the stats about what percentage of your collection was “free” so to speak or acquired through your work and the fact that it seems “unrelatable” is good for a lot of beauty youtube viewers to hear because there are so many complaints about big youtubers being unrelatable. hearing you talk about how your collection has changed due to your work shows that how in doing the work that viewers appreciate, you inherently become less “relatable” and that’s just the way the world turns. relatability is so subjective to begin with, and i think transparency is so much more interesting and important. thanks for being transparent and vulnerable and awesome!
Relatable, to me at least, isn't so much to do with seeing my own exact life reflected in that of a content creator. I relate to you because of your taste and because of your ability to observe, analyse and report back to us with kindness and humour about the interesting messiness of your particular life, which has many parallels with my own, but is not exactly the same. How could it be? Why would I want it to be? I'm so glad to hear that you're expanding your roads into self-compassion, especially now, and finding the yardsticks that make sense for you ❤️
Thank you for staying with this project and us even through this time! And please feel free to promote your patreon, because I only remembered to subscribe after you mentioned it in the intro. I’m definitely not the only one with short memory and a sense of gratitude for the work you do in dismantling consumerism in your own way. ❤️
Its interesting, because we talk about fantasy self a lot as though it is a pure negative and a striving to be something we are not. But I've always heard you say something like, "some percentage of this is actual me, who I am and who I intend to be, but I get in trouble when I feel like 300% percent of this (and only this) is who I have to be RIGHT NOW and if I am not that RIGHT NOW, I should be ashamed and see myself as not enough. But over time, you seem to (even in this video), said yes, an adult home makes real me happy, but not more happy than all the other things I just listed, and so I can press pause on it and still feel enough. which to me feels like balance and a very "adult" sense that life has many seasons.
Joined your Patreon dear, I surely hope we all can come back to a somewhat normal life somewhat soon and that you and Joe have the chance to keep the studio!
“I feel like it’s a natural style rather than a performance.” Oof, I felt that. I feel like a lot of the time I’m putting on clothes/makeup/accessories because I want others to feel a certain way about me, not because I want to feel a certain way about myself. Or rather, because I think that others feeling a certain way about me will make me feel a certain way about myself. I’m not a kind reader though, so it would only be my best guess at what they think of me. It’s kind of stupid that I feel like my self-worth comes from an opinion that I made up in my own head for someone else.
When you talked about feeling bad about having a lot of makeup partially because it reminded you of a time when buying makeup meant financial anxiety (if I understood you correctly), it reminded me of a comparable experience I have had. A few years ago when I was unemployed and mentally unwell I struggled every day to get out of bed, and would usually not get up until the afternoon. I would feel so guilty because the entire day slipped away, so I would lay in bed feeling abysmally tired and desperately try to wake up. I think I conditioned myself to associate that half awake morning state with anxiety, because now when I am in a better situation I still find myself waking up feeling anxious and guilty that I did not get up sooner, even if it is a decent time of day. It sounds like it is a similar thing for you where a feeling that was a kind of coping mechanism still lingers even when the situation that started it is no longer true.
I relate SO strongly about the “lingering association of the morning state with anxiety” feeling! Any time I sleep in or linger in bed, even if it’s just a half hour on the weekend when I don’t have an official wake-up time at all, I feel so guilty. My husband has to remind me that it’s actually good sometimes to indulge in a little extra sleep. (Having a ‘normie’ in the house who can help me calibrate and figure out what’s totally fine and normal, actually, is so helpful.) I’m hopeful that over time, those associations will start to fade.
I suppose the only question I had after watching this was that if you weren't on UA-cam, do you think after your no-buy year, without this potential stream of revenue and PR, that you would have indulged yourself still in regards to makeup? Do you think all of this would have ultimately been as effective as it was doing it on UA-cam and getting the perks of PR? I know your statistics and what they mean for you, but I can't imagine a world where you wouldn't have indulged yourself in some capacity (because I, even as a disabled woman, indulge myself as I can, with a NYX lipstick or by saving up for months for those Clionadh shadows I adore- whether it be with saved up gift cards or the money I have saved and saved for hobbies.), even if it'd be much less of an influx as it with you receiving PR. I suppose your recent project with the minimal maximalist makeup collection could answer my question. xD Do you think, given everything, you'd have been able to hold yourself to restrain yourself if you didn't have the circumstances you are in currently, with your platform? Other than that, I fully understand what you're saying- I'm glad you're meditating and finding ways to soothe the sting of these more than trying times. I'm happy that you have a support system via your family and subscribers, and that though it could seem like everything is falling apart via the collapse of a fantasy to chase, you've found what's truly important to you. That's the ultimate truth one could seek. ^-^
So glad I found your channel! 😍 What a balanced approach and refreshing! I have been labeling my makeup with a permanent marker with the date I started using it and whether or not it was free. It encourages me to keep giving love to my older products before they expire and if I declutter something I can remember if it was free and feel less guilty about clearing them out of my collection. I don’t have to torture myself by forcing myself to finish up a concealer that didn’t work for me if it was free. And I can focus on using up a concealer that did work well for me
I love your check-in videos so much. They are always full of insights that I can use to think about my own goals and desires and relationship with beautiful things. Also, I’ve been in a really, really bad headspace for the last couple of weeks and your video helped me find the words and ideas to articulate what’s been bothering me. Being able to put it in words lifted my spirits so much and now I’m feeling really good for the first tine in a while. Thank you so much for being you Hannah. Your channel continues to bring joy and insight to my life. Sending love and light to you, Joe, and Sadie 💕
you are the only youtuber that is so relatable about fashion and our psychological reasons for consumption for a regular American woman. Thank you so much for helping me on my journey to mental freedom from the constant care of trying perfect my fantasy self! And thank you for your honesty about finances!
In relation to letting the house evolve, I feel you. We took the laundry room cabinets down to paint and renovate the room at least 6 weeks ago. The cabinets have been living in the entry way and living room. I was totally skeezed by their presence for the first 3 weeks. But now one of them holds my cup of coffee and phone as I let dogs out as we go outside for our morning coffee. I appreciate that cabinet now. Time has changed things.
Your mention of wabi-sabi reminded me of kintsukuroi, where broken pottery is fixed with gold. "Understanding the piece is more beautiful for having been broken," part of the definition of this art style, seems applicable to people as well--that we are more beautiful in our imperfections. The mending of our souls adds more beauty than if we had always been whole.
This is one of my favorite check-ins ever. It makes me so happy to see you evolve and grow 💕🌱 And thank you for the reminder to "take my vitamins", so to speak. A lot of my self care (except taking my actual vitamins, funnily enough) pretty much went out the window when the lockdown started, and I couldn't go to the gym. It's like that one change in my life just started a domino-effect and I didn't really have the energy or the mental space to prevent those good habits from falling away, or to try to establish alternative ones. But I do feel like a bit of energy and space is returning, so I think it's time to dip my toe back into some exercise and meditation 🙏🏻
I wonder if it’s possible for you to do a full face using the 64 products (assuming some are brushes/tools). Would love to see a video on that and your thoughts on whether you could live with only those 64 items if you hadn’t received the PR/gifts? Such a fascinating concept
I feel I’ve been in my own land because I didn’t know you were on patreon! I’m so excited to join!! I think you’re the epitome of why patreon exists- you put so much time and energy and thought and passion into your channel but you’re still living your life, working, and surviving like many of us. I run a tiny boutique and the way you spoke about your patrons is the exact way I feel about my customers, which has only been amplified in recent times.
