I really appreciated the adoptee being open about his story as another adoptee. I wanted to say to him that you can release the adoption story, but you have to feel it all first. Feel the anger at the bio parents. Feel the disappointment and lack of gratefulness for the adoptive parents. Feel the dead hopes and dreams for a happy reunion. Whatever it is, feel it. Allow it. Admit it to yourself. Experience all the pain. And then it can be released. It works. Much love
25:38 this fine young man...i know what he feels but in a very different way. I come from a family where they had no time for me and i grew up wishing i was actually an orphan so i could imagine loving parents who had to forsake me for very good reasons... I now know, listening to him, abandonment IS abandonment... The lesson I learn is that my soul has to struggle till its able to get out of that narrative and keep moving on. I am 55, and battling this now as i am finally retired and have time to look back... I love your responses to him...out of clarity, compassion that comes from being able to do one's own inner work Suzanne ❤
Thank you for you videos Suzanne. Could you talk about your experience with terror and your experience of death? I have been having terror come up in cycles for the past year, when it comes it feels like if I don’t distract myself from it like all of existence will end and I will die, along with other feelings so intense at times it is hard to function in life. I am wondering if u have experienced this. No need to say anything, thank you anyways.
Oh so sorry to hear that. It does sound familiar. It makes sense why there may be distractions, it's not a bad thing... for sure, it can feel really difficult to function when feelings are that intense. You're not doing any wrong, there's probably an inability to supress anything and it can be really intense for a while. It doesn't last like that forever though. Take care of yourself the best you can but if it still doesn't work or ease how activated the body is, that's not really up to you... it can feel a bit out of control at times and that's kind of normal. It's kind of hard to answer these things through typing but hope it helps a little.
@ Yeah, it not the kind of thing that it feels like I can fix it. The kindness of responding is helpful. I just felt like reaching out at the moment I wrote it. I am taking care of my body the best I can. Thank you for the care and sharing. 🙏🏻
My brain is telling me that anticipation is everything for most beings. Positive or negative... and I realize that those are terms that don't relate to reality in a truly accurate way. Everything can be explained as anticipation. Infinitely. My brain is being nice to me. I hope that if you read this, that you're inspired to continue to live authentically.
maybe the biggest inhibitor of "self" expression is the fear that we would cause harm and not be able to love ourselves after it. but I would say there's a greater risk that not expressing yourself causes more harm.
Agreed. I think the persona is developed as a body protection/defense mechanism, like a shield or suit of armor. But then the persona begins to imagine it is the person or that it is real, and then the persona itself becomes threatened. In response, it puffs itself up bigger and avoids or lashes out at preceived threats. All the while it becomes the cruel master of the authentic inner being and prevents it from expressing itself (or prevents the person/body from acting directly from that level without the censorship of the cruel over-protective master/persona.)
The conditioning has a momentum. Not being self-honest and/or not taking responsibility for (re-)acting, based on the beliefs born of the conditioned patterns and structures of thought, preserve the momentum. It's all out front for one to see, but many prefer to remain unconscious to the mind's shenanigans, and remain ignorant of Peace and Freedom...clarity. The tragio-comedy of life is chock-full of such drama. Transcending and including can seem tiring and never-ending, but the energy released in the depths is immense, calling one closer to one's true nature.
My valuation of hierarchy is self evident, it is created by me, by my perspective, by my values, by my judgements. Sometimes society or friends, or acquaintances agree or disagree with me on this or that particular valuation by me. I find that my valuation is based off of an insubstantial qualification for a mythical better future. Hierarchy is a hedged bet for a better future. I value those things from the past that I wish to be carried forward into the future, and my valuation is a triage of my attention and effort. As I grow older, I grow more judgmental and this increase corresponds to a perceived lack of time to accomplish the mythical better future.
There is no way i was thinking about exactly this topic that you discuss in the first minutes for the last days over and over, because of my super judgemental boyfriend, even discussing it with my mother this evening😅 Thank you i resonate so much with this.
What do you think is going on in him that makes him super judgmental? I'm guessing he is super judgmental of himself and that this is an internalized response to feeling judged as unworthy or not good as a child.
