Backstory : ( I wrote it in june and Im lazy to check it again. Sorry if there's anything wrong ) WARNING!! : physical/mental abuse, smoking, surgeries and mommy issues - Hikari's parents were just normal parents. When Hikari's mom was pregnant ( Hikari is the only child ) she was struggling during the pregnancy, she didn't give it much attention and focused on giving birth to her daughter. After she gave birth to Hikari, the surgery didn't go well. Hikari's mom was physically considered as weak to give birth yet. So she got some chronic diseases, which were : 1. Heart disorders 2. She had to get her uterus removed after 2 weeks of giving birth to Hikari due to some infections. But Hikari was physically doing well unlike her mom. Hikari's mom felt very horrible after hearing that she lost her health because of giving birth, and she hated Hikari for it. Put all the blame on Hikari because if she didn't give birth to her, she wouldn't have lost her physical wellness. She didn't take care of her daughter, so Hikari's dad had to take care of her. Which caused for Hikari to have Pneumonia as a result of not getting breastfeeding. Hikari's dad was trying to convince her mother to love her daughter and it wasn't Hikari's fault at all. But oh god, the mother was such a stubborn. When Hikari became a 3 years old, her mother started to abuse her mentally and physically. Calling her by names and telling her that she regrets giving birth and talking about how useless Hikari is. Sometimes Hikari's mother was lazy to bring Cigarette ashtray when she smokes, so she was lighting the cigarettes and removing the dust on Hikari's arms. Hikari's parents were getting on fights more often because her dad was noticing how hurt Hikari is. The dad was trying to be more understanding with the mother but the mother was the angry, stubborn one here. Sometimes when they fight, Hikari runs out of the house to her neighboor and hides there ( her nighboor was in the same age as her and they were close friends. Hikari's friend used to help her a lot ). At the age of 8, Hikari's mom called her for an offer. She told Hikari that she'll be very proud of her if she gonna be a good girl. Well, for literally a kid who never got love from her own mother, she'll do anything to get it. Hikari's mom didn't tell Hikari what she gonna do, she just told her to wear something good enough because they're going to go outside. After one hour, they arrived to a hospital. Hikari's mom was planning to do a surgery, to take Hikari's uterus. The nurse didn't agree on that, considering Hikari's young age because her organs are probably not completely grown yet. Also she needs Hikari's dad approval too. The mother just lied and said he's dead and she's the only parent that Hikari has. The nurse called for an official doctor to look up for this situation ( Hikari was and still clueless about what's happening ) Back to Hikari's father, he got back home but didn't find any of Hikari nor her mother. The dad searched in the house but didnt find them. Until he remembered a conversation he had with his wife last night, about finding a donor and the surgery will be done soon. He thought of it, then realized that she might was talking about Hikari. He immediately ran to the hospital, and after a 20 minutes he arrived. The nurse told the mother that the surgery can't be done since the dad is RIGHT here and he doesn't agree on it. When they back home, they argued again. But this time it ended with divorce and Hikari stayed with her dad ( she knew about the situation later ). Hikari was hurt, knowing that her mother could've done that to her if her dad never arrived. About her dad, he started to take care more of Hikari. Which started to get very uncomfortable for her after years. Yes, he keep encouraging her, giving her so much attention. But the way he shows his optimistic side to Hikari started to get toxic and he's kinda obsessed with taking care of his only daughter, ditching her feelings. He just wants her to be safe. He doesn't respect her privacy, yes, he encourages her. But he doesn't give her a free space. And when she vents to him, he focuses on forcing her to be happy instead of listening to her problems and trying to help her. Slowly and slowly she started to even hate her dad because he's being very overprotective and doesn't respect her. Due to having bad parents, she started to even believe that friendships are useless and gonna hurt her anyway. So she left all of her friends, preferring to be alone. At the age of 14, Hikari discovered Japanese songs that were sang by vocaloid/cryptons. She had so much passion for it. Literally listens to vocaloid most of her time. She found many of the songs describes her feelings. Comfort her and makes her happier than how her dad does. She felt too attached to it.. until she decided to produce music and post them on UA-cam without telling her father because of course he won't give her privacy. She writes songs, mostly tuning Vflower, teto and Hatsune Miku ( Miku mainly ). Her songs were mostly based on her life and how she feels, but she makes the lyrics " implied ". Then she posts her songs on UA-cam. Her channel name was known as " Himar1.xy " and her music were getting attention. She had 482.4K subscribes. Well, a great amount. she was very happy that the thousands of people get to listen to her work. And some were analyzing the songs which makes her happier that some people actually understands how she feels.
