I completely understand tying a sketchbook with a traumatic experience and how therapeutic it can be to finish it and move on. I hope making this video helped you heal ❤
Hi oliver! I am an long-time fan of yours, not as old but still, I have been here for years and still, I know it wasn’t planned but I really appreciated and loved that this was posted on my birthday. I have been having so many losses recently, a family member that I loved a lot and even got my first job just to get out of it because of a health issue that was generated thanks to that job. So these months and the last moments of last years were the worst emotionally. However, thanks to you…I always been inspired. I always loved seeing your sketchbook tours, they look so good and still personal. It was like looking at all the things you love and struggle. That’s why I also last year decided to share my sketchbooks in Sketchbook tours. You inspired me, I always loved sharing my drawings sometimes (because I have a crossover ship that I am obsessed with and love so much that is mostly all my drawings now and thanks to them I got better at drawing and writing, they bring me so much joy) but always was a bit insecure but seeing your videos, made me want to do it myself. And I did, they kinda make me feel free now. Me sharing all the stuff I love meanwhile I over-explain because this is me we talking about, but I loved that. And is all thanks to you, even in my darkest hours in drawings, I always look up and rewatch some sketchbook tours of you to cheer me up. Your anatomy and clothes wisdom always inspires me and makes me feel so happy seeing another artist who sketches with pen beside my best friend and I! Your drawings are amazing and on every sketchbook tour I can notice how much you have grown as an artist!! This is already too long but I just want to say thank you, for showing the sketchbook you had the most struggle with because life is hard and we artists can portray a drawing or pages with really negative emotions, like seeing photos that bring us bitter memories, but is something we had to do, to vent or evade temporary the problem, and it always helps. And thank you so much Oliver, for creating your channel. You’re amazing!
Your voice sounds so amazing! I almost dont recognize you sense I recently went through and binge watched a bunch of your really old content from when I first discovered you. Im so proud of you Oliver and the fact you managed to get this all out despite what happened is amazing. Keep up the amazing work Ollie and dont feel forced to post super consistently. The truest fans of us will always be here waiting for you.
I'm watching this again and I almost cried at the ending, because I struggled with filling sketchbooks myself, and like, at one point felt like I HAD to draw, even though I didn't want to. But I now can draw in it again because I like it, not because my brain says it is just another obligation. Thank you for sharing your story with us, and making people like me feel better about times like these.
the last bit really spoke to me. I dont know your exact situation, but I can relate to what you said. I had to cut my older sister out of my life. We used to be inseparable, constantly on the wave length and just... really close. But she crossed a hard line for me. She hurt me and my husband deeply. And it's weird mourning the loss of that relationship while shes still here. Its weird mourning that relationship but looking back and realizing she had been hurting me for years and realizing it was better she got cut off. It's weird missing her, while glad I never have to deal with her again. I'm still healing and still trying to move on. And I may never full do so.
The omori spreads... ur so real for that it's so good. Was reading the steam reviews the other day bc I was bored and the best possible summary was a highly recommend review that said "Ruined my week when I first played it. Five stars" (or smth to that effect LOL) ALSO WELCOME BACK OLIVER !!! hopefully your room stops leaking soon!!
For some reason I felt I weird fermiliar feeling when I watched your video today. I am in a similar mind set as you when it comes to my sketchbooks. And i tought that was all it was too it. But then you mentioned you were morning someone that was still alive. I felt like being hit by a truck when you said it, because I'm in a similar situation. I don't know what your story is, but me and my family was kicked out from our home by my mother last August. And for me, that's been a betrayal that I have had to cope with this year. So I feel for you, and I really hope things will get better and brighter for you, Oliver.
As a fellow Tras-masc artist, you have really inspired me and helped me through some of the worst parts of my life. Your videos were always something that got me through the day. I think I go back and watch your sketchbook playlist at least once a month whenever I start to hit an art slump, and they always help me through. You have all so given me the courage to really presue my passions and I really appreciate you for that even if I don't know you. I can't wait to see what you accomplish in the future and I can't wait for your next videos, however long they take.
Oliver. I'm proud of you for completing this. I can tell it was hard but I'm very proud that you were patient and kind with yourself and took your time. You definitely deserve the kindness and patience, whether from your fanbase, family, or yourself. Going back to your comfort zone and such can be very therapeutic, as it definitely can help. Overall, I'm proud of you. I don't know how much this will/would mean, but it's true
ok many things to say so I'm numbering them so it seems less chaotic: 1. OMORI ART LET'S FKN GOOOOOO I FEEL LIKE I WAITED MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS MOMENT AND I'M IN TEARS THANK YOU SO MUCH 😭i freaking knew they'd be so lovely in your style wow 2. i need u to conjure a form of osmosis into my brain on how you create such iconic outfits. like the new sketchbook page with andy had me GAGGED no one has ever served cunt quite like this before good lord heavens almighty 3. i would love a video on your current go-to supplies if you're still down for it!! even if you just doodle idk your art is fire regardless so i'm here for the ride. Lastly (4?) I'm sorry to hear about such an intense time you've been continuing to go through on many levels, but i'm glad to hear you're still getting through it somehow 💜take care of yourself dude, we wish you the best!