@@brushstroke3733 yeah, maybe. But maybe it is Like Suzanne says at this Point, everyone judges, it's very automatic. I guess genetic also plays a role here? But yeah, your upbringing surely also plays a big part. (Sorry, english is not my native language)
He is judgemental because he buys into hierarchical thinking. He's been socialized to see himself as better because he's a man and his identity is tied up in putting "lesser" people down. I'm sorry you are going through that because it's harmful to you. You deserve to be treated with love and respect.
Thank you so much 💓 i wish I could afford to meet with you and to figure out tech to join. I have had some interesting experience AND I still suffer in isolation severe illnesses and shame 🫠 like im waiting out for my death in an,apartment im traumatized in...its disgusting and I have been housebound for yrs now.,sorry for the whiny rant...I love your channel 💔 heartbroken in Canada 🇨🇦
I feel I am in a similar state of mind, though fortunately without the health issues. I often feel like I'm just waiting for an end. But maybe we both have something transformative still coming that we can't yet see or feel. Maybe we're in a dark tunnel that we will come out of. Or we are the sky that is currently filled with dark clouds and storms yet will be clear again (and then cloudy again, anf then clear again, etc.) I hope peace finds you.
Those feelings (or though-forms) are kind of like language, they have to exist within you, for you to be able to perceive them in what you call the outside, they have no "reality" of their own.. If a baby were to look on a text it just sees scribbles that hold no inherent meaning, but an adult actually sees a meaning, a story, news, a compliment or an insult.. Objectively, in this example, the baby sees reality, and the adult sees collective imagined agreements that only exists in his or her mind. So as we grow you start to co-create those agreements with everyone around you, you start to see me and other, my toy his toy, and then we have whole systems in society to establish those delusions of higher than lower than, and create parameters for that, some kids get praise and more love and attention than others.. In what we can see, we do have different qualities, some have different types of intelligence, more symmetrical faces and bodies, more strength and resilience.. But all those qualities don't inherently carry within themselves the emotional charge of being higher or lower than anybody or any thing outside of you, it's just something that exists, until you co-created those emotionally charger concepts with others.. But it's not like that the people with a superiority complex have magical powers to force other to feel inferior, both sides are equally co-creators and player of the same game, as long as you believe in those objectively unreal concepts. Thank you for the talk❤.. Affirmations of realizations we already have within us goes a long way.
Its like the body goes through the story reflecting...the mind as well= like a sobering up from the illussion itself or dream= quiet a bit bittersweet taste. Awakening from a dream state= not a easy task at all= takes time 2 diguest...special when it truly felt bloody real= such a magic...sometimes u come even 2 a point...where all looks ,,bonkers"= all grazy...lol.
I’m interested to know Suzanne, do you think a person with this ‘perspective’ i.e. ‘enlightened, can have a meaningful relationship with someone who doesn’t hold the same view?
It’s not finding a person with the same “view” it’s more so of finding a person with an open energy. It’s more of like magnets attracting or repelling and it is instantaneous.
Yes, of course. All is possible in/as infinite potential. In fact, it may be the deepest sense of relationship. Imagine sitting 'across from' someone you sense the very core of yourself staring into your own eyes. What's not a miracle?
It probably depends on to what extent the feeling or idea of being enlightened has been co-opted by the persona/conceptual self. If you're all wrapped up in an "enlightened me", it probably won't work out so well no matter what views or perspective the other person or people have.
@@brushstroke3733 Yes, that is sometimes a problem with people mistaking woowoo experiences for enlightened detachment from ideation, mentation, and other spinning of the web of thought. Rather than 'go' into the core NOTHING to SEE where the roots of 'self' disappear in/as Consciousness, one usually prefers previous take credit for 'a realization' and give the structure a reboot and a polished shine. You see abusive 'teachers' doing the same thing, like, all the time. They are quick to couch such abuse as 'necessary ' in dealing with the aspirants' egos, while not having done the work themselves. But yeah, when dealing with one's own ego, there are some extremities that may/may not play out (i.e., it may have seemed 'necessary' at the time, but in hindsight, it looks ridiculous 🤣... wisdom can be a weird thang). Patterns of behaviour generally fray at the boundaries of their original respective intents, and I suppose that is why people 'can' end up in weird groups and/or relationships. After all, it is darkest before the dawn. Transcending such mind-made boundaries is what the search is all about. In the search, it is always 'Forward through the fog".... of mind.