I am in love with your personal progress and the mix of universal and personal feelings and thoughts. I am always having trouble expressing my gratitude towards you but just know that I am rooting for you always ❤ Also I love that you desire beautiful things like your collection and can have it because of UA-cam. I have always felt so happy for you😁
What i can see that you are still in love with makeup/ fashion so you are feeling lucky to have pr. You don t want to curate and have a small use it and finish collection. You are interesting in makeup as a hobby. Nothing wrong with that if you are accepting this hobby as something you like and are willing to invest at the potential of choosing it over other stuff( vacation jewelerry more savings etc) . If you are budgeting and are fine with the amount of money i don t thing it s a problem. It s something that brings you joy you aee entitled to use your money as you want. The pr is just additional fun. While you like to experiment and review and don t feel that pr can send your finance habbits into a black hole ( because it triggers spending on the same level as the free stuff just because you get uses to it) you do you. :) The purpose of life is to be happy not to live in a way that dictated by anyone. Do what brings you joy!
I always come away from your videos with SO MANY THOUGHTS. I love your check ins, Hannah. Thanks for sharing all of that with us. I found it really interesting how the underlying cause of your feeling that you had "too much" was your association of it with how much money you had spent. I think this is a feeling a lot of people struggle with, and maybe for the same reasons, but I think some of it, too, might be that minimalism, decluttering, and the idea of "too much stuff" has really permeated American culture as we urbanize and have to move into smaller and smaller spaces. Through a large chain of social dynamics that I won't bore you with listing cause I'm sure you know them (lol), that larger phenomenon manifests in the beauty space into this really intense moralizing about having "too much makeup." Both moralizing ourselves and also the content creators that we watch. So I wonder how much of it is that for you as well, that the idea of "too much stuff" for you is that association of having been ruining your life before, but also a combination of this larger phenomenon in the world that women feel the pressure of very acutely-and perfectionists like us feel like we need to actuate on. At least that's been a journey I've been on since last year, haha. Just letting go of this idea of that "too much stuff" is an actual thing (for me, it's not) and only focusing on whether or not I'm enjoying and am positioned to appreciate the stuff that I have. Anyway, I too let my clauses get away from me, so I will leave it there. Thanks again for making this, Hannah, and I hope you're hanging in there.
Microcosm! It’s the perfect word for what you were trying to describe. It means a small analog for a larger situation. It’s one of my favorite words lol
I think you’re talking about the sunk cost fallacy. Sure, you don’t want to get rid of items that have some sort of value, but the money was already spent. The cost of the item has already been borne - by you or whoever sent it to you and you shouldn’t take its cost into consideration of whether to keep or discard it.
I have been having such a hard time sleeping. Last night I listened to Stephen Fry read a 'sleep story' on my Calm app, and it helped me turn off my brain and relaxed me so much! Now I just need to use it to help me meditate - I'm not quite there yet.
You look so beautiful in this video and your spirit seems lighter, like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders. I love that mantra and I’m going to start using it, too. Thank you. 😊
Feel you on the adult home vibes. I love that minimalist white and clean look but I have a kid and a small house with not enough storage solutions at the moment, and we are a cluttery people so I’ve had to let go of that dream for now lol. As long as everything is in its place, doesn’t matter. even if it looks cluttery with the cat boxes and water fountain in seemingly random spots and the game systems littering the tv stand and the sewing machine and associated junk all over the computer desk and the playdoh bin shoved under the side table that kid’s art storage tower sits on, it’s functional and clean.
I struggle with my purchases, I continue to buy stuff that I don't really need but want. If there is a gift with purchase I am always looking to see if there's is something I need so I can buy it to get the free gift. This pandemic has been a real eye opener for everyone. Have that 6 month emergency fund. Do not acquire credit card debt and live within your means. Would love to see you do a budget video. Love the way you analyze each detail & how in-depth you are. Keep up the good work, and be grateful for good health, happiness, love, family, faith, inner peace, outer peace and abundance. Much love & prayers sent your way.
This video makes me so happy for you. You have worked so, so hard to earn the ability to have PR, to be gifted makeup by companies and friends due to your work on this platform. I’m so glad you’re able to celebrate the fact that your abundance comes from hard work, not overspending. You have changed so much, and brought so many of us with you on your journey and changed us for the better as well. I hope you’ll consider what you have as a visible reminder of all you’ve accomplished.
I think your awareness of the change in situation and circumstance you've reflected on in this video is something many could relate to, including myself. While I haven't become a UA-camr I have had changes in career and life which have definitely impacted what I have, the type of things I have, what I've wanted to have and my view of things from previous times of life. For a long time I had real trouble letting go of things from a previous career in teaching. It took time for me to work that out and to sort through my feelings of guilt, sadness and failure about not staying in that field, and also realise that those were not feelings that I needed to have or hold on to. Once I had worked through that I was able to let go of so many things that I just wasn't going to use any more and were just reminding me of those negative feelings. Thanks again for how you've articulated this part of your journey Hannah.
I feel like this quarantine has allowed my partner and I to become even better teammates than we were before. We’ve had some tough conversations, talked about the future, and gotten tons of honey-do projects done. He’s even shown up on my beauty IG a couple times I’m pro gratitude of my partnership right now. Giiiiiiirl fantasy self. I’ve found myself planner/sticker shopping which was an old hobby of mine that I let go of in favor of bullet journaling. Luckily I stopped that one before the $100-200 purchase. The “makeup minimalism” challenge I did with my makeup has helped with the fantasy self too. Honestly, the thing that has helped the most to let that fantasy beyotch go, is having a future financial goal. I have a different kind of fantasy that will cost several thousand dollars in the future.... and I don’t want to spend money on stickers and planners and makeup now. I want to save that money for the future!!
Everyone’s perfect collection is different. It depends on your life style, skill set, & all kind of things. If you can use it before it goes bad, then it is the right size for you. My size of my collection wasn’t about what I spent. It was getting it to a size that I can use before it expires. It took four or five declutters to get there. Most of my makeup was relatively new. I’m embarrassed that I purchased that much makeup. I got rid of good makeup. It was just so similar to things that I already had & I was attracted to the big sale.