I haven't kept up with these videos in a few years - not because of any drop in quality, just because life changed and I forgot some things. I randomly remembered your channel this morning and came to see what the story was, and I am not disappointed at all. Your art is just as beautiful as I remember, and you have a wonderful presenting style. Seeing aurora for the first time in years felt like coming home
I'm a couple of days late here but I'm so glad to see another vid from you! I've been struggling with finding the motivation to draw, and for a long time your vids were what I'd put on to give me that motivation. This is probobly random but I love the idea of drawing manga panels when you don't know what to draw! I used to do that all the time when I was younger but with anime, I had the Soul Eater dvd and I would randomly hit pause and draw whatever was on the screen. On a more serious note, the end of the vid hit me kinda hard. I won't say I relate exactly since I have no idea what happened to you, but I know what it's like to mourn someone even though they're still alive, I've been doing it for almost 10 years, although as of recently, he passed away and I still have no idea how to even process it... Of course it had to be just when things were starting to get better, everything came crashing down. I've been pretty much numb ever since, it didn't feel real seeing him in the hospital after everything that's happened
I've been waiting for this for so long. I'm glad that bad period of your life is over and I can't wait for that long video you're working on. I find your videos comforting and I always end up going back to them when I need something to draw too that won't make me feel negative
that’s literally how i’m feeling. i can’t bring myself to finish a sketchbook and i feel like my art isn’t going anywhere and i suck at it and i might just give up at art because i have no motivation anymore to make good art and i don’t know how to make my own stuff look unique to me
It's okay to abandon a sketchbook! I had to for my own wellbeing, but sometimes the best thing to do is to walk away. Just be sure if you decide to finish a sketchbook it should be for you and not because you feel like you have to!
I just want to say, i dont often get the time or money to watch UA-cam videos whenever i want, so i often go for long periods of time without watching your videos, and one of my favourite things to notice is how much your voice has changed since i started watching your channel!❤
I'll be honest, I literally have no idea how people finish sketchbooks so quickly like you do - I have many sketchbooks, separated for different purposes according to the quality of the paper most of all, but like. My main sketchbook was bought in 2018 (yup, not a typo, Two Thousand Eighteen) and it's still far from done and I have no idea when I'll finish it, if I ever do. So I get the feeling of failure you mentioned because I feel that all the time with my weird relationship with sketchbooks. I love seeing your videos, as a trans person, OC creator, your stuff is pretty cool and so relatable! I'm happy you were able to finish it, and that it brought you some peace of mind and healing in the process.Take care, and keep up with your incredible work!
YOOOO YOUR VOICE IS GETTING SO DEEP AND MASCULINE!!!!! AHHH so happy for you! (I’m also on hormones and I’m at the stage where things are slowing down without much change anymore) Anywhomst,, now that that’s out of the way; im truly sorry that you’ve been going through some tough times, I sincerely hope things start to look better for you soon!!! I also hope that art and sketchbooking will become pleasant for you once more, I may not understand your situation that much, but I do know how it feels to have a coping skill (such as art) become something that no longer feels good or has a different meaning than it once did. I really hope that you can work through whatever difficulties you’re having at the moment… best wishes and please feel better soon !!!!!!
This reminds me so much of your earlier sketchbook videos when you would sit on the floor 🥹 it’s crazy to think how much time has passed!!!! Amazing as always!
Dude! I haven’t watched your channel but in general, UA-cam, in a while and YOUR VOICE SOUNDS AMAZING!!! I’ve missed your art and I’m happy I’m back. Love ya dude ❤
i would even be interested in a sketchbook by you thats just doodles and unfinished stuff. im sure most people watching would agree. dont feel pressure to make really fancy colored spreads and compositions etc if you dont want to
I know everyone always says this on your videos but just watching old sketchbook tours- and especially this one really gives me that kick and inspiration to get back and running with my own sketchbook.Your videos remind me that not everything in a sketchbook has to be finished and perfect.. sometimes a ballpoint pen is all you need to enjoy creating. :) Thank you
naw, thanks for opening up dude! i so get u with the mourning part :( my family is kinda difficult and i lost my parent one year ago, so i know that time (as dumb as it sounds) can lighten up the pain and make it so it doesnt hurt as much as on "day1" if that makes sense? also: your voice sounds so calming, really nice :3 hope thats not too weird to say 😅 have a great day everyone who reads this
I’m so glad you finished this one! I love seeing your sketchbook tours! Honestly, don’t even feel bad for taking two years to finish one, I just finished my sketchbook I’ve had since 2019-2020 a few weeks ago, I was so glad to have it done and start something new. Be nicer to yourself!
Honestly a joy to watch a sketchbook tour of yours, your sketchbooks inspire me to remind myself i don't need to finish art all the time. Remember to take your time with sketchbooks but you did great! :D
Your voice is so deep and cool!!! I'm also taking T and it's so nice hearing the difference from other fellow trans* artists! :D + freaking love the cover art and the first sticker page, especially the "bite me" and the viva Pinata sticker, childhood
Always remember to put yourself and your health first. It's ok to not finish 10 sketchbooks in one year, so don't worry too much. I Always love to see your art ❤
I understand tying a sketchbook to terrible things in life because that happened with me and my own previous sketchbook, which is funny because one of the associated events happened after I'd thrown the damn thing against a wall and yelled 'FINALLY!' having finished it after something like... nearly eighteen months? and the actual sketchbook beginning to physically fall apart. I'm glad you were able to finish your sketchbook and move on from that association, and I hope that your next sketchbook turns out to be exactly what it needs to be! I also really hope that things do get so much better for you. I really do.