Backstory :
( I wrote it in june and Im lazy to check it again. Sorry if there's anything wrong )
WARNING!! : physical/mental abuse, smoking, surgeries and mommy issues
- Hikari's parents were just normal parents. When Hikari's mom was pregnant ( Hikari is the only child ) she was struggling during the pregnancy, she didn't give it much attention and focused on giving birth to her daughter. After she gave birth to Hikari, the surgery didn't go well. Hikari's mom was physically considered as weak to give birth yet. So she got some chronic diseases, which were :
1. Heart disorders
2. She had to get her uterus removed after 2 weeks of giving birth to Hikari due to some infections.
But Hikari was physically doing well unlike her mom.
Hikari's mom felt very horrible after hearing that she lost her health because of giving birth, and she hated Hikari for it. Put all the blame on Hikari because if she didn't give birth to her, she wouldn't have lost her physical wellness.
She didn't take care of her daughter, so Hikari's dad had to take care of her. Which caused for Hikari to have Pneumonia as a result of not getting breastfeeding. Hikari's dad was trying to convince her mother to love her daughter and it wasn't Hikari's fault at all. But oh god, the mother was such a stubborn.
When Hikari became a 3 years old, her mother started to abuse her mentally and physically. Calling her by names and telling her that she regrets giving birth and talking about how useless Hikari is. Sometimes Hikari's mother was lazy to bring Cigarette ashtray when she smokes, so she was lighting the cigarettes and removing the dust on Hikari's arms. Hikari's parents were getting on fights more often because her dad was noticing how hurt Hikari is. The dad was trying to be more understanding with the mother but the mother was the angry, stubborn one here. Sometimes when they fight, Hikari runs out of the house to her neighboor and hides there ( her nighboor was in the same age as her and they were close friends. Hikari's friend used to help her a lot ).
At the age of 8, Hikari's mom called her for an offer. She told Hikari that she'll be very proud of her if she gonna be a good girl. Well, for literally a kid who never got love from her own mother, she'll do anything to get it. Hikari's mom didn't tell Hikari what she gonna do, she just told her to wear something good enough because they're going to go outside. After one hour, they arrived to a hospital. Hikari's mom was planning to do a surgery, to take Hikari's uterus. The nurse didn't agree on that, considering Hikari's young age because her organs are probably not completely grown yet. Also she needs Hikari's dad approval too. The mother just lied and said he's dead and she's the only parent that Hikari has. The nurse called for an official doctor to look up for this situation ( Hikari was and still clueless about what's happening )
Back to Hikari's father, he got back home but didn't find any of Hikari nor her mother. The dad searched in the house but didnt find them. Until he remembered a conversation he had with his wife last night, about finding a donor and the surgery will be done soon. He thought of it, then realized that she might was talking about Hikari. He immediately ran to the hospital, and after a 20 minutes he arrived. The nurse told the mother that the surgery can't be done since the dad is RIGHT here and he doesn't agree on it. When they back home, they argued again. But this time it ended with divorce and Hikari stayed with her dad ( she knew about the situation later ).
Hikari was hurt, knowing that her mother could've done that to her if her dad never arrived. About her dad, he started to take care more of Hikari. Which started to get very uncomfortable for her after years. Yes, he keep encouraging her, giving her so much attention. But the way he shows his optimistic side to Hikari started to get toxic and he's kinda obsessed with taking care of his only daughter, ditching her feelings. He just wants her to be safe. He doesn't respect her privacy, yes, he encourages her. But he doesn't give her a free space. And when she vents to him, he focuses on forcing her to be happy instead of listening to her problems and trying to help her. Slowly and slowly she started to even hate her dad because he's being very overprotective and doesn't respect her. Due to having bad parents, she started to even believe that friendships are useless and gonna hurt her anyway. So she left all of her friends, preferring to be alone.
At the age of 14, Hikari discovered Japanese songs that were sang by vocaloid/cryptons. She had so much passion for it. Literally listens to vocaloid most of her time. She found many of the songs describes her feelings. Comfort her and makes her happier than how her dad does. She felt too attached to it.. until she decided to produce music and post them on UA-cam without telling her father because of course he won't give her privacy. She writes songs, mostly tuning Vflower, teto and Hatsune Miku ( Miku mainly ). Her songs were mostly based on her life and how she feels, but she makes the lyrics " implied ". Then she posts her songs on UA-cam. Her channel name was known as " Himar1.xy " and her music were getting attention. She had 482.4K subscribes. Well, a great amount. she was very happy that the thousands of people get to listen to her work. And some were analyzing the songs which makes her happier that some people actually understands how she feels.
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