Hannah, you’re a small business owner so you probably already know: but i would try applying for the PPP through a smaller financial institution rather than a large bank. you get $1000 for every employee you keep on payroll (so you and Joe) and it applies even if your business is just you!!! best of luck to you with all of the financial mess during this time 💗
I wish I could just know what I'll be thinking about on my deathbed. Your videos are so relatable ie the things we hyperfocus on or overanalyze. If I knew I wouldn't regret these things, I think I would just indulge in them even more. If I knew I would regret it, I would turn into a hermit weirdo who really didn't care what I looked like.
I’m really feeling that distinction between actual self care vs. superficial self care during the pandemic. I do think it’s been really clarifying for me in terms of the things that matter! Edited: this is so great, I was nodding along the whole time
I feel like the link between self-care practices and how I feel and behave over the course of a day has become crystal clear during this time. In the Before Times, there were so many distractions and variables that it was more obscure, or maybe just easier for me to pull the wool over my own eyes; easier to miss or ignore the impact that choosing not to exercise/eat right/reflect for a while had on me. Now, with life so totally pared down, it’s impossible to miss the direct link between, for instance, how my body feels and what kind of movement I’ve been doing, or how my mood and behavior changes depending on how attentive I’ve been to my prayer life and journaling practice. I’m definitely hoping that this epiphany sticks with me for the long haul, once the distractions and variables kick back in.
I'm so glad to hear that you have eased up on yourself. You seem happier & lighter. As if a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders, and happiness during these trying times isnt an easy thing to achieve. Kudos to you 🤗
Happy to support you in a small way through Patreon and glad that all the small support is adding up to carry you a little ways down the road. Perhaps exiling part of your collection was a good way of detaching it from you and gave you the space to see it more clearly and to appreciate it for what it is rather than how much it is worth, what you could had with the money it’s worth etc. Separating it from your daily life visually and physically has been really interesting!
I really appreciate that you show your life in all it's "imperfect" glory. This is the reality for many of us during this strange time...we've had to convert our "perfectly" curated spaces into jack-of-all-trades either because we're working from home and/or because we're sharing said spaces with other people also working from home. Personally, I prefer/like when things aren't too polished--I begin to feel some kind of way when things get that cookie-cutter (what I like to call the "guru-cutter") look. BTW, I miss seeing the little Fairy doll.
It’s so strange how lockdown has affected every aspect of our lives, in some cases there have been some real positives, as with your year of less stuff. For me, it’s made me realise that every little thing that goes wrong isn’t a trauma, and to take everything one step at a time. Thank you for this video, your thoughts really help me coalesce mine ❤️
You look great! The hair, the earrings, the eye look ✨ I hope and pray that Poema survives this 🙏 Things are just so weird right now for everyone but it sounds like you are finding excellent ways to care for yourself and I'm glad you and Joe and Sadie are okay. ❤ I think to myself that we're kindred spirits every time I watch one of your check-ins, but this one! There are things that have become more important and less important to me right now that are very similar to yours: giving up control, being present in the moment, caring for myself and giving up the idea of my "fantasy self." The thing I've been doing lately that's helped with all those things is gardening! At the end of last month I decided that I was going to start a small garden from seed, which is something I've never done before. I am now the proud "mom" of several different kinds of seedlings and I am learning so much watching them grow each day. I can't control them, I have to care for them day by day, I have to wait for a while to get food from them and it's a messy process...but most importantly, they give me joy! I swear, it's been YEARS since I've been so excited about something (my poor husband, I'm a broken record about these plants lol) and I realized I need to give myself permission to feel positive emotions in the midst of the doom and gloom. Coincidentally, those precious seedlings also giving me something to look forward to that isn't getting my hands on a shiny, new beauty item and, hopefully, I'll be saving money on veggies this summer. 🌿💚
YES to the garden! that is so wonderful! I gardened for a few years when we lived in Michigan, and I do miss it. My mom is a huge gardener, too, and it's how she's been spending a lot of her time in quarantine.
I hope Poema survives for you! I've just bought five pieces. I've been eyeing it for so long, planning to acquire it slowly, but it might not be there anymore! I have a protected income in the medical field, so I don't feel so bad digging into my wallet to help out a struggling first world fashion business. Yeah, I'm wearing scrubs to work and dance wear or PJ's around the house. So the Poema will get a chance to be worn; while my sequin and velvet gowns and french silk opera gloves I got for the ballet and formals right before covid hit are just decorating my bedroom with their loveliness and gathering dust for now. I know I have too many clothes, but my personal style keeps evolving fast. As for my fantasy self, I have to figure out why I keep buying office professional wear; when I wear scrubs to work and I am years away from needing a wardrobe of professional clothes beyond a couple of suits. I'm not a third year med student! I'm a premed with a Masters. How can I crack that nut?
Love this video. Hair tutorial please- love this look so much. I’m so glad you are doing so well and the makeup revelations are so wonderful. What growth and improvement.
Unfortunately my second feeling is accurate, I spent like 700 pounds on makeup last year. I love my makeup and it was great to learn what I liked and what makes me happy. But that seems like a high price tag :/
Your eye makeup is just perfect today :) and all the look is fierce. I feel the same related to our home. We have installed an extra office now with working from home both of us so now two ugly but necessary comfy office chairs and huge desks to accomodate our big monitors ( we both in it, we need those screens) . Plus i ve bought a rower which is true sef care but is also in our living room. But the thing is leaning in the temporarity of this all and doing what s best for us now. When i work at my comfortable desk on which i can fit my monitor , two laptops agenda and also a candle that s real self care not having a sleek unfunctional home
One of the things that have helped me distract my ever busy mind is that I have been playing the 30 day minimalist game! It has helped me not only declutter and spring cleaning, but also to feel a weight lifted off of my shoulders! ❤️
I think that what growth you have gone through during these last three and a almost a half years has prepared you for what you are experiencing now. It has been a process. Your inner growth and the whittling away of the chaff and parts of your nature that you felt needed work have been done. Not that things are finished, we all continue to grow until we die. This time is a reflection of how we deal with things or dealt with them in the past and how we can deal with them now. Things have changed since the last of the no buy year, you didn't want to receive but just a small portion of promo. Now it is a big part of your make up. But you are an influencer so take comfort in the term. This is your job. We your Hannahites look forward to seeing you almost every day. Your time of self discover becomes our self discovery.
I never heared of wabi sabi. It sounds like something that I am slowly realizing while I try and love to perfect things. Thank you for all your thoughts and introducing this concept to me. Btw I want to tell something, that I find very funny. I almost never wear make up. I don't hate it, but sleeping 5min longer is just more important to me ;) Nevertheless I watch all of your videos and enjoy them very much. The way you reflect about life and your belongings for me is detached from the fact that you happen to talk about make up. I still recognize and enjoy, that you perform art on your face as I am an esthete.
I don't really agree with patreon because when we watch a youtube video we are already paying a price which is watching the ads. There is even some studies saying that we actually spend real money by watching youtube due to being influenced by those ads. However, I also don't agree with youtubers being underpaid. Would it be a silly idea if content creators of youtube created an union? In order to demand better pay per ads or even other social benefits?