How cow I lost your account years ago I used to IDOL YOU!!! I remember your meet the artist video from like 2019 and was obsessed with your “All About” OC videos!! So glad I found you again, thank you for inspiring me at such a young age!
I went through such a similar moment with a big personal project last year. Not even halfway through the project my year just got so emotionally difficult but I just couldn't get myself to give up. I had to prove to myself I could accomplish something. Your work is amazing and I am proud of you for pushing through.
I used to watch your videos a year or two ago, and then you had posted that you'd prefer only an 18+ audience, I remember being sad, but respecting it, however just a few days ago, I turned 18 (May 16th), and got suggested one of your videos again! I'm editing this comment after finishing the video, and just wanted to add, as someone who had to cut off her dad at 16, I understand the "Mourning someone alive" thing, I always feel weird commenting *to* other people about it, but also know how to helps me for some stranger to briefly say "you're not alone" even if the situations are different or even unspecified, so just- You're not alone, I suppose is what I wanted to add to my comment.
watching your sketchbook tours always fills me with motivation to pick up my own again (also 2 years in the making-) and draw in it. I'm also so amazed at the detail in your character designs and outfits, all the ruffles and lace etc. look gorgeous. I'm proud of you for completing this sketchbook man, hope you'll be able to move on and heal from what happened💜
oliver ur voice sounds SO GOOD!! the beauty of transitioning!! and as someone who has been Going Through It recently (the mourning someone whos still alive bit hit me like a TRAIN. owch) i am wishing u the kindest in whatever comes to you next, and i hope ur next sketchbook is full of art that you loved creating :)
I'm usually not the one to comment on videos BUT! This video kind of help me heal too! I wasn't doing well today for a similar experience and man I'm happy to see we are all trying to heal and I hope you will feel better! Keep going man!
Your sketchbook videos have definitely changed how I thought about my own sketchbooks, and I mean this is a good way. Hope things get better for you soon!
I haven’t watched in too long. But oml!!! Olli YOUR VOICE!! You sound so good. Sorry for getting so excited but I’ve related to you for so long even before I knew why.
Always happy to see you in my feed, and im glad you can finally put this sketchbook on the shelf and enjoy art again. I recently lost 2 people i thought were my best friends because of thier choices so i totally get the " mourning someone who is alive ". I wish you the best on your healing journey from this and hope you can move past it someday.
I'm really glad your back and getting better. It as always an amazing sketchbook tour. But I also don't want to make pressure and hope you take your time if you need to. I looking forward for new content and hope you have fun with it and it makes you feel happy💕. Also I'm really glad that all your Animal companies are all doing good now😊.
"I never really took a look at what made them fun for me to begin with" Bro really out here, calling me out But. I'm currently struggling to, even work on my current sketchbook. And I'm like, stuck in a loop? Like Last sketchbook only took a few months to finish (about half the amount of pages, but still) -> I feel like I should draw in it, every second day/every week, so I can do that again -> life is making that hard to do -> I feel discouraged -> I end up wanting to draw anyways -> last sketchbook only took a few months to finish It's also getting warmer and sunnier...sunnyer? Out. Which, isn't good for me I'm allergic to the sun/uv light. And can't handle heat/humidity, because of my autism (brain stuff, I guess). So I'm more tired, which makes it harder to work in my sketchbook. Which makes me feel even more like shit, because "oh, I still worked on my previous sketchbook when I was like this" ... Basically just, beating myself up. Because I started feeling like a sketchbook is something to just, finish. Instead of have fun in Edit: MmmHhhmmmMmmgh I, think I know how you feel. At least, kinda Definitely not gonna go into details. But, a recent... Event, and a certain day, for a certain type of person. Are making me think of someone. That...I wish "wasn't here"
@@OliversAntics69 I'm working on it. Something I decided to do, is go through my old sketchbooks, and see what I liked drawing. 'Cause a big struggle I have, now, is "wtf do I draw?!" Or "oh, I can't draw that. I need to draw something else... But what?" Edit: So um, while I was doing that. I decided to actually look at the...Back of the front cover (whatever it's called), of my current sketchbook, and saw "sketchbook hopes" A lot of them, are stuff I, around early April, wanted to draw I pretty much had a list of stuff to draw, when I don't know what to draw...And I forgot about it
Rewatching this, because it's kinda a comfort video? First, as of writing this, I'm almost halfway done my sketchbook. Which feels great, because I thought I wouldn't get that far. Until next year Second, haven't really been drawing in it. Because summer is kicking my ass I'm autistic, and one of the things I struggle with, is heat. And when I get even a little too hot, I don't want to do anything We've also been having an off/on smoke problem, because our forests are on fire. And my AC, is in a hole in the wall. So I can't exactly turn it on. So, I just have to overheat Tl;dr - almost halfway done my sketchbook - Summer has been kicking my ass, and has been making it hard to do, anything really - Smoke problem in my city, makes it pretty much impossible to use my AC (it's in a hole in the wall)
First of all shout out to that Arietta (is that how you spell it?) spread because something about it is so aesthetically pleasing I love it! (Which is saying a lot because all your art is awesome to me) Second of all Ik I’m just an internet stranger and other have already said it but I’m so proud of you for finishing this sketchbook and what you have expressed that represents for you :) Best wishes my man! I may not be the best at following internet people’s journeys constantly but everytime I’ve come back to this channel I’ve had an amazing time, so I hope you continue to have an amazing time with your art ❤
New subscriber alert!! Hellooo!! I’d actually love an in depth look at your pencil case (totally not gonna steal some stuff 😬) (and completely NOT addicted to stationary 😬😬😬) I love your art style it’s so cute!! I also like that you stuck to your sketchbook and completed it, I’ve only completed one of mine so far
Omg I haven't seen one of your videos in so long, this was a nice surprise to see on my youtube home page! Love your sketchbook tours and this one is no exception! :D
AAAAHHH!!! YOU ARE AMAZING! MY FAVORITE ARTIST HAS UPLOADED!!! you made my day... nope, my month. Thank you so much your art is amazing and I'm so excited to watch through this!
