I hear voices speaking about what I think even when I'm typing this and have hallucinations ,it's happening from a couple of months ,,do u think there is something wrong with me or someone is really listening to my thoughts and planning all this
The kind of person willing to engage in an emotional/sexual relationship with ANYONE suffering with mental disorder is admirable. Took me 29 years to find "the one" that wouldn't abandon me in my worst moments. Not only does he stay, but he is willing to get into the trenches & fight with me. As I would for him. Please don't give up, person reading this, there are people who will (try) understand.
I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm trying to work through it. I have a job as a waiter, not exactly the job I wanted to have but I'm good at it, and my customers are very understanding of my "quirks." I'm in constant fear of losing my independence. One of my friends proposed I move in with him because of a few incidents I've had. I know he's just looking out for me but I want to be able to take care of myself. I'm also really messy, I don't put things away all the time, and I don't want to make his house messy like mine. His wife doesn't like me very much either so I don't think it would be a good idea to move in with him only to be kicked out by his wife later. Long story but I felt, you know you're sharing, so maybe I should share.
Ased Afghan OC, don’t listen to this clown. He’s trying to scare you into his ideology. Demons aren’t real. All you need to do is take medication and try your best to adapt. You will be okay.
I love how youre so positive but realistic. I am truly happy for you that you found someone you love so much. It is so cool how you can describe sincerely your life as beautiful and wonderful. Wish I was more like that, i feel like im not greatful enough and i get sad or weak so fast when things get harder. :/ I wish i was stronger.
You need to focus on being more proud of your efforts. Every decision, action you take to try to get better you should be proud that you are having a go and learning what helps you in the process. Accept that your only human and dont have full control over your mind to always be positive. Dont see yourself as failing to be positive. We all still have things to learn, we dont know all the answers to our problems already and we need to remember that were not perfect. Keep going, build that positive momentum. See the benefit/value in every situation even when things dont go as desired. I promise you it gets better with practice and habit. We are all students and we are all teachers.
Or some sort of sleep related phenomenon at least. All sorts of crazy stuff happens between consciousness and subconsciousness. Bed is the home of hallucination.
Monte Good4You Don't suffer, become curious, accept it and see what's gonna happen. It cant kill you or harm you, it's just a state of mind. Sad thing one you stop being afraid it starts happening less and less....
I have friends with schizophrenia (don't know why, but it seems to be an illness that's more often than some "normal" people recognize if not directly confronted one day) and I don't think it's genes. because I experienced someone very close "slipping" into that illness. sadly that person commited suicide. and I am quite sure (also because my friends with that illness tell me) that EXTREME (mental and also physical) PRESSURE (like extremely stressful situations/bullying/too much responsibility, drugs/meds/alcohol/toxic substances, combined with high sensibility) basically is the cause of schizophrenia. I researched a lot after I was confronted with it and everybody I talked to told me kind of similar incidents... and most of those I talked to (in years researching why close ones are schizophrenic - one suffers extreme fear, one has voices and can see... "things"...) were like "pushed over the edge" and didn't have a chance to "get things sorted out", because nobody really engaged with them. hope I am not totally wrong with my "knowledge" - don't wanna harm anyone. but - best thing to prevent - I think - is to take pressure off everyone in a stressful, bad phase. ?! hope you can handle the hallucinations, voices - whatever you experience. stay strong! hope you got someone close to talk to. someone who wants to listen and just be there.
weed doesn't do that. I would know. yea you'll have a trip depending on if it's a good trip or bad trip. depends on how you deal with the high if you freak out you'll have a bad high and wouldn't want to do it again.
ROSETTA LA'DIAMOND well that is wrong. Look up drug induced mental illnesses. Cannabis is one of the drugs that is known to have that effect. Look up the corresponding papers in the medical field.
baphomet666_MONSTER sounds more like psychosis. Psychosis is not a mental illness but a symptom of one (ie: someone bipolar might go into pyschosis if they're in full blown mania) You can experience it from multiple different things ie: stress, lack of sleep, drugs, etc. Psychosis has similar traits to schizophrenia (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, etc) but it doesn't have anything to do with genes. Carrying the schizophrenic gene is the most common cause of schizophrenia. I think your friends may have psychosis. But yeah I obviously don't know them or if they do carry the gene or not but I just thought I'd help clear that up!
I have bipolar and am very interested in the causes of mental illness, I see it as a gene and then that gene is "turned on" by experiences.. and experiencing things that are not part of the shared reality is like a 6th sense that was forced on when we went through something that we percieved as too much to handle at the time; Doctor Gabor Mate has some really good books around generational trauma, addictions, mental health. I know this mental illness is different, but each roots from a similar space and it really helps to look at it from different angles.
I have schizophrenia and I believe it is caused by something traumatic happening in your life of or from a brain injury. I think it starts when your brain is overwhelmed.
I'm sorry man :( Most people will never understand what you go through. They are totally caught up in their own world and couldn't begin to understand. If you ever need someone to talk to, let me know.
Its strange how in the older traditions if you had symptoms of schizophrenia they are immediately drawn out of the pack and put under the care and tutelage of master shamans. You are told: “You are special. Your abilities are very central to the health of our society. You will cure. You will prophesy. You will guide our society"
now in today's societies they’re told: “You don’t fit in. You are becoming a problem. You don’t pull your own weight. You are not of equal worth to the rest of us. You are sick. You have to go to the hospital. You have to be locked up. I truly believe its a gift if used correctly
I was bullied and seen as stupid, always laughed at and the guy on who everyone used their jokes. I was not really physically abused because i was always a tall guy. I mean i was really stupid around my peers, always under pressure and i wouldn't defend, but i could, i could kill every single one of my bullies with my bare hands. I was just keeping all of that in myself and all of that negative energy has go somewhere, i dont know what mental illness do i have its not even important. I became so avoidant and asocial, it was a comfort zone but now it all got to me, the social norms, all of my friends are going stuff, having girlfriends, etc... Like when i meet with them i have so little to say, i just wish things were different.
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What's schizoaffected? Were you bullied by schizophrenics?
Its spiritual having to do with ways of spirit of belief, unction if you will, a way of being in spirit based upon belief and certain truth you experienced. The delusions are of one merely entertaining the thought of what was projected by others of their way of the spirit of error. It matters the way people you love treats you and people a subject to error in spirit which reflects upon you error. Your were a spiritually sensitive child, and you still are as an adult of an experience of a profound spiritual truth. Seek understanding of the ways of spirit of being in the New testament, the truth of the spirit Jesus's talks about. You can start with 1 John which tells about the way of the spirit of truth and the way of the spirit of error which are ways of being of spiritual positions of which manifest material truth around us.
What causes schizophrenia? Truly the cause is unknown. While there are some genes that show some promise of being associated with risk for the disease it's unclear what their role might be. Some interesting environmental factors have also been suggested including exposure to viruses in the womb and social adversity. Overall though, there's no coherent model of how this disease is caused.
OdinTheWanderer do scientists even know what it is? If I ask the question "What is Schizophrenia?" Can anyone give me an answer WITHOUT JUST LISTING OFF SYMPTOMS? Strange
@ThePesmergia Are you by any chance a Celiac or have a sensitivity to 'wheat'? Dairy could also be involved here, because the protein in dairy (casein) is very similar to the protein (gluten) in wheat (they are cross-reactors). The reason I ask is because I recently read and watched videos dealing with how our Western diet with tons of wheat are linked to schizophrenia. Here below is an excerpt from a study I read : "One of the first hints that these circumstances could have implications for the psychological sciences was the observation that, in several countries, hospitalization rates for schizophrenia during World War II dropped in direct proportion to wheat shortages. In the United States, where over that same period the consumption of wheat rose rather than diminished, such rates increased instead (Dohan, 1966a,b). In South Pacific islands with a traditionally low consumption of wheat, schizophrenia was only found in 1 person out of 30,000. When Western grain products were introduced into their society, it dramatically rose to 1 person out of 100! (Dohan et al., 1984)." (end) Both times that I fell into hallucinations (especially hypnopompic / hypnagogic ones), I was very ill. The first time happened around 2012 into 2013. I was very ill, even had an ingrown toenail that I had to get removed and was also having terrible panic attacks. This last time it started in August 2016, when I was lifting weights. I couldn't catch my breath in between sets. I went home and later, I developed a really bad upper respiratory infection, which made it very difficult to breathe even walking down a few stairs. I had been lifting weights hardcore, doing HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training), eating 500 cals. under maintenance trying to burn fat, then I was also working night shifts, barely getting any sleep, etc.. I also lost my dad in October of 2015, I had also lost my faith around that same time and a week after my dad passed, I ended up in the hospital with appendicitis (had to get the appendix removed with an appendectomy surgery). That whole year finally took it's toll on me. I started researching and I ended up finding out all of this stuff about Celiac disease, which my mom tested positive for Celiac many years ago, so I'm sure I have it. I studied up on all the vitamins, especially niacin and Dr. Abram Hoffer as well as Vitamin D3 deficiency and Dr. John Cannell. I started supplementing with tons of things since November and I'm just now starting to feel better physically a couple months later. But all of these hallucinations started around mid-December. A dark cloud depressive feeling is upon me most of the day as well. And mainly I hear auditory hallucinations. It's been really rough, but now I see that the reason may very well be because I have the gene linked to Celiac. This might be the case for many more people than we think, according to the study I cited in my last comment above this one.