Wanna be ,,heared" its simply the soul or heartmind language= not some= unusual= our origin language...bevor ,,language...the intellect" came 2 play...we spoke telephatically or from heart 2 heart. In this ,,Avatar...human social mind matrix dream" all is surpressed ...what was bevor soulish or heartful...therfore= was a inner heart cry. Thx 4 the beautyful opening...Truth and Love= beautyful...the Soul or divine Self= beautyful= like a wise old ancient child❤.Aum
I noticed that for you Suzanne the words are struggling to come out sometimes. Just seeing that is what i found out on myself. There's nothing to say. And sometimes there is. But its not important anymore
I would respect Hierarchy if it was organic and not forced upon... I come from a family with a very abusive and explosive parent. While i took their volatility as some pain they need to heal from, the rest of my family supported this dysfunction which in my mind caused more harm to my parent than truly heal them... Love your video, what you convey, how you convey...
The world is like a mass...mess dream...a masque theater show of maybe one and the same consciousness or subconsciosness or superconsciousness...lol...u always applause urself...❤😮
I really appreciated the adoptee being open about his story as another adoptee. I wanted to say to him that you can release the adoption story, but you have to feel it all first. Feel the anger at the bio parents. Feel the disappointment and lack of gratefulness for the adoptive parents. Feel the dead hopes and dreams for a happy reunion. Whatever it is, feel it. Allow it. Admit it to yourself. Experience all the pain. And then it can be released. It works. Much love
25:38 this fine young man...i know what he feels but in a very different way. I come from a family where they had no time for me and i grew up wishing i was actually an orphan so i could imagine loving parents who had to forsake me for very good reasons...
I now know, listening to him, abandonment IS abandonment...
The lesson I learn is that my soul has to struggle till its able to get out of that narrative and keep moving on. I am 55, and battling this now as i am finally retired and have time to look back...
I love your responses to him...out of clarity, compassion that comes from being able to do one's own inner work Suzanne ❤
Thank you for you videos Suzanne. Could you talk about your experience with terror and your experience of death? I have been having terror come up in cycles for the past year, when it comes it feels like if I don’t distract myself from it like all of existence will end and I will die, along with other feelings so intense at times it is hard to function in life. I am wondering if u have experienced this. No need to say anything, thank you anyways.
Oh so sorry to hear that. It does sound familiar. It makes sense why there may be distractions, it's not a bad thing... for sure, it can feel really difficult to function when feelings are that intense. You're not doing any wrong, there's probably an inability to supress anything and it can be really intense for a while. It doesn't last like that forever though. Take care of yourself the best you can but if it still doesn't work or ease how activated the body is, that's not really up to you... it can feel a bit out of control at times and that's kind of normal. It's kind of hard to answer these things through typing but hope it helps a little.
@ Yeah, it not the kind of thing that it feels like I can fix it. The kindness of responding is helpful. I just felt like reaching out at the moment I wrote it. I am taking care of my body the best I can. Thank you for the care and sharing. 🙏🏻
Emanating from clarity..that's Suzanne. How refreshing!
My brain is telling me that anticipation is everything for most beings. Positive or negative... and I realize that those are terms that don't relate to reality in a truly accurate way. Everything can be explained as anticipation. Infinitely. My brain is being nice to me. I hope that if you read this, that you're inspired to continue to live authentically.
Thanks!
Thank you for supporting our friend financially!
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maybe the biggest inhibitor of "self" expression is the fear that we would cause harm and not be able to love ourselves after it. but I would say there's a greater risk that not expressing yourself causes more harm.