Oh my gosh, where can I get some of the grid sticky’s? I need some of those. I literally love your art sm btw😭🫶 always a good day when you post Quick edit: I’m glad you’re kitty is better now💕
i keep losing you're channel and every time i find it your voice scares me cause i forget i also have notifications on but i don't get a notify for a video's
I love your art so muchhh. And aslo how the hell did u fit all of those pens and materials in your pencil case??? I realized we both have the same pencil case and I can barely fit with half of the things u have fit in yours like man how???? I am curious😭
I love your art style and I also I have a question do you have a sketchbook for just random doodles when you feel unmotivated to draw in the main sketchbook book?
AKKSADKSA omg i dont know when in the hell i unsubbed from your channel cuz i dont remember that happening but if i did i was so wrong for that AHHH i rmbr thinking about how much i missed watching your videos so much and then this just pops up on my recommended??? idk why i never searched you up and just subscribed again but wtv its okay
AND YOUR NEW INTRO IS SO COOL??? it might not be new idk this is the first vid of yours that im watching in like 3 years lol also your voice sounds great :D
I wouldn't have understood that trauma if you had talked about it while it was happening to you but I absolutely do now. It sounds very similar to something I'm currently going through and it's really made it hard to trust the intention of the people I trust the most. I've found it so hard to put into words before now and I legit had to pause the video, replay that part and go fuck. The fact she still lives with people I speak to regularly, is a part of their lives, that I have to hear her voice sometimes when I'm on the phone to my friends just immediately rockets me back to getting that text and having her ignore me as I frantically tried to get a hold of her. I don't know how to fix it. I hate what she did to me but I miss her, I hope she's doing okay but I can't forgive her, I feel like I need an explanation for why she did what she did but I dont ever want to speak to her again, thinking about her hurts but I have nightmares about her constantly. It seems I can't really escape the damage she did even tho I don't have to live with her anymore. There's no closure, Every happy memory I have with her is tainted. I'm sorry that your trust was betrayed. You deserved better, I deserved better, no one deserves what we went through. I hope to have peace with it one day, and I hope the same for you too. Thank you for sharing, I hadn't intended on getting so personal but I guess you struck a chord with me, gave me something I have really needed to hear for the past 6 months. Thank you 🥺♥️ I'm glad you finished your sketchbook, but even if you hadn't, it wouldn't have been a failure, sometimes the best thing to do with a thing that brings you back to something awful is let it go.
i like to think this guy keeps a snorkel next to his nightstand.. just incase
Damn, that's a great idea
@@OliversAntics69remember to have goggles and flippers too
I completely understand tying a sketchbook with a traumatic experience and how therapeutic it can be to finish it and move on. I hope making this video helped you heal ❤
Hi oliver! I am an long-time fan of yours, not as old but still, I have been here for years and still, I know it wasn’t planned but I really appreciated and loved that this was posted on my birthday. I have been having so many losses recently, a family member that I loved a lot and even got my first job just to get out of it because of a health issue that was generated thanks to that job. So these months and the last moments of last years were the worst emotionally. However, thanks to you…I always been inspired.
I always loved seeing your sketchbook tours, they look so good and still personal. It was like looking at all the things you love and struggle.
That’s why I also last year decided to share my sketchbooks in Sketchbook tours. You inspired me, I always loved sharing my drawings sometimes (because I have a crossover ship that I am obsessed with and love so much that is mostly all my drawings now and thanks to them I got better at drawing and writing, they bring me so much joy) but always was a bit insecure but seeing your videos, made me want to do it myself.
And I did, they kinda make me feel free now. Me sharing all the stuff I love meanwhile I over-explain because this is me we talking about, but I loved that.
And is all thanks to you, even in my darkest hours in drawings, I always look up and rewatch some sketchbook tours of you to cheer me up. Your anatomy and clothes wisdom always inspires me and makes me feel so happy seeing another artist who sketches with pen beside my best friend and I!
Your drawings are amazing and on every sketchbook tour I can notice how much you have grown as an artist!!
This is already too long but I just want to say thank you, for showing the sketchbook you had the most struggle with because life is hard and we artists can portray a drawing or pages with really negative emotions, like seeing photos that bring us bitter memories, but is something we had to do, to vent or evade temporary the problem, and it always helps.
And thank you so much Oliver, for creating your channel. You’re amazing!
Such a sweet message, thanks so much ❤️❤️❤️
am i stupid for thinking this was actually the *third* time your room was leaking??
Nah, the first time it was leaking it was a two month ordeal, so it might as well have been three times
Your voice sounds so amazing! I almost dont recognize you sense I recently went through and binge watched a bunch of your really old content from when I first discovered you. Im so proud of you Oliver and the fact you managed to get this all out despite what happened is amazing. Keep up the amazing work Ollie and dont feel forced to post super consistently. The truest fans of us will always be here waiting for you.