We all remember bad things because they leave strong impressions. Recently some scientists connected an animal parasite causing taxoplasmosis. They conclude that: "infection with Toxoplasma gondii can alter behavior and neurotransmitter function". So, it causes tiny damages to the brain and affects how brain works causing hallucinations, mood change, anxiety, etc. Some scientists say that the parasite may be the cause of 80% of the schizophrenia and it is passed to the offspring, genetically, like you said. I think it's great that scientists are progressing, it's slow, but still it's good to know they're working on it despite the fact that it seem like they're not. And, in my opinion, it seems like they're not working much because they do not inform the public about the failures, just significant discoveries. Thank you for your video and keep up the great work!
You are very smart and brave. My schizophrenia started when I was just 14. Alienated and bullied as well. Didn't do well in school. But it must be the environment and the gene which causes it. People in my family went through adversity big time but didn't get the illness only me. I am so happy that you have a girlfriend and I wish you both happiness.
I've been bullied since the first second that I went to high school. I've ended up with anorexia, bulimia, self-harm and things like you have. I mean there was a point that I heard voices and see like shadows. So I feel you man. And I'm so fucking glad that u are so happy right now. It's true what u say. A truth as big as a house. You have to keep going on through the darkest times because u are strong and never ever think about giving up. Stay strong whoever who were suffering from these shits. xxx
Sounds like you had pediatric temporal lobe epilepsy - the hallucinations, the large size and close/distant proximity of things, jamais vu (which you described in another video). You’re right that an extremely stressful event like your grand dad passing can trigger mental illness. You might’ve also had a high fever as a child that triggered the condition.
It sounds like you know pretty much exactly what triggered it. You were a young kid and bullying and relatives passing away is stressful for even adults, not just young kids who don't have coping mechanisms. Stress is the number one trigger for schizophrenia, it's why most cases come up when people are at the college/university stage of life.
I'm writing a small story about schizophrenia and this video really answered a lot of questions I had about schizophrenia, so thank you. I really love the idea of your channel, you inspire litteraly thousands of people! Keep it up pal!
Due to genes of close family members I have a very high rate to attain schizophrenia. mid to late 20's are most likely for women so I'm trying to prep for it(21 now) :/ thanks for the videos !
iTheGeek Come on man, dont spread misinformation like that. The genes can always be there. Can always be triggered. Can always remain dormant. It is entirely false to say something like that.
That is such a good idea. Before I had Schizophrenia or whatever subset of it I used to be fascinated by it and looked it up a ton. It's seriously the only reason I remotely knew what was going on with me. Even then it doesn't particularly prepare you. I live a rather normal life but it's rather disrupting. May God by grace in Jesus let you never have it.
it really isn't tho, study done with 16,000 identical twins have very low recurrence when one of the twins was diagnosed with schizophrenia. trauma is a bigger factor IMHO
I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia I don't think but when I'm about to go to sleep I think someone is watching me and then I get scared then I just tell myself I'm just trippen like a bitch and then boom I just go to sleep
I used to hallucinate as a child and felt embarrassed to talk about it because my uncle was schizophrenic and I didn't want my family to talk about me the way they spoke about him (there was a lot of pity and concern when they talked, I just wanted to be normal). I was molested by my dad as a kid and I'm only just now having to sort through my past, but I just wanted to thank you for opening up to the world. My first hallucination (I remember - I've forgotten a lot of my childhood) was similar to what you described but it was a large toy that came to life. I don't hallucinate any more but I had a bad mental breakdown last year I'm still recovering from and the hallucinations have come back... anyway it's really comforting to hear others stories so thank you..
I started crying when you talked about your first hallucination, because I had the same first hallucination, even with the same reaction. Only a few things were different. I subscribed to you, because I can relate to you, but I have got no diagnosis. I'm 15 years old and confused. I don't know if you'll ever even read this, but I still want to ask you for advice. What should I do?
@@camellia1942 i saw a warm low in the corner of my room, there was a figure there but i closed my eyes, i was scared it was a demon but the warmth from it was comfort so the idea that it was an angel crossed my mind but i was like 5 years old so was still too terrified to open my eyes, it faded away in about 5 to 7 seconds. i was fully awake, could move and everything and my brother was just across the room sleeping too.
@@isetscott4740 ohh.. I've had similar experiences too recently.. I am 17 and recently for 3 months now I've been hallucinating almost daily. But mine aren't warmth it's just the scariest shit ever..
@@looselygaming6130 well.. I see shadow figures almost everyday, I feel fingers touching me on my abdomen when I'm supposed to be alone in my room, I saw the grudge girl in my cracked open closet once, I heard people talking outside my room when everyone is asleep in my house in the middle of the night, I hear raspy breathing everyday beside me when I'm alone, I hear whispers or random voices, I hear random screaming or my mom calling me inside my head ya know the monologue you have in your head? Kinda like that.. and.. and always paranoid like someone or something watching me 24/7.. as for the reason idk why all this is happening..
The reason you are so paranoid is because of the funerals. Think about it. The skeletons, the ghosts, the creepy people with no face, feeling like you are dead, feeling like it's afterlife... It was the funerals. Your parents took you to a very creepy place, the cemetery, when you were young and you were petrified.
I have had schizophrenia myself for 37 years, it has ruined my life. I still don't swear all the time. I find the swearing on this video offensive. Apart from that, it is an interesting and informative video.
Have you ever heard of a nutritional ketosis? This is used to help children with epilepsy with great success for the past 100 years. In many cases, it is the only thing that helps. This approach is currently being studied for a variety of mental illnesses and disorders, including schizophrenia. I've seen this approach completely erase autism symptoms for a child first hand (I know that is not the same thing, but it is pretty profound to see). Anyway, just pointing this out to you in the event you had never heard of this. It is worth researching. I wish you the best.
Hi! I have been watching your videos for quite a while.. and I finally got diagnosed a year ago. Your videos help me ALOT and even helped another girl so much that she made a channel about her mental illness, and I just started too! I think it will help me with anxiety speaking.. Thanks for putting yourself out there! I can't say thanks enough.
Ever since I was 15 I've been terrified of developing a mental illness to the point where I would have to drop out of school (like a few of my family members have) and live by myself for the rest of my life. I love school so much and it would break my heart to drop out of college due to something like extreme depression, anxiety, or even schizophrenia. But seeing this video and seeing how you and your girlfriend interact have made me think differently. I'm slightly more ready for whatever comes at me.
Valeria Vallejo Same exact thing over here. I think being too worried about developing a mental disorder could actually start to be paranoia and a mental disorder which probably makes me worried that I become worried about having a mental disorder because I now know this which loops back to the fact that it starts to be paranoia.
God damn, Valeria. That's heavy. But at 15, it's not a surprise you were afraid. If you ever feel like you have something, though, don't repress it - embrace it. Go to a doctor and get checked out. None of it's a death sentence or unlivable with, and you'll always be you. 'better the devil you know' as they say.
I'm sorry you suffer from this. I used to have this man who followed me around, and he came out of the TV the first time, but he never got that close because I ran. Back then, they didn't go away even if I looked away. There were a few of them. A lot of my family is either mentally ill or an idiot or both. I'm dumb. I was bullied a lot in school due to being in special ed. Like you, I tried to drop out of HS because it was unreal the amount of agony I was in, but I was tricked into staying. My grandpa, when they found out that I was slower, tried to pull me out of school and teach me a trade while being homeschooled, but my stupid parents wouldn't let him. He was like, they're going to hurt her, and they did. My stress started young with my parents who were too young to have me, and I was a sickly kid, too. Some of my hallucinations were probably from fevers, and I'm sure that didn't help anything. Even after I earned an immune system, I had issues.
Hey I know what ur going through I have a rare form of schizo I got it at 14-15 my bio sperm donor got in the picture and caused so much stress it first started 14 but I had a friend that saved my ass a phone call everyday and she knew my mood by the sound of my voice
Bullying sucks so much man, especially because you seem like such a down to earth cool guy and I bet they had 0 reasons to bully you. Hope you're doing well.
i was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 2 years ago. It started because i opened my mind too much into things like thinking about the ultra capabilities of secret intelligence agencies together with my worrying about my mother well being i came to believe that my mother, relatives and acquaintances had been replaced by impostors by secret groups against me. But what still bugs me is that once that i called my mother she told me that my mother could be anywhere, so i ponder why did she tell me that.
commenter78 I'm very sorry. Must be a very hard thing to go through. I wouldn't trust anyone. Maybe you could make a code word with your mom and other family members? A word to make sure no one else knows and then give it to you on a note in a secret way?
Emme For me it's too late because now im never going to know why she said that. And asking her would just make her say that im hearing and inventing things. It is very awful being diagnosed, it's like a stigma that i want to keep secret because if ppl knew i couldnt get a job, i would be treated like a crazy person which my mother does and she tells all her friends about it which is exasperating. Im not crazy and dont act crazy, the only thing was that time when i thought they were impostors, but i had reasons to believe that (for example my mother no longer has a birth mark she had but she could have had it removed although i asked her and she told me that she never had one), it was not even a thought out of the blue. What i didnt think about is that my mother could have mental health problems and thats why she told me that my mother could be anywhere and keep denying saying things that she says. It makes me feel vulnerable because she is not diagnosed with anything but i am so she can keep saying im hearing and inventing things.