Agreed. I think the persona is developed as a body protection/defense mechanism, like a shield or suit of armor. But then the persona begins to imagine it is the person or that it is real, and then the persona itself becomes threatened. In response, it puffs itself up bigger and avoids or lashes out at preceived threats. All the while it becomes the cruel master of the authentic inner being and prevents it from expressing itself (or prevents the person/body from acting directly from that level without the censorship of the cruel over-protective master/persona.)
@@brushstroke3733big yes but it's very hard to overcome this, at least for me
Very glad with this all, regardless of emotion and my narrative. Amen brothers and sisters
Suzanne I love your content 💓 just had to share it.
The conditioning has a momentum. Not being self-honest and/or not taking responsibility for (re-)acting, based on the beliefs born of the conditioned patterns and structures of thought, preserve the momentum. It's all out front for one to see, but many prefer to remain unconscious to the mind's shenanigans, and remain ignorant of Peace and Freedom...clarity. The tragio-comedy of life is chock-full of such drama. Transcending and including can seem tiring and never-ending, but the energy released in the depths is immense, calling one closer to one's true nature.
Down to the core
My valuation of hierarchy is self evident, it is created by me, by my perspective, by my values, by my judgements. Sometimes society or friends, or acquaintances agree or disagree with me on this or that particular valuation by me. I find that my valuation is based off of an insubstantial qualification for a mythical better future. Hierarchy is a hedged bet for a better future. I value those things from the past that I wish to be carried forward into the future, and my valuation is a triage of my attention and effort. As I grow older, I grow more judgmental and this increase corresponds to a perceived lack of time to accomplish the mythical better future.
There is no way i was thinking about exactly this topic that you discuss in the first minutes for the last days over and over, because of my super judgemental boyfriend, even discussing it with my mother this evening😅
Thank you i resonate so much with this.
What do you think is going on in him that makes him super judgmental? I'm guessing he is super judgmental of himself and that this is an internalized response to feeling judged as unworthy or not good as a child.
@@brushstroke3733 yeah, maybe. But maybe it is Like Suzanne says at this Point, everyone judges, it's very automatic. I guess genetic also plays a role here? But yeah, your upbringing surely also plays a big part. (Sorry, english is not my native language)
He is judgemental because he buys into hierarchical thinking. He's been socialized to see himself as better because he's a man and his identity is tied up in putting "lesser" people down.
I'm sorry you are going through that because it's harmful to you. You deserve to be treated with love and respect.
Thank you so much 💓 i wish I could afford to meet with you and to figure out tech to join. I have had some interesting experience AND I still suffer in isolation severe illnesses and shame 🫠 like im waiting out for my death in an,apartment im traumatized in...its disgusting and I have been housebound for yrs now.,sorry for the whiny rant...I love your channel 💔 heartbroken in Canada 🇨🇦
I feel I am in a similar state of mind, though fortunately without the health issues. I often feel like I'm just waiting for an end. But maybe we both have something transformative still coming that we can't yet see or feel. Maybe we're in a dark tunnel that we will come out of. Or we are the sky that is currently filled with dark clouds and storms yet will be clear again (and then cloudy again, anf then clear again, etc.) I hope peace finds you.
Sounds really tough for you. 😢😘
Whiney rant possibly also has its place...❤
It's tough, so tough at times...
My only solace is that the darkness ebbs and flows...
I know you don’t make art anymore but I genuinely enjoyed looking at your work on your Instagram.
I would also like to see this art... 👀❤
And know the instagram's username
@@lucymae9919 it’s just her first and last name on Instagram
Those feelings (or though-forms) are kind of like language, they have to exist within you, for you to be able to perceive them in what you call the outside, they have no "reality" of their own.. If a baby were to look on a text it just sees scribbles that hold no inherent meaning, but an adult actually sees a meaning, a story, news, a compliment or an insult.. Objectively, in this example, the baby sees reality, and the adult sees collective imagined agreements that only exists in his or her mind.
So as we grow you start to co-create those agreements with everyone around you, you start to see me and other, my toy his toy, and then we have whole systems in society to establish those delusions of higher than lower than, and create parameters for that, some kids get praise and more love and attention than others..