I actually remember seeing a video on this a while back, maybe nerd city? It talked briefly about youtubers in the EU trying to unionize but I haven't seen anything about it since. Even then I don't know how it would effect creators outside of the EU. I'm also not a lover of patreon because for most people I think patronizing more than a couple of thier favorites would be unrealistic. That being said creators definitely deserve to be paid for thier work so it's a bit of a quandary.
Unfortunately, You Tube is wholly unique, an entity unto itself, & unlike other workplaces...even when comparing it to global conglomerates, w/hubs all around the world. Individual creators are just that, millions(?) of people who live everywhere (globally) & congregate here to post, but who have no centralized connection. There are such things as YT "networks", where you get agent representation, wider exposure, & other assorted perks. However, the network system is fraught w/its own problems & inadequacies (e.g. they take a % of what the creator earns, above YT's cut, while oftentimes conferring little of real value to smaller creators, etc.). There have been creators who have banded together more formally, to encourage "YT strikes" (asking their viewers not to watch & creators not to post, on certain dates) & some sort of unionization...But these actions haven't been successful thus far. At this time, I think Patreon is an imperfect solution, but it's the only avenue available for many creators. Especially for those with smaller/growing channels, or who almost exclusively deal in provocative (read HIGHLY demonitizable) content...think ContraPoints, Philosophy Tube, etc. YT also has a history of disproportionately demonitizing channels w/creators who focus upon the rights & experiences of LGBTQIA+ individuals & their community, women, POC, WOC, etc. In all these cases, Patreon offers an avenue for new & different voices to survive on YT. I will be joining Hannah's Patreon when I can, as I've been spending my "leisure money" on charitable donations, & will continue to do so for the foreseeable future. Frankly, I wish Hannah would either livestream & collect one-time Superchat "channel donations/support" or post VenMo or PayPal account links, for one-time donations to be made. Many of my favorite creators are doing this now, esp. b/c YT takes 30% of any livestream revenue. Many people, myself included, simply prefer making one-time donations when we can, rather than monthly patronage. TL/DR: Until alternatives to YT become viable (whether Twitch, Patreon, Tik Tok, or something else altogether), Patreon will be one of the ways the creators we cherish survive. Smaller creators simply don't have as vast an income stream to pull from, nor as many alternative revenue sources aside from YT adverts (e.g. collabs, brand deals/ambassadorships/sponsorships, referral/affiliate codes, merch, etc.).
Have to say that I love that you can already support with 1 dollar! If half of you’re subscribers donate 1 dollar it will be a lot more easy on you. And wow, I need to watch 200 videos for you the receive 1 dollar 😱. So I will ad least go for the 1 dollar support, but because I don’t now anything about patriot therefore I have a question. If possible I would like to help a bit more during this time, but if necessary it’s nice to now that I can lower the amount or if it’s getting really bad and I have to stop helping I can stop the patriot subscription. Thanks! Lot of love, esmeralda
Just before this whole situation I got the diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder. One of the main things that I struggle with is change, especially uncontrollable change. This worldwide lockdown is THE situation that tests all my tricks and abilities to deal with that part of myself. It's weird to both have a perfectionist that tells me to "deal with it and work" while also having a self-loving part that understands that this is especially hard for me and urges me to not be as hard on myself. Your evolution, while having a different cause, seems to follow a similar trajectory as mine. It's really inspiring and helps me verbalize why I'm struggling.
Thanks for your check in Videos, I enjoy them a lot! Wish you all the best and hope that we can go back to „a part of normal „ as soon as possible, but in a save way
The wabi-sabi bit you said towards the end of the video made me think of some spiritual teachings I subscribe to also say something similar: " can't get it wrong, never get it done" .I too have a hard time grasping it & allowing it.
I agree that I am working on some things, like with planning for groceries and meals, not buying as much random stuff (both for saving money but also because I can't return items like clothes in the wrong size/etc.). It would be cool to set up a Zoom with my family, especially my sibling's family. Maybe I can push for that.
I did a huge declutter a few years ago. Everyone said when you get down to the right amount of 'things' it will just click and feel right. While I think there is a lot of wisdom in that I still struggled with feelings of overwhelm with what I still had. When I looked at each item individually I knew my life would be less enjoyable/rich without it. I ended up just needing time to sit and adjust. ❤️
I just cancelled some memberships I don't actually use and subscribed to be a patron of yours at Patreon. I'm not really sure how this works. Is there a seperate app or do we just get an email when there is new content available?
I feel that I can confidently say that I dress and make my face up in a way that comes natural to me and that is mine. I think my makeup style is much more interesting than my clothing style though. Maybe it's why I like my makeup a little more bold and colorful than the typical lady does. I think it makes sense for you to clarify to yourself where the abundance from your collection is coming from. I think it's why I hated looking at mine for so long. I was in debt and spent in an "all bets are off" sort of way on make up and ultimately i wasnt proud of it. It helps me now that i am working to pay it of AND frivolous spending in other areas of my life has gone down. I've quit smoking and drinking energy drinks. I used to spend double what I would spend on makeup a month in those two things alone. So with my spending being more under control I don't feel guilty looking at the stuff I've been spending my money on. I think it also helps that I've made an effort not to fixate on shopping for makeup. I think I recognize that fixating on shopping for makeup is unhealthy and that makes me feel bad too when I over do it on that.
Another great inspiring video. Your video blended together with stuff in my head and I paused in the middle to record a video called who am I? I think you would enjoy it if you watched it. Have a great day!
the stats about what percentage of your collection was “free” so to speak or acquired through your work and the fact that it seems “unrelatable” is good for a lot of beauty youtube viewers to hear because there are so many complaints about big youtubers being unrelatable. hearing you talk about how your collection has changed due to your work shows that how in doing the work that viewers appreciate, you inherently become less “relatable” and that’s just the way the world turns. relatability is so subjective to begin with, and i think transparency is so much more interesting and important. thanks for being transparent and vulnerable and awesome!
Love love your hair like that miss hannah
Relatable, to me at least, isn't so much to do with seeing my own exact life reflected in that of a content creator. I relate to you because of your taste and because of your ability to observe, analyse and report back to us with kindness and humour about the interesting messiness of your particular life, which has many parallels with my own, but is not exactly the same. How could it be? Why would I want it to be? I'm so glad to hear that you're expanding your roads into self-compassion, especially now, and finding the yardsticks that make sense for you ❤️
Thank you for staying with this project and us even through this time! And please feel free to promote your patreon, because I only remembered to subscribe after you mentioned it in the intro. I’m definitely not the only one with short memory and a sense of gratitude for the work you do in dismantling consumerism in your own way. ❤️
thank you!
Its interesting, because we talk about fantasy self a lot as though it is a pure negative and a striving to be something we are not. But I've always heard you say something like, "some percentage of this is actual me, who I am and who I intend to be, but I get in trouble when I feel like 300% percent of this (and only this) is who I have to be RIGHT NOW and if I am not that RIGHT NOW, I should be ashamed and see myself as not enough. But over time, you seem to (even in this video), said yes, an adult home makes real me happy, but not more happy than all the other things I just listed, and so I can press pause on it and still feel enough. which to me feels like balance and a very "adult" sense that life has many seasons.
this is SUCH a good way to phrase it!!