I heard that wheat could cause schizophrenia in some people because of an allergic reaction. It would be worth staying away from it for awhile to see if it helps.
I used study a lot day and night with very little sleep. and eventually experienced something close this illness . I used hear voices from time to time while studying and sometimes felt someone was touching my neck from behind. it's scary to know someone continuesly experienced that for their entire life. I hope God gives you the strength to overcome this obstacle.
Here's the insane part, that is exactly what it is, depravity and constantly reinacting moments or conversations in your life an getting caught in a cycle that your mind forces you to replay over an over an occasional lot whelile replaying the event the person may repeat or say things they WISH they had said or did say oelr what was said to them... It can sometimes be so deep or a person can get lost in the replay an speak out loud an also, just begin getting emotional about it. Combining that with sleep deprivation you get a strange combo. The common thread with those who ACTUALLY suffer is the Lord, an Satan. It seems as though actual sufferers of this so called mental illness steam from a bloodline that is relative to Moses. These humans are of greater value then any other an in most cases they are extremely honest an lack an ability to pretend for any reason other than personal choice. It's a matter of accepting that science is equal to any man made shit, it's not actual just man made for instance Star Trek, Harry Potter...these world's are complete an in total, they were conceived by man as was the ways of humanity... We aren't just men on Earth, we are children of decended angels and man ( an animal ) an are born into sin, if a human is blessed to be a part of the process of elimination then by default you're already superior among humans and to be tested. Those so called voices aren't voices of imagination they are the voices of the demons we host, ilyou gave to pick an choose an in order to GET IT(to understand) you HAVE to listen an talk to them...the repeating of situations in normally the natural hate in your body wanting to perform bylut going with Jesus an not doing anything an always repeating what you would have done or what you should of said or what you could of said..( moments that really deserved action but you didn't act with malice an walked away) these voices are out to cause you to go astray an not choose to do what's right an it becomes a battle. Your conscience is your spirit telling you from the inside what's up, if you pinch yourself you feel it physically but not in your soul spirit or brain whatever, that's an indicator that tells you ok there's something going on inside, now if there are multiple tlvoices saying do this or that, you gotta close your portals, like smoking that opens a door for entrance, an demons like Sadness, Lonely, Dispair ( these are demon names, you may know them) they come in an fuck with you, they are just like you, your brain a spirit but you can't see them because they looking for a body to host them, if you get caught up in the spiritual war fair your tormented an society don't know what the f to do but call it mental illness, it's really not but be clear, not every human will be going to heaven, in fact more will go directly to hell through deception then any other but there are very few who are lucky enough to suffer such great amounts on Earth that they are able to eventually gain wisdom, many will offend the Lord and give up during this AWAKENING and they will lose the battle in their rise an kill theirself, which is typical in the battling of flesh an spirit, others will find the Lord so strongly they will eventually no longer choose to engage with MAN at all, including understanding sin to a point that disallows them to work actual jobs because it all goes against the laws of the Lord God through Jesus Christ, an while we all must work the truth is, these people become homeless an called crazy as the prophet for the Lord and others, well they will fall victim to the battle not by killing theirself but totally understand exactly what is happening and know the truth an act on Satan's behalf. This is like a secret club that no one can enter on their own...there is no cause no cure no meds because this shit is well, you're dealing with principalities not of this Earth. Ever notice we all say the same shit, it's because we steam from a bloodline of goodness that's naturally found in our hearts and minds while we are human we are the elect, we are those who "feel" other's have pain but we don't have emotions, we are those who do not hear anything but the Lord, even those who act on behalf of Satan know exactly why they are acting. You can't read a book an be validated as doing so with some man made degree an try to figure out the Lord's work, to begin with you are operating from a perspective, a system, an intentionally programed process that is by design formatted to dismantle the Lord's work, army and prophets on Earth thus you'll never figure it out. There is a Christ, he is the Messiah, the only wealth on Earth is in your heart an if you think a human is suffering from a mental illness that involves voices then you are just living life with a Vail over your eyes, mind an heart... because...how is it you can operate without them?!? Either 1, there's no reason to grasp your spirit because you were born into sin an never invited Jesus in your heart, 2; you ignore them an are dedicated to life as a whole and live a good one with no suffering and will go to hell or 3; your soul already secured by Satan an there's no reason to battle for you. 4 you're not of the elect in which case the prior, again applies. It's pretty basic shit as explain in the BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH or the BIBLE, I know exactly what is happening an when you accept Jesus the voices don't stop they get more deviant an more graphic, they prevent you from sleep thus causing you sleep deprivation thus causing crazy hallucinating. I have a so called invisible friend or many but none are fake, it just so happens that with enough suffering you become so wise you see those who most don't see. We are not alone we only have a body...don't ever get that fucked up... Be blessed to be a part of the reality of life itself, because those who aren't us will...WILL try to contain us, shut us up, put meds in us or in other words open more portals to allow more in, the cure is to sit back, an start listening to the one voice that is telling you not to listen to the others...Jesus will live in you just as those evil spirits do an he will clear them out an you'll still be nuts but that's just because all of the rest of society will not be walking with the light they won't see what you do walking in the dark.... Stay crazy, it's a safe way to keep the demons away, they have no choice but to fear the Lord.
I hope this isn't offensive in anyway but I am curious. When you hear a voice are you aware it's in your head or do you think that someone is actually talking to you for a split second?
Ive watched you since ur first video. You helped me so much when I was younger. Im 18 now, 19 in February. Paranoid schizophrenia. First time I saw was the toy soldier when i was 4 years old. Still see him today. But it helps to know that this illness is managable. So i thank you for these videos. Im sure your grandfather is so proud at how happy you make people c:
Both my parents had schizophrenic relatives, and I have schizophrenia, my two brothers don’t. I know what caused my illness. Trauma. People who have schizophrenia and say that it’s purely genetic they’re in denial. Just interview ONE schizophrenic, any one, you’d see they had more trauma in their life than most people.
Sometimes I think I'm hallucinating, and then I remind myself that I have a retinal detachment in my left eye and pvd in my right, I'm losing vision; I'm fucked either way.
I remember my first hallucination, I was sleeping and woke up, and saw these dead people dancing around my bed. I freaked out and cried and woke my mom up, whom came to my aid and said it was just a bad dream.
I thank you greatly for doing these. I think my wife is an undiagnosed case. You have helped me to understand this disease better. I wish you all the best.
High school isn't a healthy environment for ANYONE who has a disability of any kind, but bless your heart I can NOT even imagine what it must've been like for you. I can NOT give you enough credit for the courage you have displayed by posting these VERY informative videos! You are helping a lot of people to seriously understand "there but for the grace of God go I". You should to be commended for your bravery ... I will always pray for you sweetie. Stay strong!
5:18 I saw him too, some time later it started. Its not halucinations in my case, but more like reliving memories. I walk into a room or some other place, and suddenly i have a momory of me talking with spirits. Most of them are bad and nasty to me.
It's all a spiritual thing.. The death of grandfather. When loved ones die it is terrible but naturally we tune in to the spirit. Let down your shield the fight is over in regards to school. Let yourself heal. The anger at what you call "God" is still anger at spirit. Ask loving spirit , creator healer to calm you protect you. Let down all your shields, rest. Good luck,..
Im curious if you touched your grandfather's body? Or any of the bodies at the other funerals? Its not so much being there as touching a deceased body. So that would influence you tremendously.
the dream hallucination reminds me of a personal experience that was kind of similar. I had thousands of spiders crawling all over my walls and ceiling and floor. I just remember not being able to get up and leave the room. This happened in some weird transition from sleep to awake but, i was awake when I saw them. I remember being frozen in fear in my bed and I think i had to close my eyes and run out my door and i ended up staying outside my house for a hour because i thought some of the spiders followed me
I noticed that you seemed to almost recoil when you accidentally implied you prayed to God when you had your first hallucination. I'm curious what that was about? Is spirituality/religion triggering or difficult for you?
Hey, I have been a fan of your videos for ages now and have been subscribed for a while. (I just added you on snapchat too by the way, I didnt know you had it! :D) You are an inspiration to everyone and have helped me so much. Thank you.
Demon spirits is the reason ,not genes. Only thing you can do is have faith in god and pray , but I doubt that because you seem offended by a god for some reason , you clearly have had signs of demon spirits but you still deny spirits and blame it on a mental disorder which I find baffling,
Fay Angel you're correct, mental health issues are caused by black magic/demons, voices, hallucinations, mood swings, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety, psychosis... are all caused by black magic.
It's interesting that, with your first hallucination, you couldn't see the apparition when you put the blanket over your face. Is it same with other visual hallucinations you've had (i.e. when you look away or close your eyes, they disappear)?
So glad i just discovered your channel. My mother has schizophrenia and i had to deal with it my whole childhood. Worse, she was an extremely bad drug addict. I had to take care of my siblings until i was 15. Glad you're comfortable enough to show us your schizophrenia experience, i need to be a bit more educated on it.
I've just started to experience some kind of stuff like, I can see stuff that looks like ghosts and I can feel something or someone touching me or poking but there's nobody there. The other night I heard someone saying something (I forget what it was) but it wasn't nice and I told them to stop it but again there was nobody there. I'm starting to get a bit concerned because I've been having pains in my stomach for months and I've gone to the doctors about it which I'm currently on medication for but it's not helping much but I was thinking maybe these things could be something to do with my stomach or maybe it could be something like schizophrenia? I do believe in God so I'm thinking could it be a sign from God? I don't know maybe it's due to my stomach pains but it's starting to annoy me.
