of doing anything? I don't want to be like this.
Real mn 😴🌪️
I've been struggling with an eating disorder for the past 6 months. Its been on and off recently and everyday I have to make a choice between recovery and ⭐ving myself. I know that I cant go on like this forever, or else I'll be dead. I haven't told anyone about it yet because i don't want people to worry about me. But living in this body is so exhausting, and it seems like the only way for me to be happy with my looks. I know I can't change my face, but I thought that at the very least, i would be able to change my body. I've been forcing myself to eat because i know that if i dont, i wouldn't be here much longer. But seeing myself gain weight and no longer look like my 'sick self' is terrifying. Im so sick of my brain and my body. I want to dissapear.
And to be honest with you, I never thought I would last this long. It’s like looking over a cliff and seeing the land disperse into the sky. Like gazing into the abyss of the ever knowing oceans. Where do I go now? I don’t know. You are not alone, such a strange way to say I have been you and you have been me. How we are such strangers and yet we are bonded over our silent burdens. My friend, all I have to say to you is you are not alone, for I am alone with you. Maybe we are not alone after all.
Imagine hearing harsh words from your mom and feel like your mom hates your presence and knowing all this at young age how do except me to stay happy knowing that I’m the reason my mom is sad k
Thanks 🎧😌
eu amo ser sozinho, eu amo me sentir sozinho, fico em paz, sem essa humanidade ridícula, aonde o amor e piada, aonde beber e fumar e ser legal, credo tenho nojo no mundo em q inf vivo, a solidão me seguiu a vida td, ruas, casas, vários lugares, aonde me sinto fora desse planeta e nos gramados, academia, e principalmente no meu quarto aonde crio cenários, aonde e uma paz imensa, aonde n tem ninguém julgando vc cm olhares sombrios, sem conhecer vc, vivo em mundo totalmente diferente do cenário da minha mente, eu particularmente n gosto de humanos, essa geração fútil, n gosto de conversar cm ninguém, literalmente ninguém, fds, oq eu realmente qr, e n posso por conto do medo q tenho dentro do meu coração totalmente quebrado e frio, cheio de remedos, existe uma pessoa a qual eu daria minha vida, ela se chama maria fernanda, porém, ela n sabe q eu amo ela, ela n sabe q eu sou totalmente obcecado por ela, ela particularmente n quer ninguém na vida dela, eu entendo eu tbm n, porém a questão, ela e a única mulher nessa terra a qual eu me casaria.
se deus coloco ela na minha vida e pq a um propósito!, posso está iludido, porém e oq parece, ja reagi cm vários recadinho delas, curtindo coisas q tem aver cm gymratcasal, obs: nós fazemos academia juntos, juntos qr dizer na msm academia, ontem msm falei cm ela abracei ela, conversei cm ela, mais mal sabe ela, que eu tenho uma visão de futuro cm ela, a troca de olhares entre eu e ela, porem nenhum reage, acho q e pq temos medo do amor, o real motivo e, amor nos temos, so basta o amor acredita em nos.
n sei mais oq falar, o real e isso, n há ninguém nesse planeta além dela! q eu estou disposto a amar, porém n vou tomar iniciativa alguma, jamais vai ter q acontecer cm Deus planeja. .. mais saiba n ha outra mulher nessa terra em qual eu posso me apaixonar, além de vc “ maria fernanda “ eu sou fanático e lunático por ti!, qm sabe nossas almas se conecta um dia, pq eu sinto uma galáxia dentro de me assim q vejo vc, e toco em vc , ss pareço a raquel de através da minha janela, aonde ela e obcecada no ponto doentio por ares deus grego, ss eu sou essa obsessão, Deus vai me dizer a hora em qual eu vou falar dos meus sentimentos pra vc, pessoalmente, nd de cll, essa geração so sabe de cll, vão ler um livro q e melhor!, e isso, o amor está escondido em me, pd ser q ele fique preso ae por mt e mt tmp, porém assim q vc sentir nossas galáxias se conspirando entre nós ele abre ate vc! n sei mais oq dizer 🥀
e isso MARIA FERNANDA. 🫀haverá o dia? 🫀🌙 i love you. serio e tantas coisas pea ilhe dizer q é impossível eu terminar de digitar, digitaria milhões e milhões de bíblias pra mostra o meu amor por ti, em escrito, pq o real amor é o que se demonstra, n oq fala..