I would love to see a video showing what makes up the 1/3 that you purchased! I think that would be a very interesting peek at your collection
This hair is everything! Also, I love the positivity that's coming from meditation and actual self care.
“Women are trained not to accept ourselves” hit me so hard. Thank you for all your work in the world right now Hannah, it is so appreciated! ♥️
Joined your Patreon dear, I surely hope we all can come back to a somewhat normal life somewhat soon and that you and Joe have the chance to keep the studio!
“I feel like it’s a natural style rather than a performance.” Oof, I felt that. I feel like a lot of the time I’m putting on clothes/makeup/accessories because I want others to feel a certain way about me, not because I want to feel a certain way about myself. Or rather, because I think that others feeling a certain way about me will make me feel a certain way about myself. I’m not a kind reader though, so it would only be my best guess at what they think of me. It’s kind of stupid that I feel like my self-worth comes from an opinion that I made up in my own head for someone else.
When you talked about feeling bad about having a lot of makeup partially because it reminded you of a time when buying makeup meant financial anxiety (if I understood you correctly), it reminded me of a comparable experience I have had. A few years ago when I was unemployed and mentally unwell I struggled every day to get out of bed, and would usually not get up until the afternoon. I would feel so guilty because the entire day slipped away, so I would lay in bed feeling abysmally tired and desperately try to wake up. I think I conditioned myself to associate that half awake morning state with anxiety, because now when I am in a better situation I still find myself waking up feeling anxious and guilty that I did not get up sooner, even if it is a decent time of day. It sounds like it is a similar thing for you where a feeling that was a kind of coping mechanism still lingers even when the situation that started it is no longer true.
I relate SO strongly about the “lingering association of the morning state with anxiety” feeling! Any time I sleep in or linger in bed, even if it’s just a half hour on the weekend when I don’t have an official wake-up time at all, I feel so guilty. My husband has to remind me that it’s actually good sometimes to indulge in a little extra sleep. (Having a ‘normie’ in the house who can help me calibrate and figure out what’s totally fine and normal, actually, is so helpful.) I’m hopeful that over time, those associations will start to fade.
I suppose the only question I had after watching this was that if you weren't on UA-cam, do you think after your no-buy year, without this potential stream of revenue and PR, that you would have indulged yourself still in regards to makeup? Do you think all of this would have ultimately been as effective as it was doing it on UA-cam and getting the perks of PR? I know your statistics and what they mean for you, but I can't imagine a world where you wouldn't have indulged yourself in some capacity (because I, even as a disabled woman, indulge myself as I can, with a NYX lipstick or by saving up for months for those Clionadh shadows I adore- whether it be with saved up gift cards or the money I have saved and saved for hobbies.), even if it'd be much less of an influx as it with you receiving PR. I suppose your recent project with the minimal maximalist makeup collection could answer my question. xD Do you think, given everything, you'd have been able to hold yourself to restrain yourself if you didn't have the circumstances you are in currently, with your platform? Other than that, I fully understand what you're saying- I'm glad you're meditating and finding ways to soothe the sting of these more than trying times. I'm happy that you have a support system via your family and subscribers, and that though it could seem like everything is falling apart via the collapse of a fantasy to chase, you've found what's truly important to you. That's the ultimate truth one could seek. ^-^
So glad I found your channel! 😍 What a balanced approach and refreshing! I have been labeling my makeup with a permanent marker with the date I started using it and whether or not it was free. It encourages me to keep giving love to my older products before they expire and if I declutter something I can remember if it was free and feel less guilty about clearing them out of my collection. I don’t have to torture myself by forcing myself to finish up a concealer that didn’t work for me if it was free. And I can focus on using up a concealer that did work well for me
I love your check-in videos so much. They are always full of insights that I can use to think about my own goals and desires and relationship with beautiful things. Also, I’ve been in a really, really bad headspace for the last couple of weeks and your video helped me find the words and ideas to articulate what’s been bothering me. Being able to put it in words lifted my spirits so much and now I’m feeling really good for the first tine in a while. Thank you so much for being you Hannah. Your channel continues to bring joy and insight to my life. Sending love and light to you, Joe, and Sadie 💕
you are the only youtuber that is so relatable about fashion and our psychological reasons for consumption for a regular American woman. Thank you so much for helping me on my journey to mental freedom from the constant care of trying perfect my fantasy self! And thank you for your honesty about finances!
In relation to letting the house evolve, I feel you. We took the laundry room cabinets down to paint and renovate the room at least 6 weeks ago. The cabinets have been living in the entry way and living room. I was totally skeezed by their presence for the first 3 weeks. But now one of them holds my cup of coffee and phone as I let dogs out as we go outside for our morning coffee. I appreciate that cabinet now. Time has changed things.
You are so relaxing to listen to/watch.
Your mention of wabi-sabi reminded me of kintsukuroi, where broken pottery is fixed with gold. "Understanding the piece is more beautiful for having been broken," part of the definition of this art style, seems applicable to people as well--that we are more beautiful in our imperfections. The mending of our souls adds more beauty than if we had always been whole.
This is one of my favorite check-ins ever. It makes me so happy to see you evolve and grow 💕🌱 And thank you for the reminder to "take my vitamins", so to speak. A lot of my self care (except taking my actual vitamins, funnily enough) pretty much went out the window when the lockdown started, and I couldn't go to the gym. It's like that one change in my life just started a domino-effect and I didn't really have the energy or the mental space to prevent those good habits from falling away, or to try to establish alternative ones. But I do feel like a bit of energy and space is returning, so I think it's time to dip my toe back into some exercise and meditation 🙏🏻
I wonder if it’s possible for you to do a full face using the 64 products (assuming some are brushes/tools). Would love to see a video on that and your thoughts on whether you could live with only those 64 items if you hadn’t received the PR/gifts? Such a fascinating concept
Perhaps you could work out when you bought those 64 items...pre no buy year or post.
I’m obsessed with your hair like that 😍
I feel I’ve been in my own land because I didn’t know you were on patreon! I’m so excited to join!! I think you’re the epitome of why patreon exists- you put so much time and energy and thought and passion into your channel but you’re still living your life, working, and surviving like many of us. I run a tiny boutique and the way you spoke about your patrons is the exact way I feel about my customers, which has only been amplified in recent times.
I am in love with your personal progress and the mix of universal and personal feelings and thoughts. I am always having trouble expressing my gratitude towards you but just know that I am rooting for you always ❤ Also I love that you desire beautiful things like your collection and can have it because of UA-cam. I have always felt so happy for you😁
I am loving your Audrey Hepburn look today! Your doe eyes are stunning!