I'm watching this again and I almost cried at the ending, because I struggled with filling sketchbooks myself, and like, at one point felt like I HAD to draw, even though I didn't want to. But I now can draw in it again because I like it, not because my brain says it is just another obligation. Thank you for sharing your story with us, and making people like me feel better about times like these.
Your voice sounds great dude!!
Thank you 🥺
the last bit really spoke to me. I dont know your exact situation, but I can relate to what you said.
I had to cut my older sister out of my life. We used to be inseparable, constantly on the wave length and just... really close. But she crossed a hard line for me. She hurt me and my husband deeply. And it's weird mourning the loss of that relationship while shes still here. Its weird mourning that relationship but looking back and realizing she had been hurting me for years and realizing it was better she got cut off. It's weird missing her, while glad I never have to deal with her again.
I'm still healing and still trying to move on.
And I may never full do so.
He's back! The man, the myth, the legend!
The omori spreads... ur so real for that it's so good. Was reading the steam reviews the other day bc I was bored and the best possible summary was a highly recommend review that said "Ruined my week when I first played it. Five stars" (or smth to that effect LOL)
ALSO WELCOME BACK OLIVER !!! hopefully your room stops leaking soon!!
For some reason I felt I weird fermiliar feeling when I watched your video today. I am in a similar mind set as you when it comes to my sketchbooks. And i tought that was all it was too it. But then you mentioned you were morning someone that was still alive. I felt like being hit by a truck when you said it, because I'm in a similar situation. I don't know what your story is, but me and my family was kicked out from our home by my mother last August. And for me, that's been a betrayal that I have had to cope with this year. So I feel for you, and I really hope things will get better and brighter for you, Oliver.
I'm sorry you had to go through that. I'm wishing you and your family the best ❤️
As a fellow Tras-masc artist, you have really inspired me and helped me through some of the worst parts of my life. Your videos were always something that got me through the day. I think I go back and watch your sketchbook playlist at least once a month whenever I start to hit an art slump, and they always help me through. You have all so given me the courage to really presue my passions and I really appreciate you for that even if I don't know you. I can't wait to see what you accomplish in the future and I can't wait for your next videos, however long they take.
Watching this on my break, although I do like sketchbook tours I like when you have fun in them and like the art within them!
21:35 I love final fantasy XIII, it’s so great finding one of the other 10 fans of it
Oliver. I'm proud of you for completing this. I can tell it was hard but I'm very proud that you were patient and kind with yourself and took your time. You definitely deserve the kindness and patience, whether from your fanbase, family, or yourself. Going back to your comfort zone and such can be very therapeutic, as it definitely can help.
Overall, I'm proud of you. I don't know how much this will/would mean, but it's true
ok many things to say so I'm numbering them so it seems less chaotic:
1. OMORI ART LET'S FKN GOOOOOO I FEEL LIKE I WAITED MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS MOMENT AND I'M IN TEARS THANK YOU SO MUCH 😭i freaking knew they'd be so lovely in your style wow
2. i need u to conjure a form of osmosis into my brain on how you create such iconic outfits. like the new sketchbook page with andy had me GAGGED no one has ever served cunt quite like this before good lord heavens almighty
3. i would love a video on your current go-to supplies if you're still down for it!! even if you just doodle idk your art is fire regardless so i'm here for the ride.
Lastly (4?) I'm sorry to hear about such an intense time you've been continuing to go through on many levels, but i'm glad to hear you're still getting through it somehow 💜take care of yourself dude, we wish you the best!
I haven't kept up with these videos in a few years - not because of any drop in quality, just because life changed and I forgot some things. I randomly remembered your channel this morning and came to see what the story was, and I am not disappointed at all. Your art is just as beautiful as I remember, and you have a wonderful presenting style. Seeing aurora for the first time in years felt like coming home
I'm a couple of days late here but I'm so glad to see another vid from you! I've been struggling with finding the motivation to draw, and for a long time your vids were what I'd put on to give me that motivation. This is probobly random but I love the idea of drawing manga panels when you don't know what to draw! I used to do that all the time when I was younger but with anime, I had the Soul Eater dvd and I would randomly hit pause and draw whatever was on the screen.
On a more serious note, the end of the vid hit me kinda hard. I won't say I relate exactly since I have no idea what happened to you, but I know what it's like to mourn someone even though they're still alive, I've been doing it for almost 10 years, although as of recently, he passed away and I still have no idea how to even process it... Of course it had to be just when things were starting to get better, everything came crashing down. I've been pretty much numb ever since, it didn't feel real seeing him in the hospital after everything that's happened
I've been waiting for this for so long. I'm glad that bad period of your life is over and I can't wait for that long video you're working on. I find your videos comforting and I always end up going back to them when I need something to draw too that won't make me feel negative
my face at 8:43 when you said it was all in posca pens (☉_☉) - genuinely insane I- this woman is too stunned to speak XD
that’s literally how i’m feeling. i can’t bring myself to finish a sketchbook and i feel like my art isn’t going anywhere and i suck at it and i might just give up at art because i have no motivation anymore to make good art and i don’t know how to make my own stuff look unique to me
It's okay to abandon a sketchbook! I had to for my own wellbeing, but sometimes the best thing to do is to walk away. Just be sure if you decide to finish a sketchbook it should be for you and not because you feel like you have to!