MF, quarta-feira de 29/03/2023 as 2:49 da madrugada, volto aqui quando tiver em relacionamento sério cm vc, cm aprovação dos seus pais, e cm meus buquês de flores 💐, hj em dia mulheres n recebe flores, agr bebidas, festas ss, eu n tenho isso a oferecer jamais… eu tenho certeza que vc aceitaria minhas flores apesar que eu nunca dei buquê de flores pra nenhuma mulher, vc sera a primeira e única… maria fernanda. qm sabe vc ver isso um dia
Life isn’t worth it anymore
my soul aches, why did it had to be that way? why did u do that? did i really meant nothing to u? after all those years, did it rlly had to be you?
Ɛ> this has gotten me through a lot
sounds like something unreal...
That's because we are.
this song is so snowy winter day in the suburbs
when a person has the feeling of numbness everyday, they begin to become desperate to feel emotion..but in the wrong ways
here I am, always find myself coming back.
I js want everything to be better, u know i always believe in God that everything will be better but somehow i still kept waiting im js here in my room crying waiting im js here wiping my tears so if ever my family comes up or someone they wont see me crying in pain i js want everyting to be better but still this world keeps messing me up keeps talking bad things about me but still i love them and i should pray them, i hope everything gets better i dont want to stay here on my room crying all night every single day i keep getting anxiety worry and fear and once its all gone another thing came up and yet again anxiety worry and fear. God bless you all i hope everything somehow gets better in all of your life. As i read the comments im not alone and as i read it got me encouraging on what pain im feeling right now and commenting it here thank you guysss. God bless you all and be safe to all of you and your loved ones
How do I find the image that is in the background?
Faye Wong, the movie from 1994 is called "Chungking Express".
i remember scrolling through Tiktok at midnight cause i couldn't sleepIn 2020-2021 then years later (Now) hear this song its very slow and im in a moment of peace years later ive known to find peace within myself thank you for posting this so i can remember it again💖💖🥳🥳......Time sure does Fly Ive changed so much
u guys need to stop depending on one single person to be ur only source of happiness it only makes it worse
Thanks jman
Lonely is only the way to run away from human problem 😓
This song is what it means to consider your being, and accept your introspection. Looking down at these comments I realize how occupied I am with myself to notice how everyone else is, I am not lonely I just love to think.
I tried, I did, In the end i gave you all i had
-Arthur Morgan
im tired of this life. im tired of missing her. im tired of being tired. i respond to lifes calls for challenge, yet nothing changes.
I am thinking about the feelings i used to waste on people i knew a girl once she was my best friend we would always hang out but turns out that she has a crush on someone that i also had a crush on so she used me to get closer to that person and then just left me . I never realized how stupid the problem was like at the end this world is just a test from god and we well all die soon and no one well remember
Night terrors don't usually bother me. I never really get genuinely scared of much. But tonight I had one that made me practically scared for my life. I'm still nervous and just hollow after it. I tried to scramble for someone and of course there's no one here. I messaged people casually. Searched through my phone for anyone I think would call me and just lay here with me but my personal relationships are all family who doesn't care. People who need money. People who wouldn't give that level of concern back to me. Or just people who aren't there.
I usually don't care about having people around. I've made myself into a very solitary person that doesn't need anyone after years of needing the people around me.
Now I just don't know what the hell I'm doing. All I really know is I'm really alone.
I escaped the one thing that has haunted over my entire life sense i was only just born. I made it out, I was happy until I wasn’t. My mother ruined me, you will never escape a parent because you are them in your own form. I feel sad even though I am mad, and I feel mad even though I am sad. When I put the two of those feelings in a combination it turns into happy, though I am not in fact happy. Mad has sad, and sad has mad. Happy has nothing, when I’m happy, I’m nothing. Although people will keep believing, believing I’m okay, believing I am happy, believing I love life.
I wish I could act the way I act online, in real life. I would have friends and I would, be happy.
im tired really tired
Did humanity really evolve that much?
I think we're still as primitive as our distant ancestors. The only difference is that we're a more advanced civilization with a greater knowledge base. 😴
I'm in the process of starting my life. At least a more successful attempt than previous ones. At the very same time... I just want to retire.. from all this at 22. Appropriate song I suppose as some days it just seems I just want to truly want to live.
I was burning. But all you did was come complaining about the smell of burning flesh.
I lay in my room eveynight and I listen to this with headphones and think abt life and how my mom was still here before she died but I’m happy now cuz it’s a special day for her so happy Mother’s Day to my lovely mother