What i can see that you are still in love with makeup/ fashion so you are feeling lucky to have pr. You don t want to curate and have a small use it and finish collection. You are interesting in makeup as a hobby. Nothing wrong with that if you are accepting this hobby as something you like and are willing to invest at the potential of choosing it over other stuff( vacation jewelerry more savings etc) . If you are budgeting and are fine with the amount of money i don t thing it s a problem. It s something that brings you joy you aee entitled to use your money as you want. The pr is just additional fun. While you like to experiment and review and don t feel that pr can send your finance habbits into a black hole ( because it triggers spending on the same level as the free stuff just because you get uses to it) you do you. :) The purpose of life is to be happy not to live in a way that dictated by anyone. Do what brings you joy!
I always come away from your videos with SO MANY THOUGHTS. I love your check ins, Hannah. Thanks for sharing all of that with us.
I found it really interesting how the underlying cause of your feeling that you had "too much" was your association of it with how much money you had spent. I think this is a feeling a lot of people struggle with, and maybe for the same reasons, but I think some of it, too, might be that minimalism, decluttering, and the idea of "too much stuff" has really permeated American culture as we urbanize and have to move into smaller and smaller spaces.
Through a large chain of social dynamics that I won't bore you with listing cause I'm sure you know them (lol), that larger phenomenon manifests in the beauty space into this really intense moralizing about having "too much makeup." Both moralizing ourselves and also the content creators that we watch.
So I wonder how much of it is that for you as well, that the idea of "too much stuff" for you is that association of having been ruining your life before, but also a combination of this larger phenomenon in the world that women feel the pressure of very acutely-and perfectionists like us feel like we need to actuate on.
At least that's been a journey I've been on since last year, haha. Just letting go of this idea of that "too much stuff" is an actual thing (for me, it's not) and only focusing on whether or not I'm enjoying and am positioned to appreciate the stuff that I have.
Anyway, I too let my clauses get away from me, so I will leave it there. Thanks again for making this, Hannah, and I hope you're hanging in there.
Oh! I love your hair in this vid!
Holy WOW, I loved this one. So much food for thought in here.
Microcosm! It’s the perfect word for what you were trying to describe. It means a small analog for a larger situation. It’s one of my favorite words lol
I think you’re talking about the sunk cost fallacy. Sure, you don’t want to get rid of items that have some sort of value, but the money was already spent. The cost of the item has already been borne - by you or whoever sent it to you and you shouldn’t take its cost into consideration of whether to keep or discard it.
I have been having such a hard time sleeping. Last night I listened to Stephen Fry read a 'sleep story' on my Calm app, and it helped me turn off my brain and relaxed me so much! Now I just need to use it to help me meditate - I'm not quite there yet.
Me too Gina, I love Stephen Fry's narration.
You look so beautiful in this video and your spirit seems lighter, like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders. I love that mantra and I’m going to start using it, too. Thank you. 😊
Feel you on the adult home vibes. I love that minimalist white and clean look but I have a kid and a small house with not enough storage solutions at the moment, and we are a cluttery people so I’ve had to let go of that dream for now lol. As long as everything is in its place, doesn’t matter. even if it looks cluttery with the cat boxes and water fountain in seemingly random spots and the game systems littering the tv stand and the sewing machine and associated junk all over the computer desk and the playdoh bin shoved under the side table that kid’s art storage tower sits on, it’s functional and clean.
I struggle with my purchases, I continue to buy stuff that I don't really need but want. If there is a gift with purchase I am always looking to see if there's is something I need so I can buy it to get the free gift. This pandemic has been a real eye opener for everyone. Have that 6 month emergency fund. Do not acquire credit card debt and live within your means. Would love to see you do a budget video. Love the way you analyze each detail & how in-depth you are. Keep up the good work, and be grateful for good health, happiness, love, family, faith, inner peace, outer peace and abundance. Much love & prayers sent your way.
As you did your intro my brain automatically went "and this is my no-buy year" instead of the new one. Haha.
This video makes me so happy for you. You have worked so, so hard to earn the ability to have PR, to be gifted makeup by companies and friends due to your work on this platform. I’m so glad you’re able to celebrate the fact that your abundance comes from hard work, not overspending. You have changed so much, and brought so many of us with you on your journey and changed us for the better as well. I hope you’ll consider what you have as a visible reminder of all you’ve accomplished.
I think your awareness of the change in situation and circumstance you've reflected on in this video is something many could relate to, including myself. While I haven't become a UA-camr I have had changes in career and life which have definitely impacted what I have, the type of things I have, what I've wanted to have and my view of things from previous times of life. For a long time I had real trouble letting go of things from a previous career in teaching. It took time for me to work that out and to sort through my feelings of guilt, sadness and failure about not staying in that field, and also realise that those were not feelings that I needed to have or hold on to. Once I had worked through that I was able to let go of so many things that I just wasn't going to use any more and were just reminding me of those negative feelings. Thanks again for how you've articulated this part of your journey Hannah.
I feel like this quarantine has allowed my partner and I to become even better teammates than we were before. We’ve had some tough conversations, talked about the future, and gotten tons of honey-do projects done. He’s even shown up on my beauty IG a couple times I’m pro gratitude of my partnership right now.
Giiiiiiirl fantasy self. I’ve found myself planner/sticker shopping which was an old hobby of mine that I let go of in favor of bullet journaling. Luckily I stopped that one before the $100-200 purchase. The “makeup minimalism” challenge I did with my makeup has helped with the fantasy self too. Honestly, the thing that has helped the most to let that fantasy beyotch go, is having a future financial goal. I have a different kind of fantasy that will cost several thousand dollars in the future.... and I don’t want to spend money on stickers and planners and makeup now. I want to save that money for the future!!
Everyone’s perfect collection is different. It depends on your life style, skill set, & all kind of things. If you can use it before it goes bad, then it is the right size for you. My size of my collection wasn’t about what I spent. It was getting it to a size that I can use before it expires. It took four or five declutters to get there. Most of my makeup was relatively new. I’m embarrassed that I purchased that much makeup. I got rid of good makeup. It was just so similar to things that I already had & I was attracted to the big sale.
Hannah, you’re a small business owner so you probably already know: but i would try applying for the PPP through a smaller financial institution rather than a large bank. you get $1000 for every employee you keep on payroll (so you and Joe) and it applies even if your business is just you!!! best of luck to you with all of the financial mess during this time 💗
I wish I could just know what I'll be thinking about on my deathbed. Your videos are so relatable ie the things we hyperfocus on or overanalyze. If I knew I wouldn't regret these things, I think I would just indulge in them even more. If I knew I would regret it, I would turn into a hermit weirdo who really didn't care what I looked like.
I really appreciate you. Thank you for your expressiveness. You're so right about what's important.
Thank you for helping us not to normalize huge makeup collections with high-end products!