@@OliversAntics69thank you! :)
I just want to say, i dont often get the time or money to watch UA-cam videos whenever i want, so i often go for long periods of time without watching your videos, and one of my favourite things to notice is how much your voice has changed since i started watching your channel!❤
I'll be honest, I literally have no idea how people finish sketchbooks so quickly like you do - I have many sketchbooks, separated for different purposes according to the quality of the paper most of all, but like. My main sketchbook was bought in 2018 (yup, not a typo, Two Thousand Eighteen) and it's still far from done and I have no idea when I'll finish it, if I ever do. So I get the feeling of failure you mentioned because I feel that all the time with my weird relationship with sketchbooks. I love seeing your videos, as a trans person, OC creator, your stuff is pretty cool and so relatable! I'm happy you were able to finish it, and that it brought you some peace of mind and healing in the process.Take care, and keep up with your incredible work!
YOOOO YOUR VOICE IS GETTING SO DEEP AND MASCULINE!!!!! AHHH so happy for you! (I’m also on hormones and I’m at the stage where things are slowing down without much change anymore)
Anywhomst,, now that that’s out of the way; im truly sorry that you’ve been going through some tough times, I sincerely hope things start to look better for you soon!!! I also hope that art and sketchbooking will become pleasant for you once more, I may not understand your situation that much, but I do know how it feels to have a coping skill (such as art) become something that no longer feels good or has a different meaning than it once did. I really hope that you can work through whatever difficulties you’re having at the moment… best wishes and please feel better soon !!!!!!
This reminds me so much of your earlier sketchbook videos when you would sit on the floor 🥹 it’s crazy to think how much time has passed!!!! Amazing as always!
Dude! I haven’t watched your channel but in general, UA-cam, in a while and YOUR VOICE SOUNDS AMAZING!!! I’ve missed your art and I’m happy I’m back. Love ya dude ❤
i would even be interested in a sketchbook by you thats just doodles and unfinished stuff. im sure most people watching would agree. dont feel pressure to make really fancy colored spreads and compositions etc if you dont want to
I know everyone always says this on your videos but just watching old sketchbook tours- and especially this one really gives me that kick and inspiration to get back and running with my own sketchbook.Your videos remind me that not everything in a sketchbook has to be finished and perfect.. sometimes a ballpoint pen is all you need to enjoy creating. :) Thank you
naw, thanks for opening up dude! i so get u with the mourning part :( my family is kinda difficult and i lost my parent one year ago, so i know that time (as dumb as it sounds) can lighten up the pain and make it so it doesnt hurt as much as on "day1" if that makes sense? also: your voice sounds so calming, really nice :3 hope thats not too weird to say 😅
have a great day everyone who reads this
I’m so glad you finished this one! I love seeing your sketchbook tours! Honestly, don’t even feel bad for taking two years to finish one, I just finished my sketchbook I’ve had since 2019-2020 a few weeks ago, I was so glad to have it done and start something new. Be nicer to yourself!
Honestly a joy to watch a sketchbook tour of yours, your sketchbooks inspire me to remind myself i don't need to finish art all the time. Remember to take your time with sketchbooks but you did great! :D
At 12:30 when you had to skip like four pages has me dying
bro i havent come acros one of your vids in so long, i was in *awe* when i heard your voice :0
I haven't been able to find your channel in FOREVER and your voice was such a shock?? You sound amazing CONGRATULATIONS
26:15 I'm glad to hear Mo is doing ok now!
Your voice is so deep and cool!!! I'm also taking T and it's so nice hearing the difference from other fellow trans* artists! :D + freaking love the cover art and the first sticker page, especially the "bite me" and the viva Pinata sticker, childhood
absolutely LIVING for all the Fairy Tail art. nice to hear you again man and i hope you have a lot more fun with this next sketchbook!
Always remember to put yourself and your health first. It's ok to not finish 10 sketchbooks in one year, so don't worry too much. I Always love to see your art ❤
escaped from my mom with my life last year so. solidarity
I really wanna try the scrapbooky vibe for myself now
You have the MOST calming voice I've ever heard.
Thank you!
Hey, (I’m a silent watcher so I don’t comment often) I’m SUPER happy you are doing better. Love all your videos!!!
Thank you ❤️
I understand tying a sketchbook to terrible things in life because that happened with me and my own previous sketchbook, which is funny because one of the associated events happened after I'd thrown the damn thing against a wall and yelled 'FINALLY!' having finished it after something like... nearly eighteen months? and the actual sketchbook beginning to physically fall apart. I'm glad you were able to finish your sketchbook and move on from that association, and I hope that your next sketchbook turns out to be exactly what it needs to be! I also really hope that things do get so much better for you. I really do.
Can't wait to watch this!!
How cow I lost your account years ago I used to IDOL YOU!!! I remember your meet the artist video from like 2019 and was obsessed with your “All About” OC videos!! So glad I found you again, thank you for inspiring me at such a young age!
That is the best thumbnail I have ever seen omg
Also YAY SKETCHBOOK TIME
I've been debating making the sketchbook bigger so you really see his muscular arms 😩
I went through such a similar moment with a big personal project last year. Not even halfway through the project my year just got so emotionally difficult but I just couldn't get myself to give up. I had to prove to myself I could accomplish something. Your work is amazing and I am proud of you for pushing through.
Cool sketchbook and fairy tail supremacy for the win. I really hope the sketch book helped you with what you are going through.