Osoba thank you, I'll let my doc know about it next time I see him. I'm scared to tell my parents cuz they'll either be like "you've been like this all your life or stop moaning, you'll be fine" because my mum worries a lot and there's a lot of stuff she doesn't want to believe if I or somebody else is sick, when I was in bed last night a heard a child screaming as if it had been set on fire but my windows weren't open and there are no children in my house and my parents were in bed, then I woke up to the sound of an unfamiliar laugh and I said stop it but it wouldn't stop. I feel like I'm going crazy but I'm maybe not. Thank you for the advice. Schizophrenia literally just came up on my recommendations and the girl said most people in their early 20s get schizophrenia but I might not have it, it could be something else triggering this stuff, I don't like to self diagnose lol. I do have a few family members with deep depression, I don't have it though but my two aunt's and cousin have it and my mum had prenatal and postnatal depression but I don't think these signs are depression. Sorry if I'm talking jibberish, it is 8:50am over here so it's quite early for me.
(This is a bit of a long post.. Sorry about that) (There IS a TL:DR summary at the end.) While I DO believe Schizophrenia IS definitely an illness, because it causes problems, I still believe that it's possible that your skewed thinking and perceptions could be giving you access to another plane of perception. One that is not meant for humans - or beings of our intelligence level. That our limited human brains, coupled with the "thought-problems" that occur with schizophrenia, just can't comprehend what we're perceiving and our brains manifest it using the concsciousness materials we have access to. Materials that just aren't sufficient. So, yes... I think they ARE hallucinations. But where as a hallucination is something that isn't really there, and you just think it is - I think it's possible that what you are perceiving IS really there and it's just our brain's inability to process these things. I find it's like the story Flatland. In that story, there was a Universe of aliens that existed in a 2-dimensional existence. The humans accessed this Universe and stole resources from these aliens, quite easily, by simply using our ability to exist in 3 dimensions. Something the 2D aliens couldn't imagine. Then there was a sequel to this story, in which 4D aliens did the same to us. As much as us humans can mathematically talk about 4D, and we can mathematically express it ... I think it's just something that is literally beyond our mind's capacity to grasp. ***(TL:DR Schizophrenia is a perception of things that are beyond our brain's capacity to comprehend, and thusly our brain's reconcile these difficulties by manifesting what you're perceiving in the form of hallucinations and other problems in thinking and interacting.)*** But make no mistake, schizophrenic thinking IS a problem (despite anything I just said). It needs to be treated. Anything that interferes with your ability to lead a happy, productive life needs to be treated/combatted/dealt with.
Something about your videos is very Zen. I think that we all need connection and the content here is totally authentic and human. It is clear that you connect with a lot of people of this channel. Definitely keep up the good work!
TEM POK If it's not a type of disease then what is it? From a scientific standpoint, it is an imbalance in the brain, typically passed down through genetics. Same goes for cancer or addiction. Those with mental illnesses are not simply "different" like an albino, they literally suffer on a day to day basis. These folks need help so that they may function in society and live a somewhat normal life. The human experience is being able to participate and achieve things, just like anybody else would.
Conway Rollo apparently the imbalance thing is made up and so are the genetic rates I don't deny that people struggle but who's to say it can't be life for enhancing for some (if not many)?
TEM POK how can it be enhancing if they are struggling? A chain is as strong as its weakest link, it doesn't matter all the potential that such condition could imply if it in the same package are also such disadvantages. It's like giving you the most delicious fruit, but sewing your mouth at the same time.
How has your diet been? I've found diet tremendously helps with most mental illnesses. In fact that a lot of mental illnesses drum down to not providing your brain the stuff that makes it work. And drugs of course ;)
Since this year started, I've started getting concerned if I have it or not. Most of my friends told me that I've been really quiet and acting weird. All the time at school, I hear conversations going on and I usually hear them saying my name over and over, which bothers me a whole lot. Some times, I can't help but think that most of the conversations and laughs going on are about me. I feel like the people are looking at me too when I walk past them. A week ago, I was at a restaurant and I noticed a couple in the corner of my eye looking at me and slightly laughing, then I could've sworn that one of them said, "don't ruin his life". I haven't told my parents about all this, but I just don't know what to do. I'm honestly really scared.
I have watched a few of your videos, and i like your story and how you explain to the people your experience with the illness, im studing psychology and this is really usefull for me to understand the subject, how do you feel, what happened, what do you think of it, your symptoms. I would like to say thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
I just found your channel and I absolutely love you! I'm very interested in mental disorders and human psychology in general. Thank you for talking about your illness and being so open about it. It's interesting and fascinating and I love hearing it from someone who actually lives with it, and not just the textbook definition of what it is. Thank you for sharing your life with me!
I'm so happy for you, man! :-) I've had my own issues of a different form that felt like they ruled my life for years and years so extremely that I never wanted to be in relationships. Now things are getting better and I think finally accepting the issue for what it was and letting go of the thought that I have to be healed immediately really helped. Anyways, great video, as always. :-)
I have PTSD and my therapist told me I had "schizophrenic" tendencies because when I have flash backs (small ones) it's like the person(s) in my room. But after watching your videos I don't really think so. But your videos do give me a real good insight
i lost it at the vape nation lmao. hope youre doing better man. an old friend of mine has schizophrenia. its nice to get a clear window into the process, so thanks.
hey. you dont deserve to be bullied, you seem really nice. and educated. to be honest i think you'd be a really cool friend to have. and personally im sorry for all that you've had to go through. if you ever need another person to talk to, you can always contact me. I'd be honored to hear from you, seems like you have a lot of good things to say. Keep posting videos! keep being you!! believe it or not ive watched a couple of your updates in a row and even though i dont have necessarily the same alements as you do, just listening to you speak makes me feel more comfortable within myself :) glad to have discovered you through the viral chanels!!
Your description of remembering childhood is strikingly similar to my memory of childhood some good times an a lot of bad times an lot of the bad times being caused by other people on my life a lot of dramatic crap. Shalom an God bless you brother.
My right ear enjoyed this video.
That's for damn sure.
Bruh i thought my headphones broke
@@Lucian0410 haha that's always my first thought when I encounter videos with broken audio like these 😂
Mine to but then again only got one ear bud in....
@@Lucian0410 there are extensions that can force sounds to be mono (both channels mixed down to 1 and then played to both sides)
The audio is kind of off, I don't know what happened. Won't happen for future videos my bad.
i really like listening to you ive never been diagnosed but i think we've got alot in common
i really like listening to you ive never been diagnosed but i think we've got alot in common
hey really inspiring videos whats ur name and how can i follow you on instagram and snapchat
I hear voices speaking about what I think even when I'm typing this and have hallucinations ,it's happening from a couple of months ,,do u think there is something wrong with me or someone is really listening to my thoughts and planning all this
see a doc
Who would drag a child to 10 funerals? I'm sorry that you had to go through that, especially sorry for the loss of your Grandpa.. Take care!
The kind of person willing to engage in an emotional/sexual relationship with ANYONE suffering with mental disorder is admirable. Took me 29 years to find "the one" that wouldn't abandon me in my worst moments. Not only does he stay, but he is willing to get into the trenches & fight with me. As I would for him.
Please don't give up, person reading this, there are people who will (try) understand.
I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm trying to work through it. I have a job as a waiter, not exactly the job I wanted to have but I'm good at it, and my customers are very understanding of my "quirks." I'm in constant fear of losing my independence. One of my friends proposed I move in with him because of a few incidents I've had. I know he's just looking out for me but I want to be able to take care of myself. I'm also really messy, I don't put things away all the time, and I don't want to make his house messy like mine. His wife doesn't like me very much either so I don't think it would be a good idea to move in with him only to be kicked out by his wife later. Long story but I felt, you know you're sharing, so maybe I should share.
Me to you have demons in your body I swear to Allah if you keep listen Quran the leave your body if you have any questions let me know
Ased Afghan OC, don’t listen to this clown. He’s trying to scare you into his ideology. Demons aren’t real. All you need to do is take medication and try your best to adapt. You will be okay.
@@asedafghan1 omg stfu what is wrong with you
I love how youre so positive but realistic. I am truly happy for you that you found someone you love so much. It is so cool how you can describe sincerely your life as beautiful and wonderful. Wish I was more like that, i feel like im not greatful enough and i get sad or weak so fast when things get harder. :/ I wish i was stronger.
You need to focus on being more proud of your efforts. Every decision, action you take to try to get better you should be proud that you are having a go and learning what helps you in the process. Accept that your only human and dont have full control over your mind to always be positive. Dont see yourself as failing to be positive. We all still have things to learn, we dont know all the answers to our problems already and we need to remember that were not perfect. Keep going, build that positive momentum. See the benefit/value in every situation even when things dont go as desired. I promise you it gets better with practice and habit. We are all students and we are all teachers.
danskiiz35 wow this is very nice of you for taking the time to write this. Thank you so much. :)
Glad to help ;)
what you described at 5:40 sounds like sleep paralysis, pretty common occurrence
I get that...
It's scary!!!!
Or some sort of sleep related phenomenon at least. All sorts of crazy stuff happens between consciousness and subconsciousness. Bed is the home of hallucination.