I’m really feeling that distinction between actual self care vs. superficial self care during the pandemic. I do think it’s been really clarifying for me in terms of the things that matter! Edited: this is so great, I was nodding along the whole time
I feel like the link between self-care practices and how I feel and behave over the course of a day has become crystal clear during this time. In the Before Times, there were so many distractions and variables that it was more obscure, or maybe just easier for me to pull the wool over my own eyes; easier to miss or ignore the impact that choosing not to exercise/eat right/reflect for a while had on me. Now, with life so totally pared down, it’s impossible to miss the direct link between, for instance, how my body feels and what kind of movement I’ve been doing, or how my mood and behavior changes depending on how attentive I’ve been to my prayer life and journaling practice.
I’m definitely hoping that this epiphany sticks with me for the long haul, once the distractions and variables kick back in.
Thank you for your insightful and deep digging content, as usual.
LOVE your hair today omg SO cute
I'm so glad to hear that you have eased up on yourself. You seem happier & lighter. As if a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders, and happiness during these trying times isnt an easy thing to achieve. Kudos to you 🤗
Happy to support you in a small way through Patreon and glad that all the small support is adding up to carry you a little ways down the road. Perhaps exiling part of your collection was a good way of detaching it from you and gave you the space to see it more clearly and to appreciate it for what it is rather than how much it is worth, what you could had with the money it’s worth etc. Separating it from your daily life visually and physically has been really interesting!
I really appreciate that you show your life in all it's "imperfect" glory. This is the reality for many of us during this strange time...we've had to convert our "perfectly" curated spaces into jack-of-all-trades either because we're working from home and/or because we're sharing said spaces with other people also working from home. Personally, I prefer/like when things aren't too polished--I begin to feel some kind of way when things get that cookie-cutter (what I like to call the "guru-cutter") look. BTW, I miss seeing the little Fairy doll.
It’s so strange how lockdown has affected every aspect of our lives, in some cases there have been some real positives, as with your year of less stuff. For me, it’s made me realise that every little thing that goes wrong isn’t a trauma, and to take everything one step at a time. Thank you for this video, your thoughts really help me coalesce mine ❤️
As always very inspiring. Thank you for you thoughts, it helps me diving into my own.
How do the adept shadows compare to the makeup geek singles? :)
You look great! The hair, the earrings, the eye look ✨ I hope and pray that Poema survives this 🙏 Things are just so weird right now for everyone but it sounds like you are finding excellent ways to care for yourself and I'm glad you and Joe and Sadie are okay. ❤
I think to myself that we're kindred spirits every time I watch one of your check-ins, but this one! There are things that have become more important and less important to me right now that are very similar to yours: giving up control, being present in the moment, caring for myself and giving up the idea of my "fantasy self." The thing I've been doing lately that's helped with all those things is gardening! At the end of last month I decided that I was going to start a small garden from seed, which is something I've never done before. I am now the proud "mom" of several different kinds of seedlings and I am learning so much watching them grow each day. I can't control them, I have to care for them day by day, I have to wait for a while to get food from them and it's a messy process...but most importantly, they give me joy! I swear, it's been YEARS since I've been so excited about something (my poor husband, I'm a broken record about these plants lol) and I realized I need to give myself permission to feel positive emotions in the midst of the doom and gloom. Coincidentally, those precious seedlings also giving me something to look forward to that isn't getting my hands on a shiny, new beauty item and, hopefully, I'll be saving money on veggies this summer. 🌿💚
YES to the garden! that is so wonderful! I gardened for a few years when we lived in Michigan, and I do miss it. My mom is a huge gardener, too, and it's how she's been spending a lot of her time in quarantine.
I hope Poema survives for you! I've just bought five pieces. I've been eyeing it for so long, planning to acquire it slowly, but it might not be there anymore! I have a protected income in the medical field, so I don't feel so bad digging into my wallet to help out a struggling first world fashion business.
Yeah, I'm wearing scrubs to work and dance wear or PJ's around the house. So the Poema will get a chance to be worn; while my sequin and velvet gowns and french silk opera gloves I got for the ballet and formals right before covid hit are just decorating my bedroom with their loveliness and gathering dust for now. I know I have too many clothes, but my personal style keeps evolving fast.
As for my fantasy self, I have to figure out why I keep buying office professional wear; when I wear scrubs to work and I am years away from needing a wardrobe of professional clothes beyond a couple of suits. I'm not a third year med student! I'm a premed with a Masters. How can I crack that nut?
In love with your makeup and hair in this video!
A Jane Austen-worthy sentence full of clauses.
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Love this video. Hair tutorial please- love this look so much. I’m so glad you are doing so well and the makeup revelations are so wonderful. What growth and improvement.
Looooooove your hair like this! Elegant yet kinda fierce!! 🤟🏻💕🤟🏻💕
Unfortunately my second feeling is accurate, I spent like 700 pounds on makeup last year. I love my makeup and it was great to learn what I liked and what makes me happy. But that seems like a high price tag :/
Your hair looks amazing, miss you!
Wow, I’ve taken a wrong turn; binge eating, shopping and no yoga😞☹️💩. My fantasy self is trying to kill me😬
You are also earning money with the Non- patreon people who are just watching your videos....
Nadine Summa that’s true, but with the decline of ad-sense that income has been fractioned
Thank you for this video. I loving the long videos
Love this make-up look on you!
Gosh your hair and makeup is gorgeous!!!!! That smokey eye look is 🔥🔥🔥
so you are not driving a car but rather surfing. Succeeding without control.
Your eye makeup is just perfect today :) and all the look is fierce. I feel the same related to our home. We have installed an extra office now with working from home both of us so now two ugly but necessary comfy office chairs and huge desks to accomodate our big monitors ( we both in it, we need those screens) . Plus i ve bought a rower which is true sef care but is also in our living room. But the thing is leaning in the temporarity of this all and doing what s best for us now. When i work at my comfortable desk on which i can fit my monitor , two laptops agenda and also a candle that s real self care not having a sleek unfunctional home
One of the things that have helped me distract my ever busy mind is that I have been playing the 30 day minimalist game! It has helped me not only declutter and spring cleaning, but also to feel a weight lifted off of my shoulders! ❤️
Crab cakes🦀❤️🦀love that
I think that what growth you have gone through during these last three and a almost a half years has prepared you for what you are experiencing now. It has been a process. Your inner growth and the whittling away of the chaff and parts of your nature that you felt needed work have been done. Not that things are finished, we all continue to grow until we die. This time is a reflection of how we deal with things or dealt with them in the past and how we can deal with them now. Things have changed since the last of the no buy year, you didn't want to receive but just a small portion of promo. Now it is a big part of your make up. But you are an influencer so take comfort in the term. This is your job. We your Hannahites look forward to seeing you almost every day. Your time of self discover becomes our self discovery.
I not only enjoyed your transparency, but I have been stimulated by the comments below. Many things to think about. Love and hugs.
I never heared of wabi sabi. It sounds like something that I am slowly realizing while I try and love to perfect things.
Thank you for all your thoughts and introducing this concept to me.
Btw I want to tell something, that I find very funny.