You're one of my art idols, I love you so much and I hope you get all the love and healing you need
I used to watch your videos a year or two ago, and then you had posted that you'd prefer only an 18+ audience, I remember being sad, but respecting it, however just a few days ago, I turned 18 (May 16th), and got suggested one of your videos again!
I'm editing this comment after finishing the video, and just wanted to add, as someone who had to cut off her dad at 16, I understand the "Mourning someone alive" thing, I always feel weird commenting *to* other people about it, but also know how to helps me for some stranger to briefly say "you're not alone" even if the situations are different or even unspecified, so just- You're not alone, I suppose is what I wanted to add to my comment.
This reminds me of the sketchbook tour that I found Oliver on lmao the janky set-up on the floor
Yay, a new scetchbook tour!! I especially love the scrapbook pages. And the short visits of your pets. ^^
watching your sketchbook tours always fills me with motivation to pick up my own again (also 2 years in the making-) and draw in it. I'm also so amazed at the detail in your character designs and outfits, all the ruffles and lace etc. look gorgeous. I'm proud of you for completing this sketchbook man, hope you'll be able to move on and heal from what happened💜
I love Pokemon Legends Arceus 😭 kudos for drawing Volo. Your sketches look amazing
oliver ur voice sounds SO GOOD!! the beauty of transitioning!! and as someone who has been Going Through It recently (the mourning someone whos still alive bit hit me like a TRAIN. owch) i am wishing u the kindest in whatever comes to you next, and i hope ur next sketchbook is full of art that you loved creating :)
I'm usually not the one to comment on videos BUT! This video kind of help me heal too! I wasn't doing well today for a similar experience and man I'm happy to see we are all trying to heal and I hope you will feel better! Keep going man!
Your sketchbook videos have definitely changed how I thought about my own sketchbooks, and I mean this is a good way. Hope things get better for you soon!
I haven’t watched in too long. But oml!!! Olli YOUR VOICE!! You sound so good. Sorry for getting so excited but I’ve related to you for so long even before I knew why.
I would love a more in depth look at the materials you use!
Always happy to see you in my feed, and im glad you can finally put this sketchbook on the shelf and enjoy art again. I recently lost 2 people i thought were my best friends because of thier choices so i totally get the " mourning someone who is alive ". I wish you the best on your healing journey from this and hope you can move past it someday.
I'm really glad your back and getting better. It as always an amazing sketchbook tour. But I also don't want to make pressure and hope you take your time if you need to. I looking forward for new content and hope you have fun with it and it makes you feel happy💕.
Also I'm really glad that all your Animal companies are all doing good now😊.
"I never really took a look at what made them fun for me to begin with"
Bro really out here, calling me out
But. I'm currently struggling to, even work on my current sketchbook. And I'm like, stuck in a loop? Like
Last sketchbook only took a few months to finish (about half the amount of pages, but still) -> I feel like I should draw in it, every second day/every week, so I can do that again -> life is making that hard to do -> I feel discouraged -> I end up wanting to draw anyways -> last sketchbook only took a few months to finish
It's also getting warmer and sunnier...sunnyer? Out. Which, isn't good for me
I'm allergic to the sun/uv light. And can't handle heat/humidity, because of my autism (brain stuff, I guess). So I'm more tired, which makes it harder to work in my sketchbook. Which makes me feel even more like shit, because "oh, I still worked on my previous sketchbook when I was like this"
... Basically just, beating myself up. Because I started feeling like a sketchbook is something to just, finish. Instead of have fun in
Edit: MmmHhhmmmMmmgh
I, think I know how you feel. At least, kinda
Definitely not gonna go into details. But, a recent... Event, and a certain day, for a certain type of person. Are making me think of someone. That...I wish "wasn't here"
Ah, the good ol sketchbook anxiety cycle :')
But I hope you're able to find the fun in sketchbooks again ❤️
@@OliversAntics69 I'm working on it. Something I decided to do, is go through my old sketchbooks, and see what I liked drawing. 'Cause a big struggle I have, now, is "wtf do I draw?!" Or "oh, I can't draw that. I need to draw something else... But what?"
Edit: So um, while I was doing that. I decided to actually look at the...Back of the front cover (whatever it's called), of my current sketchbook, and saw "sketchbook hopes"
A lot of them, are stuff I, around early April, wanted to draw
I pretty much had a list of stuff to draw, when I don't know what to draw...And I forgot about it
I just love the way you color your drawings! Especially with posca! I wish I could color things like that too! Gorgeous work
Your voice makes me wanna cry so happy for you ❤❤🥺
Fun silly little tour gotta love them and gotta love Zola. Precious pup.
14:40 I can’t tell if what I’m feeling is attraction or gender envy but oml grusha calm down sir
obsessed with the fairy tail art!! i love fried so much :D
Rewatching this, because it's kinda a comfort video?
First, as of writing this, I'm almost halfway done my sketchbook. Which feels great, because I thought I wouldn't get that far. Until next year
Second, haven't really been drawing in it. Because summer is kicking my ass
I'm autistic, and one of the things I struggle with, is heat. And when I get even a little too hot, I don't want to do anything
We've also been having an off/on smoke problem, because our forests are on fire. And my AC, is in a hole in the wall. So I can't exactly turn it on. So, I just have to overheat
Tl;dr
- almost halfway done my sketchbook
- Summer has been kicking my ass, and has been making it hard to do, anything really
- Smoke problem in my city, makes it pretty much impossible to use my AC (it's in a hole in the wall)
Wow your art style changed so much you really improved even more in art .😄😄
Your art style is so Slice of Life coded to me, I love it sm 🤍
Omg!! I haven't watched you in a long time! Like 3 years!!! Your voice is so deep now, congratulations!!