I suffer from sleep paralysis and I immediately thought the same thing..
Monte Good4You
Don't suffer, become curious, accept it and see what's gonna happen. It cant kill you or harm you, it's just a state of mind.
Sad thing one you stop being afraid it starts happening less and less....
Vape nation! I love your videos Jacob!
vape naysh o/
It's good to see he's off of the cigarettes :)
He’s so sweet talking about his girlfriend😫😫😭❤️
I have friends with schizophrenia (don't know why, but it seems to be an illness that's more often than some "normal" people recognize if not directly confronted one day) and I don't think it's genes.
because I experienced someone very close "slipping" into that illness. sadly that person commited suicide. and I am quite sure (also because my friends with that illness tell me) that EXTREME (mental and also physical) PRESSURE (like extremely stressful situations/bullying/too much responsibility, drugs/meds/alcohol/toxic substances, combined with high sensibility) basically is the cause of schizophrenia. I researched a lot after I was confronted with it and everybody I talked to told me kind of similar incidents...
and most of those I talked to (in years researching why close ones are schizophrenic - one suffers extreme fear, one has voices and can see... "things"...) were like "pushed over the edge" and didn't have a chance to "get things sorted out", because nobody really engaged with them.
hope I am not totally wrong with my "knowledge" - don't wanna harm anyone. but - best thing to prevent - I think - is to take pressure off everyone in a stressful, bad phase. ?! hope you can handle the hallucinations, voices - whatever you experience. stay strong! hope you got someone close to talk to. someone who wants to listen and just be there.
weed doesn't do that. I would know. yea you'll have a trip depending on if it's a good trip or bad trip. depends on how you deal with the high if you freak out you'll have a bad high and wouldn't want to do it again.
ROSETTA LA'DIAMOND well that is wrong. Look up drug induced mental illnesses. Cannabis is one of the drugs that is known to have that effect. Look up the corresponding papers in the medical field.
ROSETTA LA'DIAMOND yeah it can
baphomet666_MONSTER sounds more like psychosis. Psychosis is not a mental illness but a symptom of one (ie: someone bipolar might go into pyschosis if they're in full blown mania) You can experience it from multiple different things ie: stress, lack of sleep, drugs, etc. Psychosis has similar traits to schizophrenia (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, etc) but it doesn't have anything to do with genes. Carrying the schizophrenic gene is the most common cause of schizophrenia. I think your friends may have psychosis. But yeah I obviously don't know them or if they do carry the gene or not but I just thought I'd help clear that up!
Also!!!! Another thing! If you experience psychosis for about 6 months I believe then you are schizophrenic
I have bipolar and am very interested in the causes of mental illness, I see it as a gene and then that gene is "turned on" by experiences.. and experiencing things that are not part of the shared reality is like a 6th sense that was forced on when we went through something that we percieved as too much to handle at the time; Doctor Gabor Mate has some really good books around generational trauma, addictions, mental health. I know this mental illness is different, but each roots from a similar space and it really helps to look at it from different angles.
I have schizophrenia and I believe it is caused by something traumatic happening in your life of or from a brain injury. I think it starts when your brain is overwhelmed.
They reading your mind you nitwit
What part of the traps they laid in your head didn't you understand. You a straight experiment you moron
@@leonard_spunky baba
Everyone has those tramas youd talking about your just conciouse of it
@@saltyalty2957 wtf?
mack you dont have any trama and your profile is a ying yang?
make more videos with your gf y'all're cool together
yah shes cool.. but I like Jacobs solo vids also :)
Sarah Bucket wait is his name jacob wtf he never says this stuff
I have schizophren and I have tried to kill myself because of my voices and my bullys said that my my voice should tell me that they would hurt me
I'm sorry man :( Most people will never understand what you go through. They are totally caught up in their own world and couldn't begin to understand. If you ever need someone to talk to, let me know.
Vape naysh yall
Its strange how in the older traditions if you had symptoms of schizophrenia they are immediately drawn out of the pack and put under the care and tutelage of master shamans. You are told: “You are special. Your abilities are very central to the health of our society. You will cure. You will prophesy. You will guide our society"
now in today's societies they’re told: “You don’t fit in. You are becoming a problem. You don’t pull your own weight. You are not of equal worth to the rest of us. You are sick. You have to go to the hospital. You have to be locked up.
I truly believe its a gift if used correctly
I agree with you totally.
You are quite delusional.
thats a myth
rooster555555
It's not a myth it's a scientific fact.
schizoaffective here. I was bullied to shit as well.
That you got bullied by them...
god i dont know whats going on with humans
i was bullied but i was a bullie also
my childhood was awesome exept school. I'm drug addict now. And maybe at this time i have shizophrenia.
Sad Boy They should have take bulling serious it effects more than it seems
I was bullied and seen as stupid, always laughed at and the guy on who everyone used their jokes. I was not really physically abused because i was always a tall guy. I mean i was really stupid around my peers, always under pressure and i wouldn't defend, but i could, i could kill every single one of my bullies with my bare hands. I was just keeping all of that in myself and all of that negative energy has go somewhere, i dont know what mental illness do i have its not even important. I became so avoidant and asocial, it was a comfort zone but now it all got to me, the social norms, all of my friends are going stuff, having girlfriends, etc... Like when i meet with them i have so little to say, i just wish things were different.
What's schizoaffected? Were you bullied by schizophrenics?
Its spiritual having to do with ways of spirit of belief, unction if you will, a way of being in spirit based upon belief and certain truth you experienced. The delusions are of one merely entertaining the thought of what was projected by others of their way of the spirit of error. It matters the way people you love treats you and people a subject to error in spirit which reflects upon you error. Your were a spiritually sensitive child, and you still are as an adult of an experience of a profound spiritual truth. Seek understanding of the ways of spirit of being in the New testament, the truth of the spirit Jesus's talks about. You can start with 1 John which tells about the way of the spirit of truth and the way of the spirit of error which are ways of being of spiritual positions of which manifest material truth around us.
What causes schizophrenia? Truly the cause is unknown. While there are some genes that show some promise of being associated with risk for the disease it's unclear what their role might be. Some interesting environmental factors have also been suggested including exposure to viruses in the womb and social adversity. Overall though, there's no coherent model of how this disease is caused.
OdinTheWanderer do scientists even know what it is? If I ask the question "What is Schizophrenia?" Can anyone give me an answer WITHOUT JUST LISTING OFF SYMPTOMS? Strange
@ThePesmergia Are you by any chance a Celiac or have a sensitivity to 'wheat'? Dairy could also be involved here, because the protein in dairy (casein) is very similar to the protein (gluten) in wheat (they are cross-reactors). The reason I ask is because I recently read and watched videos dealing with how our Western diet with tons of wheat are linked to schizophrenia. Here below is an excerpt from a study I read :
"One of the first hints that these circumstances could have implications for the psychological sciences was the observation that, in several countries, hospitalization rates for schizophrenia during World War II dropped in direct proportion to wheat shortages. In the United States, where over that same period the consumption of wheat rose rather than diminished, such rates increased instead (Dohan, 1966a,b). In South Pacific islands with a traditionally low consumption of wheat, schizophrenia was only found in 1 person out of 30,000. When Western grain products were introduced into their society, it dramatically rose to 1 person out of 100! (Dohan et al., 1984)." (end)
Both times that I fell into hallucinations (especially hypnopompic / hypnagogic ones), I was very ill. The first time happened around 2012 into 2013. I was very ill, even had an ingrown toenail that I had to get removed and was also having terrible panic attacks. This last time it started in August 2016, when I was lifting weights. I couldn't catch my breath in between sets. I went home and later, I developed a really bad upper respiratory infection, which made it very difficult to breathe even walking down a few stairs. I had been lifting weights hardcore, doing HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training), eating 500 cals. under maintenance trying to burn fat, then I was also working night shifts, barely getting any sleep, etc.. I also lost my dad in October of 2015, I had also lost my faith around that same time and a week after my dad passed, I ended up in the hospital with appendicitis (had to get the appendix removed with an appendectomy surgery). That whole year finally took it's toll on me. I started researching and I ended up finding out all of this stuff about Celiac disease, which my mom tested positive for Celiac many years ago, so I'm sure I have it. I studied up on all the vitamins, especially niacin and Dr. Abram Hoffer as well as Vitamin D3 deficiency and Dr. John Cannell. I started supplementing with tons of things since November and I'm just now starting to feel better physically a couple months later. But all of these hallucinations started around mid-December. A dark cloud depressive feeling is upon me most of the day as well. And mainly I hear auditory hallucinations. It's been really rough, but now I see that the reason may very well be because I have the gene linked to Celiac. This might be the case for many more people than we think, according to the study I cited in my last comment above this one.
We all remember bad things because they leave strong impressions. Recently some scientists connected an animal parasite causing taxoplasmosis. They conclude that: "infection with Toxoplasma gondii can alter behavior and neurotransmitter function". So, it causes tiny damages to the brain and affects how brain works causing hallucinations, mood change, anxiety, etc. Some scientists say that the parasite may be the cause of 80% of the schizophrenia and it is passed to the offspring, genetically, like you said. I think it's great that scientists are progressing, it's slow, but still it's good to know they're working on it despite the fact that it seem like they're not. And, in my opinion, it seems like they're not working much because they do not inform the public about the failures, just significant discoveries. Thank you for your video and keep up the great work!