In what we can see, we do have different qualities, some have different types of intelligence, more symmetrical faces and bodies, more strength and resilience.. But all those qualities don't inherently carry within themselves the emotional charge of being higher or lower than anybody or any thing outside of you, it's just something that exists, until you co-created those emotionally charger concepts with others..
But it's not like that the people with a superiority complex have magical powers to force other to feel inferior, both sides are equally co-creators and player of the same game, as long as you believe in those objectively unreal concepts.
Thank you for the talk❤.. Affirmations of realizations we already have within us goes a long way.
Its like the body goes through the story reflecting...the mind as well= like a sobering up from the illussion itself or dream= quiet a bit bittersweet taste. Awakening from a dream state= not a easy task at all= takes time 2 diguest...special when it truly felt bloody real= such a magic...sometimes u come even 2 a point...where all looks ,,bonkers"= all grazy...lol.
For now it's a feeling of not being able to get any traction, what exactly that means I don't know but that's the feeling, very frustrating
Kuen shen asks: :what is the true meaning of dharma" Hsueh Tau replies, "nonsense!!" -Blue Cliff Record
Absolutely
I’m interested to know Suzanne, do you think a person with this ‘perspective’ i.e. ‘enlightened, can have a meaningful relationship with someone who doesn’t hold the same view?
It’s not finding a person with the same “view” it’s more so of finding a person with an open energy. It’s more of like magnets attracting or repelling and it is instantaneous.
Yes, of course. All is possible in/as infinite potential. In fact, it may be the deepest sense of relationship. Imagine sitting 'across from' someone you sense the very core of yourself staring into your own eyes. What's not a miracle?
It probably depends on to what extent the feeling or idea of being enlightened has been co-opted by the persona/conceptual self. If you're all wrapped up in an "enlightened me", it probably won't work out so well no matter what views or perspective the other person or people have.
@@brushstroke3733 Yes, that is sometimes a problem with people mistaking woowoo experiences for enlightened detachment from ideation, mentation, and other spinning of the web of thought. Rather than 'go' into the core NOTHING to SEE where the roots of 'self' disappear in/as Consciousness, one usually prefers previous take credit for 'a realization' and give the structure a reboot and a polished shine. You see abusive 'teachers' doing the same thing, like, all the time. They are quick to couch such abuse as 'necessary ' in dealing with the aspirants' egos, while not having done the work themselves. But yeah, when dealing with one's own ego, there are some extremities that may/may not play out (i.e., it may have seemed 'necessary' at the time, but in hindsight, it looks ridiculous 🤣... wisdom can be a weird thang). Patterns of behaviour generally fray at the boundaries of their original respective intents, and I suppose that is why people 'can' end up in weird groups and/or relationships. After all, it is darkest before the dawn. Transcending such mind-made boundaries is what the search is all about. In the search, it is always 'Forward through the fog".... of mind.
Yes, perfectly possible.
Wanna be ,,heared" its simply the soul or heartmind language= not some= unusual= our origin language...bevor ,,language...the intellect" came 2 play...we spoke telephatically or from heart 2 heart. In this ,,Avatar...human social mind matrix dream" all is surpressed ...what was bevor soulish or heartful...therfore= was a inner heart cry.
Thx 4 the beautyful opening...Truth and Love= beautyful...the Soul or divine Self= beautyful= like a wise old ancient child❤.Aum
I noticed that for you Suzanne the words are struggling to come out sometimes. Just seeing that is what i found out on myself. There's nothing to say. And sometimes there is. But its not important anymore
I would respect Hierarchy if it was organic and not forced upon...
I come from a family with a very abusive and explosive parent.
While i took their volatility as some pain they need to heal from, the rest of my family supported this dysfunction which in my mind caused more harm to my parent than truly heal them...
Love your video, what you convey, how you convey...
The body needs noo advice! Waaaaa!!
🌗🪞🌓
The world is like a mass...mess dream...a masque theater show of maybe one and the same consciousness or subconsciosness or superconsciousness...lol...u always applause urself...❤😮
Did you die as a person Suzzane?
It's a figurative analogy I think...
Wake up! Respect is a hierarchy.
I feel no respect for a psychopath.