Thank you!!! (and welcome back!)
Yes Sketchbook tour! I haven’t watched one of your videos in a while. I still really admire you and your art.
First of all shout out to that Arietta (is that how you spell it?) spread because something about it is so aesthetically pleasing I love it! (Which is saying a lot because all your art is awesome to me)
Second of all Ik I’m just an internet stranger and other have already said it but I’m so proud of you for finishing this sketchbook and what you have expressed that represents for you :)
Best wishes my man! I may not be the best at following internet people’s journeys constantly but everytime I’ve come back to this channel I’ve had an amazing time, so I hope you continue to have an amazing time with your art ❤
imagine finishing a sketchbook
OMG I HAVE A CHARACTER CALLED VESPERA TOO!!!!!! A+ name & she looks super cool
waaaaa welcome back!
Yayyy you uploaded!!!
New subscriber alert!! Hellooo!! I’d actually love an in depth look at your pencil case (totally not gonna steal some stuff 😬) (and completely NOT addicted to stationary 😬😬😬) I love your art style it’s so cute!!
I also like that you stuck to your sketchbook and completed it, I’ve only completed one of mine so far
Omg I haven't seen one of your videos in so long, this was a nice surprise to see on my youtube home page! Love your sketchbook tours and this one is no exception! :D
AAAAHHH!!! YOU ARE AMAZING! MY FAVORITE ARTIST HAS UPLOADED!!! you made my day... nope, my month. Thank you so much your art is amazing and I'm so excited to watch through this!
Oh my gosh, where can I get some of the grid sticky’s? I need some of those. I literally love your art sm btw😭🫶 always a good day when you post
Quick edit: I’m glad you’re kitty is better now💕
They're from stationary pal! They're memo pads so they don't have adheasive on them, but I really like them!
@@OliversAntics69 Alrightie, thank you so much!
I also started incorporating scrap book things into my sketchbooks! So excited to see you do more!!!
Omg I’m so happy that you are back!!! I missed you!😊
All of it is so good oh my gosh
Your art is amazing i love the outfit they look so cool
i keep losing you're channel and every time i find it your voice scares me cause i forget
i also have notifications on but i don't get a notify for a video's
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@@OliversAntics69 yes its only you
I love your art so muchhh. And aslo how the hell did u fit all of those pens and materials in your pencil case??? I realized we both have the same pencil case and I can barely fit with half of the things u have fit in yours like man how???? I am curious😭
Worth the wait, really love every single page❤!!!
Bros voice has me violently shaking so that i can become 18 and start T (in other words, its frickint awesome :0)
I’m so glad that your feeling batter and can’t wait for more art from you!! Cuz your art really inspires me to get better with markers!! （＾ω＾）
I love your art style and I also I have a question do you have a sketchbook for just random doodles when you feel unmotivated to draw in the main sketchbook book?
AKKSADKSA omg i dont know when in the hell i unsubbed from your channel cuz i dont remember that happening but if i did i was so wrong for that AHHH i rmbr thinking about how much i missed watching your videos so much and then this just pops up on my recommended??? idk why i never searched you up and just subscribed again but wtv its okay
AND YOUR NEW INTRO IS SO COOL??? it might not be new idk this is the first vid of yours that im watching in like 3 years lol
also your voice sounds great :D
i love this, oliver!!
Beautiful work as always 😭😭😭
Did you know that Ohuhu made a sketchbook that doesn't bleed thru at all
WE ARE SO BACK
Omg the most important notification: a new olivers antics video. My work can wait :))
OMG I MISSED UR VIDS SM😭😭😭🥺
YAY
I wouldn't have understood that trauma if you had talked about it while it was happening to you but I absolutely do now.
It sounds very similar to something I'm currently going through and it's really made it hard to trust the intention of the people I trust the most. I've found it so hard to put into words before now and I legit had to pause the video, replay that part and go fuck.
The fact she still lives with people I speak to regularly, is a part of their lives, that I have to hear her voice sometimes when I'm on the phone to my friends just immediately rockets me back to getting that text and having her ignore me as I frantically tried to get a hold of her.
I don't know how to fix it. I hate what she did to me but I miss her, I hope she's doing okay but I can't forgive her, I feel like I need an explanation for why she did what she did but I dont ever want to speak to her again, thinking about her hurts but I have nightmares about her constantly. It seems I can't really escape the damage she did even tho I don't have to live with her anymore. There's no closure, Every happy memory I have with her is tainted.
I'm sorry that your trust was betrayed. You deserved better, I deserved better, no one deserves what we went through. I hope to have peace with it one day, and I hope the same for you too. Thank you for sharing, I hadn't intended on getting so personal but I guess you struck a chord with me, gave me something I have really needed to hear for the past 6 months. Thank you 🥺♥️
I'm glad you finished your sketchbook, but even if you hadn't, it wouldn't have been a failure, sometimes the best thing to do with a thing that brings you back to something awful is let it go.
Thank you so much for your kind words
I am too broke for patron and now I am sad 😔 it’s giving I am poor anyway amazing ❤