You are very smart and brave. My schizophrenia started when I was just 14. Alienated and bullied as well. Didn't do well in school. But it must be the environment and the gene which causes it. People in my family went through adversity big time but didn't get the illness only me. I am so happy that you have a girlfriend and I wish you both happiness.
My dream career is to specialize in schizophrenia, and I'm so grateful you're being so open about it. :)
I've been bullied since the first second that I went to high school. I've ended up with anorexia, bulimia, self-harm and things like you have. I mean there was a point that I heard voices and see like shadows. So I feel you man. And I'm so fucking glad that u are so happy right now. It's true what u say. A truth as big as a house. You have to keep going on through the darkest times because u are strong and never ever think about giving up.
Stay strong whoever who were suffering from these shits. xxx
You can't be anorectic and bulimic in the same time..
nice vape! haha :) good job on quitting the cigarettes (i think lol i saw you smoking in one of your old videos_
Sounds like you had pediatric temporal lobe epilepsy - the hallucinations, the large size and close/distant proximity of things, jamais vu (which you described in another video). You’re right that an extremely stressful event like your grand dad passing can trigger mental illness. You might’ve also had a high fever as a child that triggered the condition.
It sounds like you know pretty much exactly what triggered it. You were a young kid and bullying and relatives passing away is stressful for even adults, not just young kids who don't have coping mechanisms. Stress is the number one trigger for schizophrenia, it's why most cases come up when people are at the college/university stage of life.
i always look forward to your videos. it helps to keep me going. im glad you are happy! you deserve it! cheers
"uh... vape nation" lmao blow some sick clouds for me bruh
I'm writing a small story about schizophrenia and this video really answered a lot of questions I had about schizophrenia, so thank you. I really love the idea of your channel, you inspire litteraly thousands of people! Keep it up pal!
thank you for your channel
Due to genes of close family members I have a very high rate to attain schizophrenia. mid to late 20's are most likely for women so I'm trying to prep for it(21 now) :/ thanks for the videos !
iTheGeek Come on man, dont spread misinformation like that. The genes can always be there. Can always be triggered. Can always remain dormant. It is entirely false to say something like that.
That is such a good idea. Before I had Schizophrenia or whatever subset of it I used to be fascinated by it and looked it up a ton. It's seriously the only reason I remotely knew what was going on with me. Even then it doesn't particularly prepare you. I live a rather normal life but it's rather disrupting. May God by grace in Jesus let you never have it.
Well don't do psychedelic drug like LSD or psilocybin
it really isn't tho, study done with 16,000 identical twins have very low recurrence when one of the twins was diagnosed with schizophrenia. trauma is a bigger factor IMHO
My exboyfriend has it and so does his aunt and uncle so I think some genetics play into it.
I'm schizoactive and I'm often terrified that I'll be homeless one day
I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia I don't think but when I'm about to go to sleep I think someone is watching me and then I get scared then I just tell myself I'm just trippen like a bitch and then boom I just go to sleep
StussyMartin paranoia i guess
I used to hallucinate as a child and felt embarrassed to talk about it because my uncle was schizophrenic and I didn't want my family to talk about me the way they spoke about him (there was a lot of pity and concern when they talked, I just wanted to be normal).
I was molested by my dad as a kid and I'm only just now having to sort through my past, but I just wanted to thank you for opening up to the world. My first hallucination (I remember - I've forgotten a lot of my childhood) was similar to what you described but it was a large toy that came to life. I don't hallucinate any more but I had a bad mental breakdown last year I'm still recovering from and the hallucinations have come back... anyway it's really comforting to hear others stories so thank you..
I started crying when you talked about your first hallucination, because I had the same first hallucination, even with the same reaction. Only a few things were different. I subscribed to you, because I can relate to you, but I have got no diagnosis. I'm 15 years old and confused. I don't know if you'll ever even read this, but I still want to ask you for advice. What should I do?
i think a lot of kids hallucinate, i had one hallucination that i remember when i was fully awake, i forgot about it for years
So what was it?
@@camellia1942 i saw a warm low in the corner of my room, there was a figure there but i closed my eyes, i was scared it was a demon but the warmth from it was comfort so the idea that it was an angel crossed my mind but i was like 5 years old so was still too terrified to open my eyes, it faded away in about 5 to 7 seconds. i was fully awake, could move and everything and my brother was just across the room sleeping too.
@@isetscott4740 ohh.. I've had similar experiences too recently.. I am 17 and recently for 3 months now I've been hallucinating almost daily. But mine aren't warmth it's just the scariest shit ever..
@@camellia1942 scary, how? why are you hallucinating also?
@@looselygaming6130 well.. I see shadow figures almost everyday, I feel fingers touching me on my abdomen when I'm supposed to be alone in my room, I saw the grudge girl in my cracked open closet once, I heard people talking outside my room when everyone is asleep in my house in the middle of the night, I hear raspy breathing everyday beside me when I'm alone, I hear whispers or random voices, I hear random screaming or my mom calling me inside my head ya know the monologue you have in your head? Kinda like that.. and.. and always paranoid like someone or something watching me 24/7.. as for the reason idk why all this is happening..
The reason you are so paranoid is because of the funerals. Think about it. The skeletons, the ghosts, the creepy people with no face, feeling like you are dead, feeling like it's afterlife... It was the funerals. Your parents took you to a very creepy place, the cemetery, when you were young and you were petrified.
I have had schizophrenia myself for 37 years, it has ruined my life. I still don't swear all the time. I find the swearing on this video offensive. Apart from that, it is an interesting and informative video.
Have you ever heard of a nutritional ketosis? This is used to help children with epilepsy with great success for the past 100 years. In many cases, it is the only thing that helps. This approach is currently being studied for a variety of mental illnesses and disorders, including schizophrenia. I've seen this approach completely erase autism symptoms for a child first hand (I know that is not the same thing, but it is pretty profound to see).
Anyway, just pointing this out to you in the event you had never heard of this. It is worth researching. I wish you the best.
It is worth trying
Hi! I have been watching your videos for quite a while.. and I finally got diagnosed a year ago. Your videos help me ALOT and even helped another girl so much that she made a channel about her mental illness, and I just started too! I think it will help me with anxiety speaking.. Thanks for putting yourself out there! I can't say thanks enough.
Ever since I was 15 I've been terrified of developing a mental illness to the point where I would have to drop out of school (like a few of my family members have) and live by myself for the rest of my life. I love school so much and it would break my heart to drop out of college due to something like extreme depression, anxiety, or even schizophrenia. But seeing this video and seeing how you and your girlfriend interact have made me think differently. I'm slightly more ready for whatever comes at me.
Valeria Vallejo Same exact thing over here. I think being too worried about developing a mental disorder could actually start to be paranoia and a mental disorder which probably makes me worried that I become worried about having a mental disorder because I now know this which loops back to the fact that it starts to be paranoia.
God damn, Valeria. That's heavy. But at 15, it's not a surprise you were afraid. If you ever feel like you have something, though, don't repress it - embrace it. Go to a doctor and get checked out. None of it's a death sentence or unlivable with, and you'll always be you. 'better the devil you know' as they say.
I'm sorry you suffer from this. I used to have this man who followed me around, and he came out of the TV the first time, but he never got that close because I ran. Back then, they didn't go away even if I looked away. There were a few of them. A lot of my family is either mentally ill or an idiot or both. I'm dumb. I was bullied a lot in school due to being in special ed. Like you, I tried to drop out of HS because it was unreal the amount of agony I was in, but I was tricked into staying. My grandpa, when they found out that I was slower, tried to pull me out of school and teach me a trade while being homeschooled, but my stupid parents wouldn't let him. He was like, they're going to hurt her, and they did. My stress started young with my parents who were too young to have me, and I was a sickly kid, too. Some of my hallucinations were probably from fevers, and I'm sure that didn't help anything. Even after I earned an immune system, I had issues.
Hey I know what ur going through I have a rare form of schizo I got it at 14-15 my bio sperm donor got in the picture and caused so much stress it first started 14 but I had a friend that saved my ass a phone call everyday and she knew my mood by the sound of my voice
Bullying sucks so much man, especially because you seem like such a down to earth cool guy and I bet they had 0 reasons to bully you. Hope you're doing well.
i was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 2 years ago. It started because i opened my mind too much into things like thinking about the ultra capabilities of secret intelligence agencies together with my worrying about my mother well being i came to believe that my mother, relatives and acquaintances had been replaced by impostors by secret groups against me. But what still bugs me is that once that i called my mother she told me that my mother could be anywhere, so i ponder why did she tell me that.
Holy shit that almost happened to me but the I changed and quit caring
commenter78 your mother told you that your mother could be anywhere when you called her? If I read that right
Emme Yes she did. I dont know why.
commenter78 I'm very sorry. Must be a very hard thing to go through. I wouldn't trust anyone. Maybe you could make a code word with your mom and other family members? A word to make sure no one else knows and then give it to you on a note in a secret way?