I almost never wear make up. I don't hate it, but sleeping 5min longer is just more important to me ;)
Nevertheless I watch all of your videos and enjoy them very much. The way you reflect about life and your belongings for me is detached from the fact that you happen to talk about make up. I still recognize and enjoy, that you perform art on your face as I am an esthete.
Oh shit your hair looks so good in this video! ❤️❤️
I don't really agree with patreon because when we watch a youtube video we are already paying a price which is watching the ads. There is even some studies saying that we actually spend real money by watching youtube due to being influenced by those ads. However, I also don't agree with youtubers being underpaid. Would it be a silly idea if content creators of youtube created an union? In order to demand better pay per ads or even other social benefits?
I actually remember seeing a video on this a while back, maybe nerd city? It talked briefly about youtubers in the EU trying to unionize but I haven't seen anything about it since. Even then I don't know how it would effect creators outside of the EU. I'm also not a lover of patreon because for most people I think patronizing more than a couple of thier favorites would be unrealistic. That being said creators definitely deserve to be paid for thier work so it's a bit of a quandary.
Unfortunately, You Tube is wholly unique, an entity unto itself, & unlike other workplaces...even when comparing it to global conglomerates, w/hubs all around the world. Individual creators are just that, millions(?) of people who live everywhere (globally) & congregate here to post, but who have no centralized connection.
There are such things as YT "networks", where you get agent representation, wider exposure, & other assorted perks. However, the network system is fraught w/its own problems & inadequacies (e.g. they take a % of what the creator earns, above YT's cut, while oftentimes conferring little of real value to smaller creators, etc.). There have been creators who have banded together more formally, to encourage "YT strikes" (asking their viewers not to watch & creators not to post, on certain dates) & some sort of unionization...But these actions haven't been successful thus far.
At this time, I think Patreon is an imperfect solution, but it's the only avenue available for many creators. Especially for those with smaller/growing channels, or who almost exclusively deal in provocative (read HIGHLY demonitizable) content...think ContraPoints, Philosophy Tube, etc. YT also has a history of disproportionately demonitizing channels w/creators who focus upon the rights & experiences of LGBTQIA+ individuals & their community, women, POC, WOC, etc. In all these cases, Patreon offers an avenue for new & different voices to survive on YT.
I will be joining Hannah's Patreon when I can, as I've been spending my "leisure money" on charitable donations, & will continue to do so for the foreseeable future. Frankly, I wish Hannah would either livestream & collect one-time Superchat "channel donations/support" or post VenMo or PayPal account links, for one-time donations to be made. Many of my favorite creators are doing this now, esp. b/c YT takes 30% of any livestream revenue. Many people, myself included, simply prefer making one-time donations when we can, rather than monthly patronage.
TL/DR: Until alternatives to YT become viable (whether Twitch, Patreon, Tik Tok, or something else altogether), Patreon will be one of the ways the creators we cherish survive. Smaller creators simply don't have as vast an income stream to pull from, nor as many alternative revenue sources aside from YT adverts (e.g. collabs, brand deals/ambassadorships/sponsorships, referral/affiliate codes, merch, etc.).
Have to say that I love that you can already support with 1 dollar! If half of you’re subscribers donate 1 dollar it will be a lot more easy on you. And wow, I need to watch 200 videos for you the receive 1 dollar 😱. So I will ad least go for the 1 dollar support, but because I don’t now anything about patriot therefore I have a question. If possible I would like to help a bit more during this time, but if necessary it’s nice to now that I can lower the amount or if it’s getting really bad and I have to stop helping I can stop the patriot subscription. Thanks! Lot of love, esmeralda
Thank you Hannah
Ok, you look amazing today, the eyes, the cheeks, the hair. So flattering. ❤️
Just before this whole situation I got the diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder. One of the main things that I struggle with is change, especially uncontrollable change. This worldwide lockdown is THE situation that tests all my tricks and abilities to deal with that part of myself. It's weird to both have a perfectionist that tells me to "deal with it and work" while also having a self-loving part that understands that this is especially hard for me and urges me to not be as hard on myself.
Your evolution, while having a different cause, seems to follow a similar trajectory as mine. It's really inspiring and helps me verbalize why I'm struggling.
Thanks for your check in Videos, I enjoy them a lot! Wish you all the best and hope that we can go back to „a part of normal „ as soon as possible, but in a save way
The wabi-sabi bit you said towards the end of the video made me think of some spiritual teachings I subscribe to also say something similar: " can't get it wrong, never get it done" .I too have a hard time grasping it & allowing it.
I agree that I am working on some things, like with planning for groceries and meals, not buying as much random stuff (both for saving money but also because I can't return items like clothes in the wrong size/etc.). It would be cool to set up a Zoom with my family, especially my sibling's family. Maybe I can push for that.
Omg your hair is so fucking cute
My old man has worked this entire time. And just when it's time for me to go back to work he gets sick.
Your hair looks nice.
I did a huge declutter a few years ago. Everyone said when you get down to the right amount of 'things' it will just click and feel right. While I think there is a lot of wisdom in that I still struggled with feelings of overwhelm with what I still had. When I looked at each item individually I knew my life would be less enjoyable/rich without it. I ended up just needing time to sit and adjust. ❤️
I just cancelled some memberships I don't actually use and subscribed to be a patron of yours at Patreon. I'm not really sure how this works. Is there a seperate app or do we just get an email when there is new content available?
I see, it's a webpage. Sorry, I was a little unsure at first.
@@MoonlitSunflower There is also a mobile app.
I feel that I can confidently say that I dress and make my face up in a way that comes natural to me and that is mine. I think my makeup style is much more interesting than my clothing style though. Maybe it's why I like my makeup a little more bold and colorful than the typical lady does.
I think it makes sense for you to clarify to yourself where the abundance from your collection is coming from. I think it's why I hated looking at mine for so long. I was in debt and spent in an "all bets are off" sort of way on make up and ultimately i wasnt proud of it. It helps me now that i am working to pay it of AND frivolous spending in other areas of my life has gone down. I've quit smoking and drinking energy drinks. I used to spend double what I would spend on makeup a month in those two things alone. So with my spending being more under control I don't feel guilty looking at the stuff I've been spending my money on. I think it also helps that I've made an effort not to fixate on shopping for makeup. I think I recognize that fixating on shopping for makeup is unhealthy and that makes me feel bad too when I over do it on that.
It's so interesting to know how much of your collection was gifted and how much you actually bought.
OoOooOo the *texture* of your *eyelids* is like shot silk 😍
1m38s in and I'm going to have to rewind. I got so mesmerised!
Adept singles, eh? Can't wait to hear and see more!
Another great inspiring video. Your video blended together with stuff in my head and I paused in the middle to record a video called who am I? I think you would enjoy it if you watched it. Have a great day!
I appreciate you, lady 🤟 ❤️
There’s a lot in this piece and what a lot of thinking put in. Thank you Hannah.
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I’m an icy streamlined minimalist however
I am far from perfect 😉
I’d be interested to see you compare your eyeshadow singles....PR vs those your purchased.