Emme For me it's too late because now im never going to know why she said that. And asking her would just make her say that im hearing and inventing things. It is very awful being diagnosed, it's like a stigma that i want to keep secret because if ppl knew i couldnt get a job, i would be treated like a crazy person which my mother does and she tells all her friends about it which is exasperating. Im not crazy and dont act crazy, the only thing was that time when i thought they were impostors, but i had reasons to believe that (for example my mother no longer has a birth mark she had but she could have had it removed although i asked her and she told me that she never had one), it was not even a thought out of the blue. What i didnt think about is that my mother could have mental health problems and thats why she told me that my mother could be anywhere and keep denying saying things that she says. It makes me feel vulnerable because she is not diagnosed with anything but i am so she can keep saying im hearing and inventing things.
I heard that wheat could cause schizophrenia in some people because of an allergic reaction. It would be worth staying away from it for awhile to see if it helps.
I used study a lot day and night with very little sleep. and eventually experienced something close this illness . I used hear voices from time to time while studying and sometimes felt someone was touching my neck from behind.
it's scary to know someone continuesly experienced that for their entire life.
I hope God gives you the strength to overcome this obstacle.
Here's the insane part, that is exactly what it is, depravity and constantly reinacting moments or conversations in your life an getting caught in a cycle that your mind forces you to replay over an over an occasional lot whelile replaying the event the person may repeat or say things they WISH they had said or did say oelr what was said to them... It can sometimes be so deep or a person can get lost in the replay an speak out loud an also, just begin getting emotional about it. Combining that with sleep deprivation you get a strange combo. The common thread with those who ACTUALLY suffer is the Lord, an Satan. It seems as though actual sufferers of this so called mental illness steam from a bloodline that is relative to Moses. These humans are of greater value then any other an in most cases they are extremely honest an lack an ability to pretend for any reason other than personal choice. It's a matter of accepting that science is equal to any man made shit, it's not actual just man made for instance Star Trek, Harry Potter...these world's are complete an in total, they were conceived by man as was the ways of humanity... We aren't just men on Earth, we are children of decended angels and man ( an animal ) an are born into sin, if a human is blessed to be a part of the process of elimination then by default you're already superior among humans and to be tested. Those so called voices aren't voices of imagination they are the voices of the demons we host, ilyou gave to pick an choose an in order to GET IT(to understand) you HAVE to listen an talk to them...the repeating of situations in normally the natural hate in your body wanting to perform bylut going with Jesus an not doing anything an always repeating what you would have done or what you should of said or what you could of said..( moments that really deserved action but you didn't act with malice an walked away) these voices are out to cause you to go astray an not choose to do what's right an it becomes a battle. Your conscience is your spirit telling you from the inside what's up, if you pinch yourself you feel it physically but not in your soul spirit or brain whatever, that's an indicator that tells you ok there's something going on inside, now if there are multiple tlvoices saying do this or that, you gotta close your portals, like smoking that opens a door for entrance, an demons like Sadness, Lonely, Dispair ( these are demon names, you may know them) they come in an fuck with you, they are just like you, your brain a spirit but you can't see them because they looking for a body to host them, if you get caught up in the spiritual war fair your tormented an society don't know what the f to do but call it mental illness, it's really not but be clear, not every human will be going to heaven, in fact more will go directly to hell through deception then any other but there are very few who are lucky enough to suffer such great amounts on Earth that they are able to eventually gain wisdom, many will offend the Lord and give up during this AWAKENING and they will lose the battle in their rise an kill theirself, which is typical in the battling of flesh an spirit, others will find the Lord so strongly they will eventually no longer choose to engage with MAN at all, including understanding sin to a point that disallows them to work actual jobs because it all goes against the laws of the Lord God through Jesus Christ, an while we all must work the truth is, these people become homeless an called crazy as the prophet for the Lord and others, well they will fall victim to the battle not by killing theirself but totally understand exactly what is happening and know the truth an act on Satan's behalf. This is like a secret club that no one can enter on their own...there is no cause no cure no meds because this shit is well, you're dealing with principalities not of this Earth. Ever notice we all say the same shit, it's because we steam from a bloodline of goodness that's naturally found in our hearts and minds while we are human we are the elect, we are those who "feel" other's have pain but we don't have emotions, we are those who do not hear anything but the Lord, even those who act on behalf of Satan know exactly why they are acting. You can't read a book an be validated as doing so with some man made degree an try to figure out the Lord's work, to begin with you are operating from a perspective, a system, an intentionally programed process that is by design formatted to dismantle the Lord's work, army and prophets on Earth thus you'll never figure it out. There is a Christ, he is the Messiah, the only wealth on Earth is in your heart an if you think a human is suffering from a mental illness that involves voices then you are just living life with a Vail over your eyes, mind an heart... because...how is it you can operate without them?!? Either 1, there's no reason to grasp your spirit because you were born into sin an never invited Jesus in your heart, 2; you ignore them an are dedicated to life as a whole and live a good one with no suffering and will go to hell or 3; your soul already secured by Satan an there's no reason to battle for you. 4 you're not of the elect in which case the prior, again applies. It's pretty basic shit as explain in the BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH or the BIBLE, I know exactly what is happening an when you accept Jesus the voices don't stop they get more deviant an more graphic, they prevent you from sleep thus causing you sleep deprivation thus causing crazy hallucinating. I have a so called invisible friend or many but none are fake, it just so happens that with enough suffering you become so wise you see those who most don't see. We are not alone we only have a body...don't ever get that fucked up... Be blessed to be a part of the reality of life itself, because those who aren't us will...WILL try to contain us, shut us up, put meds in us or in other words open more portals to allow more in, the cure is to sit back, an start listening to the one voice that is telling you not to listen to the others...Jesus will live in you just as those evil spirits do an he will clear them out an you'll still be nuts but that's just because all of the rest of society will not be walking with the light they won't see what you do walking in the dark.... Stay crazy, it's a safe way to keep the demons away, they have no choice but to fear the Lord.
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I hope this isn't offensive in anyway but I am curious. When you hear a voice are you aware it's in your head or do you think that someone is actually talking to you for a split second?
It can be both. Sometimes I know it's just in my head, and sometimes I get caught off guard and think someone is actually talking to me.
Ive watched you since ur first video. You helped me so much when I was younger. Im 18 now, 19 in February. Paranoid schizophrenia. First time I saw was the toy soldier when i was 4 years old. Still see him today. But it helps to know that this illness is managable. So i thank you for these videos. Im sure your grandfather is so proud at how happy you make people c:
Both my parents had schizophrenic relatives, and I have schizophrenia, my two brothers don’t. I know what caused my illness. Trauma. People who have schizophrenia and say that it’s purely genetic they’re in denial. Just interview ONE schizophrenic, any one, you’d see they had more trauma in their life than most people.
I wish you and your girlfriend the best of luck!
So horrible that you were bullied,and had to go through all of this at such a young age. I'm glad to see your happy with your girlfriend
Sometimes I think I'm hallucinating, and then I remind myself that I have a retinal detachment in my left eye and pvd in my right, I'm losing vision; I'm fucked either way.
We want more videos with you only, please!
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Yeah my brother had hallucinations around 5. We never found out about it until his psychosis kicked in BAD when he was in his early-mid twenties.
I remember my first hallucination, I was sleeping and woke up, and saw these dead people dancing around my bed. I freaked out and cried and woke my mom up, whom came to my aid and said it was just a bad dream.
I thank you greatly for doing these. I think my wife is an undiagnosed case. You have helped me to understand this disease better. I wish you all the best.
is the audio being a bit weird for someone else on this video? I can't hear it clearly
yeah, it's all on the right
Helen W its better over my phone than on my laptop if it can help you. :)
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Helen W youre really pretty 😩
Yes u have this illness lol jk
Thanks for sharing. My mother struggled with schizophrenia.
High school isn't a healthy environment for ANYONE who has a disability of any kind, but bless your heart I can NOT even imagine what it must've been like for you. I can NOT give you enough credit for the courage you have displayed by posting these VERY informative videos! You are helping a lot of people to seriously understand "there but for the grace of God go I". You should to be commended for your bravery ... I will always pray for you sweetie. Stay strong!
5:18 I saw him too, some time later it started. Its not halucinations in my case, but more like reliving memories. I walk into a room or some other place, and suddenly i have a momory of me talking with spirits. Most of them are bad and nasty to me.
Schizophrenia is caused from bullying, abuse, being ganged up on, and being singled out from the crowd. I've had it twice. it sucks.
It's all a spiritual thing.. The death of grandfather. When loved ones die it is terrible but naturally we tune in to the spirit. Let down your shield the fight is over in regards to school. Let yourself heal. The anger at what you call "God" is still anger at spirit. Ask loving spirit , creator healer to calm you protect you. Let down all your shields, rest. Good luck,..
Schizophrenia is not in your genes, it might be a mutation of a gene (DISC1) but it isn't caused by a specific gene.
Im curious if you touched your grandfather's body? Or any of the bodies at the other funerals? Its not so much being there as touching a deceased body. So that would influence you tremendously.
the dream hallucination reminds me of a personal experience that was kind of similar. I had thousands of spiders crawling all over my walls and ceiling and floor. I just remember not being able to get up and leave the room. This happened in some weird transition from sleep to awake but, i was awake when I saw them. I remember being frozen in fear in my bed and I think i had to close my eyes and run out my door and i ended up staying outside my house for a hour because i thought some of the spiders followed me
I noticed that you seemed to almost recoil when you accidentally implied you prayed to God when you had your first hallucination. I'm curious what that was about? Is spirituality/religion triggering or difficult for you?
Danny Kansas most skitzos hate god because of these voices. its like they cant seem to see this all stems from rejecting god
Religion sets me off bad
Ted Is Dead God has zero to do with religion. Man made religion- God made man.
@@Itachi-du3jj trying to set me off huh you prick
Hey, I have been a fan of your videos for ages now and have been subscribed for a while. (I just added you on snapchat too by the way, I didnt know you had it! :D) You are an inspiration to everyone and have helped me so much. Thank you.
Do you are awesome keep it up!!
Lol You look so in love. Congrats
as vague as it sounds, you help me a lot. thank you for adding me back on snapchat today. stay frosty.
what cause all disease ? enviroment.
Demon spirits is the reason ,not genes. Only thing you can do is have faith in god and pray , but I doubt that because you seem offended by a god for some reason , you clearly have had signs of demon spirits but you still deny spirits and blame it on a mental disorder which I find baffling,
Fay Angel your an idiot he has a disease and your undermining all his struggle and hard life because of your obsession with god
Fay Angel you're correct, mental health issues are caused by black magic/demons, voices, hallucinations, mood swings, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety, psychosis... are all caused by black magic.
Thank you! Mom of 2 with "super powers" as we call it.😎
It's interesting that, with your first hallucination, you couldn't see the apparition when you put the blanket over your face. Is it same with other visual hallucinations you've had (i.e. when you look away or close your eyes, they disappear)?
So glad i just discovered your channel. My mother has schizophrenia and i had to deal with it my whole childhood. Worse, she was an extremely bad drug addict. I had to take care of my siblings until i was 15. Glad you're comfortable enough to show us your schizophrenia experience, i need to be a bit more educated on it.
I've just started to experience some kind of stuff like, I can see stuff that looks like ghosts and I can feel something or someone touching me or poking but there's nobody there. The other night I heard someone saying something (I forget what it was) but it wasn't nice and I told them to stop it but again there was nobody there. I'm starting to get a bit concerned because I've been having pains in my stomach for months and I've gone to the doctors about it which I'm currently on medication for but it's not helping much but I was thinking maybe these things could be something to do with my stomach or maybe it could be something like schizophrenia? I do believe in God so I'm thinking could it be a sign from God? I don't know maybe it's due to my stomach pains but it's starting to annoy me.
It's not a sign of God, get checked out, this is not normal.
Osoba thank you, I'll let my doc know about it next time I see him. I'm scared to tell my parents cuz they'll either be like "you've been like this all your life or stop moaning, you'll be fine" because my mum worries a lot and there's a lot of stuff she doesn't want to believe if I or somebody else is sick, when I was in bed last night a heard a child screaming as if it had been set on fire but my windows weren't open and there are no children in my house and my parents were in bed, then I woke up to the sound of an unfamiliar laugh and I said stop it but it wouldn't stop. I feel like I'm going crazy but I'm maybe not. Thank you for the advice. Schizophrenia literally just came up on my recommendations and the girl said most people in their early 20s get schizophrenia but I might not have it, it could be something else triggering this stuff, I don't like to self diagnose lol. I do have a few family members with deep depression, I don't have it though but my two aunt's and cousin have it and my mum had prenatal and postnatal depression but I don't think these signs are depression. Sorry if I'm talking jibberish, it is 8:50am over here so it's quite early for me.
(This is a bit of a long post.. Sorry about that) (There IS a TL:DR summary at the end.)
While I DO believe Schizophrenia IS definitely an illness, because it causes problems, I still believe that it's possible that your skewed thinking and perceptions could be giving you access to another plane of perception. One that is not meant for humans - or beings of our intelligence level. That our limited human brains, coupled with the "thought-problems" that occur with schizophrenia, just can't comprehend what we're perceiving and our brains manifest it using the concsciousness materials we have access to. Materials that just aren't sufficient.
So, yes... I think they ARE hallucinations. But where as a hallucination is something that isn't really there, and you just think it is - I think it's possible that what you are perceiving IS really there and it's just our brain's inability to process these things.
I find it's like the story Flatland. In that story, there was a Universe of aliens that existed in a 2-dimensional existence. The humans accessed this Universe and stole resources from these aliens, quite easily, by simply using our ability to exist in 3 dimensions. Something the 2D aliens couldn't imagine.
Then there was a sequel to this story, in which 4D aliens did the same to us. As much as us humans can mathematically talk about 4D, and we can mathematically express it ... I think it's just something that is literally beyond our mind's capacity to grasp.
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Schizophrenia is a perception of things that are beyond our brain's capacity to comprehend, and thusly our brain's reconcile these difficulties by manifesting what you're perceiving in the form of hallucinations and other problems in thinking and interacting.)***
But make no mistake, schizophrenic thinking IS a problem (despite anything I just said). It needs to be treated.
Anything that interferes with your ability to lead a happy, productive life needs to be treated/combatted/dealt with.
Something about your videos is very Zen. I think that we all need connection and the content here is totally authentic and human. It is clear that you connect with a lot of people of this channel. Definitely keep up the good work!
Makes a video titled "what caused my schizophrenia"
"I don't know what caused it"
dude you look like you're doing so so so much better! This is an amazing improvement. if you don't mind me asking what medication made you improve?
That hallucination you had when you were a young kid sounds like sleep paralysis/hypnagogic hallucination?
He was able to move, I have schizophrenia, and I have experienced sleep paralysis and I could not move
Is it really helpful to think of it as an illness? Shouldn't society learn to embrace the vast diversity of human experience instead?
TEM POK what are you a fucking hippie?
TEM POK If it's not a type of disease then what is it? From a scientific standpoint, it is an imbalance in the brain, typically passed down through genetics. Same goes for cancer or addiction. Those with mental illnesses are not simply "different" like an albino, they literally suffer on a day to day basis. These folks need help so that they may function in society and live a somewhat normal life. The human experience is being able to participate and achieve things, just like anybody else would.
Conway Rollo apparently the imbalance thing is made up and so are the genetic rates
I don't deny that people struggle but who's to say it can't be life for enhancing for some (if not many)?
TEM POK how can it be enhancing if they are struggling? A chain is as strong as its weakest link, it doesn't matter all the potential that such condition could imply if it in the same package are also such disadvantages. It's like giving you the most delicious fruit, but sewing your mouth at the same time.
To be honest with you, psychiatry as a whole is controversial so I kinda agree with you.
How has your diet been? I've found diet tremendously helps with most mental illnesses. In fact that a lot of mental illnesses drum down to not providing your brain the stuff that makes it work. And drugs of course ;)
Since this year started, I've started getting concerned if I have it or not. Most of my friends told me that I've been really quiet and acting weird. All the time at school, I hear conversations going on and I usually hear them saying my name over and over, which bothers me a whole lot. Some times, I can't help but think that most of the conversations and laughs going on are about me. I feel like the people are looking at me too when I walk past them. A week ago, I was at a restaurant and I noticed a couple in the corner of my eye looking at me and slightly laughing, then I could've sworn that one of them said, "don't ruin his life". I haven't told my parents about all this, but I just don't know what to do. I'm honestly really scared.
Perhaps you could meet with your doctor before talking to your parents. Or a pastor, or school counselor?
I have watched a few of your videos, and i like your story and how you explain to the people your experience with the illness, im studing psychology and this is really usefull for me to understand the subject, how do you feel, what happened, what do you think of it, your symptoms. I would like to say thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
no hate but you look like bryan silva
I just found your channel and I absolutely love you! I'm very interested in mental disorders and human psychology in general. Thank you for talking about your illness and being so open about it. It's interesting and fascinating and I love hearing it from someone who actually lives with it, and not just the textbook definition of what it is. Thank you for sharing your life with me!
I'm so happy for you, man! :-) I've had my own issues of a different form that felt like they ruled my life for years and years so extremely that I never wanted to be in relationships. Now things are getting better and I think finally accepting the issue for what it was and letting go of the thought that I have to be healed immediately really helped. Anyways, great video, as always. :-)
Glad that you found a nice girl who can relate to you
No though, I don't know who your girlfriend is
Wow that last part really touched my heart 😭💞
I have PTSD and my therapist told me I had "schizophrenic" tendencies because when I have flash backs (small ones) it's like the person(s) in my room. But after watching your videos I don't really think so. But your videos do give me a real good insight
I love your vids, it seems weird watching without your girl though like something's missing! Looking forward to seeing you both again XX
Your videos are really interesting. Thanks for sharing this.
You seem to be doing a bit better, but what can I tell from the outside. I wish you well, best of luck and much love to you:-)
i lost it at the vape nation lmao. hope youre doing better man. an old friend of mine has schizophrenia. its nice to get a clear window into the process, so thanks.
hey. you dont deserve to be bullied, you seem really nice. and educated. to be honest i think you'd be a really cool friend to have. and personally im sorry for all that you've had to go through. if you ever need another person to talk to, you can always contact me. I'd be honored to hear from you, seems like you have a lot of good things to say. Keep posting videos! keep being you!! believe it or not ive watched a couple of your updates in a row and even though i dont have necessarily the same alements as you do, just listening to you speak makes me feel more comfortable within myself :) glad to have discovered you through the viral chanels!!
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Your description of remembering childhood is strikingly similar to my memory of childhood some good times an a lot of bad times an lot of the bad times being caused by other people on my life a lot of dramatic crap. Shalom an God bless you brother.
What a beautiful message, it is clear that love cures all :)